OneoftheBentleysisterscookedthelittleanimalandheateitwithgreatgusto。Theskinhetackedonaboardandsuspendedtheboardbyastringfromhisbedroomwindow。
Thatgavehismindanewturn。Afterthatheneverwentintothewoodswithoutcarryingtheslinginhispocketandhespenthoursshootingatimaginaryanimalsconcealedamongthebrownleavesinthetrees。Thoughtsofhiscomingmanhoodpassedandhewascontenttobeaboywithaboy'simpulses。
OneSaturdaymorningwhenhewasabouttosetoffforthewoodswiththeslinginhispocketandabagfornutsonhisshoulder,hisgrandfatherstoppedhim。IntheeyesoftheoldmanwasthestrainedseriouslookthatalwaysalittlefrightenedDavid。AtsuchtimesJesseBentley'seyesdidnotlookstraightaheadbutwaveredandseemedtobelookingatnothing。Somethinglikeaninvisiblecurtainap-
pearedtohavecomebetweenthemanandalltherestoftheworld。"Iwantyoutocomewithme,"
hesaidbriefly,andhiseyeslookedovertheboy'sheadintothesky。"Wehavesomethingimportanttodotoday。Youmaybringthebagfornutsifyouwish。Itdoesnotmatterandanywaywewillbegoingintothewoods。"
JesseandDavidsetoutfromtheBentleyfarm-
houseintheoldphaetonthatwasdrawnbythewhitehorse。Whentheyhadgonealonginsilenceforalongwaytheystoppedattheedgeofafieldwhereaflockofsheepweregrazing。Amongthesheepwasalambthathadbeenbornoutofseason,andthisDavidandhisgrandfathercaughtandtiedsotightlythatitlookedlikealittlewhiteball。WhentheydroveonagainJesseletDavidholdthelambinhisarms。"IsawityesterdayanditputmeinmindofwhatIhavelongwantedtodo,"hesaid,andagainhelookedawayovertheheadoftheboywiththewavering,uncertainstareinhiseyes。
Afterthefeelingofexaltationthathadcometothefarmerasaresultofhissuccessfulyear,anothermoodhadtakenpossessionofhim。Foralongtimehehadbeengoingaboutfeelingveryhumbleandprayerful。AgainhewalkedaloneatnightthinkingofGodandashewalkedheagainconnectedhisownfigurewiththefiguresofolddays。Underthestarshekneltonthewetgrassandraiseduphisvoiceinprayer。NowhehaddecidedthatlikethemenwhosestoriesfilledthepagesoftheBible,hewouldmakeasacrificetoGod。"IhavebeengiventheseabundantcropsandGodhasalsosentmeaboywhoiscalledDavid,"hewhisperedtohimself。
"PerhapsIshouldhavedonethisthinglongago。"
HewassorrytheideahadnotcomeintohismindinthedaysbeforehisdaughterLouisehadbeenbornandthoughtthatsurelynowwhenhehaderectedapileofburningsticksinsomelonelyplaceinthewoodsandhadofferedthebodyofalambasaburntoffering,Godwouldappeartohimandgivehimamessage。
Moreandmoreashethoughtofthematter,hethoughtalsoofDavidandhispassionateself-lovewaspartiallyforgotten。"Itistimefortheboytobeginthinkingofgoingoutintotheworldandthemessagewillbeoneconcerninghim,"hedecided。
"Godwillmakeapathwayforhim。HewilltellmewhatplaceDavidistotakeinlifeandwhenheshallsetoutonhisjourney。Itisrightthattheboyshouldbethere。IfIamfortunateandanangelofGodshouldappear,DavidwillseethebeautyandgloryofGodmademanifesttoman。ItwillmakeatruemanofGodofhimalso。"
InsilenceJesseandDaviddrovealongtheroaduntiltheycametothatplacewhereJessehadoncebeforeappealedtoGodandhadfrightenedhisgrandson。Themorninghadbeenbrightandcheer-
ful,butacoldwindnowbegantoblowandcloudshidthesun。WhenDavidsawtheplacetowhichtheyhadcomehebegantotremblewithfright,andwhentheystoppedbythebridgewherethecreekcamedownfromamongthetrees,hewantedtospringoutofthephaetonandrunaway。
AdozenplansforescaperanthroughDavid'shead,butwhenJessestoppedthehorseandclimbedoverthefenceintothewood,hefollowed。"Itisfoolishtobeafraid。Nothingwillhappen,"hetoldhimselfashewentalongwiththelambinhisarms。
Therewassomethinginthehelplessnessofthelittleanimalheldsotightlyinhisarmsthatgavehimcourage。Hecouldfeeltherapidbeatingofthebeast'sheartandthatmadehisownheartbeatlessrapidly。Ashewalkedswiftlyalongbehindhisgrandfather,heuntiedthestringwithwhichthefourlegsofthelambwerefastenedtogether。"Ifanythinghappenswewillrunawaytogether,"hethought。
