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第13章

  Everyonelaughedatthis。
  "Aspecialcase——accidental,ofcourse!"criedAlexandraandAdelaida。
  "Letmeremindyouoncemore,Evgenie,"saidPrinceS。,"thatyourjokeisgettingalittlethreadbare。"
  "Whatdoyouthinkaboutit,prince?"askedEvgenie,takingnonoticeofthelastremark,andobservingMuishkin’sseriouseyesfixeduponhisface。"Whatdoyouthink——wasitaspecialorausualcase——therule,oranexception?IconfessIputthequestionespeciallyforyou。"
  "No,Idon’tthinkitwasaspecialcase,"saidtheprince,quietly,butfirmly。
  "Mydearfellow!"criedPrinceS。,withsomeannoyance,"don’tyouseethatheischaffingyou?Heissimplylaughingatyou,andwantstomakegameofyou。"
  "IthoughtEvgeniePavlovitchwastalkingseriously,"saidtheprince,blushinganddroppinghiseyes。
  "Mydearprince,"continuedPrinceS。"rememberwhatyouandI
  weresayingtwoorthreemonthsago。WespokeofthefactthatinournewlyopenedLawCourtsonecouldalreadylayone’sfingeruponsomanytalentedandremarkableyoungbarristers。Howpleasedyouwerewiththestateofthingsaswefoundit,andhowgladIwastoobserveyourdelight!Webothsaiditwasamattertobeproudof;butthisclumsydefencethatEvgeniementions,thisstrangeargumentCAN,ofcourse,onlybeanaccidentalcase——oneinathousand!"
  Theprincereflectedalittle,butverysoonhereplied,withabsoluteconvictioninhistone,thoughhestillspokesomewhatshylyandtimidly:
  "Ionlywishedtosaythatthis’distortion,’asEvgeniePavlovitchexpressedit,ismetwithveryoften,andisfarmorethegeneralrulethantheexception,unfortunatelyforRussia。Somuchso,thatifthisdistortionwerenotthegeneralrule,perhapsthesedreadfulcrimeswouldbelessfrequent。"
  "Dreadfulcrimes?ButIcanassureyouthatcrimesjustasdreadful,andprobablymorehorrible,haveoccurredbeforeourtimes,andatalltimes,andnotonlyhereinRussia,buteverywhereelseaswell。Andinmyopinionitisnotatalllikelythatsuchmurderswillceasetooccurforaverylongtimetocome。Theonlydifferenceisthatinformertimestherewaslesspublicity,whilenoweveryonetalksandwritesfreelyaboutsuchthings——whichfactgivestheimpressionthatsuchcrimeshaveonlynowsprungintoexistence。Thatiswhereyourmistakelies——anextremelynaturalmistake,Iassureyou,mydearfellow!"saidPrinceS。
  "Iknowthattherewerejustasmany,andjustasterrible,crimesbeforeourtimes。NotlongsinceIvisitedaconvictprisonandmadeacquaintancewithsomeofthecriminals。Thereweresomeevenmoredreadfulcriminalsthanthisonewehavebeenspeakingof——menwhohavemurderedadozenoftheirfellow-
  creatures,andfeelnoremorsewhatever。ButwhatIespeciallynoticedwasthis,thattheverymosthopelessandremorselessmurderer——howeverhardenedacriminalhemaybe——stillKNOWSTHAT
  HEISACRIMINAL;thatis,heisconsciousthathehasactedwickedly,thoughhemayfeelnoremorsewhatever。Andtheywerealllikethis。ThoseofwhomEvgeniePavlovitchhasspoken,donotadmitthattheyarecriminalsatall;theythinktheyhadarighttodowhattheydid,andthattheywereevendoingagooddeed,perhaps。Iconsiderthereisthegreatestdifferencebetweenthetwocases。Andrecollect——itwasaYOUTH,attheparticularagewhichismosthelplesslysusceptibletothedistortionofideas!"
  PrinceS。wasnownolongersmiling;hegazedattheprinceinbewilderment。
  Alexandra,whohadseemedtowishtoputinherwordwhentheprincebegan,nowsatsilent,asthoughsomesuddenthoughthadcausedhertochangehermindaboutspeaking。
  EvgeniePavlovitchgazedathiminrealsurprise,andthistimehisexpressionoffacehadnomockeryinitwhatever。
  "Whatareyoulookingsosurprisedabout,myfriend?"askedMrs。
  Epanchin,suddenly。"Didyousupposehewasstupiderthanyourself,andwasincapableofforminghisownopinions,orwhat?"
  "No!Ohno!Notatall!"saidEvgenie。"But——howisit,prince,thatyou——excusethequestion,willyou?——ifyouarecapableofobservingandseeingthingsasyouevidentlydo,howisitthatyousawnothingdistortedorpervertedinthatclaimuponyourproperty,whichyouacknowledgedadayortwosince;andwhichwasfullofargumentsfoundeduponthemostdistortedviewsofrightandwrong?"
  "I’lltellyouwhat,myfriend,"criedMrs。Epanchin,ofasudden,"hereareweallsittinghereandimaginingweareveryclever,andperhapslaughingattheprince,someofus,andmeanwhilehehasreceivedaletterthisverydayinwhichthatsameclaimantrenounceshisclaim,andbegstheprince’spardon。
  ThereIwedon’toftengetthatsortofletter;andyetwearenotashamedtowalkwithournosesintheairbeforehim。"
  "AndHippolytehascomedownheretostay,"saidColia,suddenly。
  "What!hashearrived?"saidtheprince,startingup。
  "Yes,Ibroughthimdownfromtownjustafteryouhadleftthehouse。"
  "Therenow!It’sjustlikehim,"criedLizabethaProkofievna,boilingoveroncemore,andentirelyobliviousofthefactthatshehadjusttakentheprince’spart。"Idareswearthatyouwentuptotownyesterdayonpurposetogetthelittlewretchtodoyouthegreathonourofcomingtostayatyourhouse。Youdidgouptotown,youknowyoudid——yousaidsoyourself!Nowthen,didyou,ordidyounot,godownonyourkneesandbeghimtocome,confess!"
  "No,hedidn’t,forIsawitallmyself,"saidColia。"Onthecontrary,Hippolytekissedhishandtwiceandthankedhim;andalltheprincesaidwasthathethoughtHippolytemightfeelbetterhereinthecountry!"
  "Don’t,Colia,——whatistheuseofsayingallthat?"criedtheprince,risingandtakinghishat。
  "Whereareyougoingtonow?"criedMrs。Epanchin。
  "Nevermindabouthimnow,prince,"saidColia。"Heisallrightandtakinganapafterthejourney。Heisveryhappytobehere;
  butIthinkperhapsitwouldbebetterifyoulethimalonefortoday,——heisverysensitivenowthatheissoill——andhemightbeembarrassedifyoushowhimtoomuchattentionatfirst。Heisdecidedlybettertoday,andsayshehasnotfeltsowellforthelastsixmonths,andhascoughedmuchless,too。"
  TheprinceobservedthatAglayacameoutofhercornerandapproachedthetableatthispoint。
  Hedidnotdarelookather,buthewasconscious,totheverytipsofhisfingers,thatshewasgazingathim,perhapsangrily;
  andthatshehadprobablyflushedupwithalookoffieryindignationinherblackeyes。
  "Itseemstome,Mr。Colia,thatyouwereveryfoolishtobringyouryoungfrienddown——ifheisthesameconsumptiveboywhoweptsoprofusely,andinvitedusalltohisownfuneral,"remarkedEvgeniePavlovitch。"Hetalkedsoeloquentlyabouttheblankwalloutsidehisbedroomwindow,thatI’msurehewillneversupportlifeherewithoutit。"
  "Ithinksotoo,"saidMrs。Epanchin;"hewillquarrelwithyou,andbeoff,"andshedrewherworkboxtowardsherwithanairofdignity,quiteobliviousofthefactthatthefamilywasabouttostartforawalkinthepark。
  "Yes,Irememberheboastedabouttheblankwallinanextraordinaryway,"continuedEvgenie,"andIfeelthatwithoutthatblankwallhewillneverbeabletodieeloquently;andhedoessolongtodieeloquently!"
  "Oh,youmustforgivehimtheblankwall,"saidtheprince,quietly。"Hehascomedowntoseeafewtreesnow,poorfellow。"
  "Oh,Iforgivehimwithallmyheart;youmaytellhimsoifyoulike,"laughedEvgenie。
  "Idon’tthinkyoushouldtakeitquitelikethat,"saidtheprince,quietly,andwithoutremovinghiseyesfromthecarpet。
  "Ithinkitismoreacaseofhisforgivingyou"
  "Forgivingme!whyso?WhathaveIdonetoneedhisforgiveness?"
