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第5章

  XI
  FEMALEDIPLOMACY
  CalysteranwiththelightnessofayoungfawntoLesTouchesandreachedtheporticojustasCamilleandBeatrixwereleavingthegrandsalonaftertheirdinner。HehadthesensetoofferhisarmtoFelicite。”Soyouhaveabandonedyourviscountessandherdaughterforus,”shesaid,pressinghisarm;”weareablenowtounderstandthefullmeritofthatsacrifice。””AretheseKergarouetsrelatedtothePortendueres,andtooldAdmiraldeKergarouet,whosewidowmarriedCharlesdeVandenesse?”askedMadamedeRochefide。”Theviscountessistheadmiral’sgreat-niece,”repliedCamille。”Well,she’sacharminggirl,”saidBeatrix,placingherselfgracefullyinaGothicchair。”Shewilljustdoforyou,MonsieurduGuenic。””Themarriagewillnevertakeplace,”saidCamillehastily。
  Mortifiedbythecold,calmairwithwhichthemarquiseseemedtoconsidertheBretongirlastheonlycreaturefittomatehim,Calysteremainedspeechlessandevenmindless。”Whyso,Camille?”askedMadamedeRochefide。”Really,mydear,”saidCamille,seeingCalyste’sdespair,”youarenotgenerous;didIadviseContitomarry?”
  Beatrixlookedatherfriendwithasurprisethatwasmingledwithindefinablesuspicions。
  Calyste,unabletounderstandCamille’smotive,butfeelingthatshecametohisassistanceandseeinginhercheeksthatfaintspotofcolorwhichheknewtomeanthepresenceofsomeviolentemotion,wentuptoherratherawkwardlyandtookherhand。Butshelefthimandseatedherselfcarelesslyatthepiano,likeawomansosureofherfriendandloverthatshecanaffordtoleavehimwithanotherwoman。
  Sheplayedvariations,improvisingthemassheplayed,oncertainthemeschosen,unconsciouslytoherself,bytheimpulseofhermind;
  theyweremelancholyintheextreme。
  Beatrixseemedtolistentothemusic,butshewasreallyobservingCalyste,who,muchtooyoungandartlessforthepartwhichCamillewasintendinghimtoplay,remainedinraptadorationbeforehisrealidol。
  Afteraboutanhour,duringwhichtimeCamillecontinuedtoplay,Beatrixroseandretiredtoherapartments。CamilleatoncetookCalysteintoherchamberandclosedthedoor,fearingtobeoverheard;
  forwomenhaveanamazinginstinctofdistrust。”Mychild,”shesaid,”ifyouwanttosucceedwithBeatrix,youmustseemtolovemestill,oryouwillfail。Youareachild;youknownothingofwomen;allyouknowishowtolove。Nowlovingandmakingone’sselfbelovedaretwoverydifferentthings。Ifyougoyourownwayyouwillfallintohorriblesuffering,andIwishtoseeyouhappy。Ifyourouse,notthepride,buttheself-will,theobstinacywhichisastrongfeatureinhercharacter,sheiscapableofgoingoffatanymomenttoParisandrejoiningConti;andwhatwillyoudothen?””Ishallloveher。””Youwon’tseeheragain。””Oh!yes,Ishall,”hesaid。”How?””Ishallfollowher。””Why,youareaspoorasJob,mydearboy。””Myfather,Gasselin,andIlivedforthreemonthsinVendeeononehundredandfiftyfrancs,marchingnightandday。””Calyste,”saidMademoiselledesTouches,”nowlistentome。Iknowthatyouhavetoomuchcandortoplayapart,toomuchhonestytodeceive;andIdon’twanttocorruptsuchanatureasyours。YetdeceptionistheonlywaybywhichyoucanwinBeatrix;Itakeitthereforeuponmyself。Inaweekfromnowsheshallloveyou。””Isitpossible?”hesaidclaspinghishands。”Yes,”repliedCamille,”butitwillbenecessarytoovercomecertainpledgeswhichshehasmadetoherself。Iwilldothatforyou。YoumustnotinterfereintheratherarduoustaskIshallundertake。Themarquisehasatruearistocraticdelicacyofperception;sheiskeenlydistrustful;nohuntercouldmeetwithgamemorewaryormoredifficulttocapture。Youarewhollyunabletocopewithher;willyoupromisemeablindobedience?””WhatmustIdo?”repliedtheyouth。”Verylittle,”saidCamille。”Comehereeverydayanddevoteyourselftome。Cometomyrooms;avoidBeatrixifyoumeether。Wewillstaytogethertillfouro’clock;youshallemploythetimeinstudy,andI
  insmoking。Itwillbehardforyounottoseeher,butIwillfindyouanumberofinterestingbooks。YouhavereadnothingasyetofGeorgeSand。IwillsendoneofmypeoplethisveryeveningtoNantestobuyherworksandthoseofotherauthorswhomyououghttoknow。
  Theeveningswewillspendtogether,andIpermityoutomakelovetomeifyoucan——itwillbeforthebest。””Iknow,Camille,thatyouraffectionformeisgreatandsorarethatitmakesmewishIhadnevermetBeatrix,”herepliedwithsimplegoodfaith;”butIdon’tseewhatyouhopefromallthis。””Ihopetomakeherloveyou。””Goodheavens!itcannotbepossible!”hecried,againclaspinghishandstowardCamille,whowasgreatlymovedonseeingthejoythatshegavehimatherownexpense。”Nowlistentomecarefully,”shesaid。”Ifyoubreaktheagreementbetweenus,ifyouhave——notalongconversation——butamereexchangeofwordswiththemarquiseinprivate,ifyouletherquestionyou,ifyoufailinthesilentpartIaskyoutoplay,whichiscertainlynotaverydifficultone,Idoassureyou,”shesaidinaserioustone,”youwillloseherforever。””Idon’tunderstandthemeaningofwhatyouaresayingtome,”criedCalyste,lookingatCamillewithadorablenaivete。”Ifyoudidunderstandit,youwouldn’tbethenobleandbeautifulCalystethatyouare,”shereplied,takinghishandandkissingit。
  Calystethendidwhathehadneverbeforedone;hetookCamilleroundthewaistandkissedhergently,notwithlovebutwithtenderness,ashekissedhismother。MademoiselledesTouchesdidnotrestrainhertears。”Gonow,”shesaid,”mychild;andtellyourviscountessthatmycarriageisathercommand。”
  Calystewantedtostaylonger,buthewasforcedtoobeyherimperiousandimperativegesture。
  Hewenthomegaily;hebelievedthatinaweekthebeautifulBeatrixwouldlovehim。Theplayersat/mouche/foundhimoncemoretheCalystetheyhadmissedforthelasttwomonths。Charlotteattributedthischangetoherself。MademoiselledePen-Hoelwascharmingtohim。
  TheAbbeGrimontendeavoredtomakeoutwhatwaspassinginthemother’smind。TheChevalierduHalgarubbedhishands。Thetwooldmaidswereaslivelyaslizards。Theviscountesslostonehundredsousbyaccumulated/mouches/,whichsoexcitedthecupidityofZephirinethatsheregrettednotbeingabletoseethecards,andevenspokesharplytohersister-in-law,whoactedastheproxyofhereyes。
  Thepartylastedtilleleveno’clock。Thereweretwodefections,thebaronandthechevalier,whowenttosleepintheirrespectivechairs。
  Mariottehadmadegalettesofbuckwheat,thebaronessproducedatea-
