IHAVEattainedmyideal:Iamaroadmender,somesaystonebreaker。Bothtitlesarecorrect,buttheoneismorepregnantthantheother。AlldayIsitbytheroadsideonastretchofgrassunderahighhedgeofsaplingsandatangleoftraveller'sjoy,woodbine,sweetbrier,andlateroses。Oppositemeisawhitegate,seldomused,ifonemayjudgefromthetrailofhoneysucklegrowingtranquillyalongit:IknownowthatwheneverandwhereverIdiemysoulwillpassoutthroughthiswhitegate;
andthen,thankGod,Ishallnothaveneedtoundothattrail。
Inouryouthwediscussedouridealsfreely:Iwonderhowmanybesidemyselfhaveattained,orwouldunderstandmyattaining。
Afterall,whatdoweaskoflife,hereorindeedhereafter,butleavetoserve,tolive,tocommunewithourfellowmenandwithourselves;andfromthelapofearthtolookupintothefaceofGod?AllthesegiftsaremineasIsitbythewindingwhiteroadandservethefootstepsofmyfellows。Thereisnoroominmylifeforavariceoranxiety;Iwhoserveatthealtarliveofthealtar:
Ilacknothingbuthavenothingover;andwhenthewinteroflifecomesIshalljointhecompanyofwearyoldmenwhositonthesunnysideoftheworkhousewallandwaitforthetendermerciesofGod。
Justnowitisthesummerofthings;thereislifeandmusiceverywhere-inthestonesthemselves,andIliveto-daybeatingouttherhythmicalhammer-songofTheRing。Thereisrealphysicaljoyintheriseandswingofthearm,inthejarofafairstroke,thesplitandscatterofthequartz:Iamlearningtobeambidextrous,forwhyshouldEsausellhisbirthrightwhenthereisenoughforboth?Thentherest-hourcomes,bringingtheluxuriousacheoftiredbutnotwearylimbs;andIlieoutstretchedandrenewmystrength,sometimeswithmyfacedeep-nestledinthecoolgreengrass,sometimesonmybacklookingupintotheblueskywhichnowisemanwouldwishtofathom。
Thebirdshavenofearofme;amInotalsoofthebrownbrethreninmysoberfustianlivery?Theysharemymeals-atleastthelittledun-coatedFranciscansdo;theblackbirdsandthrushescarenotawhitforsuchsimplefoodascrumbs,butwithlegswellapartandclawstensewithpurchasetheydisinterpoorbrotherworm,havingfirstmockedhimwithsoundofrain。Therobinthatlivesbythegateregardsmyheapofstonesassubjecttohisspecialinspection。Hesitsatopandpractisesthetrillofhissummersonguntilitshrillsaboveandthroughthemetallicclangofmystrokes;andwhenIpausehecockshistail,withahumoroustwinkleofhisroundeyewhichmeans-"What!shirking,bigbrother?"-andIfall,ashamed,tomymendingofroads。
Theotherday,asIlaywithmyfaceinthegrass,Iheardagentlerustle,andraisedmyheadtofindahedge-snakewatchingmefearless,unwinking。Istretchedoutmyhand,pickeditupunresisting,andputitinmycoatlikethehusbandmanofold。Washesoill-rewarded,Iwonder,withthekissthatrevealssecrets?
