首页 >出版文学> Winesburg, Ohio>第4章
  OneoftheBentleysisterscookedthelittleanimalandheateitwithgreatgusto。Theskinhetackedonaboardandsuspendedtheboardbyastringfromhisbedroomwindow。
  Thatgavehismindanewturn。Afterthatheneverwentintothewoodswithoutcarryingtheslinginhispocketandhespenthoursshootingatimaginaryanimalsconcealedamongthebrownleavesinthetrees。Thoughtsofhiscomingmanhoodpassedandhewascontenttobeaboywithaboy'simpulses。
  OneSaturdaymorningwhenhewasabouttosetoffforthewoodswiththeslinginhispocketandabagfornutsonhisshoulder,hisgrandfatherstoppedhim。IntheeyesoftheoldmanwasthestrainedseriouslookthatalwaysalittlefrightenedDavid。AtsuchtimesJesseBentley'seyesdidnotlookstraightaheadbutwaveredandseemedtobelookingatnothing。Somethinglikeaninvisiblecurtainap-
  pearedtohavecomebetweenthemanandalltherestoftheworld。"Iwantyoutocomewithme,"
  hesaidbriefly,andhiseyeslookedovertheboy'sheadintothesky。"Wehavesomethingimportanttodotoday。Youmaybringthebagfornutsifyouwish。Itdoesnotmatterandanywaywewillbegoingintothewoods。"
  JesseandDavidsetoutfromtheBentleyfarm-
  houseintheoldphaetonthatwasdrawnbythewhitehorse。Whentheyhadgonealonginsilenceforalongwaytheystoppedattheedgeofafieldwhereaflockofsheepweregrazing。Amongthesheepwasalambthathadbeenbornoutofseason,andthisDavidandhisgrandfathercaughtandtiedsotightlythatitlookedlikealittlewhiteball。WhentheydroveonagainJesseletDavidholdthelambinhisarms。"IsawityesterdayanditputmeinmindofwhatIhavelongwantedtodo,"hesaid,andagainhelookedawayovertheheadoftheboywiththewavering,uncertainstareinhiseyes。
  Afterthefeelingofexaltationthathadcometothefarmerasaresultofhissuccessfulyear,anothermoodhadtakenpossessionofhim。Foralongtimehehadbeengoingaboutfeelingveryhumbleandprayerful。AgainhewalkedaloneatnightthinkingofGodandashewalkedheagainconnectedhisownfigurewiththefiguresofolddays。Underthestarshekneltonthewetgrassandraiseduphisvoiceinprayer。NowhehaddecidedthatlikethemenwhosestoriesfilledthepagesoftheBible,hewouldmakeasacrificetoGod。"IhavebeengiventheseabundantcropsandGodhasalsosentmeaboywhoiscalledDavid,"hewhisperedtohimself。
  "PerhapsIshouldhavedonethisthinglongago。"
  HewassorrytheideahadnotcomeintohismindinthedaysbeforehisdaughterLouisehadbeenbornandthoughtthatsurelynowwhenhehaderectedapileofburningsticksinsomelonelyplaceinthewoodsandhadofferedthebodyofalambasaburntoffering,Godwouldappeartohimandgivehimamessage。
  Moreandmoreashethoughtofthematter,hethoughtalsoofDavidandhispassionateself-lovewaspartiallyforgotten。"Itistimefortheboytobeginthinkingofgoingoutintotheworldandthemessagewillbeoneconcerninghim,"hedecided。
  "Godwillmakeapathwayforhim。HewilltellmewhatplaceDavidistotakeinlifeandwhenheshallsetoutonhisjourney。Itisrightthattheboyshouldbethere。IfIamfortunateandanangelofGodshouldappear,DavidwillseethebeautyandgloryofGodmademanifesttoman。ItwillmakeatruemanofGodofhimalso。"
  InsilenceJesseandDaviddrovealongtheroaduntiltheycametothatplacewhereJessehadoncebeforeappealedtoGodandhadfrightenedhisgrandson。Themorninghadbeenbrightandcheer-
  ful,butacoldwindnowbegantoblowandcloudshidthesun。WhenDavidsawtheplacetowhichtheyhadcomehebegantotremblewithfright,andwhentheystoppedbythebridgewherethecreekcamedownfromamongthetrees,hewantedtospringoutofthephaetonandrunaway。
  AdozenplansforescaperanthroughDavid'shead,butwhenJessestoppedthehorseandclimbedoverthefenceintothewood,hefollowed。"Itisfoolishtobeafraid。Nothingwillhappen,"hetoldhimselfashewentalongwiththelambinhisarms。
  Therewassomethinginthehelplessnessofthelittleanimalheldsotightlyinhisarmsthatgavehimcourage。Hecouldfeeltherapidbeatingofthebeast'sheartandthatmadehisownheartbeatlessrapidly。Ashewalkedswiftlyalongbehindhisgrandfather,heuntiedthestringwithwhichthefourlegsofthelambwerefastenedtogether。"Ifanythinghappenswewillrunawaytogether,"hethought。
