WistfullyshelongedforonewordofthanksorrecognitionfromPhilip,inwhoseserviceshehadperformedthishardtask;buthewasotherwiseoccupied,andoncastingafurtherglancebackassheturnedthecornerofthestreet,shesawPhilipliftingSylviacarefullydowninhisarmsfromherfootingonthetopofthewheel,andthentheyallwentintothelightandthewarmth,thedoorwasshut,thelightenedcartdrovebrisklyaway,andHester,inrain,andcold,anddarkness,wenthomewardswithhertiredsadheart。
Philiphaddoneallhecould,sincehisreturnfromlawyerDawson's,tomakehishousebrightandwarmforthereceptionofhisbeloved。HehadastrongapprehensionoftheprobablefateofpoorDanielRobson;hehadawarmsympathywiththemiserabledistressofthewifeanddaughter;
butstillatthebackofhismindhisspiritsdancedasifthiswastothemafestaloccasion。HehadeventakenunconsciouspleasureinPhoebe'ssuspiciouslooksandtones,ashehadhurriedandsuperintendedherinheroperations。Afireblazedcheerilyintheparlour,almostdazzlingtothetravellersbroughtinfromthedarknessandtherain;candlesburned——twocandles,muchtoPhoebe'sdiscontent。PoorBellRobsonhadtositdownalmostassoonassheenteredtheroom,sowornoutwasshewithfatigueandexcitement;yetshegrudgedeverymomentwhichseparatedher,asshethought,fromherhusband。
'I'mreadynow,'saidshe,standingup,andratherrepulsingSylvia'scares;'I'mreadynow,'saidshe,lookingeagerlyatPhilip,asifforhimtoleadtheway。
'It'snotto—night,'repliedhe,almostapologetically。'Youcan'tseehimto—night;it'sto—morrowmorningbeforehegoestoYork;itwasbetterforyo'tobedownhereintownready;andbesideIdidn'tknowwhenI
sentforyethathewaslockedupforthenight。'
'Well—a—day,well—a—day,'saidBell,rockingherselfbackwardsandforwards,andtryingtosootheherselfwiththesewords。Suddenlyshesaid,——
'ButI'vebroughthiscomforterwi'me——hisredwoollencomforterashe'sallayssleptinthistwelvemonthpast;he'llgethisrheumatizagain;
oh,Philip,cannotIgetittohim?'
'I'llsenditbyPhoebe,'saidPhilip,whowasbusymakingtea,hospitableandawkward。
'CannotItakeitmysel'?'repeatedBell。'Icouldmakesurernoranybodyelse;they'dmaybenotmindyonwoman——Phoebed'yecallher?'
'Nay,mother,'saidSylvia,'thou'snotfittogo。'
'ShallIgo?'askedPhilip,hopingshewouldsay'no,'andbecontentwithPhoebe,andleavehimwherehewas。
'Oh,Philip,wouldyo'?'saidSylvia,turninground。
'Ay,'saidBell,'ifthouwouldtakeitthey'dbemindingyo'。'
Sotherewasnothingforitbutforhimtogo,inthefirstflushofhisdelightfulritesofhospitality。
'It'snotfar,'saidhe,consolinghimselfratherthanthem。'I'llbebackintenminutes,theteaismaskit,andPhoebewilltakeyo'rwetthingsanddry'embyt'kitchenfire;andhere'sthestairs,'openingadoorinthecorneroftheroomfromwhichthestairsimmediatelyascended。'There'stworoomsatthetop;thattot'leftisallmadeready,t'otherismine,'
saidhe,reddeningalittleashespoke。Bellwasbusyundoingherbundlewithtremblingfingers。
'Here,'saidshe;'andoh,lad,here'sabito'peppermintcake;he'smainandfondonit,andIcatchedsightonitbygoodluckjustt'lastminute。'
Philipwasgone,andtheexcitementofBellandSylviaflaggedoncemore,andsankintowonderingdespondency。Sylvia,however,rousedherselfenoughtotakeoffhermother'swetclothes,andshetookthemtimidlyintothekitchenandarrangedthembeforePhoebe'sfire。
