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  GladandPollyoccupiedthemselveswiththeirownfood。
  AntonyDartgazedatthefire。
  Herehesatwarminghimselfinaloftwithabeggar,athief,andahelplessthingofthestreet。Hehadcomeouttobuyapistol——itsweightstillhunginhisovercoatpocket——
  andhehadreachedthisplaceofwhoseexistencehehadanhouragonotdreamed。Eachstepwhichhadledhimhadseemedasimple,inevitablething,forwhichhehadapparentlybeenresponsible,butwhichheknew——yes,somehowheKNEW——hehadofhisownvolitionneitherplannednormeant。Yetherehesat——apartofthelivesofthebeggar,thethief,andthepoorthingofthestreet。Whatdiditmean?
  "Tellme,"hesaidtothethief,"howyoucamehere。"
  Bythistimetheyoungfellowhadfedhimselfandlookedlesslikeawolf。Itwastobeseennowthathehadblue—grayeyeswhichweredreamyandyoung。
  "Ihavealwaysbeeninventingthings,"hesaidalittlehuskily。"I
  diditwhenIwasachild。Ialwaysseemedtoseetheremightbeawayofdoingathingbetter——gettingmorepower。WhenotherboyswereplayinggamesIwassittingincornerstryingtobuildmodelsoutofwireandstring,andoldboxesandtincans。IoftenthoughtIsawthewaytothings,butIwasalwaystoopoortogetwhatwasneededtoworkthemout。TwiceIheardofmenmakinggreatnamesandfortunesbecausetheyhadbeenabletofinishwhatIcouldhavefinishedifI
  hadhadafewpounds。Itusedtodrivememadandbreakmyheart。"
  Hishandsclenchedthemselvesandhishuskinessgrewthicker。"Therewasaman,"catchinghisbreath,"wholeapedtothetopoftheladderandsetthewholeworldtalkingandwriting——andIhaddonethethingFIRST——IswearIhad!Itwasallclearinmybrain,andIwashalfmadwithjoyoverit,butIcouldnotaffordtoworkitout。Hecould,sototheendoftimeitwillbeHIS。"Hestruckhisfistuponhisknee。
  "Aw!"ThedeeplittledrawlwasagroanfromGlad。
  "Igotaplaceinanofficeatlast。
  Iworkedhard,andtheybegantotrustme。I——hadanewidea。Itwasabigone。Ineededmoneytoworkitout。I——Irememberedwhathadhappenedbefore。Ifeltlikeapoorfellowrunningaraceforhislife。IKNEWIcouldpaybacktentimes——ahundredtimes——whatItook。"
  "Youtookmoney?"saidDart。
  Thethief’sheaddropped。
  "No。IwascaughtwhenIwastakingit。Iwasn’tsharpenough。
  Someonecameinandsawme,andtherewasacrazyrow。Iwassenttoprison。Therewasnomoretryingafterthat。It’snearlytwoyearssince,andI’vebeenhangingaboutthestreetsandfallinglowerandlower。I’verunmilespantingaftercabswithluggageinthemandnothadstrengthtocarryintheboxeswhentheystopped。I’vestarvedandsleptoutofdoors。ButthethingIwantedtoworkoutisinmymindallthetime——likesomemachinetearinground。Itwantstobefinished。Itneverwillbe。
  That’sall。"
  Gladwasleaningforwardstaringathim,herroughenedhandswiththesmearedcracksonthemclaspedroundherknees。
  "Things’AStobefinished,"shesaid。"Theyfinishtheirselves。"
  "Howdoyouknow?"Dartturnedonher。
  "Dunno’OWIknow——butIdo。
  Whenthingsbegintheyfinish。It’slikeawheelrollin’downan’ill。"
  HersharpeyesfixedthemselvesonDart’s。"Allofus’llfinishsomethin’——
  ’coswe’vebegun。Youwill——Pollywill——’ewill——Iwill。"
  Shestoppedwithasuddensheepishchuckleanddroppedherforeheadonherknees,giggling。"DunnowotI’mtalkingabout,"shesaid,"butit’strue。"
  Dartbegantounderstandthatitwas。Andhealsosawthatthisraggedthingwhoknewnothingwhatever,lookedoutontheworldwiththeeyesofaseer,thoughshewasignorantofthemeaningofherownknowledge。Itwasaweirdthing。HeturnedtothegirlPolly。
  "Tellmehowyoucamehere,"
  hesaid。
  Hespokeinalowvoiceandgently。Hedidnotwanttofrightenher,buthewantedtoknowhowSHE
  hadbegun。Whensheliftedherchildisheyestohis,herchinbegantoshake。Forsomereasonshedidnotquestionhisrighttoaskwhathewould。Sheansweredhimmeekly,asherfingersfumbledwiththestuffofherdress。
  "Ilivedinthecountrywithmymother,"shesaid。"Wewasveryhappytogether。Inthespringtherewasprimrosesand——andlambs。I
  ——can’tabidetolookatthesheepintheparkthesedays。Theyremindmeso。Therewasagirlinthevillagegotaplaceintownandcamebackandtoldusallaboutit。
  Itmademesilly。Iwantedtocomehere,too。I——Icame——"
  Sheputherarmoverherfaceandbegantosob。
  "Shecan’ttellyou,"saidGlad。
  "Therewasaswellinthe’ousemadelovetoher。Sheusedtocarryupcoalsto’isparloran’’etalkedto’er。’E’adawyewith’im——"
  Pollybrokeintoasmotheredwail。
  "Oh,Ididlovehimso——Idid!"
