Hurstwoodbegantofeeladeepsympathyforherandforhimself。
Hecouldalmostfeelthatshewastalkingtohim。Hewas,bya,combinationoffeelingsandentanglements,almostdeludedbythat,qualityofvoiceandmannerwhich,likeapatheticstrainof,music,seemseverapersonalandintimatething。Pathoshasthis,quality,thatitseemseveraddressedtoonealone。
“Andyet,shecanbeveryhappywithhim,“wentonthelittle,actress。”Hersunnytemper,herjoyousfacewillbrightenany,home。”
Sheturnedslowlytowardtheaudiencewithoutseeing。Therewas,somuchsimplicityinhermovementsthatsheseemedwhollyalone。
Thenshefoundaseatbyatable,andturnedoversomebooks,devotingathoughttothem。
“WithnolongingsforwhatImaynothave,“shebreathedin,conclusion——anditwasalmostasigh——“myexistencehiddenfrom,allsavetwointhewideworld,andmakingmyjoyoutofthejoy,ofthatinnocentgirlwhowillsoonbehiswife。”
Hurstwoodwassorrywhenacharacter,knownasPeachBlossom,interruptedher。Hestirredirritably,forhewishedhertogo,on。Hewascharmedbythepaleface,thelissomefigure,draped,inpearlgrey,withacoiledstringofpearlsatthethroat。
Carriehadtheairofonewhowaswearyandinneedof,protection,and,underthefascinatingmake-believeofthe,moment,heroseinfeelinguntilhewasreadyinspirittogoto,herandeaseheroutofhermiserybyaddingtohisowndelight。
InamomentCarriewasaloneagain,andwassaying,with,animation:
“Imustreturntothecity,nomatterwhatdangersmaylurkhere。
Imustgo,secretlyifIcan;openly,ifImust。”
Therewasasoundofhorses’hoofsoutside,andthenRay’svoice,saying:
“No,Ishallnotrideagain。Puthimup。”
Heentered,andthenbeganascenewhichhadasmuchtodowith,thecreationofthetragedyofaffectioninHurstwoodasanything,inhispeculiarandinvolvedcareer。ForCarriehadresolvedto,makesomethingofthisscene,and,nowthatthecuehadcome,it,begantotakeafeelingholduponher。BothHurstwoodandDrouet,notedtherisingsentimentassheproceeded。
“IthoughtyouhadgonewithPearl,“shesaidtoherlover。
“Ididgopartoftheway,butIleftthePartyamiledownthe,road。”
“YouandPearlhadnodisagreement?”
“No——yes;thatis,wealwayshave。Oursocialbarometersalways,standat’cloudy’and’overcast。’“
“Andwhosefaultisthat?”shesaid,easily。
“Notmine,“heanswered,pettishly。”IknowIdoallIcan——I
sayallIcan——butshe——“
ThiswasratherawkwardlyputbyPatton,butCarrieredeemedit,withagracewhichwasinspiring。
“Butsheisyourwife,“shesaid,fixingherwholeattentionupon,thestilledactor,andsofteningthequalityofhervoiceuntil,itwasagainlowandmusical。”Ray,myfriend,courtshipisthe,textfromwhichthewholesermonofmarriedlifetakesitstheme。
Donotletyoursbediscontentedandunhappy。”
Sheputhertwolittlehandstogetherandpressedthem,appealingly。
Hurstwoodgazedwithslightlypartedlips。Drouetwasfidgeting,withsatisfaction。
“Tobemywife,yes,“wentontheactorinamannerwhichwas,weakbycomparison,butwhichcouldnotnowspoilthetender,atmospherewhichCarriehadcreatedandmaintained。Shedidnot,seemtofeelthathewaswretched。Shewouldhavedonenearlyas,wellwithablockofwood。Theaccessoriessheneededwere,withinherownimagination。Theactingofotherscouldnot,affectthem。
“Andyourepentalready?”shesaid,slowly。
“Ilostyou,“hesaid,seizingherlittlehand,“andIwasatthe,mercyofanyflirtwhochosetogivemeaninvitinglook。Itwas,yourfault——youknowitwas——whydidyouleaveme?”
Carrieturnedslowlyaway,andseemedtobemasteringsome,impulseinsilence。Thensheturnedback。
“Ray,“shesaid,“thegreatesthappinessIhaveeverfelthas,beenthethoughtthatallyouraffectionwasforeverbestowed,uponavirtuouswoman,yourequalinfamily,fortune,and,accomplishments。Whatarevelationdoyoumaketomenow!What,isitmakesyoucontinuallywarwithyourhappiness?”
Thelastquestionwasaskedsosimplythatitcametothe,audienceandtheloverasapersonalthing。
Atlastitcametothepartwheretheloverexclaimed,“Betome,asyouusedtobe。”
Carrieanswered,withaffectingsweetness,“Icannotbethatto,you,butIcanspeakinthespiritoftheLaurawhoisdeadto,youforever。”
“Beitasyouwill,“saidPatton。
Hurstwoodleanedforward。Thewholeaudiencewassilentand,intent。
“Letthewomanyoulookuponbewiseorvain,“saidCarrie,her,eyesbentsadlyuponthelover,whohadsunkintoaseat,“beautifulorhomely,richorpoor,shehasbutonethingshecan,reallygiveorrefuse——herheart。”
Drouetfeltascratchinhisthroat。
“Herbeauty,herwit,heraccomplishments,shemayselltoyou;
butherloveisthetreasurewithoutmoneyandwithoutprice。”
Themanagersufferedthisasapersonalappeal。Itcametohim,asiftheywerealone,andhecouldhardlyrestrainthetearsfor,sorrowoverthehopeless,pathetic,andyetdaintyandappealing,womanwhomheloved。Drouetalsowasbesidehimself。Hewas,resolvingthathewouldbetoCarriewhathehadneverbeen,before。Hewouldmarryher,byGeorge!Shewasworthit。
“Sheasksonlyinreturn,“saidCarrie,scarcelyhearingthe,small,scheduledreplyofherlover,andputtingherselfeven,moreinharmonywiththeplaintivemelodynowissuingfromthe,orchestra,“thatwhenyoulookuponheryoureyesshallspeak,devotion;thatwhenyouaddressheryourvoiceshallbegentle,loving,andkind;thatyoushallnotdespiseherbecauseshe,cannotunderstandallatonceyourvigorousthoughtsand,ambitiousdesigns;for,whenmisfortuneandevilhavedefeated,yourgreatestpurposes,herloveremainstoconsoleyou。You,looktothetrees,“shecontinued,whileHurstwoodrestrainedhis,feelingsonlybythegrimmestrepression,“forstrengthand,grandeur;donotdespisetheflowersbecausetheirfragranceis,alltheyhavetogive。Remember,“sheconcluded,tenderly,“love,isallawomanhastogive,“andshelaidastrange,sweetaccent,ontheall,“butitistheonlythingwhichGodpermitsusto,carrybeyondthegrave。”