  "Ifyoudon’tunderstand,then——butofcourse,youdounderstand。
  Hewished——hewishedtoblessyouallroundandtohaveyourblessing——beforehedied——that’sall。"
  "Mydearprince,"beganPrinceS。,hurriedly,exchangingglanceswithsomeofthosepresent,"youwillnoteasilyfindheavenonearth,andyetyouseemtoexpectto。Heavenisadifficultthingtofindanywhere,prince;farmoredifficultthanappearstothatgoodheartofyours。Betterstopthisconversation,orweshallallbegrowingquitedisturbedinourminds,and——"
  "Let’sgoandheartheband,then,"saidLizabethaProkofievna,angrilyrisingfromherplace。
  Therestofthecompanyfollowedherexample。
  II。
  THEprincesuddenlyapproachedEvgeniePavlovitch。
  "EvgeniePavlovitch,"hesaid,withstrangeexcitementandseizingthelatter’shandinhisown,"beassuredthatIesteemyouasagenerousandhonourableman,inspiteofeverything。Beassuredofthat。"
  EvgeniePavlovitchfellbackastepinastonishment。Foronemomentitwasallhecoulddotorestrainhimselffromburstingoutlaughing;but,lookingcloser,heobservedthattheprincedidnotseemtobequitehimself;atallevents,hewasinaverycuriousstate。
  "Iwouldn’tmindbetting,prince,"hecried,"thatyoudidnotintheleastmeantosaythat,andverylikelyyoumeanttoaddresssomeoneelsealtogether。Whatisit?Areyoufeelingunwelloranything?"
  "Verylikely,extremelylikely,andyoumustbeaverycloseobservertodetectthefactthatperhapsIdidnotintendtocomeuptoYOUatall。"
  Sosayinghesmiledstrangely;butsuddenlyandexcitedlyhebeganagain:
  "Don’tremindmeofwhatIhavedoneorsaid。Don’t!Iamverymuchashamedofmyself,I——"
  "Why,whathaveyoudone?Idon’tunderstandyou。"
  "Iseeyouareashamedofme,EvgeniePavlovitch;youareblushingforme;that’sasignofagoodheart。Don’tbeafraid;
  Ishallgoawaydirectly。"
  "What’sthematterwithhim?Dohisfitsbeginlikethat?"saidLizabethaProkofievna,inahighstateofalarm,addressingColia。
  "No,no,LizabethaProkofievna,takenonoticeofme。Iamnotgoingtohaveafit。Iwillgoawaydirectly;butIknowIamafflicted。Iwastwenty-fouryearsaninvalid,yousee——thefirsttwenty-fouryearsofmylife——sotakeallIdoandsayasthesayingsandactionsofaninvalid。I’mgoingawaydirectly,I
  reallyam——don’tbeafraid。Iamnotblushing,forIdon’tthinkI
  needblushaboutit,needI?ButIseethatIamoutofplaceinsociety——societyisbetterwithoutme。It’snotvanity,Iassureyou。Ihavethoughtoveritalltheselastthreedays,andIhavemadeupmymindthatIoughttounbosommyselfcandidlybeforeyouatthefirstopportunity。Therearecertainthings,certaingreatideas,whichImustnotsomuchasapproach,asPrinceS。
  hasjustremindedme,orIshallmakeyoualllaugh。Ihavenosenseofproportion,Iknow;mywordsandgesturesdonotexpressmyideas——theyareahumiliationandabasementoftheideas,andtherefore,Ihavenoright——andIamtoosensitive。Still,I
  believeIambelovedinthishousehold,andesteemedfarmorethanIdeserve。ButIcan’thelpknowingthataftertwenty-fouryearsofillnesstheremustbesometraceleft,sothatitisimpossibleforpeopletorefrainfromlaughingatmesometimes;
  don’tyouthinkso?"
  Heseemedtopauseforareply,forsomeverdict,asitwere,andlookedhumblyaroundhim。
  Allpresentstoodrootedtotheearthwithamazementatthisunexpectedandapparentlyuncalled-foroutbreak;butthepoorprince’spainfulandramblingspeechgaverisetoastrangeepisode。
  "Whydoyousayallthishere?"criedAglaya,suddenly。"WhydoyoutalklikethistoTHEM?"
  Sheappearedtobeinthelaststagesofwrathandirritation;
  hereyesflashed。Theprincestooddumblyandblindlybeforeher,andsuddenlygrewpale。
  "Thereisnotoneofthemallwhoisworthyofthesewordsofyours,"continuedAglaya。"Notoneofthemisworthyourlittlefinger,notoneofthemhasheartorheadtocomparewithyours!
  Youaremorehonestthanall,andbetter,nobler,kinder,wiserthanall。Therearesomeherewhoareunworthytobendandpickupthehandkerchiefyouhavejustdropped。Whydoyouhumiliateyourselflikethis,andplaceyourselflowerthanthesepeople?
  Whydoyoudebaseyourselfbeforethem?Whyhaveyounopride?"
  "MyGod!Whowouldeverhavebelievedthis?"criedMrs。Epanchin,wringingherhands。
  "Hurrahforthe’poorknight’!"criedColia。
  "Bequiet!Howdaretheylaughatmeinyourhouse?"saidAglaya,turningsharplyonhermotherinthathystericalframeofmindthatridesrecklesslyovereveryobstacleandplungesblindlythroughproprieties。"Whydoeseveryone,everyoneworryandtormentme?Whyhavetheyallbeenbullyingmethesethreedaysaboutyou,prince?Iwillnotmarryyou——never,andundernocircumstances!Knowthatonceandforall;asifanyonecouldmarryanabsurdcreaturelikeyou!Justlookintheglassandseewhatyoulooklike,thisverymoment!Why,WHYdotheytormentmeandsayIamgoingtomarryyou?Youmustknowit;youareintheplotwiththem!"
  "Nooneevertormentedyouonthesubject,"murmuredAdelaida,aghast。
  "Nooneeverthoughtofsuchathing!Therehasneverbeenawordsaidaboutit!"criedAlexandra。
  "Whohasbeenannoyingher?Whohasbeentormentingthechild?Whocouldhavesaidsuchathingtoher?Issheraving?"criedLizabethaProkofievna,tremblingwithrage,tothecompanyingeneral。
  "Everyoneofthemhasbeensayingit——everyoneofthem——allthesethreedays!AndIwillnever,nevermarryhim!"
  Sosaying,Aglayaburstintobittertears,and,hidingherfaceinherhandkerchief,sankbackintoachair。
  "Buthehasnevereven——"
  "Ihaveneveraskedyoutomarryme,AglayaIvanovna!"saidtheprince,ofasudden。
  "WHAT?"criedMrs。Epanchin,raisingherhandsinhorror。"WHAT’S
  that?"
  Shecouldnotbelieveherears。
  "Imeanttosay——Ionlymeanttosay,"saidtheprince,faltering,"ImerelymeanttoexplaintoAglayaIvanovna——tohavethehonourtoexplain,asitwere——thatIhadnointention——neverhad——toaskthehonourofherhand。IassureyouIamnotguilty,AglayaIvanovna,Iamnot,indeed。Ineverdidwishto——Ineverthoughtofitatall——andnevershall——you’llseeityourself——
  youmaybequiteassuredofit。Somewickedpersonhasbeenmaligningmetoyou;butit’sallright。Don’tworryaboutit。"
  Sosaying,theprinceapproachedAglaya。
  Shetookthehandkerchieffromherface,glancedkeenlyathim,tookinwhathehadsaid,andburstoutlaughing——suchamerry,unrestrainedlaugh,soheartyandgay,that。Adelaidacouldnotcontainherself。She,too,glancedattheprince’spanic-strickencountenance,thenrushedathersister,threwherarmsroundherneck,andburstintoasmerryafitoflaughterasAglaya’sown。
  Theylaughedtogetherlikeacoupleofschool-girls。Hearingandseeingthis,theprincesmiledhappily,andinaccentsofreliefandjoy,heexclaimed"Well,thankGod——thankGod!"
  Alexandranowjoinedin,anditlookedasthoughthethreesistersweregoingtolaughonforever。
  "Theyareinsane,"mutteredLizabethaProkofievna。"Eithertheyfrightenoneoutofone’swits,orelse——"
  ButPrinceS。waslaughingnow,too,sowasEvgeniePavlovitch,sowasColia,andsowastheprincehimself,whocaughttheinfectionashelookedroundradiantlyupontheothers。
  "Comealong,let’sgooutforawalk!"criedAdelaida。"We’llallgotogether,andtheprincemustabsolutelygowithus。Youneedn’tgoaway,youdeargoodfellow!ISN’Theadear,Aglaya?
