'Oh,Charley!'shecried,springingtohim,'dunnotcutmetothequick;
havepityonme,thoughhehadnone。Ididsolovethee;itwasmyveryheart—stringsasgavewaywhentheytoldmethouwasdrowned——feyther,andth'Corneys,andall,iverybody。Thyhatandt'bito'ribbonIgavetheewerefounddrenchedanddrippingwi'sea—water;andIwentmourningfortheeallthedaylong——dunnotturnawayfromme;onlyhearkenthisonce,andthenkillmedead,andI'llblessyo',——andhaveniverbeenmysel'
since;niverceasedtofeelt'sungrowdarkandth'airchillanddrearywhenIthoughtont'timewhenthouwasalive。Idid,myCharley,myownlove!AndIthoughtthouwasdeadforiver,andIwishedIwerelyingbesidethee。Oh,Charley!Philip,theere,wherehestandscouldtellyo'thiswastrue。Philip,wasn'titso?'
'WouldGodIweredead!'moanedforththeunhappy,guiltyman。ButshehadturnedtoKinraid,andwasspeakingagaintohim,andneitherofthemheardorheededhim——theyweredrawingcloserandclosertogether——she,withhercheeksandeyesaflame,talkingeagerly。
'Andfeytherwastakenup,andallforsettingsomefreeast'press—ganghadgottenbyafoultrick;andhewereputi'Yorkprison,andtried,andhung!——hung!Charley!——goodkindfeytherwashungonagallows;andmotherlosthersenseandgrewsillyingrief,andwewereliketobeturnedoutont'wideworld,andpoormotherdateless——andIthoughtyo'weredead——oh!Ithoughtyo'weredead,Idid——oh,Charley,Charley!'
Bythistimetheywereineachother'sarms,shewithherheadonhisshoulder,cryingasifherheartwouldbreak。
Philipcameforwardsandtookholdofhertopullheraway;butCharleyheldhertight,mutelydefyingPhilip。UnconsciouslyshewasPhilip'sprotection,inthathourofdanger,fromablowwhichmighthavebeenhisdeathifstrongwillcouldhaveaidedittokill。
'Sylvie!'saidhe,graspinghertight。'Listentome。Hedidn'tloveyo'asIdid。Hehadlovedotherwomen。I,yo'——yo'alone。Helovedothergirlsbeforeyo',andhadleftoffloving'em。I——IwishGodwouldfreemyheartfromthepang;butitwillgoontillIdie,whetheryo'lovemeornot。Andthen——wherewasI?Oh!thatverynightthathewastaken,Iwasa—thinkingonyo'andonhim;andImightha'givenyo'hismessage,butIheardthemspeakingofhimasknewhimwell;talkingofhisfalsefickleways。HowwasItoknowhewouldkeeptruetothee?Itmightbeasininme,Icannotsay;myheartandmysensearegonedeadwithinme。
Iknowthis,I'velovedyo'asnomanbutmeeverlovedbefore。Havesomepityandforgivenessonme,ifit'sonlybecauseI'vebeensotormentedwithmylove。'
Helookedatherwithfeverisheagerwistfulness;itfadedawayintodespairasshemadenosignofhavingevenheardhiswords。Heletgohisholdofher,andhisarmfelllooselybyhisside。
'Imaydie,'hesaid,'formylifeisended!'
