Myfather’sancestorsweretheShawsofRothiemurchus,inScotland,andtheruinsoftheircastlemaystillbeseenontheislandofLoch—an—Eilan,inthenorthernHighlands。Itwasneverthepicturesquecastleofsongandstory,thishomeofthefightingShaws,butanausterefortress,probablybuiltinRomantimes;andevento—daythecrumblingwallswhichaloneareleftofitshowtracesoftherelentlessassaultsuponthem。OfthesethelastandthemostsuccessfulweremadeintheseventeenthcenturybytheGrantsandRobRoy;anditwasintothehandsoftheGrantsthattheShawfortressfinallyfell,about1700,afteralmostahundredyearsofceaselesswarfare。
Itgivesmenopleasuretoreadthegrislydetailsoftheirstruggles,butIconfesstoacertainsatisfac—
tionintheknowledgethatmyancestorsmadeagoodshowinginthedefenseofwhatwastheirs。
Beyonddoubttheywerebravefightersandstrongmen。Therewereothersidestotheirnatures,however,whichthehighlightsofhistorythrowuplessappealingly。Asaninstance,wehaveinthefamilychroniclestheblood—stainedpageofAllenShaw,theoldestsonofthelastLadyShawwholivedinthefortress。Itappearsthatwhenthefatherofthisyoungmandied,about1560,hismothermarriedagain,totheintensedisapprovalofherson。Forsometimeafterthemarriagehemadenoopenrevoltagainstthenew—comerinthedomesticcircle;butfinally,onthepretextthathisdoghadbeenattackedbyhisstepfather,heforcedaquarrelwiththeoldermanandthetwofoughtaduelwithswords,afterwhichthevic—
toriousAllenshowedasadlackofchivalry。Henotonlykilledhisstepfather,buthecutoffthatgentleman’sheadandboreittohismotherinherbed—
chamber——anactionwhichwasconsidered,eveninthattolerantage,tobecarryingfilialresentmenttoofar。
ProbablyAllenregrettedit。Certainlyhepaidahighpenaltyforit,andhisclansufferedwithhim。
Hewasoutlawedandfled,onlytobehunteddownformonths,andfinallycapturedandexecutedbyoneoftheGrants,who,infurthervirtuousdisap—
provalofAllen’sact,seizedandheldtheShawstronghold。TheotherShawsoftheclanfoughtlongandablyforitsrecovery,butthoughtheywerehelpedbytheirkinsmen,theMackintoshes,andthoughgoodScotchblooddyedthegraywallsofthefortressformanygenerations,thecastleneveragaincameintothehandsoftheShaws。ItstillentailscertainobligationsfortheGrants,however,andoneoftheseistogivetheKingofEnglandasnowballwheneverhevisitsLoch—an—Eilan!
AstheyearspassedtheShawclanscattered。
ManyShawsarestilltobefoundintheMackintoshcountryandthroughoutsouthernScotland。OtherswenttoEngland,anditwasfromthislatterbranchthatmyfathersprang。HisnamewasThomasShaw,andhewastheyoungersonofagentleman——awordwhichinthosedaysseemedtodefineamanwhodevotedhistimelargelytogamblingandhorse—
racing。Mygrandfather,likehisfatherbeforehim,wastruetothetraditionsofhistimeandclass。
Quitenaturallyandsimplyhesquanderedallhehad,anddiedabruptly,leavinghiswifeandtwosonspenniless。Theywerenot,however,ahelplessband。
They,too,hadtheirtraditions,handeddownbythefightingShaws。Peter,theolderson,becameasoldier,anddiedbravelyintheCrimeanWar。Myfather,throughsomeoutsideinfluence,turnedhisattentiontotrade,learningtostainandembosswall—
paperbyhand,anddevelopingthisworkuntilhebecametherecognizedexpertinhisfield。Indeed,heprogresseduntilhehimselfcheckedhisrisebyinventingamachinethatmadehishandworkun—
