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第2章

  Wewerenotcynics,andwedreamedAManwhomadenotruceWithliesnorancientprivilegeNorold,entrenchedabuse。
  Wedreamed……wedreamed……Youthdreamedadream!
  AndevenyouforgotYourself,onemoment,anddreamed,too——
  Struck,whileyourmoodwashot!
  Struckthreeorfourgoodblows……andthenTurnedbacktoeasierthings:
  Thecheapapplause,theblatantmob,Thepraiseofunderlings!
  Praise……praise……wasevermansofilled,Soavidstill,ofpraise?
  Sohungryforthecrowd’sacclaim,Thesycophanticphrase?
  OyouwhomGreatnessbeckonedto……
  OswollenLittlenessWhoturnedfromImmortalityTofawnuponSuccess!
  Oblindwithloveofself,wholedYouth’svisiontodefeat,Bawlingandbrawlingforrewards,Loud,inthecommonstreet!
  Oyouwhoweresoquicktojudge——
  Leader,andloved,ofyore——
  Hearnowthejudgmentofouryouth:
  LeaderandChiefnomore!
  THEBAYONET
  (1914)
  THEgreatgunsslayfromaleagueaway,thedeath—
  boltsflyunseen,Andbellowinghillrepliestohill,machinetobrutemachine,ButstillintheendwhenthelonglinesbendandthebattlehangsindoubtTheytaketothesteelinthesameoldwaythattheirfathersfoughtitout——
  ItismantomanandbreasttobreastandeyetobloodshoteyeAndthereachandtwistofthethrustingwrist,asitwasinthedaysgoneby!
  Alongtheshakenhillsthegunstheirdrummingthunderroll——
  Butthekeenbladesthrillwiththelusttokillthatleapsfromtheslayer’ssoul!
  Forhandandheartandlivingsteel,onepulseofhatetheyfeel。
  Isyourclanafraidofthenakedblade?Doesitflinchfromthebittersteel?
  Perishyourdreamsofconquestthen,yourswollenhopesandbold,Forempiredwellswiththestabbingblade,asitdidinthedaysofold!
  THEBUTCHERSATPRAYER
  (1914)
  EACHnationasitdrawstheswordAndflingsitsstandardtotheairPetitionspiouslytheLord——
  Vexingthevoidabysswithprayer。
  Oironytoodeepformirth!
  Oposturingapesthatrant,anddareThisanticattitude!OEarth,Withyourwildjestofwickedprayer!
  Idarenotlaugh……arisingswellOflaughterbreaksinshriekssomewhere——
  NodoubttheyrelishitinHell,ThiscosmicjestofEarthatprayer!
  SHADOWS
  HAUNTED
  (THEGHOSTSPEAKS)
  AGHOSTisthefreakofasickman’sbrain?
  Thenwhydoyestartandshiverso?
  That’sthesobanddripofaleakydrain?
  Butitsoundslikeanothernoiseweknow!
  Theheavydropsdrummedredandslow,Thedropsrandownasslowasfate——
  Doyehearthemstill?——itwaslongago!——
  ButhereintheshadowsIwait,Iwait!
  Spiritstherebethatpassinpeace;
  Minepassedinawhorlofwrathanddole;
  AndthehourthatyourchokingbreathshallceaseIwillgetmygriponyournakedsoul——
  Norpitymaystaynorprayercajole——
  IwoulddragyewhiningfromHell’sowngate:
  Tome,tome,yemustpaythetoll!
  AndhereintheshadowsIwait,Iwait!
  Thedeadtheyaredead,theyareoutoftheway?
  Andaghostisthewhimofanailingmind?
  Thenwhydidyewhitenwithfearto—dayWhenyeheardavoiceinthecallingwind?
  WhydidyefalterandlookbehindAtthecreepingmistswhenthehourgrewlate?
  Yewouldseemyfacewereyestrickenblind!
  AndhereintheshadowsIwait,Iwait!
