CHAPTERLXVIII。
LARKIE。
Itwasalovelydayinspring。
“Please,Mr。Grant,“saidDavie,“mayIhaveaholiday?”
Donallookedathimwithalittlewonder:theboyhadneverbeforemadesucharequest!Butheansweredhimatonce。
“Yes,certainly,Davie。ButIshouldliketoknowwhatyouwantitfor。“
“Arkiewantsverymuchtohavearideto-day。ShesaysLarkie——I
gavehimhisname,torimewithArkie——shesaysLarkiewillforgether,andshedoesnotwishtogooutwithForgue,soshewantsmetogowithheronmypony。“
“Youwilltakegoodcareofher,Davie?”
“Iwilltakecareofher,butyouneednotbeanxiousaboutus,Mr。
Grant。Arkieisasplendidrider,andmuchpluckierthansheusedtobe!”
Donaldid,however——hecouldnothavesaidwhy——feelalittleanxiety。Herepresseditasunfaithfulness,butitkeptreturning。
Hecouldnotgowiththem——therewasnohorseforhim,andtogoonfoot,would,hefeared,spoiltheirride。HewassomuchafraidalsoofpresumingonladyArctura'sregardforhim,thathewouldhaveshrunkfromofferinghaditbeenmorefeasible。Hegotabook,andstrolledintothepark,notevengoingtoseethemoff:Forguemightbeaboutthestable,andmakethingsunpleasant!
HadForguebeenaboutthestable,hewould,Ithink,havesomehowmanagedtopreventtheride,forLarkie,thoughmuchbetter,wasnotyetcuredofhislameness。Arcturadidnotknowhehadbeenlame,orthathehadthereforebeenverylittleexercised,andwasnowratherwild,withapastern-jointfarfromequaltohisspirit。Therewasbutaboyaboutthestable,whoeitherdidnotunderstand,orwasafraidtospeak:sherodeinadangerofwhichsheknewnothing。Theconsequencewasthat,jumpingthemerestlittleditchinafieldoutsidethepark,theyhadafall。Thehorsegotupandtrottedlimpingtothestable;hismistresslaywhereshefell。Davie,wildwithmisery,gallopedhome。FromtheheightoftheparkDonalsawhimtearingalong,andknewsomethingwasamiss。Heran,gotoverthewall,foundthepony'strack,andfollowingit,camewhereArcturalay。
Therewasalittleclearwaterintheditch:hewethishandkerchief,andbathedherface。Shecametoherself,openedhereyeswithafaintsmile,andtriedtoraiseherself,butfellbackhelpless,andclosedhereyesagain。
“IbelieveIamhurt!”shemurmurmed。“IthinkLarkiemusthavefallen!”
Donalwouldhavecarriedher,butshemoanedso,thathegaveuptheideaatonce。Daviewasgoneforhelp;itwouldbebettertowait!
Hepulledoffhiscoatandlaiditoverher,thenkneeling,raisedherheadalittlefromthedampgrounduponhisarm。Shelethimdoashepleased,butdidnotopenhereyes。
Theyhadnotlongtowait。Severalcamerunning,amongthemlordForgue。Hefellbesidehiscousinonhisknees,andtookherhandinhis。Sheneithermovednorspoke。Asinsteadofdoinganythinghemerelypersistedinclaimingherattention,Donalsawitwasforhimtogiveorders。
“Myladyismuchhurt,“hesaid:“oneofyougoatonceforthedoctor;theothersbringahand-barrow——Iknowthereisoneabouttheplace。Laythesquabofasofaonit,andmakehaste。LetmistressBrookesknow。“
“Mindyourownbusiness,“saidForgue。
“DoasMr。Granttellsyou,“saidladyArctura,withoutopeninghereyes。
Themendepartedrunning。Forguerosefromhisknees,andwalkedslowlytoalittledistance,wherehestoodgnawinghislip。
“Mylord,“saidDonal,“pleaserunandfetchalittlebrandyforherladyship。Shehasfainted。“
WhatcouldForguedobutobey!Hestartedatonce,andwithtolerablespeed。ThenArcturaopenedhereyes,andsmiled。
“Areyousufferingmuch,mylady?”askedDonal。
“Agooddeal,“sheanswered,“butIdon'tmindit——Thankyoufornotleavingme——ItisnomorethanIcanbear,onlybadwhenItrytomove。“
“Theywillnotbelongnow,“hesaid。
Againsheclosedhereyes,andwassilent。Donalwatchedthesweetface,whichacloudofsufferingwouldeverynowandthencross,andlifteduphishearttothesaviourofmen。
Hesawthemcomingwiththeextemporizedlitter,behindthemmistressBrookes,withForgueandoneofthemaids。
Whenshecameup,sheaddressedherselfinsilencetoDonal。Hetoldherhefearedherladyship'sspinewashurt,Afterhisdirectionsheputherhandsunderherandthemaidtookherfeet,whilehe,placinghisotherarmunderhershoulders,andgentlyrising,raisedherbody。Beingallstrongandgentle,theymanagedthemovingwell,andlaidherslowlyonthelitter。Exceptamoanortwo,andagatheringofthebrows,shegavenosignofsuffering;nothingtobecalledacryescapedher。
Donalattheheadandagroomatthefoot,liftedthelitter,andwithorderedstep,startedforthehouse。OnceortwicesheopenedhereyesandlookedupatDonal,then,asifsatisfied,closedthemagain。Beforetheyreachthehousethedoctormetthem,fortheyhadtowalkslowly。
Forguecamebehindinadevilishhumour。HeknewthatfirsthisillusageofLarkie,andthenhispreventinganythingbeingsaidaboutit,musthavebeenthecauseoftheaccident;buthefeltwithsomesatisfaction——forselfsimplymakesdevilsofus——thatifshehadnotrefusedtogooutwithhim,itwouldnothavehappened;hewouldnothaveallowedhertomountLarkie。“Servedherright!”hecaughthimselfsayingonce,andwasashamed——butpresentlysaiditagain。
Selfisasfullofwormsasitcanhold;Goddeliverusfromit!
CHAPTERLXIX。
THESICK-CHAMBER。
Shewascarriedtoherroomandlaidonherbed。ThedoctorrequestedMrs。BrookesandDonaltoremain,anddismissedtherest,thenproceededtoexamineher。Therewerenobonesbroken,hesaid,butshemustbekeptveryquiet。Thewindowsmustbedarkened,andshemustifpossiblesleep。ShegaveDonalafaintsmile,andapitifulglance,butdidnotspeak。Ashewasfollowingthedoctorfromtheroom,shemadeasigntoMrs。Brookeswithhereyesthatshewantedtospeaktohim。
Hecame,andbentovertohear,forshespokeveryfeebly。
“Youwillcomeandseeme,Mr。Grant?”
“Iwill,indeed,mylady。“
“Everyday?”
“Yes,mostcertainly,“hereplied。
Shesmiled,andsodismissedhim。Hewentwithhisheartfull。
AlittlewayfromthedoorstoodForgue,waitingforhimtocomeout。Hehadsentthedoctortohisfather。Donalpassedhimwithabendofthehead。Hefollowedhimtotheschoolroom。
“Itistimethisfarcewasover,Grant!”hesaid。
“Farce,mylord!”repeatedDonalindignantly。
“Theseattentionstomylady。“
“IhavepaidhernomoreattentionthanIwouldyourlordship,hadyourequiredit,“answeredDonalsternly。
“Thatwouldhavebeenconvenientdoubtless!Buttherehasbeenenoughofhumbug,andnowforanendtoit!Eversinceyoucamehere,youhavebeenatworkonthemindofthatinexperiencedgirl——withyourdamnedreligion!——forwhatendyouknowbest!andnowyou'vehalfkilledherbypersuadinghertogooutwithyouinsteadofme!Thebrutewaslameandnotfittoride!Anyfoolmighthaveseenthat!”
“Ihadnothingtodowithhergoing,mylord。SheaskedDavietogowithher,andhehadaholidayonpurpose。“
“Allveryfine,but——“
“Mylord,Ihavetoldyouthetruth,butnottojustifymyself:youmustbeawareyouropinionisofnovalueinmyeyes!Buttellmeonething,mylord:ifmylady'shorsewaslame,howwasitshedidnotknow?Youdid!”
