Rawdon,finally,wereofcourseinvited;asbecamethefriendsofaGeneralcommandingacavalrybrigade。
Ontheappointednight,George,havingcommandednewdressesandornamentsofallsortsforAmelia,drovetothefamousball,wherehiswifedidnotknowasinglesoul。AfterlookingaboutforLadyBareacres,whocuthim,thinkingthecardwasquiteenough——andafterplacingAmeliaonabench,helefthertoherowncogitationsthere,thinking,onhisownpart,thathehadbehavedveryhandsomelyingettinghernewclothes,andbringinghertotheball,whereshewasfreetoamuseherselfassheliked。Herthoughtswerenotofthepleasantest,andnobodyexcepthonestDobbincametodisturbthem。
Whilstherappearancewasanutterfailureasherhusbandfeltwithasortofrage,Mrs。RawdonCrawley’sdebutwas,onthecontrary,verybrilliant。Shearrivedverylate。Herfacewasradiant;herdressperfection。Inthemidstofthegreatpersonsassembled,andtheeye-
glassesdirectedtoher,RebeccaseemedtobeascoolandcollectedaswhensheusedtomarshalMissPinkerton’slittlegirlstochurch。Numbersofthemensheknewalready,andthedandiesthrongedroundher。Asfortheladies,itwaswhisperedamongthemthatRawdonhadrunawaywithherfromoutofaconvent,andthatshewasarelationoftheMontmorencyfamily。ShespokeFrenchsoperfectlythattheremightbesometruthinthisreport,anditwasagreedthathermannerswerefine,andherairdistingue。Fiftywould-bepartnersthrongedroundheratonce,andpressedtohavethehonourtodancewithher。Butshesaidshewasengaged,andonlygoingtodanceverylittle;andmadeherwayatoncetotheplacewhereEmmysatequiteunnoticed,anddismallyunhappy。Andso,tofinishthepoorchildatonce,Mrs。RawdonranandgreetedaffectionatelyherdearestAmelia,andbeganforthwithtopatroniseher。
Shefoundfaultwithherfriend’sdress,andherhairdresser,andwonderedhowshecouldbesochaussee,andvowedthatshemustsendhercorsetierethenextmorning。Shevowedthatitwasadelightfulball;thattherewaseverybodythateveryoneknew,andonlyaVERYfewnobodiesinthewholeroom。Itisafact,thatinafortnight,andafterthreedinnersingeneralsociety,thisyoungwomanhadgotupthegenteeljargonsowell,thatanativecouldnotspeakitbetter;anditwasonlyfromherFrenchbeingsogood,thatyoucouldknowshewasnotabornwomanoffashion。
George,whohadleftEmmyonherbenchonenteringtheball-room,verysoonfoundhiswaybackwhenRebeccawasbyherdearfriend’sside。BeckywasjustlecturingMrs。Osborneuponthefollieswhichherhusbandwascommitting。”ForGod’ssake,stophimfromgambling,mydear。”shesaid,“orhewillruinhimself。
HeandRawdonareplayingatcardseverynight,andyouknowheisverypoor,andRawdonwillwineveryshillingfromhimifhedoesnottakecare。Whydon’tyoupreventhim,youlittlecarelesscreature?Whydon’tyoucometousofanevening,insteadofmopingathomewiththatCaptainDobbin?Idaresayheistresaimable;
buthowcouldoneloveamanwithfeetofsuchsize?
Yourhusband’sfeetaredarlings——Herehecomes。Wherehaveyoubeen,wretch?HereisEmmycryinghereyesoutforyou。Areyoucomingtofetchmeforthequadrille?”
