Therewasanotherpause——solongandsodreadfulthatAnnewasdrivenatlasttolookup。Gilbert’sfacewaswhitetothelips。
Andhiseyes——butAnneshudderedandlookedaway。Therewasnothingromanticaboutthis。Mustproposalsbeeithergrotesqueor——horrible?CouldsheeverforgetGilbert’sface?
"Isthereanybodyelse?"heaskedatlastinalowvoice。
"No——no,"saidAnneeagerly。"Idon’tcareforanyonelikeTHAT——andILIKEyoubetterthananybodyelseintheworld,Gilbert。Andwemust——wemustgoonbeingfriends,Gilbert。"
Gilbertgaveabitterlittlelaugh。
"Friends!Yourfriendshipcan’tsatisfyme,Anne。Iwantyourlove——andyoutellmeIcanneverhavethat。"
"I’msorry。Forgiveme,Gilbert,"wasallAnnecouldsay。
Where,oh,wherewereallthegraciousandgracefulspeecheswherewith,inimagination,shehadbeenwonttodismissrejectedsuitors?
Gilbertreleasedherhandgently。
"Thereisn’tanythingtoforgive。TherehavebeentimeswhenIthoughtyoudidcare。I’vedeceivedmyself,that’sall。Goodbye,Anne。"
Annegotherselftoherroom,satdownonherwindowseatbehindthepines,andcriedbitterly。Shefeltasifsomethingincalculablyprecioushadgoneoutofherlife。ItwasGilbert’sfriendship,ofcourse。Oh,whymustsheloseitafterthisfashion?
"Whatisthematter,honey?"askedPhil,cominginthroughthemoonlitgloom。
Annedidnotanswer。AtthatmomentshewishedPhilwereathousandmilesaway。
"Isupposeyou’vegoneandrefusedGilbertBlythe。Youareanidiot,AnneShirley!"
"DoyoucallitidiotictorefusetomarryamanIdon’tlove?"
saidAnnecoldly,goadedtoreply。
"Youdon’tknowlovewhenyouseeit。You’vetrickedsomethingoutwithyourimaginationthatyouthinklove,andyouexpecttherealthingtolooklikethat。There,that’sthefirstsensiblethingI’veeversaidinmylife。IwonderhowImanagedit?"
"Phil,"pleadedAnne,"pleasegoawayandleavemealoneforalittlewhile。Myworldhastumbledintopieces。Iwanttoreconstructit。"
"WithoutanyGilbertinit?"saidPhil,going。
AworldwithoutanyGilbertinit!Annerepeatedthewordsdrearily。
Woulditnotbeaverylonely,forlornplace?Well,itwasallGilbert’sfault。Hehadspoiledtheirbeautifulcomradeship。
Shemustjustlearntolivewithoutit。
ChapterXXI
RosesofYesterdayThefortnightAnnespentinBolingbrokewasaverypleasantone,withalittleundercurrentofvaguepainanddissatisfactionrunningthroughitwhenevershethoughtaboutGilbert。Therewasnot,however,muchtimetothinkabouthim。"MountHolly,"thebeautifuloldGordonhomestead,wasaverygayplace,overrunbyPhil’sfriendsofbothsexes。Therewasquiteabewilderingsuccessionofdrives,dances,picnicsandboatingparties,allexpressivelylumpedtogetherbyPhilundertheheadof"jamborees";
AlecandAlonzoweresoconstantlyonhandthatAnnewonderediftheyeverdidanythingbutdanceattendanceonthatwill-o’-the-wispofaPhil。Theywerebothnice,manlyfellows,butAnnewouldnotbedrawnintoanyopinionastowhichwasthenicer。
"AndIdependedsoonyoutohelpmemakeupmymindwhichofthemI
shouldpromisetomarry,"mournedPhil。
"Youmustdothatforyourself。Youarequiteexpertatmakingupyourmindastowhomotherpeopleshouldmarry,"retortedAnne,rathercaustically。
"Oh,that’saverydifferentthing,"saidPhil,truly。
ButthesweetestincidentofAnne’ssojourninBolingbrokewasthevisittoherbirthplace——thelittleshabbyyellowhouseinanout-of-the-waystreetshehadsooftendreamedabout。Shelookedatitwithdelightedeyes,assheandPhilturnedinatthegate。
"It’salmostexactlyasI’vepicturedit,"shesaid。"Thereisnohoneysuckleoverthewindows,butthereisalilactreebythegate,and——yes,therearethemuslincurtainsinthewindows。
HowgladIamitisstillpaintedyellow。"
Averytall,verythinwomanopenedthedoor。
"Yes,theShirleyslivedheretwentyyearsago,"shesaid,inanswertoAnne’squestion。"Theyhaditrented。Iremember’em。
Theybothdiedoffeveratonct。Itwasturriblesad。Theyleftababy。Iguessit’sdeadlongago。Itwasasicklything。OldThomasandhiswifetookit——asiftheyhadn’tenoughoftheirown。"
"Itdidn’tdie,"saidAnne,smiling。"Iwasthatbaby。"
"Youdon’tsayso!Why,youhavegrown,"exclaimedthewoman,asifsheweremuchsurprisedthatAnnewasnotstillababy。
"Cometolookatyou,Iseetheresemblance。You’recomplectedlikeyourpa。Hehadredhair。Butyoufavoryourmainyoureyesandmouth。Shewasanicelittlething。Mydarterwenttoschooltoherandwasnighcrazyabouther。TheywasburiedintheonegraveandtheSchoolBoardputupatombstonetothemasarewardforfaithfulservice。Willyoucomein?"
