Nowalltheturnofallmylifehunguponthatmoment。
ButasIsattheremunchingacrustofBettyMuxworthy’ssweetbrownbread,andabitofcoldbaconalongwithit,andkickingmylittleredheelsagainstthedryloamtokeepthemwarm,Iknewnomorethanfishundertheforkwhatwasgoingonoverme。ItseemedasadbusinesstogobacknowandtellAnnietherewerenoloaches;andyetitwasafrightfulthing,knowingwhatIdidofit,toventure,wherenogrownmandurst,uptheBagworthywater。AndpleasetorecollectthatIwasonlyaboyinthosedays,fondenoughofanythingnew,butnotlikeamantomeetit。
However,asIatemoreandmore,myspiritarosewithinme,andIthoughtofwhatmyfatherhadbeen,andhowhehadtoldmeahundredtimesnevertobeacoward。
AndthenIgrewwarm,andmylittleheartwasashamedofitspit-a-patting,andIsaidtomyself,’nowiffatherlooks,heshallseethatIobeyhim。’SoIputthebagroundmybackagain,andbuckledmybreechesfarupfromtheknee,expectingdeeperwater,andcrossingtheLynn,wentstoutlyupunderthebrancheswhichhangsodarkontheBagworthyriver。
Ifounditstronglyover-woven,turned,andtornwiththicket-wood,butnotsorockyastheLynn,andmoreinclinedtogoevenly。Therewerebarsofchafedstakesstretchedfromthesideshalf-wayacrossthecurrent,andlightoutridersofpithyweed,andbladesoflastyear’swater-grasstremblinginthequietplaces,likeaspider’sthreads,onthetransparentstillness,withatintofolivemovingit。Andhereandtherethesuncamein,asifhislightwassifted,makingdanceuponthewaves,andshadowingthepebbles。
Here,althoughaffrightedoftenbythedeep,darkplaces,andfeelingthateverystepItookmightneverbetakenbackward,onthewholeIhadverycomelysportofloaches,trout,andminnows,forkingsome,andticklingsome,anddrivingotherstoshallownooks,whenceIcouldbailthemashore。Now,ifyouhaveeverbeenfishing,youwillnotwonderthatIwasledon,forgettingallaboutdanger,andtakingnoheedofthetime,butshoutinginachildishwaywheneverIcaughta’whacker’aswecalledabigfishatTiverton;andinsooththerewereveryfineloacheshere,havingmorelieandharbouragethanintheroughLynnstream,thoughnotquitesolargeasintheLowman,whereI
haveeventakenthemtotheweightofhalfapound。
Butinanswertoallmyshoutsthereneverwasanysoundatall,exceptofarockyecho,orascaredbirdhustlingaway,orthesuddendiveofawater-vole;andtheplacegrewthickerandthicker,andthecovertgrewdarkeraboveme,untilIthoughtthatthefishesmighthavegoodchanceofeatingme,insteadofmyeatingthefishes。
Fornowthedaywasfallingfastbehindthebrownofthehill-tops,andthetrees,beingvoidofleafandhard,seemedgiantsreadytobeatme。Andeverymomentastheskywasclearingupforawhitefrost,thecoldofthewatergotworseandworse,untilIwasfittocrywithit。Andso,inasorryplight,Icametoanopeninginthebushes,whereagreatblackpoollayinfrontofme,whitenedwithsnowasIthoughtatthesides,tillIsawitwasonlyfoam-froth。
Now,thoughIcouldswimwithgreateaseandcomfort,andfearednodepthofwater,whenIcouldfairlycometoit,yetIhadnodesiretogooverheadandearsintothisgreatpool,beingsocrampedandweary,andcoldenoughinallconscience,thoughwetonlyuptothemiddle,notcountingmyarmsandshoulders。Andthelookofthisblackpitwasenoughtostoponefromdivingintoit,evenonahotsummer’sdaywithsunshineonthewater;Imean,ifthesunevershonethere。Asitwas,Ishudderedanddrewback;notaloneatthepoolitselfandtheblackairtherewasaboutit,butalsoatthewhirlingmanner,andwispingofwhitethreadsuponitinstripycirclesroundandround;andthecentrestillasjet。
ButsoonIsawthereasonofthestiranddepthofthatgreatpit,aswellasoftheroaringsoundwhichlonghadmademewonder。Forskirtingroundoneside,withverylittlecomfort,becausetherockswerehighandsteep,andtheledgeatthefootsonarrow,Icametoasuddensightandmarvel,suchasIneverdreamedof。
For,lo!Istoodatthefootofalongpaleslideofwater,comingsmoothlytome,withoutanybreakorhindrance,forahundredyardsormore,andfencedoneithersidewithcliff,sheer,andstraight,andshining。Thewaterneitherrannorfell,norleapedwithanyspouting,butmadeoneevenslopeofit,asifithadbeencombedorplaned,andlookinglikeaplankofdeallaiddownadeepblackstaircase。However,therewasnoside-rail,noranyplacetowalkupon,onlythechannelafathomwide,andtheperpendicularwallsofcragshuttingouttheevening。
Thelookofthisplacehadasadeffect,scaringmeverygreatly,andmakingmefeelthatIwouldgivesomethingonlytobeathomeagain,withAnniecookingmysupper,andourdogWatchsniffingupward。Butnothingwouldcomeofwishing;thatIhadlongfoundout;anditonlymadeonethelessinclinedtoworkwithoutwhitefeather。SoIlaidthecasebeforemeinalittlecouncil;notforlossoftime,butonlythatI
wantedrest,andtoseethingstruly。
ThensaysItomyself——’JohnRidd,thesetrees,andpools,andlonesomerocks,andsettingofthesunlightaremakingagruesomecowardofthee。ShallIgobacktomymotherso,andbecalledherfearlessboy?’
