chapter23CHAPTERXXIIIOSBORNEHAMLEYREVIEWSHISPOSITIONOsbornehadhissolitarycupofcoffeeinthedrawing—room。Hewasveryunhappytoo,afterhisfashion。Hestoodonthehearth—rugponderingoverhissituation。Hewasnotexactlyawarehowhardlyhisfatherwaspressedforready—money;thesquirehadneverspokentohimonthesubjectwithoutbeingangry;andmanyofhisloosecontradictorystatements—allofwhich,howevercontradictorytheymightappear,hadtheirbasisintruth—weresetdownbyhissontotheexaggerationofpassion。ButitwasuncomfortableenoughtoayoungmanofOsborne’sagetofeelhimselfcontinuallyhamperedforwantofafive—poundnote。Theprincipalsuppliesfortheliberal—
almostluxurioustableattheHall,cameofftheestate;sothattherewasnoappearanceofpovertyasfarasthehouseholdwent;andaslongasOsbornewascontentathome,hehadeverythinghecouldwishfor;buthehadawifeelsewhere—hewantedtoseehercontinually—andthatnecessitatedjourneys。She,poorthing!hadtobesupported:wherewasthemoneyforthejourneysandforAimé;e’smodestwantstocomefrom?ThatwasthepuzzleinOsborne’smindjustnow。Whilehehadbeenatcollegehisallowance—heiroftheHamleys—hadbeenthreehundred,whileRogerhadtobecontentwithahundredless。Thepaymentoftheseannualsumshadgiventhesquireagooddealoftrouble;buthethoughtofitasamerelytemporaryinconvenience,perhapsunreasonablythoughtso。Osbornewastodogreatthings;takehighhonours,getafellowship,marryalong—descendedheiress,liveinsomeofthemanyuninhabitedroomsattheHall,andhelpthesquireinthemanagementoftheestatethatwouldsometimebehis。
Rogerwastobeaclergyman;steady,slowRogerwasjustfittedforthat,andwhenhedeclinedenteringtheChurch,preferringalifeofmoreactivityandadventure,Rogerwastobe—anything;hewasusefulandpractical,andfitforalltheemploymentsfromwhichOsbornewasshutoutbyhisfastidiousness,andhis(pseudo)genius;soitwaswellhewasaneldestson,forhewouldneverhavedonetostrugglethroughtheworld;andasforhissettlingdowntoaprofession,itwouldbelikecuttingblockswitharazor!AndnowherewasOsborne,livingathome,butlongingtobeelsewhere;hisallowancestoppedinreality;indeedthepunctualpaymentofitduringthelastyearortwohadbeenowingtohismother’sexertions;
butnothinghadbeensaidaboutitspresentcessationbyeitherfatherorson:moneymattersweretoosoreasubjectbetweenthem。Everynowandthenthesquirethrewhimaten—poundnoteorso;butthesortofsuppressedgrowlwithwhichtheyweregiven,andtheentireuncertaintyastowhenhemightreceivethem,renderedanycalculationbasedupontheirreceiptexceedinglyvagueanduncertain。’WhatintheworldcanIdotosecureanincome?’thoughtOsborne,ashestoodonthehearth—rug,hisbacktoablazingfire,hiscupofcoffeesentupintherareoldchinathathadbelongedtotheHallforgenerations;
hisdressfinished,asdressofOsborne’scouldhardlyfailtobe。Onecouldhardlyhavethoughtthatthiselegantyoungman,standingthereinthemidstofcomfortthatvergedonluxury,shouldhavebeenturningoverthatonegreatprobleminhismind;butsoitwas。’WhatcanIdotobesureofapresentincome?Thingscannotgoonastheyare。Ishouldneedsupportfortwoorthreeyears,evenifIenteredmyselfattheTemple,orLincoln’sInn。’Itwouldbeimpossibleforliveonmypayinthearmy;
besides,Ishouldhatethatprofession。Infact,thereareevilsattendingallprofessions—Icouldn’tbringmyselftobecomeamemberofanyI’veeverheardof。PerhapsI’mmorefittedtotakeordersthananythingelse,buttobecompelledtowriteweeklysermonswhetheronehadanythingtosayornot,and,probably,doomedonlytoassociatewithpeoplebelowoneinrefinementandeducation!YetpoorAimé;emusthavemoney。Ican’tbeartocompareourdinnershere,overloadedwithjointsandgameandsweets,asMorganwillpersistinsendingthemup,withAimé;e’stwolittlemutton—chops。YetwhatwouldmyfathersayifheknewI’dmarriedaFrenchwoman?
