"I'meighty-four,"hewenton,"andterriblebadwiththerheumaticsandmychest。Maybeit'llnotbelongbeforetheLordremembersme。"
Thechildcreptcloseandputastickylittlehandconfidinglyintothetiredoldpalm。Thetwolookedstrangelyalike,fortheworldseemsmuchthesametothosewholeaveitbehindastothosewhohavebuttakenthefirststeponitscircularpathway。
"'Ookatmykitty,"shesaid,pointingtothesmallcreatureinherlap。Then,astheoldmantoucheditwithtremblingfingersshewenton-"'Ooisn'tmygrandad;he'sawayinthesky,butI'llkiss'oo。"
Iworkedon,hearingatintervalstheoldpipingvoiceandthechild-treble,muchofanote;andthinkingoftheblessingsvouchsafedtothesimpleoldagewhichcrownsaharmlessworking-
lifespentinthefields。Thetwounderthehedgehadeverythingincommonandwereboundlesslycontenttogether,thestingoftheknowledgeofgoodandevilpastfortheone,andfortheotherstilltocome;whileIstoodonthebattlefieldoftheworld,theflesh,andthedevil,though,thankGod,withmyfacetothefoe。
Theoldmansatresting:Ihadpromisedhimaliftwithmyfriendthedriveroftheflour-cart,andhewasalmostduewhenthechild'sgrandmothercamedowntheroad。
Whenshesawmyothervisitorshestoodamazed。
"What,RichardHunton,thatworkedwithmyoldmanyearsagoupatDitton,whateverareyoudoin'allthesemilesfromyourownplace?"
"IsitElizaJakes?"
Helookedatherdazed,doubtful。
"An'whoelseshoulditbe?Where'syourmemorygone,RichardHunton,andyounotsuchagreatageeither?Whereareyoustayin'?"
Shameovercamehim;hislipstrembled,hismildblueeyesfilledwithtears。ItoldthetaleasIhadheardit,andMrsJakes'sindignationwasgoodtosee。
"Notkeepyouon'alfacrown!SendyoutotheHouse!MaytheLordforgivethem!Youwouldn'teatnomorethanafair-sizedcat,andnotlongforthisworldeither,that'splaintosee。No,RichardHunton,youdon'tgototheHousewhileI'maboveground;
it'dmakemygoodmanturntothinkofit。You'llcome'omewithmeandthelittle'unthere。I'vemywashin',andabitputbyforarainyday,andabedtospare,andtheLordandtheparsonwillseeIdon'tcometowant。"
Shestoppedbreathless,herdefensivemotherhoodinarms。
Theoldmansaidquaveringly,inthepathetic,grudgingphraseofthepoor,whichveilstheirgratitudewhileittestifiestheirindependence,"MaybeImightaswell。"Herosewithdifficulty,pickeduphisbundleandstick,thesmallchildreplacedthekitteninitsbasket,andthrustherhandinhernewfriend's。
"Then'ooISgrandadtumback,"shesaid。
MrsJakeshadbeenfumblinginherpocket,andextractedapenny,whichshepressedonme。
"It'slittleenough,mister,"shesaid。
Then,asItriedtoreturnit:"Nay,I'veenough,andyoursispoorpaidwork。"
IhopeIshallalwaysbeabletokeepthatpenny;andasIwatchedthethreegoingdownthedustywhiteroad,withthechildinthemiddle,IthankedGodfortheBrotherhoodofthePoor。
CHAPTERIV
YESTERDAYafuneralpassed,fromthework-houseatN-,aquaintsepulturewithoutsolemnities。Therough,ungarnishedcoffinofstaineddeallaybareandunsightlyonthefloorofanoldmarket-
cart;awomansatbeside,steadyingitwithherfeet。Thehusbanddrove;andthemostdepressedofthethreewasthehorse,abroken-