Thetwomenwereinthemostharrowedstateofaffection。They,scarcelyheardthefewremainingwordswithwhichthescene,concluded。Theyonlysawtheiridol,movingaboutwithappealing,grace,continuingapowerwhichtothemwasarevelation。
Hurstwoodresolvedathousandsthings,Drouetaswell。They,joinedequallyintheburstofapplausewhichcalledCarrieout。
Drouetpoundedhishandsuntiltheyached。Thenhejumpedup,againandstartedout。Ashewent,Carriecameout,and,seeing,animmensebasketofflowersbeinghurrieddowntheaisletoward,hershewaited。TheywereHurstwood’s。Shelookedtowardthe,manager’sboxforamoment,caughthiseye,andsmiled。Hecould,haveleapedoutoftheboxtoenfoldher。Heforgottheneedof,circumspectnesswhichhismarriedstateenforced。Healmost,forgotthathehadwithhimintheboxthosewhoknewhim。By,theLord,hewouldhavethatlovelygirlifittookhisall。He,wouldactatonce。ThisshouldbetheendofDrouet,anddon’t,youforgetit。Hewouldnotwaitanotherday。Thedrummer,shouldnothaveher。
Hewassoexcitedthathecouldnotstayinthebox。Hewent,intothelobby,andthenintothestreet,thinking。Drouetdid,notreturn。Inafewminutesthelastactwasover,andhewas,crazytohaveCarriealone。Hecursedtheluckthatcouldkeep,himsmiling,bowing,shamming,whenhewantedtotellherthathe,lovedher,whenhewantedtowhispertoheralone。Hegroanedas,hesawthathishopeswerefutile。Hemusteventakeherto,supper,shamming。Hefinallywentaboutandaskedhowshewas,gettingalong。Theactorswerealldressing,talking,hurrying,about。Drouetwaspalaveringhimselfwiththeloosenessof,excitementandpassion。Themanagermasteredhimselfonlybya,greateffort。
“Wearegoingtosupper,ofcourse,“hesaid,withavoicethat,wasamockeryofhisheart。
“Oh,yes,“saidCarrie,smiling。
Thelittleactresswasinfinefeather。Shewasrealisingnow,whatitwastobepetted。Foronceshewastheadmired,the,sought-for。Theindependenceofsuccessnowmadeitsfirstfaint,showing。Withthetablesturned,shewaslookingdown,rather,thanup,toherlover。Shedidnotfullyrealisethatthiswas,so,buttherewassomethingincondescensioncomingfromher,whichwasinfinitelysweet。Whenshewasreadytheyclimbedinto,thewaitingcoachanddrovedowntown;once,only,didshefind,anopportunitytoexpressherfeeling,andthatwaswhenthe,managerprecededDrouetinthecoachandsatbesideher。Before,DrouetwasfullyinshehadsqueezedHurstwood’shandina,gentle,impulsivemanner。Themanagerwasbesidehimselfwith,affection。Hecouldhavesoldhissoultobewithheralone。
“Ah,“hethought,“theagonyofit。”
Drouethungon,thinkinghewasallinall。Thedinnerwas,spoiledbyhisenthusiasm。Hurstwoodwenthomefeelingasifhe,shoulddieifhedidnotfindaffectionaterelief。Hewhispered,“to-morrow“passionatelytoCarrie,andsheunderstood。He,walkedawayfromthedrummerandhisprizeatpartingfeelingas,ifhecouldslayhimandnotregret。Carriealsofeltthemisery,ofit。
“Good-night,“hesaid,simulatinganeasyfriendliness。
“Good-night,“saidthelittleactress,tenderly。
“Thefool!”hesaid,nowhatingDrouet。”Theidiot!I’lldohim,yet,andthatquick!We’llseeto-morrow。”
“Well,ifyouaren’tawonder,“Drouetwassaying,complacently,squeezingCarrie’sarm。”Youarethedandiestlittlegirlon,earth。”
ChapterXX
THELUREOFTHESPIRIT——THEFLESHINPURSUIT
PassioninamanofHurstwood’snaturetakesavigorousform。It,isnomusing,dreamything。Thereisnoneofthetendencyto,singoutsideofmylady’swindow——tolanguishandrepineinthe,faceofdifficulties。Inthenighthewaslonggettingtosleep,becauseoftoomuchthinking,andinthemorninghewasearly,awake,seizingwithalacrityuponthesamedearsubjectand,pursuingitwithvigour。Hewasoutofsortsphysically,aswell,asdisorderedmentally,fordidhenotdelightinanewmannerin,hisCarrie,andwasnotDrouetintheway?Neverwasmanmore,harassedthanhebythethoughtsofhislovebeingheldbythe,elated,flush-mannereddrummer。Hewouldhavegivenanything,it,seemedtohim,tohavethecomplicationended——tohaveCarrie,acquiescetoanarrangementwhichwoulddisposeofDrouet,effectuallyandforever。
Whattodo。Hedressedthinking。Hemovedaboutinthesame,chamberwithhiswife,unmindfulofherpresence。
Atbreakfasthefoundhimselfwithoutanappetite。Themeatto,whichhehelpedhimselfremainedonhisplateuntouched。His,coffeegrewcold,whilehescannedthepaperindifferently。Here,andtherehereadalittlething,butrememberednothing。
Jessicahadnotyetcomedown。Hiswifesatatoneendofthe,tablerevolvingthoughtsofherowninsilence。Anewservant,hadbeenrecentlyinstalledandhadforgotthenapkins。Onthis,accountthesilencewasirritablybrokenbyareproof。
“I’vetoldyouaboutthisbefore,Maggie,“saidMrs。Hurstwood。
“I’mnotgoingtotellyouagain。”
Hurstwoodtookaglanceathiswife。Shewasfrowning。Justnow,hermannerirritatedhimexcessively。Hernextremarkwas,addressedtohim。
“Haveyoumadeupyourmind,George,whenyouwilltakeyour,vacation?”
Itwascustomaryforthemtodiscusstheregularsummeroutingat,thisseasonoftheyear。
“Notyet,“hesaid,“I’mverybusyjustnow。”
“Well,you’llwanttomakeupyourmindprettysoon,won’tyou,ifwe’regoing?”shereturned。
“Iguesswehaveafewdaysyet,“hesaid。
“Hmff,“shereturned。”Don’twaituntiltheseason’sover。”
Shestirredinaggravationasshesaidthis。
“Thereyougoagain,“heobserved。”OnewouldthinkIneverdid,anything,thewayyoubegin。”
“Well,Iwanttoknowaboutit,“shereiterated。
“You’vegotafewdaysyet,“heinsisted。”You’llnotwantto,startbeforetheracesareover。”
Hewasirritatedtothinkthatthisshouldcomeupwhenhewished,tohavehisthoughtsforotherpurposes。
“Well,wemay。Jessicadoesn’twanttostayuntiltheendofthe,races。”
“Whatdidyouwantwithaseasonticket,then?”
“Uh!”shesaid,usingthesoundasanexclamationofdisgust,“I’llnotarguewithyou,“andtherewitharosetoleavethe,table。
“Say,“hesaid,rising,puttinganoteofdeterminationinhis,voicewhichcausedhertodelayherdeparture,“what’sthematter,withyouoflate?Can’tItalkwithyouanymore?”
