HadyoubeenintheearlieryearsofyourlifeacitizenofthevillageofWinesburg,Ohio,therewouldhavebeenforyounomysteryinregardtothebeastinhiscage。"ItislikeWashWilliams,"youwouldhavesaid。"Ashesitsinthecornerthere,thebeastisexactlylikeoldWashsittingonthegrassinthestationyardonasummereveningafterhehasclosedhisofficeforthenight。"
WashWilliams,thetelegraphoperatorofWines-
burg,wastheugliestthingintown。Hisgirthwasimmense,hisneckthin,hislegsfeeble。Hewasdirty。Everythingabouthimwasunclean。Eventhewhitesofhiseyeslookedsoiled。
Igotoofast。NoteverythingaboutWashwasun-
clean。Hetookcareofhishands。Hisfingerswerefat,buttherewassomethingsensitiveandshapelyinthehandthatlayonthetablebytheinstrumentinthetelegraphoffice。InhisyouthWashWilliamshadbeencalledthebesttelegraphoperatorinthestate,andinspiteofhisdegradementtotheobscureofficeatWinesburg,hewasstillproudofhisability。
WashWilliamsdidnotassociatewiththemenofthetowninwhichhelived。"I'llhavenothingtodowiththem,"hesaid,lookingwithblearyeyesatthemenwhowalkedalongthestationplatformpastthetelegraphoffice。UpalongMainStreethewentintheeveningtoEdGriffith'ssaloon,andafterdrink-
ingunbelievablequantitiesofbeerstaggeredofftohisroomintheNewWillardHouseandtohisbedforthenight。
WashWilliamswasamanofcourage。Athinghadhappenedtohimthatmadehimhatelife,andhehateditwholeheartedly,withtheabandonofapoet。Firstofall,hehatedwomen。"Bitches,"hecalledthem。Hisfeelingtowardmenwassomewhatdifferent。Hepitiedthem。"Doesnoteverymanlethislifebemanagedforhimbysomebitchoran-
other?"heasked。
InWinesburgnoattentionwaspaidtoWashWil-
liamsandhishatredofhisfellows。OnceMrs。
White,thebanker'swife,complainedtothetele-
graphcompany,sayingthattheofficeinWinesburgwasdirtyandsmelledabominably,butnothingcameofhercomplaint。Hereandthereamanre-
spectedtheoperator。Instinctivelythemanfeltinhimaglowingresentmentofsomethinghehadnotthecouragetoresent。WhenWashwalkedthroughthestreetssuchaonehadaninstincttopayhimhomage,toraisehishatortobowbeforehim。Thesuperintendentwhohadsupervisionoverthetele-
graphoperatorsontherailroadthatwentthroughWinesburgfeltthatway。HehadputWashintotheobscureofficeatWinesburgtoavoiddischarginghim,andhemeanttokeephimthere。Whenhereceivedtheletterofcomplaintfromthebanker'swife,hetoreitupandlaughedunpleasantly。Forsomereasonhethoughtofhisownwifeashetoreuptheletter。
WashWilliamsoncehadawife。WhenhewasstillayoungmanhemarriedawomanatDayton,Ohio。
Thewomanwastallandslenderandhadblueeyesandyellowhair。Washwashimselfacomelyyouth。
Helovedthewomanwithaloveasabsorbingasthehatredhelaterfeltforallwomen。
InallofWinesburgtherewasbutonepersonwhoknewthestoryofthethingthathadmadeuglythepersonandthecharacterofWashWilliams。HeoncetoldthestorytoGeorgeWillardandthetellingofthetalecameaboutinthisway:
GeorgeWillardwentoneeveningtowalkwithBelleCarpenter,atrimmerofwomen'shatswhoworkedinamillineryshopkeptbyMrs。KateMcHugh。Theyoungmanwasnotinlovewiththewoman,who,infact,hadasuitorwhoworkedasbartenderinEdGriffith'ssaloon,butastheywalkedaboutunderthetreestheyoccasionallyembraced。
Thenightandtheirownthoughtshadarousedsomethinginthem。AstheywerereturningtoMainStreettheypassedthelittlelawnbesidetherailroadstationandsawWashWilliamsapparentlyasleeponthegrassbeneathatree。OnthenexteveningtheoperatorandGeorgeWillardwalkedouttogether。
Downtherailroadtheywentandsatonapileofdecayingrailroadtiesbesidethetracks。Itwasthenthattheoperatortoldtheyoungreporterhisstoryofhate。
PerhapsadozentimesGeorgeWillardandthestrange,shapelessmanwholivedathisfather'shotelhadbeenonthepointoftalking。Theyoungmanlookedatthehideous,leeringfacestaringaboutthehoteldiningroomandwasconsumedwithcuriosity。Somethinghesawlurkinginthestar-
ingeyestoldhimthatthemanwhohadnothingtosaytoothershadneverthelesssomethingtosaytohim。Onthepileofrailroadtiesonthesummereve-
ning,hewaitedexpectantly。Whentheoperatorre-
mainedsilentandseemedtohavechangedhismindabouttalking,hetriedtomakeconversation。"Wereyouevermarried,Mr。Williams?"hebegan。"Isup-
poseyouwereandyourwifeisdead,isthatit?"
