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  ’Yourwork——bah!No,Ididn’tmeanthatIt’sallright,dearOfcourseyoumustdoyourwork,and——IthinkI’llsaygood-byeforthisweek。’
  ’Won’tyouevenstayfortea?
  ’No,thankyouHaveIyourleavetogo,dear?There’snothingmoreyouparticularlywantmetodo,andtheline-workdoesn’tmatter。’
  ’Iwishyoucouldstay,andthenwecouldtalkovermypictureIfonlyonesinglepicture’sasuccess,itdrawsattentiontoalltheothersI
  knowsomeofmyworkisgood,ifonlypeoplecouldseeAndyouneedn’thavebeensorudeaboutit。’
  ’I’msorryWe’lltalktheMelancoliaoversomeoneoftheotherSundays。
  Therearefourmore——yes,one,two,three,four——beforeyougo。
  Good-bye,Maisie。’
  Maisiestoodbythestudiowindow,thinking,tillthered-hairedgirlreturned,alittlewhiteatthecornersofherlips。
  ’Dick’sgoneoff,’saidMaisie’JustwhenIwantedtotalkaboutthepictureIsn’titselfishofhim?’
  Hercompanionopenedherlipsasiftospeak,shutthemagain,andwentonreadingTheCityofDreadfulNight-
  DickwasinthePark,walkingroundandroundatreethathehadchosenashisconfidanteformanySundayspastHewasswearingaudibly,andwhenhefoundthattheinfirmitiesoftheEnglishtonguehemmedinhisrage,hesoughtconsolationinArabic,whichisexpresslydesignedfortheuseoftheafflictedHewasnotpleasedwiththerewardofhispatientservice;norwashepleasedwithhimself;anditwaslongbeforehearrivedatthepropositionthatthequeencoulddonowrong。
  ’It’salosinggame,’hesaid’I’mworthnothingwhenawhimofhersisinquestionButinalosinggameatPortSaidweusedtodoublethestakesandgoonShedoaMelancolia!Shehasn’tthepower,ortheinsight,orthetrainingOnlythedesireShe’scursedwiththecurseofReubenShewon’tdoline-work,becauseitmeansrealwork;andyetshe’sstrongerthanIamI’llmakeherunderstandthatIcanbeatheronherownMelancoliaEventhenshewouldn’tcareShesaysIcanonlydobloodandbonesIdon’tbelieveshehasbloodinherveinsAllthesameI
  loverher;andImustgoonlovingher;andifIcanhumbleherinordinatevanityIwillI’lldoaMelancoliathatshallbesomethinglikeaMelancolia——“theMelancoliathattranscendsallwit。”I’lldoitatonce,con——blessher。’
  Hediscoveredthatthenotionwouldnotcometoorder,andthathecouldnotfreehismindforanhourfromthethoughtofMaisie’sdepartureHetookverysmallinterestinherroughstudiesfortheMelancoliawhensheshowedthemnextweekTheSundayswereracingpast,andthetimewasathandwhenallthechurchbellsinLondoncouldnotringMaisiebacktohimOnceortwicehesaidsomethingtoBinkieabout’hermaphroditicfutilities,’butthelittledogreceivedsomanyconfidencesbothfromTorpenhowandDickthathedidnottroublehistulip-earstolisten。
  DickwaspermittedtoseethegirlsoffTheyweregoingbytheDovernight-boat;andtheyhopedtoreturninAugustItwasthenFebruary,andDickfeltthathewasbeinghardlyusedMaisiewassobusystrippingthesmallhouseacrossthePark,andpackinghercanvases,thatshehadnottimeforthoughtDickwentdowntoDoverandwastedadaytherefrettingoverawonderfulpossibilityWouldMaisieattheverylastallowhimonesmallkiss?Hereflectedthathemightcaptureherbythestrongarm,ashehadseemwomencapturedintheSouthernSoudan,andleadheraway;butMaisiewouldneverbeledShewouldturnhergrayeyesuponhimandsay,’Dick,howselfishyouare!’ThenhiscouragewouldfailhimItwouldbebetter,afterall,tobegforthatkiss。
  Maisielookedmorethanusuallykissableasshesteppedfromthenight-mailontothewindypier,inagraywaterproofandalittlegrayclothtravelling-capThered-hairedgirlwasnotsolovelyHergreeneyeswerehollowandherlipsweredryDicksawthetrunksaboard,andwenttoMaisie’ssideinthedarknessunderthebridgeThemail-bagswerethunderingintotheforehold,andthered-hairedgirlwaswatchingthem。
  ’You’llhavearoughpassageto-night,’saidDick’It’sblowingoutsideI
  supposeImaycomeoverandseeyouifI’mgood?’
