butyo'rbutaladaftera'。'Thiswasnotconciliatoryspeech,andjustputthelaststroketoPhilip'sfitofill—temper。'I'mnotformyteato—night,'saidhe,toHester,whenallwasready。
'Sylvie'snothere,andnothingisnice,orasitshouldbe。I'llgoandsettoont'stock—taking。Don'tyo'hurry,Hester;stopandchatabitwithth'oldlady。''Nay,Philip,'saidHester,'thou'ssadlytired;justtakethiscupo'
tea;Sylvia'llbegrievedifyo'haven'tsomething。''Sylviadoesn'tcarewhetherI'mfullorfasting,'repliedhe,impatientlyputtingasidethecup。'Ifshedidshe'dha'takencaretobein,andha'
seentothingsbeingasIlikethem。'NowingeneralPhilipwastheleastparticularofmenaboutmeals;andtodoSylviajustice,shewasscrupulouslyattentivetoeveryhouseholddutyinwhicholdPhoebewouldallowhertomeddle,andalwayscarefultoseeafterherhusband'scomforts。ButPhilipwastoovexedatherabsencetoperceivetheinjusticeofwhathewassaying,norwasheawarehowBellRobsonhadbeenattendingtowhathesaid。Butshewassadlydiscomfitedbyit,understandingjustenoughofthegrievanceinhandtothinkthatherdaughterwasneglectfulofthosedutieswhichsheherselfhadalwaysregardedasparamounttoallothers;norcouldHesterconvinceherthatPhiliphadnotmeantwhathesaid;neithercouldsheturnthepooroldwoman'sthoughtsfromthewordswhichhadcausedherdistress。PresentlySylviacamein,brightandcheerful,althoughbreathlesswithhurry。'Oh,'saidshe,takingoffherwetshawl,'we'vehadtoshelterfromsuchastormofrain,babyandme——butsee!she'snonetheworseforit,asbonnyasiver,blessher。'HesterbegansomespeechofadmirationforthechildinordertopreventBellfromdeliveringthelectureshefeltsurewascomingdownontheunsuspectingSylvia;butallinvain。'Philip'sbeencomplainingonthee,Sylvie,'saidBell,inthewayinwhichshehadspokentoherdaughterwhenshewasalittlechild;graveandsevereintoneandlook,morethaninwords。'Iforgetjustlywhatabout,buthespokeonthyneglectinghimcontinual。It'snotright,mylass,it'snotright;awomanshould——butmyhead'sverytired,andallIcanthinkontosayis,it'snotright。''Philipbeencomplainingofme,andtomother!'saidSylvia,readytoburstintotears,sogrievedandangrywasshe。'No!'saidHester,'thymotherhastakenitalittletoostrong;hewerevexedlikeathisteanotbeingready。'Sylviasaidnomore,butthebrightcolourfadedfromhercheek,andthecontractionofcarereturnedtoherbrow。Sheoccupiedherselfwithtakingoffherbaby'swalkingthings。Hesterlingered,anxioustosootheandmakepeace;shewaslookingsorrowfullyatSylvia,whenshesawtearsdroppingonthebaby'scloak,andthenitseemedasifshemustspeakawordofcomfortbeforegoingtotheshop—work,wheresheknewshewasexpectedbybothPhilipandCoulson。Shepouredoutacupoftea,andcomingcloseuptoSylvia,andkneelingdownbyher,shewhispered,——'Justtakehimthisintot'ware—room;it'llputalltorightsifthou'lltakeittohimwi'thyownhands。'Sylvialookedup,andHesterthenmorefullysawhowshehadbeencrying。
Shewhisperedinreply,forfearofdisturbinghermother,——'Idon'tmindanythingbuthisspeakingillonmetomother。IknowI'mforivertryingandtryingtobeagoodwifetohim,an'it'sverydullwork;harderthanyo'thinkon,Hester,——an'Iwouldha'beenhomeforteato—nightonlyIwasafearedofbabygettingwetwi't'stormo'hailaswehaddownont'shore;andweshelteredunderarock。It'sawearycominghometothisdarkplace,andtofindmyownmothersetagainstme。'Takehimhistea,likeagoodlassie。I'llanswerforithe'llbeallright。Amantakesithardlywhenhecomesintired,a—thinkinghiswife'11betheretocheerhimupabit,tofindheroff,andniverknownoughtoft'reasonwhy。''I'mgladenoughI'vegettenababy,'saidSylvia,'butforaughtelseIwishI'dniverbeenmarried,Ido!''Hushthee,lass!'saidHester,risingupindignant;'nowthatisasin。
Eh!ifthouonlyknewtheloto'somefolk。Butlet'stalknomoreonthat,thatcannotbehelped;go,takehimhistea,forit'sasadthingtothinkonhimfastingallthistime。'Hester'svoicewasraisedbythesimplefactofherchangeofposition;
andthewordfastingcaughtMrsRobson'sear,asshesateatherknittingbythechimney—corner。'Fasting?hesaidthoudidn'tcareifhewerefullorfasting。Lassie!
