AndIsaid,"Hassheevertriedtomove?"
Andhesaid,"Sometimesalimbhasquivered。Butsheiswise;sheknowsshecannotrisewiththeburdenonher。"
AndIsaid,"Whydoesnothewhostandsbyherleaveherandgoon?"
Andhesaid,"Hecannot。Look——"
AndIsawabroadbandpassingalongthegroundfromonetotheother,anditboundthemtogether。
Hesaid,"Whilesheliestherehemuststandandlookacrossthedesert。"
AndIsaid,"Doesheknowwhyhecannotmove?"
Andhesaid,"No。"
AndIheardasoundofsomethingcracking,andIlooked,andIsawthebandthatboundtheburdenontoherbackbrokenasunder;andtheburdenrolledontotheground。
AndIsaid,"Whatisthis?"
Andhesaid,"TheAge—of—muscular—forceisdead。TheAge—of—nervous—forcehaskilledhimwiththeknifeheholdsinhishand;andsilentlyandinvisiblyhehascreptuptothewoman,andwiththatknifeofMechanicalInventionhehascutthebandthatboundtheburdentoherback。TheInevitableNecessityitbroken。Shemightrisenow。"
AndIsawthatshestilllaymotionlessonthesand,withhereyesopenandherneckstretchedout。Andsheseemedtolookforsomethingonthefar—
offborderofthedesertthatnevercame。AndIwonderedifshewereawakeorasleep。AndasIlookedherbodyquivered,andalightcameintohereyes,likewhenasunbeambreaksintoadarkroom。
Isaid,"Whatisit?"
Hewhispered"Hush!thethoughthascometoher,’MightInotrise?’"
AndIlooked。Andsheraisedherheadfromthesand,andIsawthedentwhereherneckhadlainsolong。Andshelookedattheearth,andshelookedatthesky,andshelookedathimwhostoodbyher:buthelookedoutacrossthedesert。
AndIsawherbodyquiver;andshepressedherfrontkneestotheearth,andveinsstoodout;andIcried;"Sheisgoingtorise!"
Butonlyhersidesheaved,andshelaystillwhereshewas。
Butherheadsheheldup;shedidnotlayitdownagain。Andhebesidemesaid,"Sheisveryweak。See,herlegshavebeencrushedunderhersolong。"
AndIsawthecreaturestruggle:andthedropsstoodoutonher。
AndIsaid,"Surelyhewhostandsbesideherwillhelpher?"
Andhebesidemeanswered,"Hecannothelpher:shemusthelpherself。
Letherstruggletillsheisstrong。"
AndIcried,"Atleasthewillnothinderher!See,hemovesfartherfromher,andtightensthecordbetweenthem,andhedragsherdown。"
Andheanswered,"Hedoesnotunderstand。Whenshemovesshedrawsthebandthatbindsthem,andhurtshim,andhemovesfartherfromher。Thedaywillcomewhenhewillunderstand,andwillknowwhatsheisdoing。
Letheroncestaggerontoherknees。Inthatdayhewillstandclosetoher,andlookintohereyeswithsympathy。"
Andshestretchedherneck,andthedropsfellfromher。Andthecreatureroseaninchfromtheearthandsankback。
AndIcried,"Oh,sheistooweak!shecannotwalk!Thelongyearshavetakenallherstrengthfromher。Canshenevermove?"
Andheansweredme,"Seethelightinhereyes!"
