首页 >出版文学> Winesburg, Ohio>第5章
  HadyoubeenintheearlieryearsofyourlifeacitizenofthevillageofWinesburg,Ohio,therewouldhavebeenforyounomysteryinregardtothebeastinhiscage。"ItislikeWashWilliams,"youwouldhavesaid。"Ashesitsinthecornerthere,thebeastisexactlylikeoldWashsittingonthegrassinthestationyardonasummereveningafterhehasclosedhisofficeforthenight。"
  WashWilliams,thetelegraphoperatorofWines-
  burg,wastheugliestthingintown。Hisgirthwasimmense,hisneckthin,hislegsfeeble。Hewasdirty。Everythingabouthimwasunclean。Eventhewhitesofhiseyeslookedsoiled。
  Igotoofast。NoteverythingaboutWashwasun-
  clean。Hetookcareofhishands。Hisfingerswerefat,buttherewassomethingsensitiveandshapelyinthehandthatlayonthetablebytheinstrumentinthetelegraphoffice。InhisyouthWashWilliamshadbeencalledthebesttelegraphoperatorinthestate,andinspiteofhisdegradementtotheobscureofficeatWinesburg,hewasstillproudofhisability。
  WashWilliamsdidnotassociatewiththemenofthetowninwhichhelived。"I'llhavenothingtodowiththem,"hesaid,lookingwithblearyeyesatthemenwhowalkedalongthestationplatformpastthetelegraphoffice。UpalongMainStreethewentintheeveningtoEdGriffith'ssaloon,andafterdrink-
  ingunbelievablequantitiesofbeerstaggeredofftohisroomintheNewWillardHouseandtohisbedforthenight。
  WashWilliamswasamanofcourage。Athinghadhappenedtohimthatmadehimhatelife,andhehateditwholeheartedly,withtheabandonofapoet。Firstofall,hehatedwomen。"Bitches,"hecalledthem。Hisfeelingtowardmenwassomewhatdifferent。Hepitiedthem。"Doesnoteverymanlethislifebemanagedforhimbysomebitchoran-
  other?"heasked。
  InWinesburgnoattentionwaspaidtoWashWil-
  liamsandhishatredofhisfellows。OnceMrs。
  White,thebanker'swife,complainedtothetele-
  graphcompany,sayingthattheofficeinWinesburgwasdirtyandsmelledabominably,butnothingcameofhercomplaint。Hereandthereamanre-
  spectedtheoperator。Instinctivelythemanfeltinhimaglowingresentmentofsomethinghehadnotthecouragetoresent。WhenWashwalkedthroughthestreetssuchaonehadaninstincttopayhimhomage,toraisehishatortobowbeforehim。Thesuperintendentwhohadsupervisionoverthetele-
  graphoperatorsontherailroadthatwentthroughWinesburgfeltthatway。HehadputWashintotheobscureofficeatWinesburgtoavoiddischarginghim,andhemeanttokeephimthere。Whenhereceivedtheletterofcomplaintfromthebanker'swife,hetoreitupandlaughedunpleasantly。Forsomereasonhethoughtofhisownwifeashetoreuptheletter。
  WashWilliamsoncehadawife。WhenhewasstillayoungmanhemarriedawomanatDayton,Ohio。
  Thewomanwastallandslenderandhadblueeyesandyellowhair。Washwashimselfacomelyyouth。
  Helovedthewomanwithaloveasabsorbingasthehatredhelaterfeltforallwomen。
  InallofWinesburgtherewasbutonepersonwhoknewthestoryofthethingthathadmadeuglythepersonandthecharacterofWashWilliams。HeoncetoldthestorytoGeorgeWillardandthetellingofthetalecameaboutinthisway:
  GeorgeWillardwentoneeveningtowalkwithBelleCarpenter,atrimmerofwomen'shatswhoworkedinamillineryshopkeptbyMrs。KateMcHugh。Theyoungmanwasnotinlovewiththewoman,who,infact,hadasuitorwhoworkedasbartenderinEdGriffith'ssaloon,butastheywalkedaboutunderthetreestheyoccasionallyembraced。
  Thenightandtheirownthoughtshadarousedsomethinginthem。AstheywerereturningtoMainStreettheypassedthelittlelawnbesidetherailroadstationandsawWashWilliamsapparentlyasleeponthegrassbeneathatree。OnthenexteveningtheoperatorandGeorgeWillardwalkedouttogether。
  Downtherailroadtheywentandsatonapileofdecayingrailroadtiesbesidethetracks。Itwasthenthattheoperatortoldtheyoungreporterhisstoryofhate。
  PerhapsadozentimesGeorgeWillardandthestrange,shapelessmanwholivedathisfather'shotelhadbeenonthepointoftalking。Theyoungmanlookedatthehideous,leeringfacestaringaboutthehoteldiningroomandwasconsumedwithcuriosity。Somethinghesawlurkinginthestar-
  ingeyestoldhimthatthemanwhohadnothingtosaytoothershadneverthelesssomethingtosaytohim。Onthepileofrailroadtiesonthesummereve-
  ning,hewaitedexpectantly。Whentheoperatorre-
  mainedsilentandseemedtohavechangedhismindabouttalking,hetriedtomakeconversation。"Wereyouevermarried,Mr。Williams?"hebegan。"Isup-
  poseyouwereandyourwifeisdead,isthatit?"
