首页 >出版文学> THE SONG OF THE LARK>第35章
  Hislookwasonewithwhichheusedtowatchherlongago,andwhich,eveninthinkingabouther,hadbecomeahabitofhisface。Itwasfullofsolicitude,andakindofsecretgratitude,asiftothankherforsomeinexpressiblepleasureoftheheart。Theaturnedpresentlytowardthepianoandbegansoftlytowakenanoldair:——
  "Ca’theyowestotheknowes,Ca’themwheretheheathergrows,Ca’themwheretheburnierowes,Mybonniedear—ie。"
  Archiesatdownandshadedhiseyeswithhishand。Sheturnedherheadandspoketohimoverhershoulder。
  "Comeon,youknowthewordsbetterthanI。That’sright。"
  "We’llgaedownbyClouden’sside,Throughthehazelsspreadingwide,O’erthewavesthatsweetlyglide,Tothemoonsaeclearly。
  Ghaistnorbogleshaltthoufear,Thou’rttoloveandHeav’nsaedear,Nochtofillmaycometheenear,Mybonniedear—ie!"
  "WecangetonwithoutLandry。Let’stryitagain,I
  haveallthewordsnow。Thenwe’llhave`SweetAfton。’
  Come:`CA’THEYOWESTOTHEKNOWES’——"
  X
  OTTENBURGdismissedhistaxicabatthe91stStreetentranceoftheParkandflounderedacrossthedrivethroughawildspringsnowstorm。WhenhereachedthereservoirpathhesawTheaaheadofhim,walkingrapidlyagainstthewind。Exceptforthatonefigure,thepathwasdeserted。Aflockofgullswerehoveringoverthereservoir,seemingbewilderedbythedrivingcurrentsofsnowthatwhirledabovetheblackwaterandthendisappearedwith—
  init。WhenhehadalmostovertakenThea,Fredcalledtoher,andsheturnedandwaitedforhimwithherbacktothewind。Herhairandfurswerepowderedwithsnow—
  flakes,andshelookedlikesomerich—peltedanimal,withwarmblood,thathadruninoutofthewoods。Fredlaughedashetookherhand。
  "Nouseaskinghowyoudo。Yousurelyneedn’tfeelmuchanxietyaboutFriday,whenyoucanlooklikethis。"
  Shemovedclosetotheironfencetomakeroomforhimbesideher,andfacedthewindagain。"Oh,I’mWELLenough,insofarasthatgoes。ButI’mnotluckyaboutstageappearances。I’measilyupset,andthemostperversethingshappen。"
  "What’sthematter?Doyoustillgetnervous?"
  "OfcourseIdo。Idon’tmindnervessomuchasgettingnumbed,"Theamuttered,shelteringherfaceforamo—
  mentwithhermuff。"I’munderaspell,youknow,hoo—
  dooed。It’sthethingIWANTtodothatIcanneverdo。
  AnyothereffectsIcangeteasilyenough。"
  "Yes,yougeteffects,andnotonlywithyourvoice。
  That’swhereyouhaveitoveralltherestofthem;you’reasmuchathomeonthestageasyouweredownin
  PantherCanyon——asifyou’djustbeenletoutofacage。
  Didn’tyougetsomeofyourideasdownthere?"
  Theanodded。"Oh,yes!Forheroicparts,atleast。Outoftherocks,outofthedeadpeople。Youmeantheideaofstandingupunderthings,don’tyou,meetingcatas—
  trophe?Nofussiness。Seemstometheymusthavebeenareserved,somberpeople,withonlyamuscularlanguage,alltheirmovementsforapurpose;simple,strong,asiftheyweredealingwithfatebare—handed。"SheputherglovedfingersonFred’sarm。"Idon’tknowhowIcaneverthankyouenough。Idon’tknowifI’deverhavegotanywherewithoutPantherCanyon。Howdidyouknowthatwastheonethingtodoforme?It’sthesortofthingnobodyeverhelpsoneto,inthisworld。Onecanlearnhowtosing,butnosingingteachercangiveanybodywhatI
  gotdownthere。Howdidyouknow?"