Inthewoods,aftertheyhadgonealongwayfromtheroad,Jessestoppedinanopeningamongthetreeswhereaclearing,overgrownwithsmallbushes,ranupfromthecreek。Hewasstillsilentbutbeganatoncetoerectaheapofdrystickswhichhepresentlysetafire。Theboysatonthegroundwiththelambinhisarms。Hisimaginationbegantoinvesteverymovementoftheoldmanwithsignifi-
canceandhebecameeverymomentmoreafraid。"I
mustputthebloodofthelambontheheadoftheboy,"Jessemutteredwhenthestickshadbeguntoblazegreedily,andtakingalongknifefromhispocketheturnedandwalkedrapidlyacrosstheclearingtowardDavid。
Terrorseizeduponthesouloftheboy。Hewassickwithit。Foramomenthesatperfectlystillandthenhisbodystiffenedandhesprangtohisfeet。
Hisfacebecameaswhiteasthefleeceofthelambthat,nowfindingitselfsuddenlyreleased,randownthehill。Davidranalso。Fearmadehisfeetfly。Overthelowbushesandlogsheleapedfrantically。Asheranheputhishandintohispocketandtookoutthebranchedstickfromwhichtheslingforshootingsquirrelswassuspended。Whenhecametothecreekthatwasshallowandsplasheddownoverthestones,hedashedintothewaterandturnedtolookback,andwhenhesawhisgrandfatherstillrunningtowardhimwiththelongknifeheldtightlyinhishandhedidnothesitate,butreachingdown,se-
lectedastoneandputitinthesling。Withallhisstrengthhedrewbacktheheavyrubberbandsandthestonewhistledthroughtheair。IthitJesse,whohadentirelyforgottentheboyandwaspursuingthelamb,squarelyinthehead。Withagroanhepitchedforwardandfellalmostattheboy'sfeet。WhenDavidsawthathelaystillandthathewasappar-
entlydead,hisfrightincreasedimmeasurably。Itbe-
cameaninsanepanic。
Withacryheturnedandranoffthroughthewoodsweepingconvulsively。"Idon'tcare——Ikilledhim,butIdon'tcare,"hesobbed。AsheranonandonhedecidedsuddenlythathewouldnevergobackagaintotheBentleyfarmsortothetownofWinesburg。"IhavekilledthemanofGodandnowIwillmyselfbeamanandgointotheworld,"hesaidstoutlyashestoppedrunningandwalkedrap-
idlydownaroadthatfollowedthewindingsofWineCreekasitranthroughfieldsandforestsintothewest。
OnthegroundbythecreekJesseBentleymoveduneasilyabout。Hegroanedandopenedhiseyes。
Foralongtimehelayperfectlystillandlookedatthesky。Whenatlasthegottohisfeet,hismindwasconfusedandhewasnotsurprisedbytheboy'sdisappearance。BytheroadsidehesatdownonalogandbegantotalkaboutGod。Thatisalltheyevergotoutofhim。WheneverDavid'snamewasmentionedhelookedvaguelyattheskyandsaidthatamessengerfromGodhadtakentheboy。"IthappenedbecauseIwastoogreedyforglory,"hedeclared,andwouldhavenomoretosayinthematter。
AMANOFIDEAS
HELIVEDWITHhismother,agrey,silentwomanwithapeculiarashycomplexion。Thehouseinwhichtheylivedstoodinalittlegroveoftreesbe-
yondwherethemainstreetofWinesburgcrossedWineCreek。HisnamewasJoeWelling,andhisfa-
therhadbeenamanofsomedignityinthecommu-
nity,alawyer,andamemberofthestatelegislatureatColumbus。Joehimselfwassmallofbodyandinhischaracterunlikeanyoneelseintown。Hewaslikeatinylittlevolcanothatliessilentfordaysandthensuddenlyspoutsfire。No,hewasn'tlikethat——
hewaslikeamanwhoissubjecttofits,onewhowalksamonghisfellowmeninspiringfearbecauseafitmaycomeuponhimsuddenlyandblowhimawayintoastrangeuncannyphysicalstateinwhichhiseyesrollandhislegsandarmsjerk。Hewaslikethat,onlythatthevisitationthatdescendeduponJoeWellingwasamentalandnotaphysicalthing。
Hewasbesetbyideasandinthethroesofoneofhisideaswasuncontrollable。Wordsrolledandtumbledfromhismouth。Apeculiarsmilecameuponhislips。Theedgesofhisteeththatweretippedwithgoldglistenedinthelight。Pouncinguponaby-
standerhebegantotalk。Forthebystandertherewasnoescape。Theexcitedmanbreathedintohisface,peeredintohiseyes,poundeduponhischestwithashakingforefinger,demanded,compelledattention。
InthosedaystheStandardOilCompanydidnotdeliveroiltotheconsumerinbigwagonsandmotortrucksasitdoesnow,butdeliveredinsteadtoretailgrocers,hardwarestores,andthelike。JoewastheStandardOilagentinWinesburgandinseveraltownsupanddowntherailroadthatwentthroughWinesburg。Hecollectedbills,bookedorders,anddidotherthings。Hisfather,thelegislator,hadse-
