I’veagreatdealthat’spainfulonmymind,andIfindithardworktobequitesilentaboutmyownfeelingsandonlyattendtoothers。IshareyourconcernforAdam,thoughheisnottheonlyonewhosesufferingsIcareforinthisaffair。HeintendstoremainatStonitontillafterthetrial:itwillcomeonprobablyaweekto-morrow。Hehastakenaroomthere,andIencouragedhimtodoso,becauseIthinkitbetterheshouldbeawayfromhisownhomeatpresent;and,poorfellow,hestillbelievesHettyisinnocent——hewantstosummonupcouragetoseeherifhecan;heisunwillingtoleavethespotwheresheis。"
"Doyouthinkthecreatur’sguilty,then?"saidBartle。"Doyouthinkthey’llhangher?"
"I’mafraiditwillgohardwithher。Theevidenceisverystrong。Andonebadsymptomisthatshedenieseverything——deniesthatshehashadachildinthefaceofthemostpositiveevidence。Isawhermyself,andshewasobstinatelysilenttome;
sheshrankuplikeafrightenedanimalwhenshesawme。Iwasneversoshockedinmylifeasatthechangeinher。ButItrustthat,intheworstcase,wemayobtainapardonforthesakeoftheinnocentwhoareinvolved。"
"Stuffandnonsense!"saidBartle,forgettinginhisirritationtowhomhewasspeaking。"Ibegyourpardon,sir,Imeanit’sstuffandnonsensefortheinnocenttocareaboutherbeinghanged。Formyownpart,Ithinkthesoonersuchwomenareputouto’theworldthebetter;andthementhathelp’emtodomischiefhadbettergoalongwith’emforthatmatter。Whatgoodwillyoudobykeepingsuchverminalive,eatingthevictualthat’udfeedrationalbeings?ButifAdam’sfoolenoughtocareaboutit,I
don’twanthimtosuffermorethan’sneedful……Isheverymuchcutup,poorfellow?"Bartleadded,takingouthisspectaclesandputtingthemon,asiftheywouldassisthisimagination。
"Yes,I’mafraidthegriefcutsverydeep,"saidMr。Irwine。"Helooksterriblyshattered,andacertainviolencecameoverhimnowandthenyesterday,whichmademewishIcouldhaveremainednearhim。ButIshallgotoStonitonagainto-morrow,andIhaveconfidenceenoughinthestrengthofAdam’sprincipletotrustthathewillbeabletoenduretheworstwithoutbeingdriventoanythingrash。"
Mr。Irwine,whowasinvoluntarilyutteringhisownthoughtsratherthanaddressingBartleMasseyinthelastsentence,hadinhismindthepossibilitythatthespiritofvengeanceto-wardsArthur,whichwastheformAdam’sanguishwascontinuallytaking,mightmakehimseekanencounterthatwaslikelytoendmorefatallythantheoneintheGrove。ThispossibilityheightenedtheanxietywithwhichhelookedforwardtoArthur’sarrival。ButBartlethoughtMr。Irwinewasreferringtosuicide,andhisfaceworeanewalarm。
"I’lltellyouwhatIhaveinmyhead,sir,"hesaid,"andIhopeyou’llapproveofit。I’mgoingtoshutupmyschool——ifthescholarscome,theymustgobackagain,that’sall——andIshallgotoStonitonandlookafterAdamtillthisbusinessisover。I’llpretendI’mcometolookonattheassizes;hecan’tobjecttothat。Whatdoyouthinkaboutit,sir?"
"Well,"saidMr。Irwine,ratherhesitatingly,"therewouldbesomerealadvantagesinthat……andIhonouryouforyourfriendshiptowardshim,Bartle。But……youmustbecarefulwhatyousaytohim,youknow。I’mafraidyouhavetoolittlefellow-feelinginwhatyouconsiderhisweaknessaboutHetty。"
"Trusttome,sir——trusttome。Iknowwhatyoumean。I’vebeenafoolmyselfinmytime,butthat’sbetweenyouandme。Ishan’tthrustmyselfonhimonlykeepmyeyeonhim,andseethathegetssomegoodfood,andputinawordhereandthere。"
"Then,"saidMr。Irwine,reassuredalittleastoBartle’sdiscretion,"Ithinkyou’llbedoingagooddeed;anditwillbewellforyoutoletAdam’smotherandbrotherknowthatyou’regoing。"
"Yes,sir,yes,"saidBartle,rising,andtakingoffhisspectacles,"I’lldothat,I’lldothat;thoughthemother’sawhimperingthing——Idon’tliketocomewithinearshotofher;
however,she’sastraight-backed,cleanwoman,noneofyourslatterns。Iwishyougood-bye,sir,andthankyouforthetimeyou’vesparedme。You’reeverybody’sfriendinthisbusiness——
everybody’sfriend。It’saheavyweightyou’vegotonyourshoulders。"
"Good-bye,Bartle,tillwemeetatStoniton,asIdaresayweshall。"
Bartlehurriedawayfromtherectory,evadingCarroll’sconversationaladvances,andsayinginanexasperatedtonetoVixen,whoseshortlegspatteredbesidehimonthegravel,"Now,I
shallbeobligedtotakeyouwithme,yougood-for-nothingwoman。
You’dgofrettingyourselftodeathifIleftyou——youknowyouwould,andperhapsgetsnappedupbysometramp。Andyou’llberunningintobadcompany,Iexpect,puttingyournoseineveryholeandcornerwhereyou’venobusiness!Butifyoudoanythingdisgraceful,I’lldisownyou——mindthat,madam,mindthat!"
TheEveoftheTrialANupperroominadullStonitonstreet,withtwobedsinit——onelaidonthefloor。Itisteno’clockonThursdaynight,andthedarkwalloppositethewindowshutsoutthemoonlightthatmighthavestruggledwiththelightoftheonedipcandlebywhichBartleMasseyispretendingtoread,whileheisreallylookingoverhisspectaclesatAdamBede,seatednearthedarkwindow。
YouwouldhardlyhaveknownitwasAdamwithoutbeingtold。Hisfacehasgotthinnerthislastweek:hehasthesunkeneyes,theneglectedbeardofamanjustrisenfromasick-bed。Hisheavyblackhairhangsoverhisforehead,andthereisnoactiveimpulseinhimwhichinclineshimtopushitoff,thathemaybemoreawaketowhatisaroundhim。Hehasonearmoverthebackofthechair,andheseemstobelookingdownathisclaspedhands。Heisrousedbyaknockatthedoor。
"Thereheis,"saidBartleMassey,risinghastilyandunfasteningthedoor。ItwasMr。Irwine。
Adamrosefromhischairwithinstinctiverespect,asMr。Irwineapproachedhimandtookhishand。
"I’mlate,Adam,"hesaid,sittingdownonthechairwhichBartleplacedforhim,"butIwaslaterinsettingofffromBroxtonthanIintendedtobe,andIhavebeenincessantlyoccupiedsinceI
arrived。Ihavedoneeverythingnow,however——everythingthatcanbedoneto-night,atleast。Letusallsitdown。"
Adamtookhischairagainmechanically,andBartle,forwhomtherewasnochairremaining,satonthebedinthebackground。
"Haveyouseenher,sir?"saidAdamtremulously。
"Yes,Adam;Iandthechaplainhavebothbeenwithherthisevening。"
"Didyouaskher,sir……didyousayanythingaboutme?"