  caddy。TheillustrioushouseofduGuenicservedalittlesupperbeforethedepartureofitsguests,consistingoffreshbutter,fruits,andcream,inadditiontoMariotte’scakes;forwhichfestaleventissuedfromtheirwrappingsasilverteapotandsomebeautifuloldEnglishchinasenttothebaronessbyheraunts。Thisappearanceofmodernsplendorintheancienthall,togetherwiththeexquisitegraceofitsmistress,broughtuplikeatrueIrishladytomakeandpouroutteathatmightyaffairtoEnglishwomen,hadsomethingcharmingaboutthem。Themostexquisiteluxurycouldneverhaveattainedtothesimple,modest,nobleeffectproducedbythissentimentofjoyfulhospitality。
  AfewmomentsafterCalyste’sdeparturefromLesTouches,Beatrix,whohadheardhimgo,returnedtoCamille,whomshefoundwithhumideyeslyingbackonhersofa。”Whatisit,Felicite?”askedthemarquise。”Iamfortyyearsold,andIlovehim!”saidMademoiselledesTouches,withdreadfultonesofagonyinhervoice,hereyesbecominghardandbrilliant。”Ifyouknew,Beatrix,thetearsIhaveshedoverthelostyearsofmyyouth!Tobelovedoutofpity!toknowthatoneowesone’shappinessonlytoperpetualcare,totheslynessofcats,totrapslaidforinnocenceandalltheyouthfulvirtues——oh,itisinfamous!Ifitwerenotthatonefindsabsolutioninthemagnitudeoflove,inthepowerofhappiness,inthecertaintyofbeingforeveraboveallotherwomeninhismemory,thefirsttocarveonthatyounghearttheineffaceablehappinessofanabsolutedevotion,Iwould——
  yes,ifheaskedit,——Iwouldflingmyselfintothesea。SometimesI
  findmyselfwishingthathewouldaskit;itwouldthenbeanoblation,notasuicide。Ah,Beatrix,bycominghereyouhave,unconsciously,setmeahardtask。Iknowitwillbedifficulttokeephimagainstyou;butyouloveConti,youarenobleandgenerous,youwillnotdeceiveme;onthecontrary,youwillhelpmetoretainmyCalyste’slove。Iexpectedtheimpressionyouwouldmakeuponhim,butIhavenotcommittedthemistakeofseemingjealous;thatwouldonlyhaveaddedfueltotheflame。Onthecontrary,beforeyoucame,I
  describedyouinsuchglowingcolorsthatyouhardlyrealizetheportrait,althoughyouare,itseemstome,morebeautifulthanever。”
  Thisvehementelegy,inwhichtruthwasmingledwithdeception,completelydupedthemarquise。ClaudeVignonhadtoldContithereasonsforhisdeparture,andBeatrixwas,ofcourse,informedofthem。ShedeterminedthereforetobehavewithgenerosityandgivethecoldshouldertoCalyste;butatthesameinstanttherecameintohersoulthatquiverofjoywhichvibratesintheheartofeverywomanwhenshefindsherselfbeloved。Theloveawomaninspiresinanyman’sheartisflatterywithouthypocrisy,anditisimpossibleforsomewomentoforegoit;butwhenthatmanbelongstoafriend,hishomagegivesmorethanpleasure,——itgivesdelight。Beatrixsatdownbesideherfriendandbegantocoaxherprettily。”Youhavenotawhitehair,”shesaid;”youhaven’tevenawrinkle;
  yourtemplesarejustasfreshasever;whereasIknowmorethanonewomanofthirtywhoisobligedtocoverhers。Look,dear,”sheadded,liftinghercurls,”seewhatthatjourneytoItalyhascostme。”
  Hertemplesshowedanalmostimperceptiblewitheringofthetextureofthedelicateskin。SheraisedhersleevesandshowedCamillethesameslightwitheringofthewrists,wherethetransparenttissuesufferedthebluenetworkofswollenveinstobevisible,andthreedeeplinesmadeabraceletofwrinkles。”There,mydear,aretwospotswhich——asacertainwriterferretingforthemiseriesofwomen,hassaid——neverlie,”shecontinued。”Onemustneedshavesufferedtoknowthetruthofhisobservation。Happilyforus,mostmenknownothingaboutit;theydon’treaduslikethatdreadfulauthor。””Yourlettertoldmeall,”repliedCamille;”happinessignoreseverythingbutitself。Youboastedtoomuchofyourstobereallyhappy。Truthisdeaf,dumb,andblindwherelovereallyis。
  Consequently,seeingveryplainlythatyouhaveyourreasonsforabandoningConti,Ihavefearedtohaveyouhere。Mydear,Calysteisanangel;heisasgoodasheisbeautiful;hisinnocentheartwillnotresistyoureyes;alreadyheadmiresyoutoomuchnottoloveyouatthefirstencouragement;yourcoldnesscanalonepreservehimtome。Iconfesstoyou,withthecowardiceoftruepassion,thatifheweretakenfrommeIshoulddie。ThatdreadfulbookofBenjaminConstant,’Adolphe,’tellsusonlyofAdolphe’ssorrows;butwhataboutthoseofthewoman,hey?Themandidnotobservethemenoughtodescribethem;andwhatwomanwouldhavedaredtorevealthem?Theywoulddishonorhersex,humiliateitsvirtues,andpassintovice。Ah!
  Imeasuretheabyssbeforemebymyfears,bythesesufferingsthatarethoseofhell。But,Beatrix,Iwilltellyouthis:incaseIamabandoned,mychoiceismade。””Whatisit?”criedBeatrix,withaneagernessthatmadeCamilleshudder。
  ThetwofriendslookedateachotherwiththekeenattentionofVenetianinquisitors;theirsoulsclashedinthatrapidglance,andstruckfirelikeflints。Themarquiseloweredhereyes。”Afterman,thereisnoughtbutGod,”saidthecelebratedwoman。”GodistheUnknown。Ishallflingmyselfintothatasintosomevastabyss。Calystehassworntomethatheadmiresyouonlyashewouldapicture;butalas!youarebuttwenty-eight,inthefullmagnificenceofyourbeauty。Thestrugglethusbeginsbetweenhimandmebyfalsehood。ButIhaveonesupport;happilyIknowameanstokeephimtruetome,andIshalltriumph。””Whatmeans?””Thatismysecret,dear。Letmehavethebenefitsofmyage。IfClaudeVignon,asContihasdoubtlesstoldyou,flingsmebackintothegulf,I,whohadclimbedtoarockwhichIthoughtinaccessible,——
  Iwillatleastgatherthepaleandfragile,butdelightfulflowersthatgrowinitsdepths。”
  MadamedeRochefidewasmouldedlikewaxinthoseablehands。Camillefeltanalmostsavagepleasureinthusentrappingherrivalinhertoils。Shesenthertobedthatnightpiquedbycuriosity,floatingbetweenjealousyandgenerosity,butmostassuredlywithhermindfullofthebeautifulCalyste。”Shewillbeenchantedtodeceiveme,”thoughtCamille,asshekissedhergood-night。
  Then,whenshewasalone,theauthor,theconstructorofdramas,gaveplacetothewoman,andsheburstintotears。Fillingherhookahwithtobaccosoakedinopium,shespentthegreaterpartofthenightinsmoking,dullingthusthesufferingsofhersoul,andseeingthroughthecloudsaboutherthebeautifulyoungheadofherlatelover。”Whatagloriousbooktowrite,ifIwereonlytoexpressmypain!”
  shesaidtoherself。”Butitiswrittenalready;Sappholivedbeforeme。AndSapphowasyoung。Afineandtouchingheroinetruly,awomanofforty!Ah!mypoorCamille,smokeyourhookah;youhaven’teventheresourceofmakingapoemofyourmisery——that’sthelastdropofanguishinyourcup!”