AndsheleftherbouquetandshawlbyAmelia’sside,andtrippedoffwithGeorgetodance。Womenonlyknowhowtowoundso。Thereisapoisononthetipsoftheirlittleshafts,whichstingsathousandtimesmorethanaman’sblunterweapon。OurpoorEmmy,whohadneverhated,neversneeredallherlife,waspowerlessinthehandsofherremorselesslittleenemy。
GeorgedancedwithRebeccatwiceorthrice——howmanytimesAmeliascarcelyknew。Shesatquiteunnoticedinhercorner,exceptwhenRawdoncameupwithsomewordsofclumsyconversation:andlaterintheevening,whenCaptainDobbinmadesoboldastobringherrefreshmentsandsitbesideher。Hedidnotliketoaskherwhyshewassosad;butasapretextforthetearswhichwerefillinginhereyes,shetoldhimthatMrs。CrawleyhadalarmedherbytellingherthatGeorgewouldgoonplaying。
“Itiscurious,whenamanisbentuponplay,bywhatclumsyrogueshewillallowhimselftobecheated。”
Dobbinsaid;andEmmysaid,“Indeed。”Shewasthinkingofsomethingelse。Itwasnotthelossofthemoneythatgrievedher。
AtlastGeorgecamebackforRebecca’sshawlandflowers。Shewasgoingaway。Shedidnotevencondescendtocomebackandsaygood-byetoAmelia。Thepoorgirlletherhusbandcomeandgowithoutsayingaword,andherheadfellonherbreast。Dobbinhadbeencalledaway,andwaswhisperingdeepinconversationwiththeGeneralofthedivision,hisfriend,andhadnotseenthislastparting。Georgewentawaythenwiththebouquet;butwhenhegaveittotheowner,therelayanote,coiledlikeasnakeamongtheflowers。Rebecca’seyecaughtitatonce。Shehadbeenusedtodealwithnotesinearlylife。Sheputoutherhandandtookthenosegay。Hesawbyhereyesastheymet,thatshewasawarewhatsheshouldfindthere。Herhusbandhurriedheraway,stilltoointentuponhisownthoughts,seemingly,totakenoteofanymarksofrecognitionwhichmightpassbetweenhisfriendandhiswife。Thesewere,however,buttrifling。RebeccagaveGeorgeherhandwithoneofherusualquickknowingglances,andmadeacurtseyandwalkedaway。Georgebowedoverthehand,saidnothinginreplytoaremarkofCrawley’s,didnotheariteven,hisbrainwassothrobbingwithtriumphandexcitement,andallowedthemtogoawaywithoutaword。
Hiswifesawtheonepartatleastofthebouquet-scene。
ItwasquitenaturalthatGeorgeshouldcomeatRebecca’srequesttogetherherscarfandflowers:itwasnomorethanhehaddonetwentytimesbeforeinthecourseofthelastfewdays;butnowitwastoomuchforher。
“William。”shesaid,suddenlyclingingtoDobbin,whowasnearher,“you’vealwaysbeenverykindtome——I’m——
I’mnotwell。Takemehome。”ShedidnotknowshecalledhimbyhisChristianname,asGeorgewasaccustomedtodo。Hewentawaywithherquickly。Herlodgingswerehardby;andtheythreadedthroughthecrowdwithout,whereeverythingseemedtobemoreastirthanevenintheball-roomwithin。
Georgehadbeenangrytwiceorthriceatfindinghiswifeuponhisreturnfromthepartieswhichhefrequented:soshewentstraighttobednow;butalthoughshedidnotsleep,andalthoughthedinandclatter,andthegallopingofhorsemenwereincessant,sheneverheardanyofthesenoises,havingquiteotherdisturbancestokeepherawake。
Osbornemeanwhile,wildwithelation,wentofftoaplay-table,andbegantobetfrantically。Hewonrepeatedly。
“Everythingsucceedswithmeto-night。”hesaid。
Buthisluckatplayevendidnotcurehimofhisrestlessness,andhestartedupafterawhile,pocketinghiswinnings,andwenttoabuffet,wherehedrankoffmanybumpersofwine。
Here,ashewasrattlingawaytothepeoplearound,laughingloudlyandwildwithspirits,Dobbinfoundhim。
Hehadbeentothecard-tablestolookthereforhisfriend。Dobbinlookedaspaleandgraveashiscomradewasflushedandjovial。
’’Hullo,Dob!Comeanddrink,oldDob!TheDuke’swineisfamous。Givemesomemore,yousir“;andheheldoutatremblingglassfortheliquor。
“Comeout,George。”saidDobbin,stillgravely;“don’tdrink。”
“Drink!there’snothinglikeit。Drinkyourself,andlightupyourlanternjaws,oldboy。Here’stoyou。”
Dobbinwentupandwhisperedsomethingtohim,atwhichGeorge,givingastartandawildhurray,tossedoffhisglass,clappeditonthetable,andwalkedawayspeedilyonhisfriend’sarm。”TheenemyhaspassedtheSambre。”Williamsaid,“andourleftisalreadyengaged。
Comeaway。Wearetomarchinthreehours。”
AwaywentGeorge,hisnervesquiveringwithexcitementatthenewssolonglookedfor,sosuddenwhenitcame。Whatwereloveandintriguenow?Hethoughtaboutathousandthingsbuttheseinhisrapidwalktohisquarters——hispastlifeandfuturechances——thefatewhichmightbebeforehim——thewife,thechildperhaps,fromwhomunseenhemightbeabouttopart。Oh,howhewishedthatnight’sworkundone!andthatwithaclearconscienceatleasthemightsayfarewelltothetenderandguilelessbeingbywhoselovehehadsetsuchlittlestore!