curedthejobforhim。
InandoutofthestoresofWinesburgwentJoeWelling——silent,excessivelypolite,intentuponhisbusiness。Menwatchedhimwitheyesinwhichlurkedamusementtemperedbyalarm。Theywerewaitingforhimtobreakforth,preparingtoflee。
Althoughtheseizuresthatcameuponhimwereharmlessenough,theycouldnotbelaughedaway。
Theywereoverwhelming。Astrideanidea,Joewasovermastering。Hispersonalitybecamegigantic。Itoverrodethemantowhomhetalked,swepthimaway,sweptallaway,allwhostoodwithinsoundofhisvoice。
InSylvesterWest'sDrugStorestoodfourmenwhoweretalkingofhorseracing。WesleyMoyer'sstallion,TonyTip,wastoraceattheJunemeetingatTiffin,Ohio,andtherewasarumorthathewouldmeetthestiffestcompetitionofhiscareer。ItwassaidthatPopGeers,thegreatracingdriver,wouldhimselfbethere。AdoubtofthesuccessofTonyTiphungheavyintheairofWinesburg。
IntothedrugstorecameJoeWelling,brushingthescreendoorviolentlyaside。Withastrangeab-
sorbedlightinhiseyeshepounceduponEdThomas,hewhoknewPopGeersandwhoseopin-
ionofTonyTip'schanceswasworthconsidering。
"ThewaterisupinWineCreek,"criedJoeWel-
lingwiththeairofPheidippidesbringingnewsofthevictoryoftheGreeksinthestruggleatMara-
thon。HisfingerbeatatattoouponEdThomas'sbroadchest。"ByTrunionbridgeitiswithinelevenandahalfinchesoftheflooring,"hewenton,thewordscomingquicklyandwithalittlewhistlingnoisefrombetweenhisteeth。Anexpressionofhelp-
lessannoyancecreptoverthefacesofthefour。
"Ihavemyfactscorrect。Dependuponthat。I
wenttoSinnings'HardwareStoreandgotarule。
ThenIwentbackandmeasured。Icouldhardlybe-
lievemyowneyes。Ithasn'trainedyouseefortendays。AtfirstIdidn'tknowwhattothink。Thoughtsrushedthroughmyhead。Ithoughtofsubterraneanpassagesandsprings。Downunderthegroundwentmymind,delvingabout。Isatonthefloorofthebridgeandrubbedmyhead。Therewasn'tacloudinthesky,notone。Comeoutintothestreetandyou'llsee。Therewasn'tacloud。Thereisn'tacloudnow。Yes,therewasacloud。Idon'twanttokeepbackanyfacts。Therewasacloudinthewestdownnearthehorizon,acloudnobiggerthanaman'shand。
"NotthatIthinkthathasanythingtodowithit。
Thereitis,yousee。YouunderstandhowpuzzledI
was。
"Thenanideacametome。Ilaughed。You'lllaugh,too。OfcourseitrainedoverinMedinaCounty。That'sinteresting,eh?Ifwehadnotrains,nomails,notelegraph,wewouldknowthatitrainedoverinMedinaCounty。That'swhereWineCreekcomesfrom。Everyoneknowsthat。LittleoldWineCreekbroughtusthenews。That'sinteresting。
Ilaughed。IthoughtI'dtellyou——it'sinteresting,eh?"
JoeWellingturnedandwentoutatthedoor。Tak-
ingabookfromhispocket,hestoppedandranafingerdownoneofthepages。Againhewasab-
sorbedinhisdutiesasagentoftheStandardOilCompany。"Hern'sGrocerywillbegettinglowoncoaloil。I'llseethem,"hemuttered,hurryingalongthestreet,andbowingpolitelytotherightandleftatthepeoplewalkingpast。
WhenGeorgeWillardwenttoworkfortheWines-
burgEaglehewasbesiegedbyJoeWelling。Joeen-
viedtheboy。ItseemedtohimthathewasmeantbyNaturetobeareporteronanewspaper。"ItiswhatIshouldbedoing,thereisnodoubtofthat,"
hedeclared,stoppingGeorgeWillardontheside-
walkbeforeDaugherty'sFeedStore。Hiseyesbegantoglistenandhisforefingertotremble。"OfcourseImakemoremoneywiththeStandardOilCompanyandI'monlytellingyou,"headded。"I'vegotnoth-
ingagainstyoubutIshouldhaveyourplace。Icoulddotheworkatoddmoments。HereandthereI
wouldrunfindingoutthingsyou'llneversee。"
BecomingmoreexcitedJoeWellingcrowdedtheyoungreporteragainstthefrontofthefeedstore。
Heappearedtobelostinthought,rollinghiseyesaboutandrunningathinnervoushandthroughhishair。Asmilespreadoverhisfaceandhisgoldteethglittered。"Yougetoutyournotebook,"hecom-
manded。"Youcarryalittlepadofpaperinyourpocket,don'tyou?Iknewyoudid。Well,yousetthisdown。Ithoughtofittheotherday。Let'stakedecay。Nowwhatisdecay?It'sfire。Itburnsupwoodandotherthings。Youneverthoughtofthat?