kneed,flea-bittengrey。Itwaspathetic,thisbringinghomeindeathoftheoldfatherwhom,whilehelived,theyhadbeentoopoortohouse;itwasatnosmallsacrificethattheyhadsparedhimthatterrorofoldage,apauper'sgrave,andbroughthimtoliebyhiswifeinourquietchurchyard。Theyfeltnoemotion,thishusbandandwife,onlyadullsenseoffilialdutydone,respectabilitypreserved;andaboveandthroughall,thebitterbutnecessarycountingthecostofthislastbed。
Itisstrangehowpaganmanyofusareinourbeliefs。True,thefunerallibationshavemadewayforthecomfortablebake-meats;
still,tothelargemajorityDeathisPluto,kingofthedarkUnknownwhencenotravellerreturns,ratherthanAzrael,brotherandfriend,lordofthismansionoflife。Strangehowmenshunhimashewaitsintheshadow,watchingourpunystrainingafterimmortality,sendinghiscomradesleeptoprepareusforhimself。
Whenthehourstrikeshecomes-verygently,verytenderly,ifwewillbuthaveitso-foldsthetiredhandstogether,takestheway-wornfeetinhisbroadstrongpalm;andliftingusinhiswonderfularmshebearsusswiftlydownthevalleyandacrossthewatersofRemembrance。
Verypleasantartthou,OBrotherDeath,thyloveiswonderful,passingtheloveofwomen。
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To-dayIhavelivedinawhirlofdust。To-morrowisthegreatannualCattleFairatE-,andthroughthelonghothoursthebeastsfromallthedistrictroundhavestreamedinbrokenprocessionalongmyroad,tochangehandsortodie。Surelythelordshipovercreationimplieswiseandgentleruleforintelligentuse,notthepursuitofamereimmediateend,withoutanythoughtofcommunityinthegreatsacramentoflife。
ForthemostpartmysteryhasceasedforthisworkingWesternworld,andwithitreverence。CoventryPatmoresays:"GodclothesHimselfactuallyandliterallywithHiswholecreation。Herbstakeupandassimilateminerals,beastsassimilateherbs,andGod,intheIncarnationanditsproperSacrament,assimilatesus,who,saysStAugustine,'areGod'sbeasts。'"Itismaninhisblindself-
seekingwhoseparateswooffromweftinthelivinggarmentofGod,andlosesthemoreasheneglectstheoutwardandvisiblesignsofaworld-widegrace。
Inoldendaystheherdledhisflock,goingfirstinthepostofdangertodefendthecreatureshehadweanedfromtheirnaturalhabitsforhisvarioususes。Nowthatgoodrelationshiphasceasedforustoexist,mandrivesthebeastsbeforehim,meanstohisend,butwithnoharmonybetweenendandmeans。Alldaylongthedrovesofsheeppassmeontheirlameandpatientway,nolongerfreelyandinstinctivelyfollowingaprotectorandforerunner,butDRIVEN,impelledbyforceandresistlesswill-thesamewillwhichoncewentbeforewithoutforce。Theyarealltrimmedasmuchaspossibletoonepattern,andallmakethesamesadplaint。ItisadayonwhichtothankGodfortheunknowntongue。Thedroverandhisladindustybluecoatsplodalongstolidly,deafandblindtoallbutthewaybeforethem;nolongerwieldingthecrook,instrumentofdeliverance,oratmostofgentlecompulsion,butarmedwithaheavystickandmechanicallydealingblowsontheshortthickfleeces;withoutevilintentbecausewithoutthought-
itistheritualofthetrade。
Ofallthepoordumbpilgrimsoftheroadthebullocksarethemostterribletosee。Theyarenotpatient,butgomostunwillinglywithloweredheadandfurtivesidewaysmotion,intheireyesahorrorofgreatfear。Thesleekcattle,kneedeepinpasture,massedatthegate,andstaredmild-eyedandwithinquiringbellowattheretreatingdrove;butthesepassedwithoutanswerontotheUnknown,andforthemitspeltdeath。
