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  Sometimes,"sheepishly,"I’vetrieditmyself——p’rapsit’strue。Ididitthismornin’whenIsatdownan’
  pulledmesackoverme’eadonthebridge。Polly’dbeencryin’soloudallnightI’dgotabitlowinmestummickan’——"ShestoppedsuddenlyandturnedonDartasiflighthadflashedacrosshermind。"Dunnonothin’aboutit,"shestammered,"butISAIDit——justlikeshedoes。
  an’YOUcome!"
  Plainlyshehadutteredwhateverwordsshehadusedintheformofasortofincantation,andherewastheresultinthelivingbodyofthismansittingbeforeher。Shestaredhardathim,repeatingherwords:"YOU
  come。Yes,youdid。"
  "Itwastheanswer,"saidMissMontaubyn,withentiresimplicityasshebitoffherthread,"that’swotitwas。"
  AntonyDartliftedhisheavyhead。
  "Youbelieveit,"hesaid。
  "I’mlivin’onbelievin’it,"shesaidconfidingly。"Iain’tgotnothin’else。An’answerskeepscomin’andcomin’。"
  "Whatanswers?"
  "Bitso’work——an’thingsas’elps。Gladthere,she’sone。"
  "Aw,"saidGlad,"Iain’tnothin’。
  Ilikesto’earyertellaboutit。Sheses,"toDartagain,alittleslowly,asshewatchedhisfacewithcuriouslyquestioningeyes——"sheses’E’Sintheroom——sameas’E’severywhere——inthis’ereroom。Sometimesshetalksoutloudto’Im。"
  "What!"criedDart,startledagain。
  ThestrangeMajesticAwfulIdea——theDeityoftheAges——tobespokenofasamereunfearedReality!
  Andevenasthevaguelyformedthoughtspranginhisbrainhestartedoncemore,suddenlyconfrontedbythemeaninghissenseofshockimplied。WhathadallthesermonsofallthecenturiesbeenpreachingbutthatitwasReality?WhathadalltheinfidelsofeveryagecontendedbutthatitwasUnreal,andthefollyofadream?Hehadneverthoughtofhimselfasaninfidel;perhapsitwouldhaveshockedhimtobecalledone,thoughhewasnotquitesure。
  Butthatalittlesuperannuateddanceratmusic—halls,batteredandwornbyanunlawfullife,shouldsitandsmileinabsolutefaithatsucha——asuperstitionasthis,stirredsomethinglikeaweinhim。
  Forshewassmilinginentireacquiescence。
  "It’swhatthecurickses,"sheenlargedradiantly。"Though’edontbelieveit,poreyoungman;’eon’ythinks’edoes。`It’sfor’ighan’
  low,’’eses,`foryouan’measwellasforthemasisroyalfambleys。
  TheAlmighty’E’sEVERYWHERE!’
  `Yes,’sesI,`I’vefelt’Im’ere——asnearasy’areyerself,sir,I’ave——an’
  I’vespoketo’Im。"’
  "Whatdidthecuratesay?"Dartasked,amazed。
  "Seemedlikeitfrightened’imabit。`Wemustn’tbetoobold,MissMontaubyn,mydear,’’eses,for’e’sakindyoungmanaseverlived,an’
  oftenses`mydear’tothem’e’scomfortin’。Butyerseethelidy’adgavemeaBibleo’meownan’I’dset’erean’readit,an’readitan’learnedversestosaytomeselfwhenIwasinbed——an’I’dgotterfeellikeitwassomeonetalkin’tomean’makin’meunderstand。SoIses,`’Tain’tboldnesswe’rewarnedagainst;it’snotlovin’an’trustin’enough,an’notaskin’an’believin’TRUE。Don’tyerrememberwotitses:"I,evenI,am’ethatcomfortethyer。Whoartthouthatthouartafraidofmanthatshalldiean’thesonofmanthatshallbemadeasgrass,an’forgettethJehovahthyCreator,thatstretchedforththe’eavensan’laidthefoundationsoftheearth?"an’"I’vecoveredtheewiththeshadderofme’and,"itses;an’"Iwillgobeforetheean’maketheroughplacessmooth;"an’"’Ithertoye’aveaskednothin’inmyname;askthereforethatyemayreceive,an’yerjoymaybemadefull。"’An’’elookeddownonthefloorasif’ewasdoin’some’ardthinkin’,poreyoungman,an’’eses,quitesuddenan’shaky,`Lord,I
  believe,’elpthoumyunbelief,’an’’esesitasif’ewasintroublean’didn’tknow’e’dspokeoutloud。"
  "Where——howdidyoucomeuponyourverses?"saidDart。"Howdidyoufindthem?"
