首页 >出版文学> Anne of the Island>第7章
  "Phil,you’renotreallyfrivolous,"saidAnnegravely。"’Waydownunderneaththatfrivolousexteriorofyoursyou’vegotadear,loyal,womanlylittlesoul。Whydoyouhideitso?"
  "Ican’thelpit,QueenAnne。Youareright——I’mnotfrivolousatheart。Butthere’sasortoffrivolousskinovermysoulandIcan’ttakeitoff。AsMrs。Poysersays,I’dhavetobehatchedoveragainandhatcheddifferentbeforeIcouldchangeit。ButJonasknowstherealmeandlovesme,frivolityandall。AndI
  lovehim。IneverwassosurprisedinmylifeasIwaswhenI
  foundoutIlovedhim。I’dneverthoughtitpossibletofallinlovewithanuglyman。Fancymecomingdowntoonesolitarybeau。AndonenamedJonas!ButImeantocallhimJo。That’ssuchanice,crisplittlename。Icouldn’tnicknameAlonzo。"
  "WhataboutAlecandAlonzo?"
  "Oh,ItoldthematChristmasthatInevercouldmarryeitherofthem。ItseemssofunnynowtorememberthatIeverthoughtitpossiblethatImight。TheyfeltsobadlyIjustcriedoverbothofthem——howled。ButIknewtherewasonlyonemanintheworldIcouldevermarry。Ihadmadeupmyownmindforonceanditwasrealeasy,too。It’sverydelightfultofeelsosure,andknowit’syourownsurenessandnotsomebodyelse’s。"
  "Doyousupposeyou’llbeabletokeepitup?"
  "Makingupmymind,youmean?Idon’tknow,butJohasgivenmeasplendidrule。Hesays,whenI’mperplexed,justtodowhatI
  wouldwishIhaddonewhenIshallbeeighty。Anyhow,Jocanmakeuphismindquicklyenough,anditwouldbeuncomfortabletohavetoomuchmindinthesamehouse。"
  "Whatwillyourfatherandmothersay?"
  "Fatherwon’tsaymuch。HethinkseverythingIdoright。
  ButmotherWILLtalk。Oh,hertonguewillbeasByrneyashernose。Butintheenditwillbeallright。"
  "You’llhavetogiveupagoodmanythingsyou’vealwayshad,whenyoumarryMr。Blake,Phil。"
  "ButI’llhaveHIM。Iwon’tmisstheotherthings。We’retobemarriedayearfromnextJune。JograduatesfromSt。Columbiathisspring,youknow。Thenhe’sgoingtotakealittlemissionchurchdownonPattersonStreetintheslums。Fancymeintheslums!ButI’dgothereortoGreenland’sicymountainswithhim。"
  "AndthisisthegirlwhowouldNEVERmarryamanwhowasn’trich,"
  commentedAnnetoayoungpinetree。
  "Oh,don’tcastupthefolliesofmyyouthtome。IshallbepoorasgailyasI’vebeenrich。You’llsee。I’mgoingtolearnhowtocookandmakeoverdresses。I’velearnedhowtomarketsinceI’velivedatPatty’sPlace;andonceItaughtaSundaySchoolclassforawholesummer。AuntJamesinasaysI’llruinJo’scareerifImarryhim。ButIwon’t。IknowIhaven’tmuchsenseorsobriety,butI’vegotwhatiseversomuchbetter——
  theknackofmakingpeoplelikeme。ThereisamaninBolingbrokewholispsandalwaystestifiesinprayer-meeting。
  Hesays,’Ifyoucan’tthinelikeanelectricthtarthinelikeacandlethtick。’I’llbeJo’slittlecandlestick。"
  "Phil,you’reincorrigible。Well,IloveyousomuchthatIcan’tmakenice,light,congratulatorylittlespeeches。
  ButI’mheart-gladofyourhappiness。"
  "Iknow。Thosebiggrayeyesofyoursarebrimmingoverwithrealfriendship,Anne。SomedayI’lllookthesamewayatyou。
  You’regoingtomarryRoy,aren’tyou,Anne?"
  "MydearPhilippa,didyoueverhearofthefamousBettyBaxter,who`refusedamanbeforehe’daxedher’?Iamnotgoingtoemulatethatcelebratedladybyeitherrefusingoracceptinganyonebeforehe`axes’me。"
  "AllRedmondknowsthatRoyiscrazyaboutyou,"saidPhilcandidly。"
  AndyouDOlovehim,don’tyou,Anne?"
  "I——Isupposeso,"saidAnnereluctantly。Shefeltthatsheoughttobeblushingwhilemakingsuchaconfession;butshewasnot;
  ontheotherhand,shealwaysblushedhotlywhenanyonesaidanythingaboutGilbertBlytheorChristineStuartinherhearing。
  GilbertBlytheandChristineStuartwerenothingtoher——
  absolutelynothing。ButAnnehadgivenuptryingtoanalyzethereasonofherblushes。AsforRoy,ofcourseshewasinlovewithhim——madlyso。Howcouldshehelpit?Washenotherideal?Whocouldresistthosegloriousdarkeyes,andthatpleadingvoice?WerenothalftheRedmondgirlswildlyenvious?
  Andwhatacharmingsonnethehadsenther,withaboxofviolets,onherbirthday!Annekneweverywordofitbyheart。Itwasverygoodstuffofitskind,too。NotexactlyuptothelevelofKeatsorShakespeare——evenAnnewasnotsodeeplyinloveastothinkthat。
  Butitwasverytolerablemagazineverse。AnditwasaddressedtoHER——
  nottoLauraorBeatriceortheMaidofAthens,buttoher,AnneShirley。
  Tobetoldinrhythmicalcadencesthathereyeswerestarsofthemorning——thathercheekhadtheflushitstolefromthesunrise——thatherlipswereredderthantherosesofParadise,wasthrillinglyromantic。
  Gilbertwouldneverhavedreamedofwritingasonnettohereyebrows。
  Butthen,Gilbertcouldseeajoke。ShehadoncetoldRoyafunnystory——andhehadnotseenthepointofit。SherecalledthechummylaughsheandGilberthadhadtogetheroverit,andwondereduneasilyiflifewithamanwhohadnosenseofhumormightnotbesomewhatuninterestinginthelongrun。Butwhocouldexpectamelancholy,inscrutableherotoseethehumoroussideofthings?Itwouldbeflatlyunreasonable。
  ChapterXXVIII
  AJuneEvening"IwonderwhatitwouldbeliketoliveinaworldwhereitwasalwaysJune,"saidAnne,asshecamethroughthespiceandbloomofthetwilitorchardtothefrontdoorsteps,whereMarillaandMrs。Rachelweresitting,talkingoverMrs。SamsonCoates’funeral,whichtheyhadattendedthatday。Dorasatbetweenthem,diligentlystudyingherlessons;butDavywassittingtailor-fashiononthegrass,lookingasgloomyanddepressedashissingledimplewouldlethim。
  "You’dgettiredofit,"saidMarilla,withasigh。
  "Idaresay;butjustnowIfeelthatitwouldtakemealongtimetogettiredofit,ifitwereallascharmingastoday。
  EverythinglovesJune。Davy-boy,whythismelancholyNovemberfaceinblossom-time?"