  Isn’the,mother?Imustreallygivehimakissfor——forhisexplanationtoAglayajustnow。Mother,dear,Imaykisshim,mayn’tI?Aglaya,mayIkissYOURprince?"criedtheyoungrogue,andsureenoughsheskippeduptotheprinceandkissedhisforehead。
  Heseizedherhands,andpressedthemsohardthatAdelaidanearlycriedout;hethengazedwithdelightintohereyes,andraisingherrighthandtohislipswithenthusiasm,kisseditthreetimes。
  "Comealong,"saidAglaya。"Prince,youmustwalkwithme。Mayhe,mother?Thisyoungcavalier,whowon’thaveme?YousaidyouwouldNEVERhaveme,didn’tyou,prince?No-no,notlikethat;
  THAT’Snotthewaytogiveyourarm。Don’tyouknowhowtogiveyourarmtoaladyyet?There——so。Now,comealong,youandI
  willleadtheway。Wouldyouliketoleadthewaywithmealone,tete-a-tete?"
  Shewentontalkingandchattingwithoutapause,withoccasionallittleburstsoflaughterbetween。
  "ThankGod——thankGod!"saidLizabethaProkofievnatoherself,withoutquiteknowingwhyshefeltsorelieved。
  "Whatextraordinarypeopletheyare!"thoughtPrinceS。,forperhapsthehundredthtimesincehehadenteredintointimaterelationswiththefamily;but——helikedthese"extraordinarypeople,"allthesame。AsforPrinceLefNicolaievitchhimself,PrinceS。didnotseemquitetolikehim,somehow。Hewasdecidedlypreoccupiedandalittledisturbedastheyallstartedoff。
  EvgeniePavlovitchseemedtobeinalivelyhumour。HemadeAdelaidaandAlexandralaughallthewaytotheVauxhall;buttheybothlaughedsoveryreallyandpromptlythattheworthyEvgeniebeganatlasttosuspectthattheywerenotlisteningtohimatall。
  Atthisidea,heburstoutlaughingallatonce,inquiteunaffectedmirth,andwithoutgivinganyexplanation。
  Thesisters,whoalsoappearedtobeinhighspirits,nevertiredofglancingatAglayaandtheprince,whowerewalkinginfront。
  Itwasevidentthattheiryoungersisterwasathoroughpuzzletothemboth。
  PrinceS。triedhardtogetupaconversationwithMrs。Epanchinuponoutsidesubjects,probablywiththegoodintentionofdistractingandamusingher;butheboredherdreadfully。Shewasabsent-mindedtoadegree,andansweredatcrosspurposes,andsometimesnotatall。
  ButthepuzzleandmysteryofAglayawasnotyetoverfortheevening。Thelastexhibitionfelltothelotoftheprincealone。
  Whentheyhadproceededsomehundredpacesorsofromthehouse,Aglayasaidtoherobstinatelysilentcavalierinaquickhalf-
  whisper:
  "Looktotheright!"
  Theprinceglancedinthedirectionindicated。
  "Lookcloser。Doyouseethatbench,intheparkthere,justbythosethreebigtrees——thatgreenbench?"
  Theprincerepliedthathesawit。
  "Doyoulikethepositionofit?Sometimesofamorningearly,atseveno’clock,whenalltherestarestillasleep,Icomeoutandsittherealone。"
  Theprincemutteredthatthespotwasalovelyone。
  "Now,goaway,Idon’twishtohaveyourarmanylonger;orperhaps,better,continuetogivemeyourarm,andwalkalongbesideme,butdon’tspeakawordtome。Iwishtothinkbymyself。"
  Thewarningwascertainlyunnecessary;fortheprincewouldnothavesaidawordalltherestofthetimewhetherforbiddentospeakornot。HisheartbeatloudandpainfullywhenAglayaspokeofthebench;couldshe——butno!hebanishedthethought,afteraninstant’sdeliberation。
  AtPavlofsk,onweekdays,thepublicismoreselectthanitisonSundaysandSaturdays,whenthetownsfolkcomedowntowalkaboutandenjoythepark。
  Theladiesdresselegantly,onthesedays,anditisthefashiontogatherroundtheband,whichisprobablythebestofourpleasure-gardenbands,andplaysthenewestpieces。Thebehaviourofthepublicismostcorrectandproper,andthereisanappearanceoffriendlyintimacyamongtheusualfrequenters。Manycomefornothingbuttolookattheiracquaintances,butthereareotherswhocomeforthesakeofthemusic。Itisveryseldomthatanythinghappenstobreaktheharmonyoftheproceedings,though,ofcourse,accidentswillhappeneverywhere。
  Onthisparticulareveningtheweatherwaslovely,andtherewerealargenumberofpeoplepresent。Alltheplacesanywhereneartheorchestrawereoccupied。
  Ourfriendstookchairsnearthesideexit。ThecrowdandthemusiccheeredMrs。Epanchinalittle,andamusedthegirls;theybowedandshookhandswithsomeoftheirfriendsandnoddedatadistancetoothers;theyexaminedtheladies’dresses,noticedcomicalitiesandeccentricitiesamongthepeople,andlaughedandtalkedamongthemselves。EvgeniePavlovitch,too,foundplentyoffriendstobowto。SeveralpeoplenoticedAglayaandtheprince,whowerestilltogether。
  Beforeverylongtwoorthreeyoungmenhadcomeup,andoneortworemainedtotalk;alloftheseyoungmenappearedtobeonintimatetermswithEvgeniePavlovitch。Amongthemwasayoungofficer,aremarkablyhandsomefellow——verygood-naturedandagreatchatterbox。HetriedtogetupaconversationwithAglaya,anddidhisbesttosecureherattention。Aglayabehavedverygraciouslytohim,andchattedandlaughedmerrily。EvgeniePavlovitchbeggedtheprince’sleavetointroducetheirfriendtohim。Theprincehardlyrealizedwhatwaswantedofhim,buttheintroductioncameoff;thetwomenbowedandshookhands。
  EvgeniePavlovitch’sfriendaskedtheprincesomequestion,butthelatterdidnotreply,orifhedid,hemutteredsomethingsostrangelyindistinctthattherewasnothingtobemadeofit。Theofficerstaredintentlyathim,thenglancedatEvgenie,divinedwhythelatterhadintroducedhim,andgavehisundividedattentiontoAglayaagain。OnlyEvgeniePavlovitchobservedthatAglayaflushedupforamomentatthis。
  TheprincedidnotnoticethatothersweretalkingandmakingthemselvesagreeabletoAglaya;infact,atmoments,healmostforgotthathewassittingbyherhimself。Atothermomentshefeltalongingtogoawaysomewhereandbealonewithhisthoughts,andtofeelthatnooneknewwherehewas。
  Orifthatwereimpossiblehewouldliketobealoneathome,ontheterrace-withouteitherLebedefforhischildren,oranyoneelseabouthim,andtoliethereandthink——adayandnightandanotherdayagain!Hethoughtofthemountains-andespeciallyofacertainspotwhichheusedtofrequent,whencehewouldlookdownuponthedistantvalleysandfields,andseethewaterfall,faroff,likealittlesilverthread,andtheoldruinedcastleinthedistance。Oh!howhelongedtobetherenow——alonewithhisthoughts——tothinkofonethingallhislife——onething!A
  thousandyearswouldnotbetoomuchtime!Andleteveryonehereforgethim——forgethimutterly!Howmuchbetteritwouldhavebeeniftheyhadneverknownhim——ifallthiscouldbutprovetobeadream。Perhapsitwasadream!
  NowandthenhelookedatAglayaforfiveminutesatatime,withouttakinghiseyesoffherface;buthisexpressionwasverystrange;hewouldgazeatherasthoughshewereanobjectacoupleofmilesdistant,orasthoughhewerelookingatherportraitandnotatherselfatall。
  "Whydoyoulookatmelikethat,prince?"sheaskedsuddenly,breakingoffhermerryconversationandlaughterwiththoseabouther。"I’mafraidofyou!Youlookasthoughyouwerejustgoingtoputoutyourhandandtouchmyfacetoseeifit’sreal!
  Doesn’the,EvgeniePavlovitch——doesn’thelooklikethat?"
