Ernestwasnowwellturnedtwenty-sixyearsold,andinlittlemorethananotheryearandahalfwouldcomeintopossessionofhismoney。IsawnoreasonforlettinghimhaveitearlierthanthedatefixedbyMissPontifexherself;atthesametimeIdidnotlikehiscontinuingtheshopatBlackfriarsafterthepresentcrisis。ItwasnottillnowthatIfullyunderstoodhowmuchhehadsuffered,norhownearlyhissupposedwife’shabitshadbroughthimtoactualwant。
Ihadindeednotedtheoldwanwornlooksettlinguponhisface,butwaseithertooindolentortoohopelessofbeingabletosustainaprotractedandsuccessfulwarfarewithEllentoextendthesympathyandmaketheinquirieswhichIsupposeIoughttohavemade。AndyetIhardlyknowwhatIcouldhavedone,fornothingshortofhisfindingoutwhathehadfoundoutwouldhavedetachedhimfromhiswife,andnothingcoulddohimmuchgoodaslongashecontinuedtolivewithher。
AfterallIsupposeIwasright;Isupposethingsdidturnoutallthebetterintheendforhavingbeenlefttosettlethemselves——atanyratewhethertheydidordidnot,thewholethingwasintoogreatamuddleformetoventuretotackleitsolongasEllenwasuponthescene;now,however,thatshewasremoved,allmyinterestinmygodsonrevived,andIturnedovermanytimesinmymind,whatIhadbetterdowithhim。
ItwasnowthreeandahalfyearssincehehadcomeuptoLondonandbeguntolive,sotospeak,uponhisownaccount。Oftheseyears,sixmonthshadbeenspentasaclergyman,sixmonthsingaol,andfortwoandahalfyearshehadbeenacquiringtwofoldexperienceinthewaysofbusinessandofmarriage。Hehadfailed,Imaysay,ineverythingthathehadundertaken,evenasaprisoner;yethisdefeatshadbeenalways,asitseemedtome,somethingsolikevictories,thatIwassatisfiedofhisbeingworthallthepainsI
couldbestowuponhim;myonlyfearwaslestIshouldmeddlewithhimwhenitmightbebetterforhimtobeletalone。OnthewholeI
concludedthatathreeandahalfyears’apprenticeshiptoaroughlifewasenough;theshophaddonemuchforhim;ithadkepthimgoingafterafashion,whenhewasingreatneed;ithadthrownhimuponhisownresources,andtaughthimtoseeprofitableopeningsallaroundhim,whereafewmonthsbeforehewouldhaveseennothingbutinsuperabledifficulties;ithadenlargedhissympathiesbymakinghimunderstandthelowerclasses,andnotconfininghisviewoflifetothattakenbygentlemenonly。Whenhewentaboutthestreetsandsawthebooksoutsidethesecond-handbook-stalls,thebric-a-bracinthecuriosityshops,andtheinfinitecommercialactivitywhichisomnipresentaroundus,heunderstooditandsympathisedwithitashecouldneverhavedoneifhehadnotkeptashophimself。
Hehasoftentoldmethatwhenheusedtotravelonarailwaythatoverlookedpopuloussuburbs,andlookeddownuponstreetafterstreetofdingyhouses,heusedtowonderwhatkindofpeoplelivedinthem,whattheydidandfelt,andhowfaritwaslikewhathedidandfelthimself。Now,hesaidheknewallaboutit。IamnotveryfamiliarwiththewriteroftheOdysseywho,bytheway,Isuspectstronglyofhavingbeenaclergyman,butheassuredlyhittherightnailontheheadwhenheepitomisedhistypicalwisemanasknowing“thewaysandfaringsofmanymen。”Whatcultureiscomparabletothis?Whatalie,whatasicklydebilitatingdebauchdidnotErnest’sschoolanduniversitycareernowseemtohim,incomparisonwithhislifeinprisonandasatailorinBlackfriars。IhaveheardhimsayhewouldhavegonethroughallhehadsufferedifitwereonlyforthedeeperinsightitgavehimintothespiritoftheGrecianandtheSurreypantomimes。Whatconfidenceagaininhisownpowertoswimifthrownintodeepwatershadnothewonthroughhisexperiencesduringthelastthreeyears!
