Bessiewithdrew,scrubbinghercheekwitharaggedpocket-handkerchiefThetwomenlookedateachother。
’You’reaman,’saidTorpenhow。
’I’mafraidI’vebeenafoolItisn’tourbusinesstorunabouttheearthreformingBessieBrokesAndawomanofanykindhasnorightonthislanding。’
’Perhapsshewon’tcomeback。’
’ShewillifshethinksshecangetfoodandwarmthhereIknowshewill,worseluckButremember,oldman,sheisn’tawoman;she’smymodel;
andbecareful。’
’Theidea!She’sadissolutelittlescarecrow,——agutter-snippetandnothingmore。’
’SoyouthinkWaittillshehasbeenfedalittleandfreedfromfearThatfairtyperecoversitselfveryquicklyYouwon’tknowherinaweekortwo,whenthatabjectfearhasdiedoutofhereyesShe’llbetoohappyandsmilingformypurposes。’
’Butsurelyyou’renottakingheroutofcharity?——topleaseme?’
’Iamnotinthehabitofplayingwithhotcoalstopleaseanybody。
Shehasbeensentfromheaven,asImayhaveremarkedbefore,tohelpmewithmyMelancolia。’
’Neverheardawordabouttheladybefore。’
’What’stheuseofhavingafriend,ifyoumustslingyournotionsathiminwords?YououghttoknowwhatI’mthinkingaboutYou’veheardmegruntlately?’
’Evenso;butgruntsmeananythinginyourlanguage,frombad’baccytowickeddealersAndIdon’tthinkI’vebeenmuchinyourconfidenceforsometime。’
’ItwasahighandsoulfulgruntYououghttohaveunderstoodthatitmeanttheMelancolia。’DickwalkedTorpenhowupanddowntheroom,keepingsilenceThenhesmotehimintheribs,’Nowdon’tyouseeit?
Bessie’sabjectfutility,andtheterrorinhereyes,weldedontooneortwodetailsinthewayofsorrowthathavecomeundermyexperiencelatelyLikewisesomeorangeandblack,——twokeysofeachButI
can’texplainonanemptystomach。’
’ItsoundsmadenoughYou’dbettersticktoyoursoldiers,Dick,insteadofmaunderingaboutheadsandeyesandexperiences。’
’Thinkso?’Dickbegantodanceonhisheels,singing——
’They’reasproudasaturkeywhentheyholdthereadycash,Yououghtto’earthewaytheylaughan’joke;
Theyaretrickyan’they’refunnywhenthey’vegotthereadymoney,——
Ow!butsee’emwhenthey’reallstone-broke。’
ThenhesatdowntopourouthishearttoMaisieinafour-sheetletterofcounselandencouragement,andregisteredanoaththathewouldgettoworkwithanundividedheartassoonasBessieshouldreappear。
Thegirlkeptherappointmentunpaintedandunadorned,afraidandoverboldbyturnsWhenshefoundthatshewasmerelyexpectedtositstill,shegrewcalmer,andcriticisedtheappointmentsofthestudiowithfreedomandsomepointShelikedthewarmthandthecomfortandthereleasefromfearofphysicalpainDickmadetwoorthreestudiesofherheadinmonochrome,buttheactualnotionoftheMelancoliawouldnotarrive。
’Whatamessyoukeepyourthingsin!’saidBessie,somedayslater,whenshefeltherselfthoroughlyathome’Is’poseyourclothesarejustasbad。
Gentlemenneverthinkwhatbuttonsandtapearemadefor。’
’Ibuythingstowear,andwear’emtilltheygotopiecesIdon’tknowwhatTorpenhowdoes。’
Bessiemadediligentinquiryinthelatter’sroom,andunearthedabaleofdisreputablesocks’SomeoftheseI’llmendnow,’shesaid,’andsomeI’lltakehomeD’youknow,Isitalldaylongathomedoingnothing,justlikealady,andnomorenoticingthemothergirlsinthehousethaniftheywassomanyfliesIdon’thaveanyunnecessarywords,butIput’emdownquick,Icantellyou,whentheytalktomeNo;it’squitenicethesedaysIlockmydoor,andtheycanonlycallmenamesthroughthekeyhole,andIsitinside,justlikealady,mendingsocksMr。
Torpenhowwearshissocksoutbothendsatonce。’
’Threequidaweekfromme,andthedelightsofmysocietyNosocksmendedNothingfromTorpexceptanodonthelandingnowandagain,andallhissocksmendedBessieisverymuchawoman,’thoughtDick;
andhelookedatherbetweenhalf-shuteyesFoodandresthadtransformedthegirl,asDickknewtheywould。
’Whatareyoulookingatmelikethatfor?’shesaidquickly’Don’t。
Youlookreg’larbadwhenyoulookthatwayYoudon’tthinkmucho’
me,doyou?’