  Drinkandforget,makemerryandboast,Buttheboastringsfalseandthejestisthin——
  InthehourthatImeetyeghosttoghost,Strippedofthefleshthatyeskulkwithin,Strippedtothecowardsoul’wareofitssin,Yeshalllearn,yeshalllearn,whetherdeadmenhate!
  Ah,awearytimehasthewaitingbeen,ButhereintheshadowsIwait,Iwait!
  ANIGHTMARE
  LEAGUESbeforeme,leaguesbehind,Clamorwarringwastesofflood,AllthestreamsofalltheworldsFlungtogether,madofmood;
  Throughthecanonbeatsasound,Regularofinterval,Distant,drumming,muffled,dull,Thunderouslyrhythmical;
  Craftsslipbymystartledsoul——
  Soulthatcowers,athingapart——
  Theyarecorpusclesofblood!
  That’sthethrobbingofaheart!
  Godofterrors!——amImad?——
  Throughmybody,mineownsoul,Shrunkentoanatom’ssize,Voyagestowardanunguessedgoal!
  THEMOTHER
  THEmotherbythegallows—tree,Thegallows—tree,thegallows—tree,(Whilethetwitchingbodymockedthesun)
  LiftedtoHeavenherbrokenheartAndcalledforsympathy。
  ThenMotherMarybenttoher,BentfromherplacebyGod’sleftside,Andwhispered:"Peace——doInotknow?——
  Mysonwascrucified!"
  "OMotherMary,"answeredshe,"Youcannot,cannotenterinTomysoul’swoe——youcannotknow——
  Foryoursonwroughtnosin!"
  (Andmenwhoseworkcompelledthemthere,Theirheartswerestrickendead;
  Theyheardtheropecreakonthebeam;
  IthoughtIheardthefrightenedghostWhimperingoverhead。)
  Themotherbythegallows—tree,Thegallows—tree,thegallows—tree,LiftedtoChristherbrokenheartAndcalledinagony。
  ThenLordChristbenttoherandsaid:
  "Becomforted,becomforted;
  Iknowyourgrief;thewholeworld’swoeIboreuponmyhead。"
  "ButOLordChrist,youcannotknow,Noonecanknow,"shesaid,"noone"——
  (Whilethequiveringcorpseswayedinthewind)——
  "LordChrist,noonecanunderstandWhoneverhadason!"
  INTHEBAYOU
  LAZYandslow,throughthesnagsandtreesMovethesluggishcurrents,halfasleep;
  Aroundandbetweenthecypressknees,Likeblack,slowsnakesthedarktidescreep——
  Howdeepisthebayoubeneaththetrees?
  "Knee—deep,Knee—deep,Knee—deep,Knee—deep!"
  CroaksthebigbullfrogofReelfootLakeFromhishiding—placeinthedraggledbrake。
  WhatisthesecrettheslimreedsknowThatmakesthemtoshakeandtoshiverso,Andthescaredflagsquiverfromplumetofoot?——
  Thefrogspipesolemnly,deepandslow:
  "Lookundertheroot!
  Lookundertheroot!"
  ThehoarsefrogcroaksandthestarkowlhootsOfamysterymooredinthecypressroots。
  Wasitloveturnedhate?Wasitfriendturnedfoe?
  Onlythefrogsandthegrayowlknow,ForthewhitemoonshroudedherfaceinamistAtthespurtofapistol,redandbright——
  Atthesoundofashriekthatstabbedthenight——
  Andthelittlereedswerefrightenedandwhist;
  Butalwaystheeddieswhimperandchoke,Andthefrogswouldtelliftheycould,fortheycroak:
  "Deep,deep!
  Death—deep!
  Deep,deep!
  Death—deep!"
  AndthedarktideslidesandglistersandglidesSnakelikeoverthesecretithides。
  THESAILOR’SWIFESPEAKS
  YEaredead,theysay,butyeswore,yeswore,Yewouldcometomebackfromthesea!
  Fromoutoftheseaandthenight,yecried,NorthecrawlingweednorthedraggingtideCouldholdyefastfromme:——
  Come,ah,cometome!
  ThreespellsIhavelaidontherisingsunAndthreeonthewaningmoon——
  AreyeheldinthebondsofthenightorthedayYemustloosenyourbondsandaway,away!
