“Iwokeup,Isay,becausethegirlhadstoppedfanningme。Iwasnotsurprisedtofindmyselfthereoranythingofthatsort,youunderstand。IdidnotfeelIhadfallenintoitsuddenly。Isimplytookitupatthatpoint。WhatevermemoryIhadofTHISlife,thisnineteenth-centurylife,fadedasIwoke,vanishedlikeadream。Iknewallaboutmyself,knewthatmynamewasnolongerCooperbutHedon,andallaboutmypositionintheworld。I’veforgottenalotsinceIwoke——there’sawantofconnection——butitwasallquiteclearandmatteroffactthen。“
Hehesitatedagain,grippingthewindowstrap,puttinghisfaceforwardandlookingupatmeappealingly。
“Thisseemsboshtoyou?“
“No,no!“Icried。“Goon。Tellmewhatthisloggiawaslike。“
“Itwasnotreallyaloggia——Idon’tknowwhattocallit。Itfacedsouth。Itwassmall。Itwasallinshadowexceptthesemicircleabovethebalconythatshowedtheskyandseaandthecornerwherethegirlstood。Iwasonacouch——itwasametalcouchwithlightstripedcushions-andthegirlwasleaningoverthebalconywithherbacktome。Thelightofthesunrisefellonherearandcheek。
Herprettywhiteneckandthelittlecurlsthatnestledthere,andherwhiteshoulderwereinthesun,andallthegraceofherbodywasinthecoolblueshadow。Shewasdressed——howcanIdescribeit?Itwaseasyandflowing。Andaltogetherthereshestood,sothatitcametomehowbeautifulanddesirableshewas,asthoughIhadneverseenherbefore。AndwhenatlastIsighedandraisedmyselfuponmyarmsheturnedherfacetome——“
Hestopped。
“Ihavelivedthree-and-fiftyyearsinthisworld。Ihavehadmother,sisters,friends,wife,anddaughters——alltheirfaces,theplayoftheirfaces,Iknow。Butthefaceofthisgirl——itismuchmorerealtome。IcanbringitbackintomemorysothatIseeitagain——Icoulddrawitorpaintit。Andafterall——“
Hestopped——butIsaidnothing。
“Thefaceofadream——thefaceofadream。Shewasbeautiful。Notthatbeautywhichisterrible,cold,andworshipful,likethebeautyofasaint;northatbeautythatstirsfiercepassions;butasortofradiation,sweetlipsthatsoftenedintosmiles,andgravegreyeyes。Andshemovedgracefully,sheseemedtohavepartwithallpleasantandgraciousthings——“
Hestopped,andhisfacewasdowncastandhidden。Thenhelookedupatmeandwenton,makingnofurtherattempttodisguisehisabsolutebeliefintherealityofhisstory。
“Yousee,Ihadthrownupmyplansandambitions,thrownupallIhadeverworkedforordesiredforhersake。Ihadbeenamastermanawaythereinthenorth,withinfluenceandpropertyandagreatreputation,butnoneofithadseemedworthhavingbesideher。
Ihadcometotheplace,thiscityofsunnypleasures,withher,andleftallthosethingstowreckandruinjusttosavearemnantatleastofmylife。WhileIhadbeeninlovewithherbeforeIknewthatshehadanycareforme,beforeIhadimaginedthatshewoulddare——thatweshoulddare,allmylifehadseemedvainandhollow,dustandashes。ItWASdustandashes。NightafternightandthroughthelongdaysIhadlongedanddesired——mysoulhadbeatenagainstthethingforbidden!
“Butitisimpossibleforonemantotellanotherjustthesethings。
It’semotion,it’satint,alightthatcomesandgoes。Onlywhileit’sthere,everythingchanges,everything。ThethingisIcameawayandleftthemintheirCrisistodowhattheycould。“
“Leftwhom?“Iasked,puzzled。
“Thepeopleupinthenorththere。Yousee——inthisdream,anyhow——
Ihadbeenabigman,thesortofmanmencometotrustin,togroupthemselvesabout。Millionsofmenwhohadneverseenmewerereadytodothingsandriskthingsbecauseoftheirconfidenceinme。
Ihadbeenplayingthatgameforyears,thatbiglaboriousgame,thatvague,monstrouspoliticalgameamidstintriguesandbetrayals,speechandagitation。Itwasavastwelteringworld,andatlastIhadasortofleadershipagainsttheGang——youknowitwascalledtheGang——asortofcompromiseofscoundrellyprojectsandbaseambitionsandvastpublicemotionalstupiditiesandcatchwords——
theGangthatkepttheworldnoisyandblindyearbyyear,andallthewhilethatitwasdrifting,driftingtowardsinfinitedisaster。
ButIcan’texpectyoutounderstandtheshadesandcomplicationsoftheyear——theyearsomethingorotherahead。Ihaditalldowntothesmallestdetails——inmydream。IsupposeIhadbeendreamingofitbeforeIawoke,andthefadingoutlineofsomequeernewdevelopmentIhadimaginedstillhungaboutmeasIrubbedmyeyes。
ItwassomegrubbyaffairthatmademethankGodforthesunlight。
Isatuponthecouchandremainedlookingatthewomanandrejoicing——
