Havingformedmyresolution，manypreliminariestoitsexecutionwerenecessarytobesettled。Thesedemandeddeliberationanddelay；meanwhileIrecollectedmypromisetoLudlow，andpaidhimavisit。Imetafrankandaffectionatereception。ItwouldnotbeeasytopaintthedelightwhichI
　　experiencedinthisman'ssociety。Iwasatfirstoppressedwiththesenseofmyowninferiorityinage，knowledgeandrank。Hencearosenumberlessreservesandincapacitatingdiffidences；butthesewerespeedilydissipatedbythefascinationsofthisman'saddress。
　　Hissuperioritywasonlyrendered，bytime，moreconspicuous，butthissuperiority，byappearingnevertobepresenttohisownmind，ceasedtobeuneasytome。Myquestionsrequiredtobefrequentlyanswered，andmymistakestoberectified；butmykeenestscrutiny，coulddetectinhismanner，neitherarrogancenorcontempt。Heseemedtotalkmerelyfromtheoverflowofhisideas，orabenevolentdesireofimpartinginformation。
　　ChapterIV。
　　Myvisitsgraduallybecamemorefrequent。Meanwhilemywantsincreased，andthenecessityofsomechangeinmyconditionbecamedailymoreurgent。ThisincitedmyreflectionsontheschemewhichIhadformed。Thetimeandplacesuitabletomydesign，werenotselectedwithoutmuchanxiousinquiryandfrequentwaveringsofpurpose。Thesebeingatlengthfixed，theintervaltoelapse，beforethecarryingofmydesignintoeffect，wasnotwithoutperturbationandsuspense。Thesecouldnotbeconcealedfrommynewfriendandatlengthpromptedhimtoinquireintothecause。
　　Itwasnotpossibletocommunicatethewholetruth；butthewarmthofhismannerinspiredmewithsomedegreeofingenuousness。
　　Ididnothidefromhimmyformerhopesandmypresentdestitutecondition。Helistenedtomytalewithnoexpressionsofsympathy，andwhenIhadfinished，abruptlyinquiredwhetherIhadanyobjectiontoavoyagetoEurope？Iansweredinthenegative。Hethensaidthathewaspreparingtodepartinafortnightandadvisedmetomakeupmymindtoaccompanyhim。
　　Thisunexpectedproposalgavemepleasureandsurprize，butthewantofmoneyoccurredtomeasaninsuperableobjection。Onthisbeingmentioned，Oho！saidhe，carelessly，thatobjectioniseasilyremoved，Iwillbearallexpensesofyourpassagemyself。
　　Theextraordinarybeneficenceofthisactaswellastheairofuncautiousnessattendingit，mademedoubtthesincerityofhisoffer，andwhennewdeclarationsremovedthisdoubt，Icouldnotforbearexpressingatoncemysenseofhisgenerosityandofmyownunworthiness。
　　Herepliedthatgenerosityhadbeenexpungedfromhiscatalogueashavingnomeaningoraviciousone。Itwasthescopeofhisexertionstobejust。Thiswasthesumofhumanduty，andhethatfellshort，ranbeside，oroutstrippedjusticewasacriminal。Whathegavemewasmydueornotmydue。Ifitweremydue，Imightreasonablydemanditfromhimanditwaswickedtowithholdit。Meritononesideorgratitudeontheother，werecontradictoryandunintelligible。
　　IfIwerefullyconvincedthatthisbenefitwasnotmydueandyetreceivedit，heshouldholdmeincontempt。Therectitudeofmyprinciplesandconductwouldbethemeasureofhisapprobation，andnobenefitshouldheeverbestowwhichthereceiverwasnotentitledtoclaim，andwhichitwouldnotbecriminalinhimtorefuse。
　　TheseprincipleswerenotnewfromthemouthofLudloe，buttheyhad，hitherto，beenregardedasthefruitsofaventurousspeculationinmymind。Ihadnevertracedthemintotheirpracticalconsequences，andifhisconductonthisoccasionhadnotsquaredwithhismaxims，Ishouldnothaveimputedtohiminconsistency。Ididnotponderonthesereasoningsatthistime:
　　objectsofimmediateimportanceengrossedmythoughts。
