首页 >出版文学> ADAM BEDE>第14章

第14章

  Themanleftherwithoutfurtherspeech,andHettyheldonherway。Anotherdayhadrisen,andshemustwanderon。Itwasnousetothinkofdrowningherself——shecouldnotdoit,atleastwhileshehadmoneylefttobuyfoodandstrengthtojourneyon。
  Buttheincidentonherwakingthismorningheightenedherdreadofthattimewhenhermoneywouldbeallgone;shewouldhavetosellherbasketandclothesthen,andshewouldreallylooklikeabeggarorawildwoman,asthemanhadsaid。Thepassionatejoyinlifeshehadfeltinthenight,afterescapingfromthebrinkoftheblackcolddeathinthepool,wasgonenow。Lifenow,bythemorninglight,withtheimpressionofthatman’shardwonderinglookather,wasasfullofdreadasdeath——itwasworse;itwasadreadtowhichshefeltchained,fromwhichsheshrankandshrankasshedidfromtheblackpool,andyetcouldfindnorefugefromit。
  Shetookouthermoneyfromherpurse,andlookedatit。Shehadstilltwo-and-twentyshillings;itwouldserveherformanydaysmore,oritwouldhelphertogetonfastertoStonyshire,withinreachofDinah。ThethoughtofDinahurgeditselfmorestronglynow,sincetheexperienceofthenighthaddrivenhershudderingimaginationawayfromthepool。IfithadbeenonlygoingtoDinah——ifnobodybesidesDinahwouldeverknow——Hettycouldhavemadeuphermindtogotoher。Thesoftvoice,thepityingeyes,wouldhavedrawnher。Butafterwardstheotherpeoplemustknow,andshecouldnomorerushonthatshamethanshecouldrushondeath。
  Shemustwanderonandon,andwaitforalowerdepthofdespairtogivehercourage。Perhapsdeathwouldcometoher,forshewasgettinglessandlessabletobeartheday’sweariness。Andyet——
  suchisthestrangeactionofoursouls,drawingusbyalurkingdesiretowardstheveryendswedread——Hetty,whenshesetoutagainfromNorton,askedthestraightestroadnorthwardstowardsStonyshire,andkeptitallthatday。
  PoorwanderingHetty,withtheroundedchildishfaceandthehard,unloving,despairingsoullookingoutofit——withthenarrowheartandnarrowthoughts,noroominthemforanysorrowsbutherown,andtastingthatsorrowwiththemoreintensebitterness!MyheartbleedsforherasIseehertoilingalongonherwearyfeet,orseatedinacart,withhereyesfixedvacantlyontheroadbeforeher,neverthinkingorcaringwhitherittends,tillhungercomesandmakesherdesirethatavillagemaybenear。
  Whatwillbetheend,theendofherobjectlesswandering,apartfromalllove,caringforhumanbeingsonlythroughherpride,clingingtolifeonlyasthehuntedwoundedbruteclingstoit?
  Godpreserveyouandmefrombeingthebeginnersofsuchmiserty!
  TheQuestTHEfirsttendaysafterHetty’sdeparturepassedasquietlyasanyotherdayswiththefamilyattheHallFarm,andwithAdamathisdailywork。TheyhadexpectedHettytostayawayaweekortendaysatleast,perhapsalittlelongerifDinahcamebackwithher,becausetheremightthenbesomethungtodetainthematSnowfield。ButwhenafortnighthadpassedtheybegantofeelalittlesurprisethatHettydidnotreturn;shemustsurelyhavefounditpleasantertobewithDinahthananyonecouldhavesupposed。Adam,forhispart,wasgettingveryimpatienttoseeher,andheresolvedthat,ifshedidnotappearthenextdaySaturday,hewouldsetoutonSundaymorningtofetchher。
  TherewasnocoachonaSunday,butbysettingoutbeforeitwaslight,andperhapsgettingaliftinacartbytheway,hewouldarriveprettyearlyatSnowfield,andbringbackHettythenextday——Dinahtoo,ifshewerecoming。ItwasquitetimeHettycamehome,andhewouldaffordtolosehisMondayforthesakeofbringingher。
  HisprojectwasquiteapprovedattheFarmwhenhewentthereonSaturdayevening。Mrs。PoyserdesiredhimemphaticallynottocomebackwithoutHetty,forshehadbeenquitetoolongaway,consideringthethingsshehadtogetreadybythemiddleofMarch,andaweekwassurelyenoughforanyonetogooutfortheirhealth。AsforDinah,Mrs。Poyserhadsmallhopeoftheirbringingher,unlesstheycouldmakeherbelievethefolksatHayslopeweretwiceasmiserableasthefolksatSnowfield。
  "Though,"saidMrs。Poyser,bywayofconclusion,"youmighttellhershe’sgotbutoneauntleft,andSHE’Swastedprettynightoashadder;andweshallp’rhapsallbegonetwentymilefartheroffhernextMichaelmas,andshalldieo’brokenheartsamongstrangefolks,andleavethechildrenfatherlessandmotherless。"
  "Nay,nay,"saidMr。Poyser,whocertainlyhadtheairofamanperfectlyheart-whole,"itisnasobadasthat。Thee’tlookingrarelynow,andgettingflesheveryday。ButI’dbegladforDinaht’come,forshe’dhelptheewi’thelittleuns:theytookt’herwonderful。"
  Soatdaybreak,onSunday,Adamsetoff。Sethwentwithhimthefirstmileortwo,forthethoughtofSnowfieldandthepossibilitythatDinahmightcomeagainmadehimrestless,andthewalkwithAdaminthecoldmorningair,bothintheirbestclothes,helpedtogivehimasenseofSundaycalm。ItwasthelastmorninginFebruary,withalowgreysky,andaslighthoar-
  frostonthegreenborderoftheroadandontheblackhedges。
  Theyheardthegurglingofthefullbrooklethurryingdownthehill,andthefainttwitteringoftheearlybirds。Fortheywalkedinsilence,thoughwithapleasedsenseofcompanionship。
  "Good-bye,lad,"saidAdam,layinghishandonSeth’sshoulderandlookingathimaffectionatelyastheywereabouttopart。"Iwishtheewastgoingallthewaywi’me,andashappyasIam。"
  "I’mcontent,Addy,I’mcontent,"saidSethcheerfully。"I’llbeanoldbachelor,belike,andmakeafusswi’thychildren。"
  The’yturnedawayfromeachother,andSethwalkedleisurelyhomeward,mentallyrepeatingoneofhisfavouritehymns——hewasveryfondofhymns:
  DarkandcheerlessisthemornUnaccompaniedbythee:
  Joylessistheday’sreturnTillthymercy’sbeamsIsee:
  Tillthouinwardlightimpart,Gladmyeyesandwarmmyheart。
  Visit,then,thissoulofmine,Piercethegloomofsinandgrief——
  Fillme,RadiancyDivine,Scatterallmyunbelief。
  Moreandmorethyselfdisplay,Shiningtotheperfectday。
  Adamwalkedmuchfaster,andanyonecomingalongtheOakbourneroadatsunrisethatmorningmusthavehadapleasantsightinthistallbroad-chestedman,stridingalongwithacarriageasuprightandfirmasanysoldier’s,glancingwithkeengladeyesatthedark-bluehillsastheybegantoshowthemselvesonhisway。
  SeldominAdam’slifehadhisfacebeensofreefromanycloudofanxietyasitwasthismorning;andthisfreedomfromcare,asisusualwithconstructivepracticalmindslikehis,madehimallthemoreobservantoftheobjectsroundhimandallthemorereadytogathersuggestionsfromthemtowardshisownfavouriteplansandingeniouscontrivances。Hishappylove——theknowledgethathisstepswerecarryinghimnearerandnearertoHetty,whowassosoontobehis——wastohisthoughtswhatthesweetmorningairwastohissensations:itgavehimaconsciousnessofwell-beingthatmadeactivitydelightful。Everynowandthentherewasarushofmoreintensefeelingtowardsher,whichchasedawayotherimagesthanHetty;andalongwiththatwouldcomeawonderingthankfulnessthatallthishappinesswasgiventohim——thatthislifeofourshadsuchsweetnessinit。ForAdamhadadevoutmind,thoughhewasperhapsratherimpatientofdevoutwords,andhistendernesslayveryclosetohisreverence,sothattheonecouldhardlybestirredwithouttheother。Butafterfeelinghadwelledupandpoureditselfoutinthisway,busythoughtwouldcomebackwiththegreatervigour;andthismorningitwasintentonschemesbywhichtheroadsmightbeimprovedthatweresoimperfectallthroughthecountry,andonpicturingallthebenefitsthatmightcomefromtheexertionsofasinglecountrygentleman,ifhewouldsethimselftogettingtheroadsmadegoodinhisowndistrict。