’Thatdependsonhowyoubehave。’
BessiebehavedbeautifullyOnlyitwasdifficultattheendofasittingtobidhergooutintothegraystreetsSheverymuchpreferredthestudioandabigchairbythestove,withsomesocksinherlapasanexcusefordelayThenTorpenhowwouldcomein,andBessiewouldbemovedtotellstrangeandwonderfulstoriesofherpast,andstillstrangeronesofherpresentimprovedcircumstancesShewouldmakethemteaasthoughshehadarighttomakeit;andonceortwiceontheseoccasionsDickcaughtTorpenhow’seyesfixedonthetrimlittlefigure,andbecauseBessie’’flittingsabouttheroommadeDickardentlylongforMaisie,herealisedwhitherTorpenhow’sthoughtsweretendingAndBessiewasexceedinglycarefuloftheconditionofTorpenhow’slinenShespokeverylittletohim,butsometimestheytalkedtogetheronthelanding。
’Iwasagreatfool,’Dicksaidtohimself’Iknowwhatredfirelightlookslikewhenaman’strampingthroughastrangetown;andoursisalonely,selfishsortoflifeatthebestIwonderMaisiedoesn’tfeelthatsometimesButIcan’torderBessieawayThat’stheworstofbeginningthingsOneneverknowswheretheystop。’
Oneevening,afterasittingprolongedtothelastlimitofthelight,DickwasrousedfromanapbyabrokenvoiceinTorpenhow’sroomHejumpedtohisfeet’NowwhatoughtItodo?Itlooksfoolishtogoin——Oh,blessyou,Binkie!’ThelittleterrierthrustTorpenhow’sdooropenwithhisnoseandcameouttotakepossessionofDick’schairThedoorswungwideunheeded,andDickacrossthelandingcouldseeBessieinthehalf-lightmakingherlittlesupplicationtoTorpenhowShewaskneelingbyhisside,andherhandswereclaspedacrosshisknee。
’Iknow,——Iknow,’shesaidthickly’’Tisn’trighto’metodothis,butI
can’thelpit;andyouweresokind,——sokind;andyounevertookanynoticeo’meAndI’vemendedallyourthingssocarefully,——Idid。
Oh,please,’tisn’tasifIwasaskingyoutomarrymeIwouldn’tthinkofit。
Butyou——couldn’tyoutakeandlivewithmetillMissRightcomesalong?
I’monlyMissWrong,Iknow,butI’dworkmyhandstothebareboneforyouAndI’mnotuglytolookatSayyouwill!’
DickhardlyrecognisedTorpenhow’svoiceinreply——
’ButlookhereIt’snouseI’mliabletobeorderedoffanywhereataminute’snoticeifawarbreaksoutAtaminute’snotice——dear。’
’Whatdoesthatmatter?Untilyougo,thenUntilyougo’Tisn’tmuchI’masking,and——youdon’tknowhowgoodIcancook。’Shehadputanarmroundhisneckandwasdrawinghisheaddown。
’Until——I——go,then。’
’Torp,’saidDick,acrossthelandingHecouldhardlysteadyhisvoice。
’Comehereaminute,oldmanI’mintrouble’——’Heavensendhe’lllistentome!’TherewassomethingverylikeanoathfromBessie’slips。
ShewasafraidofDick,anddisappeareddownthestaircaseinpanic,butitseemedanagebeforeTorpenhowenteredthestudioHewenttothemantelpiece,buriedhisheadonhisarms,andgroanedlikeawoundedbull。
’Whatthedevilrighthaveyoutointerfere?’hesaid,atlast。
’Who’sinterferingwithwhich?Yourownsensetoldyoulongagoyoucouldn’tbesuchafoolItwasatoughrack,StAnthony,butyou’reallrightnow。’
’Ioughtn’ttohaveseenhermovingabouttheseroomsasiftheybelongedtoherThat’swhatupsetmeItgivesalonelymanasortofhankering,doesn’tit?’saidTorpenhow,piteously。
’NowyoutalksenseItdoesBut,sinceyouaren’tinaconditiontodiscussthedisadvantagesofdoublehousekeeping,doyouknowwhatyou’regoingtodo?’
