首页 >出版文学> Memoirs of Carwin the Biloquist>第4章
  Itwillsufficetorelate,thatafterasufficientperiodofpreparationandarrangementsbeingmadeformaintainingacopiousintercoursewithLudlow,IembarkedforBarcelona。Arestlesscuriosityandvigorousapplicationhavedistinguishedmycharacterineveryscene。Herewasspaciousfieldfortheexerciseofallmyenergies。Isoughtoutapreceptorinmynewreligion。Ienteredintotheheartsofpriestsandconfessors,the~hidalgo~andthepeasant,themonkandtheprelate,theaustereandvoluptuousdevoteewerescrutinizedinalltheirforms。
  Manwasthechiefsubjectofmystudy,andthesocialspherethatinwhichIprincipallymoved;butIwasnotinattentivetoinanimatenature,norunmindfulofthepast。Ifthescopeofvirtueweretomaintainthebodyinhealth,andtofurnishitshighestenjoymentstoeverysense,toincreasethenumber,andaccuracy,andorderofourintellectualstores,novirtuewasevermoreunblemishedthanmine。Iftoactuponourconceptionsofright,andtoacquitourselvesofallprejudiceandselfishnessintheformationofourprinciples,entitleustothetestimonyofagoodconscience,Imightjustlyclaimit。
  Ishallnotpretendtoascertainmyrankinthemoralscale。
  Yournotionsofdutydifferwidelyfrommine。Ifasystemofdeceit,pursuedmerelyfromtheloveoftruth;ifvoluptuousness,nevergratifiedattheexpenseofhealth,mayincurcensure,Iamcensurable。This,indeed,wasnotthelimitofmydeviations。
  Deceptionwasoftenunnecessarilypractised,andmybiloquialfacultydidnotlieunemployed。Whathashappenedtoyourselvesmayenableyou,insomedegree,tojudgeofthescenesinwhichmymysticalexploitsengagedme。Innoneofthem,indeed,weretheeffectsequallydisastrous,andtheywere,forthemostpart,theresultofwelldigestedprojects。
  Torecountthesewouldbeanendlesstask。Theyweredesignedasmerespecimensofpower,toillustratetheinfluenceofsuperstition:togivescepticstheconsolationofcertainty:toannihilatethescruplesofatenderfemale,orfacilitatemyaccesstothebosomsofcourtiersandmonks。
  ThefirstachievementofthiskindtookplaceintheconventoftheEscurial。Forsometimethehospitalityofthisbrotherhoodallowedmeacellinthatmagnificentandgloomyfabric。IwasdrawnhitherchieflybythetreasuresofArabianliterature,whicharepreservedhereinthekeepingofalearnedMaronite,fromLebanon。Standingoneeveningonthestepsofthegreataltar,thisdevoutfriarexpatiatedonthemiraculousevidencesofhisreligion;and,inamomentofenthusiasm,appealedtoSanLorenzo,whosemartyrdomwasdisplayedbeforeus。Nosoonerwastheappealmadethanthesaint,obsequioustothesummons,whisperedhisresponsesfromtheshrine,andcommandedtheheretictotrembleandbelieve。Thiseventwasreportedtotheconvent。Withwhateverreluctance,Icouldnotrefusemytestimonytoitstruth,anditsinfluenceonmyfaithwasclearlyshewninmysubsequentconduct。
  Aladyofrank,inSeville,whohadbeenguiltyofmanyunauthorizedindulgences,was,atlast,awakenedtoremorse,byavoicefromHeaven,whichsheimaginedhadcommandedhertoexpiatehersinsbyanabstinencefromallfoodforthirtydays。Herfriendsfounditimpossibletooutrootthispersuasion,ortoovercomeherresolutionevenbyforce。Ichancedtobeoneinanumerouscompanywhereshewaspresent。Thisfatalillusionwasmentioned,andanopportunityaffordedtotheladyofdefendingherscheme。Atapauseinthediscourse,avoicewasheardfromtheceiling,whichconfirmedthetruthofhertale;but,atthesametimerevokedthecommand,and,inconsiderationofherfaith,pronouncedherabsolution。Satisfiedwiththisproof,theauditorsdismissedtheirunbelief,andtheladyconsentedtoeat。
