ThenextdaytheChevalierOsorioreceivedmewiththeutmostpoliteness,whichIthoughtagoodomen。TheChevalierRaibertihadspokentohiminmybehalf,andhehadlaidthematterbeforethekingandalsobeforetheCountd’Aglie,andtheresultwasthatIcouldstayaslongasIliked。TheCountd’Agliewasnoneotherthanthehorriblesuperintendent。IwastoldthatImustwaitonhim,andhewouldgivemeleavetoremainatTurintillmyaffairsweresettled。
"Myonlybusinesshere,"saidI,"istospendmymoneytillIhaveinstructionsfromtheCourtofPortugaltoattendtheCongressofAugsburgonbehalfofhismostfaithfulmajesty。"
"ThenyouthinkthatthisCongresswilltakeplace?"
"Nobodydoubtsit。"
"Somebodybelievesitwillallendinsmoke。However,Iamdelightedtohavebeenofservicetoyou,andIshallbecurioustohearwhatsortofreceptionyougetfromthesuperintendent。"
Ifeltillatease。Iwenttothepoliceofficeimmediately,gladtoshewmyselfvictorious,andanxioustoseehowthesuperintendentwouldlookwhenIcamein。However,Icouldnotflattermyselfthathelookedashamedofhimself;thesepeoplehaveabrazenforehead,anddonotknowwhatitistoblush。
Assoonashesawme,hebegan,——
"TheChevalierOsoriotellsmethatyouhavebusinessinTurinwhichwillkeepyouforsomedays。Youmaythereforestay,butyoumusttellmeasnearlyaspossiblehowlongatimeyourequire。"
"Icannotpossiblytellyouthat。"
"Why?ifyoudon’tmindtellingme。"
"IamawaitinginstructionsfromtheCourtofPortugaltoattendtheCongresstobeheldatAugsburg,andbeforeIcouldtellyouhowlongIshallhavetostayIshouldbecompelledtoaskhismostfaithfulmajesty。Ifthistimeisnotsufficientformetodomybusiness,Iwillintimatethefacttoyou。"
"Ishallbemuchobligedbyyourdoingso。"
ThistimeImadehimabow,whichwasreturned,andonleavingtheofficeIreturnedtotheChevalierOsorio,whosaid,withasmile,thatIhadcaughtthesuperintendent,asIhadtakenanindefiniteperiod,whichleftmequiteatmyease。
ThediplomaticGama,whofirmlybelievedthattheCongresswouldmeet,wasdelightedwhenItoldhimthattheChevalierOsoriowasincredulousonthesubject。Hewascharmedtothinkhiswitkeenerthantheminister’s;itexaltedhiminhisowneyes。I
toldhimthatwhateverthechevaliermightsayIwouldgotoAugsburg,andthatIwouldsetoutinthreeorfourweeks。
MadameR。congratulatedmeoverandoveragain,forshewasenchantedthatIhadhumiliatedthesuperintendent;butallthesamewethoughtwehadbettergiveupourlittlesuppers。AsI
hadhadatasteofallhergirls,thiswasnotsuchagreatsacrificeformetomake。
IcontinuedthustillthemiddleofMay,whenIleftTurin,afterreceivinglettersfromtheAbbeGamatoLordStormont,whowastorepresentEnglandattheapproachingCongress。ItwaswiththisnoblemanthatIwastoworkinconcertattheCongress。
BeforegoingtoGermanyIwantedtoseeMadamed’Urfe,andIwrotetoher,askinghertosendmealetterofintroductiontoM。deRochebaron,whomightbeusefultome。IalsoaskedM。RaibertitogivemealetterforChamberi,whereIwantedtovisitthedivineM————M————(ofwhomIstillthoughtwithaffection)atherconventgrating。IwrotetomyfriendValenglard,askinghimtoremindMadameMorinthatshehadpromisedtoshewmealikenesstosomebodyatChamberi。
ButhereImustnotedownaneventworthyofbeingrecorded,whichwasextremelyprejudicialtome。
FiveorsixdaysbeforemydepartureDesarmoisescametomelookingverydowncast,andtoldmethathehadbeenorderedtoleaveTurinintwenty—fourhours。
"Doyouknowwhy?"Iaskedhim。
"LastnightwhenIwasatthecoffee—house,CountScarnafisdaredtosaythatFrancesubsidisedtheBernenewspapers。Itoldhimhelied,atwhichheroseandlefttheplaceinarage,givingmeaglancethemeaningofwhichisnotdoubtful。Ifollowedhimtobringhimtoreasonortogivehimsatisfaction;buthewoulddonothingandIsuspecthewenttothepolicetocomplain。IshallhavetoleaveTurinearlyto—morrowmorning。"
"You’reaFrenchman,andasyoucanclaimtheprotectionofyourambassadoryouwillbewrongtoleavesosuddenly。"
"Inthefirstplacetheambassadorisaway,andinthesecondmycruelfatherdisavowsme。No,Iwouldrathergo,andwaitforyouatLyons。AllIwantisforyoutolendmeahundredcrowns,forwhichIwillgiveyouanaccount。"
"Itwillbeaneasyaccounttokeep,"saidI,"butalongtimebeforeitissettled。"
"Possibly;butifitisinmypowerIwillshewmygratitudeforthekindnessesyouhavedoneme。"
Igavehimahundredcrownsandwishedhimapleasantjourney,tellinghimthatIshouldstopsometimeatLyons。
IgotaletterofcreditonanAugsburghouse,andthreedaysafterIleftTurinIwasatChamberi。Therewasonlyoneinnthereinthosedays,soIwasnotmuchpuzzledtochoosewhereI
wouldgo,butforallthatIfoundmyselfverycomfortable。
AsIenteredmyroom,Iwasstruckbyseeinganextremelyprettygirlcomingoutofanadjacentroom。
"Whoisthatyounglady?"saidItothechambermaidwhowasescortingme。
"That’sthewifeofayounggentlemanwhohastokeephisbedtogetcuredofasword—thrustwhichhereceivedfourdaysagoonhiswayfromFrance。"
Icouldnotlookatherwithoutfeelingthestingofconcupiscence。AsIwasleavingmyroomIsawthedoorhalfopen,andIstoppedshortandofferedmyservicesasaneighbour。Shethankedmepolitely,andaskedmein。Isawahandsomeyoungmansittingupinbed,soIwentuptoenquirehowhefelt。
"Thedoctorwillnotlethimtalk,"saidtheyounglady,"onaccountofasword—thrustinthechesthereceivedathalfaleaguefromhere。Wehopehewillbeallrightinafewdays,andthenwecancontinueourjourney。"
"Whereareyougoing,madam?"
