Itwasafrostynight,andthestarswerebrilliant。Helookedupandsaid,“OhSaviourofmen,thyhouseisvaultedwithlight;thysecretplacesaresecretfromexcessoflight;intheeisnodarknessatall;thouhastnoterriblecryptsandbuilt-upplaces;thylightistheterrorofthosewholovethedarkness!Fillmyheartwiththylight;letmeneverhungerorthirstafteranythingbutthywill——thatImaywalkinthelight,andlightnotdarknessmaygoforthfromme。“
Asheturnedtogoin,cameafaintchordfromtheaeolianharp。
“Itsings,broodingovertheverynestofevildeeds!”hethought。
“Thelighteternal,withkeenarrowsofradiantvictory,willyetatlastroutfromthesoulsofhiscreaturesthedemonsthathauntthem!
“ButiftherebecreaturesofGodthathaveturnedtodemons,maynothumansoulsthemselvesturntodemons?WouldtheythenbevictoriousoverGod,toostrongforhimtoovercome——beyondthereachofrepentance?
“Howwouldtheylive?Bytheirownpower?ThenweretheyGods!——Buttheydidnotmakethemselves,andcouldnotliveofthemselves。Ifnot,thentheymustlivebyGod'spower。Howthenshouldtheybebeyondhisreach?
“Ifthedemonscanneverbebroughtback,thenthelifeofGod,theall-pure,goesouttokeepalive,inandforevil,thatwhichisessentiallybad;forthatwhichisirredeemableisessentiallybad。“
ThusreasonedDonalwithhimself,andhisreasoning,insteadoftroublinghisfaith,causedhimtoclingthemoretotheonlyOne,thesolehopeandsaviouroftheheartsofhismenandwomen,withoutwhomthewholeuniversewerebutacharnelhouseinwhichtheghostsofthedeadwentaboutcrying,notoverthelifethatwasgonefromthem,butitssorrows。
Hestoodandgazedoutoverthecoldsea。Andashegazed,ashiveringsurgeofdoubt,achillwaveofnegation,camerollingoverhim。Heknewthatinamomenthewouldstrikeoutwiththeenergyofastrongswimmer,andrisetothetopofit;butnowitwastumblinghimaboutatitsevilwill。Hestoodandgazed——withadullsensethathewaswaitingforhiswill。Suddenlycametheconsciousnessthatheandhiswillwereone;thathehadnottowaitforhiswill,buthadtowake——towill,thatis,anddo,andsobe。
Andtherewithhesaidtohimself:——
“Itisneithertime,noreternity,norhumanconsolation,noreverlastingsleep,northesatisfiedjudgment,norattainedambition,eveninloveitself,thatisthecureforthings;itistheheart,thewill,thebeingoftheFather。Whilethatremains,theirremediable,theirredeemablecannotbe。Iftherearoseagriefintheheartofoneofhiscreaturesnototherwisetobedestroyed,hewouldtakeitintohimself,thereconsumeitinhisowncreativefire——himselfbearingthegrief,carryingthesorrow。Christdied——andwoulddieagainratherthanleaveoneheart-acheintherealmsofhislove——thatis,ofhiscreation。'Blessedaretheywhohavenotseenandyethavebelieved!'“
Overhisheadtheskywasfullofshiningworlds——mansionsintheFather'shouse,builtorbuilding。
“Wearenotattheendofthings,“hethought,“butinthebeginningsandonthethresholdofcreation!TheFatherisasyoungaswhenfirstthestarsofthemorningsang——theAncientofDayswhocannevergrowold!Hewhohaseverfilledthedullunbelievingnationswithfoodandgladness,hasasplendourofdelightforthesoulsthatbelieve,everasbytheirobediencetheybecomecapableofreceivingit。“
CHAPTERLXII。
THECRYPT。
“Whenareyougoingdownagaintothechapel,Mr。Grant?”saidladyArctura:shewasbetternow,andabletowork。
“Iwasdownlastnight,andwanttogoagainthiseveningbymyself——ifyoudon'tmind,mylady,“heanswered。“Iamsureitwillbebetterforyounottogodowntillyouarereadytogiveyourorderstohaveeverythingclearedawayforthelightandairtoenter。Thedampandclosenessoftheplacearetoomuchforyou。“
“Ithinkitwasratherthewantofsleepthatmademeill,“sheanswered;“butyoucandojustasyouplease。“
“Ithankyouforyourconfidence,mylady,“returnedDonal。“Idonotthinkyouwillrepentit。“
“IknowIshallnot。“
Havingsomethingstodofirst,itwaslatebeforeDonalwentdown——intentonlearningtheformermainentrance,andverifyingthepositionofthechapelinthecastle。
Hebetookhimselftotheendofthepassageunderthelittlegallery,andthereexaminedthesignshehadobserved:thosemustbetheouterendsoftwoofthestepsofthegreatstaircase!theycamethrough,restingonthewall。Thatendofthechapel,then,adjoinedthemainstair。Evidently,too,adoorhadbeenbuiltupintheprocessofconstructingthestair。Thechapelthenhadnotbeenenteredfromthatlevelsincethebuildingofthestair。Originallytherehad,mostlikely,beenanoutsidestairtothisdoor,inanopencourt。
Afteralittlemoreexamination,partialofnecessity,fromlackoflight,hewasonhiswayout,andalreadynearthetopofthemuralstair,thinkingofthefreshobservationshewouldtakeoutsideinthemorning,whenbehind,overtakinghimfromtheregionshehadleft,cameablastofair,andblewouthiscandle。Heshivered——notwiththecoldofit,thoughitdidbreatheofundergrounddampsanddoubtfulgrowths,butfromafeelingofitshavingbeensentafterhimtomakehimgodownagain——fordiditnotindicatesomeopeningtotheouterair?Herelightedhiscandleanddescended,carefullyguardingitwithonehand。Thecoldsighseemedtolingerabouthimashewent——gruesomeasfromacloseddepth,thesecretbosomofthecastle,intowhichthelightneverentered。But,whereveritcamefromlast,howeverearthyandfearful,itcamefirstfromtheopenregionsoflife,andhadbutpassedthroughagloomthatlifeitselfmustpass!Couldithavebeenadraughtdownthepipeofthemusic-chords?No,fortheywouldhaveloosedsomelight-wingedmessengerwithit!Hemustsearchtillhefounditsentrancebelow!
