Fortwohoursmycompanion,whowasamusicalfanatico,gavehisundividedattentiontothestage;and,inthemeantime,Iamusedmyselfbyobservingtheaudience,whichconsisted,inchiefpart,oftheveryeliteofthecity。Havingsatisfiedmyselfuponthispoint,Iwasaboutturningmyeyestotheprimadonna,whentheywerearrestedandrivetedbyafigureinoneoftheprivateboxeswhichhadescapedmyobservation。
IfIliveathousandyears,IcanneverforgettheintenseemotionwithwhichIregardedthisfigure。Itwasthatofafemale,themostexquisiteIhadeverbeheld。Thefacewassofarturnedtowardthestagethat,forsomeminutes,Icouldnotobtainaviewofitbuttheformwasdivine;nootherwordcansufficientlyexpressitsmagnificentproportionandeventheterm“divine“seemsridiculouslyfeebleasIwriteit。
ThemagicofalovelyforminwomanthenecromancyoffemalegracefulnesswasalwaysapowerwhichIhadfounditimpossibletoresist,butherewasgracepersonified,incarnate,thebeauidealofmywildestandmostenthusiasticvisions。Thefigure,almostallofwhichtheconstructionoftheboxpermittedtobeseen,wassomewhatabovethemediumheight,andnearlyapproached,withoutpositivelyreaching,themajestic。Itsperfectfullnessandtournureweredelicious。Theheadofwhichonlythebackwasvisible,rivalledinoutlinethatoftheGreekPsyche,andwasratherdisplayedthanconcealedbyanelegantcapofgazeaerienne,whichputmeinmindoftheventumtextilemofApuleius。Therightarmhungoverthebalustradeofthebox,andthrilledeverynerveofmyframewithitsexquisitesymmetry。Itsupperportionwasdraperiedbyoneofthelooseopensleevesnowinfashion。Thisextendedbutlittlebelowtheelbow。Beneathitwaswornanunderoneofsomefrailmaterial,close-fitting,andterminatedbyacuffofrichlace,whichfellgracefullyoverthetopofthehand,revealingonlythedelicatefingers,upononeofwhichsparkledadiamondring,whichIatoncesawwasofextraordinaryvalue。Theadmirableroundnessofthewristwaswellsetoffbyabraceletwhichencircledit,andwhichalsowasornamentedandclaspedbyamagnificentaigretteofjewels-telling,inwordsthatcouldnotbemistaken,atonceofthewealthandfastidioustasteofthewearer。
Igazedatthisqueenlyapparitionforatleasthalfanhour,asifI
hadbeensuddenlyconvertedtostone;and,duringthisperiod,Ifeltthefullforceandtruthofallthathasbeensaidorsungconcerning“loveatfirstsight。”MyfeelingsweretotallydifferentfromanywhichIhadhithertoexperienced,inthepresenceofeventhemostcelebratedspecimensoffemaleloveliness。Anunaccountable,andwhatIamcompelledtoconsideramagnetic,sympathyofsoulforsoul,seemedtorivet,notonlymyvision,butmywholepowersofthoughtandfeeling,upontheadmirableobjectbeforeme。IsawIfelt
IknewthatIwasdeeply,madly,irrevocablyinloveandthisevenbeforeseeingthefaceofthepersonbeloved。Sointense,indeed,wasthepassionthatconsumedme,thatIreallybelieveitwouldhavereceivedlittleifanyabatementhadthefeatures,yetunseen,provedofmerelyordinarycharacter,soanomalousisthenatureoftheonlytrueloveoftheloveatfirstsightandsolittlereallydependentisitupontheexternalconditionswhichonlyseemtocreateandcontrolit。
WhileIwasthuswrappedinadmirationofthislovelyvision,asuddendisturbanceamongtheaudiencecausedhertoturnherheadpartiallytowardme,sothatIbeheldtheentireprofileoftheface。
Itsbeautyevenexceededmyanticipationsandyettherewassomethingaboutitwhichdisappointedmewithoutmybeingabletotellexactlywhatitwas。Isaid“disappointed。”butthisisnotaltogethertheword。Mysentimentswereatoncequietedandexalted。