"Willyouletmegoalloverthehouse?"askedAnneeagerly。
"Laws,yes,youcanifyoulike。’Twon’ttakeyoulong——thereain’tmuchofit。Ikeepatmymantobuildanewkitchen,butheain’toneofyourhustlers。Theparlor’sinthereandthere’stworoomsupstairs。Justprowlaboutyourselves。I’vegottoseetothebaby。Theeastroomwastheoneyouwerebornin。
Irememberyourmasayingshelovedtoseethesunrise;andI
mindhearingthatyouwasbornjustasthesunwasrisinganditslightonyourfacewasthefirstthingyourmasaw。"
Annewentupthenarrowstairsandintothatlittleeastroomwithafullheart。Itwasasashrinetoher。Herehermotherhaddreamedtheexquisite,happydreamsofanticipatedmotherhood;
herethatredsunriselighthadfallenoverthembothinthesacredhourofbirth;herehermotherhaddied。Annelookedaboutherreverently,hereyeswithtears。Itwasforheroneofthejeweledhoursoflifethatgleamoutradiantlyforeverinmemory。
"Justtothinkofit——motherwasyoungerthanIamnowwhenIwasborn,"
shewhispered。
WhenAnnewentdownstairstheladyofthehousemetherinthehall。
Sheheldoutadustylittlepackettiedwithfadedblueribbon。
"Here’sabundleofoldlettersIfoundinthatclosetupstairswhenIcamehere,"shesaid。"Idunnowhattheyare——Ineverbotheredtolookin’em,buttheaddressonthetoponeis`MissBerthaWillis,’andthatwasyourma’smaidenname。
Youcantake’emifyou’dkeertohave’em。"
"Oh,thankyou——thankyou,"criedAnne,claspingthepacketrapturously。
"Thatwasallthatwasinthehouse,"saidherhostess。"Thefurniturewasallsoldtopaythedoctorbills,andMrs。Thomasgotyourma’sclothesandlittlethings。Ireckontheydidn’tlastlongamongthatdroveofThomasyoungsters。Theywasdestructiveyounganimals,asImind’em。"
"Ihaven’tonethingthatbelongedtomymother,"saidAnne,chokily。"I——Icanneverthankyouenoughfortheseletters。"
"You’requitewelcome。Laws,butyoureyesislikeyourma’s。
Shecouldjustabouttalkwithhers。Yourfatherwassorterhomelybutawfulnice。Imindhearingfolkssaywhentheywasmarriedthatthereneverwastwopeoplemoreinlovewitheachother——Porecreatures,theydidn’tlivemuchlonger;buttheywasawfulhappywhiletheywasalive,andIs’posethatcountsforagooddeal。"
Annelongedtogethometoreadherpreciousletters;butshemadeonelittlepilgrimagefirst。Shewentalonetothegreencornerofthe"old"Bolingbrokecemeterywhereherfatherandmotherwereburied,andleftontheirgravethewhiteflowersshecarried。ThenshehastenedbacktoMountHolly,shutherselfupinherroom,andreadtheletters。Somewerewrittenbyherfather,somebyhermother。Therewerenotmany——onlyadozeninall——forWalterandBerthaShirleyhadnotbeenoftenseparatedduringtheircourtship。Theletterswereyellowandfadedanddim,blurredwiththetouchofpassingyears。
Noprofoundwordsofwisdomweretracedonthestainedandwrinkledpages,butonlylinesofloveandtrust。Thesweetnessofforgottenthingsclungtothem——thefar-off,fondimaginingsofthoselong-deadlovers。BerthaShirleyhadpossessedthegiftofwritingletterswhichembodiedthecharmingpersonalityofthewriterinwordsandthoughtsthatretainedtheirbeautyandfragranceafterthelapseoftime。Thelettersweretender,intimate,sacred。ToAnne,thesweetestofallwastheonewrittenafterherbirthtothefatheronabriefabsence。
Itwasfullofaproudyoungmother’saccountsof"baby"——
hercleverness,herbrightness,herthousandsweetnesses。
"Iloveherbestwhensheisasleepandbetterstillwhensheisawake,"
BerthaShirleyhadwritteninthepostscript。Probablyitwasthelastsentenceshehadeverpenned。Theendwasverynearforher。
"Thishasbeenthemostbeautifuldayofmylife,"AnnesaidtoPhilthatnight。"I’veFOUNDmyfatherandmother。ThoselettershavemadethemREALtome。I’mnotanorphananylonger。IfeelasifIhadopenedabookandfoundrosesofyesterday,sweetandbeloved,betweenitsleaves。"
ChapterXXII
SpringandAnneReturntoGreenGablesThefirelightshadowsweredancingoverthekitchenwallsatGreenGables,forthespringeveningwaschilly;throughtheopeneastwindowdriftedinthesubtlysweetvoicesofthenight。
Marillawassittingbythefire——atleast,inbody。Inspiritshewasroamingoldenways,withfeetgrownyoung。OflateMarillahadthusspentmanyanhour,whenshethoughtsheshouldhavebeenknittingforthetwins。
"IsupposeI’mgrowingold,"shesaid。
YetMarillahadchangedbutlittleinthepastnineyears,savetogrowsomethingthinner,andevenmoreangular;therewasalittlemoregrayinthehairthatwasstilltwistedupinthesamehardknot,withtwohairpins——WEREtheythesamehairpins?——
stillstuckthroughit。Butherexpressionwasverydifferent;
thesomethingaboutthemouthwhichhadhintedatasenseofhumorhaddevelopedwonderfully;hereyesweregentlerandmilder,hersmilemorefrequentandtender。
Marillawasthinkingofherwholepastlife,hercrampedbutnotunhappychildhood,thejealouslyhiddendreamsandtheblightedhopesofhergirlhood,thelong,gray,narrow,monotonousyearsofdullmiddlelifethatfollowed。AndthecomingofAnne——
thevivid,imaginative,impetuouschildwithherheartoflove,andherworldoffancy,bringingwithhercolorandwarmthandradiance,untilthewildernessofexistencehadblossomedliketherose。MarillafeltthatoutofhersixtyyearsshehadlivedonlytheninethathadfollowedtheadventofAnne。
AndAnnewouldbehometomorrownight。
Thekitchendooropened。MarillalookedupexpectingtoseeMrs。
Lynde。Annestoodbeforeher,tallandstarry-eyed,withherhandsfullofMayflowersandviolets。
"AnneShirley!"exclaimedMarilla。Foronceinherlifeshewassurprisedoutofherreserve;shecaughthergirlinherarmsandcrushedherandherflowersagainstherheart,kissingthebrighthairandsweetfacewarmly。"Ineverlookedforyoutilltomorrownight。HowdidyougetfromCarmody?"
"Walked,dearestofMarillas。Haven’tIdoneitascoreoftimesintheQueen’sdays?Themailmanistobringmytrunktomorrow;
Ijustgothomesickallatonce,andcameadayearlier。Andoh!
I’vehadsuchalovelywalkintheMaytwilight;IstoppedbythebarrensandpickedtheseMayflowers;IcamethroughViolet-Vale;
it’sjustabigbowlfulofvioletsnow——thedear,sky-tintedthings。Smellthem,Marilla——drinkthemin。"
Marillasniffedobligingly,butshewasmoreinterestedinAnnethanindrinkingviolets。
"Sitdown,child。Youmustberealtired。I’mgoingtogetyousomesupper。"
"There’sadarlingmoonrisebehindthehillstonight,Marilla,andoh,howthefrogssangmehomefromCarmody!Idolovethemusicofthefrogs。Itseemsboundupwithallmyhappiestrecollectionsofoldspringevenings。AnditalwaysremindsmeofthenightIcameherefirst。Doyourememberit,Marilla?"
"Well,yes,"saidMarillawithemphasis。"I’mnotlikelytoforgetitever。"
"Theyusedtosingsomadlyinthemarshandbrookthatyear。
Iwouldlistentothematmywindowinthedusk,andwonderhowtheycouldseemsogladandsosadatthesametime。Oh,butit’sgoodtobehomeagain!RedmondwassplendidandBolingbrokedelightful——butGreenGablesisHOME。"
"Gilbertisn’tcominghomethissummer,Ihear,"saidMarilla。
"No。"SomethinginAnne’stonemadeMarillaglanceathersharply,butAnnewasapparentlyabsorbedinarranginghervioletsinabowl。"See,aren’ttheysweet?"shewentonhurriedly。"Theyearisabook,isn’tit,Marilla?Spring’spagesarewritteninMayflowersandviolets,summer’sinroses,autumn’sinredmapleleaves,andwinterinhollyandevergreen。"
"DidGilbertdowellinhisexaminations?"persistedMarilla。
"Excellentlywell。Heledhisclass。ButwherearethetwinsandMrs。Lynde?"