  "Ididn’tknow。Anythingelsewouldhavedoneaswell。
  Itwasyourcreativehour。Iknewyouweregettingalot,butIdidn’trealizehowmuch。"
  Theawalkedoninsilence。Sheseemedtobethinking。
  "Doyouknowwhattheyreallytaughtme?"shecameoutsuddenly。"Theytaughtmetheinevitablehardnessofhumanlife。Noartistgetsfarwhodoesn’tknowthat。Andyoucan’tknowitwithyourmind。Youhavetorealizeitinyourbody,somehow;deep。It’sananimalsortoffeeling。Isometimesthinkit’sthestrongestofall。DoyouknowwhatI’mdrivingat?"
  "Ithinkso。Evenyouraudiencesfeelit,vaguely:thatyou’vesometimeorotherfacedthingsthatmakeyoudifferent。"
  Theaturnedherbacktothewind,wipingawaythesnowthatclungtoherbrowsandlashes。"Ugh!"sheexclaimed;
  "nomatterhowlongabreathyouhave,thestormhasalonger。Ihaven’tsignedfornextseason,yet,Fred。I’mholdingoutforabigcontract:fortyperformances。Neckerwon’tbeabletodomuchnextwinter。It’sgoingtobeone
  ofthosebetweenseasons;theoldsingersaretooold,andthenewonesaretoonew。Theymightaswellriskmeasanybody。SoIwantgoodterms。Thenextfiveorsixyearsaregoingtobemybest。"
  "You’llgetwhatyoudemand,ifyouareuncompro—
  mising。I’msafeincongratulatingyounow。"
  Thealaughed。"It’salittleearly。Imaynotgetitatall。Theydon’tseemtobebreakingtheirneckstomeetme。IcangobacktoDresden。"
  Astheyturnedthecurveandwalkedwestwardtheygotthewindfromtheside,andtalkingwaseasier。
  Fredloweredhiscollarandshookthesnowfromhisshoulders。"Oh,Idon’tmeanonthecontractparticularly。
  Icongratulateyouonwhatyoucando,Thea,andonallthatliesbehindwhatyoudo。Onthelifethat’sleduptoit,andonbeingabletocaresomuch。That,afterall,istheunusualthing。"
  Shelookedathimsharply,withacertainapprehension。
  "Care?Whyshouldn’tIcare?IfIdidn’t,I’dbeinabadway。WhatelsehaveIgot?"Shestoppedwithachallenginginterrogation,butOttenburgdidnotreply。
  "Youmean,"shepersisted,"thatyoudon’tcareasmuchasyouusedto?"
  "Icareaboutyoursuccess,ofcourse。"Fredfellintoaslowerpace。Theafeltatoncethathewastalkingseri—
  ouslyandhaddroppedthetoneofhalf—ironicalexaggera—
  tionhehadusedwithheroflateyears。"AndI’mgratefultoyouforwhatyoudemandfromyourself,whenyoumightgetoffsoeasily。Youdemandmoreandmoreallthetime,andyou’lldomoreandmore。Oneisgratefultoanybodyforthat;itmakeslifeingeneralalittlelesssordid。Butasamatteroffact,I’mnotmuchinterestedinhowanybodysingsanything。"
  "That’stoobadofyou,whenI’mjustbeginningtoseewhatisworthdoing,andhowIwanttodoit!"Theaspokeinaninjuredtone。
  "That’swhatIcongratulateyouon。That’sthegreatdifferencebetweenyourkindandtherestofus。It’showlongyou’reabletokeepitupthattellsthestory。Whenyouneededenthusiasmfromtheoutside,Iwasabletogiveittoyou。Nowyoumustletmewithdraw。"
  "I’mnottyingyou,amI?"sheflashedout。"Butwith—
  drawtowhat?Whatdoyouwant?"
