SuddenlyMrs。Chailey,turningfromthesubjectofsheets,dismissingthementirely,clenchedherfistsonthetopofthem,andproclaimed,“Andyoucouldn’taskalivingcreaturetositwhereIsit!“
Mrs。Chaileywasexpectedtositinacabinwhichwaslargeenough,buttooneartheboilers,sothatafterfiveminutesshecouldhearherheart“go,“shecomplained,puttingherhandaboveit,whichwasastateofthingsthatMrs。Vinrace,Rachel’smother,wouldneverhavedreamtofinflicting——Mrs。Vinrace,whokneweverysheetinherhouse,andexpectedofeveryonethebesttheycoulddo,butnomore。
Itwastheeasiestthingintheworldtograntanotherroom,andtheproblemofsheetssimultaneouslyandmiraculouslysolveditself,thespotsandladdersnotbeingpastcureafterall,but——
“Lies!Lies!Lies!“exclaimedthemistressindignantly,assheranupontothedeck。“What’stheuseoftellingmelies?“
Inherangerthatawomanoffiftyshouldbehavelikeachildandcomecringingtoagirlbecauseshewantedtositwhereshehadnotleavetosit,shedidnotthinkoftheparticularcase,and,unpackinghermusic,soonforgotallabouttheoldwomanandhersheets。
Mrs。Chaileyfoldedhersheets,butherexpressiontestifiedtoflatnesswithin。Theworldnolongercaredabouther,andashipwasnotahome。Whenthelampswerelityesterday,andthesailorswenttumblingaboveherhead,shehadcried;shewouldcrythisevening;shewouldcryto-morrow。Itwasnothome。Meanwhileshearrangedherornamentsintheroomwhichshehadwontooeasily。
Theywerestrangeornamentstobringonaseavoyage——chinapugs,tea-setsinminiature,cupsstampedfloridlywiththearmsofthecityofBristol,hair-pinboxescrustedwithshamrock,antelopes’headsincolouredplaster,togetherwithamultitudeoftinyphotographs,representingdownrightworkmenintheirSundaybest,andwomenholdingwhitebabies。Buttherewasoneportraitinagiltframe,forwhichanailwasneeded,andbeforeshesoughtitMrs。Chaileyputonherspectaclesandreadwhatwaswrittenonaslipofpaperattheback:
“ThispictureofhermistressisgiventoEmmaChaileybyWilloughbyVinraceingratitudeforthirtyyearsofdevotedservice。“
Tearsobliteratedthewordsandtheheadofthenail。
“SolongasIcandosomethingforyourfamily,“shewassaying,asshehammeredatit,whenavoicecalledmelodiouslyinthepassage:
“Mrs。Chailey!Mrs。Chailey!“
Chaileyinstantlytidiedherdress,composedherface,andopenedthedoor。
“I’minafix,“saidMrs。Ambrose,whowasflushedandoutofbreath。
“Youknowwhatgentlemenare。Thechairstoohigh——thetablestoolow——there’ssixinchesbetweenthefloorandthedoor。
WhatIwant’sahammer,anoldquilt,andhaveyousuchathingasakitchentable?Anyhow,betweenus“——shenowflungopenthedoorofherhusband’ssittingroom,andrevealedRidleypacingupanddown,hisforeheadallwrinkled,andthecollarofhiscoatturnedup。
“It’sasthoughthey’dtakenpainstotormentme!“hecried,stoppingdead。“DidIcomeonthisvoyageinordertocatchrheumatismandpneumonia?ReallyonemighthavecreditedVinracewithmoresense。Mydear,“Helenwasonherkneesunderatable,“youareonlymakingyourselfuntidy,andwehadmuchbetterrecognisethefactthatwearecondemnedtosixweeksofunspeakablemisery。
Tocomeatallwastheheightoffolly,butnowthatwearehereI
supposethatIcanfaceitlikeaman。Mydiseasesofcoursewillbeincreased——IfeelalreadyworsethanIdidyesterday,butwe’veonlyourselvestothank,andthechildrenhappily——“
“Move!Move!Move!“criedHelen,chasinghimfromcornertocornerwithachairasthoughhewereanerranthen。
“Outoftheway,Ridley,andinhalfanhouryou’llfinditready。“
Sheturnedhimoutoftheroom,andtheycouldhearhimgroaningandswearingashewentalongthepassage。
“Idaresayheisn’tverystrong,“saidMrs。Chailey,lookingatMrs。Ambrosecompassionately,asshehelpedtoshiftandcarry。
“It’sbooks,“sighedHelen,liftinganarmfulofsadvolumesfromthefloortotheshelf。“Greekfrommorningtonight。
IfeverMissRachelmarries,Chailey,praythatshemaymarryamanwhodoesn’tknowhisABC。“
Thepreliminarydiscomfortsandharshnesses,whichgenerallymakethefirstdaysofaseavoyagesocheerlessandtryingtothetemper,beingsomehowlivedthrough,thesucceedingdayspassedpleasantlyenough。
