首页 >出版文学> The Idiot>第14章

第14章

  Thequestionastowhatshemighthavetosayofspecialinteresttohimselfoccurredtohimonceortwice。Hedidnotdoubt,foramoment,thatshereallyhadsomesuchsubjectofconversationinstore,butsoverylittleinterestedinthematterwashethatitdidnotstrikehimtowonderwhatitcouldbe。Thecrunchofgravelonthepathsuddenlycausedhimtoraisehishead。
  Aman,whosefaceitwasdifficulttoseeinthegloom,approachedthebench,andsatdownbesidehim。Theprincepeeredintohisface,andrecognizedthelividfeaturesofRogojin。
  "Iknewyou’dbewanderingaboutsomewherehere。Ididn’thavetolookforyouverylong,"mutteredthelatterbetweenhisteeth。
  Itwasthefirsttimetheyhadmetsincetheencounteronthestaircaseatthehotel。
  PainfullysurprisedashewasatthissuddenapparitionofRogojin,theprince,forsomelittlewhile,wasunabletocollecthisthoughts。Rogojin,evidently,sawandunderstoodtheimpressionhehadmade;andthoughheseemedmoreorlessconfusedatfirst,yethebegantalkingwithwhatlookedlikeassumedeaseandfreedom。However,theprincesoonchangedhismindonthisscore,andthoughtthattherewasnotonlynoaffectationofindifference,butthatRogojinwasnotevenparticularlyagitated。Iftherewerealittleapparentawkwardness,itwasonlyinhiswordsandgestures。Themancouldnotchangehisheart。
  "Howdidyou——findmehere?"askedtheprinceforthesakeofsayingsomething。
  "KellertoldmeIfoundhimatyourplacethatyouwereinthepark。’Ofcourseheis!’Ithought。"
  "Whyso?"askedtheprinceuneasily。
  Rogojinsmiled,butdidnotexplain。
  "Ireceivedyourletter,LefNicolaievitch——what’sthegoodofallthat?——It’snouse,youknow。I’vecometoyoufromHER,——shebademetellyouthatshemustseeyou,shehassomethingtosaytoyou。Shetoldmetofindyoutoday。"
  "I’llcometomorrow。NowI’mgoinghome——areyoucomingtomyhouse?"
  "WhyshouldI?I’vegivenyouthemessage——Goodbye!"
  "Won’tyoucome?"askedtheprinceinagentlevoice。
  "Whatanextraordinarymanyouare!Iwonderatyou!"Rogojinlaughedsarcastically。
  "Whydoyouhatemeso?"askedtheprince,sadly。"Youknowyourselfthatallyoususpectedisquiteunfounded。Ifeltyouwerestillangrywithme,though。Doyouknowwhy?Becauseyoutriedtokillme——that’swhyyoucan’tshakeoffyourwrathagainstme。ItellyouthatIonlyremembertheParfenRogojinwithwhomIexchangedcrosses,andvowedbrotherhood。Iwroteyouthisinyesterday’sletter,inorderthatyoumightforgetallthatmadnessonyourpart,andthatyoumightnotfeelcalledtotalkaboutitwhenwemet。Whydoyouavoidme?Whydoyouholdyourhandbackfromme?Itellyouagain,Iconsiderallthathaspassedadelirium,aninsanedream。Icanunderstandallyoudid,andallyoufeltthatday,asifitweremyself。Whatyouwerethenimaginingwasnotthecase,andcouldneverbethecase。
  Why,then,shouldtherebeangerbetweenus?"
  "Youdon’tknowwhatangeris!"laughedRogojin,inreplytotheprince’sheatedwords。
  Hehadmovedapaceortwoaway,andwashidinghishandsbehindhim。
  "No,itisimpossibleformetocometoyourhouseagain,"headdedslowly。
  "Why?Doyouhatemesomuchasallthat?"
  "Idon’tloveyou,LefNicolaievitch,and,therefore,whatwouldbetheuseofmycomingtoseeyou?Youarejustlikeachild——
  youwantaplaything,anditmustbetakenoutandgivenyou——andthenyoudon’tknowhowtoworkit。Youaresimplyrepeatingallyousaidinyourletter,andwhat’stheuse?OfcourseIbelieveeverywordyousay,andIknowperfectlywellthatyouneitherdidorevercandeceivemeinanyway,andyet,Idon’tloveyou。
  Youwritethatyou’veforgotteneverything,andonlyrememberyourbrotherParfen,withwhomyouexchangedcrosses,andthatyoudon’trememberanythingabouttheRogojinwhoaimedaknifeatyourthroat。Whatdoyouknowaboutmyfeelings,eh?"Rogojinlaugheddisagreeably。"HereyouareholdingoutyourbrotherlyforgivenesstomeforathingthatIhaveperhapsneverrepentedofintheslightestdegree。Ididnotthinkofitagainallthatevening;allmythoughtswerecentredonsomethingelse——"
  "Notthinkofitagain?Ofcourseyoudidn’t!"criedtheprince。
  "AndIdareswearthatyoucamestraightawaydownheretoPavlofsktolistentothemusicanddogheraboutinthecrowd,andstareather,justasyoudidtoday。There’snothingsurprisinginthat!Ifyouhadn’tbeeninthatconditionofmindthatyoucouldthinkofnothingbutonesubject,youwould,probably,neverhaveraisedyourknifeagainstme。Ihadapresentimentofwhatyouwoulddo,thatday,eversinceIsawyoufirstinthemorning。Doyouknowyourselfwhatyoulookedlike?
  Iknewyouwouldtrytomurdermeevenattheverymomentwhenweexchangedcrosses。Whatdidyoutakemetoyourmotherfor?Didyouthinktostayyourhandbydoingso?Perhapsyoudidnotputyourthoughtsintowords,butyouandIwerethinkingthesamething,orfeelingthesamethingloomingoverus,atthesamemoment。Whatshouldyouthinkofmenowifyouhadnotraisedyourknifetome——theknifewhichGodavertedfrommythroat?I
  wouldhavebeenguiltyofsuspectingyouallthesame——andyouwouldhaveintendedthemurderallthesame;thereforeweshouldhavebeenmutuallyguiltyinanycase。Come,don’tfrown;youneedn’tlaughatme,either。Yousayyouhaven’t’repented。’
  Repented!Youprobablycouldn’t,ifyouweretotry;youdislikemetoomuchforthat。Why,ifIwereanangeloflight,andasinnocentbeforeyouasababe,youwouldstillloathemeifyoubelievedthatSHElovedme,insteadoflovingyourself。That’sjealousy——thatistherealjealousy。
  "ButdoyouknowwhatIhavebeenthinkingoutduringthislastweek,Parfen?I’lltellyou。Whatifshelovesyounowbetterthananyone?AndwhatifshetormentsyouBECAUSEshelovesyou,andinproportiontoherloveforyou,soshetormentsyouthemore?Shewon’ttellyouthis,ofcourse;youmusthaveeyestosee。Whydoyousupposesheconsentstomarryyou?Shemusthaveareason,andthatreasonshewilltellyousomeday。Somewomendesirethekindofloveyougiveher,andsheisprobablyoneofthese。Yourloveandyourwildnatureimpressher。Doyouknowthatawomaniscapableofdrivingamancrazyalmost,withhercrueltiesandmockeries,andfeelsnotonesinglepangofregret,becauseshelooksathimandsaystoherself,’There!I’lltormentthismannearlyintohisgrave,andthen,oh!howI’llcompensatehimforitallwithmylove!’"
  Rogojinlistenedtotheend,andthenburstoutlaughing:
  "Why,prince,Ideclareyoumusthavehadatasteofthissortofthingyourself——haven’tyou?Ihaveheardtellofsomethingofthekind,youknow;isittrue?"
  "What?Whatcanyouhaveheard?"saidtheprince,stammering。
  Rogojincontinuedtolaughloudly。Hehadlistenedtotheprince’sspeechwithcuriosityandsomesatisfaction。Thespeaker’simpulsivewarmthhadsurprisedandevencomfortedhim。
  "Why,I’venotonlyheardofit;Iseeitformyself,"hesaid。
  "Whenhaveyoueverspokenlikethatbefore?Itwasn’tlikeyourself,prince。Why,ifIhadn’theardthisreportaboutyou,I
  shouldneverhavecomeallthiswayintothepark——atmidnight,too!"