“Certainly,youcanTALKwithme,“shereplied,layingemphasis,ontheword。
“Well,youwouldn’tthinksobythewayyouact。Now,youwant,toknowwhenI’llbeready——notforamonthyet。Maybenot,then。”
“We’llgowithoutyou。”
“Youwill,eh?”hesneered。
“Yes,wewill。”
Hewasastonishedatthewoman’sdetermination,butitonly,irritatedhimthemore。
“Well,we’llseeaboutthat。Itseemstomeyou’retryingtorun,thingswithaprettyhighhandoflate。Youtalkasthoughyou,settledmyaffairsforme。Well,youdon’t。Youdon’tregulate,anythingthat’sconnectedwithme。Ifyouwanttogo,go,but,youwon’thurrymebyanysuchtalkasthat。”
Hewasthoroughlyarousednow。Hisdarkeyessnapped,andhe,crunchedhispaperashelaiditdown。Mrs。Hurstwoodsaid,nothingmore。Hewasjustfinishingwhensheturnedonherheel,andwentoutintothehallandupstairs。Hepausedforamoment,asifhesitating,thensatdownanddrankalittlecoffee,and,thereafteraroseandwentforhishatandglovesuponthemain,floor。
Hiswifehadreallynotanticipatedarowofthischaracter。She,hadcomedowntothebreakfasttablefeelingalittleoutof,sortswithherselfandrevolvingaschemewhichshehadinher,mind。Jessicahadcalledherattentiontothefactthatthe,raceswerenotwhattheyweresupposedtobe。Thesocial,opportunitieswerenotwhattheyhadthoughttheywouldbethis,year。Thebeautifulgirlfoundgoingeverydayadullthing。
Therewasanearlierexodusthisyearofpeoplewhowereanybody,tothewateringplacesandEurope。Inherowncircleof,acquaintancesseveralyoungmeninwhomshewasinterestedhad,gonetoWaukesha。Shebegantofeelthatshewouldliketogo,too,andhermotheragreedwithher。
Accordingly,Mrs。Hurstwooddecidedtobroachthesubject。She,wasthinkingthisoverwhenshecamedowntothetable,butfor,somereasontheatmospherewaswrong。Shewasnotsure,afterit,wasallover,justhowthetroublehadbegun。Shewasdetermined,now,however,thatherhusbandwasabrute,andthat,underno,circumstances,wouldsheletthisgobyunsettled。Shewould,havemorelady-liketreatmentorshewouldknowwhy。
Forhispart,themanagerwasloadedwiththecareofthisnew,argumentuntilhereachedhisofficeandstartedfromthereto,meetCarrie。Thentheothercomplicationsoflove,desire,and,oppositionpossessedhim。Histhoughtsfledonbeforehimupon,eagles’wings。HecouldhardlywaituntilheshouldmeetCarrie,facetoface。Whatwasthenight,afterall,withouther——what,theday?Shemustandshouldbehis。
Forherpart,Carriehadexperiencedaworldoffancyandfeeling,sinceshehadlefthim,thenightbefore。Shehadlistenedto,Drouet’senthusiasticmaunderingswithmuchregardforthatpart,whichconcernedherself,withverylittleforthatwhichaffected,hisowngain。Shekepthimatsuchlengthsasshecould,because,herthoughtswerewithherowntriumph。ShefeltHurstwood’s,passionasadelightfulbackgroundtoherownachievement,and,shewonderedwhathewouldhavetosay。Shewassorryforhim,too,withthatpeculiarsorrowwhichfindssomething,complimentarytoitselfinthemiseryofanother。Shewasnow,experiencingthefirstshadesoffeelingofthatsubtlechange,whichremovesoneoutoftheranksofthesuppliantsintothe,linesofthedispensersofcharity。Shewas,allinall,exceedinglyhappy。
Onthemorrow,however,therewasnothinginthepapers,concerningtheevent,and,inviewoftheflowofcommon,everydaythingsabout,itnowlostashadeoftheglowofthe,previousevening。DrouethimselfwasnottalkingsomuchOFas,FORher。Hefeltinstinctivelythat,forsomereasonorother,heneededreconstructioninherregard。
“Ithink,“hesaid,ashesprucedaroundtheirchambersthenext,morning,preparatorytogoingdowntown,“thatI’llstraighten,outthatlittledealofminethismonthandthenwe’llget,married。IwastalkingwithMosheraboutthatyesterday。”
“No,youwon’t,“saidCarrie,whowascomingtofeelacertain,faintpowertojestwiththedrummer。
“Yes,Iwill,“heexclaimed,morefeelinglythanusual,adding,withthetoneofonewhopleads,“Don’tyoubelievewhatI’ve,toldyou?”
Carrielaughedalittle。
“OfcourseIdo,“sheanswered。
Drouet’sassurancenowmisgavehim。Shallowaswashismental,observation,therewasthatinthethingswhichhadhappened,whichmadehislittlepowerofanalysisuseless。Carriewas,stillwithhim,butnothelplessandpleading。Therewasalilt,inhervoicewhichwasnew。Shedidnotstudyhimwitheyes,expressiveofdependence。Thedrummerwasfeelingtheshadowof,somethingwhichwascoming。Itcolouredhisfeelingsandmade,himdevelopthoselittleattentionsandsaythoselittlewords,whichweremereforefendationsagainstdanger。
Shortlyafterwardhedeparted,andCarriepreparedforher,meetingwithHurstwood。Shehurriedathertoilet,whichwas,soonmade,andhasteneddownthestairs。Atthecornershe,passedDrouet,buttheydidnotseeeachother。
Thedrummerhadforgottensomebillswhichhewishedtoturninto,hishouse。Hehastenedupthestairsandburstintotheroom,butfoundonlythechambermaid,whowascleaningup。
“Hello,“heexclaimed,halftohimself,“hasCarriegone?”
“Yourwife?Yes,shewentoutjustafewminutesago。”
“That’sstrange,“thoughtDrouet。”Shedidn’tsayawordtome。
Iwonderwhereshewent?”
Hehastenedabout,rummaginginhisvaliseforwhathewanted,andfinallypocketingit。Thenheturnedhisattentiontohis,fairneighbour,whowasgood-lookingandkindlydisposedtowards,him。
“Whatareyouupto?”hesaid,smiling。
“Justcleaning,“shereplied,stoppingandwindingadusting,towelaboutherhand。
“Tiredofit?”
“Notsovery。”
“Letmeshowyousomething,“hesaid,affably,comingoverand,takingoutofhispocketalittlelithographedcardwhichhad,beenissuedbyawholesaletobaccocompany。Onthiswasprinted,apictureofaprettygirl,holdingastripedparasol,the,coloursofwhichcouldbechangedbymeansofarevolvingdiskin,theback,whichshowedred,yellow,green,andbluethrough,littleintersticesmadeinthegroundoccupiedbytheumbrella,top。
“Isn’tthatclever?”hesaid,handingittoherandshowingher,howitworked。”Youneversawanythinglikethatbefore。”
“Isn’titnice?”sheanswered。
“Youcanhaveitifyouwantit,“heremarked。
“That’saprettyringyouhave,“hesaid,touchingacommonplace,settingwhichadornedthehandholdingthecardhehadgivenher。
“Doyouthinkso?”
“That’sright,“heanswered,makinguseofapretenceat,examinationtosecureherfinger。”That’sfine。”
Theicebeingthusbroken,helaunchedintofurtherobservation,pretendingtoforgetthatherfingerswerestillretainedbyhis。
Shesoonwithdrewthem,however,andretreatedafewfeettorest,againstthewindow-sill。
“Ididn’tseeyouforalongtime,“shesaid,coquettishly,repulsingoneofhisexuberantapproaches。”Youmusthavebeen,away。”
“Iwas,“saidDrouet。
“Doyoutravelfar?”
