Oneeveningwhenhewasrecoveringfromalongdebauchthestrangercamereelingalongthemainstreetofthetown。TomHardsatinachairbeforetheNewWillardHousewithhisdaughter,thenachildoffive,onhisknees。BesidehimontheboardsidewalksatyoungGeorgeWillard。Thestrangerdroppedintoachairbesidethem。Hisbodyshookandwhenhetriedtotalkhisvoicetrembled。
Itwaslateeveninganddarknesslayoverthetownandovertherailroadthatranalongthefootofalittleinclinebeforethehotel。Somewhereinthedistance,offtothewest,therewasaprolongedblastfromthewhistleofapassengerengine。Adogthathadbeensleepingintheroadwayaroseandbarked。
Thestrangerbegantobabbleandmadeaprophecyconcerningthechildthatlayinthearmsoftheagnostic。
"Icameheretoquitdrinking,"hesaid,andtearsbegantorundownhischeeks。HedidnotlookatTomHard,butleanedforwardandstaredintothedarknessasthoughseeingavision。"Iranawaytothecountrytobecured,butIamnotcured。Thereisareason。"Heturnedtolookatthechildwhosatupverystraightonherfather'skneeandreturnedthelook。
ThestrangertouchedTomHardonthearm。
"DrinkisnottheonlythingtowhichIamad-
dicted,"hesaid。"Thereissomethingelse。Iamaloverandhavenotfoundmythingtolove。ThatisabigpointifyouknowenoughtorealizewhatI
mean。Itmakesmydestructioninevitable,yousee。
Therearefewwhounderstandthat。"
Thestrangerbecamesilentandseemedovercomewithsadness,butanotherblastfromthewhistleofthepassengerenginearousedhim。"Ihavenotlostfaith。Iproclaimthat。IhaveonlybeenbroughttotheplacewhereIknowmyfaithwillnotbereal-
ized,"hedeclaredhoarsely。Helookedhardatthechildandbegantoaddressher,payingnomoreat-
tentiontothefather。"Thereisawomancoming,"
hesaid,andhisvoicewasnowsharpandearnest。
"Ihavemissedher,yousee。Shedidnotcomeinmytime。Youmaybethewoman。Itwouldbelikefatetoletmestandinherpresenceonce,onsuchaneveningasthis,whenIhavedestroyedmyselfwithdrinkandsheisasyetonlyachild。"
Theshouldersofthestrangershookviolently,andwhenhetriedtorollacigarettethepaperfellfromhistremblingfingers。Hegrewangryandscolded。
"Theythinkit'seasytobeawoman,tobeloved,butIknowbetter,"hedeclared。Againheturnedtothechild。"Iunderstand,"hecried。"PerhapsofallmenIaloneunderstand。"
Hisglanceagainwanderedawaytothedarkenedstreet。"Iknowabouther,althoughshehasnevercrossedmypath,"hesaidsoftly。"Iknowaboutherstrugglesandherdefeats。Itisbecauseofherdefeatsthatsheistomethelovelyone。Outofherdefeatshasbeenbornanewqualityinwoman。Ihaveanameforit。IcallitTandy。ImadeupthenamewhenIwasatruedreamerandbeforemybodybecamevile。Itisthequalityofbeingstrongtobeloved。Itissomethingmenneedfromwomenandthattheydonotget。"
ThestrangeraroseandstoodbeforeTomHard。
Hisbodyrockedbackandforthandheseemedabouttofall,butinsteadhedroppedtohiskneesonthesidewalkandraisedthehandsofthelittlegirltohisdrunkenlips。Hekissedthemecstatically。
"BeTandy,littleone,"hepleaded。"Daretobestrongandcourageous。Thatistheroad。Ventureanything。Bebraveenoughtodaretobeloved。Besomethingmorethanmanorwoman。BeTandy。"
Thestrangeraroseandstaggeredoffdownthestreet。AdayortwolaterhegotaboardatrainandreturnedtohishomeinCleveland。Onthesummerevening,afterthetalkbeforethehotel,TomHardtookthegirlchildtothehouseofarelativewhereshehadbeeninvitedtospendthenight。Ashewentalonginthedarknessunderthetreesheforgotthebabblingvoiceofthestrangerandhismindreturnedtothemakingofargumentsbywhichhemightde-
stroymen'sfaithinGod。Hespokehisdaughter'snameandshebegantoweep。
"Idon'twanttobecalledthat,"shedeclared。"I
wanttobecalledTandy——TandyHard。"ThechildweptsobitterlythatTomHardwastouchedandtriedtocomforther。Hestoppedbeneathatreeand,takingherintohisarms,begantocaressher。"Begood,now,"hesaidsharply;butshewouldnotbequieted。Withchildishabandonshegaveherselfovertogrief,hervoicebreakingtheeveningstillnessofthestreet。"IwanttobeTandy。IwanttobeTandy。IwanttobeTandyHard,"shecried,shak-
ingherheadandsobbingasthoughheryoungstrengthwerenotenoughtobearthevisionthewordsofthedrunkardhadbroughttoher。
THESTRENGTHOFGOD