ForguethoughtDonalknewmorethanhedid,andwastakenaback。
“Itistimetheplacewasclearofyou!”hesaid。
“Iamyourfather'sservant,notyours,“answeredDonal,“anddonottroublemyselfastoyourpleasureconcerningme。ButIthinkitisonlyfairtowarnyouthat,thoughyoucannothurtme,nothingbuthonestycantakeyououtofmypower。“
Forgueturnedonhisheel,wenttohisfather,andtoldhimheknewnowthatDonalwasprejudicingthemindofladyArcturaagainsthim;
butnotuntilitcameinthecourseoftheconversation,didhementiontheaccidentshehadhad。
Theearlprofessedhimselfgreatlyshocked,gotupwithsomethingalmostlikealacrityfromhissofa,andwentdowntoinquireafterhisniece。HewouldhavecompelledMrs。Brookestoadmithim,butshewasdeterminedherladyshouldnotbewakedfromasleepinvaluabletoher,forthesakeofreceivinghiscondolements,andhehadtoreturntohisroomwithoutgaininganything。
Ifsheweretogo,thepropertywouldbehis,andhecouldwillitashepleased——thatwas,ifsheleftnowill。Hesentforhissonandcautionedhimoverandovertodonothingtooffendher,butwait:whatmightcome,whocouldtell!Itmightproveaseriousaffair!
Forguetriedtofeelshockedatthecoolnessofhisfather'sspeculation,butallowedthat,ifshewasdeterminednottoreceivehimasherhusband,thenextbestthing,intheexigenceofaffairs,wouldcertainlybethatsheshouldleaveaworldforwhoseusesshewasillfitted,andgowhereshewouldbehappier。Thethingsshewouldthenhavenofartherneedof,wouldbewelcometothosetowhombyrighttheybelongedmorereallythantoher!Shewasapleasantthingtolookupon,andifshehadlovedhimhewouldratherhavehadthepropertywiththanwithouther;buttherewasthisadvantage,hewouldbeleftfreetochoose!
LadyArcturalaysuffering,feverish,andrestless。Mrs。Brookeswouldletnoonesitupwithherbutherself。Theearlwouldhavesentfor“asuitablenurse!”afriendofhisinLondonwouldfindone!butshewouldnothearofit。Andbeforethenightwasovershehadgreaterreasonstillforrefusingtoyieldherpost:itwasevidentheryoungmistresswasmoreoccupiedwithDonalGrantthanwiththepainshewassuffering!Inherdeliriumshewasconstantlydesiringhispresence。“Iknowhecanhelpme,“shewouldsay;“heisashepherd,liketheLordhimself!”AndmistressBrookes,thoughbynomeansdevoidoftheprejudicesoftherankwithwhichherlifehadbeensomuchassociated,couldnotbutallowthatanoblerlifemustbepossiblewithonelikeDonalGrantthanwithonelikelordForgue。
InthemiddleofthenightArcturabecamesounquiet,thathernurse,callingthemaidshehadinaroomnear,flewlikeabirdtoDonal,andaskedhimtocomedown。Hehadbutpartiallyundressed,thinkinghishelpmightbewanted,andwasdownalmostassoonasshe。Erehecame,however,shehaddismissedthemaid。
Donalwenttothebedside。Arcturawasmoaningandstarting,sometimesopeninghereyes,butdistinguishingnothing。Herhandlayonthecounterpane:helaidhisuponit。Shegaveasighasofonerelieved;asmilecameflickeringoverherface,andshelaystillforsometime。Donalsatdownbesideher,andwatched。Themomenthesawherbegintoberestlessorlookdistressed,helaidhishanduponhers;shewasimmediatelyquiet,andlayforatimeasifsheknewherselfsafe。Whensheseemedabouttowake,hewithdrew。
Sothingswentonformanynights。DonalsleptinsteadofworkingwhenhisdutieswithDaviewereover,andlayatnightinthecorridor,wraptinhisplaid。ForevenafterArcturabegantorecover,hernightsweresorelytroubled,andherrestorationwouldhavebeenmuchretarded,hadnotDonalbeenneartomakeherfeelshewasnotabandonedtotheterrorsshepassedthrough。
Onenighttheearl,wanderingaboutintheanomalousconditionofneitherghostnorgenuinemortal,camesuddenlyuponwhathetookforahugeanimalinwaittodevour。Hewasnotterrified,forhewasaccustomedtosuchthings,andthoughtatfirstitwasnotofthisworld:hehadnodoubtoftherealityofhisvisions,evenwhenheknewtheywereinvisibletoothers,andeveninhiswakingmomentshadbeguntobelieveinthemasmuchasinthethingsthenevidenttohim——orrather,perhaps,todisbelieveequallyinboth。
Heapproachedtoseewhatitwas,andstoodstaringdownuponthemass。Gentlyitroseandconfrontedhim——ifconfrontingthatmaybecalledwherethefaceremainedsoundefined——forDonaltookcaretokeephisplaidoverhishead:hehadhopeintheprobableconditionoftheearl!Heturnedfromhimandwalkedaway。
CHAPTERLXX。
APLOT。
Buthislordshiphadhissuspicions,andtookmeasurestoconfirmorsetthematrest——withtheresultthatheconcludedDonalmadlyinlovewithhisniece,andunable,whileshewasill,torestanywherebut,withthedevotionofasavage,outsideherdoor:ifhedidnottakeprecautions,theloutwouldoustthelord!EversinceDonalspokesoplainlyagainsthisself-indulgence,hehadnotmerelyhatedbutfearedthecountrylad。HerecognizedthatDonalfearednothing,hadnorespectofpersons,wouldspeakoutbeforetheworld。Hewasdoubtfulalsowhetherhehadnotallowedhimtoknowmorethanitwaswellheshouldknow。Itwastimetogetridofhim——onlyitmustbedonecautiously,withtheappearanceofagoodunderstanding!Ifhehadhimoutofthehousebeforeshewasabletoseehimagain,thatwoulddo!Andifinthemeantimesheshoulddie,allwouldbewell!Hisdistrust,onceroused,wentfartherthanthatofhisson。Hehadnotthesameconfidenceinblueblood;heknewafewthingsmorethanForgue——believeditquitepossiblethatthedaughterofalongdescentoflordsandladiesshouldfallinlovewithashepherd-lad。Andasnoonecouldtellwhatmighthavetobedoneifthelegalownerofthepropertypersistedinrefusingherhandtotherightfulownerofit,thefellowmightbeseriouslyintheway!
Arcturaslowlyrecovered。Shehadnotyetleftherroom,buthadbeenafewhoursonthecoucheverydayforafortnight,andthedoctor,nowsanguineofherfinalrecovery,begantotalkofcarryinghertothelibrary。Theearl,whoneversuspectedthatMrs。
Brookes,havinghithertokepthimselffromherroom,wouldadmitthetutor,themomenthelearnedthatthelibrarywasinviewforher,decidedthattheremustbenomoredelay。Hehadbythistimecontrivedaneatlittleplan。
HesentforDonal。Hehadbeenthinking,theearlsaid,thathemustwantaholiday:hehadnotseenhisparentssincehecametothecastle!andhehadbeenthinkingbesides,howdesirableitwasthatDavieshouldseesomeotherphasesoflifethanthosetowhichhehadhithertobeenaccustomed。Therewasgreatdangerofboysbroughtupinhispositiongettingnarrow,andcarelessofthelivesandfeelingsoftheirfellowmen!HewouldtakeitasagreatkindnessifDonal,whohadaregardtotherealeducationofhispupil,wouldtakehimtohishome,andlethimunderstandthewaysoflifeamongthehumblerclassesofthenation——sothat,ifeverhewentintoparliament,hemighthavetheadvantageofknowingtheheartofthepeopleforwhomhewouldhavetolegislate。
Donallistened,andcouldnotbutagreewiththeremarksofhislordship。Inhimselfhehadnottheleastfaith——wonderedindeedwhichofthemthoughttheotherthegreaterfooltoimaginethatafterallthathadpassedDonalwouldplaceanyconfidenceinwhattheearlsaid;buthelistened。WhatlordMorvenreallyhadinhismind,hecouldnotsurmise;butnotthelesstotakeDavietohisfatherandmotherwasadelightfulidea。Theboywasgrowingfast,andhadrevealedafacultyquiterareinonesoyoung,forlookingtotheheartofthings,andseeingtherelationofmantoman;
thereforesuchalessonastheearlproposedwouldindeedbeinvaluabletohim!Thenagain,thisfacultyhadbeenopenedinhimthroughawillingperceptionofthoseeternaltruths,inastillhigherrelationofpersons,whichareopenonlytothechildlikenature;whencehewouldbeespeciallyfittedforsuchcompanyasthatofhisfatherandmother,whocouldnoweasilyreceivetheboyaswellashimself,sincetheirhouseandtheirgeneralworldlyconditionhadbeensomuchbetteredbytheirfriend,sirGibbie!