Ofcoursenot。Thissidewalkhereandthisfeedstore,thetreesdownthestreetthere——they'reallonfire。They'reburningup。Decayyouseeisalwaysgoingon。Itdoesn'tstop。Waterandpaintcan'tstopit。Ifathingisiron,thenwhat?Itrusts,yousee。
That'sfire,too。Theworldisonfire。Startyourpiecesinthepaperthatway。Justsayinbigletters'TheWorldIsOnFire。'Thatwillmake'emlookup。
They'llsayyou'reasmartone。Idon'tcare。Idon'tenvyyou。Ijustsnatchedthatideaoutoftheair。I
wouldmakeanewspaperhum。Yougottoadmitthat。"'
Turningquickly,JoeWellingwalkedrapidlyaway。
Whenhehadtakenseveralstepshestoppedandlookedback。"I'mgoingtosticktoyou,"hesaid。
"I'mgoingtomakeyouaregularhummer。Ishouldstartanewspapermyself,that'swhatIshoulddo。
I'dbeamarvel。Everybodyknowsthat。"
WhenGeorgeWillardhadbeenforayearontheWinesburgEagle,fourthingshappenedtoJoeWel-
ling。Hismotherdied,hecametoliveattheNewWillardHouse,hebecameinvolvedinaloveaffair,andheorganizedtheWinesburgBaseballClub。
Joeorganizedthebaseballclubbecausehewantedtobeacoachandinthatpositionhebegantowintherespectofhistownsmen。"Heisawonder,"theydeclaredafterJoe'steamhadwhippedtheteamfromMedinaCounty。"Hegetseverybodyworkingtogether。Youjustwatchhim。"
UponthebaseballfieldJoeWellingstoodbyfirstbase,hiswholebodyquiveringwithexcitement。Inspiteofthemselvesalltheplayerswatchedhimclosely。Theopposingpitcherbecameconfused。
"Now!Now!Now!Now!"shoutedtheexcitedman。"Watchme!Watchme!Watchmyfingers!
Watchmyhands!Watchmyfeet!Watchmyeyes!
Let'sworktogetherhere!Watchme!Inmeyouseeallthemovementsofthegame!Workwithme!
Workwithme!Watchme!Watchme!Watchme!"
WithrunnersoftheWinesburgteamonbases,JoeWellingbecameasoneinspired。Beforetheyknewwhathadcomeoverthem,thebaserunnerswerewatchingtheman,edgingoffthebases,advancing,retreating,heldasbyaninvisiblecord。TheplayersoftheopposingteamalsowatchedJoe。Theywerefascinated。Foramomenttheywatchedandthen,asthoughtobreakaspellthathungoverthem,theybeganhurlingtheballwildlyabout,andamidase-
riesoffierceanimal-likecriesfromthecoach,therunnersoftheWinesburgteamscamperedhome。
JoeWelling'sloveaffairsetthetownofWinesburgonedge。Whenitbeganeveryonewhisperedandshookhishead。Whenpeopletriedtolaugh,thelaughterwasforcedandunnatural。JoefellinlovewithSarahKing,alean,sad-lookingwomanwholivedwithherfatherandbrotherinabrickhousethatstoodoppositethegateleadingtotheWines-
burgCemetery。
ThetwoKings,Edwardthefather,andTomtheson,werenotpopularinWinesburg。Theywerecalledproudanddangerous。TheyhadcometoWinesburgfromsomeplaceintheSouthandranacidermillontheTrunionPike。TomKingwasre-
portedtohavekilledamanbeforehecametoWinesburg。Hewastwenty-sevenyearsoldandrodeabouttownonagreypony。Alsohehadalongyellowmustachethatdroppeddownoverhisteeth,andalwayscarriedaheavy,wicked-lookingwalkingstickinhishand。Oncehekilledadogwiththestick。ThedogbelongedtoWinPawsey,theshoemerchant,andstoodonthesidewalkwaggingitstail。TomKingkilleditwithoneblow。Hewasar-
restedandpaidafineoftendollars。
OldEdwardKingwassmallofstatureandwhenhepassedpeopleinthestreetlaughedaqueerun-
mirthfullaugh。Whenhelaughedhescratchedhisleftelbowwithhisrighthand。Thesleeveofhiscoatwasalmostwornthroughfromthehabit。Ashewalkedalongthestreet,lookingnervouslyaboutandlaughing,heseemedmoredangerousthanhissilent,fierce-lookingson。
WhenSarahKingbeganwalkingoutintheeve-
ningwithJoeWelling,peopleshooktheirheadsinalarm。Shewastallandpaleandhaddarkringsunderhereyes。Thecouplelookedridiculousto-
gether。UnderthetreestheywalkedandJoetalked。
Hispassionateeagerprotestationsoflove,heardcomingoutofthedarknessbythecemeterywall,orfromthedeepshadowsofthetreesonthehillthatranuptotheFairGroundsfromWaterworksPond,wererepeatedinthestores。MenstoodbythebarintheNewWillardHouselaughingandtalkingofJoe'scourtship。Afterthelaughtercamethesilence。
TheWinesburgbaseballteam,underhismanage-
ment,waswinninggameaftergame,andthetownhadbeguntorespecthim。Sensingatragedy,theywaited,laughingnervously。
