Theyearchangedfromgreentogold,andfromgoldtogrey,butlittlechangecameoverthehouseofLoveday。DuringthelasttwelvemonthsBobhadbeenoccasionallyheardofasupholdinghiscountry’shonourinDenmark,theWestIndies,Gibraltar,Malta,andotherplacesabouttheglobe,tillthefamilyreceivedashortletterstatingthathehadarrivedagainatPortsmouth。AtPortsmouthBobseemeddisposedtoremain,forthoughsometimeelapsedwithoutfurtherintelligence,thegallantseamanneverappearedatOvercombe。ThenonasuddenJohnlearntthatBob’slong-talked-ofpromotionforsignalservicesrenderedwastobeanaccomplishedfact。Thetrumpet-majoratoncewalkedofftoOvercombe,andreachedthevillageintheearlyafternoon。Notoneofthefamilywasinthehouseatthemoment,andJohnstrolledonwardsoverthehilltowardsCasterbridge,withoutmuchthoughtofdirectiontill,liftinghiseyes,hebeheldAnneGarlandwanderingaboutwithalittlebasketuponherarm。
AtfirstJohnblushedwithdelightatthesweetvision;but,recalledbyhisconscience,theblushofdelightwasatoncemangledandslain。Helookedforameansofretreat。Butthefieldwasopen,andasoldierwasaconspicuousobject:therewasnoescapingher。
’Itwaskindofyoutocome,’shesaid,withaninvitingsmile。
’Itwasquitebyaccident,’heanswered,withanindifferentlaugh。
’Ithoughtyouwasathome。’
Anneblushedandsaidnothing,andtheyrambledontogether。Inthemiddleofthefieldroseafragmentofstonewallintheformofagable,knownasFaringdonRuin;andwhentheyhadreacheditJohnpausedandpolitelyaskedherifshewerenotalittletiredwithwalkingsofar。Noparticularreplywasreturnedbytheyounglady,buttheybothstopped,andAnneseatedherselfonastone,whichhadfallenfromtheruintotheground。
’Achurchoncestoodhere,’observedJohninamatter-of-facttone。
’Yes,Ihaveoftenshapeditoutinmymind,’shereturned。’HerewhereIsitmusthavebeenthealtar。’
’True;thisstandingbitofwallwasthechancelend。’
Annehadbeenaddingupherlittlestudiesofthetrumpet-major’scharacter,andwassurprisedtofindhowthebrightnessofthatcharacterincreasedinhereyeswitheachexamination。Akindlyandgentlesensationwasagainarousedinher。Herewasaneglectedheroicman,who,lovinghertodistraction,deliberatelydoomedhimselftopensiveshadetoavoideventheappearanceofstandinginabrother’sway。
’Ifthealtarstoodhere,hundredsofpeoplehavebeenmademanandwifejustthere,inpasttimes,’shesaid,withcalmdeliberateness,throwingalittlestoneonaspotaboutayardwestward。
Johnannihilatedanothertenderburstandreplied,’Yes,thisfieldusedtobeavillage。Mygrandfathercouldcalltomindwhentherewerehouseshere。Butthesquirepulled’emdown,becausepoorfolkwereaneyesoretohim。’
’Doyouknow,John,whatyouonceaskedmetodo?’shecontinued,notacceptingthedigression,andturninghereyesuponhim。
’Inwhatsortofway?’
’Inthematterofmyfuturelife,andyours。’
’IamafraidIdon’t。’
’JohnLoveday!’
Heturnedhisbackuponherforamoment,thatshemightnotseehisface。’Ah——Idoremember,’hesaidatlast,inadry,small,repressedvoice。
’Well——needIsaymore?Isn’titsufficient?’
’Itwouldbesufficient,’answeredtheunhappyman。’But——’
Shelookedupwithareproachfulsmile,andshookherhead。’Thatsummer,’shewenton,’youaskedmetentimesifyouaskedmeonce。
Iamoldernow;muchmoreofawoman,youknow;andmyopinionischangedaboutsomepeople;especiallyaboutone。’
’OAnne,Anne!’heburstoutas,rackedbetweenhonouranddesire,hesnatchedupherhand。Thenextmomentitfellheavilytoherlap。Hehadabsolutelyrelinquishedithalf-waytohislips。
’Ihavebeenthinkinglately,’hesaid,withpreternaturallysuddencalmness,’thatmenofthemilitaryprofessionoughtnottom——oughttobelikeSt。Paul,Imean。’
’Fie,John;pretendingreligion!’shesaidsternly。’Itisn’tthatatall。IT’SBOB!’