Inhispresentmoodhe’ddisinheritme,ifthatispossible;andhe’dspeakaboutherinawayIcouldn’tstand。ARomanCatholic,too!Well,Idon’trepentit。I’ddoitagain。Onlyifmymotherhadbeeningoodhealth,ifshecouldhaveheardmystory,andknownAimé;e!Asitis,Imustkeepitsecret;butwheretogetmoney?Wheretogetmoney?’Thenhebethoughthimofhispoems—wouldtheysell,andbringhiminmoney?InspiteofMilton,hethoughttheymight;andhewenttofetchhisMSS。outofhisroom。Hesatedownnearthefire,tryingtostudythemwithacriticaleye,torepresentpublicopinionasfarashecould。HehadchangedhisstylesincetheMrsHemans’days。Hewasessentiallyimitativeinhispoeticfaculty;andoflatehehadfollowedtheleadofapopularwriterofsonnets。’Heturnedhispoemsover:theywerealmostequivalenttoanautobiographicalpassageinhislife。Arrangingthemintheirorder,theycameasfollows:—’ToAimé;e,WalkingwithaLittleChild。’’ToAimé;e,SingingatherWork。’’ToAimé;e,turningawayfrommewhileItoldmyLove。’’Aimé;e’sConfession。’’Aimé;einDespair。’’TheForeignLandinwhichmyAimé;edwells。’’TheWeddingRing。’’TheWife。’Whenhecametothislastsonnetheputdownhisbundleofpapersandbegantothink。’Thewife。’Yes,andaFrenchwife。andaRomanCatholicwife—andawifewhomightbesaidtohavebeeninservice!Andhisfather’shatredoftheFrench,bothcollectivelyandindividually—collectively,astumultuousbrutalruffians,whomurderedtheirking,andcommittedallkindsofbloodyatrocities:individually,asrepresentedby’Boney,’andthevariouscaricaturesof’JohnnyCrapaud’thathadbeeninfullcirculationaboutfive—and—twentyyearsbeforethistime—whenthesquirehadbeenyoungandcapableofreceivingimpressions。AsfortheformofreligioninwhichMrsOsborneHamleyhadbeenbroughtup,itisenoughtosaythatCatholicemancipationhadbeguntobetalkedaboutbysomepoliticians,andthatthesullenroarofthemajorityofEnglishmen,atthebareideaofit,wassurginginthedistancewithominousthreatenings;theverymentionofsuchameasurebeforethesquirewas,asOsbornewellknew,likeshakingaredflagbeforeabull。AndthenheconsideredthatifAimé;ehadhadtheunspeakable,theincomparableblessingofbeingbornofEnglishparents,intheveryheartofEngland—Warwickshire,forinstance—andhadneverheardofpriests,ormass,orconfession,orthePope,orGuyFawkes,buthadbeenborn,baptized,andbredintheChurchofEngland,withouthavingeverseentheoutsideofadissentingmeeting—house,orapapistchapel—evenwithalltheseadvantages,herhavingbeena(whatwastheequivalentfor’bonne’
inEnglish?’nurserygoverness’wasatermhardlyinvented)nursery—maid,withwagespaiddownonceaquarter,liabletobedismissedatamonth’swarning,andhavingherteaandsugardoledouttoher,wouldbeashocktohisfather’soldancestralpridethathewouldhardlyevergetover。’Ifhesawher!’thoughtOsborne。’Ifhecouldbutseeher!’ButifthesquireweretoseeAimé;e,hewouldalsohearherspeakherprettybrokenEnglish—precioustoherhusband,asitwasinitthatshehadconfessedbrokenlywithherEnglishtongue,thatshelovedhimsoundlywithherFrenchheart—andSquireHamleypiquedhimselfonbeingagoodhateroftheFrench。’Shewouldmakesuchaloving,sweet,docilelittledaughtertomyfather—shewouldgoasnearasanyonecouldtowardsfillinguptheblankvoidinthishouse,ifhewouldbuthaveher;buthewon’t;