WashWilliamsspatforthasuccessionofvileoaths。"Yes,sheisdead,"heagreed。"Sheisdeadasallwomenaredead。Sheisaliving-deadthing,walkinginthesightofmenandmakingtheearthfoulbyherpresence。"Staringintotheboy'seyes,themanbecamepurplewithrage。"Don'thavefoolnotionsinyourhead,"hecommanded。"Mywife,sheisdead;yes,surely。Itellyou,allwomenaredead,mymother,yourmother,thattalldarkwomanwhoworksinthemillinerystoreandwithwhomIsawyouwalkingaboutyesterday——allofthem,theyarealldead。Itellyouthereissomethingrottenaboutthem。Iwasmarried,sure。Mywifewasdeadbeforeshemarriedme,shewasafoulthingcomeoutawomanmorefoul。Shewasathingsenttomakelifeunbearabletome。Iwasafool,doyousee,asyouarenow,andsoImarriedthiswoman。
Iwouldliketoseemenalittlebegintounderstandwomen。Theyaresenttopreventmenmakingtheworldworthwhile。ItisatrickinNature。Ugh!Theyarecreeping,crawling,squirmingthings,theywiththeirsofthandsandtheirblueeyes。Thesightofawomansickensme。WhyIdon'tkilleverywomanIseeIdon'tknow。"
Halffrightenedandyetfascinatedbythelightburningintheeyesofthehideousoldman,GeorgeWillardlistened,afirewithcuriosity。Darknesscameonandheleanedforwardtryingtoseethefaceofthemanwhotalked。When,inthegatheringdark-
ness,hecouldnolongerseethepurple,bloatedfaceandtheburningeyes,acuriousfancycametohim。
WashWilliamstalkedinloweventonesthatmadehiswordsseemthemoreterrible。Inthedarknesstheyoungreporterfoundhimselfimaginingthathesatontherailroadtiesbesideacomelyyoungmanwithblackhairandblackshiningeyes。TherewassomethingalmostbeautifulinthevoiceofWashWil-
liams,thehideous,tellinghisstoryofhate。
ThetelegraphoperatorofWinesburg,sittinginthedarknessontherailroadties,hadbecomeapoet。
Hatredhadraisedhimtothatelevation。"ItisbecauseIsawyoukissingthelipsofthatBelleCarpenterthatItellyoumystory,"hesaid。"Whathappenedtomemaynexthappentoyou。Iwanttoputyouonyourguard。Alreadyyoumaybehavingdreamsinyourhead。Iwanttodestroythem。"
WashWilliamsbegantellingthestoryofhismar-
riedlifewiththetallblondegirlwiththeblueeyeswhomhehadmetwhenhewasayoungoperatoratDayton,Ohio。Hereandtherehisstorywastouchedwithmomentsofbeautyintermingledwithstringsofvilecurses。Theoperatorhadmarriedthedaughterofadentistwhowastheyoungestofthreesisters。Onhismarriageday,becauseofhisability,hewaspromotedtoapositionasdispatcheratanincreasedsalaryandsenttoanofficeatColumbus,Ohio。Therehesettleddownwithhisyoungwifeandbeganbuyingahouseontheinstallmentplan。
Theyoungtelegraphoperatorwasmadlyinlove。
Withakindofreligiousfervorhehadmanagedtogothroughthepitfallsofhisyouthandtoremainvirginaluntilafterhismarriage。HemadeforGeorgeWillardapictureofhislifeinthehouseatColum-
bus,Ohio,withtheyoungwife。"inthegardenbackofourhouseweplantedvegetables,"hesaid,"youknow,peasandcornandsuchthings。WewenttoColumbusinearlyMarchandassoonasthedaysbecamewarmIwenttoworkinthegarden。WithaspadeIturneduptheblackgroundwhilesheranaboutlaughingandpretendingtobeafraidofthewormsIuncovered。LateinAprilcametheplanting。
Inthelittlepathsamongtheseedbedsshestoodholdingapaperbaginherhand。Thebagwasfilledwithseeds。AfewatatimeshehandedmetheseedsthatImightthrustthemintothewarm,softground。"
Foramomenttherewasacatchinthevoiceofthemantalkinginthedarkness。"Ilovedher,"hesaid。"Idon'tclaimnottobeafool。Iloveheryet。
ThereintheduskinthespringeveningIcrawledalongtheblackgroundtoherfeetandgroveledbe-
foreher。Ikissedhershoesandtheanklesabovehershoes。WhenthehemofhergarmenttouchedmyfaceItrembled。WhenaftertwoyearsofthatlifeIfoundshehadmanagedtoacquirethreeotherlov-
erswhocameregularlytoourhousewhenIwasawayatwork,Ididn'twanttotouchthemorher。
Ijustsentherhometohermotherandsaidnothing。
Therewasnothingtosay。Ihadfourhundreddol-
larsinthebankandIgaveherthat。Ididn'taskherreasons。Ididn'tsayanything。WhenshehadgoneIcriedlikeasillyboy。PrettysoonIhadachancetosellthehouseandIsentthatmoneytoher。"
WashWilliamsandGeorgeWillardarosefromthepileofrailroadtiesandwalkedalongthetrackstowardtown。Theoperatorfinishedhistalequickly,breathlessly。
"Hermothersentforme,"hesaid。"ShewrotemealetterandaskedmetocometotheirhouseatDayton。WhenIgotthereitwaseveningaboutthistime。"
WashWilliams'voicerosetoahalfscream。"Isatintheparlorofthathousetwohours。Hermothertookmeinthereandleftme。Theirhousewasstyl-