  Itseemedaveryshortwalk,thetenmilestoOakbourne,thatprettytownwithinsightofthebluehills,wherehebreak-fasted。
  Afterthis,thecountrygrewbarerandbarer:nomorerollingwoods,nomorewide-branchingtreesnearfrequenthomesteads,nomorebushyhedgerows,butgreystonewallsintersectingthemeagrepastures,anddismalwide-scatteredgreystonehousesonbrokenlandswheremineshadbeenandwerenolonger。"Ahungryland,"
  saidAdamtohimself。"I’drathergosouth’ard,wheretheysayit’sasflatasatable,thancometolivehere;thoughifDinahlikestoliveinacountrywhereshecanbethemostcomforttofolks,she’si’therighttoliveo’thisside;forshemustlookasifshe’dcomestraightfromheaven,liketh’angelsinthedesert,tostrengthenthemasha’gotnothingt’eat。"AndwhenatlasthecameinsightofSnowfield,hethoughtitlookedlikeatownthatwas"fellowtothecountry,"thoughthestreamthroughthevalleywherethegreatmillstoodgaveapleasantgreennesstothelowerfields。Thetownlay,grim,stony,andunsheltered,upthesideofasteephill,andAdamdidnotgoforwardtoitatpresent,forSethhadtoldhimwheretofindDinah。Itwasatathatchedcottageoutsidethetown,alittlewayfromthemill——anoldcottage,standingsidewaystowardstheroad,withalittlebitofpotato-groundbeforeit。HereDinahlodgedwithanelderlycouple;andifsheandHettyhappenedtobeout,Adamcouldlearnwheretheyweregone,orwhentheywouldbeathomeagain。Dinahmightbeoutonsomepreachingerrand,andperhapsshewouldhaveleftHettyathome。Adamcouldnothelphopingthis,andasherecognizedthecottagebytheroadsidebeforehim,thereshoneoutinhisfacethatinvoluntarysmilewhichbelongstotheexpectationofanearjoy。
  Hehurriedhisstepalongthenarrowcauseway,andrappedatthedoor。Itwasopenedbyaverycleanoldwoman,withaslowpalsiedshakeofthehead。
  "IsDinahMorrisathome?"saidAdam。
  "Eh?……no,"saidtheoldwoman,lookingupatthistallstrangerwithawonderthatmadeherslowerofspeechthanusual。"Willyoupleasetocomein?"sheadded,retiringfromthedoor,asifrecollectingherself。"Why,ye’rebrothertotheyoungmanascomeafore,arenaye?"
  "Yes,"saidAdam,entering。"ThatwasSethBede。I’mhisbrotherAdam。Hetoldmetogivehisrespectstoyouandyourgoodmaster。"
  "Aye,thesamet’him。Hewasagraciousyoungman。An’yefeaturehim,on’yye’redarker。Sityedowni’th’arm-chair。Mymanisnacomehomefrommeeting。"
  Adamsatdownpatiently,notlikingtohurrytheshakingoldwomanwithquestions,butlookingeagerlytowardsthenarrowtwistingstairsinonecorner,forhethoughtitwaspossibleHettymighthaveheardhisvoiceandwouldcomedownthem。
  "Soyou’recometoseeDinahMorris?"saidtheoldwoman,standingoppositetohim。"An’youdidn’knowshewasawayfromhome,then?"
  "No,"saidAdam,"butIthoughtitlikelyshemightbeaway,seeingasit’sSunday。Buttheotheryoungwoman——issheathome,orgonealongwithDinah?"
  TheoldwomanlookedatAdamwithabewilderedair。
  "Gonealongwi’her?"shesaid。"Eh,Dinah’sgonetoLeeds,abigtownyemayha’hearedon,wherethere’samanyo’theLord’speople。She’sbeengonesin’Fridaywasafortnight:theysentherthemoneyforherjourney。Youmayseeherroomhere,"shewenton,openingadoorandnotnoticingtheeffectofherwordsonAdam。Heroseandfollowedher,anddartedaneagerglanceintothelittleroomwithitsnarrowbed,theportraitofWesleyonthewall,andthefewbookslyingonthelargeBible。HehadhadanirrationalhopethatHettymightbethere。Hecouldnotspeakinthefirstmomentafterseeingthattheroomwasempty;anundefinedfearhadseizedhim——somethinghadhappenedtoHettyonthejourney。Stilltheoldwomanwassoslowof;speechandapprehension,thatHettymightbeatSnowfieldafterall。
  "It’sapityyedidnaknow,"shesaid。"Haveyecomefromyourowncountryo’purposetoseeher?"
  "ButHetty——HettySorrel,"saidAdam,abruptly;"Whereisshe?"
  "Iknownobodybythatname,"saidtheoldwoman,wonderingly。
  "Isitanybodyye’vehearedonatSnowfield?"
  "Didtherecomenoyoungwomanhere——veryyoungandpretty——Fridaywasafortnight,toseeDinahMorris?"
  "Nay;I’nseennoyoungwoman。"
  "Think;areyouquitesure?Agirl,eighteenyearsold,withdarkeyesanddarkcurlyhair,andaredcloakon,andabasketonherarm?Youcouldn’tforgetherifyousawher。"
  "Nay;Fridaywasafortnight——itwasthedayasDinahwentaway——
  therecomenobody。There’sne’erbeennobodyaskingforhertillyoucome,forthefolksaboutknowasshe’sgone。Ehdear,ehdear,istheresummatthematter?"
  TheoldwomanhadseentheghastlylookoffearinAdam’sface。
  Buthewasnotstunnedorconfounded:hewasthinkingeagerlywherehecouldinquireaboutHetty。
  "Yes;ayoungwomanstartedfromourcountrytoseeDinah,Fridaywasafortnight。Icametofetchherback。I’mafraidsomethinghashappenedtoher。Ican’tstop。Good-bye。"
  Hehastenedoutofthecottage,andtheoldwomanfollowedhimtothegate,watchinghimsadlywithhershakingheadashealmostrantowardsthetown。HewasgoingtoinquireattheplacewheretheOakbournecoachstopped。
  No!NoyoungwomanlikeHettyhadbeenseenthere。Hadanyaccidenthappenedtothecoachafortnightago?No。AndtherewasnocoachtotakehimbacktoOakbournethatday。Well,hewouldwalk:hecouldn’tstayhere,inwretchedinaction。Buttheinnkeeper,seeingthatAdamwasingreatanxiety,andenteringintothisnewincidentwiththeeagernessofamanwhopassesagreatdealoftimewithhishandsinhispocketslookingintoanobstinatelymonotonousstreet,offeredtotakehimbacktoOakbourneinhisown"taxedcart"thisveryevening。Itwasnotfiveo’clock;therewasplentyoftimeforAdamtotakeamealandyettogettoOakbournebeforeteno’clock。TheinnkeeperdeclaredthathereallywantedtogotoOakbourne,andmightaswellgoto-night;heshouldhaveallMondaybeforehimthen。
  Adam,aftermakinganineffectualattempttoeat,putthefoodinhispocket,and,drinkingadraughtofale,declaredhimselfreadytosetoff。Astheyapproachedthecottage,itoccurredtohimthathewoulddowelltolearnfromtheoldwomanwhereDinahwastobefoundinLeeds:iftherewastroubleattheHallFarm——heonlyhalf-admittedtheforebodingthattherewouldbe——thePoysersmightliketosendforDinah。ButDinahhadnotleftanyaddress,andtheoldwoman,whosememoryfornameswasinfirm,couldnotrecallthenameofthe"blessedwoman"whowasDinah’schieffriendintheSocietyatLeeds。
  Duringthatlong,longjourneyinthetaxedcart,therewastimeforalltheconjecturesofimportunatefearandstrugglinghope。
  IntheveryfirstshockofdiscoveringthatHettyhadnotbeentoSnowfield,thethoughtofArthurhaddartedthroughAdamlikeasharppang,buthetriedforsometimetowardoffitsreturnbybusyinghimselfwithmodesofaccountingforthealarmingfact,quiteapartfromthatintolerablethought。Someaccidenthadhappened。Hettyhad,bysomestrangechance,gotintoawrongvehiclefromOakbourne:shehadbeentakenill,anddidnotwanttofrightenthembylettingthemknow。Butthisfrailfenceofvagueimprobabilitieswassoonhurleddownbyarushofdistinctagonizingfears。Hettyhadbeendeceivingherselfinthinkingthatshecouldloveandmarryhim:shehadbeenlovingArthurallthewhile;andnow,inherdesperationatthenearnessoftheirmarriage,shehadrunaway。Andshewasgonetohim。Theoldindignationandjealousyroseagain,andpromptedthesuspicionthatArthurhadbeendealingfalsely——hadwrittentoHetty——hadtemptedhertocometohim——beingunwilling,afterall,thatsheshouldbelongtoanothermanbesideshimself。Perhapsthewholethinghadbeencontrivedbyhim,andhehadgivenherdirectionshowtofollowhimtoIreland——forAdamknewthatArthurhadbeengonethitherthreeweeksago,havingrecentlylearntitattheChase。EverysadlookofHetty’s,sinceshehadbeenengagedtoAdam,returneduponhimnowwithalltheexaggerationofpainfulretrospect。Hehadbeenfoolishlysanguineandconfident。Thepoorthinghadn’tperhapsknownherownmindforalongwhile;hadthoughtthatshecouldforgetArthur;hadbeenmomentarilydrawntowardsthemanwhoofferedheraprotecting,faithfullove。Hecouldn’tbeartoblameher:shenevermeanttocausehimthisdreadfulpain。Theblamelaywiththatmanwhohadselfishlyplayedwithherheart——hadperhapsevendeliberatelyluredheraway。