  YemustcomewhereIwaitye,soon——
  Ah,soon!soon!soon!
  ThreetimesIhavecastmywordstothewind,Andthricetotheclimbingsea;
  IfyedriftordreamwiththecloudsorfoamYemustdriftagainhome,yemustdriftagainhome——
  Wraith,yearefree,yearefree;
  Ghost,yearefree,yearefree!
  Arethecoastsofdeathsofair,sofair?
  ButIwaityehereontheshore!
  ItisIthatyehearinthecallingwind——
  Ihavestaredthroughthedarktillmysoulisblind!
  Oloverofmine,yeswore,Loverofmine,yeswore!
  HUNTED
  Oh,whydotheyhuntsohard,sohard,whohavenoneedoffood?
  Dotheyhuntforsport,dotheyhuntforhate,dotheyhuntforthelustofblood?……
  IfIwereagodIwouldgetmeaspear,Iwouldgetmehorseanddog,Andmerrily,merrilyIwouldridethroughcovertandbrakeandbog,Withhoundandhornandlaughterloud,overthehillsandaway——
  Forthereisnosportlikethatofagodwithamanthatstandsatbay!
  Ho!butthemorningisfreshandfair,andoh!
  butthesunisbright,Andyonderthequarrybreaksfromthebrushandheadsforthehillsinflight;
  Aminute’slawfortheharriedthing——thenfollowhim,followhimfast,Withthebellowofdogsandthebeatofhoofsandthemellowbugle’sblast……
  Hillo!Halloo!theyhavemarkedaman!thereissportintheworldto—day——
  Andaclamorswellsfromtheheartofthewoodthattellsofasoulatbay!
  ADREAMCHILD
  WHEREtidesoftossedwistariabloomFoamupinpurpleturbulence,WheretwiningboughshavebuiltaroomAndwing’dwindspausetogarnerscentsAndscatteredsunlightflecksthegloom,Shebroodsinpensiveindolence。
  Whatisthethoughtthatholdsherthrall,Thatdimshersightwithunshedtears?
  WhatsongsofsorrowdroopandfallInbrokenmusicforherears?
  WhatvoicesthrillherandrecallThepoignantjoyofhappieryears?
  Shedreams’tisnotthewindswhichpassThatwhisperthroughtheshakenvine;
  WhosefootstepstirstherustlinggrassNoneelsethatlistenedmightdivine;
  SheseesherchildthatneverwasLookupwithlonginginhiseyne。
  Unkissed,hisliftedforeheadgainsAgracenotearthly,butmorerare——
  Forsinceherheartbutonlyfeigns,Whereforeshouldlovenotfeignhimfair?
  Putbloodofrosesinhisveins,Weaveyellowsunshinesforhishair?
  AllghostsoflittlechildrendeadThatwanderwistful,uncaressed,Theirseekinglipsbyloveunfed,ShefainwouldcradleonherbreastForhissweetsakewhoselonelyheadHasneverknownthattenderrest。
  Andthusshesits,andthusshebroods,Wheredriftedblossomsfreakthegrass;
  ThewindsthatmoveacrosshermoodsPulsewithlowwhispersastheypass,AndintheireerierinterludesShehearsavoicethatneverwas。
  ACROSSTHENIGHT
  MUCHlisteningthroughthesilences,Muchstaringthroughthenight,Andlo!thedumbblinddistancesArebridgedwithspeechandsight!
  MagicianThought,informedofLove,Hathfixedherontheair——
  Oh,LoveandIlaugheddownthefatesAndclaspedher,hereasthere!
  AcrosstheeeriesilencesShecameinheadlongflight,Shestormedtheserrieddistances,Shetrampledspaceandnight!
  Oh,foolishscientistsmightgiveThismiracleaname——
  ButLoveandIcarebuttoknowThatwhenwecalledshecame。
  AndsinceIfindthedistancesSubservienttomythought,AndofthesentientsilencesMorevitalspeechhavewrought,ThensheandIwillmockDeath’sself,Forallhisvauntedmight——
  Therearenogulfswedarenotleap,Assheleaptthroughthenight!