Behindasquadronofsleek,well-fedcart-horses,formedinfours,withstrawbraidinmaneandtail,cametheponies,forthemostpartamerrycompany。Longstringsofrusty,shaggytwo-year-olds,unbroken,unkempt,theshortDowngrassstillsweetontheirtongues;fulloffun,frolic,andwickedness,bitingandpulling,castinglongingeyesatthehedgerows。Theboysappeartorecognisethemaskindredspirits,andarecuriouslyforbearingandpatient。Soonbothponiesandboysvanishinawhitewhirl,andalonglineofcarts,whichhadevidentlywaitedforthedusttosubside,comesslowlyuptheincline。Forthemostparttheycarrythepigsandfowls,carriagefolkoftheroad。Thelatterarehot,crowded,anddustyundertheopennetting;theformerforthemostpartcheerfullyremonstrative。
Idrewabreathofreliefasthenoiseofwheelsdiedawayandmyroadsankintosilence。Thehedgerowsarenolongergreenbutwhiteandchokedwithdust,asighttomovegoodsisterRaintowelcometears。Thebirdsseemtohavefledbeforethenoisyconfusion。Iwonderwhethermysnakehasseenandsmiledattheclumsyrulingofthelordhesolittleheeds?Iturnedasidethroughthegatetoplungefaceandhandsintothecooloftheshelteredgrassthatsidethehedge,andthenrestedmyeyesonthestretchofgreenIhadlackedallday。Therabbitshadapparentlyplayedandbrowsedunmindfulofthestir,andwerestillflirtingtheirwhitetailsalongthehedgerows;alarkrose,anotherandanother,andIwentbacktomyroad。Peacestillreigned,fortheshadowswerelengthening,andtherewouldbelittlemoretrafficforthefair。Iturnedtomywork,gratefulforthestillness,andsawonthewhitestretchofroadaloneoldmanandapig。SurelyIknewthattallfigureinthequaintgreysmock,surelyIknewtheface,furrowedlikenature'sfaceinspringtime,andcrownedbyaround,softhat?Andthepig,theblackpigwalkingdecorouslyfree?Ay,Iknewthem。
IntheearlyspringItookawholeholidayandalongtramp;andtowardsafternoon,tiredandthirsty,soughtwateratalittlelonelycottagewhosewindowspeeredandblinkedunderoverhangingbrowsofthatch。Ihad,notthewaterIaskedfor,butmilkandabowlofsweetporridgeforwhichIpaidonlythanks;andstayedforachatwithmykindlyhosts。Theywereaquaintoldcoupleofthekindrarelymetwithnowadays。TheyenjoyedalittlepensionfromtheSquireandagardeninwhichvegetablesandflowerslivedsidebysideinfriendliestfashion。Beesworkedandsangoverthethymeandmarjoram,bloomingearlyinasunnynook;andinahomelystylivedasolemnblackpig,apigwithahistory。
Itwasnocommonutilitarianpig,butthehonouredguestoftheoldcouple,anditknewit。Ayearbefore,theiryoungestandonlysurvivingchild,thenamanoffive-and-twenty,hadbroughthismothertheresultofhissavingsintheshapeofafineyoungpig:
aweeklaterhelaydeadofthetyphoidthatscourgedMaidstone。
Hencethepigwassacred,caredforandlovedbythisDarbyandJoan。
"Eebemos'likeachildtomeandthemother,an'mos'assensibleasaChristian,eebe,"theoldmanhadsaid;andIcouldhardlycreditmyeyeswhenIsawthetallbentfiguresidebysidewiththeblackpig,comingalongmyroadonsuchaday。
Ihailedtheoldman,andbothturnedaside;buthegazedatmewithoutremembrance。
Ispokeofthepiganditshistory。Henoddedwearily。"Ay,ay,lad,you'vegotit;'tispoorDick'spigrightenow。"
"Butyou'renevergoingtotakeittoE-?"