Hecrossedthelittlegallery,descended,andwentagainintothechapel:itlayasstillasthetombwhichitwasnomore。Heseemedtomissthepresenceofthedead,andfeeltheplacedeserted。Allrounditswalls,asfarashecouldreachorsee,hesearchedcarefully,butcouldperceivenosignofpossibleentranceforthemessengerblast。Itcameagain!——plainlythroughtheopendoorunderthewindows。Hewentagainintothepassageoutsidethewall,andthemomentheturnedintoit,thedraughtseemedtocomefrombeneath,blowingupwards。Hestoopedtoexamine;hiscandlewasagainextinguished。Oncemoreherelightedit。Searchingthenalongthefloorandthefootofthewalls,hepresentlyfound,inthewallofthechapelitself,closetotheground,anarrowhorizontalopening:itmustpassunderthefloorofthechapel!Allhesawwasamereslit,buttheopeningmightbelarger,andpartiallycoveredbytheflooring-slab,whichwentallthelengthoftheslit!Hewouldtrytoraiseit!Thatwouldwantacrowbar!buthavinggotsofar,hewouldnotresttillheknewmore!Itmustbeverylateandthedomesticsallinbed;butwhathouritwashecouldnottell,forhehadlefthiswatchinhisroom。Itmightbemidnightandheburrowinglikeamoleabouttherootsoftheoldhouse,orlikeanevilthingintheheartofaman!Nomatter!hewouldfollowuphissearch——afterwhat,hedidnotknow。
Hecreptup,andoutofthecastlebyhisownstair,sotothetool-house。Itwaslocked。Butlyingnearwasahalf-wornshovel:
thatmightdo!hewouldhaveatrywithit!Likeoneinadreamofancientruins,creepingthroughmouldyandlow-browedplaces,hewentdownoncemoreintotheentrailsofthehouse。
Insertingthesharpedgeofthewornshovelinthegapbetweenthestoneandthatnextit,heraiseditmorereadilythanhehadhoped,andsawbelowitasmallwindow,whosesillslopedsteeplyinward。
Howdeeptheplacemightbe,andwhetheritwouldbepossibletogetoutofitagain,hemustdiscoverbeforeentering。Hetookaletterfromhispocket,lightedit,andthrewitin。Itrevealedadescentofaboutsevenfeet,intowhatlookedlikeacellar。Heblewhiscandleout,putitinhispocket,gotintothewindow,sliddowntheslope,andreachedhisnewlevelwithease。Hethenlightedhiscandle,andlookedabouthim。
Hiseyefirstfellonalargeflatstoneinthefloor,likeagravestone,butwithoutanyornamentorinscription。Itwasaroughlyvaultedplace,unpaved,itsfloorofdamphard-beatenearth。
Inthewalltotherightofthatthroughwhichhehadentered,wasanotheropening,lowdown,likethecrownofanarchtherestofwhichwasbeneaththefloor。Asnearashecouldjudge,itwasrightunderthebuilt-updoorinthepassageabove。Hecreptthroughit,andfoundhimselfunderthespiralofthegreatstair,inthesmallspaceatthebottomofitswell。Onthefloorlayadust-panandahouse-maid's-brush——andtherewasthetinydooratwhichtheywereshovedin,aftertheirmorning'suseuponthestair!Itwasopen——inwards;hecreptthroughit:hewasinthegreathallofthehouse——andtherewasoneofitswindowswideopen!Afraidofbeingbyanychancediscovered,heputouthislight,andproceededupthestairinthedark。
Hehadgonebutafewstepswhenheheardthesoundofdescendingfeet。Hestoppedandlistened:theyturnedintothehalf-wayroom。
Whenhereachedit,heheardsoundswhichshowedthattheearlwasintheclosetbehindit。Thingsrushedtogetherinhismind。HehurrieduptoladyArctura'sroom,thencedescended,forthethirdtimethatnight——butnofartherthantheoakdoor,passedthroughit,enteredthelittlechamber,andhasteningtothefartherendofit,laidhisearagainstthewall。Plainlyenoughheheardthesoundshehadexpected——thoseofthedream-walkingratherthansleep-walkingearl,moaning,andcallinginalowvoiceofentreatyaftersomeonewhosenamedidnotgrowaudibletothelistener。
“Ah!”thoughtDonal,“whowouldfindithardtobelieveinroamingandhauntingghosts,thathadonceseenthispoormanroaminghisownhouse,andhauntingthatchamber!HoweasilyIcouldpunishhimnow,withalightningblastofterror!”
Itwasbutathought;itdidnotamounttoatemptation;Donalknewhehadnoright。VengeancebelongstotheLord,forhealoneknowshowtouseit。
Idonotbelievethatmerepunishmentexistsanywhereintheeconomyofthehighest;Ithinkmerepunishmentahumanidea,notadivineone。Buttheconsumingfireismoreterriblethananypunishmentinventedbyriotousandcruelimagination。Punishmentindeeditis——notmerepunishment;apowerofGodforhiscreature。LoveisGod'sbeing;loveishiscreativeenergy;theyareone:God'spunishmentsareforthecastingoutofthesinthatuncreates,fortherecreatingofthethingshislovemadeandsinhasunmade。
Heheardtheleanhandsoftheearlgoslowlysweeping,attheendsofhislongarms,overthewall:hehadseenthething,elsehecouldhardlyhaveinterpretedthesounds;andheheardhimmutteringonandon,thoughmuchtoolowforhiswordstobedistinguishable。
Hadtheybeen,Donalbythistimewassoconvincedthathehadtodowithanevilanddangerousman,thathewouldhavehadlittlescrupleinlistening。Itisonlyrighteousnessthathasarighttosecrecy,anddoesnotwantit;evilhasnorighttosecrecy,aloneintenselydesiresit,andragesatbeingfoiledofit;forwhenitsdeedscometothelight,evenevilhasrighteousnessenoughlefttobeashamedofthem。Buthecouldremainnolonger;hisverysoulfeltsickwithinhim。Heturnedhastilyawaytoleavetheplace。Butcarryinghislighttoomuchinfront,andforgettingthestool,hecameagainstitandknockeditover,notwithoutnoise。Aloudcryfromtheothersideofthewallrevealedthedismayhehadcaused。
Itwasfollowedbyastillness,andthenamoaning。
HemadehastetofindSimmons,andsendhimtohismaster。Heheardnothingafterwardsoftheaffair。
CHAPTERLXIII。
THECLOSET。
TenderoverladyArctura,Donalwouldaskaquestionortwoofthehousekeeperbeforedisclosingwhatfurtherhehadfound。Hesoughtherroom,therefore,whileArcturaandDavie,muchtogethernow,werereadinginthelibrary。
“Didyoueverhearanythingaboutthatlittleroomonthestair,mistressBrookes?”heasked。
“Icannasay,“sheanswered——butthoughtfully,“——Bideawee:auldauntiedidmentionsomethinganceaboot——bideawee——Ihaeawullin'
memory——maybeI'llmin'upo''ti'thenoo!——Itwassomethingabootbiggin'upan'takin'doon——somethinghewastodo,an'somethingheneverdid!——I'msureIcannatell!Butgiemetime,an'I'llmin'
upo''t!Anceisayewi'me——onlyImaunhaetime!”
Donalwaited,andsaidnotaword。
“Imin'thismuch,“shesaidatlength,“——thattheyusedtobethegitheri'thatroom。Imin'toothattherewassomethingabootbuildin'upaewa',an'pu'in'doonanither——It'scomin'——it'scomin'backtome!”
Shepausedagainawhile,andthensaid:
“AllIcanrecollec',Mr。Grant,isthis:thatefterherdeath,hebiggitupsomethingnofarfraethatroom!——whatwas'tnoo?——an'
therewassomethingabootmakin'o'theroombigger!Hoothatcouldbebybuildin'up,Icannathink!YetIfeelsurethatwaswhathedid!”
“Wouldyoumindcomingtotheplace?”saidDonal。“Toseeitmighthelpyoutoremember。“
“Iwull,sir。Comeyehereaboothalfefterten,an'wes'gangthegither。“
Assoonasthehousewasquiet,theywent。ButMistressBrookescouldrecallnothing,andDonalgazedabouthimtonopurpose。
“What'sthat?”hesaidatlast,pointingtothewallontheothersideofwhichwasthelittlechamber。
Twoarches,inchalk,asitseemed,hadattractedhisgaze。Lightsurelywasabouttodrawnighthroughthedarkness!Chaossurelywassettlingalittletowardsorder!
Theonearchwasdrawnoppositethehiddenchamber;theotheragainsttheearl'scloset,asithadcometobecalledinthehouse——mostofthedomesticsthinkinghetheresaidhisprayers。Itlookedasiftherehadbeenanintentionofpiercingthewallwithsucharches,tothrowthetwosmallroomsontheothersideasrecessesintothelarger。Butifthathadbeentheintent,whatcouldthebuildingofawall,vaguelyrecollectedbymistressBrookes,havebeenfor?Thatawallhadbeenbuilthedidnotdoubt,forhebelievedheknewthewall,butwhy?
“What'sthat?”saidDonal。
“What?”returnedMrs。Brookes。
“Thosetwoarches。“
Thehousekeeperlookedatthemthoughtfullyforafewmoments。
“Icannahelpfancyin',“shesaidslowly,“——yes,I'msurethat'sthevarrathingmyaunttoldmeaboot!That'sthetwaplaceswhaurhewasgoin'totakthewalldoon,tomaktheroomlairger。ButI'msureshesaidsomethingabootbuildin'awallasweel!”
