"Phil,you’renotreallyfrivolous,"saidAnnegravely。"’Waydownunderneaththatfrivolousexteriorofyoursyou’vegotadear,loyal,womanlylittlesoul。Whydoyouhideitso?"
"Ican’thelpit,QueenAnne。Youareright——I’mnotfrivolousatheart。Butthere’sasortoffrivolousskinovermysoulandIcan’ttakeitoff。AsMrs。Poysersays,I’dhavetobehatchedoveragainandhatcheddifferentbeforeIcouldchangeit。ButJonasknowstherealmeandlovesme,frivolityandall。AndI
lovehim。IneverwassosurprisedinmylifeasIwaswhenI
foundoutIlovedhim。I’dneverthoughtitpossibletofallinlovewithanuglyman。Fancymecomingdowntoonesolitarybeau。AndonenamedJonas!ButImeantocallhimJo。That’ssuchanice,crisplittlename。Icouldn’tnicknameAlonzo。"
"WhataboutAlecandAlonzo?"
"Oh,ItoldthematChristmasthatInevercouldmarryeitherofthem。ItseemssofunnynowtorememberthatIeverthoughtitpossiblethatImight。TheyfeltsobadlyIjustcriedoverbothofthem——howled。ButIknewtherewasonlyonemanintheworldIcouldevermarry。Ihadmadeupmyownmindforonceanditwasrealeasy,too。It’sverydelightfultofeelsosure,andknowit’syourownsurenessandnotsomebodyelse’s。"
"Doyousupposeyou’llbeabletokeepitup?"
"Makingupmymind,youmean?Idon’tknow,butJohasgivenmeasplendidrule。Hesays,whenI’mperplexed,justtodowhatI
wouldwishIhaddonewhenIshallbeeighty。Anyhow,Jocanmakeuphismindquicklyenough,anditwouldbeuncomfortabletohavetoomuchmindinthesamehouse。"
"Whatwillyourfatherandmothersay?"
"Fatherwon’tsaymuch。HethinkseverythingIdoright。
ButmotherWILLtalk。Oh,hertonguewillbeasByrneyashernose。Butintheenditwillbeallright。"
"You’llhavetogiveupagoodmanythingsyou’vealwayshad,whenyoumarryMr。Blake,Phil。"
"ButI’llhaveHIM。Iwon’tmisstheotherthings。We’retobemarriedayearfromnextJune。JograduatesfromSt。Columbiathisspring,youknow。Thenhe’sgoingtotakealittlemissionchurchdownonPattersonStreetintheslums。Fancymeintheslums!ButI’dgothereortoGreenland’sicymountainswithhim。"
"AndthisisthegirlwhowouldNEVERmarryamanwhowasn’trich,"
commentedAnnetoayoungpinetree。
"Oh,don’tcastupthefolliesofmyyouthtome。IshallbepoorasgailyasI’vebeenrich。You’llsee。I’mgoingtolearnhowtocookandmakeoverdresses。I’velearnedhowtomarketsinceI’velivedatPatty’sPlace;andonceItaughtaSundaySchoolclassforawholesummer。AuntJamesinasaysI’llruinJo’scareerifImarryhim。ButIwon’t。IknowIhaven’tmuchsenseorsobriety,butI’vegotwhatiseversomuchbetter——
theknackofmakingpeoplelikeme。ThereisamaninBolingbrokewholispsandalwaystestifiesinprayer-meeting。
Hesays,’Ifyoucan’tthinelikeanelectricthtarthinelikeacandlethtick。’I’llbeJo’slittlecandlestick。"
"Phil,you’reincorrigible。Well,IloveyousomuchthatIcan’tmakenice,light,congratulatorylittlespeeches。
ButI’mheart-gladofyourhappiness。"
"Iknow。Thosebiggrayeyesofyoursarebrimmingoverwithrealfriendship,Anne。SomedayI’lllookthesamewayatyou。
You’regoingtomarryRoy,aren’tyou,Anne?"
"MydearPhilippa,didyoueverhearofthefamousBettyBaxter,who`refusedamanbeforehe’daxedher’?Iamnotgoingtoemulatethatcelebratedladybyeitherrefusingoracceptinganyonebeforehe`axes’me。"
"AllRedmondknowsthatRoyiscrazyaboutyou,"saidPhilcandidly。"
AndyouDOlovehim,don’tyou,Anne?"
"I——Isupposeso,"saidAnnereluctantly。Shefeltthatsheoughttobeblushingwhilemakingsuchaconfession;butshewasnot;
ontheotherhand,shealwaysblushedhotlywhenanyonesaidanythingaboutGilbertBlytheorChristineStuartinherhearing。
GilbertBlytheandChristineStuartwerenothingtoher——
absolutelynothing。ButAnnehadgivenuptryingtoanalyzethereasonofherblushes。AsforRoy,ofcourseshewasinlovewithhim——madlyso。Howcouldshehelpit?Washenotherideal?Whocouldresistthosegloriousdarkeyes,andthatpleadingvoice?WerenothalftheRedmondgirlswildlyenvious?
Andwhatacharmingsonnethehadsenther,withaboxofviolets,onherbirthday!Annekneweverywordofitbyheart。Itwasverygoodstuffofitskind,too。NotexactlyuptothelevelofKeatsorShakespeare——evenAnnewasnotsodeeplyinloveastothinkthat。
Butitwasverytolerablemagazineverse。AnditwasaddressedtoHER——
nottoLauraorBeatriceortheMaidofAthens,buttoher,AnneShirley。
Tobetoldinrhythmicalcadencesthathereyeswerestarsofthemorning——thathercheekhadtheflushitstolefromthesunrise——thatherlipswereredderthantherosesofParadise,wasthrillinglyromantic。
Gilbertwouldneverhavedreamedofwritingasonnettohereyebrows。
Butthen,Gilbertcouldseeajoke。ShehadoncetoldRoyafunnystory——andhehadnotseenthepointofit。SherecalledthechummylaughsheandGilberthadhadtogetheroverit,andwondereduneasilyiflifewithamanwhohadnosenseofhumormightnotbesomewhatuninterestinginthelongrun。Butwhocouldexpectamelancholy,inscrutableherotoseethehumoroussideofthings?Itwouldbeflatlyunreasonable。
ChapterXXVIII
AJuneEvening"IwonderwhatitwouldbeliketoliveinaworldwhereitwasalwaysJune,"saidAnne,asshecamethroughthespiceandbloomofthetwilitorchardtothefrontdoorsteps,whereMarillaandMrs。Rachelweresitting,talkingoverMrs。SamsonCoates’funeral,whichtheyhadattendedthatday。Dorasatbetweenthem,diligentlystudyingherlessons;butDavywassittingtailor-fashiononthegrass,lookingasgloomyanddepressedashissingledimplewouldlethim。
"You’dgettiredofit,"saidMarilla,withasigh。
"Idaresay;butjustnowIfeelthatitwouldtakemealongtimetogettiredofit,ifitwereallascharmingastoday。
EverythinglovesJune。Davy-boy,whythismelancholyNovemberfaceinblossom-time?"