LateonaSaturdayafternoonthemeetingbetweenJoeWellingandthetwoKings,theanticipationofwhichhadsetthetownonedge,tookplaceinJoeWelling'sroomintheNewWillardHouse。GeorgeWillardwasawitnesstothemeeting。Itcameaboutinthisway:
WhentheyoungreporterwenttohisroomaftertheeveningmealhesawTomKingandhisfathersittinginthehalfdarknessinJoe'sroom。Thesonhadtheheavywalkingstickinhishandandsatnearthedoor。OldEdwardKingwalkednervouslyabout,scratchinghisleftelbowwithhisrighthand。Thehallwayswereemptyandsilent。
GeorgeWillardwenttohisownroomandsatdownathisdesk。Hetriedtowritebuthishandtrembledsothathecouldnotholdthepen。Healsowalkednervouslyupanddown。LiketherestofthetownofWinesburghewasperplexedandknewnotwhattodo。
Itwasseven-thirtyandfastgrowingdarkwhenJoeWellingcamealongthestationplatformtowardtheNewWillardHouse。Inhisarmsheheldabun-
dleofweedsandgrasses。Inspiteoftheterrorthatmadehisbodyshake,GeorgeWillardwasamusedatthesightofthesmallspryfigureholdingthegrassesandhalfrunningalongtheplatform。
Shakingwithfrightandanxiety,theyoungre-
porterlurkedinthehallwayoutsidethedooroftheroominwhichJoeWellingtalkedtothetwoKings。
Therehadbeenanoath,thenervousgiggleofoldEdwardKing,andthensilence。NowthevoiceofJoeWelling,sharpandclear,brokeforth。GeorgeWillardbegantolaugh。Heunderstood。Ashehadsweptallmenbeforehim,sonowJoeWellingwascarryingthetwomenintheroomofftheirfeetwithatidalwaveofwords。Thelistenerinthehallwalkedupanddown,lostinamazement。
InsidetheroomJoeWellinghadpaidnoattentiontothegrumbledthreatofTomKing。Absorbedinanideaheclosedthedoorand,lightingalamp,spreadthehandfulofweedsandgrassesuponthefloor。"I'vegotsomethinghere,"heannouncedsol-
emnly。"IwasgoingtotellGeorgeWillardaboutit,lethimmakeapieceoutofitforthepaper。I'mgladyou'rehere。IwishSarahwereherealso。I'vebeengoingtocometoyourhouseandtellyouofsomeofmyideas。They'reinteresting。Sarahwouldn'tletme。Shesaidwe'dquarrel。That'sfoolish。"
Runningupanddownbeforethetwoperplexedmen,JoeWellingbegantoexplain。"Don'tyoumakeamistakenow,"hecried。"Thisissomethingbig。"
Hisvoicewasshrillwithexcitement。"Youjustfol-
lowme,you'llbeinterested。Iknowyouwill。Sup-
posethis——supposeallofthewheat,thecorn,theoats,thepeas,thepotatoes,wereallbysomemira-
clesweptaway。Nowhereweare,yousee,inthiscounty。Thereisahighfencebuiltallaroundus。
We'llsupposethat。Noonecangetoverthefenceandallthefruitsoftheeartharedestroyed,nothingleftbutthesewildthings,thesegrasses。Wouldwebedonefor?Iaskyouthat。Wouldwebedonefor?"
AgainTomKinggrowledandforamomenttherewassilenceintheroom。ThenagainJoeplungedintotheexpositionofhisidea。"Thingswouldgohardforatime。Iadmitthat。I'vegottoadmitthat。
Nogettingaroundit。We'dbehardputtoit。Morethanonefatstomachwouldcavein。Buttheycouldn'tdownus。Ishouldsaynot。"
TomKinglaughedgoodnaturedlyandtheshiv-
ery,nervouslaughofEdwardKingrangthroughthehouse。JoeWellinghurriedon。"We'dbegin,yousee,tobreedupnewvegetablesandfruits。Soonwe'dregainallwehadlost。Mind,Idon'tsaythenewthingswouldbethesameastheold。Theywouldn't。Maybethey'dbebetter,maybenotsogood。That'sinteresting,eh?Youcanthinkaboutthat。Itstartsyourmindworking,nowdon'tit?"
IntheroomtherewassilenceandthenagainoldEdwardKinglaughednervously。"Say,IwishSarahwashere,"criedJoeWelling。"Let'sgouptoyourhouse。Iwanttotellherofthis。"
Therewasascrapingofchairsintheroom。ItwasthenthatGeorgeWillardretreatedtohisownroom。
LeaningoutatthewindowhesawJoeWellinggoingalongthestreetwiththetwoKings。TomKingwasforcedtotakeextraordinarylongstridestokeeppacewiththelittleman。Ashestrodealong,heleanedover,listening——absorbed,fascinated。JoeWellingagaintalkedexcitedly。"Takemilkweednow,"hecried。"Alotmightbedonewithmilk-
weed,eh?It'salmostunbelievable。Iwantyoutothinkaboutit。Iwantyoutwotothinkaboutit。
Therewouldbeanewvegetablekingdomyousee。
It'sinteresting,eh?It'sanidea。WaittillyouseeSarah,she'llgettheidea。She'llbeinterested。Sarahisalwaysinterestedinideas。Youcan'tbetoosmartforSarah,nowcanyou?Ofcourseyoucan't。Youknowthat。"
