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第3章

  Theresupsto—nightonearthNomaddercrewofwastrelsthanThisfellowshipofmirth……
  (Ofmirth……drink,fools!——norletitflagLestfromtheoutermistCreepinthatothercompanyUnbiddentothetryst。
  We’regrownsofondofparadoxPerversenessholdsusthrall,SowhateachjesterlovesthebestHemocksthemostofall;
  Butasthejestandlaughgoround,Eachinhisneighbor’seyesReads,whilehefloutshisheart’sdesire,Theknowledgethathelies。
  NotoneofusbuthadsomepearlsAndflungthemtotheswine,Notoneofusbuthadsomegift——
  Somesparkoffiredivine——
  EachmighthavebeenGod’sministerInthetempleofsomeart——
  EachfeelshisgiftpervertedmoveWormlikethroughhisdryheart。
  IfGodcalledAzraeltoHimnowAndbadeDeathbendthebowAgainstthesaddestheartthatbeatsHereonthisearthbelow,NotanysobbingbreastwouldgainTheguerdonofthatbarb——
  ThesaddestonesarethosethatwearThejester’smotleygarb。
  Whoseshoutayeloudestrings,andwhoseThemaddestcranksandquips——
  Whomintshissoultolaughter’scoinAndwastesitwithhislips——
  HasgrowntoosadforsighsandseeksTocheathimselfwithmirth;
  Wefoolsself—doomedtomotleyareTheweariestwightsonearth!
  Butyet,foruswhosebrainsandheartsStroveayeinpathsperverse,DoomedstilltoknowthebetterthingsAndstilltodotheworse,——
  WhatelseisthereremainsforusButmakeajestofcareAndsettheraftersringing,inOurTavernofDespair?
  COLORSANDSURFACES
  AGOLDENLAD
  (D。V。M。)
  "GoldenladsandlassesmustLikechimney—sweeperscometodust。"
  ——SHAKESPEARE。
  Soyoung,butalreadythesplendorOfgeniusrobedhimabout——
  Alreadythedangerous,tenderRegardofthegodsmarkedhimout——
  (OnwhomtheburdenanddutyTheybind,athisearliestbreath,Ofshowingtheirowngravebeauty,Theyloveandtheycrownwithdeath。)
  Wewereofoneblood,buttheoldenRaptpoetsspakeoutinhistone;
  Wewereofoneblood,butthegoldenRathepromisewashis,hisalone。
  AndeverhisgreateyeglistenedWithvisionsIcouldnotsee,EverhethrilledandlistenedTovoiceswithholdenfromme。
  Younglordoftherealmsoffancy,ThebrightdreamsflockedtohiscallLikespritesthatthenecromancyOfaProsperoholdsinthrall——
  Quickvisionsthatservedandattended,Elusiveandhoveringthings,WithaquiverofjoyinthesplendidWildsweepoftheirluminouswings;
  Hedweltinanalienglamor,Hewroughtofitsgleamsacrown,——
  Buttheworld,withitscrueltyandclamor,Brokehimandbeathimdown;
  Sohepassed;hewasworn,hewasweary,Hewasslainatthetouchoflife;——
  WithasmilethatwaswistfulandeerieHepassedfromthesenselessstrife;——
  Soheceased(istheirhumorsatiric,Thesegodsthatmakeperfectandblight?)——
  HeceasedlikeanexquisitelyricThatdiesonthebreastofnight。
  THESAGEANDTHEWOMAN
  ’TWIXTancientBeershebaandDanAnothersuchacaravanDazedPalestinehadneverseenAsthatwhichboreSabea’squeenUpfromthefainandflamingSouthToslakeheryearningspirit’sdrouthAtwisdom’spools,withSolomon。
  Withgiftsofscentedsandalwood,Andlabdanum,andcassia—bud,WithspicyspoilsofArabyAndcamel—loadsofivoryAndheavyclothsthatglancedandshoneWithinwroughtpearlandberyl—stoneShecame,aboldSabeangirl。
  Anddidshefindhimgrave,orgay?