  "Ah,"triumphantly,"theywasallanswers——theywasthefirstanswersIever’ad。WhenIfirstcome’omean’itseemedasifIwasgoin’
  tobeswep’awayinthedirto’thestreet——onedaywhenIwasneardrovewildwithcoldan’’unger,I
  setdownontheflooran’IdraggedtheBibletomean’Ises:`Thereain’tnothin’onearthorin’ellas’ll’elpme。I’mgoin’todowotthelidysaid——madornot。’An’I’eldthebook——an’I’eldmybreath,too,’cositwaslikewaitin’fortheendo’
  theworld——an’afterabitI’earsmyselfcalloutina’ollerwhisper,`Speak,Lord,thyservant’eareth。
  Showmea’ope。’An’Iwastremblin’
  alloverwhenIopenedthebook。An’thereitwas!`Iwillgobeforetheean’maketheroughplacessmooth,Iwillbreakinpiecesthedoorsofbrassandwillcutinsunderthebarsofiron。’An’I
  knoweditwasaanswer。"
  "You——knew——it——wasananswer?"
  "Wotelsewasit?"withashiningface。"I’darstforit,an’thereitwas。An’inaboutahourGladcomerunnin’up’ere,an’she’d’adabito’luck——"
  "’Twasn’tnothin’much,"Gladbrokeindeprecatingly,"on’yI’dgotsomethin’toeatan’abito’fire。"
  "An’shemademegoan’’avea’eartymeal,an’setan’warmmeself。
  An’shewasthatcheerflean’fullo’
  pluck,she’elpedmetoforgetaboutthethingsthatwasmakin’meintoamadwoman。SHEwastheanswer——
  sameasthebook’adpromised。Theycomesindifferentwyestheanswersdoes。Blessyer,theydon’tcomeinclapsofthunderan’streakso’lightenin’——
  theyjustcomeseasyan’natural——
  so’ssometimesyerdon’tthinkforaminitortwothatthey’reanswersatall。Butitcomestoyerinabitan’yer’eartstandsstillforjoy。
  An’eversincethenIjustgotomebookan’arst。P’raps,"hersmileanilluminatingthing,"mebein’thelowan’poreinspiritatthebeginnin’,an’settin’’ereallalonebyme—
  selfdayinan’dayout,justthinkin’
  itallover——an’arstin’——an’waitin’
  ——p’rapslightwasgaveme’cosI
  wasinsuchalittleplacean’inthedark。ButIain’tporeinspiritnow。
  Lor’,no,yercan’tbewhenyer’veon’ygottobelieve。`An’’ithertoye’avearstnothin’inmyname;
  arstthereforethatyemayreceivean’yerjoybemadefull。’"
  "AmIsittingherelisteningtoanoldfemalereprobate’sdisquisitiononreligion?"passedthroughAntonyDart’smind。"WhyamIlistening?
  IamdoingitbecausehereisacreaturewhoBELIEVES——knowingnodoctrine,knowingnochurch。
  SheBELIEVES——shethinkssheKNOWS
  herDeityisbyherside。Sheisnotafraid。TohersimplenesstheawfulUnknownistheKnown——andWITH
  her。"
  "Supposeitweretrue,"heutteredaloud,inresponsetoasenseofinwardtremor,"suppose——it——were——TRUE?"Andhewasnotspeakingeithertothewomanorthegirl,andhisforeheadwasdamp。
  "Gawd!"saidGlad,herchinalmostonherknees,hereyesstaringfearsomely。"S’poseitwas——an’ussittin’’erean’notknowin’it——an’
  nooneknowin’it——norgettin’thegoodofit。Simeasif——"ponderinghardinsearchofsimile,"simeasifnoone’adneverknowedabout’lectricity,an’therewasn’tno’lectriclightsnorno’lectricnothin’。Onctnobodyknowed,an’allthesimeitwasthere——jestwaitin’。"
  Herfantasticlaughendedforherwithalittlechoking,vaguelyhystericsound。
  "Blimme,"shesaid。"Ain’titqueer,usnotknowin’——IFIT’STRUE。"
  AntonyDartbentforwardinhischair。Helookedfarintotheeyesoftheex—dancerasifsomeunseenthingwithinthemmightanswerhim。MissMontaubynherselfforthemomenthedidnotsee。
  "What,"hestammeredhoarsely,hisvoicebrokenwithawe,"whatofthehideouswrongs——thewoesandhorrors——andhideouswrongs?"