“Prettyfar——yes。”
“Doyoulikeit?”
“Oh,notverywell。Yougettiredofitafterawhile。”
“IwishIcouldtravel,“saidthegirl,gazingidlyoutofthe,window。
“Whathasbecomeofyourfriend,Mr。Hurstwood?”shesuddenly,asked,bethinkingherselfofthemanager,who,fromherown,observation,seemedtocontainpromisingmaterial。
“He’shereintown。Whatmakesyouaskabouthim?”
“Oh,nothing,onlyhehasn’tbeenheresinceyougotback。”
“Howdidyoucometoknowhim?”
“Didn’tItakeuphisnameadozentimesinthelastmonth?”
“Getout,“saidthedrummer,lightly。”Hehasn’tcalledmore,thanhalfadozentimessincewe’vebeenhere。”
“Hehasn’t,eh?”saidthegirl,smiling。”That’sallyouknow,aboutit。”
Drouettookonaslightlymoreserioustone。Hewasuncertainas,towhethershewasjokingornot。
“Tease,“hesaid,“whatmakesyousmilethatway?”
“Oh,nothing。”
“Haveyouseenhimrecently?”
“Notsinceyoucameback,“shelaughed。
“Before?”
“Certainly。”
“Howoften?”
“Why,nearlyeveryday。”
Shewasamischievousnewsmonger,andwaskeenlywonderingwhat,theeffectofherwordswouldbe。
“Whodidhecometosee?”askedthedrummer,incredulously。
“Mrs。Drouet。”
Helookedratherfoolishatthisanswer,andthenattemptedto,correcthimselfsoasnottoappearadupe。
“Well,“hesaid,“whatofit?”
“Nothing,“repliedthegirl,herheadcockedcoquettishlyonone,side。
“He’sanoldfriend,“hewenton,gettingdeeperintothemire。
Hewouldhavegoneonfurtherwithhislittleflirtation,butthe,tasteforitwastemporarilyremoved。Hewasquiterelievedwhen,thegirl’snamedwascalledfrombelow。
“I’vegottogo,“shesaid,movingawayfromhimairily。
“I’llseeyoulater,“hesaid,withapretenceofdisturbanceat,beinginterrupted。
Whenshewasgone,hegavefreerplaytohisfeelings。Hisface,nevereasilycontrolledbyhim,expressedalltheperplexityand,disturbancewhichhefelt。CoulditbethatCarriehadreceived,somanyvisitsandyetsaidnothingaboutthem?WasHurstwood,lying?Whatdidthechambermaidmeanbyit,anyway?Hehad,thoughttherewassomethingoddaboutCarrie’smanneratthe,time。Whydidshelooksodisturbedwhenhehadaskedherhow,manytimesHurstwoodhadcalled?ByGeorge!Herememberednow。
Therewassomethingstrangeaboutthewholething。
Hesatdowninarocking-chairtothinkthebetter,drawingup,onelegonhiskneeandfrowningmightily。Hismindranonata,greatrate。
AndyetCarriehadn’tactedoutoftheordinary。Itcouldn’tbe,byGeorge,thatshewasdeceivinghim。Shehadn’tactedthat,way。Why,evenlastnightshehadbeenasfriendlytowardhimas,couldbe,andHurstwoodtoo。Lookhowtheyacted!Hecould,hardlybelievetheywouldtrytodeceivehim。
Histhoughtsburstintowords。
“Shedidactsortoffunnyattimes。Hereshehaddressed,and,goneoutthismorningandneversaidaword。”
Hescratchedhisheadandpreparedtogodowntown。Hewasstill,frowning。Ashecameintothehallheencounteredthegirl,who,wasnowlookingafteranotherchamber。Shehadonawhite,dustingcap,beneathwhichherchubbyfaceshonegood-naturedly。
Drouetalmostforgothisworryinthefactthatshewassmiling,onhim。Heputhishandfamiliarlyonhershoulder,asifonly,togreetherinpassing。
“Gotoverbeingmad?”shesaid,stillmischievouslyinclined。
“I’mnotmad,“heanswered。
“Ithoughtyouwere,“shesaid,smiling。
“Quityourfoolingaboutthat,“hesaid,inanoffhandway。
“Wereyouserious?”
“Certainly,“sheanswered。Then,withanairofonewhodidnot,intentionallymeantocreatetrouble,“Hecamelotsoftimes。I
thoughtyouknew。”
ThegameofdeceptionwasupwithDrouet。Hedidnottryto,simulateindifferencefurther。
“Didhespendtheeveningshere?”heasked。
“Sometimes。Sometimestheywentout。”
“Intheevening?”
“Yes。Youmustn’tlooksomad,though。”
“I’mnot,“hesaid。”Didanyoneelseseehim?”
“Ofcourse,“saidthegirl,asif,afterall,itwerenothingin,particular。
“Howlongagowasthis?”
“Justbeforeyoucameback。”
Thedrummerpinchedhislipnervously。
“Don’tsayanything,willyou?”heasked,givingthegirl’sarma,gentlesqueeze。
“Certainlynot,“shereturned。”Iwouldn’tworryoverit。”
“Allright,“hesaid,passingon,seriouslybroodingforonce,andyetnotwhollyunconsciousofthefactthathewasmakinga,mostexcellentimpressionuponthechambermaid。
“I’llseeheraboutthat,“hesaidtohimself,passionately,feelingthathehadbeenundulywronged。”I’llfindout,b’George,whethershe’llactthatwayornot。”
ChapterXXI
THELUREOFTHESPIRIT——THEFLESHINPURSUIT
WhenCarriecameHurstwoodhadbeenwaitingmanyminutes。His,bloodwaswarm;hisnerveswroughtup。Hewasanxioustoseethe,womanwhohadstirredhimsoprofoundlythenightbefore。
“Hereyouare,“hesaid,repressedly,feelingaspringinhis,limbsandanelationwhichwastragicinitself。
“Yes,“saidCarrie。
Theywalkedonasifboundforsomeobjectivepoint,while,Hurstwooddrankintheradianceofherpresence。Therustleof,herprettyskirtwaslikemusictohim。
“Areyousatisfied?”heasked,thinkingofhowwellshedidthe,nightbefore。
“Areyou?”