Octoberwaswelladvanced,butsteadilyburningwithawarmththatmadetheearlymonthsofthesummerappearveryyoungandcapricious。
Greattractsoftheearthlaynowbeneaththeautumnsun,andthewholeofEngland,fromthebaldmoorstotheCornishrocks,waslitupfromdawntosunset,andshowedinstretchesofyellow,green,andpurple。
Underthatilluminationeventheroofsofthegreattownsglittered。
Inthousandsofsmallgardens,millionsofdark-redflowerswereblooming,untiltheoldladieswhohadtendedthemsocarefullycamedownthepathswiththeirscissors,snippedthroughtheirjuicystalks,andlaidthemuponcoldstoneledgesinthevillagechurch。
Innumerablepartiesofpicnickerscominghomeatsunsetcried,“Wasthereeversuchadayasthis?““It’syou,“theyoungmenwhispered;
“Oh,it’syou,“theyoungwomenreplied。Alloldpeopleandmanysickpeopleweredrawn,wereitonlyforafootortwo,intotheopenair,andprognosticatedpleasantthingsaboutthecourseoftheworld。
Asfortheconfidencesandexpressionsoflovethatwereheardnotonlyincornfieldsbutinlamplitrooms,wherethewindowsopenedonthegarden,andmenwithcigarskissedwomenwithgreyhairs,theywerenottobecounted。Somesaidthattheskywasanemblemofthelifetocome。Long-tailedbirdsclatteredandscreamed,andcrossedfromwoodtowood,withgoldeneyesintheirplumage。
Butwhileallthiswentonbyland,veryfewpeoplethoughtaboutthesea。Theytookitforgrantedthattheseawascalm;
andtherewasnoneed,asthereisinmanyhouseswhenthecreepertapsonthebedroomwindows,forthecouplestomurmurbeforetheykiss,“Thinkoftheshipsto-night,“or“ThankHeaven,I’mnotthemaninthelighthouse!“Foralltheyimagined,theshipswhentheyvanishedonthesky-linedissolved,likesnowinwater。
Thegrown-upview,indeed,wasnotmuchclearerthantheviewofthelittlecreaturesinbathingdrawerswhoweretrottingintothefoamallalongthecoastsofEngland,andscoopingupbucketsfullofwater。Theysawwhitesailsortuftsofsmokepassacrossthehorizon,andifyouhadsaidthatthesewerewaterspouts,orthepetalsofwhiteseaflowers,theywouldhaveagreed。
Thepeopleinships,however,tookanequallysingularviewofEngland。
Notonlydiditappeartothemtobeanisland,andaverysmallisland,butitwasashrinkingislandinwhichpeoplewereimprisoned。
Onefiguredthemfirstswarmingaboutlikeaimlessants,andalmostpressingeachotherovertheedge;andthen,astheshipwithdrew,onefiguredthemmakingavainclamour,which,beingunheard,eitherceased,orroseintoabrawl。Finally,whentheshipwasoutofsightofland,itbecameplainthatthepeopleofEnglandwerecompletelymute。Thediseaseattackedotherpartsoftheearth;
Europeshrank,Asiashrank,AfricaandAmericashrank,untilitseemeddoubtfulwhethertheshipwouldeverrunagainstanyofthosewrinkledlittlerocksagain。But,ontheotherhand,animmensedignityhaddescendeduponher;shewasaninhabitantofthegreatworld,whichhassofewinhabitants,travellingalldayacrossanemptyuniverse,withveilsdrawnbeforeherandbehind。Shewasmorelonelythanthecaravancrossingthedesert;shewasinfinitelymoremysterious,movingbyherownpowerandsustainedbyherownresources。Theseamightgiveherdeathorsomeunexampledjoy,andnonewouldknowofit。
Shewasabridegoingforthtoherhusband,avirginunknownofmen;
inhervigorandpurityshemightbelikenedtoallbeautifulthings,forasashipshehadalifeofherown。
Indeediftheyhadnotbeenblessedintheirweather,onebluedaybeingbowledupafteranother,smooth,round,andflawless。
Mrs。Ambrosewouldhavefounditverydull。Asitwas,shehadherembroideryframesetupondeck,withalittletablebyhersideonwhichlayopenablackvolumeofphilosophy。Shechoseathreadfromthevari-colouredtanglethatlayinherlap,andsewedredintothebarkofatree,oryellowintotherivertorrent。
Shewasworkingatagreatdesignofatropicalriverrunningthroughatropicalforest,wherespotteddeerwouldeventuallybrowseuponmassesoffruit,bananas,oranges,andgiantpomegranates,whileatroopofnakednativeswhirleddartsintotheair。
