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第9章

  Nowalltheturnofallmylifehunguponthatmoment。
  ButasIsattheremunchingacrustofBettyMuxworthy’ssweetbrownbread,andabitofcoldbaconalongwithit,andkickingmylittleredheelsagainstthedryloamtokeepthemwarm,Iknewnomorethanfishundertheforkwhatwasgoingonoverme。ItseemedasadbusinesstogobacknowandtellAnnietherewerenoloaches;andyetitwasafrightfulthing,knowingwhatIdidofit,toventure,wherenogrownmandurst,uptheBagworthywater。AndpleasetorecollectthatIwasonlyaboyinthosedays,fondenoughofanythingnew,butnotlikeamantomeetit。
  However,asIatemoreandmore,myspiritarosewithinme,andIthoughtofwhatmyfatherhadbeen,andhowhehadtoldmeahundredtimesnevertobeacoward。
  AndthenIgrewwarm,andmylittleheartwasashamedofitspit-a-patting,andIsaidtomyself,’nowiffatherlooks,heshallseethatIobeyhim。’SoIputthebagroundmybackagain,andbuckledmybreechesfarupfromtheknee,expectingdeeperwater,andcrossingtheLynn,wentstoutlyupunderthebrancheswhichhangsodarkontheBagworthyriver。
  Ifounditstronglyover-woven,turned,andtornwiththicket-wood,butnotsorockyastheLynn,andmoreinclinedtogoevenly。Therewerebarsofchafedstakesstretchedfromthesideshalf-wayacrossthecurrent,andlightoutridersofpithyweed,andbladesoflastyear’swater-grasstremblinginthequietplaces,likeaspider’sthreads,onthetransparentstillness,withatintofolivemovingit。Andhereandtherethesuncamein,asifhislightwassifted,makingdanceuponthewaves,andshadowingthepebbles。
  Here,althoughaffrightedoftenbythedeep,darkplaces,andfeelingthateverystepItookmightneverbetakenbackward,onthewholeIhadverycomelysportofloaches,trout,andminnows,forkingsome,andticklingsome,anddrivingotherstoshallownooks,whenceIcouldbailthemashore。Now,ifyouhaveeverbeenfishing,youwillnotwonderthatIwasledon,forgettingallaboutdanger,andtakingnoheedofthetime,butshoutinginachildishwaywheneverIcaughta’whacker’aswecalledabigfishatTiverton;andinsooththerewereveryfineloacheshere,havingmorelieandharbouragethanintheroughLynnstream,thoughnotquitesolargeasintheLowman,whereI
  haveeventakenthemtotheweightofhalfapound。
  Butinanswertoallmyshoutsthereneverwasanysoundatall,exceptofarockyecho,orascaredbirdhustlingaway,orthesuddendiveofawater-vole;andtheplacegrewthickerandthicker,andthecovertgrewdarkeraboveme,untilIthoughtthatthefishesmighthavegoodchanceofeatingme,insteadofmyeatingthefishes。
  Fornowthedaywasfallingfastbehindthebrownofthehill-tops,andthetrees,beingvoidofleafandhard,seemedgiantsreadytobeatme。Andeverymomentastheskywasclearingupforawhitefrost,thecoldofthewatergotworseandworse,untilIwasfittocrywithit。Andso,inasorryplight,Icametoanopeninginthebushes,whereagreatblackpoollayinfrontofme,whitenedwithsnowasIthoughtatthesides,tillIsawitwasonlyfoam-froth。
  Now,thoughIcouldswimwithgreateaseandcomfort,andfearednodepthofwater,whenIcouldfairlycometoit,yetIhadnodesiretogooverheadandearsintothisgreatpool,beingsocrampedandweary,andcoldenoughinallconscience,thoughwetonlyuptothemiddle,notcountingmyarmsandshoulders。Andthelookofthisblackpitwasenoughtostoponefromdivingintoit,evenonahotsummer’sdaywithsunshineonthewater;Imean,ifthesunevershonethere。Asitwas,Ishudderedanddrewback;notaloneatthepoolitselfandtheblackairtherewasaboutit,butalsoatthewhirlingmanner,andwispingofwhitethreadsuponitinstripycirclesroundandround;andthecentrestillasjet。
  ButsoonIsawthereasonofthestiranddepthofthatgreatpit,aswellasoftheroaringsoundwhichlonghadmademewonder。Forskirtingroundoneside,withverylittlecomfort,becausetherockswerehighandsteep,andtheledgeatthefootsonarrow,Icametoasuddensightandmarvel,suchasIneverdreamedof。
  For,lo!Istoodatthefootofalongpaleslideofwater,comingsmoothlytome,withoutanybreakorhindrance,forahundredyardsormore,andfencedoneithersidewithcliff,sheer,andstraight,andshining。Thewaterneitherrannorfell,norleapedwithanyspouting,butmadeoneevenslopeofit,asifithadbeencombedorplaned,andlookinglikeaplankofdeallaiddownadeepblackstaircase。However,therewasnoside-rail,noranyplacetowalkupon,onlythechannelafathomwide,andtheperpendicularwallsofcragshuttingouttheevening。
  Thelookofthisplacehadasadeffect,scaringmeverygreatly,andmakingmefeelthatIwouldgivesomethingonlytobeathomeagain,withAnniecookingmysupper,andourdogWatchsniffingupward。Butnothingwouldcomeofwishing;thatIhadlongfoundout;anditonlymadeonethelessinclinedtoworkwithoutwhitefeather。SoIlaidthecasebeforemeinalittlecouncil;notforlossoftime,butonlythatI
  wantedrest,andtoseethingstruly。
  ThensaysItomyself——’JohnRidd,thesetrees,andpools,andlonesomerocks,andsettingofthesunlightaremakingagruesomecowardofthee。ShallIgobacktomymotherso,andbecalledherfearlessboy?’
