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第2章

  Anditwasnightinhisheartalso。
  Thenfromthemarshestohisrightandleftcoldmistsaroseandclosedabouthim。Afine,imperceptiblerainfellinthedark,andgreatdropsgatheredonhishairandclothes。Hisheartbeatslowly,andanumbnesscreptthroughallhislimbs。Then,lookingup,twomerrywisplightscamedancing。Heliftedhisheadtolookatthem。Nearer,nearertheycame。
  Sowarm,sobright,theydancedlikestarsoffire。Theystoodbeforehimatlast。Fromthecentreoftheradiatingflameinonelookedoutawoman’sface,laughing,dimpled,withstreamingyellowhair。Inthecentreoftheotherweremerrylaughingripples,likethebubblesonaglassofwine。Theydancedbeforehim。
  "Whoareyou,"askedthehunter,"whoalonecometomeinmysolitudeanddarkness?"
  "WearethetwinsSensuality,"theycried。"Ourfather’snameisHuman—
  Nature,andourmother’snameisExcess。Weareasoldasthehillsandrivers,asoldasthefirstman;butweneverdie,"theylaughed。
  "Oh,letmewrapmyarmsaboutyou!"criedthefirst;"theyaresoftandwarm。Yourheartisfrozennow,butIwillmakeitbeat。Oh,cometome!"
  "Iwillpourmyhotlifeintoyou,"saidthesecond;"yourbrainisnumb,andyourlimbsaredeadnow;buttheyshalllivewithafiercefreelife。
  Oh,letmepouritin!"
  "Oh,followus,"theycried,"andlivewithus。Noblerheartsthanyourshavesathereinthisdarknesstowait,andtheyhavecometousandwetothem;andtheyhaveneverleftus,never。Allelseisadelusion,butwearereal,wearereal,wearereal。Truthisashadow;thevalleysofsuperstitionareafarce:theearthisofashes,thetreesallrotten;butwe——feelus——welive!Youcannotdoubtus。Feelushowwarmweare!Oh,cometous!Comewithus!"
  Nearerandnearerroundhisheadtheyhovered,andthecolddropsmeltedonhisforehead。Thebrightlightshotintohiseyes,dazzlinghim,andthefrozenbloodbegantorun。Andhesaid:
  "Yes,whyshouldIdiehereinthisawfuldarkness?Theyarewarm,theymeltmyfrozenblood!"andhestretchedouthishandstotakethem。
  Theninamomenttherearosebeforehimtheimageofthethinghehadloved,andhishanddroppedtohisside。
  "Oh,cometous!"theycried。
  Butheburiedhisface。
  "Youdazzlemyeyes,"hecried,"youmakemyheartwarm;butyoucannotgivemewhatIdesire。Iwillwaithere——waittillIdie。Go!"
  Hecoveredhisfacewithhishandsandwouldnotlisten;andwhenhelookedupagaintheyweretwotwinklingstars,thatvanishedinthedistance。
  Andthelong,longnightrolledon。
  Allwholeavethevalleyofsuperstitionpassthroughthatdarkland;butsomegothroughitinafewdays,somelingerthereformonths,someforyears,andsomediethere。
  Atlastforthehunterafaintlightplayedalongthehorizon,andherosetofollowit;andhereachedthatlightatlast,andsteppedintothebroadsunshine。ThenbeforehimrosethealmightymountainsofDry—factsandRealities。Theclearsunshineplayedonthem,andthetopswerelostintheclouds。Atthefootmanypathsranup。Anexultantcryburstfromthehunter。Hechosethestraightestandbegantoclimb;andtherocksandridgesresoundedwithhissong。Theyhadexaggerated;afterall,itwasnotsohigh,norwastheroadsosteep!Afewdays,afewweeks,afewmonthsatmost,andthenthetop!Notonefeatheronlywouldhepickup;
  hewouldgatherallthatothermenhadfound——weavethenet——captureTruth—
  —holdherfast——touchherwithhishands——claspher!
  Helaughedinthemerrysunshine,andsangloud。Victorywasverynear。
  Nevertheless,afterawhilethepathgrewsteeper。Heneededallhisbreathforclimbing,andthesingingdiedaway。Ontherightandleftrosehugerocks,devoidoflichenormoss,andinthelava—likeearthchasmsyawned。Hereandtherehesawasheenofwhitebones。Nowtoothepathbegantogrowlessandlessmarked;thenitbecameameretrace,withafootmarkhereandthere;thenitceasedaltogether。Hesangnomore,butstruckforthapathforhimself,untilitreachedamightywallofrock,smoothandwithoutbreak,stretchingasfarastheeyecouldsee。"Iwillrearastairagainstit;and,oncethiswallclimbed,Ishallbealmostthere,"hesaidbravely;andworked。Withhisshuttleofimaginationhedugoutstones;buthalfofthemwouldnotfit,andhalfamonth’sworkwouldrolldownbecausethosebelowwereillchosen。Butthehunterworkedon,sayingalwaystohimself,"Oncethiswallclimbed,Ishallbealmostthere。Thisgreatworkended!"
