’Yourwork——bah!No,Ididn’tmeanthatIt’sallright,dearOfcourseyoumustdoyourwork,and——IthinkI’llsaygood-byeforthisweek。’
’Won’tyouevenstayfortea?
’No,thankyouHaveIyourleavetogo,dear?There’snothingmoreyouparticularlywantmetodo,andtheline-workdoesn’tmatter。’
’Iwishyoucouldstay,andthenwecouldtalkovermypictureIfonlyonesinglepicture’sasuccess,itdrawsattentiontoalltheothersI
knowsomeofmyworkisgood,ifonlypeoplecouldseeAndyouneedn’thavebeensorudeaboutit。’
’I’msorryWe’lltalktheMelancoliaoversomeoneoftheotherSundays。
Therearefourmore——yes,one,two,three,four——beforeyougo。
Good-bye,Maisie。’
Maisiestoodbythestudiowindow,thinking,tillthered-hairedgirlreturned,alittlewhiteatthecornersofherlips。
’Dick’sgoneoff,’saidMaisie’JustwhenIwantedtotalkaboutthepictureIsn’titselfishofhim?’
Hercompanionopenedherlipsasiftospeak,shutthemagain,andwentonreadingTheCityofDreadfulNight-
DickwasinthePark,walkingroundandroundatreethathehadchosenashisconfidanteformanySundayspastHewasswearingaudibly,andwhenhefoundthattheinfirmitiesoftheEnglishtonguehemmedinhisrage,hesoughtconsolationinArabic,whichisexpresslydesignedfortheuseoftheafflictedHewasnotpleasedwiththerewardofhispatientservice;norwashepleasedwithhimself;anditwaslongbeforehearrivedatthepropositionthatthequeencoulddonowrong。
’It’salosinggame,’hesaid’I’mworthnothingwhenawhimofhersisinquestionButinalosinggameatPortSaidweusedtodoublethestakesandgoonShedoaMelancolia!Shehasn’tthepower,ortheinsight,orthetrainingOnlythedesireShe’scursedwiththecurseofReubenShewon’tdoline-work,becauseitmeansrealwork;andyetshe’sstrongerthanIamI’llmakeherunderstandthatIcanbeatheronherownMelancoliaEventhenshewouldn’tcareShesaysIcanonlydobloodandbonesIdon’tbelieveshehasbloodinherveinsAllthesameI
loverher;andImustgoonlovingher;andifIcanhumbleherinordinatevanityIwillI’lldoaMelancoliathatshallbesomethinglikeaMelancolia——“theMelancoliathattranscendsallwit。”I’lldoitatonce,con——blessher。’
Hediscoveredthatthenotionwouldnotcometoorder,andthathecouldnotfreehismindforanhourfromthethoughtofMaisie’sdepartureHetookverysmallinterestinherroughstudiesfortheMelancoliawhensheshowedthemnextweekTheSundayswereracingpast,andthetimewasathandwhenallthechurchbellsinLondoncouldnotringMaisiebacktohimOnceortwicehesaidsomethingtoBinkieabout’hermaphroditicfutilities,’butthelittledogreceivedsomanyconfidencesbothfromTorpenhowandDickthathedidnottroublehistulip-earstolisten。
DickwaspermittedtoseethegirlsoffTheyweregoingbytheDovernight-boat;andtheyhopedtoreturninAugustItwasthenFebruary,andDickfeltthathewasbeinghardlyusedMaisiewassobusystrippingthesmallhouseacrossthePark,andpackinghercanvases,thatshehadnottimeforthoughtDickwentdowntoDoverandwastedadaytherefrettingoverawonderfulpossibilityWouldMaisieattheverylastallowhimonesmallkiss?Hereflectedthathemightcaptureherbythestrongarm,ashehadseemwomencapturedintheSouthernSoudan,andleadheraway;butMaisiewouldneverbeledShewouldturnhergrayeyesuponhimandsay,’Dick,howselfishyouare!’ThenhiscouragewouldfailhimItwouldbebetter,afterall,tobegforthatkiss。
Maisielookedmorethanusuallykissableasshesteppedfromthenight-mailontothewindypier,inagraywaterproofandalittlegrayclothtravelling-capThered-hairedgirlwasnotsolovelyHergreeneyeswerehollowandherlipsweredryDicksawthetrunksaboard,andwenttoMaisie’ssideinthedarknessunderthebridgeThemail-bagswerethunderingintotheforehold,andthered-hairedgirlwaswatchingthem。
’You’llhavearoughpassageto-night,’saidDick’It’sblowingoutsideI
supposeImaycomeoverandseeyouifI’mgood?’