“Lookhere,“saidDonal;“Iwillmeasurethedistancefromthedoortotheothersideofthisfirstarch——Nowcomeintotheclosetbehind。Lookhere!Thissamemeasurementtakesusrightuptotheendoftheplace!Soyouseeifweweretoopentheotherarch,itwouldbeintosomethingbehindthiswall。“
“Thenthismaybethevarrawa'hebiggit?”
“Idon'tdoubtit;butwhatcouldhehavehaditbuiltfor,ifhewasgoingtoopentheotherwall?Imustthinkitallover!——Itwasafterhiswife'sdeath,yousay?”
“Yes,Ibelieveso。“
“Onemighthavethoughthewouldnotcareaboutenlargingtheroomaftershewasgone!”
“But,sir,hewasnajistsicapattreno'aguidman;“saidthehousekeeper。“An'whatformakthisroomless?”
“Mayitnothavebeenforthesakeofshuttingout,orhidingsomething?”suggestedDonal。
“Idorememberacertainthing!——Curious!——Butwhatthenastotheopenin'o''tefter?”
“Hehasneverdoneit!”saidDonalsignificantly。“Thethingtakesshapetomeinthisway:——thathewantedtobuildsomethingoutofsight——toannihilateit;butinordertopreventspeculation,heprofessedtheintentionofcastingtheoneroomintotheother;thenbuiltthewallacross,onthepretencethatitwasnecessaryforsupportwhentheotherwasbrokenthrough——orperhapsthattworecesseswitharcheswouldlookbetter;butwhenhehadgotthewallbuilt,heputoffopeningthearchesononepretextoranother,tillthethingshouldbeforgottenaltogether——asyouseeitisalready,almostentirely!——Ihavebeenatthebackofthatwall,andheardtheearlmoaningandcryingonthissideofit!”
“Godblessme!”criedthegoodwoman。“I'mnoeasyscaret,butthat'sfearfu'tothinko'!”
“Youwouldnotcaretocometherewithme?”
“Nothenicht,sir。Cometomyroomagain,an'Is'makyeacupo'
coffee,an'tellyethestory——it'sa'comebacktomenoo——thething'atmademyaunttellmeabootthebuildin'o'thiswa'。
'Deed,sir,Ihaehardlyadoobtthethingwasjistasyesay!”
Theywenttoherroom:therewasladyArcturasittingbythefire!
“Mylady!”criedthehousekeeper。“IthouchtIleftyesoon'
asleep!”
“SoIwas,Idaresay,“answeredArctura;“butIwokeagain,andfindingyouhadnotcomeup,IthoughtIwouldgodowntoyou。IwascertainyouandMr。Grantwouldbesomewheretogether!Haveyoubeendiscoveringanythingmore?”
Mrs。BrookesgaveDonalalook:helefthertotellasmuchoraslittleasshepleased。
“Wehaebeenprowlin'abootthehoose,butnodoonyon'er,mylady。
Ithinkyouan'mewaddoweeltolea'thattoMr。Grant!”
“Whenyourladyshipisquitereadytohaveeverythingsettorights,“saidDonal,“andtohavearesurrectionofthechapel,thenIshallbegladtogowithyouagain。ButIwouldrathernoteventalkmoreaboutitjustatpresent。“
“Asyouplease,Mr。Grant,“repliedladyArctura。“WewillsaynothingmoretillIhavemadeupmymind。Idon'twanttovexmyuncle,andIfindthequestionratheradifficultone——andthemoredifficultthatheisworsethanusual——Willyounotcometobednow,mistressBrookes?”
CHAPTERLXIV。
THEGARLAND-ROOM。
Allthroughtheterribletime,thesenseofhelpandcomfortandprotectioninthepresenceoftheyoungtutor,wentongrowinginthemindofArctura。Itwasnothingtoher——whatcoulditbe?——thathewasthesonofaveryhumblepair;thathehadbeenashepherd,andacow-herd,andafarmlabourer——lessthannothing。Sheneverthoughtofthefactsofhislifeexceptsympathetically,seekingtoenterintothefeelingsofhismemorialchildhoodandyouth;shewouldneverhaveknownanythingofthosefactsbutfortheirlovelyintimaciesofallsortswithNature——naturedivine,human,animal,cosmical。Bysharingwithherhisemotionalhistory,Donalhadmadeitsfactsprecioustoher;throughthemhehadgatheredhisbest——byhomeandbyprayer,bymotherandfather,bysheepandmountainsandwindandsky。Andnowhewastoheratowerofstrength,arefuge,astrongcity,theshadowofagreatrockinawearyland。Shetrustedhimthemorethatheneverinvitedhertrust——neverputhimselfbeforeher;foralwaysbeforeherhesetLife,theperfectheart-originofherandhisyetunperfectedhumanity,teachinghertohungerandthirstafterbeingrighteouslikeGod,withtheassuranceofbeingfilled。ShehadoncetrustedinMissCarmichael,notwithherhigherbeing,onlywithherjudgment,andbothherjudgmentandherfriendhadmisledher。Donalhadtaughtherthatobedience,nottomanbuttoGod,wastheonlyguidetoholyliberty,andsohadhelpedhertobreakthebondsofthosetraditionswhich,intheshapeofauthoritativeutterancesofthisorthatchurch,layburdensgrievoustobeborneuponthesoulsofmen。ForChrist,againstallthechurches,seemedtohertoexpressDonal'smission。Anairofpeace,anatmosphereofsummertwilightafterthegoingdownofthesun,seemedtohertoprecedehimandannouncehisapproachwitharadiationfeltasrest。Shequestionedherselfnowiseabouthim。Fallinginlovewasathingunsuggestedtoher;ifshewasinwhatiscalleddanger,itwasofabetterthing。
Thenextdayshedidnotappear:mistressBrookeshadpersuadedhertokeepherbedagainforadayortwo。Therewasnothingreallythematterwithher,shesaidherself,butshewassotiredshedidnotcaretoliftherheadfromthepillow。Shehadsleptwell,andwastroubledaboutnothing。ShesenttobegMr。GranttoletDaviegoandreadtoher,andtogivehimsomethingtoread,goodforhimaswellasforher。
DonaldidnotseeDavieagaintillthenextmorning。
“Oh,Mr。Grant!”hesaid,“youneversawanythingsoprettyasArkieisinbed!Sheissowhite,andsosweet!andshespeakswithavoicesogentleandlow!Shewassokindtomeforgoingtoreadtoher!Ineversawanybodylikeher!Shelooksasifshehadjustsaidherprayers,andGodhadtoldhersheshouldhaveeverythingshewanted。“
Donalwonderedalittle,buthopedmore。SurelyshemustbefindingrestintheconsciousnessofGod!Butwhywasshesowhite?Wasshegoingtodie?Apangshottohisheart:ifsheweretogofromthecastle,itwouldbehardtostayinit,evenforthesakeofDavie!