’Idon’tIwishIdid。’
’You’regoingawayforaseasononabrillianttourtoregaintone。
You’regoingtoBrighton,orScarborough,orPrawlePoint,toseetheshipsgobyAndyou’regoingatonceIsn’titodd?I’lltakecareofBinkie,butoutyougoimmediatelyNeverresistthedevilHeholdsthebankFlyfromhimPackyourthingsandgo。’
’Ibelieveyou’rerightWhereshallIgo?’
’Andyoucallyourselfaspecialcorrespondent!Packfirstandinquireafterwards。’
AnhourlaterTorpenhowwasdespatchedintothenightforahansom。
’You’llprobablythinkofsomeplacetogotowhileyou’removing,’
saidDick’OntoEuston,tobeginwith,and——ohyes——getdrunkto-night。’
Hereturnedtothestudio,andlightedmorecandles,forhefoundtheroomverydark。
’Oh,youJezebel!youfutilelittleJezebel!Won’tyouhatemeto-morrow!——Binkie,comehere。’
Binkieturnedoveronhisbackonthehearth-rug,andDickstirredhimwithameditativefoot。
’IsaidshewasnotimmoralIwaswrongShesaidshecouldcook。
ThatshowedpremeditatedsinOh,Binkie,ifyouareamanyouwillgotoperdition;butifyouareawoman,andsaythatyoucancook,youwillgotoamuchworseplace。’
CHAPTERX
What’syouthatfollowsatmyside?——
Thefoethatyemustfight,mylord——
ThathirplesswiftasIcanride?——
Theshadowofthenight,mylord——
Thenwheelmyhorseagainstthefoe!——
He’sdownandoverpast,mylord。
Yewaragainstthesunsetglow;
Thedarknessgathersfast,mylord——
TheFightofHeriot’sFord-
’THISisacheerfullife,’saidDick,somedayslater’Torp’saway;
Bessiehatesme;Ican’tgetatthenotionoftheMelancolia;Maisie’slettersarescrappy;andIbelieveIhaveindigestionWhatgiveamanpainsacrosstheheadandspotsbeforehiseyes,Binkie?Shallustakesomeliverpills?’
DickhadjustgonethroughalivelyscenewithBessieShehadforthefiftiethtimereproachedhimforsendingTorpenhowawaySheexplainedherenduringhatredforDick,andmadeitcleartohimthatsheonlysatforthesakeofhismoney’AndMrTorpenhow’stentimesabettermanthanyou,’sheconcluded。
’HeisThat’swhyhewentawayIshouldhavestayedandmadelovetoyou。’
Thegirlsatwithherchinonherhand,scowling’Tome!I’dliketocatchyou!IfIwasn’tafraido’beinghungI’dkillyouThat’swhatI’ddo。
D’youbelieveme?’
DicksmiledwearilyItisnotpleasanttoliveinthecompanyofanotionthatwillnotworkout,afox-terrierthatcannottalk,andawomanwhotalkstoomuchHewouldhaveanswered,butatthatmomentthereunrolleditselffromonecornerofthestudioaveil,asitwere,oftheflimsiestgauzeHerubbedhiseyes,butthegrayhazewouldnotgo。
’ThisisdisgracefulindigestionBinkie,wewillgotoamedicine-manWecan’thaveoureyesinterferedwith,forbythesewegetourbread;
alsomutton-chopbonesforlittledogs。’
Thedoctorwasanaffablelocalpractitionerwithwhitehair,andhesaidnothingtillDickbegantodescribethegrayfilminthestudio。
’Weallwantalittlepatchingandrepairingfromtimetotime,’hechirped’Likeaship,mydearsir,——exactlylikeashipSometimesthehullisoutoforder,andweconsultthesurgeon;sometimestherigging,andthenIadvise;sometimestheengines,andwegotothebrain-specialist;
sometimesthelook-outonthebridgeistired,andthenweseeanoculistI
shouldrecommendyoutoseeanoculistAlittlepatchingandrepairingfromtimetotimeisallwewantAnoculist,byallmeans。’
Dicksoughtanoculist,——thebestinLondonHewascertainthatthelocalpractitionerdidnotknowanythingabouthistrade,andmorecertainthatMaisiewouldlaughathimifhewereforcedtowearspectacles。
’I’veneglectedthewarningsofmylordthestomachtoolong。
Hencethesespotsbeforetheeyes,BinkieIcanseeaswellasIevercould。’