"Yes,"saidMr。Irwine,withsomehesitation,"Ispokeofyou。I
saidyouwishedtoseeherbeforethetrial,ifsheconsented。"
AsMr。Irwinepaused,Adamlookedathimwitheager,questioningeyes。
"Youknowsheshrinksfromseeinganyone,Adam。Itisnotonlyyou——somefatalinfluenceseemstohaveshutupherheartagainstherfellow-creatures。Shehasscarcelysaidanythingmorethan’No’eithertomeorthechaplain。Threeorfourdaysago,beforeyouwerementionedtoher,whenIaskedheriftherewasanyoneofherfamilywhomshewouldliketosee——towhomshecouldopenhermind——shesaid,withaviolentshudder,’Tellthemnottocomenearme——Iwon’tseeanyofthem。’"
Adam’sheadwashangingdownagain,andhedidnotspeak。Therewassilenceforafewminutes,andthenMr。Irwinesaid,"Idon’tliketoadviseyouagainstyourownfeelings,Adam,iftheynowurgeyoustronglytogoandseeherto-morrowmorning,evenwithoutherconsent。Itisjustpossible,notwithstandingappearancestothecontrary,thattheinterviewmightaffectherfavourably。ButIgrievetosayIhavescarcelyanyhopeofthat。
Shedidn’tseemagitatedwhenImentionedyourname;sheonlysaid’No,’inthesamecold,obstinatewayasusual。Andifthemeetinghadnogoodeffectonher,itwouldbepure,uselesssufferingtoyou——severesuffering,Ifear。Sheisverymuchchanged……"
Adamstartedupfromhischairandseizedhishat,whichlayonthetable。Buthestoodstillthen,andlookedatMr。Irwine,asifhehadaquestiontoaskwhichitwasyetdifficulttoutter。
BartleMasseyrosequietly,turnedthekeyinthedoor,andputitinhispocket。
"Ishecomeback?"saidAdamatlast。
"No,heisnot,"saidMr。Irwine,quietly。"Laydownyourhat,Adam,unlessyouliketowalkoutwithmeforalittlefreshair。
Ifearyouhavenotbeenoutagainto-day。"
"Youneedn’tdeceiveme,sir,"saidAdam,lookinghardatMr。
Irwineandspeakinginatoneofangrysuspicion。"Youneedn’tbeafraidofme。Ionlywantjustice。Iwanthimtofeelwhatshefeels。It’shiswork……shewasachildasit’udha’gonet’
anybody’shearttolookat……Idon’tcarewhatshe’sdone……itwashimbroughthertoit。Andheshallknowit……heshallfeelit……ifthere’sajustGod,heshallfeelwhatitist’ha’
broughtachildlikehertosinandmisery。"
"I’mnotdeceivingyou,Adam,"saidMr。Irwine。"ArthurDonnithorneisnotcomeback——wasnotcomebackwhenIleft。I
haveleftaletterforhim:hewillknowallassoonashearrives。"
"Butyoudon’tmindaboutit,"saidAdamindignantly。"Youthinkitdoesn’tmatterassheliesthereinshameandmisery,andheknowsnothingaboutit——hesuffersnothing。"
"Adam,heWILLknow——heWILLsuffer,longandbitterly。Hehasaheartandaconscience:Ican’tbeentirelydeceivedinhischaracter。Iamconvinced——Iamsurehedidn’tfallundertemptationwithoutastruggle。Hemaybeweak,butheisnotcallous,notcoldlyselfish。Iampersuadedthatthiswillbeashockofwhichhewillfeeltheeffectsallhislife。Whydoyoucravevengeanceinthisway?Noamountoftorturethatyoucouldinflictonhimcouldbenefither。"
"No——OGod,no,"Adamgroanedout,sinkingonhischairagain;
"butthen,that’sthedeepestcurseofall……that’swhatmakestheblacknessofit……ITCANNEVERBEUNDONE。MypoorHetty……shecanneverbemysweetHettyagain……theprettiestthingGodhadmade——
smilingupatme……Ithoughtshelovedme……andwasgood……"
Adam’svoicehadbeengraduallysinkingintoahoarseundertone,asifhewereonlytalkingtohimself;butnowhesaidabruptly,lookingatMr。Irwine,"Butsheisn’tasguiltyastheysay?Youdon’tthinksheis,sir?Shecan’tha’doneit。"
"Thatperhapscanneverbeknownwithcertainty,Adam,"Mr。Irwineansweredgently。"Inthesecaseswesometimesformourjudgmentonwhatseemstousstrongevidence,andyet,forwantofknowingsomesmallfact,ourjudgmentiswrong。Butsupposetheworst:
youhavenorighttosaythattheguiltofhercrimelieswithhim,andthatheoughttobearthepunishment。Itisnotforusmentoapportionthesharesofmoralguiltandretribution。Wefinditimpossibletoavoidmistakesevenindeterminingwhohascommittedasinglecriminalact,andtheproblemhowfaramanistobeheldresponsiblefortheunforeseenconsequencesofhisowndeedisonethatmightwellmakeustrembletolookintoit。Theevilconsequencesthatmayliefoldedinasingleactofselfishindulgenceisathoughtsoawfulthatitoughtsurelytoawakensomefeelinglesspresumptuousthanarashdesiretopunish。Youhaveamindthatcanunderstandthisfully,Adam,whenyouarecalm。Don’tsupposeIcan’tenterintotheanguishthatdrivesyouintothisstateofrevengefulhatred。Butthinkofthis:ifyouweretoobeyyourpassion——foritISpassion,andyoudeceiveyourselfincallingitjustice——itmightbewithyoupreciselyasithasbeenwithArthur;nay,worse;yourpassionmightleadyouyourselfintoahorriblecrime。"
"No——notworse,"saidAdam,bitterly;"Idon’tbelieveit’sworse——
I’dsoonerdoit——I’dsoonerdoawickednessasIcouldsufferforbymyselfthanha’broughtHERtodowickednessandthenstandbyandsee’empunishherwhiletheyletmealone;andallforabito’pleasure,as,ifhe’dhadaman’sheartinhim,he’dha’
cuthishandoffsoonerthanhe’dha’takenit。Whatifhedidn’tforeseewhat’shappened?Heforesawenough;he’dnorighttoexpectanythingbutharmandshametoher。Andthenhewantedtosmoothitoffwi’lies。No——there’splentyo’thingsfolksarehangedfornothalfsohatefulasthat。Letamandowhathewill,ifheknowshe’stobearthepunishmenthimself,heisn’thalfsobadasameanselfishcowardasmakesthingseasyt’
himselfandknowsallthewhilethepunishment’llfallonsomebodyelse。"
"Thereagainyoupartlydeceiveyourself,Adam。Thereisnosortofwrongdeedofwhichamancanbearthepunishmentalone;youcan’tisolateyourselfandsaythattheevilwhichisinyoushallnotspread。Men’slivesareasthoroughlyblendedwitheachotherastheairtheybreathe:evilspreadsasnecessarilyasdisease。
Iknow,IfeeltheterribleextentofsufferingthissinofArthur’shascausedtoothers;butsodoeseverysincausesufferingtoothersbesidesthosewhocommitit。AnactofvengeanceonyourpartagainstArthurwouldsimplybeanothereviladdedtothosewearesufferingunder:youcouldnotbearthepunishmentalone;youwouldentailtheworstsorrowsoneveryonewholovesyou。Youwouldhavecommittedanactofblindfurythatwouldleaveallthepresentevilsjustastheywereandaddworseevilstothem。Youmaytellmethatyoumeditatenofatalactofvengeance,butthefeelinginyourmindiswhatgivesbirthtosuchactions,andaslongasyouindulgeit,aslongasyoudonotseethattofixyourmindonArthur’spunishmentisrevenge,andnotjustice,youareindangerofbeingledontothecommissionofsomegreatwrong。RememberwhatyoutoldmeaboutyourfeelingsafteryouhadgiventhatblowtoArthurintheGrove。"
Adamwassilent:thelastwordshadcalledupavividimageofthepast,andMr。Irwinelefthimtohisthoughts,whilehespoketoBartleMasseyaboutoldMr。Donnithorne’sfuneralandothermattersofanindifferentkind。ButatlengthAdamturnedroundandsaid,inamoresubduedtone,"I’venotaskedabout’ematth’
HallFarm,sir。IsMr。Poysercoming?"
