首页 >出版文学> The Tale of Balen>第11章
  "Dutchpeople?"
  "Yes。"
  "Andyoulikethelife?"
  Theboyhesitated。
  "Ondayslikethese。"
  "Andwhyonthese?"
  Theboywaited。
  "Theyareverybeautiful。"
  Thestrangerlookedathim。Itseemedthatasthefellow’sdarkeyeslookedacrossthebrownearththeykindledwithanintensesatisfaction;
  thentheylookedbackatthecarving。
  Whathadthatcreature,socoarse—cladandclownish,todowiththesubtlejoysoftheweather?Himself,white—handedanddelicate,hemighthearthemusicwithshimmeringsunshineandsolitudeplayonthefinely—strungchordsofnature;butthatfellow!Wasnottheearinthatgreatbodytoogrossforsuchdelicatemutterings?
  Presentlyhesaid:
  "MayIseewhatyouworkat?"
  Thefellowhandedhiswoodenpost。Itwasbynomeanslovely。Themenandbirdswerealmostgrotesqueintheirlabouredresemblancetonature,andboresignsofpatientthought。Thestrangerturnedthethingoveronhisknee。
  "Wheredidyoulearnthiswork?"
  "Itaughtmyself。"
  "Andthesezigzaglinesrepresent——"
  "Amountain。"
  Thestrangerlooked。
  "Ithassomemeaning,hasitnot?"
  Theboymutteredconfusedly。
  "Onlythings。"
  Thequestionerlookeddownathim——thehuge,unwieldyfigure,insizeaman’s,inrightofhischildlikefeaturesandcurlinghairachild’s;andithurthim——itattractedhimandithurthim。Itwassomethingbetweenpityandsympathy。
  "Howlonghaveyouworkedatthis?"
  "Ninemonths。"
  Fromhispocketthestrangerdrewhispocket—book,andtooksomethingfromit。Hecouldfastentheposttohishorseinsomeway,andthrowitawayinthesandwhenatasafedistance。
  "Willyoutakethisforyourcarving?"
  Theboyglancedatthefive—poundnoteandshookhishead。
  "No;Icannot。"
  "Youthinkitisworthmore?"askedthestrangerwithalittlesneer。
  Hepointedwithhisthumbtoagrave。
  "No;itisforhim。"
  "Andwhoisthere?"askedthestranger。
  "Myfather。"
  Themansilentlyreturnedthenotetohispocket—book,andgavethecarvingtotheboy;and,drawinghishatoverhiseyes,composedhimselftosleep。
  Notbeingabletodoso,afterawhileheglancedoverthefellow’sshouldertowatchhimwork。Theboycarvedlettersintotheback。
  "If,"saidthestranger,withhismelodiousvoice,richwithasweetnessthatnevershoweditselfinthecloudedeyes——forsweetnesswilllingeroninthevoicelongafterithasdiedoutintheeyes——"ifforsuchapurpose,whywritethatuponit?"
  Theboyglancedroundathim,butmadenoanswer。Hehadalmostforgottenhispresence。
  "Yousurelybelieve,"saidthestranger,"thatsomeday,soonerorlater,thesegraveswillopen,andthoseBoer—uncleswiththeirwiveswalkabouthereintheredsand,withtheveryfleshlylegswithwhichtheywenttosleep?Thenwhysay,’Hesleepsforever?’Youbelievehewillstandupagain?"