  PerchancehispalacebreathedthatdayWithpsalterssoundingsolemnly——
  Orcymbals’merrierminstrelsy——
  PerchancetheweariedmonarchheardSomeloose—tonguedprophet’smeddlingword;——
  Noneknows,noone——butSolomon!
  Shelooked——witheynewhereinwereblentAllardorsoftheOrient;
  Shespake——allmagicsoftheSouthWerecompassedinthewitch’smouth;——
  HethoughtthescarletlipsofherMorepreciousthanEnGedi’smyrrh,ThelipsofthatSabeangirl;
  Bymanyanamoroussuncaressed,FromliftedbrowtoamberbreastShegleamedinvividloveliness——
  Andlitheasanyleopardess——
  Andverily,oneblamestheenotIfthineownproverbswereforgot,OSolomon,wiseSolomon!
  Shedancedforhim,andsurelysheLearntdancingfromsomemoonlitseaWhereelfinvaporsswirledandswayedWhilethewildpipesofwitchcraftplayedSuchclutchingmusic’twouldimpelAprophet’sselftodancetohell——
  SospunthelightSabeangirl。
  HesworeherlaughterhadtheliltOfchimingwatersthatarespiltInspraysofspurtedmelodyFromfountsofcarvenporphyry,AndinthebillowyturbulenceOfherduskhairdrownedsoulandsense——
  Darktidesanddeep,OSolomon!
  PerchanceuntoherdaybelongsHispoemcalledtheSongofSongs,EachlittlelyricintervalTimedtoherpulse’sriseandfall;——
  OrwhenhecriedoutwearilyThatallthingsendinvanityDidhemeanthatSabeangirl?
  Thebrightbarbaricopulence,Thesun—kistTemple,Kedar’stents,——
  Howmanyacarelesscaravan’TwixtBeershebaandruinedDan,Withinthesefortycenturies,Hasflungtheirdusttomanyabreeze,WithdustthatwasKingSolomon!
  Butstillthelessonholdsastrue,OKing,aswhenshelessonedyou:
  ThatverywisemenarenotwiseUntiltheyreadinFolly’seyesThewisdomthatescapestheschools,ThatbidsthesagerevisehisrulesBylightofsomeSabeangirl!
  NEWSFROMBABYLON
  "Archaeologistshavediscoveredalove—letteramongtheruinsofBabylon。"——Newspaperreport。
  Theworldhathjustonetaletotell,anditisveryold,Alittletale——asimpletale——atalethat’seasytold:
  "TherewasayouthinBabylonwhogreatlylovedamaid!"
  Theworldhathjustonesongtosing,butsingsitunafraid,Alittlesong——afoolishsong——theonlysongithath:
  "TherewasayouthinAscalonwholovedagirlinGath!"
  Homerclangedit,Omartwangedit,GreeceandPersiaknew!——
  Nimrod’sreivers,Hiram’sweavers,Hindu,Kurd,andJew——
  CrowningTyre,Troyafire,theyhavedreamedthedream;
  Tiber—sideandNilus—tidebrightenedwiththegleam——
  Oh,thesuing,sighing,wooing,sadandmerryhours,Blissestasted,kisseswasted,buildingBabel’stowers!
  Heartswereaching,heartswerebreaking,lasheswetwithdew,WhentheshipstouchedthelipsofislandsSapphoknew;
  Yearningbreastsandburningbreasts,coldatlast,arehidAmidthegloomsofcarventombsinKhufu’spyramid——
  Thoughthesages,downtheages,smiletheircynicdoubt,Manandmaid,unafraid,puttheschoolstorout;
  Seektochainloveandretainloveinthebondsofbreath,Vowtoholdlove,bindandfoldloveevenuntodeath!
  ThedustoffortycenturieshasburiedBabylon,Andoutofallherloversdeadrisesonlyone;
  Riseswithasongtosingandlaughterinhiseyes,Theoldsong——theonlysong——foralltherestarelies!
  For,oh,theworldhasjustonedream,anditisveryold——
  ’Tisyouth’sdream——asillydream——butitisflushedwithgold!
