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第1章

  IHAVEattainedmyideal:Iamaroadmender,somesaystonebreaker。Bothtitlesarecorrect,buttheoneismorepregnantthantheother。AlldayIsitbytheroadsideonastretchofgrassunderahighhedgeofsaplingsandatangleoftraveller'sjoy,woodbine,sweetbrier,andlateroses。Oppositemeisawhitegate,seldomused,ifonemayjudgefromthetrailofhoneysucklegrowingtranquillyalongit:IknownowthatwheneverandwhereverIdiemysoulwillpassoutthroughthiswhitegate;
  andthen,thankGod,Ishallnothaveneedtoundothattrail。
  Inouryouthwediscussedouridealsfreely:Iwonderhowmanybesidemyselfhaveattained,orwouldunderstandmyattaining。
  Afterall,whatdoweaskoflife,hereorindeedhereafter,butleavetoserve,tolive,tocommunewithourfellowmenandwithourselves;andfromthelapofearthtolookupintothefaceofGod?AllthesegiftsaremineasIsitbythewindingwhiteroadandservethefootstepsofmyfellows。Thereisnoroominmylifeforavariceoranxiety;Iwhoserveatthealtarliveofthealtar:
  Ilacknothingbuthavenothingover;andwhenthewinteroflifecomesIshalljointhecompanyofwearyoldmenwhositonthesunnysideoftheworkhousewallandwaitforthetendermerciesofGod。
  Justnowitisthesummerofthings;thereislifeandmusiceverywhere-inthestonesthemselves,andIliveto-daybeatingouttherhythmicalhammer-songofTheRing。Thereisrealphysicaljoyintheriseandswingofthearm,inthejarofafairstroke,thesplitandscatterofthequartz:Iamlearningtobeambidextrous,forwhyshouldEsausellhisbirthrightwhenthereisenoughforboth?Thentherest-hourcomes,bringingtheluxuriousacheoftiredbutnotwearylimbs;andIlieoutstretchedandrenewmystrength,sometimeswithmyfacedeep-nestledinthecoolgreengrass,sometimesonmybacklookingupintotheblueskywhichnowisemanwouldwishtofathom。
  Thebirdshavenofearofme;amInotalsoofthebrownbrethreninmysoberfustianlivery?Theysharemymeals-atleastthelittledun-coatedFranciscansdo;theblackbirdsandthrushescarenotawhitforsuchsimplefoodascrumbs,butwithlegswellapartandclawstensewithpurchasetheydisinterpoorbrotherworm,havingfirstmockedhimwithsoundofrain。Therobinthatlivesbythegateregardsmyheapofstonesassubjecttohisspecialinspection。Hesitsatopandpractisesthetrillofhissummersonguntilitshrillsaboveandthroughthemetallicclangofmystrokes;andwhenIpausehecockshistail,withahumoroustwinkleofhisroundeyewhichmeans-"What!shirking,bigbrother?"-andIfall,ashamed,tomymendingofroads。
  Theotherday,asIlaywithmyfaceinthegrass,Iheardagentlerustle,andraisedmyheadtofindahedge-snakewatchingmefearless,unwinking。Istretchedoutmyhand,pickeditupunresisting,andputitinmycoatlikethehusbandmanofold。Washesoill-rewarded,Iwonder,withthekissthatrevealssecrets?
