’I’msureIdonot,’saidMolly,boldly。’Ihavenotanotionwhatyoumeant,ifyouwerealludingtoanythingmorethanyousaidstraightout;
thatyoudonotwishmetomarryanyonewhohasnotagoodcharacter,andthat,asyouwereafriendofmamma’s,youwouldpreventmymarryingamanwithabadcharacter,byeverymeansinyourpower。I’mnotthinkingofmarrying;Idon’twanttomarryanybodyatall;butifIdid,andhewerenotagoodman,Ishouldthankyouforcomingandwarningmeofit。’
’Ishallnotstandonwarningyou,Molly。Ishallforbidthebannsinchurch,ifneedbe,’saidMissBrowning,halfconvincedofthecleartransparenttruthofwhatMollyhadsaid;blushingallover,itistrue,butwithhersteadyeyesfixedonMissBrowning’sfacewhileshespoke。
’Do!’saidMolly。
’Well,well,Iwon’tsayanymore。PerhapsIwasmistaken,Wewon’tsayanymoreaboutit。ButrememberwhatIhavesaid,Molly,there’snoharminthat,atanyrate。I’msorryIhurtyourfeelings,MrsGibson。
Asstepmothersgo,Ithinkyoutryanddoyourduty。Goodmorning。Good—bytoyouboth,andGodblessyou。’
IfMissBrowningthoughtthatherfinalblessingwouldsecurepeaceintheroomshewasleaving,shewasverymuchmistaken;MrsGibsonburstoutwith,—
’Tryanddomyduty,indeed!Ishouldbemuchobligedtoyou,Molly,ifyouwouldtakecarenottobehaveinsuchamannerastobringdownuponmesuchimpertinenceasIhavejustbeenreceivingfromMissBrowning。’
’ButIdon’tknowwhatmadehertalkasshedid,mamma,’saidMolly。
’I’msureIdon’tknow,andIdon’tcareeither。ButIknowthatIneverwasspokentoasifIwastryingtodomydutybefore,—"trying"indeed!
everybodyalwaysknewthatIdidit,withouttalkingaboutitbeforemyfaceinthatrudemanner。I’vethatdeepfeelingaboutdutythatIthinkitoughtonlytobetalkedaboutinchurch,andinsuchsacredplacesasthat;nottohaveacommoncallerstartlingonewithit,eventhoughshewasanearlyfriendofyourmother’s。AndasifIdidnotlookafteryouquiteasmuchasIlookafterCynthia!Why,itwasonlyyesterdayIwentupintoCynthia’sroomandfoundherreadingaletterthatsheputawayinahurryassoonasIcamein,andIdidnotevenaskherwhoitwasfrom,andIamsureIshouldhavemadeyoutellme。’
Verylikely。MrsGibsonshrankfromanyconflictswithCynthia,prettysurethatshewouldbeworstedintheend;whileMollygenerallysubmitted,soonerthanhaveanystruggleforherownwill。
JustthenCynthiacamein。
’What’sthematter?’saidshequickly,seeingthatsomethingwaswrong。
’Why,MollyhasbeendoingsomethingwhichhassetthatimpertinentMissBrowningoffintolecturingmeontryingtodomyduty!Ifyourpoorfatherhadbutlived,Cynthia,IshouldneverhavebeenspokentoasI
havebeen。"Astepmothertryingtodoherduty",indeed。ThatwasMissBrowning’sexpression。’
AnyallusiontoherfathertookfromCynthiaalldesireofirony。Shecameforwards,andagainaskedMollywhatwasthematter。
Molly,herselfruffled,madeanswer,—
’MissBrowningseemedtothinkIwaslikelytomarrysomeonewhosecharacterwasobjectionable——’
’You,Molly?’saidCynthia。
’Yes—sheoncebeforespoketome,—IsuspectshehasgotsomenotionaboutMrPrestoninherhead——’
Cynthiasatedownquitesuddenly。Mollywenton,—’andshespokeasifmammadidnotlookenoughafterme,—Ithinkshewasratherprovoking——’
’Notrather,butvery—veryimpertinent,’saidMrsGibson,alittlesoothedbyMolly’srecognitionofhergrievance。
’Whatcouldhaveputitintoherhead?’saidCynthia,veryquietly,takinguphersewingasshespoke。
’Idon’tknow,’saidhermother,replyingtothequestionafterherownfashion。’I’msureIdon’talwaysapproveofMrPreston;butevenifitwashimshewasthinkingabout,he’sfarmoreagreeablethansheis;
andIhadmuchratherhavehimcomingtocallthananoldmaidlikeheranyday。’
’Idon’tknowthatitwasMrPrestonshewasthinkingabout,’saidMolly。