Asheenteredthedarkhallthatledtotheconsulting-roomamancannonedagainsthimDicksawthefaceasithurriedoutintothestreet。
’That’sthewriter-typeHehasthesamemodellingoftheforeheadasTorpHelooksverysickProbablyheardsomethinghedidn’tlike。’
Evenashethought,agreatfearcameuponDick,afearthatmadehimholdhisbreathashewalkedintotheoculist’swaitingroom,withtheheavycarvedfurniture,thedark-greenpaper,andthesober-huedprintsonthewallHerecognisedareproductionofoneofhisownsketches。
ManypeoplewerewaitingtheirturnbeforehimHiseyewascaughtbyaflamingred-and-goldChristmas-carolbookLittlechildrencametothateye-doctor,andtheyneededlarge-typeamusement。
’That’sidolatrousbadArt,’hesaid,drawingthebooktowardshimself。
’Fromtheanatomyoftheangels,ithasbeenmadeinGermany。’Heopenedinmechanically,andthereleapedtohiseyesaverseprintedinredink——
ThenextgoodjoythatMaryhad,Itwasthejoyofthree,ToseehergoodSonJesusChristMakingtheblindtosee;
Makingtheblindtosee,goodLord,Andhappywemaybe。
PraiseFather,Son,andHolyGhostToalleternity!
Dickreadandre-readtheversetillhisturncame,andthedoctorwasbendingabovehimseatedinanarm-chairTheblazeofthegas-microscopeinhiseyesmadehimwinceThedoctor’shandtouchedthescarofthesword-cutonDick’shead,andDickexplainedbrieflyhowhehadcomebyitWhentheflamewasremoved,Dicksawthedoctor’sface,andthefearcameuponhimagainThedoctorwrappedhimselfinamistofwordsDickcaughtallusionsto’scar,’’frontalbone,’’opticnerve,’’extremecaution,’andthe’avoidanceofmentalanxiety。’
’Verdict?’hesaidfaintly’Mybusinessispainting,andIdaren’twastetimeWhatdoyoumakeofit?’
Againthewhirlofwords,butthistimetheyconveyedameaning。
’Canyougivemeanythingtodrink?’
Manysentenceswerepronouncedinthatdarkenedroom,andtheprisonersoftenneededcheeringDickfoundaglassofliqueurbrandyinhishand。
’AsfarasIcangather,’hesaid,coughingabovethespirit,’youcallitdecayoftheopticnerve,orsomething,andthereforehopeless。
Whatismytime-limit,avoidingallstrainandworry?’
’Perhapsoneyear。’
’MyGod!AndifIdon’ttakecareofmyself?’
’IreallycouldnotsayOnecannotascertaintheexactamountofinjuryinflictedbythesword-cutThescarisanoldone,and——exposuretothestronglightofthedesert,didyousay?——withexcessiveapplicationtofinework?Ireallycouldnotsay?’
’Ibegyourpardon,butithascomewithoutanywarningIfyouwillletme,I’llsithereforaminute,andthenI’llgoYouhavebeenverygoodintellingmethetruthWithoutanywarning;withoutanywarning。
Thanks。’
Dickwentintothestreet,andwasrapturouslyreceivedbyBinkie。
’We’vegotitverybadly,littledog!Justasbadlyaswecangetit。
We’llgototheParktothinkitout。’
TheyheadedforacertaintreethatDickknewwell,andtheysatdowntothin,becausehislegsweretremblingunderhimandtherewascoldfearatthepitofhisstomach。
’Howcouldithavecomewithoutanywarning?It’sassuddenasbeingshotIt’sthelivingdeath,BinkieWe’retobeshutupinthedarkinoneyearifwe’recareful,andweshan’tseeanybody,andweshallneverhaveanythingwewant,notthoughwelivetobeahundred!’Binkiewaggedhistailjoyously’Binkie,wemustthinkLet’sseehowitfeelstobeblind。’Dickshuthiseyes,andflamingcommasandCatherine-wheelsfloatedinsidethelidsYetwhenhelookedacrosstheParkthescopeofhisvisionwasnotcontractedHecouldseeperfectly,untilaprocessionofslow-wheelingfireworksdefiledacrosshiseyeballs。
’Littledorglums,wearen’tatallwellLet’sgohomeIfonlyTorpwereback,now!’