  Inthewoods,aftertheyhadgonealongwayfromtheroad,Jessestoppedinanopeningamongthetreeswhereaclearing,overgrownwithsmallbushes,ranupfromthecreek。Hewasstillsilentbutbeganatoncetoerectaheapofdrystickswhichhepresentlysetafire。Theboysatonthegroundwiththelambinhisarms。Hisimaginationbegantoinvesteverymovementoftheoldmanwithsignifi-
  canceandhebecameeverymomentmoreafraid。"I
  mustputthebloodofthelambontheheadoftheboy,"Jessemutteredwhenthestickshadbeguntoblazegreedily,andtakingalongknifefromhispocketheturnedandwalkedrapidlyacrosstheclearingtowardDavid。
  Terrorseizeduponthesouloftheboy。Hewassickwithit。Foramomenthesatperfectlystillandthenhisbodystiffenedandhesprangtohisfeet。
  Hisfacebecameaswhiteasthefleeceofthelambthat,nowfindingitselfsuddenlyreleased,randownthehill。Davidranalso。Fearmadehisfeetfly。Overthelowbushesandlogsheleapedfrantically。Asheranheputhishandintohispocketandtookoutthebranchedstickfromwhichtheslingforshootingsquirrelswassuspended。Whenhecametothecreekthatwasshallowandsplasheddownoverthestones,hedashedintothewaterandturnedtolookback,andwhenhesawhisgrandfatherstillrunningtowardhimwiththelongknifeheldtightlyinhishandhedidnothesitate,butreachingdown,se-
  lectedastoneandputitinthesling。Withallhisstrengthhedrewbacktheheavyrubberbandsandthestonewhistledthroughtheair。IthitJesse,whohadentirelyforgottentheboyandwaspursuingthelamb,squarelyinthehead。Withagroanhepitchedforwardandfellalmostattheboy'sfeet。WhenDavidsawthathelaystillandthathewasappar-
  entlydead,hisfrightincreasedimmeasurably。Itbe-
  cameaninsanepanic。
  Withacryheturnedandranoffthroughthewoodsweepingconvulsively。"Idon'tcare——Ikilledhim,butIdon'tcare,"hesobbed。AsheranonandonhedecidedsuddenlythathewouldnevergobackagaintotheBentleyfarmsortothetownofWinesburg。"IhavekilledthemanofGodandnowIwillmyselfbeamanandgointotheworld,"hesaidstoutlyashestoppedrunningandwalkedrap-
  idlydownaroadthatfollowedthewindingsofWineCreekasitranthroughfieldsandforestsintothewest。
  OnthegroundbythecreekJesseBentleymoveduneasilyabout。Hegroanedandopenedhiseyes。
  Foralongtimehelayperfectlystillandlookedatthesky。Whenatlasthegottohisfeet,hismindwasconfusedandhewasnotsurprisedbytheboy'sdisappearance。BytheroadsidehesatdownonalogandbegantotalkaboutGod。Thatisalltheyevergotoutofhim。WheneverDavid'snamewasmentionedhelookedvaguelyattheskyandsaidthatamessengerfromGodhadtakentheboy。"IthappenedbecauseIwastoogreedyforglory,"hedeclared,andwouldhavenomoretosayinthematter。
  AMANOFIDEAS
  HELIVEDWITHhismother,agrey,silentwomanwithapeculiarashycomplexion。Thehouseinwhichtheylivedstoodinalittlegroveoftreesbe-
  yondwherethemainstreetofWinesburgcrossedWineCreek。HisnamewasJoeWelling,andhisfa-
  therhadbeenamanofsomedignityinthecommu-
  nity,alawyer,andamemberofthestatelegislatureatColumbus。Joehimselfwassmallofbodyandinhischaracterunlikeanyoneelseintown。Hewaslikeatinylittlevolcanothatliessilentfordaysandthensuddenlyspoutsfire。No,hewasn'tlikethat——
  hewaslikeamanwhoissubjecttofits,onewhowalksamonghisfellowmeninspiringfearbecauseafitmaycomeuponhimsuddenlyandblowhimawayintoastrangeuncannyphysicalstateinwhichhiseyesrollandhislegsandarmsjerk。Hewaslikethat,onlythatthevisitationthatdescendeduponJoeWellingwasamentalandnotaphysicalthing。
  Hewasbesetbyideasandinthethroesofoneofhisideaswasuncontrollable。Wordsrolledandtumbledfromhismouth。Apeculiarsmilecameuponhislips。Theedgesofhisteeththatweretippedwithgoldglistenedinthelight。Pouncinguponaby-
  standerhebegantotalk。Forthebystandertherewasnoescape。Theexcitedmanbreathedintohisface,peeredintohiseyes,poundeduponhischestwithashakingforefinger,demanded,compelledattention。
  InthosedaystheStandardOilCompanydidnotdeliveroiltotheconsumerinbigwagonsandmotortrucksasitdoesnow,butdeliveredinsteadtoretailgrocers,hardwarestores,andthelike。JoewastheStandardOilagentinWinesburgandinseveraltownsupanddowntherailroadthatwentthroughWinesburg。Hecollectedbills,bookedorders,anddidotherthings。Hisfather,thelegislator,hadse-