  AtOakbourne,theostlerattheRoyalOakrememberedsuchayoungwomanasAdamdescribedgettingoutoftheTreddlestoncoachmorethanafortnightago——wasn’tlikelytoforgetsuchaprettylassasthatinahurry——wassureshehadnotgoneonbytheBuxtoncoachthatwentthroughSnowfield,buthadlostsightofherwhilehewentawaywiththehorsesandhadneverseteyesonheragain。
  AdamthenwentstraighttothehousefromwhichtheStonitioncoachstarted:StonitonwasthemostobviousplaceforHettytogotofirst,whatevermightbeherdestination,forshewouldhardlyventureonanybutthechiefcoach-roads。Shehadbeennoticedheretoo,andwasrememberedtohavesatontheboxbythecoachman;butthecoachmancouldnotbeseen,foranothermanhadbeendrivingonthatroadinhissteadthelastthreeorfourdays。HecouldprobablybeseenatStoniton,throughinquiryattheinnwherethecoachputup。Sotheanxiousheart-strickenAdammustofnecessitywaitandtrytoresttillmorning——nay,tilleleveno’clock,whenthecoachstarted。
  AtStonitonanotherdelayoccurred,fortheoldcoachmanwhohaddrivenHettywouldnotbeinthetownagaintillnight。WhenhedidcomeherememberedHettywell,andrememberedhisownjokeaddressedtoher,quotingitmanytimestoAdam,andobservingwithequalfrequencythathethoughttherewassomethingmorethancommon,becauseHettyhadnotlaughedwhenhejokedher。Buthedeclared,asthepeoplehaddoneattheinn,thathehadlostsightofHettydirectlyshegotdown。Partofthenextmorningwasconsumedininquiriesateveryhouseinthetownfromwhichacoachstarted——allinvain,foryouknowHettydidnotstartfromStonitionbycoach,butonfootinthegreymorning——andtheninwalkingouttothefirsttoll-gatesonthedifferentlinesofroad,intheforlornhopeoffindingsomerecollectionofherthere。No,shewasnottobetracedanyfarther;andthenexthardtaskforAdamwastogohomeandcarrythewretchedtidingstotheHallFarm。Astowhatheshoulddobeyondthat,hehadcometotwodistinctresolutionsamidstthetumultofthoughtandfeelingwhichwasgoingonwithinhimwhilehewenttoandfro。
  HewouldnotmentionwhatheknewofArthurDonnithorne’sbehaviourtoHettytilltherewasaclearnecessityforit:itwasstillpossibleHettymightcomeback,andthedisclosuremightbeaninjuryoranoffencetoher。Andassoonashehadbeenhomeanddonewhatwasnecessarytheretoprepareforhisfurtherabsence,hewouldstartofftoIreland:ifhefoundnotraceofHettyontheroad,hewouldgostraighttoArthurDonnithorneandmakehimselfcertainhowfarhewasacquaintedwithhermovements。
  SeveraltimesthethoughtoccurredtohimthathewouldconsultMr。Irwine,butthatwouldbeuselessunlesshetoldhimall,andsobetrayedthesecretaboutArthur。ItseemsstrangethatAdam,intheincessantoccupationofhismindaboutHetty,shouldneverhavealightedontheprobabilitythatshehadgonetoWindsor,ignorantthatArthurwasnolongerthere。PerhapsthereasonwasthathecouldnotconceiveHetty’sthrowingherselfonArthuruncalled;heimaginednocausethatcouldhavedrivenhertosuchastep,afterthatletterwritteninAugust。Therewerebuttwoalternativesinhismind:eitherArthurhadwrittentoheragainandenticedheraway,orshehadsimplyfledfromherapproachingmarriagewithhimselfbecauseshefound,afterall,shecouldnotlovehimwellenough,andyetwasafraidofherfriends’angerifsheretracted。
  Withthislastdeterminationonhismind,ofgoingstraighttoArthur,thethoughtthathehadspenttwodaysininquirieswhichhadprovedtobealmostuseless,wastorturingtoAdam;andyet,sincehewouldnottellthePoysershisconvictionastowhereHettywasgone,orhisintentiontofollowherthither,hemustbeabletosaytothemthathehadtracedherasfaraspossible。
  Itwasaftertwelveo’clockonTuesdaynightwhenAdamreachedTreddleston;and,unwillingtodisturbhismotherandSeth,andalsotoencountertheirquestionsatthathour,hethrewhimselfwithoutundressingonabedatthe"WaggonOverthrown,"andslepthardfrompureweariness。Notmorethanfourhours,however,forbeforefiveo’clockhesetoutonhiswayhomeinthefaintmorningtwilight。Healwayskeptakeyoftheworkshopdoorinhispocket,sothathecouldlethimselfin;andhewishedtoenterwithoutawakinghismother,forhewasanxioustoavoidtellingherthenewtroublehimselfbyseeingSethfirst,andaskinghimtotellherwhenitshouldbenecessary。Hewalkedgentlyalongtheyard,andturnedthekeygentlyinthedoor;but,asheexpected,Gyp,wholayintheworkshop,gaveasharpbark。
  ItsubsidedwhenhesawAdam,holdinguphisfingerathimtoimposesilence,andinhisdumb,taillessjoyhemustcontenthimselfwithrubbinghisbodyagainsthismaster’slegs。
  Adamwastooheart-sicktotakenoticeofGyp’sfondling。Hethrewhimselfonthebenchandstareddullyatthewoodandthesignsofworkaroundhim,wonderingifheshouldevercometofeelpleasureinthemagain,whileGyp,dimlyawarethattherewassomethingwrongwithhismaster,laidhisroughgreyheadonAdam’skneeandwrinkledhisbrowstolookupathim。Hitherto,sinceSundayafternoon,Adamhadbeenconstantlyamongstrangepeopleandinstrangeplaces,havingnoassociationswiththedetailsofhisdailylife,andnowthatbythelightofthisnewmorninghewascomebacktohishomeandsurroundedbythefamiliarobjectsthatseemedforeverrobbedoftheircharm,thereality——thehard,inevitablerealityofhistroublespresseduponhimwithanewweight。Rightbeforehimwasanunfinishedchestofdrawers,whichhehadbeenmakinginsparemomentsforHetty’suse,whenhishomeshouldbehers。
  SethhadnotheardAdam’sentrance,buthehadbeenrousedbyGyp’sbark,andAdamheardhimmovingaboutintheroomabove,dressinghimself。Seth’sfirstthoughtswereabouthisbrother:
  hewouldcomehometo-day,surely,forthebusinesswouldbewantinghimsadlybyto-morrow,butitwaspleasanttothinkhehadhadalongerholidaythanhehadexpected。AndwouldDinahcometoo?Sethfeltthatthatwasthegreatesthappinesshecouldlookforwardtoforhimself,thoughhehadnohopeleftthatshewouldeverlovehimwellenoughtomarryhim;buthehadoftensaidtohimself,itwasbettertobeDinah’sfriendandbrotherthananyotherwoman’shusband。Ifhecouldbutbealwaysnearher,insteadoflivingsofaroff!
  Hecamedownstairsandopenedtheinnerdoorleadingfromthekitchenintotheworkshop,intendingtoletoutGyp;buthestoodstillinthedoorway,smittenwithasuddenshockatthesightofAdamseatedlistlesslyonthebench,pale,unwashed,withsunkenblankeyes,almostlikeadrunkardinthemorning。ButSethfeltinaninstantwhatthemarksmeant——notdrunkenness,butsomegreatcalamity。Adamlookedupathimwithoutspeaking,andSethmovedforwardtowardsthebench,himselftremblingsothatspeechdidnotcomereadily。
  "Godhavemercyonus,Addy,"hesaid,inalowvoice,sittingdownonthebenchbesideAdam,"whatisit?"