  InthecourseofacopiouscorrespondencewithLudlow,theobservationsIhadcollectedweregiven。Asentiment,whichIcanhardlydescribe,inducedmetobesilentonalladventuresconnectedwithmybivocalprojects。Onothertopics,Iwrotefully,andwithoutrestraint。Ipainted,invividhues,thesceneswithwhichIwasdailyconversant,andpursued,fearlessly,everyspeculationonreligionandgovernmentthatoccurred。ThisspiritwasencouragedbyLudloe,whofailednottocommentonmynarrative,andmultiplydeductionsfrommyprinciples。
  Hetaughtmetoascribetheevilsthatinfestsocietytotheerrorsofopinion。Theabsurdandunequaldistributionofpowerandpropertygavebirthtopovertyandriches,andthesewerethesourcesofluxuryandcrimes。Thesepositionswerereadilyadmitted;buttheremedyfortheseills,themeansofrectifyingtheseerrorswerenoteasilydiscovered。Wehavebeeninclinedtoimputethemtoinherentdefectsinthemoralconstitutionofmen:
  thatoppressionandtyrannygrowupbyasortofnaturalnecessity,andthattheywillperishonlywhenthehumanspeciesisextinct。
  Ludloelabouredtoprovethatthiswas,bynomeans,thecase:
  thatmanisthecreatureofcircumstances:thatheiscapableofendlessimprovement:thathisprogresshasbeenstoppedbytheartificialimpedimentofgovernment:thatbytheremovalofthis,thefondestdreamsofimaginationwillberealized。
  Fromdetailingandaccountingfortheevilswhichexistunderourpresentinstitutions,heusuallyproceededtodelineatesomeschemeofUtopianfelicity,wheretheempireofreasonshouldsupplantthatofforce:wherejusticeshouldbeuniversallyunderstoodandpractised;wheretheinterestofthewholeandoftheindividualshouldbeseenbyalltobethesame;wherethepublicgoodshouldbethescopeofallactivity;wherethetasksofallshouldbethesame,andthemeansofsubsistenceequallydistributed。
  Noonecouldcontemplatehispictureswithoutrapture。Bytheircomprehensivenessandamplitudetheyfilledtheimagination。
  Iwasunwillingtobelievethatinnoregionoftheworld,oratnoperiodcouldtheseideasberealized。ItwasplainthatthenationsofEuropeweretendingtogreaterdepravity,andwouldbethepreyofperpetualvicissitude。Allindividualattemptsattheirreformationwouldbefruitless。Hethereforewhodesiredthediffusionofrightprinciples,tomakeajustsystembeadoptedbyawholecommunity,mustpursuesomeextraordinarymethod。
  InthisstateofmindIrecollectedmynativecountry,whereafewcolonistsfromBritainhadsownthegermeofpopulousandmightyempires。Attended,astheywere,intotheirnewabode,byalltheirprejudices,yetsuchhadbeentheinfluenceofnewcircumstances,ofconsultingfortheirownhappiness,ofadoptingsimpleformsofgovernment,andexcludingnoblesandkingsfromtheirsystem,thattheyenjoyedadegreeofhappinessfarsuperiortotheirparentstate。
  Toconquertheprejudicesandchangethehabitsofmillions,areimpossible。Thehumanmind,exposedtosocialinfluences,inflexiblyadherestothedirectionthatisgiventoit;butforthesamereasonwhymen,whobegininerrorwillcontinue,thosewhocommenceintruth,maybeexpectedtopersist。Habitandexamplewilloperatewithequalforceinbothinstances。
  Letafew,sufficientlyenlightenedanddisinterested,takeuptheirabodeinsomeunvisitedregion。Lettheirsocialschemebefoundedinequity,andhowsmallsoevertheiroriginalnumbermaybe,theirgrowthintoanationisinevitable。Amongothereffectsofnationaljustice,wastoberankedtheswiftincreaseofnumbers。Exemptfromservileobligationsandperversehabits,endowedwithproperty,wisdom,andhealth。Hundredswillexpand,withinconceivablerapidityintothousandsandthousands,intomillions;andanewrace,tutoredintruth,may,inafewcenturies,overflowthehabitableworld。
  Suchwerethevisionsofyouth!Icouldnotbanishthemfrommymind。Iknewthemtobecrude;butbelievedthatdeliberationwouldbestowuponthemsolidityandshape。MeanwhileIimpartedthemtoLudloe。