"ToGeneva。"
JustasIwasleaving,amaidcametoaskmeifIwouldtakesupperinmyownroomorwiththelady。Ilaughedatherstupidity,andsaidIwouldsupinmyownapartment,addingthatI
hadnotthehonourofthelady’sacquaintance。
AtthistheyoungladysaiditwouldgivehergreatpleasureifI
wouldsupwithher,andthehusbandrepeatedthisassuranceinawhisper。Iacceptedtheinvitationgratefully,andIthoughtthattheywerereallypleased。Theladyescortedmeoutasfarasthestairs,andItookthelibertyofkissingherhand,whichinFranceisadeclarationoftenderthoughrespectfulaffection。
Atthepost—officeIfoundaletterfromValenglard,tellingmethatMadameMorinwouldwaitonmeatChamberiifIwouldsendheracarriage,andanotherfromDesarmoisesdatedfromLyons。HetoldmethatashewasonhiswayfromChamberihehadencounteredhisdaughterincompanywitharascalwhohadcarriedheroff。Hehadburiedhisswordinhisbody,andwouldhavekilledthemifhehadbeenabletostoptheircarriage。HesuspectedthattheyhadbeenstayinginChamberi,andhebeggedmetotryandpersuadehisdaughtertoreturntoLyons;andheaddedthatifshewouldnotdosoIoughttoobligehimbysendingherbackbyforce。Heassuredmethattheywerenotmarried,andhebeggedmetoanswerhisletterbyexpress,forwhichpurposehesentmehisaddress。
Iguessedatoncethatthisdaughterofhiswasmyfairneighbour,butIdidnotfeelatallinclinedtocometotheaidofthefatherinthewayhewished。
AssoonasIgotbacktotheinnIsentoffLeDucinatravellingcarriagetoMadameMorin,whomIinformedbyletterthatasIwasonlyatChamberiforhersakeIwouldawaitherconvenience。Thisdone,IabandonedmyselftothedelightIfeltattheromanticadventurewhichfortunehadputinmyway。
IrepeatedMdlle。Desarmoisesandherravisher,andIdidnotcaretoenquirewhetherIwasimpelledinwhatIdidbyvirtueorvice;
butIcouldnothelpperceivingthatmymotiveswereofamixednature;forifIwereamorous,Iwasalsoverygladtobeofassistancetotwoyounglovers,andallthemorefrommyknowledgeofthefather’scriminalpassion。
OnenteringtheirroomIfoundtheinvalidinthesurgeon’shands。
Hepronouncedthewoundnottobedangerous,inspiteofitsdepth;suppurationhadtakenplacewithoutsettingupinflammation——inshort,theyoungmanonlywantedtimeandrest。
WhenthedoctorhadgoneIcongratulatedthepatientonhiscondition,advisinghimtobecarefulwhatheate,andtokeepsilent。IthengaveMdlle。Desarmoisesherfather’sletter,andIsaidfarewellforthepresent,tellingthemthatIwouldgotomyownroomtillsupper—time。Ifeltsurethatshewouldcomeandspeaktomeafterreadingherfather’sletter。
Inaquarterofanhoursheknockedtimidlyatmydoor,andwhenI
letherinshegavemebacktheletterandaskedmewhatIthoughtofdoing。
"Nothing。Ishallbeonlytoohappy,however,ifIcanbeofanyservicetoyou。"
"Ah!Ibreatheagain!"
"Couldyouimaginemepursuinganyotherlineofconduct?Iammuchinterestedinyou,andwilldoallinmypowertohelpyou。
Areyoumarried?"
"Notyet,butwearegoingtobemarriedwhenwegettoGeneva。"
"Sitdownandtellmeallaboutyourself。Iknowthatyourfatherisunhappilyinlovewithyou,andthatyouavoidhisattentions。"
"Hehastoldyouthatmuch?Iamgladofit。AyearagohecametoLyons,andassoonasIknewhewasinthetownItookrefugewithafriendofmymother’s,forIwasawarethatIcouldnotstayinthesamehousewithmyfatherforanhourwithoutexposingmyselftothemosthorribleoutrage。TheyoungmaninbedisthesonofarichGenevamerchant。Myfatherintroducedhimtometwoyearsago,andwesoonfellinlovewitheachother。MyfatherwentawaytoMarseilles,andmyloveraskedmymothertogivemeinmarriagetohim;butshedidnotfeelauthorizedtodosowithoutmyfather’sconsent。Shewroteandaskedhim,butherepliedthathewouldannouncehisdecisionwhenhereturnedtoLyons。MyloverwenttoGeneva,andashisfatherapprovedofthematchhereturnedwithallthenecessarydocumentsandastrongletterofcommendationfromM。Tolosan。WhenmyfathercametoLyonsIescaped,asItoldyou,andmylovergotM。Tolosantoaskmyhandforhimofmyfather。Hisreplywas,’Icangivenoanswertillshereturnstomyhouse!’
M。Tolosanbroughtthisreplytome,andItoldhimthatIwasreadytoobeyifmymotherwouldguaranteemysafety。Shereplied,however,thatsheknewherhusbandtoowelltodaretohaveusbothunderthesameroof。AgaindidM。Tolosanendeavourtoobtainmyfather’sconsent,buttonopurpose。AfewdaysafterheleftLyons,tellingusthathewasfirstgoingtoAixandthentoTurin,andasitwasevidentthathewouldnevergivehisconsentmyloverproposedthatIshouldgooffwithhim,promisingtomarrymeassoonaswereachedGeneva。ByillluckwetravelledthroughSavoy,andthusmetmyfather。Assoonashesawushestoppedthecarriageandcalledtometogetout。I
begantoshriek,andmylovertakingmeinhisarmstoprotectmemyfatherstabbedhiminthechest。Nodoubthewouldhavekilledhim,butseeingthatmyshriekswerebringingpeopletoourrescue,andprobablybelievingthatmyloverwasasgoodasdead,hegotonhorsebackagainandrodeoffatfullspeed。Icanchewyoutheswordstillcoveredwithblood。"
"Iamobligedtoanswerthisletterofhis,andIamthinkinghowIcanobtainhisconsent。"
"That’sofnoconsequence;wecanmarryandbehappywithoutit。"
"True,butyououghtnottodespiseyourdower。"
"Goodheavens!whatdower?Hehasnomoney!
"Butonthedeathofhisfather,theMarquisDesarmoises……
"That’sallalie。MyfatherhasonlyasmallyearlypensionforhavingservedthirtyyearsasaGovernmentmessenger。Hisfatherhasbeendeadthesethirtyyears,andmymotherandmysisteronlylivebytheworktheydo。"
Iwasthunderstruckattheimpudenceofthefellow,who,afterimposingonmesolong,hadhimselfputmeinapositiontodiscoverhisdeceit。Isaidnothing。Justthenweweretoldthatsupperwasready,andwesatattableforthreehourstalkingthematterover。Thepoorwoundedmanhadonlytolistentometoknowmyfeelingsonthesubject。Hisyoungmistress,aswittyasshewaspretty,jestedonthefoolishpassionofherfather,whohadlovedhermadlyeversinceshewaseleven。
"Andyouwerealwaysabletoresisthisattempts?"saidI。
"Yes,wheneverhepushedthingstoofar。"
"Andhowlongdidthisstateofthingscontinue?"
"Fortwoyears。WhenIwasthirteenhethoughtIwasripe,andtriedtogatherthefruit;butIbegantoshriek,andescapedfromhisbedstarknaked,andIwenttotakerefugewithmymother,whofromthatdayforthwouldnotletmesleepwithhimagain。"
"Youusedtosleepwithhim?Howcouldyourmotherallowit?"