  MysnakesleptinpeacewhileIhammeredawaywithanoddquickeningofheartasIthoughthowtome,astoMelampus,hadcomethemessenger-hadcome,buttoearsdeafenedbycenturiesofmisrule,blindness,andoppression;sothat,withallmylonging,I
  amshutoutofthewondrousworldwherewalkedMelampusandtheSaint。Tomethereisnosuggestionofevilinthelittlesilentcreatures,harmless,ordeadlyonlywiththeDeathwhichisLife。
  Thebeastswhoturnuponus,asarulemaulandtearunreflectingly;withthesnakethereistheswift,silentstrike,thetiny,tinywound,thensleepandaforgetting。
  Mybrownfriend,withitsmessageunspoken,slidawayintothegrassatsundowntotellitstaleinunstoppedears;andI,mytaskdone,wenthomeacrossthefieldstothesolitarycottagewhereI
  lodge。Itisoldanddecrepit-tworooms,withaquasi-atticoverthemreachedbyaladderfromthekitchenandreachedonlybyme。
  Itisfurnishedwiththeluxuriesoflife,atrucklebed,table,chair,andhugeearthenwarepanwhichIfillfromtheice-coldwellatthebackofthecottage。MorningandnightIservewiththeGibeonites,theircursemyblessing,asnodoubtitwastheirswhentheirheartswerepurgedbyservice。MorningandnightIsenddownthemoss-grownbucketwithitsurgentmessagefromadryanddustyworld;thechaintightensthroughmyhandastheliquidtreasurerespondstothemessenger,andthenwithcreakandjangle-thewelcomeoflabouringearth-thebucketslowlynearsthetopanddispersesthetreasureinthewaitingvessels。TheGibeoniteswereservantsinthehouseofGod,ministersofthesacramentofserviceevenastheHighPriesthimself;andI,sharingtheirhighofficeofservitude,thankGodthatthegroundwasaccursedformysake,forsurelythatcursewasthewombofallunbornblessing。
  TheoldwidowwithwhomIlodgehasbeendeafforthelasttwentyyears。Shespeaksinthestrainedhighvoicewhichprotestsagainstherowninfirmity,andhereyeshavethepatheticlookofthosewhosearchinsilence。Formanyyearsshelivedalonewithherson,wholabouredonthefarmtwomilesaway。Hemethisdeathrescuingacarthorsefromitsburningstable;andthefarmergavethecottagerentfreeandaweeklyhalf-crownforlifetothepooroldwomanwhosedearestterrorwastheworkhouse。Withmyshillingaweekrent,andsharingofsupplies,weliveinthelinesofcomfort。Ofdeathshehasnofears,forinthelongchestinthekitchenlieawebofcoarsewhitelinen,twopenniescoveredwiththesametokeepdowntiredeyelids,decentwhitestockings,andawhitecottonsun-bonnet-adecorousdeath-suittruly-andenoughmoneyinthelittlebagforself-respectingburial。Thefarmerburiedhisservanthandsomely-goodman,heknewtheloveofreticentgrieffora'kind'burial-andonedayHarry'smotheristoliebesidehiminthelittlechurchyardwhichhasbeenacornfield,andmaysomedaybeoneagain。
  CHAPTERII
  ONSundaysmyfeettakeeverthesameway。Firstmytempleservice,andthenfivemilestrampoverthetender,dewyfields,withtheirineffableearthysmell,untilIreachthelittlechurchatthefootofthegrey-greendown。Here,everySunday,ayoungpriestfromaneighbouringvillagesaysMassforthetinyhamlet,whereallareveryoldorveryyoung-fortheheydayoflifehasnopartunderthelongshadowofthehills,butisawayatseaorinservice。ThereisabeautifulseemlinessintheextremeyouthofthepriestwhoservestheseagedchildrenofGod。Hebendstocommunicatethemwiththereverenttendernessofason,andreadswiththecarefulintonationoffar-seeinglove。Totheoldpeopleheisthesonoftheiroldage,God-senttoguidetheirtotteringfootstepsalongthehighwayoffoolishwayfarers;andhe,withhisyouthandstrength,wishesnobettertask。Serviceended,wegreeteachotherfriendly-formenshouldnotbestrangeintheacreofGod;andIpassthroughthelittlehamletandoutanduponthegreydownbeyond。Here,atthelastgate,Ipauseforbreakfast;