  shecried。"I’dhavelethimwalkoverme。I’dhavelethimkillme。"
  "’Enearlydidit,"saidGlad。
  "’Ewentawaysuddenan’she’snever’eardwordof’imsince。"
  FromunderPolly’sface—hidingarmcamebrokenwords。
  "Icouldn’ttellmymother。I
  didnotknowhow。Iwastoofrightenedandashamed。Nowit’stoolate。Ishallneverseemymotheragain,anditseemsasifallthelambsandprimrosesintheworldwasdead。
  Oh,they’redead——they’redead——
  andIwishIwas,too!"
  Glad’seyeswinkedrapidlyandshegaveahoarselittlecoughtoclearherthroat。Herarmsstillclaspingherknees,shehitchedherselfclosertothegirlandgaveheranudgewithherelbow。
  "Buckup,Polly,"shesaid,"weain’tnoneofusfinishedyet。Lookatusnow——sittin’byourownfirewithbreadandpuddin’insideus——
  an’thinkwotwewasthismornin’。
  Whoknowswotwe’ll’avethistimeto—morrer。"
  ThenshestoppedandlookedwithawidegrinatAntonyDart。
  "OwdidIcome’ere?"shesaid。
  "Yes,"heanswered,"howdidyoucomehere?"
  "Idunno,"shesaid;"Iwas’erefirstthingIremember。Ilivedwithaoldwomaninanother’ouseinthecourt。Onemornin’whenIwokeupshewasdead。SometimesI’vebeggedan’soldmatches。SometimesI’vetookcareofwomen’schildrenor’elped’emwhenthey’adtolieup。
  I’veseenalot——butIliketoseealot。’OpeI’llseealotmoreaforeI’mdone。I’musedtobein’’ungryan’cold,an’allthat,but——butI
  allersliketoseewhat’scomin’to—
  morrer。There’sallerssomethin’
  elseto—morrer。That’sallaboutME,"andshechuckledagain。
  Dartpickedupsomefreshsticksandthrewthemonthefire。Therewassomefinecracklingandanewflameleapedup。
  "Ifyoucoulddowhatyouliked,"
  hesaid,"whatwouldyouliketodo?"
  Herchucklebecameanoutrightlaugh。
  "IfI’adtenpounds?"sheasked,evidentlypreparedtoadjustherselfinimaginationtoanyformofun—
  looked—forgoodluck。
  "Ifyouhadmore?"
  Histonemadethethieflifthisheadtolookathim。
  "IfI’adawandliketheoneJemtoldmewasinthepantermine?"
  "Yes,"heanswered。
  Shesatandstaredatthefireafewmoments,andthenbegantospeakinalowluxuriatingvoice。
  "I’dgetabetterroom,"shesaid,revelling。"There’soneinthenext’ouse。I’d’aveafewstickso’
  furnisherinit——abedan’achairortwo。I’dgetsomewarmpetticutsan’ashawlan’a’at——withaostrichfeatherinit。Pollyan’
  me’dlivetogether。We’d’avefirean’grubeveryday。I’dgetdrunkenBet’sbibyputinan’ome。
  I’d’elpthewomenwhenthey’adtolieup。I’d——I’d’elp’IMabit,"
  withajerkofherelbowtowardthethief。"If’ewaskeptfedp’r’aps’ecouldworkoutthatthingin’is’ead。
  I’dgoroundthecourtan’’elpthemwith’usbandsthatknocks’emabout。
  I’d——I’dputastoptotheknockin’
  about,"aqueerfixedlookshowingitselfinhereyes。"IfI’admoneyIcoulddoit。’Owmuch,"withsuddenprudence,"couldabody’ave——withoneo’themwands?"