"Sheneverthoughtthattherewasanythingcriminalinhisaffectionforme,andIknewnothingaboutit。Ithoughtthatwhathedidtome,andwhathemademedotohim,weremeretrifles。"
"Butyouhavesavedthelittletreasure?"
"Ihavekeptitformylover。"
Thepoorlover,whowassufferingmorefromtheeffectsofhungerthanfromhiswounds,laughedatthisspeechofhers,andsherantohimandcoveredhisfacewithkisses。Allthisexcitedmeintensely。Herstoryhadbeentoldwithtoomuchsimplicitynottomoveme,especiallywhenIhadherbeforemyeyes,forshepossessedalltheattractionswhichawomancanhave,andIalmostforgaveherfatherforforgettingshewashisdaughterandfallinginlovewithher。
WhensheescortedmebacktomyroomImadeherfeelmyemotion,andshebegantolaugh;butasmyservantswereclosebyIwasobligedtolethergo。
EarlynextmorningIwrotetoherfatherthathisdaughterhadresolvednottoleaveherlover,whowasonlyslightlywounded,thattheywereinperfectsafetyandundertheprotectionofthelawatChamberi,andfinallythathavingheardtheirstory,andjudgingthemtobewellmatched,Icouldonlyapproveofthecoursetheyhadtaken。WhenIhadfinishedIwentintotheirroomandgavethemthelettertoread,andseeingthefairrunawayatalosshowtoexpressher’gratitude,Ibeggedtheinvalidtoletmekissher。
"Beginwithme,"saidhe,openinghisarms。
Myhypocriticallovemaskeditselfundertheguiseofpaternalaffection。Iembracedthelover,andthenmoreamorouslyI
performedthesameofficeforthemistress,andskewedthemmypursefullofgold,tellingthemitwasattheirservice。Whilethiswasgoingonthesurgeoncamein,andIretiredtomyroom。
Ateleveno’clockMadameMorinandherdaughterarrived,precededbyLeDuconhorseback,whoannouncedtheirapproachbynumeroussmacksofhiswhip。Iwelcomedherwithopenarms,thankingherforobligingme。
ThefirstpieceofnewsshegavemewasthatMdlle。RomanhadbecomemistresstoLouisXV。,thatshelivedinabeautifulhouseatPassi,andthatshewasfivemonthsgonewithchild。ThusshewasinafairwaytobecomequeenofFrance,asmydivineoraclehadpredicted。
"AtGrenoble,"sheadded,"youarethesoletopicofconversation;
andIadviseyounottogothereunlessyouwishtosettleinthecountry,fortheywouldneverletyougo。Youwouldhaveallthenobilityatyourfeet,andaboveall,theladiesanxioustoknowthelotoftheirdaughters。Everybodybelievesinjudicialastrologynow,andValenglardtriumphs。HehasbetahundredLouistofiftythatmyniecewillbedeliveredofayoungprince,andheiscertainofwinning;thoughtobesure,ifheloses,everybodywilllaughathim。"
"Don’tbeafraidofhislosing。"
"Isitquitecertain?"
"Hasnotthehoroscopeprovedtruthfulintheprincipalparticular?Iftheothercircumstancesdonotfollow,Imusthavemadeagreatmistakeinmycalculations。"
"Iamdelightedtohearyousayso。"
"IamgoingtoParisandIhopeyouwillgivemealetterofintroductiontoMadameVarnier,sothatImayhavethepleasureofseeingyourniece。"
"Youshallhavetheletterto—morrowwithoutfail。"
IintroducedMdlle。Desarmoisestoherunderthefamilynameofherlover,andinvitedhertodinewithMadameMorinandmyself。
Afterdinnerwewenttotheconvent,andM————M————camedownverysurprisedatthisunexpectedvisitfromheraunt;butwhenshesawmeshehadneedofallherpresenceofmind。Whenherauntintroducedmetoherbyname,sheobservedwithtruefemininetactthatduringherstayatAixshehadseenmefiveorsixtimesatthefountain,butthatIcouldnotrememberherfeaturesasshehadalwayswornherveil。Iadmiredherwitasmuchasherexquisitefeatures。Ithoughtshehadgrownprettierthanever,andnodoubtmylookstoldherasmuch。WespentanhourintalkingaboutGrenobleandheroldfriends,whomshegladlyrecalledtohermemory,andthenshewenttofetchayounggirlwhowasboardingattheconvent,whomshelikedandwantedtopresenttoheraunt。
IseizedtheopportunityoftellingMadameMorinthatIwasastonishedatthelikeness,thatherveryvoicewaslikethatofmyVenetianM————M—————,andIbeggedhertoobtainmetheprivilegeofbreakfastingwithherniecethenextday,andofpresentingherwithadozenpoundsofcapitalchocolate。IhadbroughtitwithmefromGenoa。
"Youmustmakeherthepresentyourself,"saidMadameMorin,"forthoughshe’sanunshe’sawoman,andwewomenmuchpreferapresentfromaman’sthanfromawoman’shand。"
M————M————returnedwiththesuperioroftheconvent,twoothernuns,andtheyoungboarder,whocamefromLyons,andwasexquisitelybeautiful。Iwasobligedtotalktoallthenuns,andMadameMorintoldherniecethatIwantedhertotrysomeexcellentchocolateIhadbroughtfromGenoa,butthatIhopedherlay—sisterwouldmakeit。
"Sir,"saidM————M————,"kindlysendmethechocolate,andto—
morrowwewillbreakfasttogetherwiththesedearsisters。"
AssoonasIgotbacktomyinnIsentthechocolatewitharespectfulnote,andItooksupperinMadameMorin’sroomwithherdaughterandMdlle。Desarmoises,ofwhomIwasfeelingmoreandmoreamorous,butItalkedofM————M————allthetime,andI
couldseethattheauntsuspectedthattheprettynunwasnotaltogetherastrangertome。
IbreakfastedattheconventandIrememberthatthechocolate,thebiscuits,andthesweetmeatswereservedwithanicetywhichsavouredsomewhatoftheworld。WhenwehadfinishedbreakfastI
toldM————M————thatshewouldnotfinditsoeasytogivemeadinner,withtwelvepersonssittingdowntotable,butIaddedthathalfthecompanycouldbeintheconventandhalfintheparlour,separatedfromtheconventbyalightgrating。
"It’sasightIshouldliketosee,"saidI,"ifyouwillallowmetopayallexpenses。"
"Certainly,"repliedM————M—————,andthisdinnerwasfixedforthenextday。
M————M————tookchargeofthewholething,andpromisedtoasksixnuns。MadameMorin,whoknewmytastes,toldhertosparenothing,andIwarnedherthatIwouldsendinthenecessarywines。