ish。Theywerewhatiscalledrespectablepeople。
Therewereplushchairsandacouchintheroom。I
wastremblingallover。IhatedthemenIthoughthadwrongedher。Iwassickoflivingaloneandwantedherback。ThelongerIwaitedthemorerawandtenderIbecame。IthoughtthatifshecameinandjusttouchedmewithherhandIwouldperhapsfaintaway。Iachedtoforgiveandforget。"
WashWilliamsstoppedandstoodstaringatGeorgeWillard。Theboy'sbodyshookasfromachill。Againtheman'svoicebecamesoftandlow。"Shecameintotheroomnaked,"hewenton。"Hermotherdidthat。WhileIsatthereshewastakingthegirl'sclothesoff,perhapscoaxinghertodoit。FirstI
heardvoicesatthedoorthatledintoalittlehallwayandthenitopenedsoftly。Thegirlwasashamedandstoodperfectlystillstaringatthefloor。Themotherdidn'tcomeintotheroom。Whenshehadpushedthegirlinthroughthedoorshestoodinthehallwaywaiting,hopingwewould——well,yousee——
waiting。"
GeorgeWillardandthetelegraphoperatorcameintothemainstreetofWinesburg。Thelightsfromthestorewindowslaybrightandshiningonthesidewalks。Peoplemovedaboutlaughingandtalk-
ing。Theyoungreporterfeltillandweak。Inimagi-
nation,healsobecameoldandshapeless。"Ididn'tgetthemotherkilled,"saidWashWilliams,staringupanddownthestreet。"Istruckheroncewithachairandthentheneighborscameinandtookitaway。Shescreamedsoloudyousee。Iwon'teverhaveachancetokillhernow。Shediedofafeveramonthafterthathappened。"
THETHINKER
THEHOUSEinwhichSethRichmondofWinesburglivedwithhismotherhadbeenatonetimetheshowplaceofthetown,butwhenyoungSethlivedthereitsgloryhadbecomesomewhatdimmed。ThehugebrickhousewhichBankerWhitehadbuiltonBuck-
eyeStreethadovershadowedit。TheRichmondplacewasinalittlevalleyfaroutattheendofMainStreet。Farmerscomingintotownbyadustyroadfromthesouthpassedbyagroveofwalnuttrees,skirtedtheFairGroundwithitshighboardfencecoveredwithadvertisements,andtrottedtheirhorsesdownthroughthevalleypasttheRichmondplaceintotown。AsmuchofthecountrynorthandsouthofWinesburgwasdevotedtofruitandberryraising,Sethsawwagon-loadsofberrypickers——boys,girls,andwomen——goingtothefieldsinthemorningandreturningcoveredwithdustintheevening。Thechatteringcrowd,withtheirrudejokescriedoutfromwagontowagon,sometimesirritatedhimsharply。Heregrettedthathealsocouldnotlaughboisterously,shoutmeaninglessjokesandmakeofhimselfafigureintheendlessstreamofmoving,gigglingactivitythatwentupanddowntheroad。
TheRichmondhousewasbuiltoflimestone,and,althoughitwassaidinthevillagetohavebecomerundown,hadinrealitygrownmorebeautifulwitheverypassingyear。Alreadytimehadbegunalittletocolorthestone,lendingagoldenrichnesstoitssurfaceandintheeveningorondarkdaystouchingtheshadedplacesbeneaththeeaveswithwaveringpatchesofbrownsandblacks。
ThehousehadbeenbuiltbySeth'sgrandfather,astonequarryman,andit,togetherwiththestonequarriesonLakeErieeighteenmilestothenorth,hadbeenlefttohisson,ClarenceRichmond,Seth'sfather。ClarenceRichmond,aquietpassionatemanextraordinarilyadmiredbyhisneighbors,hadbeenkilledinastreetfightwiththeeditorofanewspaperinToledo,Ohio。ThefightconcernedthepublicationofClarenceRichmond'snamecoupledwiththatofawomanschoolteacher,andasthedeadmanhadbeguntherowbyfiringupontheeditor,theefforttopunishtheslayerwasunsuccessful。Afterthequarryman'sdeathitwasfoundthatmuchofthemoneylefttohimhadbeensquanderedinspecula-
tionandininsecureinvestmentsmadethroughtheinfluenceoffriends。
Leftwithbutasmallincome,VirginiaRichmondhadsettleddowntoaretiredlifeinthevillageandtotheraisingofherson。Althoughshehadbeendeeplymovedbythedeathofthehusbandandfa-
ther,shedidnotatallbelievethestoriesconcerninghimthatranaboutafterhisdeath。Tohermind,thesensitive,boyishmanwhomallhadinstinctivelyloved,wasbutanunfortunate,abeingtoofineforeverydaylife。"You'llbehearingallsortsofstories,butyouarenottobelievewhatyouhear,"shesaidtoherson。"Hewasagoodman,fulloftendernessforeveryone,andshouldnothavetriedtobeamanofaffairs。NomatterhowmuchIweretoplananddreamofyourfuture,Icouldnotimagineanythingbetterforyouthanthatyouturnoutasgoodamanasyourfather。"
Severalyearsafterthedeathofherhusband,Vir-
giniaRichmondhadbecomealarmedatthegrowingdemandsuponherincomeandhadsetherselftothetaskofincreasingit。Shehadlearnedstenogra-