　　Oneobstacletothismeasurewasremoved。WhenmyvoyagewasperformedhowshouldIsubsistinmynewabode？Iconcealednotmyperplexityandhecommentedonitinhisusualmanner。HowdidI
　　meantosubsist，heasked，inmyowncountry？Themeansoflivingwouldbe，atleast，asmuchwithinmyreachthereashere。Astothepressureofimmediateandabsolutewant，hebelievedIshouldbeexposedtolittlehazard。Withtalentssuchasmine，Imustbehuntedbyadestinypeculiarlymalignant，ifIcouldnotprovidemyselfwithnecessarieswherevermylotwerecast。
　　Hewouldmakeallowances，however，formydiffidenceandself-
　　distrust，andwouldobviatemyfearsbyexpressinghisownintentionswithregardtome。Imustbeapprized，however，ofhistruemeaning。Helabouredtoshunallhurtfulandvitiousthings，andthereforecarefullyabstainedfrommakingorconfiding~~inpromises~~。Itwasjusttoassistmeinthisvoyage，anditwouldprobablybeequallyjusttocontinuetomesimilarassistancewhenitwasfinished。Thatindeedwasasubject，inagreatdegree，withinmyowncognizance。Hisaidwouldbeproportionedtomywantsandtomymerits，andIhadonlytotakecarethatmyclaimswerejust，forthemtobeadmitted。
　　Thisschemecouldnotbutappeartomeeligible。Ithirstedafteranacquaintancewithnewscenes；mypresentsituationcouldnotbechangedforaworse；ItrustedtotheconstancyofLudloe'sfriendship；tothisatleastitwasbettertotrustthantothesuccessofmyimpostureonDorothy，whichwasadoptedmerelyasadesperateexpedient:finallyIdeterminedtoembarkwithhim。
　　Inthecourseofthisvoyagemymindwasbusilyemployed。
　　Therewerenootherpassengersbesideourselves，sothatmyownconditionandthecharacterofLudloe，continuallypresentedthemselvestomyreflections。ItwillbesupposedthatIwasnotavagueorindifferentobserver。
　　Therewerenovicissitudesinthedeportmentorlapsesinthediscourseofmyfriend。Hisfeelingsappearedtopreserveanunchangeabletenor，andhisthoughtsandwordsalwaystoflowwiththesamerapidity。Hisslumberwasprofoundandhiswakefulhoursserene。Hewasregularandtemperateinallhisexercisesandgratifications。Hencewerederivedhisclearperceptionsandexuberanthealth。
　　Thistreatmentofme，likeallhisothermentalandcorporaloperations，wasmodelledbyoneinflexiblestandard。Certainscruplesanddelicacieswereincidenttomysituation。Oftheexistenceoftheseheseemedtobeunconscious，andyetnothingescapedhiminconsistentwithastateofabsoluteequality。
　　Iwasnaturallyinquisitiveastohisfortuneandthecollateralcircumstancesofhiscondition。Mynotionsofpolitenesshinderedmefrommakingdirectinquiries。ByindirectmeansIcouldgathernothingbutthathisstatewasopulentandindependent，andthathehadtwosisterswhosesituationresembledhisown。
　　Though，inconversation，heappearedtobegovernedbytheutmostcandour；nolightwasletinupontheformertransactionsofhislife。ThepurposeofhisvisittoAmericaIcouldmerelyguesstobethegratificationofcuriosity。
　　Myfuturepursuitsmustbesupposedchieflytooccupymyattention。OnthisheadIwasdestituteofallstedfastviews。
　　Withoutprofessionorhabitsofindustryorsourcesofpermanentrevenue，theworldappearedtomeanoceanonwhichmybarkwassetafloat，withoutcompassorsail。TheworldintowhichIwasabouttoenter，wasuntriedandunknown，andthoughIcouldconsenttoprofitbytheguidanceIwasunwillingtorelyonthesupportofothers。