heneverwould;andheshan’thavetheopportunityofscoutingher。YetifIcalledher"Lucy"inthesesonnets;andiftheymadeagreateffect—werepraisedinBlackwoodandtheQuarterly—andalltheworldwasagogtofindouttheauthor;andItoldhimmysecret—IcouldifIweresuccessful—IthinkthenhewouldaskwhoLucywas,andIcouldtellhimallthen。If—howIhate"ifs。""Ifmenoifs。"Mylifehasbeenbasedon"whens;"andfirsttheyhaveturnedto"ifs,"andthentheyhavevanishedaway。Itwas"whenOsbornegetshonours,"andthen"ifOsborne,"
andthenafailurealtogether。IsaidtoAimé;e,"Whenmymotherseesyou,"andnowitis"Ifmyfathersawher,"withaveryfaintprospectofitsevercomingtopass。’Sohelettheeveninghoursflowonanddisappearinreverieslikethese;windingupwithasuddendeterminationtotrythefateofhispoemswithapublisher,withthedirectexpectationofgettingmoneyforthem,andanulteriorfancythat,ifsuccessful,theymightworkwonderswiththisfather。WhenRogercamehomeOsbornedidnotletadaypassbeforetellinghisbrotherofhisplans。HeneverdidconcealanythinglongfromRoger;thefemininepartofhischaractermadehimalwaysdesirousofaconfidant,andassweetsympathyashecouldextract。ButRoger’sopinionhadnoeffectonOsborne’sactions;andRogerknewthisfullwell。SowhenOsbornebeganwith—’IwantyouradviceonaplanIhavegotinmyhead,’Rogerreplied:
’SomeonetoldmethattheDukeofWellington’smaximwasnevertogiveadviceunlesshecouldenforceitsbeingcarriedintoeffect。nowIcan’tdothat;andyouknow,oldboy,youdon’tfollowoutmyadvicewhenyou’vegotit。’’Notalways,Iknow。Notwhenitdoesnotagreewithmyownopinion。Youarethinkingaboutthisconcealmentofmymarriage。butyou’renotupinallthecircumstances。YouknowhowfullyImeanttohavedoneit,iftherehadnotbeenthatrowaboutmydebts;andthenmymother’sillnessanddeath。Andnowyou’venoconceptionhowmyfatherischanged—howirritablehehasbecome!Waittillyou’vebeenathomeaweek!Robinson,Morgan—
it’sthesamewiththemall;butworstofallwithme!’’Poorfellow!’saidRoger;’Ithoughthelookedterriblychanged;shrunken,andhisruddinessofcomplexionaltered。’’Why,hehardlytakeshalftheexerciseheusedtodo,soit’snowonder。
Hehasturnedawayallthemenoffthenewworks,whichusedtobesuchaninteresttohim;andbecausetheroancobstumbledwithhimoneday,andnearlythrewhim,hewon’trideit;andyethewon’tsellitandbuyanother,whichwouldbethesensibleplan;sotherearetwooldhorseseatingtheirheadsoff,whileheisconstantlytalkingaboutmoneyandexpense。AndthatbringsmetowhatIwasgoingtosay。I’mdesperatelyhardupformoney,andsoI’vebeencollectingmypoems—weedingthemwell,youknow—goingoverthemquitecritically,infact;andIwanttoknowifyouthinkDeightonwouldpublishthem。You’veanameinCambridge,youknow;andIdaresayhewouldlookatthemifyouofferedthemtohim。’’Icanbuttry,’saidRoger;’butI’mafraidyouwon’tgetmuchbythem。’’Idon’texpectmuch。I’manewman,andmustmakemyname。Ishouldbecontentwithahundred。IfI’dahundredpoundsI’dsetmyselftodosomething。
ImightkeepmyselfandAimé;ebymywritingswhileIstudiedforthebar;or,iftheworstcametotheworst,ahundredpoundswouldtakeustoAustralia。’’Australia!Why,Osborne,whatcouldyoudothere?Andleavemyfather!