"Heiscome;heisinStonitonto-night。ButIcouldnotadvisehimtoseeyou,Adam。Hisownmindisinaveryperturbedstate,anditisbestheshouldnotseeyoutillyouarecalmer。"
"IsDinahMorriscometo’em,sir?Sethsaidthey’dsentforher。"
"No。Mr。Poysertellsmeshewasnotcomewhenheleft。They’reafraidtheletterhasnotreachedher。Itseemstheyhadnoexactaddress。"
Adamsatruminatingalittlewhile,andthensaid,"IwonderifDinah’udha’gonetoseeher。ButperhapsthePoyserswouldha’
beensorelyagainstit,sincetheywon’tcomenighherthemselves。
ButIthinkshewould,fortheMethodistsaregreatfolksforgoingintotheprisons;andSethsaidhethoughtshewould。She’daverytenderwaywithher,Dinahhad;Iwonderifshecouldha’
doneanygood。Youneversawher,sir,didyou?"
"Yes,Idid。Ihadaconversationwithher——shepleasedmeagooddeal。Andnowyoumentionit,Iwishshewouldcome,foritispossiblethatagentlemildwomanlikehermightmoveHettytoopenherheart。Thejailchaplainisratherharshinhismanner。"
"Butit’so’nouseifshedoesn’tcome,"saidAdamsadly。
"IfI’dthoughtofitearlier,Iwouldhavetakensomemeasuresforfindingherout,"saidMr。Irwine,"butit’stoolatenow,I
fear……Well,Adam,Imustgonow。Trytogetsomerestto-night。
Godblessyou。I’llseeyouearlyto-morrowmorning。"
TheMorningoftheTrialAToneo’clockthenextday,Adamwasaloneinhisdullupperroom;hiswatchlaybeforehimonthetable,asifhewerecountingthelongminutes。Hehadnoknowledgeofwhatwaslikelytobesaidbythewitnessesonthetrial,forhehadshrunkfromalltheparticularsconnectedwithHetty’sarrestandaccusation。
Thisbraveactiveman,whowouldhavehastenedtowardsanydangerortoiltorescueHettyfromanapprehendedwrongormisfortune,felthimselfpowerlesstocontemplateirremediableevilandsuffering。Thesusceptibilitywhichwouldhavebeenanimpellingforcewheretherewasanypossibilityofactionbecamehelplessanguishwhenhewasobligedtobepassive,orelsesoughtanactiveoutletinthethoughtofinflictingjusticeonArthur。
Energeticnatures,strongforallstrenuousdeeds,willoftenrushawayfromahopelesssufferer,asiftheywerehard-hearted。Itistheovermasteringsenseofpainthatdrivesthem。Theyshrinkbyanungovernableinstinct,astheywouldshrinkfromlaceration。
AdamhadbroughthimselftothinkofseeingHetty,ifshewouldconsenttoseehim,becausehethoughtthemeetingmightpossiblybeagoodtoher——mighthelptomeltawaythisterriblehardnesstheytoldhimof。Ifshesawheborehernoillwillforwhatshehaddonetohim,shemightopenherhearttohim。Butthisresolutionhadbeenanimmenseeffort——hetrembledatthethoughtofseeingherchangedface,asatimidwomantremblesatthethoughtofthesurgeon’sknife,andhechosenowtobearthelonghoursofsuspenseratherthanencounterwhatseemedtohimthemoreintolerableagonyofwitnessinghertrial。
Deepunspeakablesufferingmaywellbecalledabaptism,aregeneration,theinitiationintoanewstate。Theyearningmemories,thebitterregret,theagonizedsympathy,thestrugglingappealstotheInvisibleRight——alltheintenseemotionswhichhadfilledthedaysandnightsofthepastweek,andwerecompressingthemselvesagainlikeaneagercrowdintothehoursofthissinglemorning,madeAdamlookbackonallthepreviousyearsasiftheyhadbeenadimsleepyexistence,andhehadonlynowawakedtofullconsciousness。Itseemedtohimasifhehadalwaysbeforethoughtitalightthingthatmenshouldsuffer,asifallthathehadhimselfenduredandcalledsorrowbeforewasonlyamoment’sstrokethathadneverleftabruise。Doubtlessagreatanguishmaydotheworkofyears,andwemaycomeoutfromthatbaptismoffirewithasoulfullofnewaweandnewpity。
"OGod,"Adamgroaned,asheleanedonthetableandlookedblanklyatthefaceofthewatch,"andmenhavesufferedlikethisbefore……andpoorhelplessyoungthingshavesufferedlikeher……Suchalittlewhileagolookingsohappyandsopretty……kissing’emall,hergrandfatherandallof’em,andtheywishingherluck……Omypoor,poorHetty……dostthinkonitnow?"
Adamstartedandlookedroundtowardsthedoor。Vixenhadbeguntowhimper,andtherewasasoundofastickandalamewalkonthestairs。ItwasBartleMasseycomeback。Coulditbeallover?
Bartleenteredquietly,and,goinguptoAdam,graspedhishandandsaid,"I’mjustcometolookatyou,myboy,forthefolksaregoneoutofcourtforabit。"
Adam’sheartbeatsoviolentlyhewasunabletospeak——hecouldonlyreturnthepressureofhisfriend’shand——andBartle,drawinguptheotherchair,cameandsatinfrontofhim,takingoffhishatandhisspectacles。
"That’sathingneverhappenedtomebefore,"heobserved,"togoouto’thedoorwithmyspectacleson。Icleanforgottotake’emoff。"
Theoldmanmadethistrivialremark,thinkingitbetternottorespondatalltoAdam’sagitation:hewouldgather,inanindirectway,thattherewasnothingdecisivetocommunicateatpresent。
"Andnow,"hesaid,risingagain,"Imustseetoyourhavingabitoftheloaf,andsomeofthatwineMr。Irwinesentthismorning。
He’llbeangrywithmeifyoudon’thaveit。Come,now,"hewenton,bringingforwardthebottleandtheloafandpouringsomewineintoacup,"Imusthaveabitandasupmyself。Drinkadropwithme,mylad——drinkwithme。"
Adampushedthecupgentlyawayandsaid,entreatingly,"Tellmeaboutit,Mr。Massey——tellmeallaboutit。Wasshethere?Havetheybegun?"