IescortedMadameMorin,herdaughter,andMdlle。Desarmoisesbacktothehotel,andIthencalledonM。Magnan,towhomIhadbeenrecommendedbytheChevalierRaiberti。Iaskedhimtogetmesomeofthebestwine,andhetookmedowntohiscellar,andtoldmetotakewhatIliked。Hiswinesprovedtobeadmirable。
ThisM。Magnanwasacleverman,ofapleasantappearance,andverycomfortablyoff。Heoccupiedanextremelylargeandconvenienthouseoutsidethetown,andtherehisagreeablewifedispensedhospitality。Shehadtenchildren,amongstwhomtherewerefourprettydaughters;theeldest,whowasnineteen,wasespeciallygood—looking。
Wewenttotheconventateleveno’clock,andafteranhour’sconversationweweretoldthatdinnerwasready。Thetablewasbeautifullylaid,coveredwithafairwhitecloth,andadornedwithvasesfilledwithartificialflowerssostronglyscentedthattheairoftheparlourwasquitebalmy。ThefatalgrillwasheavierthanIhadhoped。IfoundmyselfseatedtotheleftofM————M————,andtotallyunabletoseeher。ThefairDesarmoiseswasatmyright,andsheentertainedusallthetimewithheramusingstories。
WeintheparlourwerewaitedonbyLeDucandCosta,andthenunswereservedbytheirlay—sisters。Theabundantprovision,theexcellentwines,thepleasantthoughsometimesequivocalconversation,keptusallmerrilyemployedforthreehours。Mirthhadthemasteryoverreason,or,tospeakmoreplainly,wewerealldrunk;andifithadnotbeenforthefatalgrill,Icouldhavehadthewholeelevenladieswithoutmuchtrouble。TheyoungDesarmoiseswassogay,indeed,thatifIhadnotrestrainedhershewouldprobablyhavescandalisedallthenuns,whowouldhavelikednothingbetter。Iwaslongingtohavehertomyself,thatI
mightquenchtheflameshehadkindledinmybreast,andIhadnodoubtofmysuccessonthefirstattempt。Aftercoffeehadbeenserved,wewentintoanotherparlourandstayedtheretillnightcameon。MadameMorintookleaveofherniece,andthehand—
shakings,thanks,andpromisesofremembrancebetweenmeandthenuns,lastedforagoodquarterofanhour。AfterIhadsaidaloudtoM————M————thatIhopedtohavethepleasureofseeingherbeforeIleft,wewentbacktotheinninhighgoodhumourwithourcuriouspartywhichIstillrememberwithpleasure。
MadameMoringavemealetterforhercousinMadameVarnier,andI
promisedtowritetoherfromParis,andtellherallaboutthefairMdlle。Roman。Ipresentedthedaughterwithabeautifulpairofear—rings,andIgaveMadameMorintwelvepoundsofgoodchocolatewhichM。Magnangotme,andwhichtheladythoughthadcomefromGenoa。Shewentoffateighto’clockprecededbyLeDuc,whohadorderstogreetthedoorkeeper’sfamilyonmybehalf。
AtMagnan’sIhadadinnerworthyofLucullus,andIpromisedtostaywithhimwheneverIpassedChamberi,whichpromiseIhavefaithfullyperformed。
Onleavingthegourmand’sIwenttotheconvent,andM————M————
camedownalonetothegrating。Shethankedmeforcomingtoseeher,andaddedthatIhadcometodisturbherpeaceofmind。
"Iamquiteready,dearest,toclimbthehardenwall,andIshalldoitmoredexterouslythanyourwretchedhumpback。"
"Alas!thatmaynotbe,for,trustme,youarealreadyspiedupon。EverybodyhereissurethatwekneweachotheratAix。
Letusforgetall,andthusspareourselvesthetormentsofvaindesires。"
"Givemeyourhand。"
"No。Allisover。Iloveyoustill,probablyIshallalwaysloveyou;butIlongforyoutogo,andbydoingso,youwillgivemeaproofofyourlove。"
"Thisisdreadful;youastonishme。Youappeartomeinperfecthealth,youareprettierthanever,youaremadefortheworshipofthesweetestofthegods,andIcan’tunderstandhow,withatemperamentlikeyours,youcanliveincontinualabstinence。"
"Alas!lackingtherealityweconsoleourselvesbypretending。I
willnotconcealfromyouthatIlovemyyoungboarder。Itisaninnocentpassion,andkeepsmymindcalm。Hercaressesquenchtheflamewhichwouldotherwisekillme。"
"Andthatisnotagainstyourconscience?"
"Idonotfeelanydistressonthesubject。"
"Butyouknowitisasin。"
"Yes,soIconfessit。"
"Andwhatdoestheconfessorsay?"
"Nothing。Heabsolvesme,andIamquitecontent:"
"Anddoestheprettyboarderconfess,too?"
"Certainly,butshedoesnottellthefatherofamatterwhichshethinksisnosin。"
"Iwondertheconfessorhasnottaughther,forthatkindofinstructionisagreatpleasure。"
"Ourconfessorisawiseoldman。"
"AmItoleaveyou,then,withoutasinglekiss?"
"Notone。"
"MayIcomeagainto—morrow?Imustgothedayafter。"
"Youmaycome,butIcannotseeyoubymyselfasthenunsmighttalk。Iwillbringmylittleonewithmetosaveappearances。
Comeafterdinner,butintotheotherparlour。"
IfIhadnotknownM————M————atAix,herreligiousideaswouldhaveastonishedme;butsuchwashercharacter。ShelovedGod,anddidnotbelievethatthekindFatherwhomadeuswithpassionswouldbetooseverebecausewehadnotthestrengthtosubduethem。Ireturnedtotheinn,feelingvexedthattheprettynunwouldhavenomoretodowithme,butsureofconsolationfromthefairDesarmoises。
Ifoundhersittingonherlover’sbed;hispoordietandthefeverhadlefthiminastateofgreatweakness。Shetoldmethatshewouldsupinmyroomtoleavehiminquiet,andtheworthyyoungmanshookmyhandintokenofhisgratitude。
AsIhadagooddinneratMagnan’sIateverylittlesupper,butmycompanionwhohadonlyhadalightmealateanddranktoanamazingextent。Igazedatherinakindofwonder,andsheenjoyedmyastonishment。WhenmyservantshadlefttheroomI
challengedhertodrinkabowlofpunchwithme,andthisputherintoamoodwhichaskedfornothingbutlaughter,andwhichlaughedtofinditselfdeprivedofreasoningpower。Nevertheless,Icannotaccusemyselfoftakinganadvantageofhercondition,forinhervoluptuousexcitementsheenteredeagerlyintothepleasuretowhichIexcitedhertilltwoo’clockinthemorning。
Bythetimeweseparatedwewerebothofusexhausted。
Islepttilleleven,andwhenIwenttowishhergooddayIfoundhersmilingandasfreshasarose。Iaskedherhowshehadpassedtherestofthenight。
"Verypleasantly,’saidshe,"likethebeginningofthenight。"
"Whattimewouldyouliketohavedinner?"