BetweenthestitchesshelookedtoonesideandreadasentenceabouttheRealityofMatter,ortheNatureofGood。Roundhermeninbluejerseyskneltandscrubbedtheboards,orleantovertherailsandwhistled,andnotfaroffMr。Peppersatcuttinguprootswithapenknife。Therestwereoccupiedinotherpartsoftheship:
RidleyathisGreek——hehadneverfoundquartersmoretohisliking;
Willoughbyathisdocuments,forheusedavoyagetoworkofarrearsofbusiness;andRachel——Helen,betweenhersentencesofphilosophy,wonderedsometimeswhatRachel_did_dowithherself?Shemeantvaguelytogoandsee。Theyhadscarcelyspokentwowordstoeachothersincethatfirstevening;theywerepolitewhentheymet,buttherehadbeennoconfidenceofanykind。Rachelseemedtogetonverywellwithherfather——muchbetter,Helenthought,thansheoughtto——andwasasreadytoletHelenaloneasHelenwastoletheralone。
AtthatmomentRachelwassittinginherroomdoingabsolutelynothing。
Whentheshipwasfullthisapartmentboresomemagnificenttitleandwastheresortofelderlysea-sickladieswholeftthedecktotheiryoungsters。Byvirtueofthepiano,andamessofbooksonthefloor,Rachelconsidereditherroom,andthereshewouldsitforhoursplayingverydifficultmusic,readingalittleGerman,oralittleEnglishwhenthemoodtookher,anddoing——asatthismoment——
absolutelynothing。
Thewayshehadbeeneducated,joinedtoafinenaturalindolence,wasofcoursepartlythereasonofit,forshehadbeeneducatedasthemajorityofwell-to-dogirlsinthelastpartofthenineteenthcenturywereeducated。Kindlydoctorsandgentleoldprofessorshadtaughthertherudimentsofabouttendifferentbranchesofknowledge,buttheywouldassoonhaveforcedhertogothroughonepieceofdrudgerythoroughlyastheywouldhavetoldherthatherhandsweredirty。
Theonehourorthetwohoursweeklypassedverypleasantly,partlyowingtotheotherpupils,partlytothefactthatthewindowlookeduponthebackofashop,wherefiguresappearedagainsttheredwindowsinwinter,partlytotheaccidentsthatareboundtohappenwhenmorethantwopeopleareinthesameroomtogether。
Buttherewasnosubjectintheworldwhichsheknewaccurately。
Hermindwasinthestateofanintelligentman’sinthebeginningofthereignofQueenElizabeth;shewouldbelievepracticallyanythingshewastold,inventreasonsforanythingshesaid。
Theshapeoftheearth,thehistoryoftheworld,howtrainsworked,ormoneywasinvested,whatlawswereinforce,whichpeoplewantedwhat,andwhytheywantedit,themostelementaryideaofasysteminmodernlife——noneofthishadbeenimpartedtoherbyanyofherprofessorsormistresses。Butthissystemofeducationhadonegreatadvantage。Itdidnotteachanything,butitputnoobstacleinthewayofanyrealtalentthatthepupilmightchancetohave。
Rachel,beingmusical,wasallowedtolearnnothingbutmusic;
shebecameafanaticaboutmusic。Alltheenergiesthatmighthavegoneintolanguages,science,orliterature,thatmighthavemadeherfriends,orshownhertheworld,pouredstraightintomusic。
Findingherteachersinadequate,shehadpracticallytaughtherself。
Attheageoftwenty-foursheknewasmuchaboutmusicasmostpeopledowhentheyarethirty;andcouldplayaswellasnatureallowedherto,which,asbecamedailymoreobvious,wasareallygenerousallowance。Ifthisonedefinitegiftwassurroundedbydreamsandideasofthemostextravagantandfoolishdescription,noonewasanythewiser。
Hereducationbeingthusordinary,hercircumstanceswerenomoreoutofthecommon。Shewasanonlychildandhadneverbeenbulliedandlaughedatbybrothersandsisters。Hermotherhavingdiedwhenshewaseleven,twoaunts,thesistersofherfather,broughtherup,andtheylivedforthesakeoftheairinacomfortablehouseinRichmond。Shewasofcoursebroughtupwithexcessivecare,whichasachildwasforherhealth;asagirlandayoungwomanwasforwhatitseemsalmostcrudetocallhermorals。
Untilquitelatelyshehadbeencompletelyignorantthatforwomensuchthingsexisted。Shegropedforknowledgeinoldbooks,andfounditinrepulsivechunks,butshedidnotnaturallycareforbooksandthusnevertroubledherheadaboutthecensorshipwhichwasexercisedfirstbyheraunts,laterbyherfather。
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