WiththemDaviewouldseegenuinelife,simplicity,dignity,andunselfishness——theveryembodimentofthethingsheheldconstantlybeforehim!Theremightbesomeotherreasonbehindtheearl'srequestwhichitwouldbewellforhimtoknow;buthewouldsoonerdiscoverthatbyafreeconsentthanbyhangingback:anythingbaditcouldhardlybe!HeshrankindeedfromleavingladyArcturawhileshewasyetsofarfromwell,butshewasgettingwellmuchfasternow:forafortnighttherehadbeennonecessityforhispresencetosootheherwhilesheslept。Neitherdidsheyetknow,sofar,atleast,asheormistressBrookeswasaware,thathehadeverbeennearherinthenight!ItwaswellalsobecauseofthepositionofthingsbetweenhimandlordForgue,thatheshouldbeawayforawhile:itwouldgiveachanceforthatfoolishsoultosettledown,andletcommonsenseassumethereins,whileyetthebettercoachmanwasnotallowedtomountthebox!Hehad,ofcourse,heardnothingofthestrainedrelationsbetweenhimandladyArctura;hemightotherwisehavebeenalittlemoreanxious。Fortheearl,Davie,hethought,wouldbeakindofpledgeorhostage——inregardofwhat,hecouldnotspecify;but,thoughhelittlesuspectedwhatsuchamanwascapableofsacrificingtogainacherishedend,somesecurityforhim,someholdoverhim,seemedtoDonalnotundesirable。
WhenDavieheardtheproposal,hewaswildwithjoy。Actuallytoseethemountains,andthesheep,andthecolleys,ofwhichDonalhadtoldhimsuchwonderfulthings!Tobeoutallnight,perhaps,withDonalandthedogsandthestarsandthewinds!Perhapsastormwouldcome,andhewouldlieinDonal'splaidundersomegreatrock,andhearthewindroaringaroundthem,butnotabletogetatthem!
Andthesheepwouldcomeandhuddlecloseuptothem,andkeepthemwarmwiththeirwoollysides!andhewouldstroketheirheadsandlovethem!Daviewasnolongeramerechild——farfromit;butwhatisloveliestinthechild'sheartwasonlythestrongerinhim;andtheprospectofgoingwithDonalwasathingtobedreamedofdayandnighttillitcame!Norwerethedaysmanybeforetheirdeparturewasdefinitelysettled。
TheearlwouldhaveMr。Granttreathispupilpreciselyasoneofhisownstanding:hemighttakehimonfootifhepleased!
Thesuggestionwaseagerlyacceptedbyboth。Theygottheirboxesreadyforthecarrier,packedtheirwallets,andonelovelymorninglateinspring,justassummerwasshowingherwomanlyfacethroughitssmilesandtears,theysetouttogether。
ItwaswithnosmalldismaythatArcturaheardoftheproposal。Shesaidnothing,however——onlywhenDonalcametotakehisleaveshebrokedownalittle。
“Weshalloftenwish,DavieandI,thatyouwerewithus,mylady,“
hesaid。
“Why?”sheasked,unabletosaymore。
“Becauseweshalloftenfeelhappy,andwhatthencanwedobutwishyousharedourhappiness!”
Sheburstintotears,andpresentlywasabletospeak。
“Don'tthinkmesilly,“shesaid。“IknowGodiswithme,andassoonasyouaregoneIwillgotohimtocomfortme。ButIcannothelpfeelingasifyouwereleavingmelikealambamongwolves。I
cangivenoreasonforit;Ionlyfeelasifsomedangerwerenearme。ButIhaveyouyet,mistressBrookes:Godandyouwilltakecareofme!——Indeed,ifIhadn'tyou,“sheadded,laughingthroughhertears,“IshouldrunawaywithMr。GrantandDavie!”
“IfIhadknownyoufeltlikethat,“saidDonal,“Iwouldnothavegone。YetIhardlyseehowIcouldhaveavoidedit,beingDavie'stutor,andboundtodoashisfatherwisheswithhim。Only,dearladyArctura,thereisnochanceinthisorinanything!Wewillnotforgetyou,andinthreeweeksoramonthweshallbeback。“
“Thatisalongtime,“saidArctura,readytoweepagain。
Isitnecessarytosayshewasnotaweakwoman?Itisnotbetrayaloffeeling,butavoidanceofduty,thatconstitutesweakness。Afteranillnesshehasbornelikeahero,astrongmanmaybereadytoweeplikeachild。Whatthecommonpeopleofsocietythinkaboutstrengthandweakness,ispoorstuff,liketherestoftheirwisdom。
Shespeedilyrecoveredhercomposure,andwiththegentlestsmilebadeDonalgood-bye。Shewasinhersitting-roomnextthestate-chamberwhereshenowslept;thesunwasshininginattheopenwindow,andwithitcamethesongofalittlebird,clearandsweet。
“Youhearhim,“saidDonal。“——howhetrustsGodwithoutknowingit!
Wearemadeabletotrusthimknowinginwhomwebelieve!Ah,dearladyArctura!noheartevenyetcantellwhatthingsGodhasinstoreforthemwhowilljustlethimhavehiswaywiththem。
Good-bye。WritetomeifanythingcomestoyouthatIcanhelpyouin。AndbesureIwillmakehastetoyouthemomentyouletmeknowyouwantme。“
“Thankyou,Mr。Grant:Iknowyoumeaneverywordyousay!IfIneedyou,Iwillnothesitatetosendforyou——onlyifyoucome,itwillbeasmyfriend,andnot——“
“Itwillbeasyourservant,notlordMorven's,“saidDonal。“I
quiteunderstand。Goodbye。ThefatherofJesusChrist,whowassosureofhim,willtakecareofyou:donotbeafraid。“
Heturnedandwent;hecouldnolongerbearthelookofhereyes。
CHAPTERLXXI。
GLASHGAR。
OutofArctura'ssightDonalhadhisturnofso-calledweakness!
Thedaywasagloriousone,andDavie,fullofspirits,couldnotunderstandwhyheseemedsounlikehimself。
“Arkiewouldscoldyou,Mr。Grant!”hesaid。
Donalavoidedthetown,andwalkedalongwayroundtogetintotheroadbeyondit,hisheadbentasifhewereponderingapain。Atmomentshefeltasifhemustreturnatonce,andrefusetoleavethecastleforanyreason。ButhecouldnotseethatitwasthewillofGodheshoulddoso。Apresentimentisnotacommand。Aprophecymayfailoftheleastindicationofduty。HamletdefyingauguryistheconsistentreligiousmanShaksperetakespainstoshowhim。A
presentimentmaybetrue,maybefromGodhimself,yetinvolvenoreasonwhyamanshouldchangehisway,shouldturnastepasidefromthepathbeforehim。St。PaulreceivedwarningafterwarningonhisroadtoJerusalemthatbondsandimprisonmentawaitedhim,andthesewarningsheknewcamefromthespiritofprophecy,butheheededthemonlytosethisfacelikeaflint。Heknewbetterthanimaginedutydeterminedbyconsequences,ortakeforesightfordirection。Thereisahigherguide,andhefollowedthat。SodidDonalnow。Movedtogoback,hedidnotgoback——neitherafterwardsrepentedthathedidnot。
Iwillnotdescribethejourney。Sufficeittosaythat,afterafewdaysofsuchwalkingasbefittedanunaccustomedboy,theyclimbedthelasthill,crossedthethresholdofRobertGrant'scottage,andwerebothclaspedintheembraceofJanet。ForDavierushedintothearmsofDonal'smother,andshetookhimtothesamehearttowhichshehadtakenweesirGibbie:thebosomofthepeasantwomanwasindeedonetofeeto。
ThenfolloweddelightswhichmorethanequalledtheexpectationsofDavie。OneofthemwasseeinghowDonalwasloved。Anotherwasanewsenseoffreedom:hehadneverimaginedsuchlibertyashenowenjoyed。ItwasasifGodweregivingittohim。freshoutofhissky,hismountains,hiswinds。Thentherewasthetwilightonthehill-side,withthesheepgrowingduskyaroundhim;whenDonalwouldtalkabouttheshepherdofthehumansheep;andhearinghimDaviefeltnotonlythattherewasonce,butthatthereisnowamanaltogetherlovely——theheartofallbeautyeverywhere——amanwhogavehimselfuptohisperfectfatherandhisfather'smostimperfectchildren,thathemightbringhisbrothersandsistershometotheirfather;forallhisdelightisinhisfatherandhisfather'schildren。HeshowedhimhowtheheartofJesuswas,allthrough,theheartofason,asonthatadoredhisperfectfather;
andhowifhehadnothadhisperfectsontohelphim,Godcouldnothavemadeanyofus,couldneverhavegotustobehislittlesonsanddaughters,lovinghimwithallourmight。ThenDavie'sheartwouldglow,andhewouldfeelreadytodowhateverthatsonmightwanthimtodo;andDonalhoped,andhadgoodgroundforhoping,that,whenthehouroftrialcame,theyouthwouldbeabletohold,notmerelybytheunseen,butbytheseeminglyunpresentandunfelt,inthenameoftheeternallytrue。
Donal'syouthbegantoseemfarbehindhim。AllbitternesswasgoneoutofhismemoriesofladyGalbraith。Helovedhertenderly,butwaspleasedsheshouldbeGibbie's。
HowmuchofthishappychangewasowingtohisinterestinladyArcturahedidnotinquire:greatlyinterestedinher——moreinveryimportantwaysthanhehadeverbeeninladyGalbraith——hewassojealousofhisheart,shranksomuchfromthedangeroffolly,knewsowellhowsmallanamountofyieldingmightunfithimforthemanlyandfreshperformanceofhisduties——amongwhichcamefirstadueregardforherwell-beinglestheshouldhimselffailormisleadher——thatheoftenturnedhisthoughtsintoanotherchannel,lestinthattheyshouldruntooswiftly,deepenittoofast,andgofartoimprisonthemselvesinanotheragony。
ToladyGalbraithheconfidedhisuneasinessaboutladyArctura——notthathecouldexplain——hecouldonlyconfesshimselfinfectedwithheruneasiness,andtheratherthatheknewbetterthanshethenatureofthosewithwhomshemighthavetocope。IfMrs。Brookeshadnotbeenthere,hedarednothavecomeaway,hesaid,leavingherwithsuchadreaduponher。
SirGibbielistenedopen-mouthedtothetaleofthefindingofthelostchapel,hiddenawaybecauseitheldthedustofthedead,andperhapssometimestheirwanderingghosts。
Theyassuredhimthat,ifhewouldbringladyArcturatothem,theywouldtakecareofher:hadshenotbettergiveupthewearyproperty,theysaid,andcomeandlivewiththem,andbefreeasthelark?ButDonalsaid,that,ifGodhadgivenheraproperty,hewouldnothaveherforsakeherpost,butwaitforhimtorelieveher。Shemustadministerherownkingdomereshecouldhaveanabundantentranceintohis!Onlyhewishedhewerenearheragaintohelpher!