  ’Youmustn’tIshallbebusyAtleast,ifIwantyouI’llsendforyouButIshallwritefromVitry-sur-MarneIshallhaveheapsofthingstoconsultyouaboutOh,Dick,youhavebeensogoodtome!——sogoodtome!’
  ’Thankyouforthat,dearIthasn’tmadeanydifference,hasit?’
  ’Ican’ttellafibIthasn’t——inthatwayButdon’tthinkI’mnotgrateful。’
  ’Damnthegratitude!’saidDick,huskily,tothepaddle-box。
  ’What’stheuseofworrying?YouknowIshouldruinyourlife,andyou’druinmine,asthingsarenowYourememberwhatyousaidwhenyouweresoangrythatdayinthePark?Oneofushastobebroken。
  Can’tyouwaittillthatdaycomes?’
  ’No,loveIwantyouunbroken——alltomyself。’
  Maisieshookherhead’MypoorDick,whatcanIsay!’
  ’Don’tsayanythingGivemeakissOnlyonekiss,MaisieI’llswearI
  won’ttakeanymoreYoumightaswell,andthenIcanbesureyou’regrateful。’
  Maisieputhercheekforward,andDicktookhisrewardinthedarkness。
  Itwasonlyonekiss,but,sincetherewasnotime-limitspecified,itwasalongoneMaisiewrenchedherselffreeangrily,andDickstoodabashedandtinglingfromheadtotoe。
  ’Good-bye,darlingIdidn’tmeantoscareyouI’msorry。
  Only——keepwellanddogoodwork,——speciallytheMelancoliaI’mgoingtodoone,tooRemembermetoKami,andbecarefulwhatyoudrink。
  Countrydrinking-waterisbadeverywhere,butit’sworseinFranceWritetomeifyouwantanything,andgood-byeSaygood-byetothewhatever-you-call-umgirl,and——can’tIhaveanotherkiss?No。
  You’requiterightGood-bye。’
  Ashouldtoldhimthatitwasnotseemlytochargeofthemail-baginclineHereachedthepierasthesteamerbegantomoveoff,andhefollowedherwithhisheart。
  ’Andthere’snothing——nothinginthewideworld——tokeepusapartexceptherobstinacyTheseCalaisnight-boatsaremuchtoosmallI’llgetTorptowritetothepapersaboutitShe’sbeginningtopitchalready。’
  MaisiestoodwhereDickhadlefthertillsheheardalittlegaspingcoughatherelbowThered-hairedgirl’seyeswerealightwithcoldflame。
  ’Hekissedyou!’shesaid’Howcouldyoulethim,whenhewasn’tanythingtoyou?Howdaredyoutotakeakissfromhim?Oh,Maisie,let’sgototheladies’cabinI’msick,——deadlysick。’
  ’Wearen’tintoopenwateryetGodown,dear,andI’llstayhereI
  don’tlikethesmelloftheenginesPoorDick!Hedeservedone,——onlyone。
  ButIdidn’tthinkhe’dfrightenmeso。’
  Dickreturnedtotownnextdayjustintimeforlunch,forwhichhehadtelegraphedTohisdisgust,therewereonlyemptyplatesinthestudio。
  Helifteduphisvoicelikethebearsinthefairy-tale,andTorpenhowentered,lookingguilty。
  ’H’sh!’saidhe’Don’tmakesuchanoiseItookitComeintomyrooms,andI’llshowyouwhy。’
  Dickpausedamazedatthethreshold,foronTorpenhow’ssofalayagirlasleepandbreathingheavilyThelittlecheapsailor-hat,theblue-and-whitedress,fitterforJunethanforFebruary,dabbledwithmudattheskirts,thejackettrimmedwithimitationAstrakhanandrippedattheshoulder-seams,theone-and-elevenpennyumbrella,and,aboveall,thedisgracefulconditionofthekid-toppedboots,declaredallthings。
  ’Oh,Isay,oldman,thisistoobad!Youmustn’tbringthissortuphere。
  Theystealthingsfromtherooms。’
  ’Itlooksbad,Iadmit,butIwascominginafterlunch,andshestaggeredintothehallIthoughtshewasdrunkatfirst,butitwascollapseI
  couldn’tleaveherasshewas,soIbroughtheruphereandgaveheryourlunchShewasfaintingfromwantoffoodShewentfastasleeptheminuteshehadfinished。’
  ’IknowsomethingofthatcomplaintShe’sbeenlivingonsausages,I
  supposeTorp,youshouldhavehandedherovertoapolicemanforpresumingtofaintinarespectablehousePoorlittlewretch!Lookattheface!Thereisn’tanounceofimmoralityinitOnlyfolly,——slack,fatuous,feeble,futilefollyIt’satypicalheadD’younoticehowtheskullbeginstoshowthroughthefleshpaddingonthefaceandcheek-bone?’