  "Idon’tunderstandyouintheleast,Parfen。"
  "Oh,SHEtoldmeallaboutitlongago,andtonightIsawformyself。Isawyouatthemusic,youknow,andwhomyouweresittingwith。Shesworetomeyesterday,andagaintoday,thatyouaremadlyinlovewithAglayaIvanovna。Butthat’sallthesametome,prince,andit’snotmyaffairatall;forifyouhaveceasedtoloveHER,SHEhasnotceasedtoloveYOU。Youknow,ofcourse,thatshewantstomarryyoutothatgirl?She’ssworntoit!Ha,ha!Shesaystome,’UntilthenIwon’tmarryyou。Whentheygotochurch,we’llgotoo-andnotbefore。’Whatonearthdoesshemeanbyit?Idon’tknow,andIneverdid。
  Eithershelovesyouwithoutlimitsor——yet,ifshelovesyou,whydoesshewishtomarryyoutoanothergirl?Shesays,’Iwanttoseehimhappy,’whichistosay——shelovesyou。"
  "Iwrote,andIsaytoyouoncemore,thatsheisnotinherrightmind,"saidtheprince,whohadlistenedwithanguishtowhatRogojinsaid。
  "Goodnessknows——youmaybewrongthere!Atallevents,shenamedthedaythisevening,asweleftthegardens。’Inthreeweeks,’
  saysshe,’andperhapssooner,weshallbemarried。’Shesworetoit,tookoffhercrossandkissedit。Soitalldependsuponyounow,prince,Yousee!Ha,ha!"
  "That’sallmadness。Whatyousayaboutme,Parfen,nevercanandneverwillbe。Tomorrow,Ishallcomeandseeyou——"
  "Howcanshebemad,"Rogojininterrupted,"whensheissaneenoughforotherpeopleandonlymadforyou?HowcanshewriteletterstoHER,ifshe’smad?Ifshewereinsanetheywouldobserveitinherletters。"
  "Whatletters?"saidtheprince,alarmed。
  "ShewritestoHER——andthegirlreadstheletters。Haven’tyouheard?——Youaresuretohear;she’ssuretoshowyouthelettersherself。"
  "Iwon’tbelievethis!"criedtheprince。
  "Why,prince,you’veonlygoneafewstepsalongthisroad,I
  perceive。Youareevidentlyamerebeginner。Waitabit!Beforelong,you’llhaveyourowndetectives,you’llwatchdayandnight,andyou’llknoweverylittlethingthatgoesonthere——
  thatis,if——"
  "Dropthatsubject,Rogojin,andnevermentionitagain。Andlisten:asIhavesathere,andtalked,andlistened,ithassuddenlystruckmethattomorrowismybirthday。Itmustbeabouttwelveo’clock,now;comehomewithme——do,andwe’llseethedayin!We’llhavesomewine,andyoushallwishme——Idon’tknowwhat——butyou,especiallyyou,mustwishmeagoodwish,andIshallwishyoufullhappinessinreturn。Otherwise,handmemycrossbackagain。Youdidn’treturnittomenextday。Haven’tyougotitonnow?"
  "Yes,Ihave,"saidRogojin。
  "Comealong,then。Idon’twishtomeetmynewyearwithoutyou——
  mynewlife,Ishouldsay,foranewlifeisbeginningforme。
  Didyouknow,Parfen,thatanewlifehadbegunforme?"
  "Iseeformyselfthatitisso——andIshalltellHER。Butyouarenotquiteyourself,LefNicolaievitch。"
  IV。
  THEprinceobservedwithgreatsurprise,asheapproachedhisvilla,accompaniedbyRogojin,thatalargenumberofpeoplewereassembledonhisverandah,whichwasbrilliantlylightedup。Thecompanyseemedmerryandwerenoisilylaughingandtalking——evenquarrelling,tojudgefromthesounds。Atalleventstheywereclearlyenjoyingthemselves,andtheprinceobservedfurtheroncloserinvestigation——thatallhadbeendrinkingchampagne。Tojudgefromthelivelyconditionofsomeoftheparty,itwastobesupposedthataconsiderablequantityofchampagnehadbeenconsumedalready。
  Alltheguestswereknowntotheprince;butthecuriouspartofthematterwasthattheyhadallarrivedonthesameevening,asthoughwithoneaccord,althoughhehadonlyhimselfrecollectedthefactthatitwashisbirthdayafewmomentssince。
  "Youmusthavetoldsomebodyyouweregoingtotrotoutthechampagne,andthat’swhytheyareallcome!"mutteredRogojin,asthetwoenteredtheverandah。"Weknowallaboutthat!You’veonlytowhistleandtheycomeupinshoals!"hecontinued,almostangrily。Hewasdoubtlessthinkingofhisownlateexperienceswithhisbooncompanions。
  Allsurroundedtheprincewithexclamationsofwelcome,and,onhearingthatitwashisbirthday,withcriesofcongratulationanddelight;manyofthemwereverynoisy。
  Thepresenceofcertainofthoseintheroomsurprisedtheprincevastly,buttheguestwhoseadventfilledhimwiththegreatestwonder——almostamountingtoalarm——wasEvgeniePavlovitch。Theprincecouldnotbelievehiseyeswhenhebeheldthelatter,andcouldnothelpthinkingthatsomethingwaswrong。
  Lebedeffranuppromptlytoexplainthearrivalofallthesegentlemen。Hewashimselfsomewhatintoxicated,buttheprincegatheredfromhislong-windedperiodsthatthepartyhadassembledquitenaturally,andaccidentally。
  FirstofallHippolytehadarrived,earlyintheevening,andfeelingdecidedlybetter,haddeterminedtoawaittheprinceontheverandah。ThereLebedeffhadjoinedhim,andhishouseholdhadfollowed——thatis,hisdaughtersandGeneralIvolgin。
  BurdovskyhadbroughtHippolyte,andstayedonwithhim。GaniaandPtitsinhaddroppedinaccidentallylateron;thencameKeller,andheandColiainsistedonhavingchampagne。EvgeniePavlovitchhadonlydroppedinhalfanhourorsoago。Lebedeffhadservedthechampagnereadily。
  "Myownthough,prince,myown,mind,"hesaid,"andthere’llbesomesupperlateron;mydaughterisgettingitreadynow。Comeandsitdown,prince,weareallwaitingforyou,wewantyouwithus。Fancywhatwehavebeendiscussing!Youknowthequestion,’tobeornottobe,’——outofHamlet!Acontemporarytheme!Quiteup-to-date!Mr。Hippolytehasbeeneloquenttoadegree。Hewon’tgotobed,buthehasonlydrunkalittlechampagne,andthatcan’tdohimanyharm。Comealong,prince,andsettlethequestion。Everyoneiswaitingforyou,sighingforthelightofyourluminousintelligence……"
  Theprincenoticedthesweet,welcominglookonVeraLebedeff’sface,asshemadeherwaytowardshimthroughthecrowd。Heheldouthishandtoher。Shetookit,blushingwithdelight,andwishedhim"ahappylifefromthatdayforward。"Thensheranofftothekitchen,where。herpresencewasnecessarytohelpinthepreparationsforsupper。Beforetheprince’sarrivalshehadspentsometimeontheterrace,listeningeagerlytotheconversation,thoughthevisitors,mostlyundertheinfluenceofwine,werediscussingabstractsubjectsfarbeyondhercomprehension。Inthenextroomheryoungersisterlayonawoodenchest,soundasleep,withhermouthwideopen;buttheboy,Lebedeff’sson,hadtakenuphispositionclosebesideColiaandHippolyte,hisfacelitupwithinterestintheconversationofhisfatherandtherest,towhichhewouldwillinglyhavelistenedfortenhoursatastretch。
  "Ihavewaitedforyouonpurpose,andamverygladtoseeyouarrivesohappy,"saidHippolyte,whentheprincecameforwardtopresshishand,immediatelyaftergreetingVera。
  "AndhowdoyouknowthatIam’sohappy’?
  "Icanseeitbyyourface!Say’howdoyoudo’totheothers,andcomeandsitdownhere,quick——I’vebeenwaitingforyou!"headded,accentuatingthefactthathehadwaited。Ontheprince’sasking,"Willitnotbeinjurioustoyoutositoutsolate?"herepliedthathecouldnotbelievethathehadthoughthimselfdyingthreedaysorsoago,forheneverhadfeltbetterthanthisevening。
  Burdovskynextjumpedupandexplainedthathehadcomeinbyaccident,havingescortedHippolytefromtown。Hemurmuredthathewasgladhehad"writtennonsense"inhisletter,andthenpressedtheprince’shandwarmlyandsatdownagain。
  TheprinceapproachedEvgeniePavlovitchlastofall。Thelatterimmediatelytookhisarm。
  "Ihaveacoupleofwordstosaytoyou,"hebegan,"andthoseonaveryimportantmatter;let’sgoasideforaminuteortwo。"
  "Justacoupleofwords!"whisperedanothervoiceintheprince’sotherear,andanotherhandtookhisotherarm。Muishkinturned,andtohisgreatsurpriseobservedared,flushedfaceandadroll-lookingfigurewhichherecognizedatonceasthatofFerdishenko。Goodnessknowswherehehadturnedupfrom!
