首页 >出版文学> When the World Shook>第18章
  "You’lldothatanywaywhenyourtimecomes,Bickley,Imeandecease,ofcourse,"interruptedBastin。"Andwhoknows,perhapsallthisisanopportunitygivenbyProvidencetoopenyoureyes,which,Imustsay,aresingularlyblind。Youthinkyouknoweverythingthereistolearn,butthefactisthatliketherestofus,youknownothingatall,andgoodmanthoughyouare,obstinatelyrefusetoadmitthetruthandtoseeksupportelsewhere。FormypartIbelievethatyouareafraidoffallinginlovewiththatGlitteringLadyandofbeingconvincedbyherthatyouarewronginyourmostunsatisfactoryconclusions。"
  "Iamout—votedanyway,"saidBickley,"andfortherest,Bastin,lookafteryourselfandleavemealone。IwilladdthatonthewholeIthinkyouarebothright,andthatitiswisestforustostopwhereweare,forafterallwecanonlydieonce。"
  "Iamnotsosure,Bickley。Thereisathingcalledtheseconddeath,whichiswhatistroublingthatoldscoundrel,Oro。NowI
  willgoandlookforthosebooks。"
  Sotheideaofflightwasabandoned,althoughIadmitthateventomyselfithadattractions。ForIfeltthatIwasbeingwrappedinanetofmysteriesfromwhichIsawnoescape。Yes,andofmorethanmysteries;IwhohadswornthatIwouldneverlookuponanotherwoman,waslearningtolovethissweetandwondrousYva,andofthatwhatcouldbetheend?
  Wecollectedallwehadcometoseek,andstartedhomewardsescortedbyMaramaandhispeople,includinganumberofyoungwomenwhodancedbeforeusinalightarrayofflowers。
  Passingouroldhouse,wecametothegrovewheretheidolOrohadstoodandBastinwassonearlysacrificed。Therewasanotheridoltherenowwhichhewishedtoexamine,butintheenddidnotasthenativessoobviouslyobjected。IndeedMaramatoldmethatnotwithstandingthemysteriousdeathofthesorcerersontheRockofOfferings,therewasstillastrongpartyintheislandwhowouldbegladtodousamischiefifanyfurtheraffrontwereofferedtotheirhereditarygod。
  Hequestionedusalsotentativelyabouttheapparition,forsuchheconceivedittobe,whichhadappearedupontherockandkilledthesorcerers,andIansweredhimasIthoughtwisest,tellinghimthataterriblePowerwasafootintheland,whichhewoulddowelltoobey。
  "Yes,"hesaid;"theGodoftheMountainofwhomthetraditionhascomedowntousfromourforefathers。Heisawakeagain;hesees,hehearsandweareafraid。Pleadwithhimforus,O
  Friend—from—the—Sea。"
  Ashespokewewerepassingthroughalittlepatchofthickbush。Suddenlyfromoutofthisbush,Isawaladappear。Heworeamaskuponhisface,butfromhisshapecouldnothavebeenmorethanthirteenorfourteenyearsofage。Inhishandwasawoodenclub。Heranforward,stopped,andwithayellofhatehurledit,IthinkatBastin,butithitme。AtanyrateIfeltashockandrememberednomore。