’Itwasonlyaguess。WhenyouwerebothinLondonshespokeabouthim,—Ithoughtshehadheardsomethingaboutyouandhim,Cynthia。’UnseenbyhermotherCynthialookedupatMolly,hereyesfullofprohibition,hercheeksfullofangrycolour。Mollystoppedshortsuddenly。AfterthatlookshewassurprisedatthequietnesswithwhichCynthiasaid,almostimmediately,—
’Well,afterallitisonlyyourfancythatshewasalludingtoMrPreston,soperhapswehadbetternotsayanymoreabouthim;andasforheradvicetomammatolookafteryoubetter,MissMolly,I’llstandbailforyourgoodbehaviour;forbothmammaandIknowyou’rethelastpersontodoanyfoolishthingsinthatway。Andnowdon’tletustalkanymoreaboutit。IwascomingtotellyouthatHannahBrand’slittleboyhasbeenbadlyburnt,andhissisterisdownstairsaskingforoldlinen。’
MrsGibsonwasalwayskindtopoorpeople,andsheimmediatelygotupandwenttoherstorestosearchforthearticlewanted。
CynthiaturnedquietlyroundtoMolly。
’Molly,praydon’teveralludetoanythingbetweenmeandMrPreston,—nottomamma,nortoanyone。Neverdo!I’veareasonforit,—don’tsayanythingmoreaboutit,ever。’
MrsGibsoncamebackatthismoment,andMollyhadtostopshortagainonthebrinkofCynthia’sconfidence;uncertainindeedthistime,ifshewouldhavebeentoldanythingmore,andonlysurethatshehadannoyedCynthiaagooddeal。
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Theautumndriftedawaythroughallitsseasons;thegoldencorn—harvest,thewalksthroughthestubblefields,andramblesintohazel—copsesinsearchofnuts;thestrippingoftheapple—orchardsoftheirruddyfruit,amidthejoyouscriesandshoutsofwatchingchildren;andthegorgeoustulip—likecolouringofthelatertimehadnowcomeonwiththeshorteningdays。Therewascomparativesilenceintheland,exceptingforthedistantshotsandthewhirrofthepartridgesastheyroseupfromthefield。
EversinceMissBrowning’sunluckyconversationthingshadbeenajarintheGibsons’house。Cynthiaseemedtokeepeveryoneoutat(mental)
arm’s—length;andparticularlyavoidedanyprivatetalkswithMolly。MrsGibson,stillcherishingagrudgeagainstMissBrowningforherimpliedaccusationofnotlookingenoughafterMolly,chosetoexerciseamostwearyingsupervisionoverthepoorgirl。Itwas,’Wherehaveyoubeen,child?’’Whodidyousee?’’Whowasthatletterfrom?’’Whywereyousolongoutwhenyouhadonlytogotoso—and—so?’justasifMollyhadreallybeendetectedincarryingonsomeunderhandintercourse。Sheansweredeveryquestionaskedofherwiththesimpletruthfulnessofperfectinnocence;
buttheinquiries(althoughshereadtheirmotive,andknewthattheyarosefromnoespecialsuspicionofherconduct,butonlythatMrsGibsonmightbeabletosaythatshelookedwellafterherstepdaughter),chafedherinexpressibly。Veryoftenshedidnotgooutatall,soonerthanhavetogiveaplanofherintendedproceedings,whenperhapsshehadnoplanatall,onlythoughtofwanderingoutatherownsweetwill,andoftakingpleasureinthebrightsolemnfadingoftheyear。ItwasaveryheavytimeforMolly,—zestandlifehadfled;andleftsomanyoftheolddelightsmereshellsofseeming。Shethoughtitwasthatheryouthhadfled;atnineteen!Cynthiawasnolongerthesame,somehow;andperhapsCynthia’schangewouldinjureherinthedistantRoger’sopinion。HerstepmotherseemedalmostkindincomparisonwithCynthia’swithdrawalofherheart;
MrsGibsonworriedhertobesure,withalltheseformsofwatchingoverher;butinallherotherways,she,atanyrate,wasthesame。YetCynthiaherself,seemedanxiousandcare—worn,thoughshewouldnotspeakofheranxietiestoMolly。AndthenthepoorgirlinhergoodnesswouldblameherselfforfeelingCynthia’schangeofmanner;forasMollysaidtoherself,’IfitishardworkformetohelpalwaysfrettingafterRoger,andwonderingwhereheis,andhowheis;whatmustitbeforher?’
