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第6章

  Itisthematerialcounterpartofthe'NightoftheSoul。'Wehaveleftourhouseandsetforthinthedarknesswhichparalysesthosefacultiesthatmakeusmenintheworldofmen。Butsurelythegreatmystics,withalltheirinsightandheavenlylove,fellshortwhentheysoughtfreedomincompleteseparatenessfromcreationinsteadofinperfectunitywithit。TheGreeksknewbetterwhentheyflungAriadne'scrownamongthestars,andwroteDemeter'sgriefonabarrenearth,andPersephone'sjoyinthefruitfulfield。Fortheearthisgatheredupinman;heisthewholewhichisgreaterthanthesumofitsparts。StandingintheimageofGod,andclothedinthegarmentofGod,heliftsuppriestlyhandsandpresentsthesacrificeofredeemedearthbeforethethroneoftheAll-Father。"Dustandashesandahouseofdevils,"hecries;
  andtherecomesbackforanswer,"REXCONCUPISCETDECOREMTUAM。"
  TheAngelofDeathhasbroadwingsofsilenceandmysterywithwhichheshadowsthevalleywhereweneedfearnoevil,andwherethevoicewhichspeakstousisasthe"voiceofdoves,taberingupontheirbreasts。"Itisaplaceofhealingandpreparation,ofpeaceandrefreshingafterthesharply-definedoutlinesofagarishday。Walkingtherewelearntousethosenaturalfacultiesofthesoulwhicharehamperedbythefamiliarityofbodilyprogress,toapprehendthetruthswhichwehaveintellectuallyaccepted。Itistheplaceofsecretswherethehumilitywhichembracesallattainableknowledgecries"Iknownot";andwhileweproclaimfromthehouse-topsthatwhichwehavelearnt,themannerofourlearninglieshidforeachoneofusinthesanctuaryofoursouls。
  TheEgyptians,intheirancientwisdom,actinthedesertagreatandrosphinx,imageofmysteryandsilence,staringfromunderlevelbrowsacrossthearidsandsofthesea-way。TheGreeksborrowedanddebasedtheimage,turningtheinscrutableintoasemi-womanwhoaskedafoolishriddle,andhurledherselfdowninpetulantpridewhenOEdipusansweredaright。Sowe,marringtheofficeofsilence,questionitsmystery;thwartourselveswithriddlesofourownsuggesting;andturnaway,leavingourofferingbuthalfconsumedonthealtaroftheunknowngod。ItwasnotthetheftoffirethatbroughtthevengeanceofheavenuponPrometheus,butthemockingsacrifice。OrpheuslostEurydicebecausehemustseeherfacebeforetheappointedtime。Persephoneateofthepomegranateandhungeredingloomforthedayoflightwhichshouldhavebeenendless。
  Theuniverseisfullofmiracleandmystery;thedarknessandsilencearesetforasignwedarenotdespise。Thepallofnightlifts,leavingusengulphedinthelightofimmensityunderatossingheavenofstars。Thedawnbreaks,butitdoesnotsurpriseus,forwehavewatchedfromthevalleyandseenthepaletwilight。
  ThroughthewondrousSabbathoffaithfulsouls,thelongdayofrosemaryandrue,thelightbrightensintheEast;andwepassontowardsitwithquietfeetandopeningeyes,bearingwithusalloftheredeemedearththatwehavemadeourown,untilwearefulfilledinthesunriseofthegreatEasterDay,andthepeoplescomefromnorthandsouthandeastandwesttotheCitywhichliethfoursquare-theBeatificVisionofGod。
  VereIerusalemestillacivitasCuiuspaxiugisetsummaiucunditas;
  Ubinonpraevenitremdesiderium,Necdesideriominusestpraemium。
  ATTHEWHITEGATE
  CHAPTERI
  AGREATjoyhascometome;oneofthoseunexpectedgiftswhichlifelovestobestowafterwehavelearnttolooseourgripofher。