  WashWilliamsspatforthasuccessionofvileoaths。"Yes,sheisdead,"heagreed。"Sheisdeadasallwomenaredead。Sheisaliving-deadthing,walkinginthesightofmenandmakingtheearthfoulbyherpresence。"Staringintotheboy'seyes,themanbecamepurplewithrage。"Don'thavefoolnotionsinyourhead,"hecommanded。"Mywife,sheisdead;yes,surely。Itellyou,allwomenaredead,mymother,yourmother,thattalldarkwomanwhoworksinthemillinerystoreandwithwhomIsawyouwalkingaboutyesterday——allofthem,theyarealldead。Itellyouthereissomethingrottenaboutthem。Iwasmarried,sure。Mywifewasdeadbeforeshemarriedme,shewasafoulthingcomeoutawomanmorefoul。Shewasathingsenttomakelifeunbearabletome。Iwasafool,doyousee,asyouarenow,andsoImarriedthiswoman。
  Iwouldliketoseemenalittlebegintounderstandwomen。Theyaresenttopreventmenmakingtheworldworthwhile。ItisatrickinNature。Ugh!Theyarecreeping,crawling,squirmingthings,theywiththeirsofthandsandtheirblueeyes。Thesightofawomansickensme。WhyIdon'tkilleverywomanIseeIdon'tknow。"
  Halffrightenedandyetfascinatedbythelightburningintheeyesofthehideousoldman,GeorgeWillardlistened,afirewithcuriosity。Darknesscameonandheleanedforwardtryingtoseethefaceofthemanwhotalked。When,inthegatheringdark-
  ness,hecouldnolongerseethepurple,bloatedfaceandtheburningeyes,acuriousfancycametohim。
  WashWilliamstalkedinloweventonesthatmadehiswordsseemthemoreterrible。Inthedarknesstheyoungreporterfoundhimselfimaginingthathesatontherailroadtiesbesideacomelyyoungmanwithblackhairandblackshiningeyes。TherewassomethingalmostbeautifulinthevoiceofWashWil-
  liams,thehideous,tellinghisstoryofhate。
  ThetelegraphoperatorofWinesburg,sittinginthedarknessontherailroadties,hadbecomeapoet。
  Hatredhadraisedhimtothatelevation。"ItisbecauseIsawyoukissingthelipsofthatBelleCarpenterthatItellyoumystory,"hesaid。"Whathappenedtomemaynexthappentoyou。Iwanttoputyouonyourguard。Alreadyyoumaybehavingdreamsinyourhead。Iwanttodestroythem。"
  WashWilliamsbegantellingthestoryofhismar-
  riedlifewiththetallblondegirlwiththeblueeyeswhomhehadmetwhenhewasayoungoperatoratDayton,Ohio。Hereandtherehisstorywastouchedwithmomentsofbeautyintermingledwithstringsofvilecurses。Theoperatorhadmarriedthedaughterofadentistwhowastheyoungestofthreesisters。Onhismarriageday,becauseofhisability,hewaspromotedtoapositionasdispatcheratanincreasedsalaryandsenttoanofficeatColumbus,Ohio。Therehesettleddownwithhisyoungwifeandbeganbuyingahouseontheinstallmentplan。
  Theyoungtelegraphoperatorwasmadlyinlove。
  Withakindofreligiousfervorhehadmanagedtogothroughthepitfallsofhisyouthandtoremainvirginaluntilafterhismarriage。HemadeforGeorgeWillardapictureofhislifeinthehouseatColum-
  bus,Ohio,withtheyoungwife。"inthegardenbackofourhouseweplantedvegetables,"hesaid,"youknow,peasandcornandsuchthings。WewenttoColumbusinearlyMarchandassoonasthedaysbecamewarmIwenttoworkinthegarden。WithaspadeIturneduptheblackgroundwhilesheranaboutlaughingandpretendingtobeafraidofthewormsIuncovered。LateinAprilcametheplanting。
  Inthelittlepathsamongtheseedbedsshestoodholdingapaperbaginherhand。Thebagwasfilledwithseeds。AfewatatimeshehandedmetheseedsthatImightthrustthemintothewarm,softground。"
  Foramomenttherewasacatchinthevoiceofthemantalkinginthedarkness。"Ilovedher,"hesaid。"Idon'tclaimnottobeafool。Iloveheryet。
  ThereintheduskinthespringeveningIcrawledalongtheblackgroundtoherfeetandgroveledbe-
  foreher。Ikissedhershoesandtheanklesabovehershoes。WhenthehemofhergarmenttouchedmyfaceItrembled。WhenaftertwoyearsofthatlifeIfoundshehadmanagedtoacquirethreeotherlov-
  erswhocameregularlytoourhousewhenIwasawayatwork,Ididn'twanttotouchthemorher。
  Ijustsentherhometohermotherandsaidnothing。
  Therewasnothingtosay。Ihadfourhundreddol-
  larsinthebankandIgaveherthat。Ididn'taskherreasons。Ididn'tsayanything。WhenshehadgoneIcriedlikeasillyboy。PrettysoonIhadachancetosellthehouseandIsentthatmoneytoher。"
  WashWilliamsandGeorgeWillardarosefromthepileofrailroadtiesandwalkedalongthetrackstowardtown。Theoperatorfinishedhistalequickly,breathlessly。
  "Hermothersentforme,"hesaid。"ShewrotemealetterandaskedmetocometotheirhouseatDayton。WhenIgotthereitwaseveningaboutthistime。"
  WashWilliams'voicerosetoahalfscream。"Isatintheparlorofthathousetwohours。Hermothertookmeinthereandleftme。Theirhousewasstyl-
