Anditwasnightinhisheartalso。
Thenfromthemarshestohisrightandleftcoldmistsaroseandclosedabouthim。Afine,imperceptiblerainfellinthedark,andgreatdropsgatheredonhishairandclothes。Hisheartbeatslowly,andanumbnesscreptthroughallhislimbs。Then,lookingup,twomerrywisplightscamedancing。Heliftedhisheadtolookatthem。Nearer,nearertheycame。
Sowarm,sobright,theydancedlikestarsoffire。Theystoodbeforehimatlast。Fromthecentreoftheradiatingflameinonelookedoutawoman’sface,laughing,dimpled,withstreamingyellowhair。Inthecentreoftheotherweremerrylaughingripples,likethebubblesonaglassofwine。Theydancedbeforehim。
"Whoareyou,"askedthehunter,"whoalonecometomeinmysolitudeanddarkness?"
"WearethetwinsSensuality,"theycried。"Ourfather’snameisHuman—
Nature,andourmother’snameisExcess。Weareasoldasthehillsandrivers,asoldasthefirstman;butweneverdie,"theylaughed。
"Oh,letmewrapmyarmsaboutyou!"criedthefirst;"theyaresoftandwarm。Yourheartisfrozennow,butIwillmakeitbeat。Oh,cometome!"
"Iwillpourmyhotlifeintoyou,"saidthesecond;"yourbrainisnumb,andyourlimbsaredeadnow;buttheyshalllivewithafiercefreelife。
Oh,letmepouritin!"
"Oh,followus,"theycried,"andlivewithus。Noblerheartsthanyourshavesathereinthisdarknesstowait,andtheyhavecometousandwetothem;andtheyhaveneverleftus,never。Allelseisadelusion,butwearereal,wearereal,wearereal。Truthisashadow;thevalleysofsuperstitionareafarce:theearthisofashes,thetreesallrotten;butwe——feelus——welive!Youcannotdoubtus。Feelushowwarmweare!Oh,cometous!Comewithus!"
Nearerandnearerroundhisheadtheyhovered,andthecolddropsmeltedonhisforehead。Thebrightlightshotintohiseyes,dazzlinghim,andthefrozenbloodbegantorun。Andhesaid:
"Yes,whyshouldIdiehereinthisawfuldarkness?Theyarewarm,theymeltmyfrozenblood!"andhestretchedouthishandstotakethem。
Theninamomenttherearosebeforehimtheimageofthethinghehadloved,andhishanddroppedtohisside。
"Oh,cometous!"theycried。
Butheburiedhisface。
"Youdazzlemyeyes,"hecried,"youmakemyheartwarm;butyoucannotgivemewhatIdesire。Iwillwaithere——waittillIdie。Go!"
Hecoveredhisfacewithhishandsandwouldnotlisten;andwhenhelookedupagaintheyweretwotwinklingstars,thatvanishedinthedistance。
Andthelong,longnightrolledon。
Allwholeavethevalleyofsuperstitionpassthroughthatdarkland;butsomegothroughitinafewdays,somelingerthereformonths,someforyears,andsomediethere。
Atlastforthehunterafaintlightplayedalongthehorizon,andherosetofollowit;andhereachedthatlightatlast,andsteppedintothebroadsunshine。ThenbeforehimrosethealmightymountainsofDry—factsandRealities。Theclearsunshineplayedonthem,andthetopswerelostintheclouds。Atthefootmanypathsranup。Anexultantcryburstfromthehunter。Hechosethestraightestandbegantoclimb;andtherocksandridgesresoundedwithhissong。Theyhadexaggerated;afterall,itwasnotsohigh,norwastheroadsosteep!Afewdays,afewweeks,afewmonthsatmost,andthenthetop!Notonefeatheronlywouldhepickup;
hewouldgatherallthatothermenhadfound——weavethenet——captureTruth—
—holdherfast——touchherwithhishands——claspher!
Helaughedinthemerrysunshine,andsangloud。Victorywasverynear。
Nevertheless,afterawhilethepathgrewsteeper。Heneededallhisbreathforclimbing,andthesingingdiedaway。Ontherightandleftrosehugerocks,devoidoflichenormoss,andinthelava—likeearthchasmsyawned。Hereandtherehesawasheenofwhitebones。Nowtoothepathbegantogrowlessandlessmarked;thenitbecameameretrace,withafootmarkhereandthere;thenitceasedaltogether。Hesangnomore,butstruckforthapathforhimself,untilitreachedamightywallofrock,smoothandwithoutbreak,stretchingasfarastheeyecouldsee。"Iwillrearastairagainstit;and,oncethiswallclimbed,Ishallbealmostthere,"hesaidbravely;andworked。Withhisshuttleofimaginationhedugoutstones;buthalfofthemwouldnotfit,andhalfamonth’sworkwouldrolldownbecausethosebelowwereillchosen。Butthehunterworkedon,sayingalwaystohimself,"Oncethiswallclimbed,Ishallbealmostthere。Thisgreatworkended!"