"RachelandDoraareoveratMr。Harrison’s。DavyisdownatBoulters’。IthinkIhearhimcomingnow。"
Davyburstin,sawAnne,stopped,andthenhurledhimselfuponherwithajoyfulyell。
"Oh,Anne,ain’tIgladtoseeyou!Say,Anne,I’vegrowntwoinchessincelastfall。Mrs。Lyndemeasuredmewithhertapetoday,andsay,Anne,seemyfronttooth。It’sgone。Mrs。Lyndetiedoneendofastringtoitandtheotherendtothedoor,andthenshutthedoor。
IsoldittoMiltyfortwocents。Milty’scollectingteeth。"
"Whatintheworlddoeshewantteethfor?"askedMarilla。
"TomakeanecklaceforplayingIndianChief,"explainedDavy,climbinguponAnne’slap。"He’sgotfifteenalready,andeverybody’selse’spromised,sothere’snouseintherestofusstartingtocollect,too。ItellyoutheBoultersaregreatbusinesspeople。"
"WereyouagoodboyatMrs。Boulter’s?"askedMarillaseverely。
"Yes;butsay,Marilla,I’mtiredofbeinggood。"
"You’dgettiredofbeingbadmuchsooner,Davy-boy,"saidAnne。
"Well,it’dbefunwhileitlasted,wouldn’tit?"persistedDavy。
"Icouldbesorryforitafterwards,couldn’tI?"
"Beingsorrywouldn’tdoawaywiththeconsequencesofbeingbad,Davy。Don’tyouremembertheSundaylastsummerwhenyouranawayfromSundaySchool?Youtoldmethenthatbeingbadwasn’tworthwhile。WhatwereyouandMiltydoingtoday?"
"Oh,wefishedandchasedthecat,andhuntedforeggs,andyelledattheecho。There’sagreatechointhebushbehindtheBoulterbarn。Say,whatisecho,Anne;Iwanttoknow。"
"Echoisabeautifulnymph,Davy,livingfarawayinthewoods,andlaughingattheworldfromamongthehills。"
"Whatdoesshelooklike?"
"Herhairandeyesaredark,butherneckandarmsarewhiteassnow。
Nomortalcaneverseehowfairsheis。Sheisfleeterthanadeer,andthatmockingvoiceofhersisallwecanknowofher。Youcanhearhercallingatnight;youcanhearherlaughingunderthestars。
Butyoucanneverseeher。Shefliesafarifyoufollowher,andlaughsatyoualwaysjustoverthenexthill。"
"Isthattrue,Anne?Orisitawhopper?"demandedDavystaring。
"Davy,"saidAnnedespairingly,"haven’tyousenseenoughtodistinguishbetweenafairytaleandafalsehood?"
"ThenwhatisitthatsassesbackfromtheBoulterbush?Iwanttoknow,"insistedDavy。
"Whenyouarealittleolder,Davy,I’llexplainitalltoyou。"
ThementionofageevidentlygaveanewturntoDavy’sthoughtsforafterafewmomentsofreflection,hewhisperedsolemnly:
"Anne,I’mgoingtobemarried。"
"When?"askedAnnewithequalsolemnity。
"Oh,notuntilI’mgrown-up,ofcourse。"
"Well,that’sarelief,Davy。Whoisthelady?"
"StellaFletcher;she’sinmyclassatschool。Andsay,Anne,she’stheprettiestgirlyoueversaw。IfIdiebeforeIgrowupyou’llkeepaneyeonher,won’tyou?"
"DavyKeith,dostoptalkingsuchnonsense,"saidMarillaseverely。
"’Tisn’tnonsense,"protestedDavyinaninjuredtone。"She’smypromisedwife,andifIwastodieshe’dbemypromisedwidow,wouldn’tshe?Andshehasn’tgotasoultolookafterherexceptheroldgrandmother。"
"Comeandhaveyoursupper,Anne,"saidMarilla,"anddon’tencouragethatchildinhisabsurdtalk。"
ChapterXXIII
PaulCannotFindtheRockPeopleLifewasverypleasantinAvonleathatsummer,althoughAnne,amidallhervacationjoys,washauntedbyasenseof"somethinggonewhichshouldbethere。"Shewouldnotadmit,eveninherinmostreflections,thatthiswascausedbyGilbert’sabsence。
ButwhenshehadtowalkhomealonefromprayermeetingsandA。V。I。S。pow-wows,whileDianaandFred,andmanyothergaycouples,loiteredalongthedusky,starlitcountryroads,therewasaqueer,lonelyacheinherheartwhichshecouldnotexplainaway。Gilbertdidnotevenwritetoher,asshethoughthemighthavedone。
SheknewhewrotetoDianaoccasionally,butshewouldnotinquireabouthim;andDiana,supposingthatAnneheardfromhim,volunteerednoinformation。Gilbert’smother,whowasagay,frank,light-heartedlady,butnotoverburdenedwithtact,hadaveryembarrassinghabitofaskingAnne,alwaysinapainfullydistinctvoiceandalwaysinthepresenceofacrowd,ifshehadheardfromGilbertlately。PoorAnnecouldonlyblushhorriblyandmurmur,"notverylately,"whichwastakenbyall,Mrs。Blytheincluded,tobemerelyamaidenlyevasion。
Apartfromthis,Anneenjoyedhersummer。PriscillacameforamerryvisitinJune;and,whenshehadgone,Mr。andMrs。Irving,PaulandCharlottatheFourthcame"home"forJulyandAugust。
EchoLodgewasthesceneofgaietiesoncemore,andtheechoesovertheriverwerekeptbusymimickingthelaughterthatrangintheoldgardenbehindthespruces。
"MissLavendar"hadnotchanged,excepttogrowevensweeterandprettier。Pauladoredher,andthecompanionshipbetweenthemwasbeautifultosee。
"ButIdon’tcallher`mother’justbyitself,"heexplainedtoAnne。"Yousee,THATnamebelongsjusttomyownlittlemother,andIcan’tgiveittoanyoneelse。Youknow,teacher。ButI
callher`MotherLavendar’andIlovehernextbesttofather。
I——IevenloveheraLITTLEbetterthanyou,teacher。"
"Whichisjustasitoughttobe,"answeredAnne。
Paulwasthirteennowandverytallforhisyears。Hisfaceandeyeswereasbeautifulasever,andhisfancywasstilllikeaprism,separatingeverythingthatfelluponitintorainbows。HeandAnnehaddelightfulramblestowoodandfieldandshore。Neverweretheretwomorethoroughly"kindredspirits。"
CharlottatheFourthhadblossomedoutintoyoungladyhood。Sheworeherhairnowinanenormouspompadorandhaddiscardedtheblueribbonbowsofauldlangsyne,butherfacewasasfreckled,hernoseassnubbed,andhermouthandsmilesaswideasever。
"Youdon’tthinkItalkwithaYankeeaccent,doyou,MissShirley,ma’am?"shedemandedanxiously。
"Idon’tnoticeit,Charlotta。"
"I’mrealgladofthat。TheysaidIdidathome,butIthoughtlikelytheyjustwantedtoaggravateme。Idon’twantnoYankeeaccent。NotthatI’veawordtosayagainsttheYankees,MissShirley,ma’am。They’rerealcivilized。ButgivemeoldP。E。