phyandthroughtheinfluenceofherhusband'sfriendsgotthepositionofcourtstenographeratthecountyseat。Thereshewentbytraineachmorningduringthesessionsofthecourt,andwhennocourtsat,spentherdaysworkingamongtherosebushesinhergarden。Shewasatall,straightfigureofawomanwithaplainfaceandagreatmassofbrownhair。
IntherelationshipbetweenSethRichmondandhismother,therewasaqualitythatevenateighteenhadbeguntocolorallofhistrafficwithmen。Analmostunhealthyrespectfortheyouthkeptthemotherforthemostpartsilentinhispresence。
Whenshedidspeaksharplytohimhehadonlytolooksteadilyintohereyestoseedawningtherethepuzzledlookhehadalreadynoticedintheeyesofotherswhenhelookedatthem。
Thetruthwasthatthesonthoughtwithremark-
ableclearnessandthemotherdidnot。Sheexpectedfromallpeoplecertainconventionalreactionstolife。
Aboywasyourson,youscoldedhimandhetrem-
bledandlookedatthefloor。Whenyouhadscoldedenoughheweptandallwasforgiven。Aftertheweepingandwhenhehadgonetobed,youcreptintohisroomandkissedhim。
VirginiaRichmondcouldnotunderstandwhyhersondidnotdothesethings。Aftertheseverestrepri-
mand,hedidnottrembleandlookatthefloorbutinsteadlookedsteadilyather,causinguneasydoubtstoinvadehermind。Asforcreepingintohisroom——
afterSethhadpassedhisfifteenthyear,shewouldhavebeenhalfafraidtodoanythingofthekind。
Oncewhenhewasaboyofsixteen,Sethincom-
panywithtwootherboysranawayfromhome。Thethreeboysclimbedintotheopendoorofanemptyfreightcarandrodesomefortymilestoatownwhereafairwasbeingheld。Oneoftheboyshadabottlefilledwithacombinationofwhiskeyandblackberrywine,andthethreesatwithlegsdan-
glingoutofthecardoordrinkingfromthebottle。
Seth'stwocompanionssangandwavedtheirhandstoidlersaboutthestationsofthetownsthroughwhichthetrainpassed。Theyplannedraidsuponthebasketsoffarmerswhohadcomewiththeirfam-
iliestothefair。"Wewillfivelikekingsandwon'thavetospendapennytoseethefairandhorseraces,"theydeclaredboastfully。
AfterthedisappearanceofSeth,VirginiaRich-
mondwalkedupanddownthefloorofherhomefilledwithvaguealarms。Althoughonthenextdayshediscovered,throughaninquirymadebythetownmarshal,onwhatadventuretheboyshadgone,shecouldnotquietherself。AllthroughthenightshelayawakehearingtheclocktickandtellingherselfthatSeth,likehisfather,wouldcometoasuddenandviolentend。Sodeterminedwasshethattheboyshouldthistimefeeltheweightofherwraththat,althoughshewouldnotallowthemarshaltointerferewithhisadventure,shegotoutapencilandpaperandwrotedownaseriesofsharp,sting-
ingreproofssheintendedtopouroutuponhim。
Thereproofsshecommittedtomemory,goingaboutthegardenandsayingthemaloudlikeanactormemorizinghispart。
Andwhen,attheendoftheweek,Sethreturned,alittlewearyandwithcoalsootinhisearsandabouthiseyes,sheagainfoundherselfunabletoreprovehim。Walkingintothehousehehunghiscaponanailbythekitchendoorandstoodlookingsteadilyather。"Iwantedtoturnbackwithinanhourafterwehadstarted,"heexplained。"Ididn'tknowwhattodo。Iknewyouwouldbebothered,butIknewalsothatifIdidn'tgoonIwouldbeashamedofmyself。Iwentthroughwiththethingformyowngood。Itwasuncomfortable,sleepingonwetstraw,andtwodrunkenNegroescameandsleptwithus。WhenIstolealunchbasketoutofafarmer'swagonIcouldn'thelpthinkingofhischil-
drengoingalldaywithoutfood。Iwassickofthewholeaffair,butIwasdeterminedtostickitoutuntiltheotherboyswerereadytocomeback。"
"I'mgladyoudidstickitout,"repliedthemother,halfresentfully,andkissinghimupontheforeheadpretendedtobusyherselfwiththeworkaboutthehouse。
OnasummereveningSethRichmondwenttotheNewWillardHousetovisithisfriend,GeorgeWillard。Ithadrainedduringtheafternoon,butashewalkedthroughMainStreet,theskyhadpartiallyclearedandagoldenglowlitupthewest。Goingaroundacorner,heturnedinatthedoorofthehotelandbegantoclimbthestairwayleadinguptohisfriend'sroom。Inthehotelofficetheproprietorandtwotravelingmenwereengagedinadiscussionofpolitics。
OnthestairwaySethstoppedandlistenedtothevoicesofthemenbelow。Theywereexcitedandtalkedrapidly。TomWillardwasberatingthetravel-
ingmen。"IamaDemocratbutyourtalkmakesmesick,"hesaid。"Youdon'tunderstandMcKinley。
McKinleyandMarkHannaarefriends。Itisimpossi-
bleperhapsforyourmindtograspthat。Ifanyonetellsyouthatafriendshipcanbedeeperandbiggerandmoreworthwhilethandollarsandcents,orevenmoreworthwhilethanstatepolitics,yousnickerandlaugh。"