"Iwon’tdine;Iprefertokeepmyappetiteforsupper。"
Hereherloverjoinedin,sayinginaweakvoice,——
"Itisimpossibletokeepupwithher。"
"Ineatingordrinking?"Iasked。
"Ineating,drinking,andinotherthings,"hereplied,withasmile。Shelaughed,andkissedhimaffectionately。
ThisshortdialogueconvincedmethatMdlle。Desarmoisesmustadoreherlover;forbesideshisbeingahandsomeyoungman,hisdispositionwasexactlysuitabletohers。Idinedbymyself,andLeDuccameinasIwashavingdessert。Hetoldmethatthedoor—
keeper’sdaughtersandtheirprettycousinhadmadehimwaitforthemtowritetome,andhegavemethreelettersandthreedozenofgloveswhichtheyhadpresentedme。Thelettersurgedmetocomeandspendamonthwiththem,andgavemetounderstandthatI
shouldbewellpleasedwithmytreatment。Ihadnotthecouragetoreturntoatown,wherewithmyreputationIshouldhavebeenobligedtodrawhoroscopesforalltheyoungladiesortomakeenemiesbyrefusing。
AfterIhadreadthelettersfromGrenobleIwenttotheconventandannouncedmypresence,andthenenteredtheparlourwhichM————M————hadindicated。Shesooncamedownwiththeprettyboarder,whofeeblysustainedmypartinheramorousecstacies。
Shehadnotyetcompletedhertwelfthyear,butshewasextremelytallandwelldevelopedforherage。Gentleness,liveliness,candour,andwitwereunitedinherfeatures,andgaveherexpressionanexquisitecharm。Sheworeawell—madecorsetwhichdisclosedawhitethroat,towhichthefancyeasilyaddedthetwosphereswhichwouldsoonappearthere。Herentrancingface,herravenlocks,andherivorythroatindicatedwhatmightbeconcealed,andmyvagrantimaginationmadeherintoabuddingVenus。Ibeganbytellingherthatshewasverypretty,andwouldmakeherfuturehusbandahappyman。Iknewshewouldblushatthat。Itmaybecruel,butitisthusthatthelanguageofseductionalwaysbegins。Agirlofheragewhodoesnotblushatthementionofmarriageiseitheranidiotoralreadyanexpertinprofligacy。Inspiteofthis,however,theblushwhichmountstoayounggirl’scheekattheapproachofsuchideasisapuzzlingproblem。Whencedoesitarise?Itmaybefrompuresimplicity,itmaybefromshame,andoftenfromamixtureofbothfeelings。
Thencomesthefightbetweenviceandvirtue,anditisusuallyvirtuewhichhastogivein。Thedesires——theservantsofvice——
usuallyattaintheirends。AsIknewtheyoungboarderfromM————
M————’sdescription,Icouldnotbeignorantofthesourceofthoseblusheswhichaddedafreshattractiontoheryouthfulcharms。
Pretendingnottonoticeanything,ItalkedtoM————M————forafewmoments,andthenreturnedtotheassault。Shehadregainedhercalm。
"Whatageareyou,prettyone?"saidI。
"Iamthirteen。"
"Youarewrong,"saidM————M————,"youhavenotyetcompletedyourtwelfthyear。"
"Thetimewillcome,"saidI,"whenyouwilldiminishthetaleofyouryearsinsteadofincreasingit。"
"Ishallnevertellalie,sir;Iamsureofthat。"
"Soyouwanttobeanun,doyou?"
"Ihavenotyetreceivedmyvocation;butevenifIliveintheworldIneednotbealiar。"
"Youarewrong;youwillbegintolieassoonasyouhavealover。"
"Willmylovertelllies,too?"
"Certainlyhewill。"
"Ifthematterwerereallyso,then,Ishouldhaveabadopinionoflove;butIdonotbelieveit,forIlovemysweethearthere,andIneverconcealthetruthfromher。"
"Yes,butlovingamanisadifferentthingtolovingawoman。"
"No,itisn’t;it’sjustthesame。"
"Notso,foryoudonotgotobedwithawomanandyoudowithyourhusband。"
"That’snomatter,mylovewouldbethesame。"
"What?YouwouldnotrathersleepwithmewithM————M————?"
"No,indeedIshouldnot,becauseyouareamanandwouldseeme。"
"Youdon’twantamantoseeyou,then?"
"No。"
"Doyouthinkyouaresougly,then?"
AtthissheturnedtoM————M————andsaid,withevidentvexation,"Iamnotreallyugly,amI?"
"No,darling,"saidM————M————,burstingwithlaughter,"itisquitetheotherway;youareverypretty。"Withthesewordsshetookheronherkneeandembracedhertenderly。
"Yourcorsetistootight;youcan’tpossiblyhavesuchasmallwaistasthat。"
"Youmakeamistake,youcanputyourhandthereandseeforyourself。"
"Ican’tbelieveit。"
M————M————thenheldherclosetothegrillandtoldmetoseeformyself。Atthesamemomentsheturnedupherdress。
"Youwereright,"saidI,"andIoweyouanapology;"butinmyheartIcursedthegratingandthechemise。
"Myopinionis,"saidItoM————M————,"thatwehaveherealittleboy。"
Ididnotwaitforareply,butsatisfiedmyselfbymysenseoftouchastohersex,andIcouldseethatthelittleoneandhergovernesswerebothpleasedthatmymindwasatrestonthesubject。
Idrewmyhandaway,andthelittlegirllookedatM————M————,andreassuredbyhersmilingairaskedifshemightgoawayforamoment。Imusthavereducedhertoastateinwhichamoment’ssolitudewasnecessary,andImyselfwasinaveryexcitedcondition。
AssoonasshewasgoneIsaidtoM————M————,"Doyouknowthatwhatyouhaveshewnmehasmademeunhappy?"
"Hasit?Why?"
"Becauseyourboarderischarming,andIamlongingtoenjoyher。"
"Iamsorryforthat,foryoucan’tpossiblygoanyfurther;andbesides,Iknowyou,andevenifyoucouldsatisfyyourpassionwithoutdangertoher,Iwouldnotgiveheruptoyou,youwouldspoilher。"
"How?"
"Doyouthinkthatafterenjoyingyoushewouldcaretoenjoyme?
Ishouldlosetooheavilybythecomparison。"
"Givemeyourhand。"
"No。"
"Stay,onemoment。"
"Idon’twanttoseeanything。"
"Notalittlebit?"
"Nothingatall。"
"Areyouangrywithme,then?"
"Notatall。IfyouhavebeenpleasedIamglad,andifyouhavefilledherwithdesiresshewilllovemeallthebetter。"
"Howpleasantitwouldbe,sweetheart,ifwecouldallthreeofusbetogetheraloneandatliberty!"
"Yes;butitisimpossible。"
"Areyousurethatnoinquisitiveeyeislookinguponus?"