CHAPTERLXXII。
SENT,NOTCALLED。
Hehadbeenathomeabouttendays,duringwhichnotawordhadcometoDavieorhimselffromthecastle,andwasbeginningtogrow,notperhapsanxious,buthungryfornewsofladyArctura,whenfromasoundsleephestartedsuddenlyawakeonemidnighttofindhismotherbyhisbedside:shehadrousedhimwithdifficulty。
“Laddie,“shesaid,“I'mthinkinye'rewantit。“
“WhauramIwantit,mother?”heasked,rubbinghiseyes,butwithanxietyalreadythrobbingathisheart。
“Atthecastle,“shereplied。
“Hookenyethat?”heasked。
“Itwadbeilltellin'ye,“sheanswered。“ButgienIwasyou,Donal,Iwadbeaffaforethedaybrak,toseewhatthey'reduin'
wi'yonpuirleddyatthemuckleplaceyeleft。Myhert'sthatsairaboother,IcannarestamomenttillIhaeyeawa'upo'thero'dtilher!”
Longbeforehismotherhadended,Donalwasoutofbed,andhurryingonhisclothes。Hehadtheprofoundestfaithinwhateverhismothersaid。Wasitavisionshehadhad?Hehadneverbeentoldshehadthesecondsight!Itmighthavebeenonlyadream,oranimpressionsodeepshemustheedit!Onethingwasplain:therewasnotimetoaskquestions!Itwasenoughthathismothersaid“Go;“morethanenoughthatitwasforladyArctura!Howquickestcouldhego?TherewerehorsesatsirGibbie's:hewouldmakefreewithone!Heputacrustofbreadinhispocket,andsetoutrunning。Therewasalittlemoonlight,enoughforonewhokneweveryfootoftheway;andinhalfanhourofswiftdescent,hewasatthestabledoorofGlashruach。
Findinghimselfunabletorouseanyone,hecreptthroughawayheknew,openedthedoor,withoutamoment'shesitationsaddledandbridledsirGibbie'sfavouritemare,ledherout,andmountedher。
Safeinthesaddle,withfourlegsbusyunderhim,hehadtimetothink,andbegantoturnoverinhismindwhathemustdo。Buthesoonsawtherewasnoplanninganythingtillheknewwhatwasthematter——ofwhichhehaddreadfulforebodings。Hisimaginationstartedandspurredbyfear,hethoughtofmanydreadpossibilitiesconcerningwhichhewonderedthathehadneverthoughtofthembefore:ifhehadhecouldnothaveleftthecastle!Whatmightnotamaninthementalandmoralconditionoftheearl,unrestrainedbylaworconscience,risktosecurethepropertyforhisson?Mighthenotpoisonher,smotherher,killhersomehow,anyhowthatwassafest?Thenrushedintohismindwhatthehousekeeperhadtoldhimofhiscrueltytohiswife:amanlikethat,nolongerfeeling,howeverknowingthedifferencebetweenrightandwrong,hardlyknowingthedifferencebetweendreamingathinganddoingthething,wasnofittermemberofafamilythananydevilinoroutofhell!
Hewouldhaveblamedhimselfbitterlyhadhenotbeensurehewasnotfollowinghisownwillingoingaway。Iftherewereabetterwayithadnotbeenintendedheshouldtakeit,elseitwouldhavebeenshownhim!Butnowhewouldberestrainedbynodelicacytowardstheearl:whateverhishandfoundtodohewoulddo,regardlessofappearances!IfhecouldnotreachladyArctura,hewouldseekthehelpofthelaw,tellwhatheknew,andgetawarrantofsearch。Hedarednotthinkwhathedreaded,buthewouldtrustnothingbutseeingherwithhisowneyes,andhearingfromherownmouththatallwaswell——whichcouldnotbe,elsewhyshouldhismotherhavesenthimtoher?Doubtlessthewaywouldunfoldbeforehimashewenton;butifeverythingshouldseemtogoagainsthim,hewouldyetsaywithsirPhilipSidneythat,“sinceamanisboundnofarthertohimselfthantodowisely,chanceisonlytotroublethemthatstanduponchance。“Ifhisplansorattemptsshouldoneaftertheotherfail,“there'sadivinitythatshapesourends,rough-hewthemhowwewill“!Soherodeon,carefuloverhismare,lestmuchhasteshouldbelittlespeed。Theanimalwasstrongandingoodcondition,andbythetimeDonalhadseenthesunrise,ascendtheheavens,andgohalf-waydowntheirwesternslope,andhadstoppedthreetimestorefreshthemare,hefoundhimself,aftermuchclimbinganddescent,onagoodlevelroadthatpromisedbynightfalltobringhimtotheplaceofhisdesire。
Butthemarewasnowgettingtired,andnowonder,forshehadhadmorethanahardday'swork。Donaldismountedeverynowandthentorelieveher,thathemightgothefasterwhenhemountedagain,comfortinghimselfthatinthetruepaththedelaysareasimportantasthespeed;forthehouristhepoint,nottheswiftness:anhourtoosoonmayevenbemoredisastrousthananhourtoolate!Hewouldarriveattherighttimeforhimwhosewaysarenotasourwaysinasmuchastheyaregreatlybetter!Thesunwentdownandthestarscameout,andthelongtwilightbegan。Butbeforehewasamilefartherhebecameawarethattheskyhadcloudedover,thestarshadvanished,andrainwasathand。Thedayhadbeensultry,andreliefwascome。Lightningflamedout,anddarknessfullofthunderfollowed。Thestormwasdrawingnearer,buthismare,thoughyoungandhigh-spirited,wastoowearytobefrightened;therainrefreshedboth,andtheymadealittlemorespeed。Butitwasdarknight,withnowgrumblingnowragingstorm,beforetheycamewhere,haditbeenlight,Donalwouldhavelookedtoseethecastle。
CHAPTERLXXIII。
INTHENIGHT。
Whenhereachedthetown,herodeintotheyardoftheMorvenArms,andhavingfoundasleepyostler,gaveuphismare:hewouldbebetterwithoutheratthecastle!——whitherhewassettingouttowalkwhenthelandlordappeared。
“Wedidnaluiktoseeyou,sir,atthistime!”hesaid。
“Whynot?”returnedDonal。
“Wethouchtyewasawa'forthesimmer,seein'yetuiktheyoonggentlemanwi'ye,an'theyerlhimsel'followt!”
“Whereishegone?”askedDonal。
“Oh!dinnayeken,sir?haenayeh'ard?”