Thelandlordwasinterruptedbyoneoftheguests,atall,grey-mustachedmanwhoworkedforawholesalegroceryhouse。"DoyouthinkthatI'velivedinClevelandalltheseyearswithoutknowingMarkHanna?"hedemanded。"Yourtalkispiffle。
Hannaisaftermoneyandnothingelse。ThisMcKin-
leyishistool。HehasMcKinleybluffedanddon'tyouforgetit。"
Theyoungmanonthestairsdidnotlingertoheartherestofthediscussion,butwentonupthestairwayandintothelittledarkhall。Somethinginthevoicesofthementalkinginthehotelofficestartedachainofthoughtsinhismind。Hewaslonelyandhadbeguntothinkthatlonelinesswasapartofhischaracter,somethingthatwouldalwaysstaywithhim。Steppingintoasidehallhestoodbyawindowthatlookedintoanalleyway。AtthebackofhisshopstoodAbnerGroff,thetownbaker。Histinybloodshoteyeslookedupanddownthealley-
way。Inhisshopsomeonecalledthebaker,whopretendednottohear。Thebakerhadanemptymilkbottleinhishandandanangrysullenlookinhiseyes。
InWinesburg,SethRichmondwascalledthe"deepone。""He'slikehisfather,"mensaidashewentthroughthestreets。"He'llbreakoutsomeofthesedays。Youwaitandsee。"
Thetalkofthetownandtherespectwithwhichmenandboysinstinctivelygreetedhim,asallmengreetsilentpeople,hadaffectedSethRichmond'soutlookonlifeandonhimself。He,likemostboys,wasdeeperthanboysaregivencreditforbeing,buthewasnotwhatthemenofthetown,andevenhismother,thoughthimtobe。Nogreatunderlyingpurposelaybackofhishabitualsilence,andhehadnodefiniteplanforhislife。Whentheboyswithwhomheassociatedwerenoisyandquarrelsome,hestoodquietlyatoneside。Withcalmeyeshewatchedthegesticulatinglivelyfiguresofhiscom-
panions。Hewasn'tparticularlyinterestedinwhatwasgoingon,andsometimeswonderedifhewouldeverbeparticularlyinterestedinanything。Now,ashestoodinthehalf-darknessbythewindowwatch-
ingthebaker,hewishedthathehimselfmightbe-
comethoroughlystirredbysomething,evenbythefitsofsullenangerforwhichBakerGroffwasnoted。
"ItwouldbebetterformeifIcouldbecomeexcitedandwrangleaboutpoliticslikewindyoldTomWil-
lard,"hethought,asheleftthewindowandwentagainalongthehallwaytotheroomoccupiedbyhisfriend,GeorgeWillard。
GeorgeWillardwasolderthanSethRichmond,butintheratheroddfriendshipbetweenthetwo,itwashewhowasforevercourtingandtheyoungerboywhowasbeingcourted。ThepaperonwhichGeorgeworkedhadonepolicy。Itstrovetomentionbynameineachissue,asmanyaspossibleoftheinhabitantsofthevillage。Likeanexciteddog,GeorgeWillardranhereandthere,notingonhispadofpaperwhohadgoneonbusinesstothecountyseatorhadreturnedfromavisittoaneigh-
boringvillage。Alldayhewrotelittlefactsuponthepad。"A。P。Wringlethadreceivedashipmentofstrawhats。EdByerbaumandTomMarshallwereinClevelandFriday。UncleTomSinningsisbuildinganewbarnonhisplaceontheValleyRoad。"
TheideathatGeorgeWillardwouldsomedaybe-
comeawriterhadgivenhimaplaceofdistinctioninWinesburg,andtoSethRichmondhetalkedcon-
tinuallyofthematter,"It'stheeasiestofalllivestolive,"hedeclared,becomingexcitedandboastful。
"Hereandthereyougoandthereisnoonetobossyou。ThoughyouareinIndiaorintheSouthSeasinaboat,youhavebuttowriteandthereyouare。
WaittillIgetmynameupandthenseewhatfunI
shallhave。"
InGeorgeWillard'sroom,whichhadawindowlookingdownintoanalleywayandonethatlookedacrossrailroadtrackstoBiffCarter'sLunchRoomfacingtherailroadstation,SethRichmondsatinachairandlookedatthefloor。GeorgeWillard,whohadbeensittingforanhouridlyplayingwithaleadpencil,greetedhimeffusively。"I'vebeentryingtowritealovestory,"heexplained,laughingner-
vously。Lightingapipehebeganwalkingupanddowntheroom。"IknowwhatI'mgoingtodo。I'mgoingtofallinlove。I'vebeensittinghereandthink-
ingitoverandI'mgoingtodoit。"
Asthoughembarrassedbyhisdeclaration,Georgewenttoawindowandturninghisbacktohisfriendleanedout。"IknowwhoI'mgoingtofallinlovewith,"hesaidsharply。"It'sHelenWhite。Sheistheonlygirlintownwithany'get-up'toher。"
Struckwithanewidea,youngWillardturnedandwalkedtowardhisvisitor。"Lookhere,"hesaid。
"YouknowHelenWhitebetterthanIdo。IwantyoutotellherwhatIsaid。YoujustgettotalkingtoherandsaythatI'minlovewithher。Seewhatshesaystothat。Seehowshetakesit,andthenyoucomeandtellme。"
SethRichmondaroseandwenttowardthedoor。
Thewordsofhiscomradeirritatedhimunbearably。
"Well,good-bye,"hesaidbriefly。
