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第5章

  "Whatcanwedointhedark?"
  "Wecantalk。"
  Wewerefour;forthelastthreehourswehadbeentalking,andIwastheherooftheromance。Loveisagreatpoet,itsresourcesareinexhaustible,butiftheendithasinviewisnotobtained,itfeelswearyandremainssilent。MyAngelalistenedwillingly,butlittledisposedtotalkherself,sheseldomanswered,andshedisplayedgoodsenseratherthanwit。Toweakentheforceofmyarguments,shewasoftensatisfiedwithhurlingatmeaproverb,somewhatinthefashionoftheRomansthrowingthecatapult。Everytimethatmypoorhandscametotheassistanceoflove,shedrewherselfbackorrepulsedme。Yet,inspiteofall,Iwentontalkingandusingmyhandswithoutlosingcourage,butIgavemyselfuptodespairwhenIfoundthatmyratherartfularguingastoundedherwithoutbringingconvictiontoherheart,whichwasonlydisquieted,neversoftened。Ontheotherhand,IcouldseewithastonishmentupontheircountenancestheimpressionmadeuponthetwosistersbytheardentspeechesIpouredouttoAngela。Thismetaphysicalcurvestruckmeasunnatural,itoughttohavebeenanangle;Iwasthen,unhappilyformyself,studyinggeometry。Iwasinsuchastatethat,notwithstandingthecold,Iwasperspiringprofusely。Atlastthelightwasnearlyout,andNanettetookitaway。
  Themomentwewereinthedark,IverynaturallyextendedmyarmstoseizeherwhomIloved;butIonlymetwithemptyspace,andIcouldnothelplaughingattherapiditywithwhichAngelahadavailedherselfoftheopportunityofescapingme。ForonefullhourI
  pouredoutallthetender,cheerfulwordsthatloveinspiredmewith,topersuadehertocomebacktome;Icouldonlysupposethatitwasajoketoteaseme。ButIbecameimpatient。
  "Thejoke,"Isaid,"haslastedlongenough;itisfoolish,asI
  couldnotrunafteryou,andIamsurprisedtohearyoulaugh,foryourstrangeconductleadsmetosupposethatyouaremakingfunofme。Comeandtakeyourseatnearme,andifImustspeaktoyouwithoutseeingyouletmyhandsassuremethatIamnotaddressingmywordstotheemptyair。Tocontinuethisgamewouldbeaninsulttome,andmylovedoesnotdeservesuchareturn。"
  "Well,becalm。Iwilllistentoeverywordyoumaysay,butyoumustfeelthatitwouldnotbedecentformetoplacemyselfnearyouinthisdarkroom。"
  "DoyouwantmetostandwhereIamuntilmorning?"
  "Liedownonthebed,andgotosleep。"
  "Inwonder,indeed,atyourthinkingmecapableofdoingsointhestateIamin。Well,Isupposewemustplayatblindman’sbuff。"
  Thereupon,Ibegantofeelrightandleft,everywhere,butinvain。
  WheneverIcaughtanyoneitalwaysturnedouttobeNanetteorMarton,whoatoncediscoveredthemselves,andI,stupidDonQuixote,instantlywouldletthemgo!Loveandprejudiceblindedme,IcouldnotseehowridiculousIwaswithmyrespectfulreserve。IhadnotyetreadtheanecdotesofLouisXIII,kingofFrance,butIhadreadBoccacio。Ikeptonseekinginvain,reproachingherwithhercruelty,andentreatinghertoletmecatchher;butshewouldonlyanswerthatthedifficultyofmeetingeachotherwasmutual。Theroomwasnotlarge,andIwasenragedatmywantofsuccess。
  Tiredandstillmorevexed,Isatdown,andforthenexthourItoldthehistoryofRoger,whenAngelicadisappearsthroughthepowerofthemagicringwhichthelovingknighthadsoimprudentlygivenher:
  ’Cosidicendo,intornoalafortunaBrancolandon’andavacomecieco。
  Oquantevolteabbracciol’ariavanaSpeyandoladonzellaabbracciarseco’。
  AngelahadnotreadAriosto,butNanettehaddonesoseveraltimes。
  SheundertookthedefenceofAngelica,andblamedthesimplicityofRoger,who,ifhehadbeenwise,wouldneverhavetrustedtheringtoacoquette。IwasdelightedwithNanette,butIwasyettoomuchofanovicetoapplyherremarkstomyself。
  Onlyonemorehourremained,andIwastoleavebeforethebreakofday,forMadameOriowouldhavediedratherthangivewaytothetemptationofmissingtheearlymass。DuringthathourIspoketoAngela,tryingtoconvinceherthatsheoughttocomeandsitbyme。
  Mysoulwentthrougheverygradationofhopeanddespair,andthereadercannotpossiblyrealizeitunlesshehasbeenplacedinasimilarposition。Iexhaustedthemostconvincingarguments;thenI
  hadrecoursetoprayers,andeventotears;but,seeingallwasuseless,Igavewaytothatfeelingofnobleindignationwhichlendsdignitytoanger。HadInotbeeninthedark,Imight,Itrulybelieve,havestrucktheproudmonster,thecruelgirl,whohadthusforfivehourscondemnedmetothemostdistressingsuffering。I
  pouredoutalltheabuse,alltheinsultingwordsthatdespisedlovecansuggesttoaninfuriatedmind;Iloadedherwiththedeepestcurses;Isworethatmylovehadentirelyturnedintohatred,and,asafinale,Iadvisedhertobecareful,asIwouldkillherthemomentIwouldsetmyeyesonher。
  Myinvectivescametoanendwiththedarkness。Atthefirstbreakofday,andassoonasIheardthenoisemadebytheboltandthekeyofthestreetdoor,whichMadameOriowasopeningtoletherselfout,thatshemightseekinthechurchthereposeofwhichherpioussoulwasinneed,Igotmyselfreadyandlookedformycloakandformyhat。ButhowcanIeverportraytheconsternationinwhichIwasthrownwhen,castingaslyglanceupontheyoungfriends,Ifoundthethreebathedintears!InmyshameanddespairIthoughtofcommittingsuicide,andsittingdownagain,Irecollectedmybrutalspeeches,andupbraidedmyselfforhavingwantonlycausedthemtoweep。Icouldnotsayoneword;Ifeltchoking;atlasttearscametomyassistance,andIgavewaytoafitofcryingwhichrelievedme。Nanettethenremarkedthatherauntwouldsoonreturnhome;I
  driedmyeyes,and,notventuringanotherlookatAngelaoratherfriends,Iranawaywithoututteringaword,andthrewmyselfonmybed,wheresleepwouldnotvisitmytroubledmind。
  Atnoon,M。deMalipiero,noticingthechangeinmycountenance,enquiredwhatailedme,andlongingtounburdenmyheart,Itoldhimallthathadhappened。Thewiseoldmandidnotlaughatmysorrow,butbyhissensibleadvicehemanagedtoconsolemeandtogivemecourage。HewasinthesamepredicamentwiththebeautifulTherese。
  Yethecouldnothelpgivingwaytohismerrimentwhenatdinnerhesawme,inspiteofmygrief,eatwithincreasedappetite;Ihadgonewithoutmysupperthenightbefore;hecomplimentedmeuponmyhappyconstitution。
  IwasdeterminednevertovisitMadameOrio’shouse,andonthatverydayIheldanargumentinmetaphysics,inwhichIcontendedthatanybeingofwhomwehadonlyanabstractidea,couldonlyexistabstractedly,andIwasright;butitwasaveryeasytasktogivetomythesisanirreligiousturn,andIwasobligedtorecant。AfewdaysafterwardsIwenttoPadua,whereItookmydegreeofdoctor’utroquejure’。
  WhenIreturnedtoVenice,IreceivedanotefromM。Rosa,whoentreatedmetocalluponMadameOrio;shewishedtoseeme,and,feelingcertainofnotmeetingAngela,Ipaidheravisitthesameevening。Thetwogracefulsistersweresokind,sopleasant,thattheyscatteredtothewindstheshameIfeltatseeingthemafterthefearfulnightIhadpassedintheirroomtwomonthsbefore。ThelaboursofwritingmythesisandpassingmyexaminationwereofcoursesufficientexcusesforMadameOrio,whoonlywantedtoreproachmeforhavingremainedsolongawayfromherhouse。
  AsIleft,NanettegavemealettercontaininganotefromAngela,thecontentsofwhichranasfollows:
  "Ifyouarenotafraidofpassinganothernightwithmeyoushallhavenoreasontocomplainofme,forIloveyou,andIwishtohearfromyourownlipswhetheryouwouldstillhavelovedmeifIhadconsentedtobecomecontemptibleinyoureyes。"
  ThisistheletterofNanette,whoalonehadherwitsabouther:
  "M。Rosahavingundertakentobringyoubacktoourhouse,IpreparethesefewlinestoletyouknowthatAngelaisindespairathavinglostyou。Iconfessthatthenightyouspentwithuswasacruelone,butIdonotthinkthatyoudidrightlyingivingupyourvisitstoMadameOrio。IfyoustillfeelanyloveforAngela,Iadviseyoutotakeyourchancesoncemore。Acceptarendezvousforanothernight;shemayvindicateherself,andyouwillbehappy。Believeme;
  come。Farewell!"
