首页 >出版文学> Donal Grant>第13章

第13章

  Itwasafrostynight,andthestarswerebrilliant。Helookedupandsaid,“OhSaviourofmen,thyhouseisvaultedwithlight;thysecretplacesaresecretfromexcessoflight;intheeisnodarknessatall;thouhastnoterriblecryptsandbuilt-upplaces;thylightistheterrorofthosewholovethedarkness!Fillmyheartwiththylight;letmeneverhungerorthirstafteranythingbutthywill——thatImaywalkinthelight,andlightnotdarknessmaygoforthfromme。“
  Asheturnedtogoin,cameafaintchordfromtheaeolianharp。
  “Itsings,broodingovertheverynestofevildeeds!”hethought。
  “Thelighteternal,withkeenarrowsofradiantvictory,willyetatlastroutfromthesoulsofhiscreaturesthedemonsthathauntthem!
  “ButiftherebecreaturesofGodthathaveturnedtodemons,maynothumansoulsthemselvesturntodemons?WouldtheythenbevictoriousoverGod,toostrongforhimtoovercome——beyondthereachofrepentance?
  “Howwouldtheylive?Bytheirownpower?ThenweretheyGods!——Buttheydidnotmakethemselves,andcouldnotliveofthemselves。Ifnot,thentheymustlivebyGod'spower。Howthenshouldtheybebeyondhisreach?
  “Ifthedemonscanneverbebroughtback,thenthelifeofGod,theall-pure,goesouttokeepalive,inandforevil,thatwhichisessentiallybad;forthatwhichisirredeemableisessentiallybad。“
  ThusreasonedDonalwithhimself,andhisreasoning,insteadoftroublinghisfaith,causedhimtoclingthemoretotheonlyOne,thesolehopeandsaviouroftheheartsofhismenandwomen,withoutwhomthewholeuniversewerebutacharnelhouseinwhichtheghostsofthedeadwentaboutcrying,notoverthelifethatwasgonefromthem,butitssorrows。
  Hestoodandgazedoutoverthecoldsea。Andashegazed,ashiveringsurgeofdoubt,achillwaveofnegation,camerollingoverhim。Heknewthatinamomenthewouldstrikeoutwiththeenergyofastrongswimmer,andrisetothetopofit;butnowitwastumblinghimaboutatitsevilwill。Hestoodandgazed——withadullsensethathewaswaitingforhiswill。Suddenlycametheconsciousnessthatheandhiswillwereone;thathehadnottowaitforhiswill,buthadtowake——towill,thatis,anddo,andsobe。
  Andtherewithhesaidtohimself:——
  “Itisneithertime,noreternity,norhumanconsolation,noreverlastingsleep,northesatisfiedjudgment,norattainedambition,eveninloveitself,thatisthecureforthings;itistheheart,thewill,thebeingoftheFather。Whilethatremains,theirremediable,theirredeemablecannotbe。Iftherearoseagriefintheheartofoneofhiscreaturesnototherwisetobedestroyed,hewouldtakeitintohimself,thereconsumeitinhisowncreativefire——himselfbearingthegrief,carryingthesorrow。Christdied——andwoulddieagainratherthanleaveoneheart-acheintherealmsofhislove——thatis,ofhiscreation。'Blessedaretheywhohavenotseenandyethavebelieved!'“
  Overhisheadtheskywasfullofshiningworlds——mansionsintheFather'shouse,builtorbuilding。
  “Wearenotattheendofthings,“hethought,“butinthebeginningsandonthethresholdofcreation!TheFatherisasyoungaswhenfirstthestarsofthemorningsang——theAncientofDayswhocannevergrowold!Hewhohaseverfilledthedullunbelievingnationswithfoodandgladness,hasasplendourofdelightforthesoulsthatbelieve,everasbytheirobediencetheybecomecapableofreceivingit。“
  CHAPTERLXII。
  THECRYPT。
  “Whenareyougoingdownagaintothechapel,Mr。Grant?”saidladyArctura:shewasbetternow,andabletowork。
  “Iwasdownlastnight,andwanttogoagainthiseveningbymyself——ifyoudon'tmind,mylady,“heanswered。“Iamsureitwillbebetterforyounottogodowntillyouarereadytogiveyourorderstohaveeverythingclearedawayforthelightandairtoenter。Thedampandclosenessoftheplacearetoomuchforyou。“
  “Ithinkitwasratherthewantofsleepthatmademeill,“sheanswered;“butyoucandojustasyouplease。“
  “Ithankyouforyourconfidence,mylady,“returnedDonal。“Idonotthinkyouwillrepentit。“
  “IknowIshallnot。“
  Havingsomethingstodofirst,itwaslatebeforeDonalwentdown——intentonlearningtheformermainentrance,andverifyingthepositionofthechapelinthecastle。
  Hebetookhimselftotheendofthepassageunderthelittlegallery,andthereexaminedthesignshehadobserved:thosemustbetheouterendsoftwoofthestepsofthegreatstaircase!theycamethrough,restingonthewall。Thatendofthechapel,then,adjoinedthemainstair。Evidently,too,adoorhadbeenbuiltupintheprocessofconstructingthestair。Thechapelthenhadnotbeenenteredfromthatlevelsincethebuildingofthestair。Originallytherehad,mostlikely,beenanoutsidestairtothisdoor,inanopencourt。
  Afteralittlemoreexamination,partialofnecessity,fromlackoflight,hewasonhiswayout,andalreadynearthetopofthemuralstair,thinkingofthefreshobservationshewouldtakeoutsideinthemorning,whenbehind,overtakinghimfromtheregionshehadleft,cameablastofair,andblewouthiscandle。Heshivered——notwiththecoldofit,thoughitdidbreatheofundergrounddampsanddoubtfulgrowths,butfromafeelingofitshavingbeensentafterhimtomakehimgodownagain——fordiditnotindicatesomeopeningtotheouterair?Herelightedhiscandleanddescended,carefullyguardingitwithonehand。Thecoldsighseemedtolingerabouthimashewent——gruesomeasfromacloseddepth,thesecretbosomofthecastle,intowhichthelightneverentered。But,whereveritcamefromlast,howeverearthyandfearful,itcamefirstfromtheopenregionsoflife,andhadbutpassedthroughagloomthatlifeitselfmustpass!Couldithavebeenadraughtdownthepipeofthemusic-chords?No,fortheywouldhaveloosedsomelight-wingedmessengerwithit!Hemustsearchtillhefounditsentrancebelow!