  ThenextmorningCalystecamebeforemid-dayandslippedupstairs,ashewastold,intoCamille’sownroom,wherehefoundthebooks。
  Felicitesatbeforethewindow,smoking,contemplatinginturnthemarshes,thesea,andCalyste,towhomshenowandthensaidafewwordsaboutBeatrix。Atonetime,seeingthemarquisestrollingaboutthegarden,sheraisedacurtaininawaytoattractherattention,andalsotothrowabandoflightacrossCalyste’sbook。”To-day,mychild,Ishallaskyoutostaytodinner;butyoumustrefuse,withaglanceatthemarquise,whichwillshowherhowmuchyouregretnotstaying。”
  Whenthethreeactorsmetinthesalon,andthiscomedywasplayed,Calystefeltforamomenthisequivocalposition,andtheglancethathecastonBeatrixwasfarmoreexpressivethanFeliciteexpected。
  Beatrixhaddressedherselfcharmingly。”Whatabewitchingtoilet,mydearest!”saidCamille,whenCalystehaddeparted。
  Thesemanoeuvreslastedsixdays,duringwhichtimemanyconversations,intowhichCamilleMaupinputallherability,tookplace,unknowntoCalyste,betweenherselfandthemarquise。Theywerelikethepreliminariesofaduelbetweentwowomen,——aduelwithouttruce,inwhichtheassaultwasmadeonbothsideswithsnares,feints,falsegenerosities,deceitfulconfessions,craftyconfidences,bywhichonehidandtheotherbaredherlove;andinwhichthesharpsteelofCamille’streacherouswordsenteredtheheartofherfriend,andleftitspoisonthere。BeatrixatlasttookoffenceatwhatshethoughtCamille’sdistrust;sheconsidereditoutofplacebetweenthem。Atthesametimeshewasenchantedtofindthegreatwriteravictimtothepettinessofhersex,andsheresolvedtoenjoythepleasureofshowingherwherehergreatnessended,andhowevenshecouldbehumiliated。”Mydear,whatistobetheexcuseto-dayforMonsieurduGuenic’snotdiningwithus?”sheasked,lookingmaliciouslyatherfriend。”Mondayyousaidwehadengagements;Tuesdaythedinnerwaspoor;Wednesdayyouwereafraidhismotherwouldbeangry;Thursdayyouwantedtotakeawalkwithme;andyesterdayyousimplydismissedhimwithoutareason。To-dayIshallhavemyway,andImeanthatheshallstay。””Already,mydear!”saidCamille,withcuttingirony。Themarquiseblushed。”Stay,MonsieurduGuenic,”saidCamille,inthetoneofaqueen。
  Beatrixbecamecoldandhard,contradictoryintone,epigrammatic,andalmostrudetoCalyste,whomFelicitesenthometoplay/mouche/withCharlottedeKergarouet。”/She/isnotdangerousatanyrate,”saidBeatrix,sarcastically。
  Youngloversarelikehungrymen;kitchenodorswillnotappeasetheirhunger;theythinktoomuchofwhatiscomingtocareforthemeansthatbringit。AsCalystewalkedbacktoGuerande,hissoulwasfullofBeatrix;hepaidnoheedtotheprofoundfeminineclevernesswhichFelicitewasdisplayingonhisbehalf。DuringthisweekthemarquisehadonlywrittenoncetoConti,asymptomofindifferencewhichhadnotescapedthewatchfuleyesofCamille,whoimpartedittoCalyste。
  AllCalyste’slifewasconcentratedintheshortmomentofthedayduringwhichhewasallowedtoseethemarquise。Thisdropofwater,farfromallayinghisthirst,onlyredoubledit。Themagicpromise,”Beatrixshallloveyou,”madebyCamille,wasthetalismanwithwhichhestrovetorestrainthefieryardorofhispassion。Butheknewnothowtoconsumethetime;hecouldnotsleep,andspentthehoursofthenightinreading;everyeveninghebroughtbackwithhim,asMariotteremarked,cartloadsofbooks。
  HisauntcalleddownmaledictionsontheheadofMademoiselledesTouches;buthismother,whohadgoneonseveraloccasionstohisroomonseeinghislightburningfarintothenight,knewbythistimethesecretofhisconduct。Thoughforherlovewasasealedbook,andshewasevenunawareofherownignorance,Fannyrosethroughmaternaltendernessintocertainideasofit;butthedepthsofsuchsentimentbeingdarkandobscuredbycloudstohermind,shewasshockedatthestateinwhichshesawhim;thesolitaryuncomprehendeddesireofhissoul,whichwasevidentlyconsuminghim,simplyterrifiedher。Calystehadbutonethought;Beatrixwasalwaysbeforehim。Intheevenings,whilecardswerebeingplayed,hisabstractionresembledhisfather’ssomnolence。FindinghimsodifferentfromwhathewaswhenhelovedCamille,thebaronessbecameaware,withasortofhorror,ofthesymptomsofreallove,——aspeciesofpossessionwhichhadseizeduponherson,——aloveunknownwithinthewallsofthatoldmansion。
  Feverishirritability,aconstantabsorptioninthought,madeCalystealmostdoltish。Oftenhewouldsitforhourswithhiseyesfixedonsomefigureinthetapestry。OnemorninghismotherimploredhimtogiveupLesTouches,andleavethetwowomenforever。”NotgotoLesTouches!”hecried。”Oh!yes,yes,go!donotlookso,mydarling!”shecried,kissinghimontheeyesthathadflashedsuchflames。
  UnderthesecircumstancesCalysteoftencamenearlosingthefruitofCamille’splotthroughtheBretonfuryofhislove,ofwhichhewasceasingtobethemaster。Finally,hesworetohimself,inspiteofhispromisetoFelicite,toseeBeatrix,andspeaktoher。Hewantedtoreadhereyes,tobatheintheirlight,toexamineeverydetailofherdress,breatheitsperfume,listentothemusicofhervoice,watchthegracefulcompositionofhermovements,embraceataglancethewholefigure,andstudyherasageneralstudiesthefieldwherehemeanstowinadecisivebattle。Hewilledasloverswill;hewasgraspedbydesireswhichclosedhisearsanddarkenedhisintellect,andthrewhimintoanunnaturalstateinwhichhewasconsciousofneitherobstacles,nordistances,northeexistenceevenofhisownbody。
  OnemorningheresolvedtogotoLesTouchesatanearlierhourthanthatagreedupon,andendeavortomeetBeatrixinthegarden。Heknewshewalkedtheredailybeforebreakfast。
  MademoiselledesTouchesandthemarquisehadgone,asithappened,toseethemarshesandthelittlebaywithitsmarginoffinesand,wheretheseapenetratesandlieslikealakeinthemidstofthedunes。
  Theyhadjustreturned,andwerewalkingupagardenpathbesidethelawn,conversingastheywalked。”Ifthescenerypleasesyou,”saidCamille,”wemusttakeCalysteandmakeatriptoCroisic。Therearesplendidrocksthere,cascadesofgranite,littlebayswithnaturalbasins,charminglyunexpectedandcapriciousthings,besidestheseaitself,withitsstoreofmarblefragments,——aworldofamusement。Alsoyouwillseewomenmakingfuelwithcow-dung,whichtheynailagainstthewallsoftheirhousestodryinthesun,afterwhichtheypileitupaswedopeatinParis。””What!willyoureallyriskCalyste?”criedthemarquise,laughing,inatonewhichprovedthatCamille’srusehadanswereditspurpose。”Ah,mydear,”shereplied,”ifyoudidbutknowtheangelicsoulofthatdearchild,youwouldunderstandme。Inhim,merebeautyisnothing;onemustenterthatpureheart,whichisamazedateverystepittakesintothekingdomoflove。Whatfaith!whatgrace!whatinnocence!Theancientswererightenoughintheworshiptheypaidtosacredbeauty。Sometraveller,Iforgetwho,relatesthatwhenwildhorseslosetheirleadertheychoosethehandsomesthorseintheherdforhissuccessor。Beauty,mydear,isthegeniusofthings;itistheensignwhichNaturehoistsoverhermostpreciouscreations;itisthetrustofsymbolsasitisthegreatestofaccidents。Didanyoneeversupposethatangelscouldbedeformed?aretheynotnecessarilyacombinationofgraceandstrength?WhatisitthatmakesusstandforhoursbeforesomepictureinItaly,wheregeniushasstriventhroughyearsoftoiltorealizebutoneofthoseaccidentsofNature?Come,callupyoursenseofthetruthofthingsandanswerme;isitnottheIdeaofBeautywhichoursoulsassociatewithmoralgrandeur?Well,Calysteisoneofthosedreams,thosevisions,realized。Hehastheregalpowerofalion,tranquillyunsuspiciousofitsroyalty。Whenhefeelsathisease,heiswitty;andIlovehisgirlishtimidity。Mysoulrestsinhisheartawayfromallcorruptions,allideasofknowledge,literature,theworld,society,politics,——thoseuselessaccessoriesunderwhichwestiflehappiness。IamwhatIhaveneverbeen,——achild!Iamsureofhim,butIliketoplayatjealousy;helikesittoo。Besides,thatispartofmysecret。”
  Beatrixwalkedonpensively,insilence。Camilleenduredunspeakablemartyrdom,andshecastasidelonglookathercompanionwhichlookedlikeflame。”Ah,mydear;but/you/arehappy,”saidBeatrixpresently,layingherhandonCamille’sarmlikeawomanweariedoutwithsomeinwardstruggle。”Yes,happyindeed!”repliedFelicite,withsavagebitterness。
  Thetwowomendroppeduponabenchfromasenseofexhaustion。NocreatureofhersexwaseverplayeduponlikeaninstrumentwithmoreMachiavellianpenetrationthanthemarquisethroughoutthisweek。”Yes,youarehappy,butI!”shesaid,——”toknowofConti’sinfidelities,andhavetobearthem!””Whynotleavehim?”saidCamille,seeingthehourhadcometostrikeadecisiveblow。”CanI?””Oh!poorboy!”