Hetightenedhisfingersashesawthesmileshegavehim。
“Itwaswonderful。”
Carrielaughedecstatically。
“ThatwasoneofthebestthingsI’veseeninalongtime,“he,added。
Hewasdwellingonherattractivenessashehadfeltitthe,eveningbefore,andminglingitwiththefeelingherpresence,inspirednow。
Carriewasdwellingintheatmospherewhichthismancreatedfor,her。Alreadyshewasenlivenedandsuffusedwithaglow。She,felthisdrawingtowardherineverysoundofhisvoice。
“Thoseweresuchniceflowersyousentme,“shesaid,aftera,momentortwo。”Theywerebeautiful。”
“Gladyoulikedthem,“heanswered,simply。
Hewasthinkingallthetimethatthesubjectofhisdesirewas,beingdelayed。Hewasanxioustoturnthetalktohisown,feelings。Allwasripeforit。HisCarriewasbesidehim。He,wantedtoplungeinandexpostulatewithher,andyethefound,himselffishingforwordsandfeelingforaway。
“Yougothomeallright,“hesaid,gloomily,ofasudden,his,tunemodifyingitselftooneofself-commiseration。
“Yes,“saidCarrie,easily。
Helookedathersteadilyforamoment,slowinghispaceand,fixingherwithhiseye。
Shefeltthefloodoffeeling。
“Howaboutme?”heasked。
ThisconfusedCarrieconsiderably,forsherealisedtheflood-
gateswereopen。Shedidn’tknowexactlywhattoanswer。
“Idon’tknow,“sheanswered。
Hetookhislowerlipbetweenhisteethforamoment,andthen,letitgo。Hestoppedbythewalksideandkickedthegrasswith,histoe。Hesearchedherfacewithatender,appealingglance。
“Won’tyoucomeawayfromhim?”heasked,intensely。
“Idon’tknow,“returnedCarrie,stillillogicallydriftingand,findingnothingatwhichtocatch。
Asamatteroffact,shewasinamosthopelessquandary。Here,wasamanwhomshethoroughlyliked,whoexercisedaninfluence,overher,sufficientalmosttodeludeherintothebeliefthat,shewaspossessedofalivelypassionforhim。Shewasstillthe,victimofhiskeeneyes,hissuavemanners,hisfineclothes。
Shelookedandsawbeforeheramanwhowasmostgraciousand,sympathetic,wholeanedtowardherwithafeelingthatwasa,delighttoobserve。Shecouldnotresisttheglowofhis,temperament,thelightofhiseye。Shecouldhardlykeepfrom,feelingwhathefelt。
Andyetshewasnotwithoutthoughtswhichweredisturbing。What,didheknow?WhathadDrouettoldhim?Wassheawifeinhis,eyes,orwhat?Wouldhemarryher?Evenwhilehetalked,andshe,softened,andhereyeswerelightedwithatenderglow,shewas,askingherselfifDrouethadtoldhimtheywerenotmarried。
TherewasneveranythingatallconvincingaboutwhatDrouet,said。
AndyetshewasnotgrievedatHurstwood’slove。Nostrainof,bitternesswasinitforher,whateverheknew。Hewasevidently,sincere。Hispassionwasrealandwarm。Therewaspowerinwhat,hesaid。Whatshouldshedo?Shewentonthinkingthis,answeringvaguely,languishingaffectionately,andaltogether,drifting,untilshewasonaborderlessseaofspeculation。
“Whydon’tyoucomeaway?”hesaid,tenderly。”Iwillarrange,foryouwhatever——“
“Oh,don’t,“saidCarrie。
“Don’twhat?”heasked。”Whatdoyoumean?”
Therewasalookofconfusionandpaininherface。Shewas,wonderingwhythatmiserablethoughtmustbebroughtin。Shewas,struckasbyabladewiththemiserableprovisionwhichwas,outsidethepaleofmarriage。
Hehimselfrealizedthatitwasawretchedthingtohavedragged,in。Hewantedtoweightheeffectsofit,andyethecouldnot,see。Hewentbeatingon,flushedbyherpresence,clearly,awakened,intenselyenlistedinhisplan。
“Won’tyoucome?”hesaid,beginningoverandwithamore,reverentfeeling。”YouknowIcan’tdowithoutyou——youknowit——
itcan’tgoonthisway——canit?”
“Iknow,“saidCarrie。
“Iwouldn’taskifI——Iwouldn’targuewithyouifIcouldhelp,it。Lookatme,Carrie。Putyourselfinmyplace。Youdon’t,wanttostayawayfromme,doyou?”
Sheshookherheadasifindeepthought。
“Thenwhynotsettlethewholething,onceandforall?”
“Idon’tknow,“saidCarrie。
“Don’tknow!Ah,Carrie,whatmakesyousaythat?Don’ttorment,me。Beserious。”
“Iam,“saidCarrie,softly。
“Youcan’tbe,dearest,andsaythat。NotwhenyouknowhowI
loveyou。Lookatlastnight。”
Hismannerashesaidthiswasthemostquietimaginable。His,faceandbodyretaineduttercomposure。Onlyhiseyesmoved,and,theyflashedasubtle,dissolvingfire。Inthemthewhole,intensityoftheman’snaturewasdistillingitself。
Carriemadenoanswer。
“Howcanyouactthisway,dearest?”heinquired,afteratime。
“Youloveme,don’tyou?”
Heturnedonhersuchastormoffeelingthatshewas,overwhelmed。Forthemomentalldoubtswereclearedaway。
“Yes,“sheanswered,franklyandtenderly。
“Well,thenyou’llcome,won’tyou——cometo-night?”
Carrieshookherheadinspiteofherdistress。
“Ican’twaitanylonger,“urgedHurstwood。”Ifthatistoo,soon,comeSaturday。”
“Whenwillwebemarried?”sheasked,diffidently,forgettingin,herdifficultsituationthatshehadhopedhetookhertobe,Drouet’swife。
Themanagerstarted,hitashewasbyaproblemwhichwasmore,difficultthanhers。Hegavenosignofthethoughtsthat,flashedlikemessagestohismind。
“Anytimeyousay,“hesaid,withease,refusingtodiscolourhis,presentdelightwiththismiserableproblem。
“Saturday?”askedCarrie。
Henoddedhishead。
“Well,ifyouwillmarrymethen,“shesaid,“I’llgo。”
Themanagerlookedathislovelyprize,sobeautiful,sowinsome,sodifficulttobewon,andmadestrangeresolutions。His,passionhadgottentothatstagenowwhereitwasnolonger,colouredwithreason。Hedidnottroubleoverlittlebarriersof,thissortinthefaceofsomuchloveliness。Hewouldacceptthe,situationwithallitsdifficulties;hewouldnottrytoanswer,theobjectionswhichcoldtruththrustuponhim。Hewould,promiseanything,everything,andtrusttofortunetodisentangle,him。HewouldmakeatryforParadise,whatevermightbethe,result。Hewouldbehappy,bytheLord,ifitcostallhonesty,ofstatement,allabandonmentoftruth。
Carrielookedathimtenderly。Shecouldhavelaidherheadupon,hisshoulder,sodelightfuldiditallseem。
“Well,“shesaid,“I’lltryandgetreadythen。”
Hurstwoodlookedintoherprettyface,crossedwithlittle,shadowsofwonderandmisgiving,andthoughthehadneverseen,anythingmorelovely。
“I’llseeyouagainto-morrow,“hesaid,joyously,“andwe’ll,talkovertheplans。”