  Hecrossedthelittlegallery,descended,andwentagainintothechapel:itlayasstillasthetombwhichitwasnomore。Heseemedtomissthepresenceofthedead,andfeeltheplacedeserted。Allrounditswalls,asfarashecouldreachorsee,hesearchedcarefully,butcouldperceivenosignofpossibleentranceforthemessengerblast。Itcameagain!——plainlythroughtheopendoorunderthewindows。Hewentagainintothepassageoutsidethewall,andthemomentheturnedintoit,thedraughtseemedtocomefrombeneath,blowingupwards。Hestoopedtoexamine;hiscandlewasagainextinguished。Oncemoreherelightedit。Searchingthenalongthefloorandthefootofthewalls,hepresentlyfound,inthewallofthechapelitself,closetotheground,anarrowhorizontalopening:itmustpassunderthefloorofthechapel!Allhesawwasamereslit,buttheopeningmightbelarger,andpartiallycoveredbytheflooring-slab,whichwentallthelengthoftheslit!Hewouldtrytoraiseit!Thatwouldwantacrowbar!buthavinggotsofar,hewouldnotresttillheknewmore!Itmustbeverylateandthedomesticsallinbed;butwhathouritwashecouldnottell,forhehadlefthiswatchinhisroom。Itmightbemidnightandheburrowinglikeamoleabouttherootsoftheoldhouse,orlikeanevilthingintheheartofaman!Nomatter!hewouldfollowuphissearch——afterwhat,hedidnotknow。
  Hecreptup,andoutofthecastlebyhisownstair,sotothetool-house。Itwaslocked。Butlyingnearwasahalf-wornshovel:
  thatmightdo!hewouldhaveatrywithit!Likeoneinadreamofancientruins,creepingthroughmouldyandlow-browedplaces,hewentdownoncemoreintotheentrailsofthehouse。
  Insertingthesharpedgeofthewornshovelinthegapbetweenthestoneandthatnextit,heraiseditmorereadilythanhehadhoped,andsawbelowitasmallwindow,whosesillslopedsteeplyinward。
  Howdeeptheplacemightbe,andwhetheritwouldbepossibletogetoutofitagain,hemustdiscoverbeforeentering。Hetookaletterfromhispocket,lightedit,andthrewitin。Itrevealedadescentofaboutsevenfeet,intowhatlookedlikeacellar。Heblewhiscandleout,putitinhispocket,gotintothewindow,sliddowntheslope,andreachedhisnewlevelwithease。Hethenlightedhiscandle,andlookedabouthim。
  Hiseyefirstfellonalargeflatstoneinthefloor,likeagravestone,butwithoutanyornamentorinscription。Itwasaroughlyvaultedplace,unpaved,itsfloorofdamphard-beatenearth。
  Inthewalltotherightofthatthroughwhichhehadentered,wasanotheropening,lowdown,likethecrownofanarchtherestofwhichwasbeneaththefloor。Asnearashecouldjudge,itwasrightunderthebuilt-updoorinthepassageabove。Hecreptthroughit,andfoundhimselfunderthespiralofthegreatstair,inthesmallspaceatthebottomofitswell。Onthefloorlayadust-panandahouse-maid's-brush——andtherewasthetinydooratwhichtheywereshovedin,aftertheirmorning'suseuponthestair!Itwasopen——inwards;hecreptthroughit:hewasinthegreathallofthehouse——andtherewasoneofitswindowswideopen!Afraidofbeingbyanychancediscovered,heputouthislight,andproceededupthestairinthedark。
  Hehadgonebutafewstepswhenheheardthesoundofdescendingfeet。Hestoppedandlistened:theyturnedintothehalf-wayroom。
  Whenhereachedit,heheardsoundswhichshowedthattheearlwasintheclosetbehindit。Thingsrushedtogetherinhismind。HehurrieduptoladyArctura'sroom,thencedescended,forthethirdtimethatnight——butnofartherthantheoakdoor,passedthroughit,enteredthelittlechamber,andhasteningtothefartherendofit,laidhisearagainstthewall。Plainlyenoughheheardthesoundshehadexpected——thoseofthedream-walkingratherthansleep-walkingearl,moaning,andcallinginalowvoiceofentreatyaftersomeonewhosenamedidnotgrowaudibletothelistener。
  “Ah!”thoughtDonal,“whowouldfindithardtobelieveinroamingandhauntingghosts,thathadonceseenthispoormanroaminghisownhouse,andhauntingthatchamber!HoweasilyIcouldpunishhimnow,withalightningblastofterror!”
  Itwasbutathought;itdidnotamounttoatemptation;Donalknewhehadnoright。VengeancebelongstotheLord,forhealoneknowshowtouseit。
  Idonotbelievethatmerepunishmentexistsanywhereintheeconomyofthehighest;Ithinkmerepunishmentahumanidea,notadivineone。Buttheconsumingfireismoreterriblethananypunishmentinventedbyriotousandcruelimagination。Punishmentindeeditis——notmerepunishment;apowerofGodforhiscreature。LoveisGod'sbeing;loveishiscreativeenergy;theyareone:God'spunishmentsareforthecastingoutofthesinthatuncreates,fortherecreatingofthethingshislovemadeandsinhasunmade。
  Heheardtheleanhandsoftheearlgoslowlysweeping,attheendsofhislongarms,overthewall:hehadseenthething,elsehecouldhardlyhaveinterpretedthesounds;andheheardhimmutteringonandon,thoughmuchtoolowforhiswordstobedistinguishable。
  Hadtheybeen,Donalbythistimewassoconvincedthathehadtodowithanevilanddangerousman,thathewouldhavehadlittlescrupleinlistening。Itisonlyrighteousnessthathasarighttosecrecy,anddoesnotwantit;evilhasnorighttosecrecy,aloneintenselydesiresit,andragesatbeingfoiledofit;forwhenitsdeedscometothelight,evenevilhasrighteousnessenoughlefttobeashamedofthem。Buthecouldremainnolonger;hisverysoulfeltsickwithinhim。Heturnedhastilyawaytoleavetheplace。Butcarryinghislighttoomuchinfront,andforgettingthestool,hecameagainstitandknockeditover,notwithoutnoise。Aloudcryfromtheothersideofthewallrevealedthedismayhehadcaused。
  Itwasfollowedbyastillness,andthenamoaning。
  HemadehastetofindSimmons,andsendhimtohismaster。Heheardnothingafterwardsoftheaffair。
  CHAPTERLXIII。
  THECLOSET。
  TenderoverladyArctura,Donalwouldaskaquestionortwoofthehousekeeperbeforedisclosingwhatfurtherhehadfound。Hesoughtherroom,therefore,whileArcturaandDavie,muchtogethernow,werereadinginthelibrary。
  “Didyoueverhearanythingaboutthatlittleroomonthestair,mistressBrookes?”heasked。
  “Icannasay,“sheanswered——butthoughtfully,“——Bideawee:auldauntiedidmentionsomethinganceaboot——bideawee——Ihaeawullin'
  memory——maybeI'llmin'upo''ti'thenoo!——Itwassomethingabootbiggin'upan'takin'doon——somethinghewastodo,an'somethingheneverdid!——I'msureIcannatell!Butgiemetime,an'I'llmin'
  upo''t!Anceisayewi'me——onlyImaunhaetime!”
  Donalwaited,andsaidnotaword。
  “Imin'thismuch,“shesaidatlength,“——thattheyusedtobethegitheri'thatroom。Imin'toothattherewassomethingabootbuildin'upaewa',an'pu'in'doonanither——It'scomin'——it'scomin'backtome!”
  Shepausedagainawhile,andthensaid:
  “AllIcanrecollec',Mr。Grant,isthis:thatefterherdeath,hebiggitupsomethingnofarfraethatroom!——whatwas'tnoo?——an'
  therewassomethingabootmakin'o'theroombigger!Hoothatcouldbebybuildin'up,Icannathink!YetIfeelsurethatwaswhathedid!”
  “Wouldyoumindcomingtotheplace?”saidDonal。“Toseeitmighthelpyoutoremember。“
  “Iwull,sir。Comeyehereaboothalfefterten,an'wes'gangthegither。“
  Assoonasthehousewasquiet,theywent。ButMistressBrookescouldrecallnothing,andDonalgazedabouthimtonopurpose。
  “What'sthat?”hesaidatlast,pointingtothewallontheothersideofwhichwasthelittlechamber。
  Twoarches,inchalk,asitseemed,hadattractedhisgaze。Lightsurelywasabouttodrawnighthroughthedarkness!Chaossurelywassettlingalittletowardsorder!
  Theonearchwasdrawnoppositethehiddenchamber;theotheragainsttheearl'scloset,asithadcometobecalledinthehouse——mostofthedomesticsthinkinghetheresaidhisprayers。Itlookedasiftherehadbeenanintentionofpiercingthewallwithsucharches,tothrowthetwosmallroomsontheothersideasrecessesintothelarger。Butifthathadbeentheintent,whatcouldthebuildingofawall,vaguelyrecollectedbymistressBrookes,havebeenfor?Thatawallhadbeenbuilthedidnotdoubt,forhebelievedheknewthewall,butwhy?
  “What'sthat?”saidDonal。
  “What?”returnedMrs。Brookes。
  “Thosetwoarches。“
  Thehousekeeperlookedatthemthoughtfullyforafewmoments。
  “Icannahelpfancyin',“shesaidslowly,“——yes,I'msurethat'sthevarrathingmyaunttoldmeaboot!That'sthetwaplaceswhaurhewasgoin'totakthewalldoon,tomaktheroomlairger。ButI'msureshesaidsomethingabootbuildin'awallasweel!”