But,asIhavesaid,Ithoughtmygodsonhadnowseenasmuchoftheundercurrentsoflifeaswaslikelytobeofusetohim,andthatitwastimehebegantoliveinastylemoresuitabletohisprospects。Hisaunthadwishedhimtokissthesoil,andhehadkisseditwithavengeance;butIdidnotlikethenotionofhiscomingsuddenlyfromthepositionofasmallshopkeepertothatofamanwithanincomeofbetweenthreeandfourthousandayear。Toosuddenajumpfrombadfortunetogoodisjustasdangerousasonefromgoodtobad;besides,povertyisverywearing;itisaquasi-
embryoniccondition,throughwhichamanhadbetterpassifheistoholdhislaterdevelopmentssecurely,butlikemeaslesorscarletfeverhehadbetterhaveitmildlyandgetitoverearly。
Nomanissafefromlosingeverypennyhehasintheworld,unlesshehashadhisfacer。HowoftendoInothearmiddle-agedwomenandquietfamilymensaythattheyhavenospeculativetendency;THEY
neverhadtouched,andneverwouldtouch,anybuttheverysoundest,bestreputedinvestments,andasforunlimitedliability,ohdear!
dear!andtheythrowuptheirhandsandeyes。
Wheneverapersonisheardtotalkthushemayberecognisedastheeasypreyofthefirstadventurerwhocomesacrosshim;hewillcommonly,indeed,winduphisdiscoursebysayingthatinspiteofallhisnaturalcaution,andhiswellknowinghowfoolishspeculationis,yettherearesomeinvestmentswhicharecalledspeculativebutinrealityarenotso,andhewillpulloutofhispockettheprospectusofaCornishgoldmine。Itisonlyonhavingactuallylostmoneythatonerealiseswhatanawfulthingthelossofitis,andfindsouthoweasilyitislostbythosewhoventureoutofthemiddleofthemostbeatenpath。Ernesthadhadhisfacer,ashehadhadhisattackofpoverty,young,andsufficientlybadlyforasensiblemantobelittlelikelytoforgetit。Icanfancyfewpiecesofgoodfortunegreaterthanthisashappeningtoanyman,provided,ofcourse,thatheisnotdamagedirretrievably。
SostronglydoIfeelonthissubjectthatifIhadmywayIwouldhaveaspeculationmasterattachedtoeveryschool。TheboyswouldbeencouragedtoreadtheMoneyMarketReview,theRailwayNews,andallthebestfinancialpapers,andshouldestablishastockexchangeamongstthemselvesinwhichpenceshouldstandaspounds。Thenletthemseehowthismakinghastetogetrichmoneysoutinactualpractice。Theremightbeaprizeawardedbythehead-mastertothemostprudentdealer,andtheboyswholosttheirmoneytimeaftertimeshouldbedismissed。Ofcourseifanyboyprovedtohaveageniusforspeculationandmademoney——wellandgood,lethimspeculatebyallmeans。
IfUniversitieswerenottheworstteachersintheworldIshouldliketoseeprofessorshipsofspeculationestablishedatOxfordandCambridge。WhenIreflect,however,thattheonlythingsworthdoingwhichOxfordandCambridgecandowellarecooking,cricket,rowingandgames,ofwhichthereisnoprofessorship,Ifearthattheestablishmentofaprofessorialchairwouldendinteachingyoungmenneitherhowtospeculate,norhownottospeculate,butwouldsimplyturnthemoutasbadspeculators。
Iheardofonecaseinwhichafatheractuallycarriedmyideaintopractice。Hewantedhissontolearnhowlittleconfidencewastobeplacedinglowingprospectusesandflamingarticles,andfoundhimfivehundredpoundswhichhewastoinvestaccordingtohislights。Thefatherexpectedhewouldlosethemoney;butitdidnotturnoutsoinpractice,fortheboytooksomuchpainsandplayedsocautiouslythatthemoneykeptgrowingandgrowingtillthefathertookitawayagain,incrementandall——ashewaspleasedtosay,inselfdefence。
Ihadmademyownmistakeswithmoneyabouttheyear1846,wheneveryoneelsewasmakingthem。ForafewyearsIhadbeensoscaredandhadsufferedsoseverely,thatwhenowingtothegoodadviceofthebrokerwhohadadvisedmyfatherandgrandfatherbeforemeI
