Thetwowomenwerehalf-sitting,halflying,inapparentindolenceonthedivanofthelittlesalon,sofilledwithharmonyandthefragranceofflowers。Thewindowswereopen,forthenorthwindhadceasedtoblow。Asoothingsoutherlybreezewasrufflingthesurfaceofthesaltlakebeforethem,andthesunwasglitteringonthesandsoftheshore。Theirsoulswereasdeeplyagitatedasthenaturebeforethemwastranquil,andtheheatwithinwasnotlessardent。
Bruisedbytheworkingofthemachinerywhichsheherselfhadsetinmotion,Camillewascompelledtokeepwatchforhersafety,fearingtheamazingclevernessofthefriendlyenemy,or,rather,theinimicalfriendshehadallowedwithinherborders。Toguardherownsecretsandmaintainherselfaloof,shehadtakenoflatetocontemplationsofnature;shecheatedtheachingofherownheartbyseekingameaningintheworldaroundher,findingGodinthatdesertofheavenandearth。WhenanunbelieveronceperceivesthepresenceofGod,heflingshimselfunreservedlyintoCatholicism,which,viewedasasystem,iscomplete。
ThatmorningCamille’sbrowhadwornthehaloofthoughtsbornoftheseresearchesduringanight-timeofpainfulstruggle。Calystewaseverbeforeherlikeacelestialimage。Thebeautifulyouth,towhomshehadsecretlydevotedherself,hadbecometoheraguardianangel。
Wasitnothewholedherintothoseloftierregions,wheresufferingceasedbeneaththeweightofincommensurableinfinity?andnowacertainairoftriumphaboutBeatrixdisturbedher。Nowomangainsanadvantageoveranotherwithoutallowingittobefelt,howevermuchshemaydenyhavingtakenit。Nothingwasevermorestrangeinitscoursethanthedumb,moralstrugglewhichwasgoingonbetweenthesetwowomen,eachhidingfromtheotherasecret,——eachbelievingherselfgenerousthroughhiddensacrifices。
Calystearrived,holdingtheletterbetweenhishandandhisglove,readytoslipitatsomeconvenientmomentintothehandofBeatrix。
Camille,whomthesubtlechangeinthemannerofherfriendhadnotescaped,seemednottowatchher,butdidwatchherinamirroratthemomentwhenCalystewasjustenteringtheroom。Thatisalwaysacrucialmomentforwomen。Thecleverestaswellasthesilliestofthem,thefrankestastheshrewdest,areseldomabletokeeptheirsecret;itburstsfromthem,atanyrate,totheeyesofanotherwoman。Toomuchreserveortoolittle;afreeandluminouslook;themysteriousloweringofeyelids,——allbetray,atthatsuddenmoment,thesentimentwhichisthemostdifficultofalltohide;forrealindifferencehassomethingsoradicallycoldaboutitthatitcanneverbesimulated。Womenhaveageniusforshades,——shadesofdetail,shadesofcharacter;theyknowthemall。Therearetimeswhentheireyestakeinarivalfromheadtofoot;theycanguesstheslightestmovementofafootbeneathagown,thealmostimperceptiblemotionofthewaist;theyknowthesignificanceofthingswhich,toaman,seeminsignificant。Twowomenobservingeachotherplayoneofthechoicestscenesofcomedythattheworldcanshow。”Calystehascommittedsomefolly,”thoughtCamille,perceivingineachofherguestsanindefinableairofpersonswhohaveamutualunderstanding。
TherewasnolongereitherstiffnessorpretendedindifferenceonthepartofBeatrix;shenowregardedCalysteasherownproperty。Calystewasevenmoretransparent;hecolored,asguiltypeople,orhappypeoplecolor。Heannouncedthathehadcometomakearrangementsfortheexcursiononthefollowingday。”Thenyoureallyintendtogo,mydear?”saidCamille,interrogatively。”Yes,”saidBeatrix。”Howdidyouknowit,Calyste?”askedMademoiselledesTouches。”Icameheretofindout,”repliedCalyste,onalookflashedathimbyMadamedeRochefide,whodidnotwishCamilletogaintheslightestinklingoftheircorrespondence。”Theyhaveanagreementtogether,”thoughtCamille,whocaughtthelookinthepowerfulsweepofhereye。
UnderthepressureofthatthoughtahorriblediscomposureoverspreadherfaceandfrightenedBeatrix。”Whatisthematter,mydear?”shecried。”Nothing。Well,then,Calyste,sendmyhorsesandyoursacrosstoCroisic,sothatwemaydrivehomebywayofBatz。WewillbreakfastatCroisic,andgethomeintimefordinner。Youmusttakechargeoftheboatarrangements。Letusstartbyhalf-pasteight。Youwillseesomefinesights,Beatrix,andoneverystrangeone;youwillseeCambremer,amanwhodoespenanceonarockforhavingwilfullykilledhisson。Oh!youareinaprimitiveland,amongaprimitiveraceofpeople,wheremenaremovedbyothersentimentsthanthoseofordinarymortals。Calysteshalltellyouthetale;itisadramaoftheseashore。”
Shewentintoherbedroom,forshewasstifling。CalystegavehislettertoBeatrixandfollowedCamille。”Calyste,youareloved,Ithink;butyouarehidingsomethingfromme;youhavedonesomefoolishthing。””Loved!”heexclaimed,droppingintoachair。
Camillelookedintothenextroom;Beatrixhaddisappeared。Thefactwasodd。Womendonotusuallyleavearoomwhichcontainsthemantheyadmire,unlesstheyhaveeitherthecertaintyofseeinghimagain,orsomethingbetterstill。MademoiselledesTouchessaidtoherself:——”Canhehavegivenheraletter?”
ButshethoughttheinnocentBretonincapableofsuchboldness。”Ifyouhavedisobeyedme,allwillbelost,throughyourownfault,”
shesaidtohimverygravely。”Go,now,andmakeyourpreparationsforto-morrow。”
ShemadeagesturewhichCalystedidnotventuretoresist。
AshewalkedtowardCroisic,toengagetheboatmen,fearscameintoCalyste’smind。Camille’sspeechforeshadowedsomethingfatal,andhebelievedinthesecondsightofhermaternalaffection。Whenhereturned,fourhourslater,verytired,andexpectingtodineatLesTouches,hefoundCamille’smaidkeepingwatchoverthedoor,totellhimthatneitherhermistressnorthemarquisecouldreceivehimthatevening。Calyste,muchsurprised,wishedtoquestionher,butshebadehimhastilygood-nightandclosedthedoor。
Sixo’clockwasstrikingonthesteepleofGuerandeasCalysteenteredhisownhouse,whereMariottegavehimhisbelateddinner;afterwhich,heplayed/mouche/ingloomymeditation。Thesealternationsofjoyandgloom,happinessandunhappiness,theextinctionofhopessucceedingtheapparentcertaintyofbeingloved,bruisedandwoundedtheyoungsoulwhichhadflownsohighonoutstretchedwingsthatthefallwasdreadful。”Doesanythingtroubleyou,myCalyste?”saidhismother。”Nothing,”hereplied,lookingatherwitheyesfromwhichthelightofthesoulandthefireoflovewerewithdrawn。
Itisnothope,butdespair,whichgivesthemeasureofourambitions。
Thefinestpoemsofhopearesunginsecret,butgriefappearswithoutaveil。”Calyste,youarenotnice,”saidCharlotte,aftervainlyattemptingonhimthoselittleprovincialwitcherieswhichdegenerateusuallyintoteasing。”Iamtired,”hesaid,rising,andbiddingthecompanygood-night。”Calysteismuchchanged,”remarkedMademoiselledePen-Hoel。”Wehaven’tbeautifuldressestrimmedwithlace;wedon’tshakeoursleeveslikethis,ortwistourbodieslikethat;wedon’tknowhowtogivesidelongglances,andturnoureyes,”saidCharlotte,mimickingtheair,andattitude,andglancesofthemarquise。”/We/haven’tthatheadvoice,northeinterestinglittlecough,/heu!heu!/whichsoundslikethesighofaspook;/we/havethemisfortuneofbeinghealthyandrobust,andoflovingourfriendswithoutcoquetry;andwhenwelookatthem,wedon’tpretendtostickadartintothem,ortowatchthemslyly;/we/can’tbendourheadslikeaweepingwillow,justtolookthemoreinterestingwhenweraisethem——thisway。”
MademoiselledePen-Hoelcouldnothelplaughingatherniece’sgesture;butneitherthechevaliernorthebaronpaidanyheedtothistrulyprovincialsatireagainstParis。”ButtheMarquisedeRochefideisaveryhandsomewoman,”saidtheoldmaid。”Mydear,”saidthebaronesstoherhusband,”IhappentoknowthatsheisgoingovertoCroisicto-morrow。Letuswalkonthejetty;I
shouldliketoseeher。”
WhileCalystewasrackinghisbrainstoimaginewhatcouldhaveclosedthedoorsofLesTouchestohim,ascenewaspassingbetweenCamilleandBeatrixwhichwastohaveitsinfluenceontheeventsofthemorrow。
Calyste’slastletterhadstirredinMadamedeRochefide’sheartemotionshithertounknowntoit。Womenarenotoftenthesubjectofalovesoyoung,guileless,sincere,andunconditionalasthatofthisyouth,thischild。Beatrixhadlovedmorethanshehadbeenloved。
Afterbeingallherlifeaslave,shesuddenlyfeltaninexplicabledesiretobeatyrant。But,inthemidstofherpleasure,asshereadandre-readtheletter,shewaspiercedthroughandthroughwithacruelidea。
WhatwereCalysteandCamilledoingtogethereversinceClaudeVignon’sdeparture?If,asCalystesaid,hedidnotloveCamille,andifCamilleknewit,howdidtheyemploytheirmornings,andwhyweretheyalonetogether?Memorysuddenlyflashedintohermind,inanswertothesequestions,certainspeechesofCamille;agrinningdevilseemedtoshowher,asinamagicmirror,theportraitofthatheroicwoman,withcertaingestures,certainaspects,whichsuddenlyenlightenedher。What!insteadofbeingherequal,wasshecrushedbyFelicite?insteadofover-reachingher,wasshebeingover-reachedherself?wassheonlyatoy,apleasure,whichCamillewasgivingtoherchild,whomshelovedwithanextraordinarypassionthatwasfreefromallvulgarity?
