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第5章

  Idonotevenknowmybishop'sname,onlythattheworkisofthethirteenthcentury;butheisgoodtocompanywiththroughtheday,forhehasknowndarknessandlightandthemindsofmanymen;mostsurely,too,hehasknownthatGodfulfilsHimselfinstrangeways,sowiththeshadowofhisfeetuponthepolishedfloorherestsinpeace。
  CHAPTERIV
  ONSundaymylittletreewaslimnedinwhiteandthesparrowswerecravingshelteratmywindowfromtheblizzard。Nowthemildthinairbringsabreathofspringinitswakeandthedaffodilsinthegardenwaitthekissesofthesun。Hand-in-handwithmemoryIslipawaydowntheyears,andrememberadaywhenIawokeatearliestdawn,foracrossmysleepIhadheardthelustygolden-throatedtrumpetersheraldingthespring。
  Theairwassharp-set;adelicaterimefrostedroofandroad;thesealayhazyandstilllikeagreatpearl。Thenastheskystirredwithflushuponflushofwarmrosylight,itpassedfrommistypearltoopalwithheartofflame,fromopaltogleamingsapphire。
  Theearthcalled,thefieldscalled,therivercalled-thatpiedpipertowhosemusicamancannotstophisears。ItwaswithmeaswiththeCanterburypilgrims:-
  "Soprikethhemnatureinhircorages;
  Thanlongenfolktogononpilgrimages。"
  HalfanhourlaterIwasawaybytheearlytrainthatcarriesthebranchmailsandafewworkmen,andwasdeliveredatthelittlewaysidestationwiththeletters。ThekindairwentsingingpastasIswungalongthereverberatingroadbetweenthehightree-
  crownedbankswhichwecallhedgesinmerryDevon,withalltheworldtomyselfandtheBrethren。Agreatblackbirdflewoutwithaloud"chook,chook,"andtheredofthehawonhisyellowbill。
  Arobintrilledfromalowrose-bush;twowrenssearcheddiligentlyonafallentreeforbreakfast,quiteunconcernedwhenIrestedamomentbesidethem;andashrewmouseslippedacrosstheroadfolloweddirectlybyitsmate。Marchvioletsbloomedundertheshelteredhedgewithhereandthereapaleprimrose;afrostedbramblespraystillhelditsautumntintsclingingtothesemblanceofthepast;andgreatbranchesofsnowyblackthornbrokethebarrenhedgewayasifspringmadeamockofwinter'ssnows。
  LightofheartandfootwiththenewwineoftheyearIspedonagain,straydaffodilslightingthewayside,untilIheardthevoiceofthestreamandreachedthefieldgatewhichleadstothelowermeadows。Therebeforemelayspring'spageant;greenpennonswaving,daintymaidscurtseying,andahostofjoyousyellowtrumpetersproclaiming'Victory'toanawakenedearth。Theyrangeinserriedranksrightdowntotheriver,sothatamanmustwalkwarilytoreachthewater'sedgewheretheystandgazingdownatthemselvesinfairestsemblanceliketheirmosttragicprogenitor,and,risingfromthebrightgrassintheirthousands,stretchawayuntiltheymeltinagoldencloudatthefarendofthemistymead。
  ThroughthefieldgateandacrosstheroadIseethem,starringthesteepearthbankthatleadstotheuppercopse,gleaminglikepaleflamesagainstthedarktree-boles。Theretheyhavebutfrailtenure;here,inthemeadows,theyreignsupreme。
  Attheupperendofthefieldtheriverprovidesyetclosersanctuaryforthesechildrenofthespring。Heldinitsembracingarmsliesanislandlongandnarrow,somethirtyfeetbytwelve,averitableuntrodEldorado,gloriousingoldfromendtoend,afringeofreedsbythewater'sedge,andsaveforthat-daffodils。
  Agreatoakstandsatthemeadow'sneck,anoakwithgnarledandwanderingrootswhereamanmayrest,foritisbareofdaffodilssaveforagroupofthree,andasolitaryoneapartgrowingclosetotheoldtree'sside。Isatdownbymylonelylittlesister,blueskyoverhead,greengrassatmyfeetdecked,likethepasturesoftheBlessed,inglorioussheen;aseaoftriumphant,goldenheadstossingblithelybackasthewindsweptdowntoplaywiththemathispleasure。