  Theprinceseemedsurprisedthatheshouldhavebeenaddressedatall;hereflectedamoment,butdidnotseemtotakeinwhathadbeensaidtohim;atallevents,hedidnotanswer。Butobservingthatsheandtheothershadbeguntolaugh,hetooopenedhismouthandlaughedwiththem。
  Thelaughterbecamegeneral,andtheyoungofficer,whoseemedaparticularlylivelysortofperson,simplyshookwithmirth。
  Aglayasuddenlywhisperedangrilytoherselftheword——
  "Idiot!"
  "Mygoodness——surelysheisnotinlovewithsucha——surelysheisn’tmad!"groanedMrs。Epanchin,underherbreath。
  "It’sallajoke,mamma;it’sjustajokelikethe’poorknight’——
  nothingmorewhatever,Iassureyou!"Alexandrawhisperedinherear。"Sheischaffinghim——makingafoolofhim,afterherownprivatefashion,that’sall!Butshecarriesitjustalittletoofar——sheisaregularlittleactress。Howshefrightenedusjustnow——didn’tshe?——andallforalark!"
  "Well,it’sluckyshehashappeneduponanidiot,then,that’sallIcansay!"whisperedLizabethaProkofievna,whowassomewhatcomforted,however,byherdaughter’sremark。
  Theprincehadheardhimselfreferredtoas"idiot,"andhadshudderedatthemoment;buthisshudder,itsohappened,wasnotcausedbythewordappliedtohim。Thefactwasthatinthecrowd,notfarfromwhereliewassitting,apalefamiliarface,withcurlyblackhair,andawell-knownsmileandexpression,hadflashedacrosshisvisionforamoment,anddisappearedagain。
  Verylikelyhehadimaginedit!Thereonlyremainedtohimtheimpressionofastrangesmile,twoeyes,andabrightgreentie。
  Whetherthemanhaddisappearedamongthecrowd,orwhetherhehadturnedtowardstheVauxhall,theprincecouldnotsay。
  Butamomentortwoafterwardshebegantoglancekeenlyabouthim。Thatfirstvisionmightonlytoolikelybetheforerunnerofasecond;itwasalmostcertaintobeso。SurelyhehadnotforgottenthepossibilityofsuchameetingwhenhecametotheVauxhall?Trueenough,hehadnotremarkedwherehewascomingtowhenhesetoutwithAglaya;hehadnotbeeninaconditiontoremarkanythingatall。
  Hadhebeenmorecarefultoobservehiscompanion,hewouldhaveseenthatforthelastquarterofanhourAglayahadalsobeenglancingaroundinapparentanxiety,asthoughsheexpectedtoseesomeone,orsomethingparticular,amongthecrowdofpeople。
  Now,atthemomentwhenhisownanxietybecamesomarked,herexcitementalsoincreasedvisibly,andwhenhelookedabouthim,shedidthesame。
  Thereasonfortheiranxietysoonbecameapparent。FromthatverysideentrancetotheVauxhall,nearwhichtheprinceandalltheEpanchinpartywereseated,theresuddenlyappearedquitealargeknotofpersons,atleastadozen。
  Headingthislittlebandwalkedthreeladies,twoofwhomwereremarkablylovely;andtherewasnothingsurprisinginthefactthattheyshouldhavehadalargetroopofadmirersfollowingintheirwake。
  Buttherewassomethingintheappearanceofboththeladiesandtheiradmirerswhichwaspeculiar,quitedifferentforthatoftherestofthepublicassembledaroundtheorchestra。
  Nearlyeveryoneobservedthelittlebandadvancing,andallpretendednottoseeornoticethem,exceptafewyoungfellowswhoexchangedglancesandsmiled,sayingsomethingtooneanotherinwhispers。
  Itwasimpossibletoavoidnoticingthem,however,inreality,fortheymadetheirpresenceonlytooconspicuousbylaughingandtalkingloudly。Itwastobesupposedthatsomeofthemweremorethanhalfdrunk,althoughtheywerewellenoughdressed,someevenparticularlywell。Therewereoneortwo,however,whowereverystrange-lookingcreatures,withflushedfacesandextraordinaryclothes;someweremilitarymen;notallwerequiteyoung;oneortwoweremiddle-agedgentlemenofdecidedlydisagreeableappearance,menwhoareavoidedinsocietyliketheplague,deckedoutinlargegoldstudsandrings,andmagnificently"gotup,"generally。
  Amongoursuburbanresortstherearesomewhichenjoyaspeciallyhighreputationforrespectabilityandfashion;butthemostcarefulindividualisnotabsolutelyexemptfromthedangerofatilefallingsuddenlyuponhisheadfromhisneighbour’sroof。
  Suchatilewasabouttodescendupontheelegantanddecorouspublicnowassembledtohearthemusic。
  InordertopassfromtheVauxhalltotheband-stand,thevisitorhastodescendtwoorthreesteps。Justatthesestepsthegrouppaused,asthoughitfearedtoproceedfurther;butveryquicklyoneofthethreeladies,whoformeditsapex,steppedforwardintothecharmedcircle,followedbytwomembersofhersuite。
  Oneofthesewasamiddle-agedmanofveryrespectableappearance,butwiththestampofparvenuuponhim,amanwhomnobodyknew,andwhoevidentlyknewnobody。Theotherfollowerwasyoungerandfarlessrespectable-looking。
  Nooneelsefollowedtheeccentriclady;butasshedescendedthestepsshedidnotevenlookbehindher,asthoughitwereabsolutelythesametoherwhetheranyonewerefollowingornot。
  Shelaughedandtalkedloudly,however,justasbefore。Shewasdressedwithgreattaste,butwithrathermoremagnificencethanwasneededfortheoccasion,perhaps。
  Shewalkedpasttheorchestra,towhereanopencarriagewaswaiting,neartheroad。
  TheprincehadnotseenHERformorethanthreemonths。AllthesedayssincehisarrivalfromPetersburghehadintendedtopayheravisit,butsomemysteriouspresentimenthadrestrainedhim。Hecouldnotpicturetohimselfwhatimpressionthismeetingwithherwouldmakeuponhim,thoughhehadoftentriedtoimagineit,withfearandtrembling。Onefactwasquitecertain,andthatwasthatthemeetingwouldbepainful。
  Severaltimesduringthelastsixmonthshehadrecalledtheeffectwhichthefirstsightofthisfacehadhaduponhim,whenheonlysawitsportrait。Herecollectedwellthateventheportraitfacehadleftbuttoopainfulanimpression。
  Thatmonthintheprovinces,whenhehadseenthiswomannearlyeveryday,hadaffectedhimsodeeplythathecouldnotnowlookbackuponitcalmly。Intheverylookofthiswomantherewassomethingwhichtorturedhim。InconversationwithRogojinhehadattributedthissensationtopity——immeasurablepity,andthiswasthetruth。Thesightoftheportraitfacealonehadfilledhisheartfulloftheagonyofrealsympathy;andthisfeelingofsympathy,nay,ofactualSUFFERING,forher,hadneverlefthisheartsincethathour,andwasstillinfullforce。Ohyes,andmorepowerfulthanever!