  ARHYMEOFTHEROADS
  PEARL—SLASHEDandpurpleandcrimsonandfringedwithgraymistofthehills,Thepennonsofmorningadvancetothemusicofrock—frettedrills,Thedumbforestquickenstosong,andthelittlegustsshoutastheyflingAfloor—clothoforchardbloomdownfortheflash—
  ing,quickfeetoftheSpring。
  Totheroad,gipsy—heart,thouandI!’Tisthemadpiper,Spring,whoisleading;
  ’Tisthepulseofhispipingthatthrobsthroughthebrain,irresistiblypleading;
  Full—blossomed,deep—bosomed,fainwoman,light—
  footed,lute—throatedandfleet,WehavedrunkofthewineofthisWanderer’ssong;
  letusfollowhisfeet!
  LikeraveledredgirdlesflungdownbysomehoidenishgoddessinmirthThetangledroadsreachfromrimuntoutter—
  mostrimoftheearth——
  Wewillweaveofthesestrandsastrongnet,wewillsnarethebrightwingsofdelight,——
  Wewillmakeofthesestringsasweetlutethatwillshamethelowwind—harpsofnight。
  Theclamoroftonguesandtheclangoroftradesinthepeevishpackedstreet,Thearrogant,janglingNothings,withiterant,dis—
  sonantbeat,Theclattering,senselessendeavorwithdrossofmeregoldforitsgoal,Thesehavesickenedthesensesandweariedthebrainandstraitenedthesoul。
  "Comeforthandbecleansedofthefollyofstrifeforthingsworthlessofstrife,ComeforthandgainlifeandgraspGodbyfore—
  goinggainsworthlessoflife"——
  Itwasthusspakethewizardwildwood,low—
  voicedtothehearkeningheart,Itwasthussangthejovialhills,andtheharpersunborepart。
  Owoman,whosebloodasmybloodwiththefireoftheSpringisaflame,Wedidwell,whentheredroadscalled,thatweheededthecallandcame——
  Cameforthtothesweetwisesilencewheresoulmayspeaksoothuntosoul,Vine—wreathedandvagabondLove,withthegoalofNowhereforourgoal!
  Whatplanet—crownedDuskthatwandersthesteepsofourfirmamentthereHathgemsthatmaymatchwiththedew—opalsmeshedinthineopulenthair?
  Whatwind—witchthatskimsthecurledbillowswithfeettheyarefaintocaressHathsandalssowing’dasthineartwithagod—
  likecarelessness?
  Anddarewenotdreamthisisheaven?——towan—
  derthuson,everon。
  Throughthehush—heavyvalleysofspace,uptheflushingredslopesofthedawn?——
  Fornonethatseeksrestshallfindresttillheceasethhisstrivingforrest,Andthegainofthequestisthejoyoftheroadthatallurestothequest。
  THELANDOFYESTERDAY
  ANDIwouldseekthecountrytownAmidgreenmeadowsnestleddownIfIcouldonlyfindthewayBacktotheLandofYesterday!
  HowIwouldthrustthemilesaside,Rushupthequietlane,andthen,Justwhereherroseslaughedinpride,Findheramongtheflowersagain。
  I’dslipinsilentlyandwaitUntilshesawmebythegate,Andthen……readthroughabluroftearsQuickpardonfortheselfishyears。
  Thistime,thistime,IwouldnotwaitForthatbriefwirethatsaid,Toolate!——
  IfIcouldonlyfindthewayIntotheLandofYesterday。
  IwonderifherrosesyetLiftuptheirheadsandlaughwithpride,AndifherphloxandmignonetteHavehearttoblossombytheirside;
  IwonderifthedearoldlaneStillchirpswithrobinsafterrain,AndifthebirdsandbandedbeesStillrobherearlycherry—trees……
  Iwonder,ifIwenttherenow,Howeverythingwouldseem,andhow——
  Butno!notnow;thereisnowayBacktotheLandofYesterday。
  OCTOBER
  CEASEtocallhimsadandsober,Merriestofmonths,October!