  Fredshrugged。"Imightaskyou,WhathaveIgot?
  Iwantthingsthatwouldn’tinterestyou;thatyouprob—
  ablywouldn’tunderstand。Foronething,Iwantasontobringup。"
  "Icanunderstandthat。Itseemstomereasonable。
  Haveyoualsofoundsomebodyyouwanttomarry?"
  "Notparticularly。"Theyturnedanothercurve,whichbroughtthewindtotheirbacks,andtheywalkedonincomparativecalm,withthesnowblowingpastthem。"It’snotyourfault,Thea,butI’vehadyoutoomuchinmymind。I’venotgivenmyselfafairchanceinotherdirec—
  tions。IwasinRomewhenyouandNordquistwerethere。
  Ifthathadkeptup,itmighthavecuredme。"
  "Itmighthavecuredagoodmanythings,"remarkedTheagrimly。
  Frednoddedsympatheticallyandwenton。"InmylibraryinSt。Louis,overthefireplace,IhaveapropertyspearIhadcopiedfromoneinVenice,——oh,yearsago,afteryoufirstwentabroad,whileyouwerestudying。
  You’llprobablybesingingBRUNNHILDEprettysoonnow,andI’llsenditontoyou,ifImay。Youcantakeitanditshistoryforwhatthey’reworth。ButI’mnearlyfortyyearsold,andI’veservedmyturn。You’vedonewhatIhopedforyou,whatIwashonestlywillingtoloseyoufor——then。I’moldernow,andIthinkIwasanass。I
  wouldn’tdoitagainifIhadthechance,notmuch!ButI’mnotsorry。Ittakesagreatmanypeopletomakeone——BRUNNHILDE。"
  Theastoppedbythefenceandlookedoverintothe
  blackchoppinessonwhichthesnowflakesfellanddis—
  appearedwithmagicalrapidity。Herfacewasbothangryandtroubled。"SoyoureallyfeelI’vebeenungrateful。
  Ithoughtyousentmeouttogetsomething。Ididn’tknowyouwantedmetobringinsomethingeasy。I
  thoughtyouwantedsomething——"Shetookadeepbreathandshruggedhershoulders。"Butthere!nobodyonGod’searthwantsit,REALLY!Ifoneotherpersonwantedit,"——shethrustherhandoutbeforehimandclenchedit,——"myGod,whatIcoulddo!"
  Fredlaugheddismally。"EveninmyashesIfeelmy—
  selfpushingyou!Howcananybodyhelpit?Mydeargirl,can’tyouseethatanybodyelsewhowanteditasyoudowouldbeyourrival,yourdeadliestdanger?Can’tyouseethatit’syourgreatgoodfortunethatotherpeoplecan’tcareaboutitsomuch?"