  ButtheprincewasnotsatisfiedwithwhathehadsaidtoRogojin。Onlyatthismoment,whenshesuddenlymadeherappearancebeforehim,didherealizetothefulltheexactemotionwhichshecalledupinhim,andwhichhehadnotdescribedcorrectlytoRogojin。
  And,indeed,therewerenowordsinwhichhecouldhaveexpressedhishorror,yes,HORROR,forhewasnowfullyconvincedfromhisownprivateknowledgeofher,thatthewomanwasmad。
  If,lovingawomanaboveeverythingintheworld,oratleasthavingaforetasteofthepossibilityofsuchloveforher,oneweresuddenlytobeholdheronachain,behindbarsandunderthelashofakeeper,onewouldfeelsomethinglikewhatthepoorprincenowfelt。
  "What’sthematter?"askedAglaya,inawhisper,givinghissleevealittletug。
  Heturnedhisheadtowardsherandglancedatherblackandforsomereasonflashingeyes,triedtosmile,andthen,apparentlyforgettingherinaninstant,turnedtotherightoncemore,andcontinuedtowatchthestartlingapparitionbeforehim。
  NastasiaPhilipovnawasatthismomentpassingtheyoungladies’
  chairs。
  EvgeniePavlovitchcontinuedsomeapparentlyextremelyfunnyandinterestinganecdotetoAlexandra,speakingquicklyandwithmuchanimation。TheprincerememberedthatatthismomentAglayaremarkedinahalf-whisper:
  "WHATa——"
  Shedidnotfinishherindefinitesentence;sherestrainedherselfinamoment;butitwasenough。
  NastasiaPhilipovna,whouptonowhadbeenwalkingalongasthoughshehadnotnoticedtheEpanchinparty,suddenlyturnedherheadintheirdirection,asthoughshehadjustobservedEvgeniePavlovitchsittingthereforthefirsttime。
  "Why,Ideclare,hereheis!"shecried,stoppingsuddenly。"Themanonecan’tfindwithallone’smessengerssentabouttheplace,sittingjustunderone’snose,exactlywhereoneneverthoughtoflooking!Ithoughtyouweresuretobeatyouruncle’sbythistime。"
  EvgeniePavlovitchflushedupandlookedangrilyatNastasiaPhilipovna,thenturnedhisbackonher。
  "WhatIdon’tyouknowaboutityet?Hedoesn’tknow——imaginethat!Why,he’sshothimself。Youruncleshothimselfthisverymorning。Iwastoldattwothisafternoon。Halfthetownmustknowitbynow。Theysaytherearethreehundredandfiftythousandroubles,governmentmoney,missing;somesayfivehundredthousand。AndIwasundertheimpressionthathewouldleaveyouafortune!He’swhistleditallaway。Amostdepravedoldgentleman,really!Well,ta,ta!——bonnechance!Surelyyouintendtobeoffthere,don’tyou?Ha,ha!You’veretiredfromthearmyingoodtime,Isee!Plainclothes!Welldone,slyrogue!Nonsense!Isee——youknewitallbefore——Idaresayyouknewallaboutityesterday-"
  Althoughtheimpudenceofthisattack,thispublicproclamationofintimacy,asitwere,wasdoubtlesspremeditated,andhaditsspecialobject,yetEvgeniePavlovitchatfirstseemedtointendtomakenoshowofobservingeitherhistormentororherwords。
  ButNastasia’scommunicationstruckhimwiththeforceofathunderclap。Onhearingofhisuncle’sdeathhesuddenlygrewaswhiteasasheet,andturnedtowardshisinformant。
  Atthismoment,LizabethaProkofievnaroseswiftlyfromherseat,beckonedhercompanions,andlefttheplacealmostatarun。
  Onlytheprincestoppedbehindforamoment,asthoughinindecision;andEvgeniePavlovitchlingeredtoo,forhehadnotcollectedhisscatteredwits。ButtheEpanchinshadnothadtimetogetmorethantwentypacesawaywhenascandalousepisodeoccurred。Theyoungofficer,EvgeniePavlovitch’sfriendwhohadbeenconversingwithAglaya,saidaloudinagreatstateofindignation:
  "Sheoughttobewhipped——that’stheonlywaytodealwithcreatureslikethat——sheoughttobewhipped!"
  ThisgentlemanwasaconfidantofEvgenie’s,andhaddoubtlessheardofthecarriageepisode。
  Nastasiaturnedtohim。Hereyesflashed;sherusheduptoayoungmanstandingnear,whomshedidnotknowintheleast,butwhohappenedtohaveinhishandathincane。Seizingthisfromhim,shebroughtitwithallherforceacrossthefaceofherinsulter。
  Allthisoccurred,ofcourse,inoneinstantoftime。
  Theyoungofficer,forgettinghimself,sprangtowardsher。
  Nastasia’sfollowerswerenotbyheratthemomenttheelderlygentlemanhavingdisappearedaltogether,andtheyoungermansimplystandingasideandroaringwithlaughter。
  Inanothermoment,ofcourse,thepolicewouldhavebeenonthespot,anditwouldhavegonehardwithNastasiaPhilipovnahadnotunexpectedaidappeared。
  Muishkin,whowasbutacoupleofstepsaway,hadtimetospringforwardandseizetheofficer’sarmsfrombehind。
  Theofficer,tearinghimselffromtheprince’sgrasp,pushedhimsoviolentlybackwardsthathestaggeredafewstepsandthensubsidedintoachair。
  ButtherewereotherdefendersforNastasiaonthespotbythistime。Thegentlemanknownasthe"boxer"nowconfrontedtheenragedofficer。
  "Kellerismyname,sir;ex-lieutenant,"hesaid,veryloud。"Ifyouwillacceptmeaschampionofthefairsex,Iamatyourdisposal。Englishboxinghasnosecretsfromme。Isympathizewithyoufortheinsultyouhavereceived,butIcan’tpermityoutoraiseyourhandagainstawomaninpublic。Ifyouprefertomeetme——aswouldbemorefittingtoyourrank——insomeothermanner,ofcourseyouunderstandme,captain。"
  Buttheyoungofficerhadrecoveredhimself,andwasnolongerlistening。AtthismomentRogojinappeared,elbowingthroughthecrowd;hetookNastasia’shand,drewitthroughhisarm,andquicklyledheraway。Heappearedtobeterriblyexcited;hewastremblingallover,andwasaspaleasacorpse。
  AshecarriedNastasiaoff,heturnedandgrinnedhorriblyintheofficer’sface,andwithlowmaliceobserved:
  "Tfu!lookwhatthefellowgot!Lookatthebloodonhischeek!
  Ha,ha!"
  Recollectinghimself,however,andseeingataglancethesortofpeoplehehadtodealwith,theofficerturnedhisbackonbothhisopponents,andcourteously,butconcealinghisfacewithhishandkerchief,approachedtheprince,whowasnowrisingfromthechairintowhichhehadfallen。
  "PrinceMuishkin,Ibelieve?ThegentlemantowhomIhadthehonourofbeingintroduced?"
  "Sheismad,insane——Iassureyou,sheismad,"repliedtheprinceintremblingtones,holdingoutbothhishandsmechanicallytowardstheofficer。
  "Icannotboastofanysuchknowledge,ofcourse,butIwishedtoknowyourname。"
  Hebowedandretiredwithoutwaitingforananswer。
  Fivesecondsafterthedisappearanceofthelastactorinthisscene,thepolicearrived。Thewholeepisodehadnotlastedmorethanacoupleofminutes。Someofthespectatorshadrisenfromtheirplaces,anddepartedaltogether;somemerelyexchangedtheirseatsforothersalittlefurtheroff;someweredelightedwiththeoccurrence,andtalkedandlaughedoveritforalongtime。
  Inaword,theincidentclosedassuchincidentsdo,andthebandbegantoplayagain。TheprincewalkedawayaftertheEpanchinparty。Hadhethoughtoflookingroundtotheleftafterhehadbeenpushedsounceremoniouslyintothechair,hewouldhaveobservedAglayastandingsometwentyyardsaway。Shehadstayedtowatchthescandaloussceneinspiteofhermother’sandsisters’anxiouscriestohertocomeaway。
  PrinceS。ranuptoherandpersuadedher,atlast,tocomehomewiththem。
  LizabethaProkofievnasawthatshereturnedinsuchastateofagitationthatitwasdoubtfulwhethershehadevenheardtheircalls。Butonlyacoupleofminuteslater,whentheyhadreachedthepark,Aglayasuddenlyremarked,inherusualcalm,indifferentvoice:
  "Iwantedtoseehowthefarcewouldend。"
  III。
  THEoccurrenceattheVauxhallhadfilledbothmotheranddaughterswithsomethinglikehorror。IntheirexcitementLizabethaProkofievnaandthegirlswerenearlyrunningallthewayhome。
  Inheropiniontherewassomuchdisclosedandlaidbarebytheepisode,that,inspiteofthechaoticconditionofhermind,shewasabletofeelmoreorlessdecidedoncertainpointswhich,uptonow,hadbeeninacloudycondition。
  However,oneandallofthepartyrealizedthatsomethingimportanthadhappened,andthat,perhapsfortunatelyenough,somethingwhichhadhithertobeenenvelopedintheobscurityofguess-workhadnowbeguntocomeforthalittlefromthemists。
  InspiteofPrinceS。’sassurancesandexplanations,EvgeniePavlovitch’srealcharacterandpositionwereatlastcomingtolight。Hewaspubliclyconvictedofintimacywith"thatcreature。"SothoughtLizabethaProkofievnaandhertwoelderdaughters。
  Buttherealupshotofthebusinesswasthatthenumberofriddlestobesolvedwasaugmented。Thetwogirls,thoughratherirritatedattheirmother’sexaggeratedalarmandhastetodepartfromthescene,hadbeenunwillingtoworryheratfirstwithquestions。
  Besides,theycouldnothelpthinkingthattheirsisterAglayaprobablyknewmoreaboutthewholematterthanboththeyandtheirmotherputtogether。