  Patronoftheburstingbins,Revelerinwaysideinns,IcannowherefindatraceOfthepensiveinhisface;
  Thereismingledwitandfolly,ButthemadcaplacksthegraceOfathoughtfulmelancholy。
  Spendthriftoftheseasons’gold,HowheflingsandscattersoutTreasurefilchedfromsummer—time!——
  NeverrufflingsquireofoldBetterlovedatavernboutWhenPrinceHalwasinhisprime。
  Doubletslashedwithgoldandgreen;
  Cloakofcrimson;changefulsheen,Ofthedewsthatgemhisbreast;
  Frostylaceabouthisthroat;
  ScarletplumesthatflauntandfloatBackwardinagayunrest——
  Where’sanothergallantdrestWithsuchtricksygaiety,Suchunlessonedvanity?
  WithhisamberafternoonsAndhispendantpoets’moons——
  WithhistwilightsdashedwithroseFromthered—lippedafterglows——
  WithhisvocalairsatdawnBreathinghintsofHelicon——
  BacchanalianbeesthatsipWherehiscider—pressesdrip——
  WiththewindingofthehornWherehishuntsmenmeetthemorn——
  WithhiseverypipingbreezeShakingfromfamiliartreesApplesofHesperides——
  Withthechuckle,chirp,andtrillOfhisjollybrooksthatspillMirthintangledmadrigalsDownpebble—dappledwaterfalls——
  (BrooksthatlaughandmakeescapeThroughwildarborswherethegrapePurpleswithapromiseofRacyvintagerareaslove)——
  Withhismerry,wantonair,MirthandvanityandfollyWhyshouldhebemadetobearBurdenofsomemelancholySongthatswoonsandsinkswithcare?
  Ceasetocallhimsadorsober,——
  He’sajollydog,October!
  CHANTOFTHECHANGINGHOURS
  THEHourspassedby,afleet,confusedcrowd;
  Withwaftureofblowngarmentsbrightasfire,Light,lightoffootandlaughing,morning—browed,AndwheretheytrodthejonquilandthebriarThrilledintojocundlife,thedreamingdellsWakedtoamorricechimeofjostledbells;——
  Theydanced!theydanced!topipingsuchasflingsThegarneredmusicofamillionSpringsIntoonesingle,keenerecstasy;——
  Onepausedandshoutedtomyquestionings:
  "Lo,IamYouth;Ibidtheefollowme!"
  TheHourspassedby;theypaced,greatlordsandproud,Crownedonwithsunlight,robedinrichattire;
  Beforetheirconqueringwordthebrutedeedbowed,AndArielfanciesservedtheirlargedesire;
  Theyspake,androusedthemusedsoulthatdwellsIndust,or,smiling,shapednewheavensandhells,Dethronedoldgodsandmadeblindbeggarskings:
  "Andwhatartthou,"Icriedtoone,"thatbringsHismistress,forabrooch,theGalaxy?"——
  "IamtheplumedThoughtthatsoarsandsings:
  Lo,IamSong;Ibidtheefollowme!"
  TheHourspassedby,withveiledeyesendowedOfdream,andpartedlipsthatscarcesuspire,Tobreathingduskandarrowymoonlightvowed,Southwindandshadowygroveandmurmuringlyre;——
  Swayingtheymoved,asdrows’dofwizardspellsOrtranc’dwithsightofrecentmiracles,Andyettheytrembled,downtheirfoldedwingsQuiveredthehintofsweetwithholdenthings,Ah,bitter—sweetintheirintensity!
  Onepausedandsaiduntomywonderings:
  "Lo,IamLove;Ibidtheefollowme!"
  TheHourspassedby,throughhuddledcitiesloudWithwitlesshateandstalewithstinkingmire:
  SocowledmonksmightmarchwithbierandshroudDownstreetsplague—spottedtowardsomecleans—
  ingpyre;——
  Yet,lo!strangeliliesbloomedinlightlesscells,AndpassionatespiritsbursttheirclayeyshellsAndsangthestrickenhopethatbleedsandclings:
  Earth’sbruisedheartbeatinthethrobbingstrings,Andjoystillstruggledthroughthethrenody!
  OnesternHoursaiduntomymarvelings:
  "Lo,IamLife;Ibidtheefollowme!"