Hethoughtoverhisbriefmarriedlife。Inthosefewweekshehadfrightfullydissipatedhislittlecapital。Howwildandrecklesshehadbeen!Shouldanymischancebefallhim:whatwasthenleftforher?Howunworthyhewasofher。Whyhadhemarriedher?Hewasnotfitformarriage。Whyhadhedisobeyedhisfather,whohadbeenalwayssogeneroustohim?Hope,remorse,ambition,tenderness,andselfishregretfilledhisheart。Hesatedownandwrotetohisfather,rememberingwhathehadsaidoncebefore,whenhewasengagedtofightaduel。
Dawnfaintlystreakedtheskyasheclosedthisfarewellletter。Hesealedit,andkissedthesuperscription。Hethoughthowhehaddesertedthatgenerousfather,andofthethousandkindnesseswhichthesternoldmanhaddonehim。
HehadlookedintoAmelia’sbedroomwhenheentered;
shelayquiet,andhereyesseemedclosed,andhewasgladthatshewasasleep。Onarrivingathisquartersfromtheball,hehadfoundhisregimentalservantalreadymakingpreparationsforhisdeparture:themanhadunderstoodhissignaltobestill,andthesearrangementswereveryquicklyandsilentlymade。ShouldhegoinandwakeAmelia,hethought,orleaveanoteforherbrothertobreakthenewsofdeparturetoher?Hewentintolookatheronceagain。
Shehadbeenawakewhenhefirstenteredherroom,buthadkepthereyesclosed,sothatevenherwakefulnessshouldnotseemtoreproachhim。Butwhenhehadreturned,sosoonafterherself,too,thistimidlittlehearthadfeltmoreatease,andturningtowardshimashesteptsoftlyoutoftheroom,shehadfallenintoalightsleep。Georgecameinandlookedatheragain,enteringstillmoresoftly。Bythepalenight-lamphecouldseehersweet,paleface——thepurpleeyelidswerefringedandclosed,andoneroundarm,smoothandwhite,layoutsideofthecoverlet。GoodGod!howpureshewas;howgentle,howtender,andhowfriendless!andhe,howselfish,brutal,andblackwithcrime!Heart-stained,andshame-stricken,hestoodatthebed’sfoot,andlookedatthesleepinggirl。Howdaredhe——whowashe,toprayforonesospotless!Godblessher!Godblessher!Hecametothebedside,andlookedatthehand,thelittlesofthand,lyingasleep;andhebentoverthepillownoiselesslytowardsthegentlepaleface。
Twofairarmsclosedtenderlyroundhisneckashestoopeddown。”Iamawake,George。”thepoorchildsaid,withasobfittobreakthelittleheartthatnestledsocloselybyhisown。Shewasawake,poorsoul,andtorailingsandthebeadle:who,ifshewalkedeversoshortadistancetobuyaribboninSouthamptonRow,wasfollowedbyBlackSambowithanenormouscane:whowasalwayscaredfor,dressed,puttobed,andwatchedoverbyeversomanyguardianangels,withandwithoutwages?BonDieu,Isay,isitnothardthatthefatefulrushofthegreatImperialstrugglecan’ttakeplacewithoutaffectingapoorlittleharmlessgirlofeighteen,whoisoccupiedinbillingandcooing,orworkingmuslincollarsinRussellSquare?Youtoo,kindly,homelyflower!——
isthegreatroaringwartempestcomingtosweepyoudown,here,althoughcoweringundertheshelterofHolborn?Yes;Napoleonisflinginghislaststake,andpoorlittleEmmySedley’shappinessforms,somehow,partofit。
Inthefirstplace,herfather’sfortunewassweptdownwiththatfatalnews。Allhisspeculationshadoflategonewrongwiththelucklessoldgentleman。Ventureshadfailed;merchantshadbroken;fundshadrisenwhenhecalculatedtheywouldfall。Whatneedtoparticularize?
Ifsuccessisrareandslow,everybodyknowshowquickandeasyruinis。OldSedleyhadkepthisownsadcounsel。
Everythingseemedtogoonasusualinthequiet,opulenthouse;thegood-naturedmistresspursuing,quiteunsuspiciously,herbustlingidleness,anddailyeasyavocations;thedaughterabsorbedstillinoneselfish,tenderthought,andquiteregardlessofalltheworldbesides,whenthatfinalcrashcame,underwhichtheworthyfamilyfell。
OnenightMrs。Sedleywaswritingcardsforaparty;
theOsborneshadgivenone,andshemustnotbebehindhand;JohnSedley,whohadcomehomeverylatefromtheCity,satesilentatthechimneyside,whilehiswifewasprattlingtohim;Emmyhadgoneuptoherroomailingandlow-spirited。”She’snothappy。”themotherwenton。”GeorgeOsborneneglectsher。I’venopatiencewiththeairsofthosepeople。Thegirlshavenotbeeninthehousethesethreeweeks;andGeorgehasbeentwiceintownwithoutcoming。EdwardDalesawhimattheOpera。EdwardwouldmarryherI’msure:andthere’sCaptainDobbinwho,Ithink,would——onlyIhateallarmymen。SuchadandyasGeorgehasbecome。Withhismilitaryairs,indeed!Wemustshowsomefolksthatwe’reasgoodasthey。OnlygiveEdwardDaleanyencouragement,andyou’llsee。Wemusthaveaparty,Mr。
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