Howdidwecometogososoon?”
“Well,we’llhavetohaveatalkoverallthis。”saidJimwithasuddenstart。“Ishouldbegettingtomybooks;andIguessyouhadbettergouprightawaytoMamie。She’satSpeedy’s。Sheexpectsyouwithimpatience。Sheregardsyouinthelightofafavouritebrother,Loudon。”
Anyschemewaswelcomewhichallowedmetopostponethehourofexplanation,andavoidwereitonlyforabreathingspacethetopicoftheFlyingScud。IhastenedaccordinglytoBushStreet。Mrs。Speedy,alreadyrejoicinginthereturnofaspouse,hailedmewithacclamation。“Andit’sbeautifulyou’relooking,Mr。Dodd,mydear。”shewaskindenoughtosay。
“Andamiracletheynaygurwaheeniesletyelavetheoilands。I
havemysuspicionsofShpeedy。”sheadded,roguishly。“Didyeseehimafterthenaygressesnow?”
IgaveSpeedyanunblemishedcharacter。
“Theoneofyewillniverbethraytheother。”saidtheplayfuldame,andusheredmeintoabareroom,whereMamiesatworkingatype-writer。
Iwastouchedbythecordialityofhergreeting。Withtheprettiestgestureintheworldshegavemebothherhands;
wheeledforthachair;andproduced,fromacupboard,atinofmyfavouritetobacco,andabookofmyexclusivecigarettepapers。
“There!”shecried;“yousee,Mr。Loudon,wewereallpreparedforyou;thethingswereboughttheverydayyousailed。”
Iimaginedshehadalwaysintendedmeapleasantwelcome;
butthecertainfervourofsincerity,whichIcouldnothelpremarking,flowedfromanunexpectedsource。CaptainNares,withakindnessforwhichIcanneverbesufficientlygrateful,hadstolenamomentfromhisoccupations,driventocallonMamie,anddrawnheragenerouspictureofmyprowessatthewreck。Shewascarefulnottobreatheawordofthisinterview,tillshehadledmeontotellmyadventuresformyself。
“Ah!CaptainNareswasbetter。”shecried,whenIhaddone。
“Fromyouraccount,Ihaveonlylearnedonenewthing,thatyouaremodestaswellasbrave。”
IcannottellwithwhatsortofdisclamationIsoughttoreply。
“Itisofnouse。”saidMamie。“Iknowahero。AndwhenI
heardofyouworkingalldaylikeacommonlabourer,withyourhandsbleedingandyournailsbroken——andhowyoutoldthecaptainto’crackon’Ithinkhesaidinthestorm,whenhewasterrifiedhimself——andthedangerofthathorridmutiny“——
Nareshadbeenobliginglydippinghisbrushinearthquakeandeclipse——“andhowitwasalldone,inpartatleast,forJimandme——Ifeltwecouldneversayhowweadmiredandthankedyou。”
“Mamie。”Icried,“don’ttalkofthanks;itisnotawordtobeusedbetweenfriends。JimandIhavebeenprosperoustogether;nowweshallbepoortogether。We’vedoneourbest,andthat’sallthatneedbesaid。Thenextthingisformetofindasituation,andsendyouandJimupcountryforalongholidayintheredwoods——foraholidayJimhasgottohave。”
“Jimcan’ttakeyourmoney,Mr。Loudon。”saidMamie。
“Jim?”criedI。“He’sgotto。Didn’tItakehis?”
Presentlyafter,Jimhimselfarrived,andbeforehehadyetdonemoppinghisbrow,hewasatmewiththeaccursedsubject。
“Now,Loudon。”saidhe,“herewearealltogether,theday’sworkdoneandtheeveningbeforeus;juststartinwiththewholestory。”
“Onewordonbusinessfirst。”saidI,speakingfromthelipsoutward,andmeanwhileintheprivateapartmentsofmybraintryingforthethousandthtimetofindsomeplausiblearrangementofmystory。“Iwanttohaveanotionhowwestandaboutthebankruptcy。”
“O,that’sancienthistory。”criedJim。“Wepaidsevencents,andawonderwedidaswell。Thereceiver——“methoughtaspasmseizedhimatthenameofthisofficial,andhebrokeoff。
“Butit’sallpastanddonewithanyway;andwhatIwanttogetatisthefactsaboutthewreck。Idon’tseemtounderstandit;
appearstomelikeastherewassomethingunderneath。”
“TherewasnothingINit,anyway。”Isaid,withaforcedlaugh。
“That’swhatIwanttojudgeof。”returnedJim。
“HowthemischiefisitIcanneverkeepyoutothatbankruptcy?Itlooksasifyouavoidedit。”saidI——foramaninmysituation,withunpardonablefolly。
“Don’titlookalittleasifyouweretryingtoavoidthewreck?”