Andslowlythecreaturestaggeredontoitsknees。
AndIawoke:andalltotheeastandtotheweststretchedthebarrenearth,withthedrybushesonit。Theantsranupanddownintheredsand,andtheheatbeatfiercely。Ilookedupthroughthethinbranchesofthetreeattheblueskyoverhead。Istretchedmyself,andImusedoverthedreamIhadhad。AndIfellasleepagain,withmyheadonmysaddle。
AndinthefierceheatIhadanotherdream。
IsawadesertandIsawawomancomingoutofit。Andshecametothebankofadarkriver;andthebankwassteepandhigh。(ThebanksofanAfricanriveraresometimesahundredfeethigh,andconsistofdeepshiftingsands,throughwhichinthecourseofagestheriverhaswornitsgiganticbed。)Andonitanoldmanmether,whohadalongwhitebeard;
andastickthatcurledwasinhishand,andonitwaswrittenReason。Andheaskedherwhatshewanted;andshesaid"Iamwoman;andIamseekingforthelandofFreedom。"
Andhesaid,"Itisbeforeyou。"
Andshesaid,"Iseenothingbeforemebutadarkflowingriver,andabanksteepandhigh,andcuttingshereandtherewithheavysandinthem。"
Andhesaid,"Andbeyondthat?"
Shesaid,"Iseenothing,butsometimes,whenIshademyeyeswithmyhand,IthinkIseeonthefurtherbanktreesandhills,andthesunshiningonthem!"
Hesaid,"ThatistheLandofFreedom。"
Shesaid,"HowamItogetthere?"
Hesaid,"Thereisoneway,andoneonly。DownthebanksofLabour,throughthewaterofSuffering。Thereisnoother。"
Shesaid,"Istherenobridge?"
Heanswered。"None。"
Shesaid,"Isthewaterdeep?"
Hesaid,"Deep。"
Shesaid,"Isthefloorworn?"
Hesaid,"Itis。Yourfootmayslipatanytime,andyoumaybelost。"
Shesaid,"Haveanycrossedalready?"
Hesaid,"Somehavetried!"
Shesaid,"Isthereatracktoshowwherethebestfordingis?"
Hesaid,"Ithastobemade。"
Sheshadedhereyeswithherhand;andshesaid,"Iwillgo。"
Andhesaid,"Youmusttakeofftheclothesyouworeinthedesert:theyaredraggeddownbythemwhogointothewatersoclothed。"
AndshethrewfromhergladlythemantleofAncient—received—opinionsshewore,foritwaswornfullofholes。Andshetookthegirdlefromherwaistthatshehadtreasuredsolong,andthemothsflewoutofitinacloud。Andhesaid,"Taketheshoesofdependenceoffyourfeet。"
Andshestoodtherenaked,butforonewhitegarmentthatclungclosetoher。
Andhesaid,"Thatyoumaykeep。SotheywearclothesintheLandofFreedom。Inthewateritbuoys;italwaysswims。"
AndIsawonitsbreastwaswrittenTruth;anditwaswhite;thesunhadnotoftenshoneonit;theotherclotheshadcovereditup。Andhesaid,"Takethisstick;holditfast。Inthatdaywhenitslipsfromyourhandyouarelost。Putitdownbeforeyou;feelyourway:whereitcannotfindabottomdonotsetyourfoot。"
Andshesaid,"Iamready;letmego。"
Andhesaid,"No——butstay;whatisthat——inyourbreast?"
Shewassilent。
Hesaid,"Openit,andletmesee。"
Andsheopenedit。Andagainstherbreastwasatinything,whodrankfromit,andtheyellowcurlsabovehisforeheadpressedagainstit;andhiskneesweredrawnuptoher,andheheldherbreastfastwithhishands。
AndReasonsaid,"Whoishe,andwhatishedoinghere?"
Andshesaid,"Seehislittlewings——"
AndReasonsaid,"Puthimdown。"
Andshesaid,"Heisasleep,andheisdrinking!IwillcarryhimtotheLandofFreedom。Hehasbeenachildsolong,solong,Ihavecarriedhim。
IntheLandofFreedomhewillbeaman。Wewillwalktogetherthere,andhisgreatwhitewingswillovershadowme。Hehaslispedonewordonlytomeinthedesert——’Passion!’Ihavedreamedhemightlearntosay’Friendship’inthatland。"
AndReasonsaid,"Puthimdown!"