  Thosetwolettersaffordedmemuchgratification,forIhaditinmypowertoenjoymyrevengebyshewingtoAngelathecoldestcontempt。
  Therefore,onthefollowingSundayIwenttoMadameOrio’shouse,havingprovidedmyselfwithasmokedtongueandacoupleofbottlesofCypruswine;buttomygreatsurprisemycruelmistresswasnotthere。Nanettetoldmethatshehadmetheratchurchinthemorning,andthatshewouldnotbeabletocomebeforesupper—time。
  TrustingtothatpromiseIdeclinedMadamOrio’sinvitation,andbeforethefamilysatdowntosupperIlefttheroomasIhaddoneontheformeroccasion,andslippedupstairs。IlongedtorepresentthecharacterIhadpreparedmyselffor,andfeelingassuredthatAngela,evenifsheshouldprovelesscruel,wouldonlygrantmeinsignificantfavours,Idespisedtheminanticipation,andresolvedtobeavenged。
  Afterwaitingthreequartersofanhourthestreetdoorwaslocked,andamomentlaterNanetteandMartonenteredtheroom。
  "WhereisAngela?"Ienquired。
  "Shemusthavebeenunabletocome,ortosendamessage。Yetsheknowsyouarehere。"
  "Shethinksshehasmadeafoolofme;butIsuspectedshewouldactinthisway。Youknowhernow。Sheistriflingwithme,andverylikelysheisnowrevellinginhertriumph。Shehasmadeuseofyoutoalluremeinthesnare,anditisallthebetterforher;hadshecome,Imeanttohavehadmyturn,andtohavelaughedather。"
  "Ah!youmustallowmetohavemydoubtsastothat。"
  "Doubtmenot,beautifulNanette;thepleasantnightwearegoingtospendwithouthermustconvinceyou。"
  "Thatistosaythat,asamanofsense,youcanacceptusasamakeshift;butyoucansleephere,andmysistercanliewithmeonthesofainthenextroom。"
  "Icannothinderyou,butitwouldbegreatunkindnessonyourpart。
  Atallevents,Idonotintendtogotobed。"
  "What!youwouldhavethecouragetospendsevenhoursalonewithus?
  Why,Iamcertainthatinashorttimeyouwillbeatalosswhattosay,andyouwillfallasleep。"
  "Well,weshallsee。Inthemean—timehereareprovisions。Youwillnotbesocruelastoletmeeatalone?Canyougetanybread?"
  "Yes,andtopleaseyouwemusthaveasecondsupper。"
  "Ioughttobeinlovewithyou。Tellme,beautifulNanette,ifI
  wereasmuchattachedtoyouasIwastoAngela,wouldyoufollowherexampleandmakemeunhappy?"
  "Howcanyouasksuchaquestion?Itisworthyofaconceitedman。
  AllIcanansweris,thatIdonotknowwhatIwoulddo。"
  Theylaidthecloth,broughtsomebread,someParmesancheeseandwater,laughingallthewhile,andthenwewenttowork。Thewine,towhichtheywerenotaccustomed,wenttotheirheads,andtheirgaietywassoondelightful。Iwondered,asIlookedatthem,atmyhavingbeenblindenoughnottoseetheirmerit。
  Afteroursupper,whichwasdelicious,Isatbetweenthem,holdingtheirhands,whichIpressedtomylips,askingthemwhethertheyweretrulymyfriends,andwhethertheyapprovedofAngela’sconducttowardsme。Theybothansweredthatithadmadethemshedmanytears。"Thenletme,"Isaid,"haveforyouthetenderfeelingsofabrother,andsharethosefeelingsyourselvesasifyouweremysisters;letusexchange,inallinnocence,proofsofourmutualaffection,andsweartoeachotheraneternalfidelity。"
  ThefirstkissIgavethemwaspromptedbyentirelyharmlessmotives,andtheyreturnedthekiss,astheyassuredmeafewdaysafterwardsonlytoprovetomethattheyreciprocatedmybrotherlyfeelings;butthoseinnocentkisses,aswerepeatedthem,verysoonbecameardentones,andkindledaflamewhichcertainlytookusbysurprise,forwestopped,asbycommonconsent,afterashorttime,lookingateachotherverymuchastonishedandratherserious。Theybothleftmewithoutaffectation,andIremainedalonewithmythoughts。Indeed,itwasnaturalthattheburningkissesIhadgivenandreceivedshouldhavesentthroughmethefireofpassion,andthatIshouldsuddenlyhavefallenmadlyinlovewiththetwoamiablesisters。
  BothwerehandsomerthanAngela,andtheyweresuperiortoher——
  Nanettebyhercharmingwit,Martonbyhersweetandsimplenature;I
  couldnotunderstandhowIhadbeensolonginrenderingthemthejusticetheydeserved,buttheyweretheinnocentdaughtersofanoblefamily,andtheluckychancewhichhadthrowntheminmywayoughtnottoproveacalamityforthem。Iwasnotvainenoughtosupposethattheylovedme,butIcouldwellenoughadmitthatmykisseshadinfluencedtheminthesamemannerthattheirkisseshadinfluencedme,and,believingthistobethecase,itwasevidentthat,withalittlecunningonmypart,andofslypracticesofwhichtheywereignorant,Icouldeasily,duringthelongnightIwasgoingtospendwiththem,obtainfavours,theconsequencesofwhichmightbeverypositive。Theverythoughtmademeshudder,andIfirmlyresolvedtorespecttheirvirtue,neverdreamingthatcircumstancesmightprovetoostrongforme。
  Whentheyreturned,Ireadupontheircountenancesperfectsecurityandsatisfaction,andIquicklyputonthesameappearance,withafulldeterminationnottoexposemyselfagaintothedangeroftheirkisses。
  ForonehourwespokeofAngela,andIexpressedmydeterminationnevertoseeheragain,asIhadeveryproofthatshedidnotcareforme。"Shelovesyou,"saidtheartlessMarton;"Iknowshedoes,butifyoudonotmeantomarryher,youwilldowelltogiveupallintercoursewithher,forsheisquitedeterminednottograntyouevenakissaslongasyouarenotheracknowledgedsuitor。Youmustthereforeeithergiveuptheacquaintancealtogether,ormakeupyourmindthatshewillrefuseyoueverything。"
  "Youargueverywell,buthowdoyouknowthatshelovesme?"
  "Iamquitesureofit,andasyouhavepromisedtobeourbrother,I
  cantellyouwhyIhavethatconviction。WhenAngelaisinbedwithme,sheembracesmelovinglyandcallsmeherdearabbe。"
  ThewordswerescarcelyspokenwhenNanette,laughingheartily,placedherhandonhersister’slips,buttheinnocentconfessionhadsuchaneffectuponmethatIcouldhardlycontrolmyself。
  MartontoldNanettethatIcouldnotpossiblybeignorantofwhattakesplacebetweenyounggirlssleepingtogether。
  "Thereisnodoubt,"Isaid,"thateverybodyknowsthosetrifles,andIdonotthink,dearNanette,thatyououghttoreproachyoursisterwithindiscretionforherfriendlyconfidence。"
  "Itcannotbehelpednow,butsuchthingsoughtnottobementioned。
  IfAngelaknewit!"
  "Shewouldbevexed,ofcourse;butMartonhasgivenmeamarkofherfriendshipwhichInevercanforget。Butitisallover;IhateAngela,andIdonotmeantospeaktoheranymore!sheisfalse,andshewishesmyruin。"
  "Yet,lovingyou,isshewrongtothinkofhavingyouforherhusband?"