  “Lookhere,“saidDonal;“Iwillmeasurethedistancefromthedoortotheothersideofthisfirstarch——Nowcomeintotheclosetbehind。Lookhere!Thissamemeasurementtakesusrightuptotheendoftheplace!Soyouseeifweweretoopentheotherarch,itwouldbeintosomethingbehindthiswall。“
  “Thenthismaybethevarrawa'hebiggit?”
  “Idon'tdoubtit;butwhatcouldhehavehaditbuiltfor,ifhewasgoingtoopentheotherwall?Imustthinkitallover!——Itwasafterhiswife'sdeath,yousay?”
  “Yes,Ibelieveso。“
  “Onemighthavethoughthewouldnotcareaboutenlargingtheroomaftershewasgone!”
  “But,sir,hewasnajistsicapattreno'aguidman;“saidthehousekeeper。“An'whatformakthisroomless?”
  “Mayitnothavebeenforthesakeofshuttingout,orhidingsomething?”suggestedDonal。
  “Idorememberacertainthing!——Curious!——Butwhatthenastotheopenin'o''tefter?”
  “Hehasneverdoneit!”saidDonalsignificantly。“Thethingtakesshapetomeinthisway:——thathewantedtobuildsomethingoutofsight——toannihilateit;butinordertopreventspeculation,heprofessedtheintentionofcastingtheoneroomintotheother;thenbuiltthewallacross,onthepretencethatitwasnecessaryforsupportwhentheotherwasbrokenthrough——orperhapsthattworecesseswitharcheswouldlookbetter;butwhenhehadgotthewallbuilt,heputoffopeningthearchesononepretextoranother,tillthethingshouldbeforgottenaltogether——asyouseeitisalready,almostentirely!——Ihavebeenatthebackofthatwall,andheardtheearlmoaningandcryingonthissideofit!”
  “Godblessme!”criedthegoodwoman。“I'mnoeasyscaret,butthat'sfearfu'tothinko'!”
  “Youwouldnotcaretocometherewithme?”
  “Nothenicht,sir。Cometomyroomagain,an'Is'makyeacupo'
  coffee,an'tellyethestory——it'sa'comebacktomenoo——thething'atmademyaunttellmeabootthebuildin'o'thiswa'。
  'Deed,sir,Ihaehardlyadoobtthethingwasjistasyesay!”
  Theywenttoherroom:therewasladyArcturasittingbythefire!
  “Mylady!”criedthehousekeeper。“IthouchtIleftyesoon'
  asleep!”
  “SoIwas,Idaresay,“answeredArctura;“butIwokeagain,andfindingyouhadnotcomeup,IthoughtIwouldgodowntoyou。IwascertainyouandMr。Grantwouldbesomewheretogether!Haveyoubeendiscoveringanythingmore?”
  Mrs。BrookesgaveDonalalook:helefthertotellasmuchoraslittleasshepleased。
  “Wehaebeenprowlin'abootthehoose,butnodoonyon'er,mylady。
  Ithinkyouan'mewaddoweeltolea'thattoMr。Grant!”
  “Whenyourladyshipisquitereadytohaveeverythingsettorights,“saidDonal,“andtohavearesurrectionofthechapel,thenIshallbegladtogowithyouagain。ButIwouldrathernoteventalkmoreaboutitjustatpresent。“
  “Asyouplease,Mr。Grant,“repliedladyArctura。“WewillsaynothingmoretillIhavemadeupmymind。Idon'twanttovexmyuncle,andIfindthequestionratheradifficultone——andthemoredifficultthatheisworsethanusual——Willyounotcometobednow,mistressBrookes?”
  CHAPTERLXIV。
  THEGARLAND-ROOM。
  Allthroughtheterribletime,thesenseofhelpandcomfortandprotectioninthepresenceoftheyoungtutor,wentongrowinginthemindofArctura。Itwasnothingtoher——whatcoulditbe?——thathewasthesonofaveryhumblepair;thathehadbeenashepherd,andacow-herd,andafarmlabourer——lessthannothing。Sheneverthoughtofthefactsofhislifeexceptsympathetically,seekingtoenterintothefeelingsofhismemorialchildhoodandyouth;shewouldneverhaveknownanythingofthosefactsbutfortheirlovelyintimaciesofallsortswithNature——naturedivine,human,animal,cosmical。Bysharingwithherhisemotionalhistory,Donalhadmadeitsfactsprecioustoher;throughthemhehadgatheredhisbest——byhomeandbyprayer,bymotherandfather,bysheepandmountainsandwindandsky。Andnowhewastoheratowerofstrength,arefuge,astrongcity,theshadowofagreatrockinawearyland。Shetrustedhimthemorethatheneverinvitedhertrust——neverputhimselfbeforeher;foralwaysbeforeherhesetLife,theperfectheart-originofherandhisyetunperfectedhumanity,teachinghertohungerandthirstafterbeingrighteouslikeGod,withtheassuranceofbeingfilled。ShehadoncetrustedinMissCarmichael,notwithherhigherbeing,onlywithherjudgment,andbothherjudgmentandherfriendhadmisledher。Donalhadtaughtherthatobedience,nottomanbuttoGod,wastheonlyguidetoholyliberty,andsohadhelpedhertobreakthebondsofthosetraditionswhich,intheshapeofauthoritativeutterancesofthisorthatchurch,layburdensgrievoustobeborneuponthesoulsofmen。ForChrist,againstallthechurches,seemedtohertoexpressDonal'smission。Anairofpeace,anatmosphereofsummertwilightafterthegoingdownofthesun,seemedtohertoprecedehimandannouncehisapproachwitharadiationfeltasrest。Shequestionedherselfnowiseabouthim。Fallinginlovewasathingunsuggestedtoher;ifshewasinwhatiscalleddanger,itwasofabetterthing。
  Thenextdayshedidnotappear:mistressBrookeshadpersuadedhertokeepherbedagainforadayortwo。Therewasnothingreallythematterwithher,shesaidherself,butshewassotiredshedidnotcaretoliftherheadfromthepillow。Shehadsleptwell,andwastroubledaboutnothing。ShesenttobegMr。GranttoletDaviegoandreadtoher,andtogivehimsomethingtoread,goodforhimaswellasforher。
  DonaldidnotseeDavieagaintillthenextmorning。
  “Oh,Mr。Grant!”hesaid,“youneversawanythingsoprettyasArkieisinbed!Sheissowhite,andsosweet!andshespeakswithavoicesogentleandlow!Shewassokindtomeforgoingtoreadtoher!Ineversawanybodylikeher!Shelooksasifshehadjustsaidherprayers,andGodhadtoldhersheshouldhaveeverythingshewanted。“
  Donalwonderedalittle,buthopedmore。SurelyshemustbefindingrestintheconsciousnessofGod!Butwhywasshesowhite?Wasshegoingtodie?Apangshottohisheart:ifsheweretogofromthecastle,itwouldbehardtostayinit,evenforthesakeofDavie!