  Adamwasunabletospeak。Thestrongman,accustomedtosuppressthesignsofsorrow,hadfelthisheartswelllikeachild’satthisfirstapproachofsympathy。HefellonSeth’sneckandsobbed。
  Sethwaspreparedfortheworstnow,for,eveninhisrecollectionsoftheirboyhood,Adamhadneversobbedbefore。
  "Isitdeath,Adam?Isshedead?"heasked,inalowtone,whenAdamraisedhisheadandwasrecoveringhimself。
  "No,lad;butshe’sgone——goneawayfromus。She’sneverbeentoSnowfield。Dinah’sbeengonetoLeedseversincelastFridaywasafortnight,theverydayHettysetout。Ican’tfindoutwhereshewentaftershegottoStoniton。"
  Sethwassilentfromutterastonishment:heknewnothingthatcouldsuggesttohimareasonforHetty’sgoingaway。
  "Hastanynotionwhatshe’sdoneitfor?"hesaid,atlast。
  "Shecan’tha’lovedme。Shedidn’tlikeourmarriagewhenitcamenigh——thatmustbeit,"saidAdam。Hehaddeterminedtomentionnofurtherreason。
  "IhearMotherstirring,"saidSeth。"Mustwetellher?"
  "No,notyet,"saidAdam,risingfromthebenchandpushingthehairfromhisface,asifhewantedtorousehimself。"Ican’thavehertoldyet;andImustsetoutonanotherjourneydirectly,afterI’vebeentothevillageandth’HallFarm。Ican’ttelltheewhereI’mgoing,andtheemustsaytoherI’mgoneonbusinessasnobodyistoknowanythingabout。I’llgoandwashmyselfnow。"Adammovedtowardsthedooroftheworkshop,butafterasteportwoheturnedround,and,meetingSeth’seyeswithacalmsadglance,hesaid,"Imusttakeallthemoneyouto’thetinbox,lad;butifanythinghappenstome,alltherest’llbethine,totakecareo’Motherwith。"
  Sethwaspaleandtrembling:hefelttherewassometerriblesecretunderallthis。"Brother,"hesaid,faintly——henevercalledAdam"Brother"exceptinsolemnmoments——"Idon’tbelieveyou’lldoanythingasyoucan’taskGod’sblessingon。"
  "Nay,lad,"saidAdam,"don’tbeafraid。I’mfordoingnoughtbutwhat’saman’sduty。"
  Thethoughtthatifhebetrayedhistroubletohismother,shewouldonlydistresshimbywords,halfofblunderingaffection,halfofirrepressibletriumphthatHettyprovedasunfittobehiswifeasshehadalwaysforeseen,broughtbacksomeofhishabitualfirmnessandself-command。Hehadfeltillonhisjourneyhome——
  hetoldherwhenshecamedown——hadstayedallnightatTredddlestonforthatreason;andabadheadache,thatstillhungabouthimthismorning,accountedforhispalenessandheavyeyes。
  Hedeterminedtogotothevillage,inthefirstplace,attendtohisbusinessforanhour,andgivenoticetoBurgeofhisbeingobligedtogoonajourney,whichhemustbeghimnottomentiontoanyone;forhewishedtoavoidgoingtotheHallFarmnearbreakfast-time,whenthechildrenandservantswouldbeinthehouse-place,andtheremustbeexclamationsintheirhearingabouthishavingreturnedwithoutHetty。Hewaiteduntiltheclockstruckninebeforeheleftthework-yardatthevillage,andsetoff,throughthefields,towardstheFarm。Itwasanimmenserelieftohim,ashecameneartheHomeClose,toseeMr。Poyseradvancingtowardshim,forthiswouldsparehimthepainofgoingtothehouse。Mr。PoyserwaswalkingbrisklythisMarchmorning,withasenseofspringbusinessonhismind:hewasgoingtocastthemaster’seyeontheshoeingofanewcart-horse,carryinghisspudasausefulcompanionbytheway。HissurprisewasgreatwhenhecaughtsightofAdam,buthewasnotamangiventopresentimentsofevil。
  "Why,Adam,lad,is’tyou?Haveyebeenallthistimeawayandnotbroughtthelassesback,afterall?Wherearethey?"
  "No,I’venotbrought’em,"saidAdam,turninground,toindicatethathewishedtowalkbackwithMr。Poyser。
  "Why,"saidMartin,lookingwithsharperattentionatAdam,"yelookbad。Isthereanythinghappened?"
  "Yes,"saidAdam,heavily。"Asadthing’shappened。IdidnafindHettyatSnowfield。"
  Mr。Poyser’sgood-naturedfaceshowedsignsoftroubledastonishment。"Notfindher?What’shappenedtoher?"hesaid,histhoughtsflyingatoncetobodilyaccident。
  "ThatIcan’ttell,whetheranything’shappenedtoher。SheneverwenttoSnowfield——shetookthecoachtoStoniton,butIcan’tlearnnothingofheraftershegotdownfromtheStonitoncoach。"
  "Why,youdonnameanshe’srunaway?"saidMartin,standingstill,sopuzzledandbewilderedthatthefactdidnotyetmakeitselffeltasatroublebyhim。
  "Shemustha’done,"saidAdam。"Shedidn’tlikeourmarriagewhenitcametothepoint——thatmustbeit。She’dmistookherfeelings。"
  Martinwassilentforaminuteortwo,lookingonthegroundandrootingupthegrasswithhisspud,withoutknowingwhathewasdoing。Hisusualslownesswasalwaystrebledwhenthesubjectofspeechwaspainful。Atlasthelookedup,rightinAdam’sface,saying,"Thenshedidnadeservet’ha’ye,mylad。An’Ifeeli’
  faultmyself,forshewasmyniece,andIwasallayshotforhermarr’ingye。There’snoamendsIcanmakeye,lad——themore’sthepity:it’sasadcut-upforye,Idoubt。"
  Adamcouldsaynothing;andMr。Poyser,afterpursuinghiswalkforalittlewhile,wenton,"I’llbeboundshe’sgoneaftertryingtogetalady’smaid’splace,forshe’dgotthatinherheadhalfayearago,andwantedmetogi’myconsent。ButI’dthoughtbetteronher"——headded,shakinghisheadslowlyandsadly——"I’dthoughtbetteronher,nortolookforthis,aftershe’dgi’eny’herword,an’everythingbeengotready。"
  AdamhadthestrongestmotivesforencouragingthissuppositioninMr。Poyser,andheeventriedtobelievethatitmightpossiblybetrue。HehadnowarrantforthecertaintythatshewasgonetoArthur。
  "Itwasbetteritshouldbeso,"hesaid,asquietlyashecould,"ifshefeltshecouldn’tlikemeforahusband。Betterrunawaybeforethanrepentafter。Ihopeyouwon’tlookharshlyonherifshecomesback,asshemaydoifshefindsithardtogetonawayfromhome。"
  "IcannalookonherasI’vedonebefore,"saidMartindecisively。
  "She’sactedbadbyyou,andbyallofus。ButI’llnotturnmybackonher:she’sbutayoungun,andit’sthefirstharmI’veknowedonher。It’llbeahardjobformetotellheraunt。WhydidnaDinahcomebackwi’ye?She’dha’helpedtopacifyherauntabit。"
  "Dinahwasn’tatSnowfield。She’sbeengonetoLeedsthisfortnight,andIcouldn’tlearnfromth’oldwomananydirectionwheresheisatLeeds,elseIshouldha’broughtityou。"
  "She’dadealbetterbestayingwi’herownkin,"saidMr。Poyser,indignantly,"thangoingpreachingamongstrangefolksa-that’n。"
  "Imustleaveyounow,Mr。Poyser,"saidAdam,"forI’veadealtoseeto。"
  "Aye,you’dbestbeafteryourbusiness,andImusttellthemissiswhenIgohome。It’sahardjob。"
  "But,"saidAdam,"Ibegparticular,you’llkeepwhat’shappenedquietforaweekortwo。I’venottoldmymotheryet,andthere’snoknowinghowthingsmayturnout。"