  ish。Theywerewhatiscalledrespectablepeople。
  Therewereplushchairsandacouchintheroom。I
  wastremblingallover。IhatedthemenIthoughthadwrongedher。Iwassickoflivingaloneandwantedherback。ThelongerIwaitedthemorerawandtenderIbecame。IthoughtthatifshecameinandjusttouchedmewithherhandIwouldperhapsfaintaway。Iachedtoforgiveandforget。"
  WashWilliamsstoppedandstoodstaringatGeorgeWillard。Theboy'sbodyshookasfromachill。Againtheman'svoicebecamesoftandlow。"Shecameintotheroomnaked,"hewenton。"Hermotherdidthat。WhileIsatthereshewastakingthegirl'sclothesoff,perhapscoaxinghertodoit。FirstI
  heardvoicesatthedoorthatledintoalittlehallwayandthenitopenedsoftly。Thegirlwasashamedandstoodperfectlystillstaringatthefloor。Themotherdidn'tcomeintotheroom。Whenshehadpushedthegirlinthroughthedoorshestoodinthehallwaywaiting,hopingwewould——well,yousee——
  waiting。"
  GeorgeWillardandthetelegraphoperatorcameintothemainstreetofWinesburg。Thelightsfromthestorewindowslaybrightandshiningonthesidewalks。Peoplemovedaboutlaughingandtalk-
  ing。Theyoungreporterfeltillandweak。Inimagi-
  nation,healsobecameoldandshapeless。"Ididn'tgetthemotherkilled,"saidWashWilliams,staringupanddownthestreet。"Istruckheroncewithachairandthentheneighborscameinandtookitaway。Shescreamedsoloudyousee。Iwon'teverhaveachancetokillhernow。Shediedofafeveramonthafterthathappened。"
  THETHINKER
  THEHOUSEinwhichSethRichmondofWinesburglivedwithhismotherhadbeenatonetimetheshowplaceofthetown,butwhenyoungSethlivedthereitsgloryhadbecomesomewhatdimmed。ThehugebrickhousewhichBankerWhitehadbuiltonBuck-
  eyeStreethadovershadowedit。TheRichmondplacewasinalittlevalleyfaroutattheendofMainStreet。Farmerscomingintotownbyadustyroadfromthesouthpassedbyagroveofwalnuttrees,skirtedtheFairGroundwithitshighboardfencecoveredwithadvertisements,andtrottedtheirhorsesdownthroughthevalleypasttheRichmondplaceintotown。AsmuchofthecountrynorthandsouthofWinesburgwasdevotedtofruitandberryraising,Sethsawwagon-loadsofberrypickers——boys,girls,andwomen——goingtothefieldsinthemorningandreturningcoveredwithdustintheevening。Thechatteringcrowd,withtheirrudejokescriedoutfromwagontowagon,sometimesirritatedhimsharply。Heregrettedthathealsocouldnotlaughboisterously,shoutmeaninglessjokesandmakeofhimselfafigureintheendlessstreamofmoving,gigglingactivitythatwentupanddowntheroad。
  TheRichmondhousewasbuiltoflimestone,and,althoughitwassaidinthevillagetohavebecomerundown,hadinrealitygrownmorebeautifulwitheverypassingyear。Alreadytimehadbegunalittletocolorthestone,lendingagoldenrichnesstoitssurfaceandintheeveningorondarkdaystouchingtheshadedplacesbeneaththeeaveswithwaveringpatchesofbrownsandblacks。
  ThehousehadbeenbuiltbySeth'sgrandfather,astonequarryman,andit,togetherwiththestonequarriesonLakeErieeighteenmilestothenorth,hadbeenlefttohisson,ClarenceRichmond,Seth'sfather。ClarenceRichmond,aquietpassionatemanextraordinarilyadmiredbyhisneighbors,hadbeenkilledinastreetfightwiththeeditorofanewspaperinToledo,Ohio。ThefightconcernedthepublicationofClarenceRichmond'snamecoupledwiththatofawomanschoolteacher,andasthedeadmanhadbeguntherowbyfiringupontheeditor,theefforttopunishtheslayerwasunsuccessful。Afterthequarryman'sdeathitwasfoundthatmuchofthemoneylefttohimhadbeensquanderedinspecula-
  tionandininsecureinvestmentsmadethroughtheinfluenceoffriends。
  Leftwithbutasmallincome,VirginiaRichmondhadsettleddowntoaretiredlifeinthevillageandtotheraisingofherson。Althoughshehadbeendeeplymovedbythedeathofthehusbandandfa-
  ther,shedidnotatallbelievethestoriesconcerninghimthatranaboutafterhisdeath。Tohermind,thesensitive,boyishmanwhomallhadinstinctivelyloved,wasbutanunfortunate,abeingtoofineforeverydaylife。"You'llbehearingallsortsofstories,butyouarenottobelievewhatyouhear,"shesaidtoherson。"Hewasagoodman,fulloftendernessforeveryone,andshouldnothavetriedtobeamanofaffairs。NomatterhowmuchIweretoplananddreamofyourfuture,Icouldnotimagineanythingbetterforyouthanthatyouturnoutasgoodamanasyourfather。"
  Severalyearsafterthedeathofherhusband,Vir-
  giniaRichmondhadbecomealarmedatthegrowingdemandsuponherincomeandhadsetherselftothetaskofincreasingit。Shehadlearnedstenogra-