Andshesaid,"Iwillcarryhimso——withonearm,andwiththeotherIwillfightthewater。"
Hesaid,"Layhimdownontheground。Whenyouareinthewateryouwillforgettofight,youwillthinkonlyofhim。Layhimdown。"Hesaid,"Hewillnotdie。Whenhefindsyouhavelefthimalonehewillopenhiswingsandfly。HewillbeintheLandofFreedombeforeyou。ThosewhoreachtheLandofFreedom,thefirsthandtheyseestretchingdownthebanktohelpthemshallbeLove’s。Hewillbeamanthen,notachild。Inyourbreasthecannotthrive;puthimdownthathemaygrow。"
Andshetookherbosomfromhismouth,andhebither,sothatthebloodrandownontotheground。Andshelaidhimdownontheearth;andshecoveredherwound。Andshebentandstrokedhiswings。AndIsawthehaironherforeheadturnedwhiteassnow,andshehadchangedfromyouthtoage。
Andshestoodfaroffonthebankoftheriver。Andshesaid,"ForwhatdoIgotothisfarlandwhichnoonehaseverreached?Oh,Iamalone!Iamutterlyalone!"
AndReason,thatoldman,saidtoher,"Silence!Whatdoyouhear?"
Andshelistenedintently,andshesaid,"Ihearasoundoffeet,athousandtimestenthousandandthousandsofthousands,andtheybeatthisway!"
Hesaid,"Theyarethefeetofthosethatshallfollowyou。Leadon!makeatracktothewater’sedge!Whereyoustandnow,thegroundwillbebeatenflatbytenthousandtimestenthousandfeet。"Andhesaid,"Haveyouseenthelocustshowtheycrossastream?Firstonecomesdowntothewater—edge,anditissweptaway,andthenanothercomesandthenanother,andthenanother,andatlastwiththeirbodiespiledupabridgeisbuiltandtherestpassover。"
Shesaid,"And,ofthosethatcomefirst,somearesweptaway,andareheardofnomore;theirbodiesdonotevenbuildthebridge?"
"Andaresweptaway,andareheardofnomore——andwhatofthat?"hesaid。
"Andwhatofthat——"shesaid。
"Theymakeatracktothewater’sedge。"
"Theymakeatracktothewater’sedge——。"Andshesaid,"Overthatbridgewhichshallbebuiltwithourbodies,whowillpass?"
Hesaid,"Theentirehumanrace。"
Andthewomangraspedherstaff。
AndIsawherturndownthatdarkpathtotheriver。
AndIawoke;andallaboutmewastheyellowafternoonlight:thesinkingsunlitupthefingersofthemilkbushes;andmyhorsestoodbymequietlyfeeding。AndIturnedonmyside,andIwatchedtheantsrunbythousandsintheredsand。IthoughtIwouldgoonmywaynow——theafternoonwascooler。Thenadrowsinesscreptovermeagain,andIlaidbackmyheadandfellasleep。
AndIdreamedadream。
IdreamedIsawaland。Andonthehillswalkedbravewomenandbravemen,handinhand。Andtheylookedintoeachother’seyes,andtheywerenotafraid。
AndIsawthewomenalsoholdeachother’shands。
AndIsaidtohimbesideme,"Whatplaceisthis?"
Andhesaid,"Thisisheaven。"
AndIsaid,"Whereisit?"
Andheanswered,"Onearth。"
AndIsaid,"Whenshallthesethingsbe?"
