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第15章

  I’veagreatdealthat’spainfulonmymind,andIfindithardworktobequitesilentaboutmyownfeelingsandonlyattendtoothers。IshareyourconcernforAdam,thoughheisnottheonlyonewhosesufferingsIcareforinthisaffair。HeintendstoremainatStonitontillafterthetrial:itwillcomeonprobablyaweekto-morrow。Hehastakenaroomthere,andIencouragedhimtodoso,becauseIthinkitbetterheshouldbeawayfromhisownhomeatpresent;and,poorfellow,hestillbelievesHettyisinnocent——hewantstosummonupcouragetoseeherifhecan;heisunwillingtoleavethespotwheresheis。"
  "Doyouthinkthecreatur’sguilty,then?"saidBartle。"Doyouthinkthey’llhangher?"
  "I’mafraiditwillgohardwithher。Theevidenceisverystrong。Andonebadsymptomisthatshedenieseverything——deniesthatshehashadachildinthefaceofthemostpositiveevidence。Isawhermyself,andshewasobstinatelysilenttome;
  sheshrankuplikeafrightenedanimalwhenshesawme。Iwasneversoshockedinmylifeasatthechangeinher。ButItrustthat,intheworstcase,wemayobtainapardonforthesakeoftheinnocentwhoareinvolved。"
  "Stuffandnonsense!"saidBartle,forgettinginhisirritationtowhomhewasspeaking。"Ibegyourpardon,sir,Imeanit’sstuffandnonsensefortheinnocenttocareaboutherbeinghanged。Formyownpart,Ithinkthesoonersuchwomenareputouto’theworldthebetter;andthementhathelp’emtodomischiefhadbettergoalongwith’emforthatmatter。Whatgoodwillyoudobykeepingsuchverminalive,eatingthevictualthat’udfeedrationalbeings?ButifAdam’sfoolenoughtocareaboutit,I
  don’twanthimtosuffermorethan’sneedful……Isheverymuchcutup,poorfellow?"Bartleadded,takingouthisspectaclesandputtingthemon,asiftheywouldassisthisimagination。
  "Yes,I’mafraidthegriefcutsverydeep,"saidMr。Irwine。"Helooksterriblyshattered,andacertainviolencecameoverhimnowandthenyesterday,whichmademewishIcouldhaveremainednearhim。ButIshallgotoStonitonagainto-morrow,andIhaveconfidenceenoughinthestrengthofAdam’sprincipletotrustthathewillbeabletoenduretheworstwithoutbeingdriventoanythingrash。"
  Mr。Irwine,whowasinvoluntarilyutteringhisownthoughtsratherthanaddressingBartleMasseyinthelastsentence,hadinhismindthepossibilitythatthespiritofvengeanceto-wardsArthur,whichwastheformAdam’sanguishwascontinuallytaking,mightmakehimseekanencounterthatwaslikelytoendmorefatallythantheoneintheGrove。ThispossibilityheightenedtheanxietywithwhichhelookedforwardtoArthur’sarrival。ButBartlethoughtMr。Irwinewasreferringtosuicide,andhisfaceworeanewalarm。
  "I’lltellyouwhatIhaveinmyhead,sir,"hesaid,"andIhopeyou’llapproveofit。I’mgoingtoshutupmyschool——ifthescholarscome,theymustgobackagain,that’sall——andIshallgotoStonitonandlookafterAdamtillthisbusinessisover。I’llpretendI’mcometolookonattheassizes;hecan’tobjecttothat。Whatdoyouthinkaboutit,sir?"
  "Well,"saidMr。Irwine,ratherhesitatingly,"therewouldbesomerealadvantagesinthat……andIhonouryouforyourfriendshiptowardshim,Bartle。But……youmustbecarefulwhatyousaytohim,youknow。I’mafraidyouhavetoolittlefellow-feelinginwhatyouconsiderhisweaknessaboutHetty。"
  "Trusttome,sir——trusttome。Iknowwhatyoumean。I’vebeenafoolmyselfinmytime,butthat’sbetweenyouandme。Ishan’tthrustmyselfonhimonlykeepmyeyeonhim,andseethathegetssomegoodfood,andputinawordhereandthere。"
  "Then,"saidMr。Irwine,reassuredalittleastoBartle’sdiscretion,"Ithinkyou’llbedoingagooddeed;anditwillbewellforyoutoletAdam’smotherandbrotherknowthatyou’regoing。"
  "Yes,sir,yes,"saidBartle,rising,andtakingoffhisspectacles,"I’lldothat,I’lldothat;thoughthemother’sawhimperingthing——Idon’tliketocomewithinearshotofher;
  however,she’sastraight-backed,cleanwoman,noneofyourslatterns。Iwishyougood-bye,sir,andthankyouforthetimeyou’vesparedme。You’reeverybody’sfriendinthisbusiness——
  everybody’sfriend。It’saheavyweightyou’vegotonyourshoulders。"
  "Good-bye,Bartle,tillwemeetatStoniton,asIdaresayweshall。"
  Bartlehurriedawayfromtherectory,evadingCarroll’sconversationaladvances,andsayinginanexasperatedtonetoVixen,whoseshortlegspatteredbesidehimonthegravel,"Now,I
  shallbeobligedtotakeyouwithme,yougood-for-nothingwoman。
  You’dgofrettingyourselftodeathifIleftyou——youknowyouwould,andperhapsgetsnappedupbysometramp。Andyou’llberunningintobadcompany,Iexpect,puttingyournoseineveryholeandcornerwhereyou’venobusiness!Butifyoudoanythingdisgraceful,I’lldisownyou——mindthat,madam,mindthat!"
  TheEveoftheTrialANupperroominadullStonitonstreet,withtwobedsinit——onelaidonthefloor。Itisteno’clockonThursdaynight,andthedarkwalloppositethewindowshutsoutthemoonlightthatmighthavestruggledwiththelightoftheonedipcandlebywhichBartleMasseyispretendingtoread,whileheisreallylookingoverhisspectaclesatAdamBede,seatednearthedarkwindow。
  YouwouldhardlyhaveknownitwasAdamwithoutbeingtold。Hisfacehasgotthinnerthislastweek:hehasthesunkeneyes,theneglectedbeardofamanjustrisenfromasick-bed。Hisheavyblackhairhangsoverhisforehead,andthereisnoactiveimpulseinhimwhichinclineshimtopushitoff,thathemaybemoreawaketowhatisaroundhim。Hehasonearmoverthebackofthechair,andheseemstobelookingdownathisclaspedhands。Heisrousedbyaknockatthedoor。
  "Thereheis,"saidBartleMassey,risinghastilyandunfasteningthedoor。ItwasMr。Irwine。
  Adamrosefromhischairwithinstinctiverespect,asMr。Irwineapproachedhimandtookhishand。
  "I’mlate,Adam,"hesaid,sittingdownonthechairwhichBartleplacedforhim,"butIwaslaterinsettingofffromBroxtonthanIintendedtobe,andIhavebeenincessantlyoccupiedsinceI
  arrived。Ihavedoneeverythingnow,however——everythingthatcanbedoneto-night,atleast。Letusallsitdown。"
  Adamtookhischairagainmechanically,andBartle,forwhomtherewasnochairremaining,satonthebedinthebackground。
  "Haveyouseenher,sir?"saidAdamtremulously。
  "Yes,Adam;Iandthechaplainhavebothbeenwithherthisevening。"
  "Didyouaskher,sir……didyousayanythingaboutme?"