Nevertheless,Iamfreetoownthatitwasnotanyfinesenseofshamewhichsettledmydecision;forindeedtherewasnearlyasmuchofdangeringoingbackasingoingon,andperhapsevenmoreoflabour,thejourneybeingsoroundabout。Butthatwhichsavedmefromturningbackwasastrangeinquisitivedesire,veryunbecominginaboyoflittleyears;inaword,Iwouldriskagreatdealtoknowwhatmadethewatercomedownlikethat,andwhattherewasatthetopofit。
Therefore,seeinghardstrifebeforeme,Igirtupmybreechesanew,witheachbuckleoneholetighter,forthesoddenstrapswerestretchingandgiving,andmayhapmylegsweregrownsmallerfromthecoldnessofit。ThenIbestowedmyfisharoundmyneckmoretightly,andnotstoppingtolookmuch,forfearoffear,crawledalongovertheforkofrocks,wherethewaterhadscoopedthestoneout,andshunningthustheledgefromwhenceitroselikethemaneofawhitehorseintothebroadblackpool,softlyIletmyfeetintothedipandrushofthetorrent。
AndhereIhadreckonedwithoutmyhost,althoughasI
thoughtsoclever;anditwasmuchbutthatIwentdownintothegreatblackpool,andhadneverbeenheardofmore;andthismusthavebeentheendofme,exceptformytrustyloach-fork。Forthegreenwavecamedownlikegreatbottlesuponme,andmylegsweregoneoffinamoment,andIhadnottimetocryoutwithwonder,onlytothinkofmymotherandAnnie,andknockmyheadverysadly,whichmadeitgoroundsothatbrainswerenogood,evenifIhadany。Butallinamoment,beforeIknewaught,exceptthatImustdieoutoftheway,witharoarofwateruponme,myfork,praiseGodstuckfastintherock,andIwasborneupuponit。Ifeltnothingexceptthatherewasanothermattertobeginupon;anditmightbeworthwhile,oragainitmightnot,tohaveanotherfightforit。Butpresentlythedashofthewateruponmyfacerevivedme,andmymindgrewusedtotheroarofit,andmeseemedIhadbeenworseoffthanthis,whenfirstflungintotheLowman。
ThereforeIgatheredmylegsbackslowly,asiftheywerefishtobelanded,stoppingwheneverthewaterflewtoostronglyoffmyshin-bones,andcomingalongwithoutstickingouttoletthewavegetholdofme。
AndinthismannerIwonafooting,leaningwellforwardlikeadraught-horse,andbalancingonmystrengthasitwere,withtheashenstakesetbehindme。ThenIsaidtomyself,’JohnRidd,thesooneryougetyourselfoutbythewayyoucame,thebetteritwillbeforyou。’Buttomygreatdismayandaffright,Isawthatnochoicewasleftmenow,exceptthatI
mustclimbsomehowupthathillofwater,orelsebewasheddownintothepoolandwhirlaroundittillitdrownedme。FortherewasnochanceoffetchingbackbythewayIhadgonedownintoit,andfurtherupwasahedgeofrockoneithersideofthewaterway,risingahundredyardsinheight,andforallIcouldtellfivehundred,andnoplacetosetafootin。
HavingsaidtheLord’sPrayerwhichwasallIknew,andmadeaverybadjobofit,Igraspedthegoodloach-stickunderaknot,andsteadiedmewithmylefthand,andsowithasighofdespairbeganmycourseupthefearfultorrent-way。Tomeitseemedhalfamileatleastofslidingwateraboveme,butintruthitwaslittlemorethanafurlong,asIcametoknowafterwards。Itwouldhavebeenahardascentevenwithouttheslipperyslimeandtheforceoftheriveroverit,andIhadscantyhopeindeedofeverwinningthesummit。Nevertheless,myterrorleftme,nowIwasfacetofacewithit,andhadtomeettheworst;andI
setmyselftodomybestwithavigourandsortofhardnesswhichdidnotthensurpriseme,buthavedonesoeversince。
Thewaterwasonlysixinchesdeep,orfromthattonineattheutmost,andallthewayupIcouldseemyfeetlookingwhiteinthegloomofthehollow,andhereandthereIfoundresting-place,toholdonbythecliffandpantawhile。AndgraduallyasIwenton,awarmthofcouragebreathedinme,tothinkthatperhapsnootherhaddaredtotrythatpassbeforeme,andtowonderwhatmotherwouldsaytoit。Andthencamethoughtofmyfatheralso,andthepainofmyfeetabated。