  Itwasallminetohaveandtoholdwithoutseveringasingleslenderstemorharbouringathoughtofcovetousness;mine,asthewholeearthwasmine,toappropriatetomyselfwithouttheburdenandbaneofworldlypossession。"ThousayestthatIam-aKing,"
  saidtheLordbeforePilate,and"Mykingdomisnotofthisworld。"
  WewhoaremadekingsafterHislikenesspossessallthings,notafterthisworld'sfashionbutinproportiontoourpoverty;andwhenweceasetotoilandspin,arearrayedasthelilies,inaglorytranscendingSolomon's。BridePoverty-shewhoclimbedtheCrosswithChrist-stretchedouteagerhandstofreeusfromourchains,butwefleefromher,andlayuptreasureagainstherimportunity,whileAmytasonhisseaweedbedweepstearsofpurepityforcrave-mouthCaesarofgreatpossessions。
  Presentlyanotherofspring'sloverscriedacrossthewater"Cuckoo,cuckoo,"andthevoiceofthestreamsangjoyouslyinunison。Itisfreefromburden,thismerrylittleriver,andneitherweirnormillbarsitsquickwaytotheseaasitcompletestheeternalcircle,lavishinggiftsofcoolnessandrefreshmentonthechildrenofthemeadows。
  Ithasitsbirthonthegreatlonemoor,cradledinawonderfulpeat-smellingbog,withamany-huedcoverletofsoftmosses-palegold,orange,emerald,tawny,oliveandwhite,withtheredstainofsun-dewandtuftedcotton-grass。Undertheoldgreyrockswhichwatchitrise,yellow-eyedtormantilstarstheturf,andbids"Godspeed"tothelittlechildofearthandsky。Thusthejourneybegins;andwithever-increasingstrengththestreamcarvesawaythroughthedearbrownpeat,wearsafreshwrinkleonthepatientstones,andpattersmerrilyunderaclapperbridgewhichspanneditsbreadthwhenthemistletoereignedandBottor,thegrimrockidol,exactedthetollofhumanlifethatmadehimgreat。Onandongoesthestream,foritmaynotstay;leavingofitsfreshnesswiththegreatosmundathatstretcheseagerrootstowardstherunningwater;flowingawhilewithabrotherstream,topartagaineastandwestaseachtakesuphisseparateburdenofservice-myfriendtocherishthelowermeadowsintheirfloweryjoyance-andsobythegreatsea-gatebacktoskyandearthagain。
  TheriverofGodisfullofwater。ThestreetsoftheCityarepuregold。Verily,herealsohavingnothingwepossessallthings。
  TheairwaskeenandstillasIwalkedbackintheearlyevening,andadaffodillightwasintheskyasifHeavenmirroredbackearth'sradiance。Nearthestationsomechildrenflittedpast,likelittlewhitemillermothshomingthroughthedusk。AsI
  climbedthehillthemoonrodehighinagoldenfield-itwasdaffodilstothelast。
  CHAPTERV
  THEseagullsfromtheupperreachespassdowntheriverinsobersteadyflightseekingtheopensea。Ishallmisstheswoopandcircleofsilverwingsinthesunlightandtheplaintivecallwhichsoundssostrangelyawayfromrockandshore,butitisgoodtoknowthattheyhavegonefrommudbankandmurkytownbacktothefreeairsoftheirinheritance,totheshadowofsun-sweptcliffsandthecurlingcrestofthewind-beatenwaves,tobroodagainoverthegreatoceanofaworld'stears。
  Mylittletreeisgemmedwithbuds,shy,immature,butfullofpromise。Thesparrowsbusiedwithnest-buildingintheneighbouringpipesandguttersuseitforavantageground,andcrowdthereinnumbers,eachlittlebeaksealedwithlonggoldenstrawordownyfeather。
  Theriverisheavywithhaybarges,thelastfruitsofwinter'sstorehouse;thelengtheningdaysslowlyandsteadilyoustthedark;