Georgewasamazed。RunningforwardhestoodinthedarknesstryingtolookintoSeth'sface。
"What'sthematter?Whatareyougoingtodo?Youstayhereandlet'stalk,"heurged。
Awaveofresentmentdirectedagainsthisfriend,themenofthetownwhowere,hethought,perpet-
uallytalkingofnothing,andmostofall,againsthisownhabitofsilence,madeSethhalfdesperate。
"Aw,speaktoheryourself,"heburstforthandthen,goingquicklythroughthedoor,slammeditsharplyinhisfriend'sface。"I'mgoingtofindHelenWhiteandtalktoher,butnotabouthim,"hemuttered。
Sethwentdownthestairwayandoutatthefrontdoorofthehotelmutteringwithwrath。Crossingalittledustystreetandclimbingalowironrailing,hewenttosituponthegrassinthestationyard。
GeorgeWillardhethoughtaprofoundfool,andhewishedthathehadsaidsomorevigorously。Al-
thoughhisacquaintanceshipwithHelenWhite,thebanker'sdaughter,wasoutwardlybutcasual,shewasoftenthesubjectofhisthoughtsandhefeltthatshewassomethingprivateandpersonaltohimself。
"Thebusyfoolwithhislovestories,"hemuttered,staringbackoverhisshoulderatGeorgeWillard'sroom,"whydoeshenevertireofhiseternaltalking。"
ItwasberryharvesttimeinWinesburganduponthestationplatformmenandboysloadedtheboxesofred,fragrantberriesintotwoexpresscarsthatstooduponthesiding。AJunemoonwasinthesky,althoughinthewestastormthreatened,andnostreetlampswerelighted。Inthedimlightthefig-
uresofthemenstandingupontheexpresstruckandpitchingtheboxesinatthedoorsofthecarswerebutdimlydiscernible。Upontheironrailingthatprotectedthestationlawnsatothermen。Pipeswerelighted。Villagejokeswentbackandforth。
Awayinthedistanceatrainwhistledandthemenloadingtheboxesintothecarsworkedwithre-
newedactivity。
SetharosefromhisplaceonthegrassandwentsilentlypastthemenperchedupontherailingandintoMainStreet。Hehadcometoaresolution。"I'llgetoutofhere,"hetoldhimself。"WhatgoodamI
here?I'mgoingtosomecityandgotowork。I'lltellmotheraboutittomorrow。"
SethRichmondwentslowlyalongMainStreet,pastWacker'sCigarStoreandtheTownHall,andintoBuckeyeStreet。Hewasdepressedbythethoughtthathewasnotapartofthelifeinhisowntown,butthedepressiondidnotcutdeeplyashedidnotthinkofhimselfasatfault。IntheheavyshadowsofabigtreebeforeDoctorWelling'shouse,hestoppedandstoodwatchinghalf-wittedTurkSmollet,whowaspushingawheelbarrowintheroad。Theoldmanwithhisabsurdlyboyishmindhadadozenlongboardsonthewheelbarrow,and,ashehurriedalongtheroad,balancedtheloadwithextremenicety。"Easythere,Turk!Steadynow,oldboy!"theoldmanshoutedtohimself,andlaughedsothattheloadofboardsrockeddangerously。
SethknewTurkSmollet,thehalfdangerousoldwoodchopperwhosepeculiaritiesaddedsomuchofcolortothelifeofthevillage。HeknewthatwhenTurkgotintoMainStreethewouldbecomethecen-
terofawhirlwindofcriesandcomments,thatintruththeoldmanwasgoingfaroutofhiswayinordertopassthroughMainStreetandexhibithisskillinwheelingtheboards。"IfGeorgeWillardwerehere,he'dhavesomethingtosay,"thoughtSeth。
"Georgebelongstothistown。He'dshoutatTurkandTurkwouldshoutathim。They'dbothbese-
cretlypleasedbywhattheyhadsaid。It'sdifferentwithme。Idon'tbelong。I'llnotmakeafussaboutit,butI'mgoingtogetoutofhere。"
Sethstumbledforwardthroughthehalf-darkness,feelinghimselfanoutcastinhisowntown。Hebegantopityhimself,butasenseoftheabsurdityofhisthoughtsmadehimsmile。Intheendhede-
cidedthathewassimplyoldbeyondhisyearsandnotatallasubjectforself-pity。"I'mmadetogotowork。Imaybeabletomakeaplaceformyselfbysteadyworking,andImightaswellbeatit,"hedecided。
SethwenttothehouseofBankerWhiteandstoodinthedarknessbythefrontdoor。Onthedoorhungaheavybrassknocker,aninnovationintroducedintothevillagebyHelenWhite'smother,whohadalsoorganizedawomen'sclubforthestudyofpo-
etry。Sethraisedtheknockerandletitfall。Itsheavyclattersoundedlikeareportfromdistantguns。
"HowawkwardandfoolishIam,"hethought。"IfMrs。Whitecomestothedoor,Iwon'tknowwhattosay。"
ItwasHelenWhitewhocametothedoorandfoundSethstandingattheedgeoftheporch。Blush-
ingwithpleasure,shesteppedforward,closingthedoorsoftly。"I'mgoingtogetoutoftown。Idon'tknowwhatI'lldo,butI'mgoingtogetoutofhereandgotowork。IthinkI'llgotoColumbus,"hesaid。"PerhapsI'llgetintotheStateUniversitydownthere。Anyway,I'mgoing。I'lltellmothertonight。"
Hehesitatedandlookeddoubtfullyabout。"Perhapsyouwouldn'tmindcomingtowalkwithme?"