  Bothweregazingintoaclumpoftreeswithastupefiedair。
  Camillerose。”Iwillgoandhastenbreakfast;mywalkhasgivenmeanappetite,”
  shesaid。”Ourconversationhastakenawaymine,”remarkedBeatrix。
  Themarquiseinhermorningdresswasoutlinedinwhiteagainstthedarkgreensofthefoliage。Calyste,whohadslippedthroughthesalonintothegarden,tookapath,alongwhichhesaunteredasthoughheweremeetingherbyaccident。Beatrixcouldnotrestrainaquiverasheapproachedher。”Madame,inwhatwaydidIdispleaseyouyesterday?”hesaid,afterthefirstcommonplacesentenceshadbeenexchanged。”Butyouhaveneitherpleasedmenordispleasedme,”shesaid,inagentlevoice。
  Thetone,air,andmannerinwhichthemarquisesaidthesewordsencouragedCalyste。”AmIsoindifferenttoyou?”hesaidinatroubledvoice,asthetearscameintohiseyes。”Oughtwenottobeindifferenttoeachother?”repliedthemarquise。”Havewenot,eachofus,another,andabindingattachment?””Oh!”criedCalyste,”ifyoumeanCamille,Ididloveher,butIlovehernolonger。””Thenwhyareyoushutuptogethereverymorning?”shesaid,withatreacheroussmile。”Idon’tsupposethatCamille,inspiteofherpassionfortobacco,prefershercigartoyou,orthatyou,inyouradmirationforfemaleauthors,spendfourhoursadayinreadingtheirromances。””Sothenyouknow——”begantheguilelessyoungBreton,hisfaceglowingwiththehappinessofbeingfacetofacewithhisidol。”Calyste!”criedCamille,angrily,suddenlyappearingandinterruptinghim。Shetookhisarmanddrewhimawaytosomedistance。”Calyste,isthiswhatyoupromisedme?”
  BeatrixheardthesewordsofreproachasMademoiselledesTouchesdisappearedtowardthehouse,takingCalystewithher。Shewasstupefiedbytheyoungman’sassertion,andcouldnotcomprehendit;
  shewasnotasstrongasClaudeVignon。Intruth,thepartbeingplayedbyCamilleMaupin,asshockingasitwasgrand,isoneofthosewickedgrandeurswhichwomenonlypractisewhendriventoextremity。
  Byittheirheartsarebroken;initthefeelingsoftheirsexarelosttothem;itbeginsanabnegationwhichendsbyeitherplungingthemtohell,orliftingthemtoheaven。
  Duringbreakfast,whichCalystewasinvitedtoshare,themarquise,whosesentimentscouldbenobleandgenerous,madeasuddenreturnuponherself,resolvingtostiflethegermsoflovewhichwererisinginherheart。ShewasneithercoldnorhardtoCalyste,butgentlyindifferent,——acoursewhichtorturedhim。Felicitebroughtforwardapropositionthattheyshouldmake,onthenextdaybutone,anexcursionintothecuriousandinterestingcountrylyingbetweenLesTouches,Croisic,andthevillageofBatz。ShebeggedCalystetoemployhimselfonthemorrowinhiringaboatandsailorstotakethemacrossthelittlebay,undertakingherselftoprovidehorsesandprovisions,andallelsethatwasnecessaryforapartyofpleasure,inwhichtherewastobenofatigue。Beatrixstoppedthemattershort,however,bysayingthatshedidnotwishtomakeexcursionsroundthecountry。Calyste’sface,whichhadbeamedwithdelightattheprospect,wassuddenlyoverclouded。”Whatareyouafraidof,mydear?”askedCamille。”MypositionissodelicateIdonotwishtocompromise——Iwillnotsaymyreputation,butmyhappiness,”shesaid,meaningly,withaglanceattheyoungBreton。”YouknowverywellhowsuspiciousConticanbe;ifheknew——””Whowilltellhim?””Heiscomingbackheretofetchme,”saidBeatrix。
  Calysteturnedpale。InspiteofallthatCamillecouldurge,inspiteofCalyste’sentreaties,MadamedeRochefideremainedinflexible,andshowedwhatCamillehadcalledherobstinacy。CalysteleftLesTouchesthevictimofoneofthosedepressionsoflovewhichthreaten,incertainmen,toturnintomadness。HebegantorevolveinhismindsomedecidedmeansofcomingtoanexplanationwithBeatrix。
  XII
  CORRESPONDENCE
  WhenCalystereachedhome,hedidnotleavehisroomuntildinnertime;andafterdinnerhewentbacktoit。Atteno’clockhismother,uneasyathisabsence,wenttolookforhim,andfoundhimwritinginthemidstofapileofblottedandhalf-tornpaper。HewaswritingtoBeatrix,fordistrustofCamillehadcomeintohismind。Theairandmannerofthemarquiseduringtheirbriefinterviewinthegardenhadsingularlyencouragedhim。
  Nofirstlove-lettereverwasoreverwillbe,asmayreadilybesupposed,abrillianteffortofthemind。Inallyoungmennottaintedbycorruptionsuchaletteriswrittenwithgushingsfromtheheart,toooverflowing,toomultifariousnottobetheessence,theelixirofmanyotherlettersbegun,rejected,andrewritten。
  HereistheonethatCalystefinallycomposedandwhichhereadaloudtohispoor,astonishedmother。Tohertheoldmansionseemedtohavetakenfire;thisloveofhersonflamedupinitliketheglareofaconflagration。
  CalystetoMadamelaMarquisedeRochefide。
  Madame,——Ilovedyouwhenyouweretomebutadream;judge,therefore,oftheforcemyloveacquiredwhenIsawyou。Thedreamwasfarsurpassedbythereality。Itismygriefandmymisfortunetohavenothingtosaytoyouthatyoudonotknowalreadyofyourbeautyandyourcharms;andyet,perhaps,theyhaveawakenedinnootherheartsodeepasentimentastheyhaveinme。
  Insomanywaysyouarebeautiful;IhavestudiedyousomuchwhilethinkingofyoudayandnightthatIhavepenetratedthemysteriesofyourbeing,thesecretsofyourheart,andyourdelicacy,solittleappreciated。Haveyoueverbeenloved,understood,adoredasyoudeservetobe?