  Dreams。Dreams。Endlessdreams!Whatweretheyallabout?Idonotknow。ItseemedtomethatthroughthemcontinuallyIsawthestatelyfigureofoldOrocontemplatingmegravely,asthoughheweremakinguphismindaboutsomethinginwhichImustplayapart。Thentherewasanotherfigure,thatofthegraciousbutimperialYva,whofromtimetotime,asIthought,leantovermeandwhisperedinmyearwordsofrestandcomfort。Norwasthisall,sincehershapehadawayofchangingsuddenlyintothatofmylostwifewhowouldspeakwithhervoice。OrperhapsmywifewouldspeakwithYva’svoice。Tomydisorderedsenseitwasasthoughtheywereonepersonality,havingtwoshapes,eitherofwhichcouldbeassumedatwill。Itwasmoststrangeandyettomemostblessed,sinceinthelivingIseemedtohavefoundthedead,andinthedeadtheliving。More,Itookjourneys,orrathersomeunknownpartofmeseemedtodoso。OneoftheseI
  remember,foritsmajesticcharacterstampeditselfuponmymindinsuchafashionthatallthewatersofdeliriumcouldnotwashitoutnorallitswindsblowawaythatmemory。
  IwastravellingthroughspacewithYvaathousandtimesfasterthanlightcanflash。Wepassedsunaftersun。Theydrewnear,theygrewintoenormous,flamingGloriesroundwhichcircledworlduponworld。Theybecamesmall,dwindledtopointsoflightanddisappeared。
  Wefoundfootinguponsomefarlandandpassedamarvelouswhitecitywhereinwerebuildingswithdomesofcrystalandalabaster,inthelatterofwhichweresetwindowsmadeofgreatjewels;sapphiresorrubiestheyseemedtome。Wewentonupalovelyvalley。Totheleftwerehills,downwhichtumbledwaterfalls;totherightwasariverbroadanddeepthatseemedtooverflowitsbanksasdoestheNile。Behindwerehighmountainsontheslopesofwhichgrewforestsofglorioustrees,someofthemaflamewithbloom,whilefarawayuptheircrestsstoodcolossalgoldenstatuessetwideapart。Theylookedlikeguardianangelswatchingthatcityandthatvale。Thelandwaslitwithalightsuchasthatofthemoon,onlyintensifiedandofmanycolours。Indeedlookingup,Isawthataboveusfloatedthreemoons,eachofthembiggerthanourownatthefull,andgatheredthathereitwasnight。
  Wecametoahousesetamidscentedgardensandhavinginfrontofitterracesofflowers。Itseemednotunlikemyownhouseathome,butItooklittlenoteofit,becauseofawomanwhosatupontheverandah,ifImaycallitso。Shewascladingarmentsofwhitesilkfastenedabouthermiddlewithajewelledgirdle。
  Onherneckalsowasacollarofjewels。Iforgetthecolour;
  indeedthisseemedtochangecontinuallyasthelightfromthedifferentmoonsstruckwhenshemoved,butIthinkitsprevailingtingewasblue。Inherarmsthiswomannursedabeauteous,sleepingchild,singinghappilyassherockedittoandfro。Yvawenttowardsthewomanwholookedupatherstepandutteredalittlecry。ThenforthefirsttimeIsawthewoman’sface。Itwasthatofmydeadwife!
  AsIfollowedinmydream,alittlecloudofmistseemedtocoverbothmywifeandYva,andwhenIreachedtheplaceYvawasgone。Onlymywiferemained,sheandthechild。Thereshestood,solemnandsweet。WhileIdrewnearshelaiddownthechilduponthecushionedseatfromwhichshehadrisen。Shestretchedoutherarmsandflungthemaboutme。SheembracedmeandIembracedherinaraptureofreunion。Thenturningsheliftedupthechild,itwasagirl,formetokiss。
  "Seeyourdaughter,"shesaid,"andbeholdallthatIammakingreadyforyouwhereweshalldwellinadaytocome。"
  Igrewconfused。
  "Yva,"Isaid。"WhereisYvawhobroughtmehere?Didshegointothehouse?"
  "Yes,"sheansweredhappily。"Yvawentintothehouse。Lookagain!"