  "Yes,"saidMr。Irwine,withsomehesitation,"Ispokeofyou。I
  saidyouwishedtoseeherbeforethetrial,ifsheconsented。"
  AsMr。Irwinepaused,Adamlookedathimwitheager,questioningeyes。
  "Youknowsheshrinksfromseeinganyone,Adam。Itisnotonlyyou——somefatalinfluenceseemstohaveshutupherheartagainstherfellow-creatures。Shehasscarcelysaidanythingmorethan’No’eithertomeorthechaplain。Threeorfourdaysago,beforeyouwerementionedtoher,whenIaskedheriftherewasanyoneofherfamilywhomshewouldliketosee——towhomshecouldopenhermind——shesaid,withaviolentshudder,’Tellthemnottocomenearme——Iwon’tseeanyofthem。’"
  Adam’sheadwashangingdownagain,andhedidnotspeak。Therewassilenceforafewminutes,andthenMr。Irwinesaid,"Idon’tliketoadviseyouagainstyourownfeelings,Adam,iftheynowurgeyoustronglytogoandseeherto-morrowmorning,evenwithoutherconsent。Itisjustpossible,notwithstandingappearancestothecontrary,thattheinterviewmightaffectherfavourably。ButIgrievetosayIhavescarcelyanyhopeofthat。
  Shedidn’tseemagitatedwhenImentionedyourname;sheonlysaid’No,’inthesamecold,obstinatewayasusual。Andifthemeetinghadnogoodeffectonher,itwouldbepure,uselesssufferingtoyou——severesuffering,Ifear。Sheisverymuchchanged……"
  Adamstartedupfromhischairandseizedhishat,whichlayonthetable。Buthestoodstillthen,andlookedatMr。Irwine,asifhehadaquestiontoaskwhichitwasyetdifficulttoutter。
  BartleMasseyrosequietly,turnedthekeyinthedoor,andputitinhispocket。
  "Ishecomeback?"saidAdamatlast。
  "No,heisnot,"saidMr。Irwine,quietly。"Laydownyourhat,Adam,unlessyouliketowalkoutwithmeforalittlefreshair。
  Ifearyouhavenotbeenoutagainto-day。"
  "Youneedn’tdeceiveme,sir,"saidAdam,lookinghardatMr。
  Irwineandspeakinginatoneofangrysuspicion。"Youneedn’tbeafraidofme。Ionlywantjustice。Iwanthimtofeelwhatshefeels。It’shiswork……shewasachildasit’udha’gonet’
  anybody’shearttolookat……Idon’tcarewhatshe’sdone……itwashimbroughthertoit。Andheshallknowit……heshallfeelit……ifthere’sajustGod,heshallfeelwhatitist’ha’
  broughtachildlikehertosinandmisery。"
  "I’mnotdeceivingyou,Adam,"saidMr。Irwine。"ArthurDonnithorneisnotcomeback——wasnotcomebackwhenIleft。I
  haveleftaletterforhim:hewillknowallassoonashearrives。"
  "Butyoudon’tmindaboutit,"saidAdamindignantly。"Youthinkitdoesn’tmatterassheliesthereinshameandmisery,andheknowsnothingaboutit——hesuffersnothing。"
  "Adam,heWILLknow——heWILLsuffer,longandbitterly。Hehasaheartandaconscience:Ican’tbeentirelydeceivedinhischaracter。Iamconvinced——Iamsurehedidn’tfallundertemptationwithoutastruggle。Hemaybeweak,butheisnotcallous,notcoldlyselfish。Iampersuadedthatthiswillbeashockofwhichhewillfeeltheeffectsallhislife。Whydoyoucravevengeanceinthisway?Noamountoftorturethatyoucouldinflictonhimcouldbenefither。"
  "No——OGod,no,"Adamgroanedout,sinkingonhischairagain;
  "butthen,that’sthedeepestcurseofall……that’swhatmakestheblacknessofit……ITCANNEVERBEUNDONE。MypoorHetty……shecanneverbemysweetHettyagain……theprettiestthingGodhadmade——
  smilingupatme……Ithoughtshelovedme……andwasgood……"
  Adam’svoicehadbeengraduallysinkingintoahoarseundertone,asifhewereonlytalkingtohimself;butnowhesaidabruptly,lookingatMr。Irwine,"Butsheisn’tasguiltyastheysay?Youdon’tthinksheis,sir?Shecan’tha’doneit。"
  "Thatperhapscanneverbeknownwithcertainty,Adam,"Mr。Irwineansweredgently。"Inthesecaseswesometimesformourjudgmentonwhatseemstousstrongevidence,andyet,forwantofknowingsomesmallfact,ourjudgmentiswrong。Butsupposetheworst:
  youhavenorighttosaythattheguiltofhercrimelieswithhim,andthatheoughttobearthepunishment。Itisnotforusmentoapportionthesharesofmoralguiltandretribution。Wefinditimpossibletoavoidmistakesevenindeterminingwhohascommittedasinglecriminalact,andtheproblemhowfaramanistobeheldresponsiblefortheunforeseenconsequencesofhisowndeedisonethatmightwellmakeustrembletolookintoit。Theevilconsequencesthatmayliefoldedinasingleactofselfishindulgenceisathoughtsoawfulthatitoughtsurelytoawakensomefeelinglesspresumptuousthanarashdesiretopunish。Youhaveamindthatcanunderstandthisfully,Adam,whenyouarecalm。Don’tsupposeIcan’tenterintotheanguishthatdrivesyouintothisstateofrevengefulhatred。Butthinkofthis:ifyouweretoobeyyourpassion——foritISpassion,andyoudeceiveyourselfincallingitjustice——itmightbewithyoupreciselyasithasbeenwithArthur;nay,worse;yourpassionmightleadyouyourselfintoahorriblecrime。"
  "No——notworse,"saidAdam,bitterly;"Idon’tbelieveit’sworse——
  I’dsoonerdoit——I’dsoonerdoawickednessasIcouldsufferforbymyselfthanha’broughtHERtodowickednessandthenstandbyandsee’empunishherwhiletheyletmealone;andallforabito’pleasure,as,ifhe’dhadaman’sheartinhim,he’dha’
  cuthishandoffsoonerthanhe’dha’takenit。Whatifhedidn’tforeseewhat’shappened?Heforesawenough;he’dnorighttoexpectanythingbutharmandshametoher。Andthenhewantedtosmoothitoffwi’lies。No——there’splentyo’thingsfolksarehangedfornothalfsohatefulasthat。Letamandowhathewill,ifheknowshe’stobearthepunishmenthimself,heisn’thalfsobadasameanselfishcowardasmakesthingseasyt’
  himselfandknowsallthewhilethepunishment’llfallonsomebodyelse。"
  "Thereagainyoupartlydeceiveyourself,Adam。Thereisnosortofwrongdeedofwhichamancanbearthepunishmentalone;youcan’tisolateyourselfandsaythattheevilwhichisinyoushallnotspread。Men’slivesareasthoroughlyblendedwitheachotherastheairtheybreathe:evilspreadsasnecessarilyasdisease。
  Iknow,IfeeltheterribleextentofsufferingthissinofArthur’shascausedtoothers;butsodoeseverysincausesufferingtoothersbesidesthosewhocommitit。AnactofvengeanceonyourpartagainstArthurwouldsimplybeanothereviladdedtothosewearesufferingunder:youcouldnotbearthepunishmentalone;youwouldentailtheworstsorrowsoneveryonewholovesyou。Youwouldhavecommittedanactofblindfurythatwouldleaveallthepresentevilsjustastheywereandaddworseevilstothem。Youmaytellmethatyoumeditatenofatalactofvengeance,butthefeelinginyourmindiswhatgivesbirthtosuchactions,andaslongasyouindulgeit,aslongasyoudonotseethattofixyourmindonArthur’spunishmentisrevenge,andnotjustice,youareindangerofbeingledontothecommissionofsomegreatwrong。RememberwhatyoutoldmeaboutyourfeelingsafteryouhadgiventhatblowtoArthurintheGrove。"
  Adamwassilent:thelastwordshadcalledupavividimageofthepast,andMr。Irwinelefthimtohisthoughts,whilehespoketoBartleMasseyaboutoldMr。Donnithorne’sfuneralandothermattersofanindifferentkind。ButatlengthAdamturnedroundandsaid,inamoresubduedtone,"I’venotaskedabout’ematth’
  HallFarm,sir。IsMr。Poysercoming?"