  phyandthroughtheinfluenceofherhusband'sfriendsgotthepositionofcourtstenographeratthecountyseat。Thereshewentbytraineachmorningduringthesessionsofthecourt,andwhennocourtsat,spentherdaysworkingamongtherosebushesinhergarden。Shewasatall,straightfigureofawomanwithaplainfaceandagreatmassofbrownhair。
  IntherelationshipbetweenSethRichmondandhismother,therewasaqualitythatevenateighteenhadbeguntocolorallofhistrafficwithmen。Analmostunhealthyrespectfortheyouthkeptthemotherforthemostpartsilentinhispresence。
  Whenshedidspeaksharplytohimhehadonlytolooksteadilyintohereyestoseedawningtherethepuzzledlookhehadalreadynoticedintheeyesofotherswhenhelookedatthem。
  Thetruthwasthatthesonthoughtwithremark-
  ableclearnessandthemotherdidnot。Sheexpectedfromallpeoplecertainconventionalreactionstolife。
  Aboywasyourson,youscoldedhimandhetrem-
  bledandlookedatthefloor。Whenyouhadscoldedenoughheweptandallwasforgiven。Aftertheweepingandwhenhehadgonetobed,youcreptintohisroomandkissedhim。
  VirginiaRichmondcouldnotunderstandwhyhersondidnotdothesethings。Aftertheseverestrepri-
  mand,hedidnottrembleandlookatthefloorbutinsteadlookedsteadilyather,causinguneasydoubtstoinvadehermind。Asforcreepingintohisroom——
  afterSethhadpassedhisfifteenthyear,shewouldhavebeenhalfafraidtodoanythingofthekind。
  Oncewhenhewasaboyofsixteen,Sethincom-
  panywithtwootherboysranawayfromhome。Thethreeboysclimbedintotheopendoorofanemptyfreightcarandrodesomefortymilestoatownwhereafairwasbeingheld。Oneoftheboyshadabottlefilledwithacombinationofwhiskeyandblackberrywine,andthethreesatwithlegsdan-
  glingoutofthecardoordrinkingfromthebottle。
  Seth'stwocompanionssangandwavedtheirhandstoidlersaboutthestationsofthetownsthroughwhichthetrainpassed。Theyplannedraidsuponthebasketsoffarmerswhohadcomewiththeirfam-
  iliestothefair。"Wewillfivelikekingsandwon'thavetospendapennytoseethefairandhorseraces,"theydeclaredboastfully。
  AfterthedisappearanceofSeth,VirginiaRich-
  mondwalkedupanddownthefloorofherhomefilledwithvaguealarms。Althoughonthenextdayshediscovered,throughaninquirymadebythetownmarshal,onwhatadventuretheboyshadgone,shecouldnotquietherself。AllthroughthenightshelayawakehearingtheclocktickandtellingherselfthatSeth,likehisfather,wouldcometoasuddenandviolentend。Sodeterminedwasshethattheboyshouldthistimefeeltheweightofherwraththat,althoughshewouldnotallowthemarshaltointerferewithhisadventure,shegotoutapencilandpaperandwrotedownaseriesofsharp,sting-
  ingreproofssheintendedtopouroutuponhim。
  Thereproofsshecommittedtomemory,goingaboutthegardenandsayingthemaloudlikeanactormemorizinghispart。
  Andwhen,attheendoftheweek,Sethreturned,alittlewearyandwithcoalsootinhisearsandabouthiseyes,sheagainfoundherselfunabletoreprovehim。Walkingintothehousehehunghiscaponanailbythekitchendoorandstoodlookingsteadilyather。"Iwantedtoturnbackwithinanhourafterwehadstarted,"heexplained。"Ididn'tknowwhattodo。Iknewyouwouldbebothered,butIknewalsothatifIdidn'tgoonIwouldbeashamedofmyself。Iwentthroughwiththethingformyowngood。Itwasuncomfortable,sleepingonwetstraw,andtwodrunkenNegroescameandsleptwithus。WhenIstolealunchbasketoutofafarmer'swagonIcouldn'thelpthinkingofhischil-
  drengoingalldaywithoutfood。Iwassickofthewholeaffair,butIwasdeterminedtostickitoutuntiltheotherboyswerereadytocomeback。"
  "I'mgladyoudidstickitout,"repliedthemother,halfresentfully,andkissinghimupontheforeheadpretendedtobusyherselfwiththeworkaboutthehouse。
  OnasummereveningSethRichmondwenttotheNewWillardHousetovisithisfriend,GeorgeWillard。Ithadrainedduringtheafternoon,butashewalkedthroughMainStreet,theskyhadpartiallyclearedandagoldenglowlitupthewest。Goingaroundacorner,heturnedinatthedoorofthehotelandbegantoclimbthestairwayleadinguptohisfriend'sroom。Inthehotelofficetheproprietorandtwotravelingmenwereengagedinadiscussionofpolitics。
  OnthestairwaySethstoppedandlistenedtothevoicesofthemenbelow。Theywereexcitedandtalkedrapidly。TomWillardwasberatingthetravel-
  ingmen。"IamaDemocratbutyourtalkmakesmesick,"hesaid。"Youdon'tunderstandMcKinley。
  McKinleyandMarkHannaarefriends。Itisimpossi-
  bleperhapsforyourmindtograspthat。Ifanyonetellsyouthatafriendshipcanbedeeperandbiggerandmoreworthwhilethandollarsandcents,orevenmoreworthwhilethanstatepolitics,yousnickerandlaugh。"