  curedthejobforhim。
  InandoutofthestoresofWinesburgwentJoeWelling——silent,excessivelypolite,intentuponhisbusiness。Menwatchedhimwitheyesinwhichlurkedamusementtemperedbyalarm。Theywerewaitingforhimtobreakforth,preparingtoflee。
  Althoughtheseizuresthatcameuponhimwereharmlessenough,theycouldnotbelaughedaway。
  Theywereoverwhelming。Astrideanidea,Joewasovermastering。Hispersonalitybecamegigantic。Itoverrodethemantowhomhetalked,swepthimaway,sweptallaway,allwhostoodwithinsoundofhisvoice。
  InSylvesterWest'sDrugStorestoodfourmenwhoweretalkingofhorseracing。WesleyMoyer'sstallion,TonyTip,wastoraceattheJunemeetingatTiffin,Ohio,andtherewasarumorthathewouldmeetthestiffestcompetitionofhiscareer。ItwassaidthatPopGeers,thegreatracingdriver,wouldhimselfbethere。AdoubtofthesuccessofTonyTiphungheavyintheairofWinesburg。
  IntothedrugstorecameJoeWelling,brushingthescreendoorviolentlyaside。Withastrangeab-
  sorbedlightinhiseyeshepounceduponEdThomas,hewhoknewPopGeersandwhoseopin-
  ionofTonyTip'schanceswasworthconsidering。
  "ThewaterisupinWineCreek,"criedJoeWel-
  lingwiththeairofPheidippidesbringingnewsofthevictoryoftheGreeksinthestruggleatMara-
  thon。HisfingerbeatatattoouponEdThomas'sbroadchest。"ByTrunionbridgeitiswithinelevenandahalfinchesoftheflooring,"hewenton,thewordscomingquicklyandwithalittlewhistlingnoisefrombetweenhisteeth。Anexpressionofhelp-
  lessannoyancecreptoverthefacesofthefour。
  "Ihavemyfactscorrect。Dependuponthat。I
  wenttoSinnings'HardwareStoreandgotarule。
  ThenIwentbackandmeasured。Icouldhardlybe-
  lievemyowneyes。Ithasn'trainedyouseefortendays。AtfirstIdidn'tknowwhattothink。Thoughtsrushedthroughmyhead。Ithoughtofsubterraneanpassagesandsprings。Downunderthegroundwentmymind,delvingabout。Isatonthefloorofthebridgeandrubbedmyhead。Therewasn'tacloudinthesky,notone。Comeoutintothestreetandyou'llsee。Therewasn'tacloud。Thereisn'tacloudnow。Yes,therewasacloud。Idon'twanttokeepbackanyfacts。Therewasacloudinthewestdownnearthehorizon,acloudnobiggerthanaman'shand。
  "NotthatIthinkthathasanythingtodowithit。
  Thereitis,yousee。YouunderstandhowpuzzledI
  was。
  "Thenanideacametome。Ilaughed。You'lllaugh,too。OfcourseitrainedoverinMedinaCounty。That'sinteresting,eh?Ifwehadnotrains,nomails,notelegraph,wewouldknowthatitrainedoverinMedinaCounty。That'swhereWineCreekcomesfrom。Everyoneknowsthat。LittleoldWineCreekbroughtusthenews。That'sinteresting。
  Ilaughed。IthoughtI'dtellyou——it'sinteresting,eh?"
  JoeWellingturnedandwentoutatthedoor。Tak-
  ingabookfromhispocket,hestoppedandranafingerdownoneofthepages。Againhewasab-
  sorbedinhisdutiesasagentoftheStandardOilCompany。"Hern'sGrocerywillbegettinglowoncoaloil。I'llseethem,"hemuttered,hurryingalongthestreet,andbowingpolitelytotherightandleftatthepeoplewalkingpast。
  WhenGeorgeWillardwenttoworkfortheWines-
  burgEaglehewasbesiegedbyJoeWelling。Joeen-
  viedtheboy。ItseemedtohimthathewasmeantbyNaturetobeareporteronanewspaper。"ItiswhatIshouldbedoing,thereisnodoubtofthat,"
  hedeclared,stoppingGeorgeWillardontheside-
  walkbeforeDaugherty'sFeedStore。Hiseyesbegantoglistenandhisforefingertotremble。"OfcourseImakemoremoneywiththeStandardOilCompanyandI'monlytellingyou,"headded。"I'vegotnoth-
  ingagainstyoubutIshouldhaveyourplace。Icoulddotheworkatoddmoments。HereandthereI
  wouldrunfindingoutthingsyou'llneversee。"
  BecomingmoreexcitedJoeWellingcrowdedtheyoungreporteragainstthefrontofthefeedstore。
  Heappearedtobelostinthought,rollinghiseyesaboutandrunningathinnervoushandthroughhishair。Asmilespreadoverhisfaceandhisgoldteethglittered。"Yougetoutyournotebook,"hecom-
  manded。"Youcarryalittlepadofpaperinyourpocket,don'tyou?Iknewyoudid。Well,yousetthisdown。Ithoughtofittheotherday。Let'stakedecay。Nowwhatisdecay?It'sfire。Itburnsupwoodandotherthings。Youneverthoughtofthat?