THEREVERENDCurtisHartmanwaspastorofthePresbyterianChurchofWinesburg,andhadbeeninthatpositiontenyears。Hewasfortyyearsold,andbyhisnatureverysilentandreticent。Topreach,standinginthepulpitbeforethepeople,wasalwaysahardshipforhimandfromWednesdaymorninguntilSaturdayeveninghethoughtofnothingbutthetwosermonsthatmustbepreachedonSunday。
EarlyonSundaymorninghewentintoalittleroomcalledastudyinthebelltowerofthechurchandprayed。Inhisprayerstherewasonenotethatal-
wayspredominated。"GivemestrengthandcourageforThywork,OLord!"hepleaded,kneelingonthebarefloorandbowinghisheadinthepresenceofthetaskthatlaybeforehim。
TheReverendHartmanwasatallmanwithabrownbeard。Hiswife,astout,nervouswoman,wasthedaughterofamanufacturerofunderwearatCleveland,Ohio。Theministerhimselfwasratherafavoriteinthetown。TheeldersofthechurchlikedhimbecausehewasquietandunpretentiousandMrs。White,thebanker'swife,thoughthimschol-
arlyandrefined。
ThePresbyterianChurchhelditselfsomewhatalooffromtheotherchurchesofWinesburg。Itwaslargerandmoreimposinganditsministerwasbetterpaid。Heevenhadacarriageofhisownandonsummereveningssometimesdroveabouttownwithhiswife。ThroughMainStreetandupanddownBuckeyeStreethewent,bowinggravelytothepeo-
ple,whilehiswife,afirewithsecretpride,lookedathimoutofthecornersofhereyesandworriedlestthehorsebecomefrightenedandrunaway。
ForagoodmanyyearsafterhecametoWines-
burgthingswentwellwithCurtisHartman。Hewasnotonetoarousekeenenthusiasmamongthewor-
shippersinhischurchbutontheotherhandhemadenoenemies。Inrealityhewasmuchinearnestandsometimessufferedprolongedperiodsofre-
morsebecausehecouldnotgocryingthewordofGodinthehighwaysandbywaysofthetown。HewonderediftheflameofthespiritreallyburnedinhimanddreamedofadaywhenastrongsweetnewcurrentofpowerwouldcomelikeagreatwindintohisvoiceandhissoulandthepeoplewouldtremblebeforethespiritofGodmademanifestinhim。"I
amapoorstickandthatwillneverreallyhappentome,"hemuseddejectedly,andthenapatientsmilelituphisfeatures。"Ohwell,IsupposeI'mdoingwellenough,"headdedphilosophically。
Theroominthebelltowerofthechurch,whereonSundaymorningstheministerprayedforanin-
creaseinhimofthepowerofGod,hadbutonewindow。Itwaslongandnarrowandswungout-
wardonahingelikeadoor。Onthewindow,madeoflittleleadedpanes,wasadesignshowingtheChristlayinghishandupontheheadofachild。
OneSundaymorninginthesummerashesatbyhisdeskintheroomwithalargeBibleopenedbe-
forehim,andthesheetsofhissermonscatteredabout,theministerwasshockedtosee,intheupperroomofthehousenextdoor,awomanlyinginherbedandsmokingacigarettewhileshereadabook。
CurtisHartmanwentontiptoetothewindowandcloseditsoftly。Hewashorrorstrickenatthethoughtofawomansmokingandtrembledalsotothinkthathiseyes,justraisedfromthepagesofthebookofGod,hadlookeduponthebareshouldersandwhitethroatofawoman。Withhisbraininawhirlhewentdownintothepulpitandpreachedalongsermonwithoutoncethinkingofhisgesturesorhisvoice。Thesermonattractedunusualattentionbecauseofitspowerandclearness。"Iwonderifsheislistening,ifmyvoiceiscarryingamessageintohersoul,"hethoughtandbegantohopethatonfutureSundaymorningshemightbeabletosaywordsthatwouldtouchandawakenthewomanapparentlyfargoneinsecretsin。
ThehousenextdoortothePresbyterianChurch,throughthewindowsofwhichtheministerhadseenthesightthathadsoupsethim,wasoccupiedbytwowomen。AuntElizabethSwift,agreycompetent-
lookingwidowwithmoneyintheWinesburgNa-
tionalBank,livedtherewithherdaughterKateSwift,aschoolteacher。Theschoolteacherwasthirtyyearsoldandhadaneattrim-lookingfigure。
Shehadfewfriendsandboreareputationofhavingasharptongue。Whenhebegantothinkabouther,CurtisHartmanrememberedthatshehadbeentoEuropeandhadlivedfortwoyearsinNewYorkCity。"Perhapsafterallhersmokingmeansnoth-
ing,"hethought。Hebegantorememberthatwhenhewasastudentincollegeandoccasionallyreadnovels,goodalthoughsomewhatworldlywomen,hadsmokedthroughthepagesofabookthathadoncefallenintohishands。Witharushofnewdeter-
minationheworkedonhissermonsallthroughtheweekandforgot,inhiszealtoreachtheearsandthesoulofthisnewlistener,bothhisembarrassmentinthepulpitandthenecessityofprayerinthestudyonSundaymornings。
ReverendHartman'sexperiencewithwomenhadbeensomewhatlimited。HewasthesonofawagonmakerfromMuncie,Indiana,andhadworkedhiswaythroughcollege。Thedaughteroftheunder-