MysnakesleptinpeacewhileIhammeredawaywithanoddquickeningofheartasIthoughthowtome,astoMelampus,hadcomethemessenger-hadcome,buttoearsdeafenedbycenturiesofmisrule,blindness,andoppression;sothat,withallmylonging,I
amshutoutofthewondrousworldwherewalkedMelampusandtheSaint。Tomethereisnosuggestionofevilinthelittlesilentcreatures,harmless,ordeadlyonlywiththeDeathwhichisLife。
Thebeastswhoturnuponus,asarulemaulandtearunreflectingly;withthesnakethereistheswift,silentstrike,thetiny,tinywound,thensleepandaforgetting。
Mybrownfriend,withitsmessageunspoken,slidawayintothegrassatsundowntotellitstaleinunstoppedears;andI,mytaskdone,wenthomeacrossthefieldstothesolitarycottagewhereI
lodge。Itisoldanddecrepit-tworooms,withaquasi-atticoverthemreachedbyaladderfromthekitchenandreachedonlybyme。
Itisfurnishedwiththeluxuriesoflife,atrucklebed,table,chair,andhugeearthenwarepanwhichIfillfromtheice-coldwellatthebackofthecottage。MorningandnightIservewiththeGibeonites,theircursemyblessing,asnodoubtitwastheirswhentheirheartswerepurgedbyservice。MorningandnightIsenddownthemoss-grownbucketwithitsurgentmessagefromadryanddustyworld;thechaintightensthroughmyhandastheliquidtreasurerespondstothemessenger,andthenwithcreakandjangle-thewelcomeoflabouringearth-thebucketslowlynearsthetopanddispersesthetreasureinthewaitingvessels。TheGibeoniteswereservantsinthehouseofGod,ministersofthesacramentofserviceevenastheHighPriesthimself;andI,sharingtheirhighofficeofservitude,thankGodthatthegroundwasaccursedformysake,forsurelythatcursewasthewombofallunbornblessing。
TheoldwidowwithwhomIlodgehasbeendeafforthelasttwentyyears。Shespeaksinthestrainedhighvoicewhichprotestsagainstherowninfirmity,andhereyeshavethepatheticlookofthosewhosearchinsilence。Formanyyearsshelivedalonewithherson,wholabouredonthefarmtwomilesaway。Hemethisdeathrescuingacarthorsefromitsburningstable;andthefarmergavethecottagerentfreeandaweeklyhalf-crownforlifetothepooroldwomanwhosedearestterrorwastheworkhouse。Withmyshillingaweekrent,andsharingofsupplies,weliveinthelinesofcomfort。Ofdeathshehasnofears,forinthelongchestinthekitchenlieawebofcoarsewhitelinen,twopenniescoveredwiththesametokeepdowntiredeyelids,decentwhitestockings,andawhitecottonsun-bonnet-adecorousdeath-suittruly-andenoughmoneyinthelittlebagforself-respectingburial。Thefarmerburiedhisservanthandsomely-goodman,heknewtheloveofreticentgrieffora'kind'burial-andonedayHarry'smotheristoliebesidehiminthelittlechurchyardwhichhasbeenacornfield,andmaysomedaybeoneagain。
CHAPTERII
ONSundaysmyfeettakeeverthesameway。Firstmytempleservice,andthenfivemilestrampoverthetender,dewyfields,withtheirineffableearthysmell,untilIreachthelittlechurchatthefootofthegrey-greendown。Here,everySunday,ayoungpriestfromaneighbouringvillagesaysMassforthetinyhamlet,whereallareveryoldorveryyoung-fortheheydayoflifehasnopartunderthelongshadowofthehills,butisawayatseaorinservice。ThereisabeautifulseemlinessintheextremeyouthofthepriestwhoservestheseagedchildrenofGod。Hebendstocommunicatethemwiththereverenttendernessofason,andreadswiththecarefulintonationoffar-seeinglove。Totheoldpeopleheisthesonoftheiroldage,God-senttoguidetheirtotteringfootstepsalongthehighwayoffoolishwayfarers;andhe,withhisyouthandstrength,wishesnobettertask。Serviceended,wegreeteachotherfriendly-formenshouldnotbestrangeintheacreofGod;andIpassthroughthelittlehamletandoutanduponthegreydownbeyond。Here,atthelastgate,Ipauseforbreakfast;