  "Grantedthatsheisnot;butshethinksonlyofherownself,forsheknowswhatIsuffer,andherconductwouldbeverydifferentifshelovedme。Inthemeantime,thankstoherimagination,shefindsthemeansofsatisfyinghersenseswiththecharmingMartonwhokindlyperformsthepartofherhusband。"
  Nanettelaughedlouder,butIkeptveryserious,andIwentontalkingtohersister,andpraisinghersincerity。Isaidthatverylikely,andtoreciprocateherkindness,Angelamustlikewisehavebeenherhusband,butsheanswered,withasmile,thatAngelaplayedhusbandonlytoNanette,andNanettecouldnotdenyit。
  "But,"saidI,"whatnamedidNanette,inherrapture,givetoherhusband?"
  "Nobodyknows。"
  "Doyouloveanyone,Nanette?"
  "Ido;butmysecretismyown。"
  ThisreservegavemethesuspicionthatIhadsomethingtodowithhersecret,andthatNanettewastherivalofAngela。Suchadelightfulconversationcausedmetolosethewishofpassinganidlenightwithtwogirlssowellmadeforlove。
  "Itisverylucky,"Iexclaimed,"thatIhaveforyouonlyfeelingsoffriendship;otherwiseitwouldbeveryhardtopassthenightwithoutgivingwaytothetemptationofbestowinguponyouproofsofmyaffection,foryouarebothsolovely,sobewitching,thatyouwouldturnthebrainsofanyman。"
  AsIwentontalking,Ipretendedtobesomewhatsleepy;Nanettebeingthefirsttonoticeit,said,"Gotobedwithoutanyceremony,wewillliedownonthesofaintheadjoiningroom。"
  "Iwouldbeaverypoor—spiritedfellowindeed,ifIagreedtothis;
  letustalk;mysleepinesswillsoonpassoff,butIamanxiousaboutyou。Gotobedyourselves,mycharmingfriends,andIwillgointothenextroom。Ifyouareafraidofme,lockthedoor,butyouwoulddomeaninjustice,forIfeelonlyabrother’syearningstowardsyou。"
  "Wecannotacceptsuchanarrangement,"saidNanette,"butletmepersuadeyou;takethisbed。"
  "Icannotsleepwithmyclotheson。"
  "Undressyourself;wewillnotlookatyou。"
  "Ihavenofearofit,buthowcouldIfindthehearttosleep,whileonmyaccountyouarecompelledtositup?"
  "Well,"saidMarton,"wecanliedown,too,withoutundressing。"
  "Ifyoushewmesuchdistrust,youwilloffendme。Tellme,Nanette,doyouthinkIamanhonestman?"
  "Mostcertainly。"
  "Well,then,givemeaproofofyourgoodopinion;liedownnearmeinthebed,undressed,andrelyonmywordofhonourthatIwillnotevenlayafingeruponyou。Besides,youaretwoagainstone,whatcanyoufear?WillyounotbefreetogetoutofthebedincaseI
  shouldnotkeepquiet?Inshort,unlessyouconsenttogivemethismarkofyourconfidenceinme,atleastwhenIhavefallenasleep,I
  cannotgotobed。"
  Isaidnomore,andpretendedtobeverysleepy。Theyexchangedafewwords,whisperingtoeachother,andMartontoldmetogotobed,thattheywouldfollowmeassoonasIwasasleep。Nanettemademethesamepromise,Iturnedmybacktothem,undressedmyselfquickly,andwishingthemgoodnight,Iwenttobed。Iimmediatelypretendedtofallasleep,butsoonIdozedingoodearnest,andonlywokewhentheycametobed。Then,turningroundasifIwishedtoresumemyslumbers,IremainedveryquietuntilIcouldsupposethemfastasleep;atallevents,iftheydidnotsleep,theywereatlibertytopretendtodoso。Theirbacksweretowardsme,andthelightwasout;thereforeIcouldonlyactatrandom,andIpaidmyfirstcomplimentstotheonewhowaslyingonmyright,notknowingwhethershewasNanetteorMarton。Ifindherbentintwo,andwrappedupintheonlygarmentshehadkepton。Takingmytime,andsparinghermodesty,Icompelherbydegreestoacknowledgeherdefeat,andconvinceherthatitisbettertofeignsleepandtoletmeproceed。
  Hernaturalinstinctssoonworkinginconcertwithmine,Ireachthegoal;andmyefforts,crownedwiththemostcompletesuccess,leavemenottheshadowofadoubtthatIhavegatheredthosefirst—fruitstowhichourprejudicemakesusattachsogreatanimportance。
  Enrapturedathavingenjoyedmymanhoodcompletelyandforthefirsttime,Iquietlyleavemybeautyinordertodohomagetotheothersister。Ifindhermotionless,lyingonherbacklikeapersonwrappedinprofoundandundisturbedslumber。Carefullymanagingmyadvance,asifIwereafraidofwakingherup,Ibeginbygentlygratifyinghersenses,andIascertainthedelightfulfactthat,likehersister,sheisstillinpossessionofhermaidenhood。Assoonasanaturalmovementprovestomethatloveacceptstheoffering,I
  takemymeasurestoconsummatethesacrifice。Atthatmoment,givingwaysuddenlytotheviolenceofherfeelings,andtiredofherassumeddissimulation,shewarmlylocksmeinherarmsattheveryinstantofthevoluptuouscrisis,smothersmewithkisses,sharesmyraptures,andloveblendsoursoulsinthemostecstaticenjoyment。
  GuessinghertobeNanette,Iwhisperhername。
  "Yes,IamNanette,"sheanswers;"andIdeclaremyselfhappy,aswellasmysister,ifyouproveyourselftrueandfaithful。"
  "Untildeath,mybelovedones,andaseverythingwehavedoneistheworkoflove,donotletusevermentionthenameofAngela。"
  Afterthis,Ibeggedthatshewouldgiveusalight;butMarton,alwayskindandobliging,gotoutofbedleavingusalone。WhenI
  sawNanetteinmyarms,beamingwithlove,andMartonnearthebed,holdingacandle,withhereyesreproachinguswithingratitudebecausewedidnotspeaktoher,who,byacceptingmyfirstcaresses,hadencouragedhersistertofollowherexample,Irealizedallmyhappiness。
  "Letusgetup,mydarlings,"saidI,"andsweartoeachothereternalaffection。"
  Whenwehadrisenweperformed,allthreetogether,ablutionswhichmadethemlaughagooddeal,andwhichgaveanewimpetustotheardourofourfeelings。Sittingupinthesimplecostumeofnature,weatetheremainsofoursupper,exchangingthosethousandtriflingwordswhichlovealonecanunderstand,andweagainretiredtoourbed,wherewespentamostdelightfulnightgivingeachothermutualandoft—repeatedproofsofourpassionateardour。Nanettewastherecipientofmylastbounties,forMadameOriohavingleftthehousetogotochurch,Ihadtohastenmydeparture,afterassuringthetwolovelysistersthattheyhadeffectuallyextinguishedwhateverflamemightstillhaveflickeredinmyheartforAngela。Iwenthomeandsleptsoundlyuntildinner—time。
  M。deMalipieropassedaremarkuponmycheerfullooksandthedarkcirclesaroundmyeyes,butIkeptmyowncounsel,andIallowedhimtothinkwhateverhepleased。OnthefollowingdayIpaidavisittoMadameOrio,andAngelanotbeingoftheparty,IremainedtosupperandretiredwithM。Rosa。DuringtheeveningNanettecontrivedtogivemealetterandasmallparcel。Theparcelcontainedasmalllumpofwaxwiththestampofakey,andthelettertoldmetohaveakeymade,andtouseittoenterthehousewheneverIwishedtospendthenightwiththem。SheinformedmeatthesametimethatAngelahadsleptwiththemthenightfollowingouradventures,andthat,thankstotheirmutualandusualpractices,shehadguessedtherealstateofthings,thattheyhadnotdeniedit,addingthatitwasallherfault,andthatAngela,afterabusingthemmostvehemently,hadswornneveragaintodarkentheirdoors;buttheydidnotcareajot。
  AfewdaysafterwardsourgoodfortunedeliveredusfromAngela;shewastakentoVicenzabyherfather,whohadremovedthereforacoupleofyears,havingbeenengagedtopaintfrescoesinsomehousesinthatcity。Thankstoherabsence,Ifoundmyselfundisturbedpossessorofthetwocharmingsisters,withwhomIspentatleasttwonightseveryweek,findingnodifficultyinenteringthehousewiththekeywhichIhadspeedilyprocured。
  Carnivalwasnearlyover,whenM。ManzoniinformedmeonedaythatthecelebratedJuliettewishedtoseeme,andregrettedmuchthatI
  hadceasedtovisither。Ifeltcuriousastowhatshehadtosaytome,andaccompaniedhimtoherhouse。Shereceivedmeverypolitely,andremarkingthatshehadheardofalargehallIhadinmyhouse,shesaidshewouldliketogiveaballthere,ifIwouldgivehertheuseofit。Ireadilyconsented,andshehandedmetwenty—foursequinsforthesupperandfortheband,undertakingtosendpeopletoplacechandeliersinthehallandinmyotherrooms。
