Annefaintlyreplied’Yes,’andallowedthemillertotakeherforwardonhisarmtothetrackway,soastobeclosetotheflankoftheapproachingcolumn。Itcameup,manypeopleoneachsidegraspingthehandsofthetroopersinbiddingthemfarewell;andassoonasJohnLovedaysawthemembersofhisfather’shousehold,hestretcheddownhishandacrosshisrightpistolforthesameperformance。Themillergavehis,thenMrs。Lovedaygavehers,andthenthehandofthetrumpet-majorwasextendedtowardsAnne。Butasthehorsedidnotabsolutelystop,itwasasomewhatawkwardperformanceforayoungwomantoundertake,and,moreonthataccountthanonanyother,Annedrewback,andthegallanttrooperpassedbywithoutreceivingheradieu。Anne’sheartreproachedherforamoment;andthenshethoughtthat,afterall,hewasnotgoingofftoimmediatebattle,andthatshewouldinallprobabilityseehimagainatnodistantdate,whenshehopedthatthemysteryofhisconductwouldbeexplained。Herthoughtswereinterruptedbyavoiceatherelbow:’Thankheaven,he’sgone!Nowthere’sachanceforme。’
Sheturned,andFestusDerrimanwasstandingbyher。
’There’snochanceforyou,’shesaidindignantly。
’Whynot?’
’Becausethere’sanotherleft!’
Thewordshadslippedoutquiteunintentionally,andsheblushedquickly。Shewouldhavegivenanythingtobeabletorecallthem;
buthehadheard,andsaid,’Who?’
Annewentforwardtothemillertoavoidreplying,andFestuscaughthernomore。
’HasanybodybeenhangingaboutOvercombeMillexceptLoveday’ssonthesoldier?’heaskedofacomrade。
’Hissonthesailor,’wasthereply。
’O——hissonthesailor,’saidFestusslowly。’Damnhissonthesailor!’
AtthisparticularmomenttheobjectofFestusDerriman’sfulminationwasassuredlynotdangerousasarival。Bob,afterabstractedlywatchingthesoldiersfromthefrontofthehousetilltheywereoutofsight,hadgonewithindoorsandseatedhimselfinthemill-parlour,wherehisfatherfoundhim,hiselbowsrestingonthetableandhisforeheadonhishands,hiseyesbeingfixeduponadocumentthatlayopenbeforehim。
’Whatartperusing,Bob,withsuchalongface?’
Bobsighed,andthenMrs。LovedayandAnneentered。’’Tisonlyastate-paperthatIfondlythoughtIshouldhaveausefor,’hesaidgloomily。And,lookingdownasbefore,heclearedhisvoice,asifmovedinwardlytogoon,andbegantoreadinfeelingtonesfromwhatprovedtobehisnullifiedmarriagelicence:——
’“TimothyTitusPhilemon,bypermissionBishopofBristol:Toourwell-belovedRobertLoveday,oftheparishofOvercombe,Bachelor;
andMatildaJohnson,ofthesameparish,Spinster。Greeting。“’
HereAnnesighed,butcontrivedtokeepdownhersightoamerenothing。
’Beautifullanguage,isn’tit!’saidBob。’Iwasnevergreetedlikethatafore!’
’Yes;Ihaveoftenthoughtitveryexcellentlanguagemyself,’saidMrs。Loveday。
’Cometothat,theoldgentlemanwillgreettheelikeitagainanydayforacoupleofguineas,’saidthemiller。
’That’snotthepoint,father!Younevercouldseetherealmeaningofthesethings……Well,thenhegoeson:“Whereasyeare,asitisalleged,determinedtoenterintotheholyestateofmatrimony——“ButwhyshouldIreadon?Itallmeansnothingnow——
nothing,andthesplendidwordsareallwasteduponair。ItseemsasifIhadbeenhailedbysomevenerablehoaryprophet,andhadturnedaway,putthehelmhardup,andwouldn’thear。’
Nobodyreplied,feelingprobablythatsympathycouldnotmeetthecase,andBobwentonreadingtherestofittohimself,occasionallyheavingabreathlikethewindinaship’sshrouds。
’Iwouldn’tsetmymindsomuchuponher,ifIwasthee,’saidhisfatheratlast。
’Whynot?’