  "I’mjustsickandtiredofliving,"saidtheyouthfulpessimist。
  "Attenyears?Dearme,howsad!"
  "I’mnotmakingfun,"saidDavywithdignity。"I’mdis——dis——
  discouraged"——bringingoutthebigwordwithavalianteffort。
  "Whyandwherefore?"askedAnne,sittingdownbesidehim。
  "’CausethenewteacherthatcomewhenMr。HolmesgotsickgivemetensumstodoforMonday。It’lltakemealldaytomorrowtodothem。Itisn’tfairtohavetoworkSaturdays。MiltyBoultersaidhewouldn’tdothem,butMarillasaysI’vegotto。Idon’tlikeMissCarsonabit。"
  "Don’ttalklikethataboutyourteacher,DavyKeith,"saidMrs。Rachelseverely。"MissCarsonisaveryfinegirl。
  Thereisnononsenseabouther。"
  "Thatdoesn’tsoundveryattractive,"laughedAnne。"Ilikepeopletohavealittlenonsenseaboutthem。ButI’minclinedtohaveabetteropinionofMissCarsonthanyouhave。Isawherinprayer-meetinglastnight,andshehasapairofeyesthatcan’talwayslooksensible。Now,Davy-boy,takeheartofgrace。
  `Tomorrowwillbringanotherday’andI’llhelpyouwiththesumsasfarasinmelies。Don’twastethislovelyhour`twixtlightanddarkworryingoverarithmetic。"
  "Well,Iwon’t,"saidDavy,brighteningup。"IfyouhelpmewiththesumsI’llhave’emdoneintimetogofishingwithMilty。
  IwisholdAuntAtossa’sfuneralwastomorrowinsteadoftoday。
  Iwantedtogotoit’causeMiltysaidhismothersaidAuntAtossawouldbesuretoriseupinhercoffinandsaysarcasticthingstothefolksthatcometoseeherburied。ButMarillasaidshedidn’t。"
  "PoorAtossalaidinhercoffinpeacefulenough,"saidMrs。Lyndesolemnly。"Ineversawherlooksopleasantbefore,that’swhat。
  Well,thereweren’tmanytearsshedoverher,pooroldsoul。
  TheElishaWrightsarethankfultoberidofher,andIcan’tsayIblamethemamite。"
  "Itseemstomeamostdreadfulthingtogooutoftheworldandnotleaveonepersonbehindyouwhoissorryyouaregone,"saidAnne,shuddering。
  "NobodyexceptherparentseverlovedpoorAtossa,that’scertain,notevenherhusband,"averredMrs。Lynde。"Shewashisfourthwife。He’dsortofgotintothehabitofmarrying。Heonlylivedafewyearsafterhemarriedher。
  Thedoctorsaidhediedofdyspepsia,butIshallalwaysmaintainthathediedofAtossa’stongue,that’swhat。Poorsoul,shealwayskneweverythingaboutherneighbors,butsheneverwasverywellacquaintedwithherself。Well,she’sgoneanyhow;andIsupposethenextexcitementwillbeDiana’swedding。"
  "ItseemsfunnyandhorribletothinkofDiana’sbeingmarried,"
  sighedAnne,huggingherkneesandlookingthroughthegapintheHauntedWoodtothelightthatwasshininginDiana’sroom。
  "Idon’tseewhat’shorribleaboutit,whenshe’sdoingsowell,"
  saidMrs。Lyndeemphatically。"FredWrighthasafinefarmandheisamodelyoungman。"
  "Hecertainlyisn’tthewild,dashing,wicked,youngmanDianaoncewantedtomarry,"smiledAnne。"Fredisextremelygood。"
  "That’sjustwhatheoughttobe。WouldyouwantDianatomarryawickedman?Ormarryoneyourself?"
