Sinceyoutoldmethat,Ihavenotlookedforheratall。’
’Iwaswrong,father,’Bobrepliedgravely,throwingdownhisbundleandstick。’Matilda,Ifind,hasnotgoneawayinscornofus;shehasgoneawayforotherreasons。Ifollowedhersomeway;butI
havecomebackagain。Shemaygo。’
’Whyisshegone?’saidtheastonishedmiller。
Bobhadintended,forMatilda’ssake,togivenoreasontoalivingsoulforherdeparture。Buthecouldnottreathisfatherthusreservedly;andhetold。
’Shehasmadegreatfoolsofus,’saidthemillerdeliberately;’andshemighthavemadeusgreaterones。Bob,Ithoughtth’hadstmoresense。’
’Well,don’tsayanythingagainsther,father,’imploredBob。
’’Twasasorryhaul,andthere’sanendon’t。Letherdownquietly,andkeepthesecret。Youpromisethat?’
’Ido。’Lovedaytheelderremainedthinkingawhile,andthenwenton——’Well,whatIwasgoingtosayisthis:I’vehituponaplantogetoutoftheawkwardcornershehasputusin。Whatyou’llthinkofitIcan’tsay。’
’Davidhasjustgivenmetheheads。’
’Anddoithurtyourfeelings,myson,atsuchatime?’
’No——I’llbringmyselftobearit,anyhow!WhyshouldIobjecttootherpeople’shappinessbecauseIhavelostmyown?’saidBob,withsaintlyself-sacrificeinhisair。
’Wellsaid!’answeredthemillerheartily。’Butyoumaybesurethattherewillbenounseemlyrejoicing,todisturbyeinyourpresentframeofmind。AllthemorningIfeltmoreashamedthanI
caredtoownatthethoughtofhowtheneighbours,greatandsmall,wouldlaughatwhattheywouldcallyourfolly,whentheyknewwhathadhappened;soIresolvedtotakethissteptostaveitoff,ifsobe’twaspossible。AndwhenIsawMrs。GarlandIknewIhaddoneright。Shepitiedmesomuchforhavinghadthehousecleanedinvain,andlaidinprovisionstowaste,thatitputherintothehumourtoagree。Wemeantodoitrightoffatonce,aforethepiesandcakesgetmouldyandtheblackpotstale。’Twasagoodthoughtofmineandhers,andIamglad’tissettled,’heconcludedcheerfully。
’PoorMatilda!’murmuredBob。
’There——Iwasafraid’twouldhurtthyfeelings,’saidthemiller,withself-reproach:’makingpreparationsforthywedding,andusingthemformyown!’
’No,’saidBobheroically;’itshallnot。Itwillbeagreatcomfortinmysorrowtofeelthatthesplendidgrub,andtheale,andyourstunningnewsuitofclothes,andthegreattable-clothsyou’vebought,willbejustasusefulnowasifIhadmarriedmyself。PoorMatilda!Butyouwon’texpectmetojoinin——youhardlycan。Icansheeroffthatdayveryeasily,youknow。’
’Nonsense,Bob!’saidthemillerreproachfully。
’Icouldn’tstandit——Ishouldbreakdown。’
’DeucetakemeifIwouldhaveaskedher,then,ifIhadknown’twasgoingtodrivetheeoutofthehouse!Now,come,Bob,I’llfindawayofarrangingitandsoberingitdown,sothatitshallbeasmelancholyasyoucanrequire——inshort,justlikeafuneral,ifthou’ltpromisetostay?’
’Verywell,’saidtheafflictedone。’OnthatconditionI’llstay。’
Havingenteredintothissolemncompactwithhisson,theelderLoveday’snextactionwastogotoMrs。Garland,andaskherhowthetoningdownoftheweddinghadbestbedone。’ItisplainenoughthattomakemerryjustnowwouldbeslightingBob’sfeelings,asifwedidn’tcarewhowasnotmarried,solongaswewere,’hesaid。
’Butthen,what’stobedoneaboutthevictuals?’