Islandeverytime。"
PaulspenthisfirstfortnightwithhisgrandmotherIrvinginAvonlea。Annewastheretomeethimwhenhecame,andfoundhimwildwitheagernesstogettotheshore——NoraandtheGoldenLadyandtheTwinSailorswouldbethere。Hecouldhardlywaittoeathissupper。CouldhenotseeNora’selfinfacepeeringaroundthepoint,watchingforhimwistfully?ButitwasaverysoberPaulwhocamebackfromtheshoreinthetwilight。
"Didn’tyoufindyourRockPeople?"askedAnne。
Paulshookhischestnutcurlssorrowfully。
"TheTwinSailorsandtheGoldenLadynevercameatall,"hesaid。
"Norawasthere——butNoraisnotthesame,teacher。Sheischanged。"
"Oh,Paul,itisyouwhoarechanged,"saidAnne。"YouhavegrowntoooldfortheRockPeople。Theylikeonlychildrenforplayfellows。IamafraidtheTwinSailorswillneveragaincometoyouinthepearly,enchantedboatwiththesailofmoonshine;
andtheGoldenLadywillplaynomoreforyouonhergoldenharp。
EvenNorawillnotmeetyoumuchlonger。Youmustpaythepenaltyofgrowing-up,Paul。Youmustleavefairylandbehindyou。"
"Youtwotalkasmuchfoolishnessaseveryoudid,"saidoldMrs。Irving,half-indulgently,half-reprovingly。
"Oh,no,wedon’t,"saidAnne,shakingherheadgravely。"Wearegettingvery,verywise,anditissuchapity。Weareneverhalfsointerestingwhenwehavelearnedthatlanguageisgivenustoenableustoconcealourthoughts。"
"Butitisn’t——itisgivenustoexchangeourthoughts,"saidMrs。Irvingseriously。ShehadneverheardofTallyrandanddidnotunderstandepigrams。
AnnespentafortnightofhalcyondaysatEchoLodgeinthegoldenprimeofAugust。WhiletheresheincidentallycontrivedtohurryLudovicSpeedinhisleisurelycourtingofTheodoraDix,asrelateddulyinanotherchronicleofherhistory。[1]ArnoldSherman,anelderlyfriendoftheIrvings,wasthereatthesametime,andaddednotalittletothegeneralpleasantnessoflife。
[1]ChroniclesofAvonlea。
"Whataniceplay-timethishasbeen,"saidAnne。"Ifeellikeagiantrefreshed。Andit’sonlyafortnightmoretillIgobacktoKingsport,andRedmondandPatty’sPlace。Patty’sPlaceisthedearestspot,MissLavendar。IfeelasifIhadtwohomes——oneatGreenGablesandoneatPatty’sPlace。Butwherehasthesummergone?Itdoesn’tseemadaysinceIcamehomethatspringeveningwiththeMayflowers。WhenIwaslittleIcouldn’tseefromoneendofthesummertotheother。Itstretchedbeforemelikeanunendingseason。Now,`’tisahandbreadth,’tisatale。’"
"Anne,areyouandGilbertBlytheasgoodfriendsasyouusedtobe?"
askedMissLavendarquietly。
"IamjustasmuchGilbert’sfriendaseverIwas,MissLavendar。"
MissLavendarshookherhead。
"Iseesomething’sgonewrong,Anne。I’mgoingtobeimpertinentandaskwhat。Haveyouquarrelled?"
"No;it’sonlythatGilbertwantsmorethanfriendshipandIcan’tgivehimmore。"
"Areyousureofthat,Anne?"
"Perfectlysure。"
"I’mvery,verysorry。"
"IwonderwhyeverybodyseemstothinkIoughttomarryGilbertBlythe,"
saidAnnepetulantly。
"Becauseyouweremadeandmeantforeachother,Anne——thatiswhy。
Youneedn’ttossthatyoungheadofyours。It’safact。"
ChapterXXIV
EnterJonas"PROSPECTPOINT,"August20th。
"DearAnne——spelled——with——an——E,"wrotePhil,"Imustpropmyeyelidsopenlongenoughtowriteyou。I’veneglectedyoushamefullythissummer,honey,butallmyothercorrespondentshavebeenneglected,too。Ihaveahugepileofletterstoanswer,soImustgirduptheloinsofmymindandhoein。Excusemymixedmetaphors。I’mfearfullysleepy。LastnightCousinEmilyandIwerecallingataneighbor’s。Therewereseveralothercallersthere,andassoonasthoseunfortunatecreaturesleft,ourhostessandherthreedaughterspickedthemalltopieces。
IknewtheywouldbeginonCousinEmilyandmeassoonasthedoorshutbehindus。WhenwecamehomeMrs。Lillyinformedusthattheaforesaidneighbor’shiredboywassupposedtobedownwithscarletfever。YoucanalwaystrustMrs。Lillytotellyoucheerfulthingslikethat。Ihaveahorrorofscarletfever。Icouldn’tsleepwhenIwenttobedforthinkingofit。Itossedandtumbledabout,dreamingfearfuldreamswhenIdidsnoozeforaminute;andatthreeIwakenedupwithahighfever,asorethroat,andaragingheadache。IknewIhadscarletfever;IgotupinapanicandhuntedupCousinEmily’s’doctorbook’toreadupthesymptoms。Anne,Ihadthemall。SoIwentbacktobed,andknowingtheworst,sleptlikeatoptherestofthenight。
ThoughwhyatopshouldsleepsounderthananythingelseI
nevercouldunderstand。ButthismorningIwasquitewell,soitcouldn’thavebeenthefever。IsupposeifIdidcatchitlastnightitcouldn’thavedevelopedsosoon。Icanrememberthatindaytime,butatthreeo’clockatnightInevercanbelogical。
"IsupposeyouwonderwhatI’mdoingatProspectPoint。Well,I
alwaysliketospendamonthofsummerattheshore,andfatherinsiststhatIcometohissecond-cousinEmily’s`selectboardinghouse’atProspectPoint。SoafortnightagoIcameasusual。Andasusualold`UncleMarkMiller’broughtmefromthestationwithhisancientbuggyandwhathecallshis`generouspurpose’horse。Heisaniceoldmanandgavemeahandfulofpinkpeppermints。Peppermintsalwaysseemtomesuchareligioussortofcandy——IsupposebecausewhenIwasalittlegirlGrandmotherGordonalwaysgavethemtomeinchurch。OnceI
asked,referringtothesmellofpeppermints,`Isthattheodorofsanctity?’Ididn’tliketoeatUncleMark’speppermintsbecausehejustfishedthemlooseoutofhispocket,andhadtopicksomerustynailsandotherthingsfromamongthembeforehegavethemtome。ButIwouldn’thurthisdearoldfeelingsforanything,soIcarefullysowedthemalongtheroadatintervals。
Whenthelastonewasgone,UncleMarksaid,alittlerebukingly,`Yeshouldn’ta’etallthemcandiestoonct,MissPhil。You’lllikelyhavethestummick-ache。’
"CousinEmilyhasonlyfiveboardersbesidesmyself——fouroldladiesandoneyoungman。Myright-handneighborisMrs。Lilly。