  "Heiscome;heisinStonitonto-night。ButIcouldnotadvisehimtoseeyou,Adam。Hisownmindisinaveryperturbedstate,anditisbestheshouldnotseeyoutillyouarecalmer。"
  "IsDinahMorriscometo’em,sir?Sethsaidthey’dsentforher。"
  "No。Mr。Poysertellsmeshewasnotcomewhenheleft。They’reafraidtheletterhasnotreachedher。Itseemstheyhadnoexactaddress。"
  Adamsatruminatingalittlewhile,andthensaid,"IwonderifDinah’udha’gonetoseeher。ButperhapsthePoyserswouldha’
  beensorelyagainstit,sincetheywon’tcomenighherthemselves。
  ButIthinkshewould,fortheMethodistsaregreatfolksforgoingintotheprisons;andSethsaidhethoughtshewould。She’daverytenderwaywithher,Dinahhad;Iwonderifshecouldha’
  doneanygood。Youneversawher,sir,didyou?"
  "Yes,Idid。Ihadaconversationwithher——shepleasedmeagooddeal。Andnowyoumentionit,Iwishshewouldcome,foritispossiblethatagentlemildwomanlikehermightmoveHettytoopenherheart。Thejailchaplainisratherharshinhismanner。"
  "Butit’so’nouseifshedoesn’tcome,"saidAdamsadly。
  "IfI’dthoughtofitearlier,Iwouldhavetakensomemeasuresforfindingherout,"saidMr。Irwine,"butit’stoolatenow,I
  fear……Well,Adam,Imustgonow。Trytogetsomerestto-night。
  Godblessyou。I’llseeyouearlyto-morrowmorning。"
  TheMorningoftheTrialAToneo’clockthenextday,Adamwasaloneinhisdullupperroom;hiswatchlaybeforehimonthetable,asifhewerecountingthelongminutes。Hehadnoknowledgeofwhatwaslikelytobesaidbythewitnessesonthetrial,forhehadshrunkfromalltheparticularsconnectedwithHetty’sarrestandaccusation。
  Thisbraveactiveman,whowouldhavehastenedtowardsanydangerortoiltorescueHettyfromanapprehendedwrongormisfortune,felthimselfpowerlesstocontemplateirremediableevilandsuffering。Thesusceptibilitywhichwouldhavebeenanimpellingforcewheretherewasanypossibilityofactionbecamehelplessanguishwhenhewasobligedtobepassive,orelsesoughtanactiveoutletinthethoughtofinflictingjusticeonArthur。
  Energeticnatures,strongforallstrenuousdeeds,willoftenrushawayfromahopelesssufferer,asiftheywerehard-hearted。Itistheovermasteringsenseofpainthatdrivesthem。Theyshrinkbyanungovernableinstinct,astheywouldshrinkfromlaceration。
  AdamhadbroughthimselftothinkofseeingHetty,ifshewouldconsenttoseehim,becausehethoughtthemeetingmightpossiblybeagoodtoher——mighthelptomeltawaythisterriblehardnesstheytoldhimof。Ifshesawheborehernoillwillforwhatshehaddonetohim,shemightopenherhearttohim。Butthisresolutionhadbeenanimmenseeffort——hetrembledatthethoughtofseeingherchangedface,asatimidwomantremblesatthethoughtofthesurgeon’sknife,andhechosenowtobearthelonghoursofsuspenseratherthanencounterwhatseemedtohimthemoreintolerableagonyofwitnessinghertrial。
  Deepunspeakablesufferingmaywellbecalledabaptism,aregeneration,theinitiationintoanewstate。Theyearningmemories,thebitterregret,theagonizedsympathy,thestrugglingappealstotheInvisibleRight——alltheintenseemotionswhichhadfilledthedaysandnightsofthepastweek,andwerecompressingthemselvesagainlikeaneagercrowdintothehoursofthissinglemorning,madeAdamlookbackonallthepreviousyearsasiftheyhadbeenadimsleepyexistence,andhehadonlynowawakedtofullconsciousness。Itseemedtohimasifhehadalwaysbeforethoughtitalightthingthatmenshouldsuffer,asifallthathehadhimselfenduredandcalledsorrowbeforewasonlyamoment’sstrokethathadneverleftabruise。Doubtlessagreatanguishmaydotheworkofyears,andwemaycomeoutfromthatbaptismoffirewithasoulfullofnewaweandnewpity。
  "OGod,"Adamgroaned,asheleanedonthetableandlookedblanklyatthefaceofthewatch,"andmenhavesufferedlikethisbefore……andpoorhelplessyoungthingshavesufferedlikeher……Suchalittlewhileagolookingsohappyandsopretty……kissing’emall,hergrandfatherandallof’em,andtheywishingherluck……Omypoor,poorHetty……dostthinkonitnow?"
  Adamstartedandlookedroundtowardsthedoor。Vixenhadbeguntowhimper,andtherewasasoundofastickandalamewalkonthestairs。ItwasBartleMasseycomeback。Coulditbeallover?
  Bartleenteredquietly,and,goinguptoAdam,graspedhishandandsaid,"I’mjustcometolookatyou,myboy,forthefolksaregoneoutofcourtforabit。"
  Adam’sheartbeatsoviolentlyhewasunabletospeak——hecouldonlyreturnthepressureofhisfriend’shand——andBartle,drawinguptheotherchair,cameandsatinfrontofhim,takingoffhishatandhisspectacles。
  "That’sathingneverhappenedtomebefore,"heobserved,"togoouto’thedoorwithmyspectacleson。Icleanforgottotake’emoff。"
  Theoldmanmadethistrivialremark,thinkingitbetternottorespondatalltoAdam’sagitation:hewouldgather,inanindirectway,thattherewasnothingdecisivetocommunicateatpresent。
  "Andnow,"hesaid,risingagain,"Imustseetoyourhavingabitoftheloaf,andsomeofthatwineMr。Irwinesentthismorning。
  He’llbeangrywithmeifyoudon’thaveit。Come,now,"hewenton,bringingforwardthebottleandtheloafandpouringsomewineintoacup,"Imusthaveabitandasupmyself。Drinkadropwithme,mylad——drinkwithme。"
  Adampushedthecupgentlyawayandsaid,entreatingly,"Tellmeaboutit,Mr。Massey——tellmeallaboutit。Wasshethere?Havetheybegun?"