Hewalkedonwithher,elatedbeyondwords,sodelightfulhad,beentheresult。Heimpressedalongstoryofjoyandaffection,uponher,thoughtherewasbuthereandthereaword。Aftera,half-hourhebegantorealisethatthemeetingmustcometoan,end,soexactingistheworld。
“To-morrow,“hesaidatparting,agayetyofmanneradding,wonderfullytohisbravedemeanour。
“Yes,“saidCarrie,trippingelatedlyaway。
Therehadbeensomuchenthusiasmengenderedthatshewas,believingherselfdeeplyinlove。Shesighedasshethoughtof,herhandsomeadorer。Yes,shewouldgetreadybySaturday。She,wouldgo,andtheywouldbehappy。
ChapterXXII
THEBLAZEOFTHETINDER——FLESHWARSWITHTHEFLESH
ThemisfortuneoftheHurstwoodhouseholdwasduetothefact,thatjealousy,havingbeenbornoflove,didnotperishwithit。
Mrs。Hurstwoodretainedthisinsuchformthatsubsequent,influencescouldtransformitintohate。Hurstwoodwasstill,worthy,inaphysicalsense,oftheaffectionhiswifehadonce,bestoweduponhim,butinasocialsensehefellshort。Withhis,regarddiedhispowertobeattentivetoher,andthis,toa,woman,ismuchgreaterthanoutrightcrimetowardanother。Our,self-lovedictatesourappreciationofthegoodorevilin,another。InMrs。Hurstwooditdiscolouredtheveryhueofher,husband’sindifferentnature。Shesawdesignindeedsand,phraseswhichsprungonlyfromafadedappreciationofher,presence。
Asaconsequence,shewasresentfulandsuspicious。Thejealousy,thatpromptedhertoobserveeveryfallingawayfromthelittle,amenitiesofthemarriedrelationonhispartservedtogiveher,noticeoftheairygracewithwhichhestilltooktheworld。She,couldseefromthescrupulouscarewhichheexercisedinthe,matterofhispersonalappearancethathisinterestinlifehad,abatednotajot。Everymotion,everyglancehadsomethinginit,ofthepleasurehefeltinCarrie,ofthezestthisnewpursuit,ofpleasurelenttohisdays。Mrs。Hurstwoodfeltsomething,sniffingchange,asanimalsdodanger,afaroff。
Thisfeelingwasstrengthenedbyactionsofadirectandmore,potentnatureonthepartofHurstwood。Wehaveseenwithwhat,irritationheshirkedthoselittledutieswhichnolonger,containedanyamusementofsatisfactionforhim,andtheopen,snarlswithwhich,morerecently,heresentedherirritating,goads。Theselittlerowswerereallyprecipitatedbyan,atmospherewhichwassurchargedwithdissension。Thatitwould,shower,withaskysofullofblackeningthunderclouds,would,scarcelybethoughtworthyofcomment。Thus,afterleavingthe,breakfasttablethismorning,raginginwardlyathisblank,declarationofindifferenceatherplans,Mrs。Hurstwood,encounteredJessicainherdressing-room,veryleisurely,arrangingherhair。Hurstwoodhadalreadyleftthehouse。
“Iwishyouwouldn’tbesolatecomingdowntobreakfast,“she,said,addressingJessica,whilemakingforhercrochetbasket。
“Nowherethethingsarequitecold,andyouhaven’teaten。”
Hernaturalcomposurewassadlyruffled,andJessicawasdoomed,tofeelthefagendofthestorm。
“I’mnothungry,“sheanswered。
“Thenwhydon’tyousayso,andletthegirlputawaythethings,insteadofkeepingherwaitingallmorning?”
“Shedoesn’tmind,“answeredJessica,coolly。
“Well,Ido,ifshedoesn’t,“returnedthemother,“and,anyhow,Idon’tlikeyoutotalkthatwaytome。You’retooyoungtoput,onsuchanairwithyourmother。”
“Oh,mamma,don’trow,“;answeredJessica。”What’sthematter,thismorning,anyway?”
“Nothing’sthematter,andI’mnotrowing。Youmustn’tthink,becauseIindulgeyouinsomethingsthatyoucankeepeverybody,waiting。Iwon’thaveit。”
“I’mnotkeepinganybodywaiting,“returnedJessica,sharply,stirredoutofacynicalindifferencetoasharpdefence。”I
saidIwasn’thungry。Idon’twantanybreakfast。”
“Mindhowyouaddressme,missy。I’llnothaveit。Hearmenow;
I’llnothaveit!”
Jessicaheardthislastwhilewalkingoutoftheroom,witha,tossofherheadandaflickofherprettyskirtsindicativeof,theindependenceandindifferenceshefelt。Shedidnotpropose,tobequarrelledwith。
Suchlittleargumentswerealltoofrequent,theresultofa,growthofnatureswhichwerelargelyindependentandselfish。
George,Jr。manifestedevengreatertouchinessandexaggeration,inthematterofhisindividualrights,andattemptedtomakeall,feelthathewasamanwithaman’sprivileges——anassumption,which,ofallthings,ismostgroundlessandpointlessinayouth,ofnineteen。
Hurstwoodwasamanofauthorityandsomefinefeeling,andit,irritatedhimexcessivelytofindhimselfsurroundedmoreand,morebyaworlduponwhichhehadnohold,andofwhichhehada,lesseningunderstanding。
Now,whensuchlittlethings,suchastheproposedearlierstart,toWaukesha,cameup,theymadecleartohimhisposition。He,wasbeingmadetofollow,wasnotleading。When,inaddition,a,sharptemperwasmanifested,andtotheprocessofshouldering,himoutofhisauthoritywasaddedarousingintellectualkick,suchasasneeroracynicallaugh,hewasunabletokeephis,temper。Heflewintohardlyrepressedpassion,andwished,himselfclearofthewholehousehold。Itseemedamost,irritatingdraguponallhisdesiresandopportunities。
Forallthis,hestillretainedthesemblanceofleadershipand,control,eventhoughhiswifewasstrainingtorevolt。Her,displayoftemperandopenassertionofoppositionwerebased,uponnothingmorethanthefeelingthatshecoulddoit。Shehad,nospecialevidencewherewithtojustifyherself——theknowledge,ofsomethingwhichwouldgiveherbothauthorityandexcuse。The,latterwasallthatwaslacking,however,togiveasolid,foundationtowhat,inaway,seemedgroundlessdiscontent。The,clearproofofoneovertdeedwasthecoldbreathneededto,converttheloweringcloudsofsuspicionintoarainofwrath。
AninklingofuntowarddeedsonthepartofHurstwoodhadcome。
DoctorBeale,thehandsomeresidentphysicianofthe,neighbourhood,metMrs。Hurstwoodatherowndoorstepsomedays,afterHurstwoodandCarriehadtakenthedrivewestonWashington,Boulevard。Dr。Beale,comingeastonthesamedrive,had,recognisedHurstwood,butnotbeforehewasquitepasthim。He,wasnotsosureofCarrie——didnotknowwhetheritwas,Hurstwood’swifeordaughter。
“Youdon’tspeaktoyourfriendswhenyoumeetthemoutdriving,doyou?”hesaid,jocosely,toMrs。Hurstwood。
“IfIseethem,Ido。WherewasI?”