“Notaword。“
“That'sverrastrange,sir!——There'sacleanclearanceatthecastel。FirstgaedmylordForgue,an'synemylordhimsel'an'mylady,an'synegaedthehoosekeeper——hermitherwasdeein',theysaid。I'mthinkin'theremaunbeaweddin'tothefore。Therewassomewordo'fittin'uptheauldhoosei'thetoon,'causelordForguedidnacareabootbein'atthecastelonylanger。It'sstrangeyehaenah'ard,sir!”
Donalstoodabsorbedinawfulhearing。Surelysomelettermusthavemiscarried!Thesureandfirm-setearthseemedgivingwayunderhisfeet。
“Iwillrunuptothecastle,andhearallaboutit,“hesaid。“Lookaftermymare,willyou?”
“ButI'mtellin'ye,sir,ye'llfin'naebodythere!”saidtheman。
“They'rea'ganefraethehooseonygait。There'snoasowlabootthatbutdeifBettyLobban,whawadnaheartheangelwi'thelasttrump。Mairbytoken,she'sthatfeartforrobbersshegangstilherbedtheminuteitbeginstogrowdark,an'sticksherheid'aneththebed-claes——no'atthatmaksheronydeifer!”
“Thenyouthinkthereisnouseingoingup?”
“Notthesmallest,“answeredtheinn-keeper。
“Getmesomesupperthen。Iwilltakealookatmymare。“
Hewentandsawthatshewasattendedto——thensetoffforthecastleasfastashislegswouldcarryhim。Therewasfoulplaybeyondadoubt!——ofwhatsorthecouldnottell!Iftheman'sreportwascorrect,hewouldgostraighttothepolice!Thenfirstheremembered,inadditiontotheotherreportedabsences,thatbeforeheleftwithDavie,thefactorandhissisterhadgonetogetherforaholiday:hadthisbeencontrived?
Hemountedthehillanddrewnearthecastle。Aterriblegloomfelluponhim:therewasnotalightinthesullenpile!Itwasdarksomeeventoterror!Hewenttothemainentrance,andrangthegreatbellasloudashecouldringit,buttherewasnoanswertothesummons,whichechoedandyelledhorribly,asifthehousewereactuallyempty。Herangagain,andagaincamethehorribleyellingecho,butnomoreanswerthanifithadbeenamausoleum。Hehadbeentoldwhattoexpect,yethisheartsankwithinhim。Oncemoreherangandwaited;buttherewasnosoundofhearing。Theplacegrewterribletohim。Buthismotherhadsenthimthere,andintoithemustgo!Hemustatleastlearnwhetheritwasindeedabandoned!
Therewasfalseplay!hekeptrepeatingtohimself;butwhatwasit?
whereandhowwasittobemet?
Astogettingintothehousetherewasnodifficulty。HehadbuttoclimbtwowallstogettothedoorofBaliol'stower,andthekeyofthathealwayscarried。Ifhehadnothadit,hewouldyetsoonhavegotin;heknewtheplacebetterthananyoneelseaboutit。Happilyhehadleftthedoorlockedwhenhewentaway,elseprobablytheywouldhavesecureditotherwise。Heenteredsoftly,and,withastrangefeelingofdread,wentwindingupthestairtohisroom——slowly,becausehedidnotyetknowatallwhathewastodo。
Iftherewerenofalseplay,surelyatleastMrs。Brookeswouldhavewrittentotellhimtheyweregoing!Ifonlyhecouldlearnwhereshewas!Beforehereachedthetophefoundhimselfveryweary。Hestaggeredin,andfellonhisbedinthedark。
Buthecouldnotrest。Theairseemedstifling。Thestormhadlulled,buttheatmospherewasfullofthunder。Hegotupandopenedthewindow。Alittlebreathcameinandrevivedhim;thencamealittlewind,andinthewindthemoanofitsharp。Itwokemanymemories。Thereagainwasthelightning!Thethunderbrokewithagreatbellowingroaramongtheroofsandchimneys。Itwastohismind!Hewentoutontheroof,andmechanicallytookhiswaytowardthenestofthemusic。Atthebaseofthechimneyshesatdown,andstaredintothedarkness。Thelightningcame;hesawthesealiewatchinglikeaperfectpeacetotakeupdriftsouls,andthelandborderingitlikeawasteofdread;thenthedarknessswallowedboth;andthethundercamesoloudthatitnotonlydeafenedbutseemedtoblindhimbeyondthedarkness,thathisbrainturnedtoalumpofclay。Thencameasilence,andthesilencewaslikeadeeperdeafness。Butfromthedeafnessburstandtrickledafaintdoubtfulstream:coulditbeavoice,calling,calling,fromagreatdistance?Washethefoolofwearinessandexcitement,ordidheactuallyhearhisownname?WhosevoicecoulditbebutladyArctura's,callingtohimfromthespiritworld!Theyhadkilledher,andshewascallingtolethimknowshewasinthelandofliberty!Withthatcameanotherflashandanotherroarofthunder——andtherewasthevoiceagain:“Mr。Grant!Mr。Grant!come,come!Youpromised!”Didheactuallyhearthewords?Theysoundedsofarawaythatitseemedasifheoughtnottohearthem。Butcouldthevoicebefromthespirit-land?Wouldsheclaimhispromisethence,temptinghimthither?Shewouldnot!Andsheknewhewouldnotgobeforehishour,ifallthespiritsontheothersidewerecallinghim。Buthehadheardofvoicesfromfaraway,whilethosewhocalledwereyetinthebody!Ifshewouldbutsaywhither,hewouldfollowherthatmoment!Oncemoreitcame,butveryfaint;hecouldnottellwhatitsaid。Awailoftheghost-musicfollowedclose——Godinheaven!couldshebedowninthechapel?Hesprangtohisfeet。Withsuperhumanenergyheleaptupandcaughttheedgeofthecleft,drewhimselfuptillhismouthreachedit,andcriedaloud,“LadyArctura!”
Therecamenoanswer。
“Iamstupidasdeath!”hesaidtohimself:“Ihavelethercallmeinvain!”
“Iamcoming!”hecriedagain,revivedwithsuddenjoy。Hedroppedontheroof,andspeddownthestairtothedoorthatopenedonthesecondfloor。Allwasdarkasunderground,butheknewthewaysowellheneededbutalittleguidancefromhishands。HehurriedtoladyArctura'schamber,andthespotwherethepressstood,readywithoneshovetosendityardsoutofhisway。Therewasnopressthere!——nothingbutasmooth,cold,dampwall!Hisheartsankwithinhim。Washeinaterribledream?No,no!hehadbutmadeamistake——hadtrustedtoomuchtohisknowledgeofthehouse,andwasnotwherehethoughthewas!Hestruckalight。Alas!alas!hewaswherehehadintended!Itwasherroom!Therewasthewardrobe,butnearerthedoor!Whereithadstoodwasnorecess!——nothingbutagreatpatchoffreshplaster!Itwasnodream,butatruehorror!
Instinctivelyclutchinghisskenedhu,hedartedtothegreatstair。
ItmusthavebeenthevoiceofArcturahehadheard!Shewaswalledupinthechapel!
Downthestair,withswiftnoiselessfoothesped,andstoppedatthedoorofthehalf-wayroom。Itwaslocked!