　　Thistopicbeingnearestmyheart，Ifrequentlyintroducedintoconversationwithmyfriend；butonthissubjecthealwaysallowedhimselftobeledbyme，whileonallothers，hewaszealoustopointtheway。ToeveryschemethatIproposedhewassuretocauseobjections。Alltheliberalprofessionswerecensuredaspervertingtheunderstanding，bygivingscopetothesordidmotiveofgain，orembuingthemindwitherroneousprinciples。Skillwasslowlyobtained，andsuccess，thoughintegrityandindependencemustbegivenforit，dubiousandinstable。Themechanicaltradeswereequallyobnoxious；theywerevitiousbycontributingtothespuriousgratificationsoftherichandmultiplyingtheobjectsofluxury；theyweredestructiontotheintellectandvigoroftheartizan；theyenervatedhisframeandbrutalizedhismind。
　　WhenIpointedouttohimthenecessityofsomespeciesoflabour，hetacitlyadmittedthatnecessity，butrefusedtodirectmeinthechoiceofapursuit，whichthoughnotfreefromdefectshouldyethavethefewestinconveniences。Hedweltonthefewnessofouractualwants，thetemptationswhichattendthepossessionofwealth，thebenefitsofseclusionandprivacy，andthedutyofunfetteringourmindsfromtheprejudiceswhichgoverntheworld。
　　Hisdiscoursetendedmerelytounsettlemyviewsandincreasemyperplexity。ThiseffectwassouniformthatIatlengthdesistedfromallallusionstothisthemeandendeavouredtodivertmyownreflectionsfromit。Whenourvoyageshouldbefinished，andIshouldactuallytreadthisnewstage，IbelievedthatI
　　shouldbebetterqualifiedtojudgeofthemeasurestobetakenbyme。
　　AtlengthwereachedBelfast。FromthenceweimmediatelyrepairedtoDublin。Iwasadmittedasamemberofhisfamily。
　　WhenIexpressedmyuncertaintyastotheplacetowhichitwouldbeproperformetorepair，hegavemeabluntbutcordialinvitationtohishouse。MycircumstancesallowedmenooptionandIreadilycomplied。Myattentionwasforatimeengrossedbyadiversifiedsuccessionofnewobjects。Theirnoveltyhoweverdisappearing，leftmeatlibertytoturnmyeyesuponmyselfandmycompanion，andheremyreflectionsweresuppliedwithabundantfood。
　　Hishousewasspaciousandcommodious，andfurnishedwithprofusionandelegance。Asuitofapartmentswasassignedtome，inwhichIwaspermittedtoreignuncontroledandaccesswaspermittedtoawellfurnishedlibrary。Myfoodwasfurnishedinmyownroom，preparedinthemannerwhichIhadpreviouslydirected。
　　OccasionallyLudloewouldrequestmycompanytobreakfast，whenanhourwasusuallyconsumedinearnestorsprightlyconversation。Atallothertimeshewasinvisible，andhisapartments，beingwhollyseparatefrommine，Ihadnoopportunityofdiscoveringinwhatwayhishourswereemployed。
　　Hedefendedthismodeoflivingasbeingmostcompatiblewithliberty。Hedelightedtoexpatiateontheevilsofcohabitation。
　　Men，subjectedtothesameregimen，compelledtoeatandsleepandassociateatcertainhours，werestrangerstoallrationalindependenceandliberty。Societywouldneverbeexemptfromservitudeandmisery，tillthoseartificialtieswhichheldhumanbeingstogetherunderthesameroofweredissolved。Heendeavouredtoregulatehisownconductinpursuanceoftheseprinciples，andtosecuretohimselfasmuchfreedomasthepresentregulationsofsocietywouldpermit。Thesameindependencewhichheclaimedforhimselfhelikewiseextendedtome。Thedistributionofmyowntime，theselectionofmyownoccupationsandcompanionsshouldbelongtomyself。
　　Buttheseprivileges，thoughwhilelisteningtohisargumentsIcouldnotdenythemtobevaluable，Iwouldhavewillinglydispensedwith。ThesolitudeinwhichIlivedbecamedailymorepainful。Iateanddrank，enjoyedclothingandshelter，withouttheexerciseofforethoughtorindustry；Iwalkedandsat，wentoutandreturnedforaslongandatwhatseasonsIthoughtproper，yetmyconditionwasafertilesourceofdiscontent。