ToawomanlikeBeatrixthisthoughtcamelikeathunder-clap。Shewentoverinhermindminutelythehistoryofthepastweek。InamomentthepartwhichCamillewasplaying,andherown,unrolledthemselvestotheirfullestextentbeforehereyes;shefelthorriblybelittled。Inherfuryofjealousanger,shefanciedshecouldseeinCamille’sconductanintentionofvengeanceagainstConti。Wasthehiddenwrathofthepasttwoyearsreallyactinguponthepresentmoment?
Onceonthepathofthesedoubtsandsuperstitions,Beatrixdidnotpause。Shewalkedupanddownherroom,driventorapidmotionbytheimpetuousmovementsofhersoul,sittingdownnowandthen,andtryingtodecideuponacourse,butunabletodoso。Andthussheremained,apreytoindecisionuntilthedinnerhour,whensherosehastily,andwentdownstairswithoutdressing。NosoonerdidCamilleseeher,thanshefeltthatacrisishadcome。Beatrix,inhermorninggown,withachillingairandataciturnmanner,indicatedtoanobserveraskeenasMaupinthecominghostilitiesofanembitteredheart。
CamilleinstantlylefttheroomandgavetheorderwhichsoastonishedCalyste;shefearedthathemightarriveinthemidstofthequarrel,andshedeterminedtobealone,withoutwitnesses,infightingthisduelofdeceptiononbothsides。Beatrix,withoutanauxiliary,wouldinfalliblysuccumb。Camillewellknewthebarrennessofthatsoul,thepettinessofthatpride,towhichshehadjustlyappliedtheepithetofobstinate。
Thedinnerwasgloomy。Camillewasgentleandkind;shefeltherselfthesuperiorbeing。Beatrixwashardandcutting;shefeltshewasbeingmanagedlikeachild。Duringdinnerthebattlebeganwithglances,gestures,half-spokensentences,——notenoughtoenlightentheservants,butenoughtoprepareanobserverforthecomingstorm。Whenthetimetogoupstairscame,CamilleofferedherarmmaliciouslytoBeatrix,whopretendednottoseeit,andsprangupthestairwayalone。WhencoffeehadbeenservedMademoiselledesTouchessaidtothefootman,”Youmaygo,”——abriefsentence,whichservedasasignalforthecombat。”Thenovelsyoumake,mydear,aremoredangerousthanthoseyouwrite,”saidthemarquise。”Theyhaveoneadvantage,however,”repliedCamille,lightingacigarette。”Whatisthat?”askedBeatrix。”Theyareunpublished,myangel。””Istheoneinwhichyouareputtingmetobeturnedintoabook?””I’venofancyfortheroleofOEdipus;Iknowyouhavethewitandbeautyofasphinx,butdon’tpropoundconundrums。Speakout,plainly,mydearBeatrix。””When,inordertomakeamanhappy,amusehim,pleasehim,andsavehimfromennui,weallowthedeviltohelpus——””Thatmanwouldreproachuslaterforoureffortsonhisbehalf,andwouldthinkthempromptedbythegeniusofdepravity,”saidCamille,takingthecigarettefromherlipstointerruptherfriend。”Heforgetsthelovewhichcarriedusaway,andisoursolejustification——butthat’sthewayofmen,theyareallunjustandungrateful,”continuedBeatrix。”Womenamongthemselvesknoweachother;theyknowhowproudandnobletheirownmindsare,and,letusfranklysayso,howvirtuous!But,Camille,Ihavejustrecognizedthetruthofcertaincriticismsuponyournature,ofwhichyouhavesometimescomplained。Mydear,youhavesomethingofthemanaboutyou;youbehavelikeaman;nothingrestrainsyou;ifyouhaven’tallaman’sadvantages,youhaveaman’sspiritinallyourways;andyousharehiscontemptforwomen。Ihavenoreason,mydear,tobesatisfiedwithyou,andIamtoofranktohidemydissatisfaction。Noonehasevergivenoreverwillgive,perhaps,socruelawoundtomyheartasthatfromwhichIamnowsuffering。Ifyouarenotawomaninlove,youareoneinvengeance。Ittakesa/woman/ofgeniustodiscoverthemostsensitivespotofallinanotherwoman’sdelicacy。I
amtalkingnowofCalyste,andthetrickery,mydear,——thatistheword,——/trickery/,——youhaveemployedagainstme。Towhatdepthshaveyoudescended,CamilleMaupin!andwhy?””Moreandmoresphinx-like!”saidCamille,smiling。”YouwantmetoflingmyselfatCalyste’shead;butIamstilltooyoungforthatsortofthing。Tome,loveissacred;loveislovewithallitsemotions,jealousies,anddespotisms。Iamnotanauthor;itisimpossibleformetoseeideaswheretheheartfeelssentiments。””Youthinkyourselfcapableoflovingfoolishly!”saidCamille。”Makeyourselfeasyonthatscore;youstillhaveplentyofsense。Mydear,youcalumniateyourself;Iassureyouthatyournatureiscoldenoughtoenableyourheadtojudgeofeveryactionofyourheart。”
Themarquisecoloredhigh;shedartedalookofhatred,avenomouslook,atCamille,andfound,withoutsearching,thesharpestarrowsinherquiver。Camillesmokedcomposedlyasshelistenedtoafurioustirade,whichrangwithsuchcuttinginsultsthatwedonotreproduceithere。Beatrix,irritatedbythecalmnessofheradversary,condescendedeventopersonalitiesonCamille’sage。”Isthatall?”saidFelicite,whenBeatrixpaused,lettingacloudofsmokeexhalefromherlips。”DoyouloveCalyste?””No;ofcoursenot。””Somuchthebetter,”repliedCamille。”Idolovehim——fartoomuchformyownpeaceofmind。Hemay,perhaps,havehadapassingfancyforyou;foryouare,youknow,enchantinglyfair,whileIamasblackasacrow;youareslimandwillowy,whileIhaveaportlydignity;inshort,youare/young/!——that’sthefinalword,andyouhavenotsparedittome。Youhaveabusedyouradvantagesasawomanagainstme。Ihavedonemybesttopreventwhathasnowhappened。Howeverlittleofawomanyoumaythinkme,Iamwomanenough,mydear,nottoallowarivaltotriumphovermeunlessIchoosetohelpher。”Thisremark,madeinapparentlythemostinnocentmanner,cutthemarquisetotheheart。”YoutakemeforaverysillypersonifyoubelieveallthatCalystetriestomakeyouthinkofme。Iamneithersogreatnorsosmall;Iamawoman,andverymuchofawoman。Come,putoffyourgrandairs,andgivemeyourhand!”continuedCamille,takingMadamedeRochefide’shand。”YoudonotloveCalyste,yousay;thatistrue,isitnot?Don’tbeangry,therefore;behard,andcold,andsterntohimto-morrow;hewillendbysubmittingtohisfate,especiallyaftercertainlittlereproacheswhichImeantomaketohim。Still,CalysteisaBreton,andverypersistent;ifheshouldcontinuetopaycourttoyou,tellmefrankly,andIwilllendyoumylittlecountryhousenearParis,whereyouwillfindallthecomfortsoflife,andwhereConticancomeoutandseeyou。YousaidjustnowthatCalystecalumniatedme。Goodheavens!whatofthat?Thepurestloveliestwentytimesaday;itsdeceptionsonlyproveitsstrength。”