"Yes,myboy,yes——it’stakenallthetimesinceIfirstwent;butthey’reslow,they’reslow;andthere’sthecounselthey’vegotforherputsaspokeinthewheelwheneverhecan,andmakesadealtodowithcross-examiningthewitnessesandquarrellingwiththeotherlawyers。That’sallhecandoforthemoneytheygivehim;andit’sabigsum——it’sabigsum。Buthe’sa’cutefellow,withaneyethat’udpicktheneedlesoutofthehayinnotime。
Ifamanhadgotnofeelings,it’udbeasgoodasademonstrationtolistentowhatgoesonincourt;butatenderheartmakesonestupid。I’dhavegivenupfiguresforeveronlytohavehadsomegoodnewstobringtoyou,mypoorlad。"
"Butdoesitseemtobegoingagainsther?"saidAdam。"Tellmewhatthey’vesaid。Imustknowitnow——Imustknowwhattheyhavetobringagainsther。"
"Why,thechiefevidenceyethasbeenthedoctors;allbutMartinPoyser——poorMartin。Everybodyincourtfeltforhim——itwaslikeonesob,thesoundtheymadewhenhecamedownagain。Theworstwaswhentheytoldhimtolookattheprisoneratthebar。Itwashardwork,poorfellow——itwashardwork。Adam,myboy,theblowfallsheavilyonhimaswellasyou;youmusthelppoorMartin;
youmustshowcourage。Drinksomewinenow,andshowmeyoumeantobearitlikeaman。"
Bartlehadmadetherightsortofappeal。Adam,withanairofquietobedience,tookupthecupanddrankalittle。
"TellmehowSHElooked,"hesaidpresently。
"Frightened,veryfrightened,whentheyfirstbroughtherin;itwasthefirstsightofthecrowdandthejudge,poorcreatur。Andthere’saloto’foolishwomeninfineclothes,withgewgawsalluptheirarmsandfeathersontheirheads,sittingnearthejudge:
they’vedressedthemselvesoutinthatway,one’udthink,tobescarecrowsandwarningsagainstanymanevermeddlingwithawomanagain。Theyputuptheirglasses,andstaredandwhispered。Butafterthatshestoodlikeawhiteimage,staringdownatherhandsandseemingneithertohearnorseeanything。Andshe’saswhiteasasheet。Shedidn’tspeakwhentheyaskedherifshe’dplead’guilty’or’notguilty,’andtheypleaded’notguilty’forher。
Butwhensheheardheruncle’sname,thereseemedtogoashiverrightthroughher;andwhentheytoldhimtolookather,shehungherheaddown,andcowered,andhidherfaceinherhands。He’dmuchadotospeakpoorman,hisvoicetrembledso。Andthecounsellors——wholookashardasnailsmostly——Isaw,sparedhimasmuchastheycould。Mr。Irwineputhimselfnearhimandwentwithhimouto’court。Ah,it’sagreatthinginaman’slifetobeabletostandbyaneighbourandupholdhiminsuchtroubleasthat。"
"Godblesshim,andyoutoo,Mr。Massey,"saidAdam,inalowvoice,layinghishandonBartle’sarm。
"Aye,aye,he’sgoodmetal;hegivestherightringwhenyoutryhim,ourparsondoes。Amano’sense——saysnomorethan’sneedful。He’snotoneofthosethatthinktheycancomfortyouwithchattering,asiffolkswhostandbyandlookonknewadealbetterwhatthetroublewasthanthosewhohavetobearit。I’vehadtodowithsuchfolksinmytime——inthesouth,whenIwasintroublemyself。Mr。Irwineistobeawitnesshimself,byandby,onherside,youknow,tospeaktohercharacterandbringingup。"
"Buttheotherevidence……doesitgohardagainsther!"saidAdam。
"Whatdoyouthink,Mr。Massey?Tellmethetruth。"
"Yes,mylad,yes。Thetruthisthebestthingtotell。Itmustcomeatlast。Thedoctors’evidenceisheavyonher——isheavy。
Butshe’sgoneondenyingshe’shadachildfromfirsttolast。
Thesepoorsillywomen-things——they’venotthesensetoknowit’snousedenyingwhat’sproved。It’llmakeagainstherwiththejury,Idoubt,herbeingsoobstinate:theymaybelessforrecommendinghertomercy,iftheverdict’sagainsther。ButMr。
Irwine’ullleavenostoneunturnedwiththejudge——youmayrelyuponthat,Adam。"
"Istherenobodytostandbyherandseemtocareforherinthecourt?"saidAdam。
"There’sthechaplaino’thejailsitsnearher,buthe’sasharpferrety-facedman——anothersorto’fleshandbloodtoMr。Irwine。
Theysaythejailchaplainsaremostlythefag-endo’theclergy。"
"There’sonemanasoughttobethere,"saidAdambitterly。
Presentlyhedrewhimselfupandlookedfixedlyoutofthewindow,apparentlyturningoversomenewideainhismind。
"Mr。Massey,"hesaidatlast,pushingthehairoffhisforehead,"I’llgobackwithyou。I’llgointocourt。It’scowardlyofmetokeepaway。I’llstandbyher——I’llownher——forallshe’sbeendeceitful。Theyoughtn’ttocastheroff——herownfleshandblood。WehandfolksovertoGod’smercy,andshownoneourselves。Iusedtobehardsometimes:I’llneverbehardagain。
I’llgo,Mr。Massey——I’llgowithyou。"
TherewasadecisioninAdam’smannerwhichwouldhavepreventedBartlefromopposinghim,evenifhehadwishedtodoso。Heonlysaid,"Takeabit,then,andanothersup,Adam,fortheloveofme。See,Imuststopandeatamorsel。Now,youtakesome。"
Nervedbyanactiveresolution,Adamtookamorselofbreadanddranksomewine。Hewashaggardandunshaven,ashehadbeenyesterday,buthestooduprightagain,andlookedmoreliketheAdamBedeofformerdays。
TheVerdictTHEplacefittedupthatdayasacourtofjusticewasagrandoldhall,nowdestroyedbyfire。Themiddaylightthatfellontheclosepavementofhumanheadswasshedthroughalineofhighpointedwindows,variegatedwiththemellowtintsofoldpaintedglass。Grimdustyarmourhunginhighreliefinfrontofthedarkoakengalleryatthefartherend,andunderthebroadarchofthegreatmullionedwindowoppositewasspreadacurtainofoldtapestry,coveredwithdimmelancholyfigures,likeadozingindistinctdreamofthepast。Itwasaplacethatthroughtherestoftheyearwashauntedwiththeshadowymemoriesofoldkingsandqueens,unhappy,discrowned,imprisoned;butto-dayallthoseshadowshadfled,andnotasoulinthevasthallfeltthepresenceofanybutalivingsorrow,whichwasquiveringinwarmhearts。
Butthatsorrowseemedtohavemadeititselffeeblyfelthitherto,nowwhenAdamBede’stallfigurewassuddenlyseenbeingusheredtothesideoftheprisoner’sdock。Inthebroadsunlightofthegreathall,amongthesleekshavenfacesofothermen,themarksofsufferinginhisfacewerestartlingeventoMr。Irwine,whohadlastseenhiminthedimlightofhissmallroom;andtheneighboursfromHayslopewhowerepresent,andwhotoldHettySorrel’sstorybytheirfiresidesintheiroldage,neverforgottosayhowitmovedthemwhenAdamBede,poorfellow,tallerbytheheadthanmostofthepeopleroundhim,cameintocourtandtookhisplacebyherside。
ButHettydidnotseehim。ShewasstandinginthesamepositionBartleMasseyhaddescribed,herhandscrossedovereachotherandhereyesfixedonthem。Adamhadnotdaredtolookatherinthefirstmoments,butatlast,whentheattentionofthecourtwaswithdrawnbytheproceedingsheturnedhisfacetowardsherwitharesolutionnottoshrink。
Whydidtheysayshewassochanged?Inthecorpsewelove,itisthelikenesswesee——itisthelikeness,whichmakesitselffeltthemorekeenlybecausesomethingelsewasandisnot。Theretheywere——thesweetfaceandneck,withthedarktendrilsofhair,thelongdarklashes,theroundedcheekandthepoutinglips——paleandthin,yes,butlikeHetty,andonlyHetty。Othersthoughtshelookedasifsomedemonhadcastablightingglanceuponher,witheredupthewoman’ssoulinher,andleftonlyaharddespairingobstinacy。Butthemother’syearning,thatcompletesttypeofthelifeinanotherlifewhichistheessenceofrealhumanlove,feelsthepresenceofthecherishedchildeveninthedebased,degradedman;andtoAdam,thispale,hard-lookingculpritwastheHettywhohadsmiledathiminthegardenundertheapple-treeboughs——shewasthatHetty’scorpse,whichhehadtrembledtolookatthefirsttime,andthenwasunwillingtoturnawayhiseyesfrom。