  Ofcoursenot。Thissidewalkhereandthisfeedstore,thetreesdownthestreetthere——they'reallonfire。They'reburningup。Decayyouseeisalwaysgoingon。Itdoesn'tstop。Waterandpaintcan'tstopit。Ifathingisiron,thenwhat?Itrusts,yousee。
  That'sfire,too。Theworldisonfire。Startyourpiecesinthepaperthatway。Justsayinbigletters'TheWorldIsOnFire。'Thatwillmake'emlookup。
  They'llsayyou'reasmartone。Idon'tcare。Idon'tenvyyou。Ijustsnatchedthatideaoutoftheair。I
  wouldmakeanewspaperhum。Yougottoadmitthat。"'
  Turningquickly,JoeWellingwalkedrapidlyaway。
  Whenhehadtakenseveralstepshestoppedandlookedback。"I'mgoingtosticktoyou,"hesaid。
  "I'mgoingtomakeyouaregularhummer。Ishouldstartanewspapermyself,that'swhatIshoulddo。
  I'dbeamarvel。Everybodyknowsthat。"
  WhenGeorgeWillardhadbeenforayearontheWinesburgEagle,fourthingshappenedtoJoeWel-
  ling。Hismotherdied,hecametoliveattheNewWillardHouse,hebecameinvolvedinaloveaffair,andheorganizedtheWinesburgBaseballClub。
  Joeorganizedthebaseballclubbecausehewantedtobeacoachandinthatpositionhebegantowintherespectofhistownsmen。"Heisawonder,"theydeclaredafterJoe'steamhadwhippedtheteamfromMedinaCounty。"Hegetseverybodyworkingtogether。Youjustwatchhim。"
  UponthebaseballfieldJoeWellingstoodbyfirstbase,hiswholebodyquiveringwithexcitement。Inspiteofthemselvesalltheplayerswatchedhimclosely。Theopposingpitcherbecameconfused。
  "Now!Now!Now!Now!"shoutedtheexcitedman。"Watchme!Watchme!Watchmyfingers!
  Watchmyhands!Watchmyfeet!Watchmyeyes!
  Let'sworktogetherhere!Watchme!Inmeyouseeallthemovementsofthegame!Workwithme!
  Workwithme!Watchme!Watchme!Watchme!"
  WithrunnersoftheWinesburgteamonbases,JoeWellingbecameasoneinspired。Beforetheyknewwhathadcomeoverthem,thebaserunnerswerewatchingtheman,edgingoffthebases,advancing,retreating,heldasbyaninvisiblecord。TheplayersoftheopposingteamalsowatchedJoe。Theywerefascinated。Foramomenttheywatchedandthen,asthoughtobreakaspellthathungoverthem,theybeganhurlingtheballwildlyabout,andamidase-
  riesoffierceanimal-likecriesfromthecoach,therunnersoftheWinesburgteamscamperedhome。
  JoeWelling'sloveaffairsetthetownofWinesburgonedge。Whenitbeganeveryonewhisperedandshookhishead。Whenpeopletriedtolaugh,thelaughterwasforcedandunnatural。JoefellinlovewithSarahKing,alean,sad-lookingwomanwholivedwithherfatherandbrotherinabrickhousethatstoodoppositethegateleadingtotheWines-
  burgCemetery。
  ThetwoKings,Edwardthefather,andTomtheson,werenotpopularinWinesburg。Theywerecalledproudanddangerous。TheyhadcometoWinesburgfromsomeplaceintheSouthandranacidermillontheTrunionPike。TomKingwasre-
  portedtohavekilledamanbeforehecametoWinesburg。Hewastwenty-sevenyearsoldandrodeabouttownonagreypony。Alsohehadalongyellowmustachethatdroppeddownoverhisteeth,andalwayscarriedaheavy,wicked-lookingwalkingstickinhishand。Oncehekilledadogwiththestick。ThedogbelongedtoWinPawsey,theshoemerchant,andstoodonthesidewalkwaggingitstail。TomKingkilleditwithoneblow。Hewasar-
  restedandpaidafineoftendollars。
  OldEdwardKingwassmallofstatureandwhenhepassedpeopleinthestreetlaughedaqueerun-
  mirthfullaugh。Whenhelaughedhescratchedhisleftelbowwithhisrighthand。Thesleeveofhiscoatwasalmostwornthroughfromthehabit。Ashewalkedalongthestreet,lookingnervouslyaboutandlaughing,heseemedmoredangerousthanhissilent,fierce-lookingson。
  WhenSarahKingbeganwalkingoutintheeve-
  ningwithJoeWelling,peopleshooktheirheadsinalarm。Shewastallandpaleandhaddarkringsunderhereyes。Thecouplelookedridiculousto-
  gether。UnderthetreestheywalkedandJoetalked。
  Hispassionateeagerprotestationsoflove,heardcomingoutofthedarknessbythecemeterywall,orfromthedeepshadowsofthetreesonthehillthatranuptotheFairGroundsfromWaterworksPond,wererepeatedinthestores。MenstoodbythebarintheNewWillardHouselaughingandtalkingofJoe'scourtship。Afterthelaughtercamethesilence。
  TheWinesburgbaseballteam,underhismanage-
  ment,waswinninggameaftergame,andthetownhadbeguntorespecthim。Sensingatragedy,theywaited,laughingnervously。