"I’mjustsickandtiredofliving,"saidtheyouthfulpessimist。
"Attenyears?Dearme,howsad!"
"I’mnotmakingfun,"saidDavywithdignity。"I’mdis——dis——
discouraged"——bringingoutthebigwordwithavalianteffort。
"Whyandwherefore?"askedAnne,sittingdownbesidehim。
"’CausethenewteacherthatcomewhenMr。HolmesgotsickgivemetensumstodoforMonday。It’lltakemealldaytomorrowtodothem。Itisn’tfairtohavetoworkSaturdays。MiltyBoultersaidhewouldn’tdothem,butMarillasaysI’vegotto。Idon’tlikeMissCarsonabit。"
"Don’ttalklikethataboutyourteacher,DavyKeith,"saidMrs。Rachelseverely。"MissCarsonisaveryfinegirl。
Thereisnononsenseabouther。"
"Thatdoesn’tsoundveryattractive,"laughedAnne。"Ilikepeopletohavealittlenonsenseaboutthem。ButI’minclinedtohaveabetteropinionofMissCarsonthanyouhave。Isawherinprayer-meetinglastnight,andshehasapairofeyesthatcan’talwayslooksensible。Now,Davy-boy,takeheartofgrace。
`Tomorrowwillbringanotherday’andI’llhelpyouwiththesumsasfarasinmelies。Don’twastethislovelyhour`twixtlightanddarkworryingoverarithmetic。"
"Well,Iwon’t,"saidDavy,brighteningup。"IfyouhelpmewiththesumsI’llhave’emdoneintimetogofishingwithMilty。
IwisholdAuntAtossa’sfuneralwastomorrowinsteadoftoday。
Iwantedtogotoit’causeMiltysaidhismothersaidAuntAtossawouldbesuretoriseupinhercoffinandsaysarcasticthingstothefolksthatcometoseeherburied。ButMarillasaidshedidn’t。"
"PoorAtossalaidinhercoffinpeacefulenough,"saidMrs。Lyndesolemnly。"Ineversawherlooksopleasantbefore,that’swhat。
Well,thereweren’tmanytearsshedoverher,pooroldsoul。
TheElishaWrightsarethankfultoberidofher,andIcan’tsayIblamethemamite。"
"Itseemstomeamostdreadfulthingtogooutoftheworldandnotleaveonepersonbehindyouwhoissorryyouaregone,"saidAnne,shuddering。
"NobodyexceptherparentseverlovedpoorAtossa,that’scertain,notevenherhusband,"averredMrs。Lynde。"Shewashisfourthwife。He’dsortofgotintothehabitofmarrying。Heonlylivedafewyearsafterhemarriedher。
Thedoctorsaidhediedofdyspepsia,butIshallalwaysmaintainthathediedofAtossa’stongue,that’swhat。Poorsoul,shealwayskneweverythingaboutherneighbors,butsheneverwasverywellacquaintedwithherself。Well,she’sgoneanyhow;andIsupposethenextexcitementwillbeDiana’swedding。"
"ItseemsfunnyandhorribletothinkofDiana’sbeingmarried,"
sighedAnne,huggingherkneesandlookingthroughthegapintheHauntedWoodtothelightthatwasshininginDiana’sroom。
"Idon’tseewhat’shorribleaboutit,whenshe’sdoingsowell,"
saidMrs。Lyndeemphatically。"FredWrighthasafinefarmandheisamodelyoungman。"
"Hecertainlyisn’tthewild,dashing,wicked,youngmanDianaoncewantedtomarry,"smiledAnne。"Fredisextremelygood。"
"That’sjustwhatheoughttobe。WouldyouwantDianatomarryawickedman?Ormarryoneyourself?"