  Donal,nomorethanArctura,imaginedhimselffalleninlove:hehadlovedonce,andhishearthadnotyetdoneaching——thoughmorewiththememorythanthepresenceofpain!HewasutterlysatisfiedwithwhattheFatherofthechildrenhaddecreed,andwouldneverloveagain!ButhedidnotseektohidefromhimselfthatthefriendshipofladyArctura,andthehelpshesoughtandhegave,hadaddedafreshandstronginteresttohislife。Atthefirstdawnofpowerinhisheart,whenhebegantomakesongsinthefieldsandonthehills,hehadfeltthattobrightenwithtruelightthecloudedlivesofdespondentbrothersandsisterswastheonethingworthestlivingfor:itwaswhattheLordcameintotheworldfor;neitherhadhistroublemadehimforgetit——formorethanoneweekorso:
  whilethepainwasyetgnawinggrievously,hewoketoitagainwithself-accusation——almostself-contempt。Tohavehelpedthislovelycreature,whoselifehadseemedlaptinanevercloser-claspingshroudofperplexity,wasathingtobegladof——nottothedayofhisdeath,buttothenever-endingendofhislife!wasanhonourconferreduponhimbytheFather,tolastforevermore!ForhehadhelpedtoopenahumandoorfortheLordtoenter!shewithinheardhimknock,but,trying,wasunabletoopen!TobeGod'shelperwithourfellowsistheonehighcalling;thepresenceofGodinthehousetheonehighcondition。
  AttheendofaweekArcturawasbetter,andabletoseeDonal。ShehadhadmistressBrookes'sbedmovedintothesameroomwithherown,andhadmadethedressing-roomintoasitting-room。Itwassunnyandpleasant——theveryplace,Donalthought,hewouldhavechosenforher。Thebedroomtoo,whichthehousekeeperhadpersuadedhertotakewhensheleftherown,wasoneofthelargestinthecastle——theGarland-room——old-fashioned,ofcourse,butascheerfulasstatelinesswouldpermit,withgorgeoushangingsandgreatpictures——farfromhomely,butwithsuninithalftheday。Donalcongratulatedheronthechange。Shehadbeenpreventedfrommakingonesooner,shesaid,bythedreadofowinganycomforttocircumstance:itmightdeceiveherastoherrealcondition!
  “ItcouldnotdeceiveGod,though,“answeredDonal,“whofillswithrighteousnessthosewhohungerafterit。Itispridetorefuseanythingthatmighthelpustoknowhim;andofallthingshissun-litworldspeaksofthefatheroflights!Ifthatmakesushappier,itmakesusfittertounderstandhim,andhecaneasilysendwhatcloudmaybeneedfultotemperit。Wemustnotmakeourownworld,inflictourownpunishments,ororderourowninstruction;wemustsimplyobeythevoiceinourhearts,andtakelovinglywhathesends。“
  Thenextdayshetoldhimshehadhadabeautifulnight,fulloftheloveliestdreams。Oneofthemwas,thatachildcameoutofagrassyhillockbythewayside,calledhermamma,andsaidshewasmuchobligedtoherfortakingheroffthecoldstone,andmakingherabutterfly;andwiththatthechildspreadoutgorgeousandgreatwingsandsoareduptoawhitecloud,andtheresatlaughingmerrilytoher。
  EveryafternoonDaviereadtoher,andthenceDonalgainedaduty——thatoffindingsuitablepabulumforthetwo。Hewasnotwidelyreadinlightliterature,anditmadenecessarynotalittleexplorationintheregionofit。
  CHAPTERLXV。
  THEWALL。
  Onthedayafterthelasttriadinthehousekeeper'sparlour,asDonalsatintheschoolroomwithDavie——aboutnoonitwas——hebecameawarethatforsometimehehadbeenhearinglaboriousblowsapparentlyatagreatdistance:nowthatheattended,theyseemedtobeinthecastleitself,deadenedbymass,notdistance。Withafeargraduallybecomingmoredefinite,hesatlisteningforafewmoments。
  “Davie,“hesaid,“runandseewhatisgoingon。“
  Theboycamerushingbackingreatexcitement。
  “Oh,Mr。Grant,whatdoyouthink!”hecried。“Idobelievemyfatherisafterthelostroom!Theyarebreakingdownawall!”
  “Where?”askedDonal,halfstartingfromhisseat。
  “Inthelittleroombehindthehalf-wayroom——onthestair,youknow!”
  Donalwassilent:whatmightnotbetheconsequences!
  “Youmaygoandseethematwork,Davie,“hesaid。“Weshallhavenomorelessonsthismorning——Wasyourpapawiththem?”
  “No,sir——atleast,Ididnotseehim。Simmonstoldmehesentforthemasonsthismorning,andsetthemtotakethewalldown。Oh,thankyou,Mr。Grant!Itissuchfun!Idowonderwhatisbehindit!
  Itmaybeaplaceyouknowquitewell,oraplaceyouneversawbefore!”
  Davieranoff,andDonalinstantlyspedtoacornerwherehehadhiddensometools,thencetoladyArctura'sdesertedroom,andsototheoakdoor。Herememberedseeinganotherstapleinthesamepost,alittlelowerdown:ifhecouldgetthatout,hewoulddriveitinbesidetheremainsoftheother,soastoholdtheboltofthelock:
  iftheearlknewthewayin,asdoubtlesshedid,hemustnotlearnthatanotherhadfoundit——notyetatleast!Ashewentdown,everyblowofthemasonspoundingatthewall,seemedinhisveryears。
  Hepeepedthroughthepress-door:theyhadnotyetgotthroughthewall:nolightwasvisible!Hemadehastetorestorethings——onlyastoolandafewpapers——totheirexactpositionswhenfirstheentered。Closetohimontheothersideofthepartition,shakingtheplace,thehugeblowswerefallinglikethoseofaramonthewallofabesiegedcity,ofwhichhewasthewholegarrison。Hesteppedintothepressanddrewthedoorafterhim:withhislastglancebehindhimhesaw,inthefaintgleamoflightthatcamewithit,astonefall:hemustmakehaste:thedemolitionwouldgoonmuchfasternow;butbeforetheyhadtheopeninglargeenoughtopass,hewouldhavedonewhathewanted!Withastrongpieceofironforalever,hedrewthestaplefromthepost,thendroveitinastrideofthebolt,carefultotimehisblowstothoseofthemasons。Thatdone,herandowntothechapel,gatheredwhatdusthecouldsweepupfrombehindthealtarandlaiditonitstop,restoredonthebed,withitsowndust,alittleoftheoutlineofwhathadlainthere,droppedtheslabtoitsplaceinthefloorofthepassage,closedthedoorofthechapelwithsomedifficultybecauseofitsbrokenhinge,andascended。
  Thesoundsofbatteringhadceased,andashepassedtheoakdoorhelaidhiseartoit:someonewasintheplace!thelidofthebureaushutwithaloudbang,andheheardalockturned。Thewallcouldnotbehalfdownyet:theearlmusthaveenteredthemomenthecouldgetthrough!
  Donalhastenedup,andoutofthedreadfulplace,puttheslabintheopening,secureditwithastrutagainsttheoppositesideoftherecess,andclosedtheshuttersanddrewthecurtainsoftheroom;iftheearlcameupthestairinthewall,foundthestoneimmovable,andsawnolightthroughanychinkaboutitsedges,hewouldnotsuspectithadbeendisplaced!
  HewentthentoladyArctura。
  “Ihaveagreatdealtotellyou,“hesaid,“butatthismomentI
  cannot:Iamafraidoftheearlfindingmewithyou!”
  “Whyshouldyoumindthat?”saidArctura。
  “BecauseIthinkheissuspiciousaboutthelostroom。Hehashadawalltakendownthismorning。Pleasedonotlethimseeyouknowanythingaboutit。Daviethinksheissetonfindingthelostroom:
  Ithinkheknewallaboutitlongago。Youcanaskhimwhathehasbeendoing:youmusthaveheardthemasons!”
  “IhopeIshallnotstumbleintoanythinglikeastory,forifIdoImustoutwitheverything!”
  Intheafternoon,Daviewasfullofthecuriouslittleplacehisfatherhaddiscoveredbehindthewall;but,ifthatwasthelostroom,hesaid,itwasnotatallworthmakingsuchafussabout:itwasnothingbutabigcloset,withanolddesk-kindofthinginit!
  Intheafternoonalso,theearlwenttoseehisniece。Itwasthefirsttimetheymetafterhisrudebehaviouronherproposaltosearchforthelostroom。
  “Whatwereyoudoingthismorning,uncle?”shesaid。“Therewassuchathumpingandbangingsomewhereinthecastle!Daviesaidyouweredetermined,hethought,tofindthelostroom。“
  “Nothingofthekind,mylove,“answeredtheearl。“——Idohopetheywillnotspoilthestaircarryingthestonesandmortardown!”