Butpresentlyheheardsomethingthatcompelledhimtolisten,andmadethesenseofsightlessabsorbing。Awomanwasinthewitness-box,amiddle-agedwoman,whospokeinafirmdistinctvoice。Shesaid,"MynameisSarahStone。Iamawidow,andkeepasmallshoplicensedtoselltobacco,snuff,andteainChurchLane,Stoniton。Theprisoneratthebaristhesameyoungwomanwhocame,lookingillandtired,withabasketonherarm,andaskedforalodgingatmyhouseonSaturdayevening,the27thofFebruary。Shehadtakenthehouseforapublic,becausetherewasafigureagainstthedoor。AndwhenIsaidIdidn’ttakeinlodgers,theprisonerbegantocry,andsaidshewastootiredtogoanywhereelse,andsheonlywantedabedforonenight。Andherprettiness,andhercondition,andsomethingrespectableaboutherclothesandlooks,andthetroublesheseemedtobeinmademeasIcouldn’tfindinmyhearttosendherawayatonce。Iaskedhertositdown,andgavehersometea,andaskedherwhereshewasgoing,andwhereherfriendswere。Shesaidshewasgoinghometoherfriends:theywerefarmingfolksagoodwayoff,andshe’dhadalongjourneythathadcosthermoremoneythansheexpected,soasshe’dhardlyanymoneyleftinherpocket,andwasafraidofgoingwhereitwouldcosthermuch。Shehadbeenobligedtosellmostofthethingsoutofherbasket,butshe’dthankfullygiveashillingforabed。IsawnoreasonwhyI
shouldn’ttaketheyoungwomaninforthenight。Ihadonlyoneroom,butthereweretwobedsinit,andItoldhershemightstaywithme。Ithoughtshe’dbeenledwrong,andgotintotrouble,butifshewasgoingtoherfriends,itwouldbeagoodworktokeepheroutoffurtherharm。"
Thewitnessthenstatedthatinthenightachildwasborn,andsheidentifiedthebaby-clothesthenshowntoherasthoseinwhichshehadherselfdressedthechild。
"Thosearetheclothes。Imadethemmyself,andhadkeptthembymeeversincemylastchildwasborn。Itookadealoftroublebothforthechildandthemother。Icouldn’thelptakingtothelittlethingandbeinganxiousaboutit。Ididn’tsendforadoctor,forthereseemednoneed。Itoldthemotherintheday-
timeshemusttellmethenameofherfriends,andwheretheylived,andletmewritetothem。Shesaid,byandbyshewouldwriteherself,butnotto-day。Shewouldhavenonay,butshewouldgetupandbedressed,inspiteofeverythingIcouldsay。
Shesaidshefeltquitestrongenough;anditwaswonderfulwhatspiritsheshowed。ButIwasn’tquiteeasywhatIshoulddoabouther,andtowardseveningImadeupmymindI’dgo,afterMeetingwasover,andspeaktoourministeraboutit。Ileftthehouseabouthalf-pasteighto’clock。Ididn’tgooutattheshopdoor,butatthebackdoor,whichopensintoanarrowalley。I’veonlygottheground-floorofthehouse,andthekitchenandbedroombothlookintothealley。Ilefttheprisonersittingupbythefireinthekitchenwiththebabyonherlap。Shehadn’tcriedorseemedlowatall,asshedidthenightbefore。Ithoughtshehadastrangelookwithhereyes,andshegotabitflushedtowardsevening。Iwasafraidofthefever,andIthoughtI’dcallandaskanacquaintanceofmine,anexperiencedwoman,tocomebackwithmewhenIwentout。Itwasaverydarknight。Ididn’tfastenthedoorbehindme;therewasnolock;itwasalatchwithaboltinside,andwhentherewasnobodyinthehouseIalwayswentoutattheshopdoor。ButIthoughttherewasnodangerinleavingitunfastenedthatlittlewhile。IwaslongerthanI
meanttobe,forIhadtowaitforthewomanthatcamebackwithme。Itwasanhourandahalfbeforewegotback,andwhenwewentin,thecandlewasstandingburningjustasIleftit,buttheprisonerandthebabywerebothgone。She’dtakenhercloakandbonnet,butshe’dleftthebasketandthethingsinit……I
wasdreadfulfrightened,andangrywithherforgoing。Ididn’tgotogiveinformation,becauseI’dnothoughtshemeanttodoanyharm,andIknewshehadmoneyinherpockettobuyherfoodandlodging。Ididn’tliketosettheconstableafterher,forshe’darighttogofrommeifsheliked。"
TheeffectofthisevidenceonAdamwaselectrical;itgavehimnewforce。Hettycouldnotbeguiltyofthecrime——herheartmusthaveclungtoherbaby——elsewhyshouldshehavetakenitwithher?Shemighthaveleftitbehind。Thelittlecreaturehaddiednaturally,andthenshehadhiddenit。Babiesweresoliabletodeath——andtheremightbethestrongestsuspicionswithoutanyproofofguilt。Hismindwassooccupiedwithimaginaryargumentsagainstsuchsuspicions,thathecouldnotlistentothecross-
examinationbyHetty’scounsel,whotried,withoutresult,toelicitevidencethattheprisonerhadshownsomemovementsofmaternalaffectiontowardsthechild。Thewholetimethiswitnesswasbeingexamined,Hettyhadstoodasmotionlessasbefore:nowordseemedtoarrestherear。Butthesoundofthenextwitness’svoicetouchedachordthatwasstillsensitive,shegaveastartandafrightenedlooktowardshim,butimmediatelyturnedawayherheadandlookeddownatherhandsasbefore。Thiswitnesswasaman,aroughpeasant。Hesaid:
"MynameisJohnOlding。Iamalabourer,andliveatTedd’sHole,twomilesoutofStoniton。AweeklastMonday,towardsoneo’clockintheafternoon,IwasgoingtowardsHettonCoppice,andaboutaquarterofamilefromthecoppiceIsawtheprisoner,inaredcloak,sittingunderabitofahaystacknotfaroffthestile。Shegotupwhenshesawme,andseemedasifshe’dbewalkingontheotherway。Itwasaregularroadthroughthefields,andnothingveryuncommontoseeayoungwomanthere,butItooknoticeofherbecauseshelookedwhiteandscared。I
shouldhavethoughtshewasabeggar-woman,onlyforhergoodclothes。Ithoughtshelookedabitcrazy,butitwasnobusinessofmine。Istoodandlookedbackafterher,butshewentrightonwhileshewasinsight。Ihadtogototheothersideofthecoppicetolookaftersomestakes。There’saroadrightthroughit,andbitsofopeningshereandthere,wherethetreeshavebeencutdown,andsomeof’emnotcarriedaway。Ididn’tgostraightalongtheroad,butturnedofftowardsthemiddle,andtookashorterwaytowardsthespotIwantedtogetto。Ihadn’tgotfaroutoftheroadintooneoftheopenplacesbeforeIheardastrangecry。Ithoughtitdidn’tcomefromanyanimalIknew,butIwasn’tforstoppingtolookaboutjustthen。Butitwenton,andseemedsostrangetomeinthatplace,Icouldn’thelpstoppingtolook。IbegantothinkImightmakesomemoneyofit,ifitwasanewthing。ButIhadhardworktotellwhichwayitcamefrom,andforagoodwhileIkeptlookingupattheboughs。
AndthenIthoughtitcamefromtheground;andtherewasalotoftimber-choppingslyingabout,andloosepiecesofturf,andatrunkortwo。AndIlookedaboutamongthem,butcouldfindnothing,andatlastthecrystopped。SoIwasforgivingitup,andIwentonaboutmybusiness。ButwhenIcamebackthesamewayprettynighanhourafter,Icouldn’thelplayingdownmystakestohaveanotherlook。AndjustasIwasstoopingandlayingdownthestakes,Isawsomethingoddandroundandwhitishlyingonthegroundunderanut-bushbythesideofme。AndI
stoopeddownonhandsandkneestopickitup。AndIsawitwasalittlebaby’shand。"
Atthesewordsathrillranthroughthecourt。Hettywasvisiblytrembling;now,forthefirsttime,sheseemedtobelisteningtowhatawitnesssaid。