  "Oh,no。Iwouldn’twanttomarryanybodywhowaswicked,butIthinkI’dlikeitifheCOULDbewickedandWOULDN’T。
  Now,FredisHOPELESSLYgood。"
  "You’llhavemoresensesomeday,Ihope,"saidMarilla。
  Marillaspokeratherbitterly。Shewasgrievouslydisappointed。
  SheknewAnnehadrefusedGilbertBlythe。Avonleagossipbuzzedoverthefact,whichhadleakedout,nobodyknewhow。PerhapsCharlieSloanehadguessedandtoldhisguessesfortruth。
  PerhapsDianahadbetrayedittoFredandFredhadbeenindiscreet。
  Atalleventsitwasknown;Mrs。BlythenolongeraskedAnne,inpublicorprivate,ifshehadheardlatelyfromGilbert,butpassedherbywithafrostybow。Anne,whohadalwayslikedGilbert’smerry,young-heartedmother,wasgrievedinsecretoverthis。
  Marillasaidnothing;butMrs。LyndegaveAnnemanyexasperateddigsaboutit,untilfreshgossipreachedthatworthylady,throughthemediumofMoodySpurgeonMacPherson’smother,thatAnnehadanother"beau"atcollege,whowasrichandhandsomeandgoodallinone。AfterthatMrs。Rachelheldhertongue,thoughshestillwishedinherinmostheartthatAnnehadacceptedGilbert。Richeswereallverywell;
  butevenMrs。Rachel,practicalsoulthoughshewas,didnotconsiderthemtheoneessential。IfAnne"liked"theHandsomeUnknownbetterthanGilberttherewasnothingmoretobesaid;
  butMrs。RachelwasdreadfullyafraidthatAnnewasgoingtomakethemistakeofmarryingformoney。MarillaknewAnnetoowelltofearthis;butshefeltthatsomethingintheuniversalschemeofthingshadgonesadlyawry。
  "Whatistobe,willbe,"saidMrs。Rachelgloomily,"andwhatisn’ttobehappenssometimes。Ican’thelpbelievingit’sgoingtohappeninAnne’scase,ifProvidencedoesn’tinterfere,that’swhat。"
  Mrs。Rachelsighed。ShewasafraidProvidencewouldn’tinterfere;
  andshedidn’tdareto。
  AnnehadwandereddowntotheDryad’sBubbleandwascurledupamongthefernsattherootofthebigwhitebirchwheresheandGilberthadsooftensatinsummersgoneby。Hehadgoneintothenewspaperofficeagainwhencollegeclosed,andAvonleaseemedverydullwithouthim。Heneverwrotetoher,andAnnemissedthelettersthatnevercame。Tobesure,Roywrotetwiceaweek;hisletterswereexquisitecompositionswhichwouldhavereadbeautifullyinamemoirorbiography。Annefeltherselfmoredeeplyinlovewithhimthaneverwhenshereadthem;butherheartnevergavethequeer,quick,painfulboundatsightofhisletterswhichithadgivenonedaywhenMrs。HiramSloanehadhandedheroutanenvelopeaddressedinGilbert’sblack,uprighthandwriting。Annehadhurriedhometotheeastgableandopenediteagerly——tofindatypewrittencopyofsomecollegesocietyreport——"onlythatandnothingmore。"AnneflungtheharmlessscreedacrossherroomandsatdowntowriteanespeciallyniceepistletoRoy。
  Dianawastobemarriedinfivemoredays。ThegrayhouseatOrchardSlopewasinaturmoilofbakingandbrewingandboilingandstewing,fortherewastobeabig,old-timeywedding。Anne,ofcourse,wastobebridesmaid,ashadbeenarrangedwhentheyweretwelveyearsold,andGilbertwascomingfromKingsporttobebestman。Annewasenjoyingtheexcitementofthevariouspreparations,butunderitallshecarriedalittleheartache。
  Shewas,inasense,losingherdearoldchum;Diana’snewhomewouldbetwomilesfromGreenGables,andtheoldconstantcompanionshipcouldneverbetheirsagain。AnnelookedupatDiana’slightandthoughthowithadbeaconedtoherformanyyears;
  butsoonitwouldshinethroughthesummertwilightsnomore。
  Twobig,painfultearswelledupinhergrayeyes。
  "Oh,"shethought,"howhorribleitisthatpeoplehavetogrowup——andmarry——andCHANGE!"
  ChapterXXIX
  Diana’sWedding"Afterall,theonlyrealrosesarethepinkones,"saidAnne,asshetiedwhiteribbonaroundDiana’sbouquetinthewestwardlookinggableatOrchardSlope。"Theyaretheflowersofloveandfaith。"
  Dianawasstandingnervouslyinthemiddleoftheroom,arrayedinherbridalwhite,herblackcurlsfrostedoverwiththefilmofherweddingveil。Annehaddrapedthatveil,inaccordancewiththesentimentalcompactofyearsbefore。
  "It’sallprettymuchasIusedtoimagineitlongago,whenI
  weptoveryourinevitablemarriageandourconsequentparting,"
  shelaughed。"Youarethebrideofmydreams,Diana,withthe`lovelymistyveil’;andIamYOURbridesmaid。But,alas!
  Ihaven’tthepuffedsleeves——thoughtheseshortlaceonesareevenprettier。NeitherismyheartwhollybreakingnordoI
  exactlyhateFred。"
  "Wearenotreallyparting,Anne,"protestedDiana。"I’mnotgoingfaraway。We’llloveeachotherjustasmuchasever。
  We’vealwayskeptthat`oath’offriendshipwesworelongago,haven’twe?"
  "Yes。We’vekeptitfaithfully。We’vehadabeautifulfriendship,Diana。We’venevermarreditbyonequarrelorcoolnessorunkindword;andIhopeitwillalwaysbeso。
  Butthingscan’tbequitethesameafterthis。You’llhaveotherinterests。I’lljustbeontheoutside。But`suchislife’asMrs。Rachelsays。Mrs。Rachelhasgivenyouoneofherbelovedknittedquiltsofthe`tobaccostripe’pattern,andshesayswhenIammarriedshe’llgivemeone,too。"
  "ThemeanthingaboutyourgettingmarriedisthatIwon’tbeabletobeyourbridesmaid,"lamentedDiana。
  "I’mtobePhil’sbridesmaidnextJune,whenshemarriesMr。Blake,andthenImuststop,foryouknowtheproverb`threetimesabridesmaid,neverabride,’"saidAnne,peepingthroughthewindowoverthepinkandsnowoftheblossomingorchardbeneath。"Herecomestheminister,Diana。"
  "Oh,Anne,"gaspedDiana,suddenlyturningverypaleandbeginningtotremble。"Oh,Anne——I’msonervous——Ican’tgothroughwithit——Anne,IknowI’mgoingtofaint。"
  "IfyoudoI’lldragyoudowntotherainwaterhogshedanddropyouin,"saidAnneunsympathetically。"Cheerup,dearest。
  Gettingmarriedcan’tbesoveryterriblewhensomanypeoplesurvivetheceremony。SeehowcoolandcomposedIam,andtakecourage。"
  "Waittillyourturncomes,MissAnne。Oh,Anne,Ihearfathercomingupstairs。Givememybouquet。Ismyveilright?AmI
  verypale?"
  "Youlookjustlovely。Di,darling,kissmegood-byeforthelasttime。DianaBarrywillneverkissmeagain。"
  "DianaWrightwill,though。There,mother’scalling。Come。"
  Followingthesimple,old-fashionedwayinvoguethen,AnnewentdowntotheparloronGilbert’sarm。TheymetatthetopofthestairsforthefirsttimesincetheyhadleftKingsport,forGilberthadarrivedonlythatday。Gilbertshookhandscourteously。
  Hewaslookingverywell,though,asAnneinstantlynoted,ratherthin。
  Hewasnotpale;therewasaflushonhischeekthathadburnedintoitasAnnecamealongthehalltowardshim,inhersoft,whitedresswithlilies-of-the-valleyintheshiningmassesofherhair。Astheyenteredthecrowdedparlortogetheralittlemurmurofadmirationranaroundtheroom。"Whatafine-lookingpairtheyare,"whisperedtheimpressibleMrs。RacheltoMarilla。
  Fredambledinalone,withaveryredface,andthenDianasweptinonherfather’sarm。Shedidnotfaint,andnothinguntowardoccurredtointerrupttheceremony。Feastingandmerry-makingfollowed;then,astheeveningwaned,FredandDianadroveawaythroughthemoonlighttotheirnewhome,andGilbertwalkedwithAnnetoGreenGables。
  Somethingoftheiroldcomradeshiphadreturnedduringtheinformalmirthoftheevening。Oh,itwasnicetobewalkingoverthatwell-knownroadwithGilbertagain!