"Oh,no。Iwouldn’twanttomarryanybodywhowaswicked,butIthinkI’dlikeitifheCOULDbewickedandWOULDN’T。
Now,FredisHOPELESSLYgood。"
"You’llhavemoresensesomeday,Ihope,"saidMarilla。
Marillaspokeratherbitterly。Shewasgrievouslydisappointed。
SheknewAnnehadrefusedGilbertBlythe。Avonleagossipbuzzedoverthefact,whichhadleakedout,nobodyknewhow。PerhapsCharlieSloanehadguessedandtoldhisguessesfortruth。
PerhapsDianahadbetrayedittoFredandFredhadbeenindiscreet。
Atalleventsitwasknown;Mrs。BlythenolongeraskedAnne,inpublicorprivate,ifshehadheardlatelyfromGilbert,butpassedherbywithafrostybow。Anne,whohadalwayslikedGilbert’smerry,young-heartedmother,wasgrievedinsecretoverthis。
Marillasaidnothing;butMrs。LyndegaveAnnemanyexasperateddigsaboutit,untilfreshgossipreachedthatworthylady,throughthemediumofMoodySpurgeonMacPherson’smother,thatAnnehadanother"beau"atcollege,whowasrichandhandsomeandgoodallinone。AfterthatMrs。Rachelheldhertongue,thoughshestillwishedinherinmostheartthatAnnehadacceptedGilbert。Richeswereallverywell;
butevenMrs。Rachel,practicalsoulthoughshewas,didnotconsiderthemtheoneessential。IfAnne"liked"theHandsomeUnknownbetterthanGilberttherewasnothingmoretobesaid;
butMrs。RachelwasdreadfullyafraidthatAnnewasgoingtomakethemistakeofmarryingformoney。MarillaknewAnnetoowelltofearthis;butshefeltthatsomethingintheuniversalschemeofthingshadgonesadlyawry。
"Whatistobe,willbe,"saidMrs。Rachelgloomily,"andwhatisn’ttobehappenssometimes。Ican’thelpbelievingit’sgoingtohappeninAnne’scase,ifProvidencedoesn’tinterfere,that’swhat。"
Mrs。Rachelsighed。ShewasafraidProvidencewouldn’tinterfere;
andshedidn’tdareto。
AnnehadwandereddowntotheDryad’sBubbleandwascurledupamongthefernsattherootofthebigwhitebirchwheresheandGilberthadsooftensatinsummersgoneby。Hehadgoneintothenewspaperofficeagainwhencollegeclosed,andAvonleaseemedverydullwithouthim。Heneverwrotetoher,andAnnemissedthelettersthatnevercame。Tobesure,Roywrotetwiceaweek;hisletterswereexquisitecompositionswhichwouldhavereadbeautifullyinamemoirorbiography。Annefeltherselfmoredeeplyinlovewithhimthaneverwhenshereadthem;butherheartnevergavethequeer,quick,painfulboundatsightofhisletterswhichithadgivenonedaywhenMrs。HiramSloanehadhandedheroutanenvelopeaddressedinGilbert’sblack,uprighthandwriting。Annehadhurriedhometotheeastgableandopenediteagerly——tofindatypewrittencopyofsomecollegesocietyreport——"onlythatandnothingmore。"AnneflungtheharmlessscreedacrossherroomandsatdowntowriteanespeciallyniceepistletoRoy。
Dianawastobemarriedinfivemoredays。ThegrayhouseatOrchardSlopewasinaturmoilofbakingandbrewingandboilingandstewing,fortherewastobeabig,old-timeywedding。Anne,ofcourse,wastobebridesmaid,ashadbeenarrangedwhentheyweretwelveyearsold,andGilbertwascomingfromKingsporttobebestman。Annewasenjoyingtheexcitementofthevariouspreparations,butunderitallshecarriedalittleheartache。
Shewas,inasense,losingherdearoldchum;Diana’snewhomewouldbetwomilesfromGreenGables,andtheoldconstantcompanionshipcouldneverbetheirsagain。AnnelookedupatDiana’slightandthoughthowithadbeaconedtoherformanyyears;
butsoonitwouldshinethroughthesummertwilightsnomore。
Twobig,painfultearswelledupinhergrayeyes。
"Oh,"shethought,"howhorribleitisthatpeoplehavetogrowup——andmarry——andCHANGE!"
ChapterXXIX
Diana’sWedding"Afterall,theonlyrealrosesarethepinkones,"saidAnne,asshetiedwhiteribbonaroundDiana’sbouquetinthewestwardlookinggableatOrchardSlope。"Theyaretheflowersofloveandfaith。"
Dianawasstandingnervouslyinthemiddleoftheroom,arrayedinherbridalwhite,herblackcurlsfrostedoverwiththefilmofherweddingveil。Annehaddrapedthatveil,inaccordancewiththesentimentalcompactofyearsbefore。
"It’sallprettymuchasIusedtoimagineitlongago,whenI
weptoveryourinevitablemarriageandourconsequentparting,"
shelaughed。"Youarethebrideofmydreams,Diana,withthe`lovelymistyveil’;andIamYOURbridesmaid。But,alas!
Ihaven’tthepuffedsleeves——thoughtheseshortlaceonesareevenprettier。NeitherismyheartwhollybreakingnordoI
exactlyhateFred。"
"Wearenotreallyparting,Anne,"protestedDiana。"I’mnotgoingfaraway。We’llloveeachotherjustasmuchasever。
We’vealwayskeptthat`oath’offriendshipwesworelongago,haven’twe?"
"Yes。We’vekeptitfaithfully。We’vehadabeautifulfriendship,Diana。We’venevermarreditbyonequarrelorcoolnessorunkindword;andIhopeitwillalwaysbeso。
Butthingscan’tbequitethesameafterthis。You’llhaveotherinterests。I’lljustbeontheoutside。But`suchislife’asMrs。Rachelsays。Mrs。Rachelhasgivenyouoneofherbelovedknittedquiltsofthe`tobaccostripe’pattern,andshesayswhenIammarriedshe’llgivemeone,too。"
"ThemeanthingaboutyourgettingmarriedisthatIwon’tbeabletobeyourbridesmaid,"lamentedDiana。
"I’mtobePhil’sbridesmaidnextJune,whenshemarriesMr。Blake,andthenImuststop,foryouknowtheproverb`threetimesabridesmaid,neverabride,’"saidAnne,peepingthroughthewindowoverthepinkandsnowoftheblossomingorchardbeneath。"Herecomestheminister,Diana。"
"Oh,Anne,"gaspedDiana,suddenlyturningverypaleandbeginningtotremble。"Oh,Anne——I’msonervous——Ican’tgothroughwithit——Anne,IknowI’mgoingtofaint。"
"IfyoudoI’lldragyoudowntotherainwaterhogshedanddropyouin,"saidAnneunsympathetically。"Cheerup,dearest。
Gettingmarriedcan’tbesoveryterriblewhensomanypeoplesurvivetheceremony。SeehowcoolandcomposedIam,andtakecourage。"
"Waittillyourturncomes,MissAnne。Oh,Anne,Ihearfathercomingupstairs。Givememybouquet。Ismyveilright?AmI
verypale?"
"Youlookjustlovely。Di,darling,kissmegood-byeforthelasttime。DianaBarrywillneverkissmeagain。"
"DianaWrightwill,though。There,mother’scalling。Come。"
Followingthesimple,old-fashionedwayinvoguethen,AnnewentdowntotheparloronGilbert’sarm。TheymetatthetopofthestairsforthefirsttimesincetheyhadleftKingsport,forGilberthadarrivedonlythatday。Gilbertshookhandscourteously。
Hewaslookingverywell,though,asAnneinstantlynoted,ratherthin。
Hewasnotpale;therewasaflushonhischeekthathadburnedintoitasAnnecamealongthehalltowardshim,inhersoft,whitedresswithlilies-of-the-valleyintheshiningmassesofherhair。Astheyenteredthecrowdedparlortogetheralittlemurmurofadmirationranaroundtheroom。"Whatafine-lookingpairtheyare,"whisperedtheimpressibleMrs。RacheltoMarilla。
Fredambledinalone,withaveryredface,andthenDianasweptinonherfather’sarm。Shedidnotfaint,andnothinguntowardoccurredtointerrupttheceremony。Feastingandmerry-makingfollowed;then,astheeveningwaned,FredandDianadroveawaythroughthemoonlighttotheirnewhome,andGilbertwalkedwithAnnetoGreenGables。
Somethingoftheiroldcomradeshiphadreturnedduringtheinformalmirthoftheevening。Oh,itwasnicetobewalkingoverthatwell-knownroadwithGilbertagain!