  Iambackinmyownplaceverynearmyroad-thewhitegatelieswithinmydistantvision;neartheleangreyDownswhichkeepwatchandwardbetweenthecountryandthesea;verynear,nay,inthelapofMotherEarth,forasIwriteIamlyingonagreencarpet,powderedyellowandwhitewiththesun'sownflowers;overheadagreatsycamorewherethebeestoilandsing;andsighingshimmeringpoplarsgoldengreyagainsttheblue。ThedayofPersephonehasdawnedforme,andI,setfreelikeDemeter'schild,gladdenmyeyeswiththisforetasteofcomingradiance,andrestmytiredsensewiththescentandsoundofhome。AwaydownthemeadowI
  heartheearlyscythesong,andthewarmairisfragrantwiththefallengrass。IthasitsownmessageformeasIliehere,Iwhohaveobtainedyetonemoremercy,andtheburdenofitislife,notdeath。
  Irememberwhen,takingagracefrommyroad,IhelpedtomowFarmerMarler'sten-acrefield,richinripeupstandinggrass。Themechanismoftheancientreaperhadgivenwayunderthestrainofthehomemeadows,andifthiscropwastobesaveditmustbebyhand。IhavekepttherecordofthosedaysofjoyouslabourunderaJunesky。Menwerehardtogetinourvillage;oldDodden,whowasoverseventy,volunteeredhisservices-hehaddoneyeomanworkwiththescytheinhisyouth-andtwoofthefarmhandswiththeirmastercompletedourstrength。
  Wetookourplacesunderafiveo'clockmorningsky,andthelarkscrieddowntousaswestoodknee-deepinthefragrantdew-steepedgrass,eachmanwithhisgleamingscythepoisedreadyforitssweepingswing。OldDoddenledbyrightofageandripeexperience;bentlikeasickle,brownanddryasanut,hisfaceatraceryofinnumerablewrinkles,hehasneverailedaday,andthecunningofhiscraftwasstillwithhim。Atfirstweworkedstiffly,unreadily,butsoonthemonotonousmotionpossesseduswithitsinsistentrhythm,andthegrassbowedtoeachsibilantswishandfellinsweet-smellingswathesatourfeet。Nowandthenastartledrabbitscurriedthroughtheminiatureforesttovanishwithwhiteflickoftailinthetangledhedge;hereandthereamotherlarkwasdiscoveredsittingmotionless,immovableuponherlittlebrood;butsavefortheseinfrequentincidentswepacedsteadilyonwithnospeechsavethecryofthehoneonthesteelandtheswishofthefallingswathes。Thesunrosehighintheheavenandburntonbentneckandbareandachingarms,thebloodbeatanddrummedinmyveinswiththeunwontedpostureandexercise;Iworkedasamanwhoseesandhearsinamist。Once,asIpausedtowhetmyscythe,myeyecaughtthelineoftheuntroubledhillsstrongandstillinthebroadsunshine;thentoworkagaininthelabouring,fertilevalley。
  Resttimecame,andwipingthesweatfrombrowandbladewesoughtthewelcomeshadowofthehedgeandthecoolsweetoatmealwaterwithwhichthewisereaperquencheshisthirst。FarmerMarlerhastenedofftoseewithmaster-eyethatallwentwellelsewhere;
  thefarmmenslepttranquilly,stretchedatfulllength,claspedhandsforpillow;andoldDodden,sittingwithcrookedfingersinterlacedtochecktheirtremblingbetrayalofoldage,toldhowinhisyouthhehad"swep"afour-acrefieldsingle-handedinthreedays-analmostimpossiblefeat-andofthefirstreapingmachineintheseparts,andhowitbrought,tohisthinking,theruinofagriculturalmoralswithit。"'Tisagainnature,"hesaid,"theLardgaveusthelandan'theseed,but'Eesaidthatamanshouldsweat。Where'sthesweatdrivin'roundwi'twohorsescuttin'thestrawdownan'gatherin'itagain,wi'scarceahand'sturni'theday'swork?"