  SEACHANGES
  I
  MORNING
  WEstoodamongtheboatsandnets;
  Wesawtheswiftcloudsfall,WewatchedtheschoonersscamperinBeforethesuddensquall;——
  ThejollysquallstrovelustilyTowhelmtheshelteredstreet——
  ThemerrysquallthatpiledtheseasAboutthepatientheadland’skneesAndchasedthefishingfleet。
  Shelaughed;asifwithwingshermirthAroseandleftthewinglessearthAndalltamethingsbehind;
  Roselikeabird,wildwithdelightWhosebrinypinionsflashinflightThroughstormandsunandwind。
  HerlaughtersoughtthoseskiesbecauseTheirmoodandherswereone,ForsheandIweredrunkwithloveAndlifeandstormandsun!
  Andwhileshelaughed,theSunhimselfLeaptlaughingthroughtherainAndstruckhisharperhandalongTheringingcoast;andthatwind—songWhosejoyismixedwithpainForgottheundertoneofgriefAndjoinedthejocundstrain,AndovereveryhiddenreefWhereonthewavesbrokemerrilyRosejetsandspraysofmelodyAndleaptandlaughedagain。
  II
  MOONLIGHT
  Westoodamongtheboatsandnets……
  WemarkedtherisenmoonWalkswayingo’erthetremblingseasAsoneswaysinaswoon;
  Thelittlestars,thelonelystars,Stolethroughthehollowsky,AndeverysuckingeddywhereThewaveslappedwharforrottenstairMoanedlikesomestrickenthinghidthereAndstrangledwithitsowndespairAstheshudderingtidecreptby。
  Ilovedher,andIhatedher——
  OrdidIhatemyselfbecause,Boundbyobscure,strong,silkenlaws,IfeltmyselftheworshiperOfbeautyneverwhollymine?
  Withluresmostapttosnare,entwine,Withbondstoosubtletodefine,Herlighternaturemasteredmine;
  Herselfhalfgiven,halfwithheld,HerlesserspiritstillcompelledItstributefrommyfrankersoul:
  So——rebel,slave,andworshiper!——
  IlovedherandIhatedher。
  Igazeduponher,I,herthrall,Andmusing,murmured,Whatifdeath
  Werejusttheanswertoitall?——
  SupposesomedaintydaggerquaffedHerlifeinonedeepeagerdraught?——
  SupposesomeamorousknifecaressedThelovelyhollowofherbreast?"——
  Sheturnedamockinglooktomine:
  Shereadthethoughtwithinmyeyne,Sheheldmewithherlook——andlaughed!
  Nowwhomaytellwhatstirs,controls,Andshapesmadfanciesintofacts?
  WhattrivialthingsmayquickensoulsToirrevocable,swiftacts?
  Nowwhohasknown,whounderstood,WhereforesomeidlethingMaystabwithdeadlierstingThanwell—consideredinsultcould?——
  MayspurthelanguorofamoodAndrouseatigerintheblood?——
  Ah,Christ!——hadshenotlaughedjustwhenThatfancycame!……forthen……andthen……
  Asuddenmistdroppedfromthesky,Amistsweptinacrossthesea……
  Amistthathidherfacefromme……
  Aweepingmistalltingedwithred,Adrippingmistthatsmeltlikeblood……
  Itchokedmythroat,itburntmybrain……
  Andthroughitpeeredonesallowstar,Andthroughitrangoneshriekofpain……
  Andwhenitpassedmyhandswerered,Mysoulwasdabbledwithherblood;
  AndwhenitpassedmylovewasdeadAndtosseduponthetroubledflood。
  III
  MOONSET
  Butsee!……thebodydoesnotsink;
  Itridesuponthetide(Astarbeamonthedagger’shaft),Withstaringeyesandwide……
  Andnow,upfromthedarklingsea,Downfromthefailingmoon,Arecomestrangeshapestomockatme……
  Allpallidfromthestar—palesea,Whitefromthepalingmoon……
  OrwhirlingfastorwheelingslowAround,aroundthecorpsetheygo,Allbloodlesso’erthesickenedseaBeneaththeailingmoon!