  Atlasthecameoutuponthetop,andhelookedabouthim。Farbelowrolledthewhitemistoverthevalleysofsuperstition,andabovehimtoweredthemountains。Theyhadseemedlowbefore;theywereofanimmeasurableheightnow,fromcrowntofoundationsurroundedbywallsofrock,thatrosetierabovetierinmightycircles。Uponthemplayedtheeternalsunshine。Heutteredawildcry。Hebowedhimselfontotheearth,andwhenherosehisfacewaswhite。Inabsolutesilencehewalkedon。Hewasverysilentnow。Inthosehighregionstherarefiedairishardtobreathebythoseborninthevalleys;everybreathhedrewhurthim,andthebloodoozedoutfromthetipsofhisfingers。Beforethenextwallofrockhebegantowork。Theheightofthisseemedinfinite,andhesaidnothing。Thesoundofhistoolrangnightanddayupontheironrocksintowhichhecutsteps。Yearspassedoverhim,yetheworkedon;butthewalltoweredupalwaysabovehimtoheaven。Sometimesheprayedthatalittlemossorlichenmightspringuponthosebarewallstobeacompaniontohim;butitnevercame。
  Andtheyearsrolledon;hecountedthembythestepshehadcut——afewforayear——onlyafew。Hesangnomore;hesaidnomore,"Iwilldothisorthat"——heonlyworked。Andatnight,whenthetwilightsettleddown,therelookedoutathimfromtheholesandcrevicesintherocksstrangewildfaces。
  "Stopyourwork,youlonelyman,andspeaktous,"theycried。
  "Mysalvationisinwork,ifIshouldstopbutforonemomentyouwouldcreepdownuponme,"hereplied。Andtheyputouttheirlongnecksfurther。
  "Lookdownintothecreviceatyourfeet,"theysaid。"Seewhatliethere—
  —whitebones!Asbraveandstrongamanasyouclimbedtotheserocks。"
  Andhelookedup。Hesawtherewasnouseinstriving;hewouldneverholdTruth,neverseeher,neverfindher。Sohelaydownhere,forhewasverytired。Hewenttosleepforever。Heputhimselftosleep。Sleepisverytranquil。Youarenotlonelywhenyouareasleep,neitherdoyourhandsache,noryourheart。Andthehunterlaughedbetweenhisteeth。
  "HaveItornfrommyheartallthatwasdearest;haveIwanderedaloneinthelandofnight;haveIresistedtemptation;haveIdweltwherethevoiceofmykindisneverheard,andlabouredalone,toliedownandbefoodforyou,yeharpies?"
  Helaughedfiercely;andtheEchoesofDespairslunkaway,forthelaughofabrave,strongheartisasadeathblowtothem。
  Neverthelesstheycreptoutagainandlookedathim。
  "Doyouknowthatyourhairiswhite?"theysaid,"thatyourhandsbegintotremblelikeachild’s?Doyouseethatthepointofyourshuttleisgone?——itiscrackedalready。Ifyoushouldeverclimbthisstair,"theysaid,"itwillbeyourlast。Youwillneverclimbanother。"
  Andheanswered,"Iknowit!"andworkedon。
  Theold,thinhandscutthestonesillandjaggedly,forthefingerswerestiffandbent。Thebeautyandthestrengthofthemanwasgone。
  Atlast,anold,wizened,shrunkenfacelookedoutabovetherocks。Itsawtheeternalmountainsrisewithwallstothewhiteclouds;butitsworkwasdone。
  Theoldhunterfoldedhistiredhandsandlaydownbytheprecipicewherehehadworkedawayhislife。Itwasthesleepingtimeatlast。Belowhimoverthevalleysrolledthethickwhitemist。Onceitbroke;andthroughthegapthedyingeyeslookeddownonthetreesandfieldsoftheirchildhood。Fromafarseemedbornetohimthecryofhisownwildbirds,andheheardthenoiseofpeoplesingingastheydanced。Andhethoughtheheardamongthemthevoicesofhisoldcomrades;andhesawfaroffthesunlightshineonhisearlyhome。Andgreattearsgatheredinthehunter’seyes。
  "Ah!theywhodietheredonotdiealone,"hecried。
  Thenthemistsrolledtogetheragain;andheturnedhiseyesaway。
  "Ihavesought,"hesaid,"forlongyearsIhavelaboured;butIhavenotfoundher。Ihavenotrested,Ihavenotrepined,andIhavenotseenher;
  nowmystrengthisgone。WhereIliedownwornoutothermenwillstand,youngandfresh。BythestepsthatIhavecuttheywillclimb;bythestairsthatIhavebuilttheywillmount。Theywillneverknowthenameofthemanwhomadethem。Attheclumsyworktheywilllaugh;whenthestonesrolltheywillcurseme。Buttheywillmount,andonmywork;theywillclimb,andbymystair!Theywillfindher,andthroughme!Andnomanlivethtohimselfandnomandiethtohimself。"
  Thetearsrolledfrombeneaththeshrivelledeyelids。IfTruthhadappearedabovehiminthecloudsnowhecouldnothaveseenher,themistofdeathwasinhiseyes。
  "Mysoulhearstheirgladstepcoming,"hesaid;"andtheyshallmount!