  "Aye,aye;leastsaid,soonestmended。We’nnoneedtosaywhythematchisbrokeoff,an’wemayhearofherafterabit。Shakehandswi’me,lad:IwishIcouldmaketheeamends。"
  TherewassomethinginMartinPoyser’sthroatatthatmomentwhichcausedhimtobringoutthosescantywordsinratherabrokenfashion。YetAdamknewwhattheymeantallthebetter,andthetwohonestmengraspedeachother’shardhandsinmutualunderstanding。
  TherewasnothingnowtohinderAdamfromsettingoff。HehadtoldSethtogototheChaseandleaveamessageforthesquire,sayingthatAdamBedehadbeenobligedtostartoffsuddenlyonajourney——andtosayasmuch,andnomore,toanyoneelsewhomadeinquiriesabouthim。IfthePoyserslearnedthathewasgoneawayagain,AdamknewtheywouldinferthathewasgoneinsearchofHetty。
  HehadintendedtogorightonhiswayfromtheHallFarm,butnowtheimpulsewhichhadfrequentlyvisitedhimbefore——togotoMr。
  Irwine,andmakeaconfidantofhim——recurredwiththenewforcewhichbelongstoalastopportunity。Hewasabouttostartonalongjourney——adifficultone——bysea——andnosoulwouldknowwherehewasgone。Ifanythinghappenedtohim?Or,ifheabsolutelyneededhelpinanymatterconcerningHetty?Mr。Irwinewastobetrusted;andthefeelingwhichmadeAdamshrinkfromtellinganythingwhichwashersecretmustgivewaybeforetheneedtherewasthatsheshouldhavesomeoneelsebesideshimselfwhowouldbepreparedtodefendherintheworstextremity。
  TowardsArthur,eventhoughhemighthaveincurrednonewguilt,AdamfeltthathewasnotboundtokeepsilencewhenHetty’sinterestcalledonhimtospeak。
  "Imustdoit,"saidAdam,whenthesethoughts,whichhadspreadthemselvesthroughhoursofhissadjourneying,nowrusheduponhiminaninstant,likeawavethathadbeenslowlygathering;
  "it’stherightthing。Ican’tstandaloneinthiswayanylonger。"
  TheTidingsADAMturnedhisfacetowardsBroxtonandwalkedwithhisswifteststride,lookingathiswatchwiththefearthatMr。Irwinemightbegoneout——hunting,perhaps。Thefearandhastetogetherproducedastateofstrongexcitementbeforehereachedtherectorygate,andoutsideithesawthedeepmarksofarecenthoofonthegravel。
  Butthehoofswereturnedtowardsthegate,notawayfromit,andthoughtherewasahorseagainstthestabledoor,itwasnotMr。
  Irwine’s:ithadevidentlyhadajourneythismorning,andmustbelongtosomeonewhohadcomeonbusiness。Mr。Irwinewasathome,then;butAdamcouldhardlyfindbreathandcalmnesstotellCarrollthathewantedtospeaktotherector。Thedoublesufferingofcertainanduncertainsorrowhadbeguntoshakethestrongman。Thebutlerlookedathimwonderingly,ashethrewhimselfonabenchinthepassageandstaredabsentlyattheclockontheoppositewall。Themasterhadsomebodywithhim,hesaid,butheheardthestudydooropen——thestrangerseemedtobecomingout,andasAdamwasinahurry,hewouldletthemasterknowatonce。
  Adamsatlookingattheclock:theminute-handwashurryingalongthelastfiveminutestotenwithaloud,hard,indifferenttick,andAdamwatchedthemovementandlistenedtothesoundasifhehadhadsomereasonfordoingso。Inourtimesofbittersufferingtherearealmostalwaysthesepauses,whenourconsciousnessisbenumbedtoeverythingbutsometrivialperceptionorsensation。Itisasifsemi-idiocycametogiveusrestfromthememoryandthedreadwhichrefusetoleaveusinoursleep。
  Carroll,comingback,recalledAdamtothesenseofhisburden。
  Hewastogointothestudyimmediately。"Ican’tthinkwhatthatstrangeperson’scomeabout,"thebutleradded,frommereincontinenceofremark,asheprecededAdamtothedoor,"he’sgonei’thedining-room。Andmasterlooksunaccountable——asifhewasfrightened。"Adamtooknonoticeofthewords:hecouldnotcareaboutotherpeople’sbusiness。ButwhenheenteredthestudyandlookedinMr。Irwine’sface,hefeltinaninstantthattherewasanewexpressioninit,strangelydifferentfromthewarmfriendlinessithadalwayswornforhimbefore。Aletterlayopenonthetable,andMr。Irwine’shandwasonit,butthechangedglancehecastonAdamcouldnotbeowingentirelytopreoccupationwithsomedisagreeablebusiness,forhewaslookingeagerlytowardsthedoor,asifAdam’sentrancewereamatterofpoignantanxietytohim。
  "Youwanttospeaktome,Adam,"hesaid,inthatlowconstrainedlyquiettonewhichamanuseswhenheisdeterminedtosuppressagitation。"Sitdownhere。"Hepointedtoachairjustoppositetohim,atnomorethanayard’sdistancefromhisown,andAdamsatdownwithasensethatthiscoldmannerofMr。
  Irwine’sgaveanadditionalunexpecteddifficultytohisdisclosure。ButwhenAdamhadmadeuphismindtoameasure,hewasnotthemantorenounceitforanybutimperativereasons。
  "Icometoyou,sir,"hesaid,"asthegentlemanIlookuptomostofanybody。I’vesomethingverypainfultotellyou——somethingasit’llpainyoutohearaswellasmetotell。ButifIspeako’
  thewrongotherpeoplehavedone,you’llseeIdidn’tspeaktillI’dgoodreason。"
  Mr。Irwinenoddedslowly,andAdamwentonrathertremulously,"Youwast’ha’marriedmeandHettySorrel,youknow,sir,o’thefifteentho’thismonth。Ithoughtshelovedme,andIwasth’
  happiestmani’theparish。Butadreadfulblow’scomeuponme。"
  Mr。Irwinestartedupfromhischair,asifinvoluntarily,butthen,determinedtocontrolhimself,walkedtothewindowandlookedout。
  "She’sgoneaway,sir,andwedon’tknowwhere。ShesaidshewasgoingtoSnowfieldo’Fridaywasafortnight,andIwentlastSundaytofetchherback;butshe’dneverbeenthere,andshetookthecoachtoStoniton,andbeyondthatIcan’ttraceher。ButnowI’mgoingalongjourneytolookforher,andIcan’ttrustt’
  anybodybutyouwhereI’mgoing。"
  Mr。Irwinecamebackfromthewindowandsatdown。
  "Haveyounoideaofthereasonwhyshewentaway?"hesaid。
  "It’splainenoughshedidn’twanttomarryme,sir,"saidAdam。
  "Shedidn’tlikeitwhenitcamesonear。Butthatisn’tall,I
  doubt。There’ssomethingelseImusttellyou,sir。There’ssomebodyelseconcernedbesidesme。"
  Agleamofsomething——itwasalmostlikerelieforjoy——cameacrosstheeageranxietyofMr。Irwine’sfaceatthatmoment。
  Adamwaslookingontheground,andpausedalittle:thenextwordswerehardtospeak。Butwhenhewenton,helifteduphisheadandlookedstraightatMr。Irwine。Hewoulddothethinghehadresolvedtodo,withoutflinching。
  "Youknowwho’sthemanI’vereckonedmygreatestfriend,"hesaid,"andusedtobeproudtothinkasIshouldpassmylifei’
  workingforhim,andhadfeltsoeversincewewerelads……"
  Mr。Irwine,asifallself-controlhadforsakenhim,graspedAdam’sarm,whichlayonthetable,and,clutchingittightlylikeamaninpain,said,withpalelipsandalowhurriedvoice,"No,Adam,no——don’tsayit,forGod’ssake!"