  AndaretheyonlywispsoffogThatdancealongthewaves?
  OnlyshapesofmistthewindDrivesalongthewaves?
  OraretheyspiritsthattheseaHascheatedoftheirgraves?
  Theghostsofthemthatdiedatsea,Ofmurderedmenflunginthesea,Whosebodieshadnograves?——
  LostsoulsthathauntforevermoreThesobbingreefandhollowedshoreAndalways—murmuringcaves?
  Ah,surelysomethingmorethanfog,Morethanstarlitmist!
  ForstarlightnevermakesasoundAndfogsareeverwhist——
  Buthearken,hearken,hearken,now,Forthesesingastheydance!
  Asairily,aseerily,Theywheelaboutandwhirl,Theyjeeratme,theyfleeratme,Theyfloutmeastheyswirl!
  Aswhirlingfastorswayingslow,Reeling,wheeling,toandfro,Around,aroundthecorpsetheygo,Theychillmewiththeirchants!
  Thesebeneithermennormists——
  Hearkentotheirchants:
  Ever,ever,ever,DriftinglikeablossomSeaward,withthestarlightWanuponherbosom——
  EverwhenthequickenedHeartofnightisthrobbing,EverwhenthetremblingTidesetsseaward,sobbing,ShallyouseethisburdenBorneuponitsebbing:
  SeeherdriftingseawardLikeabrokenblossom,
  EverseethestarlightKissherbruisedbosom。
  Flightavailethnothing……
  StillthesubtlebeachesDrawyoubackwhereHorrorWalkstheirshingledreaches……
  EvershallyourspiritHearthesurfresounding,EvermoretheoceanThwartingyouandbounding;
  Vainlystruggleinland!
  Lashingyouandhounding,StillthevisionhalesyouFromtheuplandreaches,Goadingyouandgripping,Bindsyoutothebeaches!
  Ever,ever,ever,Evershallherlaughter,Huntingyouandhaunting,Mockandfollowafter;
  Risingwherethebuoy—bellClangsacrosstheshallows,
  LeapingwherethespindriftHurtleso’erthehollows,RingingwherethemoonlightGleamsalongthebillows,Ever,ever,ever,Evershallherlaughter,Houndingyouandhaunting,Whipandfollowafter!
  IV
  SUNSET
  IstoodamongtheboatsThesinkingsun,theangrysun,AcrossthesullenwaveLaidthesuddenstrengthofhisredwrathLiketoashakenglaive:——
  OrdidthesunpauseinthewestToliftaswordatme,Orwasitshe,orwasitshe,RoseforaninstantonsomecrestAndpluckedtheredbladefromherbreastAndbrandisheditatme?
  THETAVERNOFDESPAIR
  THEwraithsofmurderedhopesandlovesComewhisperingatthedoor,ComecreepingthroughtheweepingmistThatdrapesthebarrenmoor;
  Butwewithinhaveturnedthekey’GainstHopeandLoveandCare,WhereWitkeepstrystwithFolly,atTheTavernofDespair。
  AndwehavecomebydiverswaysTokeepthismerrytryst,ButfewofushavekeptwithinTheNarrowWay,Iwist;
  ForwearethosewhoseamplerwitsAndheartshaveprovedourcurse——
  ForedoomedtokenthebetterthingsAndayetodotheworse!
  Longsincewelearnedtomockourselves;
  Andfromself—mockeryfellToheedlesslaughterinthefaceOfHeaven,Earth,andHell。
  Wequiver’neath,andmock,God’srod;
  Wefeel,andmock,Hiswrath;
  WemockourownbloodonthethornsThatrimthe"PrimrosePath。"
  WemocktheeerieglimmeringshapesThatrangetheouterwold,WemockourowncoldheartsbecauseTheyaresodeadandcold;
  WefloutthethingswemighthavebeenHadselftoselfprovedtrue,Wemocktherosesflungaway,Wemockthegarneredrue;
  Thefatesthatgibehavelessonedus;