’Well,folkmightcalltheeafool,andsaythybrainswereturningtowater。’
Bobwasapparentlymuchstruckbythisthought,and,insteadofcontinuingthediscoursefurther,hecarefullyfoldedupthelicence,wentout,andwalkedupanddownthegarden。Itwasstartlinglyaptwhathisfatherhadsaid;and,worsethanthat,whatpeoplewouldcallhimmightbetrue,andtheliquefactionofhisbrainsturnouttobenofable。Bydegreeshebecamemuchconcerned,andthemoreheexaminedhimselfbythisnewlightthemoreclearlydidheperceivethathewasinaverybadway。
OnreflectionherememberedthatsinceMissJohnson’sdeparturehisappetitehaddecreasedamazingly。Hehadeateninmeatnomorethanfourteenorfifteenouncesaday,butone-thirdofaquarternpuddingonanaverage,invegetablesonlyasmallheapofpotatoesandhalfaYorkcabbage,andnogravywhatever;which,consideringtheusualappetiteofaseamanforfreshfoodattheendofalongvoyage,wasnosmallindexofthedepressionofhismind。Thenhehadwakedonceeverynight,andononeoccasiontwice。Whiledressingeachmorningsincethegloomydayhehadnotwhistledmorethansevenbarsofahornpipewithoutstoppingandfallingintothoughtofamostpainfulkind;andhehadtoldnonebutabsolutelytruestoriesofforeignpartstotheneighbouringvillagerswhentheysalutedandclusteredabouthim,asusual,foranythinghechosetopourforth——exceptthatstoryofthewhalewhoseeyewasaboutaslargeastheroundpondinDerriman’sewe-lease——whichwasliketemptingfatetosetasealforeveruponhistongueasatraveller。Allthisenervation,mentalandphysical,hadbeenproducedbyMatilda’sdeparture。
Healsoconsideredwhathehadlostoftherationalamusementsofmanhoodduringtheseunfortunatedays。Hemighthavegonetotheneighbouringfashionableresorteveryafternoon,stoodbeforeGloucesterLodgetilltheKingandQueencameout,heldhishatinhishand,andenjoyedtheirMajesties’smilesathishomageallfornothing——watchedthepicket-mounting,heardthedifferentbandsstrikeup,observedthestaff;and,aboveall,haveseentheprettytowngirlsgotrip-trip-tripalongtheesplanade,deliberatelyfixingtheirinnocenteyesonthedistantsea,thegreycliffs,andthesky,andaccidentallyonthesoldiersandhimself。
’I’llrazeoutherimage,’hesaid。’Sheshallmakeafoolofmenomore。’Andhisresolveresultedinconductwhichhadelementsofrealgreatness。
Hewentbacktohisfather,whomhefoundinthemill-loft。’’Tistrue,father,whatyousay,’heobserved:’mybrainswillturntobilge-waterifIthinkofhermuchlonger。Bytheoathofa——
navigator,IwishIcouldsighlessandlaughmore!She’sgone——whycan’tIlethergo,andbehappy?Buthowbegin?’
’Takeitcareless,myson,’saidthemiller,’andlayyourselfouttoenjoysnacksandcordials。’
’Ah——that’sathought!’saidBob。
’Baccyisgoodfor’t。Soissperrits。ThoughIdon’tadvisetheetodrinkneat。’
’Baccy——I’dalmostforgotit!’saidCaptainLoveday。
Hewenttohisroom,hastilyuntiedthepackageoftobaccothathehadbroughthome,andbegantomakeuseofitinhisownway,callingtoDavidforabottleoftheoldhouseholdmeadthathadlaininthecellartheseelevenyears。Hewasdiscoveredbyhisfatherthree-quartersofanhourlaterasahalf-invisibleobjectbehindacloudofsmoke。
Themillerdrewabreathofrelief。’Why,Bob,’hesaid,’Ithoughtthehousewasa-fire!’
’I’msmokingratherfasttodrownmyreflections,father。’Tisnousetochaw。’
TotempthisattenuatedappetitetheunhappymatemadeDavidcookanomeletandbakeaseed-cake,thelattersorichlycompoundedthatitopenedtotheknifelikeafreckledbuttercup。Withthesameobjecthestucknight-linesintothebanksofthemill-pond,anddrewupnextmorningafamilyoffateels,someofwhichwereskinnedandpreparedforhisbreakfast。Theywerehisfavouritefish,butsuchhadbeenhisconditionthat,untilthemomentofmakingthiseffort,hehadquiteforgottentheirexistenceathisfather’sback-door。
InafewdaysBobLovedayhadconsiderablyimprovedintoneandvigour。OneotherobviousremedyforhisdejectionwastoindulgeinthesocietyofMissGarland,lovebeingsomuchmoreeffectuallygotridofbydisplacementthanbyattemptedannihilation。ButLoveday’sbeliefthathehadoffendedherbeyondforgiveness,andhisever-presentsenseofherasawomanwhobyeducationandantecedentswasfittedtoadornahigherspherethanhisown,effectuallykepthimfromgoingnearherforalongtime,notwithstandingthattheywereinmatesofonehouse。Thereservewas,however,insomedegreebrokenbytheappearanceonemorning,laterintheseason,ofthepointofasawthroughthepartitionwhichdividedAnne’sroomfromtheLovedayhalfofthehouse。
ThoughshedinedandsuppedwithhermotherandtheLovedayfamily,MissGarlandhadstillcontinuedtooccupyheroldapartments,becauseshefounditmoreconvenienttheretopursueherhobbiesofwool-workandofcopyingherfather’soldpictures。Thedivisionwallhadnotasyetbeenbrokendown。
AsthesawworkeditswaydownwardsunderherastonishedgazeAnnejumpedupfromherdrawing;andpresentlythetemporarycanvasingandpaperingwhichhadsealeduptheolddoorofcommunicationwascutcompletelythrough。Thedoorburstopen,andBobstoodrevealedontheotherside,withthesawinhishand。
’Ibegyourladyship’spardon,’hesaid,takingoffthehathehadbeenworkingin,ashishandsomefaceexpandedintoasmile。’I
didn’tknowthisdooropenedintoyourprivateroom。’
’Indeed,CaptainLoveday!’