Therewasbutonewayleft!Tothefootofthestairheshot。Goodheavens!ifthatwayalsoshouldhavebeenknowntotheearl!Hecreptthroughthelittledoorunderneaththestair,feelingwithhishandserehisbodywasthrough:thearchwasopen!Inaninstanthewasinthecrypt。
Butnowtogetupthroughtheopeningintothepassageabove——stoppedwithaheavyslab!Hesprangatthesteepslopeofthewindow-sill,buttherewasnohold,andasoftenashesprangheslippeddownagain。Hetriedandtrieduntilhewaswornoutandalmostindespair。Shemightbedying!hewasclosetoher!hecouldnotreachher!Hestoodstillforamomenttothink。Tohismindcametheword,“Hethatbelievethshallnotmakehaste。“Hethoughtwithhimself,“Godcannothelpmenwithwisdomwhentheirmindsareintoogreatatumulttohearwhathesays!”Hetriedtoliftuphisheartandmakeasilenceinhissoul。
Ashestoodheseemedtosee,throughthedark,thegloomyplaceasitfirstappearedwhenhethrewinthelightedletter。Allatoncehestartedfromhisquiescence,droppedonhishandsandknees,andcrawleduntilhefoundtheflatstonelikeagravestone。Outcamehisknife,andhedugawaytheearthatoneend,untilhecouldgetbothhandsunderit。Thenheheaveditfromthefloor,andshiftingitalong,gotitundertheopeninginthewall。
CHAPTERLXXIV。
AMORALFUNGUS。
Spiritualinsanity,cupidity,cruelty,andpossiblyimmediatedemoniacaltemptationhadlongbeenworkinginandonamindthathadnowceasedalmosttodistinguishbetweentherealandtheunreal。Everymanwhobendstheenergiesofanimmortalspirittofurthertheendsandobjectsofhislowerbeing,failssotodistinguish;butwiththeearltheblindnesshadwroughtoutwardaswellasinwardly,sothathewasevenunable,duringconsiderableportionsofhislife,totellwhetherthingstookplaceoutsideorinsidehim。Nordidthistroublehim——hewaspastcaring。Hewouldarguethatwhatequallyaffectedhimhadanequalrighttobebyhimregardedasexistent。Hepaidnoheedtothedifferentnaturesofthetwokindsofexistence,theirdifferentlaws,andthedifferentdemandstheymadeuponthetwoconsciousnesses;hehadinfact,byalongcourseofdisobediencegrowingtoutterdisuseofconscience,arrivednearlyatnon-individuality。Inregardtowhatwasoutsidehimhewasbutamirror,inregardtowhatwasinsidehimamerevesselofimperfectlyinteractingforces。Andnowhiscapacitiesandincapacitiestogetherhadculminatedinahideousplot,inwhichitwouldbehardtosaywhetherthefolly,thecrime,orthecunningpredominated:hehadmadeuphismindthat,ifthedaughterofhisbrotherrefusedtowedhercousin,andsocarryoutwhatheassertedtohavebeenthedeclaredwishofherfather,sheshouldgoafterherfather,andleaveherpropertytothenextheir,sothatifnotinonewaytheninanotherthelawofnaturemightbefulfilled,andtitleandpropertyunitedwithouttheinterventionofamarriage。Astoanyevilthatthereinmightbeimaginedtobefallhisniece,hequotedthewordsofHamlet——“Sincenomanhasoughtofwhatheleaves,whatis'ttoleavebetimes?”——shewouldbenoworsethanshemusthavebeenwhenthefewyearsofhernaturalpilgrimagewereofnecessityover:thedifferencetoherwasnotworththinkingofbesidethedifferencetothefamily!Atthesametimeperhapsascaremightserve,andshewouldconsenttomarryForguetoescapeafrightfulend!
ThemomentDonalwasgone,hesentForguetoLondon,andsethimselftoovercomethedistrustofhimwhichhecouldnotbutseehadforsometimebeengrowinginher。Withthesweetprejudicesofalovingnaturetoassisthim,hesoonprevailedsofarthat,withoutmuchentreaty,sheconsentedtoaccompanyhimtoLondon——foramonthorso,hesaid,whileDaviewasgone。Theproposalhadcharmsforher:
shehadbeentherewithherfatherwhenamerechild,andneversince。ShewrotetoDonaltolethimknow:howitwasthatherletterneverreachedhim,itishardlyneedfultoinquire。
Theearl,inorder,hesaid,toshowhisrecognitionofhersweetcompliance,madearrangementsforpostingitalltheway。Hewouldtakeherbytheroadheusedtotravelhimselfwhenhewasayoungman:sheshouldjudgewhethermorehadnotbeenlostthangainedbyrapidity!Whatevershortenedanynaturalprocess,hesaid,simplyshortenedlifeitself。Simmonsshouldgobefore,andfindasuitableplaceforthem!
TheywerehardlygonewhenMrs。Brookesreceivedaletterpretendedlyfromtheclergymanoftheparish,inaremotepartofthesouth,wherehermother,nowaveryoldwoman,lived,sayingshewasatthepointofdeath,andcouldnotdieinpeacewithoutseeingherdaughter。Shewentatonce。
Theschemewasamadman's,excellentlycontrivedfortheinstantobject,butwithnooutlookforimmediatelyresultingperils。
Afterthefirstnightontheroad,heturnedacrosscountry,andalittletowardshome;afterthenextnight,hedrovestraightback,butasitwasbyadifferentroad,Arcturasuspectednothing。Whentheycamewithinafewhoursofthecastle,theystoppedatalittleinnfortea;therehecontrivedtogiveheracertaindose。Atthenextplacewheretheystopped,herepresentedherashisdaughtertakensuddenlyill:hemustgostraighthomewithher,howeverlatetheymightbe。Givinganimaginarynametotheirdestination,andkeepingonthelastpost-boywhoknewnothingofthecountry,hedirectedhimsoascompletelytobewilderhim,withtheresultthathesetthemdownatthecastlesupposingitadifferentplace,andinadifferentpartofthecountry。Thethingwasaftertheearl'sownheart;hedelightedinmakingafoolofafellow-mortal。Hesenthimawaysoasnottoenterthetown:itwasofimportancehisreturnshouldnotbeknown。
Itisamarvelhecouldeffectwhatfollowed;buthehadtheremnantsofgreatstrength,andwhenunderinfluencesheknewtoowellhowtomanage,wasforthetimealmostaspowerfulasever:hegothisvictimtohisroomonthestair,andthencethroughtheoakdoor。
CHAPTERLXXV。
THEPORCHOFHADES。
WhenArcturawokefromherunnaturalsleep,shelayawhilewithoutthought,thenbegantolocalizeherself。Thelastplacesherecalledwastheinnwheretheyhadtea:shemusthavebeentheretakenill,shethought,andwasnowinaroomofthesame。Itwasquitedark:
theymighthaveleftalightbyher!Shelaycomfortablyenough,buthadasuspicionthattheplacewasnotoverclean,andwasgladtofindherselfnotundrest。Sheturnedonherside:somethingpulledherbythewrist。Shemusthaveabraceleton,anditwasentangledinthecoverlet!Shetriedtounclaspit,butcouldnot:whichofherbraceletscoulditbe?Therewassomethingattachedtoit!——achain——athickchain!Howodd!Whatcoulditmean?Shelayquiet,slowlywakingtofullerconsciousness——Wastherenotastrangeair,adullodourintheroom?Undefinedasitwas,shehadsmeltitbefore,andnotlongsince!——Itwasthesmellofthelostchapel!——Butthatwasathomeinthecastle!shehadleftittwodaysbefore!Wasshegoingoutofhermind?
Thedewofagonyburstfromherforehead。Shewouldhavestartedup,butwaspulledhardbythewrist!ShecriedonGod——Yes,shewaslyingontheveryspotwherethatheapofwoman-dusthadlain!shewasmanacledwiththesameringfromwhichthatwoman'sarmhadwasted——thedecayofcenturiesherslowredeemer!Herbeingrecoiledsowildlyfromthehorror,thatforamomentsheseemedontheedgeofmadness。Butmadnessisnotthesolerefugefromterror!WherethedoorofthespirithasoncebeenopenedwidetoGod,thereishe,thepresenthelpintimeoftrouble!Withhiminthehouse,itisnotonlythatweneedfearnothing,butthatistherewhichinitsownbeingandnaturecastsoutfear。Godandfearcannotbetogether。ItisaGodfaroffthatcausesfear。“Inthypresenceisfulnessofjoy。“SuchasenseofabsolutehelplessnessoverwhelmedArcturathatshefeltawakeinheranendlessclaimupontheprotectionofheroriginal,thesourceofherbeing。Andwhatsoonerwouldanyfatherhaveofhischildrenthanactiononsuchclaim!Godisalwayscallingusashischildren,andwhenwecallhimasourfather,then,andnottillthen,doeshebegintobesatisfied。AndwiththattherefelluponArcturaakindofsleep,whichyetwasnotsleep;itwasareposesuchasperhapsisthesleepofaspirit。
Againtheexternalbegantointrude。Shepicturedtoherselfwhatthedarknesswashiding。Herfeelingswhenfirstshecamedownintotheplacereturnedonhermemory。Thetideofterrorbeganagaintorise。Itroseandrose,andthreatenedtobecomemonstrous。Shereasonedwithherself:hadshenotbeenbroughtinsafetythroughitsfirstandmostdangerousinroad?——butreasoncouldnotoutfaceterror。Itwasfear,themostterribleofallterrors,thatshefeared。Thenagainwokeherfaith:ifthenighthidethnotfromhim,neitherdoesthedarknessoffear!
Itbegantothunder,firstwithalowdistantmutteringroll,thenwithaloudandnearbellowing。WasitGodcomingtoher?Somearestrangelyterrifiedatthunder;Arcturahadthechild'sfeelingthatitwasGodthatthundered:itcomfortedheraswiththeassurancethatGodwasnear。Asshelayandheardthegreatorganoftheheavens,itsvoiceseemedtogrowarticulate;Godwascallingtoher,andsaying,“HereIam,mychild!benotafraid!”