  IlookedanditwasYva’sfacethatwaspressedagainstmyown,andYva’seyesthatgazedintomine。Onlyshewasgarbedasmywifehadbeen,andonherbosomhungthechangefulnecklace。
  "Youmaynotstay,"shewhispered,andlo!itwasmywifethatspoke,notYva。
  "Tellmewhatitmeans?"Iimplored。
  "Icannot,"sheanswered。"Therearemysteriesthatyoumaynotknowasyet。LoveYvaifyouwillandIshallnotbejealous,forinlovingYvayouloveme。Youcannotunderstand?Thenknowthis,thatthespirithasmanyshapes,andyetisthesamespirit——
  sometimes。NowIwhoamfar,yetnear,bidyoufarewellawhile。"
  Thenallpassedinaflashandthedreamended。
  SuchwastheonlyoneofthosevisionswhichIcanrecall。
  Iseemedtowakeupasfromalongandtumultuoussleep。ThefirstthingIsawwasthepalmroofofourhouseupontherock。I
  knewitwasourhouse,forjustabovemewasapalmleafofwhichIhadmyselftiedthestalktotheframeworkwithabitofcolouredribbonihadIhadchancedtofindinmypocket。ItcameoriginallyfromtheprogrammecardofadancethatIhadattendedatHonoluluandIhadkeptitbecauseIthoughtitmightbeuseful。FinallyIusedittosecurethatlooseleaf。Istaredattheribbonwhichbroughtbackafloodofmemories,andasIwasthusengagedIheardvoicestalking,andlistened——Bickley’svoice,andtheLadyYva’s。
  "Yes,"Bickleywassaying,"hewilldowellnow,buthewentnear,verynear。"
  "Iknewhewouldnotdie,"sheanswered,"becausemyfathersaidso。"
  "Therearetwosortsofdeaths,"repliedBickley,"thatofthebodyandthatofthemind。Iwasafraidthatevenifhelived,hisreasonwouldgo,butfromcertainindicationsIdonotthinkthatwillhappennow。Hewillgetquitewellagain——though——"andhestopped。
  "Iamverygladtohearyousayso,"chimedinBastin。"ForweeksIthoughtthatIshouldhavetoreadtheBurialServiceoverpoorArbuthnot。IndeedIwasmuchpuzzledastothebestplacetoburyhim。FinallyIfoundaverysuitablespotroundthecornerthere,whereitisn’trock,inwhichonecan’tdigandthesoilisnotliabletobeflooded。InfactIwentsofarastoclearawaythebushandtomarkoutthegravewithitsfoottotheeast。Inthisclimateonecan’tdelay,youknow。"
  WeakasIwas,Ismiled。ThispracticalproceedingwassoexactlylikeBastin。
  "Well,youwastedyourlabour,"exclaimedBickley。
  "Yes,IamgladtosayIdid。ButIdon’tthinkitwasyouroperationsandtherestthatcuredhim,Bickley,althoughyoutakeallthecredit。IbelieveitwastheLife—waterthattheLadyYvamadehimdrinkandthestuffthatOrosentwhichwegavehimwhenyouweren’tlooking。"
  "ThenIhopethatinthefutureyouwillnotinterferewithmycases,"saidtheindignantBickley,andeitherthevoicespassedawayorIwenttosleep。
  WhenIwokeupagainitwastofindtheLadyYvaseatedatmysidewatchingme。
  "Forgiveme,Humphrey,becauseIhere;othersgoneoutwalking,"shesaidslowlyinEnglish。
  "Whotaughtyoumylanguage?"Iasked,astonished。"BastinandBickley,whileyouill,theyteach;theyteachmemuch。Manjustsamenowashewashundredthousandyearsago,"sheaddedenigmatically。"Allthinkonewomanbeautifulwhennootherwomanthere。"
  "Indeed,"Ireplied,wonderingtowhatproceedingsonthepartofBastinandBickleyshealluded。Couldthatself—centredpair——
  oh!itwasimpossible。
  "HowlonghaveIbeenill?"IaskedtoescapethesubjectwhichIfelttobeuncomfortable。
  Sheliftedherbeautifuleyesinsearchofwordsandbegantocountuponherfingers。
  "Twomoon,onehalfmoon,yes,tenweek,countingSabbath,"sheansweredtriumphantly。
  "Tenweeks!"Iexclaimed。
  "Yes,Humphrey,tenwholeweeksandthreedaysyoufirstbad,thenmad。Oh!"shewenton,breakingintotheOrofenantonguewhichshespokesoperfectly,althoughitwasnotherown。ThatlanguageofhersIneverlearned,butIknowshethoughtinitandonlytranslatedintoOrofenan,becauseofthegreatdifficultywhichshehadinrenderingherhighandrefinedideasintoitssimplermetaphor,andthestrangewordswhichoftensheintroduced。"Oh!youhavebeenveryill,friendofmyheart。AttimesIthoughtthatyouweregoingtodie,andweptandwept。
  Bickleythinksthathesavedyouandheisveryclever。Buthecouldnothavesavedyou;thatwantedmoreknowledgethananyofyourpeoplehave;onlyIprayyou,donottellhimsobecauseitwouldhurthispride。"
  "Whatwasthematterwithmethen,Yva?"