  TheHourspassedby,thestumblinghoursandcowed,Uncertain,pronetotearsandchildishire,——
  ThewaveringhoursthatdriftlikeanycloudAtwhimofwindsorfortunateordire,——
  Thefeebleshapesthatanychanceexpells;
  Theirwisdomuseless,lackingthebloodthatswellsThetensedvein:thehot,swifttidethatstingsWithlife。Ah,wise!butnakedtotheslingsOffate,andplaguedofyouthfulmemory!
  Acrackedvoicebrokeuponmypityings:
  "Lo,IamAge;Ibidtheefollowme!"
  Ah,Youth!wedalliedbythebabblingwellsWhereAprilallherlyricsecrettells;——
  Ah,Song!wespedourboldimaginingsAsfarasyonredplanet’striplerings;——
  OLife!OLove!Ifollowed,followedthee!
  Therewaitsonewordtoendmyjourneyings:
  "Lo,IamDeath;Ibidtheefollowme!"
  DREAMSANDDUST
  SELVES
  MydustinruinedBabylonIsblownalongthelevelplain,AndsongsofmineatdawnhavesoaredAbovetheblueSicilianmain。
  Weareourselves,andnotourselves……
  ForeverthwartingprideandwillSomeforebear’spassionleapsfromdeathToclaimavitallicensestill。
  Ancestralluststhatslewanddied,Resurgent,swelleachlivingvein;
  Olddoubtsandfaiths,newpanoplied,Disputethemasteryofthebrain。
  TheloveoflibertythatflamesFromwrittenruneandstrickenreedShookthehotheartsofswordsmensiresAtMarathonandRunnymede。
  Whatarethesethingswecallour"selves"?……
  HaveInotshouted,sobbed,anddiedInthebrightsurfofspearsthatbrokeWhereGreecerolledbackthePersiantide?
  ArewewhobreathemorequickthantheyWhosebonesaredustwithinthetomb?
  Nay,asIwrite,whatgrayoldghostsMurmurandmockmefromthegloom……
  Theycall……acrossstrangeseastheycall,Strangeseas,andhauntedcoastsoftime……
  TheystartlemewithwordlesssongsTowhichtheSphinxhathknowntherhyme。
  Ourheartsswellbigwithdeadmen’shates,Oureyesstinghotwithdeadmen’stears;
  Weareourselves,butnotourselves,Bornheirs,butserfs,toalltheyears!
  IrodewithNimrod……stroveatTroy……
  AslaveIstoodinCrowningTyre,AqueenlookedonmeandIlovedAnddiedtocompassmydesire。
  THEWAGES
  EARTHlovestogibbero’erherdross,Hergoldensouls,towaste;
  Thecupshefillsforhergod—menIsabittercuptotaste。
  WhoseesthegyvesthatbindmankindAndstrivestostrikethemoffShallgainthehissinghateoffools,Thorns,andtheingrate’sscoff。
  Whostormsthemoss—grownwallsofeldAndbeatssomefalsehooddownShallpassthepallidgatesofdeathSanslaurel,loveorcrown;
  ForhimwhofainwouldteachtheworldTheworldholdshateinfee——
  ForSocrates,thehemlockcup;
  ForChrist,Gethsemane。
  INMARS,WHATAVATAR?
  "InVishnu—land,whatavatar?"
  ——BROWNING。
  PERCHANCEthedyinggodsofEarthAredestinedtoanotherbirth,Andworn—outcreedsregaintheirworthInthekindlyairofotherstars——
  WhatlordsoflifeandlightholdswayInthemyriadworldsoftheMilkyWay?
  WhatavatarsinMars?
  WhatAphroditesfromtheseasThatlaptheplungingPleiadesArisetospreadafarThedreamthatwasthesoulofGreece?
  InMars,whatavatar?
  WhichhundredmoonsarewanwithloveFordullEndymions?
  WhichhundredmoonshangtrancedaboveAudaciousAjalons?
  WhatHolyGraillureserrantspaleThroughthewastesofyonderstar?
  WhatfablesswaytheMilkyWay?
  InMars,whatavatar?
  WhenmorningskimswithcrimsonwingsAcrossthemeresofMercury,WhatdreamingMemnonwakesandsingsOfmiraclesonMercury?
  WhatChrists,whatavatars,ClaimMars?