Thenshebegantoreasonwithherselfthattheworstthatcouldhappentoherwastolietheretillshediedofhunger,andthatcouldnotbesoverybad!Andtherewithacrossthemutteringthundercameawailoftheghost-music。Shestarted:hadshenothearditahundredtimesbefore,asshelaythereinthedarkalone?Wassheonlynowforthefirsttimewakinguptoit——she,theladytheyhadshutuptheretodie——whereshehadlainforages,witheverynowandthenthatsoundoftheangelssinging,faraboveherinthebluesky?
Shewasbeginningtowander。Shereasonedwithherself,anddismissedthefancy;butitcameandcameagain,mingledwithrealmemories,mostlyoftheroof,andDonal。
Byandbyshefellasleep,andwokeinaterrorwhichseemedtohavebeengrowinginhersleep。Shesatup,andstaredintothedark。
>Fromwherestoodthealtar,seemedtoriseandapproachheraformofdeeperdarkness。Sheheardnothing,sawnothing,butsomethingwasthere。Itcamenearer。Itwasbutafancy;sheknewit;butthefancyassumedtobe:themomentshegaveway,andacknowledgedit,thatmomentitwouldhavetherealityithadbeenwaitingfor,andclaspherinitsskeleton-arms!Shecriedaloud,butitonlycamenearer;itwasabouttoseizeher!
Asudden,divinechange!——herfearwasgone,andinitsplaceasenseofabsolutesafety:therewasnothinginalltheuniversetobeafraidof!ItwasanightofJune,withroses,roseseverywhere!
GlorybetotheFather!Buthowwasit?Hadhesenthermothertothinkherfullofroses?Whyhermother?Godhimselfistheheartofeveryrosethateverbloomed!Shewouldhavesungaloudforjoy,butnovoicecame;shecouldnotutterasound。WhatathingthiswouldbetotellDonalGrant!Thispoorwomancried,andGodheardher,andsavedheroutofallherdistresses!Thefatherhadcometohischild!Thecryhadgonefromherheartintohis!
Ifshediedthere,wouldDonalcomeonedayandfindher?No!No!
Shewouldspeaktohiminadream,andbeghimnottogoneartheplace!Shewouldnothavehimseeherlielikethatheandshestandingtogetherhadtherelookedupon!
WiththatcameDonal'svoice,floatedandrolledinmusicandthunder。Itcamefromfaraway;shedidnotknowwhethershefanciedorreallyheardit。Shewouldhaverespondedwithagreatcry,buthervoicevanishedinherthroat。Herjoywassuchthatsherememberednothingmore。
CHAPTERLXXVI。
THEANGELOFTHELORD。
Standingupontheedgeofthestoneleanedagainstthewall,Donalseizedtheedgeoftheslabwhichcrossedtheopeningnearthetop,anddrewhimselfupintotheslopingwindow-sill。Pressingwithallhismightagainstthesidesofthewindow,hesucceededatlastinpushinguptheslabsofarastogetaholdwithonehandonthenexttoit。Thenslowlyturninghimselfonhisside,whilethewholeweightofthestonerestedonhisfingers,hegottheotherhandalsothroughthecrack。Thiseffected,hehauledandpushedhimselfupwithhiswholeforce,carelessofwhatmighthappentohishead。
Thetopofitcamebangagainstthestone,andlifteditsofarthathegotheadandneckthrough。Thethingwasdone!WithonemoreHerculeanliftofhisbodyandthestonetogether,likeamanrisingfromthedead,herosefromthecryptintothepassage。
Butthedoorofthechapelwouldnotyieldtoagentlepush。
“Mylady,“hecried,“don'tbeafraid。Imustmakeanoise。It'sonlyDonalGrant!I'mgoingtodrivethedooropen。“
Sheheardthewords!Theywokeherfromherswoonofjoy。“OnlyDonalGrant!”Whatlessofanonlycouldtherebeintheworldforher!Washenotthemessengerwhoraisedthedead!
Shetriedtospeak,butnotawordwouldcome。Donaldrewbackapace,andsentsuchashoulderagainstthedoorthatitflewtothewall,thenfellwithagreatcrashonthefloor。
“Whereareyou,mylady?”hecried。
Butstillshecouldnotspeak。
Hebeganfeelingabout。
“Notonthatterriblebed!”sheheardhimmurmur。
Fearlestinthedarknessheshouldnotfindher,gaveherbackhervoice。
“Idon'tminditnow!”shesaidfeebly。
“ThankGod!”criedDonal;“I'vefoundyouatlast!”
Wornout,hesankonhisknees,withhisheadonthebed,andfellasobbinglikeachild。
Shewouldhaveputoutherhandthroughthedarknesstofindhim,butthechaincheckedit。Heheardtherattleofit,andunderstood。
“Chainedtoo,mydove!”hesaid,butinGaelic。
Hisweaknesswasover。HethankedGod,andtookcourage。Newliferushedthrougheveryvein。Herosetohisfeetinconsciousstrength。
“Canyoustrikealight,andletmeseeyou,Donal?”saidArctura。
ThenfirstshecalledhimbyhisChristianname:ithadbeensoofteninherheartifnotonherlipsthatnight!
Thedimlightwastedthedarknessofthelongburiedplace,andforamomenttheylookedateachother。ShewasnotsochangedasDonalhadfearedtofindher——hardlysochangetohimashewastoher。
Terribleashadbeenhertrial,ithadnotlastedlong,andhadbeensucceededbyaheavenlyjoy。Shewaspalerthanusual,yettherewasarosyflushoverherbeautifulface。Herhandwasstretchedtowardshim,itswristclaspedbytherustyring,andtighteningthechainthatheldittothepost。
“Howpaleandtiredyoulook!”shesaid。
“Iamalittletired,“heanswered。“Icamealmostwithoutstopping。
Mymothersentme。ShesaidImustcome,butshedidnottellmewhy。“
“ItwasGodsentyou,“saidArctura。
Thenshebrieflytoldhimwhatsheknewofherownstory。
“Howdidhegettheringontoyourwrist?”saidDonal。
Helookedcloserandsawthatherhandwasswollen,andtheskinabraded。
“Heforcediton!”hesaid。“Howitmusthurtyou!”
“Itdoeshurtnowyouspeakofit,“shereplied。“Ididnotnoticeitbefore——Doyousupposeheleftmeheretodie?”
“Whocantell!”returnedDonal。“Isuspectheismoreofamadmanthanweknew。Iwonderifasoulcanbemad——Yes;thedevilmustbemadwithself-worship!Hellisthegreatmadhouseofcreation!”
“Takemeaway,“shesaid。
“Imustfirstgetyoufree,“answeredDonal。
Sheheardhimrise。
“Youarenotgoingtoleaveme?”shesaid。
“Onlytogetatoolortwo。“
“Andafterthat?”shesaid。
“Notuntilyouwishme,“heanswered。“Iamyourservantnow——hisnomore。“
CHAPTERLXXVII。
THEANGELOFTHEDEVIL。
Therecameagreatburstofthunder。Itwasthelastofthestorm。
Itbellowedandshuddered,went,andcamerollingupagain。Itdiedawayatlastinthegreatdistance,withalowcontinuousrumblingasifitwouldnevercease。ThesilencethatfollowedwasliketheEgyptiandarkness;itmightbefelt。
Outofthetenseheartofthesilencecameafaintsound。Itcameagainandagain,atregularintervals。
“Thatismyuncle'sstep!”saidArcturainascaredwhisperthroughthedark。
Itwasplainlyaslowstep——faroff,butapproaching。
“Iwonderifhehasalight!”sheaddedhurriedly。“Heoftengoesinthedarkwithoutone。Ifhehasyoumustgetbehindthealtar。“
“Donotspeakaword,“saidDonal;lethimthinkyouareasleep。Ifhehasnolight,Iwillstandsothathecannotcomenearthebedwithoutcomingagainstme。Donotbeafraid;heshallnottouchyou。“
Thestepswerecomingnearerallthetime。Adooropenedandshut。
Thentheywereloud——theywerecomingalongthegallery!Theyceased。Hewasstandingupthereinthethickdarkness!
“Arctura,“saidadeep,awfulvoice。
Itwasthatoftheearl。Arcturamadenoanswer。
“Deadoffright!”mutteredthevoice。“Allgoeswell。Iwillgodownandsee。Shemighthaveprovedasobstinateastheboys'mother!”
Againthestepsbegan。Theywerecomingdownthestair。Thedooratthefootofitopened。Theearlenteredasteportwo,thenstopped。
ThroughthedarknessDonalseemedtoknowexactlywherehestood。Heknewalsothathewasfumblingforamatch,andwatchedintentlyforthefirstspark。Therecameasputterandagleam,andthematchfailed。Erehecouldtryanother,Donalmadeaswiftblowathisarm。Itknockedtheboxfromhishand。
“Ha!”hecried,andtherewasterrorinthecry,“shestrikesatmethroughthedark!”