it'snotrightinthee,Isay;go,takehimhisteaatonce。'Sylviarose,andgaveupthebaby,whichshehadbeensuckling,toNancy,whohavingdoneherwashing,hadcomeforhercharge,toputittobed。
Sylviakisseditfondly,makingalittlemoanofsad,passionatetendernessasshedidso。Thenshetookthecupoftea;butshesaid,ratherdefiantly,toHester,——'I'llgotohimwithit,becausemotherbidsme,andit'lleasehermind。'Thenloudertohermother,sheadded,——'Mother,I'lltakehimhistea,thoughIcouldn'thelpthebeingout。'Iftheactitselfwasconciliatory,thespiritinwhichshewasgoingtodoitwasthereverse。Hesterfollowedherslowlyintotheware—room,withintentionaldelay,thinkingthatherpresencemightbeanobstacletotheirmutuallyunderstandingoneanother。SylviaheldthecupandplateofbreadandbutterouttoPhilip,butavoidedmeetinghiseye,andsaidnotawordofexplanation,orregret,orself—justification。Ifshehadspoken,thougheversocrossly,Philipwouldhavebeenrelieved,andwouldhavepreferredittohersilence。Hewantedtoprovokehertospeech,butdidnotknowhowtobegin。'Thou'sbeenoutagainwanderingonthatsea—shore!'saidhe。Shedidnotanswerhim。'Icannotthinkwhat'salwaystakingtheethere,whenonewouldha'thoughtawalkuptoEsdalewouldbefarmoresheltered,bothfortheeandbabyinsuchweatherasthis。Thou'llbehavingthatbabyillsomeofthesedays。'Atthis,shelookedupathim,andherlipsmovedasthoughsheweregoingtosaysomething。Oh,howhewishedshewould,thattheymightcometoawholesomequarrel,andamakingfriendsagain,andatenderkissing,inwhichhemightwhisperpenitenceforallhishastywords,orunreasonablevexation。Butshehadcomeresolvednottospeak,forfearofshowingtoomuchpassion,toomuchemotion。Onlyasshewasgoingawaysheturnedandsaid,——'Philip,motherhasn'tmanymoreyearstolive;dunnotgrieveher,andsetheragain'mebyfindingfaultwi'meaforeher。Ourbeingwedwereagreatmistake;butbeforet'pooroldwidow—womanletusmakeasifwewerehappy。''Sylvie!Sylvie!'hecalledafterher。Shemusthaveheard,butshedidnotturn。Hewentafterher,andseizedherbythearmratherroughly;
shehadstunghimtotheheartwithhercalmwords,whichseemedtorevealalong—formedconviction。'Sylvie!'saidhe,almostfiercely,'whatdoyo'meanbywhatyou'vesaid?