  andthenupandonwithquickeningpulse,andevergreenmemoryofthewearywar-wornGreekswhobrokeranktogreetthegreatblueMother-waythatledtohome。Istandonthesummithatless,thewindinmyhair,thesmackofsaltonmycheek,allroundmerollingstretchesofcloud-shadoweddown,nosoundbuttheshrillmournofthepeewitandthegatheringofthesea。
  Thehourspass,theshadowslengthen,thesheep-bellsclang;andI
  lieinmynicheunderthestuntedhawthornwatchingthetoandfroofthesea,andAEolusshepherdinghiswhitesheepacrosstheblue。
  Ilovetheseawithitsimpenetrablefathoms,itswashandundertow,andraspofshinglesuckedanew。IloveitforitssecretdeadintheCavernsofPeace,ofwhichaccountmustbegivenwhenthebooksareopenedandearthandheavenhavefledaway。Yetinmylovethereisaparadox,forasIwatchtherestless,ineffectivewavesIthinkofthemeasureless,reflectivedepthsofthestillandsilentSeaofGlass,ofthedead,smallandgreat,richorpoor,withtheworkswhichfollowthem,andoftheVoiceasthevoiceofmanywaters,whenthemultitudeofonemindrendsheavenwithalleluia:andIliesostillthatIalmostfeelthekissofWhitePeaceonmymouth。Laterstill,whentheflareofthesinkingsunhasdiedawayandthestarsriseoutofaveilofpurplecloud,Itakemywayhome,downtheslopes,throughthehamlet,andacrossmilesofsleepingfields;overwhichnighthasthrownhershiftingwebofmist-hometothelittleattic,thedeep,coolwell,thekindlywrinkledfacewithitslisteningeyes-
  peaceinmyheartandthankfulnessfortherhythmoftheroad。
  Mondaybringsthejoyofwork,secondonlytotheSabbathofrest,andIsettletomyheapbythewhitegate。SoonIhearthedistantstampofhorsehoofs,heraldingthegrindandrollofthewheelswhichreachesmelater-aheavyflour-waggonwithateamoffourgreatgentlehorses,gaywithbrasstrappingsandscarletear-caps。
  Onthetopofthecraftilypiledsacksliesthewhite-cladwaggoner,apinkinhismouthwhichhemumblesmeditatively,andthereinsloopedovertheinactivewhip-whyshouldhedriveawillingteamthatknowsthejourneyandrespondsasstrenuouslytoacheerychirrupastothewell-directedlash?Wegreetandpassthetimeofday,andashemountstherisehecallsbackawarningofcomingrain。Iamalreadywhitewithdustashewithflour,sacramentaldust,theoutwardandvisiblesignofthestirandbeatoftheheartoflabouringlife。
  Nexttopassdowntheroadisananxiousruffledhen,herspeckledbreastastirwithmaternaltroubles。Shewalksdelicately,liftingherfeethighandglancingfurtivelyfromsidetosidewithcomblowdressed。Thesightofman,theheartlessegg-collector,fromwhosehauntsshehasfled,wringsfromherastartledcluck,andshemakesforthewhitegate,climbsthrough,anddisappears。I
  knowherfeelingstoowelltointrude。Manytimesalreadyhasshehiddenherself,amassedfourorfiveprecioustreasures,broodingoverthemwithanxioushope;andthen,afterabriefdesertiontoseekthenecessaryfood,shehasreturnedtofindhereffortsatconcealmentvain,hertreasuresgone。Atlast,withthecourageofdespairshehasresolvedtobravetheterrorsoftheunknownandseekahauntbeyondthetyrannyofman。Iwillwatchoverherfromafar,andwhenhermother-hopeisfulfilledIwillmarshalherandherbroodbacktothefarmwhereshebelongs;forwhatendIcarenottothink,itisofthemysterywhichliesattheheartofthings;andweareallGod'sbeasts,saysStAugustine。
  Hereismystone-song,aparaphraseoftheTreasureMotif。
  [Musicscorewhichcannotbereproduced。ItisF#dottedcrotchet,F#quaver,F#quaver,F#dottedcrotchet,Dcrotchet,Ecrotchet。
  Thisbaristhenrepeatedoncemore。]
  WhatawonderfulworkWagnerhasdoneforhumanityintranslatingthetoiloflifeintothereadablescriptofmusic!Forthosewhoseekthetaleofotherworldshismagicissilent;butearth-
  travailunderhiswandbecomesinstinctwithrhythmicsongtoanaccompanimentoftheelements,andtheblareandcrashofthebottomlesspititself。ThePilgrim'sMarchisthesadsoundoffootsoremen;theSanGraalthetremulousyearningofservitudeforricher,deeperbondage。Theyellow,thirstyflameslickupthewillingsacrifice,thewaterwailsthesecretoftheriverandthesea;thebirdsandbeasts,theshepherdwithhispipe,theundergroundlifeinrocksandcaverns,allcrytheirmessagetothisnineteenth-centurytoiling,labouringworld-andtomeasI