Thenightwassoverystillthatoneshouldhavebeenabletohearthewhisperofrosesinblossom——thelaughterofdaisies——thepipingofgrasses——manysweetsounds,alltangleduptogether。
Thebeautyofmoonlightonfamiliarfieldsirradiatedtheworld。
"Can’twetakearambleupLovers’Lanebeforeyougoin?"askedGilbertastheycrossedthebridgeovertheLakeofShiningWaters,inwhichthemoonlaylikeagreat,drownedblossomofgold。
Anneassentedreadily。Lovers’Lanewasaveritablepathinafairylandthatnight——ashimmering,mysteriousplace,fullofwizardryinthewhite-wovenenchantmentofmoonlight。TherehadbeenatimewhensuchawalkwithGilbertthroughLovers’Lanewouldhavebeenfartoodangerous。ButRoyandChristinehadmadeitverysafenow。AnnefoundherselfthinkingagooddealaboutChristineasshechattedlightlytoGilbert。ShehadmetherseveraltimesbeforeleavingKingsport,andhadbeencharminglysweettoher。Christinehadalsobeencharminglysweet。Indeed,theywereamostcordialpair。Butforallthat,theiracquaintancehadnotripenedintofriendship。EvidentlyChristinewasnotakindredspirit。
"AreyougoingtobeinAvonleaallsummer?"askedGilbert。
"No。I’mgoingdowneasttoValleyRoadnextweek。EstherHaythornewantsmetoteachforherthroughJulyandAugust。
Theyhaveasummerterminthatschool,andEstherisn’tfeelingwell。
SoI’mgoingtosubstituteforher。InonewayIdon’tmind。
Doyouknow,I’mbeginningtofeelalittlebitlikeastrangerinAvonleanow?Itmakesmesorry——butit’strue。It’squiteappallingtoseethenumberofchildrenwhohaveshotupintobigboysandgirls——reallyyoungmenandwomen——thesepasttwoyears。
Halfofmypupilsaregrownup。ItmakesmefeelawfullyoldtoseethemintheplacesyouandIandourmatesusedtofill。"
Annelaughedandsighed。Shefeltveryoldandmatureandwise——whichshowedhowyoungshewas。Shetoldherselfthatshelongedgreatlytogobacktothosedearmerrydayswhenlifewasseenthrougharosymistofhopeandillusion,andpossessedanindefinablesomethingthathadpassedawayforever。Wherewasitnow——thegloryandthedream?
"`Sowagstheworldaway,’"quotedGilbertpractically,andatrifleabsently。AnnewonderedifhewerethinkingofChristine。
Oh,Avonleawasgoingtobesolonelynow——withDianagone!
ChapterXXX
Mrs。Skinner’sRomanceAnnesteppedoffthetrainatValleyRoadstationandlookedabouttoseeifanyonehadcometomeether。ShewastoboardwithacertainMissJanetSweet,butshesawnoonewhoansweredintheleasttoherpreconceptionofthatlady,asformedfromEsther’sletter。Theonlypersoninsightwasanelderlywoman,sittinginawagonwithmailbagspiledaroundher。Twohundredwouldhavebeenacharitableguessatherweight;herfacewasasroundandredasaharvest-moonandalmostasfeatureless。
Sheworeatight,black,cashmeredress,madeinthefashionoftenyearsago,alittledustyblackstrawhattrimmedwithbowsofyellowribbon,andfadedblacklacemits。
"Here,you,"shecalled,wavingherwhipatAnne。"AreyouthenewValleyRoadschoolma’am?"
"Yes。"
"Well,Ithoughtso。ValleyRoadisnotedforitsgood-lookingschoolma’ams,justasMillersvilleisnotedforitshumlyones。
JanetSweetaskedmethismorningifIcouldbringyouout。I
said,`SartinIkin,ifshedon’tmindbeingscrunchedupsome。
Thisrigofmine’skindersmallforthemailbagsandI’msomeheftierthanThomas!’Justwait,miss,tillIshiftthesebagsabitandI’lltuckyouinsomehow。It’sonlytwomilestoJanet’s。
Hernext-doorneighbor’shiredboyiscomingforyourtrunktonight。
MynameisSkinner——AmeliaSkinner。"
Annewaseventuallytuckedin,exchangingamusedsmileswithherselfduringtheprocess。
"Jogalong,blackmare,"commandedMrs。Skinner,gatheringupthereinsinherpudgyhands。"Thisismyfirsttriponthemailrowte。
Thomaswantedtohoehisturnipstodaysoheaskedmetocome。
SoIjestsotdownandtookastanding-upsnackandstarted。
Isorterlikeit。O’courseit’srathertejus。PartofthetimeIsitsandthinksandtherestIjestsits。Jogalong,blackmare。Iwanttogithomeairly。ThomasisterriblelonesomewhenI’maway。Yousee,wehaven’tbeenmarriedverylong。"
"Oh!"saidAnnepolitely。
"Justamonth。Thomascourtedmeforquiteaspell,though。Itwasrealromantic。"AnnetriedtopictureMrs。Skinneronspeakingtermswithromanceandfailed。
"Oh?"shesaidagain。
"Yes。Y’see,therewasanothermanafterme。Jogalong,blackmare。
I’dbeenawiddersolongfolkshadgivenupexpectingmetomarryagain。
Butwhenmydarter——she’saschoolma’amlikeyou——wentoutWesttoteachIfeltreallonesomeandwasn’tnowisesotagainsttheidea。