Phoebeopenedherlipsonceortwicetospeakinremonstrance,andthen,withaneffort,gulpedherwordsdownforhersympathy,likethatofalltherestoftheMonkshavenworld,wasinfavourofDanielRobson;andhisdaughtermightplaceherdrippingcloakthisnightwherevershewouldforPhoebe。
Sylviafoundhermotherstillsittingonthechairnextthedoor,whereshehadfirstplacedherselfonenteringtheroom。
'I'llgi'eyousometea,mother,'saidshe,struckwiththeshrunkenlookofBell'sface。
'No,no'saidhermother。'It'snotmannersfort'helpoursel's。'
'I'msurePhilipwouldha'wishedyo'fortotakeit,'saidSylvia,pouringoutacup。
Justthenhereturned,andsomethinginhislook,somedumbexpressionofdelightatheroccupation,madeherblushandhesitateforaninstant;
butthenshewenton,andmadeacupofteaready,sayingsomethingalittleincoherentallthetimeabouthermother'sneedofit。AfterteaBellRobson'swearinessbecamesoextreme,thatPhilipandSylviaurgedhertogotobed。Sheresistedalittle,partlyoutof'manners,'andpartlybecauseshekeptfancying,poorwoman,thatsomehoworotherherhusbandmightsendforher。Butaboutseveno'clockSylviapersuadedhertocomeupstairs。
Sylvia,too,badePhilipgood—night,andhislookfollowedthelastwaveofherdressasshedisappearedupthestairs;thenleaninghischinonhishand,hegazedatvacancyandthoughtdeeply——forhowlongheknewnot,sointentwashismindonthechancesoffuturity。
HewasarousedbySylvia'scomingdownstairsintothesitting—roomagain。
Hestartedup。
'Motherissoshivery,'saidshe。'MayIgointhere,'indicatingthekitchen,'andmakeheradropofgruel?'
'Phoebeshallmakeit,notyou,'saidPhilip,eagerlypreventingher,bygoingtothekitchendoorandgivinghisorders。Whenheturnedroundagain,Sylviawasstandingoverthefire,leaningherheadagainstthestonemantel—pieceforthecomparativecoolness。Shedidnotspeakatfirst,ortakeanynoticeofhim。Hewatchedherfurtively,andsawthatshewascrying,thetearsrunningdownhercheeks,andshetoomuchabsorbedinherthoughtstowipethemawaywithherapron。
Whilehewasturningoverinhismindwhathecouldbestsaytocomforther(hisheart,likehers,beingalmosttoofullforwords),shesuddenlylookedhimfullintheface,saying,——
'Philip!won'ttheysoonlethimgo?whatcantheydotohim?'Heropenlipstrembledwhileawaitinghisanswer,thetearscameupandfilledhereyes。Itwasjustthequestionhehadmostdreaded;itledtotheterrorthatpossessedhisownmind,butwhichhehadhopedtokeepoutofhers。
Hehesitated。'Speak,lad!'saidshe,impatiently,withalittlepassionategesture。'Icanseethouknows!'
Hehadonlymadeitworsebyconsideration;herushedblindfoldatareply。
'He'sta'enupforfelony。'
'Felony,'saidshe。'Therethou'reout;he'sinforlettingyonmenout;thoumaycallitriotingifthou'samindtosetfolksagain'him,butit'stoobadtocastsuchhardwordsathimasyon——felony,'sherepeated,inahalf—offendedtone。
'It'swhatthelawyerscallit,'saidPhilip,sadly;'it'snowordo'
mine。'
'Lawyersisallaysformakingtheworsto'things,'saidshe,alittlepacified,'butfolksshouldn'tallaysbelievethem。'
'It'slawyersashastojudgei't'longrun。'
'Cannotthejustices,MrHarterandthemasisnolawyers,givehimasentenceto—morrow,wi'outsendinghimtoYork?'