  ButTheaseemednottotakeinhisprotestatall。Shewentonvindicatingherself。"It’stakenmealongwhiletodoanything,ofcourse,andI’veonlybeguntoseeday—
  light。Butanythinggoodis——expensive。Ithasn’tseemedlong。I’vealwaysfeltresponsibletoyou。"
  Fredlookedatherfaceintently,throughtheveilofsnowflakes,andshookhishead。"Tome?Youareatruth—
  fulwoman,andyoudon’tmeantolietome。Butaftertheoneresponsibilityyoudofeel,Idoubtifyou’veenoughlefttofeelresponsibletoGod!Still,ifyou’veeverinanidlehourfooledyourselfwiththinkingIhadanythingtodowithit,HeavenknowsI’mgrateful。"
  "EvenifI’dmarriedNordquist,"Theawenton,turn—
  ingdownthepathagain,"therewouldhavebeensome—
  thingleftout。Therealwaysis。Inaway,I’vealwaysbeenmarriedtoyou。I’mnotveryflexible;neverwasandnevershallbe。Youcaughtmeyoung。Icouldneverhavethatoveragain。Onecan’t,afteronebeginstoknowanything。
  ButIlookbackonit。Mylifehasn’tbeenagayone,anymorethanyours。IfIshutthingsoutfromyou,youshut
  themoutfromme。We’vebeenahelpandahindrancetoeachother。Iguessit’salwaysthatway,thegoodandthebadallmixedup。There’sonlyonethingthat’sallbeau—
  tiful——andalwaysbeautiful!That’swhymyinterestkeepsup。"
  "Yes,Iknow。"Fredlookedsidewiseattheoutlineofherheadagainstthethickeningatmosphere。"Andyougiveonetheimpressionthatthatisenough。I’vegradu—
  ally,graduallygivenyouup。"
  "See,thelightsarecomingout。"Theapointedtowheretheyflickered,flashesofvioletthroughthegraytree—tops。
  Lowerdowntheglobesalongthedriveswerebecomingapalelemoncolor。"Yes,Idon’tseewhyanybodywantstomarryanartist,anyhow。IrememberRayKennedyusedtosayhedidn’tseehowanywomancouldmarryagambler,forshewouldonlybemarryingwhatthegameleft。"Sheshookhershouldersimpatiently。"Whomarrieswhoisasmallmatter,afterall。ButIhopeIcanbringbackyourinterestinmywork。You’vecaredlongerandmorethananybodyelse,andI’dliketohavesomebodyhumantomakeareporttoonceinawhile。Youcansendmeyourspear。I’lldomybest。Ifyou’renotinterested,I’lldomybestanyhow。I’veonlyafewfriends,butI
  canloseeveryoneofthem,ifithastobe。Ilearnedhowtolosewhenmymotherdied。——Wemusthurrynow。Mytaximustbewaiting。"
  Thebluelightaboutthemwasgrowingdeeperanddarker,andthefallingsnowandthefainttreeshadbe—
  comeviolet。Tothesouth,overBroadway,therewasanorangereflectionintheclouds。Motorsandcarriagelightsflashedbyonthedrivebelowthereservoirpath,andtheairwasstridentwithhornsandshrieksfromthewhistlesofthemountedpolicemen。
  FredgaveTheahisarmastheydescendedfromtheembankment。"Iguessyou’llnevermanagetolosemeorArchie,Thea。Youdopickupqueerones。Butloving
  youisaheroicdiscipline。Itwearsamanout。Tellmeonething:couldIhavekeptyou,once,ifI’dputoneveryscrew?"
  Theahurriedhimalong,talkingrapidly,asiftogetitover。"Youmighthavekeptmeinmiseryforawhile,perhaps。Idon’tknow。Ihavetothinkwellofmyself,towork。Youcouldhavemadeithard。I’mnotungrateful。
  Iwasadifficultpropositiontodealwith。Iunderstandnow,ofcourse。Sinceyoudidn’ttellmethetruthinthebe—
  ginning,youcouldn’tverywellturnbackafterI’dsetmyhead。Atleast,ifyou’dbeenthesortwhocould,youwouldn’thavehadto,——forI’dnothavecaredabuttonforthatsort,eventhen。"Shestoppedbesideacarthatwaitedatthecurbandgavehimherhand。"There。Wepartfriends?"