SethandHelenwalkedthroughthestreetsbe-
neaththetrees。Heavycloudshaddriftedacrossthefaceofthemoon,andbeforetheminthedeeptwi-
lightwentamanwithashortladderuponhisshoul-
der。Hurryingforward,themanstoppedatthestreetcrossingand,puttingtheladderagainstthewoodenlamp-post,lightedthevillagelightssothattheirwaywashalflighted,halfdarkened,bythelampsandbythedeepeningshadowscastbythelow-branchedtrees。Inthetopsofthetreesthewindbegantoplay,disturbingthesleepingbirdssothattheyflewaboutcallingplaintively。Inthelightedspacebeforeoneofthelamps,twobatswheeledandcircled,pursuingthegatheringswarmofnightflies。
SinceSethhadbeenaboyinkneetrouserstherehadbeenahalfexpressedintimacybetweenhimandthemaidenwhonowforthefirsttimewalkedbesidehim。ForatimeshehadbeenbesetwithamadnessforwritingnoteswhichsheaddressedtoSeth。Hehadfoundthemconcealedinhisbooksatschoolandonehadbeengivenhimbyachildmetinthestreet,whileseveralhadbeendeliveredthroughthevillagepostoffice。
Thenoteshadbeenwritteninaround,boyishhandandhadreflectedamindinflamedbynovelreading。Sethhadnotansweredthem,althoughhehadbeenmovedandflatteredbysomeofthesen-
tencesscrawledinpenciluponthestationeryofthebanker'swife。Puttingthemintothepocketofhiscoat,hewentthroughthestreetorstoodbythefenceintheschoolyardwithsomethingburningathisside。Hethoughtitfinethatheshouldbethusselectedasthefavoriteoftherichestandmostat-
tractivegirlintown。
HelenandSethstoppedbyafencenearwherealowdarkbuildingfacedthestreet。Thebuildinghadoncebeenafactoryforthemakingofbarrelstavesbutwasnowvacant。Acrossthestreetupontheporchofahouseamanandwomantalkedoftheirchildhood,theirvoicescomingdearlyacrosstothehalf-embarrassedyouthandmaiden。Therewasthesoundofscrapingchairsandthemanandwomancamedownthegravelpathtoawoodengate。Stand-
ingoutsidethegate,themanleanedoverandkissedthewoman。"Foroldtimes'sake,"hesaidand,turning,walkedrapidlyawayalongthesidewalk。
"That'sBelleTurner,"whisperedHelen,andputherhandboldlyintoSeth'shand。"Ididn'tknowshehadafellow。Ithoughtshewastoooldforthat。"Sethlaugheduneasily。Thehandofthegirlwaswarmandastrange,dizzyfeelingcreptoverhim。Intohismindcameadesiretotellhersome-
thinghehadbeendeterminednottotell。"GeorgeWillard'sinlovewithyou,"hesaid,andinspiteofhisagitationhisvoicewaslowandquiet。"He'swrit-
ingastory,andhewantstobeinlove。Hewantstoknowhowitfeels。Hewantedmetotellyouandseewhatyousaid。"
AgainHelenandSethwalkedinsilence。TheycametothegardensurroundingtheoldRichmondplaceandgoingthroughagapinthehedgesatonawoodenbenchbeneathabush。
OnthestreetashewalkedbesidethegirlnewanddaringthoughtshadcomeintoSethRichmond'smind。Hebegantoregrethisdecisiontogetoutoftown。"ItwouldbesomethingnewandaltogetherdelightfultoremainandwalkoftenthroughthestreetswithHelenWhite,"hethought。Inimagina-
tionhesawhimselfputtinghisarmaboutherwaistandfeelingherarmsclaspedtightlyabouthisneck。
Oneofthoseoddcombinationsofeventsandplacesmadehimconnecttheideaoflove-makingwiththisgirlandaspothehadvisitedsomedaysbefore。HehadgoneonanerrandtothehouseofafarmerwholivedonahillsidebeyondtheFairGroundandhadreturnedbyapaththroughafield。Atthefootofthehillbelowthefarmer'shouseSethhadstoppedbeneathasycamoretreeandlookedabouthim。A
softhummingnoisehadgreetedhisears。Foramo-
menthehadthoughtthetreemustbethehomeofaswarmofbees。
Andthen,lookingdown,Sethhadseenthebeeseverywhereallabouthiminthelonggrass。Hestoodinamassofweedsthatgrewwaist-highinthefieldthatranawayfromthehillside。Theweedswereabloomwithtinypurpleblossomsandgaveforthanoverpoweringfragrance。Upontheweedsthebeesweregatheredinarmies,singingastheyworked。
Sethimaginedhimselflyingonasummereve-
ning,burieddeepamongtheweedsbeneaththetree。Besidehim,inthescenebuiltinhisfancy,layHelenWhite,herhandlyinginhishand。Apeculiarreluctancekepthimfromkissingherlips,buthefelthemighthavedonethatifhewished。Instead,helayperfectlystill,lookingatherandlisteningtothearmyofbeesthatsangthesustainedmasterfulsongoflaborabovehishead。
OnthebenchinthegardenSethstirreduneasily。
Releasingthehandofthegirl,hethrusthishandsintohistrouserpockets。Adesiretoimpressthemindofhiscompanionwiththeimportanceoftheresolutionhehadmadecameoverhimandhenod-