“OnWashingtonBoulevard。”heanswered,expectinghereyeto,lightwithimmediateremembrance。
Sheshookherhead。
“Yes,outnearHoyneAvenue。Youwerewithyourhusband。”
“Iguessyou’remistaken,“sheanswered。Then,rememberingher,husband’spartintheaffair,sheimmediatelyfellapreytoa,hostofyoungsuspicions,ofwhich,however,shegavenosign。
“IknowIsawyourhusband,“hewenton。”Iwasn’tsosureabout,you。Perhapsitwasyourdaughter。”
“Perhapsitwas,“saidMrs。Hurstwood,knowingfullwellthat,suchwasnotthecase,asJessicahadbeenhercompanionfor,weeks。Shehadrecoveredherselfsufficientlytowishtoknow,moreofthedetails。
“Wasitintheafternoon?”sheasked,artfully,assuminganair,ofacquaintanceshipwiththematter。
“Yes,abouttwoorthree。”
“ItmusthavebeenJessica,“saidMrs。Hurstwood,notwishingto,seemtoattachanyimportancetotheincident。
Thephysicianhadathoughtortwoofhisown,butdismissedthe,matterasworthyofnofurtherdiscussiononhispartatleast。
Mrs。Hurstwoodgavethisbitofinformationconsiderablethought,duringthenextfewhours,andevendays。Shetookitfor,grantedthatthedoctorhadreallyseenherhusband,andthathe,hadbeenriding,mostlikely,withsomeotherwoman,after,announcinghimselfasBUSYtoher。Asaconsequence,she,recalled,withrisingfeeling,howoftenhehadrefusedtogoto,placeswithher,toshareinlittlevisits,or,indeed,takepart,inanyofthesocialamenitieswhichfurnishedthediversionof,herexistence。Hehadbeenseenatthetheatrewithpeoplewhom,hecalledMoy’sfriends;nowhewasseendriving,and,most,likely,wouldhaveanexcuseforthat。Perhapstherewereothers,ofwhomshedidnothear,orwhyshouldhebesobusy,so,indifferent,oflate?Inthelastsixweekshehadbecome,strangelyirritable——strangelysatisfiedtopickupandgoout,whetherthingswererightorwronginthehouse。Why?
Sherecalled,withmoresubtleemotions,thathedidnotlookat,hernowwithanyoftheoldlightofsatisfactionorapprovalin,hiseye。Evidently,alongwithotherthings,hewastakingher,tobegettingoldanduninteresting。Hesawherwrinkles,perhaps。Shewasfading,whilehewasstillpreeninghimselfin,hiseleganceandyouth。Hewasstillaninterestedfactorinthe,merry-makingsoftheworld,whileshe——butshedidnotpursuethe,thought。Sheonlyfoundthewholesituationbitter,andhated,himforitthoroughly。
Nothingcameofthisincidentatthetime,forthetruthisit,didnotseemconclusiveenoughtowarrantanydiscussion。Only,theatmosphereofdistrustandill-feelingwasstrengthened,precipitatingeverynowandthenlittlesprinklingsofirritable,conversation,enlivenedbyflashesofwrath。Thematterofthe,Waukeshaoutingwasmerelyacontinuationofotherthingsofthe,samenature。
ThedayafterCarrie’sappearanceontheAverystage,Mrs。
HurstwoodvisitedtheraceswithJessicaandayouthofher,acquaintance,Mr。BartTaylor,thesonoftheownerofalocal,house-furnishingestablishment。Theyhaddrivenoutearly,and,asitchanced,encounteredseveralfriendsofHurstwood,all,Elks,andtwoofwhomhadattendedtheperformancetheevening,before。Athousandchancesthesubjectoftheperformancehad,neverbeenbroughtuphadJessicanotbeensoengagedbythe,attentionsofheryoungcompanion,whousurpedasmuchtimeas,possible。ThisleftMrs。Hurstwoodinthemoodtoextendthe,perfunctorygreetingsofsomewhoknewherintoshort,conversations,andtheshortconversationsoffriendsintolong,ones。Itwasfromonewhomeantbuttogreetherperfunctorily,thatthisinterestingintelligencecame。
“Isee,“saidthisindividual,whoworesportingclothesofthe,mostattractivepattern,andhadafield-glassstrungoverhis,shoulder,“thatyoudidnotgetovertoourlittleentertainment,lastevening。”
“No?”saidMrs。Hurstwood,inquiringly,andwonderingwhyhe,shouldbeusingthetonehedidinnotingthefactthatshehad,notbeentosomethingsheknewnothingabout。Itwasonherlips,tosay,“Whatwasit?”whenheadded,“Isawyourhusband。”
Herwonderwasatoncereplacedbythemoresubtlequalityof,suspicion。
“Yes,“shesaid,cautiously,“wasitpleasant?Hedidnottellme,muchaboutit。”
“Very。ReallyoneofthebestprivatetheatricalsIever,attended。Therewasoneactresswhosurprisedusall。”
“Indeed,“saidMrs。Hurstwood。
“It’stoobadyoucouldn’thavebeenthere,really。Iwassorry,tohearyouweren’tfeelingwell。”
Feelingwell!Mrs。Hurstwoodcouldhaveechoedthewordsafter,himopen-mouthed。Asitwas,sheextricatedherselffromher,mingledimpulsetodenyandquestion,andsaid,almostraspingly:
“Yes,itistoobad。”
“Looksliketherewillbequiteacrowdhereto-day,doesn’tit?”
theacquaintanceobserved,driftingoffuponanothertopic。
Themanager’swifewouldhavequestionedfarther,butshesawno,opportunity。Shewasforthemomentwhollyatsea,anxiousto,thinkforherself,andwonderingwhatnewdeceptionwasthis,whichcausedhimtogiveoutthatshewasillwhenshewasnot。
Anothercaseofhercompanynotwanted,andexcusesbeingmade。
Sheresolvedtofindoutmore。
“Wereyouattheperformancelastevening?”sheaskedofthenext,ofHurstwood’sfriendswhogreetedherasshesatinherbox。
“Yes。Youdidn’tgetaround。”
“No,“sheanswered,“Iwasnotfeelingverywell。”
“Soyourhusbandtoldme,“heanswered。”Well,itwasreally,veryenjoyable。TurnedoutmuchbetterthanIexpected。”
“Weretheremanythere?”