  "Allwasthematter。First,theweaponwhichthatyouththrew——
  hewasthesonofthesorcererwhommyfatherdestroyed——crushedintheboneofyourhead。Heisdeadforhiscrimeandmayhebeaccursedforever,"sheaddedintheonlyoutbreakofrageandvindictivenessinwhichIeversawherindulge。
  "Onemustmakeexcusesforhim;hisfatherhadbeenkilled,"I
  said。
  "Yes,thatiswhatBastintellsme,anditistrue。Still,forthatyoungmanIcanmakenoexcuse;itwascowardlyandwicked。
  Well,Bickleyperformedwhathecallsoperation,andtheLordOro,hecameupfromhishouseandhelpedhim,becauseBastinisnogoodinsuchthings。Thenhecanonlyturnawayhisheadandpray。I,too,helped,holdinghotwaterandlinenandjarofthestuffthatmadeyoufeellikenothing,althoughthesightmademefeelmoresickthananythingsinceIsawoneIlovedkilled,oh,long,longago。"
  "Wastheoperationsuccessful?"Iasked,forIdidnotdaretobegintothankher。
  "Yes,thatcleverman,Bickley,liftedthebonewhichhadbeencrushedin。Onlythensomethingbrokeinyourheadandyoubegantobleedhere,"andshetouchedwhatIbelieveiscalledthetemporalartery。"Theveinhadbeencrushedbytheblow,andgaveway。Bickleyworkedandworked,andjustintimehetieditupbeforeyoudied。Oh!thenIfeltasthoughIlovedBickley,thoughafterwardsBastinsaidthatIoughttohavelovedhim,sinceitwasnotBickleywhostoppedthebleeding,buthisprayer。"
  "Perhapsitwasboth,"Isuggested。
  "Perhaps,Humphrey,atleastyouweresaved。Thencameanothertrouble。Youtookfever。Bickleysaidthatitwasbecauseacertaingnathadbittenyouwhenyouwentdowntotheship,andmyfather,theLordOro,toldmethatthiswasright。Attheleastyougrewveryweakandlostyourmind,anditseemedasthoughyoumustdie。Then,Humphrey,IwenttotheLordOroandkneeledbeforehimandprayedyoulife,forIknewthathecouldcureyouifhewould,thoughBickley’sskillwasatanend。
  "’Daughter,’hesaidtome,’notoncebutagainandagainyouhavesetupyourwillagainstmineinthepast。WhythenshouldI
  troublemyselftograntthisdesireofyoursinthepresent,andsaveamanwhoisnothingtome?’
  "Irosetomyfeetandanswered,’Idonotknow,myFather,yetIamcertainthatforyourownsakeitwillbewelltodoso。I
  amsurethatofeverythingevenyoumustgiveanaccountatlast,greatthoughyoube,andwhoknows,perhapsonelifewhichyouhavesavedmayturnthebalanceinyourfavour。’
  "’SurelythepriestBastinhasbeentalkingtoyou,’hesaid。
  "’Hehas,’Ianswered,’andnothealone。Manyvoiceshavebeentalkingtome。’"
  "Whatdidyoumeanbythat?"Iasked。
  "ItmattersnothingwhatImeant,Humphrey。Bestillandlistentomystory。Myfatherthoughtawhileandanswered:
  "’Iamjealousofthisstranger。Whatishebutashort—livedhalf—barbariansuchasweknewintheolddays?Andyetalreadyyouthinkmoreofhimthanyoudoofme,yourfather,thedivineOrowhohaslivedathousandyears。AtfirstIhelpedthatphysiciantosavehim,butnowIthinkIwishhimdead。’
  "’Ifyouletthismandie,myFather,’Ianswered,’thenwepart。RememberthatIalsohaveofthewisdomofourpeople,andcanuseitifIwill。’
  "’Thensavehimyourself,’hesaid。
  "’PerhapsIshall,myFather,’Ianswered,’butifsoitwillnotbehere。Isaythatifsowepartandyoushallbelefttoruleinyourmajestyalone。’
  "NowthisfrightenedtheLordOro,forhehastheweaknessthathehatestobealone。
  "’IfIdowhatyouwill,doyouswearnevertoleaveme,Yva?’