Sheisoneofthosepeoplewhoseemtotakeagruesomepleasureindetailingalltheirmanyachesandpainsandsicknesses。
Youcannotmentionanyailmentbutshesays,shakingherhead,`Ah,Iknowtoowellwhatthatis’——andthenyougetallthedetails。
Jonasdeclaresheoncespokeoflocomotorataxiainhearingandshesaidsheknewtoowellwhatthatwas。Shesufferedfromitfortenyearsandwasfinallycuredbyatravelingdoctor。
"WhoisJonas?Justwait,AnneShirley。You’llhearallaboutJonasinthepropertimeandplace。Heisnottobemixedupwithestimableoldladies。
"Myleft-handneighboratthetableisMrs。Phinney。Shealwaysspeakswithawailing,dolorousvoice——youarenervouslyexpectinghertoburstintotearseverymoment。Shegivesyoutheimpressionthatlifetoherisindeedavaleoftears,andthatasmile,nevertospeakofalaugh,isafrivolitytrulyreprehensible。ShehasaworseopinionofmethanAuntJamesina,andshedoesn’tlovemehardtoatoneforit,asAuntyJ。does,either。
"MissMariaGrimsbysitscati-cornerfromme。ThefirstdayI
cameIremarkedtoMissMariathatitlookedalittlelikerain——andMissMarialaughed。Isaidtheroadfromthestationwasverypretty——andMissMarialaughed。Isaidthereseemedtobeafewmosquitoesleftyet——andMissMarialaughed。IsaidthatProspectPointwasasbeautifulasever——andMissMarialaughed。
IfIweretosaytoMissMaria,`Myfatherhashangedhimself,mymotherhastakenpoison,mybrotherisinthepenitentiary,andIaminthelaststagesofconsumption,’MissMariawouldlaugh。
Shecan’thelpit——shewasbornso;butisverysadandawful。
"ThefiftholdladyisMrs。Grant。Sheisasweetoldthing;
butsheneversaysanythingbutgoodofanybodyandsosheisaveryuninterestingconversationalist。
"AndnowforJonas,Anne。
"ThatfirstdayIcameIsawayoungmansittingoppositemeatthetable,smilingatmeasifhehadknownmefrommycradle。
Iknew,forUncleMarkhadtoldme,thathisnamewasJonasBlake,thathewasaTheologicalStudentfromSt。Columbia,andthathehadtakenchargeofthePointProspectMissionChurchforthesummer。
"Heisaveryuglyyoungman——really,theugliestyoungmanI’veeverseen。Hehasabig,loose-jointedfigurewithabsurdlylonglegs。Hishairistow-colorandlank,hiseyesaregreen,andhismouthisbig,andhisears——butIneverthinkabouthisearsifIcanhelpit。
"Hehasalovelyvoice——ifyoushutyoureyesheisadorable——
andhecertainlyhasabeautifulsoulanddisposition。
"Weweregoodchumsrightway。OfcourseheisagraduateofRedmond,andthatisalinkbetweenus。Wefishedandboatedtogether;andwewalkedonthesandsbymoonlight。Hedidn’tlooksohomelybymoonlightandoh,hewasnice。Nicenessfairlyexhaledfromhim。Theoldladies——exceptMrs。Grant——don’tapproveofJonas,becausehelaughsandjokes——andbecauseheevidentlylikesthesocietyoffrivolousmebetterthantheirs。
"Somehow,Anne,Idon’twanthimtothinkmefrivolous。Thisisridiculous。WhyshouldIcarewhatatow-hairedpersoncalledJonas,whomIneversawbeforethinksofme?
"LastSundayJonaspreachedinthevillagechurch。Iwent,ofcourse,butIcouldn’trealizethatJonaswasgoingtopreach。
Thefactthathewasaminister——orgoingtobeone——persistedinseemingahugejoketome。
"Well,Jonaspreached。And,bythetimehehadpreachedtenminutes,IfeltsosmallandinsignificantthatIthoughtImustbeinvisibletothenakedeye。Jonasneversaidawordaboutwomenandheneverlookedatme。ButIrealizedthenandtherewhatapitiful,frivilous,small-souledlittlebutterflyIwas,andhowhorriblydifferentImustbefromJonas’idealwoman。
SHEwouldbegrandandstrongandnoble。Hewassoearnestandtenderandtrue。Hewaseverythingaministeroughttobe。
IwonderedhowIcouldeverhavethoughthimugly——buthereallyis!——withthoseinspiredeyesandthatintellectualbrowwhichtheroughly-fallinghairhidonweekdays。
"ItwasasplendidsermonandIcouldhavelistenedtoitforever,anditmademefeelutterlywretched。Oh,IwishIwaslikeYOU,Anne。
"Hecaughtupwithmeontheroadhome,andgrinnedascheerfullyasusual。Buthisgrincouldneverdeceivemeagain。IhadseentheREALJonas。IwonderedifhecouldeverseetheREALPHIL——
whomNOBODY,notevenyou,Anne,haseverseenyet。
"`Jonas,’Isaid——IforgottocallhimMr。Blake。Wasn’titdreadful?
Buttherearetimeswhenthingslikethatdon’tmatter——`Jonas,youwereborntobeaminister。YouCOULDN’Tbeanythingelse。’
"`No,Icouldn’t,’hesaidsoberly。`Itriedtobesomethingelseforalongtime——Ididn’twanttobeaminister。ButI
cametoseeatlastthatitwastheworkgivenmetodo——andGodhelpingme,Ishalltrytodoit。’
"Hisvoicewaslowandreverent。Ithoughtthathewoulddohisworkanddoitwellandnobly;andhappythewomanfittedbynatureandtrainingtohelphimdoit。SHEwouldbenofeather,blownaboutbyeveryficklewindoffancy。SHEwouldalwaysknowwhathattoputon。Probablyshewouldhaveonlyone。Ministersneverhavemuchmoney。Butshewouldn’tmindhavingonehatornoneatall,becauseshewouldhaveJonas。
"AnneShirley,don’tyoudaretosayorhintorthinkthatI’vefalleninlovewithMr。Blake。CouldIcareforalank,poor,uglytheologue——namedJonas?AsUncleMarksays,`It’simpossible,andwhat’smoreit’simprobable。’
Goodnight,PHIL。"
"P。S。Itisimpossible——butIamhorriblyafraidit’strue。
I’mhappyandwretchedandscared。HEcanNEVERcareforme,Iknow。DoyouthinkIcouldeverdevelopintoapassableminister’swife,Anne?AndWOULDtheyexpectmetoleadinprayer?PG。"
ChapterXXV
EnterPrinceCharming"I’mcontrastingtheclaimsofindoorsandout,"saidAnne,lookingfromthewindowofPatty’sPlacetothedistantpinesofthepark。
"I’veanafternoontospendinsweetdoingnothing,AuntJimsie。
ShallIspenditherewherethereisacosyfire,aplatefulofdeliciousrussets,threepurringandharmoniouscats,andtwoimpeccablechinadogswithgreennoses?OrshallIgotothepark,wherethereisthelureofgraywoodsandofgraywaterlappingontheharborrocks?"