  "DoyourememberFerdishenko?"heasked。
  "Wherehaveyoudroppedfrom?"criedtheprince。
  "Heissorryforhissinsnow,prince,"criedKeller。"Hedidnotwanttoletyouknowhewashere;hewashiddenoverthereinthecorner,——butherepentsnow,hefeelshisguilt。"
  "Why,whathashedone?"
  "Imethimoutsideandbroughthimin——he’sagentlemanwhodoesn’toftenallowhisfriendstoseehim,oflate——buthe’ssorrynow。"
  "Delighted,I’msure!——I’llcomebackdirectly,gentlemen,——sitdowntherewiththeothers,please,——excusemeonemoment,"saidthehost,gettingawaywithdifficultyinordertofollowEvgenie。
  "Youareverygayhere,"beganthelatter,"andIhavehadquiteapleasanthalf-hourwhileIwaitedforyou。Nowthen,mydearLefNicolaievitch,thisiswhat’sthematter。I’vearrangeditallwithMoloftsoff,andhavejustcomeintorelieveyourmindonthatscore。Youneedbeundernoapprehensions。Hewasverysensible,asheshouldbe,ofcourse,forIthinkhewasentirelytoblamehimself。"
  "WhatMoloftsoff?"
  "Theyoungfellowwhosearmsyouheld,don’tyouknow?Hewassowildwithyouthathewasgoingtosendafriendtoyoutomorrowmorning。"
  "Whatnonsense!"
  "Ofcourseitisnonsense,andinnonsenseitwouldhaveended,doubtless;butyouknowthesefellows,they——"
  "Excuseme,butIthinkyoumusthavesomethingelsethatyouwishedtospeakabout,EvgeniePavlovitch?"
  "Ofcourse,Ihave!"saidtheother,laughing。"Yousee,mydearfellow,tomorrow,veryearlyinthemorning,Imustbeofftotownaboutthisunfortunatebusinessmyuncle,youknow!。Justimagine,mydearsir,itisalltrue——wordforword——and,ofcourse,everybodyknewitexceptingmyself。AllthishasbeensuchablowtomethatIhavenotmanagedtocallinattheEpanchins’。TomorrowIshallnotseethemeither,becauseI
  shallbeintown。Imaynotbehereforthreedaysormore;inaword,myaffairsarealittleoutofgear。Butthoughmytownbusinessis,ofcourse,mostpressing,stillIdeterminednottogoawayuntilIhadseenyou,andhadaclearunderstandingwithyouuponcertainpoints;andthatwithoutlossoftime。Iwillwaitnow,ifyouwillallowme,untilthecompanydeparts;Imayjustaswell,forIhavenowhereelsetogoto,andIshallcertainlynotdoanysleepingtonight;I’mfartooexcited。Andfinally,Imustconfessthat,thoughIknowitisbadformtopursueamaninthisway,Ihavecometobegyourfriendship,mydearprince。Youareanunusualsortofaperson;youdon’tlieateverystep,assomemendo;infact,youdon’tlieatall,andthereisamatterinwhichIneedatrueandsincerefriend,forIreallymayclaimtobeamongthenumberofbonafideunfortunatesjustnow。"
  Helaughedagain。
  "Butthetroubleis,"saidtheprince,afteraslightpauseforreflection,"thatgoodnessonlyknowswhenthispartywillbreakup。Hadn’twebetterstrollintothepark?I’llexcusemyself,there’snodangeroftheirgoingaway。"
  "No,no!Ihavemyreasonsforwishingthemnottosuspectusofbeingengagedinanyspeciallyimportantconversation。Therearegentrypresentwhoarealittletoomuchinterestedinus。Youarenotawareofthatperhaps,prince?Itwillbeagreatdealbetteriftheyseethatwearefriendlyjustinanordinaryway。
  They’llallgoinacoupleofhours,andthenI’llaskyoutogivemetwentyminutes-halfanhouratmost。"
  "Byallmeans!IassureyouIamdelighted——youneednothaveenteredintoalltheseexplanations。Asforyourremarksaboutfriendshipwithme——thanks,verymuchindeed。Youmustexcusemybeingalittleabsentthisevening。Doyouknow,Icannotsomehowbeattentivetoanythingjustnow?"
  "Isee,Isee,"saidEvgenie,smilinggently。Hismirthseemedverynearthesurfacethisevening。
  "Whatdoyousee?"saidtheprince,startled。
  "Idon’twantyoutosuspectthatIhavesimplycomeheretodeceiveyouandpumpinformationoutofyou!"saidEvgenie,stillsmiling,andwithoutmakinganydirectreplytothequestion。
  "Oh,butIhaven’ttheslightestdoubtthatyoudidcometopumpme,"saidtheprince,laughinghimself,atlast;"andIdaresayyouarequitepreparedtodeceivemetoo,sofarasthatgoes。
  Butwhatofthat?I’mnotafraidofyou;besides,you’llhardlybelieveit,IfeelasthoughIreallydidn’tcareascraponewayortheother,justnow!——And-and-andasyouareacapitalfellow,Iamconvincedofthat,Idaresaywereallyshallendbybeinggoodfriends。IlikeyouverymuchEvgeniePavlovitch;Iconsideryouaverygoodfellowindeed。"
  "Well,inanycase,youareamostdelightfulmantohavetodealwith,bethebusinesswhatitmay,"concludedEvgenie。"Comealongnow,I’lldrinkaglasstoyourhealth。I’mcharmedtohaveenteredintoalliancewithyou。By-the-by,"headdedsuddenly,hasthisyoungHippolytecomedowntostaywithyou"Yes。"
  "He’snotgoingtodieatonce,Ishouldthink,ishe?"
  "Why?"
  "Oh,Idon’tknow。I’vebeenhalfanhourherewithhim,andhe——"
  Hippolytehadbeenwaitingfortheprinceallthistime,andhadneverceasedlookingathimandEvgeniePavlovitchastheyconversedinthecorner。Hebecamemuchexcitedwhentheyapproachedthetableoncemore。Hewasdisturbedinhismind,itseemed;perspirationstoodinlargedropsonhisforehead;inhisgleamingeyesitwaseasytoreadimpatienceandagitation;hisgazewanderedfromfacetofaceofthosepresent,andfromobjecttoobjectintheroom,apparentlywithoutaim。Hehadtakenapart,andananimatedone,inthenoisyconversationofthecompany;buthisanimationwasclearlytheoutcomeoffever。Histalkwasalmostincoherent;hewouldbreakoffinthemiddleofasentencewhichhehadbegunwithgreatinterest,andforgetwhathehadbeensaying。TheprincediscoveredtohisdismaythatHippolytehadbeenallowedtodrinktwolargeglassesofchampagne;theonenowstandingbyhimbeingthethird。Allthishefoundoutafterwards;atthemomenthedidnotnoticeanything,veryparticularly。
  "DoyouknowIamspeciallygladthattodayisyourbirthday!"
  criedHippolyte。
  "Why?"
  "You’llsoonsee。D’youknowIhadafeelingthattherewouldbealotofpeopleheretonight?It’snotthefirsttimethatmypresentimentshavebeenfulfilled。IwishIhadknownitwasyourbirthday,I’dhavebroughtyouapresent——perhapsIhavegotapresentforyou!Whoknows?Ha,ha!Howlongisitnowbeforedaylight?"
  "Notacoupleofhours,"saidPtitsin,lookingathiswatch。
  What’sthegoodofdaylightnow?Onecanreadallnightintheopenairwithoutit,"saidsomeone。
  "Thegoodofit!Well,Iwantjusttoseearayofthesun,"saidHippolyte。Canonedrinktothesun’shealth,doyouthink,prince?"