Andheanswered,"INTHEFUTURE。"
AndIawoke,andallaboutmewasthesunsetlight;andonthelowhillsthesunlay,andadeliciouscoolnesshadcreptovereverything;andtheantsweregoingslowlyhome。AndIwalkedtowardsmyhorse,whostoodquietlyfeeding。Thenthesunpasseddownbehindthehills;butIknewthatthenextdayhewouldariseagain。
VI。ADREAMOFWILDBEES。
Amothersataloneatanopenwindow。Throughitcamethevoicesofthechildrenastheyplayedundertheacacia—trees,andthebreathofthehotafternoonair。Inandoutoftheroomflewthebees,thewildbees,withtheirlegsyellowwithpollen,goingtoandfromtheacacia—trees,droningallthewhile。Shesatonalowchairbeforethetableanddarned。Shetookherworkfromthegreatbasketthatstoodbeforeheronthetable:
somelayonherkneeandhalfcoveredthebookthatrestedthere。Shewatchedtheneedlegoinandout;andthedrearyhumofthebeesandthenoiseofthechildren’svoicesbecameaconfusedmurmurinherears,assheworkedslowlyandmoreslowly。Thenthebees,thelong—leggedwasp—likefellowswhomakenohoney,flewcloserandclosertoherhead,droning。
Thenshegrewmoreandmoredrowsy,andshelaidherhand,withthestockingoverit,ontheedgeofthetable,andleanedherheaduponit。
Andthevoicesofthechildrenoutsidegrewmoreandmoredreamy,camenowfar,nownear;thenshedidnothearthem,butshefeltunderherheartwheretheninthchildlay。Bentforwardandsleepingthere,withthebeesflyingaboutherhead,shehadaweirdbrain—picture;shethoughtthebeeslengthenedandlengthenedthemselvesoutandbecamehumancreaturesandmovedroundandroundher。Thenonecametohersoftly,saying,"Letmelaymyhanduponthysidewherethechildsleeps。IfIshalltouchhimheshallbeasI。"
Sheasked,"Whoareyou?"
Andhesaid,"IamHealth。WhomItouchwillhavealwaystheredblooddancinginhisveins;hewillnotknowwearinessnorpain;lifewillbealonglaughtohim。"
"No,"saidanother,"letmetouch;forIamWealth。IfItouchhimmaterialcareshallnotfeedonhim。Heshallliveonthebloodandsinewsofhisfellow—men,ifhewill;andwhathiseyelustsfor,hishandwillhave。Heshallnotknow’Iwant。’"Andthechildlaystilllikelead。
Andanothersaid,"Letmetouchhim:IamFame。ThemanItouch,Ileadtoahighhillwhereallmenmayseehim。Whenhediesheisnotforgotten,hisnameringsdownthecenturies,eachechoesitontohisfellows。Think——nottobeforgottenthroughtheages!"
Andthemotherlaybreathingsteadily,butinthebrain—picturetheypressedclosertoher。
"Letmetouchthechild,"saidone,"forIamLove。IfItouchhimheshallnotwalkthroughlifealone。Inthegreatestdark,whenheputsouthishandheshallfindanotherhandbyit。Whentheworldisagainsthim,anothershallsay,’YouandI。’"Andthechildtrembled。
Butanotherpressedcloseandsaid,"Letmetouch;forIamTalent。Icandoallthings——thathavebeendonebefore。Itouchthesoldier,thestatesman,thethinker,andthepoliticianwhosucceed;andthewriterwhoisneverbeforehistime,andneverbehindit。IfItouchthechildheshallnotweepforfailure。"
Aboutthemother’sheadthebeeswereflying,touchingherwiththeirlongtaperinglimbs;and,inherbrain—picture,outoftheshadowoftheroomcameonewithsallowface,deep—lined,thecheeksdrawnintohollows,andamouthsmilingquiveringly。Hestretchedouthishand。Andthemotherdrewback,andcried,"Whoareyou?"Heanswerednothing;andshelookedupbetweenhiseyelids。Andshesaid,"Whatcanyougivethechild——health?"
Andhesaid,"ThemanItouch,therewakesupinhisbloodaburningfever,thatshalllickhisbloodasfire。ThefeverthatIwillgivehimshallbecuredwhenhislifeiscured。"
"Yougivewealth?"
Heshookhishead。"ThemanwhomItouch,whenhebendstopickupgold,heseessuddenlyalightoverhisheadinthesky;whilehelooksuptoseeit,thegoldslipsfrombetweenhisfingers,orsometimesanotherpassingtakesitfromthem。"
"Fame?"