Camille’sfaceworeanairofsuchsuperbdisdainthatthemarquisegrewfearfulandanxious。Sheknewnothowtoanswer。Camilledealtheralastblow。”Iammoreconfidingandlessbitterthanyou,”shesaid。”Idon’tsuspectyouofattemptingtocoverbyaquarrelasecretinjury,whichwouldcompromisemyverylife。Youknowme;IshallneversurvivethelossofCalyste,butImustlosehimsoonerorlater。Still,Calystelovesmenow;ofthatIamsure。””Hereiswhatheansweredtoaletterofmine,urginghimtobetruetoyou,”saidBeatrix,holdingoutCalyste’slastletter。
Camilletookitandreadit;butasshereadit,hereyesfilledwithtears;andpresentlysheweptaswomenweepintheirbitterestsorrows。”MyGod!”shesaid,”howhelovesher!Ishalldiewithoutbeingunderstood——orloved,”sheadded。
Shesatforafewmomentswithherheadleaningagainsttheshoulderofhercompanion;hergriefwasgenuine;shefelttotheverycoreofherbeingthesameterribleblowwhichtheBaronneduGuenichadreceivedinreadingthatletter。”Doyoulovehim?”shesaid,straighteningherselfup,andlookingfixedlyatBeatrix。”Haveyouthatinfiniteworshipforhimwhichtriumphsoverallpains,survivescontempt,betrayal,thecertaintythathewillneverloveyou?Doyoulovehimforhimself,andfortheveryjoyoflovinghim?””Dearfriend,”saidthemarquise,tenderly,”behappy,beatpeace;I
willleavethisplaceto-morrow。””No,donotgo;helovesyou,Iseethat。Well,IlovehimsomuchthatIcouldnotenduretoseehimwretchedandunhappy。Still,Ihadformedplansforhim,projects;butifhelovesyou,allisover。””AndIlovehim,Camille,”saidthemarquise,withasortof/naivete/,andcoloring。”Youlovehim,andyetyoucasthimoff!”criedCamille。”Ah!thatisnotloving;youdonotlovehim。””Idon’tknowwhatfreshvirtuehehasrousedinme,butcertainlyhehasmademeashamedofmyownself,”saidBeatrix。”IwouldIwerevirtuousandfree,thatImightgivehimsomethingbetterthanthedregsofaheartandtheweightofmychains。Idonotwantahampereddestinyeitherforhimorformyself。””Coldbrain!”exclaimedCamille,withasortofhorror。”Toloveandcalculate!””Callitwhatyoulike,”saidBeatrix,”butIwillnotspoilhislife,orhanglikeamillstoneroundhisneck,tobecomeaneternalregrettohim。IfIcannotbehiswife,Ishallnotbehismistress。Hehas——
youwilllaughatme?No?Well,then,hehaspurifiedme。”
CamillecastonBeatrixthemostsullen,savagelookthatfemalejealousyevercastuponarival。”Onthatground,IbelievedIstoodalone,”shesaid。”Beatrix,thosewordsofyoursmustseparateusforever;wearenolongerfriends。
Herebeginsaterribleconflictbetweenus。Itellyounow;youwilleithersuccumborfly。”
Sosaying,Camilleboundedintoherroom,aftershowingherface,whichwasthatofamaddenedlioness,totheastonishedBeatrix。Thensheraisedtheportiereandlookedinagain。”DoyouintendtogotoCroisicto-morrow,”sheasked。”Certainly,”repliedthemarquise,proudly。”Ishallnotfly,andI
shallnotsuccumb。””Iplayaboveboard,”repliedCamille;”IshallwritetoConti。”
Beatrixbecameaswhiteasthegauzeofherscarf。”Wearestakingourlivesonthisgame,”shereplied,notknowingwhattosayordo。
Theviolentpassionsrousedbythisscenebetweenthetwowomencalmeddownduringthenight。Botharguedwiththeirownmindsandreturnedtothosetreacherouslytemporizingcourseswhicharesoattractivetothemajorityofwomen,——anexcellentsystembetweenmenandwomen,butfatallyunsafeamongwomenalone。InthemidstofthistumultoftheirsoulsMademoiselledesToucheshadlistenedtothatgreatVoicewhosecounselssubduethestrongestwill;Beatrixheardonlythepromptingsofworldlywisdom;shefearedthecontemptofsociety。
ThusFelicite’slastdeceptionsucceeded;Calyste’sblunderwasrepaired,butafreshindiscretionmightbefataltohim。
XIV
ANEXCURSIONTOCROISIC
ItwasnowtheendofAugust,andtheskywasmagnificentlyclear。
Nearthehorizontheseahadtaken,asitiswonttodoinsouthernclimes,atintofmoltensilver;ontheshoreitrippledintinywaves。Asortofglowingvapor,aneffectoftheraysofthesunfallingplumbuponthesands,producedanatmospherelikethatofthetropics。Thesaltshoneuplikebunchesofwhitevioletsonthesurfaceofthemarsh。Thepatient/paludiers/,dressedinwhitetoresisttheactionofthesun,hadbeenfromearlymorningattheirposts,armedwithlongrakes。Somewereleaningonthelowmud-wallsthatdividedthedifferentholdings,whencetheywatchedtheprocessofthisnaturalchemistry,knowntothemfromchildhood。Otherswereplayingwiththeirwivesandchildren。Thosegreendragons,otherwisecalledcustom-houseofficers,weretranquillysmokingtheirpipes。
Therewassomethingforeign,perhapsoriental,aboutthescene;atanyrateaParisiansuddenlytransportedthitherwouldneverhavesupposedhimselfinFrance。Thebaronandbaroness,whohadmadeapretextofcomingtoseehowthesaltharvestthrove,wereonthejetty,admiringthesilentlandscape,wheretheseaalonesoundedthemoanofherwavesatregularintervals,whereboatsandvesselstrackedavastexpanse,andthegirdleofgreenearthrichlycultivated,producedaneffectthatwasallthemorecharmingbecausesorareonthedesolateshoresofocean。”Well,myfriends,IwantedtoseethemarshesofGuerandeoncemorebeforeIdie,”saidthebarontothe/paludiers/,whohadgatheredabouttheentranceofthemarshestosalutehim。”CanaGuenicdie?”saidoneofthem。
JustthenthepartyfromLesTouchesarrivedthroughthenarrowpathway。Themarquisewalkedfirstalone;CalysteandCamillefollowedarm-in-arm。Gasselinbroughtuptherear。”Therearemyfatherandmother,”saidtheyoungmantoCamille。
Themarquisestoppedshort。MadameduGuenicfeltthemostviolentrepulsionattheappearanceofBeatrix,althoughthelatterwasdressedtomuchadvantage。ALeghornhatwithwidebrimsandawreathofblue-bells,hercrimpedhairfluffybeneathit,agownofsomegraywoollenstuff,andabluesashwithfloatingendsgavehertheairofaprincessdisguisedasamilkmaid。”Shehasnoheart,”thoughtthebaroness。”Mademoiselle,”saidCalystetoCamille,”thisisMadameduGuenic,andthisismyfather。”Thenhesaidturningtothebaronandbaroness,”MademoiselledesTouches,andMadamelaMarquisedeRochefide,/nee/deCasteran,father。”
ThebaronbowedtoMademoiselledesTouches,whomadearespectfulbow,fullofgratitude,tothebaroness。”Thatone,”thoughtFanny,”reallylovesmyboy;sheseemstothankmeforbringinghimintotheworld。””Isupposeyouhavecometosee,asIhave,whethertheharvestisagoodone。ButIbelieveyouhavebetterreasonsfordoingsothanI,”