  Thenightwassoverystillthatoneshouldhavebeenabletohearthewhisperofrosesinblossom——thelaughterofdaisies——thepipingofgrasses——manysweetsounds,alltangleduptogether。
  Thebeautyofmoonlightonfamiliarfieldsirradiatedtheworld。
  "Can’twetakearambleupLovers’Lanebeforeyougoin?"askedGilbertastheycrossedthebridgeovertheLakeofShiningWaters,inwhichthemoonlaylikeagreat,drownedblossomofgold。
  Anneassentedreadily。Lovers’Lanewasaveritablepathinafairylandthatnight——ashimmering,mysteriousplace,fullofwizardryinthewhite-wovenenchantmentofmoonlight。TherehadbeenatimewhensuchawalkwithGilbertthroughLovers’Lanewouldhavebeenfartoodangerous。ButRoyandChristinehadmadeitverysafenow。AnnefoundherselfthinkingagooddealaboutChristineasshechattedlightlytoGilbert。ShehadmetherseveraltimesbeforeleavingKingsport,andhadbeencharminglysweettoher。Christinehadalsobeencharminglysweet。Indeed,theywereamostcordialpair。Butforallthat,theiracquaintancehadnotripenedintofriendship。EvidentlyChristinewasnotakindredspirit。
  "AreyougoingtobeinAvonleaallsummer?"askedGilbert。
  "No。I’mgoingdowneasttoValleyRoadnextweek。EstherHaythornewantsmetoteachforherthroughJulyandAugust。
  Theyhaveasummerterminthatschool,andEstherisn’tfeelingwell。
  SoI’mgoingtosubstituteforher。InonewayIdon’tmind。
  Doyouknow,I’mbeginningtofeelalittlebitlikeastrangerinAvonleanow?Itmakesmesorry——butit’strue。It’squiteappallingtoseethenumberofchildrenwhohaveshotupintobigboysandgirls——reallyyoungmenandwomen——thesepasttwoyears。
  Halfofmypupilsaregrownup。ItmakesmefeelawfullyoldtoseethemintheplacesyouandIandourmatesusedtofill。"
  Annelaughedandsighed。Shefeltveryoldandmatureandwise——whichshowedhowyoungshewas。Shetoldherselfthatshelongedgreatlytogobacktothosedearmerrydayswhenlifewasseenthrougharosymistofhopeandillusion,andpossessedanindefinablesomethingthathadpassedawayforever。Wherewasitnow——thegloryandthedream?
  "`Sowagstheworldaway,’"quotedGilbertpractically,andatrifleabsently。AnnewonderedifhewerethinkingofChristine。
  Oh,Avonleawasgoingtobesolonelynow——withDianagone!
  ChapterXXX
  Mrs。Skinner’sRomanceAnnesteppedoffthetrainatValleyRoadstationandlookedabouttoseeifanyonehadcometomeether。ShewastoboardwithacertainMissJanetSweet,butshesawnoonewhoansweredintheleasttoherpreconceptionofthatlady,asformedfromEsther’sletter。Theonlypersoninsightwasanelderlywoman,sittinginawagonwithmailbagspiledaroundher。Twohundredwouldhavebeenacharitableguessatherweight;herfacewasasroundandredasaharvest-moonandalmostasfeatureless。
  Sheworeatight,black,cashmeredress,madeinthefashionoftenyearsago,alittledustyblackstrawhattrimmedwithbowsofyellowribbon,andfadedblacklacemits。
  "Here,you,"shecalled,wavingherwhipatAnne。"AreyouthenewValleyRoadschoolma’am?"
  "Yes。"
  "Well,Ithoughtso。ValleyRoadisnotedforitsgood-lookingschoolma’ams,justasMillersvilleisnotedforitshumlyones。
  JanetSweetaskedmethismorningifIcouldbringyouout。I
  said,`SartinIkin,ifshedon’tmindbeingscrunchedupsome。
  Thisrigofmine’skindersmallforthemailbagsandI’msomeheftierthanThomas!’Justwait,miss,tillIshiftthesebagsabitandI’lltuckyouinsomehow。It’sonlytwomilestoJanet’s。
  Hernext-doorneighbor’shiredboyiscomingforyourtrunktonight。
  MynameisSkinner——AmeliaSkinner。"
  Annewaseventuallytuckedin,exchangingamusedsmileswithherselfduringtheprocess。
  "Jogalong,blackmare,"commandedMrs。Skinner,gatheringupthereinsinherpudgyhands。"Thisismyfirsttriponthemailrowte。
  Thomaswantedtohoehisturnipstodaysoheaskedmetocome。
  SoIjestsotdownandtookastanding-upsnackandstarted。
  Isorterlikeit。O’courseit’srathertejus。PartofthetimeIsitsandthinksandtherestIjestsits。Jogalong,blackmare。Iwanttogithomeairly。ThomasisterriblelonesomewhenI’maway。Yousee,wehaven’tbeenmarriedverylong。"
  "Oh!"saidAnnepolitely。
  "Justamonth。Thomascourtedmeforquiteaspell,though。Itwasrealromantic。"AnnetriedtopictureMrs。Skinneronspeakingtermswithromanceandfailed。
  "Oh?"shesaidagain。
  "Yes。Y’see,therewasanothermanafterme。Jogalong,blackmare。
  I’dbeenawiddersolongfolkshadgivenupexpectingmetomarryagain。
  Butwhenmydarter——she’saschoolma’amlikeyou——wentoutWesttoteachIfeltreallonesomeandwasn’tnowisesotagainsttheidea。