  "Doyou?"askedtheboy,liftingforaninstanthisheavyeyestothestranger’sface。
  Halftakenabackthestrangerlaughed。Itwasasthoughacuriouslittletadpolewhichheheldunderhisglassshouldsuddenlyliftitstailandbegintoquestionhim。
  "I?——no。"Helaughedhisshortthicklaugh。"Iamamanwhobelievesnothing,hopesnothing,fearsnothing,feelsnothing。Iambeyondthepaleofhumanity;nocriterionofwhatyoushouldbewholivehereamongyourostrichesandbushes。"
  Thenextmomentthestrangerwassurprisedbyasuddenmovementonthepartofthefellow,whichbroughthimclosetothestranger’sfeet。Soonafterheraisedhiscarvingandlaiditacrosstheman’sknee。
  "Yes,Iwilltellyou,"hemuttered;"Iwilltellyouallaboutit。"
  Heputhisfingeronthegrotesquelittlemannikinatthebottom(ah!thatmanwhobelievednothing,hopednothing,feltnothing;howhelovedhim!),andwitheagerfingerthefellowmovedupward,explainingoverfantasticfiguresandmountains,tothecrowningbirdfromwhosewingdroppedafeather。Attheendhespokewithbrokenbreath——shortwords,likeonewhouttersthingsofmightyimport。
  Thestrangerwatchedmorethefacethanthecarving;andtherewasnowandthenashowofwhiteteethbeneaththemoustachesashelistened。
  "Ithink,"hesaidblandly,whentheboyhaddone,"thatIpartlyunderstandyou。Itissomethingafterthisfashion,isitnot?"(Hesmiled。)"Incertainvalleystherewasahunter。"(Hetouchedthegrotesquelittlefigureatthebottom。)"Daybydayhewenttohuntforwild—fowlinthewoods;anditchancedthatoncehestoodontheshoresofalargelake。Whilehestoodwaitingintherushesforthecomingofthebirds,agreatshadowfellonhim,andinthewaterhesawareflection。
  Helookeduptothesky;butthethingwasgone。Thenaburningdesirecameoverhimtoseeonceagainthatreflectioninthewater,andalldayhewatchedandwaited;butnightcameandithadnotreturned。Thenhewenthomewithhisemptybag,moodyandsilent。Hiscomradescamequestioningabouthimtoknowthereason,butheansweredthemnothing;hesataloneandbrooded。Thenhisfriendcametohim,andtohimhespoke。
  "’Ihaveseentoday,’hesaid,’thatwhichIneversawbefore——avastwhitebird,withsilverwingsoutstretched,sailingintheeverlastingblue。Andnowitisasthoughagreatfireburntwithinmybreast。Itwasbutasheen,ashimmer,areflectioninthewater;butnowIdesirenothingmoreonearththantoholdher。’
  "Hisfriendlaughed。
  "’Itwasbutabeamplayingonthewater,ortheshadowofyourownhead。
  Tomorrowyouwillforgether,’hesaid。
  "Buttomorrow,andtomorrow,andtomorrowthehunterwalkedalone。Hesoughtintheforestandinthewoods,bythelakesandamongtherushes,buthecouldnotfindher。Heshotnomorewildfowl;whatweretheytohim?
  "’Whatailshim?’saidhiscomrades。
  "’Heismad,’saidone。
  "’No;butheisworse,’saidanother;’hewouldseethatwhichnoneofushaveseen,andmakehimselfawonder。’
  "’Come,letusforswearhiscompany,’saidall。
  "Sothehunterwalkedalone。
  "Onenight,ashewanderedintheshade,veryheartsoreandweeping,anoldmanstoodbeforehim,granderandtallerthanthesonsofmen。
  "’Whoareyou?’askedthehunter。
  "’IamWisdom,’answeredtheoldman;’butsomemencallmeKnowledge。AllmylifeIhavegrowninthesevalleys;butnomanseesmetillhehassorrowedmuch。Theeyesmustbewashedwithtearsthataretobeholdme;
  and,accordingasamanhassuffered,Ispeak。’
  "Andthehuntercried:
  "’Oh,youwhohavelivedheresolong,tellme,whatisthatgreatwildbirdIhaveseensailingintheblue?Theywouldhavemebelievesheisadream;theshadowofmyownhead。’
  "Theoldmansmiled。
  "’HernameisTruth。Hewhohasonceseenherneverrestsagain。Tilldeathhedesiresher。’
  "Andthehuntercried:
  "’Oh,tellmewhereImayfindher。’
  "Buttheoldmansaid:
  "’Youhavenotsufferedenough,’andwent。
  "ThenthehuntertookfromhisbreasttheshuttleofImagination,andwoundonitthethreadofhisWishes;andallnighthesatandwoveanet。
  "Inthemorninghespreadthegoldennetupontheground,andintoithethrewafewgrainsofcredulity,whichhisfatherhadlefthim,andwhichhekeptinhisbreast—pocket。Theywerelikewhitepuff—balls,andwhenyoutrodonthemabrowndustflewout。Thenhesatbytoseewhatwouldhappen。Thefirstthatcameintothenetwasasnow—whitebird,withdove’seyes,andhesangabeautifulsong——’Ahuman—God!ahuman—God!ahuman—God!’itsang。Thesecondthatcamewasblackandmystical,withdark,lovelyeyes,thatlookedintothedepthsofyoursoul,andhesangonlythis——’Immortality!’