  Nevertheless,Iamfreetoownthatitwasnotanyfinesenseofshamewhichsettledmydecision;forindeedtherewasnearlyasmuchofdangeringoingbackasingoingon,andperhapsevenmoreoflabour,thejourneybeingsoroundabout。Butthatwhichsavedmefromturningbackwasastrangeinquisitivedesire,veryunbecominginaboyoflittleyears;inaword,Iwouldriskagreatdealtoknowwhatmadethewatercomedownlikethat,andwhattherewasatthetopofit。
  Therefore,seeinghardstrifebeforeme,Igirtupmybreechesanew,witheachbuckleoneholetighter,forthesoddenstrapswerestretchingandgiving,andmayhapmylegsweregrownsmallerfromthecoldnessofit。ThenIbestowedmyfisharoundmyneckmoretightly,andnotstoppingtolookmuch,forfearoffear,crawledalongovertheforkofrocks,wherethewaterhadscoopedthestoneout,andshunningthustheledgefromwhenceitroselikethemaneofawhitehorseintothebroadblackpool,softlyIletmyfeetintothedipandrushofthetorrent。
  AndhereIhadreckonedwithoutmyhost,althoughasI
  thoughtsoclever;anditwasmuchbutthatIwentdownintothegreatblackpool,andhadneverbeenheardofmore;andthismusthavebeentheendofme,exceptformytrustyloach-fork。Forthegreenwavecamedownlikegreatbottlesuponme,andmylegsweregoneoffinamoment,andIhadnottimetocryoutwithwonder,onlytothinkofmymotherandAnnie,andknockmyheadverysadly,whichmadeitgoroundsothatbrainswerenogood,evenifIhadany。Butallinamoment,beforeIknewaught,exceptthatImustdieoutoftheway,witharoarofwateruponme,myfork,praiseGodstuckfastintherock,andIwasborneupuponit。Ifeltnothingexceptthatherewasanothermattertobeginupon;anditmightbeworthwhile,oragainitmightnot,tohaveanotherfightforit。Butpresentlythedashofthewateruponmyfacerevivedme,andmymindgrewusedtotheroarofit,andmeseemedIhadbeenworseoffthanthis,whenfirstflungintotheLowman。
  ThereforeIgatheredmylegsbackslowly,asiftheywerefishtobelanded,stoppingwheneverthewaterflewtoostronglyoffmyshin-bones,andcomingalongwithoutstickingouttoletthewavegetholdofme。
  AndinthismannerIwonafooting,leaningwellforwardlikeadraught-horse,andbalancingonmystrengthasitwere,withtheashenstakesetbehindme。ThenIsaidtomyself,’JohnRidd,thesooneryougetyourselfoutbythewayyoucame,thebetteritwillbeforyou。’Buttomygreatdismayandaffright,Isawthatnochoicewasleftmenow,exceptthatI
  mustclimbsomehowupthathillofwater,orelsebewasheddownintothepoolandwhirlaroundittillitdrownedme。FortherewasnochanceoffetchingbackbythewayIhadgonedownintoit,andfurtherupwasahedgeofrockoneithersideofthewaterway,risingahundredyardsinheight,andforallIcouldtellfivehundred,andnoplacetosetafootin。
  HavingsaidtheLord’sPrayerwhichwasallIknew,andmadeaverybadjobofit,Igraspedthegoodloach-stickunderaknot,andsteadiedmewithmylefthand,andsowithasighofdespairbeganmycourseupthefearfultorrent-way。Tomeitseemedhalfamileatleastofslidingwateraboveme,butintruthitwaslittlemorethanafurlong,asIcametoknowafterwards。Itwouldhavebeenahardascentevenwithouttheslipperyslimeandtheforceoftheriveroverit,andIhadscantyhopeindeedofeverwinningthesummit。Nevertheless,myterrorleftme,nowIwasfacetofacewithit,andhadtomeettheworst;andI
  setmyselftodomybestwithavigourandsortofhardnesswhichdidnotthensurpriseme,buthavedonesoeversince。
  Thewaterwasonlysixinchesdeep,orfromthattonineattheutmost,andallthewayupIcouldseemyfeetlookingwhiteinthegloomofthehollow,andhereandthereIfoundresting-place,toholdonbythecliffandpantawhile。AndgraduallyasIwenton,awarmthofcouragebreathedinme,tothinkthatperhapsnootherhaddaredtotrythatpassbeforeme,andtowonderwhatmotherwouldsaytoit。Andthencamethoughtofmyfatheralso,andthepainofmyfeetabated。