Ihopeyou’llnevergetyourhundredpounds,ifthat’stheuseyou’retomakeofit!Why,you’dbreakthesquire’sheart。’’Itmighthavedoneonce,’saidOsborne,gloomily,’butitwouldnotnow。
Helooksatmeaskance,andshiesawayfromconversationwithme。Letmealonefornoticingandfeelingthiskindofthing。It’sthisverysusceptibilitytooutwardthingsthatgivesmewhatfacultyIhave;anditseemstomeasifmybread,andmywife’stoo,weretodependuponit。You’llsoonseeforyourselfthetermswhichIamonwithmyfather!’Rogerdidsoonsee。Hisfatherhadslippedintoahabitofsilenceatmealtimes—ahabitwhichOsborne,whowastroubledandanxiousenoughforhisownpart,hadnotstriventobreak。Fatherandsonsatetogether,andexchangedallthenecessaryspeechesconnectedwiththeoccasioncivillyenough;butitwasarelieftothemwhentheirintercoursewasover,andtheyseparated—thefathertobroodoverhissorrowandhisdisappointment,whichwererealanddeepenough,andtheinjuryhehadreceivedfromhisboy,whichwasexaggeratedinhismindbyhisignoranceoftheactualstepsOsbornehadtakentoraisemoney。Ifthemoney—lendershadcalculatedthechancesofhisfather’slifeordeathinmakingtheirbargain,OsbornehimselfhadthoughtonlyofhowsoonandhoweasilyliecouldgetthemoneyrequisiteforclearinghimfromallimperiousclaimsatCambridge,andforenablinghimtofollowAimé;etoherhomeinAlsace,andforthesubsequentmarriage。Asyet,Rogerhadneverseenhisbrother’swife;
indeed,hehadonlybeentakenintoOsborne’sfullconfidenceafterallwasdecidedinwhichhisadvicecouldhavebeenuseful。Andnow,intheenforcedseparation,Osborne’swholethought,boththepoeticalandpracticalsidesofhismind,ranuponthelittlewifewhowaspassingherlonelydaysinfarmhouselodgings,wonderingwhenherbridegroomhusbandwouldcometohernext。Withsuchanengrossingsubjectitwas,perhaps,nowonderthatheunconsciouslyneglectedhisfather;butitwasnonethelesssadatthetime,andtoberegrettedinitsconsequences。’Imaycomeinandhaveapipewithyou,sir,mayn’tI?’saidRoger,thatfirstevening,pushinggentlyagainstthestudy—door,whichhisfatherheldonlyhalfopen。’You’llnotlikeit,’saidthesquire,stillholdingthedooragainsthim,butspeakinginarelentingtone。’ThetobaccoIuseisn’twhatyoungmenlike。BettergoandhaveacigarwithOsborne。’’No。Iwanttositwithyou,andIcanstandprettystrongtobacco。’Rogerpushedin,theresistanceslowlygivingwaybeforehim。’Itwillmakeyourclothessmell。You’llhavetoborrowOsborne’sscentstosweetenyourself,’saidthesquire,grimly,atthesametimepushingashortsmartamber—mouthedpipetohisson。’No;I’llhaveachurchwarden。Why,father,doyouthinkI’mababytoputupwithadoll’sheadlikethis?’lookingatthecarvinguponit。Thesquirewaspleasedinhisheart,thoughhedidnotchoosetoshowit。
Heonlysaid,’OsbornebroughtitmewhenhecamebackfromGermany。That’sthreeyearsago。’Andthenforsometimetheysmokedinsilence。Butthevoluntarycompanionshipofhissonwasverysoothingtothesquire,thoughnotawordmightbesaid。Thenextspeechhemadeshowedthedirectionofhisthoughts;indeedhiswordswerealwaysatransparentmediumthroughwhichthecurrentmightbeseen。’Adealofaman’slifecomesandgoesinthreeyears—I’vefoundthatout。’Andhepuffedawayathispipeagain。WhileRogerwasturningoverinhismindwhatanswertomaketothistruism,thesquireagainstoppedhissmokingandspoke。’IrememberwhentherewasallthatfussaboutthePrinceofWalesbeingmadeRegent,Ireadsomewhere—Idaresayitwasinanewspaper—thatkingsandtheirheirs—apparentwerealwaysonbadterms。Osbornewasquitealittlechapthen:heusedtogooutridingwithmeonWhiteSurrey;youwon’tremembertheponywecalledWhiteSurrey?’’Irememberit;butIthoughtitatallhorseinthosedays。’’Ah!thatwasbecauseyouweresuchasmalllad,youknow。Ihadsevenhorsesinthestablethen—notcountingthefarm—horses。Idon’trecollecthavingacarethen,except—shewasalwaysdelicate,youknow。
ButwhatabeautifulboyOsbornewas!Hewasalwaysdressedinblackvelvet—itwasafoppery,butitwasn’tmydoing,anditwasallright,I’msure。
He’sahandsomefellownow,butthesunshinehasgoneoutofhisface。’’He’sagooddealtroubledaboutthismoney,andtheanxietyhehasgivenyou,’saidRoger,rathertakinghisbrother’sfeelingsforgranted。’Nothe,’saidthesquire,takingthepipeoutofhismouth,andhittingthebowlsosharplyagainstthehobthatitbrokeinpieces。’There!Butnevermind!Isay,nothe,Roger!He’snonetroubledaboutthemoney。It’seasygettingmoneyfromJewsifyou’retheeldestson,andtheheir。Theyjustask,"Howoldisyourfather,andhashehadastroke,orafit?"