HowIwentcarefully,stepbystep,keepingmyarmsinfrontofme,andneverdaringtostraightenmykneesismorethanIcantellclearly,orevenlikenowtothinkof,becauseitmakesmedreamofit。OnlyImustacknowledgethatthegreatestdangerofallwasjustwhereIsawnojeopardy,butranupapatchofblackooze-weedinaveryboastfulmanner,beingnownotfarfromthesummit。
HereIfellverypiteously,andwasliketohavebrokenmyknee-cap,andthetorrentgotholdofmyotherlegwhileIwasindulgingthebruisedone。Andthenavileknottingofcrampdisabledme,andforawhileIcouldonlyroar,tillmymouthwasfullofwater,andallofmybodywassliding。Butthefrightofthatbroughtmetoagain,andmyelbowcaughtinarock-hole;andsoI
managedtostartagain,withthehelpofmorehumility。
Nowbeinginthemostdreadfulfright,becauseIwassonearthetop,andhopewasbeatingwithinme,I
labouredhardwithbothlegsandarms,goinglikeamillandgrunting。Atlasttherushofforkedwater,wherefirstitcameoverthelipsofthefall,drovemeintothemiddle,andIstuckawhilewithmytoe-ballsontheslipperylinksofthepop-weed,andtheworldwasgreenandgliddery,andIdurstnotlookbehindme。
ThenImadeupmymindtodieatlast;forsomylegswouldachenomore,andmybreathnotpainmyheartso;
onlyitdidseemsuchapityafterfightingsolongtogivein,andthelightwascominguponme,andagainI
foughttowardsit;thensuddenlyIfeltfreshair,andfellintoitheadlong。
WhenIcametomyselfagain,myhandswerefullofyounggrassandmould,andalittlegirlkneelingatmysidewasrubbingmyforeheadtenderlywithadock-leafandahandkerchief。
’Oh,Iamsoglad,’shewhisperedsoftly,asIopenedmyeyesandlookedather;’nowyouwilltrytobebetter,won’tyou?’
Ihadneverheardsosweetasoundascamefrombetweenherbrightredlips,whilethereshekneltandgazedatme;neitherhadIeverseenanythingsobeautifulasthelargedarkeyesintentuponme,fullofpityandwonder。Andthen,mynaturebeingslow,andperhaps,forthatmatter,heavy,Iwanderedwithmyhazyeyesdowntheblackshowerofherhair,astomyjadedgazeitseemed;andwhereitfellontheturf,amongitlikeanearlystarwasthefirstprimroseoftheseason。AndsincethatdayIthinkofher,throughalltheroughstormsofmylife,whenIseeanearlyprimrose。Perhapsshelikedmycountenance,andindeedIknowshedid,becauseshesaidsoafterwards;
althoughatthetimeshewastooyoungtoknowwhatmadehertaketome。NotthatIhadanybeauty,oreverpretendedtohaveany,onlyasolidhealthyface,whichmanygirlshavelaughedat。
ThereuponIsateupright,withmylittletridentstillinonehand,andwasmuchafraidtospeaktoher,beingconsciousofmycountry-brogue,lestsheshouldceasetolikeme。Butsheclappedherhands,andmadeatriflingdancearoundmyback,andcametomeontheotherside,asifIwereagreatplaything。
’Whatisyourname?’shesaid,asifshehadeveryrighttoaskme;’andhowdidyoucomehere,andwhatarethesewetthingsinthisgreatbag?’
’Youhadbetterletthemalone,’Isaid;’theyareloachesformymother。ButIwillgiveyousome,ifyoulike。’
’Dearme,howmuchyouthinkofthem!Why,theyareonlyfish。Buthowyourfeetarebleeding!oh,Imusttiethemupforyou。Andnoshoesnorstockings!Isyourmotherverypoor,poorboy?’
’No,’Isaid,beingvexedatthis;’wearerichenoughtobuyallthisgreatmeadow,ifwechose;andheremyshoesandstockingsbe。’
’Why,theyarequiteaswetasyourfeet;andIcannotbeartoseeyourfeet。Oh,pleasetoletmemanagethem;Iwilldoitverysoftly。’
’Oh,Idon’tthinkmuchofthat,’Ireplied;’Ishallputsomegoose-greasetothem。Buthowyouarelookingatme!Ineversawanyonelikeyoubefore。MynameisJohnRidd。Whatisyourname?’
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