dedhisheadtowardthehouse。"Mother'llmakeafuss,Isuppose,"hewhispered。"Shehasn'tthoughtatallaboutwhatI'mgoingtodoinlife。ShethinksI'mgoingtostayonhereforeverjustbeingaboy。"
Seth'svoicebecamechargedwithboyishearnest-
ness。"Yousee,I'vegottostrikeout。I'vegottogettowork。It'swhatI'mgoodfor。"
HelenWhitewasimpressed。Shenoddedherheadandafeelingofadmirationsweptoverher。
"Thisisasitshouldbe,"shethought。"Thisboyisnotaboyatall,butastrong,purposefulman。"Cer-
tainvaguedesiresthathadbeeninvadingherbodyweresweptawayandshesatupverystraightonthebench。Thethundercontinuedtorumbleandflashesofheatlightninglituptheeasternsky。Thegardenthathadbeensomysteriousandvast,aplacethatwithSethbesidehermighthavebecomethebackgroundforstrangeandwonderfuladven-
tures,nowseemednomorethananordinaryWines-
burgbackyard,quitedefiniteandlimitedinitsoutlines。
"Whatwillyoudoupthere?"shewhispered。
Sethturnedhalfaroundonthebench,strivingtoseeherfaceinthedarkness。Hethoughtherinfi-
nitelymoresensibleandstraightforwardthanGeorgeWillard,andwasgladhehadcomeawayfromhisfriend。Afeelingofimpatiencewiththetownthathadbeeninhismindreturned,andhetriedtotellherofit。"Everyonetalksandtalks,"hebegan。"I'msickofit。I'lldosomething,getintosomekindofworkwheretalkdon'tcount。MaybeI'lljustbeamechanicinashop。Idon'tknow。IguessIdon'tcaremuch。Ijustwanttoworkandkeepquiet。
That'sallI'vegotinmymind。"
Setharosefromthebenchandputouthishand。
Hedidnotwanttobringthemeetingtoanendbutcouldnotthinkofanythingmoretosay。"It'sthelasttimewe'llseeeachother,"hewhispered。
AwaveofsentimentsweptoverHelen。PuttingherhanduponSeth'sshoulder,shestartedtodrawhisfacedowntowardherownupturnedface。Theactwasoneofpureaffectionandcuttingregretthatsomevagueadventurethathadbeenpresentinthespiritofthenightwouldnowneverberealized。"I
thinkI'dbetterbegoingalong,"shesaid,lettingherhandfallheavilytoherside。Athoughtcametoher。
"Don'tyougowithme;Iwanttobealone,"shesaid。"Yougoandtalkwithyourmother。You'dbetterdothatnow。"
Sethhesitatedand,ashestoodwaiting,thegirlturnedandranawaythroughthehedge。Adesiretorunafterhercametohim,butheonlystoodstaring,perplexedandpuzzledbyheractionashehadbeenperplexedandpuzzledbyallofthelifeofthetownoutofwhichshehadcome。Walkingslowlytowardthehouse,hestoppedintheshadowofalargetreeandlookedathismothersittingbyalightedwindowbusilysewing。Thefeelingofloneli-
nessthathadvisitedhimearlierintheeveningre-
turnedandcoloredhisthoughtsoftheadventurethroughwhichhehadjustpassed。"Huh!"heex-
claimed,turningandstaringinthedirectiontakenbyHelenWhite。"That'showthings'llturnout。
She'llbeliketherest。Isupposeshe'llbeginnowtolookatmeinafunnyway。"Helookedatthegroundandponderedthisthought。"She'llbeem-
barrassedandfeelstrangewhenI'maround,"hewhisperedtohimself。"That'showit'llbe。That'showeverything'llturnout。Whenitcomestolovingsomeone,itwon'tneverbeme。It'llbesomeoneelse——somefool——someonewhotalksalot——some-
onelikethatGeorgeWillard。"
TANDY
UNTILSHEWASsevenyearsoldshelivedinanoldunpaintedhouseonanunusedroadthatledoffTrunionPike。Herfathergaveherbutlittleattentionandhermotherwasdead。Thefatherspenthistimetalkingandthinkingofreligion。Heproclaimedhim-
selfanagnosticandwassoabsorbedindestroyingtheideasofGodthathadcreptintothemindsofhisneighborsthatheneversawGodmanifestinghimselfinthelittlechildthat,halfforgotten,livedhereandthereonthebountyofherdeadmother'srelatives。
AstrangercametoWinesburgandsawinthechildwhatthefatherdidnotsee。Hewasatall,red-
hairedyoungmanwhowasalmostalwaysdrunk。
SometimeshesatinachairbeforetheNewWillardHousewithTomHard,thefather。AsTomtalked,declaringtherecouldbenoGod,thestrangersmiledandwinkedatthebystanders。HeandTombecamefriendsandweremuchtogether。
ThestrangerwasthesonofarichmerchantofClevelandandhadcometoWinesburgonamission。
Hewantedtocurehimselfofthehabitofdrink,andthoughtthatbyescapingfromhiscityassociatesandlivinginaruralcommunityhewouldhaveabetterchanceinthestrugglewiththeappetitethatwasdestroyinghim。
HissojourninWinesburgwasnotasuccess。Thedullnessofthepassinghoursledtohisdrinkingharderthanever。Buthedidsucceedindoingsome-
thing。HegaveanamerichwithmeaningtoTomHard'sdaughter。
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