  ’Whatacold-bloodedbarbarianitis!Don’thitawomanwhenshe’sdownCan’twedoanything?Shewassimplydroppingwithstarvation。
  Shealmostfellintomyarms,andwhenshegottothefoodsheatelikeawildbeastItwashorrible。’
  ’Icangivehermoney,whichshewouldprobablyspendindrinks。
  Isshegoingtosleepforever?’
  Thegirlopenedhereyesandglaredatthemenbetweenterrorandeffrontery。
  ’Feelingbetter?’saidTorpenhow。
  ’YesThankyouTherearen’tmanygentlementhatareaskindasyouareThankyou。’
  ’Whendidyouleaveservice?’saidDick,whohadbeenwatchingthescarredandchappedhands。
  ’HowdidyouknowIwasinservice?IwasGeneralservantI
  didn’tlikeit。’
  ’Andhowdoyoulikebeingyourownmistress?’
  ’DoIlookasifIlikedit?’
  ’IsupposenotOnemomentWouldyoubegoodenoughtoturnyourfacetothewindow?’
  Thegirlobeyed,andDickwatchedherfacekeenly,——sokeenlythatshemadeasiftohidebehindTorpenhow。
  ’Theeyeshaveit,’saidDick,walkingupanddown’TheyaresuperbeyesformybusinessAnd,afterall,everyheaddependsontheeyesThishasbeensentfromheaventomakeupfor——whatwastakenaway。
  Nowtheweeklystrain’soffmyshoulders,Icangettoworkinearnest。
  EvidentlysentfromheavenYesRaiseyourchinalittle,please。’
  ’Gently,oldman,gentlyYou’rescaringsomebodyoutofherwits,’
  saidTorpenhow,whocouldseethegirltrembling。
  ’Don’tlethimhitme!Oh,pleasedon’tlethimhitme!I’vebeenhitcruelto-daybecauseIspoketoamanDon’tlethimlookatmelikethat!
  He’sreg’larwicked,thatoneDon’tlethimlookatmelikethat,neither!
  Oh,I
  feelasifIhadn’tnothingonwhenhelooksatmelikethat!’
  Theoverstrainednervesinthefrailbodygaveway,andthegirlweptlikealittlechildandbegantoscreamDickthrewopenthewindow,andTorpenhowflungthedoorback。
  ’Thereyouare,’saidDick,soothingly’Myfriendherecancallforapoliceman,andyoucanrunthroughthatdoorNobodyisgoingtohurtyou。’
  Thegirlsobbedconvulsivelyforafewminutes,andthentriedtolaugh。
  ’NothingintheworldtohurtyouNowlistentomeforaminute。
  I’mwhattheycallanartistbyprofessionYouknowwhatartistsdo?’
  ’Theydrawthethingsinredandblackinkonthepop-shoplabels。’
  ’IdaresayIhaven’trisentopop-shoplabelsyetThosearedonebytheAcademiciansIwanttodrawyourhead。’
  ’Whatfor?’
  ’Becauseit’sprettyThatiswhyyouwillcometotheroomacrossthelandingthreetimesaweekateleveninthemorning,andI’llgiveyouthreequidaweekjustforsittingstillandbeingdrawnAndthere’saquidonaccount。’
  ’Fornothing?Oh,my!’Thegirlturnedthesovereigninherhand,andwithmorefoolishtears,’Ain’tneithero’youtwogentlemenafraidofmybilkingyou?’
  ’NoOnlyuglygirlsdothatTryandrememberthisplaceAnd,bytheway,what’syourname?’
  ’I’mBessic,——Bessie——It’snousegivingtherestBessieBroke,——Stone-broke,ifyoulikeWhat’syournames?Butthere,——nooneevergivestherealones。’
  DickconsultedTorpenhowwithhiseyes。
  ’Myname’sHeldar,andmyfriend’scalledTorpenhow;andyoumustbesuretocomehereWheredoyoulive?’
  ’South-the-water,——oneroom,——fiveandsixpenceaweekAren’tyoumakingfunofmeaboutthatthreequid?’
  ’You’llseelateronAnd,Bessie,nexttimeyoucome,remember,youneedn’twearthatpaintIt’sbadfortheskin,andIhaveallthecoloursyou’llbelikelytoneed。’