  Bime-byThomasbegantocomeupandsodidtheotherfeller——
  WilliamObadiahSeaman,hisnamewas。ForalongtimeIcouldn’tmakeupmymindwhichofthemtotake,andtheykep’comingandcoming,andIkep’worrying。Y’see,W。O。wasrich——hehadafineplaceandcarriedconsiderablestyle。Hewasbyfarthebestmatch。Jogalong,blackmare。"
  "Whydidn’tyoumarryhim?"askedAnne。
  "Well,y’see,hedidn’tloveme,"answeredMrs。Skinner,solemnly。
  AnneopenedhereyeswidelyandlookedatMrs。Skinner。Buttherewasnotaglintofhumoronthatlady’sface。EvidentlyMrs。Skinnersawnothingamusinginherowncase。
  "He’dbeenawidder-manforthreeyers,andhissisterkepthouseforhim。
  Thenshegotmarriedandhejustwantedsomeonetolookafterhishouse。
  Itwasworthlookingafter,too,mindyouthat。It’sahandsomehouse。
  Jogalong,blackmare。AsforThomas,hewaspoor,andifhishousedidn’tleakindryweatheritwasaboutallthatcouldbesaidforit,thoughitlookskindofpictureaskew。But,y’see,IlovedThomas,andIdidn’tcareoneredcentforW。O。SoIargueditoutwithmyself。
  `SarahCrowe,’sayI——myfirstwasaCrowe——`youcanmarryyourrichmanifyoulikebutyouwon’tbehappy。Folkscan’tgetalongtogetherinthisworldwithoutalittlebitoflove。
  You’djustbettertieuptoThomas,forhelovesyouandyoulovehimandnothingelseain’tgoingtodoyou。’Jogalong,blackmare。
  SoItoldThomasI’dtakehim。AllthetimeIwasgettingreadyIneverdareddrivepastW。O。’splaceforfearthesightofthatfinehouseofhiswouldputmeintheswithersagain。ButnowI
  neverthinkofitatall,andI’mjustthatcomfortableandhappywithThomas。Jogalong,blackmare。"
  "HowdidWilliamObadiahtakeit?"queriedAnne。
  "Oh,herumpussedabit。Buthe’sgoingtoseeaskinnyoldmaidinMillersvillenow,andIguessshe’lltakehimfastenough。
  She’llmakehimabetterwifethanhisfirstdid。W。O。neverwantedtomarryher。Hejustaskedhertomarryhim’causehisfatherwantedhimto,neverdreamingbutthatshe’dsay`no。’
  Butmindyou,shesaid’yes。’Therewasapredicamentforyou。
  Jogalong,blackmare。Shewasagreathousekeeper,butmostawfulmean。Sheworethesamebonnetforeighteenyears。ThenshegotanewoneandW。O。metherontheroadanddidn’tknowher。
  Jogalong,blackmare。IfeelthatI’danarrerescape。Imighthavemarriedhimandbeenmostawfulmiserable,likemypoorcousin,JaneAnn。JaneAnnmarriedarichmanshedidn’tcareanythingabout,andshehasn’tthelifeofadog。Shecometoseemelastweekandsays,saysshe,`SarahSkinner,Ienvyyou。
  I’dratherliveinalittlehutonthesideoftheroadwithamanIwasfondofthaninmybighousewiththeoneI’vegot。’
  JaneAnn’smanain’tsuchabadsort,nuther,thoughhe’ssocontrarythathewearshisfurcoatwhenthethermometer’satninety。Theonlywaytogithimtodoanythingistocoaxhimtodotheopposite。Butthereain’tanylovetosmooththingsdownandit’sapoorwayofliving。Jogalong,blackmare。
  There’sJanet’splaceinthehollow——`Wayside,’shecallsit。
  Quitepictureaskew,ain’tit?Iguessyou’llbegladtogitoutofthis,withallthemmailbagsjammingroundyou。"
  "Yes,butIhaveenjoyedmydrivewithyouverymuch,"saidAnnesincerely。
  "Gitawaynow!"saidMrs。Skinner,highlyflattered。"WaittillItellThomasthat。HealwaysfeelsdretfultickledwhenIgitacompliment。Jogalong,blackmare。Well,hereweare。Ihopeyou’llgitonwellintheschool,miss。There’sashortcuttoitthroughthema’shbackofJanet’s。Ifyoutakethatwaybeawfulkeerful。Ifyouoncegotstuckinthatblackmudyou’dbesuckedrightdownandneverseenorheardtellofagaintillthedayofjudgment,likeAdamPalmer’scow。Jogalong,blackmare。"
  ChapterXXXI
  AnnetoPhilippa"AnneShirleytoPhilippaGordon,greeting。
  "Well-beloved,it’shightimeIwaswritingyou。HereamI,installedoncemoreasacountry`schoolma’am’atValleyRoad,boardingat`Wayside,’thehomeofMissJanetSweet。Janetisadearsoulandverynicelooking;tall,butnotover-tall;stoutish,yetwithacertainrestraintofoutlinesuggestiveofathriftysoulwhoisnotgoingtobeoverlavisheveninthematterofavoirdupois。Shehasaknotofsoft,crimpy,brownhairwithathreadofgrayinit,asunnyfacewithrosycheeks,andbig,kindeyesasblueasforget-me-nots。Moreover,sheisoneofthosedelightful,old-fashionedcookswhodon’tcareabitiftheyruinyourdigestionaslongastheycangiveyoufeastsoffatthings。
  "Ilikeher;andshelikesme——principally,itseems,becauseshehadasisternamedAnnewhodiedyoung。
  "`I’mrealgladtoseeyou,’shesaidbriskly,whenIlandedinheryard。
  `My,youdon’tlookamitelikeIexpected。Iwassureyou’dbedark——
  mysisterAnnewasdark。Andhereyou’reredheaded!’