OnedayMrGibsoncamein,brightandswift。
’Molly,’saidhe,’where’sCynthia?’
’Goneouttodosomeerrands——’
’Well,it’sapity—butnevermind。Putonyourbonnetandcloakasfastasyoucan。I’vehadtoborrowoldSimpson’sdogcart,—therewouldhavebeenroombothforyouandCynthia;butasitis,youmustwalkbackalone。I’lldriveyouasfarontheBarfordRoadasIcan,andthenyoumustjumpdown。Ican’ttakeyouontoBroadhurst’s,Imaybekeptthereforhours。’
MrsGibsonwasoutoftheroom;outofthehouseitmightbe,forallMollycared,nowshehadherfather’sleaveandcommand。Herbonnetandcloakwereonintwominutes,andshewassittingbyherfather’sside,thebackscatshutup,andthelightweightgoingswiftlyandmerrilybumpingoverthestone—pavedlanes。
’Oh,thisischarming,’saidMolly,afteratoss—uponherseatfromatremendousbump。
’Foryouth,butnotforcrabbedage,’saidMrGibson。’Mybonesaregettingrheumatic,andwouldrathergosmoothlyovermacadamizedstreets。’
’That’streasontothislovelyviewandthisfinepureair,papa。OnlyIdon’tbelieveyou。’
’Thankyou。Asyouaresocomplimentary,IthinkIshallputyoudownatthefootofthishill;wehavepassedthesecondmilestonefromHollingford。’
’Oh,letmejustgouptothetop!IknowwecanseethebluerangeoftheMalvernsfromit,andDorrimerHallamongthewoods;thehorsewillwantaminute’srest,andthenIwillgetdownwithoutaword。’
Soshewentuptothetopofthehill;andtheretheysatestillaminuteortwo,enjoyingtheview,withoutmuchspeaking。Thewoodsweregolden,theoldhouseofpurple—redbrick,withitstwistedchimneys,roseupfromamongthemfacingontogreenlawns,andaplacidlake;beyondagainweretheMalvernHills!