  "Yes,myboy,yes——it’stakenallthetimesinceIfirstwent;butthey’reslow,they’reslow;andthere’sthecounselthey’vegotforherputsaspokeinthewheelwheneverhecan,andmakesadealtodowithcross-examiningthewitnessesandquarrellingwiththeotherlawyers。That’sallhecandoforthemoneytheygivehim;andit’sabigsum——it’sabigsum。Buthe’sa’cutefellow,withaneyethat’udpicktheneedlesoutofthehayinnotime。
  Ifamanhadgotnofeelings,it’udbeasgoodasademonstrationtolistentowhatgoesonincourt;butatenderheartmakesonestupid。I’dhavegivenupfiguresforeveronlytohavehadsomegoodnewstobringtoyou,mypoorlad。"
  "Butdoesitseemtobegoingagainsther?"saidAdam。"Tellmewhatthey’vesaid。Imustknowitnow——Imustknowwhattheyhavetobringagainsther。"
  "Why,thechiefevidenceyethasbeenthedoctors;allbutMartinPoyser——poorMartin。Everybodyincourtfeltforhim——itwaslikeonesob,thesoundtheymadewhenhecamedownagain。Theworstwaswhentheytoldhimtolookattheprisoneratthebar。Itwashardwork,poorfellow——itwashardwork。Adam,myboy,theblowfallsheavilyonhimaswellasyou;youmusthelppoorMartin;
  youmustshowcourage。Drinksomewinenow,andshowmeyoumeantobearitlikeaman。"
  Bartlehadmadetherightsortofappeal。Adam,withanairofquietobedience,tookupthecupanddrankalittle。
  "TellmehowSHElooked,"hesaidpresently。
  "Frightened,veryfrightened,whentheyfirstbroughtherin;itwasthefirstsightofthecrowdandthejudge,poorcreatur。Andthere’saloto’foolishwomeninfineclothes,withgewgawsalluptheirarmsandfeathersontheirheads,sittingnearthejudge:
  they’vedressedthemselvesoutinthatway,one’udthink,tobescarecrowsandwarningsagainstanymanevermeddlingwithawomanagain。Theyputuptheirglasses,andstaredandwhispered。Butafterthatshestoodlikeawhiteimage,staringdownatherhandsandseemingneithertohearnorseeanything。Andshe’saswhiteasasheet。Shedidn’tspeakwhentheyaskedherifshe’dplead’guilty’or’notguilty,’andtheypleaded’notguilty’forher。
  Butwhensheheardheruncle’sname,thereseemedtogoashiverrightthroughher;andwhentheytoldhimtolookather,shehungherheaddown,andcowered,andhidherfaceinherhands。He’dmuchadotospeakpoorman,hisvoicetrembledso。Andthecounsellors——wholookashardasnailsmostly——Isaw,sparedhimasmuchastheycould。Mr。Irwineputhimselfnearhimandwentwithhimouto’court。Ah,it’sagreatthinginaman’slifetobeabletostandbyaneighbourandupholdhiminsuchtroubleasthat。"
  "Godblesshim,andyoutoo,Mr。Massey,"saidAdam,inalowvoice,layinghishandonBartle’sarm。
  "Aye,aye,he’sgoodmetal;hegivestherightringwhenyoutryhim,ourparsondoes。Amano’sense——saysnomorethan’sneedful。He’snotoneofthosethatthinktheycancomfortyouwithchattering,asiffolkswhostandbyandlookonknewadealbetterwhatthetroublewasthanthosewhohavetobearit。I’vehadtodowithsuchfolksinmytime——inthesouth,whenIwasintroublemyself。Mr。Irwineistobeawitnesshimself,byandby,onherside,youknow,tospeaktohercharacterandbringingup。"
  "Buttheotherevidence……doesitgohardagainsther!"saidAdam。
  "Whatdoyouthink,Mr。Massey?Tellmethetruth。"
  "Yes,mylad,yes。Thetruthisthebestthingtotell。Itmustcomeatlast。Thedoctors’evidenceisheavyonher——isheavy。
  Butshe’sgoneondenyingshe’shadachildfromfirsttolast。
  Thesepoorsillywomen-things——they’venotthesensetoknowit’snousedenyingwhat’sproved。It’llmakeagainstherwiththejury,Idoubt,herbeingsoobstinate:theymaybelessforrecommendinghertomercy,iftheverdict’sagainsther。ButMr。
  Irwine’ullleavenostoneunturnedwiththejudge——youmayrelyuponthat,Adam。"
  "Istherenobodytostandbyherandseemtocareforherinthecourt?"saidAdam。
  "There’sthechaplaino’thejailsitsnearher,buthe’sasharpferrety-facedman——anothersorto’fleshandbloodtoMr。Irwine。
  Theysaythejailchaplainsaremostlythefag-endo’theclergy。"
  "There’sonemanasoughttobethere,"saidAdambitterly。
  Presentlyhedrewhimselfupandlookedfixedlyoutofthewindow,apparentlyturningoversomenewideainhismind。
  "Mr。Massey,"hesaidatlast,pushingthehairoffhisforehead,"I’llgobackwithyou。I’llgointocourt。It’scowardlyofmetokeepaway。I’llstandbyher——I’llownher——forallshe’sbeendeceitful。Theyoughtn’ttocastheroff——herownfleshandblood。WehandfolksovertoGod’smercy,andshownoneourselves。Iusedtobehardsometimes:I’llneverbehardagain。
  I’llgo,Mr。Massey——I’llgowithyou。"
  TherewasadecisioninAdam’smannerwhichwouldhavepreventedBartlefromopposinghim,evenifhehadwishedtodoso。Heonlysaid,"Takeabit,then,andanothersup,Adam,fortheloveofme。See,Imuststopandeatamorsel。Now,youtakesome。"
  Nervedbyanactiveresolution,Adamtookamorselofbreadanddranksomewine。Hewashaggardandunshaven,ashehadbeenyesterday,buthestooduprightagain,andlookedmoreliketheAdamBedeofformerdays。
  TheVerdictTHEplacefittedupthatdayasacourtofjusticewasagrandoldhall,nowdestroyedbyfire。Themiddaylightthatfellontheclosepavementofhumanheadswasshedthroughalineofhighpointedwindows,variegatedwiththemellowtintsofoldpaintedglass。Grimdustyarmourhunginhighreliefinfrontofthedarkoakengalleryatthefartherend,andunderthebroadarchofthegreatmullionedwindowoppositewasspreadacurtainofoldtapestry,coveredwithdimmelancholyfigures,likeadozingindistinctdreamofthepast。Itwasaplacethatthroughtherestoftheyearwashauntedwiththeshadowymemoriesofoldkingsandqueens,unhappy,discrowned,imprisoned;butto-dayallthoseshadowshadfled,andnotasoulinthevasthallfeltthepresenceofanybutalivingsorrow,whichwasquiveringinwarmhearts。
  Butthatsorrowseemedtohavemadeititselffeeblyfelthitherto,nowwhenAdamBede’stallfigurewassuddenlyseenbeingusheredtothesideoftheprisoner’sdock。Inthebroadsunlightofthegreathall,amongthesleekshavenfacesofothermen,themarksofsufferinginhisfacewerestartlingeventoMr。Irwine,whohadlastseenhiminthedimlightofhissmallroom;andtheneighboursfromHayslopewhowerepresent,andwhotoldHettySorrel’sstorybytheirfiresidesintheiroldage,neverforgottosayhowitmovedthemwhenAdamBede,poorfellow,tallerbytheheadthanmostofthepeopleroundhim,cameintocourtandtookhisplacebyherside。
  ButHettydidnotseehim。ShewasstandinginthesamepositionBartleMasseyhaddescribed,herhandscrossedovereachotherandhereyesfixedonthem。Adamhadnotdaredtolookatherinthefirstmoments,butatlast,whentheattentionofthecourtwaswithdrawnbytheproceedingsheturnedhisfacetowardsherwitharesolutionnottoshrink。
  Whydidtheysayshewassochanged?Inthecorpsewelove,itisthelikenesswesee——itisthelikeness,whichmakesitselffeltthemorekeenlybecausesomethingelsewasandisnot。Theretheywere——thesweetfaceandneck,withthedarktendrilsofhair,thelongdarklashes,theroundedcheekandthepoutinglips——paleandthin,yes,butlikeHetty,andonlyHetty。Othersthoughtshelookedasifsomedemonhadcastablightingglanceuponher,witheredupthewoman’ssoulinher,andleftonlyaharddespairingobstinacy。Butthemother’syearning,thatcompletesttypeofthelifeinanotherlifewhichistheessenceofrealhumanlove,feelsthepresenceofthecherishedchildeveninthedebased,degradedman;andtoAdam,thispale,hard-lookingculpritwastheHettywhohadsmiledathiminthegardenundertheapple-treeboughs——shewasthatHetty’scorpse,whichhehadtrembledtolookatthefirsttime,andthenwasunwillingtoturnawayhiseyesfrom。