  "Andthehuntertookthembothinhisarmsforhesaid——
  "’TheyaresurelyofthebeautifulfamilyofTruth。’
  "Thencameanother,greenandgold,whosanginashrillvoice,likeonecryinginthemarketplace,——’RewardafterDeath!RewardafterDeath!’
  "Andhesaid——
  "’Youarenotsofair;butyouarefairtoo,’andhetookit。
  "Andotherscame,brightlycoloured,singingpleasantsongs,tillallthegrainswerefinished。Andthehuntergatheredallhisbirdstogether,andbuiltastrongironcagecalledanewcreed,andputallhisbirdsinit。
  "Thenthepeoplecameaboutdancingandsinging。
  "’Oh,happyhunter!’theycried。’Oh,wonderfulman!Oh,delightfulbirds!Oh,lovelysongs!’
  "Nooneaskedwherethebirdshadcomefrom,norhowtheyhadbeencaught;
  buttheydancedandsangbeforethem。Andthehuntertoowasglad,forhesaid:
  "’SurelyTruthisamongthem。Intimeshewillmoultherfeathers,andI
  shallseehersnow—whiteform。’
  "Butthetimepassed,andthepeoplesanganddanced;butthehunter’sheartgrewheavy。Hecreptalone,asofold,toweep;theterribledesirehadawakenedagaininhisbreast。Oneday,ashesataloneweeping,itchancedthatWisdommethim。Hetoldtheoldmanwhathehaddone。
  "AndWisdomsmiledsadly。
  "’Manymen,’hesaid,’havespreadthatnetforTruth;buttheyhaveneverfoundher。Onthegrainsofcredulityshewillnotfeed;inthenetofwishesherfeetcannotbeheld;intheairofthesevalleysshewillnotbreathe。ThebirdsyouhavecaughtareofthebroodofLies。Lovelyandbeautiful,butstilllies;Truthknowsthemnot。’
  "Andthehuntercriedoutinbitterness——
  "’AndmustIthensitstill,tobedevouredofthisgreatburning?’