’Yes!’criedthemiserabletrumpet-major。’Ihavehadaletterfromhimto-day。’Hepulledoutasheetofpaperfromhisbreast。
’That’sit!He’spromoted——he’salieutenant,andappointedtoasloopthatonlycruisesonourowncoast,sothathe’llbeathomeonleavehalfhistime——he’llbeagentlemansomeday,andworthyofyou!’
Hethrewtheletterintoherlap,anddrewbacktotheothersideofthegable-wall。Annejumpedupfromherseat,flungawaytheletterwithoutlookingatit,andwenthastilyon。Johndidnotattempttoovertakeher。Pickinguptheletter,hefollowedinherwakeatadistanceofahundredyards。
But,thoughAnnehadwithdrawnfromhispresencethusprecipitately,sheneverthoughtmorehighlyofhiminherlifethanshedidfiveminutesafterwards,whentheexcitementofthemomenthadpassed。
Shesawitallquiteclearly;andhisself-sacrificeimpressedhersomuchthattheeffectwasjustthereverseofwhathehadbeenaimingtoproduce。ThemorehepleadedforBob,themoreherperversegenerositypleadedforJohn。To-daythecrisishadcome——
withwhatresultsshehadnotforeseen。
Assoonasthetrumpet-majorreachedthenearestpen-and-inkheflunghimselfintoaseatandwrotewildlytoBob:——
’DEARROBERT,——IwritethesefewlinestoletyouknowthatifyouwantAnneGarlandyoumustcomeatonce——youmustcomeinstantly,andpost-haste——ORSHEWILLBEGONE!Somebodyelsewantsher,andshewantshim!Itisyourlastchance,intheopinionof——
’Yourfaithfulbrotherandwell-wisher,’JOHN。
’P。S——Gladtohearofyourpromotion。TellmethedayandI’llmeetthecoach。’
XXXIX。BOBLOVEDAYSTRUTSUPANDDOWN
Onenight,aboutaweeklater,twomenwerewalkinginthedarkalongtheturnpikeroadtowardsOvercombe,oneofthemwithabaginhishand。
’Now,’saidthetallerofthetwo,thesquarenessofwhoseshoulderssignifiedthatheworeepaulettes,’nowyoumustdothebestyoucanforyourself,Bob。IhavedoneallIcan;butth’hastthyworkcutout,Icantellthee。’
’Iwouldn’thaverunsuchariskfortheworld,’saidtheother,inatoneofingenuouscontrition。’Butthou’stsee,Jack,Ididn’tthinktherewasanydanger,knowingyouwastakingcareofher,andkeepingmyplacewarmforme。Ididn’thurrymyself,that’strue;
but,thinksI,ifIgetthispromotionIampromisedIshallnaturallyhaveleave,andthenI’llgoandsee’emall。Gad,I
shouldn’thavebeenherenowbutforyourletter!’
’Youlittlethinkwhatrisksyou’verun,’saidhisbrother。
’However,trytomakeupforlosttime。’
’Allright。Andwhateveryoudo,Jack,don’tsayawordaboutthisothergirl。Hangthegirl!——Iwasagreatfool,Iknow;still,itisovernow,andIamcometomysenses。IsupposeAnnenevercaughtacapfulofwindfromthatquarter?’
’Sheknowsallaboutit,’saidJohnseriously。
’Knows?ByGeorge,then,I’mruined!’saidBob,standingstock-stillintheroadasifhemeanttoremainthereallnight。
’That’swhatImeantbysayingitwouldbeahardbattlefor’ee,’
returnedJohn,withthesamequietnessasbefore。
Bobsighedandmovedon。’Idon’tdeservethatwoman!’hecriedpassionately,thumpinghisthreeupperribswithhisfist。
’I’vethoughtasmuchmyself,’observedJohn,withadrynesswhichwasalmostbitter。’Butitdependsonhowthou’stbehaveinfuture。’
’John,’saidBob,takinghisbrother’shand,’I’llbeanewman。I
solemnlyswearbythateternalmilestonestaringatmetherethatI’llneverlookatanotherwomanwiththethoughtofmarryingherwhilstthatdarlingisfree——no,notifshebeamermaidenoflight!
It’saluckythingthatI’mslippedinonthequarterdeck!itmayhelpmewithher——hey?’