  Butpresentlyheheardsomethingthatcompelledhimtolisten,andmadethesenseofsightlessabsorbing。Awomanwasinthewitness-box,amiddle-agedwoman,whospokeinafirmdistinctvoice。Shesaid,"MynameisSarahStone。Iamawidow,andkeepasmallshoplicensedtoselltobacco,snuff,andteainChurchLane,Stoniton。Theprisoneratthebaristhesameyoungwomanwhocame,lookingillandtired,withabasketonherarm,andaskedforalodgingatmyhouseonSaturdayevening,the27thofFebruary。Shehadtakenthehouseforapublic,becausetherewasafigureagainstthedoor。AndwhenIsaidIdidn’ttakeinlodgers,theprisonerbegantocry,andsaidshewastootiredtogoanywhereelse,andsheonlywantedabedforonenight。Andherprettiness,andhercondition,andsomethingrespectableaboutherclothesandlooks,andthetroublesheseemedtobeinmademeasIcouldn’tfindinmyhearttosendherawayatonce。Iaskedhertositdown,andgavehersometea,andaskedherwhereshewasgoing,andwhereherfriendswere。Shesaidshewasgoinghometoherfriends:theywerefarmingfolksagoodwayoff,andshe’dhadalongjourneythathadcosthermoremoneythansheexpected,soasshe’dhardlyanymoneyleftinherpocket,andwasafraidofgoingwhereitwouldcosthermuch。Shehadbeenobligedtosellmostofthethingsoutofherbasket,butshe’dthankfullygiveashillingforabed。IsawnoreasonwhyI
  shouldn’ttaketheyoungwomaninforthenight。Ihadonlyoneroom,butthereweretwobedsinit,andItoldhershemightstaywithme。Ithoughtshe’dbeenledwrong,andgotintotrouble,butifshewasgoingtoherfriends,itwouldbeagoodworktokeepheroutoffurtherharm。"
  Thewitnessthenstatedthatinthenightachildwasborn,andsheidentifiedthebaby-clothesthenshowntoherasthoseinwhichshehadherselfdressedthechild。
  "Thosearetheclothes。Imadethemmyself,andhadkeptthembymeeversincemylastchildwasborn。Itookadealoftroublebothforthechildandthemother。Icouldn’thelptakingtothelittlethingandbeinganxiousaboutit。Ididn’tsendforadoctor,forthereseemednoneed。Itoldthemotherintheday-
  timeshemusttellmethenameofherfriends,andwheretheylived,andletmewritetothem。Shesaid,byandbyshewouldwriteherself,butnotto-day。Shewouldhavenonay,butshewouldgetupandbedressed,inspiteofeverythingIcouldsay。
  Shesaidshefeltquitestrongenough;anditwaswonderfulwhatspiritsheshowed。ButIwasn’tquiteeasywhatIshoulddoabouther,andtowardseveningImadeupmymindI’dgo,afterMeetingwasover,andspeaktoourministeraboutit。Ileftthehouseabouthalf-pasteighto’clock。Ididn’tgooutattheshopdoor,butatthebackdoor,whichopensintoanarrowalley。I’veonlygottheground-floorofthehouse,andthekitchenandbedroombothlookintothealley。Ilefttheprisonersittingupbythefireinthekitchenwiththebabyonherlap。Shehadn’tcriedorseemedlowatall,asshedidthenightbefore。Ithoughtshehadastrangelookwithhereyes,andshegotabitflushedtowardsevening。Iwasafraidofthefever,andIthoughtI’dcallandaskanacquaintanceofmine,anexperiencedwoman,tocomebackwithmewhenIwentout。Itwasaverydarknight。Ididn’tfastenthedoorbehindme;therewasnolock;itwasalatchwithaboltinside,andwhentherewasnobodyinthehouseIalwayswentoutattheshopdoor。ButIthoughttherewasnodangerinleavingitunfastenedthatlittlewhile。IwaslongerthanI
  meanttobe,forIhadtowaitforthewomanthatcamebackwithme。Itwasanhourandahalfbeforewegotback,andwhenwewentin,thecandlewasstandingburningjustasIleftit,buttheprisonerandthebabywerebothgone。She’dtakenhercloakandbonnet,butshe’dleftthebasketandthethingsinit……I
  wasdreadfulfrightened,andangrywithherforgoing。Ididn’tgotogiveinformation,becauseI’dnothoughtshemeanttodoanyharm,andIknewshehadmoneyinherpockettobuyherfoodandlodging。Ididn’tliketosettheconstableafterher,forshe’darighttogofrommeifsheliked。"
  TheeffectofthisevidenceonAdamwaselectrical;itgavehimnewforce。Hettycouldnotbeguiltyofthecrime——herheartmusthaveclungtoherbaby——elsewhyshouldshehavetakenitwithher?Shemighthaveleftitbehind。Thelittlecreaturehaddiednaturally,andthenshehadhiddenit。Babiesweresoliabletodeath——andtheremightbethestrongestsuspicionswithoutanyproofofguilt。Hismindwassooccupiedwithimaginaryargumentsagainstsuchsuspicions,thathecouldnotlistentothecross-
  examinationbyHetty’scounsel,whotried,withoutresult,toelicitevidencethattheprisonerhadshownsomemovementsofmaternalaffectiontowardsthechild。Thewholetimethiswitnesswasbeingexamined,Hettyhadstoodasmotionlessasbefore:nowordseemedtoarrestherear。Butthesoundofthenextwitness’svoicetouchedachordthatwasstillsensitive,shegaveastartandafrightenedlooktowardshim,butimmediatelyturnedawayherheadandlookeddownatherhandsasbefore。Thiswitnesswasaman,aroughpeasant。Hesaid:
  "MynameisJohnOlding。Iamalabourer,andliveatTedd’sHole,twomilesoutofStoniton。AweeklastMonday,towardsoneo’clockintheafternoon,IwasgoingtowardsHettonCoppice,andaboutaquarterofamilefromthecoppiceIsawtheprisoner,inaredcloak,sittingunderabitofahaystacknotfaroffthestile。Shegotupwhenshesawme,andseemedasifshe’dbewalkingontheotherway。Itwasaregularroadthroughthefields,andnothingveryuncommontoseeayoungwomanthere,butItooknoticeofherbecauseshelookedwhiteandscared。I
  shouldhavethoughtshewasabeggar-woman,onlyforhergoodclothes。Ithoughtshelookedabitcrazy,butitwasnobusinessofmine。Istoodandlookedbackafterher,butshewentrightonwhileshewasinsight。Ihadtogototheothersideofthecoppicetolookaftersomestakes。There’saroadrightthroughit,andbitsofopeningshereandthere,wherethetreeshavebeencutdown,andsomeof’emnotcarriedaway。Ididn’tgostraightalongtheroad,butturnedofftowardsthemiddle,andtookashorterwaytowardsthespotIwantedtogetto。Ihadn’tgotfaroutoftheroadintooneoftheopenplacesbeforeIheardastrangecry。Ithoughtitdidn’tcomefromanyanimalIknew,butIwasn’tforstoppingtolookaboutjustthen。Butitwenton,andseemedsostrangetomeinthatplace,Icouldn’thelpstoppingtolook。IbegantothinkImightmakesomemoneyofit,ifitwasanewthing。ButIhadhardworktotellwhichwayitcamefrom,andforagoodwhileIkeptlookingupattheboughs。
  AndthenIthoughtitcamefromtheground;andtherewasalotoftimber-choppingslyingabout,andloosepiecesofturf,andatrunkortwo。AndIlookedaboutamongthem,butcouldfindnothing,andatlastthecrystopped。SoIwasforgivingitup,andIwentonaboutmybusiness。ButwhenIcamebackthesamewayprettynighanhourafter,Icouldn’thelplayingdownmystakestohaveanotherlook。AndjustasIwasstoopingandlayingdownthestakes,Isawsomethingoddandroundandwhitishlyingonthegroundunderanut-bushbythesideofme。AndI
  stoopeddownonhandsandkneestopickitup。AndIsawitwasalittlebaby’shand。"
  Atthesewordsathrillranthroughthecourt。Hettywasvisiblytrembling;now,forthefirsttime,sheseemedtobelisteningtowhatawitnesssaid。