  ChapterVI。
  InanswertothereveriesandspeculationswhichIsenttohimrespectingthissubject,Ludloeinformedme,thattheyhadledhismindintoanewsphereofmeditation。Hehadlonganddeeplyconsideredinwhatwayhemightessentiallypromotemyhappiness。
  HehadentertainedafainthopethatIwouldonedaybequalifiedforastationlikethattowhichhehimselfhadbeenadvanced。
  Thispostrequiredanelevationandstabilityofviewswhichhumanbeingsseldomreach,andwhichcouldbeattainedbymeonlybyalongseriesofheroiclabours。Hithertoeverynewstageinmyintellectualprogresshadaddedvigourtohishopes,andhecherishedastrongerbeliefthanformerlythatmycareerwouldterminateauspiciously。This,however,wasnecessarilydistant。
  Manypreliminariesmustfirstbesettled;manyarduousaccomplishmentsbefirstobtained;andmyvirtuebesubjectedtoseveretrials。Atpresentitwasnotinhispowertobemoreexplicit;butifmyreflectionssuggestednobetterplan,headvisedmetosettlemyaffairsinSpain,andreturntohimimmediately。Myknowledgeofthiscountrywouldbeofthehighestuse,onthesuppositionofmyultimatelyarrivingatthehonourstowhichhehadalluded;andsomeofthesepreparatorymeasurescouldbetakenonlywithhisassistance,andinhiscompany。
  Thisintimationwaseagerlyobeyed,and,inashorttime,I
  arrivedatDublin。Meanwhilemymindhadcopiousoccupationincommentingonmyfriend'sletter。Thisscheme,whateveritwas,seemedtobesuggestedbymymentionofaplanofcolonization,andmypreferenceofthatmodeofproducingextensiveandpermanenteffectsontheconditionofmankind。Itwaseasythereforetoconjecturethatthismodehadbeenpursuedundersomemysteriousmodificationsandconditions。
  Ithadalwaysexcitedmywonderthatsoobviousanexpedienthadbeenoverlooked。Theglobewhichweinhabitwasveryimperfectlyknown。Theregionsandnationsunexplored,itwasreasonabletobelieve,surpassedinextent,andperhapsinpopulousness,thosewithwhichwewerefamiliar。TheorderofJesuitshadfurnishedanexampleofalltheerrorsandexcellenciesofsuchascheme。Theirplanwasfoundedonerroneousnotionsofreligionandpolicy,andtheyhadabsurdlychosenascene*withinreachoftheinjusticeandambitionofanEuropeantyrant。
  Itwaswiseandeasytoprofitbytheirexample。Restingonthetwopropsoffidelityandzeal,anassociationmightexistforagesintheheartofEurope,whoseinfluencemightbefelt,andmightbeboundless,insomeregionofthesouthernhemisphere;andbywhomamoralandpoliticalstructuremightberaised,thegrowthofpurewisdom,andtotallyunlikethosefragmentsofRomanandGothicbarbarism,whichcoverthefaceofwhatarecalledthecivilizednations。Thebeliefnowroseinmymindthatsomesuchschemehadactuallybeenprosecuted,andthatLudloewasacoadjutor。Onthissupposition,thecautionwithwhichheapproachedtohispoint,thearduousprobationwhichacandidateforapartonthisstagemustundergo,andtherigoursofthattestbywhichhisfortitudeandvirtuemustbetried,wereeasilyexplained。Iwastoodeeplyimbuedwithvenerationfortheeffectsofsuchschemes,andtoosanguineinmyconfidenceintherectitudeofLudloe,torefusemyconcurrenceinanyschemebywhichmyqualificationsmightatlengthberaisedtoaduepoint。
  Ourinterviewwasfrankandaffectionate。Ifoundhimsituatedjustasformerly。Hisaspect,manners,anddeportmentwerethesame。Ienteredoncemoreonmyformermodeoflife,butourintercoursebecamemorefrequent。Weconstantlybreakfastedtogether,andourconversationwasusuallyprolongedthroughhalfthemorning。