  HowIwentcarefully,stepbystep,keepingmyarmsinfrontofme,andneverdaringtostraightenmykneesismorethanIcantellclearly,orevenlikenowtothinkof,becauseitmakesmedreamofit。OnlyImustacknowledgethatthegreatestdangerofallwasjustwhereIsawnojeopardy,butranupapatchofblackooze-weedinaveryboastfulmanner,beingnownotfarfromthesummit。
  HereIfellverypiteously,andwasliketohavebrokenmyknee-cap,andthetorrentgotholdofmyotherlegwhileIwasindulgingthebruisedone。Andthenavileknottingofcrampdisabledme,andforawhileIcouldonlyroar,tillmymouthwasfullofwater,andallofmybodywassliding。Butthefrightofthatbroughtmetoagain,andmyelbowcaughtinarock-hole;andsoI
  managedtostartagain,withthehelpofmorehumility。
  Nowbeinginthemostdreadfulfright,becauseIwassonearthetop,andhopewasbeatingwithinme,I
  labouredhardwithbothlegsandarms,goinglikeamillandgrunting。Atlasttherushofforkedwater,wherefirstitcameoverthelipsofthefall,drovemeintothemiddle,andIstuckawhilewithmytoe-ballsontheslipperylinksofthepop-weed,andtheworldwasgreenandgliddery,andIdurstnotlookbehindme。
  ThenImadeupmymindtodieatlast;forsomylegswouldachenomore,andmybreathnotpainmyheartso;
  onlyitdidseemsuchapityafterfightingsolongtogivein,andthelightwascominguponme,andagainI
  foughttowardsit;thensuddenlyIfeltfreshair,andfellintoitheadlong。
  WhenIcametomyselfagain,myhandswerefullofyounggrassandmould,andalittlegirlkneelingatmysidewasrubbingmyforeheadtenderlywithadock-leafandahandkerchief。
  ’Oh,Iamsoglad,’shewhisperedsoftly,asIopenedmyeyesandlookedather;’nowyouwilltrytobebetter,won’tyou?’
  Ihadneverheardsosweetasoundascamefrombetweenherbrightredlips,whilethereshekneltandgazedatme;neitherhadIeverseenanythingsobeautifulasthelargedarkeyesintentuponme,fullofpityandwonder。Andthen,mynaturebeingslow,andperhaps,forthatmatter,heavy,Iwanderedwithmyhazyeyesdowntheblackshowerofherhair,astomyjadedgazeitseemed;andwhereitfellontheturf,amongitlikeanearlystarwasthefirstprimroseoftheseason。AndsincethatdayIthinkofher,throughalltheroughstormsofmylife,whenIseeanearlyprimrose。Perhapsshelikedmycountenance,andindeedIknowshedid,becauseshesaidsoafterwards;
  althoughatthetimeshewastooyoungtoknowwhatmadehertaketome。NotthatIhadanybeauty,oreverpretendedtohaveany,onlyasolidhealthyface,whichmanygirlshavelaughedat。
  ThereuponIsateupright,withmylittletridentstillinonehand,andwasmuchafraidtospeaktoher,beingconsciousofmycountry-brogue,lestsheshouldceasetolikeme。Butsheclappedherhands,andmadeatriflingdancearoundmyback,andcametomeontheotherside,asifIwereagreatplaything。
  ’Whatisyourname?’shesaid,asifshehadeveryrighttoaskme;’andhowdidyoucomehere,andwhatarethesewetthingsinthisgreatbag?’
  ’Youhadbetterletthemalone,’Isaid;’theyareloachesformymother。ButIwillgiveyousome,ifyoulike。’
  ’Dearme,howmuchyouthinkofthem!Why,theyareonlyfish。Buthowyourfeetarebleeding!oh,Imusttiethemupforyou。Andnoshoesnorstockings!Isyourmotherverypoor,poorboy?’
  ’No,’Isaid,beingvexedatthis;’wearerichenoughtobuyallthisgreatmeadow,ifwechose;andheremyshoesandstockingsbe。’
  ’Why,theyarequiteaswetasyourfeet;andIcannotbeartoseeyourfeet。Oh,pleasetoletmemanagethem;Iwilldoitverysoftly。’
  ’Oh,Idon’tthinkmuchofthat,’Ireplied;’Ishallputsomegoose-greasetothem。Buthowyouarelookingatme!Ineversawanyonelikeyoubefore。MynameisJohnRidd。Whatisyourname?’