andthenupandonwithquickeningpulse,andevergreenmemoryofthewearywar-wornGreekswhobrokeranktogreetthegreatblueMother-waythatledtohome。Istandonthesummithatless,thewindinmyhair,thesmackofsaltonmycheek,allroundmerollingstretchesofcloud-shadoweddown,nosoundbuttheshrillmournofthepeewitandthegatheringofthesea。
Thehourspass,theshadowslengthen,thesheep-bellsclang;andI
lieinmynicheunderthestuntedhawthornwatchingthetoandfroofthesea,andAEolusshepherdinghiswhitesheepacrosstheblue。
Ilovetheseawithitsimpenetrablefathoms,itswashandundertow,andraspofshinglesuckedanew。IloveitforitssecretdeadintheCavernsofPeace,ofwhichaccountmustbegivenwhenthebooksareopenedandearthandheavenhavefledaway。Yetinmylovethereisaparadox,forasIwatchtherestless,ineffectivewavesIthinkofthemeasureless,reflectivedepthsofthestillandsilentSeaofGlass,ofthedead,smallandgreat,richorpoor,withtheworkswhichfollowthem,andoftheVoiceasthevoiceofmanywaters,whenthemultitudeofonemindrendsheavenwithalleluia:andIliesostillthatIalmostfeelthekissofWhitePeaceonmymouth。Laterstill,whentheflareofthesinkingsunhasdiedawayandthestarsriseoutofaveilofpurplecloud,Itakemywayhome,downtheslopes,throughthehamlet,andacrossmilesofsleepingfields;overwhichnighthasthrownhershiftingwebofmist-hometothelittleattic,thedeep,coolwell,thekindlywrinkledfacewithitslisteningeyes-
peaceinmyheartandthankfulnessfortherhythmoftheroad。
Mondaybringsthejoyofwork,secondonlytotheSabbathofrest,andIsettletomyheapbythewhitegate。SoonIhearthedistantstampofhorsehoofs,heraldingthegrindandrollofthewheelswhichreachesmelater-aheavyflour-waggonwithateamoffourgreatgentlehorses,gaywithbrasstrappingsandscarletear-caps。
Onthetopofthecraftilypiledsacksliesthewhite-cladwaggoner,apinkinhismouthwhichhemumblesmeditatively,andthereinsloopedovertheinactivewhip-whyshouldhedriveawillingteamthatknowsthejourneyandrespondsasstrenuouslytoacheerychirrupastothewell-directedlash?Wegreetandpassthetimeofday,andashemountstherisehecallsbackawarningofcomingrain。Iamalreadywhitewithdustashewithflour,sacramentaldust,theoutwardandvisiblesignofthestirandbeatoftheheartoflabouringlife。
Nexttopassdowntheroadisananxiousruffledhen,herspeckledbreastastirwithmaternaltroubles。Shewalksdelicately,liftingherfeethighandglancingfurtivelyfromsidetosidewithcomblowdressed。Thesightofman,theheartlessegg-collector,fromwhosehauntsshehasfled,wringsfromherastartledcluck,andshemakesforthewhitegate,climbsthrough,anddisappears。I
knowherfeelingstoowelltointrude。Manytimesalreadyhasshehiddenherself,amassedfourorfiveprecioustreasures,broodingoverthemwithanxioushope;andthen,afterabriefdesertiontoseekthenecessaryfood,shehasreturnedtofindhereffortsatconcealmentvain,hertreasuresgone。Atlast,withthecourageofdespairshehasresolvedtobravetheterrorsoftheunknownandseekahauntbeyondthetyrannyofman。Iwillwatchoverherfromafar,andwhenhermother-hopeisfulfilledIwillmarshalherandherbroodbacktothefarmwhereshebelongs;forwhatendIcarenottothink,itisofthemysterywhichliesattheheartofthings;andweareallGod'sbeasts,saysStAugustine。
Hereismystone-song,aparaphraseoftheTreasureMotif。
[Musicscorewhichcannotbereproduced。ItisF#dottedcrotchet,F#quaver,F#quaver,F#dottedcrotchet,Dcrotchet,Ecrotchet。
Thisbaristhenrepeatedoncemore。]
WhatawonderfulworkWagnerhasdoneforhumanityintranslatingthetoiloflifeintothereadablescriptofmusic!Forthosewhoseekthetaleofotherworldshismagicissilent;butearth-
travailunderhiswandbecomesinstinctwithrhythmicsongtoanaccompanimentoftheelements,andtheblareandcrashofthebottomlesspititself。ThePilgrim'sMarchisthesadsoundoffootsoremen;theSanGraalthetremulousyearningofservitudeforricher,deeperbondage。Theyellow,thirstyflameslickupthewillingsacrifice,thewaterwailsthesecretoftheriverandthesea;thebirdsandbeasts,theshepherdwithhispipe,theundergroundlifeinrocksandcaverns,allcrytheirmessagetothisnineteenth-centurytoiling,labouringworld-andtomeasI