  "Andtheoldmansaid,"’Listen,andinthatyouhavesufferedmuchandweptmuch,IwilltellyouwhatIknow。HewhosetsouttosearchforTruthmustleavethesevalleysofsuperstitionforever,takingwithhimnotoneshredthathasbelongedtothem。AlonehemustwanderdownintotheLandofAbsoluteNegationandDenial;hemustabidethere;hemustresisttemptation;whenthelightbreakshemustariseandfollowitintothecountryofdrysunshine。Themountainsofsternrealitywillrisebeforehim;hemustclimbthem;beyondthemliesTruth。’
  "’Andhewillholdherfast!hewillholdherinhishands!’thehuntercried。
  "Wisdomshookhishead。
  "’Hewillneverseeher,neverholdher。Thetimeisnotyet。’
  "’Thenthereisnohope?’criedthehunter。
  "’Thereisthis,’saidWisdom:’Somemenhaveclimbedonthosemountains;
  circleabovecircleofbarerocktheyhavescaled;and,wanderingthere,inthosehighregions,somehavechancedtopickuponthegroundonewhitesilverfeather,droppedfromthewingofTruth。Anditshallcometopass,’saidtheoldman,raisinghimselfpropheticallyandpointingwithhisfingertothesky,’itshallcometopass,thatwhenenoughofthosesilverfeathersshallhavebeengatheredbythehandsofmen,andshallhavebeenwovenintoacord,andthecordintoanet,thatinthatnetTruthmaybecaptured。NothingbutTruthcanholdTruth。’
  "Thehunterarose。’Iwillgo,’hesaid。
  "Butwisdomdetainedhim。
  "’Markyouwell——wholeavesthesevalleysneverreturnstothem。Thoughheshouldweeptearsofbloodsevendaysandnightsupontheconfines,hecanneverputhisfootacrossthem。Left——theyareleftforever。Upontheroadwhichyouwouldtravelthereisnorewardoffered。Whogoes,goesfreely——forthegreatlovethatisinhim。Theworkishisreward。’
  "’Igo’saidthehunter;’butuponthemountains,tellme,whichpathshallItake?’
  "’IamthechildofThe—Accumulated—Knowledge—of—Ages,’saidtheman;’I
  canwalkonlywheremanymenhavetrodden。Onthesemountainsfewfeethavepassed;eachmanstrikesoutapathforhimself。Hegoesathisownperil:myvoicehehearsnomore。Imayfollowafterhim,butcannotgobeforehim。’
  "ThenKnowledgevanished。
  "Andthehunterturned。Hewenttohiscage,andwithhishandsbrokedownthebars,andthejaggedirontorehisflesh。Itissometimeseasiertobuildthantobreak。
  "Onebyonehetookhisplumedbirdsandletthemfly。Butwhenhecametohisdark—plumedbirdheheldit,andlookedintoitsbeautifuleyes,andthebirduttereditslow,deepcry——’Immortality!’
  "Andhesaidquickly:’Icannotpartwithit。Itisnotheavy;iteatsnofood。Iwillhideitinmybreast;Iwilltakeitwithme。’Andheburieditthereandcovereditoverwithhiscloak。
  "Butthethinghehadhiddengrewheavier,heavier,heavier——tillitlayonhisbreastlikelead。Hecouldnotmovewithit。Hecouldnotleavethosevalleyswithit。Thenagainhetookitoutandlookedatit。
  "’Oh,mybeautiful!myheart’sown!’hecried,’mayInotkeepyou?’
  "Heopenedhishandssadly。
  "’Go!’hesaid。’ItmayhappenthatinTruth’ssongonenoteislikeyours;butIshallneverhearit。’
  "Sadlyheopenedhishand,andthebirdflewfromhimforever。
  "Thenfromtheshuttleofimaginationhetookthethreadofhiswishes,andthrewitontheground;andtheemptyshuttleheputintohisbreast,forthethreadwasmadeinthosevalleys,buttheshuttlecamefromanunknowncountry。Heturnedtogo,butnowthepeoplecameabouthim,howling。
  "’Fool,hound,dementedlunatic!’theycried。’Howdaredyoubreakyourcageandletthebirdsfly?’