  Fredlookedather。"Youknow。Tenyears。"
  "I’mnotungrateful,"Thearepeatedasshegotintohercab。
  "Yes,"shereflected,asthetaxicutintotheParkcarriageroad,"wedon’tgetfairytalesinthisworld,andhehas,afterall,caredmoreandlongerthananybodyelse。"Itwasdarkoutsidenow,andthelightfromthelampsalongthedriveflashedintothecab。Thesnowflakeshoveredlikeswarmsofwhitebeesabouttheglobes。
  Theasatmotionlessinonecornerstaringoutofthewindowatthecablightsthatwoveinandoutamongthetrees,allseemingtobebentuponjoyouscourses。
  TaxicabswerestillnewinNewYork,andthethemeofpopularminstrelsy。LandryhadsungheradittyheheardinsometheateronThirdAvenue,about"Buttherepassedhimabright—eyedtaxiWiththegirlofhisheartinside。"
  AlmostinaudiblyTheabegantohumtheair,thoughshewasthinkingofsomethingserious,somethingthathadtouchedherdeeply。Atthebeginningoftheseason,when
  shewasnotsingingoften,shehadgoneoneafternoontohearPaderewski’srecital。InfrontofhersatanoldGer—
  mancouple,evidentlypoorpeoplewhohadmadesacri—
  ficestopayfortheirexcellentseats。Theirintelligentenjoymentofthemusic,andtheirfriendlinesswitheachother,hadinterestedhermorethananythingonthepro—
  gramme。WhenthepianistbeganalovelymelodyinthefirstmovementoftheBeethovenDminorsonata,theoldladyputoutherplumphandandtouchedherhus—
  band’ssleeveandtheylookedateachotherinrecognition。
  Theybothworeglasses,butsuchalook!Likeforget—me—
  nots,andsofullofhappyrecollections。Theawantedtoputherarmsaroundthemandaskthemhowtheyhadbeenabletokeepafeelinglikethat,likeanosegayinaglassofwater。
  XI
  DR。ARCHIEsawnothingofTheaduringthefollow—
  ingweek。Afterseveralfruitlessefforts,hesucceededingettingawordwithheroverthetelephone,butshesoundedsodistractedanddriventhathewasgladtosaygood—nightandhanguptheinstrument。Therewere,shetoldhim,rehearsalsnotonlyfor"Walkure,"butalsofor"Gotterdammerung,"inwhichshewastosingWALTRAUTE
  twoweekslater。
  OnThursdayafternoonTheagothomelate,afteranexhaustingrehearsal。Shewasinnohappyframeofmind。
  MadameNecker,whohadbeenverygracioustoherthatnightwhenshewentontocompleteGloeckler’sperformanceofSIEGLINDE,had,sinceTheawascasttosingthepartinsteadofGloecklerintheproductionofthe"Ring,"beenchillyanddisapproving,distinctlyhostile。
  TheahadalwaysfeltthatsheandNeckerstoodforthesamesortofendeavor,andthatNeckerrecognizeditandhadacordialfeelingforher。InGermanyshehadseveraltimessungBRANGAENAtoNecker’sISOLDE,andtheolderartisthadletherknowthatshethoughtshesangitbeau—
  tifully。ItwasabitterdisappointmenttofindthattheapprovalofsohonestanartistasNeckercouldnotstandthetestofanysignificantrecognitionbythemanagement。
  MadameNeckerwasforty,andhervoicewasfailingjustwhenherpowerswereattheirheight。Everyfreshyoungvoicewasanenemy,andthisonewasaccompaniedbygiftswhichshecouldnotfailtorecognize。
  Theahadherdinnersentuptoherapartment,anditwasaverypoorone。Shetastedthesoupandthenindig—
  nantlyputonherwrapstogooutandhuntadinner。Asshewasgoingtotheelevator,shehadtoadmitthatshe
  wasbehavingfoolishly。Shetookoffherhatandcoatandorderedanotherdinner。Whenitarrived,itwasnobetterthanthefirst。Therewasevenaburntmatchunderthemilktoast。Shehadasorethroat,whichmadeswal—
  lowingpainfulandbodedillforthemorrow。Althoughshehadbeenspeakinginwhispersalldaytosaveherthroat,shenowperverselysummonedthehousekeeperandde—
  mandedanaccountofsomelaundrythathadbeenlost。