Heanswered,"likelynot。ForthemanItouchthereisapathtracedoutinthesandbyafingerwhichnomansees。Thathemustfollow。Sometimesitleadsalmosttothetop,andthenturnsdownsuddenlyintothevalley。
Hemustfollowit,thoughnoneelseseesthetracing。"
"Love?"
Hesaid,"Heshallhungerforit——butheshallnotfindit。Whenhestretchesouthisarmstoit,andwouldlayhisheartagainstathingheloves,then,faroffalongthehorizonheshallseealightplay。Hemustgotowardsit。Thethingheloveswillnotjourneywithhim;hemusttravelalone。Whenhepressessomewhattohisburningheart,crying,’Mine,mine,myown!’heshallhearavoice——’Renounce!renounce!thisisnotthine!’"
"Heshallsucceed?"
Hesaid,"Heshallfail。Whenherunswithotherstheyshallreachthegoalbeforehim。Forstrangevoicesshallcalltohimandstrangelightsshallbeckonhim,andhemustwaitandlisten。Andthisshallbethestrangest:faroffacrosstheburningsandswhere,toothermen,thereisonlythedesert’swaste,heshallseeabluesea!Onthatseathesunshinesalways,andthewaterisblueasburningamethyst,andthefoamiswhiteontheshore。Agreatlandrisesfromit,andheshallseeuponthemountain—topsburninggold。"
Themothersaid,"Heshallreachit?"
Andhesmiledcuriously。
Shesaid,"Itisreal?"
Andhesaid,"WhatISreal?"
Andshelookedupbetweenhishalf—closedeyelids,andsaid,"Touch。"
Andheleanedforwardandlaidhishanduponthesleeper,andwhisperedtoit,smiling;andthisonlysheheard——"Thisshallbethyreward——thattheidealshallberealtothee。"
Andthechildtrembled;butthemothersleptonheavilyandherbrain—
picturevanished。Butdeepwithinhertheantenatalthingthatlayherehadadream。Inthoseeyesthathadneverseentheday,inthathalf—
shapedbrainwasasensationoflight!Light——thatitneverhadseen。
Light——thatperhapsitnevershouldsee。Light——thatexistedsomewhere!
Andalreadyithaditsreward:theIdealwasrealtoit。
London。
VII。INARUINEDCHAPEL。
"Icannotforgive——Ilove。"
Therearefourbarewalls;thereisaChristuponthewalls,inred,carryinghiscross;thereisaBlessedBambinowiththefacerubbedout;
thereisMadonnainblueandred;thereareRomansoldiersandaChristwithtiedhands。Alltheroofisgone;overheadistheblue,blueItaliansky;therainhasbeatenholesinthewalls,andtheplasterispeelingfromit。Thechapelstandsherealoneuponthepromontory,andbydayandbynighttheseabreaksatitsfeet。Somesaythatitwassetherebythemonksfromtheislanddownbelow,thattheymightbringtheirsickhereintimesofdeadlyplague。Somesaythatitwassetherethatthepassingmonksandfriars,astheyhurriedbyupontheroadway,mightstopandsaytheirprayershere。Nownoonestopstoprayhere,andthesickcomenomoretobehealed。
BehinditrunstheoldRomanroad。IfyouclimbitandcomeandsittherealoneonahotsunnydayyoumayalmosthearatlasttheclinkoftheRomansoldiersuponthepavement,andthesoundofthatoldertime,asyousitthereinthesun,whenHannibalandhismenbrokethroughthebrushwood,andnoroadwas。
Nowitisveryquiet。Sometimesapeasantgirlcomesridingbybetweenherpanniers,andyouhearthemule’sfeetbeatuponthebricksofthepavement;sometimesanoldwomangoespastwithabundleofweedsuponherhead,orabrigand—lookingmanhurriesbywithabundleofsticksinhishand;butfortheresttheChapelliesherealoneuponthepromontory,betweenthetwobaysandhearstheseabreakatitsfeet。
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