  M。deSanvitalihadleftVenice,andtheParmesangovernmenthadplacedhisestatesinchanceryinconsequenceofhisextravagantexpenditure。ImethimatVersaillestenyearsafterwards。Heworetheinsigniaoftheking’sorderofknighthood,andwasgrandequerrytotheeldestdaughterofLouisXV。,DuchessofParma,who,likealltheFrenchprincesses,couldnotbereconciledtotheclimateofItaly。
  Theballtookplace,andwentoffsplendidly。AlltheguestsbelongedtoJuliette’sset,withtheexceptionofMadameOrio,hernieces,andtheprocuratorRosa,whosattogetherintheroomadjoiningthehall,andwhomIhadbeenpermittedtointroduceaspersonsofnoconsequencewhatever。
  Whiletheafter—supperminuetswerebeingdancedJuliettetookmeapart,andsaid,"Takemetoyourbedroom;Ihavejustgotanamusingidea。"
  Myroomwasonthethirdstory;Ishewedhertheway。Themomentweenteredsheboltedthedoor,muchtomysurprise。"Iwishyou,"shesaid,"todressmeupinyourecclesiasticalclothes,andIwilldisguiseyouasawomanwithmyownthings。Wewillgodownanddancetogether。Come,letusfirstdressourhair。"
  Feelingsureofsomethingpleasanttocome,anddelightedwithsuchanunusualadventure,Ilosenotimeinarrangingherhair,andIletherafterwardsdressmine。Sheappliesrougeandafewbeautyspotstomyface;Ihumourherineverything,andtoprovehersatisfaction,shegivesmewiththebestofgraceaverylovingkiss,onconditionthatIdonotaskforanythingelse。
  "Asyouplease,beautifulJuliette,butIgiveyouduenoticethatI
  adoreyou!"
  Iplaceuponmybedashirt,anabbe’sneckband,apairofdrawers,blacksilkstockings——infact,acompletefit—out。Comingnearthebed,Juliettedropsherskirt,andcleverlygetsintothedrawers,whichwerenotabadfit,butwhenshecomestothebreechesthereissomedifficulty;thewaistbandistoonarrow,andtheonlyremedyistoripitbehindortocutit,ifnecessary。Iundertaketomakeeverythingright,and,asIsitonthefootofmybed,sheplacesherselfinfrontofme,withherbacktowardsme。Ibeginmywork,butshethinksthatIwanttoseetoomuch,thatIamnotskilfulenough,andthatmyfingerswanderinunnecessaryplaces;shegetsfidgety,leavesme,tearsthebreeches,andmanagesinherownway。
  ThenIhelphertoputhershoeson,andIpasstheshirtoverherhead,butasIamdisposingtheruffleandtheneck—band,shecomplainsofmyhandsbeingtoocurious;andintruth,herbosomwasratherscanty。Shecallsmeaknaveandrascal,butItakenonoticeofher。Iwasnotgoingtobeduped,andIthoughtthatawomanwhohadbeenpaidonehundredthousandducatswaswellworthsomestudy。
  Atlast,hertoiletbeingcompleted,myturncomes。InspiteofherobjectionsIquicklygetridofmybreeches,andshemustputonmethechemise,thenaskirt,inawordshehastodressmeup。Butallatonce,playingthecoquette,shegetsangrybecauseIdonotconcealfromherlookstheveryapparentproofthathercharmshavesomeeffectonaparticularpartofmybeing,andsherefusestograntmethefavourwhichwouldsoonaffordbothreliefandcalm。I
  trytokissher,andsherepulsesme,whereuponIlosepatience,andinspiteofherselfshehastowitnessthelaststageofmyexcitement。Atthesightofthis,shepoursouteveryinsultingwordshecanthinkof;Iendeavourtoprovethatsheistoblame,butitisallinvain。
  However,sheiscompelledtocompletemydisguise。Thereisnodoubtthatanhonestwomanwouldnothaveexposedherselftosuchanadventure,unlessshehadintendedtoprovehertenderfeelings,andthatshewouldnothavedrawnbackattheverymomentshesawthemsharedbyhercompanion;butwomenlikeJulietteareoftenguidedbyaspiritofcontradictionwhichcausesthemtoactagainsttheirowninterests。Besides,shefeltdisappointedwhenshefoundoutthatI
  wasnottimid,andmywantofrestraintappearedtoherawantofrespect。Shewouldnothaveobjectedtomystealingafewlightfavourswhichshewouldhaveallowedmetotake,asbeingofnoimportance,but,bydoingthat,Ishouldhaveflatteredhervanitytoohighly。
  Ourdisguisebeingcomplete,wewenttogethertothedancing—hall,wheretheenthusiasticapplauseoftheguestssoonrestoredourgoodtemper。EverybodygavemecreditforapieceoffortunewhichIhadnotenjoyed,butIwasnotill—pleasedwiththerumour,andwentondancingwiththefalseabbe,whowasonlytoocharming。JuliettetreatedmesowellduringthenightthatIconstruedhermannerstowardsmeintosomesortofrepentance,andIalmostregrettedwhathadtakenplacebetweenus;itwasamomentaryweaknessforwhichI
  wassorelypunished。
  Attheendofthequadrilleallthementhoughttheyhadarighttotakelibertieswiththeabbe,andIbecamemyselfratherfreewiththeyounggirls,whowouldhavebeenafraidofexposingthemselvestoridiculehadtheyofferedanyoppositiontomycaresses。
  M。QueriniwasfoolishenoughtoenquirefrommewhetherIhadkeptonmybreeches,andasIansweredthatIhadbeencompelledtolendthemtoJuliette,helookedveryunhappy,satdowninacorneroftheroom,andrefusedtodance。
  EveryoneoftheguestssoonremarkedthatIhadonawoman’schemise,andnobodyentertainedadoubtofthesacrificehavingbeenconsummated,withtheexceptionofNanetteandMarton,whocouldnotimaginethepossibilityofmybeingunfaithfultothem。Julietteperceivedthatshehadbeenguiltyofgreatimprudence,butitwastoolatetoremedytheevil。
  Whenwereturnedtomychamberupstairs,thinkingthatshehadrepentedofherpreviousbehaviour,andfeelingsomedesiretopossessher,IthoughtIwouldkissher,andItookholdofherhand,sayingIwasdisposedtogivehereverysatisfaction,butshequicklyslappedmyfaceinsoviolentamannerthat,inmyindignation,Iwasverynearreturningthecompliment。Iundressedmyselfrapidlywithoutlookingather,shedidthesame,andwecamedownstairs;
  but,inspiteofthecoldwaterIhadappliedtomycheek,everyonecouldeasilyseethestampofthelargehandwhichhadcomeincontactwithmyface。
  Beforeleavingthehouse,Juliettetookmeapart,andtoldme,inthemostdecidedandimpressivemanner,thatifIhadanyfancyforbeingthrownoutofthewindow,IcouldenjoythatpleasurewheneverI
  likedtoenterherdwelling,andthatshewouldhavememurderedifthisnight’sadventureeverbecamepubliclyknown。Itookcarenottogiveheranycausefortheexecutionofeitherofherthreats,butIcouldnotpreventthefactofourhavingexchangedshirtsbeingrathernotorious。AsIwasnotseenatherhouse,itwasgenerallysupposedthatshehadbeencompelledbyM。Querinitokeepmeatadistance。Thereaderwillseehow,sixyearslater,thisextraordinarywomanthoughtpropertofeignentireforgetfulnessofthisadventure。
  IpassedLent,partlyinthecompanyofmylovedones,partlyinthestudyofexperimentalphysicsattheConventoftheSalutation。MyeveningswerealwaysgiventoM。deMalipiero’sassemblies。AtEaster,inordertokeepthepromiseIhadmadetotheCountessofMont—Real,andlongingtoseeagainmybeautifulLucie,IwenttoPasean。IfoundtheguestsentirelydifferenttothesetIhadmetthepreviousautumn。CountDaniel,theeldestofthefamily,hadmarriedaCountessGozzi,andayoungandwealthygovernmentofficial,whohadmarriedagod—daughteroftheoldcountess,wastherewithhiswifeandhissister—in—law。Ithoughtthesupperverylong。Thesameroomhadbeengiventome,andIwasburningtoseeLucie,whomIdidnotintendtotreatanymorelikeachild。Ididnotseeherbeforegoingtobed,butIexpectedherearlythenextmorning,whenlo!insteadofherprettyfacebrighteningmyeyes,I
  seestandingbeforemeafat,uglyservant—girl!Ienquireafterthegatekeeper’sfamily,butheranswerisgiveninthepeculiardialectoftheplace,andis,ofcourse,unintelligibletome。
  IwonderwhathasbecomeofLucie;Ifancythatourintimacyhasbeenfoundout,Ifancythatsheisill——dead,perhaps。Idressmyselfwiththeintentionoflookingforher。Ifshehasbeenforbiddentoseeme,Ithinktomyself,Iwillbeevenwiththemall,forsomehoworotherIwillcontrivethemeansofspeakingtoher,andoutofspiteIwilldowithherthatwhichhonourpreventedlovefromaccomplishing。AsIwasrevolvingsuchthoughts,thegate—keepercomesinwithasorrowfulcountenance。Ienquireafterhiswife’shealth,andafterhisdaughter,butatthenameofLuciehiseyesarefilledwithtears。
  "What!isshedead?"