"Quitesure。"
"Theheightofthatfatalgrillhasdeprivedmeofthesightofmanycharms。"
"Whydidn’tyougototheotherparlouritismuchlowerthere。"
"Letusgothere,then。"
"Notto—day;Ishouldnotbeabletogiveanyreasonforthechange。"
"Iwillcomeagainto—morrow,andstartforLyonsintheevening。"
Thelittleboardercameback,andIstoodupfacingher。Ihadanumberofbeautifulsealsandtrinketshangingfrommywatch—
chain,andIhadnothadthetimetoputmyselfinastateofperfectdecencyagain。
Shenoticedit,andbywayofpretextsheaskedifshemightlookatthem。
"Aslongasyoulike;youmaylookatthemandtouchthemaswell。"
M————M————foresawwhatwouldhappenandlefttheroom,sayingthatshewouldsoonbeback。Ihadintendedtodeprivetheyoungboarderofallinterestinmysealsbyshewingheracuriosityofanotherkind。Shedidnotconcealherpleasureinsatisfyingherinquisitivenessonanobjectwhichwasquitenewtoher,andwhichshewasabletoexamineminutelyforthefirsttimeinherlife。
Butsoonaneffusionchangedhercuriosityintosurprise,andI
didnotinterruptherinherdelightedgaze。
IsawM————M————comingbackslowly,andIloweredmyshirtagain,andsatdown。Mywatchandchainswerestillontheledgeofthegrating,andM————M————askedheryoungfriendifthetrinketshadpleasedher。
"Yes,"shereplied,butinadreamyandmelancholyvoice。Shehadlearntsomuchinthecourseoflessthantwohoursthatshehadplentytothinkover。IspenttherestofthedayintellingM————
M————theadventuresIhadencounteredsinceIhadlefther;butasIhadnottimetofinishmytaleIpromisedtoreturnthenextdayatthesametime。
Thelittlegirl,whohadbeenlisteningtomeallthetime,thoughIappearedtobeonlyaddressingherfriend,saidthatshelongedtoknowtheendofmyadventurewiththeDukeofMatelone’smistress。
IsuppedwiththefairDesarmoises,andaftergivinghersundryproofsofmyaffectiontillmidnight,andtellingherthatIonlystoppedonforhersake,Iwenttobed。
ThenextdayafterdinnerIreturnedtotheconvent,andhavingsentupmynametoM————M————Ienteredtheroomwherethegratingwasmoreconvenient。
BeforelongM————M————arrivedalone,butsheanticipatedmythoughtsbytellingmethatherprettyfriendwouldsoonjoinher。
"Youhavefiredherimagination。Shehastoldmeallaboutit,playingathousandwantontricks,andcallingmeherdearhusband。
Youhaveseducedthegirl,andIamverygladyouaregoingorelseyouwoulddrivehermad。Youwillseehowshehasdressedherself。"
"Areyousureofherdiscretion?"
"Perfectly,butIhopeyouwon’tdoanythinginmypresence。WhenIseethetimecomingIwillleavetheroom。"
"Youareanangel,dearest,butyoumightbesomethingbetterthanthatifyouwould——"
"Iwantnothingformyself;itisoutofthequestion。"
"Youcould——"
"No,Iwillhavenothingtodowithapastimewhichwouldrekindlefiresthatarehardlyyetquenched。Ihavespoken;Isuffer,butletussaynomoreaboutit。"
Atthismomenttheyoungadeptcameinsmiling,withhereyesfulloffire。Shewasdressedinashortpelisse,openinfront,andanembroideredmuslinskirtwhichdidnotgobeyondherknees。
Shelookedlikeasylph。
Wehadscarcelysatdownwhensheremindedmeoftheplacewheremytalehadstopped。Icontinuedmyrecital,andwhenIwastellingthemhowDonnaLucreziashewedmeLeonildanaked,M————
M————wentout,andtheslylittlepussaskedmehowIassuredmyselfthatmydaughterwasamaid。
Itookboldofherthroughthefatalgrating,againstwhichsheplacedherprettybody,andshewedherhowassuredmyselfofthefact,andthegirllikeditsomuchthatshepressedmyhandtothespot。ShethengavemeherhandthatImightshareherpleasure,andwhilstthisenjoyableoccupationwasinprogressM————M————appeared。Mysweetheartsaidhastily,——
"Nevermind,Itoldherallaboutit。Sheisagoodcreatureandwillnotbevexed。"AccordinglyM————M————pretendednottoseeanything,andtheprecociouslittlegirlwipedherhandinakindofvoluptuousecstacy,whichshewedhowwellshewaspleased。
Iproceededwithmyhistory,butwhenIcametotheepisodeofthepoorgirlwhowas’tied’,describingallthetroubleIhadvainlytakenwithher,thelittleboardergotsocuriousthatsheplacedherselfinthemostseducingattitudesothatImightbeabletoshewherwhatIdid。SeeingthisM————M————madeherescape。
"Kneeldownontheledge,andleavetheresttome,"saidthelittlewanton。
Thereaderwillguesswhatshemeant,andIhavenodoubtthatshewouldhavesucceededinherpurposeifthefirewhichconsumedmehadnotdistilleditselfawayjustatthehappymoment。
Thecharmingnovicefeltherselfsprinkled,butafterascertainingthatnothingmorecouldbedoneshewithdrewinsomevexation。Myfingers,however,consoledherforthedisappointment,andIhadthepleasureofseeingherlookhappyoncemore。
Ileftthesecharmingcreaturesintheevening,promisingtovisitthemagaininayear,butasIwalkedhomeIcouldnothelpreflectinghowoftentheseasylums,supposedtobedevotedtochastityandprayer,containinthemselvesthehiddengermsofcorruption。Howmanyatimorousandtrustfulmotherispersuadedthatthechildofheraffectionwillescapethedangersoftheworldbytakingrefugeinthecloister。Butbehindtheseboltsandbarsdesiresgrowtoafrenziedextreme;theycraveinvaintobesatisfied。
WhenIreturnedtotheinnItookleaveofthewoundedman,whomI
washappytoseeoutofdanger。InvainIurgedhimtomakeuseofmypurse;hetoldme,withanaffectionateembrace,thathehadsufficientmoney,andifnot,hehadonlytowritetohisfather。
IpromisedtostopatLyons,andtoobligeDesarmoisestodesistfromanystepshemightbetakingagainstthem,tellingthemIhadapoweroverhimwhichwouldcompelhimtoobey。Ikeptmyword。
Afterwehadkissedandsaidgood—bye,Itookhisfuturebrideintomyroomthatwemightsuptogetherandenjoyourselvestillmidnight;butshecouldnothavebeenverypleasedwithmyfarewellsalute,forIwasonlyabletoprovemyloveforheronce,asM————M————’syoungfriendhadnearlyexhaustedme。
Istartedatday—break,andthenextdayIreachedthe"HotelduParc,"atLyons。IsentforDesarmoises,andtoldhimplainlythathisdaughter’scharmshadseducedme,thatIthoughtherloverworthyofher,andthatIexpectedhimoutoffriendshipformetoconsenttothemarriage。Iwentfurther,andtoldhimthatifhedidnotconsenttoeverythingthatveryinstantIcouldnolongerbehisfriend,andatthishegavein。Heexecutedtherequisitedocumentinthepresenceoftwowitnesses,andIsentittoChamberibyanexpressmessenger。
Thisfalsemarquismademedinewithhiminhispoorhouse。Therewasnothingabouthisyoungerdaughtertoremindmeoftheelder,andhiswifeinspiredmewithpity。BeforeIleftImanagedtowrapupsixLouisinapieceofpaper,andgaveittoherwithouttheknowledgeofherhusband。Agratefullookshewedmehowwelcomethepresentwas。
IwasobligedtogotoParis,soIgaveDesarmoisessufficientmoneyforhimtogotoStrasburg,andawaitmethereincompanywithmySpaniard。
IthoughtmyselfwiseinonlytakingCosta,buttheinspirationcamefrommyevilgenius。
ItooktheBourbonnaisway,andonthethirddayIarrivedatParis,andlodgedattheHotelduSt。Esprit,inthestreetofthesamename。
BeforegoingtobedIsentCostawithanotetoMadamed’Urfe,promisingtocomeanddinewithherthenextday。Costawasagood—lookingyoungfellow,andashespokeFrenchbadlyandwasratherafoolIfeltsurethatMadamed’Urfewouldtakehimforsomeextraordinarybeing。Shewrotetosaythatshewasimpatientlyexpectingme。
"Howdidtheladyreceiveyou,Costa?"