"Ay,butIbe,andcomin'backalone,iftheLordbemarciful。Themissushasbeenterriblebadthistwomouthsandmore;Squire'sinforeignparts;andfood-stuffssuchastheoldwomanwantsishardbuyingforpoorfolks。Thestocking'sempty,now'tisthepigmustgo,andIbelievehe'dbegladfortodothemissusaturn;shewereterriblegoodtohim,werethemissus,andfond,too。I
dursn'ttellherhewastogo;she'dsoonerstarvethanlosepoorDick'spig。Well,we'dbestbemovin';'tisafairishstep。"
Thepigfollowedcomprehendinganddocile,andasthequaintcouplepassedfromsightIthoughtIheardBrotherDeathstirintheshadow。Heisastrongangelandofgreatpity。
CHAPTERV
THEREisalwaysalittlefireofwoodontheopenhearthinthekitchenwhenIgethomeatnight;theoldladysaysitis"company"
forher,andsitsinthelonelytwilight,herknottedhandslyingquietonherlap,herlisteningeyesfixedontheburningsticks。
Iwondersometimeswhethershehearsmusicintheleapandlickofthefierytongues,musicsuchasheofBayreuthdrawsfromtheviolinstillthehotenergyofthefirespiritisonus,embodiedinsound。
Surelyshehearssomevoice,thatlonelyoldwomanonwhomissetthesealofgreatsilence?
ItisagreattruthtenderlysaidthatGodbuildsthenestfortheblindbird;andmayitnotbethatHeopensclosedeyesandunstopsdeafearstosightsandsoundsfromwhichothersbytheseverysensesaredebarred?
Herethebestofusseethroughamistoftearsmenastreeswalking;itisonlyinthelandwhichisveryfaroffandyetverynearthatweshallhavefulnessofsightandseetheKinginHisbeauty;andIcannotthinkthatanylisteningearslisteninvain。
Thecoppiceatourbackisfullofbirds,foritisfarfromtheroadandtheynestthereundisturbedyearafteryear。ThroughthestillnightIheardthenightingalescalling,calling,untilI
couldbearitnolongerandwentsoftlyoutintotheluminousdark。
Thelittlewoodwasmanifoldwithsound,Iheardmylittlebrotherswhomovebynightrustlingingrassandtree。Ahedgehogcrossedmypathwithadullsqueak,thebatsshrilledhightothestars,awhiteowlsweptpastmecryinghishuntingnote,abeetleboomedsuddenlyinmyface;andaboveandthroughitallthenightingalessang-andsang!
Thenightwindbentthelisteningtrees,andthestarsyearnedearthwardtohearthesongofdeathlesslove。Louderandlouderthewonderfulnotesroseandfellinapassionofmelody;andthensanktorestonthatlowthrillingcallwhichitissaidDeathonceheard,andstayedhishand。
Theywillscarcelysingagainthisyear,thesenightingales,fortheyarelateonthewingasitis。Itseemsasifonsuchnightstheysangastheswansings,knowingittobethelasttime-withthelavishnoteofonewhobidsaneternalfarewell。
Atlasttherewassilence。Sittingunderthebigbeechtree,thegiantofthecoppice,Irestedmytiredselfinthelapofmotherearth,breathedofherbreathandlistenedtohervoiceinthequickeningsilenceuntilmyfleshcameagainasthefleshofalittlechild,foritistruerecreationtositatthefootstoolofGodwrappedinafoldofHislivingrobe,thewhilenightsmoothesourtiredfacewithherhealinghands。
Thegreydawnawokeandstolewithtrailingrobesacrossearth'sfloor。Atherfootstepsthebirdsrousedfromsleepandcriedagreeting;theskyflushedandpaledconsciousofcomingsplendour;
andoverheadafileofswanspassedwithbroadstrongflighttothereededwatersofthesequesteredpool。
Anotherhourofsilencewhilethelightthrobbedandflamedintheeast;thenthelarksroseharmoniousfromaneighbouringfield,therabbitsscurriedwithearsalerttotheirmorningmeal,thedayhadbegun。