'Sylvia!'spokeoutKinraid,boldandfervent,'yourmarriageisnomarriage。Youweretrickedintoit。Youaremywife,nothis。Iamyourhusband;weplightedeachotherourtroth。See!hereismyhalfofthesixpence。'
Hepulleditoutfromhisbosom,tiedbyablackribbonroundhisneck。
'Whentheystrippedmeandsearchedmeinth'Frenchprison,Imanagedtokeepthis。Noliescanbreaktheoathwesworetoeachother。Icangetyourpretenceofamarriagesetaside。I'minfavourwithmyadmiral,andhe'lldoadealforme,andbackmeout。Comewithme;yourmarriageshallbesetaside,andwe'llbemarriedagain,allsquareandabove—board。
Comeaway。Leavethatdamnedfellowtorepentofthetrickheplayedanhonestsailor;we'llbetrue,whateverhascomeandgone。Come,Sylvia。'
Hisarmwasroundherwaist,andhewasdrawinghertowardsthedoor,hisfaceallcrimsonwitheagernessandhope。Justthenthebabycried。
'Hark!'saidshe,startingawayfromKinraid,'baby'scryingforme。
Hischild——yes,itishischild——I'dforgottenthat——forgottenall。I'llmakemyvownow,lestIlosemysel'again。I'llneverforgiveyonman,norlivewithhimashiswifeagain。Allthat'sdoneandended。He'sspoiltmylife,he'sspoiltitforaslongasiverIliveonthisearth;but'neitheryo'norhimshallspoilmysoul。Itgoeshardwi'me,Charley,itdoesindeed。I'lljustgiveyo'onekiss——onelittlekiss——andthen,sohelpmeGod,I'llniverseenorheartill——no,notthat,notthatisindeed——I'llniversee——surethat'senough——I'llneverseeyo'againonthissideheaven,sohelpmeGod!I'mboundandtied,butI'veswornmyoathtohimaswellasyo':there'sthingsIwilldo,andthere'sthingsIwon't。Kissmeoncemore。Godhelpme,he'sgone!'
chapter34CHAPTERXXXIVARECKLESSRECRUITShelayacrossachair,herarmshelplesslystretchedout,herfaceunseen。
Everynowandthenathrill'ranthroughherbody:shewastalkingtoherselfallthetimewithincessantlowincontinenceofwords。
Philipstoodnearher,motionless:hedidnotknowwhethershewasconsciousofhispresence;infact,heknewnothingbutthatheandsheweresunderedforever;hecouldonlytakeinthatoneidea,anditnumbedallotherthought。
Oncemoreherbabycriedforthecomfortshealonecouldgive。
Sherosetoherfeet,butstaggeredwhenshetriedtowalk;herglazedeyesfelluponPhilipasheinstinctivelymadeasteptoholdhersteady。
Nolightcameintohereyesanymorethanifshehadlookeduponaperfectstranger;notevenwastherethecontractionofdislike。Someotherfigurefilledhermind,andshesawhimnomorethanshesawtheinanimatetable。
Thatwayoflookingathimwitheredhimupmorethananysignofaversionwouldhavedone。
Hewatchedherlaboriouslyclimbthestairs,andvanishoutofsight;
andsatdownwithasuddenfeelingofextremebodilyweakness。
Thedoorofcommunicationbetweentheparlourandtheshopwasopened。
ThatwasthefirsteventofwhichPhiliptooknote;butPhoebehadcomeinunawarestohim,withtheintentionofremovingthebreakfastthingsonherreturnfrommarket,andseeingthemunused,andknowingthatSylviahadsateupallnightwithhermother,shehadgonebacktothekitchen。
Philiphadneitherseennorheardher。
NowCoulsoncamein,amazedatHepburn'snon—appearanceintheshop。
'Why!Philip,what'sado?Howillyo'look,man!'exclaimedhe,thoroughlyalarmedbyPhilip'sghastlyappearance。'What'sthematter?'
'I!'saidPhilip,slowlygatheringhisthoughts。'Whyshouldtherebeanythingthematter?'
Hisinstinct,quickertoactthanhisreason,madehimshrinkfromhismiserybeingnoticed,muchmoremadeanysubjectforexplanationorsympathy。
'Theremaybenothingthematterwi'thee,'saidCoulson,'butthou'sthelookofacorpseonthyface。Iwasafearedsomethingwaswrong,forit'shalf—pastnine,andtheesopunctual!'