Donal,nomorethanArctura,imaginedhimselffalleninlove:hehadlovedonce,andhishearthadnotyetdoneaching——thoughmorewiththememorythanthepresenceofpain!HewasutterlysatisfiedwithwhattheFatherofthechildrenhaddecreed,andwouldneverloveagain!ButhedidnotseektohidefromhimselfthatthefriendshipofladyArctura,andthehelpshesoughtandhegave,hadaddedafreshandstronginteresttohislife。Atthefirstdawnofpowerinhisheart,whenhebegantomakesongsinthefieldsandonthehills,hehadfeltthattobrightenwithtruelightthecloudedlivesofdespondentbrothersandsisterswastheonethingworthestlivingfor:itwaswhattheLordcameintotheworldfor;neitherhadhistroublemadehimforgetit——formorethanoneweekorso:
whilethepainwasyetgnawinggrievously,hewoketoitagainwithself-accusation——almostself-contempt。Tohavehelpedthislovelycreature,whoselifehadseemedlaptinanevercloser-claspingshroudofperplexity,wasathingtobegladof——nottothedayofhisdeath,buttothenever-endingendofhislife!wasanhonourconferreduponhimbytheFather,tolastforevermore!ForhehadhelpedtoopenahumandoorfortheLordtoenter!shewithinheardhimknock,but,trying,wasunabletoopen!TobeGod'shelperwithourfellowsistheonehighcalling;thepresenceofGodinthehousetheonehighcondition。
AttheendofaweekArcturawasbetter,andabletoseeDonal。ShehadhadmistressBrookes'sbedmovedintothesameroomwithherown,andhadmadethedressing-roomintoasitting-room。Itwassunnyandpleasant——theveryplace,Donalthought,hewouldhavechosenforher。Thebedroomtoo,whichthehousekeeperhadpersuadedhertotakewhensheleftherown,wasoneofthelargestinthecastle——theGarland-room——old-fashioned,ofcourse,butascheerfulasstatelinesswouldpermit,withgorgeoushangingsandgreatpictures——farfromhomely,butwithsuninithalftheday。Donalcongratulatedheronthechange。Shehadbeenpreventedfrommakingonesooner,shesaid,bythedreadofowinganycomforttocircumstance:itmightdeceiveherastoherrealcondition!
“ItcouldnotdeceiveGod,though,“answeredDonal,“whofillswithrighteousnessthosewhohungerafterit。Itispridetorefuseanythingthatmighthelpustoknowhim;andofallthingshissun-litworldspeaksofthefatheroflights!Ifthatmakesushappier,itmakesusfittertounderstandhim,andhecaneasilysendwhatcloudmaybeneedfultotemperit。Wemustnotmakeourownworld,inflictourownpunishments,ororderourowninstruction;wemustsimplyobeythevoiceinourhearts,andtakelovinglywhathesends。“
Thenextdayshetoldhimshehadhadabeautifulnight,fulloftheloveliestdreams。Oneofthemwas,thatachildcameoutofagrassyhillockbythewayside,calledhermamma,andsaidshewasmuchobligedtoherfortakingheroffthecoldstone,andmakingherabutterfly;andwiththatthechildspreadoutgorgeousandgreatwingsandsoareduptoawhitecloud,andtheresatlaughingmerrilytoher。
EveryafternoonDaviereadtoher,andthenceDonalgainedaduty——thatoffindingsuitablepabulumforthetwo。Hewasnotwidelyreadinlightliterature,anditmadenecessarynotalittleexplorationintheregionofit。
CHAPTERLXV。
THEWALL。
Onthedayafterthelasttriadinthehousekeeper'sparlour,asDonalsatintheschoolroomwithDavie——aboutnoonitwas——hebecameawarethatforsometimehehadbeenhearinglaboriousblowsapparentlyatagreatdistance:nowthatheattended,theyseemedtobeinthecastleitself,deadenedbymass,notdistance。Withafeargraduallybecomingmoredefinite,hesatlisteningforafewmoments。
“Davie,“hesaid,“runandseewhatisgoingon。“
Theboycamerushingbackingreatexcitement。
“Oh,Mr。Grant,whatdoyouthink!”hecried。“Idobelievemyfatherisafterthelostroom!Theyarebreakingdownawall!”
“Where?”askedDonal,halfstartingfromhisseat。
“Inthelittleroombehindthehalf-wayroom——onthestair,youknow!”
Donalwassilent:whatmightnotbetheconsequences!
“Youmaygoandseethematwork,Davie,“hesaid。“Weshallhavenomorelessonsthismorning——Wasyourpapawiththem?”
“No,sir——atleast,Ididnotseehim。Simmonstoldmehesentforthemasonsthismorning,andsetthemtotakethewalldown。Oh,thankyou,Mr。Grant!Itissuchfun!Idowonderwhatisbehindit!
Itmaybeaplaceyouknowquitewell,oraplaceyouneversawbefore!”
Davieranoff,andDonalinstantlyspedtoacornerwherehehadhiddensometools,thencetoladyArctura'sdesertedroom,andsototheoakdoor。Herememberedseeinganotherstapleinthesamepost,alittlelowerdown:ifhecouldgetthatout,hewoulddriveitinbesidetheremainsoftheother,soastoholdtheboltofthelock:
iftheearlknewthewayin,asdoubtlesshedid,hemustnotlearnthatanotherhadfoundit——notyetatleast!Ashewentdown,everyblowofthemasonspoundingatthewall,seemedinhisveryears。
Hepeepedthroughthepress-door:theyhadnotyetgotthroughthewall:nolightwasvisible!Hemadehastetorestorethings——onlyastoolandafewpapers——totheirexactpositionswhenfirstheentered。Closetohimontheothersideofthepartition,shakingtheplace,thehugeblowswerefallinglikethoseofaramonthewallofabesiegedcity,ofwhichhewasthewholegarrison。Hesteppedintothepressanddrewthedoorafterhim:withhislastglancebehindhimhesaw,inthefaintgleamoflightthatcamewithit,astonefall:hemustmakehaste:thedemolitionwouldgoonmuchfasternow;butbeforetheyhadtheopeninglargeenoughtopass,hewouldhavedonewhathewanted!Withastrongpieceofironforalever,hedrewthestaplefromthepost,thendroveitinastrideofthebolt,carefultotimehisblowstothoseofthemasons。Thatdone,herandowntothechapel,gatheredwhatdusthecouldsweepupfrombehindthealtarandlaiditonitstop,restoredonthebed,withitsowndust,alittleoftheoutlineofwhathadlainthere,droppedtheslabtoitsplaceinthefloorofthepassage,closedthedoorofthechapelwithsomedifficultybecauseofitsbrokenhinge,andascended。
Thesoundsofbatteringhadceased,andashepassedtheoakdoorhelaidhiseartoit:someonewasintheplace!thelidofthebureaushutwithaloudbang,andheheardalockturned。Thewallcouldnotbehalfdownyet:theearlmusthaveenteredthemomenthecouldgetthrough!
Donalhastenedup,andoutofthedreadfulplace,puttheslabintheopening,secureditwithastrutagainsttheoppositesideoftherecess,andclosedtheshuttersanddrewthecurtainsoftheroom;iftheearlcameupthestairinthewall,foundthestoneimmovable,andsawnolightthroughanychinkaboutitsedges,hewouldnotsuspectithadbeendisplaced!
HewentthentoladyArctura。
“Ihaveagreatdealtotellyou,“hesaid,“butatthismomentI
cannot:Iamafraidoftheearlfindingmewithyou!”
“Whyshouldyoumindthat?”saidArctura。
“BecauseIthinkheissuspiciousaboutthelostroom。Hehashadawalltakendownthismorning。Pleasedonotlethimseeyouknowanythingaboutit。Daviethinksheissetonfindingthelostroom:
Ithinkheknewallaboutitlongago。Youcanaskhimwhathehasbeendoing:youmusthaveheardthemasons!”
“IhopeIshallnotstumbleintoanythinglikeastory,forifIdoImustoutwitheverything!”
Intheafternoon,Daviewasfullofthecuriouslittleplacehisfatherhaddiscoveredbehindthewall;but,ifthatwasthelostroom,hesaid,itwasnotatallworthmakingsuchafussabout:itwasnothingbutabigcloset,withanolddesk-kindofthinginit!
Intheafternoonalso,theearlwenttoseehisniece。Itwasthefirsttimetheymetafterhisrudebehaviouronherproposaltosearchforthelostroom。
“Whatwereyoudoingthismorning,uncle?”shesaid。“Therewassuchathumpingandbangingsomewhereinthecastle!Daviesaidyouweredetermined,hethought,tofindthelostroom。“
“Nothingofthekind,mylove,“answeredtheearl。“——Idohopetheywillnotspoilthestaircarryingthestonesandmortardown!”