  “Whatwasitthen,uncle?”
  “Simplythis,mydear:mylatewife,youraunt,andI,hadaplanfortakingthatclosetbehindmyroomonthestairintotheroomitself。Inpreparation,Ihadawallbuiltacrossthemiddleofthecloset,soastodivideitandmaketworecessesofit,andactalsoasabuttresstotheweakenedwall。Thenyourauntdied,andI
  hadn'tthehearttoopentherecessesordoanythingmoreinthematter。Soonehalfoftheclosetwascutoff,andremainedinaccessible。Buttherehadbeenleftinitanoldbureau,containingpapersofsomeconsequence,foritwasheavy,andintendedtooccupythesamepositionafterthearcheswereopened。
  Now,asithappens,Iwantoneofthosepapers,sothewallhashadtocomedownagain。“
  “But,uncle,whatapity!”saidArctura。“Whydidyounotopenthearches?Therecesseswouldhavebeensoprettyinthatroom!”
  “IamsorryIdidnotthinkofaskingyouwhatyouwouldlikedoneaboutit,mychild!ThefactisIneverthoughtofyourtakinganyinterestinthematter;Ihadnaturallylostallmine。Youwillpleasetoobserve,however,IhaveonlyrestoredwhatIhadmyselfdisarranged——notmeddledwithanythingbelongingtothecastle!”
  “Butnowyouhavethemasonshere,whynotgoon,andmakealittlesearchforthelostroom?”saidArctura,venturingoncemore。
  “Wemightpulldownthecastleandbenonethewiser!Bah!thebuildingupofhalftheclosetmayhavegivenrisetothewholestory!”
  “Surely,uncle,thelegendisolderthanthat!”
  “Itmaybe;youcannotbesure。Onceagoing,itwouldimmediatelycrybacktoaremoteage。Provethatanyoneeverspokeofitbeforethebuildingofthatfoolishwall。“
  “Surelysomerememberhearingitlongbeforethat!”
  “Nothingismoretreacherousthanamemoryconfrontedwithageneralbelief,“saidtheearl,andtookhisleave。
  ThenextmorningArcturawenttoseethealteration。Sheopenedthedoorofthelittleroom:itwastwiceitsformersize,andtwobureauswerestandingagainstthewall!Shepeepedintothecupboardattheendofit,butsawnothingthere。
  Thatsamemorningshemadeuphermindthatshewouldgonofartheratpresentinregardtothechapel:itwouldbetobreakwithheruncle!
  Intheevening,sheacquaintedDonalwithherresolve,andhecouldnotsayshewaswrong。Therewasnonecessityforopposingheruncle——theremightsooncomeone!Hetoldherhowhehadenteredtheclosetfrombehind,andofthenoisehehadmadethenightbefore,whichhadperhapsledtotheopeningoftheplace;buthedidnottellherofwhathehadfoundonthebureau。Thetimemightcomewhenhemustdoso,butnowhedarednotrenderherrelationswithheruncleyetmoreuncomfortable;neitherwasitlikelysuchawomanwouldconsenttomarrysuchamanashercousinhadshownhimself;
  whenthatdangerappeared,itwouldbetimetointerpose;forthemeresuccessiontoanemptytitle,hewasnotsurethathewasboundtospeak。Thebranchwhichcouldproducesuchscions,mightwellbeitselfafalsegraftonthetruestemofthefamily!——ifnot,whatwasthefamilyworth?Hemustatalleventsbesureitwashisbusinessbeforehemovedinthematter!
  CHAPTERLXVI。
  PROGRESSANDCHANGE。
  Thingswentonveryquietlyforatime。Arcturagrewbetter,resumedherstudies,andmadeexcellentprogress。Shewouldhaveworkedharder,butDonalwouldnotlether。Hehatedforcing——evenwiththegoodwilloftheplantitself。Hebelievedinaholy,unhastinggrowth。God'swayswantGod'stime。
  Longafter,peoplewouldsometimessaytohim——
  “Thatisverywellintheabstract;butinthesedaysofhurryayoungfellowwouldthatwaybeleftagesbehind!”
  “WithGod,“wouldDonalsay。
  “Tut,tut!thethingwouldneverwork!”
  “Foryourends,“Donalwouldanswer,“itcertainlywouldneverwork;
  butyourendsarenotthoseoftheuniverse!”
  “Idonotpretendtheyare;buttheyarethesuccessoftheboy。“
  “Thatisoneoftheendsoftheuniverse;andyourrewardwillbetothwartitforaseason。Ideclinetomakeoneinaconspiracyagainstthedesignofourcreator:Iwouldfaindieloyal!”
  Hewasofcourselaughedat,andnotalittledespised,asanextravagantenthusiast。Butthosewholaughedfoundithardtosayforwhathewasenthusiastic。Itseemedhardlyforeducation,whenhewouldevendowhathecouldsometimestokeepapupilback!Hedidnotcaretomakethebestofanyone!Thetruthwas,Donal'sbestwassomanymilesa-headoftheirs,thatitwasbelowtheirhorizonaltogether。Iftherebeanyrelationbetweentimeandthehumanmind,everyforcingofhumanprocess,whetherinspiritorintellect,ishurtful,aretardingofGod'splan。
  LadyArctura'soldtroublesweregraduallyfadingintothelimboofvanities。Attimes,however,mostlywhenunwell,theywouldcomeinuponherlikeaflood:whatif,afterall,Godweretheself-lovingbeingtheologypresented——abeingfromwhomnolovinghumanheartcouldbutrecoilwithaholydislike!whatifitwasbecauseofanaturespeciallyevilthatshecouldnotaccepttheGodinwhomthepriestsandeldersofherpeoplebelieved!Butagainandagain,inthemidstofprofoundestwretchednessfromsuchdoubt,hadasuddenflushoftheworld'sbeauty——thatbeautywhichJesushastoldustoconsiderandthemodernphariseetoavoid,brokenlikegentlestmightiestsunrisethroughthehellishfog,andshehadfeltapoweruponherasfromtheheartofaveryGod——aGodsuchasshewouldgiveherlifetobelievein——onebeforewhomshewouldcastherselfinspeechlessadoration——notofhisgreatness——ofthatshefeltlittle,butofhislovingkindness,thegentlenessthatwasmakinghergreat。ThenwouldshecareutterlyforGodandhisChrist,nothingforwhatmensaidaboutthem:theLordnevermeanthislambstobeunderthetyrannyofany,leastofallthetyrannyofhisownmostimperfectchurch!itsworkistoteach;whereitcannotteach,itmustnotrule!ThenwouldGodappeartohernotonlytrue,butreal——theheartofthehuman,towhichshecouldcling,andsorest。
  Thecorruptionofallreligioncomesofleavingthehuman,andGodasthecausingHuman,forsomethingimaginedholier。MenwhodonotseethelovelinessoftheTruth,searchtilltheyfindalietheycancalllovely。Whatbutahumanrealitycouldtheheartofmaneverlove!whatelseareweofferedinJesusbuttheabsolutelyhuman?ThatJesushastwonaturesisofthemostmischievousfictionsoftheology。Thedivineandthehumanarenottwo。
  Suddenly,afteranabsenceofmonths,reappearedlordForgue——cheerful,manly,onthebesttermswithhisfather,andplainlywillingtobeonstillbettertermswithhiscousin!Hehadlefttheplaceamooningyouth;hecamebackamanoftheworld——easyincarriage,courteousinmanners,sereneintemper,aboundinginwhatseemedtheresultsofobservation,attentivebutnottooattentive,jollywithDavie,distantwithDonal,politetoall。Donalcouldhardlyreceivetheevidenceofhissenses:hewouldhavewonderedmorehadheknowneveryfactorinthechange。Allabouthimseemedtosayitshouldnotbehisfaultifthefolliesofhisyouthremainedunforgotten;andhisairycarriagesatwelluponhim。NonethelessDonalfelttherewasnorestorationofthecharmwhichhadatfirstattractedhim;thatwasutterlyvanished。Hefeltcertainhehadbeengoingdownhill,andwasnow,insteadofnegatively,consciouslyandpositivelyuntrue。
  Withgradationsundefined,butnotunmarkedofDonal,asifthemanfoundhimselfunderinfluencesofwhichtheyouthhadbeenunaware,hebegantoshowhimselfnotindifferenttotheattractionsofhiscousin。Heexpressedconcernthatherhealthwasnotwhatithadbeen;soughtherinherroomwhenshedidnotappear;professedaninterestinknowingwhatbooksshewasreading,andwhatwereherstudieswithDonal;behavedlikeagoodbrother-cousin,whowouldnotbesorrytobesomethingmore。