Atlasthecameoutuponthetop,andhelookedabouthim。Farbelowrolledthewhitemistoverthevalleysofsuperstition,andabovehimtoweredthemountains。Theyhadseemedlowbefore;theywereofanimmeasurableheightnow,fromcrowntofoundationsurroundedbywallsofrock,thatrosetierabovetierinmightycircles。Uponthemplayedtheeternalsunshine。Heutteredawildcry。Hebowedhimselfontotheearth,andwhenherosehisfacewaswhite。Inabsolutesilencehewalkedon。Hewasverysilentnow。Inthosehighregionstherarefiedairishardtobreathebythoseborninthevalleys;everybreathhedrewhurthim,andthebloodoozedoutfromthetipsofhisfingers。Beforethenextwallofrockhebegantowork。Theheightofthisseemedinfinite,andhesaidnothing。Thesoundofhistoolrangnightanddayupontheironrocksintowhichhecutsteps。Yearspassedoverhim,yetheworkedon;butthewalltoweredupalwaysabovehimtoheaven。Sometimesheprayedthatalittlemossorlichenmightspringuponthosebarewallstobeacompaniontohim;butitnevercame。
Andtheyearsrolledon;hecountedthembythestepshehadcut——afewforayear——onlyafew。Hesangnomore;hesaidnomore,"Iwilldothisorthat"——heonlyworked。Andatnight,whenthetwilightsettleddown,therelookedoutathimfromtheholesandcrevicesintherocksstrangewildfaces。
"Stopyourwork,youlonelyman,andspeaktous,"theycried。
"Mysalvationisinwork,ifIshouldstopbutforonemomentyouwouldcreepdownuponme,"hereplied。Andtheyputouttheirlongnecksfurther。
"Lookdownintothecreviceatyourfeet,"theysaid。"Seewhatliethere—
—whitebones!Asbraveandstrongamanasyouclimbedtotheserocks。"
Andhelookedup。Hesawtherewasnouseinstriving;hewouldneverholdTruth,neverseeher,neverfindher。Sohelaydownhere,forhewasverytired。Hewenttosleepforever。Heputhimselftosleep。Sleepisverytranquil。Youarenotlonelywhenyouareasleep,neitherdoyourhandsache,noryourheart。Andthehunterlaughedbetweenhisteeth。
"HaveItornfrommyheartallthatwasdearest;haveIwanderedaloneinthelandofnight;haveIresistedtemptation;haveIdweltwherethevoiceofmykindisneverheard,andlabouredalone,toliedownandbefoodforyou,yeharpies?"
Helaughedfiercely;andtheEchoesofDespairslunkaway,forthelaughofabrave,strongheartisasadeathblowtothem。
Neverthelesstheycreptoutagainandlookedathim。
"Doyouknowthatyourhairiswhite?"theysaid,"thatyourhandsbegintotremblelikeachild’s?Doyouseethatthepointofyourshuttleisgone?——itiscrackedalready。Ifyoushouldeverclimbthisstair,"theysaid,"itwillbeyourlast。Youwillneverclimbanother。"
Andheanswered,"Iknowit!"andworkedon。
Theold,thinhandscutthestonesillandjaggedly,forthefingerswerestiffandbent。Thebeautyandthestrengthofthemanwasgone。
Atlast,anold,wizened,shrunkenfacelookedoutabovetherocks。Itsawtheeternalmountainsrisewithwallstothewhiteclouds;butitsworkwasdone。
Theoldhunterfoldedhistiredhandsandlaydownbytheprecipicewherehehadworkedawayhislife。Itwasthesleepingtimeatlast。Belowhimoverthevalleysrolledthethickwhitemist。Onceitbroke;andthroughthegapthedyingeyeslookeddownonthetreesandfieldsoftheirchildhood。Fromafarseemedbornetohimthecryofhisownwildbirds,andheheardthenoiseofpeoplesingingastheydanced。Andhethoughtheheardamongthemthevoicesofhisoldcomrades;andhesawfaroffthesunlightshineonhisearlyhome。Andgreattearsgatheredinthehunter’seyes。
"Ah!theywhodietheredonotdiealone,"hecried。
Thenthemistsrolledtogetheragain;andheturnedhiseyesaway。
"Ihavesought,"hesaid,"forlongyearsIhavelaboured;butIhavenotfoundher。Ihavenotrested,Ihavenotrepined,andIhavenotseenher;
nowmystrengthisgone。WhereIliedownwornoutothermenwillstand,youngandfresh。BythestepsthatIhavecuttheywillclimb;bythestairsthatIhavebuilttheywillmount。Theywillneverknowthenameofthemanwhomadethem。Attheclumsyworktheywilllaugh;whenthestonesrolltheywillcurseme。Buttheywillmount,andonmywork;theywillclimb,andbymystair!Theywillfindher,andthroughme!Andnomanlivethtohimselfandnomandiethtohimself。"
Thetearsrolledfrombeneaththeshrivelledeyelids。IfTruthhadappearedabovehiminthecloudsnowhecouldnothaveseenher,themistofdeathwasinhiseyes。
"Mysoulhearstheirgladstepcoming,"hesaid;"andtheyshallmount!