necessary。Hisemployeratonceclaimedandutilizedthisinvention,towhich,bythelawsofthosedays,hewasentitled,andthusthecorner—
stoneonwhichmyfatherhadexpectedtobuildafortuneprovedtherockonwhichhiscareerwaswrecked。Butthatwasyearslater,inAmerica,andmanyotherthingshadhappenedfirst。
Forone,hehadtemporarilydroppedhistradeandgoneintotheflour—and—grainbusiness;and,foranother,hehadmarriedmymother。ShewasthedaughterofaScotchcouplewhohadcometoEnglandandsettledinAlnwick,inNorthumberlandCounty。Herfather,JamesStott,wasthedriveroftheroyal—mailstagebetweenAlnwickandNew—
castle,andhisaccidentaldeathwhilehewasstillayoungmanleftmygrandmotherandhereightchildrenalmostdestitute。ShewasimmediatelygivenapositioninthecastleoftheDukeofNor—
thumberland,andhersonswereeducatedintheduke’sschool,whileherdaughterswereenteredintheschooloftheduchess。
Mythoughtsdwelllovinglyonthisgrandmother,NicolasGrantStott,forshewasaremarkablewoman,withadauntlesssoulandprogressiveideasfarinadvanceofhertime。ShewasoneofthefirstUnitariansinEngland,andyearsbeforeanythoughtofwomansuffrageenteredthemindsofhercountry—
womensherefusedtopaytithestothesupportoftheChurchofEngland——anactionwhichprecipitatedalong—drawn—outconflictbetweenherandthelaw。
Inthosedaysitwascustomarytoassesstithesoneverypaneofglassinawindow,andaportionofthemoneythuscollectedwenttothesupportoftheChurch。Yearafteryearmyintrepidgrandmotherrefusedtopaytheseassessments,andyearafteryearshesatpensivelyuponherdoor—step,watchingarticlesofherfurniturebeingsoldformoneytopayhertithes。Itmusthavebeenanimpressivepicture,anditwasonewithwhichthecommunitybecamethoroughlyfamiliar,asthedeterminedoldladyneverwonherfightandneverabandonedit。Shehadatleastthecomfortofpublicsympathy,forshewasbyfarthemostpopularwomaninthecountry—
side。Herneighborsadmiredhercourage;perhapstheyappreciatedstillmorewhatshedidforthem,forshespentallherleisureinthehomesoftheverypoor,mendingtheirclothingandteachingthemtosew。Also,sheleftbehindherapathofcleanlinessasdefiniteasthelineoffoamthatfollowsaship;
foritsoonbecameknownamongherprotegeesthatNicolasStottwasasmuchopposedtodirtasshewastothepaymentoftithes。
Shekeptherchildrenintheschoolsofthedukeandduchessuntiltheyhadcompletedtheentirecourseopentothem。Ahundredtimes,andamongmanynewscenesandstrangepeople,Ihaveheardmymotherdescribeherownexperiencesasapupil。
Allthechildrenofthedependentsofthecastlewereexpectedtoleaveschoolatfourteenyearsofage。
Duringtheircoursetheywerenotallowedtostudygeography,because,inthesageopinionoftheirelders,knowledgeofforeignlandsmightmakethemdis—
contentedandinclinedtowander。Neitherwascom—
positionencouraged——thatmightleadtothewritingoflove—notes!Buttheywerepermittedtoabsorballthereadingandarithmetictheirlittlebrainscouldhold,whiletheartofsewingwasnotonlyencouraged,butproficiencyinitwasstimulatedbytheawardofprizes。Mymother,beingaratherpre—
cociousyoungperson,graduatedatthirteenandcarriedoffthefirstprize。Thegarmentshemadewasalinenchemisefortheduchess,andthelittleneedlewomanhadembroideredonit,withherownhair,theaugustlady’scoatofarms。Theofferingmusthavebeenappreciated,formymother’sstoryalwaysendedwiththesamewords,utteredwiththesameairofgentlepride,``AndtheduchessgavemewithherownhandsmyBibleandmymugofbeer!’’