  "WouldtoGodshewere!"
  "Whathasshedone?"
  "ShehasrunawaywithCountDaniel’scourier,andwehavebeenunabletotraceheranywhere。"
  Hiswifecomesinatthemomenthereplies,andatthesewords,whichrenewedhergrief,thepoorwomanfaintsaway。Thekeeper,seeinghowsincerelyIfeltforhismisery,tellsmethatthisgreatmisfortunebefellthemonlyaweekbeforemyarrival。
  "Iknowthatmanl’Aigle,"Isay;"heisascoundrel。DidheasktomarryLucie?"
  "No;heknewwellenoughthatourconsentwouldhavebeenrefused!"
  "IwonderatLucieactinginsuchaway。"
  "Heseducedher,andherrunningawaymadeussuspectthetruth,forshehadbecomeverystout。"
  "Hadheknownherlong?"
  "Aboutamonthafteryourlastvisitshesawhimforthefirsttime。
  Hemusthavethrownaspelloverher,forourLuciewasaspureasadove,andyoucan,Ibelieve,beartestimonytohergoodness。"
  "Andnooneknowswheretheyare?"
  "Noone。Godaloneknowswhatthisvillainwilldowithher。"
  Igrievedasmuchastheunfortunateparents;Iwentoutandtookalongrambleinthewoodstogivewaytomysadfeelings。DuringtwohoursIcogitatedoverconsiderations,sometrue,somefalse,whichwereallprefacedbyanif。IfIhadpaidthisvisit,asImighthavedone,aweeksooner,lovingLuciewouldhaveconfidedinme,andIwouldhavepreventedthatself—murder。IfIhadactedwithheraswithNanetteandMarton,shewouldnothavebeenleftbymeinthatstateofardentexcitementwhichmusthaveprovedtheprincipalcauseofherfault,andshewouldnothavefallenapreytothatscoundrel。
  Ifshehadnotknownmebeforemeetingthecourier,herinnocentsoulwouldneverhavelistenedtosuchaman。Iwasindespair,forinmyconscienceIacknowledgedmyselftheprimaryagentofthisinfamousseduction;Ihadpreparedthewayforthevillain。
  HadIknownwheretofindLucie,Iwouldcertainlyhavegoneforthontheinstanttoseekforher,butnotracewhateverofherwhereaboutshadbeendiscovered。
  BeforeIhadbeenmadeacquaintedwithLucie’smisfortuneIfeltgreatprideathavinghadsufficientpowerovermyselftorespectherinnocence;butafterhearingwhathadhappenedIwasashamedofmyownreserve,andIpromisedmyselfthatforthefutureIwouldonthatscoreactmorewisely。Ifelttrulymiserablewhenmyimaginationpaintedtheprobabilityoftheunfortunategirlbeinglefttopovertyandshame,cursingtheremembranceofme,andhatingmeasthefirstcauseofhermisery。Thisfataleventcausedmetoadoptanewsystem,whichinafteryearsIcarriedsometimesrathertoofar。
  Ijoinedthecheerfulguestsofthecountessinthegardens,andreceivedsuchawelcomethatIwassoonagaininmyusualspirits,andatdinnerIdelightedeveryone。
  MysorrowwassogreatthatitwasnecessaryeithertodriveitawayatonceortoleavePasean。ButanewlifecreptintomybeingasI
  examinedthefaceandthedispositionofthenewly—marriedlady。Hersisterwasprettier,butIwasbeginningtofeelafraidofanovice;
  Ithoughttheworktoogreat。
  Thisnewly—marriedlady,whowasbetweennineteenandtwentyyearsofage,drewuponherselfeverybody’sattentionbyherover—strainedandunnaturalmanners。Agreattalker,withamemorycrammedwithmaximsandpreceptsoftenwithoutsense,butofwhichshelovedtomakeashow,verydevout,andsojealousofherhusbandthatshedidnotconcealhervexationwhenheexpressedhissatisfactionatbeingseatedattableoppositehersister,shelaidherselfopentomuchridicule。Herhusbandwasagiddyyoungfellow,whoperhapsfeltverydeepaffectionforhiswife,butwhoimaginedthat,throughgoodbreeding,heoughttoappearveryindifferent,andwhosevanityfoundpleasureingivingherconstantcausesforjealousy。She,inherturn,hadagreatdreadofpassingforanidiotifshedidnotshewherappreciationof,andherresentmentfor,hisconduct。Shefeltuneasyinthemidstofgoodcompany,preciselybecauseshewishedtoappearthoroughlyathome。IfIprattledawaywithsomeofmytrillingnonsense,shewouldstareatme,andinheranxietynottobethoughtstupid,shewouldlaughoutofseason。Heroddity,herawkwardness,andherself—conceitgavemethedesiretoknowherbetter,andIbegantodanceattendanceuponher。
  Myattentions,importantandunimportant,myconstantcare,evermyfopperies,leteverybodyknowthatImeditatedconquest。Thehusbandwasdulywarned,but,withagreatshowofintrepidity,heansweredwithajokeeverytimehewastoldthatIwasaformidablerival。OnmysideIassumedamodest,andevensometimesacarelessappearance,when,toshewhisfreedomfromjealousy,heexcitedmetomakelovetohiswife,who,onherpart,understoodbutlittlehowtoperformthepartoffancyfree。
  Ihadbeenpayingmyaddresstoherforfiveorsixdayswithgreatconstancy,when,takingawalkwithherinthegarden,sheimprudentlyconfidedtomethereasonofheranxietyrespectingherhusband,andhowwronghewastogiveheranycauseforjealousy。I
  toldher,speakingasanoldfriend,thatthebestwaytopunishhimwouldbetotakenoapparentnoticeofher,husband’spreferenceforhersister,andtofeigntobeherselfinlovewithme。Inordertoenticehermoreeasilytofollowmyadvice,IaddedthatIwaswellawareofmyplanbeingaverydifficultonetocarryout,andthattoplaysuccessfullysuchacharacterawomanmustbeparticularlywitty。Ihadtouchedherweakpoint,andsheexclaimedthatshewouldplaytheparttoperfection;butinspiteofherself—
  confidencesheacquittedherselfsobadlythateverybodyunderstoodthattheplanwasofmyownscheming。
  IfIhappenedtobealonewithherinthedarkpathsofthegarden,andtriedtomakeherplayherpartinrealearnest,shewouldtakethedangerousstepofrunningaway,andrejoiningtheotherguests;
  theresultbeingthat,onmyreappearance,Iwascalledabadsportsmanwhofrightenedthebirdaway。Iwouldnotfailatthefirstopportunitytoreproachherforherflight,andtorepresentthetriumphshehadthuspreparedforherspouse。Ipraisedhermind,butlamentedovertheshortcomingsofhereducation;Isaidthatthetone,themannersIadoptedtowardsher,werethoseofgoodsociety,andprovedthegreatesteemIentertainedforherintelligence,butinthemiddleofallmyfinespeeches,towardstheeleventhortwelfthdayofmycourtship,shesuddenlyputmeoutofallconceitbytellingmethat,beingapriest,Ioughttoknowthateveryamorousconnectionwasadeadlysin,thatGodcouldseeeveryactionofHiscreatures,andthatshewouldneitherdamnhersoulnorplaceherselfunderthenecessityofsayingtoherconfessorthatshehadsofarforgottenherselfastocommitsuchasinwithapriest。