ADVENTURE
ALICEHINDMAN,awomanoftwenty-sevenwhenGeorgeWillardwasamereboy,hadlivedinWines-
burgallherlife。SheclerkedinWinney'sDryGoodsStoreandlivedwithhermother,whohadmarriedasecondhusband。
Alice'sstep-fatherwasacarriagepainter,andgiventodrink。Hisstoryisanoddone。Itwillbeworthtellingsomeday。
Attwenty-sevenAlicewastallandsomewhatslight。Herheadwaslargeandovershadowedherbody。Hershoulderswerealittlestoopedandherhairandeyesbrown。Shewasveryquietbutbeneathaplacidexterioracontinualfermentwenton。
Whenshewasagirlofsixteenandbeforeshebegantoworkinthestore,Alicehadanaffairwithayoungman。Theyoungman,namedNedCurrie,wasolderthanAlice。He,likeGeorgeWillard,wasemployedontheWinesburgEagleandforalongtimehewenttoseeAlicealmosteveryevening。Togetherthetwowalkedunderthetreesthroughthestreetsofthetownandtalkedofwhattheywoulddowiththeirlives。AlicewasthenaveryprettygirlandNedCurrietookherintohisarmsandkissedher。HebecameexcitedandsaidthingshedidnotintendtosayandAlice,betrayedbyherdesiretohavesome-
thingbeautifulcomeintoherrathernarrowlife,alsogrewexcited。Shealsotalked。Theoutercrustofherlife,allofhernaturaldiffidenceandreserve,wastomawayandshegaveherselfovertotheemotionsoflove。When,lateinthefallofhersixteenthyear,NedCurriewentawaytoClevelandwherehehopedtogetaplaceonacitynewspaperandriseintheworld,shewantedtogowithhim。Withatremblingvoiceshetoldhimwhatwasinhermind。"Iwillworkandyoucanwork,"shesaid。"Idonotwanttoharnessyoutoaneedlessexpensethatwillpre-
ventyourmakingprogress。Don'tmarrymenow。
Wewillgetalongwithoutthatandwecanbeto-
gether。Eventhoughweliveinthesamehousenoonewillsayanything。Inthecitywewillbeun-
knownandpeoplewillpaynoattentiontous。"
NedCurriewaspuzzledbythedeterminationandabandonofhissweetheartandwasalsodeeplytouched。Hehadwantedthegirltobecomehismis-
tressbutchangedhismind。Hewantedtoprotectandcareforher。"Youdon'tknowwhatyou'retalk-
ingabout,"hesaidsharply;"youmaybesureI'llletyoudonosuchthing。AssoonasIgetagoodjobI'llcomeback。Forthepresentyou'llhavetostayhere。It'stheonlythingwecando。"
OntheeveningbeforeheleftWinesburgtotakeuphisnewlifeinthecity,NedCurriewenttocallonAlice。TheywalkedaboutthroughthestreetsforanhourandthengotarigfromWesleyMoyer'sliveryandwentforadriveinthecountry。Themooncameupandtheyfoundthemselvesunabletotalk。
Inhissadnesstheyoungmanforgottheresolutionshehadmaderegardinghisconductwiththegirl。
TheygotoutofthebuggyataplacewherealongmeadowrandowntothebankofWineCreekandthereinthedimlightbecamelovers。Whenatmid-
nighttheyreturnedtotowntheywerebothglad。Itdidnotseemtothemthatanythingthatcouldhap-
peninthefuturecouldblotoutthewonderandbeautyofthethingthathadhappened。"Nowwewillhavetosticktoeachother,whateverhappenswewillhavetodothat,"NedCurriesaidasheleftthegirlatherfather'sdoor。
Theyoungnewspapermandidnotsucceedinget-
tingaplaceonaClevelandpaperandwentwesttoChicago。ForatimehewaslonelyandwrotetoAlicealmosteveryday。Thenhewascaughtupbythelifeofthecity;hebegantomakefriendsandfoundnewinterestsinlife。InChicagoheboardedatahousewheretherewereseveralwomen。OneofthemattractedhisattentionandheforgotAliceinWinesburg。Attheendofayearhehadstoppedwritingletters,andonlyonceinalongtime,whenhewaslonelyorwhenhewentintooneofthecityparksandsawthemoonshiningonthegrassasithadshonethatnightonthemeadowbyWineCreek,didhethinkofheratall。
InWinesburgthegirlwhohadbeenlovedgrewtobeawoman。Whenshewastwenty-twoyearsoldherfather,whoownedaharnessrepairshop,diedsuddenly。Theharnessmakerwasanoldsoldier,andafterafewmonthshiswifereceivedawidow'spension。Sheusedthefirstmoneyshegottobuyaloomandbecameaweaverofcarpets,andAlicegotaplaceinWinney'sstore。ForanumberofyearsnothingcouldhaveinducedhertobelievethatNedCurriewouldnotintheendreturntoher。