Sheneversawanythingamusinginthisassociationofgifts,andIalwaysstoodbehindherwhenshetoldtheincident,thatshemightnotseethedisrespectfulmirthitarousedinme。
MyfatherandmothermetinAlnwick,andweremarriedinFebruary,1835。Tenyearsafterhismarriagefatherwasforcedintobankruptcybythepassageofthecornlaw,andtomeettheobliga—
tionsattendinghisfailureheandmymothersoldpracticallyeverythingtheypossessed——theirhome,eventheirfurniture。Theirlittlesons,whowereawayatschool,werebroughthome,andthefamilyexpenseswerecutdowntothebarestmargin;butallthesesacrificespaidonlypartofthedebts。Mymother,findingthatherearlygifthadamarketvalue,tookinsewing。Fatherwenttoworkonasmallsalary,andbothmyparentssavedeverypennytheycouldlayaside,withthedesperatedeterminationtopaytheirremainingdebts。Itwasalongstruggleandapainfulone,buttheyfinallywonit。Beforetheyhaddoneso,however,andduringtheirbleakestdays,theirbabydied,andmymother,likehermotherbeforeher,paidthepenaltyofbeingoutsidethefoldoftheChurchofEngland。She,too,wasaUnitarian,andherbaby,therefore,couldnotbelaidinanyconsecratedburial—groundinherneighborhood。ShehadeithertoburyitinthePotter’sField,withcriminals,suicides,andpaupers,ortotakeitbystage—coachtoAlnwick,twentymilesaway,andleaveitinthelittleUnitarianchurch—
yardwhere,afterherstrenuouslife,NicolasStottnowlayinpeace。Shemadethedrearyjourneyalone,withthedearburdenacrossherlap。
In1846,myparentswenttoLondon。Theretheydidnotlingerlong,forthebig,indifferentcityhadnothingtoofferthem。TheymovedtoNew—
castle—on—Tyne,andhereIwasborn,onthefour—
teenthdayofFebruary,in1847。Threeboysandtwogirlshadprecededmeinthefamilycircle,andwhenIwastwoyearsoldmyyoungersistercame。
WewerelittlebetteroffinNewcastlethaninLondon,andnowmyfatherbegantodreamthegreatdreamofthosedays。HewouldgotoAmerica。
Surely,hefelt,inthatlandofinfinitepromiseallwouldbewellwithhimandhis。Hewaitedforthefinalpaymentofhisdebtsandformyyoungersister’sbirth。Thenhebadeusgood—byandsailedawaytomakeanAmericanhomeforus;andinthespringof1851mymotherfollowedhimwithhersixchildren,startingfromLiverpoolinasailing—
vessel,theJohnJacobWestervelt。
Iwasthenlittlemorethanfouryearsold,andthefirstvividmemoryIhaveisthatofbeingonship—
boardandhavingamightywaverolloverme。Iwaslyingonwhatseemedtobeanenormousredboxunderahatchway,andthewaterpouredfromabove,almostdrowningme。Thiswasthebeginningofastormwhichragedfordays,andIstillhaveofitaconfusedmemory,asortofnightmare,inwhichstrangehorrorsfigure,andwhichtothisdayhauntsmeatintervalswhenIamonthesea。Thethingthatstandsoutmoststronglyduringthatperiodisthewhitefaceofmymother,illinherberth。Wewerewithfivehundredemigrantsonthelowestdeckoftheshipbutone,andasthestormgrewwilderanunreasoningterrorfilledourfellow—pas—
sengers。Tooilltoprotectherhelplessbrood,mymothersawuscarriedawayfromherforhoursatatime,onthecrestsofwavesofpanicthatsometimesapproachedherandsometimesreceded,astheysweptthroughtheblackholeinwhichwefoundour—
selveswhenthehatcheswerenaileddown。Nomad—
house,Iamsure,couldthrowmorehideouspicturesonthescreenoflifethanthosewhichmetourchildisheyesduringtheappallingthreedaysofthestorm。
Ouronecomfortwastheknowledgethatourmotherwasnotafraid。Shewasdesperatelyill,butwhenwewereabletoreachher,toclingclosetoherforablessedinterval,shewasstillthesurerefugeshehadalwaysbeen。
Ontheseconddaythemastswentdown,andonthethirddaythedisabledship,whichnowhadsprungaleakandwasrollinghelplesslyinthetroughofthesea,wasrescuedbyanothershipandtowedbacktoQueenstown,thenearestport。Thepassengers,relievedoftheiranxieties,wentfromtheirextremeoffeartoanequalextremeofdrunkencelebration。Theylaughed,sang,anddanced,butwhenwereachedtheshoremanyofthemreturnedtothehomestheyhadleft,declaringthattheyhadhadenoughoftheocean。We,however,remainedontheshipuntilshewasrepaired,andthensailedonheragain。Weweretoopoortoreturnhome;
indeed,wehadnohometowhichwecouldreturn。
Wewereeventoopoortoliveashore。Butwemadesomepennyexcursionsinthelittleboatsthatpliedbackandforth,andtouschildrenatleasttheweeksofwaitingwerenotwithoutinterest。AmongotherplaceswevisitedSpikeIsland,wheretheconvictswere,andforhourswewatchedthedrearyshuttleoflaborswingbackandforthastheconvictscar—
riedpailsofwaterfromonesideoftheisland,onlytoemptythemintotheseaattheotherside。Itwasmerely``busywork,’’tokeepthemoccupiedathardlabor;buteventhenImusthavefeltsomedimsenseoftheironyofit,forIhaveremembereditvividlyalltheseyears。
OursecondvoyageontheJohnJacobWesterveltwasaverydifferentexperiencefromthefirst。Bydayaglorioussunshoneoverhead;bynightwehadthemoonandstars,aswellastheracingwavesweneverweariedofwatching。Forsomereason,prob—
ablybecauseofmyintenseadmirationforthem,whichIshowedwithunmaidenlyfrankness,Ibe—
camethespecialpetofthesailors。Theytaughtmetosingtheirsongsastheyhauledontheirropes,andIrecall,asifIhadlearnedityesterday,onepleasingditty:
Haulonthebow—line,Kittyismydarling,Haulonthebow—line,Thebow—line——HAUL!