’Giveadinnertothepoorfolk,’shesuggested。’Wecangeteverythingusedupthatway。’
’That’strue’saidthemiller。’There’senoughof’eminthesetimestocarryoffanyextraswhatsoever。’
’AnditwillsaveBob’sfeelingswonderfully。Andtheywon’tknowthatthedinnerwasgotforanothersortofweddingandanothersortofguests;soyou’llhavetheirgood-willfornothing。’
Themillersmiledatthesubtletyoftheview。’Thatcanhardlybecalledfair,’hesaid。’Still,Ididmeansomeofitforthem,forthefriendswemeanttoaskwouldnothaveclearedall。’
Uponthewholetheideapleasedhimwell,particularlywhenhenoticedtheforlornlookofhissailorsonashewalkedabouttheplace,andpicturedtheinevitablyjarringeffectoffiddlesandtambourinesuponBob’sshatterednervesatsuchacrisis,evenifthenotesoftheformerweredulledbytheapplicationofamute,andBobshutupinadistantbedroom——aplanwhichhadatfirstoccurredtohim。HethereforetoldBobthatthesurchargedlarderwastobeemptiedbythecharitableprocessabovealludedto,andhopedhewouldnotmindmakinghimselfusefulinsuchagoodandgloomywork。Bobreadilyfellinwiththescheme,anditwasatonceputinhandandthetablesspread。
Thealacritywithwhichthesubstitutedweddingwascarriedout,seemedtoshowthattheworthypairofneighbourswouldhavejoinedthemselvesintoonelongago,hadtherepreviouslyoccurredanydomesticincidentdictatingsuchastepasanappositeexpedient,apartfromtheirpersonalwishtomarry。
Theappointedmorningcame,andtheservicequietlytookplaceatthecheerfulhouroften,inthefaceofatriangularcongregation,ofwhichthebasewasthefrontpew,andtheapexthewestdoor。
Mrs。GarlanddressedherselfinthemuslinshawllikeQueenCharlotte’s,thatBobhadbroughthome,andherbestplum-colouredgown,beneathwhichpeepedouthershoeswithredrosettes。Annewaspresent,butsheconsideratelytonedherselfdown,soasnottotooseriouslydamagehermother’sappearance。Atmomentsduringtheceremonyshehadadistressingsensethatsheoughtnottobeborn,andwasgladtogethomeagain。
Theinterestexcitedinthevillage,thoughreal,washardlyenoughtobringaseriousblushtothefaceofcoyness。Neighbours’mindshadbecomesosaturatedbytheabundanceofshowymilitaryandregalincidentlatelyvouchsafedtothem,thattheweddingofmiddle-agedcivilianswasofsmallaccount,exceptinginsofarthatitsolvedthequestionwhetherornotMrs。Garlandwouldconsiderherselftoogenteeltomatewithagrinderofcorn。
Intheevening,Loveday’sheartwasmadegladbyseeingthebakedandboiledinrapidprocessofconsumptionbythekitchenfulofpeopleassembledforthatpurpose。Three-quartersofanhourweresufficienttobanishforeverhisfearsastospoiltfood。Theprovisionsbeingthecauseoftheassembly,andnotitsconsequence,ithadbeendeterminedtogetallthatwouldnotkeepconsumedonthatday,evenifhighwaysandhedgeshadtobesearchedforoperators。And,inadditiontothepoorandneedy,everycottager’sdaughterknowntothemillerwasinvited,andtoldtobringherloverfromcamp——anexpedientwhich,forlettingdaylightintotheinsideoffullplatters,wasamongthemosthappyeverknown。
WhileMr。andMrs。Loveday,Anne,andBobwerestandingintheparlour,discussingtheprogressoftheentertainmentinthenextroom,John,whohadnotbeendownallday,enteredthehouseandlookedinuponthemthroughtheopendoor。
’How’sthis,John?Whydidn’tyoucomebefore?’
’Hadtoseethecaptain,and——otherduties,’saidthetrumpet-major,inatonewhichshowednogreatzealforexplanations。
’Well,comein,however,’continuedthemiller,ashissonremainedwithhishandonthedoor-post,surveyingthemreflectively。
’Icannotstaylong,’saidJohn,advancing。’TheRouteiscome,andwearegoingaway。’
’Goingaway!Whereto?’
’ToExonbury。’
’When?’
’Fridaymorning。’
’Allofyou?’
’Yes;someto-morrowandsomenextday。TheKinggoesnextweek。’
’Iamsorryforthis,’saidthemiller,notexpressinghalfhissorrowbythesimpleutterance。’Iwishyoucouldhavebeenhereto-day,sincethisisthecase,’headded,lookingatthehorizonthroughthewindow。
Mrs。Lovedayalsoexpressedherregret,whichseemedtoremindthetrumpet-majoroftheeventoftheday,andhewenttoherandtriedtosaysomethingbefittingtheoccasion。Annehadnotsaidthatshewaseithersorryorglad,butJohnLovedayfanciedthatshehadlookedratherrelievedthanotherwisewhensheheardhisnews。HisconversationwithBobonthedownmadeBob’smanner,too,remarkablycool,notwithstandingthathehadafterallfollowedhisbrother’sadvice,whichitwasasyettoosoonaftertheeventforhimtorightlyvalue。Johndidnotknowwhythesailorhadcomeback,neversupposingthatitwasbecausehehadthoughtbetterofgoing,andsaidtohimprivately,’Youdidn’tovertakeher?’
’Ididn’ttryto,’saidBob。
’Andyouarenotgoingto?’