wearmanufacturerhadboardedinahousewherehelivedduringhisschooldaysandhehadmarriedherafteraformalandprolongedcourtship,carriedonforthemostpartbythegirlherself。Onhismar-
riagedaytheunderwearmanufacturerhadgivenhisdaughterfivethousanddollarsandhepromisedtoleaveheratleasttwicethatamountinhiswill。Theministerhadthoughthimselffortunateinmarriageandhadneverpermittedhimselftothinkofotherwomen。Hedidnotwanttothinkofotherwomen。
WhathewantedwastodotheworkofGodquietlyandearnestly。
Inthesouloftheministerastruggleawoke。FromwantingtoreachtheearsofKateSwift,andthroughhissermonstodelveintohersoul,hebegantowantalsotolookagainatthefigurelyingwhiteandquietinthebed。OnaSundaymorningwhenhecouldnotsleepbecauseofhisthoughtshearoseandwenttowalkinthestreets。WhenhehadgonealongMainStreetalmosttotheoldRichmondplacehestoppedandpickingupastonerushedofftotheroominthebelltower。WiththestonehebrokeoutacornerofthewindowandthenlockedthedoorandsatdownatthedeskbeforetheopenBibletowait。WhentheshadeofthewindowtoKateSwift'sroomwasraisedhecouldsee,throughthehole,directlyintoherbed,butshewasnotthere。ShealsohadarisenandhadgoneforawalkandthehandthatraisedtheshadewasthehandofAuntElizabethSwift。
Theministeralmostweptwithjoyatthisdeliver-
ancefromthecarnaldesireto"peep"andwentbacktohisownhousepraisingGod。Inanillmomentheforgot,however,tostoptheholeinthewindow。
ThepieceofglassbrokenoutatthecornerofthewindowjustnippedoffthebareheeloftheboystandingmotionlessandlookingwithrapteyesintothefaceoftheChrist。
CurtisHartmanforgothissermononthatSundaymorning。Hetalkedtohiscongregationandinhistalksaidthatitwasamistakeforpeopletothinkoftheirministerasamansetasideandintendedbynaturetoleadablamelesslife。"OutofmyownexperienceIknowthatwe,whoaretheministersofGod'sword,arebesetbythesametemptationsthatassailyou,"hedeclared。"Ihavebeentemptedandhavesurrenderedtotemptation。ItisonlythehandofGod,placedbeneathmyhead,thathasraisedmeup。Ashehasraisedmesoalsowillheraiseyou。
Donotdespair。Inyourhourofsinraiseyoureyestotheskiesandyouwillbeagainandagainsaved。"
Resolutelytheministerputthethoughtsofthewomaninthebedoutofhismindandbegantobesomethinglikealoverinthepresenceofhiswife。
OneeveningwhentheydroveouttogetherheturnedthehorseoutofBuckeyeStreetandinthedarknessonGospelHill,aboveWaterworksPond,puthisarmaboutSarahHartman'swaist。Whenhehadeatenbreakfastinthemorningandwasreadytoretiretohisstudyatthebackofhishousehewentaroundthetableandkissedhiswifeonthecheek。WhenthoughtsofKateSwiftcameintohishead,hesmiledandraisedhiseyestotheskies。
"Intercedeforme,Master,"hemuttered,"keepmeinthenarrowpathintentonThywork。"
Andnowbegantherealstruggleinthesoulofthebrown-beardedminister。Bychancehediscov-
eredthatKateSwiftwasinthehabitoflyinginherbedintheeveningsandreadingabook。Alampstoodonatablebythesideofthebedandthelightstreameddownuponherwhiteshouldersandbarethroat。Ontheeveningwhenhemadethediscoverytheministersatatthedeskinthedustyroomfromnineuntilafterelevenandwhenherlightwasputoutstumbledoutofthechurchtospendtwomorehourswalkingandprayinginthestreets。HedidnotwanttokisstheshouldersandthethroatofKateSwiftandhadnotallowedhismindtodwellonsuchthoughts。Hedidnotknowwhathewanted。
"IamGod'schildandhemustsavemefrommy-
self,"hecried,inthedarknessunderthetreesashewanderedinthestreets。Byatreehestoodandlookedattheskythatwascoveredwithhurryingclouds。HebegantotalktoGodintimatelyandclosely。"Please,Father,donotforgetme。Givemepowertogotomorrowandrepairtheholeinthewindow。Liftmyeyesagaintotheskies。Staywithme,Thyservant,inhishourofneed。"
Upanddownthroughthesilentstreetswalkedtheministerandfordaysandweekshissoulwastroubled。Hecouldnotunderstandthetemptationthathadcometohimnorcouldhefathomtherea-
sonforitscoming。InawayhebegantoblameGod,sayingtohimselfthathehadtriedtokeephisfeetinthetruepathandhadnotrunaboutseekingsin。
"ThroughmydaysasayoungmanandallthroughmylifehereIhavegonequietlyaboutmywork,"
hedeclared。"WhynowshouldIbetempted?WhathaveIdonethatthisburdenshouldbelaidonme?"