  Andnowtheearl,totheastonishmentofthehousehold,begantoappearattable;and,apparentlyasaconsequenceofthis,Donalwasrequestedratherthaninvitedtotakehismealswiththefamily——notaltogethertohissatisfaction,seeinghecouldnotonlyreadwhileheatealone,butcouldgetthroughmorequickly,andhavethetimethussaved,forthingsofgreaterconsequence。HispresencemadeiteasierforlordForguetoacthispart,andthemannershebroughttothefrontleftlittletobedesired。HebowedtothejudgmentofArctura,andseemedtowelcomethatofhisfather,towhomhewasnowasrespectfulasmoralistcoulddesire。Yethesometimesfacedacardhedidnotmeantoshow:whothatisnotabsolutelytruecanescapethemishap!——therewascondescensioninhispolitenesstoDonal!andthis,hadtherebeennothingelse,wouldhavebeenenoughtorevoltArctura。Butintruthheimpressedheraltogetherasamanofoutsides;shefeltthatshedidnotseethemanhewas,butthenearestapproachhecouldmaketothemanhewouldbetakenfor。Hewasgracious,dignified,responsive,kind,amusing,accurate,ready——everythingbuttrue。Hewouldmakeofhisoutermanallbutwhatitwasmeantfor——arevelationoftheinner。Itwasthatnotwithstanding。Hewasamandressedinaman,andhisdresswasarevelationofmuchthathewas,whileheintendeditonlytoshowmuchthathewasnot。Nomancanhelpunveilinghimself,howeverlonghemayescapeevenhisowndetection。Thereisnothingcoveredthatshallnotberevealed。Thingsweremeanttocomeout,andberead,andunderstood,inthefaceoftheuniverse。Thesoulofeverymanisasasecretbook,whosecontentisyetwrittenonitscoverforthereadingofthewise。Howdifferentlyisitreadbythefool,whoseveryunderstandingisamisunderstanding!HetakesamanforaGodwhenonthepointofbeingeatenupofworms!hebuysforthirtypiecesofsilverhimwhomthesepulchrecannothold!Wellforthoseintheworldofrevelation,whogivetheirsinsnoquarterinthis!
  ForguehadbeeninEdinburghapartofthetime,inEnglandanotherpart。Hehadmanythingstotellofthepeoplehehadseen,andthesportshehadsharedin。Hehaddevelopedandenlargedaveinofgentlemanlysatire,whichhekeptsuppliedbytheobservationandanalysisofthepeculiarities,generallyweaknesses,ofothers。
  These,asamatterofcourse,hejudgedmerelybythepoorstandardofsociety:questionedconcerninganyuponthelargerhumanscale,hecouldgivenoaccountofthem。ToDonal'seyes,themanwasashallowpoolwhosesurfacebrightnessconcealedthemuddybottom。
  CHAPTERLXVII。
  THEBREAKFAST-ROOM。
  Twoyearsbefore,ladyArcturahadbeeninthehabitofridingagooddeal,butafteranaccidenttoafavouritehorseforwhichsheblamedherself,shehadscarcelyriddenatall。Itwasquiteasmuch,however,fromtheinfluenceofMissCarmichaeluponherspirits,thatshehadforsakentheexercise。Partlybecauseherunclewasneithermuchrespectednormuchliked,shehadvisitedverylittle;andaftermentaltroubleassailedher,growingunderthefalseprescriptionsofthesoul-doctorshehadcalledin,shewithdrewmoreandmore,avoidingevencompanyshewouldhaveenjoyed,andwhichwouldbeforenowhaveledhertoresumeit。
  ForatimeshepersistedinrefusingtoridewithForgue。Invainheofferedhishorse,assuringherthatDavie'sponywasquiteabletocarryhim;shehadnoinclinationtoride,shesaid。Butatlastoneday,lestsheshouldbeguiltyofunkindness,sheconsented,andsoenjoyedtheride——felt,indeed,somuchthebetterforit,thatshedidnotthereaftersopositivelyasbeforedeclinetoallowhercousintolookoutforahorsefittocarryher;andForgue,takingherconsentforgranted,succeeded,withthehelpofthefactor,infindingforherabeautifulcreature,justofthesorttopleaseher。Almostatsightofhimsheagreedtohispurchase。
  ThisputForgueingreatspirits,andmuchcontentmentwithhimself。
  Hedidnotdoubtthat,gainingthusopportunitysoexcellent,hewouldquicklysucceedinwithdrawingherfromtheabsurdinfluencewhich,tohisdismay,hediscoveredhisenemyhadinhisabsencegainedoverher。Heoughtnottohavebeensuchafool,hesaidtohimself,astoleavethepoorchildtothetemptationsnaturallyarisinginsuchadrearysolitude!Henotedwithsatisfaction,however,thattheparson'sdaughterseemedtohaveforsakenthehouse。Andnowatlast,havinggotridofthefollythatawhilepossessedhim,hewaspreparedtodohisdutybythefamily,and,tothatend,wouldmakeunfalteringuseofthefascinationsexperiencehadtaughthimhewas,inamostexceptionaldegree,giftedwith!HewouldatoncetakeArctura'seducationinhisownhands,andgivehisfullenergytoit!Sheshouldspeedilylearnthedifferencebetweentheassistanceofagentlemanandthatofaclotpoll!
  HehadinEnglandimprovedinhisridingaswellashismanners,andknewatleasthowagentleman,ifnothowaman,oughttobehavetothebeastthatcarriedhim。Also,havingriddenagooddealwithladies,hewasnowabletogiveArcturanotafewhintstotheimprovementofherseat,herhand,hercourage;norwasthereanynearerroad,hejudgedfromwhatheknewofhiscousin,toherconfidenceandgratitude,thanshowingherabetterwayinathing。
  Butthinkingthatinteachinghertoridehecouldmakeherforgetthemanwhohadbeenteachinghertolive,hewasnotalittlemistakeninthewomanhedesiredtocaptivate。
  Hedidnotyetlovehereveninthewayhecalledloving,elsehemighthavebeenlessconfident;buthefoundherverypleasing。
  Invigoratedbythebrightfrostyair,thelifeoftheanimalunderher,andtheexultationofrapidmotion,sheseemedbetterinhealth,moremerryandfulloflife,thanhehadeverseenher:heputalldowntohissuccesswithher。Hewasincapableofsuspectinghowlittleofitwasowingtohim;incapableofbelievinghowmuchtothefactthatshenowturnedtothefatherofspiritswithoutfear,almostwithoutdoubt;thoughtofhimastherootofeverydelightoftheworld——attheheartofthehorsesherode,inthewindthatblewjoyintohersasshesweptthroughitsyieldingbosom;knewhimasaltogetherlovingandtrue,thefatherofJesusChrist,aslikehimaslikecouldbelike——morelikehimthananyoneelseintheuniversecouldbelikeanother——likehimasonlyeternalsoncanbelikeeternalfather。
  Itwasnowonderthatwithsuchawelloflivingwaterinherheartsheshouldbeglad——merryeven,andreadyforanythingherhorsecoulddo!Flyingacrossafieldintheverywildnessofpleasure,herhairstreamingbehindher,andherpalefaceglowing,shewouldnowandthentakeajumpForguedeclaredhecouldnotfaceincoldblood:hedidnotknowhowfarfromcoldherbloodwas!Hebegantowonderhehadbeensuchafoolasneglectherfor——well,nevermind!——andtofeelsomethingthatwaslikelove,andwasindeedadmiration。Butforthesearingbrandofhispast,hemighthavelovedhertruly——asamanmay,withoutbeingthemostexaltedofmortals;forinlovewearebeyondourordinaryselves;thedeepthinginuspeersupintothehumanair,andisofGod——thereforecannotlivelonginthemephiticairofaselfishandlownature,butsinksagainoutofsight。
  HewasnotathiseasewithArctura;hewasafraidofher。Whenamanisconsciousofwrong,knowsinhishistorywhatwoulddrawahideoussmudgeovertheportraithewouldpresenttotheeyesofherhewouldplease,hemaywellbeafraidofher。Hemakesliberalallowanceforhimself,butisnotsureshewill!AndbeforeForguelayasocialgulfwhichhecouldpassonlyonthenarrowplankofherfavour!Themorehewaswithher,themoreheadmiredher,themorehedesiredtomarryher;themoresatisfiedhegrewwithhisownimprovement,themoredeterminedhebecamethatfornopoor,unjustscrupleswouldheforgohishappiness。Therewasbutonetrifletobekeptfromtheworld;itmightknoweverythingelseabouthim!andonceinpossessionoftheproperty,whowoulddisputethetitle?Thenagainhewasnotcertainthathisfatherhadnotmerelyinventedathreat!Surelyifthefactweresuch,hewould,eveninragediabolic,havekeptittohimself!