  "Oh,Idaresayonecan;butyouhadbetterbecalmandliedown,Hippolyte——that’smuchmoreimportant。
  "Youarealwayspreachingaboutresting;youarearegularnursetome,prince。Assoonasthesunbeginsto’resound’inthesky——whatpoetsaidthat?’Thesunresoundedinthesky。’Itisbeautiful,thoughthere’snosenseinit!——thenwewillgotobed。Lebedeff,tellme,isthesunthesourceoflife?Whatdoesthesource,or’spring,’oflifereallymeanintheApocalypse?
  Youhaveheardofthe’StarthatiscalledWormwood,’prince?"
  "IhaveheardthatLebedeffexplainsitastherailroadsthatcoverEuropelikeanet。"
  Everybodylaughed,andLebedeffgotupabruptly。
  "No!Allowme,thatisnotwhatwearediscussing!"hecried,wavinghishandtoimposesilence。"Allowme!Withthesegentlemen……allthesegentlemen,"headded,suddenlyaddressingtheprince,"oncertainpoints……thatis……"Hethumpedthetablerepeatedly,andthelaughterincreased。Lebedeffwasinhisusualeveningcondition,andhadjustendedalongandscientificargument,whichhadlefthimexcitedandirritable。Onsuchoccasionshewasapttoevinceasupremecontemptforhisopponents。
  "Itisnotright!Halfanhourago,prince,itwasagreedamongusthatnooneshouldinterrupt,nooneshouldlaugh,thateachpersonwastoexpresshisthoughtsfreely;andthenattheend,wheneveryonehadspoken,objectionsmightbemade,evenbytheatheists。Wechosethegeneralaspresident。Nowwithoutsomesuchruleandorder,anyonemightbeshouteddown,evenintheloftiestandmostprofoundthought……"
  "Goon!Goon!Nobodyisgoingtointerruptyou!"criedseveralvoices。
  "Speak,butkeeptothepoint!"
  "Whatisthis’star’?"askedanother。
  Ihavenoidea,"repliedGeneralIvolgin,whopresidedwithmuchgravity。
  "Ilovethesearguments,prince,"saidKeller,alsomorethanhalfintoxicated,movingrestlesslyinhischair。"Scientificandpolitical。"Then,turningsuddenlytowardsEvgeniePavlovitch,whowasseatednearhim:"Doyouknow,IsimplyadorereadingtheaccountsofthedebatesintheEnglishparliament。Notthatthediscussionsthemselvesinterestme;Iamnotapolitician,youknow;butitdelightsmetoseehowtheyaddresseachother’thenoblelordwhoagreeswithme,’’myhonourableopponentwhoastonishedEuropewithhisproposal,’’thenobleviscountsittingopposite’——alltheseexpressions,allthisparliamentarismofafreepeople,hasanenormousattractionforme。Itfascinatesme,prince。Ihavealwaysbeenanartistinthedepthsofmysoul,I
  assureyou,EvgeniePavlovitch。"
  "Doyoumeantosay,"criedGania,fromtheothercorner,"doyoumeantosaythatrailwaysareaccursedinventions,thattheyareasourceofruintohumanity,apoisonpouredupontheearthtocorruptthespringsoflife?"
  GavrilaArdalionovitchwasinhighspiritsthatevening,anditseemedtotheprincethathisgaietywasmingledwithtriumph。OfcoursehewasonlyjokingwithLebedeff,meaningtoegghimon,buthegrewexcitedhimselfatthesametime。
  "Nottherailways,ohdear,no!"repliedLebedeff,withamixtureofviolentangerandextremeenjoyment。"Consideredalone,therailwayswillnotpollutethespringsoflife,butasawholetheyareaccursed。Thewholetendencyofourlatestcenturies,initsscientificandmaterialisticaspect,ismostprobablyaccursed。"
  "Isitcertainlyaccursed?……ordoyouonlymeanitmightbe?
  Thatisanimportantpoint,"saidEvgeniePavlovitch。
  "Itisaccursed,certainlyaccursed!"repliedtheclerk,vehemently。
  "Don’tgosofast,Lebedeff;youaremuchmilderinthemorning,"
  saidPtitsin,smiling。
  "But,ontheotherhand,morefrankintheevening!Intheeveningsincereandfrank,"repeatedLebedeff,earnestly。"Morecandid,moreexact,morehonest,morehonourable,and……
  althoughImayshowyoumyweakside,Ichallengeyouall;youatheists,forinstance!Howareyougoingtosavetheworld?Howfindastraightroadofprogress,youmenofscience,ofindustry,ofcooperation,oftradesunions,andalltherest?
  Howareyougoingtosaveit,Isay?Bywhat?Bycredit?Whatiscredit?Towhatwillcreditleadyou?"
  "Youaretooinquisitive,"remarkedEvgeniePavlovitch。
  "Well,anyonewhodoesnotinteresthimselfinquestionssuchasthisis,inmyopinion,amerefashionabledummy。"
  "Butitwillleadatleasttosolidarity,andbalanceofinterests,"saidPtitsin。
  "Youwillreachthatwithnothingtohelpyoubutcredit?Withoutrecoursetoanymoralprinciple,havingforyourfoundationonlyindividualselfishness,andthesatisfactionofmaterialdesires?
  Universalpeace,andthehappinessofmankindasawhole,beingtheresult!IsitreallysothatImayunderstandyou,sir?"
  "Buttheuniversalnecessityofliving,ofdrinking,ofeating——
  inshort,thewholescientificconvictionthatthisnecessitycanonlybesatisfiedbyuniversalco-operationandthesolidarityofinterests——is,itseemstome,astrongenoughideatoserveasabasis,sotospeak,anda’springoflife,’forhumanityinfuturecenturies,"saidGavrilaArdalionovitch,nowthoroughlyroused。
  "Thenecessityofeatinganddrinking,thatistosay,solelytheinstinctofself-preservation……"
  "Isnotthatenough?Theinstinctofself-preservationisthenormallawofhumanity……"
  "Whotoldyouthat?"brokeinEvgeniePavlovitch。
  "Itisalaw,doubtless,butalawneithermorenorlessnormalthanthatofdestruction,evenself-destruction。Isitpossiblethatthewholenormallawofhumanityiscontainedinthissentimentofself-preservation?"
  "Ah!"criedHippolyte,turningtowardsEvgeniePavlovitch,andlookingathimwithaqueersortofcuriosity。
  ThenseeingthatRadomskiwaslaughing,hebegantolaughhimself,nudgedColia,whowassittingbesidehim,withhiselbow,andagainaskedwhattimeitwas。HeevenpulledColia’ssilverwatchoutofhishand,andlookedatiteagerly。Then,asifhehadforgotteneverything,hestretchedhimselfoutonthesofa,puthishandsbehindhishead,andlookedupatthesky。
  AfteraminuteortwohegotupandcamebacktothetabletolistentoLebedeff’soutpourings,asthelatterpassionatelycommentatedonEvgeniePavlovitch’sparadox。
  "Thatisanartfulandtraitorousidea。Asmartnotion,"
  vociferatedtheclerk,"thrownoutasanappleofdiscord。Butitisjust。Youareascoffer,amanoftheworld,acavalryofficer,and,thoughnotwithoutbrains,youdonotrealizehowprofoundisyourthought,norhowtrue。Yes,thelawsofself-
  preservationandofself-destructionareequallypowerfulinthisworld。Thedevilwillholdhisempireoverhumanityuntilalimitoftimewhichisstillunknown。Youlaugh?Youdonotbelieveinthedevil?ScepticismastothedevilisaFrenchidea,anditisalsoafrivolousidea。Doyouknowwhothedevilis?Doyouknowhisname?Althoughyoudon’tknowhisnameyoumakeamockeryofhisform,followingtheexampleofVoltaire。Yousneerathishoofs,athistail,athishorns——allofthemtheproduceofyourimagination!Inrealitythedevilisagreatandterriblespirit,withneitherhoofs,nortail,norhorns;itisyouwhohaveendowedhimwiththeseattributes!But……heisnotthequestionjustnow!"
