foroutatSantaMarinaHelenknew,byexperience,thathewouldworkallday;hisboxes,shesaid,werepackedwithbooks。
“Leaveittome——leaveittome!“saidWilloughby,obviouslyintendingtodomuchmorethansheaskedofhim。ButRidleyandMr。Pepperwereheardfumblingatthedoor。
“Howareyou,Vinrace?“saidRidley,extendingalimphandashecamein,asthoughthemeetingweremelancholytoboth,butonthewholemoresotohim。
Willoughbypreservedhisheartiness,temperedbyrespect。
Forthemomentnothingwassaid。
“Welookedinandsawyoulaughing,“Helenremarked。“Mr。Pepperhadjusttoldaverygoodstory。“
“Pish。Noneofthestoriesweregood,“saidherhusbandpeevishly。
“Stillaseverejudge,Ridley?“enquiredMr。Vinrace。
“Weboredyousothatyouleft,“saidRidley,speakingdirectlytohiswife。
AsthiswasquitetrueHelendidnotattempttodenyit,andhernextremark,“Butdidn’ttheyimproveafterwe’dgone?“
wasunfortunate,forherhusbandansweredwithadroopofhisshoulders,“Ifpossibletheygotworse。“
Thesituationwasnowoneofconsiderablediscomfortforeveryoneconcerned,aswasprovedbyalongintervalofconstraintandsilence。Mr。Pepper,indeed,createdadiversionofakindbyleapingontohisseat,bothfeettuckedunderhim,withtheactionofaspinsterwhodetectsamouse,asthedraughtstruckathisankles。Drawnupthere,suckingathiscigar,withhisarmsencirclinghisknees,helookedliketheimageofBuddha,andfromthiselevationbeganadiscourse,addressedtonobody,fornobodyhadcalledforit,upontheunplumbeddepthsofocean。
HeprofessedhimselfsurprisedtolearnthatalthoughMr。Vinracepossessedtenships,regularlyplyingbetweenLondonandBuenosAires,notoneofthemwasbiddentoinvestigatethegreatwhitemonstersofthelowerwaters。
“No,no,“laughedWilloughby,“themonstersoftheeartharetoomanyforme!“
Rachelwasheardtosigh,“Poorlittlegoats!“
“Ifitweren’tforthegoatsthere’dbenomusic,mydear;
musicdependsupongoats,“saidherfatherrathersharply,andMr。Pepperwentontodescribethewhite,hairless,blindmonsterslyingcurledontheridgesofsandatthebottomofthesea,whichwouldexplodeifyoubroughtthemtothesurface,theirsidesburstingasunderandscatteringentrailstothewindswhenreleasedfrompressure,withconsiderabledetailandwithsuchshowofknowledge,thatRidleywasdisgusted,andbeggedhimtostop。
FromallthisHelendrewherownconclusions,whichweregloomyenough。
Pepperwasabore;Rachelwasanunlickedgirl,nodoubtprolificofconfidences,theveryfirstofwhichwouldbe:“Yousee,Idon’tgetonwithmyfather。“Willoughby,asusual,lovedhisbusinessandbuilthisEmpire,andbetweenthemallshewouldbeconsiderablybored。Beingawomanofaction,however,sherose,andsaidthatforherpartshewasgoingtobed。AtthedoorsheglancedbackinstinctivelyatRachel,expectingthatastwoofthesamesextheywouldleavetheroomtogether。Rachelrose,lookedvaguelyintoHelen’sface,andremarkedwithherslightstammer,“I’mgoingouttot-t-triumphinthewind。“
Mrs。Ambrose’sworstsuspicionswereconfirmed;shewentdownthepassagelurchingfromsidetoside,andfendingoffthewallnowwithherrightarm,nowwithherleft;ateachlurchsheexclaimedemphatically,“Damn!“
Uncomfortableasthenight,withitsrockingmovement,andsaltsmells,mayhavebeen,andinonecaseundoubtedlywas,forMr。Pepperhadinsufficientclothesuponhisbed,thebreakfastnextmorningworeakindofbeauty。Thevoyagehadbegun,andhadbegunhappilywithasoftbluesky,andacalmsea。
Thesenseofuntappedresources,thingstosayasyetunsaid,madethehoursignificant,sothatinfutureyearstheentirejourneyperhapswouldberepresentedbythisonescene,withthesoundofsirenshootingintheriverthenightbefore,somehowmixingin。
Thetablewascheerfulwithapplesandbreadandeggs。HelenhandedWilloughbythebutter,andasshedidsocasthereyeonhimandreflected,“Andshemarriedyou,andshewashappy,Isuppose。“
Shewentoffonafamiliartrainofthought,leadingontoallkindsofwell-knownreflections,fromtheoldwonder,whyTheresahadmarriedWilloughby?