saidthebarontoCamille。”Youhavepropertyhere,Ithink,mademoiselle。””Mademoiselleisthelargestofalltheowners,”saidoneofthe/paludiers/whoweregroupedaboutthem,”andmayGodpreservehertous,forshe’sa/good/lady。”
Thetwopartiesbowedandseparated。”NoonewouldsupposeMademoiselledesTouchestobemorethanthirty,”saidthebarontohiswife。”Sheisveryhandsome。AndCalysteprefersthathaggardParisianmarquisetoasoundBretongirl!””Ifearhedoes,”repliedthebaroness。
Aboatwaswaitingatthestepsofthejetty,wherethepartyembarkedwithoutasmile。Themarquisewascoldanddignified。CamillehadlecturedCalysteonhisdisobedience,explainingtohimclearlyhowmattersstood。Calyste,apreytoblackdespair,wascastingglancesatBeatrixinwhichangerandlovestruggledforthemastery。NotawordwassaidbyanyofthemduringtheshortpassagefromthejettyofGuerandetotheextremeendoftheportofCroisic,thepointwheretheboatsdischargethesalt,whichthepeasant-womenthenbearawayontheirheadsinhugeearthenjarsafterthefashionofcaryatides。
Thesewomengobarefootedwithveryshortpetticoats。Manyofthemletthekerchiefswhichcovertheirbosomsflycarelesslyopen。Somewearonlyshifts,andarethemoredignified;forthelessclothingawomanwears,themorenoblymodestisherbearing。
ThelittleDanishvesselhadjustfinishedlading,thereforethelandingofthetwohandsomeladiesexcitedmuchcuriosityamongthefemalesalt-carriers;andasmuchtoavoidtheirremarksastoserveCalyste,Camillesprangforwardtowardtherocks,leavinghimtofollowwithBeatrix,whileGasselinputadistanceofsometwohundredstepsbetweenhimselfandhismaster。
ThepeninsulaofCroisicisflankedontheseasidebygraniterockstheshapesofwhicharesostrangelyfantasticthattheycanonlybeappreciatedbytravellerswhoareinapositiontocomparethemwithothergreatspectaclesofprimevalNature。PerhapstherocksofCroisichavethesameadvantageoversightsofthatkindasthataccordedtotheroadtotheGrandeChartreuseoverallothernarrowvalleys。NeitherthecoastsofCroisic,wherethegranitebulwarkissplitintostrangereefs,northoseofSardinia,whereNatureisdedicatedtograndioseandterribleeffects,noreventhebasalticrocksofthenorthernseascanshowacharactersouniqueandsocomplete。Fancyhashereamuseditselfbycomposinginterminablearabesqueswherethemostfantasticfigureswindandtwine。Allformsarehere。Theimaginationisatlastfatiguedbythisvastgalleryofabnormalshapes,whereinstormyweathertheseamakesroughassaultswhichhaveendedinpolishingallruggedness。
Youwillfindunderanaturallyvaultedroof,ofaboldnessimitatedfromafarbyBrunelleschiforthegreatesteffortsofartarealwaysthetimidcopyingofeffectsofnature,arockyhollowpolishedlikeamarblebath-tubandflooredwithfinewhitesand,inwhichisfourfeetoftepidwaterwhereyoucanbathewithoutdanger。Youwalkon,admiringthecoollittlecoversshelteredbygreatportals;roughlycarved,itistrue,butmajestic,likethePittipalace,thatotherimitationofthewhimsofNature。Curiousfeaturesareinnumerable;
nothingislackingthatthewildestimaginationcouldinventordesire。
Thereevenexistsathingsorareontherockyshoresofoceanthatthismaybethesolitaryinstanceofit,——alargebushofbox。Thisbush,thegreatestcuriosityofCroisic,wheretreeshavenevergrown,isthreemilesdistantfromtheharbor,onthepointofrocksthatrunsfarthestintothesea。Onthisgranitepromontory,whichrisestoaheightthatneitherthewavesnorthespraycantouch,eveninthewildestweather,andfacessoutherly,diluviancapricehasconstructedahollowbasin,whichprojectsaboutfourfeet。Intothisbasin,orcleft,chance,possiblyman,hasconveyedenoughvegetableearthforthegrowthofabox-plant,compact,well-nourished,andsown,nodoubt,bybirds。Theshapeoftherootswouldindicatetoabotanistanexistenceofatleastthreehundredyears。Aboveittherockhasbeenbrokenoffabruptly。Thenaturalconvulsionwhichdidthis,thetracesofwhichareineffaceablywrittenhere,musthavecarriedawaythebrokenfragmentsofthegraniteIknownotwhere。
Thesearushesin,meetingnoreefs,tothefootofthiscliff,whichrisestoaheightofsomefourorfivehundredfeet;atitsbaselieseveralscatteredrocks,justreachingthesurfaceathighwater,anddescribingasemi-circle。ItrequiressomenerveandresolutiontoclimbtothesummitofthislittleGibraltar,theshapeofwhichisnearlyround,andfromwhichasuddengustofwindmightprecipitatetherashgazerintothesea,or,stillmoretobefeared,upontherocks。
Thisgiganticsentinelresemblesthelook-outtowersofoldcastles,fromwhichtheinhabitantscouldlookthecountryoverandforeseeattacks。ThenceweseetheclocktowersandthearidfieldsofCroisic,withthesandydunes,whichinjurecultivation,andstretchasfarasBatz。Afewoldmendeclarethatindayslongpastafortressoccupiedthespot。Thesardine-fishershavegiventherock,whichcanbeseenfaroutatsea,aname;butitisuselesstowriteithere,itsBretonconsonantsbeingasdifficulttopronounceastoremember。
CalysteledBeatrixtothispoint,whencetheviewismagnificent,andwherethenaturalsculptureofthegraniteisevenmoreimposingtothespectatorthanthemassofthehugebreastworkwhenseenfromthesandyroadwhichskirtstheshore。
IsitnecessarytoexplainwhyCamillehadrushedawayalone?Likesomewoundedwildanimal,shelongedforsolitude,andwentonandon,threadingherwayamongthefissuresandcavesandlittlepeaksofnature’sfortress。Nottobehamperedinclimbingbywomen’sclothing,sheworetrouserswithfrillededges,ashortblouse,apeakedcap,and,bywayofstaff,shecarriedariding-whip,forCamillehasalwayshadacertainvanityinherstrengthandheragility。Thusarrayed,shelookedfarhandsomerthanBeatrix。SheworealsoalittleshawlofcrimsonChinacrape,crossedonherbosomandtiedbehind,astheydressachild。ForsometimeBeatrixandCalystesawherflittingbeforethemoverthepeaksandchasmslikeaghostorvision;shewastryingtostillherinwardsufferingsbyconfrontingsomeimaginaryperil。
Shewasthefirsttoreachtherockinwhichthebox-bushgrew。Thereshesatdownintheshadeofagraniteprojection,andwaslostinthought。Whatcouldawomanlikeherselfdowitholdage,havingalreadydrunkthecupoffamewhichallgreattalents,tooeagertosipslowlythestupidpleasuresofvanity,quaffatasingledraught?