  "ForafewminutesIthoughtIwasn’tgoingtolikeJanetasmuchasIhadexpectedatfirstsight。ThenIremindedmyselfthatI
  reallymustbemoresensiblethantobeprejudicedagainstanyonesimplybecauseshecalledmyhairred。Probablytheword`auburn’wasnotinJanet’svocabularyatall。
  "`Wayside’isadearsortoflittlespot。Thehouseissmallandwhite,setdowninadelightfullittlehollowthatdropsawayfromtheroad。Betweenroadandhouseisanorchardandflower-gardenallmixeduptogether。Thefrontdoorwalkisborderedwithquahogclam-shells——`cow-hawks,’Janetcallsthem;
  thereisVirginiaCreeperovertheporchandmossontheroof。
  Myroomisaneatlittlespot`offtheparlor’——justbigenoughforthebedandme。OvertheheadofmybedthereisapictureofRobbyBurnsstandingatHighlandMary’sgrave,shadowedbyanenormousweepingwillowtree。Robby’sfaceissolugubriousthatitisnowonderIhavebaddreams。Why,thefirstnightIwashereIdreamedICOULDN’TLAUGH。
  "Theparloristinyandneat。Itsonewindowissoshadedbyahugewillowthattheroomhasagrotto-likeeffectofemeraldgloom。
  Therearewonderfultidiesonthechairs,andgaymatsonthefloor,andbooksandcardscarefullyarrangedonaroundtable,andvasesofdriedgrassonthemantel-piece。Betweenthevasesisacheerfuldecorationofpreservedcoffinplates——fiveinall,pertainingrespectivelytoJanet’sfatherandmother,abrother,hersisterAnne,andahiredmanwhodiedhereonce!IfIgosuddenlyinsanesomeofthesedays`knowallmenbythesepresents’thatthosecoffin-plateshavecausedit。
  "Butit’salldelightfulandIsaidso。Janetlovedmeforit,justasshedetestedpoorEstherbecauseEstherhadsaidsomuchshadewasunhygienicandhadobjectedtosleepingonafeatherbed。
  Now,Igloryinfeather-beds,andthemoreunhygienicandfeatherytheyarethemoreIglory。Janetsaysitissuchacomforttoseemeeat;shehadbeensoafraidIwouldbelikeMissHaythorne,whowouldn’teatanythingbutfruitandhotwaterforbreakfastandtriedtomakeJanetgiveupfryingthings。Estherisreallyadeargirl,butsheisrathergiventofads。Thetroubleisthatshehasn’tenoughimaginationandHASatendencytoindigestion。
  "JanettoldmeIcouldhavetheuseoftheparlorwhenanyyoungmencalled!Idon’tthinktherearemanytocall。Ihaven’tseenayoungmaninValleyRoadyet,exceptthenext-doorhiredboy——SamToliver,averytall,lank,tow-hairedyouth。
  Hecameoveroneeveningrecentlyandsatforanhouronthegardenfence,nearthefrontporchwhereJanetandIweredoingfancy-work。Theonlyremarkshevolunteeredinallthattimewere,`Hevapeppermint,miss!Dewnow-finethingforcarARRH,peppermints,’and,`Powerfulloto’jump-grassesroundhereternight。Yep。’
  "Butthereisaloveaffairgoingonhere。Itseemstobemyfortunetobemixedup,moreorlessactively,withelderlyloveaffairs。Mr。andMrs。IrvingalwayssaythatIbroughtabouttheirmarriage。Mrs。StephenClarkofCarmodypersistsinbeingmostgratefultomeforasuggestionwhichsomebodyelsewouldprobablyhavemadeifIhadn’t。Idoreallythink,though,thatLudovicSpeedwouldneverhavegotanyfurtheralongthanplacidcourtshipifIhadnothelpedhimandTheodoraDixout。
  "InthepresentaffairIamonlyapassivespectator。I’vetriedoncetohelpthingsalongandmadeanawfulmessofit。SoI
  shallnotmeddleagain。I’lltellyouallaboutitwhenwemeet。"
  ChapterXXXII
  TeawithMrs。DouglasOnthefirstThursdaynightofAnne’ssojourninValleyRoadJanetaskedhertogotoprayer-meeting。Janetblossomedoutlikearosetoattendthatprayer-meeting。Sheworeapale-blue,pansy-sprinkledmuslindresswithmorerufflesthanonewouldeverhavesupposedeconomicalJanetcouldbeguiltyof,andawhiteleghornhatwithpinkrosesandthreeostrichfeathersonit。
  Annefeltquiteamazed。Lateron,shefoundoutJanet’smotiveinsoarrayingherself——amotiveasoldasEden。
  ValleyRoadprayer-meetingsseemedtobeessentiallyfeminine。
  Therewerethirty-twowomenpresent,twohalf-grownboys,andonesolitaryman,besidetheminister。Annefoundherselfstudyingthisman。Hewasnothandsomeoryoungorgraceful;hehadremarkablylonglegs——solongthathehadtokeepthemcoiledupunderhischairtodisposeofthem——andhewasstoopshouldered。
  Hishandswerebig,hishairwantedbarbering,andhismoustachewasunkempt。ButAnnethoughtshelikedhisface;itwaskindandhonestandtender;therewassomethingelseinit,too——justwhat,Annefoundithardtodefine。Shefinallyconcludedthatthismanhadsufferedandbeenstrong,andithadbeenmademanifestinhisface。
  Therewasasortofpatient,humorousenduranceinhisexpressionwhichindicatedthathewouldgotothestakeifneedbe,butwouldkeeponlookingpleasantuntilhereallyhadtobeginsquirming。
  Whenprayer-meetingwasoverthismancameuptoJanetandsaid,"MayIseeyouhome,Janet?"
  Janettookhisarm——"asprimlyandshylyasifshewerenomorethansixteen,havingherfirstescorthome,"AnnetoldthegirlsatPatty’sPlacelateron。
  "MissShirley,permitmetointroduceMr。Douglas,"shesaidstiffly。
  Mr。Douglasnoddedandsaid,"Iwaslookingatyouinprayer-meeting,miss,andthinkingwhatanicelittlegirlyouwere。"
  Suchaspeechfromninety-ninepeopleoutofahundredwouldhaveannoyedAnnebitterly;butthewayinwhichMr。Douglassaiditmadeherfeelthatshehadreceivedaveryrealandpleasingcompliment。
  Shesmiledappreciativelyathimanddroppedobliginglybehindonthemoonlitroad。
  SoJanethadabeau!Annewasdelighted。Janetwouldmakeaparagonofawife——cheery,economical,tolerant,andaveryqueenofcooks。
  ItwouldbeaflagrantwasteonNature’sparttokeepherapermanentoldmaid。
  "JohnDouglasaskedmetotakeyouuptoseehismother,"saidJanetthenextday。"She’sbed-ridalotofthetimeandnevergoesoutofthehouse。Butshe’spowerfulfondofcompanyandalwayswantstoseemyboarders。Canyougoupthisevening?"