  THEGOD—MAKER,MAN
  NEVERMORE
  ShalltheshepherdsofArcadyfollowPan’smoodsashelollsbytheshoreOfthemere,orlieshidinthehollow;
  NevermoreShalltheystartatthesoundofhisreed—fashionedflute;
  FallenmuteArethestringsofApollo,Hislyreandhislute;
  AndthelipsoftheMemnonsaremuteEvermore;
  AndthegodsoftheNorth,——aretheydeadorforgetful,OurOdinandBaldurandThor?
  Aretheydrunk,orgrownwearyofworshipandfretful,OurOdinandBaldurandThor?
  AndintowhatnighthavetheOrientdietiesstrayed?
  SwartgodsoftheNile,indusksplendorsarrayed,BroodingIsisandsomberOsiris,Youweregoneerethefragilepapyrus,(Thatbraggedyoueternal!)decayed。
  TheavatarsButilluminetheirlimitedevensAndvanishlikeplungingstars;
  TheyarefixedinthewhirlingheavensNofirmerthanfallingstars;
  Brieflordsofthechangingsoul,theypassLikeabreathfromthefaceofaglass,Orablossomofsummerblownshallop—likeoverThecloverAndtossedtidesofgrass。
  SinktosilencethepsalmsandthepaeansTheshibbolethsshift,andthefaiths,AndthetemplesthatchallengedtheaeonsAretenantedonlybywraiths;
  Swoontosilencethecymbalsandpsalters,Theworshipsgrowsenselessandstrange,Andthemockersask,"Wherebethyaltars?"
  Crying,"Nothingischangeless——butChange!"
  Yes,nothingseemschangeless,butChange。
  Andyet,throughthecreed—wreckingyears,Onestoryforeverappears;
  ThetaleofaCitySupernal——
  ThewhisperofSomethingeternal——
  Apassion,ahope,andavisionThatpeoplesthesilencewithPowers;
  AfableofmeadowsElysianWhereTimeentersnotwithhisHours;——
  Manifoldarethetale’svariations,Raceandclimeevertintingthedreams,Yetitsessence,throughendlessmutations,Immutablegleams。
  Deathless,thoughgodheadsbedying,Survivingthecreedsthatexpire,Illogical,reason—defying,Livesthatpassionate,primaldesire;
  Insistent,persistent,foreverMancriestothesilences,Never
  ShallDeathreignthelordofthesoul,Shallthedustbetheultimategoal——
  IwillstormtheblackbastionsofNight!
  Iwilltreadwheremyvisionhastrod,Iwillsetinthedarknessalight,Inthevastness,agod!"
  AstheforeheadofMangrowsbroader,sodohiscreeds;
  Andhisgodstheyareshapedinhisimage,andmirrorhisneeds;
  Andheclothesthemwiththundersandbeauty,heclothesthemwithmusicandfire;
  Seeingnot,ashebowsbytheiraltars,thatheworshipshisowndesire;
  Andmixedwithhistrustthereisterror,andmixedwithhismadnessisruth,Andeverymangrovelsinerror,yeteverymanglimpsesatruth。
  Forallofthecreedsarefalse,andallofthecreedsaretrue;
  Andlowattheshrineswheremybrothersbow,therewillIbow,too;
  Fornoformofagod,andnofashionManhasmadeinhisdesperatepassionButisworthysomeworshipofmine;——
  Nottoohotwithagrossbelief,Noryettoocoldwithpride,Iwillbowmedownwheremybrothersbow,Humble——butopen—eyed!
  UNREST
  AFIERCEunrestseethesatthecoreOfallexistingthings:
  ItwastheeagerwishtosoarThatgavethegodstheirwings。
  Fromwhatflatwastesofcosmicslime,Andstungbywhatquickfire,Sunwardtherestlessracesclimb!——
  Menrisenoutofmire!
  TherethrobsthroughalltheworldsthatareThisheart—beathotandstrong,Andshakensystems,starbystar,Awakeandglowinsong。
  ButfortheurgeofthisunrestThesejoyousspheresweremute;
  ButfortherebelinhisbreastHadmanremainedabrute。