mendmyroad。
TwotrampscomeandflingthemselvesbymeasIeatmynoondaymeal。Theone,red-eyed,furtive,liesonhissidewithrestless,clutchinghandsthattearandtwistandtorturethelivinggrass,whilehislipsmutterincoherently。Theothersitsstooped,bare-
footed,legswideapart,hisfacegrey,almostasgreyashisstubblybeard;anditisnotlongsinceDeathlookedhimintheeyes。Hetellsmequerulouslyofatwohundredmilestrampsinceearlyspring,ofsearchforwork,casualjobswithmorekicksthanhalfpence,andabriefbutblissfulsojourninahospitalbed,fromwhichhewasdismissedwithsentencepasseduponhim。Forhimself,heisdeterminedtodieontheroadunderahedge,whereamancanseeandbreathe。Hisanxietyisallforhisfellow;HEhassaidhewill"doforaman";hewantsto"swing,"togetoutofhis"dog'slife。"Iwatchhimashelies,thisIshmaelandwould-beLamech。
Ignorance,hunger,terror,theexhaustionofpastgenerations,havedonetheirwork。Themanismad,andwouldkillhisfellowman。
Presentlywepart,andthetwogo,doggedandfootsore,downtheroadwhichistoleadthemintothegreatsilence。
CHAPTERIII
YESTERDAYwasadayofencounters。
First,earlyinthemorning,ayounggirlcamedowntheroadonabicycle。Herdressguardwasloose,andshestoppedtoaskforapieceofstring。WhenIhadtieditforhershelookedatme,atmyworndustyclothesandburntface;andthenshetookaNiphetosrosefromherbeltandlaiditshylyinmydirtydisfiguredpalm。
Ibaredmyhead,andstoodhatinhandlookingafterherassherodeawayupthehill。ThenItookmytreasureandputitinanestofcooldewygrassunderthehedge。ECCEANCILLADOMINI。
Mynextvisitorwasafellow-workeronhiswaytoajobatthecross-roads。Hestoodgazingmeditativelyatmyheapofstones。
"Owlong'aveyerbinatthisjobthaty'ereinsuchahurry?"
Istayedmyhammertoanswer-"Fourmonths。"
"Seenbetterdays?"
"Never,"Isaidemphatically,andpunctuatedtheremarkwithastonesplitneatlyinfour。
Themansurveyedmeinsilenceforamoment;thenhesaidslowly,"Meantersayyerlikecrackin'theseblamedstonestofill'olessomeotherfool'smade?"
Inodded。
"Well,thatbeatseverything。Now,I'AVEseenbetterdays;workedinabigbreweryovernearMaidstone-atownthat,andsomethingdoing;andnow,'ereIam,'ammeringme'eartoutontheseblastedstonesforabito'breadandapipeo'baccyonceaweek-itain'tgoodenough。"Hepulledablackenedclayfromhispocketandbeganslowlyfillingitwithranktobacco;thenhelititcarefullybehindhisbatteredhat,putthespentmatchbackinhispocket,rosetohisfeet,hitchedhisbraces,and,withasilentnodtome,wentontohisjob。
Whydowegivethesetiredchildren,whosemindsmoveslowly,whoseeyesareholdenthattheycannotreadtheBook,whoseheartsarefullofsoreresentmentagainsttheyknownotwhat,suchworkasthistodo-hammeringtheirheartsoutforabitofbread?Allthepathosofunreasoninglabourringsinthesefewwords。Wefitthecollaronunwillingnecks;andwhentheirserviceisoverwebidthemgooutfree;butwebreakthegoodMosaiclawandsendthemawayempty。Whatwonderthereissolittlewillingservice,sofewearsreadytobethrustthroughagainstthemaster'sdoor。
Theswiftstrideofcivilisationisleavingbehindindividualeffort,andturningmanintotheDaemonofamachine。Toandfroinfrontofthelongloom,liftingaleverateitherend,paceshewhooncewithpainstakingintelligencedrovetheshuttle。THENhetastedthejoyofcompletedwork,thatwhichhiseyehadlookedupon,andhishandshadhandled;nowhisworkisaslittlefinishedasthewebofPenelope。Oncethereapergraspedthegoldencornstems,andwithdexteroussweepofsicklesetfreethetreasureoftheearth。Oncethecreaturesofthefieldwereknowntohim,andhiseyecaughttheflareofscarletandblueasthefrailpoppiesandsturdycorn-cockleslaiddowntheirbeautyathisfeet;nowhesitssereneonJuggernaut'scar,itsguidingDaemon,andthefieldissilenttohim。