  Thehousekeeperwasindifferentandimpertinent,andTheagotangryandscoldedviolently。Sheknewitwasverybadforhertogetintoaragejustbeforebedtime,andafterthehousekeeperleftsherealizedthatfortendollars’
  worthofunderclothingshehadbeenunfittingherselfforaperformancewhichmighteventuallymeanmanythous—
  ands。Thebestthingnowwastostopreproachingherselfforherlackofsense,butshewastootiredtocontrolherthoughts。
  Whileshewasundressing——TheresewasbrushingoutherSIEGLINDEwiginthetrunk—room——shewentonchid—
  ingherselfbitterly。"AndhowamIevergoingtogettosleepinthisstate?"shekeptaskingherself。"IfIdon’tsleep,I’llbeperfectlyworthlessto—morrow。I’llgodownthereto—morrowandmakeafoolofmyself。IfI’dletthatlaundryalonewithwhateverniggerhasstolenit——WHY
  didIundertaketoreformthemanagementofthishotelto—night?Afterto—morrowIcouldpackupandleavetheplace。There’sthePhillamon——Ilikedtheroomstherebetter,anyhow——andtheUmberto——"Shebegangoingovertheadvantagesanddisadvantagesofdifferentapart—
  menthotels。Suddenlyshecheckedherself。"WhatAM
  Idoingthisfor?Ican’tmoveintoanotherhotelto—night。
  I’llkeepthisuptillmorning。Ishan’tsleepawink。"
  Shouldshetakeahotbath,orshouldn’tshe?Some—
  timesitrelaxedher,andsometimesitrousedherandfairlyputherbesideherself。Betweentheconvictionthatshemustsleepandthefearthatshecouldn’t,shehungpara—
  lyzed。Whenshelookedatherbed,sheshrankfromitineverynerve。Shewasmuchmoreafraidofitthanshehadeverbeenofthestageofanyoperahouse。Ityawnedbe—
  foreherlikethesunkenroadatWaterloo。
  Sherushedintoherbathroomandlockedthedoor。Shewouldriskthebath,anddefertheencounterwiththebedalittlelonger。Shelayinthebathhalfanhour。Thewarmthofthewaterpenetratedtoherbones,inducedpleasantreflectionsandafeelingofwell—being。ItwasverynicetohaveDr。ArchieinNewYork,afterall,andtoseehimgetsomuchsatisfactionoutofthelittlecompanionshipshewasabletogivehim。Shelikedpeoplewhogoton,andwhobecamemoreinterestingastheygrewolder。TherewasFred;hewasmuchmoreinterestingnowthanhehadbeenatthirty。Hewasintelligentaboutmusic,andhemustbeveryintelligentinhisbusiness,orhewouldnotbeattheheadoftheBrewers’Trust。Sherespectedthatkindofintelligenceandsuccess。Anysuccesswasgood。
  Sheherselfhadmadeagoodstart,atanyrate,andnow,ifshecouldgettosleep——Yes,theywereallmoreinter—
  estingthantheyusedtobe。LookatHarsanyi,whohadbeensolongretarded;whataplacehehadmadeforhim—
  selfinVienna。Ifshecouldgettosleep,shewouldshowhimsomethingto—morrowthathewouldunderstand。
  Shegotquicklyintobedandmovedaboutfreelybe—
  tweenthesheets。Yes,shewaswarmallover。Acold,drybreezewascominginfromtheriver,thankgoodness!
  ShetriedtothinkaboutherlittlerockhouseandtheAri—
  zonasunandthebluesky。Butthatledtomemorieswhichwerestilltoodisturbing。Sheturnedonherside,closedhereyes,andtriedanolddevice。
  Sheenteredherfather’sfrontdoor,hungherhatandcoatontherack,andstoppedintheparlortowarmherhandsatthestove。Thenshewentoutthroughthedining—
  room,wheretheboysweregettingtheirlessonsatthelongtable;throughthesitting—room,whereThorwasasleepin
  hiscotbed,hisdressandstockinghangingonachair。Inthekitchenshestoppedforherlanternandherhotbrick。
  Shehurriedupthebackstairsandthroughthewindylofttoherownglacialroom。Theillusionwasmarredonlybytheconsciousnessthatsheoughttobrushherteethbeforeshewenttobed,andthatsheneverusedtodoit。Why——?