  Impetuous,andaccustomedtowhathecountedsuccess,hesoonbegantomakeplaineradvancetowardtheendonwhichhisself-loveandcupidityatleastwereset。But,knowinginavaguemannerhowhehadcarriedhimselfbeforehewent,Arctura,uninfluencedbythewaysoftheworld,herjudgmentunwarped,herperceptionundimmed,herinstinctsnice,herpersonaldelicacyexacting,hadneverimaginedhecouldapproachheronanygroundbutthatofcousinshipandachildhoodofsharedsports。ShehadseenthatDonalwasfarfrompleasedwithhim,andbelievedForgueknewthatsheknewhehadbeenbehavingbadly。Herbehaviourtohimwasindeedlargelybasedonthefactthathewasindisgrace:shewassorryforhim。
  Byandby,however,sheperceivedthatshehadbeenallowingtoomuchfreedomwhereshewasnotpreparedtoallowmore,andsoonedaydeclinedtogowithhim。Theyhadnothadarideforafortnight,theweatherhavingbeenunfavourable;andnowwhenamorningbrokeintotheseasonlikeasmilefromanestrangedfriend,shewouldnotgo!Hewasannoyed——thenalarmed,fearingadverseinfluence。Theywerealoneinthebreakfast-room。
  “Whywillyounot,Arctura?”heaskedreproachfully:“doyounotfeelwell?”
  “Iamquitewell,“sheanswered。
  “Itissuchalovelyday!”hepleaded。
  “Iamnotinthemood。Thereareotherthingsintheworldbesidesriding,andIhavebeenwastingmytime——ridingtoomuch。IhavelearntnexttonothingsinceLarkiecame。“
  “Oh,bother!whathaveyoutodowithlearning!Healthisthefirstthing。“
  “Idon'tthinkso——andlearningisgoodforthehealth。Besides,I
  wouldnotbeamereanimalforperfecthealth!”
  “Letmehelpyouthenwithyourstudies。“
  “Thankyou,“sheanswered,laughingalittle,“butIhaveagoodmasteralready!We,thatisDavieandI,arereadingGreekandmathematicswithMr。Grant。“
  Forgue'sfaceflushed。
  “Ioughttoknowasmuchofbothashedoes!”hesaid。
  “Oughtperhaps!Butyouknowyoudonot。“
  “Iknowenoughtobeyourtutor。“
  “Yes,butIknowenoughnottobeyourpupil!”
  “Whatdoyoumean?”
  “Thatyoucan'tteach。“
  “Howdoyouknowthat?”
  “BecauseyoudonotloveeitherGreekormathematics,andnoonewhodoesnotlovecanteach。“
  “Thatisnonsense!IfIdon'tloveGreekenoughtoteachit,Iloveyouenoughtoteachyou,“saidForgue。
  “Youaremyriding-master,“saidArctura;“Mr。GrantismymasterinGreek。“
  ForguestrangledanimprecationonMr。Grant,andtriedtolaugh,buttherewasnotalaughinsidehim。
  “Thenyouwon'trideto-day?”hesaid。
  “Ithinknot,“repliedArctura。
  Sheoughttohavesaidshewouldnot。Itisapitytoletdoubtalightondecision。Herreplyre-openedthewholequestion。
  “Icannotseewhatshouldinduceyoutoallowthatfellowthehonourofreadingwithyou!”saidForgue。“He'salong-winded,pedantic,ill-bredlout!”
  “Mr。Grantismyfriend!”saidArctura,andraisingherheadlookedhimintheeyes。
  “Takemywordforit,youaremistakeninhim,“hesaid。
  “Ineithervaluenoraskyouropinionofhim,“returnedArctura。“I
  merelyacquaintyouwiththefactthatheismyfriend。“
  “Here'sthedevilandalltopay!”thoughtForgue。
  “Ibegyourpardon,“hesaid:“youdonotknowhimasIdo!”
  “Not?——andwithsomuchbetteropportunityofjudging!”
  “Hehasneverplayedthedominiewithyou!”saidForguefoolishly。
  “Indeedhehas!”
  “Hehas!Confoundhisinsolence!How?”
  “Hewon'tletmestudyasIwant——Howhasheinterferedwithyou?”
  “Wewon'tquarrelabouthim,“rejoinedForgue,attemptingatoneofgaiety,butinstantlygrowingserious。“Wewhooughttobesomuchtoeachother——“
  Somethingtoldhimhehadalreadygonetoofar。
  “Idonotknowwhatyoumean——orrather,IamnotwillingtothinkI
  knowwhatyoumean,“saidArctura。“Afterwhattookplace——“
  Inherturnsheceased:hehadsaidnothing!
  “Jealous!”concludedForgue;“——agoodsign!”
  “Iseehehasbeentalkingagainstme!”hesaid。
  “IfyoumeanMr。Grant,youmistake。Henever,sofarasIremember,oncementionedyoutome。“
  “Iknowbetter!”
  “Youarerude。Heneverspokeofit;butIhaveseenenoughwithmyowneyes——“
  “Ifyoumeanthatsillyfancy——why,Arctura!——youknowitwasbutaboyishfolly!”
  “Andsincethenyouhavegrownaman!——Howmanymonthshasittaken?”
  “Iassureyou,onthewordofagentleman,thereisnothinginitnow。Itisallover,andIamheartilyashamedofit。“
  Apauseofafewsecondsfollowed:itseemedasmanyminutes,andunbearable。
  “Youwillcomeoutwithme?”saidForgue:shemightberelenting,thoughshedidnotlooklikeit!
  “No,“shesaid;“Iwillnot。“
  “Well,“hereturned,withsimulatedcoolness,“thisisrathercavaliertreatment,Imustsay!——Tothrowamanoverwhohaslovedyousolong——andforthesakeofalessoninGreek!”
  “Howlong,pray,haveyoulovedme?”saidArctura,growingangry。“I
  waswillingtobefriendlywithyou,somuchsothatIamsorryitisnolongerpossible!”
  “Youpunishmeprettysharply,mylady,foratrifleofwhichItoldyouIwasashamed!”saidForgue,bitinghislip。“Itwasthemerest——“
  “Idonotwishtohearanythingaboutit!”saidArcturasternly。
  Then,afraidshehadbeenunkind,sheaddedinalteredtone:“Youhadbettergoandhaveagallop。YoumayhaveLarkieifyoulike。“
  Heturnedandlefttheroom。Sheonlymeanttopiquehim,hesaidtohimself。Shehadbeencherishingherdispleasure,andnowshehadhadherrevengewouldfeelbetterandbesorrynext!Itwasaverygoodmorning'sworkafterall!ItwasabsurdtothinkshepreferredaGreeklessonfromaclowntoaridewithlordForgue!WasnotshetooaGraeme!