’Iampullingdownthedivisiononprinciple,aswearenowonefamily。ButIreallythoughtthedooropenedintoyourpassage。’
’Itdon’tmatter;Icangetanotherroom。’
’Notatall。Fatherwouldn’tletmeturnyouout。I’llcloseitupagain。’
ButAnnewassointerestedinthenoveltyofanewdoorwaythatshewalkedthroughit,andfoundherselfinadarklowpassagewhichshehadneverseenbefore。
’Itleadstothemill,’saidBob。’Wouldyouliketogoinandseeitatwork?Butperhapsyouhavealready。’
’Onlyintothegroundfloor。’
’Comealloverit。Iampractisingasgrinder,youknow,tohelpmyfather。’
Shefollowedhimalongthedarkpassage,inthesideofwhichheopenedalittletrap,whenshesawagreatslimycavern,wherethelongarmsofthemill-wheelflungthemselvesslowlyanddistractedlyround,andsplashingwater-dropscaughtthelittlelightthatstrayedintothegloomyplace,turningitintostarsandflashes。A
coldmist-ladenpuffofaircameintotheirfaces,andtheroarfromwithinmadeitnecessaryforAnnetoshoutasshesaid,’Itisdismal!letusgoon。’
Bobshutthetrap,theroarceased,andtheywentontotheinnerpartofthemill,wheretheairwaswarmandnutty,andpervadedbyafogofflour。Thentheyascendedthestairs,andsawthestoneslumberingroundandround,andtheyellowcornrunningdownthroughthehopper。Theyclimbedyetfurthertothetopstage,wherethewheatlayinbins,andwherelongrayslikefeelersstretchedinfromthesunthroughthelittlewindow,gotnearlylostamongcobwebsandtimber,andcompletedtheircoursebymarkingtheoppositewallwithaglowingpatchofgold。
InhisearnestnessasanexhibitorBobopenedthebolter,whichwasspinningrapidlyround,theresultbeingthatadensecloudofflourrolledoutintheirfaces,remindingAnnethathercomplexionwasprobablymuchpalerbythistimethanwhenshehadenteredthemill。
Shethankedhercompanionforhistrouble,andsaidshewouldnowgodown。Hefollowedherwiththesamedeferenceashitherto,andwithasuddenandincreasingsensethatofallcuresforhisformerunhappypassionthiswouldhavebeenthenicest,theeasiest,andthemosteffectual,ifhehadonlybeenfortunateenoughtokeepheruponeasyterms。ButMissGarlandshowednodispositiontogofurtherthanaccepthisservicesasaguide;shedescendedtotheopenair,shooktheflourfromherlikeabird,andwentonintothegardenamidtheSeptembersunshine,whoserayslaylevelacrossthebluehazewhichtheearthgaveforth。Thegnatsweredancingupanddowninairycompanies,thenasturtiumflowersshoneoutingroupsfromthedarkhedgeoverwhichtheyclimbed,andthemellowsmellofthedeclineofsummerwasexhaledbyeverything。Bobfollowedherasfarasthegate,lookedafterher,thoughtofherasthesamegirlwhohadhalfencouragedhimyearsago,whensheseemedsosuperiortohim;thoughnowtheywerealmostequalsheapparentlythoughthimbeneathher。Itwaswithanewsenseofpleasurethathismindflewtothefactthatshewasnowaninmateofhisfather’shouse。
Hisobsequiousbearingwascontinuedduringthenextweek。Inthebusyhoursofthedaytheyseldommet,buttheyregularlyencounteredeachotheratmeals,andthesecheerfuloccasionsbegantohaveaninterestforhimquiteirrespectiveofdishesandcups。
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