'No!'saidPhilip,shakinghishead。Hewenttothekitchendoorandaskedifthegruelwasnotready,soanxiouswashetostoptheconversationatthispoint;butPhoebe,whoheldheryoungmasterinbutlittlerespect,scoldedhimforastupidman,whothought,likeallhissex,thatgruelwastobemadeinaminute,whateverthefirewas,andbadehimcomeandmakeitforhimselfifhewasinsuchahurry。
HehadtoreturndiscomfitedtoSylvia,whomeanwhilehadarrangedherthoughtsreadytoreturntothecharge。
'Andsayhe'ssenttoYork,andsayhe'striedtheere,what'st'worsttheycandoagain'him?'askedshe,keepingdownheragitationtolookatPhilipthemoresharply。Hereyesneverslackenedtheirpenetratinggazeathiscountenance,untilhereplied,withtheutmostunwillingness,andmostapparentconfusion,——
'TheymaysendhimtoBotanyBay。'
Heknewthatheheldbackaworsecontingency,andhewasmortallyafraidthatshewouldperceivethisreserve。Butwhathedidsaywassomuchbeyondherutmostapprehension,whichhadonlyreachedtovarioustermsofimprisonment,thatshedidnotimaginethedarkshadowlurkingbehind。Whathehadsaidwastoomuchforher。Hereyesdilated,herlipsblanched,herpalecheeksgrewyetpaler。Afteraminute'slookintohisface,asiffascinatedbysomehorror,shestumbledbackwardsintothechairinthechimneycomer,andcoveredherfacewithherhands,moaningoutsomeinarticulatewords。
Philipwasonhiskneesbyher,dumbfromexcessofsympathy,kissingherdress,allunfeltbyher;hemurmuredhalf—words,hebeganpassionatesentencesthatdiedawayuponhislips;andshe——shethoughtofnothingbutherfather,andwaspossessedandraptoutofherselfbythedreadoflosinghimtothatfearfulcountrywhichwasalmostlikethegravetoher,soallbutimpassablewasthegulf。ButPhilipknewthatitwaspossiblethattheseparationimpendingmightbethatofthedark,mysteriousgrave——thatthegulfbetweenthefatherandchildmightindeedbethatwhichnoliving,breathing,warmhumancreaturecanevercross。
'Sylvie,Sylvie!'saidhe,——andalltheirconversationhadtobecarriedoninlowtonesandwhispers,forfearofthelisteningearsabove,——'don't——don't,thou'rtrendingmyheart。Oh,Sylvie,hearken。There'snotathingI'llnotdo;there'snotapennyI'vegot,——th'lastdropofbloodthat'sinme,——I'llgiveupmylifeforhis。'
'Life,'saidshe,puttingdownherhands,andlookingathimasifherlookscouldpiercehissoul;'whotalkso'touchinghislife?Thou'regoingcrazy,Philip,Ithink;'butshedidnotthinkso,althoughshewouldfainhavebelievedit。Inherkeenagonyshereadhisthoughtsasthoughtheywereanopenpage;shesatethere,uprightandstony,theconvictioncreepingoverherfacelikethegreyshadowofdeath。Nomoretears,nomoretrembling,almostnomorebreathing。Hecouldnotbeartoseeher,andyetsheheldhiseyes,andhefearedtomaketheeffortnecessarytomoveortoturnaway,lesttheshunningmotionshouldcarryconvictiontoherheart。Alas!