Speak!Iwillhaveananswer。'Healmostshookher:shewashalffrightenedbyhisvehemenceofbehaviour,whichshetookforpureanger,whileitwastheoutburstofagonizedandunrequitedlove。'Letmego!Oh,Philip,yo'hurtme!'JustatthismomentHestercameup;Philipwasashamedofhispassionatewaysinherserenepresence,andloosenedhisgraspofhiswife,andsheranaway;ranintohermother'semptyroom,astoasolitaryplace,andthereburstintothatsobbing,miserablecryingwhichweinstinctivelyknowistoosurelylesseningthelengthofourdaysonearthtobeindulgedinoften。Whenshehadexhaustedthatfirstburstandlayweakandquietforatime,shelistenedindreadingexpectationofthesoundofhisfootstepcominginsearchofhertomakefriends。Buthewasdetainedbelowonbusiness,andnevercame。Instead,hermothercameclamberingupthestairs;shewasnowinthehabitofgoingtobedbetweensevenandeight,andto—nightshewasretiringatevenanearlierhour。Sylviasprangupanddrewdownthewindow—blind,andmadeherfaceandmannerascomposedaspossible,inordertosootheandcomforthermother'slastwakinghours。Shehelpedhertobedwithgentlepatience;therestraintimposeduponherbyhertenderfiliallovewasgoodforher,thoughallthetimeshewaslongingtobealonetohaveanotherwildoutburst。Whenhermotherwasgoingofftosleep,Sylviawenttolookatherbaby,alsoinasoftsleep。Thenshegazedoutattheeveningsky,highabovethetiledroofsoftheoppositehouses,andthelongingtobeoutunderthepeacefulheavenstookpossessionofheroncemore。'It'smyonlycomfort,'saidshetoherself;'andthere'snoearthlyharminit。Iwouldha'beenathometohistea,ifIcould;butwhenhedoesn'twantme,andmotherdoesn'twantme,andbabyiseitherinmyarmsorasleep;
why,I'llgoanycrymyfilloutunderyongreatquietsky。Icannotstayint'housetobechokedupwi'mytears,noryettohavehimcomingaboutmeeitherforscoldingorpeace—making。'Sosheputonherthingsandwentoutagain;thistimealongtheHighStreet,andupthelongflightsofstepstowardstheparishchurch,andthereshestoodandthoughtthathereshehadfirstmetKinraid,atDarley'sburying,andshetriedtorecalltheverylookofallthesad,earnestfacesroundtheopengrave——thewholescene,infact;andletherselfgivewaytothemiserableregretsshehadsooftentriedtocontrol。Thenshewalkedon,cryingbitterly,almostunawarestoherself;onthroughthehigh,bleakfieldsatthesummitofthecliffs;fieldsboundedbyloosestonefences,andfarfromallsightofthehabitationofman。But,below,thesearoseandraged;itwashighwateratthehighesttide,andthewindblewgustilyfromtheland,vainlycombatingthegreatwavesthatcameinvinciblyupwitharoarandanimpotentfuriousdashagainstthebaseofthecliffsbelow。Sylviaheardthesoundofthepassionaterushandreboundofmanywaters,liketheshockofmightyguns,whenevertheothersoundoftheblusteringgustywindwaslulledforaninstant。Shewasmorequietedbythistempestoftheelementsthanshewouldhavebeenhadallnatureseemedasstillasshehadimaginedittobewhileshewasyetin—doorsandonlysawapartoftheserenesky。Shefixedonacertainpoint,inherownmind,whichshewouldreach,andthenturnbackagain。Itwaswheretheoutlineofthelandcurvedinwards,dippingintoalittlebay。Herethefield—pathshehadhithertofolloweddescendedsomewhatabruptlytoaclusteroffishermen'scottages,hardlylargeenoughtobecalledavillage;andthenthenarrowroadwaywounduptherisinggroundtillitagainreachedthesummitofthecliffsthatstretchedalongthecoastformanyandmanyamile。Sylviasaidtoherselfthatshewouldturnhomewardswhenshecamewithinsightofthiscove,——HeadlingtonCove,theycalledit。Allthewayalongshehadmetnoonesinceshehadleftthetown,butjustasshehadgotoverthelaststile,orladderofstepping—stones,intothefieldfromwhichthepathdescended,shecameuponanumberofpeople——quiteacrowd,infact;menmovingforwardinasteadyline,haulingatarope,achain,orsomethingofthatkind;boyschildren,andwomenholdingbabiesintheirarms,asifallwerefaintocomeoutandpartakeinsomegeneralinterest。Theykeptwithinacertaindistancefromtheedgeofthecliff,andSylvia,advancingalittle,nowsawthereasonwhy。Thegreatcablethemenheldwasattachedtosomepartofasmack,whichcouldnowbeseenbyherinthewatersbelow,halfdismantled,andallbutawreck,yetwithherdeckcoveredwithlivingmen,asfarasthewaninglightwouldallowhertosee。Thevesselstrainedtogetfreeofthestrongguidingcable;thetidewasturning,thewindwasblowingoffshore,andSylviaknewwithoutbeingtold,thatalmostparalleltothiswasalineofsunkenrocksthathadbeenfataltomanyashipbeforenow,ifshehadtriedtotaketheinnerchannelinsteadofkeepingouttoseaformiles,andthensteeringinstraightforMonkshavenport。