  theyshallmount!"Heraisedhisshrivelledhandtohiseyes。
  Thenslowlyfromthewhiteskyabove,throughthestillair,camesomethingfalling,falling,falling。Softlyitfluttereddown,anddroppedontothebreastofthedyingman。Hefeltitwithhishands。Itwasafeather。Hediedholdingit。
  III。THEGARDENSOFPLEASURE。
  Shewalkeduponthebeds,andthesweetrichscentarose;andshegatheredherhandsfullofflowers。ThenDuty,withhiswhiteclearfeatures,cameandlookedather。Thensheceasedfromgathering,butshewalkedawayamongtheflowers,smiling,andwithherhandsfull。
  ThenDuty,withhisstillwhiteface,cameagain,andlookedather;butshe,sheturnedherheadawayfromhim。Atlastshesawhisface,andshedroppedthefairestoftheflowersshehadheld,andwalkedsilentlyaway。
  Thenagainhecametoher。Andshemoaned,andbentherheadlow,andturnedtothegate。Butasshewentoutshelookedbackatthesunlightonthefacesoftheflowers,andweptinanguish。Thenshewentout,anditshutbehindherforever;butstillinherhandsheheldofthebudsshehadgathered,andthescentwasverysweetinthelonelydesert。
  Buthefollowedher。Oncemorehestoodbeforeherwithhisstill,white,death—likeface。Andsheknewwhathehadcomefor:sheunbentthefingers,andlettheflowersdropout,theflowersshehadlovedso,andwalkedonwithoutthem,withdry,achingeyes。Thenforthelasttimehecame。Andsheshowedhimheremptyhands,thehandsthatheldnothingnow。
  Butstillhelooked。Thenatlengthsheopenedherbosomandtookoutofitonesmallflowershehadhiddenthere,andlaiditonthesand。Shehadnothingmoretogivenow,andshewanderedaway,andthegreysandwhirledabouther。
  IV。INAFAR—OFFWORLD。
  Thereisaworldinoneofthefar—offstars,andthingsdonothappenhereastheyhappenthere。
  Inthatworldwereamanandwoman;theyhadonework,andtheywalkedtogethersidebysideonmanydays,andwerefriends——andthatisathingthathappensnowandtheninthisworldalso。
  Buttherewassomethinginthatstar—worldthatthereisnothere。Therewasathickwood:wherethetreesgrewclosest,andthestemswereinterlocked,andthesummersunnevershone,therestoodashrine。Inthedayallwasquiet,butatnight,whenthestarsshoneorthemoonglintedonthetree—tops,andallwasquietbelow,ifonecreptherequitealoneandkneltonthestepsofthestonealtar,anduncoveringone’sbreast,sowoundeditthatthebloodfelldownonthealtarsteps,thenwhateverhewhoknelttherewishedforwasgrantedhim。Andallthishappens,asI
  said,becauseitisafar—offworld,andthingsoftenhappenthereastheydonothappenhere。
  Now,themanandwomanwalkedtogether;andthewomanwishedwelltotheman。Onenightwhenthemoonwasshiningsothattheleavesofallthetreesglinted,andthewavesoftheseaweresilvery,thewomanwalkedalonetotheforest。Itwasdarkthere;themoonlightfellonlyinlittleflecksonthedeadleavesunderherfeet,andthebrancheswereknottedtightoverhead。Fartherinitgotdarker,notevenafleckofmoonlightshone。Thenshecametotheshrine;shekneltdownbeforeitandprayed;
  therecamenoanswer。Thensheuncoveredherbreast;withasharptwo—
  edgedstonethatlaythereshewoundedit。Thedropsdrippedslowlydownontothestone,andavoicecried,"Whatdoyouseek?"
  Sheanswered,"Thereisaman;Iholdhimnearerthananything。Iwouldgivehimthebestofallblessings。"
  Thevoicesaid,"Whatisit?"