  Foratimeourtopicsweregeneral。Ithoughtpropertoleavetohimtheintroductionofmoreinterestingthemes:this,however,hebetrayednoinclinationtodo。Hisreserveexcitedsomesurprise,andIbegantosuspectthatwhateverdesignhehadformedwithregardtome,hadbeenlaidaside。Toascertainthisquestion,Iventured,atlength,torecallhisattentiontothesubjectofhislastletter,andtoenquirewhethersubsequentreflectionhadmadeanychangeinhisviews。
  Hesaidthathisviewsweretoomomentoustobehastilytakenup,orhastilydismissed;thestation,myattainmentofwhichdependedwhollyonmyself,washighabovevulgarheads,andwastobegainedbyyearsofsolicitudeandlabour。This,atleast,wastruewithregardtomindsordinarilyconstituted;I,perhaps,deservedtoberegardedasanexception,andmightbeabletoaccomplishinafewmonthsthatforwhichotherswereobligedtotoilduringhalftheirlives。
  Man,continuedhe,istheslaveofhabit。Convincehimto-daythathisdutyleadsstraightforward:heshalladvance,butateverystephisbeliefshallfade;habitwillresumeitsempire,andtomorrowheshallturnback,orbetakehimselftoobliquepaths。
  Weknownotourstrengthtillitbetried。Virtue,tillconfirmedbyhabit,isadream。Youareamanimbuedbyerrors,andvinciblebyslighttemptations。Deepenquiriesmustbestowlightonyouropinions,andthehabitofencounteringandvanquishingtemptationmustinspireyouwithfortitude。Tillthisbedone,youareunqualifiedforthatpost,inwhichyouwillbeinvestedwithdivineattributes,andprescribetheconditionofalargeportionofmankind。
  Confidenotinthefirmnessofyourprinciples,orthestedfastnessofyourintegrity。Bealwaysvigilantandfearful。
  Neverthinkyouhaveenoughofknowledge,andletnotyourcautionslumberforamoment,foryouknownotwhendangerisnear。
  Iacknowledgedthejusticeofhisadmonitions,andprofessedmyselfwillingtoundergoanyordealwhichreasonshouldprescribe。
  What,Iasked,weretheconditions,onthefulfilmentofwhichdependedmyadvancementtothestationhealludedto?Wasitnecessarytoconcealfrommethenatureandobligationsofthisrank?
  TheseenquiriessunkhimmoreprofoundlyintomeditationthanIhadeverbeforewitnessed。Afterapause,inwhichsomeperplexitywasvisible,heanswered:
  Iscarcelyknowwhattosay。Astopromises,Iclaimthemnotfromyou。Wearenowarrivedatapoint,inwhichitisnecessarytolookaroundwithcaution,andthatconsequencesshouldbefullyknown。Anumberofpersonsareleaguedtogetherforanendofsomemoment。Tomakeyourselfoneoftheseissubmittedtoyourchoice。
  Amongtheconditionsoftheiralliancearemutualfidelityandsecrecy。
  Theirexistencedependsuponthis:theirexistenceisknownonlytothemselves。Thissecrecymustbeobtainedbyallthemeanswhicharepossible。WhenIhavesaidthusmuch,Ihaveinformedyou,insomedegree,oftheirexistence,butyouarestillignorantofthepurposecontemplatedbythisassociation,andofallthemembers,exceptmyself。Sofarnodangerousdisclosureisyetmade:butthisdegreeofconcealmentisnotsufficient。Thusmuchismadeknowntoyou,becauseitisunavoidable。Theindividualswhichcomposethisfraternityarenotimmortal,andthevacanciesoccasionedbydeathmustbesuppliedfromamongtheliving。Thecandidatemustbeinstructedandprepared,andtheyarealwaysatlibertytorecede。Theirreasonmustapprovetheobligationsanddutiesoftheirstation,ortheyareunfitforit。Iftheyrecede,onedutyisstillincumbentuponthem:theymustobserveaninviolablesilence。Tothistheyarenotheldbyanypromise。
  Theymustweighconsequences,andfreelydecide;buttheymustnotfailtonumberamongtheseconsequencestheirowndeath。