Bime-byThomasbegantocomeupandsodidtheotherfeller——
WilliamObadiahSeaman,hisnamewas。ForalongtimeIcouldn’tmakeupmymindwhichofthemtotake,andtheykep’comingandcoming,andIkep’worrying。Y’see,W。O。wasrich——hehadafineplaceandcarriedconsiderablestyle。Hewasbyfarthebestmatch。Jogalong,blackmare。"
"Whydidn’tyoumarryhim?"askedAnne。
"Well,y’see,hedidn’tloveme,"answeredMrs。Skinner,solemnly。
AnneopenedhereyeswidelyandlookedatMrs。Skinner。Buttherewasnotaglintofhumoronthatlady’sface。EvidentlyMrs。Skinnersawnothingamusinginherowncase。
"He’dbeenawidder-manforthreeyers,andhissisterkepthouseforhim。
Thenshegotmarriedandhejustwantedsomeonetolookafterhishouse。
Itwasworthlookingafter,too,mindyouthat。It’sahandsomehouse。
Jogalong,blackmare。AsforThomas,hewaspoor,andifhishousedidn’tleakindryweatheritwasaboutallthatcouldbesaidforit,thoughitlookskindofpictureaskew。But,y’see,IlovedThomas,andIdidn’tcareoneredcentforW。O。SoIargueditoutwithmyself。
`SarahCrowe,’sayI——myfirstwasaCrowe——`youcanmarryyourrichmanifyoulikebutyouwon’tbehappy。Folkscan’tgetalongtogetherinthisworldwithoutalittlebitoflove。
You’djustbettertieuptoThomas,forhelovesyouandyoulovehimandnothingelseain’tgoingtodoyou。’Jogalong,blackmare。
SoItoldThomasI’dtakehim。AllthetimeIwasgettingreadyIneverdareddrivepastW。O。’splaceforfearthesightofthatfinehouseofhiswouldputmeintheswithersagain。ButnowI
neverthinkofitatall,andI’mjustthatcomfortableandhappywithThomas。Jogalong,blackmare。"
"HowdidWilliamObadiahtakeit?"queriedAnne。
"Oh,herumpussedabit。Buthe’sgoingtoseeaskinnyoldmaidinMillersvillenow,andIguessshe’lltakehimfastenough。
She’llmakehimabetterwifethanhisfirstdid。W。O。neverwantedtomarryher。Hejustaskedhertomarryhim’causehisfatherwantedhimto,neverdreamingbutthatshe’dsay`no。’
Butmindyou,shesaid’yes。’Therewasapredicamentforyou。
Jogalong,blackmare。Shewasagreathousekeeper,butmostawfulmean。Sheworethesamebonnetforeighteenyears。ThenshegotanewoneandW。O。metherontheroadanddidn’tknowher。
Jogalong,blackmare。IfeelthatI’danarrerescape。Imighthavemarriedhimandbeenmostawfulmiserable,likemypoorcousin,JaneAnn。JaneAnnmarriedarichmanshedidn’tcareanythingabout,andshehasn’tthelifeofadog。Shecometoseemelastweekandsays,saysshe,`SarahSkinner,Ienvyyou。
I’dratherliveinalittlehutonthesideoftheroadwithamanIwasfondofthaninmybighousewiththeoneI’vegot。’
JaneAnn’smanain’tsuchabadsort,nuther,thoughhe’ssocontrarythathewearshisfurcoatwhenthethermometer’satninety。Theonlywaytogithimtodoanythingistocoaxhimtodotheopposite。Butthereain’tanylovetosmooththingsdownandit’sapoorwayofliving。Jogalong,blackmare。
There’sJanet’splaceinthehollow——`Wayside,’shecallsit。
Quitepictureaskew,ain’tit?Iguessyou’llbegladtogitoutofthis,withallthemmailbagsjammingroundyou。"
"Yes,butIhaveenjoyedmydrivewithyouverymuch,"saidAnnesincerely。
"Gitawaynow!"saidMrs。Skinner,highlyflattered。"WaittillItellThomasthat。HealwaysfeelsdretfultickledwhenIgitacompliment。Jogalong,blackmare。Well,hereweare。Ihopeyou’llgitonwellintheschool,miss。There’sashortcuttoitthroughthema’shbackofJanet’s。Ifyoutakethatwaybeawfulkeerful。Ifyouoncegotstuckinthatblackmudyou’dbesuckedrightdownandneverseenorheardtellofagaintillthedayofjudgment,likeAdamPalmer’scow。Jogalong,blackmare。"
ChapterXXXI
AnnetoPhilippa"AnneShirleytoPhilippaGordon,greeting。
"Well-beloved,it’shightimeIwaswritingyou。HereamI,installedoncemoreasacountry`schoolma’am’atValleyRoad,boardingat`Wayside,’thehomeofMissJanetSweet。Janetisadearsoulandverynicelooking;tall,butnotover-tall;stoutish,yetwithacertainrestraintofoutlinesuggestiveofathriftysoulwhoisnotgoingtobeoverlavisheveninthematterofavoirdupois。Shehasaknotofsoft,crimpy,brownhairwithathreadofgrayinit,asunnyfacewithrosycheeks,andbig,kindeyesasblueasforget-me-nots。Moreover,sheisoneofthosedelightful,old-fashionedcookswhodon’tcareabitiftheyruinyourdigestionaslongastheycangiveyoufeastsoffatthings。
"Ilikeher;andshelikesme——principally,itseems,becauseshehadasisternamedAnnewhodiedyoung。
"`I’mrealgladtoseeyou,’shesaidbriskly,whenIlandedinheryard。
`My,youdon’tlookamitelikeIexpected。Iwassureyou’dbedark——
mysisterAnnewasdark。Andhereyou’reredheaded!’