  "Howdoyouknowheisnotthequestionnow?"criedHippolyte,laughinghysterically。
  "Anotherexcellentidea,andworthconsidering!"repliedLebedeff。"But,again,thatisnotthequestion。Thequestionatthismomentiswhetherwehavenotweakened’thespringsoflife’
  bytheextension……"
  "Ofrailways?"putinColiaeagerly。
  "Notrailways,properlyspeaking,presumptuousyouth,butthegeneraltendencyofwhichrailwaysmaybeconsideredastheoutwardexpressionandsymbol。Wehurryandpushandhustle,forthegoodofhumanity!’Theworldisbecomingtoonoisy,toocommercial!’groanssomesolitarythinker。’Undoubtedlyitis,butthenoiseofwaggonsbearingbreadtostarvinghumanityisofmorevaluethantranquillityofsoul,’repliesanothertriumphantly,andpassesonwithanairofpride。Asforme,I
  don’tbelieveinthesewaggonsbringingbreadtohumanity。For,foundedonnomoralprinciple,thesemaywell,evenintheactofcarryingbreadtohumanity,coldlyexcludeaconsiderableportionofhumanityfromenjoyingit;thathasbeenseenmorethanonce。
  "What,thesewaggonsmaycoldlyexclude?"repeatedsomeone。
  "Thathasbeenseenalready,"continuedLebedeff,notdeigningtonoticetheinterruption。"Malthuswasafriendofhumanity,but,withill-foundedmoralprinciples,thefriendofhumanityisthedevourerofhumanity,withoutmentioninghispride;for,touchthevanityofoneofthesenumberlessphilanthropists,andtoavengehisself-esteem,hewillbereadyatoncetosetfiretothewholeglobe;andtotellthetruth,weareallmoreorlesslikethat。I,perhaps,mightbethefirsttosetalighttothefuel,andthenrunaway。But,again,Imustrepeat,thatisnotthequestion。"
  "Whatisitthen,forgoodness’sake?"
  "Heisboringus!"
  "Thequestionisconnectedwiththefollowinganecdoteofpasttimes;forIamobligedtorelateastory。Inourtimes,andinourcountry,whichIhopeyouloveasmuchasIdo,forasfarasIamconcerned,Iamreadytoshedthelastdropofmyblood……
  "Goon!Goon!"
  "Inourdearcountry,asindeedinthewholeofEurope,afaminevisitshumanityaboutfourtimesacentury,asfarasIcanremember;onceineverytwenty-fiveyears。Iwon’tsweartothisbeingtheexactfigure,butanyhowtheyhavebecomecomparativelyrare。"
  "Comparativelytowhat?"
  "Tothetwelfthcentury,andthoseimmediatelyprecedingandfollowingit。Wearetoldbyhistoriansthatwidespreadfaminesoccurredinthosedayseverytwoorthreeyears,andsuchwastheconditionofthingsthatmenactuallyhadrecoursetocannibalism,insecret,ofcourse。Oneofthesecannibals,whohadreachedagoodage,declaredofhisownfreewillthatduringthecourseofhislongandmiserablelifehehadpersonallykilledandeaten,inthemostprofoundsecrecy,sixtymonks,nottomentionseveralchildren;thenumberofthelatterhethoughtwasaboutsix,aninsignificanttotalwhencomparedwiththeenormousmassofecclesiasticsconsumedbyhim。Astoadults,laymenthatistosay,hehadnevertouchedthem。"
  Thepresidentjoinedinthegeneraloutcry。
  "That’simpossible!"saidheinanaggrievedtone。"Iamoftendiscussingsubjectsofthisnaturewithhim,gentlemen,butforthemostparthetalksnonsenseenoughtomakeonedeaf:thisstoryhasnopretenceofbeingtrue。"
  "General,rememberthesiegeofKars!Andyou,gentlemen,I
  assureyoumyanecdoteisthenakedtruth。Imayremarkthatreality,althoughitisgovernedbyinvariablelaw,hasattimesaresemblancetofalsehood。Infact,thetruerathingisthelesstrueitsounds。"
  "Butcouldanyonepossiblyeatsixtymonks?"objectedthescoffinglisteners。
  "Itisquiteclearthathedidnoteatthemallatonce,butinaspaceoffifteenortwentyyears:fromthatpointofviewthethingiscomprehensibleandnatural……"
  "Natural?"
  "Andnatural,"repeatedLebedeffwithpedanticobstinacy。
  "Besides,aCatholicmonkisbynatureexcessivelycurious;itwouldbequiteeasythereforetoenticehimintoawood,orsomesecretplace,onfalsepretences,andtheretodealwithhimassaid。ButIdonotdisputeintheleastthatthenumberofpersonsconsumedappearstodenoteaspiceofgreediness。"
  "Itisperhapstrue,gentlemen,"saidtheprince,quietly。Hehadbeenlisteninginsilenceuptothatmomentwithouttakingpartintheconversation,butlaughingheartilywiththeothersfromtimetotime。Evidentlyhewasdelightedtoseethateverybodywasamused,thateverybodywastalkingatonce,andeventhateverybodywasdrinking。Itseemedasifhewerenotintendingtospeakatall,whensuddenlyheintervenedinsuchaseriousvoicethateveryonelookedathimwithinterest。
  "Itistruethattherewerefrequentfaminesatthattime,gentlemen。Ihaveoftenheardofthem,thoughIdonotknowmuchhistory。Butitseemstomethatitmusthavebeenso。WhenIwasinSwitzerlandIusedtolookwithastonishmentatthemanyruinsoffeudalcastlesperchedonthetopofsteepandrockyheights,halfamileatleastabovesea-level,sothattoreachthemonehadtoclimbmanymilesofstonytracks。Acastle,asyouknow,is,akindofmountainofstones——adreadful,almostanimpossible,labour!Doubtlessthebuilderswereallpoormen,vassals,andhadtopayheavytaxes,andtokeepupthepriesthood。How,then,couldtheyprovideforthemselves,andwhenhadtheytimetoploughandsowtheirfields?Thegreaternumbermust,literally,havediedofstarvation。Ihavesometimesaskedmyselfhowitwasthatthesecommunitieswerenotutterlysweptoffthefaceoftheearth,andhowtheycouldpossiblysurvive。Lebedeffisnotmistaken,inmyopinion,whenhesaysthattherewerecannibalsinthosedays,perhapsinconsiderablenumbers;butIdonotunderstandwhyheshouldhavedraggedinthemonks,norwhathemeansbythat。"
  "Itisundoubtedlybecause,inthetwelfthcentury,monksweretheonlypeopleonecouldeat;theywerethefat,amongmanylean,"saidGavrilaArdalionovitch。
  "Abrilliantidea,andmosttrue!"criedLebedeff,"forhenevereventouchedthelaity。Sixtymonks,andnotasinglelayman!Itisaterribleidea,butitishistoric,itisstatistic;itisindeedoneofthosefactswhichenablesanintelligenthistoriantoreconstructthephysiognomyofaspecialepoch,foritbringsoutthisfurtherpointwithmathematicalaccuracy,thattheclergywereinthosedayssixtytimesricherandmoreflourishingthantherestofhumanity。andperhapssixtytimesfatteralso……"
  "Youareexaggerating,youareexaggerating,Lebedeff!"criedhishearers,amidlaughter。
  "Iadmitthatitisanhistoricthought,butwhatisyourconclusion?"askedtheprince。
  HespokesoseriouslyinaddressingLebedeff,thathistonecontrastedquitecomicallywiththatoftheothers。Theywereverynearlylaughingathim,too,buthedidnotnoticeit。
  "Don’tyouseeheisalunatic,prince?"whisperedEvgeniePavlovitchinhisear。"Someonetoldmejustnowthatheisabittouchedonthesubjectoflawyers,thathehasamaniaformakingspeechesandintendstopasstheexaminations。Iamexpectingasplendidburlesquenow。"
  "Myconclusionisvast,"repliedLebedeff,inavoicelikethunder。"Letusexaminefirstthepsychologicalandlegalpositionofthecriminal。Weseethatinspiteofthedifficultyoffindingotherfood,theaccused,or,aswemaysay,myclient,hasoftenduringhispeculiarlifeexhibitedsignsofrepentance,andofwishingtogiveupthisclericaldiet。Incontrovertiblefactsprovethisassertion。Hehaseatenfiveorsixchildren,arelativelyinsignificantnumber,nodoubt,butremarkableenoughfromanotherpointofview。Itismanifestthat,prickedbyremorse——formyclientisreligious,inhisway,andhasaconscience,asIshallprovelater——anddesiringtoextenuatehissinasfaraspossible,hehastriedsixtimesatleasttosubstitutelaynourishmentforclerical。Thatthiswasmerelyanexperimentwecanhardlydoubt:forifithadbeenonlyaquestionofgastronomicvariety,sixwouldhavebeentoofew;whyonlysix?Whynotthirty?Butifweregarditasanexperiment,inspiredbythefearofcommittingnewsacrilege,thenthisnumbersixbecomesintelligible。Sixattemptstocalmhisremorse,andtheprickingofhisconscience,wouldamplysuffice,fortheseattemptscouldscarcelyhavebeenhappyones。Inmyhumbleopinion,achildistoosmall;Ishouldsay,notsufficient;whichwouldresultinfourorfivetimesmorelaychildrenthanmonksbeingrequiredinagiventime。Thesin,lessenedontheonehand,wouldthereforebeincreasedontheother,inquantity,notinquality。Pleaseunderstand,gentlemen,thatinreasoningthus,Iamtakingthepointofviewwhichmighthavebeentakenbyacriminalofthemiddleages。Asformyself,amanofthelatenineteenthcentury,I,ofcourse,shouldreasondifferently;Isaysoplainly,andthereforeyouneednotjeeratmenormockme,gentlemen。Asforyou,general,itisstillmoreunbecomingonyourpart。Inthesecondplace,andgivingmyownpersonalopinion,achild’sfleshisnotasatisfyingdiet;itistooinsipid,toosweet;andthecriminal,inmakingtheseexperiments,couldhavesatisfiedneitherhisconsciencenorhisappetite。Iamabouttoconclude,gentlemen;andmyconclusioncontainsareplytooneofthemostimportantquestionsofthatdayandofourown!Thiscriminalendedatlastbydenouncinghimselftotheclergy,andgivinghimselfuptojustice。Wecannotbutask,rememberingthepenalsystemofthatday,andthetorturesthatawaitedhim——thewheel,thestake,thefire!——wecannotbutask,Irepeat,whatinducedhimtoaccusehimselfofthiscrime?Whydidhenotsimplystopshortatthenumbersixty,andkeephissecretuntilhislastbreath?Whycouldhenotsimplyleavethemonksalone,andgointothedeserttorepent?