HealmostguardedPhilipintotheshop,andkeptfurtivelywatching。
him,andperplexinghimselfwithPhilip'sodd,strangeways。
Hester,too,observedtheheavybroken—downexpressiononPhilip'sashenface,andherheartachedforhim;butafterthatfirstglance,whichtoldhersomuch,sheavoidedallappearanceofnoticingorwatching。Onlyashadowbroodedoverhersweet,calmface,andonceortwiceshesighedtoherself。
Itwasmarket—day,andpeoplecameinandout,bringingtheirstoreofgossipfromthecountry,orthetown——fromthefarmorthequay—side。
Amongthepiecesofnews,therescueofthesmackthenightbeforefurnishedalargetopic;andby—and—byPhilipheardanamethatstartledhimintoattention。
Thelandladyofasmallpublic—housemuchfrequentedbysailorswastalkingtoCoulson。
'TherewasasailoraboardofherasknowedKinraidbysight,inShields,yearsago;andhecalledhimbyhisnameaforetheywerewellouto't'
river。AndKinraidwasnowayssetup,forallhislieutenant'suniform(andeh!buttheysayhelookshandsomeinit!);buthetells'mallaboutit——howhewaspressedaboardaman—o'—war,an'forhisgoodconductweremadeawarrantofficer,boatswain,orsomething!'
Allthepeopleintheshopwerelisteningnow;Philipaloneseemedengrossedinfoldingupapieceofcloth,soastoleavenopossiblechanceofcreasesinit;yethelostnotasyllableofthegoodwoman'snarration。
She,pleasedwiththeenlargedaudiencehertalehadattracted,wentonwithfreshvigour。
'An'there'sagallantcaptain,oneSirSidneySmith,andhe'danotiono'goin'smackintoaFrenchport,an'carryin'offavesselfromrightundertheirverynoses;an'sayshe,"Whichofyo'Britishsailors'llgoalongwithmetodeathorglory?"SoKinraidstandsuplikeaman,an'
"I'llgowithyo',captain,"hesays。Sothey,an'someothersasbrave,wentoff,an'didtheirwork,an'choosewhativeritwas,theydiditfamously;
buttheygotcaughtbythemFrench,an'wereclappedintoprisoni'Franceforiversolong;butatlastonePhilip——Philipsomethin'(hewereaFrenchman,Iknow)——helped'emtoescape,inafishin'—boat。Buttheywerewelcomedbyth'wholeBritishsquadronaswasi't'Channelfort'pieceofdaringthey'ddonei'cuttin'outt'shipfromaFrenchport;an'CaptainSirSidneySmithwasmadeanadmiral,an'himasweusedt'callCharleyKinraid,thespecksioneer,ismadealieutenant,an'acommissionedofficeri't'
King'sservice;andiscometogreatglory,andslepinmyhousethisveryblessednightasisjustpast!'
AmurmurofapplauseandinterestandrejoicingbuzzedallaroundPhilip。
AllthiswaspubliclyknownaboutKinraid,——andhowmuchmore?AllMonkshavenmightheartomorrow——nay,to—day——ofPhilip'streacherytotheheroofthehour;howhehadconcealedhisfate,andsupplantedhiminhislove。
Philipshrankfromtheburstofpopularindignationwhichheknewmustfollow。Anywrongdonetoonewhostandsonthepinnacleofthepeople'sfavourisresentedbyeachindividualasapersonalinjury;andamongaprimitivesetofcountry—folk,whorecognizethewildpassioninlove,asitexistsuntamedbythetrammelsofreasonandself—restraint,anystoryofbaulkedaffections,ortreacheryinsuchmatters,spreadslikewildfire。
Philipknewthisquitewell;hisdoomofdisgracelayplainbeforehim,ifonlyKinraidspoketheword。Hisheadwasbentdownwhilehethuslistenedandreflected。Hehalfresolvedondoingsomething;helifteduphishead,caughtthereflectionofhisfaceinthelittlestripofglassontheoppositeside,inwhichthewomenmightlookatthemselvesintheircontemplatedpurchases,andquiteresolved。
Thesighthesawinthemirrorwashisownlong,sad,paleface,madeplainerandgrayerbytheheavypressureofthemorning'sevents。Hesawhisstoopingfigure,hisroundedshoulders,withsomethinglikeafeelingofdisgustathispersonalappearanceasherememberedthesquare,uprightbuildofKinraid;hisfineuniform,withepauletteandsword—belt;hishandsomebrownface;hisdarkeyes,splendidwiththefireofpassionandindignation;hiswhiteteeth,gleamingoutwiththeterriblesmileofscorn。