Andtheshipsthathadbeenthuslosthadbeeningoodplightandordercomparedtothisvessel,whichseemednothingbutahullwithoutmastorsail。Bythistime,thecrowd——thefishermenfromthehamletdownbelow,withtheirwivesandchildren——allhadcomebutthebedridden——hadreachedtheplacewhereSylviastood。Thewomen,inastateofwildexcitement,rushedon,encouragingtheirhusbandsandsonsbywords,evenwhiletheyhinderedthembyactions;and,fromtimetotime,oneofthemwouldruntotheedgeofthecliffandshoutoutsomebravewordsofhopeinhershrillvoicetothecrewonthedeckbelow。Whethertheselatterhearditornot,noonecouldtell;butitseemedasifallhumanvoicemustbelostinthetempestuousstunandtumultofwindandwave。Itwasgenerallyawomanwithachildinherarmswhosoemployedherself。Asthestrainuponthecablebecamegreater,andthegroundonwhichtheystrovemoreuneven,everyhandwasneededtoholdandpush,andallthosewomenwhowereunencumberedheldbythe。dearropeonwhichsomanylivesweredepending。Ontheycame,alonglineofhumanbeings,blackagainsttheruddysunsetsky。AstheycamenearSylvia,awomancriedout,——'Dunnotstandidle,lass,buthoudonwi'us;there'smanyabonnylifeatstake,andmanyamother'shearta—hangin'onthisbito'hemp。Tak'
houd,lass,andgiveafirmgrip,andGodremembertheei'thyneed。'Sylvianeedednosecondword;aplacewasmadeforher,andinaninstantmoretheropewaspullingagainstherhandstillitseemedasthoughshewasholdingfireinherbarepalms。Neveraoneofthemthoughtoflettinggoforaninstant,thoughwhenallwasovermanyoftheirhandswererawandbleeding。Somestrong,experiencedfishermenpassedawordalongthelinefromtimetotime,givingdirectionsastohowitshouldbeheldaccordingtovaryingoccasions;butfewamongtheresthadbreathorstrengthenoughtospeak。Thewomenandchildrenthataccompaniedthemranonbefore,breakingdowntheloosestonefences,soastoobviatedelayorhindrance;theytalkedcontinually,exhorting,encouraging,explaining。Fromtheirmanywordsandfragmentarysentences,SylvialearntthatthevesselwassupposedtobeaNewcastlesmacksailingfromLondon,thathadtakenthedangerousinnerchanneltosavetime,andhadbeencaughtinthestorm,whichshewastoocrazytowithstand;andthatifbysomedaringcontrivanceofthefisher—menwhohadfirstseenherthecablehadnotbeengotashore,shewouldhavebeencastupontherocksbeforethis,and'allonboardperished。''Itweredayleetthen,'quothonewoman;'acouldseetheirfaces,theyweresonear。Theywereaspaleasdeadmen,an'onewasprayin'downonhisknees。TherewasaKing'sofficeraboard,forIsawt'gowdabouthim。''He'dmaybecomefromthesehom'ardparts,andbecomin'toseehisownfolk;elseit'snocommonforking'sofficerstosailinaughtbutKing'sships。''Eh!butit'sgettin'dark!Seethere'st'leeghtsint'housesint'NewTown!T'grassiscrispin'wi't'whitefrostunderoutfeet。It'llbeahardtugroundt'point,andthenshe'llbegettin'intostillwaters。'Onemoregreatpushandmightystrain,andthedangerwaspast;thevessel——orwhatremainedofher——wasintheharbour,amongthelightsandcheerfulsoundsofsafety。Thefishermensprangdowntheclifftothequay—side,anxioustoseethemenwhoselivestheyhadsaved;thewomen,wearyandover—excited,begantocry。NotSylvia,however;herfountoftearshadbeenexhaustedearlierintheday:herprincipalfeelingwasofgladnessandhighrejoicingthattheyweresavedwhohadbeensoneartodeathnothalfanhourbefore。Shewouldhavelikedtohaveseenthemen,andshakenhandswiththemallround。Butinsteadshemustgohome,andwellwoulditbewithherifshewasintimeforherhusband'ssupper,andescapedanynoticeofherabsence。
Sosheseparatedherselffromthegroupsofwomenwhosateonthegrassinthechurchyard,awaitingthereturnofsuchoftheirhusbandsascouldresistthefascinationsoftheMonkshavenpublichouses。AsSylviawentdownthechurchsteps,shecameupononeofthefishermenwhohadhelpedtotowthevesselintoport。'Therewasseventeenmenandboysaboardher,andanavy—lieutenantashadcomedaspassenger。Itwereagoodjobaswecouldmanageher。Good—neettothee,thou'llsleepallt'sounderforhavin'lentahand。'Thestreetairfelthotandcloseafterthesharpkeenatmosphereoftheheightsabove;thedecentshopsandhouseshadalltheirshuttersputup,andwerepreparingfortheirearlybed—time。Alreadylightsshonehereandthereintheupperchambers,andSylviascarcelymetanyone。Shewentroundupthepassagefromthequay—side,andinbytheprivatedoor。