  mendmyroad。
  TwotrampscomeandflingthemselvesbymeasIeatmynoondaymeal。Theone,red-eyed,furtive,liesonhissidewithrestless,clutchinghandsthattearandtwistandtorturethelivinggrass,whilehislipsmutterincoherently。Theothersitsstooped,bare-
  footed,legswideapart,hisfacegrey,almostasgreyashisstubblybeard;anditisnotlongsinceDeathlookedhimintheeyes。Hetellsmequerulouslyofatwohundredmilestrampsinceearlyspring,ofsearchforwork,casualjobswithmorekicksthanhalfpence,andabriefbutblissfulsojourninahospitalbed,fromwhichhewasdismissedwithsentencepasseduponhim。Forhimself,heisdeterminedtodieontheroadunderahedge,whereamancanseeandbreathe。Hisanxietyisallforhisfellow;HEhassaidhewill"doforaman";hewantsto"swing,"togetoutofhis"dog'slife。"Iwatchhimashelies,thisIshmaelandwould-beLamech。
  Ignorance,hunger,terror,theexhaustionofpastgenerations,havedonetheirwork。Themanismad,andwouldkillhisfellowman。
  Presentlywepart,andthetwogo,doggedandfootsore,downtheroadwhichistoleadthemintothegreatsilence。
  CHAPTERIII
  YESTERDAYwasadayofencounters。
  First,earlyinthemorning,ayounggirlcamedowntheroadonabicycle。Herdressguardwasloose,andshestoppedtoaskforapieceofstring。WhenIhadtieditforhershelookedatme,atmyworndustyclothesandburntface;andthenshetookaNiphetosrosefromherbeltandlaiditshylyinmydirtydisfiguredpalm。
  Ibaredmyhead,andstoodhatinhandlookingafterherassherodeawayupthehill。ThenItookmytreasureandputitinanestofcooldewygrassunderthehedge。ECCEANCILLADOMINI。
  Mynextvisitorwasafellow-workeronhiswaytoajobatthecross-roads。Hestoodgazingmeditativelyatmyheapofstones。
  "Owlong'aveyerbinatthisjobthaty'ereinsuchahurry?"
  Istayedmyhammertoanswer-"Fourmonths。"
  "Seenbetterdays?"
  "Never,"Isaidemphatically,andpunctuatedtheremarkwithastonesplitneatlyinfour。
  Themansurveyedmeinsilenceforamoment;thenhesaidslowly,"Meantersayyerlikecrackin'theseblamedstonestofill'olessomeotherfool'smade?"
  Inodded。
  "Well,thatbeatseverything。Now,I'AVEseenbetterdays;workedinabigbreweryovernearMaidstone-atownthat,andsomethingdoing;andnow,'ereIam,'ammeringme'eartoutontheseblastedstonesforabito'breadandapipeo'baccyonceaweek-itain'tgoodenough。"Hepulledablackenedclayfromhispocketandbeganslowlyfillingitwithranktobacco;thenhelititcarefullybehindhisbatteredhat,putthespentmatchbackinhispocket,rosetohisfeet,hitchedhisbraces,and,withasilentnodtome,wentontohisjob。
  Whydowegivethesetiredchildren,whosemindsmoveslowly,whoseeyesareholdenthattheycannotreadtheBook,whoseheartsarefullofsoreresentmentagainsttheyknownotwhat,suchworkasthistodo-hammeringtheirheartsoutforabitofbread?Allthepathosofunreasoninglabourringsinthesefewwords。Wefitthecollaronunwillingnecks;andwhentheirserviceisoverwebidthemgooutfree;butwebreakthegoodMosaiclawandsendthemawayempty。Whatwonderthereissolittlewillingservice,sofewearsreadytobethrustthroughagainstthemaster'sdoor。
  Theswiftstrideofcivilisationisleavingbehindindividualeffort,andturningmanintotheDaemonofamachine。Toandfroinfrontofthelongloom,liftingaleverateitherend,paceshewhooncewithpainstakingintelligencedrovetheshuttle。THENhetastedthejoyofcompletedwork,thatwhichhiseyehadlookedupon,andhishandshadhandled;nowhisworkisaslittlefinishedasthewebofPenelope。Oncethereapergraspedthegoldencornstems,andwithdexteroussweepofsicklesetfreethetreasureoftheearth。Oncethecreaturesofthefieldwereknowntohim,andhiseyecaughttheflareofscarletandblueasthefrailpoppiesandsturdycorn-cockleslaiddowntheirbeautyathisfeet;nowhesitssereneonJuggernaut'scar,itsguidingDaemon,andthefieldissilenttohim。