andit’ssettledoutofhand,andthentheycomeprowlingaboutaplace,andrunningdownthetimberandland——Don’tletusspeakofhim;it’snogood,Roger。HeandIareoutoftune,anditseemstomeasifonlyGodAlmightycouldputustorights。It’sthinkingofhowhegrievedheratlastthatmakesmesobitterwithhim。Andyetthere’sadealofgoodinhim!andhe’ssoquickandclever,ifonlyhe’dgivehismindtothings。
Now,youwerealwaysslow,Roger—allyourmastersusedtosayso。’Rogerlaughedalittle,—’Yes;I’dmanyanicknameatschoolformyslowness,’saidhe。’Nevermind!’saidthesquire,consolingly。’I’msureIdon’t。IfyouwereacleverfellowlikeOsborneyonder,you’dbeallforcaringforbooksandwriting,andyou’dperhapsfinditasdullashedoestokeepcompanywithabumpkin—SquireJoneslikeme。YetIdaresaytheythinkadealofyouatCambridge,’saidhe,afterapause,’sinceyou’vegotthisfinewranglership;I’dnearlyforgottenthat—thenewscameatsuchamiserabletime。’’Well,yes!They’realwaysproudoftheseniorwrangleroftheyearupatCambridge。NextyearImustabdicate。’Thesquiresateandgazedintotheembers,stillholdinghisuselesspipe—stem。
Atlasthesaid,inalowvoice,asifscarcelyawarehehadgotalistener,—’IusedtowritetoherwhenshewasawayinLondon,andtellherthehomenews。Butnoletterwillreachhernow!Nothingreachesher!’Rogerstartedup。’Where’sthetobacco—box,father?Letmefillyouanotherpipe!’andwhenhehaddoneso,hestoopedoverhisfatherandstrokedhischeek。Thesquireshookhishead。’You’veonlyjustcomehome,lad。Youdon’tknowme,asIamnow—a—days!
AskRobinson—Iwon’thaveyouaskingOsborne,heoughttokeepittohimself—butanyoftheservantswilltellyouI’mnotlikethesamemanforgettingintopassionswiththem。Iusedtobereckonedagoodmaster,butthatispastnow!Osbornewasoncealittleboy,andshewasoncealive—andIwasonceagoodmaster—agoodmaster—yes!Itisallpastnow。’Hetookuphispipe,andbegantosmokeafresh,andRoger,afterasilenceofsomeminutes,beganalongstoryaboutsomeCambridgeman’smisadventureonthehunting—field,tellingitwithsuchhumourthatthesquirewasbeguiledintoheartylaughing。Whentheyrosetogotobed,hisfathersaidtoRoger,—’Well,we’vehadapleasantevening—atleast,Ihave。Butperhapsyouhavenot;forI’mbutpoorcompanynow,know。’’Idon’tknowwhenI’vepassedahappierevening,father,’saidRoger。
Andhespoketruly,thoughhedidnottroublehimselftofindoutthecauseofhishappiness。
chapter24CHAPTERXXIVMRSGIBSON’SLITTLEDINNERAllthishadtakenplacebeforeRoger’sfirstmeetingwithMollyandCynthiaatMissBrownings’;andthelittledinnerontheFridayatMrGibson’s,whichfollowedinduesequence。MrsGibsonintendedtheHamleystofindthisdinnerpleasant;andtheydid。MrGibsonwasfondofthesetwoyoungmen,bothfortheirparents’
sakeandtheirown,forhehadknownthemsinceboyhood;andtothosewhomhelikedMrGibsoncouldberemarkablyagreeable。MrsGibsonreallygavethemawelcome—andcordialityinahostessisaverybecomingmantleforanyotherdeficienciestheremaybe。CynthiaandMollylookedtheirbest,whichwasallthedutyMrsGibsonabsolutelyrequiredofthem,asshewaswillingenoughtotakeherfullshareintheconversation。Osbornefelltoherlot,ofcourse,andforsometimeheandsheprattledonwithallthecaseofmannerandcommonplacenessofmeaningwhichgofartomakethe’artofpoliteconversation。’