  PrinceS。lookedasblackasnight,andwassilentandmoody。
  Mrs。Epanchindidnotsayawordtohimallthewayhome,andhedidnotseemtoobservethefact。Adelaidatriedtopumphimalittlebyasking,"whowastheuncletheyweretalkingabout,andwhatwasitthathadhappenedinPetersburg?"Buthehadmerelymutteredsomethingdisconnectedabout"makinginquiries,"andthat"ofcourseitwasallnonsense。""Oh,ofcourse,"repliedAdelaida,andaskednomorequestions。Aglaya,too,wasveryquiet;andtheonlyremarkshemadeonthewayhomewasthattheywere"walkingmuchtoofasttobepleasant。"
  Oncesheturnedandobservedtheprincehurryingafterthem。
  Noticinghisanxietytocatchthemup,shesmiledironically,andthenlookedbacknomore。Atlength,justastheynearedthehouse,GeneralEpanchincameoutandmetthem;hehadonlyjustarrivedfromtown。
  HisfirstwordwastoinquireafterEvgeniePavlovitch。ButLizabethastalkedpasthim,andneitherlookedathimnoransweredhisquestion。
  HeimmediatelyjudgedfromthefacesofhisdaughtersandPrinceS。thattherewasathunderstormbrewing,andhehimselfalreadyboreevidencesofunusualperturbationofmind。
  Heimmediatelybutton-holedPrinceS。,andstandingatthefrontdoor,engagedinawhisperedconversationwithhim。Bythetroubledaspectofbothofthem,whentheyenteredthehouse,andapproachedMrs。Epanchin,itwasevidentthattheyhadbeendiscussingverydisturbingnews。
  LittlebylittlethefamilygatheredtogetherupstairsinLizabethaProkofievna’sapartments,andPrinceMuishkinfoundhimselfaloneontheverandahwhenhearrived。Hesettledhimselfinacornerandsatwaiting,thoughheknewnotwhatheexpected。
  Itneverstruckhimthathehadbettergoaway,withallthisdisturbanceinthehouse。Heseemedtohaveforgottenalltheworld,andtobereadytositonwherehewasforyearsonend。
  Fromupstairshecaughtsoundsofexcitedconversationeverynowandthen。
  Hecouldnotsayhowlonghesatthere。Itgrewlateandbecamequitedark。
  SuddenlyAglayaenteredtheverandah。Sheseemedtobequitecalm,thoughalittlepale。
  Observingtheprince,whomsheevidentlydidnotexpecttoseethere,aloneinthecorner,shesmiled,andapproachedhim:
  "Whatareyoudoingthere?"sheasked。
  Theprincemutteredsomething,blushed,andjumpedup;butAglayaimmediatelysatdownbesidehim;sohereseatedhimself。
  Shelookedsuddenly,butattentivelyintohisface,thenatthewindow,asthoughthinkingofsomethingelse,andthenagainathim。
  "Perhapsshewantstolaughatme,"thoughttheprince,"butno;
  forifshedidshecertainlywoulddoso。"
  "Wouldyoulikesometea?I’llordersome,"shesaid,afteraminuteortwoofsilence。
  "N-nothanks,Idon’tknow——"
  "Don’tknow!Howcanyounotknow?By-the-by,lookhere——ifsomeoneweretochallengeyoutoaduel,whatshouldyoudo?I
  wishedtoaskyouthis——sometimeago——"
  "Why?Nobodywouldeverchallengemetoaduel!"
  "Butiftheywereto,wouldyoubedreadfullyfrightened?"
  "IdaresayIshouldbe——muchalarmed!"
  "Seriously?Thenareyouacoward?"
  "N-no!——Idon’tthinkso。Acowardisamanwhoisafraidandrunsaway;themanwhoisfrightenedbutdoesnotrunaway,isnotquiteacoward,"saidtheprincewithasmile,afteramoment’sthought。
  "Andyouwouldn’trunaway?"
  "No——Idon’tthinkIshouldrunaway,"repliedtheprince,laughingoutrightatlastatAglaya’squestions。
  "ThoughIamawoman,Ishouldcertainlynotrunawayforanything,"saidAglaya,inaslightlypainedvoice。"However,I
  seeyouarelaughingatmeandtwistingyourfaceupasusualinordertomakeyourselflookmoreinteresting。Nowtellme,theygenerallyshootattwentypaces,don’tthey?Atten,sometimes?I
  supposeifattentheymustbeeitherwoundedorkilled,mustn’tthey?"
  "Idon’tthinktheyoftenkilleachotheratduels。"
  "TheykilledPushkinthatway。"
  "Thatmayhavebeenanaccident。"
  "Notabitofit;itwasadueltothedeath,andhewaskilled。"
  "Thebulletstrucksolowdownthatprobablyhisantagonistwouldneverhaveaimedatthatpartofhim——peopleneverdo;hewouldhaveaimedathischestorhead;sothatprobablythebullethithimaccidentally。Ihavebeentoldthisbycompetentauthorities。"
  "Well,asoldieroncetoldmethattheywerealwaysorderedtoaimatthemiddleofthebody。Soyouseetheydon’taimatthechestorhead;theyaimloweronpurpose。Iaskedsomeofficeraboutthisafterwards,andhesaiditwasperfectlytrue。"
  "Thatisprobablywhentheyfirefromalongdistance。"
  "Canyoushootatall?"
  "No,Ihavenevershotinmylife。"
  "Can’tyouevenloadapistol?"
  "No!Thatis,Iunderstandhowit’sdone,ofcourse,butIhaveneverdoneit。"
  "Then,youdon’tknowhow,foritisamatterthatneedspractice。Nowlistenandlearn;inthefirstplacebuygoodpowder,notdamptheysayitmustn’tbeatalldamp,butverydry,somefinekinditis——youmustaskforPISTOLpowder,notthestufftheyloadcannonswith。Theysayonemakesthebulletsoneself,somehoworother。Haveyougotapistol?"
  "No——andIdon’twantone,"saidtheprince,laughing。
  "Oh,whatNONSENSE!Youmustbuyone。FrenchorEnglisharethebest,theysay。Thentakealittlepowder,aboutathimbleful,orperhapstwo,andpouritintothebarrel。Betterputplenty。ThenpushinabitoffeltitMUSTbefelt,forsomereasonorother;youcaneasilygetabitoffsomeoldmattress,oroffadoor;it’susedtokeepthecoldout。Well,whenyouhavepushedthefeltdown,putthebulletin;doyouhearnow?Thebulletlastandthepowderfirst,nottheotherway,orthepistolwon’tshoot。Whatareyoulaughingat?Iwishyoutobuyapistolandpractiseeveryday,andyoumustlearntohitamarkforCERTAIN;
  willyou?"
  Theprinceonlylaughed。Aglayastampedherfootwithannoyance。
  Herseriousair,however,duringthisconversationhadsurprisedhimconsiderably。Hehadafeelingthatheoughttobeaskinghersomething,thattherewassomethinghewantedtofindoutfarmoreimportantthanhowtoloadapistol;buthisthoughtshadallscattered,andhewasonlyawarethatshewassittingby,him,andtalkingtohim,andthathewaslookingather;astowhatshehappenedtobesayingtohim,thatdidnotmatterintheleast。
  Thegeneralnowappearedontheverandah,comingfromupstairs。
  Hewasonhiswayout,withanexpressionofdeterminationonhisface,andofpreoccupationandworryalso。
  "Ah!LefNicolaievitch,it’syou,isit?Whereareyouofftonow?"heasked,obliviousofthefactthattheprincehadnotshowedtheleastsignofmoving。"Comealongwithme;Iwanttosayawordortwotoyou。"
  "Aurevoir,then!"saidAglaya,holdingoutherhandtotheprince。
  Itwasquitedarknow,andMuishkincouldnotseeherfaceclearly,butaminuteortwolater,whenheandthegeneralhadleftthevilla,hesuddenlyflushedup,andsqueezedhisrighthandtightly。
  Itappearedthatheandthegeneralweregoinginthesamedirection。Inspiteofthelatenessofthehour,thegeneralwashurryingawaytotalktosomeoneuponsomeimportantsubject。
  Meanwhilehetalkedincessantlybutdisconnectedlytotheprince,andcontinuallybroughtinthenameofLizabethaProkofievna。
  Iftheprincehadbeeninaconditiontopaymoreattentiontowhatthegeneralwassaying,hewouldhavediscoveredthatthelatterwasdesirousofdrawingsomeinformationoutofhim,orindeedofaskinghimsomequestionoutright;butthathecouldnotmakeuphismindtocometothepoint。
  Muishkinwassoabsent,thatfromtheveryfirsthecouldnotattendtoawordtheotherwassaying;andwhenthegeneralsuddenlystoppedbeforehimwithsomeexcitedquestion,hewasobligedtoconfess,ignominiously,thathedidnotknowintheleastwhathehadbeentalkingabout。
  Thegeneralshruggedhisshoulders。
  "Howstrangeeveryone,yourselfincluded,hasbecomeoflate,"
  saidhe。"IwastellingyouthatIcannotintheleastunderstandLizabethaProkofievna’sideasandagitations。Sheisinhystericsupthere,andmoansandsaysthatwehavebeen’shamedanddisgraced。’How?Why?When?Bywhom?IconfessthatIamverymuchtoblamemyself;Idonotconcealthefact;buttheconduct,theoutrageousbehaviourofthiswoman,mustreallybekeptwithinlimits,bythepoliceifnecessary,andIamjustonmywaynowtotalkthequestionoverandmakesomearrangements。Itcanallbemanagedquietlyandgently,evenkindly,andwithouttheslightestfussorscandal。Iforeseethatthefutureispregnantwithevents,andthatthereismuchthatneedsexplanation。Thereisintrigueinthewind;butifononesidenothingisknown,ontheothersidenothingwillbeexplained。IfIhaveheardnothingaboutit,norhaveYOU,norHE,norSHE——
  whoHASheardaboutit,Ishouldliketoknow?HowCANallthisbeexplainedexceptbythefactthathalfofitismirageormoonshine,orsomehallucinationofthatsort?"