ThreetimesduringtheearlyfallandwinterofthatyearCurtisHartmancreptoutofhishousetotheroominthebelltowertositinthedarknesslookingatthefigureofKateSwiftlyinginherbedandlaterwenttowalkandprayinthestreets。Hecouldnotunderstandhimself。Forweekshewouldgoalongscarcelythinkingoftheschoolteacherandtellinghimselfthathehadconqueredthecarnalde-
siretolookatherbody。Andthensomethingwouldhappen。Ashesatinthestudyofhisownhouse,hardatworkonasermon,hewouldbecomener-
vousandbegintowalkupanddowntheroom。"I
willgooutintothestreets,"hetoldhimselfandevenashelethimselfinatthechurchdoorheper-
sistentlydeniedtohimselfthecauseofhisbeingthere。"IwillnotrepairtheholeinthewindowandIwilltrainmyselftocomehereatnightandsitinthepresenceofthiswomanwithoutraisingmyeyes。
Iwillnotbedefeatedinthisthing。TheLordhasdevisedthistemptationasatestofmysoulandI
willgropemywayoutofdarknessintothelightofrighteousness。"
OnenightinJanuarywhenitwasbittercoldandsnowlaydeeponthestreetsofWinesburgCurtisHartmanpaidhislastvisittotheroominthebelltowerofthechurch。Itwaspastnineo'clockwhenhelefthisownhouseandhesetoutsohurriedlythatheforgottoputonhisovershoes。InMainStreetnoonewasabroadbutHopHigginsthenightwatchmanandinthewholetownnoonewasawakebutthewatchmanandyoungGeorgeWillard,whosatintheofficeoftheWinesburgEagletryingtowriteastory。Alongthestreettothechurchwenttheminister,plowingthroughthedriftsandthinkingthatthistimehewouldutterlygivewaytosin。"I
wanttolookatthewomanandtothinkofkissinghershouldersandIamgoingtoletmyselfthinkwhatIchoose,"hedeclaredbitterlyandtearscameintohiseyes。Hebegantothinkthathewouldgetoutoftheministryandtrysomeotherwayoflife。
"Ishallgotosomecityandgetintobusiness,"hedeclared。"IfmynatureissuchthatIcannotresistsin,Ishallgivemyselfovertosin。AtleastIshallnotbeahypocrite,preachingthewordofGodwithmymindthinkingoftheshouldersandneckofawomanwhodoesnotbelongtome。"
ItwascoldintheroomofthebelltowerofthechurchonthatJanuarynightandalmostassoonashecameintotheroomCurtisHartmanknewthatifhestayedhewouldbeill。Hisfeetwerewetfromtrampinginthesnowandtherewasnofire。IntheroominthehousenextdoorKateSwifthadnotyetappeared。Withgrimdeterminationthemansatdowntowait。SittinginthechairandgrippingtheedgeofthedeskonwhichlaytheBiblehestaredintothedarknessthinkingtheblackestthoughtsofhislife。Hethoughtofhiswifeandforthemomentalmosthatedher。"Shehasalwaysbeenashamedofpassionandhascheatedme,"hethought。"Manhasarighttoexpectlivingpassionandbeautyinawoman。Hehasnorighttoforgetthatheisanani-
malandinmethereissomethingthatisGreek。I
willthrowoffthewomanofmybosomandseekotherwomen。Iwillbesiegethisschoolteacher。I
willflyinthefaceofallmenandifIamacreatureofcarnallustsIwilllivethenformylusts。"
Thedistractedmantrembledfromheadtofoot,partlyfromcold,partlyfromthestruggleinwhichhewasengaged。Hourspassedandafeverassailedhisbody。Histhroatbegantohurtandhisteethchattered。Hisfeetonthestudyfloorfeltliketwocakesofice。Stillhewouldnotgiveup。"IwillseethiswomanandwillthinkthethoughtsIhaveneverdaredtothink,"hetoldhimself,grippingtheedgeofthedeskandwaiting。
CurtisHartmancameneardyingfromtheeffectsofthatnightofwaitinginthechurch,andalsohefoundinthethingthathappenedwhathetooktobethewayoflifeforhim。Onothereveningswhenhehadwaitedhehadnotbeenabletosee,throughthelittleholeintheglass,anypartoftheschoolteacher'sroomexceptthatoccupiedbyherbed。Inthedarknesshehadwaiteduntilthewomansud-
denlyappearedsittinginthebedinherwhitenight-
robe。Whenthelightwasturnedupsheproppedherselfupamongthe'pillowsandreadabook。
Sometimesshesmokedoneofthecigarettes。Onlyherbareshouldersandthroatwerevisible。
OntheJanuarynight,afterhehadcomeneardyingwithcoldandafterhismindhadtwoorthreetimesactuallyslippedawayintoanoddlandoffan-
tasysothathehadbyanexerciseofwillpowertoforcehimselfbackintoconsciousness,KateSwiftappeared。Intheroomnextdooralampwaslightedandthewaitingmanstaredintoanemptybed。Thenuponthebedbeforehiseyesanakedwomanthrewherself。Lyingfacedownwardsheweptandbeatwithherfistsuponthepillow。Withafinaloutburstofweepingshehalfarose,andinthepresenceofthemanwhohadwaitedtolookandnottothinkthoughtsthewomanofsinbegantopray。Inthelamplightherfigure,slimandstrong,lookedlikethefigureoftheboyinthepresenceoftheChristontheleadedwindow。