’No;Ishallletherdrift。’
’Iamgladindeed,Bob;youhavebeenwise,’saidJohnheartily。
Bob,however,stilllovedMatildatoowelltobeotherthandissatisfiedwithJohnandtheeventthathehadprecipitated,whichtheelderbrotheronlytoopromptlyperceived;anditmadehisstaythateveningofshortduration。Beforeleavinghesaidwithsomehesitationtohisfather,includingAnneandhermotherbyhisglance,’Doyouthinktocomeupandseeusoff?’
Themilleransweredforthemall,andsaidthatofcoursetheywouldcome。’Butyou’llstepdownagainbetweennowandthen?’heinquired。
’I’lltryto。’Headdedafterapause,’IncaseIshouldnot,rememberthatRevalleywillsoundathalfpastfive;weshallleaveabouteight。Nextsummer,perhaps,weshallcomeandcamphereagain。’
’Ihopeso,’saidhisfatherandMrs。Loveday。
TherewassomethinginJohn’smannerwhichindicatedtoAnnethathescarcelyintendedtocomedownagain;buttheothersdidnotnoticeit,andshesaidnothing。Hedepartedafewminuteslater,intheduskoftheAugustevening,leavingAnnestillindoubtastothemeaningofhisprivatemeetingwithMissJohnson。
JohnLovedayhadbeengoingtotellthemthatonthelastnight,byanespecialprivilege,itwouldbeinhispowertocomeandstaywiththemuntileleveno’clock,butatthemomentofleavingheabandonedtheintention。Anne’sattitudehadchilledhim,andmadehimanxioustobeoff。Heutilizedthesparehoursofthatlastnightinanotherway。
Thiswasbycomingdownfromtheoutskirtsofthecampintheevening,andseatinghimselfnearthebrinkofthemill-pondassoonasitwasquitedark;wherehewatchedthelightsinthedifferentwindowstilloneappearedinAnne’sbedroom,andsheherselfcameforwardtoshutthecasement,withthecandleinherhand。Thelightshoneoutuponthebroadanddeepmill-head,illuminatingtoadistinctindividualityeverymothandgnatthatenteredthequiveringchainofradiancestretchingacrossthewatertowardshim,andeverybubbleoratomoffroththatfloatedintoitswidth。Shestoodforsometimelookingout,littlethinkingwhatthedarknessconcealedontheothersideofthatwidestream;tillatlengthsheclosedthecasement,drewthecurtains,andretreatedintotheroom。
Presentlythelightwentout,uponwhichJohnLovedayreturnedtocampandlaydowninhistent。
Thenextmorningwasdullandwindy,andthetrumpetsofthe——thsoundedReveilleforthelasttimeonOvercombeDown。KnowingthattheDragoonsweregoingaway,Annehadsleptheedfully,andwasatonceawakenedbythesmartnotes。Shelookedoutofthewindow,tofindthatthemillerwasalreadyastir,hiswhiteformbeingvisibleattheendofhisgarden,wherehestoodmotionless,watchingthepreparations。Annealsolookedonaswellasshecouldthroughthedimgreygloom,andsoonshesawthebluesmokefromthecooks’
firescreepingfitfullyalongtheground,insteadofrisinginverticalcolumns,asithaddoneduringthefineweatherseason。
Thenthemenbegantocarrytheirbeddingtothewaggons,andotherstothrowallrefuseintothetrenches,tillthedownwaslivelyasanant-hill。AnnedidnotwanttoseeJohnLovedayagain,buthearingthehouseholdastir,shebegantodressatleisure,lookingoutatthecampthewhile。
Whenthesoldiershadbreakfasted,shesawthemsellingandgivingawaytheirsuperfluouscrockerytothenativeswhohadclusteredround;andthentheypulleddownandclearedawaythetemporarykitchenswhichtheyhadconstructedwhentheycame。Atappingoftent-pegsandwrigglingofpicket-postsfollowed,andsoontheconesofwhitecanvas,nowalmostbecomeacomponentpartofthelandscape,felltotheground。Atthismomentthemillercameindoorsandaskedatthefootofthestairsifanybodywasgoingupthehillwithhim。
Annefeltthat,inspiteofthecloudhangingoverJohninhermind,itwouldillbecomethepresentmomentnottoseehimoff,andshewentdownstairstohermother,whowasalreadythere,thoughBobwasnowheretobeseen。Eachtookanarmofthemiller,andthusclimbedtothetopofthehill。Bythistimethemenandhorseswereattheplaceofassembly,and,shortlyafterthemill-partyreachedlevelground,thetroopsslowlybegantomoveforward。Whenthetrumpet-major,halfburiedinhisuniform,arms,andhorse-furniture,drewneartothespotwheretheLovedayswerewaitingtoseehimpass,hisfatherturnedanxiouslytoAnneandsaid,’YouwillshakehandswithJohn?’
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