"Therewasalotoftimber-choppingsputtogetherjustwherethegroundwenthollow,like,underthebush,andthehandcameoutfromamongthem。ButtherewasaholeleftinoneplaceandI
couldseedownitandseethechild’shead;andImadehasteanddidawaytheturfandthechoppings,andtookoutthechild。Ithadgotcomfortableclotheson,butitsbodywascold,andI
thoughtitmustbedead。Imadehastebackwithitoutofthewood,andtookithometomywife。Shesaiditwasdead,andI’dbettertakeittotheparishandtelltheconstable。AndIsaid,’I’lllaymylifeit’sthatyoungwoman’schildasImetgoingtothecoppice。’Butsheseemedtobegonecleanoutofsight。AndItookthechildontoHettonparishandtoldtheconstable,andwewentontoJusticeHardy。Andthenwewentlookingaftertheyoungwomantilldarkatnight,andwewentandgaveinformationatStoniton,astheymightstopher。Andthenextmorning,anotherconstablecametome,togowithhimtothespotwhereI
foundthechild。Andwhenwegotthere,therewastheprisonera-
sittingagainstthebushwhereIfoundthechild;andshecriedoutwhenshesawus,butsheneverofferedtomove。She’dgotabigpieceofbreadonherlap。"
Adamhadgivenafaintgroanofdespairwhilethiswitnesswasspeaking。Hehadhiddenhisfaceonhisarm,whichrestedontheboardinginfrontofhim。Itwasthesuprememomentofhissuffering:Hettywasguilty;andhewassilentlycallingtoGodforhelp。Heheardnomoreoftheevidence,andwasunconsciouswhenthecasefortheprosecutionhadclosed——unconsciousthatMr。
Irwinewasinthewitness-box,tellingofHetty’sunblemishedcharacterinherownparishandofthevirtuoushabitsinwhichshehadbeenbroughtup。Thistestimonycouldhavenoinfluenceontheverdict,butitwasgivenaspartofthatpleaformercywhichherowncounselwouldhavemadeifhehadbeenallowedtospeakforher——afavournotgrantedtocriminalsinthosesterntimes。
AtlastAdamlifteduphishead,fortherewasageneralmovementroundhim。Thejudgehadaddressedthejury,andtheywereretiring。ThedecisivemomentwasnotfaroffAdamfeltashudderinghorrorthatwouldnotlethimlookatHetty,butshehadlongrelapsedintoherblankhardindifference。Alleyeswerestrainedtolookather,butshestoodlikeastatueofdulldespair。
’Therewasamingledrustling,whispering,andlowbuzzingthroughoutthecourtduringthisinterval。Thedesiretolistenwassuspended,andeveryonehadsomefeelingoropiniontoexpressinundertones。Adamsatlookingblanklybeforehim,buthedidnotseetheobjectsthatwererightinfrontofhiseyes——
thecounselandattorneystalkingwithanairofcoolbusiness,andMr。Irwineinlowearnestconversationwiththejudge——didnotseeMr。Irwinesitdownagaininagitationandshakehisheadmournfullywhensomebodywhisperedtohim。TheinwardactionwastoointenseforAdamtotakeinoutwardobjectsuntilsomestrongsensationrousedhim。
Itwasnotverylong,hardlymorethanaquarterofanhour,beforetheknockwhichtoldthatthejuryhadcometotheirdecisionfellasasignalforsilenceoneveryear。Itissublime——thatsuddenpauseofagreatmultitudewhichtellsthatonesoulmovesinthemall。Deeperanddeeperthesilenceseemedtobecome,likethedeepeningnight,whilethejurymen’snameswerecalledover,andtheprisonerwasmadetoholdupherhand,andthejurywereaskedfortheirverdict。
"Guilty。"
Itwastheverdicteveryoneexpected,buttherewasasighofdisappointmentfromsomeheartsthatitwasfollowedbynorecommendationtomercy。Stillthesympathyofthecourtwasnotwiththeprisoner。Theunnaturalnessofhercrimestoodoutthemoreharshlybythesideofherhardimmovabilityandobstinatesilence。Eventheverdict,todistanteyes,hadnotappearedtomoveher,butthosewhowerenearsawhertrembling。
Thestillnesswaslessintenseuntilthejudgeputonhisblackcap,andthechaplaininhiscanonicalswasobservedbehindhim。
Thenitdeepenedagain,beforethecrierhadhadtimetocommandsilence。Ifanysoundwereheard,itmusthavebeenthesoundofbeatinghearts。Thejudgespoke,"HesterSorrel……"
ThebloodrushedtoHetty’sface,andthenfledbackagainasshelookedupatthejudgeandkeptherwide-openeyesfixedonhim,asiffascinatedbyfear。Adamhadnotyetturnedtowardsher,therewasadeephorror,likeagreatgulf,betweenthem。Butatthewords"andthentobehangedbythenecktillyoubedead,"apiercingshriekrangthroughthehall。ItwasHetty’sshriek。
Adamstartedtohisfeetandstretchedouthisarmstowardsher。
Butthearmscouldnotreachher:shehadfallendowninafainting-fit,andwascarriedoutofcourt。
Arthur’sReturnWhenArthurDonnithornelandedatLiverpoolandreadtheletterfromhisAuntLydia,brieflyannouncinghisgrand-father’sdeath,hisfirstfeelingwas,"PoorGrandfather!IwishIcouldhavegottohimtobewithhimwhenhedied。HemighthavefeltorwishedsomethingatthelastthatIshallneverknownow。Itwasalonelydeath。"
Itisimpossibletosaythathisgriefwasdeeperthanthat。Pityandsoftenedmemorytookplaceoftheoldantagonism,andinhisbusythoughtsaboutthefuture,asthechaisecarriedhimrapidlyalongtowardsthehomewherehewasnowtobemaster,therewasacontinuallyrecurringefforttorememberanythingbywhichhecouldshowaregardforhisgrandfather’swishes,withoutcounteractinghisowncherishedaimsforthegoodofthetenantsandtheestate。Butitisnotinhumannature——onlyinhumanpretence——forayoungmanlikeArthur,withafineconstitutionandfinespirits,thinkingwellofhimself,believingthatothersthinkwellofhim,andhavingaveryardentintentiontogivethemmoreandmorereasonforthatgoodopinion——itisnotpossibleforsuchayoungman,justcomingintoasplendidestatethroughthedeathofaveryoldmanwhomhewasnotfondof,tofeelanythingverydifferentfromexultantjoy。Nowhisreallifewasbeginning;nowhewouldhaveroomandopportunityforaction,andhewouldusethem。HewouldshowtheLoamshirepeoplewhatafinecountrygentlemanwas;hewouldnotexchangethatcareerforanyotherunderthesun。Hefelthimselfridingoverthehillsinthebreezyautumndays,lookingafterfavouriteplansofdrainageandenclosure;thenadmiredonsombremorningsasthebestrideronthebesthorseinthehunt;spokenwellofonmarket-daysasafirst-ratelandlord;byandbymakingspeechesatelectiondinners,andshowingawonderfulknowledgeofagriculture;thepatronofnewploughsanddrills,thesevereupbraiderofnegligentlandowners,andwithalajollyfellowthateverybodymustlike——happyfacesgreetinghimeverywhereonhisownestate,andtheneighbouringfamiliesonthebesttermswithhim。TheIrwinesshoulddinewithhimeveryweek,andhavetheirowncarriagetocomein,forinsomeverydelicatewaythatArthurwoulddevise,thelay-impropriatoroftheHayslopetitheswouldinsistonpayingacoupleofhundredsmoretothevicar;andhisauntshouldbeascomfortableaspossible,andgoonlivingattheChase,ifsheliked,inspiteofherold-maidishways——atleastuntilhewasmarried,andthateventlayintheindistinctbackground,forArthurhadnotyetseenthewomanwhowouldplaythelady-wifetothefirst-ratecountrygentleman。
ThesewereArthur’schiefthoughts,sofarasaman’sthoughtsthroughhoursoftravellingcanbecompressedintoafewsentences,whichareonlylikethelistofnamestellingyouwhatarethescenesinalonglongpanoramafullofcolour,ofdetail,andoflife。ThehappyfacesArthursawgreetinghimwerenotpaleabstractions,butrealruddyfaces,longfamiliartohim:
MartinPoyserwasthere——thewholePoyserfamily。
What——Hetty?