Shewasgladtobeemployedbecausethedailyroundoftoilinthestoremadethetimeofwaitingseemlesslonganduninteresting。Shebegantosavemoney,thinkingthatwhenshehadsavedtwoorthreehundreddollarsshewouldfollowherlovertothecityandtryifherpresencewouldnotwinbackhisaffections。
AlicedidnotblameNedCurrieforwhathadhap-
penedinthemoonlightinthefield,butfeltthatshecouldnevermarryanotherman。ToherthethoughtofgivingtoanotherwhatshestillfeltcouldbelongonlytoNedseemedmonstrous。Whenotheryoungmentriedtoattractherattentionshewouldhavenothingtodowiththem。"Iamhiswifeandshallremainhiswifewhetherhecomesbackornot,"shewhisperedtoherself,andforallofherwillingnesstosupportherselfcouldnothaveunderstoodthegrowingmodernideaofawoman'sowningherselfandgivingandtakingforherownendsinlife。
Aliceworkedinthedrygoodsstorefromeightinthemorninguntilsixatnightandonthreeeveningsaweekwentbacktothestoretostayfromsevenuntilnine。Astimepassedandshebecamemoreandmorelonelyshebegantopracticethedevicescommontolonelypeople。Whenatnightshewentupstairsintoherownroomshekneltonthefloortoprayandinherprayerswhisperedthingsshewantedtosaytoherlover。Shebecameattachedtoinanimateobjects,andbecauseitwasherown,couldnotbaretohaveanyonetouchthefurnitureofherroom。Thetrickofsavingmoney,begunforapurpose,wascarriedonaftertheschemeofgoingtothecitytofindNedCurriehadbeengivenup。Itbecameafixedhabit,andwhensheneedednewclothesshedidnotgetthem。Sometimesonrainyafternoonsinthestoreshegotoutherbankbookand,lettingitlieopenbeforeher,spenthoursdreamingimpossibledreamsofsavingmoneyenoughsothattheinterestwouldsupportbothherselfandherfuturehusband。
"Nedalwayslikedtotravelabout,"shethought。
"I'llgivehimthechance。SomedaywhenwearemarriedandIcansavebothhismoneyandmyown,wewillberich。Thenwecantraveltogetherallovertheworld。"
InthedrygoodsstoreweeksranintomonthsandmonthsintoyearsasAlicewaitedanddreamedofherlover'sreturn。Heremployer,agreyoldmanwithfalseteethandathingreymustachethatdroopeddownoverhismouth,wasnotgiventoconversation,andsometimes,onrainydaysandinthewinterwhenastormragedinMainStreet,longhourspassedwhennocustomerscamein。Alicear-
rangedandrearrangedthestock。Shestoodnearthefrontwindowwhereshecouldlookdownthede-
sertedstreetandthoughtoftheeveningswhenshehadwalkedwithNedCurrieandofwhathehadsaid。"Wewillhavetosticktoeachothernow。"Thewordsechoedandre-echoedthroughthemindofthematuringwoman。Tearscameintohereyes。
Sometimeswhenheremployerhadgoneoutandshewasaloneinthestoresheputherheadonthecounterandwept。"Oh,Ned,Iamwaiting,"shewhisperedoverandover,andallthetimethecreep-
ingfearthathewouldnevercomebackgrewstrongerwithinher。
Inthespringwhentherainshavepassedandbe-
forethelonghotdaysofsummerhavecome,thecountryaboutWinesburgisdelightful。Thetownliesinthemidstofopenfields,butbeyondthefieldsarepleasantpatchesofwoodlands。Inthewoodedplacesaremanylittlecloisterednooks,quietplaceswhereloversgotositonSundayafternoons。Throughthetreestheylookoutacrossthefieldsandseefarmersatworkaboutthebarnsorpeopledrivingupanddownontheroads。Inthetownbellsringandoccasionallyatrainpasses,lookinglikeatoythinginthedistance。
ForseveralyearsafterNedCurriewentawayAlicedidnotgointothewoodwiththeotheryoungpeopleonSunday,butonedayafterhehadbeengonefortwoorthreeyearsandwhenherlonelinessseemedunbearable,sheputonherbestdressandsetout。Findingalittleshelteredplacefromwhichshecouldseethetownandalongstretchofthefields,shesatdown。Fearofageandineffectualitytookpossessionofher。Shecouldnotsitstill,andarose。Asshestoodlookingoutoverthelandsome-
thing,perhapsthethoughtofneverceasinglifeasitexpressesitselfintheflowoftheseasons,fixedhermindonthepassingyears。Withashiverofdread,sherealizedthatforherthebeautyandfresh-
nessofyouthhadpassed。Forthefirsttimeshefeltthatshehadbeencheated。ShedidnotblameNedCurrieanddidnotknowwhattoblame。Sadnesssweptoverher。Droppingtoherknees,shetriedtopray,butinsteadofprayerswordsofprotestcametoherlips。"Itisnotgoingtocometome。Iwillneverfindhappiness。WhydoItellmyselflies?"