CurtisHartmanneverrememberedhowhegotoutofthechurch。Withacryhearose,draggingtheheavydeskalongthefloor。TheBiblefell,makingagreatclatterinthesilence。Whenthelightinthehousenextdoorwentouthestumbleddownthestairwayandintothestreet。AlongthestreethewentandraninatthedooroftheWinesburgEagle。
ToGeorgeWillard,whowastrampingupanddownintheofficeundergoingastruggleofhisown,hebegantotalkhalfincoherently。"ThewaysofGodarebeyondhumanunderstanding,"hecried,run-
ninginquicklyandclosingthedoor。Hebegantoadvanceupontheyoungman,hiseyesglowingandhisvoiceringingwithfervor。"Ihavefoundthelight,"hecried。"Aftertenyearsinthistown,Godhasmanifestedhimselftomeinthebodyofawoman。"Hisvoicedroppedandhebegantowhis-
per。"Ididnotunderstand,"hesaid。"WhatItooktobeatrialofmysoulwasonlyapreparationforanewandmorebeautifulfervorofthespirit。GodhasappearedtomeinthepersonofKateSwift,theschoolteacher,kneelingnakedonabed。DoyouknowKateSwift?Althoughshemaynotbeawareofit,sheisaninstrumentofGod,bearingthemes-
sageoftruth。"
ReverendCurtisHartmanturnedandranoutoftheoffice。Atthedoorhestopped,andafterlookingupanddownthedesertedstreet,turnedagaintoGeorgeWillard。"Iamdelivered。Havenofear。"Heheldupableedingfistfortheyoungmantosee。"I
smashedtheglassofthewindow,"hecried。"Nowitwillhavetobewhollyreplaced。ThestrengthofGodwasinmeandIbrokeitwithmyfist。"
THETEACHER
SNOWLAYDEEPinthestreetsofWinesburg。Ithadbeguntosnowaboutteno'clockinthemorningandawindsprangupandblewthesnowincloudsalongMainStreet。Thefrozenmudroadsthatledintotownwerefairlysmoothandinplacesicecov-
eredthemud。"Therewillbegoodsleighing,"saidWillHenderson,standingbythebarinEdGriffith'ssaloon。OutofthesaloonhewentandmetSylvesterWestthedruggiststumblingalonginthekindofheavyovershoescalledarctics。"SnowwillbringthepeopleintotownonSaturday,"saidthedruggist。
Thetwomenstoppedanddiscussedtheiraffairs。
WillHenderson,whohadonalightovercoatandnoovershoes,kickedtheheelofhisleftfootwiththetoeoftheright。"Snowwillbegoodforthewheat,"observedthedruggistsagely。
YoungGeorgeWillard,whohadnothingtodo,wasgladbecausehedidnotfeellikeworkingthatday。TheweeklypaperhadbeenprintedandtakentothepostofficeWednesdayeveningandthesnowbegantofallonThursday。Ateighto'clock,afterthemorningtrainhadpassed,heputapairofskatesinhispocketandwentuptoWaterworksPondbutdidnotgoskating。PastthepondandalongapaththatfollowedWineCreekhewentuntilhecametoagroveofbeechtrees。Therehebuiltafireagainstthesideofalogandsatdownattheendofthelogtothink。Whenthesnowbegantofallandthewindtoblowhehurriedaboutgettingfuelforthefire。
TheyoungreporterwasthinkingofKateSwift,whohadoncebeenhisschoolteacher。Ontheeve-
ningbeforehehadgonetoherhousetogetabookshewantedhimtoreadandhadbeenalonewithherforanhour。Forthefourthorfifthtimethewomanhadtalkedtohimwithgreatearnestnessandhecouldnotmakeoutwhatshemeantbyhertalk。Hebegantobelieveshemustbeinlovewithhimandthethoughtwasbothpleasingandannoying。
Upfromtheloghesprangandbegantopilesticksonthefire。Lookingabouttobesurehewasalonehetalkedaloudpretendinghewasinthepresenceofthewoman,"Oh,,you'rejustlettingon,youknowyouare,"hedeclared。"Iamgoingtofindoutaboutyou。Youwaitandsee。"
Theyoungmangotupandwentbackalongthepathtowardtownleavingthefireblazinginthewood。Ashewentthroughthestreetstheskatesclankedinhispocket。InhisownroomintheNewWillardHousehebuiltafireinthestoveandlaydownontopofthebed。Hebegantohavelustfulthoughtsandpullingdowntheshadeofthewindowclosedhiseyesandturnedhisfacetothewall。Hetookapillowintohisarmsandembraceditthinkingfirstoftheschoolteacher,whobyherwordshadstirredsomethingwithinhim,andlaterofHelenWhite,theslimdaughterofthetownbanker,withwhomhehadbeenforalongtimehalfinlove。
Bynineo'clockofthateveningsnowlaydeepinthestreetsandtheweatherhadbecomebittercold。
Itwasdifficulttowalkabout。Thestoresweredarkandthepeoplehadcrawledawaytotheirhouses。
TheeveningtrainfromClevelandwasverylatebutnobodywasinterestedinitsarrival。Byteno'clockallbutfouroftheeighteenhundredcitizensofthetownwereinbed。
HopHiggins,thenightwatchman,waspartiallyawake。Hewaslameandcarriedaheavystick。Ondarknightshecarriedalantern。Betweennineandteno'clockhewenthisrounds。UpanddownMainStreethestumbledthroughthedriftstryingthedoorsofthestores。Thenhewentintoalleywaysandtriedthebackdoors。FindingalltighthehurriedaroundthecornertotheNewWillardHouseandbeatonthedoor。Throughtherestofthenightheintendedtostaybythestove。"Yougotobed。I'llkeepthestovegoing,"hesaidtotheboywhosleptonacotinthehoteloffice。