Allwasstill;thebasinsofbreadandmilkthatsheandherhusbandwereinthehabitofhavingforsupperstoodinthefenderbeforethefire,eachwithaplateuponthem。Nancyhadgonetobed,Phoebedozedinthekitchen;Philipwasstillintheware—room,arranginggoodsandtakingstockalongwithCoulson,forHesterhadgonehometohermother。SylviawasnotwillingtogoandseekoutPhilip,afterthemannerinwhichtheyhadparted。Allthedespondencyofherlifebecamepresenttoheragainasshesatedownwithinherhome。Shehadforgottenitinherinterestandexcitement,butnowitcamebackagain。Stillshewashungry,andyouthful,andtired。Shetookherbasinup,andwaseatinghersupperwhensheheardacryofherbabyupstairs,andranawaytoattendtoit。Whenithadbeenfedandhushedawaytosleep,shewentintoseehermother,attractedbysomeunusualnoiseinherroom。ShefoundMrsRobsonawake,andrestless,andailing;dwellingmuchonwhatPhiliphadsaidinhisangeragainstSylvia。Itwasreallynecessaryforherdaughtertoremainwithher;soSylviastoleout,andwentquicklydownstairstoPhilip——nowsittingtiredandwornout,andeatinghissupperwithlittleornoappetite——andtoldhimshemeanttopassthenightwithhermother。Hisanswerofacquiescencewassoshortandcareless,orsoitseemedtoher,thatshedidnottellhimanymoreofwhatshehaddoneorseenthatevening,orevendwelluponanydetailsofhermother'sindisposition。Assoonasshehadlefttheroom,Philipsetdownhishalf—finishedbasinofbreadandmilk,andsatelong,hisfacehiddeninhisfoldedarms。Thewickofthecandlegrewlongandblack,andfell,andsputtered,andputtered;
hesateon,unheedingeitheritorthepalegrayfirethatwasdyingout——deadatlast。EndofPartThreechapter33CHAPTERXXXIIIANAPPARITIONMrsRobsonwasverypoorlyallnightlong。Uneasythoughtsseemedtohauntandperplexherbrain,andsheneithersleptnorwoke,butwasrestlessanduneasyinhertalkandmovements。
Sylvialaydownbyher,butgotsolittlesleep,thatatlengthshepreferredsittingintheeasy—chairbythebedside。Hereshedroppedofftoslumberinspiteofherself;thesceneoftheeveningbeforeseemedtoberepeated;thecriesofthemanypeople,theheavyroaranddashofthethreateningwaves,wererepeatedinherears;andsomethingwassaidtoherthroughalltheconflictingnoises,——whatitwasshecouldnotcatch,thoughshestrainedtohearthehoarsemurmurthat,inherdream,shebelievedtoconveyameaningoftheutmostimportancetoher。
Thisdream,thatmysterious,onlyhalf—intelligiblesound,recurredwhenevershedozed,andherinabilitytohearthewordsuttereddistressedhersomuch,thatatlengthshesateboltupright,resolvedtosleepnomore。Hermotherwastalkinginahalf—consciousway;Philip'sspeechoftheeveningbeforewasevidentlyrunninginhermind。
'Sylvie,ifthou'renotagoodwifetohim,it'lljustbreakmyheartoutright。Awomanshouldobeyherhusband,andnotgoherowngait。Ineverleavethehousewi'outtellingfather,andgettinghisleave。'
Andthenshebegantocrypitifully,andtosayunconnectedthings,tillSylvia,tosootheher,tookherhand,andpromisednevertoleavethehousewithoutaskingherhusband'spermission,thoughinmakingthispromise,shefeltasifsheweresacrificingherlastpleasuretohermother'swish;forsheknewwellenoughthatPhilipwouldalwaysraiseobjectionstotherambleswhichremindedherofheroldfreeopen—airlife。
Buttocomfortandcherishhermothershewouldhavedoneanything;
yetthisverymorningthatwasdawning,shemustgoandaskhispermissionforasimpleerrand,orbreakherword。
Sheknewfromexperiencethatnothingquietedhermothersowellasbalm—tea;itmightbethattheherbreallypossessedsomesedativepower;
itmightbeonlyearlyfaith,andoftenrepeatedexperience,butithadalwayshadatranquillizingeffect;andmorethanonce,duringtherestlesshoursofthenight,MrsRobsonhadaskedforit;butSylvia'sstockoflastyear'sdeadleaveswasexhausted。StillsheknewwhereaplantofbalmgrewintheshelteredcornerofHaytersbankFarmgarden;sheknewthatthetenantswhohadsucceededthemintheoccupationofthefarmhadhadtoleaveitinconsequenceofadeath,andthattheplacewasunoccupied;
andinthedarknessshehadplannedthatifshecouldleavehermotherafterthedawncame,andshehadattendedtoherbaby,shewouldwalkquicklytotheoldgarden,andgatherthetendersprigswhichshewassuretofindthere。
NowshemustgoandaskPhilip;andtillsheheldherbabytoherbreast,shebitterlywishedthatshewerefreefromthedutiesandchainsofmatrimony。
Butthetouchofitswaxenfingers,theholdofitslittlemouth,madeherrelaxintodocilityandgentleness。ShegaveitbacktoNancytobedressed,andsoftlyopenedthedoorofPhilip'sbed—room。
'Philip!'saidshe,gently。'Philip!'