  Orwhynotbecomeamonkhimself?Thatiswherethepuzzlecomesin!Theremusthavebeensomethingstrongerthanthestakeorthefire,oreventhanthehabitsoftwentyyears!Theremusthavebeenanideamorepowerfulthanallthecalamitiesandsorrowsofthisworld,famineortorture,leprosyorplague——anideawhichenteredintotheheart,directedandenlargedthespringsoflife,andmadeeventhathellsupportabletohumanity!Showmeaforce,apowerlikethat,inthisourcenturyofvicesandrailways!Imightsay,perhaps,inourcenturyofsteamboatsandrailways,butIrepeatinourcenturyofvicesandrailways,becauseIamdrunkbuttruthful!Showmeasingleideawhichunitesmennowadayswithhalfthestrengththatithadinthosecenturies,anddaretomaintainthatthe’springsoflife’havenotbeenpollutedandweakenedbeneaththis’star,’beneaththisnetworkinwhichmenareentangled!Don’ttalktomeaboutyourprosperity,yourriches,therarityoffamine,therapidityofthemeansoftransport!Thereismoreofriches,butlessofforce。Theideaunitingheartandsoultoheartandsoulexistsnomore。Allisloose,soft,limp——weareallofuslimp……
  Enough,gentlemen!Ihavedone。Thatisnotthequestion。No,thequestionisnow,excellency,Ibelieve,tositdowntothebanquetyouareabouttoprovideforus!"
  Lebedeffhadrousedgreatindignationinsomeofhisauditorsitshouldberemarkedthatthebottleswereconstantlyuncorkedduringhisspeech;butthisunexpectedconclusioncalmedeventhemostturbulentspirits。"That’showacleverbarristermakesagoodpoint!"saidhe,whenspeakingofhisperorationlateron。
  Thevisitorsbegantolaughandchatteronceagain;thecommitteelefttheirseats,andstretchedtheirlegsontheterrace。KelleralonewasstilldisgustedwithLebedeffandhisspeech;heturnedfromonetoanother,sayinginaloudvoice:
  "Heattackseducation,heboastsofthefanaticismofthetwelfthcentury,hemakesabsurdgrimaces,andaddedtothatheisbynomeanstheinnocenthemakeshimselfouttobe。Howdidhegetthemoneytobuythishouse,allowmetoask?"
  Inanothercornerwasthegeneral,holdingforthtoagroupofhearers,amongthemPtitsin,whomhehadbuttonholed。"Ihaveknown,"saidhe,"arealinterpreteroftheApocalypse,thelateGregorySemeonovitchBurmistroff,andhe——hepiercedtheheartlikeafieryflash!Hebeganbyputtingonhisspectacles,thenheopenedalargeblackbook;hiswhitebeard,andhistwomedalsonhisbreast,recallingactsofcharity,alladdedtohisimpressiveness。Hebeganinasternvoice,andbeforehimgenerals,hardmenoftheworld,boweddown,andladiesfelltothegroundfainting。Butthisonehere——heendsbyannouncingabanquet!Thatisnottherealthing!"
  Ptitsinlistenedandsmiled,thenturnedasiftogethishat;
  butifhehadintendedtoleave,hechangedhismind。Beforetheothershadrisenfromthetable,Ganiahadsuddenlyleftoffdrinking,andpushedawayhisglass,adarkshadowseemedtocomeoverhisface。Whentheyallrose,hewentandsatdownbyRogojin。Itmighthavebeenbelievedthatquitefriendlyrelationsexistedbetweenthem。Rogojin,whohadalsoseemedonthepointofgoingawaynowsatmotionless,hisheadbent,seemingtohaveforgottenhisintention。Hehaddrunknowine,andappearedabsorbedinreflection。Fromtimetotimeheraisedhiseyes,andexaminedeveryonepresent;onemighthaveimaginedthathewasexpectingsomethingveryimportanttohimself,andthathehaddecidedtowaitforit。Theprincehadtakentwoorthreeglassesofchampagne,andseemedcheerful。AsherosehenoticedEvgeniePavlovitch,and,rememberingtheappointmenthehadmadewithhim,smiledpleasantly。EvgeniePavlovitchmadeasignwithhisheadtowardsHippolyte,whomhewasattentivelywatching。Theinvalidwasfastasleep,stretchedoutonthesofa。
  "Tellme,prince,whyonearthdidthisboyintrudehimselfuponyou?"heasked,withsuchannoyanceandirritationinhisvoicethattheprincewasquitesurprised。"Iwouldn’tmindlayingoddsthatheisuptosomemischief。"
  "Ihaveobserved,"saidtheprince,"thatheseemstobeanobjectofverysingularinteresttoyou,EvgeniePavlovitch。Whyisit?"
  "YoumayaddthatIhavesurelyenoughtothinkof,onmyownaccount,withouthim;andthereforeitisallthemoresurprisingthatIcannottearmyeyesandthoughtsawayfromhisdetestablephysiognomy。"
  "Oh,come!Hehasahandsomeface。"
  "Why,lookathim——lookathimnow!"
  TheprinceglancedagainatEvgeniePavlovitchwithconsiderablesurprise。
  V。
  HIPPOLYTE,whohadfallenasleepduringLebedeff’sdiscourse,nowsuddenlywokeup,justasthoughsomeonehadjoggedhimintheside。Heshuddered,raisedhimselfonhisarm,gazedaround,andgrewverypale。Alookalmostofterrorcrossedhisfaceasherecollected。
  "What!aretheyalloff?Isitallover?Isthesunup?"Hetrembled,andcaughtattheprince’shand。"Whattimeisit?Tellme,quick,forgoodness’sake!HowlonghaveIslept?"headded,almostindespair,justasthoughhehadoversleptsomethinguponwhichhiswholefatedepended。
  "Youhavesleptsevenorperhapseightminutes,"saidEvgeniePavlovitch。
  Hippolytegazedeagerlyatthelatter,andmusedforafewmoments。
  "Oh,isthatall?"hesaidatlast。"ThenI——"
  Hedrewalong,deepbreathofrelief,asitseemed。Herealizedthatallwasnotoverasyet,thatthesunhadnotrisen,andthattheguestshadmerelygonetosupper。Hesmiled,andtwohecticspotsappearedonhischeeks。
  "SoyoucountedtheminuteswhileIslept,didyou,EvgeniePavlovitch?"hesaid,ironically。"Youhavenottakenyoureyesoffmealltheevening——Ihavenoticedthatmuch,yousee!Ah,Rogojin!I’vejustbeendreamingabouthim,prince,"headded,frowning。"Yes,bytheby,"startingup,"where’stheorator?