  Theirdeathwillnotbepromptedbyvengeance。Theexecutionerwillsay,hethathasoncerevealedthetaleislikelytorevealitasecondtime;and,topreventthis,thebetrayermustdie。Noristhistheonlyconsequence:topreventthefurtherrevelation,he,towhomthesecretwasimparted,mustlikewiseperish。Hemustnotconsolehimselfwiththebeliefthathistrespasswillbeunknown。Theknowledgecannot,byhumanmeans,bewithheldfromthisfraternity。Rare,indeed,willitbethathispurposetodiscloseisnotdiscoveredbeforeitcanbeeffected,andthedisclosurepreventedbyhisdeath。
  Bewellawareofyourcondition。WhatInow,ormayhereaftermention,mentionnotagain。Admitnotevenadoubtastotheproprietyofhidingitfromalltheworld。Thereareeyeswhowilldiscernthisdoubtamidsttheclosestfoldsofyourheart,andyourlifewillinstantlybesacrificed。
  Atpresentbethesubjectdismissed。Reflectdeeplyonthedutywhichyouhavealreadyincurred。Thinkuponyourstrengthofmind,andbecarefulnottolayyourselfunderimpracticableobligations。Itwillalwaysbeinyourpowertorecede。Evenafteryouaresolemnlyenrolledamember,youmayconsultthedictatesofyourownunderstanding,andrelinquishyourpost;butwhileyoulive,theobligationtobesilentwillperpetuallyattendyou。
  Weseeknotthemiseryordeathofanyone,butweareswayedbyanimmutablecalculation。Deathistobeabhorred,butthelifeofthebetrayerisproductiveofmoreevilthanhisdeath:hisdeath,therefore,wechuse,andourmeansareinstantaneousandunerring。
  Iloveyou。Thefirstimpulseofmyloveistodissuadeyoufromseekingtoknowmore。Yourmindwillbefullofideas;yourhandswillbeperpetuallybusytoapurposeintowhichnohumancreature,beyondthevergeofyourbrotherhood,mustpry。Believeme,whohavemadetheexperiment,thatcomparedwiththistask,thetaskofinviolablesecrecy,allothersareeasy。Tobedumbwillnotsuffice;nevertoknowanyremissioninyourzealoryourwatchfulnesswillnotsuffice。Ifthesagacityofothersdetectyouroccupations,howeverstrenuouslyyoumaylabourforconcealment,yourdoomisratified,aswellasthatofthewretchwhoseevildestinyledhimtopursueyou。
  Yetifyourfidelityfailnot,greatwillbeyourrecompence。
  Forallyourtoilsandself-devotion,amplewillbetheretribution。Hithertoyouhavebeenwraptindarknessandstorm;
  thenwillyoubeexaltedtoapureandunruffledelement。Itisonlyforatimethattemptationwillenvironyou,andyourpathwillbetoilsome。Inafewyearsyouwillbepermittedtowithdrawtoalandofsages,andtheremainderofyourlifewillglideawayintheenjoymentsofbeneficenceandwisdom。
  ThinkdeeplyonwhatIhavesaid。Investigateyourownmotivesandopinions,andpreparetosubmitthemtothetestofnumeroushazardsandexperiments。
  Heremyfriendpassedtoanewtopic。Iwasdesirousofrevertingtothissubject,andobtainingfurtherinformationconcerningit,butheassiduouslyrepelledallmyattempts,andinsistedonmybestowingdeepandimpartialattentiononwhathadalreadybeendisclosed。Iwasnotslowtocomplywithhisdirections。Mymindrefusedtoadmitanyotherthemeofcontemplationthanthis。
  AsyetIhadnoglimpseofthenatureofthisfraternity。I
  waspermittedtoformconjectures,andpreviousincidentsbestowedbutoneformuponmythoughts。InreviewingthesentimentsanddeportmentofLudloe,mybeliefcontinuallyacquirednewstrength。
  Ievenrecollectedhintsandambiguousallusionsinhisdiscourse,whichwereeasilysolved,onthesuppositionoftheexistenceofanewmodelofsociety,insomeunsuspectedcorneroftheworld。
  Ididnotfullyperceivethenecessityofsecrecy;butthisnecessityperhapswouldberenderedapparent,whenIshouldcometoknowtheconnectionthatsubsistedbetweenEuropeandthisimaginarycolony。Butwhatwastobedone?Iwaswillingtoabidebytheseconditions。Myunderstandingmightnotapproveofalltheendsproposedbythisfraternity,andIhadlibertytowithdrawfromit,ortorefusetoallymyselfwiththem。Thattheobligationofsecrecyshouldstillremain,wasunquestionablyreasonable。