Ipassedthroughthecoppiceandoutintothefieldsbeyond。Thedewlayheavyonleafandbladeandgossamer,acoolfreshwindsweptclearoverdaleanddownfromthesea,andthecloverfieldrippledlikeasilverylakeinthebreeze。
Thereissomethinginexpressiblybeautifulintheunusedday,somethingbeautifulinthefactthatitisstilluntouched,unsoiled;andtownandcountrysharealikeinthisloveliness。Athalf-pastthreeonaJunemorningevenLondonhasnotassumedherresponsibilities,butsmilesandglowslightheartedandsmokelessunderthecaressesofthemorningsun。
Fiveo'clock。ThebellringsoutcrispandclearfromthemonasterywheretheBedesmenofStHughwatchandprayforthesoulsonthislabouringforgetfulearth。Everyhourthenoteofcomfortandwarningcriesacrosstheland,tellstheSanctus,theAngelus,andtheHoursofthePassion,andcallstoremembranceandprayer。
Whenthewindisnorth,thesoundcarriesasfarasmyroad,andcompaniesmethroughtheday;andiftoHisdumbchildrenGodinHismercyreckonsworkasprayer,mostcertainlythosewhohaveforgedthroughtheagesanunbrokenchainofsupplicationandthanksgivingwillbecountedamongthestalwartlabourersofthehouseoftheLord。
Sunandbelltogetheraremyonlyclock:itistimeformywaterdrawing;andgatheringapileofmushrooms,childrenofthenight,Ihastenhome。
Thecottageisdeartomeinitsquaintuntidinessandwantofrectitude,dearbecausewearetobeitslastdenizens,lastofthelonglineoftoilerswhohavesweatedandsownthatothersmightreap,andhavepassedawayleavingnotrace。
Ioncesawatallcrossinaseaboardchurchyard,inscribed,"Tothememoryoftheunknowndeadwhohaveperishedinthesewaters。"
Theremightbeoneineveryvillagesleeping-placetotheunhonouredmanywhomadefruitfulthelandwithsweatandtears。
Itisaconsolationtothinkthatwhenwelookbackonthisstretchoflife'sroadfrombeyondthefirstmilestone,which,itisinstructivetoremember,isalwaysagrave,wemayhopetoseetheworkofthisworldwithopeneyes,andtojudgeofitwithaduesenseofproportion。
Abeewithladenhoney-baghummedandbuzzedinthehedgeasIgotreadyforwork,importuningtheflowersforthatwhichhecouldnotcarry,andfinallygivinguptheattemptindespairfellasleeponabuttercup,thebestplaceforhiswearylittlevelvetbody。Infiveminutes-theymayhavebeenfivehourstohim-heawokeanewbee,sensibleandclear-sighted,andflewblithelyawaytothehivewithhissufficiency-anexamplethiswearyworldwouldbewisetofollow。
Myroadhasbeenlonelyto-day。Aparsoncamebyintheafternoon,astrangerintheneighbourhood,forheaskedhisway。Hetalkedawhile,andwithkindlyrebukesaiditwassadtoseeamanofmyeducationbroughtsolow,whichshowshowtheoutsideappearancemaymisleadtheprejudicedobserver。"Wasitmisfortune?""Nay,thebestofgoodluck,"Ianswered,gaily。
Thegoodmanwithbeautifulreadinesssatdownonaheapofstonesandbademesayon。"Readmeasermoninstone,"hesaid,simply;
andIstayedmyhandtoread。
Helistenedwithcourteousintelligence。
"Youholdaroadmenderhasavocation?"heasked。
"Asthemonkortheartist,for,likeboth,heisuniversal。Theworldishishome;heservesallmenalike,ay,andforhimthebeastshaveequalhonourwiththemen。Hissoulis'boundupinthebundleoflife'withallothersouls,heseeshisfather,hismother,hisbrethreninthechildrenoftheroad。Forhimthereisnothingunclean,nothingcommon;theverystonescryoutthattheyserve。"
Parsonnoddedhishead。
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