theyshallmount!"Heraisedhisshrivelledhandtohiseyes。
Thenslowlyfromthewhiteskyabove,throughthestillair,camesomethingfalling,falling,falling。Softlyitfluttereddown,anddroppedontothebreastofthedyingman。Hefeltitwithhishands。Itwasafeather。Hediedholdingit。
III。THEGARDENSOFPLEASURE。
Shewalkeduponthebeds,andthesweetrichscentarose;andshegatheredherhandsfullofflowers。ThenDuty,withhiswhiteclearfeatures,cameandlookedather。Thensheceasedfromgathering,butshewalkedawayamongtheflowers,smiling,andwithherhandsfull。
ThenDuty,withhisstillwhiteface,cameagain,andlookedather;butshe,sheturnedherheadawayfromhim。Atlastshesawhisface,andshedroppedthefairestoftheflowersshehadheld,andwalkedsilentlyaway。
Thenagainhecametoher。Andshemoaned,andbentherheadlow,andturnedtothegate。Butasshewentoutshelookedbackatthesunlightonthefacesoftheflowers,andweptinanguish。Thenshewentout,anditshutbehindherforever;butstillinherhandsheheldofthebudsshehadgathered,andthescentwasverysweetinthelonelydesert。
Buthefollowedher。Oncemorehestoodbeforeherwithhisstill,white,death—likeface。Andsheknewwhathehadcomefor:sheunbentthefingers,andlettheflowersdropout,theflowersshehadlovedso,andwalkedonwithoutthem,withdry,achingeyes。Thenforthelasttimehecame。Andsheshowedhimheremptyhands,thehandsthatheldnothingnow。
Butstillhelooked。Thenatlengthsheopenedherbosomandtookoutofitonesmallflowershehadhiddenthere,andlaiditonthesand。Shehadnothingmoretogivenow,andshewanderedaway,andthegreysandwhirledabouther。
IV。INAFAR—OFFWORLD。
Thereisaworldinoneofthefar—offstars,andthingsdonothappenhereastheyhappenthere。
Inthatworldwereamanandwoman;theyhadonework,andtheywalkedtogethersidebysideonmanydays,andwerefriends——andthatisathingthathappensnowandtheninthisworldalso。
Buttherewassomethinginthatstar—worldthatthereisnothere。Therewasathickwood:wherethetreesgrewclosest,andthestemswereinterlocked,andthesummersunnevershone,therestoodashrine。Inthedayallwasquiet,butatnight,whenthestarsshoneorthemoonglintedonthetree—tops,andallwasquietbelow,ifonecreptherequitealoneandkneltonthestepsofthestonealtar,anduncoveringone’sbreast,sowoundeditthatthebloodfelldownonthealtarsteps,thenwhateverhewhoknelttherewishedforwasgrantedhim。Andallthishappens,asI
said,becauseitisafar—offworld,andthingsoftenhappenthereastheydonothappenhere。
Now,themanandwomanwalkedtogether;andthewomanwishedwelltotheman。Onenightwhenthemoonwasshiningsothattheleavesofallthetreesglinted,andthewavesoftheseaweresilvery,thewomanwalkedalonetotheforest。Itwasdarkthere;themoonlightfellonlyinlittleflecksonthedeadleavesunderherfeet,andthebrancheswereknottedtightoverhead。Fartherinitgotdarker,notevenafleckofmoonlightshone。Thenshecametotheshrine;shekneltdownbeforeitandprayed;
therecamenoanswer。Thensheuncoveredherbreast;withasharptwo—
edgedstonethatlaythereshewoundedit。Thedropsdrippedslowlydownontothestone,andavoicecried,"Whatdoyouseek?"
Sheanswered,"Thereisaman;Iholdhimnearerthananything。Iwouldgivehimthebestofallblessings。"
Thevoicesaid,"Whatisit?"