askedJim。
Itwasmyowndoing;therewasnoretreat。“Mydearfellow,ifyoumakeapointofit,heregoes!”saidI,andlaunchedwithspuriousgaietyintothecurrentofmytale。Itolditwithpointandspirit;describedtheislandandthewreck,mimickedAndersonandtheChinese,maintainedthesuspense。Mypenhasstumbledonthefatalword。Imaintainedthesuspensesowellthatitwasneverrelieved;andwhenIstopped——Idarenotsayconcluded,wheretherewasnoconclusion——IfoundJimandMamieregardingmewithsurprise。
“Well?”saidJim。
“Well,that’sall。”saidI。
“Buthowdoyouexplainit?”heasked。
“Ican’texplainit。”saidI。
Mamiewaggedherheadominously。
“But,greatCaesar’sghost!themoneywasoffered!”criedJim。
“Itwon’tdo,Loudon;it’snonsense,onthefaceofit!Idon’tsaybutwhatyouandNaresdidyourbest;I’msure,ofcourse,youdid;butIdosay,yougotfooled。Isaythestuffisinthatshipto-day,andIsayImeantogetit。”
“Thereisnothingintheship,Itellyou,butoldwoodandiron!”
saidI。
“You’llsee。”saidJim。“NexttimeIgomyself。I’lltakeMamieforthetrip;Longhurstwon’trefusemetheexpenseofaschooner。YouwaittillIgetthesearchingofher。”
“Butyoucan’tsearchher!”criedI。“She’sburned。”
“Burned!”criedMamie,startingalittlefromtheattitudeofquiescentcapacityinwhichshehadhithertosattohearme,herhandsfoldedinherlap。
Therewasanappreciablepause。
“Ibegyourpardon,Loudon。”beganJimatlast,“butwhyinsnakesdidyouburnher?”
“ItwasanideaofNares’s。”saidI。
“Thisiscertainlythestrangestcircumstanceofall。”observedMamie。
“Imustsay,Loudon,itdoesseemkindofunexpected。”addedJim。“Itseemskindofcrazyeven。Whatdidyou——whatdidNaresexpecttogainbyburningher?”
“Idon’tknow;itdidn’tseemtomatter;wehadgotalltherewastoget。”saidI。
“That’stheverypoint。”criedJim。“Itwasquiteplainyouhadn’t。”
“Whatmadeyousosure?”askedMamie。
“HowcanItellyou?”Icried。“Wehadbeenallthroughher。
WeWEREsure;that’sallthatIcansay。”
“Ibegintothinkyouwere。”shereturned,withasignificantemphasis。
Jimhurriedlyintervened。“WhatIdon’tquitemakeout,Loudon,isthatyoudon’tseemtoappreciatethepeculiaritiesofthething。”saidhe。“Itdoesn’tseemtohavestruckyousameasitdoesme。”
“Pshaw!whygoonwiththis?”criedMamie,suddenlyrising。
“Mr。Doddisnottellinguseitherwhathethinksorwhatheknows。”
“Mamie!”criedJim。
“Youneednotbeconcernedforhisfeelings,James;heisnotconcernedforyours。”returnedthelady。“Hedarenotdenyit,besides。Andthisisnotthefirsttimehehaspractisedreticence。Haveyouforgottenthatheknewtheaddress,anddidnottellityouuntilthatmanhadescaped?”