  heasked。’Knowthatifyouwillnotswear,themandies。’
  "’Iswear,’Ianswered——foryoursake,Humphrey——thoughIdidnotlovetheoath。
  "ThenhegavemeacertainmedicinetomixwiththeLife—water,andwhenyouwerealmostgonethatmedicinecuredyou,thoughBickleydoesnotknowit,asnothingelsecouldhavedone。NowI
  havetoldyouthetruth,foryourownearonly,Humphrey。"
  "Yva,"Iasked,"whydidyoudoallthisforme?"
  "Humphrey,Idonotknow,"sheanswered,"butIthinkbecauseI
  must。Nowsleepawhile。"
  ChapterXIX
  TheProposalsofBastinandBickleySofarasmybodywasconcernedIgrewwellwithgreatrapidity,thoughitwaslongbeforeIgotbackmystrength。ThusIcouldnotwalkfarorendureanysustainedexertion。Withmyminditwasotherwise。Icannotexplainwhathadhappenedtoit;
  indeedIdonotknow,butinasenseitseemedtohavebecomedetachedandtohaveassumedakindofpersonalityofitsown。Attimesitfeltasthoughitwerenolongeraninhabitantofthebody,butratheritsmoreorlessindependentpartner。Iwasperfectlyclear—headedandofinsanityIexperiencednosymptoms。
  Yetmymind,Iusethattermfromlackofabetter,wasnotentirelyundermycontrol。Foronething,atnightitappearedtowanderfaraway,thoughwhitheritwentandwhatitsawthereI
  couldneverremember。
  Irecordthisbecausepossiblyitexplainscertainmysteriousevents,iftheywereeventsandnotdreams,whichshortlyImustsetout。IspoketoBickleyaboutthematter。Heputitbylightly,sayingthatitwasonlyaresultofmylongandmostsevereillnessandthatIshouldsteadydownintime,especiallyifwecouldescapefromthatislandanditsunnaturalatmosphere。
  Yetashespokeheglancedatmeshrewdlywithhisquickeyes,andwhenheturnedtogoawayIheardhimmuttersomethingtohimselfabout"unholyinfluences"and"thatconfoundedoldOro。"
  Thewordswerespokentohimselfandquitebeneathhisbreath,andofcoursenotmeanttoreachme。Butoneofthecuriousconcomitantsofmystatewasthatallmysenses,andespeciallymyhearing,hadbecomemostabnormallyacute。Awhisperfarawaywasnowtomelikealoudremarkmadeinaroom。
  Bickley’sreflection,forIcanscarcelycallitmore,setmethinking。YvahadsaidthatOrosentmemedicinewhichwasadministeredtomewithoutBickley’sknowledge,andasshebelieved,savedmylife,orcertainlymyreason。Whatwasinit?