  Where’sLebedeff?Hashefinished?Whatdidhetalkabout?Isittrue,prince,thatyouoncedeclaredthat’beautywouldsavetheworld’?GreatHeaven!Theprincesaysthatbeautysavestheworld!AndIdeclarethatheonlyhassuchplayfulideasbecausehe’sinlove!Gentlemen,theprinceisinlove。Iguesseditthemomenthecamein。Don’tblush,prince;youmakemesorryforyou。Whatbeautysavestheworld?ColiatoldmethatyouareazealousChristian;isitso?ColiasaysyoucallyourselfaChristian。"
  Theprinceregardedhimattentively,butsaidnothing。
  "Youdon’tanswerme;perhapsyouthinkIamveryfondofyou?"
  addedHippolyte,asthoughthewordshadbeendrawnfromhim。
  "No,Idon’tthinkthat。Iknowyoudon’tloveme。"
  "What,afteryesterday?Wasn’tIhonestwithyou?"
  "Iknewyesterdaythatyoudidn’tloveme。"
  "Whyso?whyso?BecauseIenvyyou,eh?Youalwaysthinkthat,I
  know。ButdoyouknowwhyIamsayingallthis?Lookhere!Imusthavesomemorechampagne——pourmeoutsome,Keller,willyou?"
  "No,you’renottodrinkanymore,Hippolyte。Iwon’tletyou。"
  Theprincemovedtheglassaway。
  "Wellperhapsyou’reright,"saidHippolyte,musing。Theymightsay——yet,deviltakethem!whatdoesitmatter?——prince,whatcanitmatterwhatpeoplewillsayofusTHEN,eh?IbelieveI’mhalfasleep。I’vehadsuchadreadfuldream——I’veonlyjustrememberedit。Prince,Idon’twishyousuchdreamsasthat,thoughsureenough,perhaps,IDON’Tloveyou。Whywishamanevil,thoughyoudonotlovehim,eh?Givemeyourhand——letmepressitsincerely。There——you’vegivenmeyourhand——youmustfeelthatI
  DOpressitsincerely,don’tyou?Idon’tthinkIshalldrinkanymore。Whattimeisit?Nevermind,Iknowthetime。Thetimehascome,atallevents。What!theyarelayingsupperoverthere,arethey?Thenthistableisfree?Capital,gentlemen!I——hem!thesegentlemenarenotlistening。Prince,IwilljustreadoveranarticleIhavehere。Supperismoreinteresting,ofcourse,but——"
  HereHippolytesuddenly,andmostunexpectedly,pulledoutofhisbreast-pocketalargesealedpaper。Thisimposing-lookingdocumentheplaceduponthetablebeforehim。
  Theeffectofthissuddenactionuponthecompanywasinstantaneous。EvgeniePavlovitchalmostboundedoffhischairinexcitement。Rogojindrewnearertothetablewithalookonhisfaceasifheknewwhatwascoming。Ganiacamenearertoo;sodidLebedeffandtheothers——thepaperseemedtobeanobjectofgreatinteresttothecompanyingeneral。
  "Whathaveyougotthere?"askedtheprince,withsomeanxiety。
  "Atthefirstglimpseoftherisingsun,prince,Iwillgotobed。ItoldyouIwould,wordofhonour!Youshallsee!"criedHippolyte。"YouthinkI’mnotcapableofopeningthispacket,doyou?"Heglareddefiantlyroundattheaudienceingeneral。
  Theprinceobservedthathewastremblingallover。
  "Noneofuseverthoughtsuchathing!"Muishkinrepliedforall。
  "Whyshouldyousupposeitofus?Andwhatareyougoingtoread,Hippolyte?Whatisit?"
  "Yes,whatisit?"askedothers。Thepacketsealedwithredwaxseemedtoattracteveryone,asthoughitwereamagnet。
  "Iwrotethisyesterday,myself,justafterIsawyou,prince,andtoldyouIwouldcomedownhere。Iwrotealldayandallnight,andfinisheditthismorningearly。AfterwardsIhadadream。"
  "Hadn’twebetterhearittomorrow?"askedtheprincetimidly。
  "Tomorrow’therewillbenomoretime!’"laughedHippolyte,hysterically。"Youneedn’tbeafraid;Ishallgetthroughthewholethinginfortyminutes,atmostanhour!Lookhowinterestedeverybodyis!Everybodyhasdrawnnear。Look!lookatthemallstaringatmysealedpacket!IfIhadn’tsealeditupitwouldn’thavebeenhalfsoeffective!Ha,ha!that’smystery,thatis!Nowthen,gentlemen,shallIbreakthesealornot?Saytheword;it’samystery,Itellyou——asecret!Prince,youknowwhosaidtherewouldbe’nomoretime’?ItwasthegreatandpowerfulangelintheApocalypse。"
  "Betternotreaditnow,"saidtheprince,puttinghishandonthepacket。
  "No,don’treadit!"criedEvgeniesuddenly。Heappearedsostrangelydisturbedthatmanyofthosepresentcouldnothelpwondering。
  "Reading?Noneofyourreadingnow!"saidsomebody;"it’ssupper-
  time。""Whatsortofanarticleisit?Forapaper?Probablyit’sverydull,"saidanother。Buttheprince’stimidgesturehadimpressedevenHippolyte。
  "ThenI’mnottoreadit?"hewhispered,nervously。"AmInottoreadit?"herepeated,gazingaroundateachfaceinturn。"Whatareyouafraidof,prince?"heturnedandaskedthelattersuddenly。
  "WhatshouldIbeafraidof?"
  "Hasanyoneacoinaboutthem?Givemeatwenty-copeckpiece,somebody!"AndHippolyteleaptfromhischair。
  "Hereyouare,"saidLebedeff,handinghimone;hethoughttheboyhadgonemad。
  "VeraLukianovna,"saidHippolyte,"tossit,willyou?Heads,I
  read,tails,Idon’t。"
  VeraLebedefftossedthecoinintotheairandletitfallonthetable。
  Itwas"heads。"
  "ThenIreadit,"saidHippolyte,inthetoneofonebowingtothefiatofdestiny。Hecouldnothavegrownpalerifaverdictofdeathhadsuddenlybeenpresentedtohim。
  "Butafterall,whatisit?IsitpossiblethatIshouldhavejustriskedmyfatebytossingup?"hewenton,shuddering;andlookedroundhimagain。Hiseyeshadacuriousexpressionofsincerity。"Thatisanastonishingpsychologicalfact,"hecried,suddenlyaddressingtheprince,inatoneofthemostintensesurprise。"Itis……itissomethingquiteinconceivable,prince,"herepeatedwithgrowinganimation,likeamanregainingconsciousness。"Takenoteofit,prince,rememberit;youcollect,Iamtold,factsconcerningcapitalpunishment……Theytoldmeso。Ha,ha!MyGod,howabsurd!"Hesatdownonthesofa,puthiselbowsonthetable,andlaidhisheadonhishands。"Itisshameful——thoughwhatdoesitmattertomeifitisshameful?
  "Gentlemen,gentlemen!Iamabouttobreaktheseal,"hecontinued,withdetermination。"I-I——ofcourseIdon’tinsistuponanyonelisteningiftheydonotwishto。"
  Withtremblingfingershebrokethesealanddrewoutseveralsheetsofpaper,smoothedthemoutbeforehim,andbegansortingthem。
  "Whatonearthdoesallthismean?What’shegoingtoread?"
  mutteredseveralvoices。Otherssaidnothing;butoneandallsatdownandwatchedwithcuriosity。Theybegantothinksomethingstrangemightreallybeabouttohappen。Verastoodandtrembledbehindherfather’schair,almostintearswithfright;Coliawasnearlyasmuchalarmedasshewas。LebedeffjumpedupandputacoupleofcandlesnearertoHippolyte,sothathemightseebetter。
  "Gentlemen,this——you’llsoonseewhatthisis,"beganHippolyte,andsuddenlycommencedhisreading。
  "It’sheaded,’ANecessaryExplanation,’withthemotto,’Apresmoiledeluge!’Oh,deucetakeitall!SurelyIcanneverhaveseriouslywrittensuchasillymottoasthat?Lookhere,gentlemen,Ibegtogivenoticethatallthisisverylikelyterriblenonsense。Itisonlyafewideasofmine。Ifyouthinkthatthereisanythingmysteriouscoming——orinaword——"
  "Betterreadonwithoutanymorebeatingaboutthebush,"saidGania。
  "Affectation!"remarkedsomeoneelse。
  "Toomuchtalk,"saidRogojin,breakingthesilenceforthefirsttime。
  Hippolyteglancedathimsuddenly,andwhentheireye,metRogojinshowedhisteethinadisagreeablesmile,andsaidthefollowingstrangewords:"That’snotthewaytosettlethisbusiness,myfriend;that’snotthewayatall。"
  OfcoursenobodyknewwhatRogojinmeantbythis;buthiswordsmadeadeepimpressionuponall。Everyoneseemedtoseeinaflashthesameidea。
  AsforHippolyte,theireffectuponhimwasastounding。Hetrembledsothattheprincewasobligedtosupporthim,andwouldcertainlyhavecriedout,butthathisvoiceseemedtohaveentirelylefthimforthemoment。Foraminuteortwohecouldnotspeakatall,butpantedandstaredatRogojin。Atlasthemanagedtoejaculate:
  "ThenitwasYOUwhocame——YOU——YOU?"