  "SHEisinsane,"mutteredtheprince,suddenlyrecollectingallthathadpassed,withaspasmofpainathisheart。
  "Itoohadthatidea,andIsleptinpeace。ButnowIseethattheiropinionismorecorrect。Idonotbelieveinthetheoryofmadness!Thewomanhasnocommonsense;butsheisnotonlynotinsane,sheisartfultoadegree。HeroutburstofthiseveningaboutEvgenie’suncleprovesthatconclusively。ItwasVILLAINOUS,simplyjesuitical,anditwasallforsomespecialpurpose。"
  "WhataboutEvgenie’suncle?"
  "Mygoodness,LefNicolaievitch,why,youcan’thaveheardasinglewordIsaid!Lookatme,I’mstilltremblingalloverwiththedreadfulshock!Itisthatthatkeptmeintownsolate。
  EvgeniePavlovitch’suncle——"
  Well?"criedtheprince。
  "Shothimselfthismorning,atseveno’clock。Arespected,eminentoldmanofseventy;andexactlypointforpointasshedescribedit;asumofmoney,aconsiderablesumofgovernmentmoney,missing!"
  "Why,howcouldshe——"
  "What,knowofit?Ha,ha,ha!Why,therewasawholecrowdroundherthemomentsheappearedonthesceneshere。Youknowwhatsortofpeoplesurroundhernowadays,andsolicitthehonourofher’acquaintance。’Ofcourseshemighteasilyhaveheardthenewsfromsomeonecomingfromtown。AllPetersburg,ifnotallPavlofsk,knowsitbynow。LookattheslynessofherobservationaboutEvgenie’suniform!Imean,herremarkthathehadretiredjustintime!There’savenomoushintforyou,ifyoulike!No,no!there’snoinsanitythere!OfcourseIrefusetobelievethatEvgeniePavlovitchcouldhaveknownbeforehandofthecatastrophe;thatis,thatatsuchandsuchadayatseveno’clock,andallthat;buthemightwellhavehadapresentimentofthetruth。AndI——allofus——PrinceS。andeverybody,believedthathewastoinheritalargefortunefromthisuncle。It’sdreadful,horrible!Mind,Idon’tsuspectEvgenieofanything,bequiteclearonthatpoint;butthethingisalittlesuspicious,nevertheless。PrinceS。can’tgetoverit。Altogetheritisaveryextraordinarycombinationofcircumstances。"
  "WhatsuspicionattachestoEvgeniePavlovitch?"
  "Oh,noneatall!Hehasbehavedverywellindeed。Ididn’tmeantodropanysortofhint。Hisownfortuneisintact,Ibelieve。
  LizabethaProkofievna,ofcourse,refusestolistentoanything。
  That’stheworstofitall,thesefamilycatastrophesorquarrels,orwhateveryouliketocallthem。Youknow,prince,youareafriendofthefamily,soIdon’tmindtellingyou;itnowappearsthatEvgeniePavlovitchproposedtoAglayaamonthago,andwasrefused。"
  "Impossible!"criedtheprince。
  "Why?Doyouknowanythingaboutit?Lookhere,"continuedthegeneral,moreagitatedthanever,andtremblingwithexcitement,"maybeIhavebeenlettingthecatoutofthebagtoofreelywithyou,ifso,itisbecauseyouare——thatsortofman,youknow!
  Perhapsyouhavesomespecialinformation?"
  "IknownothingaboutEvgeniePavlovitch!"saidtheprince。
  "NordoI!Theyalwaystrytoburymeundergroundwhenthere’sanythinggoingon;theydon’tseemtoreflectthatitisunpleasanttoamantobetreatedso!Iwon’tstandit!Wehavejusthadaterriblescene!——mind,IspeaktoyouasIwouldtomyownson!Aglayalaughsathermother。HersistersguessedaboutEvgeniehavingproposedandbeenrejected,andtoldLizabetha。
  "Itellyou,mydearfellow,Aglayaissuchanextraordinary,suchaself-willed,fantasticallittlecreature,youwouldn’tbelieveit!Everyhighquality,everybrillianttraitofheartandmind,aretobefoundinher,and,withitall,somuchcapriceandmockery,suchwildfancies——indeed,alittledevil!
  Shehasjustbeenlaughingathermothertoherveryface,andathersisters,andatPrinceS。,andeverybody——andofcourseshealwayslaughsatme!YouknowIlovethechild——Iloveherevenwhenshelaughsatme,andIbelievethewildlittlecreaturehasaspecialfondnessformeforthatveryreason。Sheisfonderofmethananyoftheothers。IdareswearshehashadagoodlaughatYOUbeforenow!Youwerehavingaquiettalkjustnow,I
  observed,afterallthethunderandlightningupstairs。Shewassittingwithyoujustasthoughtherehadbeennorowatall。"
  Theprinceblushedpainfullyinthedarkness,andclosedhisrighthandtightly,buthesaidnothing。
  "MydeargoodPrinceLefNicolaievitch,"beganthegeneralagain,suddenly,"bothIandLizabethaProkofievna——whohasbeguntorespectyouoncemore,andmethroughyou,goodnessknowswhy!——
  webothloveyouverysincerely,andesteemyou,inspiteofanyappearancestothecontrary。Butyou’lladmitwhatariddleitmusthavebeenforuswhenthatcalm,cold,littlespitfire,Aglaya——forshestooduptohermotherandansweredherquestionswithinexpressiblecontempt,andminestillmoreso,because,likeafool,Ithoughtitmydutytoassertmyselfasheadofthefamily——whenAglayastoodupofasuddenandinformedusthat’thatmadwoman’strangelyenough,sheusedexactlythesameexpressionasyoudid’hastakenitintoherheadtomarrymetoPrinceLefNicolaievitch,andthereforeisdoingherbesttochokeEvgeniePavlovitchoff,andridthehouseofhim。’That’swhatshesaid。Shewouldnotgivetheslightestexplanation;sheburstoutlaughing,bangedthedoor,andwentaway。Weallstoodtherewithourmouthsopen。Well,IwastoldafterwardsofyourlittlepassagewithAglayathisafternoon,and-and——dearprince——youareagood,sensiblefellow,don’tbeangryifIspeakout——sheislaughingatyou,myboy!Sheisenjoyingherselflikeachild,atyourexpense,andtherefore,sincesheisachild,don’tbeangrywithher,anddon’tthinkanythingofit。Iassureyou,sheissimplymakingafoolofyou,justasshedoeswithoneandallofusoutofpurelackofsomethingbettertodo。Well——good-bye!Youknowourfeelings,don’tyou——oursincerefeelingsforyourself?Theyareunalterable,youknow,dearboy,underallcircumstances,but——
  Well,herewepart;Imustgodowntotheright。RarelyhaveI
  satsouncomfortablyinmysaddle,astheysay,asInowsit。Andpeopletalkofthecharmsofacountryholiday!"