  OldDodden'shigh-pitchedquaveringvoiceroseandfell,mournfulashesurveyedthepresent,vehementasherecordedtheheroicpast。Hespokeoftheruralexodusandshookhisheadmournfully。
  "Weold'unswerecontentwi'earthandtheopenskylikeourfeythersbeforeus,butwi'thechildren'tisfirstmachinestosavedoin'ahand'sturno'honestwork,an'thenlandan'skyain'tbigenoughseemin'ly,norgrandenough;itmustbetownan'apavedstreet,an'theysweattheirlivesoutatwixtfourwallsan'
  callitseein'life-'tisdeathan'worsecomestothemostof'em。Ay,'tisbettertostaybytheland,astheLardsaid,tilltimecomestolieunderit。"Ilookedawayacrossthefieldwherethehotairthrobbedandquivered,andthefallengrass,robbedalreadyofitsfreshness,layproneatthefeetofitsupstandingfellows。ItisquiteuselesstoarguewitholdDodden;heonlyshakeshisheadandsaysfirmly,"Anoldman,seventy-fivecomeMartinmassknowsmoreo'lifethanayoungchap,standsterreason";besides,hisepitomeofthetownlifeheknowsnothingofwasajustoneasfarasitwent;andhisownsonisthesweeperofaHolborncrossing,andmanyotherthingsthatheshouldnotbe;
  butthatistheparson'ssecretandmine。
  Wetookrankagainandsweptsteadilyonthroughthehotstillhoursintotheeveningshadows,untilthesinkingsunsetaGLORIA
  tothepsalmofanotherworkingday。Onlyathirdofthefieldlaymown,forwewerenotskilledlabourerstocutouracreaday;I
  sawitagainthatnightunderthemoonlightandthestarlight,wrappedinashroudofsummer'smist。
  Thewomenjoinedusonthethirddaytobeginhaymaking,andtheairwasfragrantoftossedandsun-driedgrass。Oneofthemwalkedapartfromtherest,withoutinterestorfreedomofmovement;herface,sealedandimpassive,wasagedbeyondthevigourofheryears。Iknewthewomanbysight,andherhistorybyhearsay。Wehaveacodeofmoralshere-notindeedpeculiartothisplaceorpeople-thataweddingis'respectable'ifitprecedeschild-birthbyabaremonth,tolerable,andtoberecognised,shoulditsucceedthesamebylessthanayear(providedthepairarenotlivinginthesamevillage);butthechildthathasneverbeen'fathered'andthewifewithoutaringare'anathema,'andsuchinonewasElizabethBanks。Shewentawayamaidandcamebackayearagowithachildandwithoutaname。Hermotherwasdead,herfatherandthevillagewouldhavenoneofher:thehominginstinctisverystrong,orshewouldscarcelyhavereturned,knowingthetraditionsoftheplace。OldDodden,seeingher,grumbledtomeintherest-time-"Can'tthinkwhatthefarmerwantswi'LizzieBanksin'isfield。""Shemustlive,"Isaid,"andbyallshowingherlifeisahardone。""She'adthemakin'of'erbed,"hewenton,obstinately。"Whatfordoshebringherdisgracehome,wi'afatherlessbratforallfolkstosee?Wedon'twantthemsortinourvillage。TheLord'shandisheavy,an'abrat'sacursethatcannotbehid。"
  Whentea-timecameIcrossedthefieldtolookforamissinghone,andsawElizabethBanksfarfromtheotherwomen,busiedwithabundleunderthehedge。Ipassedcloseonmysearch,andlo!thebundlewasalittleboy。Helaysmilingandstretching,fightingtheairwithhissmallpinkfists,whilethewindplayedwithhiscurls。"Acursethatcannotbehid,"oldDoddenhadsaid。Themotherkneltamoment,devouringhimwithhereyes,thensnatchedhimtoherwithachinggreedandcoveredhimwithkisses。Isawthepoor,plainfaceillumined,transfigured,alivewithamother'slove,andrememberedhowthewordcameoncetoaHebrewprophet:-
  SayuntoyourbrethrenAmmi,andtoyoursistersRuhamah。
  Theeveningskywascloudingfast,thesoundofrainwasintheair;FarmerMarlershookhisheadashelookedatthegrasslyinginorderedrows。Iwasthelasttoleave,andasIlingeredatthegatedrinkinginthescentofthefieldandthecoolofthecomingrain,thefirstdropsfellonmyupturnedfaceandkissedthepoordryswathesatmyfeet,andIwasglad。
  David,childofthefieldsandthesheepfolds,hiskingshiplaidaside,seesthroughthepartedcurtainoftheyearstheadventofhisgreaterSon,andcriesinhispsalmofthehilltops,hislastpropheticprayer:-
  Heshallcomedownlikerainuponthemowngrass。