  Letmetellyounowthatthereisnotatraitinyournaturewhichmyheartdoesnotinterpret;yourprideisunderstoodbymine;thegrandeurofyourglance,thegraceofyourbearing,thedistinctionofyourmovements,——allthingsaboutyourpersonareinharmonywiththethoughts,thehopes,thedesireshiddeninthedepthsofyoursoul;itisbecauseIhavedivinedthemallthatI
  thinkmyselfworthyofyournotice。IfIhadnotbecome,withinthelastfewdays,anotheryourself,Icouldnotspeaktoyouofmyself;thisletter,indeed,relatesfarmoretoyouthanitdoestome。
  Beatrix,inordertowritetoyou,Ihavesilencedmyyouth,I
  havelaidasidemyself,Ihaveagedmythoughts,——or,rather,itisyouwhohaveagedthem,bythisweekofdreadfulsufferingscaused,innocentlyindeed,byyou。
  DonotthinkmeoneofthosecommonloversatwhomIhaveheardyoulaughsojustly。Whatmeritisthereinlovingayoungandbeautifulandwiseandnoblewoman。Alas!Ihavenomerit!WhatcanIbetoyou?Achild,attractedbyeffulgenceofbeautyandbymoralgrandeur,astheinsectsareattractedtothelight。Youcannotdootherwisethantreadupontheflowersofmysoul;theyarethereatyourfeet,andallmyhappinessconsistsinyoursteppingonthem。
  Absolutedevotion,unboundedfaith,loveunquenchable,——allthesetreasuresofatrueandtenderheartarenothing,nothing!theyserveonlytolovewith,theycannotwinthelovewecrave。
  SometimesIdonotunderstandwhyaworshipsoardentdoesnotwarmitsidol;andwhenImeetyoureye,socold,sostern,Iturntoicewithinme。Yourdisdain,/that/istheactingforcebetweenus,notmyworship。Why?YoucannothatemeasmuchasIloveyou;
  why,then,doestheweakerfeelingrulethestronger?IlovedFelicitewithallthepowersofmyheart;yetIforgotherinaday,inamoment,whenIsawyou。Shewasmyerror;youaremytruth。
  Youhave,unknowingly,destroyedmyhappiness,andyetyouowemenothinginreturn。IlovedCamillewithouthope,andIhavenohopefromyou;nothingischangedbutmydivinity。Iwasapagan;
  IamnowaChristian,thatisall——
  Exceptthis:youhavetaughtmethattoloveisthegreatestofalljoys;thejoyofbeinglovedcomeslater。AccordingtoCamille,itisnotlovingtoloveforashorttimeonly;thelovethatdoesnotgrowfromdaytoday,fromhourtohour,isamerewretchedpassion。Inordertogrow,lovemustnotseeitsend;andshesawtheendofours,thesettingofoursunoflove。WhenI
  beheldyou,Iunderstoodherwords,which,untilthen,Ihaddisputedwithallmyyouth,withalltheardorofmydesires,withthedespoticsternnessoftwentyyears。ThatgrandandnobleCamillemingledhertearswithmine,andyetshefirmlyrejectedtheloveshesawmustend。ThereforeIamfreetoloveyouhereonearthandintheheavenaboveus,asweloveGod。Ifyoulovedme,youwouldhavenosuchargumentsasCamilleusedtooverthrowmylove。Wearebothyoung;wecouldflyonequalwingacrossoursunnyheaven,notfearingstormsasthatgrandeaglefearedthem。
  Butha!whatamIsaying?mythoughtshavecarriedmebeyondthehumilityofmyrealhopes。Believeme,believeinthesubmission,thepatience,themuteadorationwhichIonlyaskyounottowounduselessly。Iknow,Beatrix,thatyoucannotlovemewithoutthelossofyourself-esteem;thereforeIaskfornoreturn。Camilleoncesaidtherewassomehiddenfatalityinnames,/apropos/ofhers。ThatfatalityIfeltformyselfonthejettyofGuerande,whenIreadontheshoresoftheoceanyourname。Yes,youwillpassthroughmylifeasBeatricepassedthroughthatofDante。Myheartwillbeapedestalforthatwhitestatue,cold,distant,jealous,andoppressive。
  Itisforbiddentoyoutoloveme;Iknowthat。Youwillsufferathousanddeaths,youwillbebetrayed,humiliated,unhappy;butyouhaveinyouadevil’spride,whichbindsyoutothatcolumnyouhaveonceembraced,——youarelikeSamson,youwillperishbyholdingtoit。ButthisIhavenotdivined;myloveistooblindforthat;Camillehastoldittome。Itisnotmymindthatspeakstoyouofthis,itishers。IhavenomindwithwhichtoreasonwhenIthinkofyou;bloodgushesfrommyheart,anditshotwavedarkensmyintellect,weakensmystrength,paralyzesmytongue,andbendsmyknees。Icanonlyadoreyou,whateveryoumaydotome。
  Camillecallsyourresolutionobstinacy;Idefendyou,andIcallitvirtue。Youareonlythemorebeautifulbecauseofit。Iknowmydestiny,andtheprideofaBretoncanrisetotheheightofthewomanwhomakesherprideavirtue。
  Therefore,dearBeatrix,bekind,beconsolingtome。Whenvictimswereselected,theycrownedthemwithflowers;sodoyoutome;
  youowemetheflowersofpity,themusicofmysacrifice。AmI
  notaproofofyourgrandeur?Willyounotrisetothelevelofmydisdainedlove,——disdainedinspiteofitssincerity,inspiteofitsimmortalpassion?
  AskCamillehowIbehavedtoherafterthedayshetoldme,onherreturntoLesTouches,thatshelovedClaudeVignon。Iwasmute;I
  sufferedinsilence。Well,foryouIwillshowevengreaterstrength,——Iwillburymyfeelingsinmyheart,ifyouwillnotdrivemetodespair,ifyouwillonlyunderstandmyheroism。A
  singlewordofpraisefromyouisenoughtomakemebearthepainsofmartyrdom。
  Butifyoupersistinthiscoldsilence,thisdeadlydisdain,youwillmakemethinkyoufearme。Ah,Beatrix,bewithmewhatyouare,——charming,witty,gay,andtender。TalktomeofConti,asCamillehastalkedtomeofClaude。Ihavenootherspiritinmysoul,noothergeniusbutthatoflove;nothingistherethatcanmakeyoufearme;IwillbeinyourpresenceasifIlovedyounot。
  Canyourejectsohumbleaprayer?——theprayerofachildwhoonlyasksthathisLightshalllightenhim,thathisSunmaywarmhim。
  Hewhomyoulovecanbewithyouatalltimes,butI,poorCalyste!havesofewdaysinwhichtoseeyou;youwillsoonbefreedfromme。ThereforeImayreturntoLesTouchesto-morrow,mayInot?Youwillnotrefusemyarmforthatexcursion?WeshallgotogethertoCroisicandtoBatz?IfyoudonotgoIshalltakeitforananswer,——Calystewillunderstandit!