  IobjectedthatIwasnotyetapriest,butshefoiledmebyenquiringpoint—blankwhetherornottheactIhadinviewwastobenumberedamongstthecardinalsins,for,notfeelingthecouragetodenyit,IfeltthatImustgiveuptheargumentandputanendtotheadventure。
  Alittleconsiderationhavingconsiderablycalmedmyfeelings,everybodyremarkedmynewcountenanceduringdinner;andtheoldcount,whowasveryfondofajoke,expressedloudlyhisopinionthatsuchquietdemeanouronmypartannouncedthecompletesuccessofmycampaign。Consideringsucharemarktobefavourabletome,Itookcaretospewmycrueldevoteethatsuchwasthewaytheworldwouldjudge,butallthiswaslostlabour。Luck,however,stoodmeingoodstead,andmyeffortswerecrownedwithsuccessinthefollowingmanner。
  OnAscensionDay,weallwenttopayavisittoMadameBergali,acelebratedItalianpoetess。OnmyreturntoPaseanthesameevening,myprettymistresswishedtogetintoacarriageforfourpersonsinwhichherhusbandandsisterwerealreadyseated,whileIwasaloneinatwo—wheeledchaise。Iexclaimedatthis,sayingthatsuchamarkofdistrustwasindeedtoopointed,andeverybodyremonstratedwithher,sayingthatsheoughtnottoinsultmesocruelly。Shewascompelledtocomewithme,andhavingtoldthepostillionthatI
  wantedtogobythenearestroad,helefttheothercarriages,andtookthewaythroughtheforestofCequini。Theskywasclearandcloudlesswhenweleft,butinlessthanhalf—an—hourwewerevisitedbyoneofthosestormssofrequentinthesouth,whichappearlikelytooverthrowheavenandearth,andwhichendrapidly,leavingbehindthemabrightskyandacoolatmosphere,sothattheydomoregoodthanharm。
  "Oh,heavens!"exclaimedmycompanion,"weshallhaveastorm。"
  "Yes,"Isay,"andalthoughthechaiseiscovered,therainwillspoilyourprettydress。Iamverysorry。"
  "Idonotmindthedress;butthethunderfrightensmeso!"
  "Closeyourears。"
  "Andthelightning?"
  "Postillion,letusgosomewhereforshelter。"
  "Thereisnotahouse,sir,foraleague,andbeforewecometoit,thestormwillhavepassedoff。"
  Hequietlykeepsonhisway,andthelightningflashes,thethundersendsforthitsmightyvoice,andtheladyshudderswithfright。Theraincomesdownintorrents,Itakeoffmycloaktoshelterusinfront,atthesamemomentweareblindedbyaflashoflightning,andtheelectricfluidstrikestheearthwithinonehundredyardsofus。
  Thehorsesplungeandprancewithfear,andmycompanionfallsinspasmodicconvulsions。Shethrowsherselfuponme,andfoldsmeinherarms。Thecloakhadgonedown,Istooptoplaceitaroundus,andimprovingmyopportunityItakeupherclothes。Shetriestopullthemdown,butanotherclapofthunderdeprivesherofeveryparticleofstrength。Coveringherwiththecloak,Idrawhertowardsme,andthemotionofthechaisecomingtomyassistance,shefallsovermeinthemostfavourableposition。Ilosenotime,andunderpretenceofarrangingmywatchinmyfob,Ipreparemyselffortheassault。Onherside,consciousthat,unlessshestopsmeatonce,allislost,shemakesagreateffort;butIholdhertightly,sayingthatifshedoesnotfeignafaintingfit,thepost—boywillturnroundandseeeverything;Iletherenjoythepleasureofcallingmeaninfidel,amonster,anythingshelikes,butmyvictoryisthemostcompletethateverachampionachieved。
  Therain,however,wasfalling,thewind,whichwasveryhigh,blewinourfaces,and,compelledtostaywhereshewas,shesaidIwouldruinherreputation,asthepostillioncouldseeeverything。
  "Ikeepmyeyeuponhim,"Ianswered,"heisnotthinkingofus,andevenifheshouldturnhishead,thecloaksheltersusfromhim。Bequiet,andpretendtohavefainted,forIwillnotletyougo。"
  Sheseemsresigned,andaskshowIcanthussetthestormatdefiance。
  "Thestorm,dearone,ismybestfriendto—day。"
  Shealmostseemstobelieveme,herfearvanishes,andfeelingmyrapture,sheenquireswhetherIhavedone。Ismileandanswerinthenegative,statingthatIcannotlethergotillthestormisover。
  "Consenttoeverything,orIletthecloakdrop,"Isaytoher。
  "Well,youdreadfulman,areyousatisfied,nowthatyouhaveinsuredmymiseryfortheremainderofmylife?"
  "No,notyet。"
  "Whatmoredoyouwant?"
  "Ashowerofkisses。"
  "HowunhappyIam!Well!heretheyare。"
  "Tellmeyouforgiveme,andconfessthatyouhavesharedallmypleasure。"
  "YouknowIdid。Yes,Iforgiveyou。"
  ThenIgiveherherliberty,andtreatinghertosomeverypleasantcaresses,Iaskhertohavethesamekindnessforme,andshegoestoworkwithasmileonherprettylips。
  "Tellmeyouloveme,"Isaytoher。
  "No,Idonot,foryouareanatheist,andhellawaitsyou。"
  Theweatherwasfineagain,andtheelementscalm;Ikissedherhandsandtoldherthatthepostillionhadcertainlynotseenanything,andthatIwassureIhadcuredherofherdreadofthunder,butthatshewasnotlikelytorevealthesecretofmyremedy。Sheansweredthatonethingatleastwascertain,namelythatnootherwomanhadeverbeencuredbythesameprescription。
  "Why,"Isaid,"thesameremedyhasverylikelybeenappliedamillionoftimeswithinthelastthousandyears。Totellyouthetruth,Ihadsomewhatdependeduponit,whenweenteredthechaisetogether,forIdidnotknowanyotherwayofobtainingthehappinessofpossessingyou。Butconsoleyourselfwiththebeliefthat,placedinthesameposition,nofrightenedwomancouldhaveresisted。"
  "Ibelieveyou;butforthefutureIwilltravelonlywithmyhusband。"
  "Youwouldbewrong,foryourhusbandwouldnothavebeencleverenoughtocureyourfrightinthewayIhavedone。"
  "True,again。Onelearnssomecuriousthingsinyourcompany;butweshallnottraveltete—d—teteagain。"
  WereachedPaseananhourbeforeourfriends。Wegetoutofthechaise,andmyfairmistressranofftoherchamber,whileIwaslookingforacrownforthepostillion。Isawthathewasgrinning。
  "Whatareyoulaughingat?"