  "Therewasalotoftimber-choppingsputtogetherjustwherethegroundwenthollow,like,underthebush,andthehandcameoutfromamongthem。ButtherewasaholeleftinoneplaceandI
  couldseedownitandseethechild’shead;andImadehasteanddidawaytheturfandthechoppings,andtookoutthechild。Ithadgotcomfortableclotheson,butitsbodywascold,andI
  thoughtitmustbedead。Imadehastebackwithitoutofthewood,andtookithometomywife。Shesaiditwasdead,andI’dbettertakeittotheparishandtelltheconstable。AndIsaid,’I’lllaymylifeit’sthatyoungwoman’schildasImetgoingtothecoppice。’Butsheseemedtobegonecleanoutofsight。AndItookthechildontoHettonparishandtoldtheconstable,andwewentontoJusticeHardy。Andthenwewentlookingaftertheyoungwomantilldarkatnight,andwewentandgaveinformationatStoniton,astheymightstopher。Andthenextmorning,anotherconstablecametome,togowithhimtothespotwhereI
  foundthechild。Andwhenwegotthere,therewastheprisonera-
  sittingagainstthebushwhereIfoundthechild;andshecriedoutwhenshesawus,butsheneverofferedtomove。She’dgotabigpieceofbreadonherlap。"
  Adamhadgivenafaintgroanofdespairwhilethiswitnesswasspeaking。Hehadhiddenhisfaceonhisarm,whichrestedontheboardinginfrontofhim。Itwasthesuprememomentofhissuffering:Hettywasguilty;andhewassilentlycallingtoGodforhelp。Heheardnomoreoftheevidence,andwasunconsciouswhenthecasefortheprosecutionhadclosed——unconsciousthatMr。
  Irwinewasinthewitness-box,tellingofHetty’sunblemishedcharacterinherownparishandofthevirtuoushabitsinwhichshehadbeenbroughtup。Thistestimonycouldhavenoinfluenceontheverdict,butitwasgivenaspartofthatpleaformercywhichherowncounselwouldhavemadeifhehadbeenallowedtospeakforher——afavournotgrantedtocriminalsinthosesterntimes。
  AtlastAdamlifteduphishead,fortherewasageneralmovementroundhim。Thejudgehadaddressedthejury,andtheywereretiring。ThedecisivemomentwasnotfaroffAdamfeltashudderinghorrorthatwouldnotlethimlookatHetty,butshehadlongrelapsedintoherblankhardindifference。Alleyeswerestrainedtolookather,butshestoodlikeastatueofdulldespair。
  ’Therewasamingledrustling,whispering,andlowbuzzingthroughoutthecourtduringthisinterval。Thedesiretolistenwassuspended,andeveryonehadsomefeelingoropiniontoexpressinundertones。Adamsatlookingblanklybeforehim,buthedidnotseetheobjectsthatwererightinfrontofhiseyes——
  thecounselandattorneystalkingwithanairofcoolbusiness,andMr。Irwineinlowearnestconversationwiththejudge——didnotseeMr。Irwinesitdownagaininagitationandshakehisheadmournfullywhensomebodywhisperedtohim。TheinwardactionwastoointenseforAdamtotakeinoutwardobjectsuntilsomestrongsensationrousedhim。
  Itwasnotverylong,hardlymorethanaquarterofanhour,beforetheknockwhichtoldthatthejuryhadcometotheirdecisionfellasasignalforsilenceoneveryear。Itissublime——thatsuddenpauseofagreatmultitudewhichtellsthatonesoulmovesinthemall。Deeperanddeeperthesilenceseemedtobecome,likethedeepeningnight,whilethejurymen’snameswerecalledover,andtheprisonerwasmadetoholdupherhand,andthejurywereaskedfortheirverdict。
  "Guilty。"
  Itwastheverdicteveryoneexpected,buttherewasasighofdisappointmentfromsomeheartsthatitwasfollowedbynorecommendationtomercy。Stillthesympathyofthecourtwasnotwiththeprisoner。Theunnaturalnessofhercrimestoodoutthemoreharshlybythesideofherhardimmovabilityandobstinatesilence。Eventheverdict,todistanteyes,hadnotappearedtomoveher,butthosewhowerenearsawhertrembling。
  Thestillnesswaslessintenseuntilthejudgeputonhisblackcap,andthechaplaininhiscanonicalswasobservedbehindhim。
  Thenitdeepenedagain,beforethecrierhadhadtimetocommandsilence。Ifanysoundwereheard,itmusthavebeenthesoundofbeatinghearts。Thejudgespoke,"HesterSorrel……"
  ThebloodrushedtoHetty’sface,andthenfledbackagainasshelookedupatthejudgeandkeptherwide-openeyesfixedonhim,asiffascinatedbyfear。Adamhadnotyetturnedtowardsher,therewasadeephorror,likeagreatgulf,betweenthem。Butatthewords"andthentobehangedbythenecktillyoubedead,"apiercingshriekrangthroughthehall。ItwasHetty’sshriek。
  Adamstartedtohisfeetandstretchedouthisarmstowardsher。
  Butthearmscouldnotreachher:shehadfallendowninafainting-fit,andwascarriedoutofcourt。
  Arthur’sReturnWhenArthurDonnithornelandedatLiverpoolandreadtheletterfromhisAuntLydia,brieflyannouncinghisgrand-father’sdeath,hisfirstfeelingwas,"PoorGrandfather!IwishIcouldhavegottohimtobewithhimwhenhedied。HemighthavefeltorwishedsomethingatthelastthatIshallneverknownow。Itwasalonelydeath。"
  Itisimpossibletosaythathisgriefwasdeeperthanthat。Pityandsoftenedmemorytookplaceoftheoldantagonism,andinhisbusythoughtsaboutthefuture,asthechaisecarriedhimrapidlyalongtowardsthehomewherehewasnowtobemaster,therewasacontinuallyrecurringefforttorememberanythingbywhichhecouldshowaregardforhisgrandfather’swishes,withoutcounteractinghisowncherishedaimsforthegoodofthetenantsandtheestate。Butitisnotinhumannature——onlyinhumanpretence——forayoungmanlikeArthur,withafineconstitutionandfinespirits,thinkingwellofhimself,believingthatothersthinkwellofhim,andhavingaveryardentintentiontogivethemmoreandmorereasonforthatgoodopinion——itisnotpossibleforsuchayoungman,justcomingintoasplendidestatethroughthedeathofaveryoldmanwhomhewasnotfondof,tofeelanythingverydifferentfromexultantjoy。Nowhisreallifewasbeginning;nowhewouldhaveroomandopportunityforaction,andhewouldusethem。HewouldshowtheLoamshirepeoplewhatafinecountrygentlemanwas;hewouldnotexchangethatcareerforanyotherunderthesun。Hefelthimselfridingoverthehillsinthebreezyautumndays,lookingafterfavouriteplansofdrainageandenclosure;thenadmiredonsombremorningsasthebestrideronthebesthorseinthehunt;spokenwellofonmarket-daysasafirst-ratelandlord;byandbymakingspeechesatelectiondinners,andshowingawonderfulknowledgeofagriculture;thepatronofnewploughsanddrills,thesevereupbraiderofnegligentlandowners,andwithalajollyfellowthateverybodymustlike——happyfacesgreetinghimeverywhereonhisownestate,andtheneighbouringfamiliesonthebesttermswithhim。TheIrwinesshoulddinewithhimeveryweek,andhavetheirowncarriagetocomein,forinsomeverydelicatewaythatArthurwoulddevise,thelay-impropriatoroftheHayslopetitheswouldinsistonpayingacoupleofhundredsmoretothevicar;andhisauntshouldbeascomfortableaspossible,andgoonlivingattheChase,ifsheliked,inspiteofherold-maidishways——atleastuntilhewasmarried,andthateventlayintheindistinctbackground,forArthurhadnotyetseenthewomanwhowouldplaythelady-wifetothefirst-ratecountrygentleman。
  ThesewereArthur’schiefthoughts,sofarasaman’sthoughtsthroughhoursoftravellingcanbecompressedintoafewsentences,whichareonlylikethelistofnamestellingyouwhatarethescenesinalonglongpanoramafullofcolour,ofdetail,andoflife。ThehappyfacesArthursawgreetinghimwerenotpaleabstractions,butrealruddyfaces,longfamiliartohim:
  MartinPoyserwasthere——thewholePoyserfamily。
  What——Hetty?