Hestartedupfromdreamsofher;ofher,angry。Hesawherthere,ratherpalewithhernight'swatchandanxiety,butlookingmeek,andalittlebeseeching。
'Motherhashadsuchabadnight!shefanciedonceassomebalm—teawoulddohergood——itallaysusedto:butmydriedbalmisallgone,andIthoughtthere'dbesuretobesomeint'oldgardenatHaytersbank。Feytherplantedabushjustformother,wheereitallayscameupearly,night'
oldelder—tree;andifyo'dnotmind,Icouldruntheerewhileshesleeps,andbebackagaininanhour,andit'snotsevennow。'
'Thou'snotwearthyselfoutwithrunning,Sylvie,'saidPhilip,eagerly;
'I'llgetupandgomyself,or,perhaps,'continuedhe,catchingtheshadowthatwascomingoverherface,'thou'drathergothyself:it'sonlythatI'msoafraidofthytiringthyself。'
'It'llnottireme,'saidSylvia。'MoreIwasmarried,Iwasoutoftenfarfartherthanthat,afieldtofetchupt'kine,beforemybreakfast。'
'Well,goifthouwill,'saidPhilip。'Butgetsomewhattoeatfirst,anddon'thurry;there'snoneedforthat。'
Shehadgotherhatandshawl,andwasoffbeforehehadfinishedhislastwords。
ThelongHighStreetwasalmostemptyofpeopleatthatearlyhour;
onesidewasentirelycoveredbythecoolmorningshadowwhichlayonthepavement,andcreptuptheoppositehousestillonlythetopmoststorycaughttherosysunlight。Upthehill—road,throughthegapinthestonewall,acrossthedewyfields,Sylviawentbytheveryshortestpathsheknew。
ShehadonlyoncebeenatHaytersbanksinceherwedding—day。Onthatoccasiontheplacehadseemedstrangelyanddissonantlychangedbythenumerouschildrenwhoweredivertingthemselvesbeforetheopendoor,andwhoseplay—thingsandclothesstrewedthehouse—place,andmadeitonebusysceneofconfusionanduntidiness,moreliketheCorneys'kitcheninformertimes,thanhermother'sorderlyandquietabode。Thoselittlechildrenwerefatherlessnow;andthehousewasshutup,awaitingtheentryofsomenewtenant。Therewerenoshutterstoshut;thelonglowwindowwasblinkingintheraysofthemorningsun;thehouseandcow—housedoorswereclosed,andnopoultrywanderedaboutthefieldinsearchofstraygrainsofcorn,orearlyworms。Itwasastrangeandunfamiliarsilence,andstrucksolemnlyonSylvia'smind。Onlyathrushintheoldorcharddowninthehollow,outofsight,whistledandgurgledwithcontinualshrillmelody。
Sylviawentslowlypastthehouseanddownthepathleadingtothewild,desertedbitofgarden。Shesawthatthelasttenantshadhadapumpsunkforthem,andresentedtheinnovation,asthoughthewellshewaspassingcouldfeeltheinsult。Overitgrewtwohawthorntrees;onthebenttrunkofoneofthemsheusedtosit,longago:thecharmofthepositionbeingenhancedbythepossibledangeroffallingintothewellandbeingdrowned。
Therustyunusedchainwaswoundroundthewindlass;thebucketwasfallingtopiecesfromdryness。Aleancatcamefromsomeouthouse,andmewedpitifullywithhunger;accompanyingSylviatothegarden,asifgladofsomehumancompanionship,yetrefusingtoallowitselftobetouched。Primrosesgrewintheshelteredplaces,justastheyformerlydid;andmadetheuncultivatedgroundseemlessdesertedthanthegarden,wherethelastyear'sweedswererottingaway,andcumberingtheground。
Sylviaforcedherwaythroughtheberrybushestotheherb—plot,andpluckedthetenderleavesshehadcometoseek;sighingalittleallthetime。Thensheretracedhersteps;pausedsoftlybeforethehouse—door,andenteredtheporchandkissedthesenselesswood。
Shetriedtotemptthepoorgauntcatintoherarms,meaningtocarryithomeandbefriendit;butitwasscaredbyherendeavourandranbacktoitshomeintheouthouse,makingagreenpathacrossthewhitedewofthemeadow。ThenSylviabegantohastenhome,thinking,andremembering——atthestilethatledintotheroadshewasbroughtshortup。
Someonestoodinthelanejustontheothersideofthegap;hisbackwastothemorningsun;allshesawatfirstwastheuniformofanavalofficer,sowellknowninMonkshaveninthosedays。
Sylviawenthurryingpasthim,notlookingagain,althoughherclothesalmostbrushedhis,ashestoodtherestill。Shehadnotgoneayard——no,nothalfayard——whenherheartleapedupandfellagaindeadwithinher,asifshehadbeenshot。
'Sylvia!'hesaid,inavoicetremulouswithjoyandpassionatelove。
'Sylvia!'