"Shelookedintoamirror,sir,andsaidsomewordsIcouldmakenothingof;thenshewentroundtheroomthreetimesburningincense;thenshecameuptomewithamajesticairandlookedmeintheface;andatlastshesmiledverypleasantly,andtoldmetowaitforareplyintheante—chamber。"
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CHAPTERXIII
MyStayatParisandMyDepartureforStrasburg,WhereIFindtheRenaud——MyMisfortunesatMunichandMySadVisittoAugsburgAtteno’clockinthemorning,cheeredbythepleasantfeelingofbeingoncemoreinthatPariswhichissoimperfect,butwhichistheonlytruetownintheworld,IcalledonmydearMadamed’Urfe,whoreceivedmewithopenarms。ShetoldmethattheyoungCountd’Arandawasquitewell,andifIlikedshewouldaskhimtodinnerthenextday。ItoldherIshouldbedelightedtoseehim,andthenIinformedherthattheoperationbywhichshewastobecomeamancouldnotbeperformedtillQuerilinto,oneofthethreechiefsoftheFraternityoftheRosyCross,wasliberatedfromthedungeonsoftheInquisition,atLisbon。
"Thisisthereason,"Iadded,"thatIamgoingtoAugsburginthecourseofnextmonth,whereIshallconferwiththeEarlofStormontastotheliberationoftheadept,underthepretextofamissionfromthePortugueseGovernment。ForthesepurposesIshallrequireagoodletterofcredit,andsomewatchesandsnuff—boxestomakepresentswith,asweshallhavetowinovercertainoftheprofane。"
"Iwillgladlyseetoallthat,butyouneednothurryyourselfastheCongresswillnotmeettillSeptember。"
"Believeme,itwillnevermeetatall,buttheambassadorsofthebelligerentpowerswillbethereallthesame。If,contrarytomyexpectation,theCongressisheld,IshallbeobligedtogotoLisbon。Inanycase,Ipromisetoseeyouagainintheensuingwinter。ThefortnightthatIhavetospendherewillenablemetodefeataplotofSt。Germain’s。"
"St。Germain——hewouldneverdaretoreturntoParis。"
"Iamcertainthatheishereindisguise。ThestatemessengerwhoorderedhimtoleaveLondonhasconvincedhimtheEnglishministerwasnotdupedbythedemandforhispersontobegivenup,madebytheComted’AfriinthenameofthekingtotheStates—General。"
Allthiswasmereguess—work,anditwillbeseenthatIguessedrightly。
Madamed’UrfethencongratulatedmeonthecharminggirlwhomI
hadsentfromGrenobletoParis。Valenglardhadtoldherthewholestory。
"Thekingadoresher,"saidshe,"andbeforelongshewillmakehimafather。IhavebeentoseeheratPassiwiththeDuchessede1’Oraguais。"
"ShewillgivebirthtoasonwhowillmakeFrancehappy,andinthirtyyearstimeyouwillseewondrousthings,ofwhich,unfortunately,Icantellyounothinguntilyourtransformation。
Didyoumentionmynametoher?"
"No,Ididnot;butIamsureyouwillbeabletoseeher,ifonlyatMadameVarnier’s。"
Shewasnotmistaken;butshortlyafterwardsaneventhappenedwhichmadethemadnessofthisexcellentwomanmuchworse。
Towardsfouro’clock,asweweretalkingovermytravelsandourdesigns,shetookafancytowalkintheBoisduBoulogne。Shebeggedmetoaccompanyher,andIaccededtoherrequest。Wewalkedintothedeepestrecessesofthewoodandsatdownunderatree。"Itiseighteenyearsago,"saidshe,"sinceIfellasleeponthesamespotthatwenowoccupy。DuringmysleepthedivineHorosmadiscamedownfromthesunandstayedwithmetillIawoke。
AsIopenedmyeyesIsawhimleavemeandascendtoheaven。Heleftmewithchild,andIboreagirlwhichhetookawayfrommeyearsago,nodoubttopunishmefor,havingsofarforgottenmyselfastoloveamortalafterhim。MylovelyIriasiswaslikehim。"
"YouarequitesurethatM。d’Urfewasnotthechild’sfather?"
"M。d’UrfedidnotknowmeafterhesawmelyingbesidethedivineAnael。"
"That’sthegeniusofVenus。Didhesquint?"
"Toexcess。Youareaware,then,thathesquints?"
"Yes,andIknowthatattheamorouscrisisheceasestosquint。"
"Ididnotnoticethat。Hetoo,leftmeonaccountofmysinningwithanArab。"
"TheArabwassenttoyoubyanenemyofAnael’s,thegeniusofMercury。"
"Itmusthavebeenso;itwasagreatmisfortune。"
"Onthecontrary,itrenderedyoumorefitfortransformation。"
WewerewalkingtowardsthecarriagewhenallatoncewesawSt。
Germain,butassoonashenoticedusheturnedbackandwelostsightofhim。
"Didyouseehim?"saidI。"Heisworkingagainstus,butourgeniemakeshimtremble。"
"Iamquitethunderstruck。IwillgoandimpartthispieceofnewstotheDucdeChoiseulto—morrowmorning。IamcurioustohearwhathewillsaywhenItellhim。"
AsweweregoingbacktoParisIleftMadamed’Urfe,andwalkedtothePorteSt。Denistoseemybrother。Heandhiswifereceivedmewithcriesofjoy。Ithoughtthewifeveryprettybutverywretched,forProvidencehadnotallowedmybrothertoprovehismanhood,andshewasunhappilyinlovewithhim。Isayunhappily,becauseherlovekeptherfaithfultohim,andifshehadnotbeeninloveshemighteasilyhavefoundacureforhermisfortuneasherhusbandallowedherperfectliberty。Shegrievedbitterly,forshedidnotknowthatmybrotherwasimpotent,andfanciedthatthereasonofhisabstentionwasthathedidnotreturnherlove;andthemistakewasanexcusableone,forhewaslikeaHercules,andindeedhewasone,exceptwhereitwasmosttobedesired。Hergriefthrewherintoaconsumptionofwhichshediedfiveorsixyearslater。Shedidnotmeanherdeathtobeapunishmenttoherhusband,butweshallseethatitwasso。
ThenextdayIcalledonMadameVarniertogiveherMadameMorin’sletter。Iwascordiallywelcomed,andMadameVarnierwaskindenoughtosaythatshehadratherseemethananybodyelseintheworld;herniecehadtoldhersuchstrangethingsaboutmethatshehadgotquitecurious。This,asiswellknown,isaprevailingcomplaintwithwomen。
"Youshallseemyniece,"shesaid,"andshewilltellyouallaboutherself。"
Shewroteheranote,andputMadameMorin’sletterunderthesameenvelope。
"Ifyouwanttoknowwhatmyniece’sansweris,"saidMadameVarnier,"youmustdinewithme。"
Iacceptedtheinvitation,andsheimmediatelytoldherservantthatshewasnotathometoanyone。