Aswiththewebandthegrainsowiththewoodandstoneinthetreasure-houseofourneeds。ThegroundwasaccursedFOROURSAKE
thatinthesweatofourbrowwemighteatbread。Nowthemanyliveinthebrain-sweatofthefew;anditmustbeso,foraslittleasgreatKingCnutcouldstaytheseauntilithadreachedtheappointedplace,solittlecanweraiseabarriertothewaveofprogress,andsay,"Thusfarandnofurthershaltthoucome。"
Whatthen?Thisatleast;ifweliveinanageofmechanismletusseetoitthatwearearaceofintelligentmechanics;andifmanistobetheDaemonofamachinelethimknowthesettingoftheknives,theriseofthepiston,thepartthateachwheelandrodplaysintheeconomyofthewhole,thepartthathehimselfplays,co-operatingwithit。Then,whenhehaslivedandservedintelligently,letusgivehimofourflocksandofourfloorthathemaylearntorestinthelengtheningshadowsuntilheiscalledtohisworkabove。
SoIsat,hammeringoutmythoughts,andwiththemtheconvictionthatstonebreakingshouldbeallottedtominorpoetsorvagrantchildrenofnaturelikemyself,nevertosuchtiredfolkasmypoormateatthecross-roadsandhisfellows。
Atnoon,whenIstoppedformymeal,thesunwasbakingthehardwhiteroadinapitilessglare。Severalwaggonsandcartspassed,thehorsessweatingandstraining,withdrooping,fly-tormentedears。Themenforthemostpartnoddedslumberouslyontheshaft,seekingthelittleshelterthecartafforded;butoneshuffledinthewhitedust,withanoccasionalchirrupandfriendlypressureonthetiredhorse'sneck。
Thenanoldwomanandasmallchildappearedinsight,bothwithenormoussun-bonnetsandcarryingbaskets。Astheycameupwithmethewomanstoppedandsweptherfacewithherhand,whilethechild,depositingthebasketinthedustwithgreatcare,wipedherlittlestickyfingersonherpinafore。Thentheshadyhedgebeckonedthemandtheycameandsatdownnearme。Thewomanlookedaboutseventy,tall,angular,dauntless,goodforanothertenyearsofhardwork。Thelittlemaid-heronlygrandchild,shetoldme-
wasjustfour,herfatherawaysoldiering,andthemotherdiedinchildbed,soforfouryearsthechildhadknownnootherguardianorplaymatethantheoldwoman。Shewasnottheleastshy,buthadthestrangeself-possessionwhichcomesfromassociatingwithonewhohastravelledfaronlife'sjourney。
"Icouldn'tleaveheraloneinthehouse,"saidhergrandmother,"andshewouldn'tleavethekittenforfearitshouldbelonesome"-
withahumorous,tenderglanceatthechild-"butit'salongtrampintheheatforthelittleone,andwe'veanothermiletogo。"
"Willyouletherbideheretillyoucomeback?"Isaid。"She'llbeallrightbyme。"
Theoldladyhesitated。
"Will'eestaybyhim,dearie?"shesaid。
Thesmallchildnodded,drewfromherminiaturepocketapieceofsweetstuff,extractedfromthebasketasmallblackcat,andsettledinfortheafternoon。Hergrandmotherrose,tookherbasket,and,withanodand"Thank'eekindly,mister,"wentoffdowntheroad。
Iwentbacktomyworkalittledepressed-whyhadInotwhitehair?-forafewminuteshadshownmethatIwasnotoldenoughforthechilddespitemyfortyyears。Shewasquitehappywiththelittleblackcat,whichlayinthesmalllapblinkingitsyelloweyesatthesun;andpresentlyanoldmancameby,lameandbent,withgnarledtwistedhands,leaningheavilyonhisstick。
Hegreetedmeinahigh,pipingvoice,limpedacrosstothechild,andsatdown。"Yourlittlemaid,mister?"hesaid。
Iexplained。
"Ah,"hesaid,"I'veleftalittledarlin'likethisat'ome。It's'ardonusoldfolkswhenwe'reonetoomany;butthelittlemouthsmustbefilled,andmyson,'esaid'edidn'tseetheycouldkeepmeonthearf-crown,withanotherchildontheway;soI'mtrampingtoN-,totheHouse;butit'sa'ardpinch,leavin'thelittleones。"
Ilookedathim-atypicalcountryman,withwhitehair,mildblueeyes,andarosy,childish,unwrinkledface。
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