  Therewerefourmorepagesofthesamesortinclose,finewriting,whereinCalysteexplainedthesortofthreatconveyedinthelastwords,andrelatedhisyouthandlife;butthetalewaschieflytoldinexclamatoryphrases,withmanyofthosepointsanddashesofwhichmodernliteratureissoprodigalwhenitcomestocrucialpassages,——
  asthoughtheywereplanksofferedtothereader’simagination,tohelphimacrosscrevasses。Therestofthisartlessletterwasmerelyrepetition。ButifitwasnotlikelytotouchMadamedeRochefide,andwouldveryslightlyinteresttheadmirersofstrongemotions,itmadethemotherweep,asshesaidtoherson,inhertendervoice,——”Mychild,youarenothappy。”
  ThistumultuouspoemofsentimentswhichhadarisenlikeastorminCalyste’sheart,terrifiedthebaroness;forthefirsttimeinherlifeshereadalove-letter。
  Calystewasstandingindeepperplexity;howcouldhesendthatletter?Hefollowedhismotherbackintothesalonwiththeletterinhispocketandburninginhisheartlikefire。TheChevalierduHalgawasstillthere,andthelastdealofalively/mouche/wasgoingon。
  CharlottedeKergarouet,indespairatCalyste’sindifference,waspayingattentiontohisfatherasameansofpromotinghermarriage。
  Calystewanderedhitherandthitherlikeabutterflywhichhadflownintotheroombymistake。Atlast,when/mouche/wasover,hedrewtheChevalierduHalgaintothegreatsalon,fromwhichhesentawayMademoiselledePen-Hoel’spageandMariotte。”Whatdoeshewantofthechevalier?”saidoldZephirine,addressingherfriendJacqueline。”Calystestrikesmeashalf-crazy,”repliedMademoiselledePen-Hoel。”HepaysCharlottenomoreattentionthanifshewerea/paludiere/。”
  RememberingthattheChevalierduHalgahadthereputationofhavingnavigatedinhisyouththewatersofgallantry,itcameintoCalyste’sheadtoconsulthim。”Whatisthebestwaytosendalettersecretlytoone’smistress,”hesaidtotheoldgentlemaninawhisper。”Well,youcanslipitintothehandofhermaidwithalouisortwounderneathit;forsoonerorlaterthemaidwillfindoutthesecret,anditisjustaswelltoletherintoitatonce,”repliedthechevalier,onwhosefacewasthegleamofasmile。”But,onthewhole,itisbesttogivetheletteryourself。””Alouisortwo!”exclaimedCalyste。
  HesnatcheduphishatandrantoLesTouches,whereheappearedlikeanapparitioninthelittlesalon,guidedthitherbythevoicesofCamilleandBeatrix。Theyweresittingonthesofatogether,apparentlyonthebestofterms。Calyste,withtheheadlongimpulseoflove,flunghimselfheedlesslyonthesofabesidethemarquise,tookherhand,andslippedtheletterwithinit。HedidthissorapidlythatFelicite,watchfulasshewas,didnotperceiveit。Calyste’sheartwastinglingwithanemotionhalfsweet,halfpainful,ashefeltthehandofBeatrixpresshisown,andsawher,withoutinterruptingherwords,orseemingintheleastdisconcerted,sliptheletterintoherglove。”Youflingyourselfonawoman’sdresswithoutmercy,”shesaid,laughing。”Calysteisaboywhoiswantingincommon-sense,”saidFelicite,notsparinghimanopenrebuke。
  Calysterose,tookCamille’shand,andkissedit。Thenhewenttothepianoandranhisfinger-nailoverthenotes,makingthemallsoundatonce,likearapidscale。ThisexuberanceofjoysurprisedCamille,andmadeherthoughtful;shesignedtoCalystetocometoher。”Whatisthematterwithyou?”shewhisperedinhisear。”Nothing,”hereplied。”Thereissomethingbetweenthem,”thoughtMademoiselledesTouches。
  Themarquisewasimpenetrable。CamilletriedtomakeCalystetalk,hopingthathisartlessmindwouldbetrayitself;buttheyouthexcusedhimselfonthegroundthathismotherexpectedhim,andheleftLesTouchesateleveno’clock,——not,however,withouthavingfacedthefireofapiercingglancefromCamille,towhomthatexcusewasmadeforthefirsttime。
  AftertheagitationsofawakefulnightfilledwithvisionsofBeatrix,andaftergoingascoreoftimesthroughthechiefstreetofGuerandeforthepurposeofmeetingtheanswertohisletter,whichdidnotcome,Calystefinallyreceivedthefollowingreply,whichthemarquise’swaiting-woman,enteringthehotelduGuenic,presentedtohim。Hecarriedittothegarden,andthere,inthegrotto,hereadasfollows:——
  MadamedeRochefidetoCalyste。
  Youareanoblechild,butyouareonlyachild。YouareboundtoCamille,whoadoresyou。Youwouldnotfindinmeeithertheperfectionsthatdistinguishherorthehappinessthatshecangiveyou。Whateveryoumaythink,sheisyoungandIamold;herheartisfulloftreasures,mineisempty;shehasforyouadevotionyouillappreciate;sheisunselfish;shelivesonlyforyouandinyou。I,ontheotherhand,amfullofdoubts;Ishoulddragyoudowntoawearisomelife,withoutgrandeurofanykind,——
  aliferuinedbymyownconduct。Camilleisfree;shecangoandcomeasshewill;Iamaslave。
  YouforgetthatIloveandambeloved。ThesituationinwhichI
  haveplacedmyselfforbidsmyacceptinghomage。Thatamanshouldloveme,orsayhelovesme,isaninsult。Toturntoanotherwouldbetoplacemyselfatthelevelofthelowestofmysex。
  You,whoareyoungandfullofdelicacy,howcanyouobligemetosaythesethings,whichrendmyheartastheyissuefromit?
  Ipreferredthescandalofanirreparabledeedtotheshameofconstantdeception;myownlossofstationtoalossofhonesty。
  IntheeyesofmanypersonswhoseesteemIvalue,Iamstillworthy;butifIpermittedanothermantoloveme,Ishouldfallindeed。Theworldisindulgenttothosewhoseconstancycovers,aswithamantle,theirregularityoftheirhappiness;butitispitilesstovice。
  YouseeIfeelneitherdisdainnoranger;Iamansweringyourletterfranklyandwithsimplicity。Youareyoung;youareignorantoftheworld;youarecarriedawaybyfancy;youareincapable,likeallwhoselivesarepure,ofmakingthereflectionswhichevilsuggests。ButIwillgostillfurther。
  WereIdestinedtobethemosthumiliatedofwomen,wereIforcedtohidefearfulsorrows,wereIbetrayed,abandoned,——which,thankGod,iswhollyimpossible,——nooneinthisworldwouldseememore。Yes,IbelieveIshouldfindcouragetokillamanwho,seeingmeinthatsituation,shouldtalktomeoflove。
  Younowknowmymindtoitsdepths。PerhapsIoughttothankyouforhavingwrittentome。Afterreceivingyourletter,and,aboveall,aftermakingyouthisreply,IcouldbeatmyeasewithyouinCamille’shouse,Icouldactoutmynaturalself,andbewhatyouaskofme;butIhardlyneedspeaktoyouofthebitterridiculethatwouldoverwhelmmeifmyeyesormymannerceasedtoexpressthesentimentsofwhichyoucomplain。AsecondrobberyfromCamillewouldbeaproofofherwantofpowerwhichnowomancouldtwiceforgive。EvenifIlovedyou,ifIwereblindtoallelse,ifIforgotallelse,IshouldstillseeCamille!Herloveforyouisabarriertoohightobeo’erleapedbyanypower,evenbythewingsofanangel;nonebutadevilwouldfailtorecoilbeforesuchtreachery。Inthis,mydearCalyste,aremanymotiveswhichdelicateandnoblewomenkeeptothemselves,ofwhichyoumenknownothing;norcouldyouunderstandthem,eventhoughyouwereallaslikeoursexasyouyourselfappeartobeatthismoment。
  Mychild,youhaveamotherwhohasshownyouwhatyououghttobeinlife。Sheispureandspotless;shefulfilsherdestinynobly;
  whatIhaveheardofherhasfilledmyeyeswithtears,andinthedepthsofmyheartIenvyher。I,too,mighthavebeenwhatsheis!Calyste,thatisthewomanyourwifeshouldbe,andsuchshouldbeherlife。Iwillneversendyouback,injest,asIhavedone,tothatlittleCharlotte,whowouldwearyyoutodeath;butIdocommendyoutosomedivineyounggirlwhoisworthyofyourlove。
  IfIwereyours,yourlifewouldbeblighted。Youwouldhavegivenmeyourwholeexistence,andI——yousee,Iamfrank——Ishouldhavetakenit;Ishouldhavegonewithyou,Heavenknowswhere,farfromtheworld!ButIshouldhavemadeyoumostunhappy;forIamjealous。Iseelionslurkinginthepath,andmonstersindropsofwater。Iammadewretchedbytriflesthatmostwomenputupwith;
  inexorablethoughts——frommyheart,notyours——wouldpoisonourexistenceanddestroymylife。Ifaman,aftertenyears’
  happiness,werenotasrespectfulandasdelicateashewastomeatfirst,Ishouldresentthechange;itwouldabasemeinmyowneyes!SuchalovercouldnotbelieveintheAmadisandtheCyrusofmydreams。To-daytrueloveisbutadream,notareality。I
  seeinyoursonlythejoyofadesiretheendofwhichis,asyet,unperceivedbyyou。
  Formyself,Iamnotfortyyearsold;Ihavenotbentmypridebeneaththeyokeofexperience,——inshort,Iamawomantooyoungtobeanythingbutodious。Iwillnotanswerformytemper;mygraceandcharmareallexternal。PerhapsIhavenotyetsufferedenoughtohavetheindulgentmannersandtheabsolutetendernesswhichcometousfromcrueldisappointments。Happinesshasitsinsolence,andI,Ifear,aminsolent。Camillewillbealwaysyourdevotedslave;Ishouldbeanunreasonabletyrant。Besides,Camillewasbroughttoyoubyyourguardianangel,attheturningpointofyourlife,toshowyouthecareeryououghttofollow,——acareerinwhichyoucannotfail。
  IknowFelicite!hertendernessisinexhaustible;shemayignorethegracesofoursex,butshepossessesthatfruitfulstrength,thatgeniusforconstancy,thatnobleintrepiditywhichmakesuswillingtoaccepttherest。Shewillmarryyoutosomeyounggirl,nomatterwhatshesuffers。ShewillfindyouafreeBeatrix——ifitisaBeatrixindeedwhoanswerstoyourdesiresinawife,andtoyourdreams;shewillsmoothallthedifficultiesinyourway。
  ThesaleofasingleacreofhergroundinPariswouldfreeyourpropertyinBrittany;shewillmakeyouherheir;areyounotalreadyhersonbyadoption?