  "Morethanenoughtodoallyouhavespokenof,"answeredDart。
  "It’sashimeabodycouldn’t’aveit。AppleBlossomCourt’dbeadifferentthing。It’dbethesimeasMissMontaubynsaysit’sgoin’tobe。"Shelaughedagain,thistimeasifrememberingsomethingfantastic,butnotdespicable。
  "WhoisMissMontaubyn?"
  "She’sa’oldwomanaslivesnextfloorbelow。Whenshewasyoungshewasprettyan’usedtodanceinthe’alls。DrunkenBetsaysshewasoneo’thewust。Whenshegotolditmade’ermadan’shegotwusser。
  Shewasreadytoteargalseyesout,an’whenshe’dgettookformakin’
  arowshe’dfightlikeatigercat。
  Aboutayearagoshetumbleddownstairswhenshe’d’adtoomuchan’
  shebrokeboth’erlegs。Youremember,Polly?"
  Pollyhidherfaceinherhands。
  "Oh,whentheytookherawaytothehospital!"sheshuddered。"Oh,whentheyliftedheruptocarryher!"
  "IthoughtPolly’d’aveafitwhenshe’eard’erscreamin’an’swearin’。
  My!itwaslangwich!Butitwasthe’orspitledidit。"
  "Didwhat?"
  "Dunno,"withanuncertain,evenslightlyawedlaugh。"Dunnowotitdid——neitherdoesnobodyelse,butsomethin’’appened。Itwasalongofalidyascomeinonedayan’talkedto’erwhenshewaslyin’
  there。Myeye,"chuckling,"itwasqueertalk!ButIlikedit。P’rapsitwaslies,butitwascheerfleliesthat’elpsyer。WhatIsesis——ifTHINGSain’tcheerfle,PEOPLE’Sgottobe——tofightitout。Thewomeninthe’ouselarftfittokilltheirselveswhenshefustcome’omelimpin’an’
  talkedto’emaboutwhatthelidytold’er。Butarterabittheylikedto’ear’er——justalongo’thecheerfleness。Saiditwaslikeapantermine。DrunkenBetsaysifshecouldget’old’fitan’believeitsimeasJinnyMontaubyndoesit’dbeascheerin’asdrinkan’lastlonger。"
  "Isitakindofreligion?"Dartasked,havingavaguememoryofrumorsoffantasticnewtheoriesandhalf—bornbeliefswhichhadseemedtohimweirdvisionsfloatingthroughfaggedbrainsweariedbyolddoubtsandargumentsandfailures。Theworldwastired——thewholeearthwassad——centurieshadwroughtonlytotheendofthistwentiethcentury’sdespair。Wasthestrugglewakingevenhere——inthisbackwaterofthehugecity’shumantide?
  hewonderedwithdullinterest。
  "Isitakindofreligion?"hesaid。
  "It’scheerfler。"Gladthrustouthersharpchinuncertainlyagain。
  "There’sno’ellfireinit。An’
  thereain’tnoblimelaidonGodamighty。"(ThewordassheuttereditseemedtohavenoconnectionwhateverwithherusualcolloquialinvocationoftheDeity。)"WhenadrayrunoverlittleBillyan’crushed’iminterarag,an’’ismotherwasscreamin’an’draggin’’er’airdown,thecurick’eses,`It’sGawd’swill,’
  ’eses——an’’eain’tnobadsortneither,an’’isficewaswhitean’wetwithsweat——`Gawddoneit,’’eses。
  An’me,I’dnussedthechildan’I
  clawedme’airsimeasifIwas’ismotheran’Iscreamedout,`Thendamn’im!’An’thecurick’edroppedsittin’downonthecurb—
  stonean’’id’isficein’is’ands。"
  Darthidhisownfaceafterthemannerofthewretchedcurate。
  "Nowonder,"hegroaned。Hisbloodturnedcold。
  "But,"saidGlad,"MissMontaubyn’slidyshesaysGodamightyneverdoneitnorneverintendedit,an’ifwekep’sayin’an’believin’’e’sclosetousan’notmillyunso’milesaway,we’dbetookcareofwhilstwewasalivean’not’avetowaittillwewasdead。"
  Shegotuponherfeetandthrewupherarmswithasuddenjerkandinvoluntarygesture。
  "I’malive!I’malive!"shecriedout,"I’vegotterbetookcareofNOW!That’swhyIlikewotshetellsaboutit。Sodoesthewomen。
  Weain’tnomorereasonterbesureofwotthecuricksaysthanterbesureo’this。DunnoasI’vegotterchooseeitherway,butifI’ad,I’dchoosethecheerflest。"