WhenIsang``haul’’allthesailorspulledtheirhardest,andIhadanexhilaratingsenseofsharingintheirlabors。Asareturnformyserviceofsongthemenkeptmylittleapronfullofshipsugar——
veryblackstuffandprobablyverybadforme;butIateanastonishingamountofitduringthatvoy—
age,and,sofarasIremember,feltnoilleffects。
ThenextthingIrecallisbeingseriouslyscalded。
Iwasatthefootofaladderupwhichasailorwascarryingagreatpotofhotcoffee。Heslipped,andtheboilingliquidpoureddownonme。Imusthavehadsomebaddaysafterthat,forIwaster—
riblyburned,buttheyaremercifullyvague。Mynextvividimpressionisofseeingland,whichwesightedatsunset,andIrememberverydistinctlyjusthowitlooked。Ithasneverlookedthesamesince。Thewesternskywasamassofcrimsonandgoldclouds,whichtookontheshapesofstrangeandbeautifulthings。Tomeitseemedthatwewereenteringheaven。Irememberalsothedoctorscom—
ingonboardtoexamineus,andIcanstillseealineofbigIrishmenstandingverystraightandholdingouttheirtonguesforinspection。Toalittlegirlonlyfouryearsoldtheirhuge,openmouthslookedappalling。
Onlandingagrievousdisappointmentawaitedus;myfatherdidnotmeetus。HewasinNewBedford,Massachusetts,nursinghisgriefandpre—
paringtoreturntoEngland,forhehadbeentoldthattheJohnJacobWestervelthadbeenlostatseawitheverysoulonboard。Oneofthemissionarieswhomettheshiptookusunderhiswingandcon—
ductedustoalittlehotel,whereweremaineduntilfatherhadreceivedhisincrediblenewsandrushedtoNewYork。Hecouldhardlybelievethatwewerereallyrestoredtohim;andevennow,throughthemistsofmorethanhalfacentury,Icanstillseetheexpressioninhisweteyesashepickedmeupandtossedmeintotheair。
Icansee,too,thetoyshebroughtme——alittlesawandahatchet,whichbecamethedearesttreas—
uresofmychildishdays。Theywerefatidicalgifts,thatsawandhatchet;intheyearsaheadofmeIwastousetoolsaswellasmybrothersdid,asIprovedwhenIhelpedtobuildourfrontierhome。
WewenttoNewBedfordwithfather,whohadfoundworkthereathisoldtrade;andhereIlaidthefoundationsofmyfirstchildhoodfriendship,notwithanotherchild,butwithmynext—doorneighbor,aship—builder。Morningaftermorningthismanswungmeonhisbigshoulderandtookmetohisshipyard,wheremyhatchetandsawhadvio—
lentexerciseasIimitatedtheworkersaroundme。
Discoveringthatmytinypetticoatswereinmyway,mynewfriendhadalittleboy’ssuitmadeforme;
andthusemancipated,atthistenderage,Iworkedunwearyinglyathissidealldaylonganddayafterday。NodoubtitwasduetohimthatIdidnotcasuallysawoffafewofmytoesandfingers。Cer—
tainlyIsmashedthemoftenenoughwithblowsofmydullbutactivehatchet。Iwasvery,verybusy;
andIhavealwaysmaintainedthatIbegantoearnmyshareofthefamily’slivingattheageoffive——
forinreturnforthedelightsofmysociety,whichseemednevertopalluponhim,mynewfriendal—
lowedmybrotherstocarryhomefromtheship—
yardallthewoodmymothercoulduse。
WeremainedinNewBedfordlessthanayear,forinthespringof1852myfathermadeanotherchange,takinghisfamilytoLawrence,Massa—
chusetts,whereweliveduntil1859。TheyearsinLawrencewereinterestingandformativeones。AtthetenderageofnineandtenIbecameinterestedintheAbolitionmovement。WewereUnitarians,andGeneralOliverandmanyoftheprominentciti—
zensofLawrencebelongedtotheUnitarianChurch。
WeknewRobertShaw,wholedthefirstnegroregi—