  Alas!whatcouldIdoforyourhappiness?Nothing。Donotbetraythatinfinitelovewhichcontentsitselfwiththedutiesofmotherhood。Ah!Ithinkherveryfortunate,myCamille!ShecanwellaffordtoforgiveyourfeelingforpoorBeatrix;womenofherageareindulgenttosuchfancies。Whentheyaresureofbeingloved,theywillpardonapassinginfidelity;infact,itisoftenoneoftheirkeenestpleasurestotriumphoverayoungerrival。
  Camilleisabovesuchwomen,andthatremarkdoesnotrefertoher;butImakeittoeaseyourmind。
  IhavestudiedCamilleclosely;sheis,tomyeyes,oneofthegreatestwomenofourage。Shehasmindandshehasgoodness,——twoqualitiesalmostirreconcilableinwoman;sheisgenerousandsimple,——twoothergrandeursseldomfoundtogetherinoursex。I
  haveseeninthedepthsofhersoulsuchtreasuresthatthebeautifullineofDanteoneternalhappiness,whichIheardherinterpretingtoyoutheotherday,”Senzabramasicuraricchezza,”
  seemsasifmadeforher。Shehastalkedtomeofhercareer;shehasrelatedherlife,showingmehowlove,thatobjectofourprayers,ourdreams,hasevereludedher。Irepliedthatsheseemedtomeaninstanceofthedifficulty,ifnottheimpossibility,ofunitinginonepersontwogreatglories。
  You,Calyste,areoneoftheangelicsoulswhosemateitseemsimpossibletofind;butCamillewillobtainforyou,evenifshediesindoingso,thehandofsomeyounggirlwithwhomyoucanmakeahappyhome。
  Formyself,Iholdouttoyouafriendlyhand,andIcount,notonyourheart,butonyourmind,tomakeyouinfutureabrothertome,asIshallbeasistertoyou;andIdesirethatthislettermayterminateacorrespondencewhich,betweenLesTouchesandGuerande,isratherabsurd。
  BeatrixdeCasteran。
  Thebaroness,stirredtothedepthsofhersoulbythestrangeexhibitionsandtherapidchangesofherboy’semotions,couldnolongersitquietlyatherworkintheancienthall。AfterlookingatCalystefromtimetotime,shefinallyroseandcametohiminamannerthatwashumble,andyetbold;shewantedhimtograntafavorwhichshefeltshehadarighttodemand。”Well,”shesaid,trembling,andlookingattheletter,butnotdirectlyaskingforit。
  Calystereaditaloudtoher。Andthesetwonoblesouls,sosimple,soguileless,sawnothinginthatwilyandtreacherousepistleofthemaliceorthesnareswhichthemarquisehadwrittenintoit。”Sheisanoblewoman,agrandwoman!”saidthebaroness,withmoistenedeyes。”IwillpraytoGodforher。Ididnotknowthatawomancouldabandonherhusbandandchild,andyetpreserveasoulsovirtuous。Sheisindeedworthyofpardon。””HaveInoteveryreasontoadoreher?”criedCalyste。”Butwherewillthisloveleadyou?”saidthebaroness。”Ah,mychild,howdangerousarewomenwithnoblesentiments!Thereislesstofearinthosewhoarebad!MarryCharlottedeKergarouetandreleasetwo-
  thirdsoftheestate。Bysellingafewfarms,MademoiselledePen-Hoelcanbestowthatgrandresultuponyouinthemarriagecontract,andshewillalsohelpyou,withherexperience,tomakethemostofyourproperty。Youwillbeabletoleaveyourchildrenagreatname,andafineestate。””ForgetBeatrix!”saidCalyste,inamuffledvoice,withhiseyesontheground。
  Heleftthebaroness,andwentuptohisownroomtowriteananswertothemarquise。
  MadameduGuenic,whoseheartretainedeverywordofMadamedeRochefide’sletter,felttheneedofsomehelpincomprehendingitmoreclearly,andalsothegroundsofCalyste’shope。AtthishourtheChevalierduHalgawasalwaystobeseentakinghisdogforawalkonthemall。Thebaroness,certainoffindinghimthere,putonherbonnetandshawlandwentout。
  ThesightoftheBaronneduGuenicwalkinginGuerandeelsewherethantochurch,oronthetwoprettyroadsselectedaspromenadeson/fete/
  days,accompaniedbythebaronandMademoiselledePen-Hoel,wasaneventsoremarkablethattwohourslater,throughoutthewholetown,peopleaccostedeachotherwiththeremark,——”MadameduGuenicwentoutto-day;didyoumeether?”
  AssoonasthisamazingnewsreachedtheearsofMademoiselledePen-
  Hoel,shesaidtoherniece,——”SomethingveryextraordinaryishappeningattheduGuenics。””CalysteismadlyinlovewiththatbeautifulMarquisedeRochefide,”
  saidCharlotte。”IoughttoleaveGuerandeandreturntoNantes。”
  TheChevalierduHalga,muchsurprisedatbeingsoughtbythebaroness,releasedthechainofhislittledog,awarethathecouldnotdividehimselfbetweenthetwointerests。”Chevalier,”beganthebaroness,”youusedtopractisegallantry?”