  EvensoHecame,andshallstillcome。Threedaysagothefield,initspageantoffreshbeauty,withshimmeringbladesandtossingbanners,greetedsunandshoweralikewithjoyforthefurtheranceofitslifeandpurpose;now,laidlow,ithearstheyounggrasswhisperthesplendourofitscominggreen;andthepoorswathesaregladatthetelling,butfullofgrieffortheirownapparentfailure。Theningreatpitycomestherain,therainofsummer,gentle,refreshing,penetrating,andtheswathesarecomforted,fortheyknowthatstandingtogreetorprostratetosuffer,theconsolationsoftheformerandthelatterrainarestilltheirown,withtendertouchandcoolcaress。Then,oncemoreparchedbythesun,theyareborneawaytothenewservicetheirapparentfailurehasfittedthemfor;andperhapsastheywaitinthedarkfortheunknownthatisstilltocometheyhearsometimesthecallofthedistantrain,andatthesoundthedrysapstirsafresh-theyarenotforgottenandcanwait。
  "SAYUNTOYOURSISTERSRUHAMAH,"criestheprophet。
  "HESHALLCOMEDOWNLIKERAINONTHEMOWNGRASS,"sangthepoetofthesheepfolds。
  "MYWAYSARENOTYOURWAYS,SAITHTHELORD。"
  IrememberhowIwenthomealongthedampsweet-scentedlanesthroughthegreymistoftherain,thinkingofthemownfieldandElizabethBanksandmany,manymore;andthatnight,whentheskyhadclearedandthenightingalesang,Ilookedoutatthemoonridingatanchor,asilverboatinastillblueseaablazewiththeheadlightsofthestars,andthesayingoftheherdsmanofTekoacametome-asithascomeoftentimessince:-
  SeekHimthatmakeththesevenstarsandOrion,andturneththeshadowofdeathintothemorning,andmakeththedaydarkwithnight;thatcallethforthewatersoftheseaandpoureththemoutuponthefaceofearth;theLordisHisname。
  CHAPTERII
  THISgardenisanepitomeofpeace;sunandwind,rain,flowers,andbirdsgathermeintotheblessednessoftheiractiveharmony。
  Theworldholdsnowishforme,nowthatIhavecomehometodiewithmyownpeople,forverifyIthinkthatthesapofgrassandtreesmustruninmyveins,sosteadyistheirpulluponmyheart-
  strings。Londonclaimedallmyphilosophy,butthecountrygivesall,andasksofmeonlythewarmreceptivityofachildinitsmother'sarms。
  WhenIlieinmycoollightroomonthegardenlevel,Ilookacrossthebrightgrass-ILVERDESMALTO-toagreatredrosebushinlavishdisarrayagainstthedarkcypress。Nearby,amidatangleofmany-huedcorn-flowersIseethepromiseofcominglilies,thesuddencrimsonofasolitarypaeony;andinlowlierstateagainstthepoorparchedearthglowthegoldencupsoftheeschseholtzias。
  Beyondthelowhedgeliespasturebrightwithbuttercups,wherethecattlefeed。Fartheroff,wherethescythehasbeenbusy,aresheep,cleanandshorn,withmerry,well-grownlambs;andinthefarthestfieldIcanseethegreathorsesmovinginslowsteadypaceasthefarmerturnshisfurrow。
  Thebirdsarenoisycomradesandoldfriends,fromthelarkwhichchantsthedew-steepedmorning,tothenightingalethatbreaksthesilenceofthemostwonderfulnights。Ihearthewisdomoftherooksinthegreatelms;theliftingliltofthelinnet,andtherobin'squaintlittlesummersong。Thestarlingschatterceaselessly,theirqueerstridentvoicesharshagainstthemelodiousgossipoftheotherbirds;themartinsshrillsoftlyastheyswooptoandfrobusiedwiththeirnestingunderthecaves;
  thrushandblackbirdvieinfriendlyrivalryliketheMeister-
  singerofold;sometimesIhearthedrawlingcryofapeacockstrayedfromthegreathouse,orthelaughofthewoodpecker;andatnightthehuntingnoteoftheowlreachesmeashesweepsbyinsearchofprey。
  To-dayIamoutagain;andthegreatsycamoreshowershoneyandflowersonmeasIliebeneathit。Sometimesabeefallslikeanover-ripefruit,andwaitsawhiletocleanhispollen-coatedlegsereheflieshometodischargehisburden。Heistoobusytobefriendly,buthisgreatvelvetycousinismuchmoresociable,andstaysforagentlerubbetweenhisnoisyshimmeringwings,andanapinthehollowofmyhand,forheisanidlefriendlysoulwithplentyoftimeathisowndisposalandnoresponsibilities。