convictionoftheprobabledangertoherfather'slifewasalreadythere:
itwasthatthatwascalmingherdown,tighteninghermuscles,bracinghernerves。Inthathourshelostallherearlyyouth。
'Thenhemaybehung,'saidshe,lowandsolemnly,afteralongpause。
Philipturnedawayhisface,anddidnotutteraword。Againdeepsilence,brokenonlybysomehomelysoundinthekitchen。'Mothermustnotknowonit,'saidSylvia,inthesametoneinwhichshehadspokenbefore。
'It'st'worstascanhappentohim,'saidPhilip。'Morelikelyhe'llbetransported:maybehe'llbebroughtininnocentafterall。'
'No,'saidSylvia,heavily,asonewithouthope——asifshewerereadingsomedreadfuldoominthetabletsoftheawfulfuture。'They'llhanghim。
Oh,feyther!feyther!'shechokedout,almoststuffingherapronintohermouthtodeadenthesound,andcatchingatPhilip'shand,andwringingitwithconvulsiveforce,tillthepainthathelovedwasnearlymorethanhecouldbear。Nowordsofhiscouldtouchsuchagony;butirrepressibly,andashewouldhavedoneittoawoundedchild,hebentoverher,andkissedherwithatender,tremblingkiss。Shedidnotrepulseit,probablyshedidnotevenperceiveit。
AtthatmomentPhoebecameinwiththegruel。Philipsawher,andknew,inaninstant,whattheoldwoman'sconclusionmustneedsbe;butSylviahadtobeshakenbythenowstandingPhilip,beforeshecouldbebroughtbacktotheleastconsciousnessofthepresenttime。Sheliftedupherwhitefacetounderstandhiswords,thensheroseuplikeonewhoslowlycomestotheuseofherlimbs。
'IsupposeImungo,'shesaid:'butI'dsoonerfacethedead。Ifsheasksme,Philip,whatmunIsay?'
'She'llnotaskyo','saidhe,'ifyo'goaboutascommon。She'sneveraskedyo'allthistime,an'ifshedoes,putherontome。I'llkeepitfromheraslongasIcan;I'llmanagebetternorI'vedonewi'thee,Sylvie,'
saidhe,withasad,faintsmile,lookingwithfondpenitenceatheralteredcountenance。
'Thoumustn'tblamethysel','saidSylvia,seeinghisregret。'Ibroughtitonmemysel';IthoughtIwouldha't'truth,whativercameonit,andnowI'mnotstrongenoughtostandit,Godhelpme!'shecontinued,piteously。
'Oh,Sylvie,letmehelpyo'!IcannotdowhatGodcan,——I'mnotmeaningthat,butIcandonexttoHimofanyman。Ihavelovedyo'foryearsan'
years,inawayit'sterribletothinkon,ifmylovecandonoughtnowtocomfortyo'inyoursoredistress。'
'CousinPhilip,'shereplied,inthesamemeasuredtoneinwhichshehadalwaysspokensinceshehadlearnttheextentofherfather'sdanger,andtheslowstillnessofherwordswasinharmonywiththestonylookofherface,'thou'sacomforttome,Icouldn'tbidemylifewithoutthee;
butIcannottakeinthethoughto'love,itseemsbesidemequite;Icanthinkonnoughtbutthemthatisquickandthemthatisdead。'
chapter27CHAPTERXXVIIGLOOMYDAYSPhiliphadmoneyintheFosters'bank,notsomuchasitmighthavebeenifhehadnothadtopayforthefurnitureinhishouse。Muchofthisfurniturewasold,andhadbelongedtothebrothersFoster,andtheyhadletPhiliphaveitataveryreasonablerate;butstillthepurchaseofithaddiminishedtheamountofhissavings。Butonthesumwhichhepossessedhedrewlargely——hedrewall——nay,heoverdrewhisaccountsomewhat,tohisformermaster'sdismay,althoughthekindnessoftheirheartsoverruledtheharderargumentsoftheirheads。
AllwaswantedtodefendDanielRobsonattheapproachingYorkassizes。