cameoutintheendawinnerandnotaloser,Iplayednomorepranks,butkepthenceforwardasnearlyinthemiddleofthemiddlerutasIcould。Itriedinfacttokeepmymoneyratherthantomakemoreofit。IhaddonewithErnest’smoneyaswithmyown——
thatistosayIhadletitaloneafterinvestingitinMidlandordinarystockaccordingtoMissPontifex’sinstructions。Noamountoftroublewouldhavebeenlikelytohaveincreasedmygodson’sestateonehalfsomuchasithadincreasedwithoutmytakinganytroubleatall。
MidlandstockattheendofAugust1850,whenIsoldoutMissPontifex’sdebentures,stoodat32poundsper100pounds。I
investedthewholeofErnest’s15,000poundsatthisprice,anddidnotchangetheinvestmenttillafewmonthsbeforethetimeofwhichIhavebeenwritinglately——thatistosayuntilSeptember1861。I
thensoldat129poundspershareandinvestedinLondonandNorth-
Westernordinarystock,whichIwasadvisedwasmorelikelytorisethanMidlandsnowwere。IboughttheLondonandNorth-Westernstockat93poundsper100pounds,andmygodsonnowin1882stillholdsit。
Theoriginal15,000poundshadincreasedinelevenyearstoover60,000pounds;theaccumulatedinterest,which,ofcourse,Ihadre-
invested,hadcometoabout10,000poundsmore,sothatErnestwasthenworthover70,000pounds。Atpresentheisworthnearlydoublethatsum,andallastheresultofleavingwellalone。
Largeashispropertynowwas,itoughttobeincreasedstillfurtherduringtheyearandahalfthatremainedofhisminority,sothatoncomingofageheoughttohaveanincomeofatleast3500
poundsayear。
Iwishedhimtounderstandbook-keepingbydoubleentry。Ihadmyselfasayoungmanbeencompelledtomasterthisnotverydifficultart;havingacquiredit,Ihavebecomeenamouredofit,andconsideritthemostnecessarybranchofanyyoungman’seducationafterreadingandwriting。Iwasdetermined,therefore,thatErnestshouldmasterit,andproposedthatheshouldbecomemysteward,book-keeper,andthemanagerofmyhoardings,forsoI
calledthesumwhichmyledgershowedtohaveaccumulatedfrom15,000poundsto70,000pounds。ItoldhimIwasgoingtobegintospendtheincomeassoonasithadamountedupto80,000pounds。
AfewdaysafterErnest’sdiscoverythathewasstillabachelor,whilehewasstillattheverybeginningofthehoneymoon,asitwere,ofhisrenewedunmarriedlife,Ibroachedmyscheme,desiredhimtogiveuphisshop,andofferedhim300poundsayearformanagingsofarindeedasitrequiredanymanaginghisownproperty。This300poundsayear,Ineedhardlysay,Imadehimchargetotheestate。
Ifanythinghadbeenwantingtocompletehishappinessitwasthis。
Here,withinthreeorfourdayshefoundhimselffreedfromoneofthemosthideous,hopelessliaisonsimaginable,andatthesametimeraisedfromalifeofalmostsqualortotheenjoymentofwhatwouldtohimbeahandsomeincome。
“Apoundaweek。”hethought,“forEllen,andtherestformyself。”
“No。”saidI,“wewillchargeEllen’spoundaweektotheestatealso。Youmusthaveaclear300poundsforyourself。”
Ifixeduponthissum,becauseitwastheonewhichMrDisraeligaveConingsbywhenConingsbywasatthelowestebbofhisfortunes。MrDisraelievidentlythought300poundsayearthesmallestsumonwhichConingsbycouldbeexpectedtolive,andmakethetwoendsmeet;withthis,however,hethoughthisherocouldmanagetogetalongforayearortwo。In1862,ofwhichIamnowwriting,priceshadrisen,thoughnotsomuchastheyhavesincedone;ontheotherhandErnesthadhadlessexpensiveantecedentsthanConingsby,soonthewholeIthought300poundsayearwouldbeabouttherightthingforhim。
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