  Yes;forArthurwasateaseaboutHetty——notquiteateaseaboutthepast,foracertainburningoftheearswouldcomewheneverhethoughtofthesceneswithAdamlastAugust,butateaseaboutherpresentlot。Mr。Irwine,whohadbeenaregularcorrespondent,tellinghimallthenewsabouttheoldplacesandpeople,hadsenthimwordnearlythreemonthsagothatAdamBedewasnottomarryMaryBurge,ashehadthought,butprettyHettySorrel。MartinPoyserandAdamhimselfhadbothtoldMr。Irwineallaboutit——
  thatAdamhadbeendeeplyinlovewithHettythesetwoyears,andthatnowitwasagreedtheyweretobemarriedinMarch。ThatstalwartrogueAdamwasmoresusceptiblethantherectorhadthought;itwasreallyquiteanidyllicloveaffair;andifithadnotbeentoolongtotellinaletter,hewouldhavelikedtodescribetoArthurtheblushinglooksandthesimplestrongwordswithwhichthefinehonestfellowtoldhissecret。HeknewArthurwouldliketohearthatAdamhadthissortofhappinessinprospect。
  Yes,indeed!Arthurfelttherewasnotairenoughintheroomtosatisfyhisrenovatedlife,whenhehadreadthatpassageintheletter。Hethrewupthewindows,herushedoutofdoorsintotheDecemberair,andgreetedeveryonewhospoketohimwithaneagergaiety,asiftherehadbeennewsofafreshNelsonvictory。ForthefirsttimethatdaysincehehadcometoWindsor,hewasintrueboyishspirits。Theloadthathadbeenpressinguponhimwasgone,thehauntingfearhadvanished。HethoughthecouldconquerhisbitternesstowardsAdamnow——couldofferhimhishand,andasktobehisfriendagain,inspiteofthatpainfulmemorywhichwouldstillmakehisearsburn。Hehadbeenknockeddown,andhehadbeenforcedtotellalie:suchthingsmakeascar,dowhatwewill。ButifAdamwerethesameagainasintheolddays,Arthurwishedtobethesametoo,andtohaveAdammixedupwithhisbusinessandhisfuture,ashehadalwaysdesiredbeforetheaccursedmeetinginAugust。Nay,hewoulddoagreatdealmoreforAdamthanheshouldotherwisehavedone,whenhecameintotheestate;Hetty’shusbandhadaspecialclaimonhim——HettyherselfshouldfeelthatanypainshehadsufferedthroughArthurinthepastwascompensatedtoherahundredfold。Forreallyshecouldnothavefeltmuch,sinceshehadsosoonmadeuphermindtomarryAdam。
  YouperceiveclearlywhatsortofpictureAdamandHettymadeinthepanoramaofArthur’sthoughtsonhisjourneyhomeward。ItwasMarchnow;theyweresoontobemarried:perhapstheywerealreadymarried。Andnowitwasactuallyinhispowertodoagreatdealforthem。Sweet——sweetlittleHetty!Thelittlepusshadn’tcaredforhimhalfasmuchashecaredforher;forhewasagreatfoolaboutherstill——wasalmostafraidofseeingher——indeed,hadnotcaredmuchtolookatanyotherwomansincehepartedfromher。ThatlittlefigurecomingtowardshimintheGrove,thosedark-fringedchildisheyes,thelovelylipsputuptokisshim——
  thatpicturehadgotnofainterwiththelapseofmonths。Andshewouldlookjustthesame。Itwasimpossibletothinkhowhecouldmeether:heshouldcertainlytremble。Strange,howlongthissortofinfluencelasts,forhewascertainlynotinlovewithHettynow。Hehadbeenearnestlydesiring,formonths,thatsheshouldmarryAdam,andtherewasnothingthatcontributedmoretohishappinessinthesemomentsthanthethoughtoftheirmarriage。
  Itwastheexaggeratingeffectofimaginationthatmadehisheartstillbeatalittlemorequicklyatthethoughtofher。Whenhesawthelittlethingagainasshereallywas,asAdam’swife,atworkquiteprosaicallyinhernewhome,heshouldperhapswonderatthepossibilityofhispastfeelings。Thankheavenithadturnedoutsowell!Heshouldhaveplentyofaffairsandintereststofillhislifenow,andnotbeindangerofplayingthefoolagain。
  Pleasantthecrackofthepost-boy’swhip!PleasantthesenseofbeinghurriedalonginswifteasethroughEnglishscenes,solikethoseroundhisownhome,onlynotquitesocharming。Herewasamarket-town——verymuchlikeTreddleston——wherethearmsoftheneighbouringlordofthemanorwereborneonthesignoftheprincipalinn;thenmerefieldsandhedges,theirvicinitytoamarket-towncarryinganagreeablesuggestionofhighrent,tillthelandbegantoassumeatrimmerlook,thewoodsweremorefrequent,andatlengthawhiteorredmansionlookeddownfromamoderateeminence,orallowedhimtobeawareofitsparapetandchimneysamongthedense-lookingmassesofoaksandelms——massesreddenednowwithearlybuds。Andcloseathandcamethevillage:
  thesmallchurch,withitsred-tiledroof,lookinghumbleevenamongthefadedhalf-timberedhouses;theoldgreengravestoneswithnettlesroundthem;nothingfreshandbrightbutthechildren,openingroundeyesattheswiftpost-chaise;nothingnoisyandbusybutthegapingcursofmysteriouspedigree。WhatamuchprettiervillageHayslopewas!Anditshouldnotbeneglectedlikethisplace:vigorousrepairsshouldgooneverywhereamongfarm-buildingsandcottages,andtravellersinpost-chaises,comingalongtheRosseterroad,shoulddonothingbutadmireastheywent。AndAdamBedeshouldsuperintendalltherepairs,forhehadashareinBurge’sbusinessnow,and,ifheliked,Arthurwouldputsomemoneyintotheconcernandbuytheoldmanoutinanotheryearortwo。ThatwasanuglyfaultinArthur’slife,thataffairlastsummer,butthefutureshouldmakeamends。ManymenwouldhaveretainedafeelingofvindictivenesstowardsAdam,buthewouldnot——hewouldresolutelyovercomealllittlenessofthatkind,forhehadcertainlybeenverymuchinthewrong;andthoughAdamhadbeenharshandviolent,andhadthrustonhimapainfuldilemma,thepoorfellowwasinlove,andhadrealprovocation。No,Arthurhadnotanevilfeelinginhismindtowardsanyhumanbeing:hewashappy,andwouldmakeeveryoneelsehappythatcamewithinhisreach。
  AndherewasdearoldHayslopeatlast,sleeping,onthehill,likeaquietoldplaceasitwas,inthelateafternoonsunlight,andoppositetoitthegreatshouldersoftheBintonHills,belowthemthepurplishblacknessofthehangingwoods,andatlastthepalefrontoftheAbbey,lookingoutfromamongtheoaksoftheChase,asifanxiousfortheheir’sreturn。"PoorGrandfather!