ThecomparisondrovePhilipfrompassivehopelessnesstoactivedespair。
Hewentabruptlyfromthecrowdedshopintotheemptyparlour,andonintothekitchen,wherehetookupapieceofbread,andheedlessofPhoebe'slookandwords,begantoeatitbeforeheevenlefttheplace;forheneededthestrengththatfoodwouldgive;heneededittocarryhimoutofthesightandtheknowledgeofallwhomighthearwhathehaddone,andpointtheirfingersathim。
Hepausedamomentintheparlour,andthen,settinghisteethtighttogether,hewentupstairs。
Firstofallhewentintothebitofaroomopeningoutoftheirs,inwhichhisbabyslept。Hedearlylovedthechild,andmanyatimewouldruninandplayawhilewithit;andinsuchgambolsheandSylviahadpassedtheirhappiestmomentsofweddedlife。
ThelittleBellawashavinghermorningslumber;Nancyusedtotelllongafterwardshowhekneltdownbythesideofhercot,andwassostrangeshethoughthemusthaveprayed,forallitwasnighuponeleveno'clock,andfolkintheirsensesonlysaidtheirprayerswhentheygotup,andwhentheywenttobed。
Thenherose,andstoopedover,andgavethechildalong,lingering,soft,fondkiss。
Andontip—toehepassedawayintotheroomwherehisauntlay;hisauntwhohadbeensotrueafriendtohim!Hewasthankfultoknowthatinherpresentstateshewassafefromtheknowledgeofwhatwaspast,safefromthesoundoftheshametocome。
HehadnotmeanttoseeSylviaagain;hedreadedthelookofherhatred,herscorn,butthere,outsidehermother'sbed,shelay,apparentlyasleep。
MrsRobson,too,wassleeping,herfacetowardsthewall。Philipcouldnothelpit;hewenttohaveonelastlookathiswife。Shewasturnedtowardshermother,herfaceavertedfromhim;hecouldseethetear—stains,theswolleneyelids,thelipsyetquivering:hestoopeddown,andbenttokissthelittlehandthatlaylistlessbyherside。Ashishotbreathnearedthathanditwastwitchedaway,andashiverranthroughthewholeprostratebody。Andthenheknewthatshewasnotasleep,onlywornoutbyhermisery,——miserythathehadcaused。
Hesighedheavily;buthewentaway,downstairs,andawayforever。
Onlyasheenteredtheparlourhiseyescaughtontwosilhouettes,oneofhimself,oneofSylvia,doneinthefirstmonthoftheirmarriage,bysomewanderingartist,ifsohecouldbecalled。Theywerehangingagainstthewallinlittleovalwoodenframes;blackprofiles,withthelightsdoneingold;aboutaspoorsemblancesofhumanityascouldbeconceived;
butPhilipwentup,andafterlookingforaminuteorsoatSylvia's,hetookitdown,andbuttonedhiswaistcoatoverit。
Itwastheonlythinghetookawayfromhishome。
Hewentdowntheentryontothequay。Theriverwasthere,andwaters,theysay,havealuringpower,andaweirdpromiseofrestintheirperpetualmonotonyofsound。Butmanypeoplewerethere,ifsuchatemptationpresenteditselftoPhilip'smind;thesightofhisfellow—townsmen,perhapsofhisacquaintances,drovehimupanotherentry——thetownisburrowedwithsuch——backintotheHighStreet,whichhestraightwaycrossedintoawell—knowncourt,outofwhichroughstepsledtothesummitofthehill,andontothefellsandmoorsbeyond。
Heplungedandpantedupthisroughascent。Fromthetophecouldlookdownonthewholetownlyingbelow,severedbythebrightshiningriverintotwoparts。Totherightlaythesea,shimmeringandheaving;thereweretheclusterofmastsrisingoutofthelittleport;theirregularroofsofthehouses;whichofthem,thoughthe,ashecarriedhiseyealongthequay—sidetothemarket—place,whichofthemwashis?andhesingleditoutinitsunfamiliaraspect,andsawthethinbluesmokerisingfromthekitchenchimney,whereevennowPhoebewascookingthehouseholdmealthathenevermoremustshare。