  HeretheChevalierduHalgastraightenedhimselfupwithanairthatwasnotalittlevain。MadameduGuenic,withoutnaminghersonorthemarquise,repeated,asnearlyaspossible,thelove-letter,andaskedthechevaliertoexplaintoherthemeaningofsuchananswer。DuHalgasnuffedtheairandstrokedhischin;helistenedattentively;
  hemadegrimaces;andfinally,helookedfixedlyatthebaronesswithaknowingair,ashesaid,——”Whenthoroughbredhorseswanttoleapabarrier,theygouptoreconnoitreit,andsmellitover。Calysteisaluckydog!””Oh,hush!”shecried。”I’mmute。Ah!intheoldentimeIknewallaboutit,”saidtheoldchevalier,strikinganattitude。”Theweatherwasfine,thebreezenor’east。/Tudieu/!howthe’Belle-Poule’keptclosetothewindthatdaywhen——Oh!”hecried,interruptinghimself,”weshallhaveachangeofweather;myearsarebuzzing,andIfeelthepaininmyribs!Youknow,don’tyou,thatthebattleofthe’Belle-Poule’wassofamousthatwomenworehead-dresses’/ala/Belle-Poule。’MadamedeKergarouetwasthefirsttocometotheoperainthathead-dress,andIsaidtoher:’Madame,youaredressedforconquest。’Thespeechwasrepeatedfromboxtoboxallthroughthehouse。”
  Thebaronesslistenedpleasantlytotheoldhero,who,faithfultothelawsofgallantry,escortedhertothealleyofherhouse,neglectingThisbe。ThesecretofThisbe’sexistencehadonceescapedhim。ThisbewasthegranddaughterofadelightfulThisbe,thepetofMadamel’AmiraledeKergarouet,firstwifeoftheComtedeKergarouet,thechevalier’scommandingofficer。ThepresentThisbewaseighteenyearsold。
  ThebaronessranuptoCalyste’sroom。Hewasabsent;shesawaletter,notsealed,butaddressedtoMadamedeRochefide,lyingonthetable。Aninvinciblecuriositycompelledtheanxiousmothertoreadit。Thisactofindiscretionwascruellypunished。TheletterrevealedtoherthedepthsofthegulfintowhichhispassionwashurlingCalyste。
  CalystetoMadamelaMarquisedeRochefide。
  WhatcareIfortheraceoftheduGuenicsinthesedays,Beatrix?
  whatistheirnametome?MynameisBeatrix;thehappinessofBeatrixismyhappiness;herlifeismylife,andallmyfortuneisinherheart。Ourestateshavebeenmortgagedthesetwohundredyears,andsotheymayremainfortwohundredmore;ourfarmershavechargeofthem;noonecantakethemfromus。Toseeyou,toloveyou,——thatismyproperty,myobject,myreligion!
  Youtalktomeofmarrying!theverythoughtconvulsesmyheart。
  IsthereanotherBeatrix?Iwillmarrynoonebutyou;Iwillwaitforyoutwentyyears,ifneedbe。Iamyoung,andyouwillbeeverbeautiful。Mymotherisasaint。Idonotblameher,butshehasneverloved。Iknownowwhatshehaslost,andwhatsacrificesshehasmade。Youhavetaughtme,Beatrix,toloveherbetter;sheisinmyheartwithyou,andnoothercaneverbethere;sheisyouronlyrival,——isnotthistosaythatyoureigninthatheartsupreme?Thereforeyourargumentshavenoforceuponmymind。
  AsforCamille,youneedonlysaytheword,orgivemeameresign,andIwillaskhertotellyouherselfthatIdonotloveher。Sheisthemotherofmyintellect;nothingmore,nothingless。FromthemomentthatIfirstsawyoushebecametomeasister,afriend,acomrade,whatyouwillofthatkind;butwehavenorightsotherthanthoseoffriendshipuponeachother。I
  tookherforawomanuntilIsawyou。YouhaveprovedtomethatCamilleisaman;sheswims,hunts,smokes,drinks,ridesonhorseback,writesandanalyzesheartsandbooks;shehasnoweaknesses;shemarchesoninallherstrength;hermotionsevenhavenoresemblancetoyourgracefulmovements,toyourstep,airyastheflightofabird。Neitherhassheyourvoiceoflove,yourtendereyes,yourgraciousmanner;sheisCamilleMaupin;thereisnothingofthewomanabouther,whereasinyouareallthethingsofwomanhoodthatIlove。Ithasseemedtome,fromthefirstmomentwhenIsawyou,thatyouweremine。
  Youwilllaughatthatfancy,butithasgrownandisgrowing。Itseemstomeunnatural,anomalousthatweshouldbeapart。Youaremysoul,mylife;Icannotlivewhereyouarenot!
  Letmeloveyou!Letusfly!letusgointosomecountrywhereyouknownoone,whereonlyGodandIcanreachyourheart!Mymother,wholovesyou,mightsomedayfollowus。Irelandisfullofcastles;mymother’sfamilywilllendusone。Ah,Beatrix,letusgo!Aboat,afewsailors,andwearethere,beforeanyonecanknowwehavefledthisworldyoufearsomuch。
  Youhaveneverbeenloved。IfeelitasIre-readyourletter,inwhichIfancyIcanseethatifthereasonsyoubringforwarddidnotexist,youwouldletyourselfbelovedbyme。Beatrix,asacredlovewipesoutthepast。Yes,IloveyousotrulythatI
  couldwishyoudoublyshamedifsomylovemightproveitselfbyholdingyouasaint!
  Youcallmyloveaninsult。Oh,Beatrix,youdonotthinkitso!
  Theloveofnobleyouth——andyouhavecalledmethat——wouldhonoraqueen。Therefore,to-morrowletuswalkaslovers,handinhand,amongtherocksandbesidethesea;yourstepuponthesandsofmyoldBrittanywillblessthemanewtome!Givemethisdayofhappiness;andthatpassingalms,unremembered,alas!byyou,willbeeternalrichestoyourCalyste。
  Thebaronessletfalltheletter,withoutreadingallofit。Shekneltuponachair,andmadeamentalprayertoGodtosaveherCalyste’sreason,toputhismadness,hiserrorfarawayfromhim;toleadhimfromthepathinwhichshenowbeheldhim。”Whatareyoudoing,mother?”saidCalyste,enteringtheroom。”IamprayingtoGodforyou,”sheanswered,simply,turninghertearfuleyesuponhim。”Ihavecommittedthesinofreadingthatletter。MyCalysteismad!””Asweetmadness!”saidtheyoungman,kissingher。”IwishIcouldseethatwoman,”shesighed。”Mamma,”saidCalyste,”weshalltakeaboatto-morrowandcrosstoCroisic。Ifyouareonthejettyyoucanseeher。”
  Sosaying,hesealedhisletteranddepartedforLesTouches。
  Thatwhich,aboveall,terrifiedthebaronesswastoseeasentimentattaining,bytheforceofitsowninstinct,totheclear-sightednessofpractisedexperience。Calyste’slettertoBeatrixwassuchastheChevalierduHalga,withhisknowledgeoftheworld,mighthavedictated。
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  Perhapsoneofthegreatestenjoymentsthatsmallmindsorinferiormindscanobtainisthatofdeceivingagreatsoul,andlayingsnaresforit。BeatrixknewherselffarbeneathCamilleMaupin。Thisinferioritylaynotonlyinthecollectionofmentalandmoralqualitieswhichwecall/talent/,butinthethingsoftheheartcalled/passion/。
  AtthemomentwhenCalystewashurryingtoLesToucheswiththeimpetuosityofafirstloveborneonthewingsofhope,themarquisewasfeelingakeendelightinknowingherselftheobjectofthefirstloveofsocharmingayoungman。Shedidnotgosofarastowishherselfasharerinthesentiment,butshethoughtitheroismonherparttorepressthe/capriccio/,astheItalianssay。ShethoughtshewasequallingCamille’sdevotion,andtoldherself,moreover,thatshewassacrificingherselftoherfriend。ThevanitiespeculiartoFrenchwomen,whichconstitutethecelebratedcoquetryofwhichshewassosignalaninstance,wereflatteredanddeeplysatisfiedbyCalyste’slove。Assailedbysuchpowerfulseduction,shewasresistingit,andhervirtuessanginhersoulaconcertofpraiseandself-
  approval。