’Nowjumpdown,lassie,andmakethebestofyourwayhomebeforeitgetsdark。You’llfindthecutoverCrostonHeathshorterthantheroadwe’vecomeby。’
TogettoCrostonHeath,Mollyhadtogodownanarrowlaneovershadowedbytrees,withpicturesqueoldcottagesdottedhereandthereonthesteepsandybanks;andthentherecameasmallwood,andthentherewasabrooktobecrossedonaplank—bridge,andupthesteeperfieldsontheoppositesidewerecutstepsintheturfypath,whichended,shewasonCrostonHeath,awide—stretchingcommonskirtedbylabourers’dwellings,pastwhichanearroadtoHollingfordlay。
Theloneliestpartoftheroadwasthefirst—thelane,thewood,thelittlebridge,andtheclamberingthroughtheuplandfields。ButMollycaredlittleforloneliness。Shewentalongthelaneundertheover—archingelm—branches,fromwhich,hereandthere,ayellowleafcamefloatingdownuponherverydress;pastthelastcottagewherealittlechildhadtumbleddowntheslopingbank,andwaspublishingtheaccidentwithfrightenedcries。Mollystoopedtopickitup,andtakingitinherarmsinamannerwhichcausedintensesurprisetotaketheplaceofalarminitslittlebreast,shecarriedituptheroughflagstepstowardsthecottagewhichshesupposedtobeitshome。Themothercamerunninginfromthegardenbehindthehouse,stillholdingthelatedamsonsshehadbeengatheringinherapron;but,onseeingher,thelittlecreatureheldoutitsarmstogotoher,andshedroppedherdamsonsallaboutasshetookit,andbegantosootheitasitcriedafresh,interspersingherlullingwiththankstoMolly。Shecalledherbyhername;andonMollyaskingthewomanhowshecametoknowit,sherepliedthatshehadbeenaservantofMrsGoodenoughbeforehermarriage,andsowas’boundtoknowDrGibson’sdaughterbysight。’Aftertheexchangeoftwoorthreemorewords,Mollyrandownintothelane,andpursuedherway,stoppinghereandtheretogatheranosegayofsuchleavesasstruckherfortheirbrilliantcolouring。Sheenteredthewood。Assheturnedacornerinthelonelypath,sheheardapassionatevoiceofdistress;andinaninstantsherecognizedCynthia’stones。Shestoodstillandlookedaround。Thereweresomehollybushesshiningoutdarkgreeninthemidstoftheamberandscarletfoliage。Ifanyonewasthere,itmustbebehindthesethickbushes。SoMollyleftthepath,andwentstraight,plungingthroughthebrowntangledgrowthoffernsandunderwood,andturnedthehollybushes。TherestoodMrPrestonandCynthia;heholdingherhandstight,eachlookingasifjustsilencedinsomevehementtalkbytherustleofMolly’sfootsteps。
Foraninstantnoonespoke。ThenCynthiasaid—,’Oh,Molly,Molly,comeandjudgebetweenus!’
MrPrestonletgoCynthia’shandsslowly,withalookthatwasmoreofasneerthana,smile;andyethe,too,hadbeenstronglyagitated,whateverwasthesubjectindispute。MollycameforwardsandtookCynthia’sarm,hereyessteadilyfixedonMrPreston’sface。Itwasfinetoseethefearlessnessofherperfectinnocence。Hecouldnotbearherlook,andsaidtoCynthia,—
’Thesubjectofourconversationdoesnotwelladmitofathirdperson’spresence。AsMissGibsonseemstowishforyourcompanynow,Imustbegyoutofixsomeothertimeandplacewherewecanfinishourdiscussion。’
’IwillgoifCynthiawishesme,’saidMolly。
’No,no;stay—Iwantyoutostay—Iwantyoutohearitall—IwishIhadtoldyousooner。’
’Youmeanthatyouregretthatshehasnotbeenmadeawareofourengagement—thatyoupromisedlongagotobemywife。Prayrememberthatitwasyouwhomademepromisesecrecy,notIyou?’
’Idon’tbelievehim,Cynthia。Don’t,don’tcryifyoucanhelpit;
Idon’tbelievehim。’
’Cynthia,’saidhe,suddenlychanginghistonetofervidtenderness,’pray,praydonotgoonso;youcan’tthinkhowitdistressesme。’Hesteppedforwardstotryandtakeherhandandsootheher;butsheshrankawayfromhim,andsobbedthemoreirrepressibly。ShefeltMolly’spresencesomuchtobeaprotectionthatnowshedaredtoletherselfgo,andtoweakenherselfbygivingwaytoheremotion。
’Goaway!’saidMolly。’Don’tyouseeyoumakeherworse?’Buthedidnotstir;hewaslookingatCynthiasointentlythathedidnotseemeventohearher。’Go,’saidMolly,vehemently,’ifitreallydistressesyoutoseehercry。Don’tyousee,it’syouwhoarethecauseofit?’