  "Camewhere?Whatdoyoumean?"askedRogojin,amazed。ButHippolyte,pantingandchokingwithexcitement,interruptedhimviolently。
  "YOUcametomelastweek,inthenight,attwoo’clock,thedayIwaswithyouinthemorning!Confessitwasyou!"
  "Lastweek?Inthenight?Haveyougonecracked,mygoodfriend?"
  Hippolytepausedandconsideredamoment。Thenasmileofcunning——almosttriumph——crossedhislips。
  "Itwasyou,"hemurmured,almostinawhisper,butwithabsoluteconviction。"Yes,itwasyouwhocametomyroomandsatsilentlyonachairatmywindowforawholehour——more!Itwasbetweenoneandtwoatnight;youroseandwentoutataboutthree。Itwasyou,you!Whyyoushouldhavefrightenedmeso,whyyoushouldhavewishedtotormentmelikethat,Icannottell——butyouitwas。"
  Therewasabsolutehatredinhiseyesashesaidthis,buthislookoffearandhistremblinghadnotlefthim。
  "Youshallhearallthisdirectly,gentlemen。I-I——listen!"
  Heseizedhispaperinadesperatehurry;hefidgetedwithit,andtriedtosortit,butforalongwhilehistremblinghandscouldnotcollectthesheetstogether。"He’seithermadordelirious,"murmuredRogojin。Atlasthebegan。
  Forthefirstfiveminutesthereader’svoicecontinuedtotremble,andhereaddisconnectedlyandunevenly;butgraduallyhisvoicestrengthened。Occasionallyaviolentfitofcoughingstoppedhim,buthisanimationgrewwiththeprogressofthereading——asdidalsothedisagreeableimpressionwhichitmadeuponhisaudience,——untilitreachedthehighestpitchofexcitement。
  Hereisthearticle。
  MYNECESSARYEXPLANATION。
  "Apresmoiledeluge。
  "Yesterdaymorningtheprincecametoseeme。Amongotherthingsheaskedmetocomedowntohisvilla。Iknewhewouldcomeandpersuademetothisstep,andthathewouldadducetheargumentthatitwouldbeeasierformetodie’amongpeopleandgreentrees,’——asheexpressedit。Buttodayhedidnotsay’die,’hesaid’live。’Itisprettymuchthesametome,inmyposition,whichhesays。WhenIaskedhimwhyhemadesuchapointofhis’greentrees,’hetoldme,tomyastonishment,thathehadheardthatlasttimeIwasinPavlofskIhadsaidthatIhadcome’tohavealastlookatthetrees。’
  "WhenIobservedthatitwasallthesamewhetheronediedamongtreesorinfrontofablankbrickwall,ashere,andthatitwasnotworthmakinganyfussoverafortnight,heagreedatonce。
  ButheinsistedthatthegoodairatPavlofskandthegreennesswouldcertainlycauseaphysicalchangeforthebetter,andthatmyexcitement,andmyDREAMS,wouldbeperhapsrelieved。I
  remarkedtohim,withasmile,thathespokelikeamaterialist,andheansweredthathehadalwaysbeenone。Ashenevertellsalie,theremustbesomethinginhiswords。Hissmileisapleasantone。Ihavehadagoodlookathim。Idon’tknowwhetherIlikehimornot;andIhavenotimetowasteoverthequestion。
  ThehatredwhichIfeltforhimforfivemonthshasbecomeconsiderablymodified,Imaysay,duringthelastmonth。Whoknows,perhapsIamgoingtoPavlofskonpurposetoseehim!ButwhydoIleavemychamber?Thosewhoaresentencedtodeathshouldnotleavetheircells。IfIhadnotformedafinalresolve,buthaddecidedtowaituntilthelastminute,Ishouldnotleavemyroom,oraccepthisinvitationtocomeanddieatPavlofsk。Imustbequickandfinishthisexplanationbeforetomorrow。Ishallhavenotimetoreaditoverandcorrectit,forImustreadittomorrowtotheprinceandtwoorthreewitnesseswhomIshallprobablyfindthere。
  "Asitwillbeabsolutelytrue,withoutatouchoffalsehood,I
  amcurioustoseewhatimpressionitwillmakeuponmemyselfatthemomentwhenIreaditout。Thisismy’lastandsolemn’——butwhyneedIcallitthat?Thereisnoquestionaboutthetruthofit,foritisnotworthwhilelyingforafortnight;afortnightoflifeisnotitselfworthhaving,whichisaproofthatIwritenothingherebutpuretruth。
  "N。B——Letmeremembertoconsider;amImadatthismoment,ornot?orratheratthesemoments?Ihavebeentoldthatconsumptivessometimesdogooutoftheirmindsforawhileinthelaststagesofthemalady。IcanprovethistomorrowwhenI
  readitout,bytheimpressionitmakesupontheaudience。Imustsettlethisquestiononceandforall,otherwiseIcan’tgoonwithanything。
  "IbelieveIhavejustwrittendreadfulnonsense;butthere’snotimeforcorrecting,asIsaidbefore。Besidesthat,IhavemademyselfapromisenottoalterasinglewordofwhatIwriteinthispaper,eventhoughIfindthatIamcontradictingmyselfeveryfivelines。Iwishtoverifytheworkingofthenaturallogicofmyideastomorrowduringthereading——whetherIamcapableofdetectinglogicalerrors,andwhetherallthatIhavemeditatedoverduringthelastsixmonthsbetrue,ornothingbutdelirium。
  "IftwomonthssinceIhadbeencalledupontoleavemyroomandtheviewofMeyer’swallopposite,IverilybelieveIshouldhavebeensorry。ButnowIhavenosuchfeeling,andyetIamleavingthisroomandMeyer’sbrickwallFOREVER。Sothatmyconclusion,thatitisnotworthwhileindulgingingrief,oranyotheremotion,forafortnight,hasprovedstrongerthanmyverynature,andhastakenoverthedirectionofmyfeelings。Butisitso?Isitthecasethatmynatureisconqueredentirely?IfI
  weretobeputontheracknow,Ishouldcertainlycryout。I
  shouldnotsaythatitisnotworthwhiletoyellandfeelpainbecauseIhavebutafortnighttolive。
  "ButisittruethatIhavebutafortnightoflifelefttome?I
  knowItoldsomeofmyfriendsthatDoctorB。hadinformedmethatthiswasthecase;butInowconfessthatIlied;B。hasnotevenseenme。However,aweekago,Icalledinamedicalstudent,Kislorodoff,whoisaNationalist,anAtheist,andaNihilist,byconviction,andthatiswhyIhadhim。Ineededamanwhowouldtellmethebaretruthwithoutanyhumbugorceremony——andsohedid——indeed,almostwithpleasurewhichIthoughtwasgoingalittletoofar。
  "Well,heplumpedoutthatIhadaboutamonthleftme;itmightbealittlemore,hesaid,underfavourablecircumstances,butitmightalsobeconsiderablyless。AccordingtohisopinionI
  mightdiequitesuddenly——tomorrow,forinstance——therehadbeensuchcases。OnlyadayortwosinceayoungladyatColomnawhosufferedfromconsumption,andwasaboutonaparwithmyselfinthemarchofthedisease,wasgoingouttomarkettobuyprovisions,whenshesuddenlyfeltfaint,laydownonthesofa,gaspedonce,anddied。
  "Kislorodofftoldmeallthiswithasortofexaggerateddevil-
  may-carenegligence,andasthoughhedidmegreathonourbytalkingtomeso,becauseitshowedthatheconsideredmethesamesortofexaltedNihilisticbeingashimself,towhomdeathwasamatterofnoconsequencewhatever,eitherway。
  "Atallevents,thefactremained——amonthoflifeandnomore!