’Youmustn’tIshallbebusyAtleast,ifIwantyouI’llsendforyouButIshallwritefromVitry-sur-MarneIshallhaveheapsofthingstoconsultyouaboutOh,Dick,youhavebeensogoodtome!——sogoodtome!’
’Thankyouforthat,dearIthasn’tmadeanydifference,hasit?’
’Ican’ttellafibIthasn’t——inthatwayButdon’tthinkI’mnotgrateful。’
’Damnthegratitude!’saidDick,huskily,tothepaddle-box。
’What’stheuseofworrying?YouknowIshouldruinyourlife,andyou’druinmine,asthingsarenowYourememberwhatyousaidwhenyouweresoangrythatdayinthePark?Oneofushastobebroken。
Can’tyouwaittillthatdaycomes?’
’No,loveIwantyouunbroken——alltomyself。’
Maisieshookherhead’MypoorDick,whatcanIsay!’
’Don’tsayanythingGivemeakissOnlyonekiss,MaisieI’llswearI
won’ttakeanymoreYoumightaswell,andthenIcanbesureyou’regrateful。’
Maisieputhercheekforward,andDicktookhisrewardinthedarkness。
Itwasonlyonekiss,but,sincetherewasnotime-limitspecified,itwasalongoneMaisiewrenchedherselffreeangrily,andDickstoodabashedandtinglingfromheadtotoe。
’Good-bye,darlingIdidn’tmeantoscareyouI’msorry。
Only——keepwellanddogoodwork,——speciallytheMelancoliaI’mgoingtodoone,tooRemembermetoKami,andbecarefulwhatyoudrink。
Countrydrinking-waterisbadeverywhere,butit’sworseinFranceWritetomeifyouwantanything,andgood-byeSaygood-byetothewhatever-you-call-umgirl,and——can’tIhaveanotherkiss?No。
You’requiterightGood-bye。’
Ashouldtoldhimthatitwasnotseemlytochargeofthemail-baginclineHereachedthepierasthesteamerbegantomoveoff,andhefollowedherwithhisheart。
’Andthere’snothing——nothinginthewideworld——tokeepusapartexceptherobstinacyTheseCalaisnight-boatsaremuchtoosmallI’llgetTorptowritetothepapersaboutitShe’sbeginningtopitchalready。’
MaisiestoodwhereDickhadlefthertillsheheardalittlegaspingcoughatherelbowThered-hairedgirl’seyeswerealightwithcoldflame。
’Hekissedyou!’shesaid’Howcouldyoulethim,whenhewasn’tanythingtoyou?Howdaredyoutotakeakissfromhim?Oh,Maisie,let’sgototheladies’cabinI’msick,——deadlysick。’
’Wearen’tintoopenwateryetGodown,dear,andI’llstayhereI
don’tlikethesmelloftheenginesPoorDick!Hedeservedone,——onlyone。
ButIdidn’tthinkhe’dfrightenmeso。’
Dickreturnedtotownnextdayjustintimeforlunch,forwhichhehadtelegraphedTohisdisgust,therewereonlyemptyplatesinthestudio。
Helifteduphisvoicelikethebearsinthefairy-tale,andTorpenhowentered,lookingguilty。
’H’sh!’saidhe’Don’tmakesuchanoiseItookitComeintomyrooms,andI’llshowyouwhy。’
Dickpausedamazedatthethreshold,foronTorpenhow’ssofalayagirlasleepandbreathingheavilyThelittlecheapsailor-hat,theblue-and-whitedress,fitterforJunethanforFebruary,dabbledwithmudattheskirts,thejackettrimmedwithimitationAstrakhanandrippedattheshoulder-seams,theone-and-elevenpennyumbrella,and,aboveall,thedisgracefulconditionofthekid-toppedboots,declaredallthings。
’Oh,Isay,oldman,thisistoobad!Youmustn’tbringthissortuphere。
Theystealthingsfromtherooms。’
’Itlooksbad,Iadmit,butIwascominginafterlunch,andshestaggeredintothehallIthoughtshewasdrunkatfirst,butitwascollapseI
couldn’tleaveherasshewas,soIbroughtheruphereandgaveheryourlunchShewasfaintingfromwantoffoodShewentfastasleeptheminuteshehadfinished。’
’IknowsomethingofthatcomplaintShe’sbeenlivingonsausages,I
supposeTorp,youshouldhavehandedherovertoapolicemanforpresumingtofaintinarespectablehousePoorlittlewretch!Lookattheface!Thereisn’tanounceofimmoralityinitOnlyfolly,——slack,fatuous,feeble,futilefollyIt’satypicalheadD’younoticehowtheskullbeginstoshowthroughthefleshpaddingonthefaceandcheek-bone?’