  "Therewouldn’tbenoneifWE
  wasright——ifweneverthoughtnothin’
  but`Good’scomin’——good’s’ere。’Ifweeveryoneofusthoughtit——everyminitofeveryday。"
  Shedidnotknowshewasspeakingofamillennium——theendoftheworld。Shesatbyheronecandle,threadingherneedleandbelievingshewasspeakingofTo—day。
  Helaughedahollowlaugh。
  "Ifwewereright!"hesaid。"Itwouldtakelong——long——long——tomakeusallso。"
  "Itwouldbeslowp’raps。Well,soitwould——butgoodcomesquickforthemasbeginscallin’it。It’sbeenquickforME,"drawingherthreadthroughtheneedle’seyetriumphantly。"Lor’,yes,melegsisbetter——meluck’sbetter——people’sbetter。Blessyer,yes!"
  "It’strue,"saidGlad;"shegetsonsomehow。Thingscomes。Sheneverwantsnodrink。Menow,"
  sheappliedtoMissMontaubyn,"ifItookitupsameasyou——wot’dcometoagallikeme?"
  "Wotudyerwanttercome?"
  Dartsawthatinhermindwasanabsolutelackofanypremonitionofobstacle。"Wot’dyerarstferinyerownmind?"
  Gladreflectedprofoundly。
  "Polly,"shesaid,"shewantstogo’ometo’ermotheran’tothecountry。
  Iain’tgotnomotheran’wotI
  ’earofthecountryseemslikeI’dgettiredofit。Nothin’butquietan’
  lambsan’birdsan’thingsgrowin。’
  Me,Ilikesthingsgoin’on。Ilikespeoplean’’andorgansan’’buses。I’dstay’ere——sameasItoldYOU,"withajerkofherhandtowardDart。
  "An’dothingsinthecourt——ifI’adabito’money。Idon’twanttolivenogaylifewhenI’mawoman。
  It’stoo’ard。Usporeunsendstoobad。WishtIknowedIcouldgetonsome’ow。"
  "Good’llcome,"saidMissMontaubyn。"Justyousaythesameasmeeverymornin’——`Good’sfillin’
  theworld,an’someofit’scomin’tome。It’sbein’sent——an’I’mgoin’
  tomeetit。It’scomin’——it’scomin’。’"Shebentforwardandtouchedthegirl’sshoulderwithherastonishingeyesalight。"Blessyer,wot’sinmyroom’sinyours;Lor’,yes。"
  Glad’seyesstaredintohers,theybecamemysteriously,almostawesomely,astonishingalso。
  "Isit?"shebreathedinahushedvoice。
  "Yes,Lor’,yes!Whenyergetupinthemornin’youjuststandstillan’ARSTit。`Speak,Lord,’sesyou;
  `speak,Lord——’"
  "Thyservant’eareth,"endedGlad’shushedspeech。"Blimme,butI’mgoin’totryit!"
  Perhapsthebrainofhersawitstillasanincantation,perhapsthesoulofher,calledupstrangelyoutofthedarkandstillnew—bornandblindandvague,sawitvaguelyandhalfblindlyassomethingelse。
  Dartwaswonderingwhichofthesethingsweretrue。
  "We’veneverbeenexpectin’
  nothin’that’sgood,"saidMissMontaubyn。"We’reallusexpectin’
  theother。Whoisn’t?Iwasallusexpectin’rheumatizan’’ungeran’
  coldan’starvin’oldage。Wotwasyoulookin’for?"toDart。
  Helookeddownonthefloorandansweredheavily。
  "Failingbrain——failinglife——
  despair——death!"
  "Noneof’em’scomin’——ifyerdon’tcall’em。Standstillan’listenfortheother。It’stheotherthat’sTRUE。"
  Shewaswithoutdoubtamazing。
  Shechirpedlikeabirdsingingonabough,rejoicingintokenoftheshiningofthesun。
  "It’swotyercanworkon——
  this,"saidGlad。"Thecurick——
  ’e’sagoodsortan’no’’armin’im——but’eses:`Troublean’’ungeristerteachyertersubmit。Accidentsan’coughsastearsyerlungsissentyoutoprepareyerfor’eaven。Ifyerloves’Imassends’em,yer’llgothere。’`’Aveyereverbin?’sesI。
  `’Aveyereversawanyonethat’sbin?’Aveyereversawanyonethat’ssawanyonethat’sbin?’
  `No,’’eses。`Don’t,megirl,don’t!’