HopHigginssatdownbythestoveandtookoffhisshoes。Whentheboyhadgonetosleephebegantothinkofhisownaffairs。Heintendedtopainthishouseinthespringandsatbythestovecalculatingthecostofpaintandlabor。Thatledhimintoothercalculations。Thenightwatchmanwassixtyyearsoldandwantedtoretire。HehadbeenasoldierintheCivilWaranddrewasmallpension。Hehopedtofindsomenewmethodofmakingalivingandaspiredtobecomeaprofessionalbreederofferrets。
Alreadyhehadfourofthestrangelyshapedsavagelittlecreatures,thatareusedbysportsmeninthepursuitofrabbits,inthecellarofhishouse。"NowIhaveonemaleandthreefemales,"hemused。"IfIamluckybyspringIshallhavetwelveorfifteen。
InanotheryearIshallbeabletobeginadvertisingferretsforsaleinthesportingpapers。"
Thenightwatchmansettledintohischairandhismindbecameablank。Hedidnotsleep。Byyearsofpracticehehadtrainedhimselftositforhoursthroughthelongnightsneitherasleepnorawake。
Inthemorninghewasalmostasrefreshedasthoughhehadslept。
WithHopHigginssafelystowedawayinthechairbehindthestoveonlythreepeoplewereawakeinWinesburg。GeorgeWillardwasintheofficeoftheEaglepretendingtobeatworkonthewritingofastorybutinrealitycontinuingthemoodofthemorningbythefireinthewood。InthebelltowerofthePresbyterianChurchtheReverendCurtisHartmanwassittinginthedarknesspreparinghim-
selfforarevelationfromGod,andKateSwift,theschoolteacher,wasleavingherhouseforawalkinthestorm。
Itwaspastteno'clockwhenKateSwiftsetoutandthewalkwasunpremeditated。Itwasasthoughthemanandtheboy,bythinkingofher,haddrivenherforthintothewintrystreets。AuntElizabethSwifthadgonetothecountyseatconcerningsomebusinessinconnectionwithmortgagesinwhichshehadmoneyinvestedandwouldnotbebackuntilthenextday。Byahugestove,calledabaseburner,inthelivingroomofthehousesatthedaughterreadingabook。Suddenlyshesprangtoherfeetand,snatchingacloakfromarackbythefrontdoor,ranoutofthehouse。
AttheageofthirtyKateSwiftwasnotknowninWinesburgasaprettywoman。Hercomplexionwasnotgoodandherfacewascoveredwithblotchesthatindicatedillhealth。Aloneinthenightinthewinterstreetsshewaslovely。Herbackwasstraight,hershoulderssquare,andherfeatureswereasthefeaturesofatinygoddessonapedestalinagardeninthedimlightofasummerevening。
DuringtheafternoontheschoolteacherhadbeentoseeDoctorWellingconcerningherhealth。Thedoctorhadscoldedherandhaddeclaredshewasindangeroflosingherhearing。ItwasfoolishforKateSwifttobeabroadinthestorm,foolishandperhapsdangerous。
Thewomaninthestreetsdidnotrememberthewordsofthedoctorandwouldnothaveturnedbackhadsheremembered。Shewasverycoldbutafterwalkingforfiveminutesnolongermindedthecold。
FirstshewenttotheendofherownstreetandthenacrossapairofhayscalessetinthegroundbeforeafeedbarnandintoTrunionPike。AlongTrunionPikeshewenttoNedWinters'barnandturningeastfollowedastreetoflowframehousesthatledoverGospelHillandintoSuckerRoadthatrandownashallowvalleypastIkeSmead'schickenfarmtoWaterworksPond。Asshewentalong,thebold,ex-
citedmoodthathaddrivenheroutofdoorspassedandthenreturnedagain。
TherewassomethingbitingandforbiddinginthecharacterofKateSwift。Everyonefeltit。Intheschoolroomshewassilent,cold,andstern,andyetinanoddwayveryclosetoherpupils。Onceinalongwhilesomethingseemedtohavecomeoverherandshewashappy。Allofthechildrenintheschoolroomfelttheeffectofherhappiness。Foratimetheydidnotworkbutsatbackintheirchairsandlookedather。
Withhandsclaspedbehindherbacktheschoolteacherwalkedupanddownintheschoolroomandtalkedveryrapidly。Itdidnotseemtomatterwhatsubjectcameintohermind。OnceshetalkedtothechildrenofCharlesLambandmadeupstrange,inti-
matelittlestoriesconcerningthelifeofthedeadwriter。ThestoriesweretoldwiththeairofonewhohadlivedinahousewithCharlesLambandknewallthesecretsofhisprivatelife。Thechildrenweresomewhatconfused,thinkingCharlesLambmustbesomeonewhohadoncelivedinWinesburg。
Onanotheroccasiontheteachertalkedtothechil-
drenofBenvenutoCellini。Thattimetheylaughed。
Whatabragging,blustering,brave,lovablefellowshemadeoftheoldartist!Concerninghimalsosheinventedanecdotes。TherewasoneofaGermanmusicteacherwhohadaroomaboveCellini'slodg-
ingsinthecityofMilanthatmadetheboysguffaw。
SugarsMcNutts,afatboywithredcheeks,laughedsohardthathebecamedizzyandfelloffhisseatandKateSwiftlaughedwithhim。Thensuddenlyshebecameagaincoldandstern。