Roger,whooughttohavemadehimselfagreeabletooneortheotheroftheyoungladies,wasexceedinglyinterestedinwhatMrGibsonwastellinghimofapaperoncomparativeosteologyinsomeforeignjournalofscience,whichLordHollingfordwasinthehabitofforwardingtohisfriendthecountrysurgeon。YeteverynowandthenwhilehelistenedhecaughthisattentionwanderingtothefaceofCynthia,whowasplacedbetweenhisbrotherandMrGibson。Shewasnotparticularlyoccupiedwithattendingtoanythingthatwasgoingon;hereyelidswerecarelesslydropped,asshecrumbledherbreadonthetablecloth,andherbeautifullongeyelasheswereseenonthecleartintofherovalcheek。
Shewasthinkingofsomethingelse;Mollywastryingtounderstandwithallhermight。SuddenlyCynthialookedup,andcaughtRoger’sgazeofintentadmirationtoofullyforhertobeunawarethathewasstaringather。
Shecolouredalittle,butafterthefirstmomentofrosyconfusionathisevidentadmirationofher,sheflewtotheattack,divertinghisconfusionatthusbeingcaught,tothedefenceofhimselffromheraccusation。’Itisquitetrue!’shesaidtohim。’Iwasnotattending:youseeIdon’tknoweventheABCofscience。But,please,don’tlooksoseverelyatme,evenifIamadunce!’’Ididnotknow—Ididnotmeantolookseverely,Iamsure,’repliedhe,notknowingwellwhattosay。’Cynthiaisnotadunceeither,’saidMrsGibson,afraidlestherdaughter’sopinionofherselfmightbetakenseriously。’ButIhavealwaysobservedthatsomepeoplehaveatalentforonethingandsomeforanother。NowCynthia’stalentsarenotforscienceandthesevererstudies。Doyouremember,love,whattroubleIhadtoteachyoutheuseoftheglobes?’’Yes;andIdon’tknowlongitudefromlatitudenow;andI’malwayspuzzledastowhichisperpendicularandwhichishorizontal。’’Yet,Idoassureyou,’hermothercontinued,ratheraddressingherselftoOsborne’thathermemoryforpoetryisprodigious。Ihaveheardherrepeatthe"PrisonerofChillon"frombeginningtoend。’’Itwouldberatheraboretohavetohearher,Ithink,’saidMrGibson,smilingatCynthia,whogavehimbackoneofherbrightlooksofmutualunderstanding。’Ah,MrGibson,Ihavefoundoutbeforenowthatyouhavenosoulforpoetry;
andMollythereisyourownchild。Shereadssuchdeepbooks—allaboutfactsandfigures:she’llbequiteablue—stockingbyandby。’’Mamma,’saidMolly,reddening,’youthinkitwasadeepbookbecausethereweretheshapesofthedifferentcellsofbeesinit;butitwasnotatalldeep。Itwasveryinteresting。’’Nevermind,Molly,’saidOsborne。’Istandupforblue—stockings!’’AndIobjecttothedistinctionimpliedinwhatyousay,’saidRoger。
’Itwasnotdeep,ergo,itwasveryinteresting。Now,abookmaybebothdeepandinteresting。’’Oh,ifyouaregoingtochoplogicanduseLatinwords,Ithinkitistimeforustoleavetheroom,’saidMrsGibson。’Don’tletusrunawayasifwewerebeaten,mamma,’saidCynthia。’Thoughitmaybelogic,I,forone,canunderstandwhatMrRogerHamleysaidjustnow;andIreadsomeofMolly’sbook;andwhetheritwasdeepornotI
founditveryinteresting—moresothanIshouldthinkthe"PrisonerofChillon"now—a—days。I’vedisplacedthePrisonertomakeroomforJohnnieGilpinasmyfavouritepoem。’’Howcouldyoutalksuchnonsense,Cynthia?’saidMrsGibson,asthegirlsfollowedherupstairs。’Youknowyouarenotadunce。Itisallverywellnottobeablue—stocking,becausegentle—peopledon’tlikethatkindofwoman;butrunningyourselfdown,andcontradictingallIsaidaboutyourlikingforByron,andpoetsandpoetry—toOsborneHamleyofallmen,too!’MrsGibsonspokequitecrosslyforher。’But,mamma,’Cynthiareplica,’Iameitheradunce,orIamnot。IfI