　　IfeltmyselfremovedtoacomfortlessandchillingdistancefromLudloe。Iwantedtoshareinhisoccupationsandviews。Withallhisingenuousnessofaspectandoverflowofthoughts，whenheallowedmehiscompany，Ifeltmyselfpainfullybewilderedwithregardtohisgenuineconditionandsentiments。
　　Hehaditinhispowertointroducemetosociety，andwithoutanintroduction，itwasscarcelypossibletogainaccesstoanysocialcircleordomesticfireside。Addtothis，myownobscureprospectsanddubioussituation。Someregularintellectualpursuitwouldrendermystatelessirksome，butIhadhithertoadoptednoschemeofthiskind。
　　ChapterV。
　　Timetended，innodegree，toalleviatemydissatisfaction。
　　ItincreasedtillthedeterminationbecameatlengthformedofopeningmythoughtstoLudloe。Atthenextbreakfastinterviewwhichtookplace，Iintroducedthesubject，andexpatiatedwithoutreserve，onthestateofmyfeelings。Iconcludedwithentreatinghimtopointoutsomepathinwhichmytalentsmightberenderedusefultohimselfortomankind。
　　Afterapauseofsomeminutes，hesaid，Whatwouldyoudo？
　　Youforgettheimmaturityofyourage。Ifyouarequalifiedtoactapartinthetheatreoflife，stepforth；butyouarenotqualified。Youwantknowledge，andwiththisyououghtpreviouslytoendowyourselfMeans，forthisend，arewithinyourreach。Whyshouldyouwasteyourtimeinidleness，andtormentyourselfwithunprofitablewishes？Booksareathand……booksfromwhichmostsciencesandlanguagescanbelearned。Read，analise，digest；collectfacts，andinvestigatetheories:
　　ascertainthedictatesofreason，andsupplyyourselfwiththeinclinationandthepowertoadheretothem。Youwillnot，legallyspeaking，beamaninlessthanthreeyears。Letthisperiodbedevotedtotheacquisitionofwisdom。Eitherstayhere，orretiretoanhouseIhaveonthebanksofKillarney，whereyouwillfindalltheconveniencesofstudy。
　　Icouldnotbutreflectwithwonderatthisman'streatmentofme。Icouldpleadnoneoftherightsofrelationship；yetI
　　enjoyedtheprivilegesofason。Hehadnotimpartedtomeanyscheme，bypursuitofwhichImightfinallycompensatehimfortheexpensetowhichmymaintenanceandeducationwouldsubjecthim。
　　Hegavemereasontohopeforthecontinuanceofhisbounty。Hetalkedandactedasifmyfortuneweretotallydisjoinedfromhis；
　　yetwasIindebtedtohimforthemorselwhichsustainedmylife。
　　Nowitwasproposedtowithdrawmyselftostudiousleisure，andromanticsolitude。Allmywants，personalandintellectual，weretobesuppliedgratuitouslyandcopiously。NomeanswereprescribedbywhichImightmakecompensationforallthesebenefits。Inconferringthemheseemedtobeactuatedbynoviewtohisownultimateadvantage。Hetooknomeasurestosecuremyfutureservices。
　　Isufferedthesethoughtstoescapeme，onthisoccasion，andobservedthattomakemyapplicationsuccessful，oruseful，itwasnecessarytopursuesomeend。ImustlookforwardtosomepostwhichImighthereafteroccupybeneficiallytomyselforothers；
　　andforwhichalltheeffortsofmymindshouldbebenttoqualifymyself。
　　Thesehintsgavehimvisiblepleasure；andnow，forthefirsttime，hedeignedtoadvisemeonthishead。Hisscheme，however，wasnotsuddenlyproduced。Thewaytoitwascircuitousandlong。
　　Itwashisbusinesstomakeeverynewstepappeartobesuggestedbymyownreflections。Hisownideasweretheseemingresultofthemoment，andsprungoutofthelastideathatwasuttered。
　　Beinghastilytakenup，theywere，ofcourse，liabletoobjection。
　　Theseobjections，sometimesoccurringtomeandsometimestohim，wereadmittedorcontestedwiththeutmostcandour。Oneschemewentthroughnumerousmodificationsbeforeitwasprovedtobeineligible，orbeforeityieldedplacetoabetter。Itwaseasytoperceive，thatbooksalonewereinsufficienttoimpartknowledge:
　　thatmanmustbeexaminedwithourowneyestomakeusacquaintedwiththeirnature:thatideascollectedfromobservationandreading，mustcorrectandillustrateeachother:thatthevalueofallprinciples，andtheirtruth，lieintheirpracticaleffects。
　　Hence，graduallyarose，theusefulnessoftravelling，ofinspectingthehabitsandmannersofanation，andinvestigating，onthespot，thecausesoftheirhappinessandmisery。Finally，itwasdeterminedthatSpainwasmoresuitablethananyother，totheviewsofajudicioustraveller。
　　Mylanguage，habits，andreligionwerementionedasobstaclestocloseandextensiveviews；butthesedifficultiessuccessivelyandslowlyvanished。Conversewithbooks，andnativesofSpain，asteadfastpurposeandunwearieddiligencewouldeffacealldifferencesbetweenmeandaCastilianwithrespecttospeech。
　　Personalhabits，werechangeable，bythesamemeans。Thebarstounboundedintercourse，risingfromthereligionofSpainbeingirreconcilablyoppositetomine，costusnolittletroubletosurmount，andheretheskillofLudloewaseminentlydisplayed。
　　Ihadbeenaccustomedtoregardasunquestionable，thefallacyoftheRomishfaith。Thispersuasionwashabitualandthechildofprejudice，andwaseasilyshakenbytheartificesofthislogician。
　　IwasfirstledtobestowakindofassentonthedoctrinesoftheRomanchurch；butmyconvictionswereeasilysubduedbyanewspeciesofargumentation，and，inashorttime，Irevertedtomyancientdisbelief，sothat，ifanexteriorconformitytotherightsofSpainwererequisitetotheattainmentofmypurpose，thatconformitymustbedissembled。
　　Mymoralprincipleshadhithertobeenvagueandunsettled。Mycircumstanceshadledmetothefrequentpracticeofinsincerity；
　　butmytransgressionsastheywereslightandtransient，didnotmuchexcitemypreviousreflections，orsubsequentremorse。Mydeviations，however，thoughrenderedeasybyhabit，werebynomeanssanctionedbymyprinciples。Nowanimposture，moreprofoundanddeliberate，wasprojected；andIcouldnothopetoperformwellmypart，unlesssteadfastlyandthoroughlypersuadedofitsrectitude。
　　Myfriendwastheeulogistofsincerity。Hedelightedtotraceitsinfluenceonthehappinessofmankind；andprovedthatnothingbuttheuniversalpracticeofthisvirtuewasnecessarytotheperfectionofhumansociety。Hisdoctrinewassplendidandbeautiful。Todetectitsimperfectionswasnoeasytask；tolaythefoundationsofvirtueinutility，andtolimit，bythatscale，theoperationofgeneralprinciples；toseethatthevalueofsincerity，likethatofeveryothermodeofaction，consistedinitstendencytogood，andthat，thereforetheobligationtospeaktruthwasnotparamountorintrinsical:thatmydutyismodelledonaknowledgeandforesightoftheconductofothers；andthat，sincemenintheiractualstate，areinfirmanddeceitful，ajustestimateofconsequencesmaysometimesmakedissimulationmydutyweretruthsthatdidnotspeedilyoccur。Thediscovery，whenmade，appearedtobeajointwork。IsawnothinginLudlowbutproofsofcandour，andajudgmentincapableofbias。
　　Themeanswhichthismanemployedtofitmeforhispurpose，perhapsowedtheirsuccesstomyyouthandignorance。Imayhavegivenyouexaggeratedideasofhisdexterityandaddress。OfthatIamunabletojudge。Certainitis，thatnotimeorreflectionhasabatedmyastonishmentattheprofoundnessofhisschemes，andtheperseverancewithwhichtheywerepursuedbyhim。Todetailtheirprogresswouldexposemetotheriskofbeingtedious，yetnonebutminutedetailswouldsufficientlydisplayhispatienceandsubtlety。