“Whatwasitthen,uncle?”
“Simplythis,mydear:mylatewife,youraunt,andI,hadaplanfortakingthatclosetbehindmyroomonthestairintotheroomitself。Inpreparation,Ihadawallbuiltacrossthemiddleofthecloset,soastodivideitandmaketworecessesofit,andactalsoasabuttresstotheweakenedwall。Thenyourauntdied,andI
hadn'tthehearttoopentherecessesordoanythingmoreinthematter。Soonehalfoftheclosetwascutoff,andremainedinaccessible。Buttherehadbeenleftinitanoldbureau,containingpapersofsomeconsequence,foritwasheavy,andintendedtooccupythesamepositionafterthearcheswereopened。
Now,asithappens,Iwantoneofthosepapers,sothewallhashadtocomedownagain。“
“But,uncle,whatapity!”saidArctura。“Whydidyounotopenthearches?Therecesseswouldhavebeensoprettyinthatroom!”
“IamsorryIdidnotthinkofaskingyouwhatyouwouldlikedoneaboutit,mychild!ThefactisIneverthoughtofyourtakinganyinterestinthematter;Ihadnaturallylostallmine。Youwillpleasetoobserve,however,IhaveonlyrestoredwhatIhadmyselfdisarranged——notmeddledwithanythingbelongingtothecastle!”
“Butnowyouhavethemasonshere,whynotgoon,andmakealittlesearchforthelostroom?”saidArctura,venturingoncemore。
“Wemightpulldownthecastleandbenonethewiser!Bah!thebuildingupofhalftheclosetmayhavegivenrisetothewholestory!”
“Surely,uncle,thelegendisolderthanthat!”
“Itmaybe;youcannotbesure。Onceagoing,itwouldimmediatelycrybacktoaremoteage。Provethatanyoneeverspokeofitbeforethebuildingofthatfoolishwall。“
“Surelysomerememberhearingitlongbeforethat!”
“Nothingismoretreacherousthanamemoryconfrontedwithageneralbelief,“saidtheearl,andtookhisleave。
ThenextmorningArcturawenttoseethealteration。Sheopenedthedoorofthelittleroom:itwastwiceitsformersize,andtwobureauswerestandingagainstthewall!Shepeepedintothecupboardattheendofit,butsawnothingthere。
Thatsamemorningshemadeuphermindthatshewouldgonofartheratpresentinregardtothechapel:itwouldbetobreakwithheruncle!
Intheevening,sheacquaintedDonalwithherresolve,andhecouldnotsayshewaswrong。Therewasnonecessityforopposingheruncle——theremightsooncomeone!Hetoldherhowhehadenteredtheclosetfrombehind,andofthenoisehehadmadethenightbefore,whichhadperhapsledtotheopeningoftheplace;buthedidnottellherofwhathehadfoundonthebureau。Thetimemightcomewhenhemustdoso,butnowhedarednotrenderherrelationswithheruncleyetmoreuncomfortable;neitherwasitlikelysuchawomanwouldconsenttomarrysuchamanashercousinhadshownhimself;
whenthatdangerappeared,itwouldbetimetointerpose;forthemeresuccessiontoanemptytitle,hewasnotsurethathewasboundtospeak。Thebranchwhichcouldproducesuchscions,mightwellbeitselfafalsegraftonthetruestemofthefamily!——ifnot,whatwasthefamilyworth?Hemustatalleventsbesureitwashisbusinessbeforehemovedinthematter!
CHAPTERLXVI。
PROGRESSANDCHANGE。
Thingswentonveryquietlyforatime。Arcturagrewbetter,resumedherstudies,andmadeexcellentprogress。Shewouldhaveworkedharder,butDonalwouldnotlether。Hehatedforcing——evenwiththegoodwilloftheplantitself。Hebelievedinaholy,unhastinggrowth。God'swayswantGod'stime。
Longafter,peoplewouldsometimessaytohim——
“Thatisverywellintheabstract;butinthesedaysofhurryayoungfellowwouldthatwaybeleftagesbehind!”
“WithGod,“wouldDonalsay。
“Tut,tut!thethingwouldneverwork!”
“Foryourends,“Donalwouldanswer,“itcertainlywouldneverwork;
butyourendsarenotthoseoftheuniverse!”
“Idonotpretendtheyare;buttheyarethesuccessoftheboy。“
“Thatisoneoftheendsoftheuniverse;andyourrewardwillbetothwartitforaseason。Ideclinetomakeoneinaconspiracyagainstthedesignofourcreator:Iwouldfaindieloyal!”
Hewasofcourselaughedat,andnotalittledespised,asanextravagantenthusiast。Butthosewholaughedfoundithardtosayforwhathewasenthusiastic。Itseemedhardlyforeducation,whenhewouldevendowhathecouldsometimestokeepapupilback!Hedidnotcaretomakethebestofanyone!Thetruthwas,Donal'sbestwassomanymilesa-headoftheirs,thatitwasbelowtheirhorizonaltogether。Iftherebeanyrelationbetweentimeandthehumanmind,everyforcingofhumanprocess,whetherinspiritorintellect,ishurtful,aretardingofGod'splan。
LadyArctura'soldtroublesweregraduallyfadingintothelimboofvanities。Attimes,however,mostlywhenunwell,theywouldcomeinuponherlikeaflood:whatif,afterall,Godweretheself-lovingbeingtheologypresented——abeingfromwhomnolovinghumanheartcouldbutrecoilwithaholydislike!whatifitwasbecauseofanaturespeciallyevilthatshecouldnotaccepttheGodinwhomthepriestsandeldersofherpeoplebelieved!Butagainandagain,inthemidstofprofoundestwretchednessfromsuchdoubt,hadasuddenflushoftheworld'sbeauty——thatbeautywhichJesushastoldustoconsiderandthemodernphariseetoavoid,brokenlikegentlestmightiestsunrisethroughthehellishfog,andshehadfeltapoweruponherasfromtheheartofaveryGod——aGodsuchasshewouldgiveherlifetobelievein——onebeforewhomshewouldcastherselfinspeechlessadoration——notofhisgreatness——ofthatshefeltlittle,butofhislovingkindness,thegentlenessthatwasmakinghergreat。ThenwouldshecareutterlyforGodandhisChrist,nothingforwhatmensaidaboutthem:theLordnevermeanthislambstobeunderthetyrannyofany,leastofallthetyrannyofhisownmostimperfectchurch!itsworkistoteach;whereitcannotteach,itmustnotrule!ThenwouldGodappeartohernotonlytrue,butreal——theheartofthehuman,towhichshecouldcling,andsorest。
Thecorruptionofallreligioncomesofleavingthehuman,andGodasthecausingHuman,forsomethingimaginedholier。MenwhodonotseethelovelinessoftheTruth,searchtilltheyfindalietheycancalllovely。Whatbutahumanrealitycouldtheheartofmaneverlove!whatelseareweofferedinJesusbuttheabsolutelyhuman?ThatJesushastwonaturesisofthemostmischievousfictionsoftheology。Thedivineandthehumanarenottwo。
Suddenly,afteranabsenceofmonths,reappearedlordForgue——cheerful,manly,onthebesttermswithhisfather,andplainlywillingtobeonstillbettertermswithhiscousin!Hehadlefttheplaceamooningyouth;hecamebackamanoftheworld——easyincarriage,courteousinmanners,sereneintemper,aboundinginwhatseemedtheresultsofobservation,attentivebutnottooattentive,jollywithDavie,distantwithDonal,politetoall。Donalcouldhardlyreceivetheevidenceofhissenses:hewouldhavewonderedmorehadheknowneveryfactorinthechange。Allabouthimseemedtosayitshouldnotbehisfaultifthefolliesofhisyouthremainedunforgotten;andhisairycarriagesatwelluponhim。NonethelessDonalfelttherewasnorestorationofthecharmwhichhadatfirstattractedhim;thatwasutterlyvanished。Hefeltcertainhehadbeengoingdownhill,andwasnow,insteadofnegatively,consciouslyandpositivelyuntrue。
Withgradationsundefined,butnotunmarkedofDonal,asifthemanfoundhimselfunderinfluencesofwhichtheyouthhadbeenunaware,hebegantoshowhimselfnotindifferenttotheattractionsofhiscousin。Heexpressedconcernthatherhealthwasnotwhatithadbeen;soughtherinherroomwhenshedidnotappear;professedaninterestinknowingwhatbooksshewasreading,andwhatwereherstudieswithDonal;behavedlikeagoodbrother-cousin,whowouldnotbesorrytobesomethingmore。