  Thelandlordwasinterruptedbyoneoftheguests,atall,grey-mustachedmanwhoworkedforawholesalegroceryhouse。"DoyouthinkthatI'velivedinClevelandalltheseyearswithoutknowingMarkHanna?"hedemanded。"Yourtalkispiffle。
  Hannaisaftermoneyandnothingelse。ThisMcKin-
  leyishistool。HehasMcKinleybluffedanddon'tyouforgetit。"
  Theyoungmanonthestairsdidnotlingertoheartherestofthediscussion,butwentonupthestairwayandintothelittledarkhall。Somethinginthevoicesofthementalkinginthehotelofficestartedachainofthoughtsinhismind。Hewaslonelyandhadbeguntothinkthatlonelinesswasapartofhischaracter,somethingthatwouldalwaysstaywithhim。Steppingintoasidehallhestoodbyawindowthatlookedintoanalleyway。AtthebackofhisshopstoodAbnerGroff,thetownbaker。Histinybloodshoteyeslookedupanddownthealley-
  way。Inhisshopsomeonecalledthebaker,whopretendednottohear。Thebakerhadanemptymilkbottleinhishandandanangrysullenlookinhiseyes。
  InWinesburg,SethRichmondwascalledthe"deepone。""He'slikehisfather,"mensaidashewentthroughthestreets。"He'llbreakoutsomeofthesedays。Youwaitandsee。"
  Thetalkofthetownandtherespectwithwhichmenandboysinstinctivelygreetedhim,asallmengreetsilentpeople,hadaffectedSethRichmond'soutlookonlifeandonhimself。He,likemostboys,wasdeeperthanboysaregivencreditforbeing,buthewasnotwhatthemenofthetown,andevenhismother,thoughthimtobe。Nogreatunderlyingpurposelaybackofhishabitualsilence,andhehadnodefiniteplanforhislife。Whentheboyswithwhomheassociatedwerenoisyandquarrelsome,hestoodquietlyatoneside。Withcalmeyeshewatchedthegesticulatinglivelyfiguresofhiscom-
  panions。Hewasn'tparticularlyinterestedinwhatwasgoingon,andsometimeswonderedifhewouldeverbeparticularlyinterestedinanything。Now,ashestoodinthehalf-darknessbythewindowwatch-
  ingthebaker,hewishedthathehimselfmightbe-
  comethoroughlystirredbysomething,evenbythefitsofsullenangerforwhichBakerGroffwasnoted。
  "ItwouldbebetterformeifIcouldbecomeexcitedandwrangleaboutpoliticslikewindyoldTomWil-
  lard,"hethought,asheleftthewindowandwentagainalongthehallwaytotheroomoccupiedbyhisfriend,GeorgeWillard。
  GeorgeWillardwasolderthanSethRichmond,butintheratheroddfriendshipbetweenthetwo,itwashewhowasforevercourtingandtheyoungerboywhowasbeingcourted。ThepaperonwhichGeorgeworkedhadonepolicy。Itstrovetomentionbynameineachissue,asmanyaspossibleoftheinhabitantsofthevillage。Likeanexciteddog,GeorgeWillardranhereandthere,notingonhispadofpaperwhohadgoneonbusinesstothecountyseatorhadreturnedfromavisittoaneigh-
  boringvillage。Alldayhewrotelittlefactsuponthepad。"A。P。Wringlethadreceivedashipmentofstrawhats。EdByerbaumandTomMarshallwereinClevelandFriday。UncleTomSinningsisbuildinganewbarnonhisplaceontheValleyRoad。"
  TheideathatGeorgeWillardwouldsomedaybe-
  comeawriterhadgivenhimaplaceofdistinctioninWinesburg,andtoSethRichmondhetalkedcon-
  tinuallyofthematter,"It'stheeasiestofalllivestolive,"hedeclared,becomingexcitedandboastful。
  "Hereandthereyougoandthereisnoonetobossyou。ThoughyouareinIndiaorintheSouthSeasinaboat,youhavebuttowriteandthereyouare。
  WaittillIgetmynameupandthenseewhatfunI
  shallhave。"
  InGeorgeWillard'sroom,whichhadawindowlookingdownintoanalleywayandonethatlookedacrossrailroadtrackstoBiffCarter'sLunchRoomfacingtherailroadstation,SethRichmondsatinachairandlookedatthefloor。GeorgeWillard,whohadbeensittingforanhouridlyplayingwithaleadpencil,greetedhimeffusively。"I'vebeentryingtowritealovestory,"heexplained,laughingner-
  vously。Lightingapipehebeganwalkingupanddowntheroom。"IknowwhatI'mgoingtodo。I'mgoingtofallinlove。I'vebeensittinghereandthink-
  ingitoverandI'mgoingtodoit。"
  Asthoughembarrassedbyhisdeclaration,Georgewenttoawindowandturninghisbacktohisfriendleanedout。"IknowwhoI'mgoingtofallinlovewith,"hesaidsharply。"It'sHelenWhite。Sheistheonlygirlintownwithany'get-up'toher。"
  Struckwithanewidea,youngWillardturnedandwalkedtowardhisvisitor。"Lookhere,"hesaid。
  "YouknowHelenWhitebetterthanIdo。IwantyoutotellherwhatIsaid。YoujustgettotalkingtoherandsaythatI'minlovewithher。Seewhatshesaystothat。Seehowshetakesit,andthenyoucomeandtellme。"
  SethRichmondaroseandwenttowardthedoor。
  Thewordsofhiscomradeirritatedhimunbearably。
  "Well,good-bye,"hesaidbriefly。