Upatthatthoughtandaway,heknewnotnorcarednotwhither。Hewentthroughtheploughedfieldswherethecornwasnewlyspringing;hecamedownuponthevastsunnysea,andturnedhisbackuponitwithloathing;
hemadehiswayinlandtothehighgreenpastures;theshortuplandturfabovewhichthelarkshungpoised'atheaven'sgate。'Hestrodealong,sostraightandheedlessofbriarandbush,thatthewildblackcattleceasedfromgrazing,andlookedafterhimwiththeirgreatblankpuzzledeyes。
Hehadpassedallenclosuresandstonefencesnow,andwasfairlyonthedesolatebrownmoors;throughthewitheredlastyear'slingandfern,throughthepricklygorse,hetramped,crushingdownthetendershootsofthisyear'sgrowth,andheedlessofthestartledplover'scry,goadedbythefuries。Hisonlyrelieffromthought,fromtheremembranceofSylvia'slooksandwords,wasinviolentbodilyaction。
Sohewentontilleveningshadowsandruddyeveninglightscameoutuponthewildfells。
Hehadcrossedroadsandlanes,withabitteravoidanceofmen'stracks;
butnowthestronginstinctofself—preservationcameout,andhisachinglimbs,hiswearyheart,givinggreatpantsandbeatsforatime,andthenceasingaltogethertillamistswamandquiveredbeforehisachingeyes,warnedhimthathemustfindsomeshelterandfood,orliedowntodie。
Hefelldownnow,often;stumblingovertheslightestobstacle。Hehadpassedthecattlepastures;hewasamongtheblack—facedsheep;andthey,too,ceasednibbling,andlookedafterhim,andsomehow,inhispoorwanderingimagination,theirsillyfacesturnedtolikenessesofMonks—havenpeople——peoplewhooughttobefar,faraway。
'Thou'llbebelatedonthesefells,ifthoudoesn'ttak'heed,'shoutedsomeone。
Philiplookedabroadtoseewhencethevoiceproceeded。
Anoldstiff—leggedshepherd,inasmock—frock,waswithinacoupleofhundredyards。Philipdidnotanswer,butstaggeredandstumbledtowardshim。
'Goodlork!'saidtheman,'wheerehasttabeen?Thou'sseenOudHarry,Ithink,thoulookssoscared。'
Philipralliedhimself,andtriedtospeakuptotheoldstandardofrespectability;buttheeffortwaspitifultosee,hadanyonebeenby,whocouldhaveunderstoodthepainitcausedtorestraincriesofbodilyandmentalagony。
'I'velostmyway,that'sall。'
''Twouldha'beenenough,too,I'mthinkin',ifIhadn'tcomeoutaftert'ewes。There'st'ThreeGriffinsnearathand:asupo'Hollands'llsettheetoreeghts。'
Philipfollowedfaintly。Hecouldnotseebeforehim,andwasguidedbythesoundoffootstepsratherthanbythesightofthefiguremovingonwards。Hekeptstumbling;andheknewthattheoldshepherdsworeathim;buthealsoknewsuchcursesproceededfromnoill—will,onlyfromannoyanceatthedelayingoingand'seem'aftert'ewes。'Buthadtheman'swordsconveyedtheutmostexpressionofhatred,Philipwouldneitherhavewonderedatthem,norresentedthem。
Theycameintoawildmountainroad,unfencedfromthefells。Ahundredyardsoff,andtherewasasmallpublic—house,withabroadruddyoblongoffirelightshiningacrossthetract。
'Theere!'saidtheoldman。'Theecannotwellmissthat。Adunnotho',theebeessichagawby。'
Sohewenton,anddeliveredPhilipsafelyuptothelandlord。
'Here'safellyasafundont'fellside,justasoneasifheweredrunk;buthe'ssoberenough,areckon,onlysummat'swrongi'hishead,a'mthinkin'。'
'No!'saidPhilip,sittingdownonthefirstchairhecameto。'I'mrightenough;justfairlyweariedout:lostmyway,'andhefainted。
Therewasarecruitingsergeantofmarinessittinginthehouse—place,drinking。He,too,likePhilip,hadlosthisway;butwasturninghisblundertoaccountbytellingallmannerofwonderfulstoriestotwoorthreerusticswhohadcomeinreadytodrinkonanypretence;especiallyiftheycouldgetgoodliquorwithoutpayingforit。