  Thegirlsaid,"Iknownot,butthatwhichismostgoodforhimIwishhimtohave。"
  Thevoicesaid,"Yourprayerisanswered;heshallhaveit。"
  Thenshestoodup。Shecoveredherbreastandheldthegarmenttightuponitwithherhand,andranoutoftheforest,andthedeadleavesflutteredunderherfeet。Outinthemoonlightthesoftairwasblowing,andthesandglitteredonthebeach。Sheranalongthesmoothshore,thensuddenlyshestoodstill。Outacrossthewatertherewassomethingmoving。Sheshadedhereyesandlooked。Itwasaboat;itwasslidingswiftlyoverthemoonlitwaterouttosea。Onestooduprightinit;thefacethemoonlightdidnotshow,butthefiguresheknew。Itwaspassingswiftly;itseemedasifnoonepropelledit;themoonlight’sshimmerdidnotletherseeclearly,andtheboatwasfarfromshore,butitseemedalmostasiftherewasanotherfiguresittinginthestern。Fasterandfasteritglidedoverthewateraway,away。Sheranalongtheshore;shecamenonearerit。Thegarmentshehadheldclosedflutteredopen;shestretchedoutherarms,andthemoonlightshoneonherlongloosehair。
  Thenavoicebesideherwhispered,"Whatisit?"
  Shecried,"WithmybloodIboughtthebestofallgiftsforhim。Ihavecometobringithim!Heisgoingfromme!"
  Thevoicewhisperedsoftly,"Yourprayerwasanswered。Ithasbeengivenhim。"
  Shecried,"Whatisit?"
  Thevoiceanswered,"Itisthathemightleaveyou。"
  Thegirlstoodstill。
  Faroutatseatheboatwaslosttosightbeyondthemoonlightsheen。
  Thevoicespokesoftly,"Artthoucontented?"
  Shesaid,"Iamcontented。"
  Atherfeetthewavesbrokeinlongripplessoftlyontheshore。
  V。THREEDREAMSINADESERT。
  UnderaMimosa—Tree。
  AsItravelledacrossanAfricanplainthesunshonedownhotly。ThenI
  drewmyhorseupunderamimosa—tree,andItookthesaddlefromhimandlefthimtofeedamongtheparchedbushes。Andalltorightandtoleftstretchedthebrownearth。AndIsatdownunderthetree,becausetheheatbeatfiercely,andallalongthehorizontheairthrobbed。Andafterawhileaheavydrowsinesscameoverme,andIlaidmyheaddownagainstmysaddle,andIfellasleepthere。And,inmysleep,Ihadacuriousdream。
  IthoughtIstoodontheborderofagreatdesert,andthesandblewabouteverywhere。AndIthoughtIsawtwogreatfigureslikebeastsofburdenofthedesert,andonelayuponthesandwithitsneckstretchedout,andonestoodbyit。AndIlookedcuriouslyattheonethatlayupontheground,forithadagreatburdenonitsback,andthesandwasthickaboutit,sothatitseemedtohavepiledoveritforcenturies。
  AndIlookedverycuriouslyatit。Andtherestoodonebesidemewatching。
  AndIsaidtohim,"Whatisthishugecreaturewholieshereonthesand?"
  Andhesaid,"Thisiswoman;shethatbearsmeninherbody。"
  AndIsaid,"Whydoesshelieheremotionlesswiththesandpiledroundher?"
  Andheanswered,"Listen,Iwilltellyou!Agesandageslongshehaslainhere,andthewindhasblownoverher。Theoldest,oldest,oldestmanlivinghasneverseenhermove:theoldest,oldestbookrecordsthatshelayherethen,assheliesherenow,withthesandabouther。Butlisten!
  Olderthantheoldestbook,olderthantheoldestrecordedmemoryofman,ontheRocksofLanguage,onthehard—bakedclayofAncientCustoms,nowcrumblingtodecay,arefoundthemarksofherfootsteps!Sidebysidewithhiswhostandsbesideheryoumaytracethem;andyouknowthatshewhonowliesthereoncewanderedfreeovertherockswithhim。"
  AndIsaid,"Whydoesshelietherenow?"
  Andhesaid,"Itakeit,agesagotheAge—of—dominion—of—muscular—forcefoundher,andwhenshestoopedlowtogivesucktoheryoung,andherbackwasbroad,heputhisburdenofsubjectionontoit,andtieditonwiththebroadbandofInevitableNecessity。Thenshelookedattheearthandthesky,andknewtherewasnohopeforher;andshelaydownonthesandwiththeburdenshecouldnotloosen。Eversinceshehaslainhere。Andtheageshavecome,andtheageshavegone,butthebandofInevitableNecessityhasnotbeencut。"
  AndIlookedandsawinhereyestheterriblepatienceofthecenturies;
  thegroundwaswetwithhertears,andhernostrilsblewupthesand。