  theairisloudwithagrowingclamouroflife:springisnotonlyproclaimed,butonthisFeastsheiscrowned,anddespitethewarringwindthedaysbringtheirmeedofsunshine。Westandforamomentatthemeetingoftheways,thehandclaspofWinterandSpring,ofSleepandWakening,ofLifeandDeath;andthereisbetweenthemnoteventhethinlinewhichRabbiJochananonhisdeath-bedbeheldasallthatdividedhellfromheaven。
  "SPHAERACUJUSCENTRUMUBIQUE,CIRCUMFERENTIANULLIBUS,"wassaidofMercury,thatmessengerofthegodswhomarshalledreluctantspiritstotheUnderworld;andforMercurywemaywriteLifewithDeathasitsgreatsacramentofbrotherhoodandrelease,tobedreadedonlyaswedreadtopartakeunworthilyofgreatbenefits。
  Likeallsacramentsithasitsrightfultimeandduesolemnities;
  thehorrorandsinofsuicidelieinthepresumptionoffreewill,theforestallingofagift,-thesinofEveinParadise,whotookthatwhichmightonlybegivenatthehandoftheLord。Ithastooitsphysicalpains,buttheyarethoseofawomanintravail,andwerememberthemnomoreforjoythatachild-manisbornintotheworldnakedandnotashamed:beholdingourselvesasweareweshallseealsotheleavesoftheTreeofLifesetforthehealingofthenations。
  Weareslowly,veryslowly,abandoningourbeliefinsuddenandviolenttransitionsforasurerandfulleracceptanceofthedoctrineofevolution;butmostofusstilldrawasharplineofdemarcationbetweenthisworldandthenext,andexpectaradicalchangeinourselvesandoursurroundings,abreakinthechainofcontinuityentirelycontrarytotheteachingofnatureandexperience。Inthesamewayweclingtothespeciousuntruththatwecanbeginoverandoveragaininthisworld,forgettingthatwhileoursorrowandrepentancebringsacramentalgiftsofgraceandstrength,GodHimselfcannot,byHisownlimitation,rewritethePast。Weareinoursorrowthatwhichwehavemadeourselvesinoursin;ourtemptationsarethereaswellasthewayofescape。
  WeareintheimageofGod。Wecreateourworld,ourundyingselves,ourheaven,orourhell。"QUICREAVITTESINETENON
  SALVABITTESINETE。"Itisstupendous,magnificent,andmostappalling。Amandoesnotchangeashecrossesthethresholdofthelargerroom。Hispersonalityremainsthesame,althoughtheexpressionofitmaybealtered。Herewehavematerialbodiesinamaterialworld-there,perhaps,etherbodiesinanetherworld。
  Thereisnoindecencyinreasonablespeculationandcuriosityaboutthelifetocome。Oneendofthethreadisbetweenourfingers,butwearehauntedforthemostpartbythesnapofAtropos'
  shears。
  Socratesfaceddeathwiththemagnificentcalmbredofdignifiedfamiliarity。Hehadbuiltforhimselfadesiredheavenofcolour,light,andpreciousstones-thephilosophicformulaofthosewhosetthespiritualabovethematerial,andworshiptruthinthebeautyofholiness。Heisnottroubledbydoubtsorregrets,forthepathofthejustliesplainbeforehisface。Heforbidsmourningandlamentationsasoutofplace,obeysminutelyandcheerilythedirectionsofhisexecutioner,andpasseswithunaffecteddignitytotheapprehensionofthatlargertruthforwhichhehadconstantlypreparedhimself。HisfriendsmayburyhimprovidedtheywillremembertheyarenotburyingSocrates;andthatallthingsmaybedonedecentlyandinorder,acockmustgotoAEsculapius。
  Longbefore,inthedaysoftheCaptivity,therelivedingodless,blood-sheddingNinevehanexiledJewwhosefatherhadfallenfromthefaith。Hewasasimpleman,child-likeanddirect;livingthecareful,kindlylifeofanorthodoxJew,sufferingmanypersecutionsforconscience'sake,andinconstantdangerofdeath。
  Henarratesthestoryofhislifeandoftheblindnesswhichfellonhim,withgentleplacidity,andcheckstheexuberanceofhismoreemotionalwifewiththeassuranceofuntroubledfaith。