  LateonaSaturdayafternoonthemeetingbetweenJoeWellingandthetwoKings,theanticipationofwhichhadsetthetownonedge,tookplaceinJoeWelling'sroomintheNewWillardHouse。GeorgeWillardwasawitnesstothemeeting。Itcameaboutinthisway:
  WhentheyoungreporterwenttohisroomaftertheeveningmealhesawTomKingandhisfathersittinginthehalfdarknessinJoe'sroom。Thesonhadtheheavywalkingstickinhishandandsatnearthedoor。OldEdwardKingwalkednervouslyabout,scratchinghisleftelbowwithhisrighthand。Thehallwayswereemptyandsilent。
  GeorgeWillardwenttohisownroomandsatdownathisdesk。Hetriedtowritebuthishandtrembledsothathecouldnotholdthepen。Healsowalkednervouslyupanddown。LiketherestofthetownofWinesburghewasperplexedandknewnotwhattodo。
  Itwasseven-thirtyandfastgrowingdarkwhenJoeWellingcamealongthestationplatformtowardtheNewWillardHouse。Inhisarmsheheldabun-
  dleofweedsandgrasses。Inspiteoftheterrorthatmadehisbodyshake,GeorgeWillardwasamusedatthesightofthesmallspryfigureholdingthegrassesandhalfrunningalongtheplatform。
  Shakingwithfrightandanxiety,theyoungre-
  porterlurkedinthehallwayoutsidethedooroftheroominwhichJoeWellingtalkedtothetwoKings。
  Therehadbeenanoath,thenervousgiggleofoldEdwardKing,andthensilence。NowthevoiceofJoeWelling,sharpandclear,brokeforth。GeorgeWillardbegantolaugh。Heunderstood。Ashehadsweptallmenbeforehim,sonowJoeWellingwascarryingthetwomenintheroomofftheirfeetwithatidalwaveofwords。Thelistenerinthehallwalkedupanddown,lostinamazement。
  InsidetheroomJoeWellinghadpaidnoattentiontothegrumbledthreatofTomKing。Absorbedinanideaheclosedthedoorand,lightingalamp,spreadthehandfulofweedsandgrassesuponthefloor。"I'vegotsomethinghere,"heannouncedsol-
  emnly。"IwasgoingtotellGeorgeWillardaboutit,lethimmakeapieceoutofitforthepaper。I'mgladyou'rehere。IwishSarahwereherealso。I'vebeengoingtocometoyourhouseandtellyouofsomeofmyideas。They'reinteresting。Sarahwouldn'tletme。Shesaidwe'dquarrel。That'sfoolish。"
  Runningupanddownbeforethetwoperplexedmen,JoeWellingbegantoexplain。"Don'tyoumakeamistakenow,"hecried。"Thisissomethingbig。"
  Hisvoicewasshrillwithexcitement。"Youjustfol-
  lowme,you'llbeinterested。Iknowyouwill。Sup-
  posethis——supposeallofthewheat,thecorn,theoats,thepeas,thepotatoes,wereallbysomemira-
  clesweptaway。Nowhereweare,yousee,inthiscounty。Thereisahighfencebuiltallaroundus。
  We'llsupposethat。Noonecangetoverthefenceandallthefruitsoftheeartharedestroyed,nothingleftbutthesewildthings,thesegrasses。Wouldwebedonefor?Iaskyouthat。Wouldwebedonefor?"
  AgainTomKinggrowledandforamomenttherewassilenceintheroom。ThenagainJoeplungedintotheexpositionofhisidea。"Thingswouldgohardforatime。Iadmitthat。I'vegottoadmitthat。
  Nogettingaroundit。We'dbehardputtoit。Morethanonefatstomachwouldcavein。Buttheycouldn'tdownus。Ishouldsaynot。"
  TomKinglaughedgoodnaturedlyandtheshiv-
  ery,nervouslaughofEdwardKingrangthroughthehouse。JoeWellinghurriedon。"We'dbegin,yousee,tobreedupnewvegetablesandfruits。Soonwe'dregainallwehadlost。Mind,Idon'tsaythenewthingswouldbethesameastheold。Theywouldn't。Maybethey'dbebetter,maybenotsogood。That'sinteresting,eh?Youcanthinkaboutthat。Itstartsyourmindworking,nowdon'tit?"
  IntheroomtherewassilenceandthenagainoldEdwardKinglaughednervously。"Say,IwishSarahwashere,"criedJoeWelling。"Let'sgouptoyourhouse。Iwanttotellherofthis。"
  Therewasascrapingofchairsintheroom。ItwasthenthatGeorgeWillardretreatedtohisownroom。
  LeaningoutatthewindowhesawJoeWellinggoingalongthestreetwiththetwoKings。TomKingwasforcedtotakeextraordinarylongstridestokeeppacewiththelittleman。Ashestrodealong,heleanedover,listening——absorbed,fascinated。JoeWellingagaintalkedexcitedly。"Takemilkweednow,"hecried。"Alotmightbedonewithmilk-
  weed,eh?It'salmostunbelievable。Iwantyoutothinkaboutit。Iwantyoutwotothinkaboutit。
  Therewouldbeanewvegetablekingdomyousee。
  It'sinteresting,eh?It'sanidea。WaittillyouseeSarah,she'llgettheidea。She'llbeinterested。Sarahisalwaysinterestedinideas。Youcan'tbetoosmartforSarah,nowcanyou?Ofcourseyoucan't。Youknowthat。"