  Anneassented;butlaterinthedayMr。Douglascalledonhismother’sbehalftoinvitethemuptoteaonSaturdayevening。
  "Oh,whydidn’tyouputonyourprettypansydress?"askedAnne,whentheylefthome。Itwasahotday,andpoorJanet,betweenherexcitementandherheavyblackcashmeredress,lookedasifshewerebeingbroiledalive。
  "OldMrs。Douglaswouldthinkitterriblefrivolousandunsuitable,I’mafraid。Johnlikesthatdress,though,"sheaddedwistfully。
  TheoldDouglashomesteadwashalfamilefrom"Wayside"crestingawindyhill。Thehouseitselfwaslargeandcomfortable,oldenoughtobedignified,andgirdledwithmaplegrovesandorchards。
  Therewerebig,trimbarnsbehindit,andeverythingbespokeprosperity。
  WhateverthepatientenduranceinMr。Douglas’facehadmeantithadn’t,soAnnereflected,meantdebtsandduns。
  JohnDouglasmetthematthedoorandtookthemintothesitting-room,wherehismotherwasenthronedinanarmchair。
  AnnehadexpectedoldMrs。Douglastobetallandthin,becauseMr。Douglaswas。Instead,shewasatinyscrapofawoman,withsoftpinkcheeks,mildblueeyes,andamouthlikeababy’s。
  Dressedinabeautiful,fashionably-madeblacksilkdress,withafluffywhiteshawloverhershoulders,andhersnowyhairsurmountedbyadaintylacecap,shemighthaveposedasagrandmotherdoll。
  "Howdoyoudo,Janetdear?"shesaidsweetly。"Iamsogladtoseeyouagain,dear。"Sheputupherprettyoldfacetobekissed。
  "Andthisisournewteacher。I’mdelightedtomeetyou。MysonhasbeensingingyourpraisesuntilI’mhalfjealous,andI’msureJanetoughttobewhollyso。"
  PoorJanetblushed,Annesaidsomethingpoliteandconventional,andtheneverybodysatdownandmadetalk。Itwashardwork,evenforAnne,fornobodyseemedateaseexceptoldMrs。Douglas,whocertainlydidnotfindanydifficultyintalking。ShemadeJanetsitbyherandstrokedherhandoccasionally。Janetsatandsmiled,lookinghorriblyuncomfortableinherhideousdress,andJohnDouglassatwithoutsmiling。
  AttheteatableMrs。DouglasgracefullyaskedJanettopourthetea。Janetturnedredderthaneverbutdidit。AnnewroteadescriptionofthatmealtoStella。
  "Wehadcoldtongueandchickenandstrawberrypreserves,lemonpieandtartsandchocolatecakeandraisincookiesandpoundcakeandfruitcake——andafewotherthings,includingmorepie——caramelpie,Ithinkitwas。AfterIhadeatentwiceasmuchaswasgoodforme,Mrs。Douglassighedandsaidshefearedshehadnothingtotemptmyappetite。
  "`I’mafraiddearJanet’scookinghasspoiledyouforanyother,’
  shesaidsweetly。`OfcoursenobodyinValleyRoadaspirestorivalHER。WON’Tyouhaveanotherpieceofpie,MissShirley?
  Youhaven’teatenANYTHING。’
  "Stella,Ihadeatenahelpingoftongueandoneofchicken,threebiscuits,agenerousallowanceofpreserves,apieceofpie,atart,andasquareofchocolatecake!"
  AfterteaMrs。DouglassmiledbenevolentlyandtoldJohntotake"dearJanet"outintothegardenandgethersomeroses。
  "MissShirleywillkeepmecompanywhileyouareout——
  won’tyou?"shesaidplaintively。Shesettleddowninherarmchairwithasigh。
  "Iamaveryfrailoldwoman,MissShirley。ForovertwentyyearsI’vebeenagreatsufferer。Fortwentylong,wearyyearsI’vebeendyingbyinches。"
  "Howpainful!"saidAnne,tryingtobesympatheticandsucceedingonlyinfeelingidiotic。
  "Therehavebeenscoresofnightswhenthey’vethoughtIcouldneverlivetoseethedawn,"wentonMrs。Douglassolemnly。
  "NobodyknowswhatI’vegonethrough——nobodycanknowbutmyself。Well,itcan’tlastverymuchlongernow。Mywearypilgrimagewillsoonbeover,MissShirley。ItisagreatcomforttomethatJohnwillhavesuchagoodwifetolookafterhimwhenhismotherisgone——agreatcomfort,MissShirley。"
  "Janetisalovelywoman,"saidAnnewarmly。
  "Lovely!Abeautifulcharacter,"assentedMrs。Douglas。"Andaperfecthousekeeper——somethingIneverwas。Myhealthwouldnotpermitit,MissShirley。IamindeedthankfulthatJohnhasmadesuchawisechoice。Ihopeandbelievethathewillbehappy。
  Heismyonlyson,MissShirley,andhishappinessliesverynearmyheart。"
  "Ofcourse,"saidAnnestupidly。Forthefirsttimeinherlifeshewasstupid。Yetshecouldnotimaginewhy。Sheseemedtohaveabsolutelynothingtosaytothissweet,smiling,angelicoldladywhowaspattingherhandsokindly。
  "Comeandseemesoonagain,dearJanet,"saidMrs。Douglaslovingly,whentheyleft。"Youdon’tcomehalfoftenenough。
  ButthenIsupposeJohnwillbebringingyouheretostayallthetimeoneofthesedays。"Anne,happeningtoglanceatJohnDouglas,ashismotherspoke,gaveapositivestartofdismay。
  Helookedasatorturedmanmightlookwhenhistormentorsgavetherackthelastturnofpossibleendurance。ShefeltsurehemustbeillandhurriedpoorblushingJanetaway。
  "Isn’toldMrs。Douglasasweetwoman?"askedJanet,astheywentdowntheroad。
  "M——m,"answeredAnneabsently。ShewaswonderingwhyJohnDouglashadlookedso。
  "She’sbeenaterriblesufferer,"saidJanetfeelingly。
  "Shetakesterriblespells。ItkeepsJohnallworriedup。
  He’sscaredtoleavehomeforfearhismotherwilltakeaspellandnobodytherebutthehiredgirl。"
  ChapterXXXIII
  "HeJustKeptComingandComing"
  ThreedayslaterAnnecamehomefromschoolandfoundJanetcrying。
  TearsandJanetseemedsoincongruousthatAnnewashonestlyalarmed。
  "Oh,whatisthematter?"shecriedanxiously。
  "I’m——I’mfortytoday,"sobbedJanet。
  "Well,youwerenearlythatyesterdayanditdidn’thurt,"
  comfortedAnne,tryingnottosmile。
  "But——but,"wentonJanetwithabiggulp,"JohnDouglaswon’taskmetomarryhim。"
  "Oh,buthewill,"saidAnnelamely。"Youmustgivehimtime,Janet"Time!"saidJanetwithindescribablescorn。"Hehashadtwentyyears。
  Howmuchtimedoeshewant?"