  "Thehunterspoke;buttheywouldnothearhim。
  "’Truth!whoisshe?Canyoueather?canyoudrinkher?Whohaseverseenher?Yourbirdswerereal:allcouldhearthemsing!Oh,fool!vilereptile!atheist!’theycried,’youpollutetheair。’
  "’Come,letustakeupstonesandstonehim,’criedsome。
  "’Whataffairisitofours?’saidothers。’Lettheidiotgo,’andwentaway。Buttherestgatheredupstonesandmudandthrewathim。Atlast,whenhewasbruisedandcut,thehuntercreptawayintothewoods。Anditwaseveningabouthim。"
  Ateverywordthestrangerspokethefellow’seyesflashedbackonhim——
  yes,andyes,andyes!Thestrangersmiled。Itwasalmostworththetroubleofexertingoneself,evenonalazyafternoon,towinthosepassionateflashes,morethirstyanddesiringthanthelove—glancesofawoman。
  "Hewanderedonandon,"saidthestranger,"andtheshadegrewdeeper。Hewasonthebordersnowofthelandwhereitisalwaysnight。Thenhesteppedintoit,andtherewasnolightthere。Withhishandshegroped;
  buteachbranchashetoucheditbrokeoff,andtheearthwascoveredwithcinders。Ateverystephisfootsankin,andafinecloudofimpalpableashesflewupintohisface;anditwasdark。Sohesatdownuponastoneandburiedhisfaceinhishands,towaitintheLandofNegationandDenialtillthelightcame。
  "Anditwasnightinhisheartalso。
  "Thenfromthemarshestohisrightandleftcoldmistsaroseandclosedabouthim。Afine,imperceptiblerainfellinthedark,andgreatdropsgatheredonhishairandclothes。Hisheartbeatslowly,andanumbnesscreptthroughallhislimbs。Then,lookingup,twomerrywisplightscamedancing。Heliftedhisheadtolookatthem。Nearer,nearertheycame。
  Sowarm,sobright,theydancedlikestarsoffire。Theystoodbeforehimatlast。Fromthecentreoftheradiatingflameinonelookedoutawoman’sface,laughing,dimpled,withstreamingyellowhair。Inthecentreoftheotherweremerrylaughingripples,likethebubblesonaglassofwine。Theydancedbeforehim。
  "’Whoareyou,’askedthehunter,’whoalonecometomeinmysolitudeanddarkness?’
  "’WearethetwinsSensuality,’theycried。’Ourfather’snameisHuman—
  Nature,andourmother’snameisExcess。Weareasoldasthehillsandrivers,asoldasthefirstman;butweneverdie,’theylaughed。
  "’Oh,letmewrapmyarmsaboutyou!;criedthefirst;’theyaresoftandwarm。Yourheartisfrozennow,butIwillmakeitbeat。Oh,cometome!’
  "’Iwillpourmyhotlifeintoyou,’saidthesecond;’yourbrainisnumb,andyourlimbsaredeadnow;buttheyshalllivewithafiercefreelife。
  Oh,letmepouritin!’
  "’Oh,followus,’theycried,’andlivewithus。Noblerheartsthanyourshavesathereinthisdarknesstowait,andtheyhavecometousandwetothem;andtheyhaveneverleftus,never。Allelseisadelusion,butwearereal,wearereal,wearereal。Truthisashadow;thevalleysofsuperstitionareafarce:theearthisofashes,thetreesallrotten;butwe——feelus——welive!Youcannotdoubtus。Feelushowwarmweare!Oh,cometous!Comewithus!’
  "Nearerandnearerroundhisheadtheyhovered,andthecolddropsmeltedonhisforehead。Thebrightlightshotintohiseyes,dazzlinghim,andthefrozenbloodbegantorun。Andhesaid:
  "’Yes,whyshouldIdiehereinthisawfuldarkness?Theyarewarm,theymeltmyfrozenblood!’andhestretchedouthishandstotakethem。
  "Theninamomenttherearosebeforehimtheimageofthethinghehadloved,andhishanddroppedtohisside。
  "’Oh,cometous!’theycried。
  "Butheburiedhisface。
  "’Youdazzlemyeyes,’hecried,’youmakemyheartwarm;butyoucannotgivemewhatIdesire。Iwillwaithere——waittillIdie。Go!’