Yes;forArthurwasateaseaboutHetty——notquiteateaseaboutthepast,foracertainburningoftheearswouldcomewheneverhethoughtofthesceneswithAdamlastAugust,butateaseaboutherpresentlot。Mr。Irwine,whohadbeenaregularcorrespondent,tellinghimallthenewsabouttheoldplacesandpeople,hadsenthimwordnearlythreemonthsagothatAdamBedewasnottomarryMaryBurge,ashehadthought,butprettyHettySorrel。MartinPoyserandAdamhimselfhadbothtoldMr。Irwineallaboutit——
thatAdamhadbeendeeplyinlovewithHettythesetwoyears,andthatnowitwasagreedtheyweretobemarriedinMarch。ThatstalwartrogueAdamwasmoresusceptiblethantherectorhadthought;itwasreallyquiteanidyllicloveaffair;andifithadnotbeentoolongtotellinaletter,hewouldhavelikedtodescribetoArthurtheblushinglooksandthesimplestrongwordswithwhichthefinehonestfellowtoldhissecret。HeknewArthurwouldliketohearthatAdamhadthissortofhappinessinprospect。
Yes,indeed!Arthurfelttherewasnotairenoughintheroomtosatisfyhisrenovatedlife,whenhehadreadthatpassageintheletter。Hethrewupthewindows,herushedoutofdoorsintotheDecemberair,andgreetedeveryonewhospoketohimwithaneagergaiety,asiftherehadbeennewsofafreshNelsonvictory。ForthefirsttimethatdaysincehehadcometoWindsor,hewasintrueboyishspirits。Theloadthathadbeenpressinguponhimwasgone,thehauntingfearhadvanished。HethoughthecouldconquerhisbitternesstowardsAdamnow——couldofferhimhishand,andasktobehisfriendagain,inspiteofthatpainfulmemorywhichwouldstillmakehisearsburn。Hehadbeenknockeddown,andhehadbeenforcedtotellalie:suchthingsmakeascar,dowhatwewill。ButifAdamwerethesameagainasintheolddays,Arthurwishedtobethesametoo,andtohaveAdammixedupwithhisbusinessandhisfuture,ashehadalwaysdesiredbeforetheaccursedmeetinginAugust。Nay,hewoulddoagreatdealmoreforAdamthanheshouldotherwisehavedone,whenhecameintotheestate;Hetty’shusbandhadaspecialclaimonhim——HettyherselfshouldfeelthatanypainshehadsufferedthroughArthurinthepastwascompensatedtoherahundredfold。Forreallyshecouldnothavefeltmuch,sinceshehadsosoonmadeuphermindtomarryAdam。
YouperceiveclearlywhatsortofpictureAdamandHettymadeinthepanoramaofArthur’sthoughtsonhisjourneyhomeward。ItwasMarchnow;theyweresoontobemarried:perhapstheywerealreadymarried。Andnowitwasactuallyinhispowertodoagreatdealforthem。Sweet——sweetlittleHetty!Thelittlepusshadn’tcaredforhimhalfasmuchashecaredforher;forhewasagreatfoolaboutherstill——wasalmostafraidofseeingher——indeed,hadnotcaredmuchtolookatanyotherwomansincehepartedfromher。ThatlittlefigurecomingtowardshimintheGrove,thosedark-fringedchildisheyes,thelovelylipsputuptokisshim——
thatpicturehadgotnofainterwiththelapseofmonths。Andshewouldlookjustthesame。Itwasimpossibletothinkhowhecouldmeether:heshouldcertainlytremble。Strange,howlongthissortofinfluencelasts,forhewascertainlynotinlovewithHettynow。Hehadbeenearnestlydesiring,formonths,thatsheshouldmarryAdam,andtherewasnothingthatcontributedmoretohishappinessinthesemomentsthanthethoughtoftheirmarriage。
Itwastheexaggeratingeffectofimaginationthatmadehisheartstillbeatalittlemorequicklyatthethoughtofher。Whenhesawthelittlethingagainasshereallywas,asAdam’swife,atworkquiteprosaicallyinhernewhome,heshouldperhapswonderatthepossibilityofhispastfeelings。Thankheavenithadturnedoutsowell!Heshouldhaveplentyofaffairsandintereststofillhislifenow,andnotbeindangerofplayingthefoolagain。
Pleasantthecrackofthepost-boy’swhip!PleasantthesenseofbeinghurriedalonginswifteasethroughEnglishscenes,solikethoseroundhisownhome,onlynotquitesocharming。Herewasamarket-town——verymuchlikeTreddleston——wherethearmsoftheneighbouringlordofthemanorwereborneonthesignoftheprincipalinn;thenmerefieldsandhedges,theirvicinitytoamarket-towncarryinganagreeablesuggestionofhighrent,tillthelandbegantoassumeatrimmerlook,thewoodsweremorefrequent,andatlengthawhiteorredmansionlookeddownfromamoderateeminence,orallowedhimtobeawareofitsparapetandchimneysamongthedense-lookingmassesofoaksandelms——massesreddenednowwithearlybuds。Andcloseathandcamethevillage:
thesmallchurch,withitsred-tiledroof,lookinghumbleevenamongthefadedhalf-timberedhouses;theoldgreengravestoneswithnettlesroundthem;nothingfreshandbrightbutthechildren,openingroundeyesattheswiftpost-chaise;nothingnoisyandbusybutthegapingcursofmysteriouspedigree。WhatamuchprettiervillageHayslopewas!Anditshouldnotbeneglectedlikethisplace:vigorousrepairsshouldgooneverywhereamongfarm-buildingsandcottages,andtravellersinpost-chaises,comingalongtheRosseterroad,shoulddonothingbutadmireastheywent。AndAdamBedeshouldsuperintendalltherepairs,forhehadashareinBurge’sbusinessnow,and,ifheliked,Arthurwouldputsomemoneyintotheconcernandbuytheoldmanoutinanotheryearortwo。ThatwasanuglyfaultinArthur’slife,thataffairlastsummer,butthefutureshouldmakeamends。ManymenwouldhaveretainedafeelingofvindictivenesstowardsAdam,buthewouldnot——hewouldresolutelyovercomealllittlenessofthatkind,forhehadcertainlybeenverymuchinthewrong;andthoughAdamhadbeenharshandviolent,andhadthrustonhimapainfuldilemma,thepoorfellowwasinlove,andhadrealprovocation。No,Arthurhadnotanevilfeelinginhismindtowardsanyhumanbeing:hewashappy,andwouldmakeeveryoneelsehappythatcamewithinhisreach。
AndherewasdearoldHayslopeatlast,sleeping,onthehill,likeaquietoldplaceasitwas,inthelateafternoonsunlight,andoppositetoitthegreatshouldersoftheBintonHills,belowthemthepurplishblacknessofthehangingwoods,andatlastthepalefrontoftheAbbey,lookingoutfromamongtheoaksoftheChase,asifanxiousfortheheir’sreturn。"PoorGrandfather!