  Aswiththewebandthegrainsowiththewoodandstoneinthetreasure-houseofourneeds。ThegroundwasaccursedFOROURSAKE
  thatinthesweatofourbrowwemighteatbread。Nowthemanyliveinthebrain-sweatofthefew;anditmustbeso,foraslittleasgreatKingCnutcouldstaytheseauntilithadreachedtheappointedplace,solittlecanweraiseabarriertothewaveofprogress,andsay,"Thusfarandnofurthershaltthoucome。"
  Whatthen?Thisatleast;ifweliveinanageofmechanismletusseetoitthatwearearaceofintelligentmechanics;andifmanistobetheDaemonofamachinelethimknowthesettingoftheknives,theriseofthepiston,thepartthateachwheelandrodplaysintheeconomyofthewhole,thepartthathehimselfplays,co-operatingwithit。Then,whenhehaslivedandservedintelligently,letusgivehimofourflocksandofourfloorthathemaylearntorestinthelengtheningshadowsuntilheiscalledtohisworkabove。
  SoIsat,hammeringoutmythoughts,andwiththemtheconvictionthatstonebreakingshouldbeallottedtominorpoetsorvagrantchildrenofnaturelikemyself,nevertosuchtiredfolkasmypoormateatthecross-roadsandhisfellows。
  Atnoon,whenIstoppedformymeal,thesunwasbakingthehardwhiteroadinapitilessglare。Severalwaggonsandcartspassed,thehorsessweatingandstraining,withdrooping,fly-tormentedears。Themenforthemostpartnoddedslumberouslyontheshaft,seekingthelittleshelterthecartafforded;butoneshuffledinthewhitedust,withanoccasionalchirrupandfriendlypressureonthetiredhorse'sneck。
  Thenanoldwomanandasmallchildappearedinsight,bothwithenormoussun-bonnetsandcarryingbaskets。Astheycameupwithmethewomanstoppedandsweptherfacewithherhand,whilethechild,depositingthebasketinthedustwithgreatcare,wipedherlittlestickyfingersonherpinafore。Thentheshadyhedgebeckonedthemandtheycameandsatdownnearme。Thewomanlookedaboutseventy,tall,angular,dauntless,goodforanothertenyearsofhardwork。Thelittlemaid-heronlygrandchild,shetoldme-
  wasjustfour,herfatherawaysoldiering,andthemotherdiedinchildbed,soforfouryearsthechildhadknownnootherguardianorplaymatethantheoldwoman。Shewasnottheleastshy,buthadthestrangeself-possessionwhichcomesfromassociatingwithonewhohastravelledfaronlife'sjourney。
  "Icouldn'tleaveheraloneinthehouse,"saidhergrandmother,"andshewouldn'tleavethekittenforfearitshouldbelonesome"-
  withahumorous,tenderglanceatthechild-"butit'salongtrampintheheatforthelittleone,andwe'veanothermiletogo。"
  "Willyouletherbideheretillyoucomeback?"Isaid。"She'llbeallrightbyme。"
  Theoldladyhesitated。
  "Will'eestaybyhim,dearie?"shesaid。
  Thesmallchildnodded,drewfromherminiaturepocketapieceofsweetstuff,extractedfromthebasketasmallblackcat,andsettledinfortheafternoon。Hergrandmotherrose,tookherbasket,and,withanodand"Thank'eekindly,mister,"wentoffdowntheroad。
  Iwentbacktomyworkalittledepressed-whyhadInotwhitehair?-forafewminuteshadshownmethatIwasnotoldenoughforthechilddespitemyfortyyears。Shewasquitehappywiththelittleblackcat,whichlayinthesmalllapblinkingitsyelloweyesatthesun;andpresentlyanoldmancameby,lameandbent,withgnarledtwistedhands,leaningheavilyonhisstick。
  Hegreetedmeinahigh,pipingvoice,limpedacrosstothechild,andsatdown。"Yourlittlemaid,mister?"hesaid。
  Iexplained。
  "Ah,"hesaid,"I'veleftalittledarlin'likethisat'ome。It's'ardonusoldfolkswhenwe'reonetoomany;butthelittlemouthsmustbefilled,andmyson,'esaid'edidn'tseetheycouldkeepmeonthearf-crown,withanotherchildontheway;soI'mtrampingtoN-,totheHouse;butit'sa'ardpinch,leavin'thelittleones。"
  Ilookedathim-atypicalcountryman,withwhitehair,mildblueeyes,andarosy,childish,unwrinkledface。