Theypartooklessoftransportandmoreofcalmenthusiasmofenthusiasticrepose。Thisstateoffeelingarose,perhaps,fromtheMadonna-likeandmatronlyairoftheface;andyetIatonceunderstoodthatitcouldnothavearisenentirelyfromthis。Therewassomethingelse-somemysterywhichIcouldnotdevelopesomeexpressionaboutthecountenancewhichslightlydisturbedmewhileitgreatlyheightenedmyinterest。Infact,Iwasjustinthatconditionofmindwhichpreparesayoungandsusceptiblemanforanyactofextravagance。Hadtheladybeenalone,Ishouldundoubtedlyhaveenteredherboxandaccostedheratallhazards;but,fortunately,shewasattendedbytwocompanionsagentleman,andastrikinglybeautifulwoman,toallappearanceafewyearsyoungerthanherself。
IrevolvedinmymindathousandschemesbywhichImightobtain,hereafter,anintroductiontotheelderlady,or,forthepresent,atallevents,amoredistinctviewofherbeauty。Iwouldhaveremovedmypositiontoonenearerherown,butthecrowdedstateofthetheatrerenderedthisimpossible;andthesterndecreesofFashionhad,oflate,imperativelyprohibitedtheuseoftheopera-glassinacasesuchasthis,evenhadIbeensofortunateastohaveonewithmebutIhadnotandwasthusindespair。
AtlengthIbethoughtmeofapplyingtomycompanion。
“Talbot。”Isaid,“youhaveanopera-glass。Letmehaveit。”
“Anoperaglass!no!whatdoyousupposeIwouldbedoingwithanopera-glass?”Hereheturnedimpatientlytowardthestage。
“But,Talbot。”Icontinued,pullinghimbytheshoulder,“listentomewillyou?Doyouseethestagebox?there!no,thenext。
didyoueverbeholdaslovelyawoman?”
“Sheisverybeautiful,nodoubt。”hesaid。
“Iwonderwhoshecanbe?”
“Why,inthenameofallthatisangelic,don’tyouknowwhosheis?
’Nottoknowherarguesyourselfunknown。’SheisthecelebratedMadameLalandethebeautyofthedayparexcellence,andthetalkofthewholetown。Immenselywealthytooawidow,andagreatmatchhasjustarrivedfromParis。”
“Doyouknowher?”
“Yes;Ihavethehonor。”
“Willyouintroduceme?”
“Assuredly,withthegreatestpleasure;whenshallitbe?”
“To-morrow,atone,IwillcalluponyouatB’s。
“Verygood;andnowdoholdyourtongue,ifyoucan。”
InthislatterrespectIwasforcedtotakeTalbot’sadvice;forheremainedobstinatelydeaftoeveryfurtherquestionorsuggestion,andoccupiedhimselfexclusivelyfortherestoftheeveningwithwhatwastransactinguponthestage。
InthemeantimeIkeptmyeyesrivetedonMadameLalande,andatlengthhadthegoodfortunetoobtainafullfrontviewofherface。
Itwasexquisitelylovelythis,ofcourse,myhearthadtoldmebefore,evenhadnotTalbotfullysatisfiedmeuponthepointbutstilltheunintelligiblesomethingdisturbedme。Ifinallyconcludedthatmysenseswereimpressedbyacertainairofgravity,sadness,or,stillmoreproperly,ofweariness,whichtooksomethingfromtheyouthandfreshnessofthecountenance,onlytoendowitwithaseraphictendernessandmajesty,andthus,ofcourse,tomyenthusiasticandromantictemperment,withaninteresttenfold。
WhileIthusfeastedmyeyes,Iperceived,atlast,tomygreattrepidation,byanalmostimperceptiblestartonthepartofthelady,thatshehadbecomesuddenlyawareoftheintensityofmygaze。
Still,Iwasabsolutelyfascinated,andcouldnotwithdrawit,evenforaninstant。Sheturnedasideherface,andagainIsawonlythechiselledcontourofthebackportionofthehead。Aftersomeminutes,asifurgedbycuriositytoseeifIwasstilllooking,shegraduallybroughtherfaceagainaroundandagainencounteredmyburninggaze。Herlargedarkeyesfellinstantly,andadeepblushmantledhercheek。Butwhatwasmyastonishmentatperceivingthatshenotonlydidnotasecondtimeavertherhead,butthatsheactuallytookfromhergirdleadoubleeyeglasselevatedit
adjusteditandthenregardedmethroughit,intentlyanddeliberately,forthespaceofseveralminutes。