ThesergeantroseasPhilipfellback,andbroughtuphisownmugofbeer,intowhichanogginofginhadbeenput(calledinYorkshire'dog's—nose')。
HepartlypouredandpartlyspiltsomeofthisbeverageonPhilip'sface;
somedropswentthroughthepaleandpartedlips,andwithastarttheworn—outmanrevived。
'Bringhimsomevictual,landlord,'calledouttherecruitingsergeant。
'I'llstandshot。'
Theybroughtsomecoldbaconandcoarseoat—cake。Thesergeantaskedforpepperandsalt;mincedthefoodfineandmadeitsavoury,andkeptadministeringitbyteaspoonfuls;urgingPhiliptodrinkfromtimetotimefromhisowncupofdog's—nose。
Aburningthirst,whichneedednostimulantfromeitherpepperorsalt,tookpossessionofPhilip,andhedrankfreely,scarcelyrecognizingwhathedrank。Ittookeffectononesohabituallysober;andhewassooninthatstatewhentheImaginationworkswildlyandfreely。
Hesawthesergeantbeforehim,handsome,andbright,andactive,inhisgayreduniform,withoutacare,asitseemedtoPhilip,takinglifelightly;admiredandrespectedeverywherebecauseofhiscloth。
IfPhilipweregay,andbrisk,well—dressedlikehim,returningwithmartialglorytoMonkshaven,wouldnotSylvialovehimoncemore?Couldnothewinherheart?Hewasbravebynature,andtheprospectofdangerdidnotdaunthim,ifeveritpresenteditselftohisimagination。
Hethoughthewascautiousinenteringonthesubjectofenlistmentwithhisnewfriend,thesergeant;butthelatterwastwentytimesascunningashe,andknewbyexperiencehowtobaithishook。
Philipwasolderbysomeyearsthantheregulationage;but,atthattimeofgreatdemandformen,thequestionofagewaslightlyentertained。
Thesergeantwasprofuseinstatementsoftheadvantagespresentedtoamanofeducationinhisbranchoftheservice;howsuchaonewassuretorise;infact,itwouldhaveseemedfromthesergeant'saccount,asthoughthedifficultyconsistedinremainingintheranks。
Philip'sdizzyheadthoughtthesubjectoverandoveragain,eachtimewithfailingpowerofreason。
Atlength,almost,asitwouldseem,bysomesleightofhand,hefoundthefatalshillinginhispalm,andhadpromisedtogobeforethenearestmagistratetobesworninasoneofhisMajesty'smarinesthenextmorning。
Andafterthatherememberednothingmore。
Hewakenedupinalittletruckle—bedinthesameroomasthesergeant,wholaysleepingthesleepoffullcontentment;whilegradually,dropbydrop,thebitterrecollectionsofthedaybeforecame,fillingupPhilip'scupofagony。
Heknewthathehadreceivedthebounty—money;andthoughhewasawarethathehadbeenpartlytrickedintoit,andhadnohope,nocare,indeed,foranyoftheadvantagessoliberallypromisedhimthenightbefore,yethewasresigned,withutterlydespondentpassiveness,tothefatetowhichhehadpledgedhimself。Anythingwaswelcomethatseveredhimfromhisformerlife,thatcouldmakehimforgetit,ifthatwerepossible;andalsowelcomeanythingwhichincreasedthechancesofdeathwithoutthesinfulnessofhisownparticipationintheact。Hefoundinthedarkrecessofhismindthedeadbodyofhisfancyofthepreviousnight;thathemightcomehome,handsomeandglorious,towinthelovethathadneverbeenhis。
Butheonlysighedoverit,andputitasideoutofhissight——sofullofdespairwashe。Hecouldeatnobreakfast,thoughthesergeantorderedofthebest。Thelatterkeptwatchinghisnewrecruitoutofthecornerofhiseye,expectingaremonstrance,ordreadingasuddenbolt。
ButPhilipwalkedwithhimthetwoorthreemilesinthemostsubmissivesilence,neverutteringasyllableofregretorrepentance;andbeforeJusticeCholmley,ofHolm—FellHall,hewasswornintohisMajesty'sservice,underthenameofStephenFreeman。Withanewname,hebegananewlife。
Alas!theoldlifelivesforever!