Andheliesdeadthere。Hewasayoungfellowonce,comingintotheestateandmakinghisplans。Sotheworldgoesround!AuntLydiamustfeelverydesolate,poorthing;butsheshallbeindulgedasmuchassheindulgesherfatFido。"
ThewheelsofArthur’schaisehadbeenanxiouslylistenedforattheChase,forto-daywasFriday,andthefuneralhadalreadybeendeferredtwodays。Beforeitdrewuponthegravelofthecourtyard,alltheservantsinthehousewereassembledtoreceivehimwithagrave,decentwelcome,befittingahouseofdeath。A
monthago,perhaps,itwouldhavebeendifficultforthemtohavemaintainedasuitablesadnessintheirfaces,whenMr。Arthurwascometotakepossession;buttheheartsofthehead-servantswereheavythatdayforanothercausethanthedeathoftheoldsquire,andmorethanoneofthemwaslongingtobetwentymilesaway,asMr。Craigwas,knowingwhatwastobecomeofHettySorrel——prettyHettySorrel——whomtheyusedtoseeeveryweek。Theyhadthepartisanshipofhouseholdservantswholiketheirplaces,andwerenotinclinedtogothefulllengthofthesevereindignationfeltagainsthimbythefarmingtenants,butrathertomakeexcusesforhim;nevertheless,theupperservants,whohadbeenontermsofneighbourlyintercoursewiththePoysersformanyyears,couldnothelpfeelingthatthelonged-foreventoftheyoungsquire’scomingintotheestatehadbeenrobbedofallitspleasantness。
ToArthuritwasnothingsurprisingthattheservantslookedgraveandsad:hehimselfwasverymuchtouchedonseeingthemallagain,andfeelingthathewasinanewrelationtothem。Itwasthatsortofpatheticemotionwhichhasmorepleasurethanpaininit——whichisperhapsoneofthemostdeliciousofallstatestoagood-naturedman,consciousofthepowertosatisfyhisgoodnature。Hisheartswelledagreeablyashesaid,"Well,Mills,howismyaunt?"
ButnowMr。Bygate,thelawyer,whohadbeeninthehouseeversincethedeath,cameforwardtogivedeferentialgreetingsandanswerallquestions,andArthurwalkedwithhimtowardsthelibrary,wherehisAuntLydiawasexpectinghim。AuntLydiawastheonlypersoninthehousewhoknewnothingaboutHetty。Hersorrowasamaidendaughterwasunmixedwithanyotherthoughtsthanthoseofanxietyaboutfuneralarrangementsandherownfuturelot;and,afterthemannerofwomen,shemournedforthefatherwhohadmadeherlifeimportant,allthemorebecauseshehadasecretsensethattherewaslittlemourningforhiminotherhearts。
ButArthurkissedhertearfulfacemoretenderlythanhehadeverdoneinhislifebefore。
"DearAunt,"hesaidaffectionately,asheheldherhand,"YOUR
lossisthegreatestofall,butyoumusttellmehowtotryandmakeituptoyoualltherestofyourlife。"
"Itwassosuddenandsodreadful,Arthur,"poorMissLydiabegan,pouringoutherlittleplaints,andArthursatdowntolistenwithimpatientpatience。Whenapausecame,hesaid:
"Now,Aunt,I’llleaveyouforaquarterofanhourjusttogotomyownroom,andthenIshallcomeandgivefullattentiontoeverything。"
"Myroomisallreadyforme,Isuppose,Mills?"hesaidtothebutler,whoseemedtobelingeringuneasilyabouttheentrance-
hall。
"Yes,sir,andtherearelettersforyou;theyarealllaidonthewriting-tableinyourdressing-room。"
Onenteringthesmallanteroomwhichwascalledadressing-room,butwhichArthurreallyusedonlytoloungeandwritein,hejustcasthiseyesonthewriting-table,andsawthattherewereseverallettersandpacketslyingthere;buthewasintheuncomfortabledustyconditionofamanwhohashadalonghurriedjourney,andhemustreallyrefreshhimselfbyattendingtohistoilettealittle,beforehereadhisletters。Pymwasthere,makingeverythingreadyforhim,andsoon,withadelightfulfreshnessabouthim,asifhewerepreparedtobeginanewday,hewentbackintohisdressing-roomtoopenhisletters。Thelevelraysofthelowafternoonsunentereddirectlyatthewindow,andasArthurseatedhimselfinhisvelvetchairwiththeirpleasantwarmthuponhim,hewasconsciousofthatquietwell-beingwhichperhapsyouandIhavefeltonasunnyafternoonwhen,inourbrightestyouthandhealth,lifehasopenedanewvistaforus,andlongto-morrowsofactivityhavestretchedbeforeuslikealovelyplainwhichtherewasnoneedforhurryingtolookat,becauseitwasallourown。
Thetopletterwasplacedwithitsaddressupwards:itwasinMr。
Irwine’shandwriting,Arthursawatonce;andbelowtheaddresswaswritten,"Tobedeliveredassoonashearrives。"NothingcouldhavebeenlesssurprisingtohimthanaletterfromMr。
Irwineatthatmoment:ofcourse,therewassomethinghewishedArthurtoknowearlierthanitwaspossibleforthemtoseeeachother。AtsuchatimeasthatitwasquitenaturalthatIrwineshouldhavesomethingpressingtosay。Arthurbrokethesealwithanagreeableanticipationofsoonseeingthewriter。
"Isendthislettertomeetyouonyourarrival,Arthur,becauseI
maythenbeatStoniton,whitherIamcalledbythemostpainfuldutyithaseverbeengivenmetoperform,anditisrightthatyoushouldknowwhatIhavetotellyouwithoutdelay。
"Iwillnotattempttoaddbyonewordofreproachtotheretributionthatisnowfallingonyou:anyotherwordsthatI
couldwriteatthismomentmustbeweakandunmeaningbythesideofthoseinwhichImusttellyouthesimplefact。
"HettySorrelisinprison,andwillbetriedonFridayforthecrimeofchild-murder。"……
Arthurreadnomore。Hestartedupfromhischairandstoodforasingleminutewithasenseofviolentconvulsioninhiswholeframe,asifthelifeweregoingoutofhimwithhorriblethrobs;
butthenextminutehehadrushedoutoftheroom,stillclutchingtheletter——hewashurryingalongthecorridor,anddownthestairsintothehall。Millswasstillthere,butArthurdidnotseehim,ashepassedlikeahuntedmanacrossthehallandoutalongthegravel。Thebutlerhurriedoutafterhimasfastashiselderlylimbscouldrun:heguessed,heknew,wheretheyoungsquirewasgoing。
WhenMillsgottothestables,ahorsewasbeingsaddled,andArthurwasforcinghimselftoreadtheremainingwordsoftheletter。Hethrustitintohispocketasthehorsewasleduptohim,andatthatmomentcaughtsightofMills’anxiousfaceinfrontofhim。
"TellthemI’mgone——gonetoStoniton,"hesaidinamuffledtoneofagitation——sprangintothesaddle,andsetoffatagallop。
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