“Thehousewasfull。ItwasquiteanElknight。Isawquitea,numberofyourfriends——Mrs。Harrison,Mrs。Barnes,Mrs。
Collins。”
“Quiteasocialgathering。”
“Indeeditwas。Mywifeenjoyeditverymuch。”
Mrs。Hurstwoodbitherlip。
“So,“shethought,“that’sthewayhedoes。TellsmyfriendsI
amsickandcannotcome。”
Shewonderedwhatcouldinducehimtogoalone。Therewas,somethingbackofthis。Sherummagedherbrainforareason。
Byevening,whenHurstwoodreachedhome,shehadbroodedherself,intoastateofsullendesireforexplanationandrevenge。She,wantedtoknowwhatthispeculiaractionofhisimported。She,wascertaintherewasmorebehinditallthanwhatshehadheard,andevilcuriositymingledwellwithdistrustandtheremnantsof,herwrathofthemorning。She,impendingdisasteritself,walked,aboutwithgatheredshadowattheeyesandtherudimentary,musclesofsavageryfixingthehardlinesofhermouth。
Ontheotherhand,aswemaywellbelieve,themanagercamehome,inthesunniestmood。HisconversationandagreementwithCarrie,hadraisedhisspiritsuntilhewasintheframeofmindofone,whosingsjoyously。Hewasproudofhimself,proudofhis,success,proudofCarrie。Hecouldhavebeengenialtoallthe,world,andheborenogrudgeagainsthiswife。Hemeanttobe,pleasant,toforgetherpresence,toliveintheatmosphereof,youthandpleasurewhichhadbeenrestoredtohim。
Sonow,thehouse,tohismind,hadamostpleasingand,comfortableappearance。Inthehallhefoundaneveningpaper,laidtherebythemaidandforgottenbyMrs。Hurstwood。Inthe,dining-roomthetablewascleanlaidwithlinenandnaperyand,shinywithglassesanddecoratedchina。Throughanopendoorhe,sawintothekitchen,wherethefirewascracklinginthestove,andtheeveningmealalreadywellunderway。Outinthesmall,backyardwasGeorge,Jr。frolickingwithayoungdoghehad,recentlypurchased,andintheparlourJessicawasplayingatthe,piano,thesoundsofamerrywaltzfillingeverynookandcorner,ofthecomfortablehome。Everyone,likehimself,seemedtohave,regainedhisgoodspirits,tobeinsympathywithyouthand,beauty,tobeinclinedtojoyandmerry-making。Hefeltasifhe,couldsayagoodwordallaroundhimself,andtookamostgenial,glanceatthespreadtableandpolishedsideboardbeforegoing,upstairstoreadhispaperinthecomfortablearmchairofthe,sitting-roomwhichlookedthroughtheopenwindowsintothe,street。Whenheenteredthere,however,hefoundhiswife,brushingherhairandmusingtoherselfthewhile。
Hecamelightlyin,thinkingtosmoothoveranyfeelingthat,mightstillexistbyakindlywordandareadypromise,butMrs。
Hurstwoodsaidnothing。Heseatedhimselfinthelargechair,stirredlightlyinmakinghimselfcomfortable,openedhispaper,andbegantoread。Inafewmomentshewassmilingmerrilyover,averycomicalaccountofabaseballgamewhichhadtakenplace,betweentheChicagoandDetroitteams。
ThewhilehewasdoingthisMrs。Hurstwoodwasobservinghim,casuallythroughthemediumofthemirrorwhichwasbeforeher。
Shenoticedhispleasantandcontentedmanner,hisairygraceand,smilinghumour,anditmerelyaggravatedherthemore。She,wonderedhowhecouldthinktocarryhimselfsoinherpresence,afterthecynicism,indifference,andneglecthehadheretofore,manifestedandwouldcontinuetomanifestsolongasshewould,endureit。Shethoughthowsheshouldliketotellhim——what,stressandemphasisshewouldlendherassertions,howsheshould,driveoverthiswholeaffairuntilsatisfactionshouldbe,renderedher。Indeed,theshiningswordofherwrathwasbut,weaklysuspendedbyathreadofthought。
InthemeanwhileHurstwoodencounteredahumorousitemconcerning,astrangerwhohadarrivedinthecityandbecameentangledwith,abunco-steerer。Itamusedhimimmensely,andatlasthestirred,andchuckledtohimself。Hewishedthathemightenlisthis,wife’sattentionandreadittoher。
“Ha,ha,“heexclaimedsoftly,asiftohimself,“that’sfunny。”
Mrs。Hurstwoodkeptonarrangingherhair,notsomuchas,deigningaglance。
Hestirredagainandwentontoanothersubject。Atlasthefelt,asifhisgood-humourmustfindsomeoutlet。Juliawasprobably,stilloutofhumouroverthataffairofthismorning,butthat,couldeasilybestraightened。Asamatteroffact,shewasin,thewrong,buthedidn’tcare。ShecouldgotoWaukesharight,awayifshewantedto。Thesoonerthebetter。Hewouldtellher,thatassoonashegotachance,andthewholethingwouldblow,over。
“Didyounotice,“hesaid,atlast,breakingforthconcerning,anotheritemwhichhehadfound,“thattheyhaveenteredsuitto,compeltheIllinoisCentraltogetoffthelakefront,Julia?”he,asked。
Shecouldscarcelyforceherselftoanswer,butmanagedtosay,“No,“sharply。
Hurstwoodprickeduphisears。Therewasanoteinhervoice,whichvibratedkeenly。
“Itwouldbeagoodthingiftheydid,“hewenton,halfto,himself,halftoher,thoughhefeltthatsomethingwasamissin,thatquarter。Hewithdrewhisattentiontohispapervery,circumspectly,listeningmentallyforthelittlesoundswhich,shouldshowhimwhatwasonfoot。
Asamatteroffact,nomanascleverasHurstwood——asobservant,andsensitivetoatmospheresofmanysorts,particularlyuponhis,ownplaneofthought——wouldhavemadethemistakewhichhedidin,regardtohiswife,wroughtupasshewas,hadhenotbeen,occupiedmentallywithaverydifferenttrainofthought。Had,nottheinfluenceofCarrie’sregardforhim,theelationwhich,herpromisearousedinhim,lastedover,hewouldnothaveseen,thehouseinsopleasantamood。Itwasnotextraordinarily,brightandmerrythisevening。Hewasmerelyverymuchmistaken,andwouldhavebeenmuchmorefittedtocopewithithadhecome,homeinhisnormalstate。
Afterhehadstudiedhispaperafewmomentslonger,hefeltthat,heoughttomodifymattersinsomewayorother。Evidentlyhis,wifewasnotgoingtopatchuppeaceataword。Sohesaid:
“WheredidGeorgegetthedoghehasthereintheyard?”
“Idon’tknow,“shesnapped。
Heputhispaperdownonhiskneesandgazedidlyoutofthe,window。Hedidnotproposetolosehistemper,butmerelytobe,persistentandagreeable,andbyafewquestionsbringarounda,mildunderstandingofsomesort。
“Whydoyoufeelsobadaboutthataffairofthismorning?he,said,atlast。“Weneedn’tquarrelaboutthat。Youknowyoucan,gotoWaukeshaifyouwantto。”
“Soyoucanstayhereandtriflearoundwithsomeoneelse?”she,exclaimed,turningtohimadeterminedcountenanceuponwhichwas,drawnasharpandwrathfulsneer。
Hestoppedasifslappedintheface。Inaninstanthis,persuasive,conciliatorymannerfled。Hewasonthedefensiveat,awinkandpuzzledforawordtoreply。
“Whatdoyoumean?”hesaidatlast,straighteninghimselfand,gazingatthecold,determinedfigurebeforehim,whopaidno,attention,butwentonarrangingherselfbeforethemirror。
“YouknowwhatImean,“shesaid,finally,asiftherewerea,worldofinformationwhichsheheldinreserve——whichshedidnot,needtotell。
“Well,Idon’t,“hesaid,stubbornly,yetnervousandalertfor,whatshouldcomenext。Thefinalityofthewoman’smannertook,awayhisfeelingofsuperiorityinbattle。
Shemadenoanswer。
“Hmph!”hemurmured,withamovementofhisheadtooneside。It,wastheweakestthinghehadeverdone。Itwastotally,unassured。
Mrs。Hurstwoodnoticedthelackofcolourinit。Sheturnedupon,him,animal-like,abletostrikeaneffectualsecondblow。
“IwanttheWaukeshamoneyto-morrowmorning,“shesaid。
Helookedatherinamazement。Neverbeforehadheseensucha,cold,steelydeterminationinhereye——suchacruellookof,indifference。Sheseemedathoroughmasterofhermood——
thoroughlyconfidentanddeterminedtowrestallcontrolfrom,him。Hefeltthatallhisresourcescouldnotdefendhim。He,mustattack。
“Whatdoyoumean?”hesaid,jumpingup。”Youwant!I’dliketo,knowwhat’sgotintoyouto-night。”
“Nothing’sGOTintome,“shesaid,flaming。”Iwantthatmoney。
Youcandoyourswaggeringafterwards。”
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