  Adam,surprisedattheviolenceofMr。Irwine’sfeeling,repentedofthewordsthathadpassedhislipsandsatindistressedsilence。Thegrasponhisarmgraduallyrelaxed,andMr。Irwinethrewhimselfbackinhischair,saying,"Goon——Imustknowit。"
  "ThatmanplayedwithHetty’sfeelings,andbehavedtoherashe’dnorighttodotoagirlinherstationo’life——madeherpresentsandusedtogoandmeetherouta-walking。Ifounditoutonlytwodaysbeforehewentaway——foundhima-kissingherastheywerepartingintheGrove。There’dbeennothingsaidbetweenmeandHettythen,thoughI’dlovedherforalongwhile,andsheknewit。ButIreproachedhimwithhiswrongactions,andwordsandblowspassedbetweenus;andhesaidsolemnlytome,afterthat,asithadbeenallnonsenseandnomorethanabito’flirting。
  ButImadehimwritealettertotellHettyhe’dmeantnothing,forIsawclearenough,sir,byseveralthingsasIhadn’tunderstoodatthetime,ashe’dgotholdofherheart,andI
  thoughtshe’dbelikegoonthinkingofhimandnevercometoloveanothermanaswantedtomarryher。AndIgavehertheletter,andsheseemedtobearitallafterawhilebetterthanI’dexpected……andshebehavedkinderandkindertome……Idaresayshedidn’tknowherownfeelingsthen,poorthing,andtheycamebackuponherwhenitwastoolate……Idon’twanttoblameher……I
  can’tthinkasshemeanttodeceiveme。ButIwasencouragedtothinkshelovedme,and——youknowtherest,sir。Butit’sonmymindashe’sbeenfalsetome,and’ticedheraway,andshe’sgonetohim——andI’mgoingnowtosee,forIcannevergotoworkagaintillIknowwhat’sbecomeofher。"
  DuringAdam’snarrative,Mr。Irwinehadhadtimetorecoverhisself-masteryinspiteofthepainfulthoughtsthatcrowdeduponhim。Itwasabitterremembrancetohimnow——thatmorningwhenArthurbreakfastedwithhimandseemedasifhewereonthevergeofaconfession。Itwasplainenoughnowwhathehadwantedtoconfess。Andiftheirwordshadtakenanotherturn……ifhehimselfhadbeenlessfastidiousaboutintrudingonanotherman’ssecrets……itwascrueltothinkhowthinafilmhadshutoutrescuefromallthisguiltandmisery。Hesawthewholehistorynowbythatterribleilluminationwhichthepresentshedsbackuponthepast。Buteveryotherfeelingasitrusheduponhiswasthrownintoabeyancebypity,deeprespectfulpity,forthemanwhosatbeforehim——alreadysobruised,goingforthwithsadblindresignednesstoanunrealsorrow,whilearealonewascloseuponhim,toofarbeyondtherangeofcommontrialforhimevertohavefearedit。Hisownagitationwasquelledbyacertainawethatcomesoverusinthepresenceofagreatanguish,fortheanguishhemustinflictonAdamwasalreadypresenttohim。Againheputhishandonthearmthatlayonthetable,butverygentlythistime,ashesaidsolemnly:
  "Adam,mydearfriend,youhavehadsomehardtrialsinyourlife。
  Youcanbearsorrowmanfully,aswellasactmanfully。Godrequiresbothtasksatourhands。Andthereisaheaviersorrowcominguponyouthananyyouhaveyetknown。Butyouarenotguilty——youhavenottheworstofallsorrows。Godhelphimwhohas!"
  Thetwopalefaceslookedateachother;inAdam’stherewastremblingsuspense,inMr。Irwine’shesitating,shrinkingpity。
  Buthewenton。
  "IhavehadnewsofHettythismorning。Sheisnotgonetohim。
  SheisinStonyshire——atStoniton。"
  Adamstartedupfromhischair,asifhethoughthecouldhaveleapedtoherthatmoment。ButMr。Irwinelaidholdofhisarmagainandsaid,persuasively,"Wait,Adam,wait。"Sohesatdown。
  "Sheisinaveryunhappyposition——onewhichwillmakeitworseforyoutofindher,mypoorfriend,thantohavelostherforever。"
  Adam’slipsmovedtremulously,butnosoundcame。Theymovedagain,andhewhispered,"Tellme。"
  "Shehasbeenarrested……sheisinprison。"
  ItwasasifaninsultingblowhadbroughtbackthespiritofresistanceintoAdam。Thebloodrushedtohisface,andhesaid,loudlyandsharply,"Forwhat?"
  "Foragreatcrime——themurderofherchild。"
  "ItCAN’TBE!"Adamalmostshouted,startingupfromhiscnairandmakingastridetowardsthedoor;butheturnedroundagain,settinghisbackagainstthebookcase,andlookingfiercelyatMr。
  Irwine。"Itisn’tpossible。Sheneverhadachild。Shecan’tbeguilty。WHOsaysit?"
  "Godgrantshemaybeinnocent,Adam。Wecanstillhopesheis。"
  "Butwhosayssheisguilty?"saidAdamviolently。"Tellmeeverything。"
  "Hereisaletterfromthemagistratebeforewhomshewastaken,andtheconstablewhoarrestedherisinthedining-room。Shewillnotconfesshernameorwhereshecomesfrom;butIfear,I
  fear,therecanbenodoubtitisHetty。Thedescriptionofherpersoncorresponds,onlythatsheissaidtolookverypaleandill。Shehadasmallred-leatherpocket-bookinherpocketwithtwonameswritteninit——oneatthebeginning,’HettySorrel,Hayslope,’andtheotherneartheend,’DinahMorris,Snowfield。’
  Shewillnotsaywhichisherownname——shedenieseverything,andwillanswernoquestions,andapplicationhasbeenmadetome,asamagistrate,thatImaytakemeasuresforidentifyingher,foritwasthoughtprobablethatthenamewhichstandsfirstisherownname。"
  "Butwhatproofhavetheygotagainsther,ifitISHetty?"saidAdam,stillviolently,withaneffortthatseemedtoshakehiswholeframe。"I’llnotbelieveit。Itcouldn’tha’been,andnoneofusknowit。"
  "Terribleproofthatshewasunderthetemptationtocommitthecrime;butwehaveroomtohopethatshedidnotreallycommitit。
  Tryandreadthatletter,Adam。"
  Adamtooktheletterbetweenhisshakinghandsandtriedtofixhiseyessteadilyonit。Mr。Irwinemeanwhilewentouttogivesomeorders。Whenhecameback,Adam’seyeswerestillonthefirstpage——hecouldn’tread——hecouldnotputthewordstogetherandmakeoutwhattheymeant。Hethrewitdownatlastandclenchedhisfist。
  "It’sHISdoing,"hesaid;"ifthere’sbeenanycrime,it’sathisdoor,notathers。HEtaughthertodeceive——HEdeceivedmefirst。Let’emputHIMonhistrial——lethimstandincourtbesideher,andI’lltell’emhowhegotholdofherheart,and’ticedhert’evil,andthenliedtome。IsHEtogofree,whiletheylayallthepunishmentonher……soweakandyoung?"
  TheimagecalledupbytheselastwordsgaveanewdirectiontopoorAdam’smaddenedfeelings。Hewassilent,lookingatthecorneroftheroomasifhesawsomethingthere。Thenheburstoutagain,inatoneofappealinganguish,"Ican’tbearit……O
  God,it’stoohardtolayuponme——it’stoohardtothinkshe’swicked。"
  Mr。Irwinehadsatdownagaininsilence。Hewastoowisetouttersoothingwordsatpresent,andindeed,thesightofAdambeforehim,withthatlookofsuddenagewhichsometimescomesoverayoungfaceinmomentsofterribleemotion——thehardbloodlesslookoftheskin,thedeeplinesaboutthequiveringmouth,thefurrowsinthebrow——thesightofthisstrongfirmmanshatteredbytheinvisiblestrokeofsorrow,movedhimsodeeplythatspeechwasnoteasy。Adamstoodmotionless,withhiseyesvacantlyfixedinthiswayforaminuteortwo;inthatshortspacehewaslivingthroughallhisloveagain。
  "Shecan’tha’doneit,"hesaid,stillwithoutmovinghiseyes,asifhewereonlytalkingtohimself:"itwasfearmadeherhideit……Iforgiveherfordeceivingme……Iforgivethee,Hetty……theewastdeceivedtoo……it’sgonehardwi’thee,mypoorHetty……butthey’llnevermakemebelieveit。"
  Hewassilentagainforafewmoments,andthenhesaid,withfierceabruptness,"I’llgotohim——I’llbringhimback——I’llmakehimgoandlookatherinhermisery——heshalllookathertillhecan’tforgetit——itshallfollowhimnightandday——aslongashelivesitshallfollowhim——heshan’tescapewi’liesthistime——
  I’llfetchhim,I’lldraghimmyself。"
  Intheactofgoingtowardsthedoor,Adampausedautomaticallyandlookedaboutforhishat,quiteunconsciouswherehewasorwhowaspresentwithhim。Mr。Irwinehadfollowedhim,andnowtookhimbythearm,saying,inaquietbutdecidedtone,"No,Adam,no;I’msureyouwillwishtostayandseewhatgoodcanbedoneforher,insteadofgoingonauselesserrandofvengeance。
  Thepunishmentwillsurelyfallwithoutyouraid。Besides,heisnolongerinIreland。Hemustbeonhiswayhome——orwouldbe,longbeforeyouarrived,forhisgrandfather,Iknow,wroteforhimtocomeatleasttendaysago。IwantyounowtogowithmetoStoniton。Ihaveorderedahorseforyoutoridewithus,assoonasyoucancomposeyourself。"
  WhileMr。Irwinewasspeaking,Adamrecoveredhisconsciousnessoftheactualscene。Herubbedhishairoffhisforeheadandlistened。
  "Remember,"Mr。Irwinewenton,"thereareotherstothinkof,andactfor,besidesyourself,Adam:thereareHetty’sfriends,thegoodPoysers,onwhomthisstrokewillfallmoreheavilythanI
  canbeartothink。Iexpectitfromyourstrengthofmind,Adam——
  fromyoursenseofdutytoGodandman——thatyouwilltrytoactaslongasactioncanbeofanyuse。"
  Inreality,Mr。IrwineproposedthisjourneytoStonitonforAdam’sownsake。Movement,withsomeobjectbeforehim,wasthebestmeansofcounteractingtheviolenceofsufferinginthesefirsthours。
  "YouwillgowithmetoStoniton,Adam?"hesaidagain,afteramoment’spause。"WehavetoseeifitisreallyHettywhoisthere,youknow。"
  "Yes,sir,"saidAdam,"I’lldowhatyouthinkright。Butthefolksatth’HallFarm?"