  "Hecoveredhisfacewithhishandsandwouldnotlisten;andwhenhelookedupagaintheyweretwotwinklingstars,thatvanishedinthedistance。
  "Andthelong,longnightrolledon。
  "Allwholeavethevalleyofsuperstitionpassthroughthatdarkland;butsomegothroughitinafewdays,somelingerthereformonths,someforyears,andsomediethere。"
  Theboyhadcreptcloser;hishotbreathalmosttouchedthestranger’shand;amysticwonderfilledhiseyes。
  "Atlastforthehunterafaintlightplayedalongthehorizon,andherosetofollowit;andhereachedthatlightatlast,andsteppedintothebroadsunshine。ThenbeforehimrosethealmightymountainsofDry—factsandRealities。Theclearsunshineplayedonthem,andthetopswerelostintheclouds。Atthefootmanypathsranup。Anexultantcryburstfromthehunter。Hechosethestraightestandbegantoclimb;andtherocksandridgesresoundedwithhissong。Theyhadexaggerated;afterall,itwasnotsohigh,norwastheroadsosteep!Afewdays,afewweeks,afewmonthsatmost,andthenthetop!Notonefeatheronlywouldhepickup;
  hewouldgatherallthatothermenhadfound——weavethenet——captureTruth—
  —holdherfast——touchherwithhishands——claspher!
  "Helaughedinthemerrysunshine,andsangloud。Victorywasverynear。
  Nevertheless,afterawhilethepathgrewsteeper。Heneededallhisbreathforclimbing,andthesingingdiedaway。Ontherightandleftrosehugerocks,devoidoflichenormoss,andinthelava—likeearthchasmsyawned。Hereandtherehesawasheenofwhitebones。Nowtoothepathbegantogrowlessandlessmarked;thenitbecameameretrace,withafootmarkhereandthere;thenitceasedaltogether。Hesangnomore,butstruckforthapathforhimself,untilitreachedamightywallofrock,smoothandwithoutbreak,stretchingasfarastheeyecouldsee。’Iwillrearastairagainstit;and,oncethiswallclimbed,Ishallbealmostthere,’hesaidbravely;andworked。Withhisshuttleofimaginationhedugoutstones;buthalfofthemwouldnotfit,andhalfamonth’sworkwouldrolldownbecausethosebelowwereillchosen。Butthehunterworkedon,sayingalwaystohimself,’Oncethiswallclimbed,Ishallbealmostthere。Thisgreatworkended!’
  "Atlasthecameoutuponthetop,andhelookedabouthim。Farbelowrolledthewhitemistoverthevalleysofsuperstition,andabovehimtoweredthemountains。Theyhadseemedlowbefore;theywereofanimmeasurableheightnow,fromcrowntofoundationsurroundedbywallsofrock,thatrosetierabovetierinmightycircles。Uponthemplayedtheeternalsunshine。Heutteredawildcry。Hebowedhimselfontotheearth,andwhenherosehisfacewaswhite。Inabsolutesilencehewalkedon。Hewasverysilentnow。Inthosehighregionstherarefiedairishardtobreathebythoseborninthevalleys;everybreathhedrewhurthim,andthebloodoozedoutfromthetipsofhisfingers。Beforethenextwallofrockhebegantowork。Theheightofthisseemedinfinite,andhesaidnothing。Thesoundofhistoolrangnightanddayupontheironrocksintowhichhecutsteps。Yearspassedoverhim,yetheworkedon;butthewalltoweredupalwaysabovehimtoheaven。Sometimesheprayedthatalittlemossorlichenmightspringuponthosebarewallstobeacompaniontohim;butitnevercame。"Thestrangerwatchedtheboy’sface。
  "Andtheyearsrolledon;hecountedthembythestepshehadcut——afewforayear——onlyafew。Hesangnomore;hesaidnomore,’Iwilldothisorthat’——heonlyworked。Andatnight,whenthetwilightsettleddown,therelookedoutathimfromtheholesandcrevicesintherocksstrangewildfaces。
  "’Stopyourwork,youlonelyman,andspeaktous,’theycried。