chapter35CHAPTERXXXVTHINGSUNUTTERABLEAfterPhiliphadpassedoutoftheroom,Sylvialayperfectlystill,fromveryexhaustion。Hermotherslepton,happilyunconsciousofalltheturmoilthathadtakenplace;yes,happily,thoughtheheavysleepwastoendindeath。Butofthisherdaughterknewnothing,imaginingthatitwasrefreshingslumber,insteadofanebbingoflife。BothmotheranddaughterlaymotionlesstillPhoebeenteredtheroomtotellSylviathatdinnerwasonthetable。
ThenSylviasateup,andputbackherhair,bewilderedanduncertainastowhatwastobedonenext;howsheshouldmeetthehusbandtowhomshehaddiscardedallallegiance,repudiatedthesolemnpromiseofloveandobediencewhichshehadvowed。
Phoebecameintotheroom,withnaturalinterestintheinvalid,scarcelyolderthanherself。
'Howist'oldlady?'askedshe,inalowvoice。
Sylviaturnedherheadroundtolook;hermotherhadnevermoved,butwasbreathinginalouduncomfortablemanner,thatmadeherstoopoverhertoseetheavertedfacemorenearly。
'Phoebe!'shecried,'comehere!Shelooksstrangeandodd;hereyesareopen,butdon'tseeme。Phoebe!Phoebe!'
'Sureenough,she'sinabadway!'saidPhoebe,climbingstifflyontothebedtohaveanearerview。Holdherheadalittleupt'easeherbreathin'whileIgoformaster;he'llbeforsendin'fort'doctor,I'llbebound。'
Sylviatookhermother'sheadandlaiditfondlyonherbreast,speakingtoherandtryingtorouseher;butitwasofnoavail:thehard,stertorousbreathinggrewworseandworse。
Sylviacriedoutforhelp;Nancycame,thebabyinherarms。Theyhadbeeninseveraltimesbeforethatmorning;andthechildcamesmilingandcrowingatitsmother,whowassupportingherowndyingparent。
'Oh,Nancy;'saidSylvia;'whatisthematterwithmother?yo'canseeherface;tellmequick!'
Nancysetthebabyonthebedforallreply,andranoutoftheroom,cryingout,'Master!master!Comequick!T'oldmissusisa—dying!'
ThisappearedtobenonewstoSylvia,andyetthewordscameonherwithagreatshock,butforallthatshecouldnotcry;shewassurprisedherselfatherowndeadnessoffeeling。
Herbabycrawledtoher,andshehadtoholdandguardbothhermotherandherchild。Itseemedalong,longtimebeforeanyonecame,andthensheheardmuffledvoices,andaheavytramp:itwasPhoebeleadingthedoctorupstairs,andNancycreepinginbehindtohearhisopinion。
Hedidnotaskmanyquestions,andPhoeberepliedmorefrequentlytohisinquiriesthandidSylvia,wholookedintohisfacewithablank,tearless,speechlessdespair,thatgavehimmorepainthanthesightofherdyingmother。
ThelongdecayofMrsRobson'sfacultiesandhealth,ofwhichhewaswellaware,hadinacertainmannerpreparedhimforsomesuchsuddenterminationofthelifewhosedurationwashardlydesirable,althoughhegaveseveraldirectionsastohertreatment;butthewhite,pinchedface,thegreatdilatedeye,theslowcomprehensionoftheyoungerwoman,struckhimwithalarm;andhewentonaskingforvariousparticulars,morewithaviewofrousingSylvia,ifevenitweretotears,thanforanyotherpurposethattheinformationthusobtainedcouldanswer。
'Youhadbesthavepillowsproppedupbehindher——itwillnotbeforlong;shedoesnotknowthatyouareholdingher,anditisonlytiringyoutonopurpose!'