’Whatacold-bloodedbarbarianitis!Don’thitawomanwhenshe’sdownCan’twedoanything?Shewassimplydroppingwithstarvation。
Shealmostfellintomyarms,andwhenshegottothefoodsheatelikeawildbeastItwashorrible。’
’Icangivehermoney,whichshewouldprobablyspendindrinks。
Isshegoingtosleepforever?’
Thegirlopenedhereyesandglaredatthemenbetweenterrorandeffrontery。
’Feelingbetter?’saidTorpenhow。
’YesThankyouTherearen’tmanygentlementhatareaskindasyouareThankyou。’
’Whendidyouleaveservice?’saidDick,whohadbeenwatchingthescarredandchappedhands。
’HowdidyouknowIwasinservice?IwasGeneralservantI
didn’tlikeit。’
’Andhowdoyoulikebeingyourownmistress?’
’DoIlookasifIlikedit?’
’IsupposenotOnemomentWouldyoubegoodenoughtoturnyourfacetothewindow?’
Thegirlobeyed,andDickwatchedherfacekeenly,——sokeenlythatshemadeasiftohidebehindTorpenhow。
’Theeyeshaveit,’saidDick,walkingupanddown’TheyaresuperbeyesformybusinessAnd,afterall,everyheaddependsontheeyesThishasbeensentfromheaventomakeupfor——whatwastakenaway。
Nowtheweeklystrain’soffmyshoulders,Icangettoworkinearnest。
EvidentlysentfromheavenYesRaiseyourchinalittle,please。’
’Gently,oldman,gentlyYou’rescaringsomebodyoutofherwits,’
saidTorpenhow,whocouldseethegirltrembling。
’Don’tlethimhitme!Oh,pleasedon’tlethimhitme!I’vebeenhitcruelto-daybecauseIspoketoamanDon’tlethimlookatmelikethat!
He’sreg’larwicked,thatoneDon’tlethimlookatmelikethat,neither!
Oh,I
feelasifIhadn’tnothingonwhenhelooksatmelikethat!’
Theoverstrainednervesinthefrailbodygaveway,andthegirlweptlikealittlechildandbegantoscreamDickthrewopenthewindow,andTorpenhowflungthedoorback。
’Thereyouare,’saidDick,soothingly’Myfriendherecancallforapoliceman,andyoucanrunthroughthatdoorNobodyisgoingtohurtyou。’
Thegirlsobbedconvulsivelyforafewminutes,andthentriedtolaugh。
’NothingintheworldtohurtyouNowlistentomeforaminute。
I’mwhattheycallanartistbyprofessionYouknowwhatartistsdo?’
’Theydrawthethingsinredandblackinkonthepop-shoplabels。’
’IdaresayIhaven’trisentopop-shoplabelsyetThosearedonebytheAcademiciansIwanttodrawyourhead。’
’Whatfor?’
’Becauseit’sprettyThatiswhyyouwillcometotheroomacrossthelandingthreetimesaweekateleveninthemorning,andI’llgiveyouthreequidaweekjustforsittingstillandbeingdrawnAndthere’saquidonaccount。’
’Fornothing?Oh,my!’Thegirlturnedthesovereigninherhand,andwithmorefoolishtears,’Ain’tneithero’youtwogentlemenafraidofmybilkingyou?’
’NoOnlyuglygirlsdothatTryandrememberthisplaceAnd,bytheway,what’syourname?’
’I’mBessic,——Bessie——It’snousegivingtherestBessieBroke,——Stone-broke,ifyoulikeWhat’syournames?Butthere,——nooneevergivestherealones。’
DickconsultedTorpenhowwithhiseyes。
’Myname’sHeldar,andmyfriend’scalledTorpenhow;andyoumustbesuretocomehereWheredoyoulive?’
’South-the-water,——oneroom,——fiveandsixpenceaweekAren’tyoumakingfunofmeaboutthatthreequid?’
’You’llseelateronAnd,Bessie,nexttimeyoucome,remember,youneedn’twearthatpaintIt’sbadfortheskin,andIhaveallthecoloursyou’llbelikelytoneed。’