Donalkeptverystill。Arcturakeptasstillashe。Theearlturnedandwentaway。
“Iwillbringacandle!”hemuttered。
“Now,mylady,wemustmakehaste,“saidDonal。“DoyoumindbeingleftwhileIfetchmytools?”
“No——butmakehaste,“sheanswered。
“Ishallbebackbeforehim,“hereturned。
“Becarefulyoudonotmeethim,“saidArctura。
Therewasnodifficultynow,eitheringoingorreturning。Hesped,andinaspacethateventoArcturaseemedshort,wasback。Therewasnotimetousethefile:heattackedthestaple,anddrewitfromthebed-post,thenwoundthechainaboutherarm,andtieditthere。
Hehadalreadymadeuphismindwhattodowithher。Hehadbeeninclinedtocarryherawayfromthehouse:Doorywouldtakecareofher!Buthesawthattoleavetheenemyinpossessionwouldbetoyieldhimanadvantage。Awkwardthingsmightresultfromit!thetonguesofinventiveignoranceandstupiditywouldwagwildly!Hewouldtakehertoherroom,andtherewatchherashewouldthepearlofprice!
“There!youarefree,mylady,“hesaid。“Nowcome。“
Hetookherhands,andsheraisedherselfwearily。
“Theairissostifling!”shesaid。
“Weshallsoonhavebetter!”answeredDonal。
“Shallwegoontheroof?”shesaid,likeonetalkinginhersleep。
“Iwilltakeyoutoyourownroom,“repliedDonal。“——ButIwillnotleaveyou,“headdedquickly,seeingalookofanxietycloudherface,“——solongasyouruncleisinthehouse。“
“Takemewhereyouwill,“rejoinedArctura。
Therewasnowaybutthroughthecrypt:shefollowedhimwithouthesitation。Theycreptthroughthelittleclosetunderthestair,andwereinthehallofthecastle。
Astheywentsoftlyupthestair,Donalhadanidea。
“Heisnotbackyet!”hesaid:“wewilltakethekeyfromtheoakdoor;hewillthinkhehasmislaidit,andwillnotfindoutthatyouaregone。Iwonderwhathewilldo!”
Cautiouslylisteningtobesuretheearlwasnotthere,herantotheoakdoor,lockedit,andbroughtawaythekey。ThentheywenttotheroomArcturahadlastoccupied。
Thedoorwasajar;therewasalightintheroom。Theywentsoftly,andpeepedin。Theearlwasthere,turningoverthecontentsofherwriting-desk。
“Hewillfindnothing,“shewhisperedwithasmile。
Donalledheraway。
“Wewillgotoyouroldroom,“hesaid。“Thewholerecessisbuiltupwithstoneandlime:hecannotcomenearyouthatway!”
Shemadenoobjection。Donalsecuredthedoors,lightedafire,andwenttolookforfood。Theyhadagreeduponacertainknock,withoutwhichshewastoopentonone。
Whileshewasyetchangingthegarmentsinwhichshehadlainontheterriblebed,sheheardtheearlgoby,andthedoorofhisroomclose。Apparentlyhehadconcludedtoletherpassthenightwithoutanothervisit:hehadhimselfhadabadfright,andhadprobablynotgotoverit。AlittlelongerandsheheardDonal'sgentlesignalatthedoorofthesitting-room。Hehadbroughtsomebiscuitsandalittlewineinthebottomofadecanterfromthehousekeeper'sroom:
therewasliterallynothinginthelarder,hesaid。
Theysatdownandatethebiscuits。Donaltoldhisadventures。Theyagreedthatshemustwritetothefactortocomehomeatonce,andbringhissister。ThenDonalsettowithhisfileuponthering:herhandwasmuchtooswollentoadmitofitsbeingremovedasithadbeenputon。Itwasnoteasytocutit,partlyfromtheconstantdangerofhurtingherswollenhand,partlythattherustfilledandbluntedthefile。
“There!”hesaidatlast,“youarefree!Andnow,mylady,youmusttakesomerest。Thedoortothepassageissecure。Lockthisoneinside,andIwilldrawthesofaacrossitoutside:ifhecomewanderinginthenight,andgetintothisroom,hewillnotreachyourdoor。“
Wearyashewas,Donalcouldnotsleepmuch。Inthemiddleofthenightheheardtheearl'sdooropen,andwatchedandfollowedhim。
Hewenttotheoakdoor,andtriedinvaintoopenit。
“Shehastakenit!”hemuttered,inwhatseemedtoDonalanawe-struckvoice。
Allnightlongheroamedthehouseaspiritgrievouslytormented。Inthegrayofthemorning,havingperhapspersuadedhimselfthatthewholeaffairwasatrickofhisimagination,hewentbacktohisroom。
InthemorningDonalleftthehouse,havingfirstcalledtoArcturaandwarnedhertolockthedoorofthesitting-roomthemomenthewasgone。Heranallthewaydowntotheinn,paidhisbill,boughtsomethingsinthetownfortheirbreakfast,andtakingthemare,rodeuptothecastle,andrangthebell。Nonoticewastaken。Hewentandputuphisanimal,thenlethimselfintothehousebyBaliol'stower,andbegantosing。Sosinginghewentupthegreatstair,andintoandalongthecorridorwheretheearllay。
Thesingingrousedhim,andbroughthimtohisdoorinarage。ButthemomenthesawDonalhiscountenancefell。
“Whatthedevilareyoudoinghere?”hesaid。
“TheytoldmeinthetownyouwereinEngland,mylord!”
“Iwrotetoyou,“saidtheearl,“thatweweregonetoLondon,andthatyouneedbeinnohastetoreturn。ItrustyouhavenotbroughtDaviewithyou?”
“Ihavenot,mylord。“
“Thenmakewhathastebacktohimyoucan。Hemustnotbealonewithbumpkins!YoumaystaytherewithhimtillIsendforyou——onlymindyougoonwithyourstudies。Nowbeoff。Iamathomebutforafewhoursonbusiness,andleaveagainbytheafternooncoach!”
“Idonotgo,mylord,untilIhaveseenmymistress。“
“Yourmistress!Who,pray,isyourmistress!”
“Iamnolongerinyourservice,mylord。“
“Thenwhat,inthenameofGod,haveyoudonewithmyson?”
“Ingoodtime,mylord,whenyouhavetoldmewheremymistressis!
IaminthishouseasladyArctura'sservant;andIdesiretoknowwhereIshallfindher。“
“InLondon。“
“Whataddress,pleaseyourlordship?Iwillwaitherordershere。“
“Youwillleavethishouseatonce,“saidtheearl。“Iwillnothaveyouhereinbothherladyship'sabsenceandmyown。“
“Mylord,Iamnotignoranthowthingsstand:IaminladyArctura'shouse;andhereIremaintillIreceivehercommands。“
“Verywell!Byallmeans!”
“Iaskyouagainforheraddress,mylord。“
“Finditforyourself。Youwillnotobeymyorders:amItoobeyyours?”
Heturnedonhisheel,andflungtohisdoor。
DonalwenttoladyArctura。Shewasinthesitting-room,anxiouslywaitinghisreturn。Shehadheardtheirvoices,butnothingthatpassed。Hetoldherwhathehaddone;thenproducedhisprovisions,andtogethertheypreparedtheirbreakfast。Byandbytheyheardtheearlcomefromhisroom,gohereandtherethroughthestillhouse,andreturntohisapartment。
Intheafternoonheleftthehouse。Theywatchedhimaway——illable,apparently,eventocrawlalong。Hewentdownthehill,noronceliftedhishead。Theyturnedandlookedateachother。Profoundpityforthewretchedoldmanwasthefeelingofboth。Itwasfollowedbyoneofintensereliefandliberty。
“Youwouldliketoberidofmenow,mylady,“saidDonal;“butI
don'tseehowIcanleaveyou。ShallIgoandfetchMissCarmichael?”
“No,certainly,“answeredArctura。“Icannotapplytoher。“
“Itwouldbeapitytolosetheadvantageofyouruncle'snotknowingwhathasbecomeofyou。“
“Iwonderwhathewilldonext!IfIweretodienow,thepropertywouldbehis,andthenForgue's!”
“Youcanwillitaway,Isuppose,mylady!”answeredDonal。
Arcturastoodthoughtful。
“IsForgueabadman,Mr。Grant?”
“Idarenottrusthim,“answeredDonal。
“Doyouthinkhehadanyknowledgeofthisplotofhisfather's?”
“Icannottell。Idonotbelievehewouldhaveleftyoutodieinthechapel。“
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