  Andheliesdeadthere。Hewasayoungfellowonce,comingintotheestateandmakinghisplans。Sotheworldgoesround!AuntLydiamustfeelverydesolate,poorthing;butsheshallbeindulgedasmuchassheindulgesherfatFido。"
  ThewheelsofArthur’schaisehadbeenanxiouslylistenedforattheChase,forto-daywasFriday,andthefuneralhadalreadybeendeferredtwodays。Beforeitdrewuponthegravelofthecourtyard,alltheservantsinthehousewereassembledtoreceivehimwithagrave,decentwelcome,befittingahouseofdeath。A
  monthago,perhaps,itwouldhavebeendifficultforthemtohavemaintainedasuitablesadnessintheirfaces,whenMr。Arthurwascometotakepossession;buttheheartsofthehead-servantswereheavythatdayforanothercausethanthedeathoftheoldsquire,andmorethanoneofthemwaslongingtobetwentymilesaway,asMr。Craigwas,knowingwhatwastobecomeofHettySorrel——prettyHettySorrel——whomtheyusedtoseeeveryweek。Theyhadthepartisanshipofhouseholdservantswholiketheirplaces,andwerenotinclinedtogothefulllengthofthesevereindignationfeltagainsthimbythefarmingtenants,butrathertomakeexcusesforhim;nevertheless,theupperservants,whohadbeenontermsofneighbourlyintercoursewiththePoysersformanyyears,couldnothelpfeelingthatthelonged-foreventoftheyoungsquire’scomingintotheestatehadbeenrobbedofallitspleasantness。
  ToArthuritwasnothingsurprisingthattheservantslookedgraveandsad:hehimselfwasverymuchtouchedonseeingthemallagain,andfeelingthathewasinanewrelationtothem。Itwasthatsortofpatheticemotionwhichhasmorepleasurethanpaininit——whichisperhapsoneofthemostdeliciousofallstatestoagood-naturedman,consciousofthepowertosatisfyhisgoodnature。Hisheartswelledagreeablyashesaid,"Well,Mills,howismyaunt?"
  ButnowMr。Bygate,thelawyer,whohadbeeninthehouseeversincethedeath,cameforwardtogivedeferentialgreetingsandanswerallquestions,andArthurwalkedwithhimtowardsthelibrary,wherehisAuntLydiawasexpectinghim。AuntLydiawastheonlypersoninthehousewhoknewnothingaboutHetty。Hersorrowasamaidendaughterwasunmixedwithanyotherthoughtsthanthoseofanxietyaboutfuneralarrangementsandherownfuturelot;and,afterthemannerofwomen,shemournedforthefatherwhohadmadeherlifeimportant,allthemorebecauseshehadasecretsensethattherewaslittlemourningforhiminotherhearts。
  ButArthurkissedhertearfulfacemoretenderlythanhehadeverdoneinhislifebefore。
  "DearAunt,"hesaidaffectionately,asheheldherhand,"YOUR
  lossisthegreatestofall,butyoumusttellmehowtotryandmakeituptoyoualltherestofyourlife。"
  "Itwassosuddenandsodreadful,Arthur,"poorMissLydiabegan,pouringoutherlittleplaints,andArthursatdowntolistenwithimpatientpatience。Whenapausecame,hesaid:
  "Now,Aunt,I’llleaveyouforaquarterofanhourjusttogotomyownroom,andthenIshallcomeandgivefullattentiontoeverything。"
  "Myroomisallreadyforme,Isuppose,Mills?"hesaidtothebutler,whoseemedtobelingeringuneasilyabouttheentrance-
  hall。
  "Yes,sir,andtherearelettersforyou;theyarealllaidonthewriting-tableinyourdressing-room。"
  Onenteringthesmallanteroomwhichwascalledadressing-room,butwhichArthurreallyusedonlytoloungeandwritein,hejustcasthiseyesonthewriting-table,andsawthattherewereseverallettersandpacketslyingthere;buthewasintheuncomfortabledustyconditionofamanwhohashadalonghurriedjourney,andhemustreallyrefreshhimselfbyattendingtohistoilettealittle,beforehereadhisletters。Pymwasthere,makingeverythingreadyforhim,andsoon,withadelightfulfreshnessabouthim,asifhewerepreparedtobeginanewday,hewentbackintohisdressing-roomtoopenhisletters。Thelevelraysofthelowafternoonsunentereddirectlyatthewindow,andasArthurseatedhimselfinhisvelvetchairwiththeirpleasantwarmthuponhim,hewasconsciousofthatquietwell-beingwhichperhapsyouandIhavefeltonasunnyafternoonwhen,inourbrightestyouthandhealth,lifehasopenedanewvistaforus,andlongto-morrowsofactivityhavestretchedbeforeuslikealovelyplainwhichtherewasnoneedforhurryingtolookat,becauseitwasallourown。
  Thetopletterwasplacedwithitsaddressupwards:itwasinMr。
  Irwine’shandwriting,Arthursawatonce;andbelowtheaddresswaswritten,"Tobedeliveredassoonashearrives。"NothingcouldhavebeenlesssurprisingtohimthanaletterfromMr。
  Irwineatthatmoment:ofcourse,therewassomethinghewishedArthurtoknowearlierthanitwaspossibleforthemtoseeeachother。AtsuchatimeasthatitwasquitenaturalthatIrwineshouldhavesomethingpressingtosay。Arthurbrokethesealwithanagreeableanticipationofsoonseeingthewriter。
  "Isendthislettertomeetyouonyourarrival,Arthur,becauseI
  maythenbeatStoniton,whitherIamcalledbythemostpainfuldutyithaseverbeengivenmetoperform,anditisrightthatyoushouldknowwhatIhavetotellyouwithoutdelay。
  "Iwillnotattempttoaddbyonewordofreproachtotheretributionthatisnowfallingonyou:anyotherwordsthatI
  couldwriteatthismomentmustbeweakandunmeaningbythesideofthoseinwhichImusttellyouthesimplefact。
  "HettySorrelisinprison,andwillbetriedonFridayforthecrimeofchild-murder。"……
  Arthurreadnomore。Hestartedupfromhischairandstoodforasingleminutewithasenseofviolentconvulsioninhiswholeframe,asifthelifeweregoingoutofhimwithhorriblethrobs;
  butthenextminutehehadrushedoutoftheroom,stillclutchingtheletter——hewashurryingalongthecorridor,anddownthestairsintothehall。Millswasstillthere,butArthurdidnotseehim,ashepassedlikeahuntedmanacrossthehallandoutalongthegravel。Thebutlerhurriedoutafterhimasfastashiselderlylimbscouldrun:heguessed,heknew,wheretheyoungsquirewasgoing。
  WhenMillsgottothestables,ahorsewasbeingsaddled,andArthurwasforcinghimselftoreadtheremainingwordsoftheletter。Hethrustitintohispocketasthehorsewasleduptohim,andatthatmomentcaughtsightofMills’anxiousfaceinfrontofhim。
  "TellthemI’mgone——gonetoStoniton,"hesaidinamuffledtoneofagitation——sprangintothesaddle,andsetoffatagallop。