  "Oh!youknow。"
  "Here,takethisducatandkeepaquiettongueinyourhead。"
  CHAPTERVI
  MyGrandmother’sDeathandItsConsequencesILoseM。deMalipiero’sFriendship——IHaveNoLongeraHome——LaTintoretta——IAmSenttoaClericalSeminary——IAmExpelledFromIt,andConfinedinaFortressDuringsuppertheconversationturnedaltogetheruponthestorm,andtheofficial,whoknewtheweaknessofhiswife,toldmethathewasquitecertainIwouldnevertravelwithheragain。"NorIwithhim,"
  hiswiferemarked,"for,inhisfearfulimpiety,heexorcisedthelightningwithjokes。"
  HenceforthsheavoidedmesoskilfullythatInevercouldcontriveanotherinterviewwithher。
  WhenIreturnedtoVeniceIfoundmygrandmotherill,andIhadtochangeallmyhabits,forIlovedhertoodearlynottosurroundherwitheverycareandattention;Ineverleftheruntilshehadbreathedherlast。Shewasunabletoleavemeanything,forduringherlifeshehadgivenmeallshecould,andherdeathcompelledmetoadoptanentirelydifferentmodeoflife。
  Amonthafterherdeath,Ireceivedaletterfrommymotherinformingmethat,astherewasnoprobabilityofherreturntoVenice,shehaddeterminedtogiveupthehouse,therentofwhichshewasstillpaying,thatshehadcommunicatedherintentiontotheAbbeGrimani,andthatIwastobeguidedentirelybyhisadvice。
  Hewasinstructedtosellthefurniture,andtoplaceme,aswellasmybrothersandmysister,inagoodboarding—house。IcalleduponGrimanitoassurehimofmyperfectdispositiontoobeyhiscommands。
  Therentofthehousehadbeenpaiduntiltheendoftheyear;but,asIwasawarethatthefurniturewouldbesoldontheexpirationoftheterm,Iplacedmywantsundernorestraint。Ihadalreadysoldsomelinen,mostofthechina,andseveraltapestries;Inowbegantodisposeofthemirrors,beds,etc。Ihadnodoubtthatmyconductwouldbeseverelyblamed,butIknewlikewisethatitwasmyfather’sinheritance,towhichmymotherhadnoclaimwhatever,and,astomybrothers,therewasplentyoftimebeforeanyexplanationcouldtakeplacebetweenus。
  FourmonthsafterwardsIhadasecondletterfrommymother,datedfromWarsaw,andenclosinganother。Hereisthetranslationofmymother’sletter"Mydearson,IhavemadeheretheacquaintanceofalearnedMinimfriar,aCalabrianbybirth,whosegreatqualitieshavemademethinkofyoueverytimehehashonouredmewithavisit。AyearagoItoldhimthatIhadasonwhowaspreparinghimselffortheChurch,butthatIhadnotthemeansofkeepinghimduringhisstudies,andhepromisedthatmysonwouldbecomehisownchild,ifIcouldobtainforhimfromthequeenabishopricinhisnativecountry,andheaddedthatitwouldbeveryeasytosucceedifIcouldinducethesovereigntorecommendhimtoherdaughter,thequeenofNaples。
  "FulloftrustintheAlmighty,Ithrewmyselfatthefeetofhermajesty,whograntedmehergraciousprotection。Shewrotetoherdaughter,andtheworthyfriarhasbeenappointedbythePopetothebishopricofMonterano。Faithfultohispromise,thegoodbishopwilltakeyouwithhimaboutthemiddleofnextyear,ashepassesthroughVenicetoreachCalabria。Heinformsyouhimselfofhisintentionsintheenclosedletter。Answerhimimmediately,mydearson,andforwardyourlettertome;Iwilldeliverittothebishop。
  HewillpaveyourwaytothehighestdignitiesoftheChurch,andyoumayimaginemyconsolationif,insometwentyorthirtyyears,Ihadthehappinessofseeingyouabishop,atleast!Untilhisarrival,M。Grimaniwilltakecareofyou。Igiveyoumyblessing,andIam,mydearchild,etc。,etc。"
  Thebishop’sletterwaswritteninLatin,andwasonlyarepetitionofmymother’s。Itwasfullofunction,andinformedmethathewouldtarrybutthreedaysinVenice。
  Iansweredaccordingtomymother’swishes,butthosetwolettershadturnedmybrain。Ilookeduponmyfortuneasmade。Ilongedtoentertheroadwhichwastoleadmetoit,andIcongratulatedmyselfthatIcouldleavemycountrywithoutanyregret。Farewell,Venice,Iexclaimed;thedaysforvanityaregoneby,andinthefutureI
  willonlythinkofagreat,ofasubstantialcareer!M。Grimanicongratulatedmewarmlyonmygoodluck,andpromisedallhisfriendlycaretosecureagoodboarding—house,towhichIwouldgoatthebeginningoftheyear,andwhereIwouldwaitforthebishop’sarrival。
  M。deMalipiero,whoinhisownwayhadgreatwisdom,andwhosawthatinVeniceIwasplungingheadlongintopleasuresanddissipation,andwasonlywastingaprecioustime,wasdelightedtoseemeontheeveofgoingsomewhereelsetofulfilmydestiny,andmuchpleasedwithmyreadyacceptanceofthosenewcircumstancesinmylife。HereadmealessonwhichIhaveneverforgotten。"ThefamouspreceptoftheStoicphilosophers,"hesaidtome,"’SequereDeum’,canheperfectlyexplainedbythesewords:’Giveyourselfuptowhateverfateofferstoyou,providedyoudonotfeelaninvinciblerepugnancetoacceptit。’"HeaddedthatitwasthegeniusofSocrates,’saeperevocans,raroimpellens’;andthatitwastheoriginofthe’fataviaminveniunt’ofthesamephilosophers。
  M。deMalipiero’ssciencewasembodiedinthatverylesson,forhehadobtainedhisknowledgebythestudyofonlyonebook——thebookofman。However,asifitweretogivemetheproofthatperfectiondoesnotexist,andthatthereisabadsideaswellasagoodonetoeverything,acertainadventurehappenedtomeamonthafterwardswhich,althoughIwasfollowinghisownmaxims,costmethelossofhisfriendship,andwhichcertainlydidnotteachmeanything。
  Thesenatorfanciedthathecouldtraceuponthephysiognomyofyoungpeoplecertainsignswhichmarkedthemoutasthespecialfavouritesoffortune。Whenheimaginedthathehaddiscoveredthosesignsuponanyindividual,hewouldtakehiminhandandinstructhimhowtoassistfortunebygoodandwiseprinciples;andheusedtosay,withagreatdealoftruth,thatagoodremedywouldturnintopoisoninthehandsofafool,butthatpoisonisagoodremedywhenadministeredbyalearnedman。Hehad,inmytime,threefavouritesinwhoseeducationhetookgreatpains。Theywere,besidesmyself,ThereseImer,withwhomthereaderhasaslightacquaintancealready,andthethirdwasthedaughteroftheboatmanGardela,agirlthreeyearsyoungerthanI,whohadtheprettiestandmostfascinatingcountenance。Thespeculativeoldman,inordertoassistfortuneinherparticularcase,madeherlearndancing,for,hewouldsay,theballcannotreachthepocketunlesssomeonepushesit。ThisgirlmadeagreatreputationatStuttgardunderthenameofAugusta。ShewasthefavouritemistressoftheDukeofWurtemburgin1757。Shewasamostcharmingwoman。ThelasttimeIsawhershewasinVenice,andshediedtwoyearsafterwards。Herhusband,Michelde1’Agata,poisonedhimselfashorttimeafterherdeath。
  Onedaywehadallthreedinedwithhim,andafterdinnerthesenatorleftus,aswashiswont,toenjoyhissiesta;thelittleGardela,havingadancinglessontotake,wentawaysoonafterhim,andI
  foundmyselfalonewithTherese,whomIratheradmired,althoughI
  hadnevermadelovetoher。Weweresittingdownatatableveryneareachother,withourbackstothedooroftheroominwhichwethoughtourpatronfastasleep,andsomehoworotherwetookafancytoexamineintothedifferenceofconformationbetweenagirlandaboy;butatthemostinterestingpartofourstudyaviolentblowonmyshouldersfromastick,followedbyanother,andwhichwouldhavebeenitselffollowedbymanymoreifIhadnotranaway,compelledustoabandonourinterestinginvestigationunfinished。Igotoffwithouthatorcloak,andwenthome;butinlessthanaquarterofanhourtheoldhousekeeperofthesenatorbroughtmyclotheswithaletterwhichcontainedacommandnevertopresentmyselfagainatthemansionofhisexcellency。Iimmediatelywrotehimananswerinthefollowingterms:"Youhavestruckmewhileyouweretheslaveofyouranger;youcannotthereforeboastofhavinggivenmealesson,andI