"ForafewminutesIthoughtIwasn’tgoingtolikeJanetasmuchasIhadexpectedatfirstsight。ThenIremindedmyselfthatI
reallymustbemoresensiblethantobeprejudicedagainstanyonesimplybecauseshecalledmyhairred。Probablytheword`auburn’wasnotinJanet’svocabularyatall。
"`Wayside’isadearsortoflittlespot。Thehouseissmallandwhite,setdowninadelightfullittlehollowthatdropsawayfromtheroad。Betweenroadandhouseisanorchardandflower-gardenallmixeduptogether。Thefrontdoorwalkisborderedwithquahogclam-shells——`cow-hawks,’Janetcallsthem;
thereisVirginiaCreeperovertheporchandmossontheroof。
Myroomisaneatlittlespot`offtheparlor’——justbigenoughforthebedandme。OvertheheadofmybedthereisapictureofRobbyBurnsstandingatHighlandMary’sgrave,shadowedbyanenormousweepingwillowtree。Robby’sfaceissolugubriousthatitisnowonderIhavebaddreams。Why,thefirstnightIwashereIdreamedICOULDN’TLAUGH。
"Theparloristinyandneat。Itsonewindowissoshadedbyahugewillowthattheroomhasagrotto-likeeffectofemeraldgloom。
Therearewonderfultidiesonthechairs,andgaymatsonthefloor,andbooksandcardscarefullyarrangedonaroundtable,andvasesofdriedgrassonthemantel-piece。Betweenthevasesisacheerfuldecorationofpreservedcoffinplates——fiveinall,pertainingrespectivelytoJanet’sfatherandmother,abrother,hersisterAnne,andahiredmanwhodiedhereonce!IfIgosuddenlyinsanesomeofthesedays`knowallmenbythesepresents’thatthosecoffin-plateshavecausedit。
"Butit’salldelightfulandIsaidso。Janetlovedmeforit,justasshedetestedpoorEstherbecauseEstherhadsaidsomuchshadewasunhygienicandhadobjectedtosleepingonafeatherbed。
Now,Igloryinfeather-beds,andthemoreunhygienicandfeatherytheyarethemoreIglory。Janetsaysitissuchacomforttoseemeeat;shehadbeensoafraidIwouldbelikeMissHaythorne,whowouldn’teatanythingbutfruitandhotwaterforbreakfastandtriedtomakeJanetgiveupfryingthings。Estherisreallyadeargirl,butsheisrathergiventofads。Thetroubleisthatshehasn’tenoughimaginationandHASatendencytoindigestion。
"JanettoldmeIcouldhavetheuseoftheparlorwhenanyyoungmencalled!Idon’tthinktherearemanytocall。Ihaven’tseenayoungmaninValleyRoadyet,exceptthenext-doorhiredboy——SamToliver,averytall,lank,tow-hairedyouth。
Hecameoveroneeveningrecentlyandsatforanhouronthegardenfence,nearthefrontporchwhereJanetandIweredoingfancy-work。Theonlyremarkshevolunteeredinallthattimewere,`Hevapeppermint,miss!Dewnow-finethingforcarARRH,peppermints,’and,`Powerfulloto’jump-grassesroundhereternight。Yep。’
"Butthereisaloveaffairgoingonhere。Itseemstobemyfortunetobemixedup,moreorlessactively,withelderlyloveaffairs。Mr。andMrs。IrvingalwayssaythatIbroughtabouttheirmarriage。Mrs。StephenClarkofCarmodypersistsinbeingmostgratefultomeforasuggestionwhichsomebodyelsewouldprobablyhavemadeifIhadn’t。Idoreallythink,though,thatLudovicSpeedwouldneverhavegotanyfurtheralongthanplacidcourtshipifIhadnothelpedhimandTheodoraDixout。
"InthepresentaffairIamonlyapassivespectator。I’vetriedoncetohelpthingsalongandmadeanawfulmessofit。SoI
shallnotmeddleagain。I’lltellyouallaboutitwhenwemeet。"
ChapterXXXII
TeawithMrs。DouglasOnthefirstThursdaynightofAnne’ssojourninValleyRoadJanetaskedhertogotoprayer-meeting。Janetblossomedoutlikearosetoattendthatprayer-meeting。Sheworeapale-blue,pansy-sprinkledmuslindresswithmorerufflesthanonewouldeverhavesupposedeconomicalJanetcouldbeguiltyof,andawhiteleghornhatwithpinkrosesandthreeostrichfeathersonit。
Annefeltquiteamazed。Lateron,shefoundoutJanet’smotiveinsoarrayingherself——amotiveasoldasEden。
ValleyRoadprayer-meetingsseemedtobeessentiallyfeminine。
Therewerethirty-twowomenpresent,twohalf-grownboys,andonesolitaryman,besidetheminister。Annefoundherselfstudyingthisman。Hewasnothandsomeoryoungorgraceful;hehadremarkablylonglegs——solongthathehadtokeepthemcoiledupunderhischairtodisposeofthem——andhewasstoopshouldered。
Hishandswerebig,hishairwantedbarbering,andhismoustachewasunkempt。ButAnnethoughtshelikedhisface;itwaskindandhonestandtender;therewassomethingelseinit,too——justwhat,Annefoundithardtodefine。Shefinallyconcludedthatthismanhadsufferedandbeenstrong,andithadbeenmademanifestinhisface。
Therewasasortofpatient,humorousenduranceinhisexpressionwhichindicatedthathewouldgotothestakeifneedbe,butwouldkeeponlookingpleasantuntilhereallyhadtobeginsquirming。
Whenprayer-meetingwasoverthismancameuptoJanetandsaid,"MayIseeyouhome,Janet?"
Janettookhisarm——"asprimlyandshylyasifshewerenomorethansixteen,havingherfirstescorthome,"AnnetoldthegirlsatPatty’sPlacelateron。
"MissShirley,permitmetointroduceMr。Douglas,"shesaidstiffly。
Mr。Douglasnoddedandsaid,"Iwaslookingatyouinprayer-meeting,miss,andthinkingwhatanicelittlegirlyouwere。"
Suchaspeechfromninety-ninepeopleoutofahundredwouldhaveannoyedAnnebitterly;butthewayinwhichMr。Douglassaiditmadeherfeelthatshehadreceivedaveryrealandpleasingcompliment。
Shesmiledappreciativelyathimanddroppedobliginglybehindonthemoonlitroad。
SoJanethadabeau!Annewasdelighted。Janetwouldmakeaparagonofawife——cheery,economical,tolerant,andaveryqueenofcooks。
ItwouldbeaflagrantwasteonNature’sparttokeepherapermanentoldmaid。
"JohnDouglasaskedmetotakeyouuptoseehismother,"saidJanetthenextday。"She’sbed-ridalotofthetimeandnevergoesoutofthehouse。Butshe’spowerfulfondofcompanyandalwayswantstoseemyboarders。Canyougoupthisevening?"