Onthewinternightwhenshewalkedthroughthedesertedsnow-coveredstreets,acrisishadcomeintothelifeoftheschoolteacher。AlthoughnooneinWinesburgwouldhavesuspectedit,herlifehadbeenveryadventurous。Itwasstilladventurous。
Daybydayassheworkedintheschoolroomorwalkedinthestreets,grief,hope,anddesirefoughtwithinher。Behindacoldexteriorthemostextraor-
dinaryeventstranspiredinhermind。Thepeopleofthetownthoughtofherasaconfirmedoldmaidandbecauseshespokesharplyandwentherownwaythoughtherlackinginallthehumanfeelingthatdidsomuchtomakeandmartheirownlives。
Inrealityshewasthemosteagerlypassionatesoulamongthem,andmorethanonce,inthefiveyearssinceshehadcomebackfromhertravelstosettleinWinesburgandbecomeaschoolteacher,hadbeencompelledtogooutofthehouseandwalkhalfthroughthenightfightingoutsomebattleragingwithin。OnceonanightwhenitrainedshehadstayedoutsixhoursandwhenshecamehomehadaquarrelwithAuntElizabethSwift。"Iamgladyou'renotaman,"saidthemothersharply。"MorethanonceI'vewaitedforyourfathertocomehome,notknowingwhatnewmesshehadgotinto。I'vehadmyshareofuncertaintyandyoucannotblamemeifIdonotwanttoseetheworstsideofhimreproducedinyou。"
KateSwift'smindwasablazewiththoughtsofGeorgeWillard。Insomethinghehadwrittenasaschoolboyshethoughtshehadrecognizedthesparkofgeniusandwantedtoblowonthespark。
OnedayinthesummershehadgonetotheEagleofficeandfindingtheboyunoccupiedhadtakenhimoutMainStreettotheFairGround,wherethetwosatonagrassybankandtalked。Theschoolteachertriedtobringhometothemindoftheboysomeconceptionofthedifficultieshewouldhavetofaceasawriter。"Youwillhavetoknowlife,"shedeclared,andhervoicetrembledwithearnestness。
ShetookholdofGeorgeWillard'sshouldersandturnedhimaboutsothatshecouldlookintohiseyes。Apasser-bymighthavethoughtthemabouttoembrace。"Ifyouaretobecomeawriteryou'llhavetostopfoolingwithwords,"sheexplained。"Itwouldbebettertogiveupthenotionofwritinguntilyouarebetterprepared。Nowit'stimetobeliving。Idon'twanttofrightenyou,butIwouldliketomakeyouunderstandtheimportofwhatyouthinkofattempting。Youmustnotbecomeamerepeddlerofwords。Thethingtolearnistoknowwhatpeoplearethinkingabout,notwhattheysay。"
OntheeveningbeforethatstormyThursdaynightwhentheReverendCurtisHartmansatinthebelltowerofthechurchwaitingtolookatherbody,youngWillardhadgonetovisittheteacherandtoborrowabook。Itwasthenthethinghappenedthatconfusedandpuzzledtheboy。Hehadthebookunderhisarmandwaspreparingtodepart。AgainKateSwifttalkedwithgreatearnestness。Nightwascomingonandthelightintheroomgrewdim。Asheturnedtogoshespokehisnamesoftlyandwithanimpulsivemovementtookholdofhishand。Be-
causethereporterwasrapidlybecomingamansomethingofhisman'sappeal,combinedwiththewinsomenessoftheboy,stirredtheheartofthelonelywoman。Apassionatedesiretohavehimun-
derstandtheimportoflife,tolearntointerpretittrulyandhonestly,sweptoverher。Leaningfor-
ward,herlipsbrushedhischeek。Atthesamemo-
mentheforthefirsttimebecameawareofthemarkedbeautyofherfeatures。Theywerebothem-
barrassed,andtorelieveherfeelingshebecameharshanddomineering。"What'stheuse?ItwillbetenyearsbeforeyoubegintounderstandwhatI
meanwhenItalktoyou,"shecriedpassionately。
Onthenightofthestormandwhiletheministersatinthechurchwaitingforher,KateSwiftwenttotheofficeoftheWinesburgEagle,intendingtohaveanothertalkwiththeboy。Afterthelongwalkinthesnowshewascold,lonely,andtired。AsshecamethroughMainStreetshesawthefightfromtheprintshopwindowshiningonthesnowandonanimpulseopenedthedoorandwentin。Foranhourshesatbythestoveintheofficetalkingoflife。Shetalkedwithpassionateearnestness。Theimpulsethathaddrivenheroutintothesnowpoureditselfoutintotalk。Shebecameinspiredasshesometimesdidinthepresenceofthechildreninschool。Agreateagernesstoopenthedooroflifetotheboy,whohadbeenherpupilandwhoshethoughtmightpos-
sessatalentfortheunderstandingoflife,hadpos-
sessionofher。Sostrongwasherpassionthatitbecamesomethingphysical。Againherhandstookholdofhisshouldersandsheturnedhimabout。Inthedimlighthereyesblazed。Shearoseandlaughed,notsharplyaswascustomarywithher,butinaqueer,hesitatingway。"Imustbegoing,"shesaid。"Inamoment,ifIstay,I'llbewantingtokissyou。"
Inthenewspaperofficeaconfusionarose。KateSwiftturnedandwalkedtothedoor。Shewasateacherbutshewasalsoawoman。AsshelookedatGeorgeWillard,thepassionatedesiretobelovedbyaman,thathadathousandtimesbeforesweptlikeastormoverherbody,tookpossessionofher。