"IfIwasasyoungasyou,I’ddecideinfavorofthepark,"saidAuntJamesina,ticklingJoseph’syellowearwithaknittingneedle。
"Ithoughtthatyouclaimedtobeasyoungasanyofus,Aunty,"
teasedAnne。
"Yes,inmysoul。ButI’lladmitmylegsaren’tasyoungasyours。
Yougoandgetsomefreshair,Anne。Youlookpalelately。"
"IthinkI’llgotothepark,"saidAnnerestlessly。"Idon’tfeelliketamedomesticjoystoday。Iwanttofeelaloneandfreeandwild。Theparkwillbeempty,foreveryonewillbeatthefootballmatch。"
"Whydidn’tyougotoit?"
"`Nobodyaxedme,sir,shesaid’——atleast,nobodybutthathorridlittleDanRanger。Iwouldn’tgoanywherewithhim;
butratherthanhurthispoorlittletenderfeelingsIsaidI
wasn’tgoingtothegameatall。Idon’tmind。I’mnotinthemoodforfootballtodaysomehow。"
"Yougoandgetsomefreshair,"repeatedAuntJamesina,"buttakeyourumbrella,forIbelieveit’sgoingtorain。I’verheumatisminmyleg。"
"Onlyoldpeopleshouldhaverheumatism,Aunty。"
"Anybodyisliabletorheumatisminherlegs,Anne。It’sonlyoldpeoplewhoshouldhaverheumatismintheirsouls,though。
Thankgoodness,Ineverhave。Whenyougetrheumatisminyoursoulyoumightaswellgoandpickoutyourcoffin。"
ItwasNovember——themonthofcrimsonsunsets,partingbirds,deep,sadhymnsofthesea,passionatewind-songsinthepines。
Anneroamedthroughthepinelandalleysintheparkand,asshesaid,letthatgreatsweepingwindblowthefogsoutofhersoul。
Annewasnotwonttobetroubledwithsoulfog。But,somehow,sinceherreturntoRedmondforthisthirdyear,lifehadnotmirroredherspiritbacktoherwithitsold,perfect,sparklingclearness。
Outwardly,existenceatPatty’sPlacewasthesamepleasantroundofworkandstudyandrecreationthatithadalwaysbeen。
OnFridayeveningsthebig,fire-lightedlivingroomwascrowdedbycallersandechoedtoendlessjestandlaughter,whileAuntJamesinasmiledbeaminglyonthemall。The"Jonas"ofPhil’slettercameoften,runningupfromSt。Columbiaontheearlytrainanddepartingonthelate。
HewasageneralfavoriteatPatty’sPlace,thoughAuntJamesinashookherheadandopinedthatdivinitystudentswerenotwhattheyusedtobe。
"He’sVERYnice,mydear,"shetoldPhil,"butministersoughttobegraverandmoredignified。"
"Can’tamanlaughandlaughandbeaChristianstill?"demandedPhil。
"Oh,MEN——yes。ButIwasspeakingofMINISTERS,mydear,"
saidAuntJamesinarebukingly。"Andyoushouldn’tflirtsowithMr。Blake——youreallyshouldn’t。"
"I’mnotflirtingwithhim,"protestedPhil。
Nobodybelievedher,exceptAnne。Theothersthoughtshewasamusingherselfasusual,andtoldherroundlythatshewasbehavingverybadly。
"Mr。Blakeisn’toftheAlec-and-Alonzotype,Phil,"saidStellaseverely。
"Hetakesthingsseriously。Youmaybreakhisheart。"
"DoyoureallythinkIcould?"askedPhil。"I’dlovetothinkso。"
"PhilippaGordon!Ineverthoughtyouwereutterlyunfeeling。
Theideaofyousayingyou’dlovetobreakaman’sheart!"
"Ididn’tsayso,honey。Quotemecorrectly。IsaidI’dliketothinkICOULDbreakit。IwouldliketoknowIhadthePOWERtodoit。"
"Idon’tunderstandyou,Phil。Youareleadingthatmanondeliberately——andyouknowyoudon’tmeananythingbyit。"
"ImeantomakehimaskmetomarryhimifIcan,"saidPhilcalmly。
"Igiveyouup,"saidStellahopelessly。
GilbertcameoccasionallyonFridayevenings。Heseemedalwaysingoodspirits,andheldhisowninthejestsandreparteethatflewabout。HeneithersoughtnoravoidedAnne。
Whencircumstancesbroughtthemincontacthetalkedtoherpleasantlyandcourteously,astoanynewly-madeacquaintance。
Theoldcamaraderiewasgoneentirely。Annefeltitkeenly;
butshetoldherselfshewasverygladandthankfulthatGilberthadgotsocompletelyoverhisdisappointmentinregardtoher。
Shehadreallybeenafraid,thatAprileveningintheorchard,thatshehadhurthimterriblyandthatthewoundwouldbelonginhealing。Nowshesawthatsheneednothaveworried。
Menhavediedandthewormshaveeatenthembutnotforlove。
Gilbertevidentlywasinnodangerofimmediatedissolution。
Hewasenjoyinglife,andhewasfullofambitionandzest。
Forhimtherewastobenowastingindespairbecauseawomanwasfairandcold。Anne,asshelistenedtotheceaselessbadinagethatwentonbetweenhimandPhil,wonderedifshehadonlyimaginedthatlookinhiseyeswhenshehadtoldhimshecouldnevercareforhim。
TherewerenotlackingthosewhowouldgladlyhavesteppedintoGilbert’svacantplace。ButAnnesnubbedthemwithoutfearandwithoutreproach。IftherealPrinceCharmingwasnevertocomeshewouldhavenoneofasubstitute。Soshesternlytoldherselfthatgraydayinthewindypark。
SuddenlytherainofAuntJamesina’sprophecycamewithaswishandrush。Anneputupherumbrellaandhurrieddowntheslope。
Assheturnedoutontheharborroadasavagegustofwindtorealongit。Instantlyherumbrellaturnedwrongsideout。Anneclutchedatitindespair。Andthen——therecameavoiceclosetoher。
"Pardonme——mayIofferyoutheshelterofmyumbrella?"
Annelookedup。Tallandhandsomeanddistinguished-looking——dark,melancholy,inscrutableeyes——melting,musical,sympatheticvoice——yes,theveryheroofherdreamsstoodbeforeherintheflesh。Hecouldnothavemorecloselyresembledheridealifhehadbeenmadetoorder。
"Thankyou,"shesaidconfusedly。
"We’dbetterhurryovertothatlittlepavilliononthepoint,"
suggestedtheunknown。"Wecanwaitthereuntilthisshowerisover。Itisnotlikelytorainsoheavilyverylong。"
Thewordswereverycommonplace,butoh,thetone!Andthesmilewhichaccompaniedthem!Annefeltherheartbeatingstrangely。
Togethertheyscurriedtothepavilionandsatbreathlesslydownunderitsfriendlyroof。Annelaughinglyheldupherfalseumbrella。
"ItiswhenmyumbrellaturnsinsideoutthatIamconvincedofthetotaldepravityofinanimatethings,"shesaidgaily。
Theraindropssparkledonhershininghair;itsloosenedringscurledaroundherneckandforehead。Hercheekswereflushed,hereyesbigandstarry。Hercompanionlookeddownatheradmiringly。Shefeltherselfblushingunderhisgaze。
Whocouldhebe?Why,therewasabitoftheRedmondwhiteandscarletpinnedtohiscoatlapel。Yetshehadthoughtsheknew,bysightatleast,alltheRedmondstudentsexcepttheFreshmen。
AndthiscourtlyyouthsurelywasnoFreshman。
"Weareschoolmates,Isee,"hesaid,smilingatAnne’scolors。
"Thatoughttobesufficientintroduction。MynameisRoyalGardner。
AndyouaretheMissShirleywhoreadtheTennysonpaperatthePhilomathictheotherevening,aren’tyou?"