  "DoyoumeanthatJohnDouglashasbeencomingtoseeyoufortwentyyears?"
  "Hehas。Andhehasneversomuchasmentionedmarriagetome。
  AndIdon’tbelieveheeverwillnow。I’veneversaidawordtoamortalaboutit,butitseemstomeI’vejustgottotalkitoutwithsomeoneatlastorgocrazy。JohnDouglasbeguntogowithmetwentyyearsago,beforemotherdied。Well,hekeptcomingandcoming,andafteraspellIbegunmakingquiltsandthings;butheneversaidanythingaboutgettingmarried,onlyjustkeptcomingandcoming。Therewasn’tanythingIcoulddo。
  Motherdiedwhenwe’dbeengoingtogetherforeightyears。
  Ithoughthemaybewouldspeakoutthen,seeingasIwasleftaloneintheworld。Hewasrealkindandfeeling,anddideverythinghecouldforme,butheneversaidmarry。Andthat’sthewayithasbeengoingoneversince。PeopleblameMEforit。
  TheysayIwon’tmarryhimbecausehismotherissosicklyandI
  don’twantthebotherofwaitingonher。Why,I’dLOVEtowaitonJohn’smother!ButIletthemthinkso。I’dratherthey’dblamemethanpityme!It’ssodreadfulhumiliatingthatJohnwon’taskme。AndWHYwon’the?SeemstomeifIonlyknewhisreasonIwouldn’tminditsomuch。"
  "Perhapshismotherdoesn’twanthimtomarryanybody,"suggestedAnne。
  "Oh,shedoes。She’stoldmetimeandagainthatshe’dlovetoseeJohnsettledbeforehertimecomes。She’salwaysgivinghimhints——
  youheardheryourselftheotherday。IthoughtI’dha’gonethroughthefloor。"
  "It’sbeyondme,"saidAnnehelplessly。ShethoughtofLudovicSpeed。
  Butthecaseswerenotparallel。JohnDouglaswasnotamanofLudovic’stype。
  "Youshouldshowmorespirit,Janet,"shewentonresolutely。
  "Whydidn’tyousendhimabouthisbusinesslongago?"
  "Icouldn’t,"saidpoorJanetpathetically。"Yousee,Anne,I’vealwaysbeenawfulfondofJohn。Hemightjustaswellkeepcomingasnot,fortherewasneveranybodyelseI’dwant,soitdidn’tmatter。"
  "Butitmighthavemadehimspeakoutlikeaman,"urgedAnne。
  Janetshookherhead。
  "No,Iguessnot。Iwasafraidtotry,anyway,forfearhe’dthinkImeantitandjustgo。IsupposeI’mapoor-spiritedcreature,butthatishowIfeel。AndIcan’thelpit。"
  "Oh,youCOULDhelpit,Janet。Itisn’ttoolateyet。Takeafirmstand。Letthatmanknowyouarenotgoingtoendurehisshillyshallyinganylonger。I’LLbackyouup。"
  "Idunno,"saidJanethopelessly。"IdunnoifIcouldevergetupenoughspunk。Thingshavedriftedsolong。ButI’llthinkitover。"
  AnnefeltthatshewasdisappointedinJohnDouglas。Shehadlikedhimsowell,andshehadnotthoughthimthesortofmanwhowouldplayfastandloosewithawoman’sfeelingsfortwentyyears。
  Hecertainlyshouldbetaughtalesson,andAnnefeltvindictivelythatshewouldenjoyseeingtheprocess。ThereforeshewasdelightedwhenJanettoldher,astheyweregoingtoprayer-meetingthenextnight,thatshemeanttoshowsome"sperrit。"
  "I’llletJohnDouglasseeI’mnotgoingtobetroddenonanylonger。"
  "Youareperfectlyright,"saidAnneemphatically。
  Whenprayer-meetingwasoverJohnDouglascameupwithhisusualrequest。
  Janetlookedfrightenedbutresolute。
  "No,thankyou,"shesaidicily。"Iknowtheroadhomeprettywellalone。
  Ioughtto,seeingI’vebeentravelingitforfortyyears。Soyouneedn’ttroubleyourself,MR。Douglas。"
  AnnewaslookingatJohnDouglas;and,inthatbrilliantmoonlight,shesawthelasttwistoftherackagain。Withoutawordheturnedandstrodedowntheroad。
  "Stop!Stop!"Annecalledwildlyafterhim,notcaringintheleastfortheotherdumbfoundedonlookers。"Mr。Douglas,stop!Comeback。"
  JohnDouglasstoppedbuthedidnotcomeback。Anneflewdowntheroad,caughthisarmandfairlydraggedhimbacktoJanet。
  "Youmustcomeback,"shesaidimploringly。"It’sallamistake,Mr。Douglas——allmyfault。ImadeJanetdoit。Shedidn’twantto——butit’sallrightnow,isn’tit,Janet?"
  WithoutawordJanettookhisarmandwalkedaway。Annefollowedthemmeeklyhomeandslippedinbythebackdoor。
  "Well,youareanicepersontobackmeup,"saidJanetsarcastically。
  "Icouldn’thelpit,Janet,"saidAnnerepentantly。"IjustfeltasifIhadstoodbyandseenmurderdone。IHADtorunafterhim。"
  "Oh,I’mjustasgladyoudid。WhenIsawJohnDouglasmakingoffdownthatroadIjustfeltasifeverylittlebitofjoyandhappinessthatwasleftinmylifewasgoingwithhim。Itwasanawfulfeeling。"
  "Didheaskyouwhyyoudidit?"askedAnne。
  "No,heneversaidawordaboutit,"repliedJanetdully。