  LookingacrossIcanwatchthemartinsatwork;theyhaveastarlingandasparrowfornearneighboursinthewoodengutter。
  Onenestisalreadycompleteallbutthecoping,theothertwoarea-building:IwonderwhetherIortheywillbefirsttogosouththroughthemist。
  Thisgreattreeisaworldinitself,andthedenizensappearfullofcuriosityastotheGulliverwhohastakenuphisabodebeneathit。Palegreencaterpillarsandspidersofallsizescomespinningdowntovisitme,andhavetobepersuadedwithinfinitedifficultytoascendtheirthreadsagain。Thereareflieswithbeautifuliridescentwings,beetlesofallshapes,someofthemliketinyjewelsinthesunlight。Theirnomenclatureisasealedbooktome;
  oftheirlifeandhabitsIknownothing;yetthisisbutalittlecornerofthecosmosIamleaving,andIfeelnotsomuchdesireforthebeautytocome,asagreatlongingtoopenmyeyesalittlewiderduringthetimewhichremainstomeinthisbeautifulworldofGod'smaking,whereeachmomenttellsitsowntaleofactive,progressivelifeinwhichthereisnoundoing。NatureknowsnaughtofthewebofPenelope,thatacmeofanxiouspatheticwaiting,butgoessteadilyonineverwideningcircletowardsthefulfilmentofthemysteryofGod。
  Thereare,Itakeit,twomaster-keystothesecretsoftheuniverse,viewedSUBSPECIEAETERNITATIS,theIncarnationofGod,andthePersonalityofMan;withtheseitistrueforusasforthepantheisticlittlemanofcontemptiblespeech,that"allthingsareours,"yea,evenuntothethirdheaven。
  Ihavelostmyvoraciousappetiteforbooks;theirlanguageislessplainthanscentandsongandthewindinthetrees;andformethecluetothenextworldliesinthewisdomofearthratherthaninthelearningofmen。"LIBERAMEABFUSCINAHOPHNI,"prayedthegoodBishopfearfulofreligiousgreed。Iknowtoomuch,nottoolittle;itisrealisationthatIlack,whereforeIdesiretheselastdaystoconfirminmyselfthesustaininggoodnessofGod,thelovewhichisourcontinuingcity,theNewJerusalemwhoselength,breadth,andheightareallone。Itisatimeofexceedingpeace。
  Thereisaplacewaitingformeunderthefirsinthequietchurchyard;thankstomypovertyIhavenoworldlyanxietiesorpersonaldispositions;andIamrichinfriends,manyofthemunknowntome,wholavishlysupplymyneedsandmakeitidealtoliveonthecharityofone'sfellow-men。Iammostgladlyindebttoalltheworld;andtoEarth,mymother,forhergreatbeauty。
  IcanneverrememberthetimewhenIdidnotloveher,thismotherofminewithherwonderfulgarmentsandorderedloveliness,hertendercareandpatientbearingofman'sburden。IntheearliestdaysofmylonelychildhoodIusedtoliechinonhandamidthemilkmaids,redsorrel,andheavyspear-grasslisteningtohermanyvoices,andabovealltothevoiceofthelittlebrookwhichranthroughthemeadowswhereIusedtoplay:Ithinkithasrunthroughmywholelifealso,toloseitselfatlast,notinthegreatseabutintheriverthatmakethgladtheCityofGod。
  Valleyandplain,mountainandfruitfulfield;thelark'ssongandthespeedwellinthegrass;surelyamanneednotsighforgreaterlovelinessuntilhehasreadsomethingmoreofthislivingletter,andkneltbeforethatearthofwhichheistheonlyconfusion。
  Itisagravematterthatthewordreligionholdssuchawayamongus,makingtheverygapseemtoyawnagainwhichtheIncarnationonceandforeverfilledfull。Wehavebanishedtheprotectinggodsthatruledinriverandmountain,treeandgrove;wehavegainsayedforthemostpartfolk-loreandmyth,superstitionandfairy-tale,evilonlyintheirabuse。Wehavedoneawaywithmystery,ornameditdeceit。Allthiswehavedoneinanenlightenedage,butdespitethispolicyofdestructionwehaveleftourselvesabelief,thegrandestandmostsimpletheworldhaseverknown,whichsanctifiesthewaterthatisshedbyeverypassingcloud;andgathersupinitsgreatcentralactvineyardandcornfield,proclaimingthemtobethatLifeoftheworldwithoutwhichamanisdeadwhileheliveth。Further,itisabeliefwhosefoundationsarethemostheavenlymysteryoftheTrinity,butwhosecentreisalittleChild:itsetsapriceupontheheadofthesparrow,andreckonstherichesofthisworldattheirtruevalue;