’IwillgoifCynthiatellsme,’saidheatlength。
’Oh,Molly,Idonotknowwhattodo,’saidCynthia,takingdownherhandsfromhertear—stainedface,andappealingtoMolly,andsobbingworsethanever;infact,shebecamehysterical,andthoughshetriedtospeakcoherently,nointelligiblewordswouldcome。
’Runtothatcottageinthetrees,andfetchheracupofwater,’saidMolly。Hehesitatedalittle。
’Whydon’tyougo?’saidMolly,impatiently。
’Ihavenotdonespeakingtoher;youwillnotleavebeforeIcomeback?’
’No。Don’tyouseeshecan’tmoveinthisstate?’
Hewentquickly,ifreluctantly。
Cynthiawassometimebeforeshecouldcheckhersobsenoughtospeak。
Atlength,shesaid,—
’Molly,Idohatehim!’
’Butwhatdidhemeanbysayingyouwereengagedtohim?Don’tcry,dear,buttellme;ifIcanhelpyouIwill,butIcan’timaginewhatitallreallyis。’
’Itistoolongastorytotellnow,andI’mnotstrongenough。Look!
heiscomingback。AssoonasIcan,letusgethome。’
’Withallmyheart,’saidMolly。
Hebroughtthewater,andCynthiadrank,andwasrestoredtocalmness。
’Now,’saidMolly,’wehadbettergohomeasfastasyoucanmanageit;itisgettingdarkquickly。’
IfshehopedtocarryCynthiaoffsoeasily,shewasmistaken。MrPrestonwasresoluteonthispoint。Hesaid,—
’IthinksinceMissGibsonhasmadeherselfacquaintedwiththismuch,wehadbetterletherknowthewholetruth—thatyouareengagedtomarrymeassoonasyouaretwenty;otherwiseyourbeingherewithme,andbyappointmenttoo,mayappearstrange,evenequivocaltoher。’
’AsIknowthatCynthiaisengagedto—anotherman,youcanhardlyexpectmetobelievewhatyousay,MrPreston。’
’Oh,Molly,’saidCynthia,tremblingallover,buttryingtobecalm,’Iamnotengaged,neithertothepersonyoumean,nortoMrPreston。’
MrPrestonforceda。smile。’IthinkIhavesomelettersthatwouldconvinceMissGibsonofthetruthofwhatIhavesaid;andwhichwillconvinceMrOsborneHamley,ifnecessary—Iconcludeitistohimsheisalluding。’
’Iamquitepuzzledbyyouboth,’saidMolly……’TheonlythingIdoknowis,thatweoughtnottobestandinghereatthistimeofevening,andthatCynthiaandIshallgohomedirectly。IfyouwanttotalktoMissKirkpatrick,MrPreston,whydon’tyoucometomyfather’shouse,andasktoseeheropenly,andlikeagentleman。’
’Iamperfectlywilling,’saidhe;’IshallonlybetoogladtoexplaintoMrGibsononwhattermsIstandinrelationtoher。IfIhavenotdoneitsooner,itisbecauseIhaveyieldedtoherwishes。’
’Pray,praydon’t。Molly—youdon’tknowall—youdon’tknowanythingaboutit;youmeanwellandkindly,Iknow,butyouareonlymakingmischief。
Iamquitewellenoughtowalk,doletusgo;Iwilltellyouallaboutitwhenweareathome。’ShetookMolly’sarmandtriedtohastenheraway;
butMrPrestonfollowed,talkingashewalkedbytheirside。
’Idonotknowwhatyouwillsayathome;butcanyoudenythatyouaremypromisedwife?CanyoudenythatithasonlybeenatyourearnestrequestthatIhavekepttheengagementsecretsolong?’Hewasunwise—Cynthiastopped,andturnedatbay。
’Sinceyouwillhaveitout,sinceImustspeakhere,Iownthatwhatyousayisliterallytrue;thatwhenIwasaneglectedgirlofsixteen,you—whomIbelievedtobeafriend,lentmemoneyatmyneed,andmademegiveyouapromiseofmarriage。’
’Madeyou!’saidhe,layinganemphasisonthefirstword。
Cynthiaturnedscarlet。’"Made"isnottherightword,Iconfess。I
likedyouthen—youwerealmostmyonlyfriend—and,ifithadbeenaquestionofimmediatemarriage,IdaresayIshouldneverhaveobjected。
ButIknowyoubetternow;andyouhavepersecutedmesooflate,thatItellyouonceforall(asIhavetoldyoubefore,tillIamsickoftheverywords),thatnothingshallevermakememarryyou。Nothing。Iseethere’snochanceofescapingexposureand,Idaresay,losingmycharacter,andIknowlosingallthefewfriendsIhave。’
’Neverme,’saidMolly,touchedbythewailingtoneofdespairthatCynthiawasfallinginto。
’Itishard,’saidMrPreston。’Youmaybelieveallthebadthingsyoulikeaboutme,Cynthia,butIdon’tthinkyoucandoubtmyreal,passionatedisinterestedloveforyou。’
’Idodoubtit,’saidCynthia,breakingoutwithfreshenergy。’Ah!