Jimturnedtomepleadingly——wewereallonourfeet。
“Loudon。”hesaid,“youseeMamiehassomefancy;andImustsaythere’sjustasortofashadowofanexcuse;foritIS
bewildering——eventome,Loudon,withmytrainedbusinessintelligence。ForGod’ssake,clearitup。”
“Thisservesmeright。”saidI。“Ishouldnothavetriedtokeepyouinthedark;IshouldhavetoldyouatfirstthatIwaspledgedtosecrecy;Ishouldhaveaskedyoutotrustmeinthebeginning。ItisallIcandonow。Thereismoreofthestory,butitconcernsnoneofus,andmytongueistied。Ihavegivenmywordofhonour。Youmusttrustmeandtrytoforgiveme。”
“IdaresayIamverystupid,Mr。Dodd。”beganMamie,withanalarmingsweetness,“butIthoughtyouwentuponthistripasmyhusband’srepresentativeandwithmyhusband’smoney?
Youtellusnowthatyouarepledged,butIshouldhavethoughtyouwerepledgedfirstofalltoJames。Yousayitdoesnotconcernus;wearepoorpeople,andmyhusbandissick,anditconcernsusagreatdealtounderstandhowwecometohavelostourmoney,andwhyourrepresentativecomesbacktouswithnothing。Youaskthatweshouldtrustyou;youdonotseemtounderstand;thequestionweareaskingourselvesiswhetherwehavenottrustedyoutoomuch。”
“Idonotaskyoutotrustme。”Ireplied。“IaskJim。Heknowsme。”
“YouthinkyoucandowhatyoupleasewithJames;youtrusttohisaffection,doyounot?Andme,Isuppose,youdonotconsider。”saidMamie。“Butitwasperhapsanunfortunatedayforyouwhenweweremarried,forIatleastamnotblind。Thecrewrunaway,theshipissoldforagreatdealofmoney,youknowthatman’saddressandyouconcealit,youdonotfindwhatyouweresenttolookfor,andyetyouburntheship;andnow,whenweaskexplanations,youarepledgedtosecrecy!
ButIampledgedtonosuchthing;Iwillnotstandbyinsilenceandseemysickandruinedhusbandbetrayedbyhiscondescendingfriend。Iwillgiveyouthetruthforonce。Mr。
Dodd,youhavebeenboughtandsold。”
“Mamie。”criedJim,“nomoreofthis!It’smeyou’restriking;
it’sonlymeyouhurt。Youdon’tknow,youcannotunderstandthesethings。Why,to-day,ifithadn’tbeenforLoudon,I
couldn’thavelookedyouintheface。Hesavedmyhonesty。”
“Ihaveheardplentyofthistalkbefore。”shereplied。“Youareasweet-heartedfool,andIloveyouforit。ButIamaclear-
headedwoman;myeyesareopen,andIunderstandthisman’shypocrisy。Didhenotcomehereto-dayandpretendhewouldtakeasituation——pretendhewouldsharehishard-earnedwageswithusuntilyouwerewell?Pretend!Itmakesmefurious!
Hiswages!ashareofhiswages!Thatwouldhavebeenyourpittance,thatwouldhavebeenyourshareoftheFlyingScud——youwhoworkedandtoiledforhimwhenhewasabeggarinthestreetsofParis。Butwedonotwantyourcharity;
thankGod,Icanworkformyownhusband!Seewhatitistohaveobligedagentleman。Hewouldletyoupickhimupwhenhewasbegging;hewouldstandandlookon,andletyoublackhisshoes,andsneeratyou。ForyouwerealwayssneeringatmyJames;youalwayslookeddownuponhiminyourheart,youknowit!”SheturnedbacktoJim。“Andnowwhenheisrich。”shebegan,andthenswoopedagainonme。“Foryouarerich,Idareyoutodenyit;Idefyyoutolookmeinthefaceandtrytodenythatyouarerich——richwithourmoney——myhusband’smoney——“
Heavenknowstowhataheightshemighthaverisen,being,bythistime,bodilywhirledawayinherownhurricaneofwords。
Heart-sickness,ablackdepression,atreacheroussympathywithmyassailant,pityunutterableforpoorJim,alreadyfilled,divided,andabashedmyspirit。Flightseemedtheonlyremedy;andmakingaprivatesigntoJim,asiftoaskpermission,Islunkfromtheunequalfield。
Iwasbutalittlewaydownthestreet,whenIwasarrestedbythesoundofsomeonerunning,andJim’svoicecallingmebyname。Hehadfollowedmewithaletterwhichhadbeenlongawaitingmyreturn。
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