ment,andJudgeStorrow,oneoftheleadingNewEnglandjudgesofhistime,aswellastheCabotsandGeorgeA。Walton,whowastheauthorofWalton’sArithmeticandheadoftheLawrenceschools。Outburstsofwartalkthrilledme,andoccasionallyIhadalittleadventureofmyown,aswhenoneday,invisitingourcellar,Iheardanoiseinthecoal—bin。Iinvestigatedanddiscoveredanegrowomanconcealedthere。IhadbeenreadingUncleTom’sCabin,aswellaslisteningtotheconversationofmyelders,soIwasvastlystirredoverthenegroquestion。Iracedup—stairsinaconditionofawe—struckandquiveringexcitement,whichmymotherpromptlysuppressedbysendingmetobed。Nodoubtshequestionedmyyouthfuldiscretion,forshealmostconvincedmethatIhadseennothingatall——almost,butnotquite;andshewiselykeptmeclosetoherforseveraldays,untiltheescapedslavemyfatherwashidingwassafelyoutofthehouseandaway。Discoveryofthisseri—
ousoffensemighthavebornegraveresultsforhim。
ItwasinLawrence,too,thatIreceivedandspentmyfirsttwenty—fivecents。Iusedanentiredayindoingthis,andtheoccasionwasoneofthemostdelightfulandmemorableofmylife。ItwastheFourthofJuly,andIwasdressedinwhiteandrodeinaprocession。MysisterMary,whoalsogracedtheprocession,hadalsobeengiventwenty—fivecents;andduringtheparade,when,forobviousreasons,wewereunabletobreakranksandspendourwealth,theconsciousnessofitlayheavilyuponus。Whenwefinallybeganourshoppingthefirstplacewevisitedwasacandystore,andIrecalldis—
tinctlythatweforcedthewearyproprietortotakedownandshowuseveryjarintheplacebeforewespentonepenny。ThefirstbananaIeveratewaspurchasedthatday,andIhesitatedoveritalongtime。Itscostwasfivecents,andinviewofthatlargeexpenditure,theeatingofthefruit,Iwasafraid,wouldbetoobriefajoy。Iboughtit,how—
ever,andtheexperiencedevelopedintoatragedy,for,notknowingenoughtopeelthebanana,Ibitthroughskinandpulpalike,asifIwereeatinganapple,andthenburstintoearsofdisappointment。
ThebeautifulconductofmysisterMaryshinesdownthroughtheyears。She,wisechild,hadtakennochanceswiththeunknown;butnow,movedbymydespair,sheboughthalfofmybanana,andwedividedthefruit,theloss,andthelesson。
Fate,moreover,hadanotherturnofthescrewforus,for,afterMaryhadtakenabiteofit,wegavewhatwasleftofthebananatoaboywhostoodnearusandwhoknewhowtoeatit;andnoteventhelargeamountofcandyinourstickyhandsenabledustoregardwithcalmnessthesubsequenthappinessofthatlittleboy。
AnotherexperiencewithfruitinLawrenceillus—
tratestheideasofmymotherandthecharacterofthetrainingshegaveherchildren。Ourneighbors,theCabots,wereonedaygivingagreatgardenparty,andmysisterwashelpingtopickstrawberriesfortheoccasion。WhenIwasgoinghomefromschoolIpassedtheberry—patchesandstoppedtospeaktomysister,whoatoncepresentedmewithtwostraw—
berries。ShesaidMrs。Cabothadtoldhertoeatallshewanted,butthatshewouldeattwolessthanshewantedandgivethosetwotome。Tomymind,thesuggestionwasgenerousandproper;inmylifestrawberrieswererare。Iateoneberry,andthen,overcomebyanambitiontobegenerousalso,tooktheotherberryhometomymother,tell—
ingherhowIhadgotit。Tomychagrin,motherwasdeeplyshocked。Shetoldmethatthetrans—
actionwasallwrong,andshemademetakebacktheberryandexplainthemattertoMrs。Cabot。
BythetimeIreachedthatgenerousladytheberrywastheworseforitsjourney,andsowasI。Iwasonlynineyearsoldandverysensitive。ItwascleartomethatIcouldhardlylivethroughthehumilia—