  Iwondered。ThentherewasthatLife—waterwhichYvabroughtandinsisteduponmydrinkingeveryday。Undoubtedlyitwasamarveloustonicanddidmegood。Butithadothereffectsalso。
  Thus,asshesaidwouldbethecase,afteracourseofitI
  conceivedthegreatestdislike,whichImayaddhasneverentirelyleftme,ofanyformofmeat,alsoofalcohol。AllI
  seemedtowantwasthiswaterwithfruit,orsuchnativevegetablesastherewere。Bickleydisapprovedandmademeeatfishoccasionally,buteventhisrevoltedme,andsinceIgainedsteadilyinweight,aswefoundoutbyasimplecontrivance,andremainedhealthyineveryotherway,soonheallowedmetochoosemyowndiet。
  AboutthistimeOrobegantopaymefrequentvisits。Healwayscameatnight,andwhatismoreIknewwhenhewascoming,althoughhenevergavemewarning。HereIshouldexplainthatduringmyillnessBastin,whowassoingeniousinsuchmatters,hadbuiltanotherhutinwhichheandBickleyslept,ofcoursewhentheywerenotwatchingme,leavingouroldbed—chambertomyself。
  Well,IwouldwakeupandbeawarethatOrowascoming。Thenheappearedinasilentandmysteriousway,asthoughhehadmaterialisedintheroom,forIneversawhimpassthedoorway。
  Inthemoonlight,orthestarlight,whichflowedthroughtheentranceandthesideofthehutthatwasonlyenclosedwithlatticework,Iperceivedhimseathimselfuponacertainstool,lookinglikeamostmajesticghostwithhisflowingrobes,longwhitebeard,hookednoseandhawkeyes。Intheday—timehemuchresembledthelateGeneralBoothwhomIhadoftenseen,exceptforcertainaddedqualitiesofheightandclassicbeautyofcountenance。Atnight,however,heresemblednoonebuthimself,indeedtherewassomethingmightyandgodlikeinhisappearance,somethingthatmadeonefeelthathewasnotasareothermen。
  Forawhilehewouldsitandlookatme。Thenhebegantospeakinalow,vibrantvoice。Whatdidhespeakof?Well,manymatters。Itwasasthoughhewereunburdeningthathoarysoulofhisbecauseitcouldnolongerendurethegrandeurofitsownloneliness。Amongstsundrysecretthings,hetoldmeofthepasthistoryofthisworldofours,andofthemightycivilisationswhichforuncountedagesheandhisforefathershadruledbythestrengthoftheirwillandknowledge,ofthedwindlingoftheirraceandofthefinaldestructionofitsenemies,althoughI
  noticedthatnowhenolongersaidthatthiswashisworkalone。
  OnenightIaskedhimifhedidnotmissallsuchpompandpower。
  Thensuddenlyhebrokeout,andforthefirsttimeIreallylearnedwhatambitioncanbewhenitutterlypossessesthesoulofman。
  "Areyoumad,"heasked,"thatyousupposethatI,Oro,theKingofkings,canbecontenttodwellsolitaryinagreatcavewithnonebuttheshadowsofthedeadtoserveme?Nay,Imustruleagainandbeevengreaterthanbefore,orelseItoowilldie。Bettertofacethefuture,evenifitmeansoblivion,thantoremainthusarelicofagloriouspast,stilllivingandyetdead,likethatstatueofthegreatgodFatewhichyousawinthetempleofmyworship。"
  "Bastindoesnotthinkthatthefuturemeansoblivion,"I
  remarked。
  "Iknowit。Ihavestudiedhisfaithandfindittoohumbleformytaste,alsotoonew。ShallI,Oro,creepasuppliantbeforeanyPower,andconfesswhatBastinispleasedtocallmysins?
  Nay,Iwhoamgreatwillbetheequalofallgreatness,ornothing。"
  Hepausedawhile,thenwenton:
  "Bastinspeaksof’eternity。’Whereandwhatthenisthiseternitywhichifithasnoendcanhavehadnobeginning?Iknowthesecretofthesunsandtheirattendantworlds,andtheyarenomoreeternalthantheinsectwhichglittersforanhour。Outofshapeless,rushinggasestheygatheredtolivetheirday,andintogasesatlasttheydissolveagainwithalltheybore。"
  "Yes,"Ianswered,"buttheyreformintonewworlds。"
  "Thathavenopartwiththeold。Thisworld,too,willmelt,departingtowhenceitcame,asyoursacredwritingssay,andwhatthenofthosewhodweltanddwellthereon?No,Manoftoday,givemeTimeinwhichIruleandkeepyourdreamsofanEternitythatisnot,andinwhichyoumuststillcrawlandserve,evenifitwere。Yet,ifImight,Iconfessit,Iwouldliveonforever,butasMasternotasSlave。"