  "IwishthemnottoknowtillIreturntotellthemmyself。I
  shallhaveascertainedthingsthenwhichIamuncertainaboutnow,andIshallreturnassoonaspossible。Comenow,thehorsesareready。"
  TheBitterWatersSpreadMR。IRWINEreturnedfromStonitoninapost-chaisethatnight,andthefirstwordsCarrollsaidtohim,asheenteredthehouse,were,thatSquireDonnithornewasdead——founddeadinhisbedatteno’clockthatmorning——andthatMrs。IrwinedesiredhimtosaysheshouldbeawakewhenMr。Irwinecamehome,andshebeggedhimnottogotobedwithoutseeingher。
  "Well,Dauphin,"Mrs。Irwinesaid,ashersonenteredherroom,"you’recomeatlast。Sotheoldgentleman’sfidgetinessandlowspirits,whichmadehimsendforArthurinthatsuddenway,reallymeantsomething。IsupposeCarrollhastoldyouthatDonnithornewasfounddeadinhisbedthismorning。Youwillbelievemyprognosticationsanothertime,thoughIdaresayIshan’tlivetoprognosticateanythingbutmyowndeath。"
  "WhathavetheydoneaboutArthur?"saidMr。Irwine。"SentamessengertoawaithimatLiverpool?"
  "Yes,Ralphwasgonebeforethenewswasbroughttous。DearArthur,IshalllivenowtoseehimmasterattheChase,andmakinggoodtimesontheestate,likeagenerous-heartedfellowasheis。He’llbeashappyasakingnow。"
  Mr。Irwinecouldnothelpgivingaslightgroan:hewaswornwithanxietyandexertion,andhismother’slightwordswerealmostintolerable。
  "Whatareyousodismalabout,Dauphin?Isthereanybadnews?
  OrareyouthinkingofthedangerforArthurincrossingthatfrightfulIrishChannelatthistimeofyear?"
  "No,Mother,I’mnotthinkingofthat;butI’mnotpreparedtorejoicejustnow。"
  "You’vebeenworriedbythislawbusinessthatyou’vebeentoStonitonabout。Whatintheworldisit,thatyoucan’ttellme?"
  "Youwillknowbyandby,mother。Itwouldnotberightformetotellyouatpresent。Good-night:you’llsleepnowyouhavenolongeranythingtolistenfor。"
  Mr。IrwinegaveuphisintentionofsendingalettertomeetArthur,sinceitwouldnotnowhastenhisreturn:thenewsofhisgrandfather’sdeathwouldbringhimassoonashecouldpossiblycome。Hecouldgotobednowandgetsomeneedfulrest,beforethetimecameforthemorning’sheavydutyofcarryinghissickeningnewstotheHallFarmandtoAdam’shome。
  AdamhimselfwasnotcomebackfromStoniton,forthoughheshrankfromseeingHetty,hecouldnotbeartogotoadistancefromheragain。
  "It’snouse,sir,"hesaidtotherector,"it’snouseformetogoback。Ican’tgotoworkagainwhileshe’shere,andI
  couldn’tbearthesighto’thethingsandfolksroundhome。I’lltakeabitofaroomhere,whereIcanseetheprisonwalls,andperhapsIshallget,intime,tobearseeingher。"
  AdamhadnotbeenshakeninhisbeliefthatHettywasinnocentofthecrimeshewaschargedwith,forMr。Irwine,feelingthatthebeliefinherguiltwouldbeacrushingadditiontoAdam’sload,hadkeptfromhimthefactswhichleftnohopeinhisownmind。
  TherewasnotanyreasonforthrustingthewholeburdenonAdamatonce,andMr。Irwine,atparting,onlysaid,"Iftheevidenceshouldtelltoostronglyagainsther,Adam,wemaystillhopeforapardon。Heryouthandothercircumstanceswillbeapleaforher。"
  "Ah,andit’srightpeopleshouldknowhowshewastemptedintothewrongway,"saidAdam,withbitterearnestness。"It’srighttheyshouldknowitwasafinegentlemanmadelovetoher,andturnedherheadwi’notions。You’llremember,sir,you’vepromisedtotellmymother,andSeth,andthepeopleatthefarm,whoitwasasledherwrong,elsethey’llthinkharderofherthanshedeserves。You’llbedoingherahurtbysparinghim,andI
  holdhimtheguiltiestbeforeGod,letherha’donewhatshemay。
  Ifyousparehim,I’llexposehim!"
  "Ithinkyourdemandisjust,Adam,"saidMr。Irwine,"butwhenyouarecalmer,youwilljudgeArthurmoremercifully。Isaynothingnow,onlythathispunishmentisinotherhandsthanours。"
  Mr。IrwinefeltitharduponhimthatheshouldhavetotellofArthur’ssadpartinthestoryofsinandsorrow——hewhocaredforArthurwithfatherlyaffection,whohadcaredforhimwithfatherlypride。Buthesawclearlythatthesecretmustbeknownbeforelong,evenapartfromAdam’sdetermination,sinceitwasscarcelytobesupposedthatHettywouldpersisttotheendinherobstinatesilence。HemadeuphismindtowithholdnothingfromthePoysers,buttotellthemtheworstatonce,fortherewasnotimetorobthetidingsoftheirsuddenness。Hetty’strialmustcomeonattheLentassizes,andtheyweretobeheldatStonitonthenextweek。ItwasscarcelytobehopedthatMartinPoysercouldescapethepainofbeingcalledasawitness,anditwasbetterheshouldknoweverythingaslongbeforehandaspossible。
  Beforeteno’clockonThursdaymorningthehomeattheHallFarmwasahouseofmourningforamisfortunefelttobeworsethandeath。Thesenseoffamilydishonourwastookeeneveninthekind-heartedMartinPoysertheyoungertoleaveroomforanycompassiontowardsHetty。Heandhisfatherweresimple-mindedfarmers,proudoftheiruntarnishedcharacter,proudthattheycameofafamilywhichhadheldupitsheadandpaiditswayasfarbackasitsnamewasintheparishregister;andHettyhadbroughtdisgraceonthemall——disgracethatcouldneverbewipedout。Thatwastheall-conqueringfeelinginthemindbothoffatherandson——thescorchingsenseofdisgrace,whichneutralisedallothersensibility——andMr。IrwinewasstruckwithsurprisetoobservethatMrs。Poyserwaslessseverethanherhusband。Weareoftenstartledbytheseverityofmildpeopleonexceptionaloccasions;thereasonis,thatmildpeoplearemostliabletobeundertheyokeoftraditionalimpressions。
  "I’mwillingtopayanymoneyasiswantedtowardstryingtobringheroff,"saidMartintheyoungerwhenMr。Irwinewasgone,whiletheoldgrandfatherwascryingintheoppositechair,"butI’llnotgonighher,noreverseeheragain,bymyownwill。She’smadeourbreadbittertousforallourlivestocome,an’weshallne’erholdupourheadsi’thisparishnori’anyother。
  Theparsontalkso’folkspityingus:it’spooramendspity’ullmakeus。"
  "Pity?"saidthegrandfather,sharply。"Ine’erwantedfolks’spityi’MYlifeafore……an’Imunbegintobelookeddownonnow,an’meturnedseventy-twolastSt。Thomas’s,an’allth’
  underbearersandpall-bearersasI’npickedformyfuneralarei’
  thisparishandthenextto’t……It’so’nousenow……Imunbeta’entothegravebystrangers。"
  "Don’tfretso,father,"saidMrs。Poyser,whohadspokenverylittle,beingalmostoverawedbyherhusband’sunusualhardnessanddecision。"You’llhaveyourchildrenwi’you;an’there’stheladsandthelittleun’ullgrowupinanewparishaswellasi’
  th’oldun。"
  "Ah,there’snostayingi’thiscountryforusnow,"saidMr。
  Poyser,andthehardtearstrickledslowlydownhisroundcheeks。