shecried,andanoddsenseofreliefcamewiththis,herfirstboldattempttofacethefearthathadbe-
comeapartofhereverydaylife。
IntheyearwhenAliceHindmanbecametwenty-
fivetwothingshappenedtodisturbthedullun-
eventfulnessofherdays。HermothermarriedBushMilton,thecarriagepainterofWinesburg,andsheherselfbecameamemberoftheWinesburgMethod-
istChurch。Alicejoinedthechurchbecauseshehadbecomefrightenedbythelonelinessofherpositioninlife。Hermother'ssecondmarriagehadempha-
sizedherisolation。"Iambecomingoldandqueer。
IfNedcomeshewillnotwantme。Inthecitywhereheislivingmenareperpetuallyyoung。Thereissomuchgoingonthattheydonothavetimetogrowold,"shetoldherselfwithagrimlittlesmile,andwentresolutelyaboutthebusinessofbecomingac-
quaintedwithpeople。EveryThursdayeveningwhenthestorehadclosedshewenttoaprayermeetinginthebasementofthechurchandonSundayeveningattendedameetingofanorganizationcalledTheEpworthLeague。
WhenWillHurley,amiddle-agedmanwhoclerkedinadrugstoreandwhoalsobelongedtothechurch,offeredtowalkhomewithhershedidnotprotest。
"OfcourseIwillnotlethimmakeapracticeofbeingwithme,butifhecomestoseemeonceinalongtimetherecanbenoharminthat,"shetoldherself,stilldeterminedinherloyaltytoNedCurrie。
Withoutrealizingwhatwashappening,Alicewastryingfeeblyatfirst,butwithgrowingdetermina-
tion,togetanewholduponlife。Besidethedrugclerkshewalkedinsilence,butsometimesinthedarknessastheywentstolidlyalongsheputoutherhandandtouchedsoftlythefoldsofhiscoat。Whenheleftheratthegatebeforehermother'shouseshedidnotgoindoors,butstoodforamomentbythedoor。Shewantedtocalltothedrugclerk,toaskhimtositwithherinthedarknessontheporchbeforethehouse,butwasafraidhewouldnotun-
derstand。"ItisnothimthatIwant,"shetoldher-
self;"Iwanttoavoidbeingsomuchalone。IfIamnotcarefulIwillgrowunaccustomedtobeingwithpeople。"
Duringtheearlyfallofhertwenty-seventhyearapassionaterestlessnesstookpossessionofAlice。Shecouldnotbeartobeinthecompanyofthedrugclerk,andwhen,intheevening,hecametowalkwithhershesenthimaway。Hermindbecamein-
tenselyactiveandwhen,wearyfromthelonghoursofstandingbehindthecounterinthestore,shewenthomeandcrawledintobed,shecouldnotsleep。Withstaringeyesshelookedintothedark-
ness。Herimagination,likeachildawakenedfromlongsleep,playedabouttheroom。Deepwithinhertherewassomethingthatwouldnotbecheatedbyphantasiesandthatdemandedsomedefiniteanswerfromlife。
Alicetookapillowintoherarmsandheldittightlyagainstherbreasts。Gettingoutofbed,shearrangedablanketsothatinthedarknessitlookedlikeaformlyingbetweenthesheetsand,kneelingbesidethebed,shecaressedit,whisperingwordsoverandover,likearefrain。"Whydoesn'tsome-
thinghappen?WhyamIleftherealone?"shemut-
tered。AlthoughshesometimesthoughtofNedCurrie,shenolongerdependedonhim。Herdesirehadgrownvague。ShedidnotwantNedCurrieoranyotherman。Shewantedtobeloved,tohavesomethinganswerthecallthatwasgrowinglouderandlouderwithinher。
AndthenonenightwhenitrainedAlicehadanadventure。Itfrightenedandconfusedher。Shehadcomehomefromthestoreatnineandfoundthehouseempty。BushMiltonhadgoneofftotownandhermothertothehouseofaneighbor。Alicewentupstairstoherroomandundressedinthedarkness。
Foramomentshestoodbythewindowhearingtherainbeatagainsttheglassandthenastrangedesiretookpossessionofher。Withoutstoppingtothinkofwhatsheintendedtodo,sherandownstairsthroughthedarkhouseandoutintotherain。Asshestoodonthelittlegrassplotbeforethehouseandfeltthecoldrainonherbodyamaddesiretorunnakedthroughthestreetstookpossessionofher。
Shethoughtthattherainwouldhavesomecre-
ativeandwonderfuleffectonherbody。Notforyearshadshefeltsofullofyouthandcourage。Shewantedtoleapandrun,tocryout,tofindsomeotherlonelyhumanandembracehim。Onthebricksidewalkbeforethehouseamanstumbledhome-
ward。Alicestartedtorun。Awild,desperatemoodtookpossessionofher。"WhatdoIcarewhoitis。
Heisalone,andIwillgotohim,"shethought;andthenwithoutstoppingtoconsiderthepossibleresultofhermadness,calledsoftly。"Wait!"shecried。
"Don'tgoaway。Whoeveryouare,youmustwait。"
Themanonthesidewalkstoppedandstoodlis-
tening。Hewasanoldmanandsomewhatdeaf。
Puttinghishandtohismouth,heshouted。"What?
Whatsay?"hecalled。
Alicedroppedtothegroundandlaytrembling。
Shewassofrightenedatthethoughtofwhatshehaddonethatwhenthemanhadgoneonhiswayshedidnotdaregettoherfeet,butcrawledonhandsandkneesthroughthegrasstothehouse。
Whenshegottoherownroomsheboltedthedooranddrewherdressingtableacrossthedoorway。
Herbodyshookaswithachillandherhandstrem-
bledsothatshehaddifficultygettingintohernight-
dress。Whenshegotintobedsheburiedherfaceinthepillowandweptbrokenheartedly。"Whatisthematterwithme?IwilldosomethingdreadfulifI
amnotcareful,"shethought,andturningherfacetothewall,begantryingtoforceherselftofacebravelythefactthatmanypeoplemustliveanddiealone,eveninWinesburg。
RESPECTABILITY
IFYOUHAVElivedincitiesandhavewalkedintheparkonasummerafternoon,youhaveperhapsseen,blinkinginacornerofhisironcage,ahuge,grotesquekindofmonkey,acreaturewithugly,sag-
ging,hairlessskinbelowhiseyesandabrightpur-
pleunderbody。Thismonkeyisatruemonster。Inthecompletenessofhisuglinessheachievedakindofpervertedbeauty。Childrenstoppingbeforethecagearefascinated,menturnawaywithanairofdisgust,andwomenlingerforamoment,tryingper-
hapstorememberwhichoneoftheirmaleacquain-
tancesthethinginsomefaintwayresembles。
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