  ADVENTURE
  ALICEHINDMAN,awomanoftwenty-sevenwhenGeorgeWillardwasamereboy,hadlivedinWines-
  burgallherlife。SheclerkedinWinney'sDryGoodsStoreandlivedwithhermother,whohadmarriedasecondhusband。
  Alice'sstep-fatherwasacarriagepainter,andgiventodrink。Hisstoryisanoddone。Itwillbeworthtellingsomeday。
  Attwenty-sevenAlicewastallandsomewhatslight。Herheadwaslargeandovershadowedherbody。Hershoulderswerealittlestoopedandherhairandeyesbrown。Shewasveryquietbutbeneathaplacidexterioracontinualfermentwenton。
  Whenshewasagirlofsixteenandbeforeshebegantoworkinthestore,Alicehadanaffairwithayoungman。Theyoungman,namedNedCurrie,wasolderthanAlice。He,likeGeorgeWillard,wasemployedontheWinesburgEagleandforalongtimehewenttoseeAlicealmosteveryevening。Togetherthetwowalkedunderthetreesthroughthestreetsofthetownandtalkedofwhattheywoulddowiththeirlives。AlicewasthenaveryprettygirlandNedCurrietookherintohisarmsandkissedher。HebecameexcitedandsaidthingshedidnotintendtosayandAlice,betrayedbyherdesiretohavesome-
  thingbeautifulcomeintoherrathernarrowlife,alsogrewexcited。Shealsotalked。Theoutercrustofherlife,allofhernaturaldiffidenceandreserve,wastomawayandshegaveherselfovertotheemotionsoflove。When,lateinthefallofhersixteenthyear,NedCurriewentawaytoClevelandwherehehopedtogetaplaceonacitynewspaperandriseintheworld,shewantedtogowithhim。Withatremblingvoiceshetoldhimwhatwasinhermind。"Iwillworkandyoucanwork,"shesaid。"Idonotwanttoharnessyoutoaneedlessexpensethatwillpre-
  ventyourmakingprogress。Don'tmarrymenow。
  Wewillgetalongwithoutthatandwecanbeto-
  gether。Eventhoughweliveinthesamehousenoonewillsayanything。Inthecitywewillbeun-
  knownandpeoplewillpaynoattentiontous。"
  NedCurriewaspuzzledbythedeterminationandabandonofhissweetheartandwasalsodeeplytouched。Hehadwantedthegirltobecomehismis-
  tressbutchangedhismind。Hewantedtoprotectandcareforher。"Youdon'tknowwhatyou'retalk-
  ingabout,"hesaidsharply;"youmaybesureI'llletyoudonosuchthing。AssoonasIgetagoodjobI'llcomeback。Forthepresentyou'llhavetostayhere。It'stheonlythingwecando。"
  OntheeveningbeforeheleftWinesburgtotakeuphisnewlifeinthecity,NedCurriewenttocallonAlice。TheywalkedaboutthroughthestreetsforanhourandthengotarigfromWesleyMoyer'sliveryandwentforadriveinthecountry。Themooncameupandtheyfoundthemselvesunabletotalk。
  Inhissadnesstheyoungmanforgottheresolutionshehadmaderegardinghisconductwiththegirl。
  TheygotoutofthebuggyataplacewherealongmeadowrandowntothebankofWineCreekandthereinthedimlightbecamelovers。Whenatmid-
  nighttheyreturnedtotowntheywerebothglad。Itdidnotseemtothemthatanythingthatcouldhap-
  peninthefuturecouldblotoutthewonderandbeautyofthethingthathadhappened。"Nowwewillhavetosticktoeachother,whateverhappenswewillhavetodothat,"NedCurriesaidasheleftthegirlatherfather'sdoor。
  Theyoungnewspapermandidnotsucceedinget-
  tingaplaceonaClevelandpaperandwentwesttoChicago。ForatimehewaslonelyandwrotetoAlicealmosteveryday。Thenhewascaughtupbythelifeofthecity;hebegantomakefriendsandfoundnewinterestsinlife。InChicagoheboardedatahousewheretherewereseveralwomen。OneofthemattractedhisattentionandheforgotAliceinWinesburg。Attheendofayearhehadstoppedwritingletters,andonlyonceinalongtime,whenhewaslonelyorwhenhewentintooneofthecityparksandsawthemoonshiningonthegrassasithadshonethatnightonthemeadowbyWineCreek,didhethinkofheratall。
  InWinesburgthegirlwhohadbeenlovedgrewtobeawoman。Whenshewastwenty-twoyearsoldherfather,whoownedaharnessrepairshop,diedsuddenly。Theharnessmakerwasanoldsoldier,andafterafewmonthshiswifereceivedawidow'spension。Sheusedthefirstmoneyshegottobuyaloomandbecameaweaverofcarpets,andAlicegotaplaceinWinney'sstore。ForanumberofyearsnothingcouldhaveinducedhertobelievethatNedCurriewouldnotintheendreturntoher。