"Yes;butIcannotplaceyouatall,"saidAnne,frankly。
"Please,whereDOyoubelong?"
"IfeelasifIdidn’tbelonganywhereyet。IputinmyFreshmanandSophomoreyearsatRedmondtwoyearsago。I’vebeeninEuropeeversince。NowI’vecomebacktofinishmyArtscourse。"
"ThisismyJunioryear,too,"saidAnne。
"Soweareclassmatesaswellascollegemates。Iamreconciledtothelossoftheyearsthatthelocusthaseaten,"saidhercompanion,withaworldofmeaninginthosewonderfuleyesofhis。
Theraincamesteadilydownforthebestpartofanhour。Butthetimeseemedreallyveryshort。WhenthecloudspartedandaburstofpaleNovembersunshinefellathwarttheharborandthepinesAnneandhercompanionwalkedhometogether。BythetimetheyhadreachedthegateofPatty’sPlacehehadaskedpermissiontocall,andhadreceivedit。Annewentinwithcheeksofflameandherheartbeatingtoherfingertips。Rusty,whoclimbedintoherlapandtriedtokissher,foundaveryabsentwelcome。Anne,withhersoulfullofromanticthrills,hadnoattentiontosparejustthenforacrop-earedpussycat。
ThateveningaparcelwasleftatPatty’sPlaceforMissShirley。
Itwasaboxcontainingadozenmagnificentroses。Philpouncedimpertinentlyonthecardthatfellfromit,readthenameandthepoeticalquotationwrittenontheback。
"RoyalGardner!"sheexclaimed。"Why,Anne,Ididn’tknowyouwereacquaintedwithRoyGardner!"
"Imethimintheparkthisafternoonintherain,"explainedAnnehurriedly。"Myumbrellaturnedinsideoutandhecametomyrescuewithhis。"
"Oh!"PhilpeeredcuriouslyatAnne。"Andisthatexceedinglycommonplaceincidentanyreasonwhyheshouldsenduslongstemmedrosesbythedozen,withaverysentimentalrhyme?Orwhyweshouldblushdivinestrosy-redwhenwelookathiscard?Anne,thyfacebetrayeththee。"
"Don’ttalknonsense,Phil。DoyouknowMr。Gardner?"
"I’vemethistwosisters,andIknowofhim。SodoeseverybodyworthwhileinKingsport。TheGardnersareamongtherichest,bluest,ofBluenoses。Royisadorablyhandsomeandclever。
Twoyearsagohismother’shealthfailedandhehadtoleavecollegeandgoabroadwithher——hisfatherisdead。Hemusthavebeengreatlydisappointedtohavetogiveuphisclass,buttheysayhewasperfectlysweetaboutit。Fee——fi——fo——fum,Anne。Ismellromance。AlmostdoIenvyyou,butnotquite。
Afterall,RoyGardnerisn’tJonas。"
"Yougoose!"saidAnneloftily。Butshelaylongawakethatnight,nordidshewishforsleep。Herwakingfanciesweremorealluringthananyvisionofdreamland。HadtherealPrincecomeatlast?
Recallingthosegloriousdarkeyeswhichhadgazedsodeeplyintoherown,Annewasverystronglyinclinedtothinkhehad。
ChapterXXVI
EnterChristineThegirlsatPatty’sPlaceweredressingforthereceptionwhichtheJuniorsweregivingfortheSeniorsinFebruary。Annesurveyedherselfinthemirroroftheblueroomwithgirlishsatisfaction。
Shehadaparticularlyprettygownon。Originallyithadbeenonlyasimplelittleslipofcreamsilkwithachiffonoverdress。
ButPhilhadinsistedontakingithomewithherintheChristmasholidaysandembroideringtinyrosebudsalloverthechiffon。
Phil’sfingersweredeft,andtheresultwasadresswhichwastheenvyofeveryRedmondgirl。EvenAllieBoone,whosefrockscamefromParis,waswonttolookwithlongingeyesonthatrosebudconcoctionasAnnetrailedupthemainstaircaseatRedmondinit。
Annewastryingtheeffectofawhiteorchidinherhair。
RoyGardnerhadsentherwhiteorchidsforthereception,andsheknewnootherRedmondgirlwouldhavethemthatnight——whenPhilcameinwithadmiringgaze。
"Anne,thisiscertainlyyournightforlookinghandsome。
NinenightsoutoftenIcaneasilyoutshineyou。Thetenthyoublossomoutsuddenlyintosomethingthateclipsesmealtogether。
Howdoyoumanageit?"
"It’sthedress,dear。Finefeathers。"
"`Tisn’t。ThelasteveningyouflamedoutintobeautyyouworeyouroldblueflannelshirtwaistthatMrs。Lyndemadeyou。
IfRoyhadn’talreadylostheadandheartaboutyouhecertainlywouldtonight。ButIdon’tlikeorchidsonyou,Anne。No;itisn’tjealousy。Orchidsdon’tseemtoBELONGtoyou。They’retooexotic——tootropical——tooinsolent。Don’tputtheminyourhair,anyway。"
"Well,Iwon’t。IadmitI’mnotfondoforchidsmyself。Idon’tthinkthey’rerelatedtome。Roydoesn’toftensendthem——heknowsIlikeflowersIcanlivewith。Orchidsareonlythingsyoucanvisitwith。"
"Jonassentmesomedearpinkrosebudsfortheevening——but——
heisn’tcominghimself。Hesaidhehadtoleadaprayer-meetingintheslums!Idon’tbelievehewantedtocome。Anne,I’mhorriblyafraidJonasdoesn’treallycareanythingaboutme。AndI’mtryingtodecidewhetherI’llpineawayanddie,orgoonandgetmyB。A。andbesensibleanduseful。"
"Youcouldn’tpossiblybesensibleanduseful,Phil,soyou’dbetterpineawayanddie,"saidAnnecruelly。
"HeartlessAnne!"
"SillyPhil!YouknowquitewellthatJonaslovesyou。"
"But——hewon’tTELLmeso。AndIcan’tMAKEhim。HeLOOKSit,I’lladmit。Butspeak-to-me-only-with-thine-eyesisn’tareallyreliablereasonforembroideringdoiliesandhemstitchingtablecloths。Idon’twanttobeginsuchworkuntilI’mreallyengaged。ItwouldbetemptingFate。"
"Mr。Blakeisafraidtoaskyoutomarryhim,Phil。Heispoorandcan’tofferyouahomesuchasyou’vealwayshad。Youknowthatistheonlyreasonhehasn’tspokenlongago。"
"Isupposeso,"agreedPhildolefully。"Well"——brighteningup——"ifheWON’TaskmetomarryhimI’llaskhim,that’sall。
Soit’sboundtocomeright。Iwon’tworry。Bytheway,GilbertBlytheisgoingaboutconstantlywithChristineStuart。
Didyouknow?"
Annewastryingtofastenalittlegoldchainaboutherthroat。
Shesuddenlyfoundtheclaspdifficulttomanage。WHATwasthematterwithit——orwithherfingers?