InthelamplightGeorgeWillardlookednolongeraboy,butamanreadytoplaythepartofaman。
TheschoolteacherletGeorgeWillardtakeherintohisarms。Inthewarmlittleofficetheairbecamesuddenlyheavyandthestrengthwentoutofherbody。Leaningagainstalowcounterbythedoorshewaited。Whenhecameandputahandonhershoul-
dersheturnedandletherbodyfallheavilyagainsthim。ForGeorgeWillardtheconfusionwasimmedi-
atelyincreased。Foramomentheheldthebodyofthewomantightlyagainsthisbodyandthenitstiff-
ened。Twosharplittlefistsbegantobeatonhisface。
Whentheschoolteacherhadrunawayandlefthimalone,hewalkedupanddowntheofficeswearingfuriously。
ItwasintothisconfusionthattheReverendCurtisHartmanprotrudedhimself。WhenhecameinGeorgeWillardthoughtthetownhadgonemad。
Shakingableedingfistintheair,theministerpro-
claimedthewomanGeorgehadonlyamomentbe-
foreheldinhisarmsaninstrumentofGodbearingamessageoftruth。
Georgeblewoutthelampbythewindowandlockingthedooroftheprintshopwenthome。
Throughthehoteloffice,pastHopHigginslostinhisdreamoftheraisingofferrets,hewentandupintohisownroom。Thefireinthestovehadgoneoutandheundressedinthecold。Whenhegotintobedthesheetswerelikeblanketsofdrysnow。
GeorgeWillardrolledaboutinthebedonwhichhadlainintheafternoonhuggingthepillowandthinkingthoughtsofKateSwift。Thewordsoftheminister,whohethoughthadgonesuddenlyin-
sane,ranginhisears。Hiseyesstaredabouttheroom。Theresentment,naturaltothebaffledmale,passedandhetriedtounderstandwhathadhap-
pened。Hecouldnotmakeitout。Overandoverheturnedthematterinhismind。Hourspassedandhebegantothinkitmustbetimeforanotherdaytocome。Atfouro'clockhepulledthecoversupabouthisneckandtriedtosleep。Whenhebecamedrowsyandclosedhiseyes,heraisedahandandwithitgropedaboutinthedarkness。"Ihavemissedsome-
thing。IhavemissedsomethingKateSwiftwastry-
ingtotellme,"hemutteredsleepily。ThenhesleptandinallWinesburghewasthelastsoulonthatwinternighttogotosleep。
LONELINESS
HEWASTHEsonofMrs。AlRobinsonwhoonceownedafarmonasideroadleadingoffTrunionPike,eastofWinesburgandtwomilesbeyondthetownlimits。Thefarmhousewaspaintedbrownandtheblindstoallofthewindowsfacingtheroadwerekeptclosed。Intheroadbeforethehouseaflockofchickens,accompaniedbytwoguineahens,layinthedeepdust。EnochlivedinthehousewithhismotherinthosedaysandwhenhewasayoungboywenttoschoolattheWinesburgHighSchool。Oldcitizensrememberedhimasaquiet,smilingyouthinclinedtosilence。Hewalkedinthemiddleoftheroadwhenhecameintotownandsometimesreadabook。Driversofteamshadtoshoutandsweartomakehimrealizewherehewassothathewouldturnoutofthebeatentrackandletthempass。
Whenhewastwenty-oneyearsoldEnochwenttoNewYorkCityandwasacitymanforfifteenyears。HestudiedFrenchandwenttoanartschool,hopingtodevelopafacultyhehadfordrawing。InhisownmindheplannedtogotoParisandtofinishhisarteducationamongthemastersthere,butthatneverturnedout。
NothingeverturnedoutforEnochRobinson。Hecoulddrawwellenoughandhehadmanyodddeli-
catethoughtshiddenawayinhisbrainthatmighthaveexpressedthemselvesthroughthebrushofapainter,buthewasalwaysachildandthatwasahandicaptohisworldlydevelopment。Henevergrewupandofcoursehecouldn'tunderstandpeo-
pleandhecouldn'tmakepeopleunderstandhim。
Thechildinhimkeptbumpingagainstthings,againstactualitieslikemoneyandsexandopinions。
Oncehewashitbyastreetcarandthrownagainstanironpost。Thatmadehimlame。ItwasoneofthemanythingsthatkeptthingsfromturningoutforEnochRobinsonInNewYorkCity,whenhefirstwenttheretoliveandbeforehebecameconfusedanddisconcertedbythefactsoflife,Enochwentaboutagooddealwithyoungmen。Hegotintoagroupofotheryoungartists,bothmenandwomen,andintheeveningstheysometimescametovisithiminhisroom。Oncehegotdrunkandwastakentoapolicestationwhereapolicemagistratefrightenedhimhorribly,andoncehetriedtohaveanaffairwithawomanofthetownmetonthesidewalkbeforehislodginghouse。ThewomanandEnochwalkedtogetherthreeblocksandthentheyoungmangrewafraidandranaway。Thewomanhadbeendrinkingandtheincidentamusedher。Sheleanedagainstthewallofabuildingandlaughedsoheartilythatanothermanstoppedandlaughedwithher。Thetwowentawaytogether,stilllaughing,andEnochcreptofftohisroomtremblingandvexed。
TheroominwhichyoungRobinsonlivedinNewYorkfacedWashingtonSquareandwaslongandnarrowlikeahallway。Itisimportanttogetthatfixedinyourmind。ThestoryofEnochisinfactthestoryofaroomalmostmorethanitisthestoryofaman。
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