rejoicingthatIhadcomeawayoutofallthattumultandfollyandviolencebeforeitwastoolate。Afterall,Ithought,thisislife——loveandbeauty,desireanddelight,aretheynotworthallthosedismalstrugglesforvague,giganticends?AndIblamedmyselfforhavingeversoughttobealeaderwhenImighthavegivenmydaystolove。Butthen,thoughtI,ifIhadnotspentmyearlydayssternlyandausterely,Imighthavewastedmyselfuponvainandworthlesswomen,andatthethoughtallmybeingwentoutinloveandtendernesstomydearmistress,mydearlady,whohadcomeatlastandcompelledme——compelledmebyherinvinciblecharmforme——tolaythatlifeaside。
“’Youareworthit,’Isaid,speakingwithoutintendinghertohear;
’youareworthit,mydearestone;worthprideandpraiseandallthings。Love!tohaveYOUisworththemalltogether。’Andatthemurmurofmyvoicesheturnedabout。
“’Comeandsee,’shecried——Icanhearhernow——’comeandseethesunriseuponMonteSolaro。’
“IrememberhowIsprangtomyfeetandjoinedheratthebalcony。
Sheputawhitehanduponmyshoulderandpointedtowardsgreatmassesoflimestone,flushing,asitwere,intolife。Ilooked。
ButfirstInotedthesunlightonherfacecaressingthelinesofhercheeksandneck。HowcanIdescribetoyouthescenewehadbeforeus?WewereatCapri——“
“Ihavebeenthere,“Isaid。“IhaveclamberedupMonteSolaroanddrunkveroCapri——muddystufflikecider——atthesummit。“
“Ah!“saidthemanwiththewhiteface;“thenperhapsyoucantellme——youwillknowifthiswasindeedCapri。ForinthislifeIhaveneverbeenthere。Letmedescribeit。Wewereinalittleroom,oneofavastmultitudeoflittlerooms,verycoolandsunny,hollowedoutofthelimestoneofasortofcape,veryhighabovethesea。
Thewholeisland,youknow,wasoneenormoushotel,complexbeyondexplaining,andontheothersidethereweremilesoffloatinghotels,andhugefloatingstagestowhichtheflyingmachinescame。Theycalleditapleasurecity。Ofcourse,therewasnoneofthatinyourtimerather,Ishouldsay,ISnoneofthatNOW。Ofcourse。Now!——yes。
“Well,thisroomofourswasattheextremityofthecape,sothatonecouldseeeastandwest。Eastwardwasagreatcliff——athousandfeethighperhaps——coldlygreyexceptforonebrightedgeofgold,andbeyondittheIsleoftheSirens,andafallingcoastthatfadedandpassedintothehotsunrise。Andwhenoneturnedtothewest,distinctandnearwasalittlebay,alittlebeachstillinshadow。AndoutofthatshadowroseSolarostraightandtall,flushedandgoldencrested,likeabeautythroned,andthewhitemoonwasfloatingbehindherinthesky。Andbeforeusfromeasttoweststretchedthemany-tintedseaalldottedwithlittlesailingboats。
“Totheeastward,ofcourse,theselittleboatsweregreyandveryminuteandclear,buttothewestwardtheywerelittleboatsofgold——
shininggold——almostlikelittleflames。Andjustbelowuswasarockwithanarchwornthroughit。Thebluesea-waterbroketogreenandfoamallroundtherock,andagalleycameglidingoutofthearch。“
“Iknowthatrock,“Isaid。“Iwasnearlydrownedthere。ItiscalledtheFaraglioni。“
“IFaraglioni?Yes,shecalleditthat,“answeredthemanwiththewhiteface。“Therewassomestory——butthat——“
Heputhishandtohisforeheadagain。“No,“hesaid,“Iforgetthatstory。“
“Well,thatisthefirstthingIremember,thefirstdreamIhad,thatlittleshadedroomandthebeautifulairandskyandthatdearladyofmine,withhershiningarmsandhergracefulrobe,andhowwesatandtalkedinhalfwhisperstooneanother。Wetalkedinwhispersnotbecausetherewasanyonetohear,butbecausetherewasstillsuchafreshnessofmindbetweenusthatourthoughtswerealittlefrightened,Ithink,tofindthemselvesatlastinwords。
Andsotheywentsoftly。
“Presentlywewerehungryandwewentfromourapartment,goingbyastrangepassagewithamovingfloor,untilwecametothegreatbreakfastroom——therewasafountainandmusic。Apleasantandjoyfulplaceitwas,withitssunlightandsplashing,andthemurmurofpluckedstrings。Andwesatandateandsmiledatoneanother,andIwouldnotheedamanwhowaswatchingmefromatablenearby。
“Andafterwardswewentontothedancing-hall。ButIcannotdescribethathall。Theplacewasenormous——largerthananybuildingyouhaveeverseen——andinoneplacetherewastheoldgateofCapri,caughtintothewallofagalleryhighoverhead。Lightgirders,stemsandthreadsofgold,burstfromthepillarslikefountains,streamedlikeanAuroraacrosstheroofandinterlaced,like——
likeconjuringtricks。Allaboutthegreatcircleforthedancerstherewerebeautifulfigures,strangedragons,andintricateandwonderfulgrotesquesbearinglights。Theplacewasinundatedwithartificiallightthatshamedthenewbornday。Andaswewentthroughthethrongthepeopleturnedaboutandlookedatus,forallthroughtheworldmynameandfacewereknown,andhowIhadsuddenlythrownupprideandstruggletocometothisplace。Andtheylookedalsoattheladybesideme,thoughhalfthestoryofhowatlastshehadcometomewasunknownormistold。Andfewofthemenwhowerethere,Iknow,butjudgedmeahappyman,inspiteofalltheshameanddishonourthathadcomeuponmyname。