  `Garn,’Ises;`tellmesomethin’
  as’lldomesomegoodaforeI’mdead!’Eaven’stoofaroff。’"
  "Thekingdomof’eavenisat’and,"saidMissMontaubyn。"Blessyer,yes,just’ere。"
  AntonyDartglancedroundtheroom。Itwasastrangeplace。ButsomethingWAShere。Magic,wasit?Frenzy——dreams——what?
  Heheardfrombelowasuddenmurmurandcryingoutinthestreet。MissMontaubynhearditandstoppedinhersewing,holdingherneedleandthreadextended。
  Gladhearditandsprangtoherfeet。
  "Somethin’s’appened,"shecriedout。"Someone’s’urt。"
  Shewasoutoftheroominabreath’sspace。Shestoodoutsidelisteningafewsecondsanddartedbacktotheopendoor,speakingthroughit。Theycouldhearbelowcommotion,exclamations,thewailofachild。
  "Somethin’s’appenedtoBet!"
  shecriedoutagain。"Ican’earthechild。"
  Shewasgoneandflyingdownthestaircase;AntonyDartandMissMontaubynrosetogether。Thetumultwasincreasing;peoplewererunningaboutinthecourt,anditwasplainacrowdwasformingbythemagicwhichcallsupcrowdsasfromnowhereaboutthedoor。Thechild’sscreamsroseshrillabovethenoise。Itwasnosmallthingwhichhadoccurred。
  "Imustgo,"saidMissMontaubyn,limpingawayfromhertable。"P’rapsIcan’elp。P’rapsyoucan’elp,too,"ashefollowedher。
  TheyweremetbyGladatthethreshold。Shehadshotbacktothem,panting。
  "Shewasblinddrunk,"shesaid,"an’shewentouttogetmore。Shetriedtocrossthestreetan’fellunderacar。She’llbedeadinfiveminits。
  I’mgoin’forthebiby。"
  DartsawMissMontaubynstepbackintoherroom。Heturnedinvoluntarilytolookather。
  Shestoodstillasecond——sostillthatitseemedasifshewasnotdrawingmortalbreath。Herastonishing,expectanteyesclosedthemselves,andyetinclosingspokeexpectancystill。
  "Speak,Lord,"shesaidsoftly,butasifshespoketoSomethingwhosenearnesstoherwassuchthatherhandmighthavetouchedit。"Speak,Lord,thyservant’eareth。"
  AntonyDartalmostfelthishairrise。Hequakedasshecamenear,herpoorclothesbrushingagainsthim。Hedrewbacktoletherpassfirst,andfollowedherleading。
  Thecourtwasfilledwithmen,women,andchildren,whosurgedaboutthedoorway,talking,crying,andprotestingagainsteachother’scrowding。Dartcaughtaglimpseofapolicemanfightinghiswaythroughwithadoctor。Adishevelledwomanwithachildatherdirty,barebreasthadgotinandwastalkingloudly。
  "Justoutsidethecourtitwas,"
  sheproclaimed,"an’Isawit。Ifshe’dbin’erselfitcouldn’t’ave’appened。`Notimefor’osspitles,’
  sesI。She’snottwentybreathstodror;let’erdiein’erownbed,porething!"Andbothsheandherbabybreakingintowailsatoneandthesametime,otherwomen,somehysteric,somemaudlinwithgin,joinedtheminaterrifiedoutburst。
  "Getout,youwomen,"commandedthedoctor,whohadforcedhiswayacrossthethreshold。"Sendthemaway,officer,"tothepoliceman。
  Therewereotherstoturnoutoftheroomitself,whichwascrowdedwithmorbidorterrifiedcreatures,allmakingforconfusion。Gladhadseizedthechildandwasforcingherwayoutintosuchairastherewasoutside。
  Thebed——astrangeandloathlything——stoodbytheempty,rustyfireplace。DrunkenBetlayonit,abundleofclothingoverwhichthedoctorbentforbutafewminutesbeforeheturnedaway。
  AntonyDart,standingnearthedoor,heardMissMontaubynspeaktohiminawhisper。
  "MayIgoto’er?"andthedoctornodded。
  Shelimpedlightlyforwardandhersmallfacewaswhite,butexpectantstill。Whatcouldsheexpectnow——OLord,what?