“Ofcourse,oneseesallthat,“shethought,meaningthatoneseesthatheisbigandburly,andhasagreatboomingvoice,andafistandawillofhisown;“but——“heresheslippedintoafineanalysisofhimwhichisbestrepresentedbyoneword,“sentimental,“bywhichshemeantthathewasneversimpleandhonestabouthisfeelings。
Forexample,heseldomspokeofthedead,butkeptanniversarieswithsingularpomp。Shesuspectedhimofnamelessatrocitieswithregardtohisdaughter,asindeedshehadalwayssuspectedhimofbullyinghiswife。Naturallyshefelltocomparingherownfortuneswiththefortunesofherfriend,forWilloughby’swifehadbeenperhapstheonewomanHelencalledfriend,andthiscomparisonoftenmadethestapleoftheirtalk。Ridleywasascholar,andWilloughbywasamanofbusiness。RidleywasbringingoutthethirdvolumeofPindarwhenWilloughbywaslaunchinghisfirstship。
TheybuiltanewfactorytheveryyearthecommentaryonAristotle——
wasit?——appearedattheUniversityPress。“AndRachel,“shelookedather,meaning,nodoubt,todecidetheargument,whichwasotherwisetooevenlybalanced,bydeclaringthatRachelwasnotcomparabletoherownchildren。“Shereallymightbesixyearsold,“
wasallshesaid,however,thisjudgmentreferringtothesmoothunmarkedoutlineofthegirl’sface,andnotcondemningherotherwise,forifRachelwereevertothink,feel,laugh,orexpressherself,insteadofdroppingmilkfromaheightasthoughtoseewhatkindofdropsitmade,shemightbeinterestingthoughneverexactlypretty。
Shewaslikehermother,astheimageinapoolonastillsummer’sdayislikethevividflushedfacethathangsoverit。
MeanwhileHelenherselfwasunderexamination,thoughnotfromeitherofhervictims。Mr。Pepperconsideredher;andhismeditations,carriedonwhilehecuthistoastintobarsandneatlybutteredthem,tookhimthroughaconsiderablestretchofautobiography。OneofhispenetratingglancesassuredhimthathewasrightlastnightinjudgingthatHelenwasbeautiful。Blandlyhepassedherthejam。
Shewastalkingnonsense,butnotworsenonsensethanpeopleusuallydotalkatbreakfast,thecerebralcirculation,asheknewtohiscost,beingapttogivetroubleatthathour。Hewentonsaying“No“toher,onprinciple,forheneveryieldedtoawomanonaccountofhersex。
Andhere,droppinghiseyestohisplate,hebecameautobiographical。
Hehadnotmarriedhimselfforthesufficientreasonthathehadnevermetawomanwhocommandedhisrespect。CondemnedtopassthesusceptibleyearsofyouthinarailwaystationinBombay,hehadseenonlycolouredwomen,militarywomen,officialwomen;
andhisidealwasawomanwhocouldreadGreek,ifnotPersian,wasirreproachablyfairintheface,andabletounderstandthesmallthingsheletfallwhileundressing。Asitwashehadcontractedhabitsofwhichhewasnotintheleastashamed。
Certainoddminuteseverydaywenttolearningthingsbyheart;
henevertookaticketwithoutnotingthenumber;hedevotedJanuarytoPetronius,FebruarytoCatullus,MarchtotheEtruscanvasesperhaps;anyhowhehaddonegoodworkinIndia,andtherewasnothingtoregretinhislifeexceptthefundamentaldefectswhichnowisemanregrets,whenthepresentisstillhis。
Soconcludinghelookedupsuddenlyandsmiled。Rachelcaughthiseye。
“Andnowyou’vechewedsomethingthirty-seventimes,Isuppose?“
shethought,butsaidpolitelyaloud,“Areyourlegstroublingyouto-day,Mr。Pepper?“
“Myshoulderblades?“heasked,shiftingthempainfully。
“BeautyhasnoeffectuponuricacidthatI’mawareof,“hesighed,contemplatingtheroundpaneopposite,throughwhichtheskyandseashowedblue。Atthesametimehetookalittleparchmentvolumefromhispocketandlaiditonthetable。Asitwasclearthatheinvitedcomment,Helenaskedhimthenameofit。Shegotthename;
butshegotalsoadisquisitionuponthepropermethodofmakingroads。
BeginningwiththeGreeks,whohad,hesaid,manydifficultiestocontendwith,hecontinuedwiththeRomans,passedtoEnglandandtherightmethod,whichspeedilybecamethewrongmethod,andwoundupwithsuchafuryofdenunciationdirectedagainsttheroad-makersofthepresentdayingeneral,andtheroad-makersofRichmondParkinparticular,whereMr。Pepperhadthehabitofcyclingeverymorningbeforebreakfast,thatthespoonsfairlyjingledagainstthecoffeecups,andtheinsidesofatleastfourrollsmountedinaheapbesideMr。Pepper’splate。
“Pebbles!“heconcluded,viciouslydroppinganotherbreadpelletupontheheap。“TheroadsofEnglandaremendedwithpebbles!