  Thewaterwasfrozensolidinthepitcher,soshegotoverthat。Oncebetweentheredblanketstherewasashort,fiercebattlewiththecold;then,warmer——warmer。Shecouldhearherfathershakingdownthehard—coalburnerforthenight,andthewindrushingandbangingdownthevillagestreet。Theboughsofthecottonwood,hardasbone,rattledagainsthergable。Thebedgrewsofterandwarmer。Everybodywaswarmandwelldownstairs。Thesprawlingoldhousehadgatheredthemallin,likeahen,andhadsettleddownoveritsbrood。Theywereallwarminherfather’shouse。Softerandsofter。Shewasasleep。
  Sheslepttenhourswithoutturningover。Fromsleeplikethat,oneawakesinshiningarmor。
  OnFridayafternoontherewasaninspiringaudience;
  therewasnotanemptychairinthehouse。OttenburgandDr。Archiehadseatsintheorchestracircle,gotfromaticketbroker。Landryhadnotbeenabletogetaseat,soheroamedaboutinthebackofthehouse,whereheusuallystoodwhenhedroppedinafterhisownturninvaudevillewasover。Hewastheresooftenandatsuchirregularhoursthattheushersthoughthewasasinger’shusband,orhadsomethingtodowiththeelectricalplant。
  Harsanyiandhiswifewereinabox,nearthestage,inthesecondcircle。Mrs。Harsanyi’shairwasnoticeablygray,butherfacewasfullerandhandsomerthaninthoseearlyyearsofstruggle,andshewasbeautifullydressed。
  Harsanyihimselfhadchangedverylittle。Hehadputonhisbestafternooncoatinhonorofhispupil,andworea
  pearlinhisblackascot。Hishairwaslongerandmorebushythanheusedtowearit,andtherewasnowonegraylockontherightside。Hehadalwaysbeenanelegantfigure,evenwhenhewentaboutinshabbyclothesandwascrushedwithwork。Beforethecurtainrosehewasrestlessandnervous,andkeptlookingathiswatchandwishinghehadgotafewmorelettersoffbeforehelefthishotel。HehadnotbeeninNewYorksincetheadventofthetaxicab,andhadallowedhimselftoomuchtime。Hiswifeknewthathewasafraidofbeingdisappointedthisafternoon。Hedidnotoftengototheoperabecausethestupidthingsthatsingersdidvexedhimso,anditalwaysputhiminarageiftheconductorheldthetempoorinanywayaccommodatedthescoretothesinger。
  WhenthelightswentoutandtheviolinsbegantoquavertheirlongDagainsttherudefigureofthebasses,Mrs。Harsanyisawherhusband’sfingersflutteringonhiskneeinarapidtattoo。AtthemomentwhenSIEGLINDE
  enteredfromthesidedoor,sheleanedtowardhimandwhisperedinhisear,"Oh,thelovelycreature!"Buthemadenoresponse,eitherbyvoiceorgesture。Throughoutthefirstscenehesatsunkinhischair,hisheadforwardandhisoneyelloweyerollingrestlesslyandshininglikeatiger’sinthedark。HiseyefollowedSIEGLINDEaboutthestagelikeasatellite,andasshesatatthetablelisteningtoSIEGMUND’Slongnarrative,itneverlefther。WhenshepreparedthesleepingdraughtanddisappearedafterHUNDING,Harsanyibowedhisheadstilllowerandputhishandoverhiseyetorestit。Thetenor,——ayoungmanwhosangwithgreatvigor,wenton:——
  "WALSE!WALSE!