Andnowtheearl,totheastonishmentofthehousehold,begantoappearattable;and,apparentlyasaconsequenceofthis,Donalwasrequestedratherthaninvitedtotakehismealswiththefamily——notaltogethertohissatisfaction,seeinghecouldnotonlyreadwhileheatealone,butcouldgetthroughmorequickly,andhavethetimethussaved,forthingsofgreaterconsequence。HispresencemadeiteasierforlordForguetoacthispart,andthemannershebroughttothefrontleftlittletobedesired。HebowedtothejudgmentofArctura,andseemedtowelcomethatofhisfather,towhomhewasnowasrespectfulasmoralistcoulddesire。Yethesometimesfacedacardhedidnotmeantoshow:whothatisnotabsolutelytruecanescapethemishap!——therewascondescensioninhispolitenesstoDonal!andthis,hadtherebeennothingelse,wouldhavebeenenoughtorevoltArctura。Butintruthheimpressedheraltogetherasamanofoutsides;shefeltthatshedidnotseethemanhewas,butthenearestapproachhecouldmaketothemanhewouldbetakenfor。Hewasgracious,dignified,responsive,kind,amusing,accurate,ready——everythingbuttrue。Hewouldmakeofhisoutermanallbutwhatitwasmeantfor——arevelationoftheinner。Itwasthatnotwithstanding。Hewasamandressedinaman,andhisdresswasarevelationofmuchthathewas,whileheintendeditonlytoshowmuchthathewasnot。Nomancanhelpunveilinghimself,howeverlonghemayescapeevenhisowndetection。Thereisnothingcoveredthatshallnotberevealed。Thingsweremeanttocomeout,andberead,andunderstood,inthefaceoftheuniverse。Thesoulofeverymanisasasecretbook,whosecontentisyetwrittenonitscoverforthereadingofthewise。Howdifferentlyisitreadbythefool,whoseveryunderstandingisamisunderstanding!HetakesamanforaGodwhenonthepointofbeingeatenupofworms!hebuysforthirtypiecesofsilverhimwhomthesepulchrecannothold!Wellforthoseintheworldofrevelation,whogivetheirsinsnoquarterinthis!
ForguehadbeeninEdinburghapartofthetime,inEnglandanotherpart。Hehadmanythingstotellofthepeoplehehadseen,andthesportshehadsharedin。Hehaddevelopedandenlargedaveinofgentlemanlysatire,whichhekeptsuppliedbytheobservationandanalysisofthepeculiarities,generallyweaknesses,ofothers。
These,asamatterofcourse,hejudgedmerelybythepoorstandardofsociety:questionedconcerninganyuponthelargerhumanscale,hecouldgivenoaccountofthem。ToDonal'seyes,themanwasashallowpoolwhosesurfacebrightnessconcealedthemuddybottom。
CHAPTERLXVII。
THEBREAKFAST-ROOM。
Twoyearsbefore,ladyArcturahadbeeninthehabitofridingagooddeal,butafteranaccidenttoafavouritehorseforwhichsheblamedherself,shehadscarcelyriddenatall。Itwasquiteasmuch,however,fromtheinfluenceofMissCarmichaeluponherspirits,thatshehadforsakentheexercise。Partlybecauseherunclewasneithermuchrespectednormuchliked,shehadvisitedverylittle;andaftermentaltroubleassailedher,growingunderthefalseprescriptionsofthesoul-doctorshehadcalledin,shewithdrewmoreandmore,avoidingevencompanyshewouldhaveenjoyed,andwhichwouldbeforenowhaveledhertoresumeit。
ForatimeshepersistedinrefusingtoridewithForgue。Invainheofferedhishorse,assuringherthatDavie'sponywasquiteabletocarryhim;shehadnoinclinationtoride,shesaid。Butatlastoneday,lestsheshouldbeguiltyofunkindness,sheconsented,andsoenjoyedtheride——felt,indeed,somuchthebetterforit,thatshedidnotthereaftersopositivelyasbeforedeclinetoallowhercousintolookoutforahorsefittocarryher;andForgue,takingherconsentforgranted,succeeded,withthehelpofthefactor,infindingforherabeautifulcreature,justofthesorttopleaseher。Almostatsightofhimsheagreedtohispurchase。
ThisputForgueingreatspirits,andmuchcontentmentwithhimself。
Hedidnotdoubtthat,gainingthusopportunitysoexcellent,hewouldquicklysucceedinwithdrawingherfromtheabsurdinfluencewhich,tohisdismay,hediscoveredhisenemyhadinhisabsencegainedoverher。Heoughtnottohavebeensuchafool,hesaidtohimself,astoleavethepoorchildtothetemptationsnaturallyarisinginsuchadrearysolitude!Henotedwithsatisfaction,however,thattheparson'sdaughterseemedtohaveforsakenthehouse。Andnowatlast,havinggotridofthefollythatawhilepossessedhim,hewaspreparedtodohisdutybythefamily,and,tothatend,wouldmakeunfalteringuseofthefascinationsexperiencehadtaughthimhewas,inamostexceptionaldegree,giftedwith!HewouldatoncetakeArctura'seducationinhisownhands,andgivehisfullenergytoit!Sheshouldspeedilylearnthedifferencebetweentheassistanceofagentlemanandthatofaclotpoll!
HehadinEnglandimprovedinhisridingaswellashismanners,andknewatleasthowagentleman,ifnothowaman,oughttobehavetothebeastthatcarriedhim。Also,havingriddenagooddealwithladies,hewasnowabletogiveArcturanotafewhintstotheimprovementofherseat,herhand,hercourage;norwasthereanynearerroad,hejudgedfromwhatheknewofhiscousin,toherconfidenceandgratitude,thanshowingherabetterwayinathing。
Butthinkingthatinteachinghertoridehecouldmakeherforgetthemanwhohadbeenteachinghertolive,hewasnotalittlemistakeninthewomanhedesiredtocaptivate。
Hedidnotyetlovehereveninthewayhecalledloving,elsehemighthavebeenlessconfident;buthefoundherverypleasing。
Invigoratedbythebrightfrostyair,thelifeoftheanimalunderher,andtheexultationofrapidmotion,sheseemedbetterinhealth,moremerryandfulloflife,thanhehadeverseenher:heputalldowntohissuccesswithher。Hewasincapableofsuspectinghowlittleofitwasowingtohim;incapableofbelievinghowmuchtothefactthatshenowturnedtothefatherofspiritswithoutfear,almostwithoutdoubt;thoughtofhimastherootofeverydelightoftheworld——attheheartofthehorsesherode,inthewindthatblewjoyintohersasshesweptthroughitsyieldingbosom;knewhimasaltogetherlovingandtrue,thefatherofJesusChrist,aslikehimaslikecouldbelike——morelikehimthananyoneelseintheuniversecouldbelikeanother——likehimasonlyeternalsoncanbelikeeternalfather。
Itwasnowonderthatwithsuchawelloflivingwaterinherheartsheshouldbeglad——merryeven,andreadyforanythingherhorsecoulddo!Flyingacrossafieldintheverywildnessofpleasure,herhairstreamingbehindher,andherpalefaceglowing,shewouldnowandthentakeajumpForguedeclaredhecouldnotfaceincoldblood:hedidnotknowhowfarfromcoldherbloodwas!Hebegantowonderhehadbeensuchafoolasneglectherfor——well,nevermind!——andtofeelsomethingthatwaslikelove,andwasindeedadmiration。Butforthesearingbrandofhispast,hemighthavelovedhertruly——asamanmay,withoutbeingthemostexaltedofmortals;forinlovewearebeyondourordinaryselves;thedeepthinginuspeersupintothehumanair,andisofGod——thereforecannotlivelonginthemephiticairofaselfishandlownature,butsinksagainoutofsight。
HewasnotathiseasewithArctura;hewasafraidofher。Whenamanisconsciousofwrong,knowsinhishistorywhatwoulddrawahideoussmudgeovertheportraithewouldpresenttotheeyesofherhewouldplease,hemaywellbeafraidofher。Hemakesliberalallowanceforhimself,butisnotsureshewill!AndbeforeForguelayasocialgulfwhichhecouldpassonlyonthenarrowplankofherfavour!Themorehewaswithher,themoreheadmiredher,themorehedesiredtomarryher;themoresatisfiedhegrewwithhisownimprovement,themoredeterminedhebecamethatfornopoor,unjustscrupleswouldheforgohishappiness。Therewasbutonetrifletobekeptfromtheworld;itmightknoweverythingelseabouthim!andonceinpossessionoftheproperty,whowoulddisputethetitle?Thenagainhewasnotcertainthathisfatherhadnotmerelyinventedathreat!Surelyifthefactweresuch,hewould,eveninragediabolic,havekeptittohimself!