  Finally,whenhispiousexpectationsarefulfilled,hissightrestored,andhissonprosperouslyestablishedbesidehim,hebreaksintoaprayerofrejoicingwhichrevealsthesecretofhisconfidentcontent。Hemadeuseoftwogreatfaculties:thesenseofproportion,whichenabledhimtoappriselifeanditsaccidentsjustly,andthegiftofin-seeing,whichledSocratesafterhim,andBlessedJohninlonelyexileonPatmos,tolookthroughthethingstemporaltothehiddenmeaningsofeternity。
  "LetmysoulblessGodthegreatKing,"hecries;andlooksawaypastthepresentdistress;pasttheRestorationwhichwastoendinfreshscatteringandconfusion;pastthedreamofgold,andporphyry,andmarbledefacedbytheeaglesandemblemsoftheconqueror;untilhiseyesareheldbytheJerusalemofGod,"builtupwithsapphires,andemeralds,andpreciousstones,"withbattlementsofpuregold,andthecryof'Alleluia'inherstreets。
  Manyyearslater,whenhewasveryaged,hecalledhissontohimandgavehimasheritagehisownsimpleruleoflife,addingbutonerequest:"Keepthouthelawandthecommandments,andshewthyselfmercifulandjust,thatitmaygowellwiththee……
  Considerwhatalmsdoeth,andhowrighteousnessdothdeliver……
  Andburymedecently,andthymotherwithme。"Havingsosaid,hewenthiswayquietlyandcontentedlytotheJerusalemofhisheart。
  Itisthesimplenoteoffamiliaritythatiswantinginus;thatbywhichwelinkworldwithworld。Once,yearsago,IsatbythebedsideofadyingmaninawretchedgarretintheEastEnd。Hewasentirelyignorant,entirelyquiescent,andentirelyuninterested。Theministerofaneighbouringchapelcametoseehimandspoketohimatsomelengthoftheneedforrepentanceandthejoysofheaven。Afterhehadgonemyfriendlaystaringrestlesslyatthemassofdecrepitbrokenchimneypotswhichmadehishorizon。Atlasthespoke,andtherewasanewnoteinhisvoice:-
  "Eesaidas'owthereweregoldingstreetsinthemparts。Iain'tnowaysparticlerwotthey'remadeof,butit'llfeelnatrallikeifthere'schimleystoo。"
  Thesunstretchedasuddenfingerandpaintedthechimneypotsredandgoldagainstthesmoke-dimmedsky,andwithhisfacealightwithsurprisedreliefmyfrienddied。
  Weareonewiththeearth,oneinsin,oneinredemption。ItisthefringeofthegarmentofGod。"IfImaybuttouchthehem,"
  saidacertainwoman。
  OnthegreatDeath-daywhichshadowstheearlyspringwithashadowofwhichitmaybesaidUMBRADEIESTLUX,theearthbroughtgiftsofgrief,thefruitofthecurse,barrenthorns,hollowreed,andthewoodofthecross;theseamadeofferingofTyrianpurple;theskyveiledherfaceingreatdarkness,whilethenationofpriestscrucifiedforthelasttimetheirPaschallamb。"Iwillhear,saiththeLord;Iwillheartheheavens,andtheyshallheartheearth,andtheearthshallhearthecornandwineandoil,andtheyshallhearJezreel,andIwillsowheruntomeintheearth;andI
  willhavemercyuponherthathadnotobtainedmercy,andIwillsayuntothemwhichwerenotmypeople,'Thouartmypeople,'andtheyshallsay'ThouartmyGod。'"
  ThesecondAdamstoodinthegardenwithquickeningfeet,andalltheearthpulsedandsangforjoyofthenewhopeandthenewlifequickeningwithinher,tobehersthroughthepainsoftravail,thepangsofdissolution。TheTreeofLifebearsBreadandWine-foodofthewayfaringman。Thedayofdivisionsispast,thedayofunityhasdawned。Onehasrisenfromthedead,andintheValleyofAchorstandswidetheDoorofHope-theSacramentofDeath。
  ScioDomine,etverescio……quianonsumdignusaccedereadtantummysteriumpropternimiapeccatameaetinfinitasnegligentiasmeas。Sedscio……quiatupotesmefaceredignum。
  CHAPTERVI