  Georgewasamazed。RunningforwardhestoodinthedarknesstryingtolookintoSeth'sface。
  "What'sthematter?Whatareyougoingtodo?Youstayhereandlet'stalk,"heurged。
  Awaveofresentmentdirectedagainsthisfriend,themenofthetownwhowere,hethought,perpet-
  uallytalkingofnothing,andmostofall,againsthisownhabitofsilence,madeSethhalfdesperate。
  "Aw,speaktoheryourself,"heburstforthandthen,goingquicklythroughthedoor,slammeditsharplyinhisfriend'sface。"I'mgoingtofindHelenWhiteandtalktoher,butnotabouthim,"hemuttered。
  Sethwentdownthestairwayandoutatthefrontdoorofthehotelmutteringwithwrath。Crossingalittledustystreetandclimbingalowironrailing,hewenttosituponthegrassinthestationyard。
  GeorgeWillardhethoughtaprofoundfool,andhewishedthathehadsaidsomorevigorously。Al-
  thoughhisacquaintanceshipwithHelenWhite,thebanker'sdaughter,wasoutwardlybutcasual,shewasoftenthesubjectofhisthoughtsandhefeltthatshewassomethingprivateandpersonaltohimself。
  "Thebusyfoolwithhislovestories,"hemuttered,staringbackoverhisshoulderatGeorgeWillard'sroom,"whydoeshenevertireofhiseternaltalking。"
  ItwasberryharvesttimeinWinesburganduponthestationplatformmenandboysloadedtheboxesofred,fragrantberriesintotwoexpresscarsthatstooduponthesiding。AJunemoonwasinthesky,althoughinthewestastormthreatened,andnostreetlampswerelighted。Inthedimlightthefig-
  uresofthemenstandingupontheexpresstruckandpitchingtheboxesinatthedoorsofthecarswerebutdimlydiscernible。Upontheironrailingthatprotectedthestationlawnsatothermen。Pipeswerelighted。Villagejokeswentbackandforth。
  Awayinthedistanceatrainwhistledandthemenloadingtheboxesintothecarsworkedwithre-
  newedactivity。
  SetharosefromhisplaceonthegrassandwentsilentlypastthemenperchedupontherailingandintoMainStreet。Hehadcometoaresolution。"I'llgetoutofhere,"hetoldhimself。"WhatgoodamI
  here?I'mgoingtosomecityandgotowork。I'lltellmotheraboutittomorrow。"
  SethRichmondwentslowlyalongMainStreet,pastWacker'sCigarStoreandtheTownHall,andintoBuckeyeStreet。Hewasdepressedbythethoughtthathewasnotapartofthelifeinhisowntown,butthedepressiondidnotcutdeeplyashedidnotthinkofhimselfasatfault。IntheheavyshadowsofabigtreebeforeDoctorWelling'shouse,hestoppedandstoodwatchinghalf-wittedTurkSmollet,whowaspushingawheelbarrowintheroad。Theoldmanwithhisabsurdlyboyishmindhadadozenlongboardsonthewheelbarrow,and,ashehurriedalongtheroad,balancedtheloadwithextremenicety。"Easythere,Turk!Steadynow,oldboy!"theoldmanshoutedtohimself,andlaughedsothattheloadofboardsrockeddangerously。
  SethknewTurkSmollet,thehalfdangerousoldwoodchopperwhosepeculiaritiesaddedsomuchofcolortothelifeofthevillage。HeknewthatwhenTurkgotintoMainStreethewouldbecomethecen-
  terofawhirlwindofcriesandcomments,thatintruththeoldmanwasgoingfaroutofhiswayinordertopassthroughMainStreetandexhibithisskillinwheelingtheboards。"IfGeorgeWillardwerehere,he'dhavesomethingtosay,"thoughtSeth。
  "Georgebelongstothistown。He'dshoutatTurkandTurkwouldshoutathim。They'dbothbese-
  cretlypleasedbywhattheyhadsaid。It'sdifferentwithme。Idon'tbelong。I'llnotmakeafussaboutit,butI'mgoingtogetoutofhere。"
  Sethstumbledforwardthroughthehalf-darkness,feelinghimselfanoutcastinhisowntown。Hebegantopityhimself,butasenseoftheabsurdityofhisthoughtsmadehimsmile。Intheendhede-
  cidedthathewassimplyoldbeyondhisyearsandnotatallasubjectforself-pity。"I'mmadetogotowork。Imaybeabletomakeaplaceformyselfbysteadyworking,andImightaswellbeatit,"hedecided。
  SethwenttothehouseofBankerWhiteandstoodinthedarknessbythefrontdoor。Onthedoorhungaheavybrassknocker,aninnovationintroducedintothevillagebyHelenWhite'smother,whohadalsoorganizedawomen'sclubforthestudyofpo-
  etry。Sethraisedtheknockerandletitfall。Itsheavyclattersoundedlikeareportfromdistantguns。
  "HowawkwardandfoolishIam,"hethought。"IfMrs。Whitecomestothedoor,Iwon'tknowwhattosay。"
  ItwasHelenWhitewhocametothedoorandfoundSethstandingattheedgeoftheporch。Blush-
  ingwithpleasure,shesteppedforward,closingthedoorsoftly。"I'mgoingtogetoutoftown。Idon'tknowwhatI'lldo,butI'mgoingtogetoutofhereandgotowork。IthinkI'llgotoColumbus,"hesaid。"PerhapsI'llgetintotheStateUniversitydownthere。Anyway,I'mgoing。I'lltellmothertonight。"
  Hehesitatedandlookeddoubtfullyabout。"Perhapsyouwouldn'tmindcomingtowalkwithme?"