Impetuous,andaccustomedtowhathecountedsuccess,hesoonbegantomakeplaineradvancetowardtheendonwhichhisself-loveandcupidityatleastwereset。But,knowinginavaguemannerhowhehadcarriedhimselfbeforehewent,Arctura,uninfluencedbythewaysoftheworld,herjudgmentunwarped,herperceptionundimmed,herinstinctsnice,herpersonaldelicacyexacting,hadneverimaginedhecouldapproachheronanygroundbutthatofcousinshipandachildhoodofsharedsports。ShehadseenthatDonalwasfarfrompleasedwithhim,andbelievedForgueknewthatsheknewhehadbeenbehavingbadly。Herbehaviourtohimwasindeedlargelybasedonthefactthathewasindisgrace:shewassorryforhim。
Byandby,however,sheperceivedthatshehadbeenallowingtoomuchfreedomwhereshewasnotpreparedtoallowmore,andsoonedaydeclinedtogowithhim。Theyhadnothadarideforafortnight,theweatherhavingbeenunfavourable;andnowwhenamorningbrokeintotheseasonlikeasmilefromanestrangedfriend,shewouldnotgo!Hewasannoyed——thenalarmed,fearingadverseinfluence。Theywerealoneinthebreakfast-room。
“Whywillyounot,Arctura?”heaskedreproachfully:“doyounotfeelwell?”
“Iamquitewell,“sheanswered。
“Itissuchalovelyday!”hepleaded。
“Iamnotinthemood。Thereareotherthingsintheworldbesidesriding,andIhavebeenwastingmytime——ridingtoomuch。IhavelearntnexttonothingsinceLarkiecame。“
“Oh,bother!whathaveyoutodowithlearning!Healthisthefirstthing。“
“Idon'tthinkso——andlearningisgoodforthehealth。Besides,I
wouldnotbeamereanimalforperfecthealth!”
“Letmehelpyouthenwithyourstudies。“
“Thankyou,“sheanswered,laughingalittle,“butIhaveagoodmasteralready!We,thatisDavieandI,arereadingGreekandmathematicswithMr。Grant。“
Forgue'sfaceflushed。
“Ioughttoknowasmuchofbothashedoes!”hesaid。
“Oughtperhaps!Butyouknowyoudonot。“
“Iknowenoughtobeyourtutor。“
“Yes,butIknowenoughnottobeyourpupil!”
“Whatdoyoumean?”
“Thatyoucan'tteach。“
“Howdoyouknowthat?”
“BecauseyoudonotloveeitherGreekormathematics,andnoonewhodoesnotlovecanteach。“
“Thatisnonsense!IfIdon'tloveGreekenoughtoteachit,Iloveyouenoughtoteachyou,“saidForgue。
“Youaremyriding-master,“saidArctura;“Mr。GrantismymasterinGreek。“
ForguestrangledanimprecationonMr。Grant,andtriedtolaugh,buttherewasnotalaughinsidehim。
“Thenyouwon'trideto-day?”hesaid。
“Ithinknot,“repliedArctura。
Sheoughttohavesaidshewouldnot。Itisapitytoletdoubtalightondecision。Herreplyre-openedthewholequestion。
“Icannotseewhatshouldinduceyoutoallowthatfellowthehonourofreadingwithyou!”saidForgue。“He'salong-winded,pedantic,ill-bredlout!”
“Mr。Grantismyfriend!”saidArctura,andraisingherheadlookedhimintheeyes。
“Takemywordforit,youaremistakeninhim,“hesaid。
“Ineithervaluenoraskyouropinionofhim,“returnedArctura。“I
merelyacquaintyouwiththefactthatheismyfriend。“
“Here'sthedevilandalltopay!”thoughtForgue。
“Ibegyourpardon,“hesaid:“youdonotknowhimasIdo!”
“Not?——andwithsomuchbetteropportunityofjudging!”
“Hehasneverplayedthedominiewithyou!”saidForguefoolishly。
“Indeedhehas!”
“Hehas!Confoundhisinsolence!How?”
“Hewon'tletmestudyasIwant——Howhasheinterferedwithyou?”
“Wewon'tquarrelabouthim,“rejoinedForgue,attemptingatoneofgaiety,butinstantlygrowingserious。“Wewhooughttobesomuchtoeachother——“
Somethingtoldhimhehadalreadygonetoofar。
“Idonotknowwhatyoumean——orrather,IamnotwillingtothinkI
knowwhatyoumean,“saidArctura。“Afterwhattookplace——“
Inherturnsheceased:hehadsaidnothing!
“Jealous!”concludedForgue;“——agoodsign!”
“Iseehehasbeentalkingagainstme!”hesaid。
“IfyoumeanMr。Grant,youmistake。Henever,sofarasIremember,oncementionedyoutome。“
“Iknowbetter!”
“Youarerude。Heneverspokeofit;butIhaveseenenoughwithmyowneyes——“
“Ifyoumeanthatsillyfancy——why,Arctura!——youknowitwasbutaboyishfolly!”
“Andsincethenyouhavegrownaman!——Howmanymonthshasittaken?”
“Iassureyou,onthewordofagentleman,thereisnothinginitnow。Itisallover,andIamheartilyashamedofit。“
Apauseofafewsecondsfollowed:itseemedasmanyminutes,andunbearable。
“Youwillcomeoutwithme?”saidForgue:shemightberelenting,thoughshedidnotlooklikeit!
“No,“shesaid;“Iwillnot。“
“Well,“hereturned,withsimulatedcoolness,“thisisrathercavaliertreatment,Imustsay!——Tothrowamanoverwhohaslovedyousolong——andforthesakeofalessoninGreek!”
“Howlong,pray,haveyoulovedme?”saidArctura,growingangry。“I
waswillingtobefriendlywithyou,somuchsothatIamsorryitisnolongerpossible!”
“Youpunishmeprettysharply,mylady,foratrifleofwhichItoldyouIwasashamed!”saidForgue,bitinghislip。“Itwasthemerest——“
“Idonotwishtohearanythingaboutit!”saidArcturasternly。
Then,afraidshehadbeenunkind,sheaddedinalteredtone:“Youhadbettergoandhaveagallop。YoumayhaveLarkieifyoulike。“
Heturnedandlefttheroom。Sheonlymeanttopiquehim,hesaidtohimself。Shehadbeencherishingherdispleasure,andnowshehadhadherrevengewouldfeelbetterandbesorrynext!Itwasaverygoodmorning'sworkafterall!ItwasabsurdtothinkshepreferredaGreeklessonfromaclowntoaridewithlordForgue!WasnotshetooaGraeme!