Shelookedround;hehadturnedalittle,sothatthelightfellstraightonhisface。Itwasbronzed,andthelineswerestrengthened;butitwasthesamefaceshehadlastseeninHaytersbankgullythreelongyearsago,andhadneverthoughttoseeinlifeagain。
Hewasclosetoherandheldouthisfondarms;shewentflutteringtowardstheirembrace,asifdrawnbytheoldfascination;butwhenshefeltthemcloseroundher,shestartedaway,andcriedoutwithagreatpitifulshriek,andputherhandsuptoherforeheadasiftryingtoclearawaysomebewilderingmist。
Thenshelookedathimoncemore,aterriblestoryinhereyes,ifhecouldbuthavereadit。
Twicesheopenedherstifflipstospeak,andtwicethewordswereoverwhelmedbythesurgesofhermisery,whichborethembackintothedepthsofherheart。
Hethoughtthathehadcomeuponhertoosuddenly,andheattemptedtosootheherwithsoftmurmursoflove,andtowoohertohisoutstretchedhungryarmsoncemore。Butwhenshesawthismotionofhis,shemadeagestureasthoughpushinghimaway;andwithaninarticulatemoanofagonysheputherhandstoherheadoncemore,andturningawaybegantorunblindlytowardsthetownforprotection。
Foraminuteorsohewasstunnedwithsurpriseatherbehaviour;andthenhethoughtitaccountedforbytheshockofhisaccost,andthatsheneededtimetounderstandtheunexpectedjoy。Sohefollowedherswiftly,everkeepingherinview,butnottryingtoovertakehertoospeedily。
'Ihavefrightenedmypoorlove,'hekeptthinking。Andbythisthoughthetriedtorepresshisimpatienceandcheckthespeedhelongedtouse;
yethewasalwayssonearbehindthatherquickenedsenseheardhiswell—knownfootstepsfollowing,andamadnotionflashedacrossherbrainthatshewouldgotothewidefullriver,andendthehopelessmiseryshefeltenshroudingher。Therewasasurehiding—placefromallhumanreproachandheavymortalwoebeneaththerushingwatersbornelandwardsbythemorningtide。
Noonecantellwhatchangedhercourse;perhapsthethoughtofhersuckingchild;perhapshermother;perhapsanangelofGod;nooneonearthknows,butassheranalongthequay—sidesheallatonceturnedupanentry,andthroughanopendoor。
He,followingallthetime,cameintoaquietdarkparlour,withaclothandtea—thingsonthetablereadyforbreakfast;thechangefromthebrightsunnyairoutofdoorstothedeepshadowofthisroommadehimthinkforthefirstmomentthatshehadpassedon,andthatnoonewasthere,andhestoodforaninstantbaffled,andhearingnosoundbutthebeatingofhisownheart;butanirrepressiblesobbinggaspmadehimlookround,andtherehesawhercoweredbehindthedoor,herfacecoveredtightup,andsharpshuddersgoingthroughherwholeframe。
'Mylove,mydarling!'saidhe,goinguptoher,andtryingtoraiseher,andtoloosenherhandsawayfromherface。'I'vebeentoosuddenfortheeitwasthoughtlessinme;butIhavesolookedforwardtothistime,andseeingtheecomealongthefield,andgopastme,butIshouldha'beenmoretenderandcarefulofthee。Nay!letmehaveanotherlookofthysweetface。'
Allthishewhisperedintheoldtonesofmanoeuvringlove,inthatvoiceshehadyearnedandhungeredtohearinlife,andhadnotheard,forallherlonging,saveinherdreams。
Shetriedtocrouchmoreandmoreintothecorner,intothehiddenshadow——tosinkintothegroundoutofsight。
Oncemorehespoke,beseechinghertoliftupherface,tolethimhearherspeak。
Butsheonlymoaned。
'Sylvia!'saidhe,thinkinghecouldchangehistactics,andpiqueherintospeaking,thathewouldmakeapretenceofsuspicionandoffence。