  Partlytomakereconciliationtheeasier,partlybecausethehorsewassuperiortohisown,hewouldrideLarkie!
  Buthisreasoningwasnotsosatisfactorytohimastoputhiminagoodtemper,andpoorLarkiehadtosufferforhisill-humour。Hisleastmovementthatdispleasedhimputhiminarage,andherodehimsofoolishlyaswellastyrannicallythathebroughthimhomequitelame,thusputtinganendforatimetoallhopeofridingagainwithArctura。
  Insteadofgoingandtellingherwhathehaddone,hesentforthefarrier,andgaveordersthatthemishapshouldnotbementioned。
  Aweekpassed,andthenanother;andashecouldsaynothingaboutriding,hewasinameasureself-banishedfromArctura'scompany。A
  furiousjealousybegantomasterhim。Hescornedtogiveplacetoitbecauseoftheinsulttohimselfifheallowedatruegroundforit。
  Butitgraduallygainedpower。Thiscountrybumpkin,thiscow-herd,thismanofspelling-booksandgrammars,tocomebetweenhiscousinandhim!Ofcoursehewasnotsosillyasimagineforamomentshecaredforhim!——thatshewoulddisgraceherselfbyfallinginlovewithafellowjustloosedfromtheplough-tail!ShewasaGraeme,andcouldneverbeatraitortoherblood!Ifonlyhehadnotbeensuchaninfernalfool!Avulgarlittlethingwithoutanideainherhead!Sounpleasant——sodisgustingatlastwithherlove-making!
  Nothingpleasedherbuthuggingandkissing!——Thatwashowhespoketohimselfofthegirlhehadbeeninlovewith!
  Damnthatschoolmaster!Shewouldneverfallinlovewithhim,buthemightpreventherfromfallinginlovewithanother!Noattractionscouldmakewayagainstcertainprepossessions!Thegirlhadafancyforbeingasaint,andtheloutburnedincensetoher!
  SomuchhegatheredfromDavie。Hisfathermustgetridofthefellow!IfhethoughthewasdoingsowellwithDavie,whynotsendthetwoawaytogethertillthingsweresettled?
  ButtheearlthoughtitwouldbebettertowinDonal。HecounselledhimthateveryGrantwaslordSeafield'scousin,andeveryhighlanderanimplacableenemywherehispridewashurt。Hislordshipdidnotreflectthat,ifwhathesaidweretrueofDonal,hemusthaveleftthecastlelongago。TherewasbutonethingwouldhavemadeitimpossibleforDonaltoremain——interference,namely,betweenhimandhispupil。
  Forguedidnotarguewithhisfather。Hehadgiventhatup。Atthesametime,ifhehadtoldallthathadpassedbetweenhimandDonal,theearlwouldhaveconfessedhehadadvisedanimpossibility。
  Forguetookastepinaverydifferentdirection:hebegantodrawtohimselfthegoodgracesofMissCarmichael:hedidnotknowhowlittleshecouldservehim。Withoutbeingconsciouslyinsincere,sheflatteredhim,andspeedilygainedhisconfidence。Welldescendedonthemother-side,shehadgrownupfit,herfathersaid,toadornanysociety:withakeenappreciationoftheclaimsanddignitiesofthearistocracy,shewaswellabletoflattertheprejudicesshehonouredandsharedin。Carefulnottosayawordagainsthiscousin,shemadehimfeelmoreandmorethathischiefdangerlayintheinfluenceofDonal。Shefannedthushishatredofthemanwhofirstcamebetweenhimandhiswrath;next,betweenhimandhis“love;“andlast,betweenhimandhisfortunes。
  IfonlyDaviewouldfallill,andrequirechangeofair!ButDaviewasalwaysinsplendidhealth!
  Nowthathesawhimselfinsuchdangeroffailing,hefanciedhimselffarmoreinlovewithArcturathanhewas。Andashegotfamiliarizedwiththeideaofhisillegitimacy,althoughhewouldnotassenttoit,hemadelessandlessofit——whichwouldhavebeenaprooftoanyotherthanhimselfthathebelievedit。Infurthersignofthesame,hemadenoinquiryintothematter——didnotonceevenquestionhisfatheraboutit。Ifitwastrue,hedidnotwanttoknowit:hewouldtreathislackofproofasignorance,andactaswiththeinnocenceofignorance!Afellowmusttakeforgrantedwhatwascommonlybelieved!Atlast,andthelastwasnotlonginarriving,healmostceasedtotroublehimselfaboutit。
  HisfatherlaughedathisfearoffailurewithArctura,butattimescontemplatedthethingasanawfulpossibility——notthathelovedForguemuch。Theonlywayfathersinsightofthegravecanfancythemselvesholdingontothethingstheymustleave,isintheirchildren;butlordMorvenhadastrongerandbetterreasonforhisunrighteousness:inatroubled,self-reproachfulway,helovedthememoryoftheirmother,andthroughhercaredevenforForguemorethanheknew。Theywerealsohisownasmuchasifhehadbeenlegallymarriedtoher!Fortherelationinwhichtheystoodtosociety,hecaredlittlesolongasitcontinuedundiscovered。Heenjoyedtheideaofstealingamarchonsociety,andseeingthesonshehadleftatsuchadisadvantagebehindhim,rufflingit,inspiteofabsurdlaw,withthefoolishbest。FromthegravehewouldsohavehisfootontheneckofhisenemyLaw!——hewasoneofthemanywhocanrejoiceinevenastolenvictory。Norwouldheeverhavebeenthefooltoletthetruthfly,exceptunderthereactionofevildrugs,andtherushoffiercewrathatthethreatenedruinofhischerishedscheme。
  Arcturathenceforthavoidedhercousinasmuchasshecould——onlyrememberingthatthehousewashers,andshemustnotmakehimfeelhewasnotwelcometouseit。Theymetatmeals,andshetriedtobehaveasifnothingunpleasanthadhappenedandthingswereasbeforehewentaway。
  “Youareverycruel,Arctura,“hesaidonemorninghemetherintheterraceavenue。
  “Cruel?”returnedArcturacoldly;“Iamnotcruel。Iwouldnotwillinglyhurtanyone。“
  “Youhurtmemuch;yougivemenotamorsel,notacrumbofyoursociety!”
  “Percy,“saidArctura,“ifyouwillbecontenttobemycousin,weshallgetonwellenough;butifyouaresetonwhatcannotbe——onceforall,believeme,itisofnouse。YoucarefornoneofthethingsIlivefor!Ifeelasifwebelongedtodifferentworlds,solittlehaveweincommon。Youmaythinkmehard,butitisbetterweshouldunderstandeachother。Ifyouimaginethat,becauseIhavetheproperty,youhaveaclaimonme,besureIwillneveracknowledgeit。IwouldathousandtimesratheryouhadthepropertyandIwereinmygrave!”
  “Iwillbeanything,doanything,learnanythingyouplease!”criedForgue,hisheartachingwithdisappointment。
  “Iknowwhatsuchsubmissionisworth!”saidArctura。“Ishouldbeeverythingtillweweremarried,andthennothing!Youdissemble,youhideevenfromyourself,butyouarenothardtoread。“
  Perhapsshewouldnothavespokenjustsoseverely,hadshenotbeenthatmorningunusuallyannoyedwithhisbehaviourtoDonal,andatthesametimespeciallypleasedwiththecalm,unconsciouslydignifiedwayinwhichDonaltookit,castingitfromhimastherockthrowsasidethesea-wave:itdidnotconcernhim!Thedullworldhasgotthewrongphrase:itishewhoresentsanaffrontwhopocketsit!hewhotakesnonotice,letsitlieinthedirt。