HadathunderboltfallenatmyfeetIcouldnothavebeenmorethoroughlyastoundedastoundedonlynotoffendedordisgustedintheslightestdegree;althoughanactionsoboldinanyotherwomanwouldhavebeenlikelytooffendordisgust。Butthewholethingwasdonewithsomuchquietudesomuchnonchalancesomuchrepose-withsoevidentanairofthehighestbreeding,inshortthatnothingofmereeffronterywasperceptible,andmysolesentimentswerethoseofadmirationandsurprise。
Iobservedthat,uponherfirstelevationoftheglass,shehadseemedsatisfiedwithamomentaryinspectionofmyperson,andwaswithdrawingtheinstrument,when,asifstruckbyasecondthought,sheresumedit,andsocontinuedtoregardmewithfixedattentionforthespaceofseveralminutesforfiveminutes,attheveryleast,Iamsure。
Thisaction,soremarkableinanAmericantheatre,attractedverygeneralobservation,andgaverisetoanindefinitemovement,orbuzz,amongtheaudience,whichforamomentfilledmewithconfusion,butproducednovisibleeffectuponthecountenanceofMadameLalande。
Havingsatisfiedhercuriosityifsuchitwasshedroppedtheglass,andquietlygaveherattentionagaintothestage;herprofilenowbeingturnedtowardmyself,asbefore。Icontinuedtowatchherunremittingly,althoughIwasfullyconsciousofmyrudenessinsodoing。PresentlyIsawtheheadslowlyandslightlychangeitsposition;andsoonIbecameconvincedthatthelady,whilepretendingtolookatthestagewas,infact,attentivelyregardingmyself。Itisneedlesstosaywhateffectthisconduct,onthepartofsofascinatingawoman,haduponmyexcitablemind。
Havingthusscrutinizedmeforperhapsaquarterofanhour,thefairobjectofmypassionaddressedthegentlemanwhoattendedher,andwhileshespoke,Isawdistinctly,bytheglancesofboth,thattheconversationhadreferencetomyself。
Uponitsconclusion,MadameLalandeagainturnedtowardthestage,and,forafewminutes,seemedabsorbedintheperformance。Attheexpirationofthisperiod,however,Iwasthrownintoanextremityofagitationbyseeingherunfold,forthesecondtime,theeye-glasswhichhungatherside,fullyconfrontmeasbefore,and,disregardingtherenewedbuzzoftheaudience,surveyme,fromheadtofoot,withthesamemiraculouscomposurewhichhadpreviouslysodelightedandconfoundedmysoul。
Thisextraordinarybehavior,bythrowingmeintoaperfectfeverofexcitementintoanabsolutedeliriumoflove-servedrathertoemboldenthantodisconcertme。Inthemadintensityofmydevotion,Iforgoteverythingbutthepresenceandthemajesticlovelinessofthevisionwhichconfrontedmygaze。Watchingmyopportunity,whenI
thoughttheaudiencewerefullyengagedwiththeopera,IatlengthcaughttheeyesofMadameLalande,and,upontheinstant,madeaslightbutunmistakablebow。
Sheblushedverydeeplythenavertedhereyesthenslowlyandcautiouslylookedaround,apparentlytoseeifmyrashactionhadbeennoticedthenleanedovertowardthegentlemanwhosatbyherside。
InowfeltaburningsenseoftheimproprietyIhadcommitted,andexpectednothinglessthaninstantexposure;whileavisionofpistolsuponthemorrowfloatedrapidlyanduncomfortablythroughmybrain。Iwasgreatlyandimmediatelyrelieved,however,whenIsawtheladymerelyhandthegentlemanaplay-bill,withoutspeaking,butthereadermayformsomefeebleconceptionofmyastonishmentofmyprofoundamazementmydeliriousbewildermentofheartandsoulwhen,instantlyafterward,havingagainglancedfurtivelyaround,sheallowedherbrighteyestosetfullyandsteadilyuponmyown,andthen,withafaintsmile,disclosingabrightlineofherpearlyteeth,madetwodistinct,pointed,andunequivocalaffirmativeinclinationsofthehead。
Itisuseless,ofcourse,todwelluponmyjoyuponmytransport-
uponmyillimitableecstasyofheart。Ifevermanwasmadwithexcessofhappiness,itwasmyselfatthatmoment。Iloved。ThiswasmyfirstlovesoIfeltittobe。Itwaslovesupreme-indescribable。
Itwas“loveatfirstsight;“andatfirstsight,too,ithadbeenappreciatedandreturned。