"No,"shesaidcarelessly。"WhoisChristineStuart?"
"RonaldStuart’ssister。She’sinKingsportthiswinterstudyingmusic。Ihaven’tseenher,buttheysayshe’sveryprettyandthatGilbertisquitecrazyoverher。HowangryIwaswhenyourefusedGilbert,Anne。ButRoyGardnerwasforeordainedforyou。
Icanseethatnow。Youwereright,afterall。"
Annedidnotblush,assheusuallydidwhenthegirlsassumedthathereventualmarriagetoRoyGardnerwasasettledthing。
Allatonceshefeltratherdull。Phil’schatterseemedtrivialandthereceptionabore。SheboxedpoorRusty’sears。
"Getoffthatcushioninstantly,youcat,you!Whydon’tyoustaydownwhereyoubelong?"
Annepickedupherorchidsandwentdownstairs,whereAuntJamesinawaspresidingoverarowofcoatshungbeforethefiretowarm。
RoyGardnerwaswaitingforAnneandteasingtheSarah-catwhilehewaited。TheSarah-catdidnotapproveofhim。Shealwaysturnedherbackonhim。ButeverybodyelseatPatty’sPlacelikedhimverymuch。AuntJamesina,carriedawaybyhisunfailinganddeferentialcourtesy,andthepleadingtonesofhisdelightfulvoice,declaredhewasthenicestyoungmansheeverknew,andthatAnnewasaveryfortunategirl。SuchremarksmadeAnnerestive。Roy’swooinghadcertainlybeenasromanticasgirlishheartcoulddesire,but——shewishedAuntJamesinaandthegirlswouldnottakethingssoforgranted。WhenRoymurmuredapoeticalcomplimentashehelpedheronwithhercoat,shedidnotblushandthrillasusual;andhefoundherrathersilentintheirbriefwalktoRedmond。Hethoughtshelookedalittlepalewhenshecameoutofthecoeds’dressingroom;
butastheyenteredthereceptionroomhercolorandsparklesuddenlyreturnedtoher。SheturnedtoRoywithhergayestexpression。
HesmiledbackatherwithwhatPhilcalled"hisdeep,black,velvetysmile。"YetshereallydidnotseeRoyatall。ShewasacutelyconsciousthatGilbertwasstandingunderthepalmsjustacrosstheroomtalkingtoagirlwhomustbeChristineStuart。
Shewasveryhandsome,inthestatelystyledestinedtobecomerathermassiveinmiddlelife。Atallgirl,withlargedark-blueeyes,ivoryoutlines,andaglossofdarknessonhersmoothhair。
"ShelooksjustasI’vealwayswantedtolook,"thoughtAnnemiserably。"Rose-leafcomplexion——starryvioleteyes——ravenhair——yes,shehasthemall。It’sawonderhernameisn’tCordeliaFitzgeraldintothebargain!ButIdon’tbelieveherfigureisasgoodasmine,andhernosecertainlyisn’t。"
Annefeltalittlecomfortedbythisconclusion。
ChapterXXVII
MutualConfidencesMarchcameinthatwinterlikethemeekestandmildestoflambs,bringingdaysthatwerecrispandgoldenandtingling,eachfollowedbyafrostypinktwilightwhichgraduallylostitselfinanelflandofmoonshine。
OverthegirlsatPatty’sPlacewasfallingtheshadowofAprilexaminations。Theywerestudyinghard;evenPhilhadsettleddowntotextandnotebookswithadoggednessnottobeexpectedofher。
"I’mgoingtotaketheJohnsonScholarshipinMathematics,"sheannouncedcalmly。"IcouldtaketheoneinGreekeasily,butI’drathertakethemathematicalonebecauseIwanttoprovetoJonasthatI’mreallyenormouslyclever。"
"Jonaslikesyoubetterforyourbigbrowneyesandyourcrookedsmilethanforallthebrainsyoucarryunderyourcurls,"saidAnne。
"WhenIwasagirlitwasn’tconsideredlady-liketoknowanythingaboutMathematics,"saidAuntJamesina。"Buttimeshavechanged。
Idon’tknowthatit’sallforthebetter。Canyoucook,Phil?"
"No,Inevercookedanythinginmylifeexceptagingerbreadanditwasafailure——flatinthemiddleandhillyroundtheedges。
Youknowthekind。But,Aunty,whenIbeginingoodearnesttolearntocookdon’tyouthinkthebrainsthatenablemetowinamathematicalscholarshipwillalsoenablemetolearncookingjustaswell?"
"Maybe,"saidAuntJamesinacautiously。"Iamnotdecryingthehighereducationofwomen。MydaughterisanM。A。Shecancook,too。ButItaughthertocookBEFOREIletacollegeprofessorteachherMathematics。"
Inmid-MarchcamealetterfromMissPattySpofford,sayingthatsheandMissMariahaddecidedtoremainabroadforanotheryear。
"SoyoumayhavePatty’sPlacenextwinter,too,"shewrote。
"MariaandIaregoingtorunoverEgypt。IwanttoseetheSphinxoncebeforeIdie。"
"Fancythosetwodames`runningoverEgypt’!Iwonderifthey’lllookupattheSphinxandknit,"laughedPriscilla。
"I’msogladwecankeepPatty’sPlaceforanotheryear,"saidStella。"Iwasafraidthey’dcomeback。Andthenourjollylittlenestherewouldbebrokenup——andwepoorcallownestlingsthrownoutonthecruelworldofboardinghousesagain。"
"I’moffforatrampinthepark,"announcedPhil,tossingherbookaside。"IthinkwhenIameightyI’llbegladIwentforawalkintheparktonight。"
"Whatdoyoumean?"askedAnne。
"ComewithmeandI’lltellyou,honey。"
TheycapturedintheirrambleallthemysteriesandmagicsofaMarchevening。Verystillandmilditwas,wrappedinagreat,white,broodingsilence——asilencewhichwasyetthreadedthroughwithmanylittlesilverysoundswhichyoucouldhearifyouhearkenedasmuchwithyoursoulasyourears。Thegirlswandereddownalongpinelandaislethatseemedtoleadrightoutintotheheartofadeep-red,overflowingwintersunset。
"I’dgohomeandwriteapoemthisblessedminuteifIonlyknewhow,"
declaredPhil,pausinginanopenspacewherearosylightwasstainingthegreentipsofthepines。"It’sallsowonderfulhere——thisgreat,whitestillness,andthosedarktreesthatalwaysseemtobethinking。"
"`ThewoodswereGod’sfirsttemples,’"quotedAnnesoftly。
"Onecan’thelpfeelingreverentandadoringinsuchaplace。
IalwaysfeelsonearHimwhenIwalkamongthepines。"
"Anne,I’mthehappiestgirlintheworld,"confessedPhilsuddenly。
"SoMr。Blakehasaskedyoutomarryhimatlast?"saidAnnecalmly。
"Yes。AndIsneezedthreetimeswhilehewasaskingme。
Wasn’tthathorrid?ButIsaid`yes’almostbeforehefinished——Iwassoafraidhemightchangehismindandstop。I’mbesottedlyhappy。Icouldn’treallybelievebeforethatJonaswouldevercareforfrivolousme。"