  Darthadsatstaringather——sohadPolly——sohadthethief。Dartrubbedhisforehead。
  "Idonotunderstand,"hesaid。
  "’Tain’tunderstanding!It’sbelievin’。Blessyer,SHEdoesn’tunderstand。Isay,let’sgoan’talkto’erabit。Shedon’tmindnothin’,an’
  she’llletusin。WecanleavePollyan’’im’ere。Theycanmakesomemoreteaan’drinkit。"
  Itendedintheirgoingoutoftheroomtogetheragainandstumblingoncemoredownthestairway’scrookedness。AtthebottomofthefirstshortflighttheystoppedinthedarknessandGladknockedatadoorwithasummonsmanifestlyexpectantofcheerfulwelcome。Sheusedtheformulashehadusedbefore。
  "’Son’yme,MissMontaubyn,"
  shecriedout。"’Son’yGlad。"
  Thedooropenedinwidewelcome,andconfrontingthemasshehelditshandlestoodasmalloldwomanwithanastonishingface。Itwasastonishingbecausewhileitwaswitheredandwrinkledwithmarksofpastyearswhichhadoncestampedtheirrecklessunsavorinessuponitseveryline,somestrangeredeemingthinghadhappenedtoitanditsexpressionwasthatofacreaturetowhomtheopeningofadoorcouldonlymeantheentrance——thetumblinginasitwere——ofhopesrealized。
  Itssurfacewassweptcleanofeventhevaguestanticipationofanythingnottobedesired。Smilingasitdidthroughtheblackdoorwayintotheunrelievedshadowofthepassage,itstruckAntonyDartatoncethatitactuallyimpliedthis——
  andthatinthisplace——andindeedinanyplace——nothingcouldhavebeenmoreastonishing。Whatcould,indeed?
  "Well,well,"shesaid,"comein,Glad,blessyer。"
  "I’vebroughtagentto’earyertalkabit,"Gladexplainedinformally。
  Thesmalloldwomanraisedhertwinklingoldfacetolookathim。
  "Ah!"shesaid,asifsummingupwhatwasbeforeher。"’Ethinksit’sworsethanitis,doesn’t’e,now?
  Comein,sir,do。"
  ThistimeitstruckDartthatherlookseemedactuallytoanticipatetheevolvingofsomewonderfulanddesirablethingfromhimself。Asifevenhisgloomcarriedwithittreasureasyetundisplayed。Assheknewnothingofthetensovereigns,hewonderedwhat,inGod’sname,shesaw。
  Thepovertyofthelittlesquareroomhadanoddcheerinit。MuchscrubbinghadremovedfromittheobjectionsmanifestinGlad’sroomabove。Therewasasmallredfireinthegrate,astripofold,butgaycarpetbeforeit,twochairsandatablewerecoveredwithaharlequinpatchworkmadeofbrightoddsandendsofallsizesandshapes。Thefoginallitsmurkyvolumecouldnotquiteobscurethebrightnessoftheoftenrubbedwindowanditsharlequincurtaindrawnacrossuponastring。
  "Blessyer,"saidMissMontaubyn,"sitdown。"
  Dartsatandthankedher。GladdroppeduponthefloorandgirdledherkneescomfortablywhileMissMontaubyntookthesecondchair,whichwasclosetothetable,andsnuffedthecandlewhichstoodnearabasketofcoloredscrapssuchas,withoutdoubt,hadmadetheharlequincurtain。
  "Yerwon’tmindmegoin’onwithmebito’work?"shechirped。
  "Tell’imwotitis,"Gladsuggested。
  "Theycomefromadressmakerasisinasmallway,"designatingthescrapsbyagesture。"Icleanupfor’eran’
  sheletsme’ave’em。Imake’emupintoanythinkIcan——pin—cushionsan’
  bagsan’curtingsan’balls。Nobody’dthinkwottheyruntosometimes。
  Nowan’thenIsellsomeof’em。
  WotIcan’tsellIgiveaway。"
  "DrunkenBet’sbibyplayswith’erballallday,"saidGlad。
  "Ah!"saidMissMontaubyn,drawingoutalongneedlefulofthread,"Bet,SHEthinksitworsethanitis。"
  "Coulditbeworse?"askedDart。
  "Couldanythingbeworsethaneverythingis?"