Anneassented;butlaterinthedayMr。Douglascalledonhismother’sbehalftoinvitethemuptoteaonSaturdayevening。
"Oh,whydidn’tyouputonyourprettypansydress?"askedAnne,whentheylefthome。Itwasahotday,andpoorJanet,betweenherexcitementandherheavyblackcashmeredress,lookedasifshewerebeingbroiledalive。
"OldMrs。Douglaswouldthinkitterriblefrivolousandunsuitable,I’mafraid。Johnlikesthatdress,though,"sheaddedwistfully。
TheoldDouglashomesteadwashalfamilefrom"Wayside"crestingawindyhill。Thehouseitselfwaslargeandcomfortable,oldenoughtobedignified,andgirdledwithmaplegrovesandorchards。
Therewerebig,trimbarnsbehindit,andeverythingbespokeprosperity。
WhateverthepatientenduranceinMr。Douglas’facehadmeantithadn’t,soAnnereflected,meantdebtsandduns。
JohnDouglasmetthematthedoorandtookthemintothesitting-room,wherehismotherwasenthronedinanarmchair。
AnnehadexpectedoldMrs。Douglastobetallandthin,becauseMr。Douglaswas。Instead,shewasatinyscrapofawoman,withsoftpinkcheeks,mildblueeyes,andamouthlikeababy’s。
Dressedinabeautiful,fashionably-madeblacksilkdress,withafluffywhiteshawloverhershoulders,andhersnowyhairsurmountedbyadaintylacecap,shemighthaveposedasagrandmotherdoll。
"Howdoyoudo,Janetdear?"shesaidsweetly。"Iamsogladtoseeyouagain,dear。"Sheputupherprettyoldfacetobekissed。
"Andthisisournewteacher。I’mdelightedtomeetyou。MysonhasbeensingingyourpraisesuntilI’mhalfjealous,andI’msureJanetoughttobewhollyso。"
PoorJanetblushed,Annesaidsomethingpoliteandconventional,andtheneverybodysatdownandmadetalk。Itwashardwork,evenforAnne,fornobodyseemedateaseexceptoldMrs。Douglas,whocertainlydidnotfindanydifficultyintalking。ShemadeJanetsitbyherandstrokedherhandoccasionally。Janetsatandsmiled,lookinghorriblyuncomfortableinherhideousdress,andJohnDouglassatwithoutsmiling。
AttheteatableMrs。DouglasgracefullyaskedJanettopourthetea。Janetturnedredderthaneverbutdidit。AnnewroteadescriptionofthatmealtoStella。
"Wehadcoldtongueandchickenandstrawberrypreserves,lemonpieandtartsandchocolatecakeandraisincookiesandpoundcakeandfruitcake——andafewotherthings,includingmorepie——caramelpie,Ithinkitwas。AfterIhadeatentwiceasmuchaswasgoodforme,Mrs。Douglassighedandsaidshefearedshehadnothingtotemptmyappetite。
"`I’mafraiddearJanet’scookinghasspoiledyouforanyother,’
shesaidsweetly。`OfcoursenobodyinValleyRoadaspirestorivalHER。WON’Tyouhaveanotherpieceofpie,MissShirley?
Youhaven’teatenANYTHING。’
"Stella,Ihadeatenahelpingoftongueandoneofchicken,threebiscuits,agenerousallowanceofpreserves,apieceofpie,atart,andasquareofchocolatecake!"
AfterteaMrs。DouglassmiledbenevolentlyandtoldJohntotake"dearJanet"outintothegardenandgethersomeroses。
"MissShirleywillkeepmecompanywhileyouareout——
won’tyou?"shesaidplaintively。Shesettleddowninherarmchairwithasigh。
"Iamaveryfrailoldwoman,MissShirley。ForovertwentyyearsI’vebeenagreatsufferer。Fortwentylong,wearyyearsI’vebeendyingbyinches。"
"Howpainful!"saidAnne,tryingtobesympatheticandsucceedingonlyinfeelingidiotic。
"Therehavebeenscoresofnightswhenthey’vethoughtIcouldneverlivetoseethedawn,"wentonMrs。Douglassolemnly。
"NobodyknowswhatI’vegonethrough——nobodycanknowbutmyself。Well,itcan’tlastverymuchlongernow。Mywearypilgrimagewillsoonbeover,MissShirley。ItisagreatcomforttomethatJohnwillhavesuchagoodwifetolookafterhimwhenhismotherisgone——agreatcomfort,MissShirley。"
"Janetisalovelywoman,"saidAnnewarmly。
"Lovely!Abeautifulcharacter,"assentedMrs。Douglas。"Andaperfecthousekeeper——somethingIneverwas。Myhealthwouldnotpermitit,MissShirley。IamindeedthankfulthatJohnhasmadesuchawisechoice。Ihopeandbelievethathewillbehappy。
Heismyonlyson,MissShirley,andhishappinessliesverynearmyheart。"
"Ofcourse,"saidAnnestupidly。Forthefirsttimeinherlifeshewasstupid。Yetshecouldnotimaginewhy。Sheseemedtohaveabsolutelynothingtosaytothissweet,smiling,angelicoldladywhowaspattingherhandsokindly。
"Comeandseemesoonagain,dearJanet,"saidMrs。Douglaslovingly,whentheyleft。"Youdon’tcomehalfoftenenough。
ButthenIsupposeJohnwillbebringingyouheretostayallthetimeoneofthesedays。"Anne,happeningtoglanceatJohnDouglas,ashismotherspoke,gaveapositivestartofdismay。
Helookedasatorturedmanmightlookwhenhistormentorsgavetherackthelastturnofpossibleendurance。ShefeltsurehemustbeillandhurriedpoorblushingJanetaway。
"Isn’toldMrs。Douglasasweetwoman?"askedJanet,astheywentdowntheroad。
"M——m,"answeredAnneabsently。ShewaswonderingwhyJohnDouglashadlookedso。
"She’sbeenaterriblesufferer,"saidJanetfeelingly。
"Shetakesterriblespells。ItkeepsJohnallworriedup。
He’sscaredtoleavehomeforfearhismotherwilltakeaspellandnobodytherebutthehiredgirl。"
ChapterXXXIII
"HeJustKeptComingandComing"
ThreedayslaterAnnecamehomefromschoolandfoundJanetcrying。
TearsandJanetseemedsoincongruousthatAnnewashonestlyalarmed。
"Oh,whatisthematter?"shecriedanxiously。
"I’m——I’mfortytoday,"sobbedJanet。
"Well,youwerenearlythatyesterdayanditdidn’thurt,"
comfortedAnne,tryingnottosmile。
"But——but,"wentonJanetwithabiggulp,"JohnDouglaswon’taskmetomarryhim。"
"Oh,buthewill,"saidAnnelamely。"Youmustgivehimtime,Janet"Time!"saidJanetwithindescribablescorn。"Hehashadtwentyyears。
Howmuchtimedoeshewant?"