whenIthinkoftheself—denyingaffectionIhaveseen—Ihaveknown—
affectionthatthoughtofothersbeforeitself——’
MrPrestonbrokeinatthepauseshemade。Shewasafraidofrevealingtoomuchtohim。
’Youdonotcallitlovewhichhasbeenwillingtowaitforyears—
tobesilentwhilesilencewasdesired—tosufferjealousyandtobearneglect,relyingonthesolemnpromiseofagirlofsixteen—for"solemn"
say"flimsy,"whenthatgirlgrowsolder。Cynthia,Ihavelovedyou,andIdoloveyou,andIwon’tgiveyouup。Ifyouwillbutkeepyourword,andmarryme,I’llswearI’llmakeyoulovemeinreturn。’
’Oh,Iwish—IwishI’dneverborrowedthatunluckymoney,itwasthebeginningofitall。Oh,Molly,Ihavesavedandscrimpedtorepayit,andhewon’ttakeitnow;IthoughtifIcouldbutrepayit,itwouldsetmefree。’
’Youseemtoimplyyousoldyourselffortwentypounds,’hesaid。Theywerenearlyonthecommonnow,closetotheprotectionofthecottages,inveryhearingoftheirinmates;ifneitheroftheothertwothoughtofthisMollydid,andresolvedinhermindtocallinatoneofthem,andaskforthelabourer’sprotectionhome;atanyratehispresencemustputastoptothismiserablealtercation。
’Ididnotsellmyself;Ilikedyouthen。Butoh,howIdohateyounow!’criedCynthia,unabletocontainherwords。
Hebowedandturnedback,vanishingrapidlydownthefieldstaircase。’
Atanyratethatwasarelief。Yetthetwogirlshastenedon,asifhewasstillpursuingthem。Once,whenMollysaidsomethingtoCynthia,thelatterreplied,—
’Molly,ifyoupityme—ifyouloveme—don’tsayanythingmorejustnow。Weshallhavetolookasifnothinghadhappenedwhenwegethome。
Cometomyroomwhenwegoupstairstobed,andIwilltellyouall。I
knowyouwillblamemeterribly,butIwilltellyouall。’
SoMollydidnotsayanotherwordtilltheyreachedhome;andthen,comparativelyatease,inasmuchasnooneperceivedhowlatewastheirreturntothehouse,eachofthegirlswentupintotheirseparaterooms,torestandcalmthemselvesbeforedressingforthenecessaryfamilygatheringatdinner。Mollyfeltasifshewere’somiserablyshakenthatshecouldnothavegonedownatall,ifherowninterestsonlywereatstake。Shesatebyherdressing—table,holdingherheadinherhands,hercandlesunlighted,andtheroominsoftdarkness,tryingtostillherbeatingheart,andtorecallallshehadheard,andwhatwouldbeitsbearingonthelivesofthosewhomsheloved。Roger。Oh,Roger!—farawayinmysteriousdarknessofdistance—lovingashedid(ah,thatwaslove!ThatwasthelovetowhichCynthiahadreferred,asworthyofthename!)andtheobjectofhisloveclaimedbyanother—falsetooneshemustbe!Howcoulditbe?Whatwouldhethinkandfeelifeverhecametoknowit?Itwasofnousetryingtoimaginehispain—thatcoulddonogood。WhatlaybeforeMollywas,totryandextricateCynthia,ifshecouldhelpherbythought,oradvice,oraction;nottoweakenherselfbylettingherfancyrunintopicturesofpossible,probablesuffering。