Thegirlsaid,"Iknownot,butthatwhichismostgoodforhimIwishhimtohave。"
Thevoicesaid,"Yourprayerisanswered;heshallhaveit。"
Thenshestoodup。Shecoveredherbreastandheldthegarmenttightuponitwithherhand,andranoutoftheforest,andthedeadleavesflutteredunderherfeet。Outinthemoonlightthesoftairwasblowing,andthesandglitteredonthebeach。Sheranalongthesmoothshore,thensuddenlyshestoodstill。Outacrossthewatertherewassomethingmoving。Sheshadedhereyesandlooked。Itwasaboat;itwasslidingswiftlyoverthemoonlitwaterouttosea。Onestooduprightinit;thefacethemoonlightdidnotshow,butthefiguresheknew。Itwaspassingswiftly;itseemedasifnoonepropelledit;themoonlight’sshimmerdidnotletherseeclearly,andtheboatwasfarfromshore,butitseemedalmostasiftherewasanotherfiguresittinginthestern。Fasterandfasteritglidedoverthewateraway,away。Sheranalongtheshore;shecamenonearerit。Thegarmentshehadheldclosedflutteredopen;shestretchedoutherarms,andthemoonlightshoneonherlongloosehair。
Thenavoicebesideherwhispered,"Whatisit?"
Shecried,"WithmybloodIboughtthebestofallgiftsforhim。Ihavecometobringithim!Heisgoingfromme!"
Thevoicewhisperedsoftly,"Yourprayerwasanswered。Ithasbeengivenhim。"
Shecried,"Whatisit?"
Thevoiceanswered,"Itisthathemightleaveyou。"
Thegirlstoodstill。
Faroutatseatheboatwaslosttosightbeyondthemoonlightsheen。
Thevoicespokesoftly,"Artthoucontented?"
Shesaid,"Iamcontented。"
Atherfeetthewavesbrokeinlongripplessoftlyontheshore。
V。THREEDREAMSINADESERT。
UnderaMimosa—Tree。
AsItravelledacrossanAfricanplainthesunshonedownhotly。ThenI
drewmyhorseupunderamimosa—tree,andItookthesaddlefromhimandlefthimtofeedamongtheparchedbushes。Andalltorightandtoleftstretchedthebrownearth。AndIsatdownunderthetree,becausetheheatbeatfiercely,andallalongthehorizontheairthrobbed。Andafterawhileaheavydrowsinesscameoverme,andIlaidmyheaddownagainstmysaddle,andIfellasleepthere。And,inmysleep,Ihadacuriousdream。
IthoughtIstoodontheborderofagreatdesert,andthesandblewabouteverywhere。AndIthoughtIsawtwogreatfigureslikebeastsofburdenofthedesert,andonelayuponthesandwithitsneckstretchedout,andonestoodbyit。AndIlookedcuriouslyattheonethatlayupontheground,forithadagreatburdenonitsback,andthesandwasthickaboutit,sothatitseemedtohavepiledoveritforcenturies。
AndIlookedverycuriouslyatit。Andtherestoodonebesidemewatching。
AndIsaidtohim,"Whatisthishugecreaturewholieshereonthesand?"
Andhesaid,"Thisiswoman;shethatbearsmeninherbody。"
AndIsaid,"Whydoesshelieheremotionlesswiththesandpiledroundher?"
Andheanswered,"Listen,Iwilltellyou!Agesandageslongshehaslainhere,andthewindhasblownoverher。Theoldest,oldest,oldestmanlivinghasneverseenhermove:theoldest,oldestbookrecordsthatshelayherethen,assheliesherenow,withthesandabouther。Butlisten!
Olderthantheoldestbook,olderthantheoldestrecordedmemoryofman,ontheRocksofLanguage,onthehard—bakedclayofAncientCustoms,nowcrumblingtodecay,arefoundthemarksofherfootsteps!Sidebysidewithhiswhostandsbesideheryoumaytracethem;andyouknowthatshewhonowliesthereoncewanderedfreeovertherockswithhim。"
AndIsaid,"Whydoesshelietherenow?"
Andhesaid,"Itakeit,agesagotheAge—of—dominion—of—muscular—forcefoundher,andwhenshestoopedlowtogivesucktoheryoung,andherbackwasbroad,heputhisburdenofsubjectionontoit,andtieditonwiththebroadbandofInevitableNecessity。Thenshelookedattheearthandthesky,andknewtherewasnohopeforher;andshelaydownonthesandwiththeburdenshecouldnotloosen。Eversinceshehaslainhere。Andtheageshavecome,andtheageshavegone,butthebandofInevitableNecessityhasnotbeencut。"
AndIlookedandsawinhereyestheterriblepatienceofthecenturies;
thegroundwaswetwithhertears,andhernostrilsblewupthesand。
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