HiswifehadhandedovertoPhilipallthemoneyormoney'sworthshecouldlayherhandsupon。Danielhimselfwasnotonetobemuchbeforehandwiththeworld;buttoBell'sthriftyimaginationtheroundgoldenguineas,tiedupintheoldstocking—footagainstrent—day,seemedamintofmoneyonwhichPhilipmightdrawinfinitely。Asyetshedidnotcomprehendtheextentofherhusband'sdanger。Sylviawentaboutlikeoneinadream,keepingbackthehottearsthatmightinterferewiththecourseoflifeshehadprescribedforherselfinthatterriblehourwhenshefirstlearntall。EverypennyofmoneyeithersheorhermothercouldsavewenttoPhilip。
Kester'shoard,too,wasplacedinHepburn'shandsatSylvia'searnestentreaty;forKesterhadnogreatopinionofPhilip'sjudgment,andwouldratherhavetakenhismoneystraighthimselftoMrDawson,andbeggedhimtouseitforhismaster'sbehoof。
Indeed,ifanything,thenoiselessbreachbetweenKesterandPhiliphadwidenedoflate。Itwasseed—time,andPhilip,inhisgreatanxietyforeverypossibleinterestthatmightaffectSylvia,andalsoassomedistractionfromhisextremeanxietyaboutherfather,hadtakentostudyagricultureofaneveninginsomeoldbookswhichhehadborrowed——TheFarmer'sCompleteGuide,andsuchlike;andfromtimetotimehecamedownuponthepracticaldoggedKesterwithdirectionsgatheredfromthetheoriesinhisbooks。Ofcoursethetwofellout,butwithoutmanywords。
Kesterperseveredinhisoldways,makinglightofPhilipandhisbooksinmannerandaction,tillatlengthPhilipwithdrewfromthecontest。
'Manyamanmayleadahorsetowater,butthere'sfewcanmakehimdrink,'
andPhilipcertainlywasnotoneofthosefew。Kester,indeed,lookeduponhimwithjealouseyesonmanyaccounts。HehadfavouredCharleyKinraidasaloverofSylvia's;andthoughhehadnoideaofthetruth——thoughhebelievedinthedrowningofthespecksioneerasmuchasanyone——yettheyearwhichhadelapsedsinceKinraid'ssupposeddeathwasbutaveryshortwhiletothemiddle—agedman,whoforgothowslowlytimepasseswiththeyoung;andhecouldoftenhavescoldedSylvia,ifthepoorgirlhadbeenawhitlessheavyatheartthanshewas,forlettingPhilipcomesomuchabouther——come,thoughitwasonherfather'sbusiness。Forthedarknessoftheircommondreaddrewthemtogether,occasionallytothecomparativeexclusionofBellandKester,whichthelatterperceivedandresented。
KesterevenallowedhimselftogosofarastowonderwhatPhilipcouldwantwithallthemoney,whichtohimseemedunaccountable;andonceortwicetheuglythoughtcrossedhismind,thatshopsconductedbyyoungmenwereoftennotsoprofitableaswhenguidedbyolderheads,andthatsomeofthecoinpouredintoPhilip'skeepingmighthaveanotherdestinationthanthedefenceofhismaster。PoorPhilip!andhewasspendingallhisown,andmorethanallhisownmoney,andnooneeverknewit,ashehadbounddownhisfriendlybankerstosecrecy。
OnceonlyKesterventuredtospeaktoSylviaonthesubjectofPhilip。
Shehadfollowedhercousintothefieldjustinfrontoftheirhouse,justoutsidetheporch,toaskhimsomequestionshedarednotputinhermother'spresence——(Bell,indeed,inheranxiety,usuallyabsorbedallthequestionswhenPhilipcame)——andstood,afterPhiliphadbidhergood—by,hardlythinkingabouthimatall,butlookingunconsciouslyafterhimasheascendedthebrow;andatthetophehadturnedtotakealastglanceattheplacehisloveinhabited,and,seeingher,hehadwavedhishatingratifiedfarewell。She,meanwhile,wasrousedfromfarotherthoughtsthanofhim,andofhisnowacknowledgedlove,bythemotionagainstthesky,andwasturningbackintothehousewhensheheardKester'slowhoarsecall,andsawhimstandingattheshippendoor。
'Comehither,wench,'saidhe,indignantly;'isthisatimeforcourtin'?'