  Shewasgladtobeemployedbecausethedailyroundoftoilinthestoremadethetimeofwaitingseemlesslonganduninteresting。Shebegantosavemoney,thinkingthatwhenshehadsavedtwoorthreehundreddollarsshewouldfollowherlovertothecityandtryifherpresencewouldnotwinbackhisaffections。
  AlicedidnotblameNedCurrieforwhathadhap-
  penedinthemoonlightinthefield,butfeltthatshecouldnevermarryanotherman。ToherthethoughtofgivingtoanotherwhatshestillfeltcouldbelongonlytoNedseemedmonstrous。Whenotheryoungmentriedtoattractherattentionshewouldhavenothingtodowiththem。"Iamhiswifeandshallremainhiswifewhetherhecomesbackornot,"shewhisperedtoherself,andforallofherwillingnesstosupportherselfcouldnothaveunderstoodthegrowingmodernideaofawoman'sowningherselfandgivingandtakingforherownendsinlife。
  Aliceworkedinthedrygoodsstorefromeightinthemorninguntilsixatnightandonthreeeveningsaweekwentbacktothestoretostayfromsevenuntilnine。Astimepassedandshebecamemoreandmorelonelyshebegantopracticethedevicescommontolonelypeople。Whenatnightshewentupstairsintoherownroomshekneltonthefloortoprayandinherprayerswhisperedthingsshewantedtosaytoherlover。Shebecameattachedtoinanimateobjects,andbecauseitwasherown,couldnotbaretohaveanyonetouchthefurnitureofherroom。Thetrickofsavingmoney,begunforapurpose,wascarriedonaftertheschemeofgoingtothecitytofindNedCurriehadbeengivenup。Itbecameafixedhabit,andwhensheneedednewclothesshedidnotgetthem。Sometimesonrainyafternoonsinthestoreshegotoutherbankbookand,lettingitlieopenbeforeher,spenthoursdreamingimpossibledreamsofsavingmoneyenoughsothattheinterestwouldsupportbothherselfandherfuturehusband。
  "Nedalwayslikedtotravelabout,"shethought。
  "I'llgivehimthechance。SomedaywhenwearemarriedandIcansavebothhismoneyandmyown,wewillberich。Thenwecantraveltogetherallovertheworld。"
  InthedrygoodsstoreweeksranintomonthsandmonthsintoyearsasAlicewaitedanddreamedofherlover'sreturn。Heremployer,agreyoldmanwithfalseteethandathingreymustachethatdroopeddownoverhismouth,wasnotgiventoconversation,andsometimes,onrainydaysandinthewinterwhenastormragedinMainStreet,longhourspassedwhennocustomerscamein。Alicear-
  rangedandrearrangedthestock。Shestoodnearthefrontwindowwhereshecouldlookdownthede-
  sertedstreetandthoughtoftheeveningswhenshehadwalkedwithNedCurrieandofwhathehadsaid。"Wewillhavetosticktoeachothernow。"Thewordsechoedandre-echoedthroughthemindofthematuringwoman。Tearscameintohereyes。
  Sometimeswhenheremployerhadgoneoutandshewasaloneinthestoresheputherheadonthecounterandwept。"Oh,Ned,Iamwaiting,"shewhisperedoverandover,andallthetimethecreep-
  ingfearthathewouldnevercomebackgrewstrongerwithinher。
  Inthespringwhentherainshavepassedandbe-
  forethelonghotdaysofsummerhavecome,thecountryaboutWinesburgisdelightful。Thetownliesinthemidstofopenfields,butbeyondthefieldsarepleasantpatchesofwoodlands。Inthewoodedplacesaremanylittlecloisterednooks,quietplaceswhereloversgotositonSundayafternoons。Throughthetreestheylookoutacrossthefieldsandseefarmersatworkaboutthebarnsorpeopledrivingupanddownontheroads。Inthetownbellsringandoccasionallyatrainpasses,lookinglikeatoythinginthedistance。
  ForseveralyearsafterNedCurriewentawayAlicedidnotgointothewoodwiththeotheryoungpeopleonSunday,butonedayafterhehadbeengonefortwoorthreeyearsandwhenherlonelinessseemedunbearable,sheputonherbestdressandsetout。Findingalittleshelteredplacefromwhichshecouldseethetownandalongstretchofthefields,shesatdown。Fearofageandineffectualitytookpossessionofher。Shecouldnotsitstill,andarose。Asshestoodlookingoutoverthelandsome-
  thing,perhapsthethoughtofneverceasinglifeasitexpressesitselfintheflowoftheseasons,fixedhermindonthepassingyears。Withashiverofdread,sherealizedthatforherthebeautyandfresh-
  nessofyouthhadpassed。Forthefirsttimeshefeltthatshehadbeencheated。ShedidnotblameNedCurrieanddidnotknowwhattoblame。Sadnesssweptoverher。Droppingtoherknees,shetriedtopray,butinsteadofprayerswordsofprotestcametoherlips。"Itisnotgoingtocometome。Iwillneverfindhappiness。WhydoItellmyselflies?"