  SethandHelenwalkedthroughthestreetsbe-
  neaththetrees。Heavycloudshaddriftedacrossthefaceofthemoon,andbeforetheminthedeeptwi-
  lightwentamanwithashortladderuponhisshoul-
  der。Hurryingforward,themanstoppedatthestreetcrossingand,puttingtheladderagainstthewoodenlamp-post,lightedthevillagelightssothattheirwaywashalflighted,halfdarkened,bythelampsandbythedeepeningshadowscastbythelow-branchedtrees。Inthetopsofthetreesthewindbegantoplay,disturbingthesleepingbirdssothattheyflewaboutcallingplaintively。Inthelightedspacebeforeoneofthelamps,twobatswheeledandcircled,pursuingthegatheringswarmofnightflies。
  SinceSethhadbeenaboyinkneetrouserstherehadbeenahalfexpressedintimacybetweenhimandthemaidenwhonowforthefirsttimewalkedbesidehim。ForatimeshehadbeenbesetwithamadnessforwritingnoteswhichsheaddressedtoSeth。Hehadfoundthemconcealedinhisbooksatschoolandonehadbeengivenhimbyachildmetinthestreet,whileseveralhadbeendeliveredthroughthevillagepostoffice。
  Thenoteshadbeenwritteninaround,boyishhandandhadreflectedamindinflamedbynovelreading。Sethhadnotansweredthem,althoughhehadbeenmovedandflatteredbysomeofthesen-
  tencesscrawledinpenciluponthestationeryofthebanker'swife。Puttingthemintothepocketofhiscoat,hewentthroughthestreetorstoodbythefenceintheschoolyardwithsomethingburningathisside。Hethoughtitfinethatheshouldbethusselectedasthefavoriteoftherichestandmostat-
  tractivegirlintown。
  HelenandSethstoppedbyafencenearwherealowdarkbuildingfacedthestreet。Thebuildinghadoncebeenafactoryforthemakingofbarrelstavesbutwasnowvacant。Acrossthestreetupontheporchofahouseamanandwomantalkedoftheirchildhood,theirvoicescomingdearlyacrosstothehalf-embarrassedyouthandmaiden。Therewasthesoundofscrapingchairsandthemanandwomancamedownthegravelpathtoawoodengate。Stand-
  ingoutsidethegate,themanleanedoverandkissedthewoman。"Foroldtimes'sake,"hesaidand,turning,walkedrapidlyawayalongthesidewalk。
  "That'sBelleTurner,"whisperedHelen,andputherhandboldlyintoSeth'shand。"Ididn'tknowshehadafellow。Ithoughtshewastoooldforthat。"Sethlaugheduneasily。Thehandofthegirlwaswarmandastrange,dizzyfeelingcreptoverhim。Intohismindcameadesiretotellhersome-
  thinghehadbeendeterminednottotell。"GeorgeWillard'sinlovewithyou,"hesaid,andinspiteofhisagitationhisvoicewaslowandquiet。"He'swrit-
  ingastory,andhewantstobeinlove。Hewantstoknowhowitfeels。Hewantedmetotellyouandseewhatyousaid。"
  AgainHelenandSethwalkedinsilence。TheycametothegardensurroundingtheoldRichmondplaceandgoingthroughagapinthehedgesatonawoodenbenchbeneathabush。
  OnthestreetashewalkedbesidethegirlnewanddaringthoughtshadcomeintoSethRichmond'smind。Hebegantoregrethisdecisiontogetoutoftown。"ItwouldbesomethingnewandaltogetherdelightfultoremainandwalkoftenthroughthestreetswithHelenWhite,"hethought。Inimagina-
  tionhesawhimselfputtinghisarmaboutherwaistandfeelingherarmsclaspedtightlyabouthisneck。
  Oneofthoseoddcombinationsofeventsandplacesmadehimconnecttheideaoflove-makingwiththisgirlandaspothehadvisitedsomedaysbefore。HehadgoneonanerrandtothehouseofafarmerwholivedonahillsidebeyondtheFairGroundandhadreturnedbyapaththroughafield。Atthefootofthehillbelowthefarmer'shouseSethhadstoppedbeneathasycamoretreeandlookedabouthim。A
  softhummingnoisehadgreetedhisears。Foramo-
  menthehadthoughtthetreemustbethehomeofaswarmofbees。
  Andthen,lookingdown,Sethhadseenthebeeseverywhereallabouthiminthelonggrass。Hestoodinamassofweedsthatgrewwaist-highinthefieldthatranawayfromthehillside。Theweedswereabloomwithtinypurpleblossomsandgaveforthanoverpoweringfragrance。Upontheweedsthebeesweregatheredinarmies,singingastheyworked。
  Sethimaginedhimselflyingonasummereve-
  ning,burieddeepamongtheweedsbeneaththetree。Besidehim,inthescenebuiltinhisfancy,layHelenWhite,herhandlyinginhishand。Apeculiarreluctancekepthimfromkissingherlips,buthefelthemighthavedonethatifhewished。Instead,helayperfectlystill,lookingatherandlisteningtothearmyofbeesthatsangthesustainedmasterfulsongoflaborabovehishead。
  OnthebenchinthegardenSethstirreduneasily。
  Releasingthehandofthegirl,hethrusthishandsintohistrouserpockets。Adesiretoimpressthemindofhiscompanionwiththeimportanceoftheresolutionhehadmadecameoverhimandhenod-