'Courting?'saidshe,drawingupherhead,andlookingbackathimwithprouddefiance。
'Ay,courtin'!whatothermak'o'thingis'twhenthou'sgazin'afteryonmeddlesomechap,asifthou'dsendthyeyesafterhim,andhemakingmarlocksbackatthee?It'swhatweca'edcourtin'i'myyoungdaysanyhow。
Andit'snoaneatimeforawenchtogocourtin'whenherfeyther'si'
prison,'saidhe,withaconsciousnessasheutteredtheselastwordsthathewascruelandunjustandgoingtoofar,yetcarriedontosaythembyhishotjealousyagainstPhilip。
Sylviacontinuedlookingathimwithoutspeaking:shewastoomuchoffendedforexpression。
'Thoumaygloweran'thoumaylook,lass,'saidhe,'buta'dthoughtbetteronthee。It'slikelastweekthylastsweetheartweredrowned;butthou'snotonetowastetimei'rememberin'themasisgone——if,indeed,thouivercaredabuttonforyonKinraid——ifitwasn'tamake—believe。'
Herlipswerecontractedanddrawnup,showinghersmallglitteringteeth,whichwerescarcelyapartasshebreathedout——
'Thouthinksso,doesthou,thatI'veforgettenhim?Thou'dbetterhaveacareo'thytongue。'
Then,asiffearfulthatherself—commandmightgiveway,sheturnedintothehouse;andgoingthroughthekitchenlikeablindperson,shewentuptohernowunusedchamber,andthrewherself,facedownwards,flatonherbed,almostsmotheringherself。
EversinceDaniel'scommittal,thedecaythathadimperceptiblybeguninhiswife'sbodilyandmentalstrengthduringherillnessofthepreviouswinter,hadbeenmakingquickerprogress。Shelostherreticenceofspeech,andoftentalkedtoherself。Shehadnotsomuchforethoughtasofold;
slightdifferences,itistrue,butwhich,withsomeothersofthesamedescription,gavefoundationforthehomelyexpressionwhichsomenowappliedtoBell,'She'llneverbet'samewomanagain。
ThisafternoonshehadcriedherselftosleepinherchairafterPhilip'sdeparture。ShehadnotheardSylvia'ssweepingpassagethroughthekitchen;
buthalfanhourafterwardsshewasstartledupbyKester'sabruptentry。
'Where'sSylvie?'askedhe。
'Idon'tknow,'saidBell,lookingscared,andasifshewasreadytocry。'It'snonewsabouthim?'saidshe,standingup,andsupportingherselfonthestickshewasnowaccustomedtouse。
'Blessyo',no,dunnotbeafeared,missus;it'sonlyasaspokehastytot'wench,an'awantt'tellherasa'msorry,saidKester,advancingintothekitchen,andlookingroundforSylvia。
'Sylvie,Sylvie!'shoutedhe;'shemunbei't'house。
Sylviacameslowlydownthestairs,andstoodbeforehim。Herfacewaspale,hermouthsetanddetermined;thelightofhereyesveiledingloom。
Kestershrankfromherlook,andevenmorefromhersilence。
'A'mcometoaxpardon,'saidhe,afteralittlepause。
Shewasstillsilent。
'A'mnoaneaboveaxingpardon,thougha'mfiftyandmore,andthee'sbutasillywench,asa'venursedi'myarms。A'llsaybeforethymotherasaoughtnivertoha'usedthemwords,andashowa'msorryfor't。'
'Idon'tunderstanditall,'saidBell,inahurriedandperplexedtone。
'WhathasKesterbeensaying,mylass?'sheadded,turningtoSylvia。
Sylviawentasteportwonearertohermother,andtookholdofherhandasiftoquietenher;thenfacingoncemoreround,shesaiddeliberatelytoKester,——
'Ifthouwasn'tKester,I'dniverforgivethee。Niver,'sheadded,withbitterness,asthewordshehadusedrecurredtohermind。'It'sinmetohatetheenow,forsayingwhatthoudid;butthou'redearoldKesterafterall,andIcan'thelpmysel',Imunneedsforgivethee,'andshewenttowardshim。Hetookherlittleheadbetweenhishornyhandsandkissedit。Shelookedupwithtearsinhereyes,sayingsoftly,——
'Niversaythingslikethemagain。Niverspeakon————'