Shehassinceadmittedthatitwashere——atthismoment,andonthisspot——thatoneofthosesingularreflectionssuggestedbyamerenothing,byoneofthosechanceaccidentsthatseemnonsensetocommonminds,butwhich,tonoblesouls,dosometimesopenvastdepthsofthought,decidedhertotaketheextraordinarystepbywhichshewastopartforeverfromsociallife。
Shedrewfromherpocketalittlebox,inwhichshehadput,incaseofthirst,somestrawberrylozenges;shenowateseveral;andasshedidso,thethoughtcrossedhermindthatthestrawberries,whichexistednolonger,livedneverthelessintheirqualities。Wasitnotsowithourselves?Theoceanbeforeherwasanimageoftheinfinite。
Nogreatspiritcanfacetheinfinite,admittingtheimmortalityofthesoul,withouttheconvictionofafutureofholiness。Thethoughtfilledhermind。Howpettythenseemedthepartthatshewasplaying!
therewasnorealgreatnessingivingBeatrixtoCalyste!Sothinking,shefelttheearthlywomandiewithinher,andthetruewoman,thenobleandangelicbeing,veileduntilnowbyflesh,aroseinherplace。Hergreatmind,herknowledge,herattainments,herfalseloveshadbroughtherfacetofacewithwhat?Ah!whowouldhavethoughtit?——
withthebounteousmother,thecomforteroftroubledspirits,withtheRomanChurch,everkindtorepentance,poetictopoets,childlikewithchildren,andyetsoprofound,sofullofmysterytoanxious,restlessmindsthattheycanburrowthereandsatisfyalllongings,allquestionings,allhopes。Shecasthereyes,asitwere,uponthestrangelydeviousway——likethetortuousrockypathbeforeher——overwhichherloveforCalystehadledher。Ah!Calystewasindeedamessengerfromheaven,herdivineconductor!Shehadstifledearthlylove,andadivinelovehadcomefromit。
Afterwalkingforsomedistanceinsilence,Calystecouldnotrefrain,onaremarkofBeatrixaboutthegrandeuroftheocean,sounlikethesmilingbeautyoftheMediterranean,fromcomparingindepth,purity,extent,unchangingandeternalduration,thatoceanwithhislove。”Itismetbyarock!”saidBeatrix,laughing。”Whenyouspeakthus,”heanswered,withasublimelook,”Ihearyou,Iseeyou,andIcansummontomyaidthepatienceoftheangels;butwhenIamalone,youwouldpitymeifyoucouldseemethen。Mymotherweepsformysuffering。””Listentome,Calyste;wemustputanendtoallthis,”saidthemarquise,gazingdownuponthesandyroad。”Perhapswehavenowreachedtheonlypropitiousplacetosaythesethings,forneverinmylifedidIseenaturemoreinkeepingwithmythoughts。IhaveseenItaly,whereallthingstelloflove;IhaveseenSwitzerland,wherealliscoolandfresh,andtellsofhappiness,——thehappinessoflabor;wheretheverdure,thetranquilwaters,thesmilingslopes,areoppressedbythesnow-toppedAlps;butIhaveneverseenanythingthatsodepictstheburningbarrennessofmylifeasthatlittlearidplaindownthere,driedbythesaltseawinds,corrodedbythespray,whereafruitlessagriculturetriestostruggleagainstthewillofthatgreatocean。There,Calyste,youhaveanimageofthisBeatrix。Don’tclingtoit。Iloveyou,butIwillneverbeyoursinanywaywhatever,forIhavethesenseofmyinwarddesolation。Ah!youdonotknowhowcruelIamtomyselfinspeakingthustoyou。No,youshallneverseeyouridoldiminished;sheshallneverfallfromtheheightatwhichyouhaveplacedher。Inowhaveahorrorofanylovewhichdisregardstheworldandreligion。Ishallremaininmypresentbonds;
Ishallbethatsandyplainweseebeforeus,withoutfruitorflowersorverdure。””Butifyouareabandoned?”saidCalyste。”ThenIshouldbegmypardonofthemanIhaveoffended。IwillneverruntheriskoftakingahappinessIknowwouldquicklyend。””End!”criedCalyste。
Themarquisestoppedthepassionatespeechintowhichherloverwasabouttolaunch,byrepeatingtheword”End!”inatonethatsilencedhim。
Thisoppositionrousedintheyoungmanoneofthosemuteinwardfuriesknownonlytothosewholovewithouthope。Theywalkedonseveralhundredstepsintotalsilence,lookingneitheratthesea,northerocks,northeplainofCroisic。”Iwouldmakeyouhappy,”saidCalyste。”Allmenbeginbypromisingthat,”sheanswered,”andtheyendbyabandonmentanddisgust。IhavenoreproachtocastonhimtowhomI
shallbefaithful。Hemademenopromises;Iwenttohim;butmyonlymeansoflesseningmyfaultistomakeiteternal。””Sayrather,madame,thatyoufeelnoloveforme。I,wholoveyou,I
knowthatlovecannotargue;itisitself;itseesnothingelse。ThereisnosacrificeIwillnotmaketoyou;commandit,andIwilldotheimpossible。Hewhodespisedhismistressforflinginghergloveamongthelions,andorderinghimtobringitbacktoher,didnot/love!/
Hedeniedyourrighttotestourhearts,andtoyieldyourselvesonlytoourutmostdevotion。Iwillsacrificetoyoumyfamily,myname,myfuture。””Butwhataninsultinthatword’sacrifice’!”shesaid,inreproachfultones,whichmadepoorCalystefeelthefollyofhisspeech。
Nonebutwomenwhotrulylove,orinborncoquettes,knowhowtouseawordasapointfromwhichtomakeaspring。”Youareright,”saidCalyste,lettingfallatear;”thatwordcanonlybesaidofthecruelstruggleswhichyouaskofme。””Hush!”saidBeatrix,struckbyananswerinwhich,forthefirsttime,Calystehadreallymadeherfeelhislove。”Ihavedonewrongenough;temptmenomore。”
Atthismomenttheyhadreachedthebaseoftherockonwhichgrewtheplantofbox。Calystefeltathrillofdelightashehelpedthemarquisetoclimbthesteepascenttothesummit,whichshewishedtoreach。Tothepoorladitwasapreciousprivilegetoholdherup,tomakeherleanuponhim,tofeelhertremble;shehadneedofhim。Thisunlooked-forpleasureturnedhishead;hesawnoughtelsebutBeatrix,andheclaspedherroundthewaist。”What!”shesaid,withanimposingair。”Willyouneverbemine?”hedemanded,inavoicethatwaschokedbythetumultofhisblood。”Never,myfriend,”shereplied。”IcanonlybetoyouaBeatrix,——adream。Butisnotthatasweetandtenderthing?Weshallhavenobitterness,nogrief,norepentance。””WillyoureturntoConti?””Imust。””Youshallneverbelongtoanyman!”criedCalyste,pushingherfromhimwithfrenziedviolence。
Helistenedforherfall,intendingtospringafterher,butheheardonlyamuffledsound,thetearingofsomestuff,andthenthethudofabodyfallingontheground。Insteadofbeingflungheadforemostdowntheprecipice,Beatrixhadonlyslippedsomeeightortenfeetintothecavitywherethebox-bushgrew;butshemightfromtherehaverolleddownintotheseaifhergownhadnotcaughtuponapointofrock,andbytearingslowlyloweredtheweightofherbodyuponthebush。
MademoiselledesTouches,whosawthescene,wasunableinherhorrortocryout,butshesignedtoGasselintocome。Calystewasleaningforwardwithanexpressionofsavagecuriosity;hesawthepositioninwhichBeatrixlay,andheshuddered。Herlipsmoved,——sheseemedtobepraying;infact,shethoughtshewasabouttodie,forshefeltthebushbeginningtogiveway。Withtheagilitywhichdangergivestoyouth,Calystesliddowntotheledgebelowthebush,wherehewasabletograspthemarquiseandholdher,althoughattheriskoftheirbothslidingdownintothesea。Asheheldher,hesawthatshehadfainted;butinthataerialspothecouldfancyherallhis,andhisfirstemotionwasthatofpleasure。”Openyoureyes,”hesaid,”andforgiveme;wewilldietogether。””Die?”shesaid,openinghereyesandunclosingherpallidlips。
Calystewelcomedthatwordwithakiss,andfeltthemarquisetrembleunderitconvulsively,withpassionatejoy。AtthatinstantGasselin’shob-nailedshoessoundedontherockabovethem。TheoldBretonwasfollowedbyCamille,andtogethertheysoughtforsomemeansofsavingthelovers。”There’sbutoneway,mademoiselle,”saidGasselin。”Imustslidedownthere,andtheycanclimbonmyshoulders,andyoumustpullthemup。””Andyou?”saidCamille。
Themanseemedsurprisedthatheshouldbeconsideredinpresenceofthedangertohisyoungmaster。”YoumustgotoCroisicandfetchaladder,”saidCamille。
Beatrixaskedinafeeblevoicetobelaiddown,andCalysteplacedheronthenarrowspacebetweenthebushanditsbackgroundofrock。”Isawyou,Calyste,”saidCamillefromabove。”WhetherBeatrixlivesordies,rememberthatthismustbeanaccident。””Shewillhateme,”hesaid,withmoistenedeyes。”Shewilladoreyou,”repliedCamille。”Butthisputsanendtoourexcursion。WemustgetherbacktoLesTouches。Hadshebeenkilled,Calyste,whatwouldhavebecomeofyou?””Ishouldhavefollowedher。””Andyourmother?”Then,afterapause,sheadded,feebly,”andme?”