'Sylvia!onewouldthinkyouweren'tgladtoseemebackagainatlength。
Ionlycameinlatelastnight,andmyfirstthoughtonwakeningwasofyou;ithasbeeneversinceIleftyou。'
Sylviatookherhandsawayfromherface;itwasgrayasthefaceofdeath;herawfuleyeswerepassionlessinherdespair。
'Wherehaveyo'been?'sheasked,inslow,hoarsetones,asifhervoicewerehalfstrangledwithinher。
'Been!'saidhe,aredlightcomingintohiseyes,ashebenthislooksuponher;now,indeed,atrueandnotanassumedsuspicionenteringhismind。
'Been!'herepeated;then,comingastepnearertoher,andtakingherhand,nottenderlythistime,butwitharesolutiontobesatisfied。
'Didnotyourcousin——Hepburn,Imean——didnothetellyou?——hesawthepress—gangseizeme,——Igavehimamessagetoyou——IbadeyoukeeptruetomeasIwouldbetoyou。'
Betweeneveryclauseofthisspeechhepausedandgaspedforheranswer;
butnonecame。Hereyesdilatedandheldhissteadygazeprisoneraswithamagicalcharm——neithercouldlookawayfromtheother'swild,searchinggaze。Whenhehadended,shewassilentforamoment,thenshecriedout,shrillandfierce,——
'Philip!'Noanswer。
Wilderandshrillerstill,'Philip!'shecried。
Hewasinthedistantware—roomcompletingthelastnight'sworkbeforetheregularshophoursbegan;beforebreakfast,also,thathiswifemightnotfindhimwaitingandimpatient。
Heheardhercry;itcutthroughdoors,andstillair,andgreatbalesofwoollenstuff;hethoughtthatshehadhurtherself,thathermotherwasworse,thatherbabywasill,andhehastenedtothespotwhencethecryproceeded。
Onopeningthedoorthatseparatedtheshopfromthesitting—room,hesawthebackofanavalofficer,andhiswifeontheground,huddledupinaheap;whensheperceivedhimcomein,shedraggedherselfupbymeansofachair,gropinglikeablindperson,andcameandstoodfacinghim。
Theofficerturnedfiercelyround,andwouldhavecometowardsPhilip,whowassobewilderedbythescenethatevenyethedidnotunderstandwhothestrangerwas,didnotperceiveforaninstantthathesawtherealizationofhisgreatestdread。
ButSylvialaidherhandonKinraid'sarm,andassumedtoherselftherightofspeech。Philipdidnotknowhervoice,itwassochanged。
'Philip,'shesaid,'thisisKinraidcomebackagaintowedme。Heisalive;hehasniverbeendead,onlytakenbyt'press—gang。Andhesaysyo'sawit,andknewitallt'time。Speak,wasitso?'
Philipknewnotwhattosay,whithertoturn,underwhatrefugeofwordsoractstoshelter。
Sylvia'sinfluencewaskeepingKinraidsilent,buthewasrapidlypassingbeyondit。
'Speak!'hecried,looseninghimselffromSylvia'slightgrasp,andcomingtowardsPhilip;withathreateninggesture。'DidInotbidyoutellherhowitwas?DidInotbidyousayhowIwouldbefaithfultoher,andshewastobefaithfultome?Oh!youdamnedscoundrel!haveyoukeptitfromherallthattime,andletherthinkmedead,orfalse?Takethat!'
Hisclosedfistwasuptostriketheman,whohunghisheadwithbitterestshameandmiserableself—reproach;butSylviacameswiftbetweentheblowanditsvictim。
'Charley,thoushan'tstrikehim,'shesaid。'Heisadamnedscoundrel'
(thiswassaidinthehardest,quietesttone)'butheismyhusband。'
'Oh!thoufalseheart!'exclaimedKinraid,turningsharponher。'IfeverItrustedwoman,Itrustedyou,SylviaRobson。'
Hemadeasthoughthrowingherfromhim,withagestureofcontemptthatstunghertolife。
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