"DoyoumeanthatJohnDouglashasbeencomingtoseeyoufortwentyyears?"
"Hehas。Andhehasneversomuchasmentionedmarriagetome。
AndIdon’tbelieveheeverwillnow。I’veneversaidawordtoamortalaboutit,butitseemstomeI’vejustgottotalkitoutwithsomeoneatlastorgocrazy。JohnDouglasbeguntogowithmetwentyyearsago,beforemotherdied。Well,hekeptcomingandcoming,andafteraspellIbegunmakingquiltsandthings;butheneversaidanythingaboutgettingmarried,onlyjustkeptcomingandcoming。Therewasn’tanythingIcoulddo。
Motherdiedwhenwe’dbeengoingtogetherforeightyears。
Ithoughthemaybewouldspeakoutthen,seeingasIwasleftaloneintheworld。Hewasrealkindandfeeling,anddideverythinghecouldforme,butheneversaidmarry。Andthat’sthewayithasbeengoingoneversince。PeopleblameMEforit。
TheysayIwon’tmarryhimbecausehismotherissosicklyandI
don’twantthebotherofwaitingonher。Why,I’dLOVEtowaitonJohn’smother!ButIletthemthinkso。I’dratherthey’dblamemethanpityme!It’ssodreadfulhumiliatingthatJohnwon’taskme。AndWHYwon’the?SeemstomeifIonlyknewhisreasonIwouldn’tminditsomuch。"
"Perhapshismotherdoesn’twanthimtomarryanybody,"suggestedAnne。
"Oh,shedoes。She’stoldmetimeandagainthatshe’dlovetoseeJohnsettledbeforehertimecomes。She’salwaysgivinghimhints——
youheardheryourselftheotherday。IthoughtI’dha’gonethroughthefloor。"
"It’sbeyondme,"saidAnnehelplessly。ShethoughtofLudovicSpeed。
Butthecaseswerenotparallel。JohnDouglaswasnotamanofLudovic’stype。
"Youshouldshowmorespirit,Janet,"shewentonresolutely。
"Whydidn’tyousendhimabouthisbusinesslongago?"
"Icouldn’t,"saidpoorJanetpathetically。"Yousee,Anne,I’vealwaysbeenawfulfondofJohn。Hemightjustaswellkeepcomingasnot,fortherewasneveranybodyelseI’dwant,soitdidn’tmatter。"
"Butitmighthavemadehimspeakoutlikeaman,"urgedAnne。
Janetshookherhead。
"No,Iguessnot。Iwasafraidtotry,anyway,forfearhe’dthinkImeantitandjustgo。IsupposeI’mapoor-spiritedcreature,butthatishowIfeel。AndIcan’thelpit。"
"Oh,youCOULDhelpit,Janet。Itisn’ttoolateyet。Takeafirmstand。Letthatmanknowyouarenotgoingtoendurehisshillyshallyinganylonger。I’LLbackyouup。"
"Idunno,"saidJanethopelessly。"IdunnoifIcouldevergetupenoughspunk。Thingshavedriftedsolong。ButI’llthinkitover。"
AnnefeltthatshewasdisappointedinJohnDouglas。Shehadlikedhimsowell,andshehadnotthoughthimthesortofmanwhowouldplayfastandloosewithawoman’sfeelingsfortwentyyears。
Hecertainlyshouldbetaughtalesson,andAnnefeltvindictivelythatshewouldenjoyseeingtheprocess。ThereforeshewasdelightedwhenJanettoldher,astheyweregoingtoprayer-meetingthenextnight,thatshemeanttoshowsome"sperrit。"
"I’llletJohnDouglasseeI’mnotgoingtobetroddenonanylonger。"
"Youareperfectlyright,"saidAnneemphatically。
Whenprayer-meetingwasoverJohnDouglascameupwithhisusualrequest。
Janetlookedfrightenedbutresolute。
"No,thankyou,"shesaidicily。"Iknowtheroadhomeprettywellalone。
Ioughtto,seeingI’vebeentravelingitforfortyyears。Soyouneedn’ttroubleyourself,MR。Douglas。"
AnnewaslookingatJohnDouglas;and,inthatbrilliantmoonlight,shesawthelasttwistoftherackagain。Withoutawordheturnedandstrodedowntheroad。
"Stop!Stop!"Annecalledwildlyafterhim,notcaringintheleastfortheotherdumbfoundedonlookers。"Mr。Douglas,stop!Comeback。"
JohnDouglasstoppedbuthedidnotcomeback。Anneflewdowntheroad,caughthisarmandfairlydraggedhimbacktoJanet。
"Youmustcomeback,"shesaidimploringly。"It’sallamistake,Mr。Douglas——allmyfault。ImadeJanetdoit。Shedidn’twantto——butit’sallrightnow,isn’tit,Janet?"
WithoutawordJanettookhisarmandwalkedaway。Annefollowedthemmeeklyhomeandslippedinbythebackdoor。
"Well,youareanicepersontobackmeup,"saidJanetsarcastically。
"Icouldn’thelpit,Janet,"saidAnnerepentantly。"IjustfeltasifIhadstoodbyandseenmurderdone。IHADtorunafterhim。"
"Oh,I’mjustasgladyoudid。WhenIsawJohnDouglasmakingoffdownthatroadIjustfeltasifeverylittlebitofjoyandhappinessthatwasleftinmylifewasgoingwithhim。Itwasanawfulfeeling。"
"Didheaskyouwhyyoudidit?"askedAnne。
"No,heneversaidawordaboutit,"repliedJanetdully。