Whenshewentintothedrawing—roombeforedinner,shefoundCynthiaandhermothertê;te—?tê;te。Therewerecandlesintheroom,buttheywerenotlighted,forthewood—fireblazedmerrilyiffitfully,andtheywerealewaitingMrGibson’sreturn,whichmightbeexpectedatanyminute。Cynthiasateintheshade,soitwasonlybyhersensitiveearthatMollycouldjudgeofherstateofcomposure。MrsGibsonwastellingsomeofherday’sadventures—whomshehadfoundathomeinthecallsshehadbeenmaking;whohadbeenout;andthesmallpiecesofnewsshehadheard。ToMolly’squicksympathyCynthia’svoicesoundedlanguidandweary,butshemadealltheproperreplies,andexpressedtheproperinterestattherightplaces,andMollycametotherescue,chimingin,withaneffort,itistrue;butMrsGibsonwasnotonetonoticeslightshadesordifferencesinmanner。WhenMrGibsonreturned,therelativepositionsofthepartieswerealtered。ItwasCynthianowwhoraisedherselfintoliveliness,partlyfromaconsciousnessthathewouldhavenoticedanydepression,andpartlybecause,fromhercradletohergrave,Cynthiawasoneofthosenaturalcoquettes,whoinstinctivelybringoutalltheirprettiestairsandgracesinordertostandwellwithanyman,youngorold,whomayhappentobepresent。Shelistenedtohisremarksandstorieswithallthesweetintentnessofhappierdays,tillMolly,silentandwondering,couldhardlybelievethattheCynthiabeforeherwasthesamegirlasshewhowassobbingandcryingasifherheartwouldbreaknottwohoursbefore。
Itistrueshelookedpaleandheavy—eyed,butthatwastheonlysignshegaveofherpasttrouble,whichyetmustbeapresentcare,thoughtMolly。
Afterdinner,MrGibsonwentouttohistownpatients;MrsGibsonsubsidedintoherarm—chair,holdingasheetofTheTimesbeforeher,behindwhichshetookaquietandlady—likedoze。Cynthiahadabookinonehand,withtheothersheshadedhereyesfromthelight。Mollyalonecouldneitherread,norsleep,norwork。Shesateintheseatinthebow—window;theblindwasnotdrawndown,fortherewasnodangeroftheirbeingoverlooked。
Shegazedintothesoftouterdarkness,andfoundherselfstrivingtodiscerntheoutlinesofobjects—thecottageattheendofthegarden—thegreatbeech—treewiththeseatroundit—thewirearches,upwhichthesummerroseshadclambered;eachcameoutfaintanddimagainsttheduskyvelvetoftheatmosphere。Presentlyteacame,andtherewastheusualnightlybustle。Thetablewascleared,MrsGibsonrousedherself,andmadethesameremarkaboutdearpapathatshehaddoneatthesamehourforweekspast。Cynthiatoodidnotlookdifferenttousual。Andyetwhatahiddenmysterydidhercalmnesshide,thoughtMolly。Atlengthcamebed—time,andtheaccustomarylittlespeeches。BothMollyandCynthiawenttotheirownroomswithoutexchangingaword。WhenMollywasinhersshehadforgottenifshewastogotoCynthia,orCynthiatocometoher。Shetookoffhergownandputonherdressing—gown,andstoodandwaited,andevensatedownforaminuteortwo;butCynthiadidnotcome,soMollywentandknockedattheoppositedoor,which,tohersurprise,shefoundshut。WhensheenteredtheroomCynthiasatebyherdressing—table,justasshecameupfromthedrawing—room。Shehadbeenleaningherheadonherarms,andseemedalmosttohaveforgottenthetrystshehadmadewithMolly,forshelookedupasifstartled,andherfacedidseemfullofworryanddistress;inhersolitudeshemadenomoreexertion,butgavewaytothoughtsofcare。
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