tionoftheconfession,anditwasindeedabitterexperiencetheworst,Ithink,inmyyounglife,thoughMrs。Cabotwasbothsympatheticandunderstanding。Shekissedme,andsentaquartofstrawberriestomymother;butforalongtimeafterwardIcouldnotmeetherkindeyes,forIbe—
lievedthatinherheartshethoughtmeathief。
Mysecondfriendship,andonewhichhadastronginfluenceonmyafter—life,wasformedinLawrence。
IwasnotmorethantenyearsoldwhenImetthisnewfriend,butthememoryofherinafter—years,andtheimpressionshehadmadeonmysusceptibleyoungmind,ledmefirstintotheministry,nextintomedicine,andfinallyintosuffrage—work。Livingnextdoortous,onProspectHill,wasabeautifulandmysteriouswoman。Allwechildrenknewofherwasthatshewasavividandromanticfigure,whoseemedtohavenofriendsandofwhomoureldersspokeinwhispersornotatall。Tomeshewasaprincessinafairy—tale,forsherodeawhitehorseandworeabluevelvetriding—habitwithabluevelvethatandapicturesquelydroopingwhiteplume。Isoonlearnedatwhathoursshewentforthtoride,andIusedtohoveraroundourgateforthejoyofseeinghermountandgallopaway。
Irealizedthattherewassomethingunusualaboutherhouse,andIhadanideathattheprincewaswaitingforhersomewhereinthefardistance,andthatforthetimeatleastshehadescapedtheogreinthecastlesheleftbehind。Iwaswrongabouttheprince,butrightabouttheogre。Itwasonlywhenmyunhappyladylefthercastlethatshewasfree。
Verysoonshenoticedme。Possiblyshesawtheadorationinmychildisheyes。Shebegantonodandsmileatme,andthentospeaktome,butatfirstIwasalmostafraidtoanswerher。Therewerestoriesnowamongthechildrenthatthehousewashaunted,andthatbynightaghostwalkedthereandinthegrounds。Ifeltanextraordinaryinterestintheghost,andIspenthourspeeringthroughourpicketfence,tryingtocatchaglimpseofit;butI
hesitatedtobeontermsofneighborlyintimacywithonewhodweltwithghosts。
Onedaythemysteriousladybentandkissedme。
Then,straighteningup,shelookedatmequeerlyandsaid:``GoandtellyourmotherIdidthat。’’
Therewassomethingverycompellinginhermanner。
IknewatoncethatImusttellmymotherwhatshehaddone,andIranintoourhouseanddidso。
Whilemymotherwasconsideringtheproblemthesituationpresented,forsheknewthecharacterofthehousenextdoor,anotewashandedintoher——
averypatheticlittlenotefrommymysteriouslady,askingmymothertoletmecomeandseeher。Longafterwardmothershowedittome。Itendedwiththewords:``Shewillseenoonebutme。Noharmshallcometoher。Trustme。’’
Thatnightmyparentstalkedthematteroveranddecidedtoletmego。Probablytheyfeltthattheslavenextdoorwasasmuchtobepitiedasthees—
caped—negroslavestheysooftenharboredinourhome。Imademyvisit,whichwasthefirstofmany,andastrangefriendshipbegananddevelopedbe—
tweenthewomanofthetownandthelittlegirlsheloved。SomeofthosevisitsIrememberasvividlyasifIhadmadethemyesterday。TherewasnevertheslightestsuggestionduringanyofthemofthingsIshouldnotseeorhear,forwhileIwaswithhermyhostessbecameachildagain,andweplayedtogetherlikechildren。Shehadwonderfultoysforme,andpicturesandbooks;butthethingIlovedbestofallandplayedwithforhourswasalittlestuffedhenwhichshetoldmehadbeenherdearesttreasurewhenshewasachildathome。Shehadalsoastuffedpuppy,andsheoncementionedthatthosetwothingsalonewereleftofherlifeasalittlegirl。Besidesthetoysandbooksandpic—