ThesmallmessengerwhohadtakenthenotetoPassireturnedatfouro’clockwiththefollowingepistle:
"ThemomentinwhichIseetheChevalierdeSeingaltoncemorewillbeoneofthehappiestofmylife。Askhimtobeatyourhouseatteno’clockthedayaftertomorrow,andifhecan’tcomethenpleaseletmeknow。"
Afterreadingthenoteandpromisingtokeeptheappointment,I
leftMadameVarnierandcalledonMadamedeRumain,whotoldmeI
mustspendawholedaywithherasshehadseveralquestionstoputtomyoracle。
NextdayMadamed’UrfetoldmethereplyshehadfromtheDucdeChoiseul,whenshetoldhimthatshehadseentheComtedeSt。
GermainintheBoisduBoulogne。
"Ishouldnotbesurprised,"saidtheminister,"consideringthathespentthenightinmycloset。"
Thedukewasamanofwitandamanoftheworld。Heonlykeptsecretswhentheywerereallyimportantones;verydifferentfromthosemake—believediplomatists,whothinktheygivethemselvesimportancebymakingamysteryoftriflesofnoconsequence。ItistruethattheDucdeChoiseulveryseldomthoughtanythingofgreatimportance;and,inpointoffact,iftherewerelessintrigueandmoretruthaboutdiplomacy(asthereoughttobe),concealmentwouldberatherridiculousthannecessary。
ThedukehadpretendedtodisgraceSt。GermaininFrancethathemightusehimasaspyinLondon;butLordHalifaxwasbynomeanstakeninbythisstratagem。However,allgovernmentshavethepolitenesstoaffordoneanothertheseservices,sothatnoneofthemcanreproachtheothers。
ThesmallConted’Arandaaftercaressingmeaffectionatelybeggedmetocomeandbreakfastwithhimathisboarding—house,tellingmethatMdlle。Viarwouldbegladtoseeme。
ThenextdayItookcarenottofailinmyappointmentwiththefairlady。IwasatMadameVarnier’saquarterofanhourbeforethearrivalofthedazzlingbrunette,andIwaitedforherwithabeatingattheheartwhichshewedmethatthesmallfavoursshehadgivenmehadnotquenchedtheflameoflove。Whenshemadeherappearancethestoutnessofherfigurecarriedrespectwithit,sothatIdidnotfeelasifIcouldcomeforwardandgreethertenderly;butshewasfarfromthinkingthatmorerespectwasduetoherthanwhenshewasatGrenoble,poorbutalsopure。Shekissedmeaffectionatelyandtoldmeasmuch。
"TheythinkIamhappy,"saidshe,"andenvymylot;butcanonebehappyafterthelossofone’sself—respect?ForthelastsixmonthsIhaveonlysmiled,notlaughed;whileatGrenobleI
laughedheartilyfromtruegladness。Ihavediamonds,lace,abeautifulhouse,asuperbcarriage,alovelygarden,waiting—
maids,andamaidofhonourwhoperhapsdespisesme;andalthoughthehighestCourtladiestreatmelikeaprincess,Idonotpassasingledaywithoutexperiencingsomemortification。"
"Mortification?"
"Yes;peoplecomeandbringpleasbeforeme,andIamobligedtosendthemawayasIdarenotaskthekinganything。"
"Whynot?"
"BecauseIcannotlookonhimasmyloveronly;heisalwaysmysovereign,too。Ah!happinessistobesoughtforinsimplehomes,notinpompouspalaces。"
"Happinessisgainedbycomplyingwiththedutiesofwhateverconditionoflifeoneisin,andyoumustconstrainyourselftorisetothatexaltedstationinwhichdestinyhasplacedyou。"
"Icannotdoit;IlovethekingandIamalwaysafraidofvexinghim。Iamalwaysthinkingthathedoestoomuchforme,andthusIdarenotaskforanythingforothers。"
"ButIamsurethekingwouldbeonlytoogladtoshewhisloveforyoubybenefitingthepersonsinwhomyoutakeaninterest。"
"Iknowhewould,andthatthoughtmakesmehappy,butIcannotovercomemyfeelingofrepugnancetoaskingfavours。Ihaveahundredlouisamonthforpin—money,andIdistributeitinalmsandpresents,butwithdueeconomy,sothatIamnotpennilessattheendofthemonth。IhaveafoolishnotionthatthechiefreasonthekinglovesmeisthatIdonotimportunehim。"
"Anddoyoulovehim?"
"HowcanIhelpit?Heisgood—hearted,kindly,handsome,andpolitetoexcess;inshort,hepossessesallthequalitiestocaptivateawoman’sheart。
"HeisalwaysaskingmeifIampleasedwithmyfurniture,myclothes,myservants,andmygarden,andifIdesireanythingaltered。Ithankhimwithakiss,andtellhimthatIampleasedwitheverything。"
"Doesheeverspeakofthescionyouaregoingtopresenttohim?"
"HeoftensaysthatIoughttobecarefulofmyselfinmysituation。Iamhopingthathewillrecognizemysonasaprinceoftheblood;heoughtinjusticetodoso,asthequeenisdead。"
"Tobesurehewill。"
"IshouldbeveryhappyifIhadason。IwishIfeltsurethatI
wouldhaveone。ButIsaynothingaboutthistoanyone。IfI
daredspeaktothekingaboutthehoroscope,Iamcertainhewouldwanttoknowyou;butIamafraidofeviltongues。"
"SoamI。Continueinyourdiscreetcourseandnothingwillcometodisturbyourhappiness,whichmaybecomegreater,andwhichI
ampleasedtohaveprocuredforyou。"
Wedidnotpartwithouttears。Shewasthefirsttogo,afterkissingmeandcallingmeherbestfriend。IstayedashorttimewithMadameVarniertocomposemyfeelings,andItoldherthatI
shouldhavemarriedherinsteadofdrawingherhoroscope。
"Shewouldnodoubthavebeenhappier。Youdidnotforesee,perhaps,hertimidityandherlackofambition。"
"IcanassureyouthatIdidnotreckonuponhercourageorambition。Ilaidasidemyownhappinesstothinkonlyofhers。
Butwhatisdonecannotberecalled,andIshallbeconsoledifI
seeherperfectlyhappyatlast。Ihope,indeed,shewillbeso,aboveallifsheisdeliveredofason。"
IdinedwithMadamed’Urfe,andwedecidedtosendbackArandatohisboarding—schoolthatwemightbemorefreetopursueourcabalisticoperations;andafterwardsIwenttotheopera,wheremybrotherhadmadeanappointmentwithme。HetookmetosupatMadameVanloo’s,andshereceivedmeinthefriendliestmannerpossible。
"YouwillhavethepleasureofmeetingMadameBlondelandherhusband,"saidshe。
ThereaderwillrecollectthatMadameBlondelwasManonBaletti,whomIwastohavemarried。
"DoessheknowIamcoming?"Ienquired。
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