  "Lots,"suggestedGlad;"might’avebrokeyourback,might’aveafever,mightbeinjailforknifin’
  someone。’Ewantsto’earyoutalk,MissMontaubyn;tell’imallaboutyerself。"
  "Me!"herexpectanteyesonhim。
  "’Ewouldn’twantto’earit。I
  shouldn’twantto’earitmyself。
  Bein’onthe’allswhenyeraprettygirlain’tan’elpfullife;an’bein’
  tookupan’droppeddowntillyerdroppedinthegutteran’don’tknow’owtogetout——it’swotyermustn’tletyermindgobackto。"
  "That’swotthelidysaid,"calledoutGlad。"Tell’imaboutthelidy。
  Shedoesn’tevenknowwhoshewas。"
  TheremarkwastossedtoDart。
  "Nevereven’eard’ername,"withunabatedcheersaidMissMontaubyn。
  "Shecomean’shewentan’metoolowtodoanythingbutliean’lookat’erandlisten。An’`Whichofustwoismad?’Isestomyself。ButI
  laythinkin’andthinkin’——an’itwassocheerfleIcouldn’tgetitoutofme’ead——nornever’avesince。"
  "Whatdidshesay?"
  "Icouldn’trememberthewords——itwasthewaytheytookawaythingsabody’safraidof。Itwasaboutthingsnever’avin’reallybeenlikewotwethoughttheywas。
  Godamightynow,thereain’tabitof’armin’im。"
  "What?"hesaidwithastart。
  "’Eneverdonetheaccidentsandthetrouble。Itwasusaswentoutofthelightintothedark。Ifwe’dkep’inthelightallthetime,an’
  thoughtaboutit,an’talkedaboutit,we’dnever’adnothin’else。’Tain’tpunishmentneither。’Tain’tnothin’
  butthedark——an’thedarkain’tnothin’butthelightbein’away。
  `Keepinthelight,’sheses,`neverthinkofnothin’else,an’thenyou’llbeginan’seethings。Everybody’sbeenafraid。Thereain’tnoneed。
  YoubelieveTHAT。’"
  "Believe?"saidDartheavily。
  Shenodded。
  "`Yes,’sesIto’er,`that’swherethetroublecomesin——believin’。’
  Andsheanswersascoolascouldbe:`Yes,itis,’sheses,`we’veallbeenthinkin’we’vebeenbelievin’,an’noneofus’as。Ifwe’adwhat’dtherebetobeafraidof?Ifwebelievedakingwasgivin’usourlivin’an’takin’careofuswho’dbeafraidofnot’avin’enoughtoeat?’"
  "Who?"groanedDart。Hesathanginghisheadandstaringatthefloor。Thiswasanotherphaseofthedream。
  "`Whereis’E?’Ises。`’Imasbreaksoldwomen’slegsan’crushesbabiesunderwheels——soasthey’llberesigned?’An’allofasuddenshecallsoutquiteloud:`Nowhere,’
  sheses。`An’neverwas。But’Imasstretchedforththe’eavensan’laidthefoundationsoftheearth,’ImasistheLifean’Loveoftheworld,’E’s’ERE!Stretchoutyer’and,’sheses,’an’callout,"Speak,Lord,thyservant’eareth,"an’ye’ll’earan’SEE。
  An’neveryoustopsayin’it——letyer’eartbeatitan’yerbreathbreatheit——an’yer’llfindyergoin’aboutlaughin’softtoyerselfan’lovin’
  everythin’asifitwasyerownchildatbreast。An’no’armcancometoyer。Tryitwhenyergo’ome。’"
  "Didyou?"askedDart。
  Gladansweredforherwithatremulous——yesitwasaTREMULOUS——
  giggle,aweirdlymovedlittlesound。
  "Whenshewakesinthemornin’
  shesesto’erself,`Goodthingsisgoin’tocometo—day——cheerflethings。’Whenthere’saknockatthedoorsheses,`Somethin’friendly’scomin’in。’An’whenDrunkenBet’smakin’arowan’ragin’an’tearin’
  an’threatenin’to’ave’ereyesoutof’erfice,sheses,`Lor,Bet,yerdon’tmeanawordofit——yerafriendtoeverywomaninthe’ouse。’Whenshedon’tknowwhichwaytoturn,shestandsstillan’ses,`Speak,Lord,thyservant’eareth,’an’thenshedoeswotevernextcomesinto’ermind——
  an’shesaysit’sallustherightanswer。