Sylvia'sterriblestarecontinued;heputhisadviceintoaction,andgentlytriedtoloosenherclasp,andtenderhold。Thissheresisted;layinghercheekagainstherpoormother'sunconsciousface。
'WhereisHepburn?'saidhe。'Heoughttobehere!'
PhoebelookedatNancy,NancyatPhoebe。Itwasthelatterwhoreplied,'He'sneitheri't'housenori't'shop。Aseedhimgopastt'kitchenwindowbetternoranhourago;butneitherWilliamCoulsonorHesterRoseknowswherehe'sgoneto。
DrMorgan'slipswerepuckeredupintoawhistle,buthemadenosound。
'Givemebaby!'hesaid,suddenly。Nancyhadtakenherupoffthebedwhereshehadbeensitting,encircledbyhermother'sarm。Thenursemaidgavehertothedoctor。Hewatchedthemother'seye,itfollowedherchild,andhewasrejoiced。Hegavealittlepinchtothebaby'ssoftflesh,andshecriedoutpiteously;againthesameaction,thesameresult。Sylvialaidhermotherdown,andstretchedoutherarmsforherchild,hushingit,andmoaningoverit。
'Sofarsogood!'saidDrMorgantohimself。'Butwhereisthehusband?
Heoughttobehere。'HewentdownstairstomakeinquiryforPhilip;thatpooryoungcreature,aboutwhosehealthhehadneverfeltthoroughlysatisfiedsincethefeverafterherconfinement,wasinananxiouscondition,andwithaninevitableshockawaitingher。Herhusbandoughttobewithher,andsupportinghertobearit。
DrMorganwentintotheshop。Hesteralonewasthere。Coulsonhadgonetohiscomfortabledinnerathiswell—orderedhouse,withhiscommon—placewife。IfhehadfeltanxiousaboutPhilip'slooksandstrangedisappearance,hehadalsomanagedtoaccountfortheminsomeindifferentway。
Hesterwasalonewiththeshop—boy;fewpeoplecameinduringtheuniversalMonkshavendinner—hour。Shewasrestingherheadonherhand,andpuzzledanddistressedaboutmanythings——allthatwasimpliedbytheproceedingsoftheeveningbeforebetweenPhilipandSylvia;andthatwasconfirmedbyPhilip'smiserablelooksandstrangeabstractedwaysto—day。Oh!howeasyHesterwouldhavefoundittomakehimhappy!notmerelyhoweasy,butwhathappinessitwouldhavebeentohertomergehereverywishintotheonegreatobjectoffulfilinghiswill。Toher,anon—looker,thecourseofmarriedlife,whichshouldleadtoperfecthappiness,seemedtoplain!
Alas!itisoftenso!andtheresistingforceswhichmakeallsuchharmonyanddelightimpossiblearenotrecognizedbythebystanders,hardlybytheactors。Butiftheseresistingforcesareonlysuperficial,orconstitutional,theyarebutthenecessarydisciplinehere,anddonotradicallyaffectthelovewhichwillmakeallthingsrightinheaven。
SomeglimmeringofthislattercomfortingtruthsheditslightonHester'stroubledthoughtsfromtimetotime。Butagain,howeasywouldithavebeentohertotreadthemazethatledtoPhilip'shappiness;andhowdifficultitseemedtothewifehehadchosen!
ShewasarousedbyDrMorgan'svoice。
'SobothCoulsonandHepburnhavelefttheshoptoyourcare,Hester。
IwantHepburn,though;hiswifeisinaveryanxiousstate。Whereishe?
canyoutellme?'
'Sylviainananxiousstate!I'venotseenherto—day,butlastnightshelookedaswellascouldbe。'
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