  "ANYTUSandMeletuscankillme,buttheycannothurtme,"saidSocrates;andGovernorSancho,withalltheitchofnewly-acquiredauthority,couldnotmaketheyoungweaverofsteel-headsforlancessleepinprison。IntheVisionofErthesoulspassedstraightforwardunderthethroneofnecessity,andoutintotheplainsofforgetfulness,wheretheymustseverallydrinkoftheriverofunmindfulnesswhosewaterscannotbeheldinanyvessel。
  Thethrone,theplain,andtheriverarestillhere,butinthedistancerisethegreatloneheavenwardhills,andthewiseamongusnolongeraskofthegodsLethe,butratherremembrance。
  Necessitycansetmehelplessonmyback,butshecannotkeepmethere;norcanfourwallslimitmyvision。IpassoutfromunderherthroneintothegardenofGodafreeman,tomyultimatebeatitudeormyexceedingshame。Alldaylongthisworldliesopentome;ay,andotherworldsalso,ifIwillbuthaveitso;andwhennightcomesIpassintothekingdomandpowerofthedark。
  Iliethroughthelonghoursandwatchmybridge,whichissetwithlightsacrossthegloom;watchthetrafficwhichisformebutsomanypassinglampstellingtheirtalebyvaryingheightandbrightness。Ihearundermywindowthesprintofover-tiredhorses,therattleofuncertainwheelsasthestreet-sellershastensouth;thejangleofcabbellsasthetheatre-goerstaketheirhomewardway;thegruffaltercationofwearymen,theunmelodioussongandclamorouslaughofwomenwhosemerrimentiswearierstill。
  Thencomesatimeofstillnesswhenthelightintheskywaxesandwanes,whenthecloud-driftsobscurethestars,andIgazeoutintoblacknesssetwithwatchingeyes。Nosoundcomesfromwithoutbutthevoiceofthenight-windandthecryofthehour。Theclockonthemantelpieceticksimperatively,foracheckhasfallenonthefamiliaritywhichbreedsadisregardofcommonthings,andareasonhastobesoughtforeachsoundwhichclaimsahearing。Thepauseiswonderfulwhileitlasts,butitisnotforlong。Theworkingworldawakes,thepoorerbrethrentakeuptheburdenofservice;
  thedawnlightsthesky;remembrancecriesanendtoforgetting。
  Sometimesinthecountryonanightinearlysummeryoumayshutthecottagedoortostepoutintoanimmensedarknesswhichpallsheavenandearth。Goingforwardintotheembraceofthegreatgloom,youareasababeswaddledbythehandsofnightintohelplessquiescence。Yourfeettreadanunseenpath,yourhandsgraspatavoid,orshrinkfromthecontacttheycannotrealise;
  youreyesareholden;yourvoicewoulddieinyourthroatdidyouseektorendtheveilofthatimpenetrablesilence。
  Shutinbytheintangibledark,wearebroughtupagainstthoseworldswithinworldsblottedoutbyourconcretedailylife。Theworkingofthegreatmicrocosmatwhichwepeerdimlythroughthelittlewindowofscience;thewonderful,breathingearth;thepulsing,throbbingsap;thegrowingfragranceshutinthecalyxofto-morrow'sflower;theheart-beatofasleepingworldthatwedreamthatweknow;andaround,above,andinterpenetratingall,theworldofdreams,ofangelsandofspirits。
  ItwasthisworldwhichJacobsawonthefirstnightofhisexile,andagainwhenhewrestledinPenieluntilthebreakofday。ItwasthisworldwhichElishasawwithopeneyes;whichJobknewwhendarknessfellonhim;whichEzekielgazedintofromhisplaceamongthecaptives;whichDanielbeheldashestoodalonebythegreatriver,theriverHiddekel。
  Forthemomentwehaveleftbehindtherealmofquestionandexplanation,ofpowerovermatterandtheexerciseofbodilyfaculties;andpassedintodarknessalightwithvisionswecannotsee,intosilencealivewithvoiceswecannothear。Likehelplessmenwesetourallontheonethingleftus,andliftupourhearts,knowingthatwearebutamerespeckamongamyriadworlds,yetgreaterthanthesumofthem;havingourrootsinthedarkplacesoftheearth,butourbranchesinthesweetairsofheaven。