  havenotlearnedanything。ToforgiveyouImustforgetthatyouareamanofgreatwisdom,andIcanneverforgetit。"
  Thisnoblemanwasperhapsquiterightnottobepleasedwiththesightwegavehim;yet,withallhisprudence,heprovedhimselfveryunwise,foralltheservantswereacquaintedwiththecauseofmyexile,and,ofcourse,theadventurewassoonknownthroughthecity,andwasreceivedwithgreatmerriment。HedarednotaddressanyreproachestoTherese,asIheardfromhersoonafter,butshecouldnotventuretoentreathimtopardonme。
  Thetimetoleavemyfather’shousewasdrawingnear,andonefinemorningIreceivedthevisitofamanaboutfortyyearsold,withablackwig,ascarletcloak,andaveryswarthycomplexion,whohandedmealetterfromM。Grimani,orderingmetoconsigntothebearerallthefurnitureofthehouseaccordingtotheinventory,acopyofwhichwasinmypossession。Takingtheinventoryinmyhand,I
  pointedouteveryarticlemarkeddown,exceptwhenthesaidarticle,havingthroughmyinstrumentalitytakenanairingoutofthehouse,happenedtobemissing,andwheneveranyarticlewasabsentIsaidthatIhadnottheslightestideawhereitmightbe。Buttheuncouthfellow,takingaveryhightone,saidloudlythathemustknowwhatI
  haddonewiththefurniture。Hismannerbeingverydisagreeabletome,IansweredthatIhadnothingtodowithhim,andashestillraisedhisvoiceIadvisedhimtotakehimselfoffasquicklyaspossible,andIgavehimthatpieceofadviceinsuchawayastoprovetohimthat,athome,IknewIwasthemorepowerfulofthetwo。
  FeelingitmydutytogiveinformationtoM。Grimaniofwhathadjusttakenplace,Icalleduponhimassoonashewasup,butIfoundthatmymanwasalreadythere,andthathehadgivenhisownaccountoftheaffair。Theabbe,afteraveryseverelecturetowhichIhadtolisteninsilence,orderedmetorenderanaccountofallthemissingarticles。IansweredthatIhadfoundmyselfunderthenecessityofsellingthemtoavoidrunningintodebt。Thisconfessionthrewhiminaviolentpassion;hecalledmearascal,saidthatthosethingsdidnotbelongtome,thatheknewwhathehadtodo,andhecommandedmetoleavehishouseontheveryinstant。
  Madwithrage,IranforaJew,towhomIwantedtosellwhatremainedofthefurniture,butwhenIreturnedtomyhouseIfoundabailiffwaitingatthedoor,andhehandedmeasummons。IlookedoveritandperceivedthatitwasissuedattheinstanceofAntonioRazetta。Itwasthenameofthefellowwiththeswarthycountenance。
  Thesealswerealreadyaffixedonallthedoors,andIwasnotevenallowedtogotomyroom,forakeeperhadbeenlefttherebythebailiff。Ilostnotime,andcalleduponM。Rosa,towhomIrelatedallthecircumstances。Afterreadingthesummonshesaid,"Thesealsshallberemovedto—morrowmorning,andinthemeantimeI
  shallsummonRazettabeforetheavogador。Butto—night,mydearfriend,"headded,"youmustbegthehospitalityofsomeoneofyouracquaintances。Ithasbeenaviolentproceeding,butyoushallbepaidhandsomelyforit;themanisevidentlyactingunderM。Grimani’sorders。"
  "Well,thatistheirbusiness。"
  IspentthenightwithNanetteandMarton,andonthefollowingmorning,thesealshavingbeentakenoff,Itookpossessionofmydwelling。Razettadidnotappearbeforethe’avogador’,andM。Rosasummonedhiminmynamebeforethecriminalcourt,andobtainedagainsthimawritof’capias’incaseheshouldnotobeythesecondsummons。OnthethirddayM。Grimaniwrotetome,commandingmetocalluponhim。Iwentimmediately。AssoonasIwasinhispresenceheenquiredabruptlywhatmyintentionswere。
  "Iintendtoshieldmyselffromyourviolentproceedingsundertheprotectionofthelaw,andtodefendmyselfagainstamanwithwhomI
  oughtnevertohavehadanyconnection,andwhohascompelledmetopassthenightinadisreputableplace。"
  "Inadisreputableplace?"
  "Ofcourse。WhywasI,againstallrightandjustice,preventedfromenteringmyowndwelling?"
  "Youhavepossessionofitnow。ButyoumustgotoyourlawyerandtellhimtosuspendallproceedingsagainstRazetta,whohasdonenothingbutundermyinstructions。Isuspectedthatyourintentionwastoselltherestofthefurniture;Ihavepreventedit。ThereisaroomatyourdisposalatSt。hrysostom’s,inahouseofmine,thefirstfloorofwhichisoccupiedbyLaTintoretta,ourfirstoperadancer。Sendallyourthingsthere,andcomeanddinewithmeeveryday。Yoursisterandyourbrothershavebeenprovidedwithacomfortablehome;therefore,everythingisnowarrangedforthebest。"
  IcalledatonceuponM。Rosa,towhomIexplainedallthathadtakenplace,andhisadvicebeingtogivewaytoM。Grimani’swishes,I
  determinedtofollowit。Besides,thearrangementofferedthebestsatisfactionIcouldobtain,astobeaguestathisdinnertablewasanhonourforme。IwaslikewisefullofcuriosityrespectingmynewlodgingunderthesameroofwithLaTintoretta,whowasmuchtalkedof,owingtoacertainPrinceofWaldeckwhowasextravagantlygenerouswithher。
  Thebishopwasexpectedinthecourseofthesummer;Ihad,therefore,onlysixmonthsmoretowaitinVenicebeforetakingtheroadwhichwouldleadme,perhaps,tothethroneofSaintPeter:
  everythinginthefutureassumedinmyeyesthebrightesthue,andmyimaginationrevelledamongstthemostradiantbeamsofsunshine;mycastlesintheairwereindeedmostbeautiful。
  IdinedthesamedaywithM。Grimani,andIfoundmyselfseatednexttoRazetta——anunpleasantneighbour,butItooknonoticeofhim。
  Whenthemealwasover,IpaidalastvisittomybeautifulhouseinSaint—Samuel’sparish,andsentallIpossessedinagondolatomynewlodging。
  IdidnotknowSignoraTintoretta,butIwaswellacquaintedwithherreputation,characterandmanners。Shewasbutapoordancer,neitherhandsomenorplain,butawomanofwitandintellect。PrinceWaldeckspentagreatdealforher,andyethedidnotpreventherfromretainingthetitularyprotectionofanobleVenetianoftheLinfamily,nowextinct,amanaboutsixtyyearsofage,whowashervisitorateveryhouroftheday。Thisnobleman,whoknewme,cametomyroomtowardstheevening,withthecomplimentsofthelady,who,headded,wasdelightedtohavemeinherhouse,andwouldbepleasedtoreceivemeinherintimatecircle。
  Toexcusemyselffornothavingbeenthefirsttopaymyrespectstothesignora,ItoldM。LinthatIdidnotknowshewasmyneighbour,thatM。Grimanihadnotmentionedthecircumstance,otherwiseIwouldhavepaidmydutiestoherbeforetakingpossessionofmylodging。
  AfterthisapologyIfollowedtheambassador,hepresentedmetohismistress,andtheacquaintancewasmade。
  Shereceivedmelikeaprincess,tookoffherglovebeforegivingmeherhandtokiss,mentionedmynamebeforefiveorsixstrangerswhowerepresent,andwhosenamesshegaveme,andinvitedmetotakeaseatnearher。AsshewasanativeofVenice,IthoughtitwasabsurdforhertospeakFrenchtome,andItoldherthatIwasnotacquaintedwiththatlanguage,andwouldfeelgratefulifshewouldconverseinItalian。ShewassurprisedatmynotspeakingFrench,andsaidIwouldcutbutapoorfigureinherdrawing—room,astheyseldomspokeanyotherlanguagethere,becauseshereceivedagreatmanyforeigners。IpromisedtolearnFrench。PrinceWaldeckcameinduringtheevening;Iwasintroducedtohim,andhegavemeaveryfriendlywelcome。HecouldspeakItalianverywell,andduringthecarnivalhechewedmegreatkindness。HepresentedmewithagoldsnuffboxasarewardforaverypoorsonnetwhichIhadwrittenforhisdearGrizellini。Thiswasherfamilyname;shewascalledTintorettabecauseherfatherhadbeenadyer。