Partlytomakereconciliationtheeasier,partlybecausethehorsewassuperiortohisown,hewouldrideLarkie!
Buthisreasoningwasnotsosatisfactorytohimastoputhiminagoodtemper,andpoorLarkiehadtosufferforhisill-humour。Hisleastmovementthatdispleasedhimputhiminarage,andherodehimsofoolishlyaswellastyrannicallythathebroughthimhomequitelame,thusputtinganendforatimetoallhopeofridingagainwithArctura。
Insteadofgoingandtellingherwhathehaddone,hesentforthefarrier,andgaveordersthatthemishapshouldnotbementioned。
Aweekpassed,andthenanother;andashecouldsaynothingaboutriding,hewasinameasureself-banishedfromArctura'scompany。A
furiousjealousybegantomasterhim。Hescornedtogiveplacetoitbecauseoftheinsulttohimselfifheallowedatruegroundforit。
Butitgraduallygainedpower。Thiscountrybumpkin,thiscow-herd,thismanofspelling-booksandgrammars,tocomebetweenhiscousinandhim!Ofcoursehewasnotsosillyasimagineforamomentshecaredforhim!——thatshewoulddisgraceherselfbyfallinginlovewithafellowjustloosedfromtheplough-tail!ShewasaGraeme,andcouldneverbeatraitortoherblood!Ifonlyhehadnotbeensuchaninfernalfool!Avulgarlittlethingwithoutanideainherhead!Sounpleasant——sodisgustingatlastwithherlove-making!
Nothingpleasedherbuthuggingandkissing!——Thatwashowhespoketohimselfofthegirlhehadbeeninlovewith!
Damnthatschoolmaster!Shewouldneverfallinlovewithhim,buthemightpreventherfromfallinginlovewithanother!Noattractionscouldmakewayagainstcertainprepossessions!Thegirlhadafancyforbeingasaint,andtheloutburnedincensetoher!
SomuchhegatheredfromDavie。Hisfathermustgetridofthefellow!IfhethoughthewasdoingsowellwithDavie,whynotsendthetwoawaytogethertillthingsweresettled?
ButtheearlthoughtitwouldbebettertowinDonal。HecounselledhimthateveryGrantwaslordSeafield'scousin,andeveryhighlanderanimplacableenemywherehispridewashurt。Hislordshipdidnotreflectthat,ifwhathesaidweretrueofDonal,hemusthaveleftthecastlelongago。TherewasbutonethingwouldhavemadeitimpossibleforDonaltoremain——interference,namely,betweenhimandhispupil。
Forguedidnotarguewithhisfather。Hehadgiventhatup。Atthesametime,ifhehadtoldallthathadpassedbetweenhimandDonal,theearlwouldhaveconfessedhehadadvisedanimpossibility。
Forguetookastepinaverydifferentdirection:hebegantodrawtohimselfthegoodgracesofMissCarmichael:hedidnotknowhowlittleshecouldservehim。Withoutbeingconsciouslyinsincere,sheflatteredhim,andspeedilygainedhisconfidence。Welldescendedonthemother-side,shehadgrownupfit,herfathersaid,toadornanysociety:withakeenappreciationoftheclaimsanddignitiesofthearistocracy,shewaswellabletoflattertheprejudicesshehonouredandsharedin。Carefulnottosayawordagainsthiscousin,shemadehimfeelmoreandmorethathischiefdangerlayintheinfluenceofDonal。Shefannedthushishatredofthemanwhofirstcamebetweenhimandhiswrath;next,betweenhimandhis“love;“andlast,betweenhimandhisfortunes。
IfonlyDaviewouldfallill,andrequirechangeofair!ButDaviewasalwaysinsplendidhealth!
Nowthathesawhimselfinsuchdangeroffailing,hefanciedhimselffarmoreinlovewithArcturathanhewas。Andashegotfamiliarizedwiththeideaofhisillegitimacy,althoughhewouldnotassenttoit,hemadelessandlessofit——whichwouldhavebeenaprooftoanyotherthanhimselfthathebelievedit。Infurthersignofthesame,hemadenoinquiryintothematter——didnotonceevenquestionhisfatheraboutit。Ifitwastrue,hedidnotwanttoknowit:hewouldtreathislackofproofasignorance,andactaswiththeinnocenceofignorance!Afellowmusttakeforgrantedwhatwascommonlybelieved!Atlast,andthelastwasnotlonginarriving,healmostceasedtotroublehimselfaboutit。
HisfatherlaughedathisfearoffailurewithArctura,butattimescontemplatedthethingasanawfulpossibility——notthathelovedForguemuch。Theonlywayfathersinsightofthegravecanfancythemselvesholdingontothethingstheymustleave,isintheirchildren;butlordMorvenhadastrongerandbetterreasonforhisunrighteousness:inatroubled,self-reproachfulway,helovedthememoryoftheirmother,andthroughhercaredevenforForguemorethanheknew。Theywerealsohisownasmuchasifhehadbeenlegallymarriedtoher!Fortherelationinwhichtheystoodtosociety,hecaredlittlesolongasitcontinuedundiscovered。Heenjoyedtheideaofstealingamarchonsociety,andseeingthesonshehadleftatsuchadisadvantagebehindhim,rufflingit,inspiteofabsurdlaw,withthefoolishbest。FromthegravehewouldsohavehisfootontheneckofhisenemyLaw!——hewasoneofthemanywhocanrejoiceinevenastolenvictory。Norwouldheeverhavebeenthefooltoletthetruthfly,exceptunderthereactionofevildrugs,andtherushoffiercewrathatthethreatenedruinofhischerishedscheme。
Arcturathenceforthavoidedhercousinasmuchasshecould——onlyrememberingthatthehousewashers,andshemustnotmakehimfeelhewasnotwelcometouseit。Theymetatmeals,andshetriedtobehaveasifnothingunpleasanthadhappenedandthingswereasbeforehewentaway。
“Youareverycruel,Arctura,“hesaidonemorninghemetherintheterraceavenue。
“Cruel?”returnedArcturacoldly;“Iamnotcruel。Iwouldnotwillinglyhurtanyone。“
“Youhurtmemuch;yougivemenotamorsel,notacrumbofyoursociety!”
“Percy,“saidArctura,“ifyouwillbecontenttobemycousin,weshallgetonwellenough;butifyouaresetonwhatcannotbe——onceforall,believeme,itisofnouse。YoucarefornoneofthethingsIlivefor!Ifeelasifwebelongedtodifferentworlds,solittlehaveweincommon。Youmaythinkmehard,butitisbetterweshouldunderstandeachother。Ifyouimaginethat,becauseIhavetheproperty,youhaveaclaimonme,besureIwillneveracknowledgeit。IwouldathousandtimesratheryouhadthepropertyandIwereinmygrave!”
“Iwillbeanything,doanything,learnanythingyouplease!”criedForgue,hisheartachingwithdisappointment。
“Iknowwhatsuchsubmissionisworth!”saidArctura。“Ishouldbeeverythingtillweweremarried,andthennothing!Youdissemble,youhideevenfromyourself,butyouarenothardtoread。“
Perhapsshewouldnothavespokenjustsoseverely,hadshenotbeenthatmorningunusuallyannoyedwithhisbehaviourtoDonal,andatthesametimespeciallypleasedwiththecalm,unconsciouslydignifiedwayinwhichDonaltookit,castingitfromhimastherockthrowsasidethesea-wave:itdidnotconcernhim!Thedullworldhasgotthewrongphrase:itishewhoresentsanaffrontwhopocketsit!hewhotakesnonotice,letsitlieinthedirt。
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