  "Wethoughtit’udbebadluckiftheoldsquiregaveusnoticethisLadyday,butImustgi’noticemyselfnow,an’seeiftherecananybodybegottocomean’taketothecropsasI’nputi’theground;forIwonnastayupo’thatman’slandadaylongernorI’mforcedto’t。An’me,asthoughthimsuchagooduprightyoungman,asIshouldbegladwhenhecometobeourlandlord。I’llne’erliftmyhattohimagain,norsiti’thesamechurchwi’
  him……amanashasbroughtshameonrespectablefolks……an’
  pretendedtobesuchafriendt’everybody……PoorAdamthere……afinefriendhe’sbeent’Adam,makingspeechesan’talkingsofine,an’allthewhilepoisoningthelad’slife,asit’smuchifhecanstayi’thiscountryanymorenorwecan。"
  "An’yout’ha’togointocourt,andownyou’reakint’her,"
  saidtheoldman。"Why,they’llcastituptothelittleun,asisn’tfour’earold,someday——they’llcastitupt’herasshe’dacousintriedatthe’sizesformurder。"
  "It’llbetheirownwickedness,then,"saidMrs。Poyser,withasobinhervoice。"Butthere’sOneabove’ulltakecareo’theinnicentchild,elseit’sbutlittletruththeytellusatchurch。
  It’llbehardernorevertodiean’leavethelittleuns,an’
  nobodytobeamotherto’em。"
  "We’dbetterha’sentforDinah,ifwe’dknownwheresheis,"saidMr。Poyser;"butAdamsaidshe’dleftnodirectionwhereshe’dbeatLeeds。"
  "Why,she’dbewi’thatwomanaswasafriendt’herAuntJudith,"
  saidMrs。Poyser,comfortedalittlebythissuggestionofherhusbands。"I’veoftenheardDinahtalkofher,butIcan’trememberwhatnameshecalledherby。Butthere’sSethBede;he’slikeenoughtoknow,forshe’sapreachingwomanastheMethodiststhinkadealon。"
  "I’llsendtoSeth,"saidMr。Poyser。"I’llsendAlicktotellhimtocome,orelsetosendupwordo’thewoman’sname,an’theecanstwritealetterreadytosendofftoTreddles’onassoonaswecanmakeoutadirection。"
  "It’spoorworkwritingletterswhenyouwantfolkstocometoyoui’trouble,"saidMrs。Poyser。"Happenit’llbeeversolongontheroad,an’neverreachheratlast。"
  BeforeAlickarrivedwiththemessage,Lisbeth’sthoughtstoohadalreadyflowntoDinah,andshehadsaidtoSeth,"Eh,there’snocomfortforusi’thisworldanymore,wi’outtheecouldstgetDinahMorristocometous,asshedidwhenmyoldmandied。I’dlikehertocomeinan’takemebyth’handagain,an’talktome。
  She’dtellmetherightson’t,belike——she’dhappenknowsomegoodi’allthistroublean’heart-breakcomin’upo’thatpoorlad,asne’erdoneabito’wrongin’slife,butwarbetternoranybodyelse’sson,pickthecountryround。Eh,mylad……Adam,mypoorlad!"
  "Theewouldstnalikemetoleavethee,togoandfetchDinah?"
  saidSeth,ashismothersobbedandrockedherselftoandfro。
  "Fetchher?"saidLisbeth,lookingupandpausingfromhergrief,likeacryingchildwhohearssomepromiseofconsolation。"Why,whatplaceis’tshe’sat,dotheysay?"
  "It’sagoodwayoff,mother——Leeds,abigtown。ButIcouldbebackinthreedays,iftheecouldstspareme。"
  "Nay,nay,Icannasparethee。Theemustgoan’seethybrother,an’bringmewordwhathe’sa-doin’。MesterIrwinesaidhe’dcomean’tellme,butIcannamakeoutsowellwhatitmeanswhenhetellsme。Theemustgothysen,sin’Adamwonnaletmegotohim。
  WritealettertoDinahcanstna?Thee’tfondenougho’writin’
  whennobodywantsthee。"
  "I’mnotsurewhereshe’dbei’thatbigtown,"saidSeth。"IfI’dgonemyself,Icouldha’foundoutbyaskingthememberso’
  theSociety。ButperhapsifIputSarahWilliamson,Methodistpreacher,Leeds,o’th’outside,itmightgettoher;formostlikeshe’dbewi’SarahWilliamson。"
  Alickcamenowwiththemessage,andSeth,findingthatMrs。
  PoyserwaswritingtoDinah,gaveuptheintentionofwritinghimself;buthewenttotheHallFarmtotellthemallhecouldsuggestabouttheaddressoftheletter,andwarnthemthattheremightbesomedelayinthedelivery,fromhisnotknowinganexactdirection。
  OnleavingLisbeth,Mr。IrwinehadgonetoJonathanBurge,whohadalsoaclaimtobeacquaintedwithwhatwaslikelytokeepAdamawayfrombusinessforsometime;andbeforesixo’clockthateveningtherewerefewpeopleinBroxtonandHayslopewhohadnotheardthesadnews。Mr。IrwinehadnotmentionedArthur’snametoBurge,andyetthestoryofhisconducttowardsHetty,withallthedarkshadowscastuponitbyitsterribleconsequences,waspresentlyaswellknownasthathisgrandfatherwasdead,andthathewascomeintotheestate。ForMartinPoyserfeltnomotivetokeepsilencetowardstheoneortwoneighbourswhoventuredtocomeandshakehimsorrowfullybythehandonthefirstdayofhistrouble;andCarroll,whokepthisearsopentoallthatpassedattherectory,hadframedaninferentialversionofthestory,andfoundearlyopportunitiesofcommunicatingit。
  OneofthoseneighbourswhocametoMartinPoyserandshookhimbythehandwithoutspeakingforsomeminuteswasBartleMassey。Hehadshutuphisschool,andwasonhiswaytotherectory,wherehearrivedabouthalf-pastsevenintheevening,and,sendinghisdutytoMr。Irwine,beggedpardonfortroublinghimatthathour,buthadsomethingparticularonhismind。Hewasshownintothestudy,whereMr。Irwinesoonjoinedhim。
  "Well,Bartle?"saidMr。Irwine,puttingouthishand。Thatwasnothisusualwayofsalutingtheschoolmaster,buttroublemakesustreatallwhofeelwithusverymuchalike。"Sitdown。"
  "YouknowwhatI’mcomeaboutaswellasIdo,sir,Idaresay,"
  saidBartle。
  "Youwishtoknowthetruthaboutthesadnewsthathasreachedyou……aboutHettySorrel?"
  "Nay,sir,whatIwishtoknowisaboutAdamBede。IunderstandyoulefthimatStoniton,andIbegthefavourofyoutotellmewhat’sthestateofthepoorlad’smind,andwhathemeanstodo。
  Forasforthatbito’pink-and-whitethey’vetakenthetroubletoputinjail,Idon’tvalueherarottennut——notarottennut——
  onlyfortheharmorgoodthatmaycomeoutofhertoanhonestman——aladI’vesetsuchstoreby——trustedto,thathe’dmakemybito’knowledgegoagoodwayintheworld……Why,sir,he’stheonlyscholarI’vehadinthisstupidcountrythateverhadthewillorthehead-pieceformathematics。Ifhehadn’thadsomuchhardworktodo,poorfellow,hemighthavegoneintothehigherbranches,andthenthismightneverhavehappened——mightneverhavehappened。"
  Bartlewasheatedbytheexertionofwalkingfastinanagitatedframeofmind,andwasnotabletocheckhimselfonthisfirstoccasionofventinghisfeelings。Buthepausednowtorubhismoistforehead,andprobablyhismoisteyesalso。
  "You’llexcuseme,sir,"hesaid,whenthispausehadgivenhimtimetoreflect,"forrunningoninthiswayaboutmyownfeelings,likethatfoolishdogofminehowlinginastorm,whenthere’snobodywantstolistentome。Icametohearyouspeak,nottotalkmyself——ifyou’lltakethetroubletotellmewhatthepoorlad’sdoing。"
  "Don’tputyourselfunderanyrestraint,Bartle,"saidMr。Irwine。
  "Thefactis,I’mverymuchinthesameconditionasyoujustnow;