am,Ididrighttoownit;ifIamnot,he’sadunceifhedoesn’tfindoutIwasjoking。’’Well,’saidMrsGibson,alittlepuzzledbythisspeech,andwantingsomeelucidatoryaddition。’Onlythatifhe’saduncehisopinionofmeisworthnothing。So,anyway,itdoesn’tsignify。’’Youreallybewildermewithyournonsense,child。Mollyisworthtwentyofyou。’’Iquiteagreewithyou,mamma,’saidCynthia,turningroundtotakeMolly’shand。’Yes;butsheoughtnottobe,’saidMrsGibson,stillirritated。’Thinkoftheadvantagesyou’vehad。’’I’mafraidIhadratherbeaduncethanablue—stocking,’saidMolly;
forthetermhadalittleannoyedher,andtheannoyancewasranklingstill。’Hush;heretheyarecoming:Ihearthedining—roomdoor!Inevermeantyouwereablue—stocking,dear,sodon’tlookvexed。—Cynthia,mylove,wheredidyougetthoselovelyflowers—anemones,arethey?Theysuityourcomplexionsoexactly。’’Come,Molly,don’tlooksograveandthoughtful,’exclaimedCynthia。’Don’tyouperceivemammawantsustobesmilingandamiable?’MrGibsonhadhadtogoouttohiseveninground;andtheyoungmenwerealltoogladtocomeupintotheprettydrawing—room;thebrightlittlewoodfire;thecomfortableeasychairswhich,withsosmallaparty,mightbedrawnroundthehearth;thegood—naturedhostess;thepretty,agreeablegirls。RogersauntereduptothecornerwhereCynthiawasstanding,playingwithahand—screen。’ThereisacharityballinHollingfordsoon,isn’tthere?’askedhe。’Yes;onEasterTuesday,’shereplied。’Areyougoing?Isupposeyouare?’’Yes;mammaisgoingtotakeMollyandme。’’Youwillenjoyitverymuch—goingtogether?’Forthefirsttimeduringthislittleconversationsheglancedupathim—realhonestpleasureshiningoutofhereyes。’Yes;goingtogetherwillmaketheenjoymentofthething。Itwouldbedullwithouther。’’Youaregreatfriends,then?’heasked。’IneverthoughtIshouldlikeanyonesomuch,—anygirlImean。’Sheputinthefinalreservationinallsimplicityofheart;andinallsimplicitydidheunderstandit。Hecameeversolittlenearer,anddroppedhisvoicealittle。’Iwassoanxioustoknow。Iamsoglad。Ihaveoftenwonderedhowyoutwoweregettingon。’’Haveyou?’saidshe,lookingupagain。’AtCambridge?YoumustbeveryfondofMolly!’’Yes,Iam。Shewaswithussolong;andatsuchatime!Ilookuponheralmostasasister。’’Andsheisveryfondofallofyou。Iseemtoknowyouallfromhearinghertalkaboutyousomuch。—Allofyou!’saidshe,layinganemphasison’all’toshowthatitincludedthedeadaswellastheliving。Rogerwassilentforaminuteortwo。’Ididn’tknowyou,evenbyhearsay。Soyoumustn’twonderthatIwasalittleafraid。ButassoonasIsawyou,Iknewhowitmustbe;anditwassucharelief!’’Cynthia,’saidMrsGibson,whothoughtthattheyoungersonhadhadquitehisshareoflow,confidentialconversation,’comehere,andsingthatlittleFrenchballadtoMrOsborneHamley。’’Whichdoyoumean,mamma?"Tut’enrepentiras,Colin"?’’Yes;suchapretty,playfullittlewarningtoyoungmen,’saidMrsGibson,smilingupatOsborne。’Therefrainis—Tut’enrepentiras,Colin,Tut’enrepentiras,Carsituprendsunefemme,Colin,Tut’enrepentiras。TheadvicemayapplyverywellwhenthereisaFrenchwifeinthecase;
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