’Withthefirstheavyrainfall,’I’vetold’em,’yourroadwillbeaswamp。’Againandagainmywordshaveprovedtrue。
Butd’yousupposetheylistentomewhenItell’emso,whenI
pointouttheconsequences,theconsequencestothepublicpurse,whenIrecommend’emtoreadCoryphaeus?No,Mrs。Ambrose,youwillformnojustopinionofthestupidityofmankinduntilyouhavesatuponaBoroughCouncil!“Thelittlemanfixedherwithaglanceofferociousenergy。
“Ihavehadservants,“saidMrs。Ambrose,concentratinghergaze。
“AtthismomentIhaveanurse。She’sagoodwomanastheygo,butshe’sdeterminedtomakemychildrenpray。Sofar,owingtogreatcareonmypart,theythinkofGodasakindofwalrus;
butnowthatmyback’sturned——Ridley,“shedemanded,swingingrounduponherhusband,“whatshallwedoifwefindthemsayingtheLord’sPrayerwhenwegethomeagain?“
Ridleymadethesoundwhichisrepresentedby“Tush。“ButWilloughby,whosediscomfortashelistenedwasmanifestedbyaslightmovementrockingofhisbody,saidawkwardly,“Oh,surely,Helen,alittlereligionhurtsnobody。“
“Iwouldrathermychildrentoldlies,“shereplied,andwhileWilloughbywasreflectingthathissister-in-lawwasevenmoreeccentricthanheremembered,pushedherchairbackandsweptupstairs。
Inasecondtheyheardhercallingback,“Oh,look!We’reoutatsea!“
Theyfollowedherontothedeck。Allthesmokeandthehouseshaddisappeared,andtheshipwasoutinawidespaceofseaveryfreshandclearthoughpaleintheearlylight。TheyhadleftLondonsittingonitsmud。Averythinlineofshadowtaperedonthehorizon,scarcelythickenoughtostandtheburdenofParis,whichneverthelessresteduponit。Theywerefreeofroads,freeofmankind,andthesameexhilarationattheirfreedomranthroughthemall。Theshipwasmakingherwaysteadilythroughsmallwaveswhichslappedherandthenfizzledlikeeffervescingwater,leavingalittleborderofbubblesandfoamoneitherside。
ThecolourlessOctoberskyabovewasthinlycloudedasifbythetrailofwood-firesmoke,andtheairwaswonderfullysaltandbrisk。
Indeeditwastoocoldtostandstill。Mrs。Ambrosedrewherarmwithinherhusband’s,andastheymovedoffitcouldbeseenfromthewayinwhichherslopingcheekturneduptohisthatshehadsomethingprivatetocommunicate。TheywentafewpacesandRachelsawthemkiss。
Downshelookedintothedepthofthesea。Whileitwasslightlydisturbedonthesurfacebythepassageofthe_Euphrosyne_,beneathitwasgreenanddim,anditgrewdimmeranddimmeruntilthesandatthebottomwasonlyapaleblur。Onecouldscarcelyseetheblackribsofwreckedships,orthespiraltowersmadebytheburrowingsofgreateels,orthesmoothgreen-sidedmonsterswhocamebyflickeringthiswayandthat——
“And,Rachel,ifanyonewantsme,I’mbusytillone,“saidherfather,enforcinghiswordsasheoftendid,whenhespoketohisdaughter,byasmartblowupontheshoulder。
“Untilone,“herepeated。“Andyou’llfindyourselfsomeemployment,eh?Scales,French,alittleGerman,eh?There’sMr。PepperwhoknowsmoreaboutseparableverbsthananymaninEurope,eh?“andhewentofflaughing。Rachellaughed,too,asindeedshehadlaughedeversinceshecouldremember,withoutthinkingitfunny,butbecausesheadmiredherfather。
Butjustasshewasturningwithaviewperhapstofindingsomeemployment,shewasinterceptedbyawomanwhowassobroadandsothickthattobeinterceptedbyherwasinevitable。
Thediscreettentativewayinwhichshemoved,togetherwithhersoberblackdress,showedthatshebelongedtothelowerorders;
neverthelessshetookuparock-likeposition,lookingabouthertoseethatnogentrywerenearbeforeshedeliveredhermessage,whichhadreferencetothestateofthesheets,andwasoftheutmostgravity。
“Howeverwe’retogetthroughthisvoyage,MissRachel,Ireallycan’ttell,“shebeganwithashakeofherhead。“There’sonlyjustsheetsenoughtogoround,andthemaster’shasarottenplaceyoucouldputyourfingersthrough。Andthecounterpanes。Didyounoticethecounterpanes?Ithoughttomyselfapoorpersonwouldhavebeenashamedofthem。TheoneIgaveMr。Pepperwashardlyfittocoveradog……No,MissRachel,theycould_not_bemended;
they’reonlyfitfordustsheets。Why,ifonesewedone’sfingertothebone,onewouldhaveone’sworkundonethenexttimetheywenttothelaundry。“
Hervoiceinitsindignationwaveredasiftearswerenear。
Therewasnothingforitbuttodescendandinspectalargepileoflinenheapeduponatable。Mrs。Chaileyhandledthesheetsasifshekneweachbyname,character,andconstitution。Somehadyellowstains,othershadplaceswherethethreadsmadelongladders;
buttotheordinaryeyetheylookedmuchassheetsusuallydolook,verychill,white,cold,andirreproachablyclean。
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