  shecried,andanoddsenseofreliefcamewiththis,herfirstboldattempttofacethefearthathadbe-
  comeapartofhereverydaylife。
  IntheyearwhenAliceHindmanbecametwenty-
  fivetwothingshappenedtodisturbthedullun-
  eventfulnessofherdays。HermothermarriedBushMilton,thecarriagepainterofWinesburg,andsheherselfbecameamemberoftheWinesburgMethod-
  istChurch。Alicejoinedthechurchbecauseshehadbecomefrightenedbythelonelinessofherpositioninlife。Hermother'ssecondmarriagehadempha-
  sizedherisolation。"Iambecomingoldandqueer。
  IfNedcomeshewillnotwantme。Inthecitywhereheislivingmenareperpetuallyyoung。Thereissomuchgoingonthattheydonothavetimetogrowold,"shetoldherselfwithagrimlittlesmile,andwentresolutelyaboutthebusinessofbecomingac-
  quaintedwithpeople。EveryThursdayeveningwhenthestorehadclosedshewenttoaprayermeetinginthebasementofthechurchandonSundayeveningattendedameetingofanorganizationcalledTheEpworthLeague。
  WhenWillHurley,amiddle-agedmanwhoclerkedinadrugstoreandwhoalsobelongedtothechurch,offeredtowalkhomewithhershedidnotprotest。
  "OfcourseIwillnotlethimmakeapracticeofbeingwithme,butifhecomestoseemeonceinalongtimetherecanbenoharminthat,"shetoldherself,stilldeterminedinherloyaltytoNedCurrie。
  Withoutrealizingwhatwashappening,Alicewastryingfeeblyatfirst,butwithgrowingdetermina-
  tion,togetanewholduponlife。Besidethedrugclerkshewalkedinsilence,butsometimesinthedarknessastheywentstolidlyalongsheputoutherhandandtouchedsoftlythefoldsofhiscoat。Whenheleftheratthegatebeforehermother'shouseshedidnotgoindoors,butstoodforamomentbythedoor。Shewantedtocalltothedrugclerk,toaskhimtositwithherinthedarknessontheporchbeforethehouse,butwasafraidhewouldnotun-
  derstand。"ItisnothimthatIwant,"shetoldher-
  self;"Iwanttoavoidbeingsomuchalone。IfIamnotcarefulIwillgrowunaccustomedtobeingwithpeople。"
  Duringtheearlyfallofhertwenty-seventhyearapassionaterestlessnesstookpossessionofAlice。Shecouldnotbeartobeinthecompanyofthedrugclerk,andwhen,intheevening,hecametowalkwithhershesenthimaway。Hermindbecamein-
  tenselyactiveandwhen,wearyfromthelonghoursofstandingbehindthecounterinthestore,shewenthomeandcrawledintobed,shecouldnotsleep。Withstaringeyesshelookedintothedark-
  ness。Herimagination,likeachildawakenedfromlongsleep,playedabouttheroom。Deepwithinhertherewassomethingthatwouldnotbecheatedbyphantasiesandthatdemandedsomedefiniteanswerfromlife。
  Alicetookapillowintoherarmsandheldittightlyagainstherbreasts。Gettingoutofbed,shearrangedablanketsothatinthedarknessitlookedlikeaformlyingbetweenthesheetsand,kneelingbesidethebed,shecaressedit,whisperingwordsoverandover,likearefrain。"Whydoesn'tsome-
  thinghappen?WhyamIleftherealone?"shemut-
  tered。AlthoughshesometimesthoughtofNedCurrie,shenolongerdependedonhim。Herdesirehadgrownvague。ShedidnotwantNedCurrieoranyotherman。Shewantedtobeloved,tohavesomethinganswerthecallthatwasgrowinglouderandlouderwithinher。
  AndthenonenightwhenitrainedAlicehadanadventure。Itfrightenedandconfusedher。Shehadcomehomefromthestoreatnineandfoundthehouseempty。BushMiltonhadgoneofftotownandhermothertothehouseofaneighbor。Alicewentupstairstoherroomandundressedinthedarkness。
  Foramomentshestoodbythewindowhearingtherainbeatagainsttheglassandthenastrangedesiretookpossessionofher。Withoutstoppingtothinkofwhatsheintendedtodo,sherandownstairsthroughthedarkhouseandoutintotherain。Asshestoodonthelittlegrassplotbeforethehouseandfeltthecoldrainonherbodyamaddesiretorunnakedthroughthestreetstookpossessionofher。
  Shethoughtthattherainwouldhavesomecre-
  ativeandwonderfuleffectonherbody。Notforyearshadshefeltsofullofyouthandcourage。Shewantedtoleapandrun,tocryout,tofindsomeotherlonelyhumanandembracehim。Onthebricksidewalkbeforethehouseamanstumbledhome-
  ward。Alicestartedtorun。Awild,desperatemoodtookpossessionofher。"WhatdoIcarewhoitis。
  Heisalone,andIwillgotohim,"shethought;andthenwithoutstoppingtoconsiderthepossibleresultofhermadness,calledsoftly。"Wait!"shecried。
  "Don'tgoaway。Whoeveryouare,youmustwait。"
  Themanonthesidewalkstoppedandstoodlis-
  tening。Hewasanoldmanandsomewhatdeaf。
  Puttinghishandtohismouth,heshouted。"What?
  Whatsay?"hecalled。
  Alicedroppedtothegroundandlaytrembling。
  Shewassofrightenedatthethoughtofwhatshehaddonethatwhenthemanhadgoneonhiswayshedidnotdaregettoherfeet,butcrawledonhandsandkneesthroughthegrasstothehouse。
  Whenshegottoherownroomsheboltedthedooranddrewherdressingtableacrossthedoorway。
  Herbodyshookaswithachillandherhandstrem-
  bledsothatshehaddifficultygettingintohernight-
  dress。Whenshegotintobedsheburiedherfaceinthepillowandweptbrokenheartedly。"Whatisthematterwithme?IwilldosomethingdreadfulifI
  amnotcareful,"shethought,andturningherfacetothewall,begantryingtoforceherselftofacebravelythefactthatmanypeoplemustliveanddiealone,eveninWinesburg。
  RESPECTABILITY
  IFYOUHAVElivedincitiesandhavewalkedintheparkonasummerafternoon,youhaveperhapsseen,blinkinginacornerofhisironcage,ahuge,grotesquekindofmonkey,acreaturewithugly,sag-
  ging,hairlessskinbelowhiseyesandabrightpur-
  pleunderbody。Thismonkeyisatruemonster。Inthecompletenessofhisuglinessheachievedakindofpervertedbeauty。Childrenstoppingbeforethecagearefascinated,menturnawaywithanairofdisgust,andwomenlingerforamoment,tryingper-
  hapstorememberwhichoneoftheirmaleacquain-
  tancesthethinginsomefaintwayresembles。