Calystewasdeadlypale;hestoodwithhisbackagainstthegranitemotionlessandsilent。Gasselinsoonreturnedfromoneofthelittlefarmsscatteredthroughtheneighborhood,bearingaladderwhichhehadborrowed。BythistimeBeatrixhadrecoveredalittlestrength。
Theladderbeingplaced,shewasable,bythehelpofGasselin,wholoweredCamille’sredshawltillhecouldgraspit,toreachtheroundtopoftherock,wheretheBretontookherinhisarmsandcarriedhertotheshoreasthoughshewereaninfant。”Ishouldnothavesaidnotodeath——butsuffering!”shemurmuredtoFelicite,inafeeblevoice。
Theweakness,infactthecompleteprostration,ofthemarquiseobligedCamilletohavehertakentothefarmhousefromwhichtheladderhadbeenborrowed。Calyste,Gasselin,andCamilletookoffwhatclothestheycouldspareandlaidthemontheladder,makingasortoflitteronwhichtheycarriedBeatrix。Thefarmersgaveherabed。
Gasselinthenwenttotheplacewherethecarriagewasawaitingthem,and,takingoneofthehorses,rodetoCroisictoobtainadoctor,tellingtheboatmantorowtothelanding-placethatwasnearesttothefarmhouse。
Calyste,sittingonastool,answeredonlybymotionsofthehead,andraremonosyllableswhenspokento;Camille’suneasiness,rousedforBeatrix,wasstillfurtherexcitedbyCalyste’sunnaturalcondition。
Whenthephysicianarrived,andBeatrixwasbled,shefeltbetter,begantotalk,andconsentedtoembark;sothatbyfiveo’clocktheyreachedthejettyatGuerande,whenceshewascarriedtoLesTouches。
Thenewsoftheaccidenthadalreadyspreadthroughthatlonelyandalmostuninhabitedregionwithincrediblerapidity。
CalystepassedthenightatLesTouches,sittingatthefootofBeatrix’sbed,incompanywithCamille。ThedoctorfromGuerandehadassuredthemthatonthefollowingdayalittlestiffnesswouldbeallthatremainedoftheaccident。AcrossthedespairofCalyste’shearttherecameagleamofjoy。Hewasthere,atherfeet;hecouldwatchhersleepingorwaking;hemightstudyherpallidfaceandallitsexpressions。CamillesmiledbitterlyasherkeenmindrecognizedinCalystethesymptomsofapassionsuchasmancanfeelbutonce,——apassionwhichdyeshissoulandhisfacultiesbyminglingwiththefountainofhislifeataperiodwhenneitherthoughtsnorcaresdistractoropposetheinwardworkingofthisemotion。ShesawthatCalystewouldnever,couldneverseetherealwomanthatwasinBeatrix。
AndwithwhatguilelessinnocencetheyoungBretonallowedhisthoughtstoberead!Whenhesawthebeautifulgreeneyesofthesickwomanturnedtohim,expressingamixtureoflove,confusion,andevenmischief,hecolored,andturnedawayhishead。”DidInotsaytruly,Calyste,thatyoumenpromisedhappiness,andendedbyflingingusdownaprecipice?”
Whenheheardthislittlejest,saidinsweet,caressingtoneswhichbetrayedachangeofheartinBeatrix,Calystekneltdown,tookhermoisthandwhichsheyieldedtohim,andkissedithumbly。”Youhavetherighttorejectmyloveforever,”hesaid,”andI,I
havenorighttosayonewordtoyou。””Ah!”criedCamille,seeingtheexpressiononBeatrix’sfaceandcomparingitwiththatobtainedbyherdiplomacy,”lovehasawitofitsown,wiserthanthatofalltheworld!Takeyourcomposing-
draught,mydearfriend,andgotosleep。”
Thatnight,spentbyCalystebesideMademoiselledesTouches,whoreadabookoftheologicalmysticismwhileCalysteread”Indiana,”——thefirstworkofCamille’scelebratedrival,inwhichisthecaptivatingimageofayoungmanlovingwithidolatryanddevotion,withmysterioustranquillityandforallhislife,awomanplacedinthesamefalsepositionasBeatrixabookwhichhadafatalinfluenceuponhim,——thatnightleftineffaceablemarksupontheheartofthepooryoungfellow,whomFelicitesoothedwiththeassurancethatunlessawomanwereamonstershemustbeflatteredinallhervanitiesbybeingtheobjectofsuchacrime。”Youwouldneverhaveflung/me/intothewater,”saidCamille,brushingawayatear。
Towardmorning,Calyste,worn-outwithemotion,fellasleepinhisarm-chair;andthemarquiseinherturn,watchedhischarmingface,paledbyhisfeelingsandhisvigiloflove。Sheheardhimmurmurhernameasheslept。”Heloveswhilesleeping,”shesaidtoCamille。”Wemustsendhimhome,”saidFelicite,wakinghim。
NoonewasanxiousatthehotelduGuenic,forMademoiselledesToucheshadwrittenalinetothebaronesstellingheroftheaccident。
CalystereturnedtodinneratLesTouchesandfoundBeatrixupanddressed,butpale,feeble,andlanguid。Nolongerwasthereanyharshnessinherwordsoranycoldnessinherlooks。Afterthisevening,filledwithmusicbyCamille,whowenttoherpianotoleaveCalystefreetotakeandpressthehandsofBeatrixthoughbothwereunabletospeak,nostormsoccurredatLesTouches。Felicitecompletelyeffacedherself。
Cold,fragile,thin,hardwomenlikeMadamedeRochefide,womenwhosenecksturninamannertogivethemavagueresemblancetothefelinerace,havesoulsofthesamepaletintastheirlighteyes,greenorgray;andtomeltthem,tofusethoseblocksofstoneitneedsathunderbolt。ToBeatrix,Calyste’sfuryofloveandhismadactioncameasthethunderboltthatnoughtresists,whichchangesallnatures,eventhemoststubborn。Shefeltherselfinwardlyhumbled;atrue,purelovebathedherheartwithitssoftandlimpidwarmth。Shebreathedasweetandgenialatmosphereoffeelingshithertounknowntoher,bywhichshefeltherselfmagnified,elevated;infact,sheroseintothatheavenwhereBretonsthroughoutalltimehaveplacedtheWoman。Sherelishedwithdelighttherespectfuladorationoftheyouth,whosehappinesscostherlittle,foragesture,alook,awordwasenoughtosatisfyhim。ThevaluewhichCalyste’sheartgavetothesetriflestouchedherexceedingly;toholdherglovedhandwasmoretothatyoungangelthanthepossessionofherwholepersontothemanwhooughttohavebeenfaithfultoher。Whatacontrastbetweenthem!