’Itmaywithhermother;Idon’tthinkitwillmakemuchdifferencewithAnne。Still,itisagoodthing;andIhopethatsomedayyou’llcommandabigship。’
Bobshookhishead。’Officersarescarce;butI’mafraidmyluckwon’tcarrymesofarasthat。’
’DidsheevertellyouthatshementionedyournametotheKing?’
Theseamanstoodstillagain。’Never!’hesaid。’Howdidsuchathingasthathappen,inHeaven’sname?’
Johndescribedindetail,andtheywalkedon,lostinconjecture。
AssoonastheyenteredthehousethereturnedofficerofthenavywaswelcomedwithacclamationbyhisfatherandDavid,withmildapprovalbyMrs。Loveday,andbyAnnenotatall——thatdiscreetmaidenhavingcarefullyretiredtoherownroomsometimeearlierintheevening。Bobdidnotdaretoaskforherinanypositivemanner;hejustinquiredaboutherhealth,andthatwasall。
’Why,what’sthematterwiththyface,myson?’saidthemiller,staring。’David,showalighthere。’AndacandlewasthrustagainstBob’scheek,wherethereappearedajaggedstreaklikethegeologicalremainsofalobster。
’O——that’swherethatrascallyFrenchman’sgrenadebustedandhitmefromtheRedoubtable,youknow,asItold’eeinmyletter。’
’Notaword!’
’What,didn’tItell’ee?Ah,no;Imeantto,butIforgotit。’
’Andhere’sasortofdintinyerforeheadtoo;whatdothatmean,mydearboy?’saidthemiller,puttinghisfingerinachasminBob’sskull。
’ThatwasdoneintheIndies。Yes,thatwasratheratroublesomechop——acutlassdidit。Ishouldhavetold’ee,butIfound’twouldmakemylettersolongthatIputitoff,andputitoff;andatlastthoughtitwasn’tworthwhile。’
Johnsoonrosetotakehisdeparture。
’It’sallupwithmeandher,yousee,’saidBobtohimoutsidethedoor。’She’snotevengoingtoseeme。’
’Waitalittle,’saidthetrumpet-major。Itwaseasyenoughonthenightofthearrival,inthemidstofexcitement,whenbloodwaswarm,forAnnetoberesoluteinheravoidanceofBobLoveday。Butinthemorningdeterminationisapttogrowinvertebrate;rulesofpugnacityarelesseasilyactedupto,andafeelingofliveandletlivetakespossessionofthegentlesoul。Annehadnotmeanteventositdowntothesamebreakfast-tablewithBob;butwhentherestwereassembled,andhadgotsomewaythroughthesubstantialrepastwhichwasservedatthishourinthemiller’shouse,Anneentered。
Shecamesilentlyasaphantom,hereyescastdown,hercheekspale。
Itwasagoodlongwalkfromthedoortothetable,andBobmadeafullinspectionofherasshecameuptoachairattheremotestcorner,inthedirectraysofthemorninglight,whereshedumblysatherselfdown。
Itwasaltogetherdifferentfromhowshehadexpected。Herewasshe,whohaddonenothing,feelingalltheembarrassment;andBob,whohaddonethewrong,feelingapparentlyquiteatease。
’You’llspeaktoBob,won’tyou,honey?’saidthemillerafterasilence。TomeetBoblikethisafteranabsenceseemedirregularinhiseyes。
’Ifhewishmeto,’shereplied,soaddressingthemillerthatnopart,scrap,oroutlyingbeamwhateverofherglancepassednearthesubjectofherremark。
’He’salieutenant,youknow,dear,’saidhermotheronthesameside;’andhe’sbeendreadfullywounded。’
’Oh?’saidAnne,turningalittletowardsthefalseone;atwhichBobfeltittobetimeforhimtoputinaspokeforhimself。
’Iamgladtoseeyou,’hesaidcontritely;’andhowdoyoudo?’
’Verywell,thankyou。’
Heextendedhishand。Sheallowedhimtotakehers,butonlytotheextentofaniggardlyinchorso。Atthesamemomentsheglancedupathim,whentheireyesmet,andherswereagainwithdrawn。
Thehitchbetweenthetwoyoungermembersofthehouseholdtendedtomakethebreakfastadullone。Bobwassodepressedbyherunforgivingmannerthathecouldnotthrowthatsparkleintohisstorieswhichtheirsubstancenaturallyrequired;andwhenthemealwasover,andtheywentabouttheirdifferentbusinesses,thepairresembledthetwoDromiosinseldomorneverbeing,thankstoAnne’ssubtlecontrivances,bothinthesameroomatthesametime。
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