  dedhisheadtowardthehouse。"Mother'llmakeafuss,Isuppose,"hewhispered。"Shehasn'tthoughtatallaboutwhatI'mgoingtodoinlife。ShethinksI'mgoingtostayonhereforeverjustbeingaboy。"
  Seth'svoicebecamechargedwithboyishearnest-
  ness。"Yousee,I'vegottostrikeout。I'vegottogettowork。It'swhatI'mgoodfor。"
  HelenWhitewasimpressed。Shenoddedherheadandafeelingofadmirationsweptoverher。
  "Thisisasitshouldbe,"shethought。"Thisboyisnotaboyatall,butastrong,purposefulman。"Cer-
  tainvaguedesiresthathadbeeninvadingherbodyweresweptawayandshesatupverystraightonthebench。Thethundercontinuedtorumbleandflashesofheatlightninglituptheeasternsky。Thegardenthathadbeensomysteriousandvast,aplacethatwithSethbesidehermighthavebecomethebackgroundforstrangeandwonderfuladven-
  tures,nowseemednomorethananordinaryWines-
  burgbackyard,quitedefiniteandlimitedinitsoutlines。
  "Whatwillyoudoupthere?"shewhispered。
  Sethturnedhalfaroundonthebench,strivingtoseeherfaceinthedarkness。Hethoughtherinfi-
  nitelymoresensibleandstraightforwardthanGeorgeWillard,andwasgladhehadcomeawayfromhisfriend。Afeelingofimpatiencewiththetownthathadbeeninhismindreturned,andhetriedtotellherofit。"Everyonetalksandtalks,"hebegan。"I'msickofit。I'lldosomething,getintosomekindofworkwheretalkdon'tcount。MaybeI'lljustbeamechanicinashop。Idon'tknow。IguessIdon'tcaremuch。Ijustwanttoworkandkeepquiet。
  That'sallI'vegotinmymind。"
  Setharosefromthebenchandputouthishand。
  Hedidnotwanttobringthemeetingtoanendbutcouldnotthinkofanythingmoretosay。"It'sthelasttimewe'llseeeachother,"hewhispered。
  AwaveofsentimentsweptoverHelen。PuttingherhanduponSeth'sshoulder,shestartedtodrawhisfacedowntowardherownupturnedface。Theactwasoneofpureaffectionandcuttingregretthatsomevagueadventurethathadbeenpresentinthespiritofthenightwouldnowneverberealized。"I
  thinkI'dbetterbegoingalong,"shesaid,lettingherhandfallheavilytoherside。Athoughtcametoher。
  "Don'tyougowithme;Iwanttobealone,"shesaid。"Yougoandtalkwithyourmother。You'dbetterdothatnow。"
  Sethhesitatedand,ashestoodwaiting,thegirlturnedandranawaythroughthehedge。Adesiretorunafterhercametohim,butheonlystoodstaring,perplexedandpuzzledbyheractionashehadbeenperplexedandpuzzledbyallofthelifeofthetownoutofwhichshehadcome。Walkingslowlytowardthehouse,hestoppedintheshadowofalargetreeandlookedathismothersittingbyalightedwindowbusilysewing。Thefeelingofloneli-
  nessthathadvisitedhimearlierintheeveningre-
  turnedandcoloredhisthoughtsoftheadventurethroughwhichhehadjustpassed。"Huh!"heex-
  claimed,turningandstaringinthedirectiontakenbyHelenWhite。"That'showthings'llturnout。
  She'llbeliketherest。Isupposeshe'llbeginnowtolookatmeinafunnyway。"Helookedatthegroundandponderedthisthought。"She'llbeem-
  barrassedandfeelstrangewhenI'maround,"hewhisperedtohimself。"That'showit'llbe。That'showeverything'llturnout。Whenitcomestolovingsomeone,itwon'tneverbeme。It'llbesomeoneelse——somefool——someonewhotalksalot——some-
  onelikethatGeorgeWillard。"
  TANDY
  UNTILSHEWASsevenyearsoldshelivedinanoldunpaintedhouseonanunusedroadthatledoffTrunionPike。Herfathergaveherbutlittleattentionandhermotherwasdead。Thefatherspenthistimetalkingandthinkingofreligion。Heproclaimedhim-
  selfanagnosticandwassoabsorbedindestroyingtheideasofGodthathadcreptintothemindsofhisneighborsthatheneversawGodmanifestinghimselfinthelittlechildthat,halfforgotten,livedhereandthereonthebountyofherdeadmother'srelatives。
  AstrangercametoWinesburgandsawinthechildwhatthefatherdidnotsee。Hewasatall,red-
  hairedyoungmanwhowasalmostalwaysdrunk。
  SometimeshesatinachairbeforetheNewWillardHousewithTomHard,thefather。AsTomtalked,declaringtherecouldbenoGod,thestrangersmiledandwinkedatthebystanders。HeandTombecamefriendsandweremuchtogether。
  ThestrangerwasthesonofarichmerchantofClevelandandhadcometoWinesburgonamission。
  Hewantedtocurehimselfofthehabitofdrink,andthoughtthatbyescapingfromhiscityassociatesandlivinginaruralcommunityhewouldhaveabetterchanceinthestrugglewiththeappetitethatwasdestroyinghim。
  HissojourninWinesburgwasnotasuccess。Thedullnessofthepassinghoursledtohisdrinkingharderthanever。Buthedidsucceedindoingsome-
  thing。HegaveanamerichwithmeaningtoTomHard'sdaughter。