Fewwomencouldresistsuchconstantdeification。Beatrixfeltherselfsureofbeingobeyedandunderstood。ShemighthaveaskedCalystetoriskhislifefortheslightestofhercaprices,andhewouldneverhavereflectedforamoment。Thisconsciousnessgaveheracertainnobleandimposingair。Shesawloveonthesideofitsgrandeur;andherheartsoughtforsomefootholdonwhichshemightremainforevertheloftiestofwomenintheeyesofheryounglover,overwhomshenowwishedherpowertobeeternal。
Hercoquetriesbecamethemorepersistentbecauseshefeltwithinherselfacertainweakness。Sheplayedtheinvalidforawholeweekwithcharminghypocrisy。AgainandagainshewalkedaboutthevelvetturfwhichlaybetweenthehouseandgardenleaningonCalyste’sarminlanguiddependence。”Ah!mydear,youaretakinghimalongjourneyinasmallspace,”
saidMademoiselledesTouchesoneday。
BeforetheexcursiontoCroisic,thetwowomenwerediscoursingoneeveningaboutlove,andlaughingatthedifferentwaysthatmenadoptedtodeclareit;admittingtothemselvesthatthecleverestmen,andnaturallytheleastloving,didnotliketowanderinthelabyrinthsofsentimentalityandwentstraighttothepoint,——inwhichperhapstheywereright;fortheresultwasthatthosewholovedmostdeeplyandreservedlywere,foratimeatleast,ill-treated。”TheygotoworklikeLaFontaine,whenhewantedtoentertheAcademy,”saidCamille。
MadamedeRochefidehadunboundedpowertorestrainCalystewithinthelimitswhereshemeanttokeephim;itsufficedhertoremindhimbyalookorgestureofhishorribleviolenceontherocks。Theeyesofherpoorvictimwouldfillwithtears,hewassilent,swallowingdownhisprayers,hisarguments,hissufferingswithaheroismthatwouldcertainlyhavetouchedanyotherwoman。ShefinallybroughthimbyherinfernalcoquetrytosuchapassthathewentonedaytoCamilleimploringheradvice。
Beatrix,armedwithCalyste’sownletter,quotedthepassageinwhichhesaidthattolovewasthefirsthappiness,thatofbeinglovedcamelater;andsheusedthataxiomtorestrainhispassiontothelimitsofrespectfulidolatry,whichpleasedherwell。Shelikedtofeelhersoulcaressedbythosesweethymnsofpraiseandadorationwhichnaturesuggeststoyouth;inthemissomuchartlessart;suchinnocentseductionisintheircries,theirprayers,theirexclamations,theirpledgesofthemselvesinthepromissorynoteswhichtheyofferonthefuture;toallofwhichBeatrixwasverycarefultogivenodefiniteanswer。Yes,sheheardhim;butshedoubted!Lovewasnotyetthequestion;whatheaskedofherwaspermissiontolove。Infact,thatwasallthepoorladreallyaskedfor;hismindstillclungtothestrongestsideoflove,thespiritualside。Butthewomanwhoisfirmestinwordsisoftenthefeeblestinaction。ItisstrangethatCalyste,havingseentheprogresshissuithadmadebypushingBeatrixintothesea,didnotcontinuetourgeitviolently。Butloveinyoungmenissoecstaticandreligiousthattheirinmostdesireistowinitsfruitionthroughmoralconviction。
Inthatisthesublimityoftheirlove。
NeverthelessthedaycamewhentheBreton,driventodesperation,complainedtoCamilleofBeatrix’sconduct。”Imeanttocureyoubymakingyouquicklyunderstandher,”repliedMademoiselledesTouches;”butyouhavespoiledall。Tendaysagoyouwerehermaster;to-day,mypoorboy,youareherslave。YouwillneverhavethestrengthnowtodoasIadvise。””WhatoughtItodo?””Quarrelwithheronthegroundofherhardness。Awomanisalwaysover-excitedwhenshediscusses;letherbeangryandill-treatyou,andthenstayaway;donotreturntoLesTouchestillsheherselfrecallsyou。”
Inallextremeillnessthereisamomentwhenthepatientiswillingtoacceptthecruellestremedyandsubmitstothemosthorribleoperation。Calystehadreachedthatpoint。HelistenedtoCamille’sadviceandstayedathometwowholedays;butonthethirdhewasscratchingatBeatrix’sdoortoletherknowthatheandCamillewerewaitingbreakfastforher。”Anotherchancelost!”Camillesaidtohimwhenshesawhimre-appearsoweakly。
Duringhistwodays’absence,BeatrixhadfrequentlylookedthroughthewindowwhichopensontheroadtoGuerande。WhenCamillefoundherdoingso,shetalkedoftheeffectproducedbythegorsealongtheroadway,thegoldenbloomsofwhichweredazzlingintheSeptembersunshine。
ThemarquisekeptCamilleandCalystewaitinglongforbreakfast;andthedelaywouldhavebeensignificanttoanyeyesbutthoseofCalyste,forwhenshedidappear,herdressshowedanevidentintentiontofascinatehimandpreventanotherabsence。Afterbreakfastshewenttowalkwithhiminthegardenandfilledhissimpleheartwithjoybyexpressingawishtogoagaintothatrockwhereshehadsonearlyperished。”Willyougowithmealone?”askedCalyste,inatroubledvoice。”IfIrefusedtodoso,”shereplied,”IshouldgiveyoureasontosupposeIthoughtyoudangerous。Alas!asIhavetoldyouagainandagainIbelongtoanother,andImustbehisonly;Ichosehimknowingnothingoflove。Thefaultwasgreat,andbitterismypunishment。”
Whenshetalkedthus,hereyesmoistwiththescantytearsshedbythatclassofwoman,Calystewasfilledwithacompassionthatreducedhisfieryardor;headoredherthenashedidaMadonna。Wehavenomorerighttorequiredifferentcharacterstobealikeintheexpressionoffeelingsthanwehavetoexpectthesamefruitsfromdifferenttrees。Beatrixwasatthismomentundergoinganinwardstruggle;shehesitatedbetweenherselfandCalyste,——betweentheworldshestillhopedtore-enter,andtheyounghappinessofferedtoher;betweenasecondandanunpardonablelove,andsocialrehabilitation。Shebegan,therefore,tolisten,withoutevenacteddispleasure,tothetalkoftheyouth’sblindpassion;sheallowedhissoftpitytosootheher。SeveraltimesshehadbeenmovedtotearsasshelistenedtoCalyste’spromises;andshesufferedhimtocommiserateherforbeingboundtoanevilgenius,amanasfalseasConti。MorethanoncesherelatedtohimthemiseryandanguishshehadgonethroughinItaly,whenshefirstbecameawarethatshewasnotaloneinConti’sheart。OnthissubjectCamillehadfullyinformedCalysteandgivenhimseverallecturesonit,bywhichheprofited。”I,”hesaid,”willloveyouonly,youabsolutely。Ihavenotriumphsofart,noapplauseofcrowdsstirredbymygeniustoofferyou;myonlytalentistoloveyou;myhonor,myprideareinyourperfections。Nootherwomancanhavemeritinmyeyes;youhavenoodiousrivalrytofear。Youaremisconceivedandwronged,butIknowyou,andforeverymisconception,foreverywrong,Iwillmakeyoufeelmycomprehensiondaybyday。”
Shelistenedtosuchspeecheswithbowedhead,allowinghimtokissherhands,andadmittingsilentlybutgracefullythatshewasindeedanangelmisunderstood。”Iamtoohumiliated,”shewouldsay;”mypasthasrobbedthefutureofallsecurity。”
ItwasagloriousdayforCalystewhen,arrivingatLesTouchesatseveninthemorning,hesawfromafarBeatrixatawindowwatchingforhim,andwearingthesamestrawhatshehadwornonthememorabledayoftheirfirstexcursion。Foramomenthewasdazzledandgiddy。
Theselittlethingsofpassionmagnifytheworlditself。ItmaybethatonlyFrenchwomenpossesstheartofsuchsceniceffects;theyoweittothegraceoftheirminds;theyknowhowtoputintosentimentasmuchofthepicturesqueastheparticularsentimentcanbearwithoutalossofvigororofforce。
Ah!howlightlysherestedonCalyste’sarm!TogethertheyleftLesTouchesbythegarden-gatewhichopensonthedunes。Beatrixthoughtthesandsdelightful;shespiedthehardylittleplantswithrose-
coloredflowersthatgrewthere,andshegatheredaquantitytomixwiththeChartreuxpansieswhichalsogrowinthatariddesert,dividingthemsignificantlywithCalyste,towhomthoseflowersandtheirfoliageweretobehenceforthaneternalanddreadfulrelic。”We’lladdabitofbox,”shesaidsmiling。
Theysatsometimetogetheronthejetty,andCalyste,whilewaitingfortheboattocomeover,toldherofhisjuvenileactonthedayofherarrival。”Iknewofyourlittleescapade,”shesaid,”anditwasthecauseofmysternnesstoyouthatfirstnight。”
DuringtheirwalkMadamedeRochefidehadthelightlyjestingtoneofawomanwholoves,togetherwithacertaintendernessandabandonmentofmanner。Calystehadreasontothinkhimselfbeloved。Butwhen,wanderingalongtheshorebeneaththerocks,theycameupononeofthosecharmingcreekswherethewavesdepositthemostextraordinarymosaicofbrilliantpebbles,andtheyplayedtherelikechildrengatheringtheprettiest,whenCalysteatthesummitofhappinessaskedherplainlytoflywithhimtoIreland,sheresumedherdignifiedanddistantair,askedforhisarm,andcontinuedtheirwalkinsilencetowhatshecalledherTarpeianrock。”Myfriend,”shesaid,mountingwithslowstepsthemagnificentblockofgraniteofwhichshewasmakingforherselfapedestal,”Ihavenotthecouragetoconcealwhatyouaretome。FortenyearsIhavehadnohappinesscomparabletothatwhichwehavejustenjoyedtogether,searchingforshellsamongthoserocks,exchangingpebblesofwhichI
shallmakeanecklacemorepreciousfartomethanifitweremadeofthefinestdiamonds。Ihavebeenoncemorealittlegirl,achild,suchasIwasatfourteenorsixteen——whenIwasworthyofyou。TheloveIhavehadthehappinesstoinspireinyourhearthasraisedmeinmyowneyes。Understandthesewordstotheirmagicalextent。Youhavemademetheproudestandhappiestofmysex,andyouwilllivelongerinmyremembrance,perhaps,thanIinyours。”
Atthismomenttheyreachedthesummitoftherock,whencetheysawthevastoceanononesideandBrittanyontheother,withitsgoldenisles,itsfeudaltowers,anditsgorse。Neverdidanywomanstandonafinerscenetomakeagreatavowal。”But,”shecontinued,”Idonotbelongtomyself;IammoreboundbymyownwillthanIwasbythelaw。Youmustbepunishedformymisdeed,butbesatisfiedtoknowthatwesuffertogether。DanteneversawhisBeatriceagain;PetrarchneverpossessedhisLaura。Suchdisastersfallonnonebutnoblesouls。But,ifIshouldbeabandoned,ifIfallloweryetintoshameandignominy,ifyourBeatrixiscruellymisjudgedbytheworldsheloathes,ifindeedsheisthelowestofwomen,——then,mychild,myadoredchild,”shesaid,takinghishand,”toyoushewillstillbefirstofall;youwillknowthatsherisestoheavenassheleansonyou;butthen,myfriend,”sheadded,givinghimanintoxicatinglook,”thenifyouwishtocastherdowndonotfailofyourblow;afteryourlove,death!”