  Anextraordinarythinghappened。
  Anabnormalsilencefell。Theownersofsuchfacesasonstretchedneckscaughtsightofherseemedinaflashtocommunicatewithothersinthecrowd。
  "JinnyMontaubyn!"someonewhispered。And"JinnyMontaubyn"
  waspassedalong,leavinganawedstirringinitswake。Thosewhomthepressureoutsidehadcrushedagainstthewallnearthewindowinapassionatehurry,breathedonandrubbedthepanesthattheymightlaytheirfacestothem。Onetoreouttheragsstuffedinabrokenplaceandlistenedbreathlessly。
  JinnyMontaubynwaskneelingdownandlayinghersmalloldhandonthemuddiedforehead。ShehelditthereasecondorsoandspokeinavoicewhoselowclearnessbroughtbackatoncetoDartthevoiceinwhichshehadspokentotheSomethingupstairs。
  "Bet,"shesaid,"Bet。"Andthenmoresoftstillandyetmoreclear,"Bet,mydear。"
  Itseemedincredible,butitwasafact。Slowlythelidsofthewoman’seyesliftedandthepupilsfixedthemselvesonJinnyMontaubyn,wholeanedstillcloserandspokeagain。
  "’Tain’ttrue,"shesaid。"Notthis。’Tain’tTRUE。ThereISNO
  DEATH,"slowandsoft,butpassionatelydistinct。"THERE——IS——NO——DEATH。"
  Themusclesofthewoman’sfacetwisteditintoaruefulsmile。ThethreewordsshedraggedoutweresofaintthatperhapsnonebutDart’sstrainedearsheardthem。
  "Wot——price——ME?"
  Thesoulofherwaslooseningfastandstrainingaway,butJinnyMontaubynfollowedit。
  "THERE——IS——NO——DEATH,"andherlowvoicehadthetoneofaslendersilvertrumpet。"Inaminityer’llknow——inaminit。Lord,"liftingherexpectantface,"showherthewye。"
  Mysteriouslythecloudswereclearingfromthesoddenface——mysteri—
  ously。MissMontaubynwatchedthemastheyweresweptaway!A
  minute——twominutes——andtheyweregone。Thensherosenoiselesslyandstoodlookingdown,speakingquitesimplyasiftoherself。
  "Ah,"shebreathed,"sheDOES
  knownow——fersurean’certain。"
  ThenAntonyDart,turningslightly,realizedthatamanwhohadenteredthehouseandbeenstandingnearhim,breathingwithlightquickness,sincethemomentMissMontaubynhadknelt,wasplainlythepersonGladhadcalledthe"curick,"andthathehadbowedhisheadandcoveredhiseyeswithahandwhichtrembled。
  IV
  Hewasayoungmanwithaneagersoul,andhisworkinAppleBlossomCourtandplaceslikeithadtornhimmanyways。Religiousconventionsestablishedthroughcenturiesofcustomhadnotpreparedhimforlifeamongthesubmerged。
  Hehadstruggledandbeenappalled,hehadwrestledinprayerandfelthimselfunanswered,andinrepentanceofthefeelinghadscourgedhimselfwiththorns。MissMontaubyn,returningfromthehospital,hadfilledhimatfirstwithhorrorandprotest。
  "Butwhoknows——whoknows?"
  hesaidtoDart,astheystoodandtalkedtogetherafterward,"Faithasalittlechild。Thatisliterallyhers。
  AndIwasshockedbyit——andtriedtodestroyit,untilIsuddenlysawwhatIwasdoing。Iwas——inmycloddishegotism——tryingtoshowherthatshewasirreverentBECAUSE
  shecouldbelievewhatinmysoulI
  donot,thoughIdarenotadmitsomucheventomyself。Shetookfromsomestrangepassingvisitortohertorturedbedsidewhatwastoherarevelation。Shehearditfirstasachildhearsastoryofmagic。Whenshecameoutofthehospital,shetolditasifitwasone。I——I——"hebithislipsandmoistenedthem,"arguedwithherandreproachedher。ChristtheMerciful,forgiveme!Shesatinhersqualidlittleroomwithhermagic——sometimesinthedark——sometimeswithoutfire,andsheclungtoit,andloveditandaskedittohelpher,asachildasksitsfatherforbread。Whenshewasanswered——andGodforgivemeagainfordoubtingthatthesimplegoodthatcametoherWASananswer——whenanysmallhelpcametoher,shewasaradiantthing,andwithoutashadowofdoubtinhereyestoldmeofitasproof——proofthatshehadbeenheard。Whenthingswentwrongforadayandthefirewasoutagainandtheroomdark,shesaid,`I
  ’aven’tkeptnearenough——I’aven’ttrustedTRUE。Itwillbegavemesoon,’andwhenonceatsuchatimeIsaidtoher,`Wemustlearntosay,Thywillbedone,’shesmiledupatmelikeahappybabyandanswered:
  `ThywillbedoneonearthASITISIN
  ’EAVEN。Lor’,there’snocoldthere,norno’ungernornocryin’norpain。