  Lefttohimselfatthecross-roads,theprinceglancedaroundhim,quicklycrossedtheroadtowardsthelightedwindowofaneighbouringhouse,andunfoldedatinyscrapofpaperwhichhehadheldclaspedinhisrighthandduringthewholeofhisconversationwiththegeneral。
  Hereadthenoteintheuncertainraysthatfellfromthewindow。
  Itwasasfollows:
  "Tomorrowmorning,Ishallbeatthegreenbenchintheparkatseven,andshallwaitthereforyou。Ihavemadeupmymindtospeaktoyouaboutamostimportantmatterwhichcloselyconcernsyourself。
  "P。S——Itrustthatyouwillnotshowthisnotetoanyone。ThoughIamashamedofgivingyousuchinstructions,IfeelthatImustdoso,consideringwhatyouare。Ithereforewritethewords,andblushforyoursimplecharacter。
  "P。P。S——ItisthesamegreenbenchthatIshowedyoubefore。
  There!aren’tyouashamedofyourself?Ifeltthatitwasnecessarytorepeateventhatinformation。"
  Thenotewaswrittenandfoldedanyhow,evidentlyinagreathurry,andprobablyjustbeforeAglayahadcomedowntotheverandah。
  Ininexpressibleagitation,amountingalmosttofear,theprinceslippedquicklyawayfromthewindow,awayfromthelight,likeafrightenedthief,butashedidsohecollidedviolentlywithsomegentlemanwhoseemedtospringfromtheearthathisfeet。
  "Iwaswatchingforyou,prince,"saidtheindividual。
  "Isthatyou,Keller?"saidtheprince,insurprise。
  "Yes,I’vebeenlookingforyou。IwaitedforyouattheEpanchins’house,butofcourseIcouldnotcomein。Idoggedyoufrombehindasyouwalkedalongwiththegeneral。Well,prince,hereisKeller,absolutelyatyourservice——commandhim!——readytosacrificehimself——eventodieincaseofneed。"
  "But-why?"
  "Oh,why?——Ofcourseyou’llbechallenged!ThatwasyoungLieutenantMoloftsoff。Iknowhim,orratherofhim;hewon’tpassaninsult。HewilltakenonoticeofRogojinandmyself,and,therefore,youaretheonlyonelefttoaccountfor。You’llhavetopaythepiper,prince。Hehasbeenaskingaboutyou,andundoubtedlyhisfriendwillcallonyoutomorrow——perhapsheisatyourhousealready。Ifyouwoulddomethehonourtohavemeforasecond,prince,Ishouldbehappy。That’swhyIhavebeenlookingforyounow。"
  "Duel!You’vecometotalkaboutaduel,too!"Theprinceburstoutlaughing,tothegreatastonishmentofKeller。Helaughedunrestrainedly,andKeller,whohadbeenonpinsandneedles,andinafeverofexcitementtoofferhimselfas"second,"wasverynearbeingoffended。
  "Youcaughthimbythearms,youknow,prince。Nomanofproperpridecanstandthatsortoftreatmentinpublic。"
  "Yes,andhegavemeafearfuldiginthechest,"criedtheprince,stilllaughing。"Whatarewetofightabout?Ishallbeghispardon,that’sall。Butifwemustfight——we’llfight!Lethimhaveashotatme,byallmeans;Ishouldratherlikeit。Ha,ha,ha!Iknowhowtoloadapistolnow;doyouknowhowtoloadapistol,Keller?First,youhavetobuythepowder,youknow;itmustn’tbewet,anditmustn’tbethatcoarsestuffthattheyloadcannonswith——itmustbepistolpowder。Thenyoupourthepowderin,andgetholdofabitoffeltfromsomedoor,andthenshovethebulletin。Butdon’tshovethebulletinbeforethepowder,becausethethingwouldn’tgooff——doyouhear,Keller,thethingwouldn’tgooff!Ha,ha,ha!Isn’tthatagrandreason,Keller,myfriend,eh?Doyouknow,mydearfellow,Ireallymustkissyou,andembraceyou,thisverymoment。Ha,ha!Howwasityousosuddenlypoppedupinfrontofmeasyoudid?Cometomyhouseassoonasyoucan,andwe’llhavesomechampagne。We’llallgetdrunk!DoyouknowIhaveadozenofchampagneinLebedeff’scellar?LebedeffsoldthemtomethedayafterI
  arrived。Itookthelot。We’llinviteeverybody!Areyougoingtodoanysleepingtonight?"
  "Asmuchasusual,prince——why?"
  "Pleasantdreamsthen——ha,ha!"
  Theprincecrossedtheroad,anddisappearedintothepark,leavingtheastonishedKellerinastateofludicrouswonder。Hehadneverbeforeseentheprinceinsuchastrangeconditionofmind,andcouldnothaveimaginedthepossibilityofit。
  "Fever,probably,"hesaidtohimself,"forthemanisallnerves,andthisbusinesshasbeenalittletoomuchforhim。HeisnotAFRAID,that’sclear;thatsortneverfunks!H’m!
  champagne!Thatwasaninterestingitemofnews,atallevents!——
  Twelvebottles!Dearme,that’saveryrespectablelittlestockindeed!IbetanythingLebedefflentsomebodymoneyondepositofthisdozenofchampagne。Hum!he’sanicefellow,isthisprince!
  Ilikethissortofman。Well,Ineedn’tbewastingtimehere,andifit’sacaseofchampagne,why——there’snotimelikethepresent!"
  Thattheprincewasalmostinafeverwasnomorethanthetruth。
  Hewanderedabouttheparkforalongwhile,andatlastcametohimselfinalonelyavenue。Hewasvaguelyconsciousthathehadalreadypacedthisparticularwalk——fromthatlarge,darktreetothebenchattheotherend——aboutahundredyardsaltogether——atleastthirtytimesbackwardsandforwards。
  Astorecollectingwhathehadbeenthinkingofallthattime,hecouldnot。Hecaughthimself,however,indulginginonethoughtwhichmadehimroarwithlaughter,thoughtherewasnothingreallytolaughatinit;buthefeltthathemustlaugh,andgoonlaughing。
  ItstruckhimthattheideaoftheduelmightnothaveoccurredtoKelleralone,butthathislessonintheartofpistol-loadingmighthavebeennotaltogetheraccidental!"Pooh!nonsense!"hesaidtohimself,struckbyanotherthought,ofasudden。"Why,shewasimmenselysurprisedtofindmethereontheverandah,andlaughedandtalkedaboutTEA!Andyetshehadthislittlenoteinherhand,thereforeshemusthaveknownthatIwassittingthere。
  Sowhywasshesurprised?Ha,ha,ha!"
  Hepulledthenoteoutandkissedit;thenpausedandreflected。
  "Howstrangeitallis!howstrange!"hemuttered,melancholyenoughnow。Inmomentsofgreatjoy,heinvariablyfeltasensationofmelancholycomeoverhim——hecouldnottellwhy。
  Helookedintentlyaroundhim,andwonderedwhyhehadcomehere;
  hewasverytired,soheapproachedthebenchandsatdownonit。
  Aroundhimwasprofoundsilence;themusicintheVauxhallwasover。Theparkseemedquiteempty,thoughitwasnot,inreality,laterthanhalf-pasteleven。Itwasaquiet,warm,clearnight——arealPetersburgnightofearlyJune;butinthedenseavenue,wherehewassitting,itwasalmostpitchdark。
  Ifanyonehadcomeupatthismomentandtoldhimthathewasinlove,passionatelyinlove,hewouldhaverejectedtheideawithastonishment,and,perhaps,withirritation。AndifanyonehadaddedthatAglaya’snotewasalove-letter,andthatitcontainedanappointmenttoalover’srendezvous,hewouldhaveblushedwithshameforthespeaker,and,probably,havechallengedhimtoaduel。
  Allthiswouldhavebeenperfectlysincereonhispart。Hehadneverforamomententertainedtheideaofthepossibilityofthisgirllovinghim,orevenofsuchathingashimselffallinginlovewithher。Thepossibilityofbeinglovedhimself,"amanlikeme,"asheputit,herankedamongridiculoussuppositions。
  ItappearedtohimthatitwassimplyajokeonAglaya’spart,iftherereallywereanythinginitatall;butthatseemedtohimquitenatural。Hispreoccupationwascausedbysomethingdifferent。
  AstothefewwordswhichthegeneralhadletslipaboutAglayalaughingateverybody,andathimselfmostofall——heentirelybelievedthem。Hedidnotfeeltheslightestsensationofoffence;onthecontrary,hewasquitecertainthatitwasasitshouldbe。
  Hiswholethoughtswerenowastonextmorningearly;hewouldseeher;hewouldsitbyheronthatlittlegreenbench,andlistentohowpistolswereloaded,andlookather。Hewantednothingmore。