Calysteclaspedherroundthewaistandpressedhertohisheart。AsiftoconfirmherwordsMadamedeRochefidelaidatender,timidkissuponhisbrow。Whentheyturnedandwalkedslowlyback;talkingtogetherlikethosewhohaveaperfectcomprehensionofeachother,——
she,thinkingshehadgainedatruce,henotdoubtingofhishappiness;andbothdeceived。Calyste,fromwhatCamillehadtoldhim,wasconfidentthatContiwouldbeenchantedtofindanopportunitytopartfromBeatrix;Beatrix,yieldingherselfuptothevaguenessofherposition,lookedtochancetoarrangethefuture。
TheyreachedLesTouchesinthemostdelightfulofallstatesofmind,enteringbythegardengate,thekeyofwhichCalystehadtakenwithhim。Itwasnearlysixo’clock。Thelusciousodors,thewarmatmosphere,theburnishedraysoftheeveningsunwereallinharmonywiththeirfeelingsandtheirtendertalk。Theirstepsweretakeninunison,——thegaitofalllovers,——theirmovementstoldoftheunionoftheirthoughts。ThesilencethatreignedaboutLesToucheswassoprofoundthatthenoisewhichCalystemadeinopeningandshuttingthegatemusthaveechoedthroughthegarden。Asthetwohadsaidalltoeachotherthatcouldbesaid,andastheirday’sexcursion,sofilledwithemotion,hadphysicallytiredthem,theywalkedslowly,sayingnothing。
Suddenly,attheturnofapath,Beatrixwasseizedwithahorribletrembling,withthatcontagioushorrorwhichiscausedbythesightofasnake,andwhichCalystefeltbeforehesawthecauseofit。Onabench,beneaththebranchesofaweepingash,satConti,talkingwithCamilleMaupin。
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CONTI
Theinwardandconvulsivetremblingofthemarquisewasmoreapparentthanshewishedittobe;atragicdramadevelopedatthatmomentinthesoulsofallpresent。”Youdidnotexpectmesosoon,Ifancy,”saidConti,offeringhisarmtoBeatrix。
ThemarquisecouldnotavoiddroppingCalyste’sarmandtakingthatofConti。Thisignobletransit,imperiouslydemanded,sodishonoringtothenewlove,overwhelmedCalystewhothrewhimselfonthebenchbesideCamille,afterexchangingthecoldestofsalutationswithhisrival。Hewastornbyconflictingemotions。StronginthethoughtthatBeatrixlovedhim,hewantedatfirsttoflinghimselfuponContiandtellhimthatBeatrixwashis;buttheviolenttremblingofthewomanbetrayinghowshesuffered——forshehadreallypaidthepenaltyofherfaultsinthatonemoment——affectedhimsodeeplythathewasdumb,strucklikeherwithasenseofsomeimplacablenecessity。
MadamedeRochefideandContipassedinfrontoftheseatwhereCalystehaddroppedbesideCamille,andasshepassed,themarquiselookedatCamille,givingheroneofthoseterribleglancesinwhichwomenhavetheartofsayingallthings。SheavoidedtheeyesofCalysteandturnedherattentiontoConti,whoappearedtobejestingwithher。”Whatwilltheysaytoeachother?”CalysteaskedofCamille。”Dearchild,youdon’tknowasyettheterriblerightswhichanextinguishedlovestillgivestoamanoverawoman。Beatrixcouldnotrefusetotakehisarm。Heis,nodoubt,jokingherabouthernewlove;hemusthaveguesseditfromyourattitudesandthemannerinwhichyouapproachedus。””Jokingher!”criedtheimpetuousyouth,startingup。”Becalm,”saidCamille,”oryouwilllosethelastchancesthatremaintoyou。Ifhewoundsherself-love,shewillcrushhimlikeawormunderherfoot。Butheistooastuteforthat;hewillmanageherwithgreatercleverness。HewillseemnoteventosupposethattheproudMadamedeRochefidecouldbetrayhim;/she/couldneverbeguiltyofsuchdepravityaslovingamanforthesakeofhisbeauty。
Hewillrepresentyoutoherasachildambitioustohaveamarquiseinlovewithhim,andtomakehimselfthearbiterofthefateoftwowomen。Inshort,hewillfireabroadsideofmaliciousinsinuations。
Beatrixwillthenbeforcedtoparrywithfalseassertionsanddenials,whichhewillsimplymakeuseoftobecomeoncemorehermaster。””Ah!”criedCalyste,”hedoesnotloveher。Iwouldleaveherfree。
Truelovemeansachoicemadeanewateverymoment,confirmedfromdaytoday。Themorrowjustifiesthepast,andswellsthetreasuryofourpleasures。Ah!whydidhenotstayawayalittlelonger?Afewdaysmoreandhewouldnothavefoundher。Whatbroughthimback?””Thejestofajournalist,”repliedCamille。”Hisopera,onthesuccessofwhichhecounted,hasfallenflat。Somejournalist,probablyClaudeVignon,remarkedinthefoyer:’Itishardtolosefameandmistressatthesamemoment,’andthespeechcuthiminallhisvanities。Lovebasedonpettysentimentsisalwayspitiless。I
havequestionedhim;butwhocanfathomanaturesofalseanddeceiving?Heappearedtobewearyofhistroublesandhislove,——inshort,disgustedwithlife。Heregretshavingalliedhimselfsopubliclywiththemarquise,andmademe,inspeakingofhispasthappiness,amelancholypoem,whichwassomewhattooclevertobetrue。Ithinkhehopedtowormoutofmethesecretofyourlove,inthemidstofthejoyheexpectedhisflatteriestocauseme。””Whatelse?”saidCalyste,watchingBeatrixandConti,whowerenowcomingtowardsthem;buthelistenednolongertoCamille’swords。
IntalkingwithConti,Camillehadheldherselfprudentlyonthedefensive;shehadbetrayedneitherCalyste’ssecretnorthatofBeatrix。Thegreatartistwascapableoftreacherytoeveryone,andMademoiselledesToucheswarnedCalystetodistrusthim。”Mydearfriend,”shesaid,”thisisbyfarthemostcriticalmomentforyou。Youneedcautionandasortofclevernessyoudonotpossess;
IamafraidyouwillletyourselfbetrickedbythemostwilymanI
haveeverknown,andIcandonothingtohelpyou。”
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