'A'llbitemytongueofffirst,'heinterrupted。
Hekepthisword。
InallPhilip'scomingsandgoingstoandfromHaytersbankFarmatthistime,heneverspokeagainofhislove。Inlook,words,manner,hewaslikeathoughtful,tenderbrother;nothingmore。Hecouldbenothingmoreinthepresenceofthegreatdreadwhichloomedlargeruponhimaftereveryconversationwiththelawyer。
ForMrDonkinhadbeenrightinhisprognostication。GovernmenttookuptheattackontheRendezvouswithahighandheavyhand。Itwasnecessarytoassertauthoritywhichhadbeenoflatetoooftenbraved。Anexamplemustbemade,tostrikedismayintothosewhoopposedanddefiedthepress—gang;
andalltheminorauthoritieswhoheldtheirpowersfromGovernmentwereinasimilarmannersevereandrelentlessintheexecutionoftheirduty。
Sotheattorney,whowentovertoseetheprisonerinYorkCastle,toldPhilip。HeaddedthatDanielstillretainedhisprideinhisachievement,andcouldnotbebroughttounderstandthedangerouspositioninwhichhewasplaced;thatwhenpressedandquestionedastocircumstancesthatmightpossiblybeusedinhisdefence,healwayswanderedofftoaccountsofpreviousoutragescommittedbythepress—gang,ortopassionateabuseofthetrickbywhichmenhadbeenluredfromtheirhomesonthenightinquestiontoassistinputtingoutanimaginaryfire,andthenseizedandcarriedoff。Someofthisverynaturalindignationmightpossiblyhavesomeeffectonthejury;andthisseemedtheonlygroundofhope,andwasindeedaslightone,asthejudgewaslikelytowarnthejuryagainstallowingtheirnaturalsympathyinsuchacasetodiverttheirmindsfromtherealquestion。
SuchwasthesubstanceofwhatPhilipheard,andheardrepeatedly,duringhismanyvisitstoMrDawson。Andnowthetimeoftrialdrewnear;fortheYorkassizesopenedonMarchthetwelfth;notmuchabovethreeweekssincetheoffencewascommittedwhichtookDanielfromhishomeandplacedhiminperilofdeath。
Philipwasgladthat,theextremityofhisdangerneverhavingbeenhintedtoBell,andtravellingsomefortymilesbeingamostunusualexertionatthattimetopersonsofherclass,theideaofgoingtoseeherhusbandatYorkhadneversuggesteditselftoBell'smind。Herincreasingfeeblenessmadethisseemasteponlytobetakenincaseofthefatalextremenecessity;
suchwastheconclusionthatbothSylviaandhehadcometo;anditwastheknowledgeofthisthatmadeSylviastrangleherowndailylongingtoseeherfather。Notbutthatherhopeswerestrongerthanherfears。Philipnevertoldherthecausesfordespondency;shewasyoung,andshe,likeherfather,couldnotunderstandhowfearfulsometimesisthenecessityforpromptandseverepunishmentofrebellionagainstauthority。
PhilipwastobeinYorkduringthetimeoftheassizes;anditwasunderstood,almostwithoutwords,thatiftheterribleworstoccurred,thewifeanddaughterweretocometoYorkassoonasmightbe。ForthisendPhilipsilentlymadeallthenecessaryarrangementsbeforeleavingMonkshaven。Thesympathyofallmenwaswithhim;itwastoolargeanoccasionforCoulsontobeanythingbutmagnanimous。HeurgedPhiliptotakeallthetimerequisite;toleaveallbusinesscarestohim。AndasPhilipwentaboutpaleandsad,therewasanothercheekthatgrewpalerstill,anothereyethatfilledwithquiettearsashisheavinessofheartbecamemoreandmoreapparent。Thedayforopeningtheassizescameon。PhilipwasinYorkMinster,watchingthesolemnantiqueprocessioninwhichthehighestauthorityinthecountyaccompaniesthejudgestotheHouseoftheLord,tobethereadmonishedastothenatureoftheirduties。AsPhiliplistenedtothesermonwithastrainedandbeatingheart,hishopesrosehigherthanhisfearsforthefirsttime,andthateveninghewrotehisfirstlettertoSylvia。
'DEARSYLVIA,'ItwillbelongerfirstthanIthoughtfor。MrDawsonsaysTuesdayinnextweek。Butkeepupyourheart。Ihavebeenhearingthesermonto—daywhichispreachedtothejudges;andtheclergymansaidsomuchinitaboutmercyandforgiveness,Ithinktheycannotfailtobelenientthisassize。
Ihaveseenuncle,wholooksbutthin,butisingoodheart:onlyhewillkeepsayinghewoulddoitoveragainifhehadthechance,whichneitherMrDawsonnorIthinkiswiseinhim,inespecialasthegaolerisbyandhearseverywordasissaid。Hewasveryfainofhearingallabouthome;
andwantsyoutorearDaisy'scalf,ashethinksshewillproveagoodone。Hebademegivehisbestlovetoyouandmyaunt,andhiskinddutytoKester。
'Sylvia,willyoutryandforgethowIusedtoscoldyouaboutyourwritingandspelling,andjustwritemetwoorthreelines。IthinkIwouldratherhavethembadlyspeltthannot,becausethenIshallbesuretheyareyours。Andnevermindaboutcapitals;Iwasafooltosaysuchadealaboutthem,foramandoesjustaswellwithoutthem。AletterfromyouwoulddoavasttokeepmepatientallthesedaystillTuesday。Direct——
'MrPhilipHepburn,'CareofMrFraser,Draper,'Micklegate,York。'Myaffectionatedutytomyaunt。'Yourrespectfulcousinandservant,'PHILIPHEPBURN。'P。S。Thesermonwasgrand。ThetextwasZechariabvii。9,"Executetruejudgmentandshowmercy。"Godgrantitmayhaveputmercyintothejudge'sheartasistotrymyuncle。'Heavilythedayspassedover。OnSundayBellandSylviawenttochurch,withastrange,half—superstitiousfeeling,asiftheycouldpropitiatetheMostHightoordertheeventsintheirfavourbypayingHimthecomplimentofattendingtodutiesintheirtimeofsorrowwhichtheyhadtoooftenneglectedintheirprosperousdays。ButHe'whoknowethourframe,andremembereththatwearedust,'tookpityuponHischildren,andsentsomeofHisblessedpeaceintotheirhearts,elsetheycouldscarcehaveenduredtheagonyofsuspenseofthosenexthours。Forastheycameslowlyandwearilyhomefromchurch,Sylviacouldnolongerbearhersecret,buttoldhermotheroftheperilinwhichDanielstood。ColdastheMarchwindblew,theyhadnotfeltit,andhadsatedownonahedgebankforBelltorest。AndthenSylviaspoke,tremblingandsickforfear,yetutterlyunabletokeepsilenceanylonger。Bellheavedupherhands,andletthemfalldownonherkneesbeforeshereplied。'TheLordisaboveus,'saidshe,solemnly。'Hehassentafearo'thisintomyheartaforenow。Iniverbreathedittothee,mylass————''AndIniverspokeonittothee,mother,because————'Sylviachokedwithcrying,andlaidherheadonhermother'slap,feelingthatshewasnolongerthestrongone,andtheprotector,buttheprotected。
Bellwenton,strokingherhead,'TheLordislikeatendernurseasweansachildtolookonandtolikewhatitlothedonce。Hehassentmedreamsashaspreparedmeforthis,ifsobeitcomestopass。'Philipishopeful,'saidSylvia,raisingherheadandlookingthroughhertearsathermother。'Ay,heis。AndIcannottell,butIthinkit'snotfornoughtastheLordhasta'enawayallfearo'deathouto'myheart。IthinkHemeansasDanielandmeistogohand—in—handthroughthevalley——likeaswewalkeduptoourweddinginCrosthwaiteChurch。Icouldneverguideth'housewithoutDaniel,andIshouldbefearedhe'dtakeadealmorenorisgoodforhimwithoutme。''Butme,mother,thou'sforgettingme,'moanedoutSylvia。'Oh,mother,mother,thinkonme!''Nay,mylass,I'mnoaneforgettingyo'。I'dasorehearta'lastwintera—thinkingonthee,whenthatchapKinraidwerehangingaboutthee。
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